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#omfg ten years later
padawansuggest · 10 months
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In the ideal post Clone Wars AU, Obi-Wan immediately takes Reva as his Padawan even tho she’s a lil bit young (tho older than Ani was) and the council is all ‘clearly he’s parenting them not mastering them just give him a child Omfg’ but Cody’s all ‘I ain’t putting a bun in that he’s insane’ ‘you married him willingly’ ‘yeah because he’s insane he’s the most crazy idiot I’ve ever met I fell in love instantly wdym’ ‘…nvm…’ so ten years later and Reva is knighted for a bit now and Obi-Wan is eyeing up Leia after she insults a Senator like ‘that’s a good one i should get that one’ and steals the most dangerous Skywalker in the temple and now Cody is waking up to a ten year old Leia staring into his soul like ‘…I should have just knocked him up wtf’.
Don’t worry Cody you still technically can. He’s just grumpy she’s telling him the secrets of the universe before he’s had his first caff.
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darkestspring · 2 years
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Rhea not telling Daemon he has a daughter and when she dies no one tells Daemon. Years later, Aemond announces his betrothal to the daughter of Rhea Royce, heir to the Vale.
Omg I'm begging you to expand more on this, an entire fic omfg
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You had loved your mother, more than anything else. She was your only parents even though you knew your white hair and purple eyes did not come from her. From a young age, you had mastered the bow and arrow, a feat which your mother threw a feast for.
She had died when you were six years old, you had sobbed over her cold body, begging her to come back as your cousin, Ser Gerald Royce, comforted you. They told you it was your father’s doing. Prince Daemon Targaryen, he had hated your mother, your cousin told you.
You hated him, he had taken the only parent you ever had. You told the maesters to not inform him of anything. you had lived without him so far, you would continue to do so.
Not long after your mother’s death, he came to the vale for his inheritance and you hid away, listening to his words with anger in you. Shortly after, he remarried and you found peace.
You went looking for a dragon without anyone knowing. And at the age of seven, you claimed the monstrous Cannibal. He, who refused to bend to the will of other, bonded with you.
You came back to the vale, victorious.
Most of what came after was a blur. Your father’s wife gave birth to two girls and then died and then your cousin’s husband died, and then your father and cousin married. What a charade, you had thought with a raised eyebrow.
You had grown into an accomplished young lady under the vale’s eyes. Under your maester’s, under your cousins, Jeyne Arryn and Gerald Royce. You were the woman your mother had been. Strong and fiery with the cannibal behind you.
It was only a matter of time. You traveled to King’s Landing, taking advantage that your father would be staying in Dragonstone and your uncle was far too ill, to inform him of your existence. It was your advantage.
A girl of ten and four, you strode forward in a black dress, your white hair glinting against the sun.
Your purple eyes connected with a lone purple one and you stared at him for a moment longer before looking forward.
A guard announced your name and titles as you walked forth unflinchingly. You gazed upon the queen and the hand.
“My queen, My lord hand. I show myself in front of you, as you have requested of me.”
It was all memories from there one. Shock when you stated of your claim over cannibal, understanding when you spoke of your father’s unknowing of your existence.
Your fate had been sealed that day, you had been betrrothed to their second son, Aemond Targaryen.
It was an arrangement but love grew from it as you spent time together. You had to return to the Vale after your third year there. I must collect some of my important things, you had stated to your betrothed, you hand holding his.
I will return within two week, my love.
You had been unaware of the audience. You had returned in the house Royce colors and Aemond had told you what was happening.
“There’s an audience going on. My sister’s bastard son’s claim to driftmark is being contested.” He spoke, taking your hand in his after instructing that your things be taken to your room. “Your father is here, my dragon.”
Your eyes lit up with an almost feral joy as you smiled. “We must not disappoint then, my love. Let us cause chaos.”
You stopped before the door as you waited, with Aemond’s hand in yours. He pressed a kiss to your cheek as the doors opened.
“Lady [Y/n] Royce, Daughter of Lady Rhea Royce. Lady of the Vale and Runestone.”
Hearing your title just made you feel so much more vindictive. You walked forward, feeling your father’s gaze on you.
Good, you thought, as you smiled at Aemond. Let the games begin, I am more than ready.
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ventique18 · 1 year
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OMFG JDKSKS I AM PROUD TO ANNOUNCE THAT I GOT APPLEPOM EPEL AND SEBEK IN MY FIRST TEN PULL
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I was really so HESITANT because I know Malmal's gonna come like a storm later in the year, but I love the first years so much and wanna collect their limited SSRs so I risked a ten pull and HE CAME HOME!!! OH MY GOOOOD!!!
I'm so happy omg omg omg!
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🍎❤️♠️ seized! Waiting for 🐺🔥🐊!
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randomartist-1 · 5 months
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hollowhead rant bc i've been obsessing over ava/avm and i cant stop thinking abt the hollowheads
victim is that character i want to beat the shit out of and then hug them until all their pain goes away. omfg victim was completely ripped from any chance at a normal life. he was deleted not even 2 minutes after they were created, and when they get to live, they say "fuck you alan" and create a whole ass company out of spite. and if hollowhead age is 0 years old at creation, that means he was not even 16 when he made rocket corp a thing. all because they couldnt let his deletion go, which honestly, completely fair
chosen. oh, chosen. the universe really said "hey wouldnt it be funny if we made that one guys life a living hell" and threw everything at him. he was thrown into a "survival of the fittest" situation the moment he was created, and alan just used him as an ad blocker like he was nothing but a tool. the first ever true friend he made was created to kill him, and the friendship failed bc neither knew how to fucking communicate. and then hes tortured on his GODDAMN BIRTHDAY. his BIRTHDAY. BY HIS OWN BROTHER. WTF VICTIM?? he dragged second along to help him bc he was desperate to escape the mercs but all he accomplished was getting them both captured. he must be feeling so much guilt rn omfg (to be fair it was a shit move to pull but also i completely understand his decision)
we dont know much abt dark, but it must be difficult being coded to kill your best friend. maybe the code was altered when she took chosens hand, but as far as i can tell all it did was give it powers. so assuming the code stayed, that means that dark had to fight with its own code for however long she and chosen were living together. i know for a fact its exhausting to fight with your own brain, and i cant imagine having to do it for however-many-years straight. i dont know if i want dark to make a comeback in later episodes, but i definitely wanna know more abt her.
second coming is such a fuckin sweetheart. theyve been through sm and they havent deserved any of it. they literally watched rest of the cg get ripped from them FOUR TIMES (alan ending rygb, dark murdering rygb, chosen kidnapping second, parkour episode) like they must have seperation anxiety or smth like that at this point. also claustrophobia like theyve been forced into too many tiny boxes. they literally just accepted the fact they were gonna be helping chosen when second was literally forced. they still went out of their way to try and save chosen. theyve attacked whoever hurt their friends when rygb all go down. if we continue to go with the "all hollowheads are 0 when created" logic, second is nine. NINE. turning ten this october but WTF. THAT IS A CHILD. NOT EVEN DOUBLE DIGITS
ALL THE HOLLOWHEADS ARE CHILDREN WITH THE "0 at creation" LOGIC (i mean, cho and vic are technically like 16, but still) can i PLEASE just shove them into a massive pillow fort with blankets and hug them?? is that SO MUCH TO ASK ALAN
anyways im gonna go make a playlist abt them cya
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darcylightninglewis · 6 months
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Good morning!!! Sorry to bother but since you are the most knowledgeable person I know about Hellcheer can I ask you if you have ever read a fic where Chrissy survives Vecna and then joins the group to defeat him? Thanks in advance and have a great day!!!
Okay, first off, you're never a bother, ever.
Secondly, I am honored by your ask. Sorry for the delayed response, it's...it's been a weird emotional exhausting few days but we're back!
Where my brain immediately went to
Chrissy and Eddie’s Infinite Mixtape by @little-scribblers-heart
What may be (to my reading knowledge) the most epic rewrite of S4, really can't recommend LovelyThings enough.
(sooner or later it comes down to fate) i might as well be the one by @majicmarker
Another great one and one of the best stream of conscious Eddie writers I've ever come across. Their fics always make me laugh.
someone reaching back for me by @enoughtotemptme
Okay, this one is gonna make you sad, but eventually very happy too! It was the first groundhog style fix its fics I read for season 4 and introduced me to the writer's work who I also can't rec enough.
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OMFG, I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T INCLUDE @hangon-silvergirl!! Thank you for pointing out my mistake, @majicmarker <33
Bonus Tracks by @hangon-silvergirl
Everything by her is amazing and this is no exception. I love it when folks use things we learn from con's in fic (like Chrissy's would be Vecna song), superb. A WIP, but off to a killer start.
Now below these are ones that have been on my Marked for Later list because I'm just in need of pure uncut fluff these days but come highly recommended.
the pleasure, the privilege, is mine. by melodicvinyl
I just love the starting premise of this one, I can see it being a thing Eddie does to make her smile or it's actually his mundane superpower that finally comes in handy. Also love their other fics too.
Linger by CircusBones
Hawkin's High 10 Year Reunion! Class of 86! Chrissy Cunningham has built a life in California, far from the demons of her youth, from her mother to Vecna. There's people who were always good to her, though. Healing might have taken her away from them, and coming back has its own challenges. This story moves between the events of 1986, and Chrissy experiencing Hawkins ten years later.
I've read their shieldshock fics and love them so I'm sure I'll love this too.
like hands that tick on a clock by theredhoodie
What if Chrissy Cunningham wasn't Vecna's first victim, but she survived instead? How would that have changed things for everyone? A ST4 shippy rewrite.
aesthetic chills by sloelimbs
"aesthetic chills" is the literal translation of frisson, which is the feeling you get when listening to a really good piece of music.
put your lips close to mine, as long as they don't touch by Percyjacksonfan3
Here's the thing about Chrissy Cunningham: she actually is the straight laced dependable good girl that everyone thinks she is. She's also, until she starts having these weird visions that make her feel like she's going out of her mind, insanely bored. Or, alternatively, the fix-it AU where Chrissy doesn't die and she and Eddie try and figure out what the hell is going on with her. And with them. Also, the usual gang is there. Eventually. Because these two need some serious help fighting demons and figuring out that they are not just friends.
If I missed an author's tumblr name please forgive me, I'm preeeetty brain dead. If I missed any fellow Hellcheerios, please drop them in the comments as I'm sure this isn't an exhaustive list. But hopefully enough to get you started babes!!
Hellcheer to canon:
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yayyjezii · 5 months
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So on new years i thought it would be a great idea to play twst again and i saw two ten-set keys or whatever and i was like "i should pull" i check the banners and obv theres the two even ones so i decide to pull ten on each. First ten pull:
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GAUAGWIASISIWIWKWUJOAYWNEPSUWHWNSU GORGEOUS I LOVE IT
I pull on the other banner and wait for the sparkles thinking "if i was that lucky to get vil three times, i hope i get cater's at least once" and what happened?
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THIS OMFG WISUUSJSHEKW8SHEJDK
You can see i had two pulls left so i went back to the other one since i alr got ruggie and cater. I was honestly just trying to build up the guarantee thingy.
But two pulls later:
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ADAGHAJSKAJWKSJSK NEW YEAR'S LUCK IS FUCKING AWESOME
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libraryofgage · 8 months
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how long have you been in fandom spaces?? and do you have any funny/weird stories about being in fandom?
Hi, anon!
So, I've been in fandom for a while. I first started reading fanfiction in junior high and began posting what I wrote in high school. My first fandom space was Hetalia (yes, it's cringe; yes, it's ironic considering I'm Jewish; no, I don't shy away from this part of my fandom past lmao) on ff.net
I wrote a few (like, ten or so?) x-reader fics that got flagged by the roving gangs of morality/ff.net guidelines police that haunted the site back in the day lmao
I've recently finished a master's program, so after doing math that took me way too long, I can say it's been about a decade for me in fandom spaces
Regarding funny/weird stories:
My go-to get-to-know-me story for any fandom server is the time I learned how to get into the Houston NASA base undetected via backroads (and just straight up driving through grass at one point) because a scientist there wanted a TV fixed by the company I worked for in high school (I was too young to work there, some child labor laws were def being broken but it was 10/hr so, like, fuck it we ball)
In my first year participating in the Tododeku Big Bang, I derailed the server for, like, over an hour if I remember correctly with a single question: does syrup go in the fridge or pantry after opening? This became, like, a full-blown debate; friendships were ruined, betrayals were discovered, and like half the people there gave the wrong answer. (it goes in the fridge, btw, and you can't change my mind :P )
In high school, I once got so desperate for fics that I turned to fucking Quotev and DeviantArt. If you know, you know, and if you don't, I wish I were you hfjdks I deserve a fucking purple heart
I took a class in undergrad where the big final was just to show that you'd been working on something creative the entire semester. Some people showed original comics they drew, others showed off websites for their poetry, one girl showed off a website for a DC Batman AU that she wanted to pitch to DC (I have her AO3 and her posting consistency is so admirable omfg). @amy-airheart took that class with me and can confirm: I wrote 50k in one week, wrote even more, and then presented my AO3 stats page as my proof of doing creative things during the semester. I think the total was like 80k or something. The professor asked what drugs I'd taken and where he could get some
That's everything I can think of for now. I'm sure there's something buried deep in my subconscious that I'll remember later, but I hope you found at least one of those amusing hjfkds
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nayeonline · 10 months
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my fave nct songs as a fresh out the womb nctzen
one life altering nct playlist later here we are lol. as the local girl group stan, ive attempted to branch out before, i tried to get into skz, txt, enhypen, etc but the only male idol i really listened to consistently was taemin. I've dabbled in nct before - im a sticker enthusiast, the loona cover of cherry bomb is carved into my retinas, im aware of love talk english version, but that is about it, so imagine the heights my jaw fell from when i found out they are consistent hit makers???? anyway here are the songs that i have on repeat since having this revelation about seven years too late :))))) recs PLZ
Vitamin (NCT 127)
excuse me. immediate like on spotify, immediately added to every playlist i have ever conceived. how is it possible for anything to be this catchy AND I DONT EVEN THINK IT WAS PROMOTED???
Make A Wish (Birthday Song) (NCT U)
I know my nctzen moots are hella confused rn bc ari hello it’s a title track??? i literally avoided boy groups like the plague for my first year as a kpop stan ok lmao. This song is so excellent and I don’t think I can overplay it. English version kinda sucks ngl
Whiplash (NCT 127)
at this point it was starting to get rude. Like how did I not know about this for so long omfg. was getting whiplash from the sheer capacity of HITS ricocheting down my ear canal
Birthday (TEN)
and just when I was in taemin withdrawal this song came through and SERVED. Like ball over net, food at the table, needs met, this song made me astral project. Taemin girlies let’s get on this asap
OK! (NCT U)
defined cool some would say
the production is fucking excellent too as it always is with this group
!!! SEND ME MORE RECS !!!
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xueiing · 1 year
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OMFG Elena Kong won a Best Actress
To me, this story starts a long time ago. I don’t recall exactly how long ago, maybe 2005 or 2006, when they were showing War of In Laws in local television at dinner time. 
 War of In Laws was, as far as I am aware, my first exposure to Hong Kong dramas. And I hated it. I really hated War of In Laws. I probably still hate it. I hated how well, 野蛮 the 奶奶 was, which really, is the entire premise. It’s probably why to this day I do not like Liza Wang (whether this is her fault or not, I really don’t know, and I’m not going to watch the drama again to find out). 
My view of Hong Kong dramas improved within the next few years after seeing the following shows on local television (whether at dinner time, or sneakily later on during the night), the order of which I do not exactly recall: 
Ten Brothers / Bar Benders / Trimming Success / The Gentle Crackdown / Healing Hands III / La Femme Desperado
But then one day at dinner time, maybe sometime in 2008, it was showing Flaming Butterfly. It was 40 episodes and really draggy (I was, and still am, accustomed to Hong Kong dramas being quick and snappy at 30 episodes maximum.) I can’t comment on the artistic merit of Flaming Butterfly, and have no interest to rewatch it to find out. This was the first ATV drama, as far as I’m aware, that I watched, and suffice to say that I didn’t like it. The only good things about it, as I recall, was that the female leads (Rain Li, Monie Tang) were pretty and the second aunt or third aunt (or whoever she was) caught my eye and I wanted to see more of her. But she had pitifully little screentime and in my brief google, I failed to find out who she was or anything about her. 
Due to The Gentle Crackdown, I had become a fan of Michelle Yim, and sought out quite a few of her dramas to watch on my own volition (Into Thin Air, The Academy, Heavenly Sword Dragon Sabre 2000, The Brink of Law, Law and Order (aka the 1988 ATV show with Damian Lau), The Awakening Story, Heart of Greed, Moonlight Resonance, Beyond the Realm of Conscience). For clarity, I don’t think I had watched all the mentioned shows before Flaming Butterfly was shown on local television, but I believe that I had probably watched some. Michelle Yim subsequently also won a best actress for her work in Moonlight Resonance in the TVB anniversary awards and the Asian Television Awards. I have to admit that I didn’t think she would win the Asian Television Awards, but did not express my view to anyone at that point, but I hoped she could win it. I had however, said to a fellow fan of Michelle Yim (who had become an online friend) that I don’t think she’s going to go home empty handed if she’s flying to Singapore. I maintain that that’s what I said, but it was misinterpreted to mean that I didn’t think she would get it (well yes I thought so before I heard she was flying to Singapore, but I didn’t say anything about the matter prior). I tried to explain but I had probably used too many double negatives (and yes, I was guilty of thinking that she wouldn’t win), so that wasn’t very successful. We fell out because of that. 
