i suppose i love this life, in spite of my clenched fist.
Time Is A Mother, Ocean Vuong // The Brothers Karamazov, Fyodor Dostoyevsky // The Cow, Ariana Reines // Ask Polly, Heather Havrilesky // October, Mary Oliver // Dead Stars, Ada Limón // Night Walk, Franz Wright// Xenotransplantation, Sam Sax // Angels In America, Tony Kushner // Birthday, Andrea Gibson (thank you @saint-garbage, i have zero idea whether they are poems or quotes for most of them, so i can't help out there, forgive me, i'm trying my best)
for @shestrying
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the fact that life keeps going when you’re going through something unbearable feels so terribly unfair. it feels like the world won’t stop moving so fast when all you wanted was for it to stop until you catch your breath, but that’s just not possible.
there is infinite sadness and grief in loss and a memory might be enough to bring your mind back through years, but not being able to physically go back is sickening.
and i am still grieving all that i lost, and sometimes i am so exhausted i feel the need to be quiet, and i wish the whole world could go slower. but it’s a good thing that life goes on. i got to go on. it took a lot of effort to move on, but i am here, alive. i am here! i don’t think i ever truly believed i would get here. some things don’t hurt as much anymore. the world kept moving and it forced me to move with it. it forced me to face a lot of what caused me so much pain. the grief will always be here, but so will be this proud feeling of having survived, the feeling of happiness, joy, laughter, and relief.
time doesn’t heal all things. but it brings news types of joy too.
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may sarton diary of a solitude
support me
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Poem about my feelings about my life and the world lately inspired by a line in dndads
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True Blue (to Rio) from Side Wounds
fun fact: a version of this poem was in the first draft of side wounds (it went through Many, and features a lot of brand new poems i wrote just for the collection) but was also the last one i finished editing. and truth be told, if my deadline hadn't caught up with me, i'd probably still be editing it.
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When Welcome to Night Vale said “we are not history yet. We are happening now” and when Mary Oliver said “it is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in the broken world” and when Florence + the Machine said “you don’t have to be a ghost here amongst the living” and when Buddy Wakefield said “there is life after survival.”
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Youth Insatiate, by Elsa Gidlow.
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This week I have survived two job interviews (two different companies), a bajillion calls, acid reflux, anxiety fits. I'm so tired and wrung out. I just want to finish editing my fic! And finish a vid! And sleep through the night!
So tired.
What has brought you joy this week? What are you reading? Watching? Hearing? Doing? What are you grateful for this week?
I'm grateful for my friend's support, for the knowledge I've gained over the last six months. Grateful for the cat who loves me unconditionally and I love her even when she's being obnoxious. Grateful for carbonated drinks, and yummy cheese, and that spring is here. I have many flowers to photograph. I'm losing my mind all over again to my Star Wars feelings and still dreaming of finishing the 10,000 words of yennskier fic I haven't written yet.
I'm so tired, but I can take a little breath for now before I have to get back to it. Maybe going to a kitten cafe this weekend. And resting my brain. Even though I really want to finish this vid for VidUKon and get my next puppetskier chapter out. So tired.
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Have I stayed strong? I like to think so. But the only thing I know for sure is that I have stayed.
— Brian Wilson, I Am Brian Wilson
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Zuihitsu, Jenny Xie
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Mary Karr (Viper Rum, 2001)
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the unabridged journals of sylvia plath
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there's a cherry blossom tree in DC that keeps blooming every year even though it shouldn't and the park service keeps thinking it's dead and then it keeps blooming! well they're removing a lot of trees to rehabilitate the area and they've said it's finally time for stumpy to go and they're going to mulch it and use the mulch to enrich all the other trees so it can help everything else keep going. and they're also going to plant spliced little pieces of it all over so that stumpy can live forever and this is genuinely sending me into a spiral
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Resident Evil 4 Remake (2023)
Leon S. Kennedy [ 1 / ??? ]
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