#only makes him believe hes truly alone and doesnt deserve anything-

[bxnnie-bxwl]

glitchtrap is one manipulative bitch

#evil!bonnie cant get a break )): #only makes him believe hes truly alone and doesnt deserve anything- #feel free to punt the malhare <33 #art #fnaf #fnaf security breach #evil!bonnie #glamrock bonnie #fnaf au #glitchtrap #malhare

[witchykittyy]

Agreement 💖

@marcyyywukinnie asked: Hi could you make a fanfic Yandare Blitzo x reader x Yandare Stolas where they just fight about reader, before coming to terms that theyll share them??

I am soooooooo sorry about how late this is!!! I really am. Life's been really hectic and I went through a very depressive episode but I promise to be on top of stuff more often! I really hope you like it! ❤ Sorry if its not really enough fighting per say. 😅

TW: Demons, Hell, Blood, Arguing, Cursing (lots of it), Mentions of kidnapping, Stalking, and other yandere themes.

"Damn that was a fuck ton of clients!!!" Millie jumped up into Moxxie's arms pumped and covered in blood. "Yea it was and it was so fucking awesome! But I think imma head in for the night." You're the newest member of I.M.P. A few days ago you saw their help wanted poster and decided you needed the extra money so you decided to join. You got along really well with Moxxie, Millie and surprisingly Loona. The only person who doesn't seem to like you is Blitzo. He was always staring at you. Watching your every move like he's waiting for you to do something wrong. So you always tend to keep your distance.

"Yea I think me and Millie have had enough excitement for today as well. Goodbye sir! Goodbye Y/N!" "Bye Blizto! Bye N/N!" Moxxie and Millie wave goodbye as they leave. "Whatever, bye." Loona continues on reading her magazine. "Bye guys!" You wave goodbye to them sweetly. "Bye lovebirds! Don't get too kinky while I'm away!" You can almost hear Moxxie rolling his eyes at those words and you chuckle. Now its just you, Loona and... Blitzo. Though your back is turned you can feel his eyes burning into info our skin, its very unsettling so with out turning around you decided to say your goodbyes and leave. "Bye Blitzo! Bye Loona!" "Bye dork." Blitzo doesnt say anything and you start to walk off sill feeling his gaze on you. Suddenly he says "See you soon Y/N"

You got home and were extremely exhausted as you flopped down onto your semi comfortable bed. Due to only recently having a job you dont have that much money to buy yourself a nice place so for right now you're stuck in this crummy apartment. Even though you didnt mind your situation someone else did.

Stolas has been watching you from the day he saw you in the I.M.P headquarters while he was visiting Blitzo. He's been obssessed with you ever since he saw you and has stalked you finding out your likes, habits, dislikes and everything else about you. He truly believes that you deserve so much better than what you have. He loves you and believes you deserve to be treated like a queen. A problem with that is that Blizto is also in love with you. Stolas notices the stares he give you and the longing look in his eyes. He's sure Blitzo has noticed his interest as well and thats probably why Blitzo hasnt spoken to him. But nevermind that.

You change into your PJ', get into bed and start scrolling through Helltok. "Ah shit its getting dark and I have to work tomorrow" you sigh. "I guess I should go to bed as Moxxie would say thats the responsible thing to do." You turn off your phone and go to bed. Stolas stares at you from the window wishing that he were next to you.

After a while he sees someone climbing onto your balcony. He's about to go stop him but then the two lock eyes. "Stolas?! The fuck are you doing here?!" He almost tumbles off the balcony from the surprise. "I should be asking you the same question Blitzo." "Look dipshit im doing the same thing you are but going inside." Blizto starts opening the window. "Wait! We shouldnt do that it invading her privacy." He goes to stop him but then Blitzo slaps his hand away. "Oh and stalking her isnt invading her privacy?! Look just leave ok if you dont wanna do this. Not like I want you stealing my girl anyways." He grumbles the last part but Stolas is able to hear him. "Well I sure as hell am not leaving her alone with you." "Then come in with me." He grabs Stolas's hand and stealthly brings him into the room. Stolas blushes at the sudden contact. 'Wait why'd he blush? What the hell is happening to him?'

You're dead asleep on the bed. "So smart ass what do we do now?" He tries to cover up the fact that grabbing Blitzo's hand made him blush. "We look around bird brain." They start looking around the crummy place, dodging the clothes thrown on the floor. Eventually after looking around for a while Blitzo decides to look your computer as Stolas watches you sleep peacefully. Out of the corner of his eye Stolas sees him breaking into your computer. "Hey!" He yells silently. "What do you think you're doing?" "I'm looking through her computer dipshit." Blitzo rolls his eyes as though its obvious. "Well yes I know that but why?" "To make sure she ain't seeing some other loser."