Nonetheless, I was interested in watching The Seasons of Fate when it came out. At that point, asianfanatics was still alive, and I had met two (other) online friends on asianfanatics who were also interested in watching Michelle Yim in The Seasons of Fate. She was acting someone who had lost her memory and acted like a teenager. There was also Esther Kwan, Roger Kwok and Ng Wai Kwok. 
 Even though I didn’t like Michelle Yim’s character much for most part of the show, it was a good show. It had a great theme song which I love till this day. And Ng Wai Kwok’s character was in love with Michelle Yim’s character (both before and after she regained her memory). Oh he was also married to Elena Kong’s character AND having an affair with his secretary Mimi Lo’s character.
 Elena Kong caught my eye. She didn’t have that much screentime, but she had things to do (cute scenes with Oscar Leung who was acting her adopted son), and basically express her frustration and jealousy (justified) over Ng Wai Kwok’s character’s affair with Mimi Lo’s character or one sided crush on Michelle Yim’s character.) At some point I thought she looked familiar and wondered why, and then after doing some googling, I managed to figure out that she was the one acting the second aunt or third aunt (whatever it was) in Flaming Butterfly. 
I would again, watch Beauty Knows No Pain as it came out. It had a shit theme song (if you even call it a theme song), but it was a great show. I loved the show. I liked all of Maggie Cheung, Michelle Yim, Joyce Tang and Elena Kong in the show. And they gave such cute interviews together about how much they enjoyed working together etc. I wondered how that was possible seeing that Michelle Yim and Joyce Tang are firmly protagonists, Elena Kong is firmly an antagonist and Maggie Cheung is probably a semi-villain. (I liked her Jackie alot when I was watching the drama back in 2010, I can’t say that I would like Jackie watching it now, but I did then. Yes, more than Michelle’s Noble, because I didn’t agree with how she dealt with her husband, the baby, as well as maybe Gordon Lam’s character.) Elena Kong was a really likeable antagonist, and I was not the only one who thought so. 
 I think by this point in time I was a fan. I don’t exactly recall the order in which I watched her shows, but I believe that I must have been a fan by this point because I wanted her to win Best Supporting Actress in 2010, and I recall monitoring whether I thought she had a chance to win or not. So I think I was already a fan. I can’t comment on whether I had watched No Regrets or Gun Metal Grey at this point, but my guess is probably not. However, seeing that she had just transferred over from ATV to TVB (Flaming Butterfly was her second last ATV drama, and The Seasons of Fate was her first), there wasn’t really much. It was really not easy (I’d probably say impossible) to find her ATV dramas online (except for Forrest Cat) at that point. 
 So, I kept an eye out of her, while watching dramas with other actresses I liked (Michelle Yim, Maggie Cheung, Louisa So). I also liked Kenix Kwok, Gigi Lai, Melissa Ng Mei Hang, Nnadia Chan after I had first watched them in their respective shows, but I don’t believe I sought them out to watch after watching that initial show. In part, this was due to the fact that I knew that they were retiring and/or getting married (or had already done so), and as a matter of self preservation, I didn’t want to become a fan of someone where there wasn’t going to be new content and I had to keep looking backwards. 
I think a similar logic applied to Elena Kong, I knew that I had to wait for content to come out instead of getting into it now. 
I believe that chances are I had watched Lives of Omission prior to watching River of Wine. And I think it was only after that that I started watching her guestings (like Only You, Gun Metal Grey, No Regrets etc). I was definitely a fan by the point that I had watched River of Wine. Yes, even though reviewers would write things like portraying the love interest who is the carbon copy of the righteous male character, the third time’s a charm or she’s perfected the art (of doing so) or something like that. Or saying that she is a competent actress but spoke too calmly with perfect diction (specifically on River of Wine). Whatever it was, I liked her, I liked her acting, and that was that. 
Specifically on River on Wine, loved the drama. Really loved the theme song. Literally can’t watch the happy ending when the theme song is playing with Bowie Lam and Elena Kong’s characters sitting around the table and with Bowie Lam’s character narrating his letter to his family without crying. Other scenes which are so good: Elena Kong’s character asking Bowie Lam’s character helped the Sung family to bully her, 天大地大的确是没有我们两个容身之所 (ep 17), 你就当我们有缘无份吧 (ep 24), 所以如果你有什么不测, 我一定不偷身在世,我今天来,是要让所有人知道,我要堂堂正正地去爱你梁正尧 (ep 25). All tearjerkers. This doesn’t even consider the ones before that. To this day this is probably my favourite Elena Kong role. 
I think somewhere around this point, The Other Truth was showing on local television, and Kristal Tin had a guest role in the last few episodes. I liked her in her guest role, and I believe I either knew or quickly found out that she was an ATV escapee, like Elena Kong. I believe I wanted to watch more, which is I think how I ended up watching Only You (came out in the same year, and sounded more interesting than her other 2011 drama). Since Elena Kong had a guest role in it, so directly went to the episodes which Elena Kong was guesting in to kill two birds with one stone.
I really really liked Elena Kong in Only You and thought she did really well there. I must have come out of watching those 2 episodes liking Elena Kong more than Kristal Tin because I’ve never finished watching Only You. (To be fair, I got the impression online that Elena Kong and Raymond Wong had really touching guest story so it wasn’t really apples and apples. In addition, I really liked the interaction between Elena Kong and Evergreen Mak when he won his Best Supporting Actor, and also some of the behind the scenes they were posting from No Regrets.) 2012 was a slower year in terms of non-guest roles. I’m reasonably sure that I watched both Ghetto Justice (where I recall she had pretty good role) and Tiger Cubs. 
Started on Silver Spoon Sterling Shackles, and based on my records, I probably got until episode 15 (without clicking) and quite enjoyed it before going right to the end to see if the ending was something I was prepared to watch through 40 episodes for. The ending was great, and somehow I didn’t feel like I had to watch what happened in between. To this day I’ve never finished it. I think this might have come down to the fact that I didn’t like her acting the third wife of Damian Lau. I’ve never really appreciated her acting with Damian Lau, which I think is affected by the yawning age difference, as well as the fact that I am a fan of Michelle Yim. I also had Kristal Tin content to watch that year, No Good Either Way (which I enjoyed regardless of what the reviews were) and King Maker (stopped watching at episode 24 when she died. She was a very very likeable character, and I so wanted her to have a good ending with Wayne Lai.) 
2013 rolls around, and yes, I like Triumph in the Skies II. Honestly I also like many characters in Triumph in the Skies II (but definitely not all), as much as I’m happy to admit that it is a potato chip for the brain. Yes, I ship her and Kenneth Ma’s (characters) together in Triumph in the Skies II, and get really annoyed at how people keep insisting it’s a May December romance when the age difference is all of three years, and no one EVER says anything when actresses act with actors who are like 20-30 years senior. Brother’s Keeper also comes out this year and I love Kristal Tin in that, and I watched all of the Macau scenes, but hardly watched the Hong Kong scenes. There was hype for Elena Kong to win Best Supporting Actress and for Kristal Tin to win Best Actress. If I had it my way, I would have wanted both of them to win. But I didn’t think (and I don’t think I was wrong) that they would give both the Best Actress and Best Supporting Actress to ATV escapees. I had then decided that I preferred Kristal Tin to win Best Actress, because my view was that Elena Kong would win her Best Supporting Actress eventually. She had always been in Best Supporting Actress contention since 2010 when she made first made the top 5 for Beauty Knows No Pain (which wasn’t even a show that did very well in terms of ratings), and by the time 2013 had rolled around, people generally did not talk about Best Supporting Actress without her name coming up. I think I also wasn’t sure if I wanted her to win a Best Supporting Actress for Triumph in the Skies II, when people were saying that she didn’t have much to do, and would have preferred her to win for other shows eg. Bounty Lady, Silver Spoon Sterling Shackles, even Lives of Omission. I hate Bounty Lady as a show and would hate it if she won for Bounty Lady. Also, I considered that Elena Kong would have other opportunities to win Best Supporting Actress, but this might be Kristal Tin’s only chance to win Best Actress. Given who 2014’s Best Supporting Actress went to, I think I am reasonably confident in saying that she could’ve won it for Line Walker, given the success of the show, as well as the amount of acting she had to do there. 
Given the kind of shows she was doing prior to 2013, I think my view that this might be Kristal Tin’s only chance to win Best Actress is not poorly founded. I do think that her career benefitted greatly from winning the Best Actress. 
I couldn’t find a stream, and had to keep refreshing asianfanatics for the results. I was already in disbelief when Elena Kong won the Best Supporting Actress. I was not the only one who viewed Elena Kong taking the Best Supporting Actress as detrimental to Kristal Tin’s chances of winning the Best Actress, and I think I was already prepared for that outcome. And then Kristal Tin wins the Best Actress. And then still manages to win the Favourite Female Character award. I was speechless. I’ve said that no award show would ever top that for me. Ten years later, I think that is still true. 
Then came along Line Walker (which I liked, and more than came around to her and Michael Miu’s relationship in the show despite it’s dubious beginnings), Ultimate Addiction (lousy show, and I think affected by the changes in casting), Smooth Talker (I liked, despite the reviews being poor), Come With Me (approaching the level of Bounty Lady difficult to get through because I didn’t like her character, or pretty much anything about it). 
On a Kristal Tin aside, after watching Return of the Silver Tongue (which I liked), I watched Black Heart White Soul as it came out. I really liked it. Pretty much watched every minute of it at the edge of my seat. Can’t say that I’m sure that it has rewatch value (since I’ve never rewatched it since), but while I watched it, I was engrossed. 
Tiger Mom Blues came out at a time when I had to study, so I couldn’t get to it immediately, but I had heard negative news about her in relation to the show. I think the whole concept of Tiger Mom Blues hit too close to home, and I think in part because the reviews were good, and she was the female lead and Michelle Yim was in it, I had wanted to watch it with full attention (not clicking through) to give it due respect. I’ve only watched 4 episodes of it to date. 
 Watched The Unholy Alliance together with all the speculation on who was the big bad, and then decided that My Ages Apart was too many episodes, and it had Kristal Tin in it so it wouldn’t be a quick activity. 
I had already suspected that there was something up between her and her boyfriend because he almost never showed up on her weibo anymore, and when I first started following her on weibo, he did use to show up on her weibo, and he would go with her to events too. Not only that since she was filming River of Wine (and crossing the road together with Pierre Ngo) there were rumours that he was cheating on her. So when the rumours about her breaking up with her boyfriend, I knew that they were true. I’ve never really liked him anyway, so it’s whatever. Breakup rumours became divorce rumours, and for a long while the news in relation to her was pretty much about the breakup turned divorce. 
I knew that Sandra Ng helped her get her job at tvb (I believe she introduced her to some tvb executives), and that her boyfriend/husband was involved in her career (and might have been her manager at some point). There were rumours that she got frozen by tvb due to Tiger Mom Blues that looked more and more reliable given she was not filming anything. Then her contract with tvb changed to a per series contract, and I backed away from it so hard. Because I knew that we would be in for lean and difficult times with nothing to watch and for a good while everything that would come out would be about the divorce. I would be back when there was things to watch. There was no need to read a constant stream of bad news. I have admit that I didn’t know whether there would be things to watch anymore. 
At this point, I think Kristal Tin also didn’t have many (if at all) shows, so I found other ways to occupy myself. 
That was the state of affairs until Death By Zero. The first positive signs were the articles about her studying how to play a prostitute. But Death by Zero was finally upon us, and this was Elena Kong’s first drama since 2017. Watched this on a per week basis as it came out, and enjoyed it. I was really happy to have Elena Kong back with us, though I didn’t necessarily regard this as a positive sign for future shows because as far as I was concerned, a prostitute who was supposed to be the love interest of Wayne Lai, had her name written all over it. 
I was excited about Line Walker 3, since I liked watching her with Michael Miu in Line Walker. I heard that it was a guest appearance which did not bode well (because why??). I was innocently on instagram one day, when it had just started broadcasting, and the scene where she passes away was plastered in an instagram story. Then, I didn’t have sufficient background and didn’t believe that she dies, but I googled it and she did die in Line Walker 3. The reason why it was plastered in an instagram story was because it had been released in advance on a Chinese streaming site. For that reason, I didn’t watch Line Walker 3 because as far as I’m concerned, they lived happily ever after in Line Walker. (I have watched this after she won the Best Actress.)
Fast forward to 2022. I was aware that she had work, because I was seeing that she was filming, but I had no indication on what kind of stuff she was filming, and didn’t really want to look into it in case it got my hopes up. Towards the end of 2022, I knew that she was leading Get On a Flat. I didn’t know who Lam Man Chung was. The poster looked very low budget family drama. However, burned by the Tiger Mom Blues incident, I knew that just because she can lead the show doesn’t mean anything. For all you know it’s back in the freezer for the next 5 years. 
I suspected that it was doing well because of the number of promotional activities and the vibe I got from her was positive. Then she was asking people to vote for her for Best Actress. Because of that, I figured that she thought that she had a shot of winning Best Actress (and I had googled it by this point and realised that Get On a Flat did very well in terms of ratings). I didn’t want to jinx it by thinking about her winning. 
The night of the awards ceremony, I was at a friend’s wedding. 
I woke up for work to her instagram post holding an award. I googled it right away. There was an instagram story which showed them annoucing the winner, and I got emotional right after they announced her name. Was very very emotional watching it. The fact that Michael Miu was presenting the award to her, and she got a full standing ovation from anyone who was nominated helped. 
I think it’s quite a miracle that she’s managed to pull it off, after being frozen by tvb back in 2017. Yet here we are. 
Congratulations on winning a Best Actress!! 
I don’t believe this is the end of the story and look forward to watching more shows from you.
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SO. i was on a five hour long flight and naturally i spent that time watching tua s3 because.. holy fucking shit it’s finally here. i wasn’t able to post the whole time so now it’s time for an obnoxiously long not-actually-live liveblog of episodes 1-3!!!!!!!
episode 1:
- there were only 16 women??????? that’s. suspicious.
- oH i love the parallels between this opening sequence with the sparrows and the same sequence with the umbrellas from s1
- fei you are actually so cool holy fuck
- the sparrows are so much more successful than the umbrella lmao rip
- the simple swap between “number X (name)” and “name (aka number X)” is so telling of how the sparrows are humanized where the umbrellas were not
- i KNEW jayme was my favorite for a good reason- she beats up racists!!!!!
- klaus going “ben 🥺” made me s a d
- good god i missed these idiots <3
- the “everyone else can see ben, right?” was. oof. the implications. (also klaus’ little hat tip was so cute)
- luther you’re an absolute sweetie and i love you
- “you slay me chris”
- oh no grace and diego angst,, it’s my weakness
- jayme’s power is so cool omfg
- footloose playing within the first ten minutes of the show…. let’s fucking GO s3 soundtrack!!!
- oh my god this dance battle,, i love big dorky men
- it took me so much longer than it should have to realize that this sequence wasn’t really happening and that it was. y’know. the hallucinogenic poison.
- okay but even thought it’s not real,, they’re DANCING :D !! klaus and ben are dancing together! and diego and grace!!
- ben punching klaus :,(
- why can everyone understand christopher???why is this not being addressed???????
- “this was era appropriate 😡!”
- fifteen minutes in and diego is flying around on top of christopher screaming “who’s your daddy”,,, i love this fucking show
- alphonso is not what i expected but i love him
- fei’s powers are SO FUCKING COOL I CAN’T GET OVER THEM
- alphonso’s powers are also so cool i’m obsessed with all of these bitches
- not cgi dolores i hate it here 😩 and five kissing air 😭😭
- obsessed with reginald only remembering the umbrellas as “scruffy, fatty, and sad girl”
- okay i feel a bit weird about umbrella-sparrow romances, but sloane and luther are real cute
- i love that this battle ends with a reminder that viktor is actually the most powerful ever
- ohhhh i love that first title screen with the umbrella and sparrow shadow
- “here you go… it’s your ass!” “……. okay! i think luther’s concussed.”
- curly haired klaus i love you <3
- lester who are you 👀 ?
- viktor being the peacemaker,, i love him
- luther you are. SO dumb. i adore you.
- i HATE that allison hasn’t figured out yet that claire wouldn’t exist here,, this is going to crush her (and me)
- hello mr. pug i love you :)
- :0 it IS mr. pennycrumb !!
- “the skinny one is their weak link” …is this leading up to a klaus powers arc?? is that what i sense is happening here???
- marcus is such a powerful leader, luther’s gonna be so insecure
- “you’re disgusting” “but consistent!”
- diego getting all soft when he mentions lila 🥺
- “and dad said i’d never go to summer camp :D” luther’s genuinely my fave this season he’s so cute
- allison and viktor talking about ray and sissy :,/
- viktor’s reaction to being called sister…. i sense a coming out arc coming on 👀
- hmm okay i’m assuming lester is harlan… the overstimulation and nature sounds are very autistic of him
- how many fucking towels does marcus go through
- marcus thinking viktor is/should be number one :,)
- marcus pulling the “you’re not even their number one” card not five minutes later ://
- badass viktor let’s fucking gooooo
- the birds materialize from fei herself,, that’s so cool :0
- ahsktjgjskeks obsessed with diego calling five a boomer
- highkey want to see the thirty year old five that would exist in this timeline
- “kill them” “sleep with them” remains the most iconic dialogue
- LILA LILA LILA LILA LILA LILA LILA—
- “hello lover ;)” i’m. gay.
- oh shit the kid is their SON?!?????? damn,, i did NOT see that coming
- HEY GRACE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!!!!!!!
- hmmmm……. this giant energy wave can’t be good !
- MR. PENNYCRUMB NOOOOO 😭😭😭
- oh fuck oh shit MARCUS!!!!!!!!
- oh no this is so bad and they’re all happy for once too,, i’m. terrified.
episode 2:
- NOOOO THEY TOOK LUTHER D: MY BOY WAS JUST VIBING
- i love that their hairstyles are just changing with no explanation,, it’s been one (1) day and these bitches were like. you know what i need? some ✨grooming✨
- oh god oh fuck oh no…… allison 😭😭
- THE KENNEDY SIX,, OH NO 😩
- holy shit viktor’s realizing he’s trans via flashbacks of sissy this is too much for me 🥲
- the haircut :,)
- okay but when the fuck did diego have time to get a haircut
- ahwhwhwwhw i’m so proud of viktor
- i love that after he comes out there’s a beat and everyone’s like “yeah that’s chill” before five is like ANYWAYS back to being mad at you
- “he. tried. to. homicide us.”
- five is gonna be so sad when he realizes there is, in fact, another apocalypse
- okay but i love dad!diego so much
- the sparrows modernized the academy this is genuinely evil
- i miss umbrella ben :,( although i’m glad we get to see ben’s powers more because they’re sick as fuck
- oh lila,, what a disaster girl i love her
- aww excited five is so cute :D
- okay but why is it a british car and w h y is klaus driving??!??!
- aggressive tourist five my love <3
- gender euphoria viktor >>>>>>
- allison hargreeves #1 best sister award
- five appreciation arc let’s go!!!!! i love him and klaus bonding 🥺
- alphonso’s power would be so useful in combat jfc
- *alphonso’s chin falls off* “it does that sometimes :)”
- PROTECTIVE DAD DIEGO MY LOVE
- i love stanley so much he’s such a good combo of his parents
- ahsktkskaksk klaus is AMISH??!! i’m gonna lose it he’s the most non-amish person known to man!!
- luther and sloane are the jock4jock couple
- luther don’t lie to yourself, you never stopped caring about being number one
- AWWW SHE THINKS ITS COOL THAT HE WENT TO THE MOON :,D
- five singing along to the radio :,)
- not the casual shrine for marcus-
- oh nooo klaus’ mom 😭😭
- ALLISON KNOWS ABOUT KLAUS GOING TO VIETNAM??? SINCE WHEN??!!??! i stg if they skipped over him telling everyone about dave,,,
- the shot of klaus being chased by a bunch of amish people is so fucking funny
- “you have her eyes” oh okay guess i’ll cry now !
- allison babe…….. you have so much trauma
- not diego complaining about having a kid while allison’s mourning the loss of hers 😬
- the fucking grandfather paradox?! i hate that fucker :/
- no but luther and sloane are SO FREAKING CUTE 🥺🥺 the floating kiss :,)
- okay but also,, luther my mans your family kinda needs you right about now
episode 3:
- ahsktkskw luther’s so happy and proud of himself for getting laid i love him
- “condoms. for sex. which is a thing i do now.”my acespec luther agenda thrives, that is not an allosexual thing to say
- oh my god this plotline with klaus and his mom is gonna kill me 😭
- “when i was your age i was becoming a real man” oh ? trans rights ? mayhaps ? (i know i’m really reaching here but shut up trans diego is important to me)
- lila saying she’s slept with many many *people*….. queer rights baybie !!
- AHDKGJDJAKDKS— “nice try stockholm”
- it’s interesting to me that the sparrows act like they’re so much more loyal and put together than the umbrellas, but they obviously don’t care about each other nearly as much as the umbrellas do
- “flock of she-gulls” + ben laughing is very cute (i missed his laugh 🥺)
- morally gray girlboss allison be my wife please
- klaus your OUTFIT,,, WHY are you snorkeling what’s going on?!?
- “my tiny badass brother” :,)
- diego you are. such a bad dad holy shit. (not me typing this right as he says “i’m so good at [parenting]”)
- klaus WHAT did you just swim through—
- the sparrows have such a different dynamic with reginald than the umbrellas holy shit,, the way they call him “reg” and “reggie” and also are highkey kinda abusive towards him?? it’s really. huh. it’s really so different and i don’t know why.
- grace is so terrifying it’s not even funny
- lila i love you, but you are such a bitch
- dolores: is a mannequin lila: calls her a mannequin five: don’t you dare talk about her like that >:(
- luther is literally just chillin. he’s just vibin. good for him 😌
- “……wHaT eLsE dID i miSs wHiLE i WaS kIdnApPed?!!”
- luther falls in love FAST jfc
- “oh shit. you guys had gravity sex.”
- i feel bad for stanley,, diego stop leaving him challenge
- klaus is. he’s. he is a very pretty boy.
- oh fuck this shit for making me feel bad for reginald, i’m supposed to hate the guy
- it took two and a half episodes but klaus FINALLY mentioned dave (just by offhandedly referencing a lover, but still)
- no but i lowkey love klaus and reginald’s dynamic in this timeline
- oh but this is gonna fuck with klaus’ daddy issues so bad :,/
- luther’s so excited about viktor coming out :,)
- “why do you hate tiny sandwiches.”
- the “do you feel loved” scene with the three brothers is. so fucking cute.
- TRANS ALLY LUTHER HARGREEVES LET’S FREAKING GO
- WHY IS WILLIAM SHATNER HERE???!?!!!?!!
- not klaus being a william shatner fan 😳
- “OH! run :)”
- “molotov this, bitches!” - the angry 12 year old
- what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what’s happening what the fuck
- okay but i freaking called it (about harlan)
- are,,, are jayme and alphonso actually dead????? i am. Sad i liked the two of them. especially jayme,,, i’ve been in love with her since she was announced a year and a half ago, she can’t just d i e 😭😭
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wh0r3r4ngh43 · 2 months
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❦ About Me ❦
Just a lil random stuff to get to know me better<3
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My background info:
⌞ My name is Ali (I also like being called “Al” or “Alex”), I’m 18 (2005) and I’m from Sweden.⌝
I was born in Sweden but moved to South Africa when I was young and grew up there until I moved back to Sweden 4 years ago ^^ I’m not rlly connected to my Swedish roots, so that’s why my first language is English n etc.
I’m afab but currently unsure what I’d label myself as gender-wise, so any pronouns are fine<3 Though, They/them is probably my most preferred. Sexuality wise, I’m unlabeled/unsure. What I do know for sure is that I’m very much not straight XD
I’m currently finishing my last year of school before uni, and I’m currently majoring in “Social Studies”. I plan to eventually study onwards to become either a criminologist or someone that does research in psychology (regarding the brain).
Important to note:
⁀➴ I’m diagnosed with “AuDHD” (a combination of ADHD and Autism), so pls be patient with me and respect boundaries.
Groups I stan:
Main-> SVT
Besides them, I also (mainly) stan NCT + BTS.
I’m “into” a bunch of other groups tho, but I’m usually just a casual listener.
Main Biases:
✮ diehard Hoshi lover ✮
practically all of SVT tbh, but I adoreee BSS
Suga has such a special place in my heart fr
in NCT it varies from time to time—currently: Chenle, Haechan, Xiaojun, TEN, Johnny, Jaemin, YangYang
Hobbies/Interests:
Music: KPOP, Rap/HipHop, R&B and practically anything that I just happen to like.
Languages: I rlly enjoy studying/learning languages. School has kinda fucked up my flow when it comes to keeping up with the specific languages I want to learn.
Dance: It’s not something I do often atm bcs I’m living in an apartment with oldass neighbors, let alone the fact that I live with my grandparents who do NOT like noise.
Guitar: Currently trying to relearn the guitar, but it’s hard to find time for it.
Gaming: I really love gaming, despite how pissed off it manages to make me lmao. I loveeee anything resident evil n Silent Hill related :D. Open world games like Skyrim are things that I also adore. Besides allat, I tend to stick to horror games; shooter games; RPG; and fighting games like tekken. Sadly I game on a crusty old Xbox, but I love it regardless.
Fixations lmao: Being neurodivergent, I have hyperfixations that vary from week to week or month to month, as well as long-term special interests. What I’m rlly into rn is: Sharks, dinosaurs, history (like ancient Egypt n the medieval times), tigers (I’m not even joking, I blame Soonyoung tbh), psychology, criminology, neuroscience in general, and silent hill deep-dives XD. Not all of this at the same time though, it varies every few weeks but usually switches between these things.
SEVENTEEN in general: I’ve been a KPOP stan for YEARSSS omfg I feel old. Started being a carat around 2015, around 2017-2019 I was focusing on other groups like EXO n BTS. I was switching back and forth from SVT, but became a huge carat again early 2023.
I think that’s all? Otherwise I might update this later<3
Feel free to DM me btw^^ I’m always open to making new friends!
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koishua · 2 years
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i want to love someone so much that a goodbye feels just as painful as people describe it to be
(quite a long rant in the tags goodbye—)
#i have what's called the opposite of attachment issues bahahaha its not actually funny i hate it it makes me feel heartless 💀#but that's what you get for having parents that love to move countries every two goddamn years like besties.#im sick and tired of moving omfg? its my fifth school in the four years i have been in this country. thats a record for the amount of time#in a country. most of the times it is two max.#man im in 12th grade and in my 16th freaking school i want to cry im so tired 💀#i make and drop friends like no one's business hah. i cant get attached to someone omfl if they told me we were moving right now i wouldnt#even be bothered enough to call my current closest irl for a goodbye :')#i feel terrible for not feeling any remorse or sadness istfg its either just tiring or neutral#yes i can flex that ive lived in so many countries. yes i have many mindblowing diff experiences than most of my peers.#yes i adapt to situations so so much quicker than most of people my age or even those who are in their forties#yes but man. im tired mom im tired dad 💀#and the worst thing is now... now ig im bored easily. nothing is satisfying me anymore after a very short amount of time.#we have been living in this town for ten months and i am so fucking bored of this place already i want to go away to another place or else#i feel like i will lose my mind haha man i am exhausted but also so so bored i now cant stand the idea of staying at a school for more than#half a year good god#sixteenth school besties im gonna break sooner or later haha 💀 it's not like im even remotely antisocial or socially shy and awkward too#quite on the contrary i can get along with anyone and everyone and can befriend ppl quickly but i cant ever seem to just idk... like anyone#like yeah. i like them but i would not miss a single person no matter how tight knit we might have been?? i really want to commit to#a friend but i just cant and its so irritating. man as a little kid i would cry like a baby every time we moved away but im so desensitized#lmfao pls god let me love someone so much that i feel sad for leaving them behind 💀#idk i am probably overexaggerating stuff again but oh well. it's getting annoying. i feel tired of being bored of life all the time#tp#time to listen to worry free love by taeyeon
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playing wayfarer again makes me wanna draw pollux as a youngin ;—;
#he’s only ten for like the prologue but dangnabbit I love#pollux exuding mass amounts of terrible feral child energy#pollux voice I’ve been living on the street since I was Two Years Old I can wrestle a grown ass man#I’m glad sero ended up as his master because anyone else it would be like that meme of the mom crying while the child just screeches#the babadook meme!#(jk varyn and him would never jive well and sero put in the claim before Cenric)#endnsjs Aeran and pollux those first few years are like shoving two children in a get along shirt#they disagreed as much as they got along#they’ve got a friendship where they have their fair share of disagreements but it’s#*it’s nothing bad?#they just have differing opinions on how to handle things during missions#and they still have quirks about each other that they still don’t get years later#like aeran has His Thing Going On and pollux learned not to poke at That#consequently pollux has his own bullshit that aeran learned quick Not To Ask About#I think about the adjustment period of them being back in each other’s lives after ages and how that was a Huge Struggle#for the first half of a year and they amount of times pollux or aeran nearly left the other ansbsns#it was tough! because so much had changed and they weren’t the same people who grew up together#and spent those like. awkward gangly teenage years together#(oh GOD the awkward gangly teen years for the both of them omfg)#(pollux starting on puberty and like Hold The Fuck Up I Didnt Order This One)#(him getting on the puberty better for him and he’s like I Can Live With This One)#sjsjsjd I’m tired it’s so late#oc talk: pollux wayfarer
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trademarkhubris · 4 years
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THE GREAT EMO REUNION OF 2020 FINDS A NEW WIND AS A TOUR DATE IS ADDED IN BONN, GERMANY, WHICH I WILL BE AT ON JULY 7TH WITH MY TWO BAD BITCHES
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chanluster · 3 years
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10/10 | {m} ; {c} ; {f}
oneshot | friends with benefits! au | 18.7k words
“Because what you feel for your best friend cannot be described in words, but in numbers.”
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s u m m a r y > > you and bang chan had no secrets between one other. each detail of your life would be discussed with your best friend of forever, no matter how insignificant it may be, through a little system you both had concocted — through a small rating. a number out of ten. a simple concept, used from being a child and rating your cookie a solid eight out of ten to your later years in high school, giving your first kiss a measly five. however, when you confess an average rating of your sex life in one hazy evening, chan decides this dilemma cannot be solved with buying you consolation cookies. he must simply raise that rating, all by himself.
w a r n i n g s > > friends to lovers! au, college! au, music! major chan, music! major reader, you both are literally soulmates, came out the womb holding hands, so much teasing, sexual! tension! chan has a massive fucking cock (i mean isn’t it obvious already), shit loads of making out, aggression, fingering, oral (f. and m. receiving), unprotected sex (stay safe homies!!!), kinda hate sex, orgasming left and right, ex! hyunjin, who’s also really bad at sex lmfaoaoao sorry king, chan is hella soft dom at the start but goes !!! hella hard later!!!! (i mean idk but) shit ton of fluff, friend! jisung which chan gets soooo jealous of, reader is so fucking annoyin, teensy weensy bit of angst, and yeh basically me venting out my love for chan once again
p l a y l i s t > > here!
a u t h o r ’ s n o t e > > this is dedicated to my dear friend chloe, boo i love u so much and thank you for that insane prompt :( also help this feels so rushed to me at the end but i hope y’all do enjoy <3
t a g l i s t > > @hanflix @thatonepieceofpineapple @kimkailover @decembermoonskz @smilesohwas @missskzbiased @illicit-roses @embroideredstarz @freckledquokka @moonluvbunny @aliceu @coupscarat @maedesculpaeusoubi @baby-wolf @multi-fandom-kpop-stan​ @minaamhh @leescrt
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“I’M SORRY, BUT I DON’T THINK I CAN DO THIS ANYMORE.”
Hyunjin’s face faltered completely at your words. It was expected, really. The poor boy was not anticipating this news.
“Wh-what?” he asked, a little too loudly, catching the stares of a few others in the coffee shop. You immediately glared at him, and he retracted back into his seat, but still had a befuddled expression on his face. 
You sighed a little. “Look,” you started, swirling your latte with a thin, wooden stirrer. “I’m going to be completely honest with you. I just think we’re much better off as friends.”
“Friends?” the boy flinched at the term, and even you had to hide your self-distaste. God, ____, at least try to be a little nicer! “Damn it, we’ve been dating for nearly three months, and you think we’d automatically become friends?!” he leaned in, knitting his eyebrows in growing desperation. “What the hell happened?”
You fought hard to not scratch the back of your neck. And possibly run away from the shop. Taking a long sip, you tried to feign the most sympathetic expression you could muster. “Hyunjin, please…”
“B-but, babe—” he started, and his eyes widened, trying to grab onto your hands which cupped the latte. “I don’t understand, we were so happy!” He huffed a smile, trying to convince you of your oh-so heavenly times spent with him. “Why are you thinking like this?”
You tried not to retract your hand from his — not only because it was hard to console him, but because they were embarrassingly sweaty. “Don’t think I have just done this on a whim. I have thought long about this decision.”
Finally, something out of your mouth which wasn’t a blatant lie. You had been thinking of breaking up with this goon — had the notion in your mind for half the time you dated him.
“____,” he said, and the melancholy you heard in his voice had you silencing your tongue. “What’s happened?” He began to caress your hand with his fingers. “Have I...have I done something wrong?”
Oh no. There it was. The reaction you dreaded.
Well, kind of. But still. Not the reaction you imagined in the perfect situation. 
Reluctantly, you put a hand over his fingers, hoping that your face was a painting of sympathy. 
“Hyunjin.”
Don’t say it, girl! Don’t you dare!
“It’s...it’s not you.”
You put your hand on your heart. 
“It’s me.”
Oh, Jesus.
Your eyes raised to his own, wide and glistening. 
Now, you knew Hwang Hyunjin was not the brightest kid on campus. The boy, who once asked you what the purpose of a spork was, may not have possessed the most intelligence, but you were scared that he may be smart enough to figure out that what you just said was complete, utter bullshit. 
Face it, ____. You’re done for.
A few tears spilled from his eyes, and a pang of guilt shot through you. “I-I see.” 
He did not let go of your hands. “We can still be...friends, right?” he sniffled, blinking at you rather irritatingly. “Like, we can still hang out together?”
You raised a brow, but reigned in a sarcastic reply. The boy would probably not even understand. “Of course,” you replied, a saccharine smile on your face. “But I think it’s best if we had some space from each other, okay?”
That was not the answer he seemed to be looking for, but he nodded, a little sadly. “Okay.” He still refused to take his hand away. “Does that mean I can’t rock up at yours midnight anymore if the junior needs a little taking care of?” 
Your brows could not help furrow in absolute exasperation. “Yes, Hyunjin,” you monotoned, unable to believe that you put up with this man for three months. “Now can you let go of my hand?” 
Realising his clammy hold on you, he flushed, looking away from your directory gaze. “I...should go, then.”
“No, no,” you insisted, getting up from your seat as you grabbed onto your drink. “I shall leave. I’m the one who dumped this news on you.” 
You debated leaving without paying for the latte — you knew the boy was still infatuated enough to cover your expenses. Sadly, shame coursed through your veins, and you cursed yourself for feeling a little sympathy for your now ex. “Here,” you offered, fishing out a little cash from your jacket. “For the drink.”