Blitzo searches and suddenly stops dead in his tracks. "You need to see this birdie." They stare at the computer reading you're messages with some guy named Dennis. "Oh hell no" they growl out in unison. You whine and shift in your sleep as they go dead silent. Once they're sure you're not awake they continue. "We can't let this shit happen." Blitzo growls with malice. "I completely agree. This dirt bag isn't good enough for our Y/N." Stolas nods. "Wait, our?" "Well yes I suppose we'll need to team up to stop this guy and ensure that she stays with us. Is that an ok arrangement?" Stolas questions. "Yea.. Thatd be great." Blitzo looks down blushing madly.

#helluva boss #yandere stolas #yandere helluva boss #yandere blitzo #first time writing an actual fanfic #i hope you guys like it

[cosmic-d1ce]

for the swap au, i think something really Interesting is forever’s resounding lack of emotional resilience. for the original au, phil has to be beaten and locked up and have his kids threatened to truly scare him, but forever, on the other hand, is a soggy puppy. yeah, he’s strong enough to take it when phil hurts him but it’s equally agonising emotionally. he wants love and care and affection, and he takes it especially hard when someone he admires doesn’t care for him. yeah, phil is nice and loving sometimes but when he’s trying to teach forever a lesson it’s awful being treated like he’s dirt by someone he cares for so deeply. he wants phil to like him, he wants phil’a kids to like him, and he wants everyone else to think that he and phil have the perfect relationship. how embarrassing would it be for everyone to know that he annoys phil so much that he actually hits him? dhsdhjhhsus philever driving me mad as usual, sorry if this makes no sense!!!

Forever can take hits and injuries, he can handle it easily, he's strong... Physically, at least. The worst thing Phil can do is be mean. The hits don't hurt but the reasons do

All he wants is for Phil to like him and when he hurts him, obviously he doesnt!! So he tries so hard to do good and make sure he never upsets Phil so much he feels the need to harm him

And god it hurts so badly when he finds out Phil has told people Forever was hurting him because shit he is, isn't he? He is hurting Phil, or else he wouldn't be doing this to him! How could he be so awful to someone that he loves???

And when the kids start saying it too?? How Forever hurt their papa and he was so mean to him when they were alone together. It breaks his heart and he just can't take it. Of course, Chayanne is just helping his dad get what he wants. Tallulah believes it but only because it's hard to get her to lie

Forever cares so much and it hurts so badly to have someone he loves hurt him, it hurts so much for that person to feel hurt by his actions

He begs and pleads to be forgiven when he upsets Phil. He cries until he passes out when Phil leaves him alone for the night after a fight. He cries and hugs Chayanne and Tallulah when they ask if he's hurting their dad. He is so, so hurt by all of it.

And of course if anyone asks him if he's been hurt, he says no, of course he isn't!! He's okay and even if Phil had hurt him he'd deserve it so its okay dont worry!!

He is just a soggy puppy and he will do anything phil asks of him

#qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp forever #philza #forever player #forever x philza #philever #forphil #forever my love au #tw abuse #god i love them #phil is so so good at making forever feel bad and hes proud of it #forever loves him so much and he just lets phil do whatever #sisnsjsnnw i love them so so so so much #holds 🤲

[melodyfsoul1]

Okay Loki S2 E5 Reaction/ Review Time

SPOILERS AHEAD BEWARE

"Science / Fiction"

OH MY GOD THAT TITLE

I cant believe I was right about all of them being scattered across different time line branches, Loki having to get his friends back and them not having memories of him :O

Also the fact that the fans predicted Casey to be a dangerous / criminal because he was always so gentle in the TVA and then we see him breaking out of freaking Alcatraz?! And the fish references too XD

B15 being a Doctor was so freaking wholesome, she really just wants to help people whetevee she is :D

OB being a Scifi Author and Scientist was just perfect XDDDD

AND WE FINALLY GOT MOBIUS ON A JETSKI THIS IS A WIN FOR THE FANDOM

And again, the fact that the fans immediately predicted that Mobius was a (single) dad in his life, because they spotted a couple toys in front of the house in the mid season trailer :D

(I could literally hear the fanfiction authors melt into a puddle at the potential of Loki x single dad Mobius XD)

And the fact that he isnt just a Dad, no he is a SINGLE FATHER of TWO SONS

The freaking parallel of Mobius' two sons and young Thor & Loki?!

One being a lil mischievous prankster and the other (most likely the older) one who has to keep him out of trouble?! And the fact that he said he loves snakes?!?! That is just straight up a Thor reference?!

No wonder Mobius knows how to deal with people like Loki XD

But as much as I like the parallel of the two sons, I also feel kinda weird about what it could imply for Mobius, like does that mean he is supposed to be a mirror or opposite of Odin? A version of a dad that didnt mess up with their parenting? That this is why Loki feels drawn to Mobius? Is that what we were supposed to conclude from that?