When you nearly stepped past him, you stopped, looking down at him as he tilted his head upwards. Your hand itched to put upon his shoulder, but you knew better. Hyunjin would only take that as a hopeful sign.
“I’m sorry,” was the last thing you said before you left the coffee shop.
Upon falling into a leisurely step onto the street, you let out a harsh breath, an endless amount of relief washing over you.
You were almost delighted to let Hwang Hyunjin go.
Now, it was not like he was a monster who had caged you into his two-feet-squared, dingy flat. In fact, the boy was, in almost every way, a decent boyfriend, whose stupid personality earned him a few laughs. 
Although extremely corny, the problem was not truly all him.
It was partly you as well.
Hearing your phone vibrate, you brought it out from your jeans pocket, already having an inkling on who the sender was, spamming you with messages.
CHRIS THE PISS :
bitch have you done it?
CHRIS THE PISS :
helloooooo??
CHRIS THE PISS :
hoe answer the phone i’m dying!! 
CHRIS THE PISS :
or prolly hyunjin at this moment lmaooo
You could not help the eyeroll which escaped from his words, and you decided to ignore him until you arrived at your destination. 
Which, evident from the persistent vibrations still, you figured you could not do.
CHRIS THE PISS :
i KNOW ur reading my messages DAMN just tell me!!
CHRIS THE PISS :
unless this is hyunjin and u killed her FUCK
CHRIS THE PISS :
haha dude whats poppin!! best man for ____ by far don't know why she was breaking up w u 
YOU :
chan i will kill u :)
CHRIS THE PISS :
hyunjin i promise i didn't mean it when i said u looked like a cheese string w ur new hair
CHRIS THE PISS :
that was ur girl putting words in my mouth 
YOU:
omfg chan STFUUU i’m coming
CHRIS THE PISS :
PLS HYUNJIN I SWEAR UR SEXC
Letting the man panic, you turned a left into student residence, buildings lined down the street, providing accommodation for hundreds of people like you in need of a place to sleep, eat, party, and contemplate the inevitability of death under.
Smiling at a few acquaintances, you entered the designated building, finding yourself with dozens of doors of the same, dead colour. Walking along the hallway, you stopped right at the very last one, bringing out your keys.
With a single twist you unlocked the door, but before you wrapped your hand around the knob the door swung open, catching you completely off guard.
“Funny, Hyunjin, how did you manage to transform into a little bitch so quickly?”
You cursed at the man who welcomed you.
“Damn it, Chan,” you said, hand on your chest. “You nearly gave me a heart attack.”
“Sad it didn’t kill you off, then.”
You heard him splutter into laughter at your sad attempts to pinch his shoulder, glaring daggers into his crescent eyes. The bumbling idiot was Bang Chan, the one man you managed to keep for your entire life. That too is purely because none of you could manage a stable, healthy relationship — which was a shame, of course, when your best friend, with his fluffy, raven curls, black-oversized hoodie and sweatpants, was admired by so many. You often wondered how you had not fallen at his feet when he smiled at you, but then he’d open his mouth and all would be understood, as your anger would flare up, and rush to hit him as hard as possible. 
He gave you such a smile then, fingers gripping the doorframe. “How is Rapunzel, then? Sent him back to the tower?”
Wrenching his hand off the frame, which nearly had him falling onto the floor, you side-stepped past his stumbling figure, peeling off your jacket. “Rapunzel is never stepping in our lands again.”
After regaining his step, he muttered a cursed endearment your way and sat himself down on the couch, instantly settling his laptop upon his legs. “Oh, God. How badly did you break his heart, ____?”
Smiling, you dumped the jacket on the side table as you entered the living room, settling on the other end of his sofa. Propping your legs upon his, you pondered over the answer, and said, “At least a good seven.”
Chan let out a little whistle. “Oh, he’s definitely causing a shitshow on the groupchat tonight.” A huffed laugh was his answer. “Want Chinese or Indian tonight?”
“Surprise me,” you said as he brought out his phone. He dialled a number, and then you added, “Actually, can we please get Chinese?”
“No, we’re getting Indian.”
You raised a brow. “Didn’t you cry the last time you had their special curry?” 
The man stared at you for a minute before sighing, putting the phone to his ear. “I’d like your least spiciest dish please.”
He groaned as you pushed his legs off the couch, laughing at his pathetic tolerance towards spice. As he carried on with his order, you grabbed the TV remote, surfing through the channels. 
Even after all these years, you still found it endearing how Chan understood the depth of the numbers you tell him. The system between you two had been created during kindergarten, when, on the last day, you both had received such delicious cookies that words could not express the joy you felt when having the first bite. It was a mere joke at first, rating random classmates despicably low in middle school to even more serious situations, when you moaned to your best friend of your mundane kiss, expecting fireworks and butterflies yet were only met with an over-enthusiastic tongue. 
Chan himself used this system  — it was the reason you knew of his distaste towards spicy food, and certain girls he had dated in the past. Even now, when the two of you had started college together, working on the same projects and going to the same parties, this concoction had not been shelved in your memories. Although this may be something which others might deem insignificant, the concept had become a pillar of your friendship with this absolute loser.
The food arrived within the hour, and you both continued your box set as the plastic containers were cracked open, the pungent smell of curries and biryanis filling the room. Chan provided the plates and cutlery while you poured him the sufficient amount, and you rebuked his whining as you added the spicier dishes onto his plate.
“I refuse to let you eat only korma, Crispy,” you scolded. “Prick, careful! Don’t spill it on your laptop!”
“Bitch!” he yelped as a bit of the residue nearly stained his sweats, but was saved by his hands. “Just ruin everything I wear, why don’t you? Now I got curry on my fingers!”
You propped your legs over his again, eyes upon the screen once more, and the action occurring. “Just lick it off?”
“How about you do it for me?” the boy then simpered out, and you nearly tossed your entire dish on his head. 
“Let’s just focus on Tommy and his cocaine problem,” you dismissed him, but returned his impish smile as you elbowed him, nearly causing his food to stain his hoodie.
The two of you seemed to settle down after a bit and watched the show, commenting on the terrible choices the characters were making, and then boasted of how you and him could easily be the better leader from the protagonist. Soon, you had finished your takeout, and after Chan followed, he got up, hurrying into the kitchen situated behind the doorway in the lounge. He then came back, you delighted to find his hands occupied with two tubs of Ben & Jerrys’.
“Gimme, gimme, gimme!” you sang, snatching one of the tubs from him and pulling open the cover, digging straight in. “I didn’t know you brought ice cream!”
“Thought it’d help with the breakup,” he confessed, settling back into the sofa, shuffling closer to you. “But it doesn’t look like you need it.”
“Oh, I can’t believe Hyunjin broke my heart like this!”
Chan shook his head at your melodrama. “You may fool the looney princess, but you’re not fooling me.”
“You know me too well,” you said, which he agreed to with an absent-minded hum, eating his dessert.
There was a short pause, a comfortable silence reigning upon you both for a little before your best friend broke it, gulping down his ice cream.
“____?” 
“No, you’re not having any of mine.”
Chan prodded you lightly with his foot. “No, I don’t mean that. I was just wondering something.”
“Shoot.”
“You’re not...upset, right?” He took a bite of his ice cream. “Like, I know you always complained about him, but breakups can be difficult.”
You looked at him, and saw genuine concern painted on his face — along with a little vanilla stain on the corner of his lips. “You don’t have to pretend to be happy if you’re not, okay?” he continued. “Especially with me.”
Your heart melted slightly. “Of course, Chan, don’t worry. I wouldn’t ever lie to you.” 
Turning to the TV screen, you sighed as you thought of your recent relationship. “There were good moments for sure. He was still a sweet guy, you know?” You then stabbed the creamy plains inside the tub. “It was just so...dull.”
The man beside you took in another bite, if a bit slow. “What do you mean?”
Following him, you relished the chocolate goodness, swallowing. “Dates were kind of boring. I carried most of the conversations because he’s too thick to talk about anything.”
Chan let out a soft snort. “I remember you telling me about it. I can certainly believe it.”
“Well, you won’t believe what I’m about to tell you next.” You focused on your ice cream, a sarcastic smile plastered upon your face. “Hyunjin. Hwang Hyunjin was terrible at sex.”
You did not need to see your best friend to sense his shock. “What?”
A small chuckle escaped you. “First time he fucked me, I think I cried. Not because it was so good, no, but because it was so bad.”
“No way,” Chan said, brows furrowed. “Didn’t you say he had a big dick or something?”
“That’s the downside, bud,” you countered, halfway through your tub. “Because he had a massive cock he thought that was enough for me to enjoy. But it’s not. He just did not know what to do with it!” 
The man had been silenced. He took another bite of his ice cream, in disbelief. “So you were...deprived of pleasure?”
“Deprived?” You scoffed. “Chan, I thirsted for a crumb of pleasure. God, can you believe I’ve faked nearly all my orgasms with him?”
This time, your friend glanced at you in horror. Carrying on, you said, “The only real orgasm I had was not even because of him. God, I was thinking about Lee Donghyuck singing between my legs.”
A soft growl entered your ears. “Oh Christ.”
“Bastard was so proud when I came all over him,” you crowed, trying to sweeten your bitterness with the dessert. “If only I told him I undid myself for an idol I’m never going to meet.”
Your friend did not say anything. The episode finished, and when you noticed his further silence, you used it to your advantage, starting a romantic comedy before he could even complain.
Even with the movie on for about twenty minutes, and the romance you thoroughly enjoyed, the man stayed quiet, idly stirring his melted ice cream in the tub. You ignored his rather odd behaviour, assuming he was either thinking of his assignment or had gotten a brain freeze. Either way, it let you watch your movie in peace, swooning outwardly at the man’s teasing to the girl.
One hour in, and you asked if Chan was okay. “Yeah...yeah, I’m good,” was his answer, sending you a second-long smile before going back to his brain freeze. You raised a confused brow, but went back to the chick flick, gasping when the boy went back for his love.
This was it. The fireworks, the passion which exuded from the mere actions of lips enveloping lips, hands holding onto waists or necks or locks and refusing to let go. You craved for your heart to drop down in lust as you let yourself fall, be wrapped up in another as you undid yourself. Where was this? Where was this for you?
Did you not deserve your desires to be fulfilled? Did you not deserve to have your entire world turned upside down in pure exhilaration?
Before you knew it, the credits rolled, and you let out a long, laboured sigh, leaning into the cushions. “Maybe it’s time I find myself a millionaire who’d pay me to have sex with me.”
The man was still looking at the now black screen. “Do you mean a prostitute?”
“Well, yes, but—” you groaned. “You know what? Maybe I’m meant to stay forever displeased.”
It was after a long time your best friend spoke. “Or…” he cleared his throat. “You find yourself someone who would pleasure you.”
You turned to him. “Wowie, thank you for a perfect solution! I really wouldn’t know what I’d do without you.”
Then, you saw his eyes darken. “____.” He propped the tub upon the coffee table. “Why search for other alternatives when you have options right here?”
Confusion marred your mind, not just from his words, but his entire change of character. “Chan, what are you on about?”
“____,” he said, and his hand inched closer to yours. “ I’m saying you should have a friends with benefits.”
The silence was suddenly heard. You did not realise the sheer weight of this man’s gaze till his very stare gravitated you to him. The lights were dimmed, and all you could see from the laptop’s light was his face — his beautiful face. 
What was all this? Why was your best friend looking at you like that? Why were you being affected by his gaze?
“I…” You could barely get the words out. “I never thought about that before.”
Chan had no such problem. “Well, maybe you should. There are many who would gladly be that person for you.”
You gave him a look. “And who would they be?”
A slight cock of his head. “____, who is your best friend, in the same class as you, share the same interests and would help you out in any way whatsoever?”
The question rather befuddled you. Why couldn’t the man just say the answer already? You thought of the few viable options, tossing, turning the names. 
Then it occurred to you. Your friend’s face sparked a little in what could only have been hope.
“I know!” you exclaimed, holding onto his arm. “I should ask Jisung!”
The little sliver of hope in his eyes morphed into annoyance. “What the fuck?”
Raising your brow, you asked, “Is that not the right answer?” You listed out the evidence. “He’s basically my best friend, is in music with us, we like similar things and would be willing to help me in any situation. I think.”
When you were done, you found yourself more confused when Chan closed his eyes, shaking his head. “What?” you demanded.
“Oh my God.”
His fingers caressed yours, and you gasped to find your skin prickling at the touch. You raised your eyes to his, and found yourself lost for words.
“You dumb bitch, I should be your friends-with-benefits.”
Your mouth dropped.
Perhaps you would have said something, but then his thumb began stroking your skin, and you figured it was better to relish that instead. Thus, you looked at him, gobsmacked, not entirely sure what to say to his declaration. 
It seemed Chan was a little nervous too. “Look, I can tell you’re surprised…” he paused, a little lost for words as well. “Fuck, I guess I shouldn’t have suggested so early into the breakup, but you just…”
He pinned you with his gaze. “I couldn’t have my best friend miss out on the pleasure she deserves. And if that means giving you the pleasure myself, then I will do it.”
Bang Chan. Not just the best friend you’ve ever had, but the man who proposed benefits to this certain friendship.
“Well,” you got out, after what seemed like eternity. “Well damn.”
“We don’t have to do anything right now. Or even anytime soon.” He let go off your hands, and you did not know why the touch was missed so greatly. “Just...think about it for me, will you?”
You didn’t really have it in you to refuse. “Of course,” you said, feeling the need to touch something. Your eyes fell upon the remote, and figured you should distract yourself by watching the next episode of the series you previously watched. 
You needed a clear distraction, or else Chan would not need to wait long for his answer.
The episode began, and you watched, clamping your lips together as you felt the man shuffle closer to you, one hand sprawled on the top of the couch with his other hand idly surfing on his laptop. You rooted your eyes to the screen, finding yourself engulfed in 1920s England, trying to forget that your best friend left no space between you two.
Managing to somehow distract yourself from the lack of distance, you even began to relax, swooning softly of the gangster’s mannerisms towards his love interests, their intimate dancing in her bedroom. It was touching, and you even let yourself lean into your friend, who, too, glanced every now and then, a little smile upon his face.
Everything was fine and dandy until the characters started to kiss.
Now, there was nothing wrong with kissing. You were a hopeless romantic, and adored to see the actions of love on screen, the final breaking of barriers between two characters.
The problem was, the kissing did not seem to end there. The bigger problem was that this lust on screen made you all the more aware of your best friend beside you.
You froze, watching with no small amount of confused shock as the characters increased their desires, unbuttoning their clothes, discarding them as their lips moved against each other’s. Your eyes widened at the nudity, once never a bother but suddenly extremely embarrassing, as they collided, bare chest to bare chest.
The matters did not help at all when you sensed the increased beating of Chan’s heart, almost as loud as the instruments harmonising in the background. His searching on his laptop had ceased, as frozen as you were as his eyes refused to look away to the man and woman making love.  
It was too much. You had seen much worse scenes in your life before, but never had one made you so hot and bothered. Of course you knew why, though. Of course you knew, when the man you laid your head upon was breathing harder than you do when you walk up a flight of stairs. 
You did not waste a minute longer as you pointed the remote to the TV, and switched the screen off. Completely black, void of further lust radiating through the glass. 
A shuddered breath escaped Chan. “Well...double damn.”
You did not answer back. Only distanced yourself on the sofa, his fingers on the couch brushing against the back of your head. His touch may have been the last thing you needed then.
But that was not true. Seeing that sex scene, all glorified and affectionate, had you craving his touch. Your eyes could not bear to meet him, but his presence was suffocating enough. God, if you did not leave that couch now, you would dare to do something quite unimaginable.
Chan did not seem to move either. Your presence, too, had him nearly choking out a pained sob. Anymore time spent, and he would have another problem erecting soon.
At last, when a few minutes seemed like hours, you felt your friend stir. You were surprised to be devastated at the prospect of him leaving.
You were further shocked when, as Chan mustered all the strength in himself to get off the couch, he was stopped by your hand encircling his wrist. 
Whirling his head at your direction, his eyes widened. He was met with your own aghast ones, as your hand tugged him back to the couch.
You did not let go of his wrist as you whispered the words you never thought would have left your mouth that night.
“Let’s do it, Chan.”
His hand went limp in your hold.
For a second you thought he died under your grasp, but the way he parted his mouth went against your judgement. Perhaps you had sent his living soul flying out of his body, but you could not blame him — you did not feel at all like yourself just then.
“I wanna do it,” you murmured, refusing to let go. 
Chan’s eyes darted to the tight hold upon his wrist, and then to you once more. He opened his mouth, closing it straight after as he glanced away.
With a heavy sigh, he looked to you once more, an abundance of emotions swirling in his usually mischievous, soft eyes.
“Are you sure, ____?” He leaned a little closer, causing your heart to malfunction for a second. “You don’t have to think about it now—”
“Well, it’s all I can think about,” you cut him off, eyes never leaving him, despite the reddening of your cheeks. “And I want to do it.
“Like I said, Chan.” You shuffled a little closer, and your knees brushed against his. “I am deprived of pleasure.”
The man blinked once, twice, taking your declaration all in. He had to tell himself that this was not a dream, but a very much a fortunate reality, and that you were asking him of something he had been wanting to give you for a very long time.
There it was. Something he wasn’t quite ready to admit. You wanting your desires met by him was so much more than enough.
Dreaming still, he slithered one hand around your waist, almost like second nature as the other found refuge upon your face. His fingers were tender, softly caressing your cheeks as his eyes beheld you in a way he had never before..
This change of sight had you unable to look away from him.
“If you feel uncomfortable with all this…” he swept away a stray curl. “I will stop. That’ll be the end of it.”
You nodded, finding solace within his eyes. “I know.”
But there was no discomfort. Rather an impatient welcome, a growing urge for your needs met. Promises fulfilled. 
When you sensed him lean closer, so shy and yet so determined, hands still holding you, those vows were sure to be carried out.
You found out in the best way possible — the second when Chan brushed his lips against yours. 
His touch had you flying out your skin; well, not really, but it sure felt as such, when his mouth moulded with yours, a confirmation that he was strangely perfect for your own two lips, that he was meant to embed himself upon your mouth. 
You closed your eyes, heart climbing up your chest as your hands skimmed around his neck. Chan began his movements, and you were so unaccustomed to the actions that you could not help but be led by his kiss. The man had a way of making you listen to his every order, vocalised or not. 
The kiss was so...unreal. It was all that rang in your mind, over and over as the man took his time; he carried out a sensual rhythm upon your lips, not only to avoid overwhelming you, but to fully take in his situation — that he was kissing you, and no other girl who he had never dreamed of. 
He had all the time in the world for this.
The hand upon your waist gripped onto you a little harder, nails skirting around the hem of your shirt. His tongue teased you now, running along for entrance, to delve inside and drink in your every essence. Your mouth practically begged the man to prowl inside, opening up to him completely, a signal of full trust. 
You wanted this as much as he did. 
His elated rush was expressed through his tongue, when it slithered inside your mouth. Butterflies erupted in your body at the way he swirled it along with yours, almost playing with your tongue as if you both did. Of course, this is slightly different, because your gimmicks with Chan never had you salivating at the mouth. Nor feeling like you’re about to leak into your clothes from his touches.
Which really was the situation you ended up in; Chan, his hand now skimming under your shirt, revelling the skin of your abdomen, warming beneath his touch. The hand, once upon your face, had latched upon your locks, while you ran your fingers through his own velvety hair, nearly undoing yourself over the soft feel. 
Just when you thought he was going in for more, he broke away, hands still upon you — your breathing was ragged, the man in front of you panting slightly as well. His eyes, with no small amount of surprise, seemed a little feverish, whether that be from a random cold he contracted during the minutes he kissed you, or…
Or, as you found yourself biting your lip, he took an intoxicated toll over you, and how exquisite it was to drive his tongue in your mouth.
“Better than Rapunzel?” He whispered, so close his breath fanned your lips, spit-slick thanks to him. 
You made sure he was aware of your fingers threading in his locks, eliciting a low murmur. “Rapunzel better not leave the tower again.”
Chuckling, he wasted no time before he was upon you again, an invisible leash on him threatening to snap. He drove the shirt higher, skirting up your sides until he broke away from you for a mere second before peeling the shirt off of you and tossing it beside him.
Heaving, the sight of you in a bra was making the leash all the more tight, hands never leaving your sides as he latched onto your neck. Leaving open-mouthed kisses, down and down until his lips trailed past your collarbone, you let the moans leave your mouth, heightened and quick and unexpected. Suddenly he descended on you, kneeeling on the floor with hands following suit. 
Pleasure. You were oozing with pleasure as you hurried for the hems of his black hoodie, needing to have it off and run your hands on the expanse of his chest. Chan, a little preoccupied, did not realise your demands until you whined out your request.
“Chan—!” you gasped out as his lips left your belly, fingers upon the buttons of your trousers. “Hoodie, I need it off!”
The man only continued with his task, taking the zip down. “Up,” he rushed out, gesturing with his hand.
Dazed, you replied with a confused murmur, only understanding the need to take his stupid hoodie off.
He looked up from his endeavours, and the sight of him hovering between your legs nearly undid you. “I mean your hips, baby, put them up.” He grabbed onto the sides of your jeans. “I wanna take this off.”
Gulping, you raised your hips, giving Chan ease to pull your jeans, all the way down until your legs were bare, save for the soiled underwear which he instantly landed his eyes on. 
His mouth slipped out an uneasy fuck, which was just the right way to have you leaking even further. “Chan, come on,” you hurried, seething at the throbbing. 
His hands pushed you back on the couch, travelling down until they caressed the back of your knees. Pulling you closer from there, he leaned in until he was a few inches away from your moistened cunt, hurting more the longer he made you wait.
It wasn’t his fault, really. He still felt as if he’s living a dream he did not deserve. 
Fingers drumming against the back of your knees, the man blew a little upon your folds, and you let out a strained hiss at the soft breeze. This hypersensitivity was going to be your undoing, but even the smallest of actions brought you such thrill.
“I’m about to spoil you good, ____,” he whispered, and before you could reply, he descended.
The first kitty lick along the surface had you in shock.
Tendrils of pleasure gushed inside you, lurking all over your body as Chan swiped his tongue along the outside of your cunt, teasing, shying away, awaiting your reaction. You answered him with an indecipherable noise, a sound which had never escaped you before.
Maybe because no one had ever played with your cunt like this.
You truly had wasted your time with Hyunjin — this man, tasting your arousal, let out a satisfied hum, and when he dug deeper with his tongue, spreading your legs further, the moans you let escape were, for the first time, absolutely real. No acting, no bullshit.
Just like your best friend promised.
“Chan—!” You stuttered out, when he began circling your clit. “God, just like that!” You encouraged further, hips shaking at the way he made a mess of you. 
In response his hands left your legs, pressing them upon your hips. To your horror he paused his actions, peering up from your legs. 
The slick shining upon his lips could well have made you cum on his face right then and there. “I need you to stay still, baby,” he said, his hands on your hips keeping you in place, as his eyes did the same. “So I can do this properly.
“I don’t want you getting half-assed pleasure, okay?”
His soft demands, his calm explanations brought you in a further state of frenzy. You could not nod faster, chuckling emitting from him as his hands travelled down once more. 
“Good girl.”
And his mouth was upon your cunt again, this time the leash finally snapping as his tongue hardened against the seams. Your moans could have been heard in the hallways, but you didn’t particularly care when Chan, in the midst of his ravenous lapping, introduced the prospect of his fingers, caressing your dripping folds, swiping them over around the edges.
You didn’t know what to do — your hands scrambled to fist the fabric of the couch, laying back against the pillows. The hold grew tighter when your best friend slid his middle finger inside of you.
The journey may have been slow, but that was what made it all the more delightful. Feeling it go deeper and deeper had a particularly loud groan flying out of you, but the rhythm he adopted, pulling it out, but then diving it back again without leaving your cunt, had you delirious. 
A once foreign, unimaginable feeling you never thought you’d experience, was back inside — the heavy sensation deep within your gut, like a dull ache which grew more known the harder Chan worked between your legs. The feeling you had only ever experienced when you imagined Donghyuck instead of your ex-boyfriend in this similar situation. 
Fuck, there it is, you thought. The feeling of your incoming orgasm.
And it was not going to go if this man worked harder than the devil tonight.
“Chan—fuck—” you got cut off when he increased the speed of his finger inside of you. “I-I’m close.”
Never ceasing his finger, he looked up at you, hooded eyes welcoming you despite the tenderness on his face. “You’re doing so good, ____. So fucking good for me,” he cooed, melting your heart despite the situation. 
This time, he accompanied his fingering with a second digit, stretching out your walls and working harmoniously together in making you submit to him. Already you felt as if he’d filled you up, and the actions of his digits practically scissoring inside of you had every muscle in your body readying for release.
He dove back in, merciless to your clit, and all this work, everything at once, was so much that when you cried out, your release had to follow through. You couldn’t control yourself as you let your cum escape, staining the couch and the floor — most importantly, how most of it landed in Chan’s mouth. 
Breathing unevenly, and louder than you ever thought possible, you closed your eyes, slumping further into the couch. You sensed an emptiness inside you, and figured Chan had taken out his fingers. Opening your eyes, you saw him close your legs together, propping his head upon your lap, hands supporting his chin. He looked up at you, licking his lips free of your residue.
Oh. My. Fucking. God.
The man smiled at you. “Satisfied?” he asked, fingers caressing your skin. 
Oh, of course you were. Damn it, you were more than satisfied — you were positively elated. If he had managed to make you cum with his fingers and tongue alone, imagine what he could have done with his dick.
You blinked. 
Imagine what he could have done with his dick.
“____?”
Perking up, you looked to the man kneeling before you still, anticipation brimming in his stature. “Please tell me you didn’t fake it.”
Embarrassment engulfed your body at the idea. “Chan, if you really think I faked all of that then I deserve an Oscar.”
Pride washed over his features. “Good.”
You then watched him slowly get up, climbing over you, hands skirting up your figure till he captured your face in his hands and pressed his lips against yours. You had enough strength to kiss him back, but failed to exceed him when he began nibbling upon the swell of your lip, making you revert to stage one of your growing need all over again.
Breaking away, you glanced up at him, holding onto his hoodie. “I want...more.”
The man stilled his actions, hands going limp upon your skin. You had about three seconds of panicking as you tugged on his clothes, whispering, “Wait, Chan, it’s okay if—”
But suddenly, his hands left your face, and the panic increased with you being lifted into the air, his hold under your knees and back as he brought you close to his chest. 
His eyes upon you were a hazard to your well-being. “God, ____, you could really ruin me.”
Your flustered nature was interrupted by Chan rushing to his bedroom, kicking the door open with his feet and pressing quick kisses upon your mouth, your cheeks, all over your face as you giggled out in reaction, arms locked around him.
His room was the same as his attire, black on black on even more black, save for a few gold corners and grey instruments settled in the far end of the space. His bed, however, was vast and comfortable, a place you have slept in many a time when late night recording sessions turned into sleepovers.
Gently, he laid you down on his bed, feeling the cool sting of the night air on your cunt, making you shiver. Your bra was useless in keeping you warm, but when Chan began to take off his hoodie, shirt dragging out along with it, you suddenly began to feel a lot hotter.
Discarding the clothes, you were rewarded with the image of shirtless Chan, slightly disheveled due to his endeavours between your legs. His smile revealed a hint of arrogance as he acknowledged your blatant staring, slowly taking off his sweatpants. 
“Careful, baby, or you’ll cum right there,” he mused, noticing the way your legs shivered in ecstasy. He dumped his clothes along with the others, catching sight of his Calvins barely containing his erection.
You felt the mattress press down as he prowled to you upon the bed, the more chaos erupting in your gut the further he came closer. You could barely contain yourself when he hovered over you, lips mere inches from yours. A powerful force within you halted your very breath — you knew, though, that at this particular moment, your entire soul rested in the hands of this man, looking at you through long lashes. 
He enveloped your lips, grinding his clothed erection against your cunt, drinking in your whines, your silent pleas of replacing it with the real deal. He smirked against your mouth, opening the seams as his one hand grabbed onto yours, leading it to the waistband of your boxers. 
Your fingers fumbled to take peel down the fabric, Chan parting from your lips to take it off entirely. His cock sprang free, and you let out a god-awful, shrill-like noise at the way it stood, red and angry and so very fucking big. 
“Fuck me,” you slipped out in a breath, earning a chuckle from him. 
“I very much plan to,” he had the nerve to reply, you wanting very much to slap his shit-eating grin off of him. Or perhaps kiss it till your breath was lost. 
Embarrassed, you tried to look away, but his fingers gripped your chin, leading your eyes to his. Other hand holding onto your hip, he gently positioned himself between your legs, precum already staining your folds. Breathing stunted, your stare reflected subservience, a request to bury his dick inside you already.
He read your every plea. 
Pressing his forehead against yours, he let out a shuddered breath before beginning the final descent.
Slowly, ever so slowly, Chan slid his cock inside — your mouth parted from the transition, at the tightening sensation as he kept going, burying those inches until your eyes were as wide as saucers, unable to look away from him. You dared not move, fear of snapping more a reality in your head than some far-fetched delusion.
Dragging his stare from your slit to your face, he caressed your cheek, offering you a small smile.
“Don’t be quiet, okay?” he asked, hand on your hip like iron. 
Nodding, it was all the signal he needed.
Just as gradually, he began to slide out, and, with his words in mind, you let yourself be shameless. The rhythm of his hips, the pain-stakingly tempered movement, made you whine profusely, and when the man slithered inside once more, moaning lewdly was your only reaction. It was all your brain could think of, when his cock was the sole deity which mattered in this moment.
His pace began to fasten, though, grunting erratically as his grip on you tightened. Your cunt was taking a toll, your second orgasm of the night a great possibility as you felt it inside you, as tangible as the dick being pushed and pulled out into you. 
“F-faster!” you wailed out, and God bless Chan, for he obliged you completely, increasing his rhythm, practically abusing your slit with the way he fucked into you. Tears pricked the corner of your eyes, and you let them fall, for there was no hiding your emotions with this man.
Your best friend could see right through you anyway. 
Chan’s strength seemed unhuman as he thrusted his cock into you faster and faster, and you knew if he did not stop then you would cum all over for the second time. The very image had you on the edge of your sanity.
When his cock hit your g-spot you really believed yourself hitting seventh heaven of delight. White spots blurred your vision, tears now your beloved companion as they trailed down your cheeks. “I’m c-close, fuck—” you tried to voice, but were cut off when slid out once more, tip never leaving your folds. 
His hair stuck to his forehead, beads of sweat peppered on his face as he crushed you with his lips, relishing your whines. His tongue befriended yours, and the swirling of your muscles with each other had brought a new form of high bubbling within you. 
You moaned his name onto his lips, hands sliding around his neck, pulling you as close as physically possible. This was it. You could not wait any longer. You wanted your undoing, and you wanted it now, in these sheets, within his arms, within his hypnotic presence. 
It was incredibly fortunate that Bang Chan could read you like the back of his hand.  
Parting from your mouth, he kissed a sloppy trail all the way to your ear, lips grazing against the lobe. 
“Go on, then,” he purred, leaving a small kiss to your skin. “Cum for me.”
His words were all you needed before you let yourself go, crying out as release poured from the tight spaces your cunt offered, and onto the sheets below. You wheezed in a few breaths, tired gasps gripping your body.
Chan, within the second, pulled out, just in time for him to let out a pained growl as he came onto his bedsheets. Some of the fluids sullied your legs, but seemed the perfect time as he collapsed right beside you, breathing as heavily as you were. 
You and Chan were the only noise in the room — however, if one could translate emotions into sound, that would be an entirely different matter. 
At least for you. You could barely contain your elation.
An emptiness may be present inside of you, but it was now replaced with a full heart. Fuck, you could not believe you had finally been given pleasure, such unadulterated satisfaction that you wondered whether it truly occurred, or was just another fantasy — this time with Chan’s face plastered rather than your infatuation of the month.
Sensing the said-man move, you turned to your side, smiling to see his stare fixated on you. Shifting closer, he curled a stray lock from your face behind your ear. “How’re you feeling?” he asked gently, hand on your face still.
You laid your head against your arm. “I am so pissed I didn’t break up with Hyunjin sooner.”
Laughing, his fingers trailed downward, sketching onto your collarbone. “You…” he paused, biting his lip with what you saw, surprisingly, as apprehension. “You really liked it?” 
Your eyes darted to the surroundings, smirk spreading across your lips. “I mean, I am an insanely good actress...”
His shock horror had you spluttering into laughter. When he tried to turn his back to you and sulk, you held onto his arm, keeping him in place. “Oh, stop! You know I’m joking, you big oaf.”
Pouting, he wrapped an arm around you, pulling you close. “You better be,” he muttered, earning further giggles from his truly. The laughter was replaced with your yawning, which Chan instantly picked up on. “Hey, ____, you should sleep.” He began stroking your hair. “You’re really tired.”
You tried to object, but your intended groans become more deep yawns, proving his point. He passed his fingers over your eyelids, fluttering them close. “I’m not hearing anything else!”
Stinging out your tongue in what you hoped was at his direction, you grudgingly obliged. “Fine.”
You felt him sigh upon your face. “Goodnight, baby.”
“Goodnight, Hyuck.” 
“Nevermind, I hope you have a terrible sleep.”
With your last round of exhausted laughter, you let yourself fall into oblivion, safe in your best friend’s arms. 
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YOU WOKE UP WITH CHAN ALREADY GONE.
It was not such a huge disappointment. The man had warned you before that he had to leave early to meet up with his supervisor. In all honesty, maybe it was good he was not there, next to you in his sheets. 
Your hands gripped those very sheets, raising them right under your chin as you looked up to the ceiling, watching the dried swirls of black paint overlapping each other.
“Oh my God.”
Indeed. Here you were, in your best friend’s bed, basking in his scent, in his world. Of course, you always seemed to smell of him, considering you both never seemed to let go of each other, but last night was different.
Obviously, because Bang Chan had never rocked your shit before. 
Your legs began to tingle at the thought. Even the mere memory had you feeling a mysterious sensation all over your body, reminders of the places Chan had looked, touched, tasted. God, you did not think, did not let yourself think further or you’d be calling that man this second.
You knew you had to get up at some point — you had some recording to do today, and more assignments to hand in. You had tasks, obligations to take care of. Unfortunately, the warmth of your best friend’s bed was much too enticing for you to submit to the requests of reality, and so you let yourself lay there for moments longer, in hope you can recreate the scene in your head once more.
There was no lie about this. Bang Chan knew how to fuck you into another dimension. 
Just when you were about to dream into last night, your phone vibrated harshly against the bedside table. Curious, you stretched out your hand, grabbing the object and checking who so rudely disturbed your shameless manifesting.
CHRIS THE PISS: 
just stopped by the medical room,,, want me to get a wheelchair?
CHRIS THE PISS:
cause im sure asf u can’t walk rn 
You rolled your eyes until it hurt. Stupid prick.
YOU:
i haven’t gotten out of bed actually 
CHRIS THE PISS:
oh damn
CHRIS THE PISS:
i PARALYSED u??
CHRIS THE PISS:
why am i so powerful 
“This asshole,” you muttered. 