I know we joke about Loki liking older men, and of course Loki has his daddy issues, but if Mobius is an opposite of Odin then what does that mean for Lokius?

Now to some more lore related stuff:

Can I just say that the spaghettification effect is absolutely terrifying?!?! (as stupid as it may sound) Seeing people get spaghettified fills me with just as much dread as the Dusting from the Snap, but it is so much more horrifying because it looks so brutal compared to how "gentle" the Dusting effect is....

Then Loki & Sylvie's talk about being selfish, about their own wants & needs

"Whats wrong with wanting sth?" -  she asks Loki, but in reality, has Loki ever gotten anything he truly desired? (At least L1130 hasnt, man went straight from the Events of Thor 1, to Thanos to the New York attack, he was never able to mend his relationship with Thor or find friends...)

Now... Sylvie, she still frustrates me.... I do get that she wants a life, but you cant just stab or ignore your way out of everything... plus their world is still ending as a matter fact...

It literally took her fav lil branch getting wiped out, to realize that she was wrong, that Loki was right all along, and that was AFTER she had just convinced Loki to give up his quest... because "wanting his friends back" would make him just as "selfish" as her wanting a life... But the difference is, that while Sylvie would chose her life, instead of helping fix everything, ignoring the casualties it brings, Loki would be self sacrificial enough to give up his own needs, which he literally was about to do, until Sylvie got back because she finally wanted to help avoid the impending doom that threatened to destroy them all.

I think we all kinda knew Loki's drive wasnt necessarily saving the TVA, but wanting/ needing his friends back and wanting to keep them save, but Loki actually admitting that he "wants his friends back, that he doesnt want to be alone"

THAT BROKE ME

Especially with the motive of "no one deserves to be alone" but the Lokis only ever having themselves to find comfort, and if they tried to change that, the TVA showed up to prune them, loneliness was literally what drove Classic Loki out of his hiding and into the arms of the TVA.

And Loki saying "Without them (his friends), where do I belong?"

I didnt know it was possible, but that broke me even more... he just wants a place where he is wanted and safe...

Then the time slipping, Loki being able to Control it?! IS THAT HOW THE MCU INTRODUCES LOKI BEING A WORLD WALKER?!

Loki realizing "Its not about the when, where or why. Its about the Who" (god that part was so sweet, right in the FEELS, it was so over for me, my heart cant take much more of this)

And finally Loki chosing to rewrite "The Story"... actually "Play God" thats now full confirmation of Loki God of Stories right?! RIGHT?! I wanna see my boy, God of Stories Loki is one of my Fave Lokis :DDDD

#Loki #loki marvel #mcu loki #loki series #loki season 2 #loki god of mischief #loki god of stories #mobius #sylvie laufeydottir #marvel theories #Thoughts on Loki #Or brainrotting call it what you want

[saw2goth]

I wanna hear a yap, but i haven't read the book yet :(

How about some character headcannons then?

It doesn't have to be about A Christmas Carol! >0< Most of my content is AU content anyway lawl. Here are some headcanons but bear in mind they have little to nothing to do with the original book at this point:

Scrooge: Trans man! Felt this one in my soul <3 Autistic (he stims in the book, too), uses isolation as a coping mechanism because he was neglected as a child, takes comfort in being alone pre-redemption because it means he won't get hurt or experience loss anymore. I like to think he ended up the way he did because he wanted to regain some control over his life and he didn't feel like he owed the world anything after having his loved ones taken away. Post-redemption Scrooge ends up developing a fear of being alone because he doesn't want to lose the company he has after learning to appreciate it. Scrooge was given the ability to see chains on other people and ghosts, he spends a lot of his time trying to help these people better themselves/get rid of their chains in order to make the world around him a kinder place. He's still dating Marley even though he's a ghost but their relationship is much different now. Imagine your ex shows up after being dead for 7 years and wants you to continue like nothing has even changed.

Marley: Genderqueer (I'm not even sure he knows what's going on with that), also autistic. We don't learn much about him in the book aside from the fact that he was Scrooge's business partner so I just went crazy with it. Saved up lots of money in order to move his mother into a nice home and take care of her so she can have rest, she died before he has a chance to which is why he refuses to dip into his fortune (he doesnt believe he deserves the money or that it even truly belongs to him). He's very attached to Scrooge, Scrooge is all he has. This persists even in death and he hardly ever leaves his side. He's very protective of Scrooge in our redemption AU and is distrusting of anyone who he believes might be trying to come between them. A lot of his reasons for trying to keep Scrooge so close to him are selfish which is why they can't get rid of his chains just yet. He can just barely touch physical items but sometimes it takes him a while. He spent a lot of his afterlife watching over Scrooge instead of teaching himself how to interact with the world around him in his new form so it can be a struggle for him. Imagine Julian from ghosts type powers, he can move objects but it might take him 30 minutes.