YOU:
STFUU COCKY MF
CHRIS THE PISS: 
It’s ok you’ll cute in a wheelchair
YOU:
?!?!?!?!!?!
CHRIS THE PISS:
but tell me 
CHRIS THE PISS:
how good was it
This had you pausing. 
CHRIS THE PISS:
outta ten
Now here was a rating you couldn’t bring yourself to confess.
All you wanted to do was give him a solid ten — the man finally offered you a better view of sex and how it can be appreciated, and the way he guided you through it was more than just adequate.
But the thing was, you and Chan hadn’t ever given each other 10/10s.
A perfect score was a rarity in your dynamic; possibly a rating never revealed before because you and Chan had promised each other never to exaggerate on this system. The only time you had ever used the solid ten was when he made you his first ever song at the tender age of nine. At the time, it was a terrible tune, with beats all over the damn place with no form of rhythm, but because he made it especially for you, you voiced your true opinion and rated him the perfect score.
Again, the situation here was different.
So, instead of the truth, you resorted to irritation. 
YOU:
2/10 :)
You waited for his text.
However, you did not receive it.
Only the shrill ringtone of your phone, snapping you further into consciousness. 
Groaning, you swiped right onto the screen, pressing the speaker button.
“Now I know you’re lying!”
Laughing, you propped the phone beside you on the bed, upon the place where Chan would have been. “You got a big ego there, hun.”
“That may be true, but my cock is bigger, so I still win.”
You were glad he was not here — the man would have sensed your embarrassment in an instant. 
It was worse because he was not lying. “Now tell me, Pinocchio,” he continued, voice interrupting as the noise of the students around him came through the receiver. “Out of ten.”
“I already messaged it to you, buddy,” you said impassively, or at least you tried. “A solid two would suffice.”
God, you could almost feel your nose growing.
Perhaps he felt it too, for he answered, with no small amount of pride, “I’m gonna pretend I fucked you so good you forgot how to think properly.”
You could not help gulping, raising the sheets over you. It wasn’t exactly hard on boning, but even so...you really thought for a second you’d lose all feeling in your legs last night.
“Shut up, Chan.”
“Shut up, Chan,” he parroted, which had you threatening to hang up. “Don’t think I’ve let you go on this subject.”
“Try me, buddy,” you jeered.
“And for Christ’s sake, stop calling me ‘buddy’,” he demanded. “Or else I’m pulling a Hyunjin.”
“A Hyunjin?”
“Yeah, a Hyunjin.” You heard the sound of horns blaring at the end of his call. “Ruining your sex life.”
That nearly made you freak. “Damn, I won’t say it again, Christopher Bang, musical name Bang Chan, nicknamed Chris the Piss—”
You heard his chuckling through the phone. “All that for my dick. I must have changed your life, ____.”
Heating up from his stupid comments, you grabbed the phone from the table. “I’ll see you in the studios, asshole.”
His smugness ran rich in his voice. “Buh-bye, baby.”
The minute the call ended, you sighed heavily, clutching the phone to your chest.
He did change your life.
Not necessarily your entire life, but certainly a huge aspect of it. A small part of you was horrified at how easily he shifted your daily balance, making you ponder over him more often, with much more intensity than before. Were you a sex maniac? Were you so deprived of being touched that one night of fun had you begging like a woman starved?
“Whatever,” you groaned, swinging your legs to the side of the bed, and upon the carpet. “Fuck Chan.”
Hopefully tonight.
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FUCKING AROUND WITH CHAN MIGHT HONESTLY BE THE BEST DECISION YOU HAVE EVER MADE IN A LONG, LONG TIME.
And you weren’t the one to make good decisions. You get up an hour before the afternoons, drink Pepsi Max to compensate for your lack of water drinkage, and worst of all, you would gladly sell your body for Colin Firth, especially if he dressed himself up as Mr. Darcy at his age. Whatever setbacks you possessed, you knew that this, at least, was a step in the right direction.
Bang Chan may have been as big a loser as you were, but the man made you feel like a powerful entity. Hell, in all the state, with the way he made you act.
Never before had you become so daring — libraries, which were once your place of study, became a rendezvous for his slender fingers inside your cunt. The living room had become a breeding ground, and even your shower was stained of your promiscuity. There was no place left where you and Chan hadn’t done something scandalous, and you wondered, with no small amount of excitement, on how this new side of your friendship with him would progress. 
These thoughts accompanied you as you walked to your destination. It was not far off as you entered campus, and smiled at the few students who passed by.
Soon, you found yourself in the music department, and walked through the familiar halls, littered with posters of different artists and singers in their peak careers. A few trophies were boasted of behind a glass screen, but the surroundings all became irrelevant when you approached your designated music rooms.
Expecting Chan to be inside, headphones adorned, you did not bother knocking, strolling straight into the room. However, you stopped completely when a giant, hoodie-clothed back did not greet you.
Instead, it was a tinier hoodie-clothed back, faded yellow over the trademark black. Although not your best friend, you instantly recognised the alternative, and smiled.
“Jisung!”
The boy did not seem to hear, for he kept bobbing his head, no doubt trying out beats. 
You tiptoed slpwly until you stood right behind him. Then, in a flash, you snapped your hands upon his shoulders.
“Boo!”
A shrill, terrified yell erupted, chair being swivelled suddenly as the back hit against the controls. You took a step back out of shock too, a choked giggle escaping when you beheld the face of Han Probably-shit-his-pants-Jisung. 
“Oh my fucking God,” he rasped out, hand on his chest. He then locked eyes with you, and suddenly his quivering mouth melted into a smile of relief. “Ah, ____!”
“The one and only.” You sat down on the neighbouring chair. “Sorry if I made you shit your pants. It was fully attended.”
“Stop,” he insisted, taking off his headphones and scooting a little closer to you. “These are new jeans as well.”
“Not my fault if you’re a pussy,” you chanted, picking up the headphones, settling them upon your ears. “Can I listen?”
“Of course!” Jisung pressed a few keys on his laptop, and the music began. 
Your eyes widened in surprise to hear pleasant, almost lo-fi background before his voice flooded in, comforting you with his soft lilt and meaningful lyrics. On instinct your head bobbed along to the rhythm of the beat, smiling at the wordplay and the rising vocals.
“Jisung, this is really good!” you exclaimed. The boy waved off the compliment, but you instantly saw his face reddening. “Oh, stop it, you know that you’re one of the best out here.”
If you thought he couldn’t get more flustered, he proved you incredibly wrong. “Don’t say that,” he shrilled, propping his feet up on the chair and hugging his legs tightly. When he saw the look on your face, though, he smiled, teeth and all. “Thank you, ____. It means a lot coming from you.”
“Oh, I’m no musical genius,” you said, pressing the play button to hear his music. “Just a motherfucker who can appreciate a song of the year when she hears one.”
Jisung nearly passed out from your compliment, but you did not take it much into account as you focused all your attention on the piece. It was an undoubted fact that Han Jisung was an extremely talented dude. You already knew you could never compete with him, but he was certainly up to Chan’s level of musical expertise. With all this talent brimming around you, you made a mental note never to make more gifted friends in the future. 
Once the song ended, you took off the headphones, propping them gently upon the table. “I think you’ve inspired me to do some actual work.” 
The boy was still smiling as he reached his hand out, planting it upon your own on the table. “Well, I’m honoured to be your inspiration.” His eyes reached yours, and you were engulfed with his warmth. “The feeling is more than mutual.”
You offered him a grin, and were about to say something when the door opened.
Turning, you were welcomed by Chan’s dark figure at the studio entrance, holding two cups of coffee. Despite his black attire, you found yourself admiring a little too brazenly the bare face he never exposed in public, the beanie hiding his curls, and the tick in his jaw, which heightened further when he took in the scene.
The actions were quick — the darting of his eyes as they started on you, then travelled to your hand, engulfed with another’s. He raised them to the man guilty of the touch, and found himself staring at Jisung, beaming not only from you anymore, but at the arrival of his friend.
The joy was not returned. 
“Chan!” Jisung greeted, letting go of your hand innocently as he ushered your best friend over. 
He nodded in return, gaze back to you as he walked, a little too slowly, to the two of you. He put the two beverages upon the table next to the keyboards. “I didn’t know you were in as well,” he said. After a pause, he added, “I would have gotten another coffee.”
“Nah, it’s okay,” he assured him, even though it did not look like he needed any reassurances. 
Catching onto Chan’s attitude, you slid your coffee to the boy beside you. “I don’t want any right now. You take it.”
You took note of the pursed lips, and ignored it as Jisung widened his eyes. “No, no, it’s okay—”
“Ji, I insist,” you pestered him, driving the cup within his grasp. “You look so tired.”
He offered you a lovely smile before taking the beverage. “Thank you.”
Chan, watching this little conversation, had him clamping his lips together, possibly to not say something stupid. It was a little habit of his, thankfully in action. He slid the other cup to you. “You can have mine.”
You looked up at him. “I’m good, buddy.”
He narrowed his eyes. “Share.”
You rolled your own, taking a sip of the coffee, and thanked yourself for not being petty enough to refuse him. “Fine.” 
Jisung swivelled his chair so he faced Chan, fingers upon his laptop. “Do you wanna listen to the demo?” He grabbed the headphones, holding it out to him. “I’m nearly done with it.”
“You can send it to me later,” was his curt answer, as he took the cup from you and drank. 
You looked at him in exasperation, but the boy nodded in satisfaction, picking his bag off the floor. “That’s chill!” he said, heaving off the chair. “I got all the time, so don’t worry too much about it.”
He then turned to the two of you as he strolled to the door. “Actually, I’ve been meaning to ask you both something.”
“Spit it out, then,” Chan jeered, which had you glaring at him. What the fuck was his problem?
Jisung did not catch on, continuing. “So, later this week, Changbin and I are throwing a party, and I was hoping you both would like to come.”
You perked up at that piece of information. “That’s something I like to hear!” Snatching the coffee cup from your friend, you purposefully took a huge gulp. “Any specific date?”
“I was hoping Friday night.” A small sip of his drink. “We just wanted to have some fun after a difficult week, dissertations and all.” His gaze never faltered from yours. “You in?”
Chan, noticing, settled in the space previously taken, and raised a hand in objection. “Sorry, Ji. ____ and I always do something Friday night. Gotta uphold the tradition.” 
You turned to face him, a brow raised. He wasn’t wrong, in all honesty. But why did he mention it now?
Jisung, too, was a little curious. “Oh?” He fixed the strap of his bag. “I won’t get in the way, then.”
He turned, and you made to open your mouth only to have Chan press a finger to your lips. His brows were furrowed, which you matched until he left the finger as the boy looked back once more. 
“I’ll see you around, guys!” he exclaimed, eyes sliding to you before opening the door, and leaving the studio.
After a few seconds of silence, you faced your friend, who had the audacity to sigh in relief. “What the fuck was that?”
The man shrugged. “I don’t know what you mean.”
“Yes you do!” you finished the last of the coffee, throwing the empty cup in the bin nearby. “Why were you being such a dick to Jisung?”
“No I wasn’t,” he only said. “I was being the perfect gentleman.”
“Stop it, man!” You couldn’t believe his stupidity in the situation. “He was being so lovely, asking for your opinion on his music, inviting us to his party and shit. Why were you being so mean?” 
Chan only shook his head, turning away from you as he made to put his headphones on. You, on the other hand, were not going to be satisfied with silence, and grabbed his arm, wrenching him toward you. “Chan?!”
He turned to look at you, and you hitched in a breath — you had never really pondered over your friend’s angered face, nor really drank in his heightened features before. However, in this moment in time, with his eyes darkened, bare face twisted, frizzy morning curls all over the place, you had to stop yourself from the butterflies fluttering downwards. You’re supposed to be mad, not horny.
Your hand upon his arm — his tensed bicep, specifically — seemed almost feeble now. Still, you were glad it was on there, if only to feel his muscle bulge.
Chan studied you and your dazing, and made you jump when he guttered. “What?”
Instantly getting back to the situation, you cursed yourself silently for letting your desires try to take the reins. “I said,” you continued, trying your hardest not to be fazed by his eyes, “Why are you being such a massive prick to Ji?”
He cocked his head slightly, and if he leaned any further his lips would brush against yours. “I’m being a massive prick, ____, because he really fucking likes you.”
You felt hands upon your waist, tugging you off your seat. With a yelp you found yourself upon the man’s lap, hands encircling you fully.
Even though you looked down at him, his stare had you shaking. “And that really fucking pisses me off.”
You couldn’t suppress a shudder, an action which had not gone unnoticed. A smile ghosting his face, he craned his neck upwards, catching your lips and rendering you completely at his mercy. Your fingers went straight in his morning curls, carding through the locks as he captured your bottom lip in his, sucking on it to the point a whine escaped you, helpless and shameful. 
He left a trail of heated kisses down your throat, fingers skirting underneath your cardigan, your shirt, and savouring the skin. His mouth landed on a particular part, grazing his teeth against it as he softly nipped at the skin. Your breath quivered at each flushed kiss he branded upon you, but when his free hand began undoing the top buttons of your shirt, you finally called out his name.
“Chan!” you gasped out, shivering at the lovebites stinging your throat. It did not seem like the man would stop, unbuttoning your shirt just so he could glimpse the sliver of your lacy bra, humming with satisfaction. “Chan, w-wait!”
He paused his actions, tilting his head upwards in irritation. “Do you mind?” he asked, pouting too cutely for his words.
“Yes, I do,” you answered, wrapping your arms around his neck. “Why are you so mad, buddy?”
A harsh scoff was your reply. “Well, first of all, because you never stop calling me that.” 
You pinched the back of his neck, but when he pursed his lips, you leaned in, pressing your forehead against his. “Chan, you’re overreacting. He’s just a motherfucker trying to gain your approval.”
“I think it’s more your approval,” he countered, nuzzling his head against your shoulder. “With the way the asshole can’t keep his name out of your mouth. God! And the way he held your hand? Like you were his one and only?!”
“Jealousy isn’t a cute look on you, hun,” you mused, but in reality, you were lying through your teeth. His jealousy was like fuel to your turned on fire.
“Permission to punch him in the face?” 
“You might have to put a hold to that.” 
“Fuck.”
Raising his head, his agitation grew in his eyes as you beheld him. “He just...goddammit, he just makes me so angry at times.”
You played with his curls. “How angry?”
He held onto you tighter. “9/10.”
That certainly made you do a double take. 
9/10. A rare rating, you noticed with quite some surprise. It did reflect the fury which Jisung unintentionally ignited, but you did not realise how much it truly affected him. The two had always been friends, as far as you were concerned, but you had to admit that Chan never really felt as easy with him as he did with you.
Of course, because you were his closest friend.
“I know,” he said then, snapping you out of your thoughts. “It’s...unreasonable...but I don’t care. I really don’t give a shit.”
Clamping your lips together, you watched him look away, swaying you back and forth upon his lap. Well, you couldn’t have a dear friend sulking away when you knew Jisung meant nothing and less to you.
Suddenly, a very pleasing idea came to mind. 
“Chan,” you murmured, fingernails grazing against his neck.
 Sensing goosebumps form there, you were met with his undecipherable gaze. “Yeah?”
You brushed a chaste kiss to his forehead. “How about,” you began, trailing down to his nose, “I help…” you carried on, another kiss to the corner of your mouth. “Soothe your irritation?”
Although completely compliant to your touches, he grumbled, “The only way you can do that if you consent to me giving Jisung a broken nose.”
“Hmmm…well...” you peppered another kiss, and felt his hands wander lazily once again. “This is a very close second.”
Catching the implications dwelling in your gaze, you could have sworn the man’s breathing halted. His tongue swept along his teeth, and you had a dire wish to replicate that action with your own tongue.
“Come here, then,” he guttered.
The lower octave had you nearly squealing as you pressed your lips fully onto his, giggling when he responded with twice more ardency, the desperation lurking beneath his physique. He pried your mouth open with his tongue, swirling it along with yours as he pressed your body completely against his, refusing to let you go. 
On instinct you grinded against him, sensing the outline of his boner beneath you with no small amount of excitement. He groaned into your mouth at the friction, digging his fingers into your skin.
It was a dire shame you had to break away from the kiss, catching his disappointment. “Tease,” you heard him mumble, which had you pecking his lips quickly before sliding your own down his neck, leaving his skin altogether.
Slumping downward, you kneeled before Chan as he spread his legs before you, struggling down his black trousers till he revealed the angry outline of his erection underneath his dark boxers. You noticed, with pride, how the top of the fabric was stained with arousal. 
“I think your dick is angrier than you around Jisung right now,” you said, failing to contain your amusement. 
Chan’s eyes promised murder. “I’m so glad my cock will shut your stupid mouth up,” he jeered. 
Thank God you were kneeling, cause that comment alone would have made you fall.
Shuffling closer, you raised your hand to his boxers, feeling his clothed length between your fingers. The touch had your friend growling much too loud, a reaction you enjoyed thoroughly. 
“How about a little less teasing,” he seethed, gripping onto the arms of his chair, “And a little more sucking, baby?” 
Baby. You didn’t know why now, of all times, it struck a deep chord within you. His command had you reaching for the waistband, pulling his boxers down until his cock sprang free. 
The image had you remembering your Lord and Saviour. 
You don’t know why you kept forgetting how insanely big Chan’s cock really was. Its length was inside of you on almost a daily basis, so maybe all this foolery had finally gotten to your head. Observing it now, hard and veiny as it curved against his stomach, the only reaction you could offer was your mouth breaking its seams. 
“Staring at it won’t be enough, ____.”
Gulping, you planted one hand upon his leg, the other wrapping around the shaft. Even the slightest contact had the man hissing, making you smirk at his helplessness. Slightly gurgling, you spat on the head, lubing his member with your fingers, and then you began.
A string of groans escaped him as you commenced, a slow rhythm of pumping his cock as your hand moved up and down. The repetition was constant, neverending as Chan’s grip on his chair threatened to snap the plastic, but you dared not slow down. You knew this was not how he gained his satisfaction — he needed a perfect graduality, a refined art-like stroke or else he’d lose his high. Fortunate for him, though, you never let him down.
You increased your pumping, sensing him containing his moans. You could feel him holding back, but that didn’t stop you at all. In fact, that only had you progressing to the next step, an action that would have him screaming your name.
Shifting even closer, you spread his legs further, Chan’s eyes rooted to you as you directed the tip to your mouth. Letting your tongue free, you swept it along the shaft, and sure enough, an obscenely loud moan emitted from his truly. Chuckling, you carried on, trailing all the way up to the head and ending your journey with an ironically chaste kiss. Staring up at him, you smugly observed his lust-struck face, mouth releasing irregular breaths already. You couldn’t wait to have him curse at you.
Eyes back on the task at hand, you grabbed the base of his cock, opening your mouth. Slowly, aggravatingly slow, you sunk down, taking in inch by inch — Chan pushed his hips forward, and you nearly gagged at the impact of his head hitting the back of your throat. 
“Shi-shit baby,” he sputtered, watching you in awe at your work. “You better tell me if you don’t want your throat fucked.”
You answered him with your progression, slowly releasing his cock from your lips, tongue licking his slit before descending back on him again. You tried to be slow — you didn’t want to go straight to deepthroating, but the way Chan choked out his curses was sweet encouragement. Holding his dick still, you began bobbing your head and down, shallow at first, testing the waters.
When the man instinctively began bucking his hips, pushing his cock into your mouth further, you opened your jaw wider, taking in the remaining inches. The gag reflex kicked in like a bitch, but you refused to cease your labour as you increased your pace. Chan leaned in a little, caressing your cheeks as he rutted against your mouth.
“God, you’re fucking perfect, baby,” he cooed breathlessly. “So good for taking my cock like that.”
Unable to smile, you answered him with your hands, now playing with his balls, slapping them slightly to make him groan out in pleasure, head laid back against the chair. “I’m close, ____,” he warned, never stopping his own thrusts. You hoped he never would, when his end was so near.
Taking all of him in, you pressed your hands on his legs, urging you to look at him. With one final home run, you hollowed in your cheeks, surrounding his entire cock in your mouth as you imprisoned him with your hooded gaze.
The image of you, a beautiful ruination, was his undoing. 
Chan let out a vicious string of curses as he released, ropes of cum spilling inside your mouth. He slumped into the chair, breathing in the entire county’s worth of oxygen as all energy left him. This time, to add to his lust-driven shock, you swallowed his release, thanking your lucky stars that your friend finally listened and ate some fruit. His cum, at last, tasted more than bearable. 
After a few silent moments, the man finally raised himself from the dead, sighing as he beheld you kneeling still. “I think I can’t live without you.”
Chuckling, you heaved yourself up, legs unsteady. “That’s just your inner horny speaking,” you said, nearly falling over on your own feet. Quickly, Chan brought you back onto his lap again, creating an iron grip around you.
“Think what you like,” he began, peppering small kisses on your neck. “But your head game is stronger than my will to punch Jisung, that’s for sure.”
You hummed as he plunged his teeth upon a certain spot, pressing your legs together. “It better be.”
Finding your lips, he lazily kissed you, hands skirting higher as you move your mouth against his, never tired from his touches. 
“Have we christened the studio yet?” The man asked in between kisses, pushing his chair forward till your back hit the table. 
You shook your head no, already sensing his unbearable grin. You could not help returning his enthusiasm.
And as you both continued in your shameless arrangements, there was one thought that lingered in your head. 
There was absolutely no way you were going to that party. 
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OF COURSE YOU WERE GOING TO THAT PARTY.
You looked to the building, the whole ground floor alight with different, ever-changing lights, and a dim pandemonium welcoming your ears. Your phone pinged with messages, but you dutifully ignored them, taking a deep breath as you took a step inside.
Greeted with a half-full hallway, it was not hard to find the party house, greeting awkwardly to a few drunk acquaintances before entering Jisung’s dorm. You were instantly hit by the smell of sweat and alcohol as the noise of popular music made your ears ring in discomfort. An abundance of students were cramped as they danced along to the tunes, screaming and laughing and simply enjoying themselves. 
While observing the scene, a small part of you wished your best friend was with you, an arm slung around you as he makes a comment on the specific people dancing rather terribly in the centre. You could already imagine him in his Friday attire, midnight-kissed with gold chains dangling off his belt, rings adorning his fingers and a little makeup to elevate his already exquisite features. Maybe, if you had insisted, he would have let you paint his nails, something which you adored on him. 
Fuck, you thought, searching through the crowd for a place to get a drink. Maybe you shouldn’t have come. 
You shook your head, though, beginning to squeeze through the partygoers. No. You can’t let Chan win in this.
And so you found your way to the kitchen, cans of beer, vodka and tequila stacked in broken pyramids to drink away. Just as you made to grab the Smirnoff your hand brushed against another’s. You turned to the direction, and beamed to see Jisung holding out the can for you.
“____!” he exclaimed, barely heard from the commotion yet could feel his joy radiating from him. “Don’t you have a thing with Chan on Fridays?”
“Well, that can happen every Friday, Ji, but your party was only today,” you answered him, and he was more than satisfied. 
He grabbed the same drink as yours, cracking it open as he looked at you, stare lingering upon your black dress. “I’m really glad you came, love.”
You blinked at the sudden endearment, but before you could say anything Changbin had interrupted the both of you, threatening to bring the roof down with his whining.
“Pleeease Ji, get me away from her!” he begged, holding onto Jisung’s arm and rocking it back and forth. “She keeps tryna drag me into the bedrooms and I can’t do it with her, bro!”
The boy adorned hints of irritancy, but he let himself be led by his friend, glazing at you. “Wait for me,” he requested.
His answer was a little wave, which he returned dutifully as he began to berate his friend for tearing him away from you. Raising your eyebrow, you turned back to the alcohol, finding some soda water and pouring it into the empty cups along with the Smirnoff. You would have drank the vodka straight from the bottle but you decided against drinking your tits off tonight. You didn’t really have a great desire for intoxication. 
You cursed at a few passersby as they bumped against you, nearly knocking the drink off your hands. Fixing your dress, you took the first sip, relishing the strong taste. The songs kept changing, the dancing getting wilder, and at this rate you knew someone was going to get handsy soon. 
Drinking away, you snapped the cup on the table beside you, waiting for Jisung to come back. 
Why did you even come here? 
You instantly soured at the thought.
Still, you could not help pondering further.
You should have stayed home. With him.
You groaned out loud.
It was ridiculous how you were unable to have any idea which didn’t centre around that prick. If he did not want to join you that was on him. 
Then were you feeling miserable?
Great. You poured yourself some more diluted vodka. Now you’re a full-time simp.
That helped you down the drink some more. At least this time, in fortunate circumstances, you were not a lightweight, and so were still completely aware of your surroundings. 
Aware enough to see a more tousled Jisung stagger toward you, giggling like a little child. 
You watched him lunge towards the tequila cans and crack one open, downing half the thing in one go. “Careful, Ji, or you’ll fall to your death!” you warned him, laughing as he exhaled with great exaggeration. 
He staggered to where you were standing, slumping against the wall and taking another can. “I’m so sorry!” he simpered, much too loudly for your sober ears. 
You raised a brow, about to ask him for what but he was already answering your question. “I made you wait so looong!” he dragged, drinking some more. “Look at you! Leaving you all alone.”
“Gee, thanks,” you said dryly, crossing your arms, drink still in hand. “Just say I have zero friends.” 
“Hey, don’t say that!” You were taken aback by Jisung grabbing onto your arm, pulling him to you. He looked you dead in the eyes, wide and alive. “You do not have zero friends!” he declared, louder than before. “I’m your friend.”
Your poor ears hurt like a bitch, but you smiled at his words. “Yes, indeed you are,” you said in earnest. “Thank you, Jisung.”
It was then he blinked slowly, parting his lips as his fingers upon your arm began to wander. “But I wish you didn’t think like that.”
His touch did not go unnoticed at all. You looked at him, raising a brow, but that action went unnoticed. “What do you mean?”
“Come on, you’re a smart girl,” he slurred, voice still soft and innocent as his hand travelled to your shoulder. “You know exactly what I mean.” 
Freezing up, you felt the pads of his fingers caress your face. When he tilted his head, you finally saw what he had been trying to show you since the start of the year, the emotions he was too drunk to hide any longer. 
Lust. Pure lust swirling in his eyes. 
It was like a lightbulb had finally switched on in your grape-sized brain.
“Oh my God!”
Instantly, you pressed your hands to Jisung’s chest, pushing him completely off. He nearly fell flat on his ass, but grabbed the table just in time to stagger back to balance. He glanced upwards, and you saw his eyes widen.
“____?” he got out, but you raised a finger, which he was still intelligent enough to figure out to shut up.
“Ji, what the fuck?” You slapped your drink down on the table, making him jump. 
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry!” he exclaimed, taking another can. “But it’s the truth, damn it, and I’m tired of having to pretend all the time about it!”
Fuck, you suddenly thought, realising that you needed to get out of this crammed residence. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
“Jisung, look—” you started, but he groaned out loud, waving off your answer.
“No, no, I know what you’re gonna say.” He then did a terrible impression of you, simpering, “Oh, Ji, I can’t go out with you because I’m soooo in love with my best friend in the whole wide world!”
You snapped your head to his direction. “What did you just say?”
“You heard me clearly!” He finished off his nth can. “Okay, maybe it isn’t a Romeo and Juliet shit going on, but I know something is going on between you two!”
A laugh huffed out of you, but the boy was not convinced. “We’re just friends. Good friends, that’s all.”
Your answer was a hysterical bout of laughter, confusing you even further. “Come on, ____. I’m stupid, but not completely braindead.”
He took a step closer to you, careful of your hands still. “I know Chan practically adores you.”
This little statement made your shit freeze. “Stop it,” you murmured.
“Why?” he demanded. “Because I’m saying something the both of you refuse to listen to?” 
“It’s none of your business,” you snapped. “Don’t get mad because I don’t wanna go out with you.”
“I’m not mad because of that.” With one last tequila can, he grabbed it, turning on his heel. “I’m mad because the both of you keep lying to yourselves.” 
Before you could counter back, the boy stumbled away from you, hollering to the crowd to leave some space on the dance floor for him. You wondered for a second how he’d handle dancing when he could barely walk properly, but then your thoughts drifted back to the more dire subject at hand.
“Fuck,” you cursed out loud this time. 
There it was. The question you should have addressed ever since you started this arrangement with Chan.
Were you really just friends? 
You knew the question to that yourself. Both you and him had transcended past that point now, and in a horrifying realisation, you didn’t mind it that much. After experiencing his touch, his whispers, you doubt that you could ever see him as a friend again. 
But...to be more?
Fuck indeed. You had a lot to think about tonight.
“But first,” you muttered, “To be out of this stupid party.” 
Quickly, after taking two Smirnoff cans, you squeezed past the million drunkards, making your way to the exit. When you were out of the residence, you breathed in the cool night air, a rarity in these sweaty dorm rooms. 
You had a small hope, as you walked down the lanes, that Chan would be there, right at the entrance as you left, but he was not there. He had a little habit of going wherever you were supposed to be if you were not home at the expected time, worried sick if you had drank or done something more stupid than usual. 
But he was not here today. Maybe going to Jisung’s party made him extremely pissed.
There was a reason he rated it 9/10.
Soon, you were at your building, entering inside and finding your door at the very end of the hallway. Fishing out the keys, you slid them into the lock, careful of the cans, hearing the click! of the unlocking.
Your hand rested upon the doorknob. Eyes staring at the lifeless colour of the door, you closed your eyes, letting out a deep breath.
Stop worrying. Chan is your best friend.
You turned the knob.
Your best friend.
Pushed the door open. Stepped inside.
Right?
“Back so soon?” 
Your body shivered at the words. Quickly walking inside the living room, you found the back of the sofa greeting you as per usual, with Chan’s head peering on top as he watched the TV. Walking further, you noticed yours and his favourite show playing on the screen.
“Yeah, it was quite boring, but the real question is,” you began, irritation marring your features, “Why are you watching this without me?” 
He didn’t even glance back at you, nor pause the TV. “Oh, I don’t know, ____, maybe because it’s Friday night, and it’s our thing to do this every time? Do tell me if I’m wrong!”
“Shut up, Chan,” you seethed, dumping the Smirnoff on the coffee tables in front of him. “This is the one time I missed this, so stop being such a baby.”
“Oh, so you tell me to shut up,” he jeered, snapping the remote on the table, making you jump slightly. “Fine, I’ll shut up. You won’t hear a word from me again.”
You took a glimpse of his face, and caught this cold fury simmering beneath his skin. Oh no. Had you going to Jisung’s party made him this angry? It was beyond nonsensical now. Bang Chan was the most reasonable man you ever befriended.
Taking in the emotions inhabiting on his face, however, proved otherwise.
I know Chan practically adores you.
The memory brought chills all over you again. 
Making your way into the kitchen, you figured to make yourself a midnight snack, hearing the crack! of a can opening behind you. Asshole, you refused to voice out loud, but opened the fridge, taking out leftovers and heating it up in the microwave.
“Anything interesting happened, then?” you heard the dry question travel to you. 
Scoffing, you turned, taking out your food. “Oh, I thought I wasn’t hearing a word from you again.”
Your best friend’s smile was anything but sweet. “Well, I figured if you weren’t going to tell me things, I had to ask you myself.”
That snatched any faux amusement you might have harboured. “What the fuck does that mean?”
“You know what the fuck that means!” he snapped, getting up from the couch, pausing the screen. “I can’t believe you’re not telling me.”
“How about a little less attitude and a little more truth, you prick,” you rebuked, putting the cartons on the kitchen counter. 
“Fine, I’ll tell you the truth that you’re too much of a pussy to say yourself!” He thundered into the kitchen, Smirnoff still in hand. 
You backed up against the counter when he caged you with his glare. “Since when did you start going out with Jisung?”
Instantly your brows furrowed. “Who the fuck told you that?” 
“Shit, I knew that bastard wanted to get in your pants,” he roared. “And you let him use you!”
“Woah, woah, buddy, slow down there!” You raised your hands in objection. “I’m not dating Jisung!”
“What?” He took a gulp of the vodka, confusion mixing with his fury. “You’re not?”
“Of course not, the fuck?! Who told you this?”
“He—” but then the cogs turned in Chan’s head, and suddenly it made sense to him. “Oh, for Christ’s sake!”
“What happened?” you asked, but he was drinking some more, cursing himself for even believing such nonsense. “Chan?”
“That son of a bitch called me before you came,” he started, swirling his drink in the can. “And I don’t know why he did, but he kept telling me to back off from you.”
You let out a low curse, but your friend was not finished. “I told him to get some sleep, cause clearly he wasn’t right in the head, but then...he said some words which literally shut me up.”
Then, you saw him hitch in an uncertain breath. “____, he bragged that he asked you out and...and you said yes.” 
His reaction had you widening your eyes, mouth parting just a little. “And, damn it, I thought that this is why she’s so nice to this little fucker, giving him my coffee, or missing Friday night for his stupid party. Hell, even suggesting him first to be her friends-with-benefits.
“Because maybe she liked Jisung all along.”
You watched in horror as he finished his drink, crumbling the can and throwing it in the bin beside you. A shuddered breath escaped you at the explanation, but you sucked it in once more when you blinked back the sheer intensity of this man’s stare. 
“So...yeah.” He ruffled his hair, breaking the stare as he looked away, face flushing with colour. “That’s why I just...yeah.”
A small part of you melted at his words, and his now embarrassment after expressing his desperate worry for you and your potential relationship.
Still, you had some problems that needed solving. “Chan, then why were you so angry at me?!”
You crossed your arms. “You didn’t even wait to hear what I had to say on the matter.”
“I don’t know, okay?!” he exclaimed, propping his hands to his sides. “I heard Jisung saying all that bullshit, and at the time I was so pissed that…”
“I can’t believe you’d think I’d go out with him, you dumbass!”
“Well, I don’t know, he’s just such a nice guy like you keep saying, and all that flowery poetry for him just went straight into my head!” 
The situation almost seemed comical now. “Oh my God, did you really think I liked him?!
“Of course” he cried out, slapping his hands on the counter top next to you, unable to let you escape. As if you even wanted to. “Of course I thought that or else I wouldn’t be shitting my pants all night!”
“Then you’re the dumbest fucking prick I’ve ever met!” you screamed, as you grabbed hold of his hoodie, pulling him closer to you. “Because I don’t like him!
“I like you!”
“Well, I like you too, you stupid bitch!” 
The confession had you both stopping, preventing the two of you going deaf from your shouting. The whole fight was completely ridiculous, but when you looked at each other, drinking in the words that just left your lips, the realisation finally dawned on you. 
I like you too.
Well, shit. There it was.
The one thing you’d been hiding ever since you decided to fool around with him. 
Maybe this was the last way you wanted to tell him, shouting out your declaration to prove his suspicions wrong. It was almost like something out of an unfunny American sitcom — this weird, comic deflation, but at least it was out in the open now.
You had finally told him of your feelings. 
A pinch of that anger brewing within his features settled a little, hands still fisted on your sides. His eyes darted on every point of your face, as if he’s trying to memorise every inch, every detail etched upon your skin. 
Although his blatant awe made you flustered, the aching inside spoke for you. “Are you going to keep staring all night or just kiss me already?” 
God, you were such a bitch.
Chan seemed to think so too. “Nevermind, I fucking hate you,” he snarled, capturing your lips with his in an instant. You smiled against his mouth as you kissed him back with the same intensity, the same need which spread like wildfire in your body.
Kissing him should have become a routine with the amount of times you did it, but every locking of your lips with his sent you in a frenzy, lust-driven emotions spiralling out of control. You welcomed his tongue inside your mouth, the strong taste of tequila and desperation enlivening your inner workings, heightening your need for him, him, and only him.
His hands had no restrictions — the pads of his fingers had their very own needs, their own desire to feel every crevice of your body, your every curve and corner till you have no secret stored in your figure which they did not know of. You welcomed their ravaging, embraced their interrogation as they tried to uncover everything you held dear. 
Once these hands found a weakness in the form of your dress altogether, they cleverly found an opening, reaching for the end of your dress lined at your thighs. His fingers hitched the hem upwards, skirting it higher until it bunched at your waist, revealing a red, silken thong, embroidered with black thread. You relished in Chan practically salivating all over the image, but his lust slapped him out of his dazing, and hurried to get it off, hands slipping it down your legs until it was discarded on the kitchen floor. 
In an instant the man thrust two fingers inside of you, stretching your walls and creating a hypnotic rhythm of removing and inserting them back again. Your moans could bring down the whole residence, but none of you cared when Chan was scissoring you with his digits on the kitchen counter, desire radiating off his stature, and a determination to completely ruin you stark on his face. 
“M-more!” You begged, knowing you could take it, and you were rewarded with a third finger, filling you up as you cried out in pleasure. His mouth quietened you, sucking on your lower lip and then taking all of you, had you delirious, but this insanity only progressed as the thrust of his fingers hit lighting speed. 
The three digits had quickened your potential release, right on the tip of your cunt if he did not stop. “I’m g-gonna—fuck—!” 
You were interrupted as Chan’s lips left yours, trailing down to your neck, collarbone, brushing his teeth between your chest as he fell to his knees. Pulling you forward, on the edge of the countertop, he spread your legs apart, cock twitching at the drenched cunt which awaited him, like a feast displayed for a starved, wild animal. 
Looking up at you, he growled, “Cum when I say so, understand?”
Your hurried nods was all he needed as he dove right in, tongue sliding up your slit, lapping up your arousal as if it was an eternal cure. He fastened his stroke as he welcomed in his sight your clit, swiping his tongue along the bud. 
You moaned out his name like a cry for help, and he answered at first ring when his fingers still laboured, faster and faster, along with his heavenly tongue licking your clit like ice cream on a summer's day. 
“Chan, please—!” You choked out, one hand carding through the man’s hair, driving his face deeper into your cunt. “Please, I need to cum!”
Completely ignoring you, he carried on his ravishing, making you shake your legs to a point your body was beyond your control — you were at his mercy when his head was between your legs, when he prodded at your core as if it was no one else’s but his. 
When Chan brushed against your g-spot, it took every muscle in your body not to cum on his face then and there. He was being cruel; this was punishment for going to that party, justice for choosing Jisung’s company over his.
You did not know punishment felt so pain-stakingly amazing. 
Calling out his name for the last time, you knew that if the man carried on, you would go against his wishes and free yourself of the burden pushing down on your gut. Gripping onto his hair hard enough to rip right off, Chan spared a single glance at you from above, licking his lips off your mess.
“Cum for me, baby.”
That was the first time you came that night. Shaking as you freed your juices unto him, he gladly accepting the release. It was like you possessed a vessel of your release, the way you kept it inside for so long. He could never refuse though, when he knew he was responsible for driving you down that road of vulnerability. 
However, even with all of that, you still wanted more. 
And as Chan ascended on his feet, yanking his fingers out of you, he saw it in your eyes. The uncontainable passion. The unadulterated desire. 
All for him. All. For him.
Your best friend’s smile was positively wicked.
“I will completely ruin you, ____.”
He was upon you like a beast, no mercy upon your lips as he bruised them with his teeth, your pleas drowned out by his mouth as he lifted you in his arms. His kisses never ceased as he led you in his bedroom, nearly ripping the hinges at the sheer intensity of slamming his door shut. 
Throwing you on the bed, your breath whooshed out of you at the free fall, heart running miles as you witnessed Chan take his shirt off, his entire chest glistening with sweat, no doubt from the work he put in mere minutes ago. 
Upon you in seconds, his mouth robbed you of any more oxygen, prying it open as he attempted to unzip your dress from the back. Then, pressing open-mouthed kisses down your throat, he tried to loosen the zipping, but the damned thing got stuck in it’s trail, unable to satisfy. 
Letting out an angry growl, he damned the dress when, using his hands at the front, he ripped the fabric in half, completely down to the hem. 
“My dress!” You gasped out, watching him discard the torn fabric as if it were a minor inconvenience in his path.
You were cut off by his mouth, scorching you down to the bone. “I’ll buy you ten more, baby,” he muttered, skimming his hands down your bare sides.
You had the audacity to roll your eyes at his words. “Why do you keep forgetting you’re a college student?”
It seemed Chan did not take kindly to your comment. “Shut your fucking mouth,” he snapped, resulting in you leaking right onto his sheets. 
That kept you wilfully obedient, and rightfully so, when he unclipped your bra, tossing it to the side, and settled upon your breasts. Grinding his clothed cock upon your bare slit, he licked your right nipple, making you whimper out at him. His reply was swirling his finger on your left nipple, toying with your body as if it was his plaything. You would have had a right mind to shout at him if he didn’t bring such euphoria along with it. 
“Chan,” you whispered, gripping onto the sheets as he continued sucking your breasts. “Chan, I...I need you to fuck me already.”
He paused his assault on your bud, raising a groomed brow. “What do you say to that?” He asked, too calmly in a crazy situation like this. 
Of course, he wanted to make you beg. Considering you did not care the least for your self respect, or lack thereof, you completely obliged him, rutting your bare cunt upon his trousers. 
“Please, Chan. Please.”
Hearing the little pleases had him kissing you insane as he urged you to take his pants off. You willingly obeyed, tossing the clothing along with his Calvins, and when his cock sprung me you felt the inside of your mouth water at the sight. 
The man hovered just above you as he positioned his dick right at the entrance, poking between the folds. “Say the magic word, now, baby,” he commanded quietly, and just for the last time, you had to be the most annoying person in the world. 
“Donghyuck!”
The second that damned name slipped out of your mouth, you completely regretted it as instead of making sweet, slow love to you, Bang Chan thrusted his cock so hard into you your whole body flinched with the impact. You couldn’t suppress the whimper that escaped, tears settling in your eyes, but alas, your best friend had little sympathy for you. 
“Bitch,” he seethed, pulling out, widening your eyes only to have him slam his cock back into you, sending you into another universe entirely. 
You envied his strength — you could barely hold onto his arms while his grip on you could probably compete with the Earth’s gravity, stable and safe and inescapable. He imprisoned you in his hold as he pulled out slowly, and then drove back inside, but you wanted to be in this cage, to never leave his midnight eyes that offered something other than rage and lust and humour. You dared not wonder what it might be, but when you closed your eyes, your mind began to ponder, float amongst the stars of ideas and questions which defined your relationship.
As Chan began to fasten his pace, thrusts more erratic, you held onto his dark curls, mouth never refraining every moan and whine which he fucked out of you. There he was, the man who deemed you worthy of being pleasured, despite risking your decade old friendship to see you have the same advantages as any old person who was sexually frustrated.
But this man did not just give you any old advantages — he offered the whole world in his hands to you, knelt before you, fulfilled your every waking desire, held onto you before you could ever slip away into the chaos of your mind. Even now, with you getting lost into the galaxies of his eyes, it was solely his hands which were the anchor to reality, a reality he made better by his offer. 
Bang Chan, your very best friend. 
When he caught the tenderness radiating on your face, he could not help stealing a little for himself, moulding his lips upon yours as he pistoned you in the bed. It was perhaps this small warmth, along with his perfect rhythm of his cock that had you crying out, barely able to contain your second release.
You broke away from the kiss, and uttered his name like a prayer. “Chan,” you whimpered, not needing to say anything for him to realise that you were so very near.
He pressed his forehead against yours, unable to keep away from you. “Fine then,” he grumbled. “I’ll go easy on you.
“Cum for me, ____.”
The words weren’t fully out when you stained Chan’s bed with your release, pushing through the tiny spaces in your walls. He, too, let out an aggravated cry as he spilled into you, most mingling along with your cum upon the sheets. 
A heavy silence fell upon the both of you, both of your breathing harmonising with each other in the cold midnight. Chan toppled on the side of the bed next to you, closing his eyes as he breathed from his mouth, chest rising unevenly.
For minutes none of you said anything to each other, simply basking in each other’s peace. You felt the eyes of your best friend, and locked them with yours.
You decided to break the silence first. 
“I’m sorry for saying his name.”
Brilliant. Why would you mention that stupid idol once again? 
Chan, surprisingly, burst into laughter. You were caught completely off guard, but seeing his smile lighten up his face had you reflecting his happiness. 
“You are,” he rasped out, holding onto his stomach, “The most annoying bitch I’ve ever met.”
“Hey!” You exclaimed, smacking him on his arm, which he responded with threats of pushing you off the bed. “You wouldn’t dare!”
His hands were upon you in seconds, steering you at the edge of the mattress. He cackled at your shocked yelping, and you glared at him as he pushed you away from the edge, and into his arms. “Asshole,” you murmured, burying your face in his chest, which he gladly welcomed as he stroked your hair softly with his fingers. 
You both found solace in each other’s embrace for a little while before Chan let go of you. “Hey, I completely forgot, but...I got you something while you were out.”
Your eyes perked up at the idea of a gift, which the man tutted when he noticed. “Greedy whore,” he crowed, getting out of the bed as he strolled to his desk, grabbing a brown paper bag. His marble-cut ass was out for you to see, and you took full advantage, watching it with no small amount of admiration. 
“Enjoyed the view?” He asked innocently as he slithered right back into bed again, offering you the paper bag. Sticking your tongue out at him, you took the offer, opening it up to see what was so special inside.
Catching sight of the gift had you bursting into a smile.
“Chan!”
You whipped the goods out of the bag, hand on your mouth.
The man bit the inside of his cheek to stop himself from smiling too wide. “You like it?”
“You like it?” You parroted, already digging in. “Where did you even find these?”
“Oh, I visited my mom earlier in the day, and she got the cookies from the old shop,” he explained, taking one of the sweets for himself. “I instantly thought of you as she gave them to me, so I saved them for you.”
You widened your eyes in affection. These sweets may have been normal, bakery cookies, but they held a significance for the both of you: these cookies were what started the whole trend of you and Chan rating certain objects or situations for each other, and whenever you were on an academic break, you made sure to drag your friend back to our hometown, where you could always grab a dozen of your favourite snack.
“Thank you for these, bud,” you said, eating away the first cookie. “I think they’ve become better than an eight now.”
Chan hummed in agreement, finishing off his one too. Licking the crumbs off his fingers, he then turned to you, a question riddled all over his face. “Hey, ____?”
“Yeah?”
When he didn’t say anything, you focused your attention on him, propping your head on your elbow. You saw with slight surprise that his cheeks were reddening by the second.
“Chan?”
“It’s just…” he raised his hand, holding your own. “I’ve been thinking about…all of this.”
You raised your brows, refusing to reveal the dread rising in your gut. “Us?”
“Yeah, us,” he confirmed, stroking his thumb across your fingers. “Now, remember that you’ll always be my best friend, okay, like I don’t want you thinking that this would be the end of us or something—”
“Get to the point, buddy,” you hurried along, earning a glare from him.
Then, he licked his lips in anxiety, closing his eyes and taking a deep breath. Hand never leaving yours, he pinned you with a stare, making you even more nervous.
He parted his mouth. 
“____, would you like to go on a date with me?”
You blinked. 
Your delayed reaction had Chan groaning. “Fuck, nevermind, just forget I said anything!” He swiped his hand away from yours, holding his head in shame. “I should have kept my big mouth shut, your bad habits are really growing on me—”
“Yes.”
Your best friend paused. 
Turned, ever so slowly, towards you. 
“What?”
You could not contain your smile as you took his hand once more. “I’ll go on a date with you, you big oaf.”
For a second you truly believed you had killed off Chan with that declaration. Then, his face exploded into pure joy, and he tackled you in a massive hug, burying his face into the crook of your neck.
“Oh my fucking God!” he cursed, “Don’t do that to me again!”
You laughed heartily as you put him at arms’ length. “You were the one doing mental gymnastics!” 
Refusing still to let go of you, he played with your hair as he clamped on his lips. “One more thing.”
“Shoot.”
“How good was I?” He looked at you, a vulnerable expression etched onto his beautiful features. “You know...with all of this.”
You stared at him, drinking in his face, his every detail, as if you had all the time in the world. Firstly, you had a right mind to pull his leg one more time, but you feared that if you made fun of him again, he might die of a heart attack.
And you still had many more years of tormenting your best friend.
So you brought him towards you, pressing your lips onto his. He seemed very much obliged to go deeper, but you pulled away just as quickly, offering him a ghost of a smile.
“I think you were a 10/10,” you whispered. “From start till finish.”
Hearing the score, and sensing your sincerity along with it, had him in near tears. He enveloped your mouth with his, backing you against the divan as he expressed his affection within the rhythm of his lips. 
When he pulled away, still mere inches from you, he said the words he’d been meaning to say since the day he first laid eyes on you — since the day you two contacted this system, since the day he knew your rating as if he knew his own name.
“Well, baby, you’ve always been a 10/10 for me.”
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Through the years, I've always loved you.
— kang taehyun x fem!reader
word count: 808..!
genre/warning(s): f2l, skater!taehyun au, cursing, mutual pining, yeonjun is a brat but it's for the greater good! I am not too familiar with skate terms so if they don't make sense/seem odd then blame my small knowledge about skating.
coco's ♡ note: hello!! this fic is my baby, I am absolutely in LOVE with it, and it was so much fun to write!! skater!txt is my new favorite concept omfg.
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Kang Taehyun is many things but he is not a liar. He doesn't deceive nor does he trick, but when it comes to his feelings, he's sure to lock them far away. He'd rather die then ever admit his true feelings for you, friendship is as far as you both go and he's finally learned to accept that.
He sits at a bench, arms covered in small scraps, band-aids liter his body as fresh ones roll in. He's trying to learn a new trick on his board but his mind is elsewhere – said elsewhere is you. Not even ten feet away, you stand laughing at some lame joke Yeonjun tells you. It makes his blood boil but nonetheless he stays quiet.
When Taehyun had introduced you to the friends he'd met at the skatepark earlier this year he'd already told them (ever so sternly) that you were off limits. If they messed with you then they messed with him, and no one wanted to mess with him.
"Y/N how about we go out for some food later," he hears Yeonjun ask.
"Oh that'll be fun, we can invite the boys and ask if they want to join. I'm sure they'll be hungry, especially after all the new stunts they're trying today."
Your response has him silently doubled over in laughter as he clutches his sore stomach. Of course you'd respond that way, you're clueless when a males attention is set on you. He'd know, you've been clueless your entire life with him. The last thing Taehyun sees is Yeonjun's sly smile falter as you turn away from him, and it leaves his mind on cloud nine.
Don't get him wrong here, it's not like he's never tried to confess, it's just that when he does try things never seem to go his way. Like the time when you were 13 and he wanted to so badly kiss you in the butterfly garden on your school's field trip, or the time when you both turned 16 and he desperately tried to muster up enough courage to give you his confession letter along with a birthday card, that obviously didn't work out but it would have definitely worked, or so he thinks. You're both 19 now and with so many new friends and new interest around you, it's hard to even get a word in. Taehyun has to sit and watch as you slip through his fingers once again.
Yeonjun thinks Taehyun's a coward and also a little dumb because any sane person can see that you clearly long for him the way he does for you, and he's just trying to help the process. His first plan – flirt with you, backfires completely because god forbid you from seeing his obvious tactics but he's not a quitter and goes on with his plan. Operation: get Taehyun (or you) to confess because you both look like lost puppies following one another around.
Taehyun's annoyed and anyone with eyes can see it. His moves are stiff and lacking causing his body to fall in odd ways. It's hard to watch as he wipes out for the nth time today. His mind is focused on you who's sat opposite him on a park bench and the annoying fly that's been attached at your hip. Yeonjun not be taking the hint that you're not interested and don't want a single thing to do with him and it pisses Taehyun off to no end.
"You know if you're so mad why don't you go over there and tell her how you feel," asks a very amused Beomgyu. None of the boys had ever seen Taehyun act this way, it's entertaining to say the least.
Beomgyu's suggestion goes right over his head as he stalks over to where you sit, fists turning white as he holds his board tighter with each step.
"Move," he says, leaving Yeonjun and yourself speechless at the almost malicious tone he harbors. And with a simple nod Yeonjun is off, his work here is done.
"Taehyun what's wro-"
"I'm in love with you."
The words roll out his mouth before he can even comprehend them but your surprised face says it all. Kang Taehyun, the boy you've known since you were 5, the same boy you've loved for many years now, your Taehyun, had just confessed his love for you.
"Oh well that's great, I'm in love with you too."
"You are?" His voice is an octave higher this time and disbelief is plastered on his face.
"Yes of course, I've always loved you."
"Okay cool, should we like date?" His response leaves you with a wide smile.
"Yeah we should like, date," and in the near distance you can hear the other boys cheer as Taehyun brings you into his arms, placing a soft kiss to your lips.
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coco's ♡ note: you are in love with taehyun. dedicated to my gf sugar plum gum drop cinnamon apple ‐ @bb-fic-rec !
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