Wolfe MacFarlane: Listen I know he's not a christmas carol character but he's part of the polycule now listen to me-

Some of these headcanons are ones that are specific to...the general Wolfe MacFarlane for the redemption AU and then others are just specific to my interp of him only.

Closeted gay man. Cis. Has scars on his chest from a workplace accident. Grew up in a well-off household, his father was also a surgeon and pretty much hammered this future into his son. He was constantly made to feel inferior and had to prove himself and his worth to his father. He gets so attached to Mr K as a student because he's the only older man in his life who ever offered him praise for doing a good job :/ and then it went to his head. He also did kill a guy. Was childhood friends with Scrooge, who tries to help him turn his life around when they're reunited in their adulthood (he has soo many chains it's a lot of work). Has a sort of rivalry going on with Marley because Marls doesn't trust him around Scrooge and Wolfe knows that and is secretly hurt that he doesn't believe he can change (this attitude further fuels his insecurities he has about being unfixable).

UMMMM. That's all I can think of right now but thanks for letting me info-dump about them <3

#eddie answers #tbs redemption au

[heretherebedork]

When em told him it wasn’t what it sound like made me mad because it was everything it was how dare he not even defend name how dare he not even tell that person not to say that he let name hear him not even defend him and that’s heartbreaking imagine what em has been saying if people are calling name just that mute kid does he even talk about name in a good way? How dare he try to help nan when he’s over here letting someone say such an ablest comment about his supposed best friend? I hated him making it seem like name was taking it out of context when he wasn’t he knew what he heard! Just like u I need em to take something serious for once because how does he not realize how bad he’s hurting name? How name isn’t being extra? how is he not realize how he makes time for everyone but name? How none of their other friends are even checking in on name? Name had other friends other than em but none of them have contacted name knowing he’s going through a hard time

Name is truly alone and now also em has made what his mother say is true now name must think he’s the reason em wont talk to him much why he pushed him away I didn’t like seeing name in this dark place to the point he didn’t even want to live and knowing If his mother didn’t fall out he would had taken those pills breaks me I don’t even want name to end up with em because em doesnt care about name and has showed that I just hope for name to have a happy ending for him to gain friends who care for him and to find someone who would love him back the same way he loves them

Yeah, I'm really wondering what Em meant by that. It's such a confusing sentence that doesn't make sense in context. What else would she mean? Why we she was saying that and why would she refer to Name that way? Why wouldn't he correct her? I just need the context of this and we're not given and next episode's preview didn't offer anything. Like, what's going on? We saw other scenes where Em was implied to still care about Name and just be struggling with time but... this seemed to be the opposite. And to have Name's silence on speaker... I really, really wonder what's going on and I want to know and I hate that I don't.

Because it definitely makes Em look so much worse. And I can't decide if the show is deliberately making Em look worse or if the show has no idea how bad it looks and feels for Em to be in all these silly scenes and only Name to be more serious... I mean, I hope they know and planned for it and want us to think that Em has stopped caring only to pull the rug out on us this next episode and show him being worried. But it doesn't fit yet. I did love the scene a few episodes back when we got to watch Em be frustrated and worried because Name was pushing him away but I don't understand why they stopped showing us that.

Name is so, so alone now and, yeah, watching him believe that his mother was truly right is immensely painful. Because she's not. But Em is giving him every reason to think that and so is everyone else in his life... which is no one because no one is left. No one else seems to be talking to him or encouraging him and we didn't even get any scenes of him talking to the mysterious N this episode so that's gone too!?

I need Name to be able to find some kind of happiness. Even if that's not with Em, no matter what, I need this show to end with him smiling again. Him happy again. Name deserves the world and the show is just not giving him anything at all. They've also gotten so much less time than the other couples lately and that only makes it worse.

Em needs to go back home. Has he really not visited in two years? No going home for breaks and seeing Name? Nothing? Even Champ made it home for a disaster.

Well, I suppose the show implied that he went home but not showing us that he did or the visit with Name basically means it didn't happen.

Anyway... yeah. Em has a lot to come back from at this point and I need to see him more serious and to see him realize what's going on with Name and to try to get Name help and to prioritize him or I'm gonna be so pissed.

#remember me #remember me meta #remember me series #remember me the series #thai bl #thaibl #bl drama #bl series #ql drama #ql series #losing my mind over these boys #i kind of want to gif the scene of pain #but i also don't know if it'll work #poor name #em x name #name x em

[aperfectcircle10]

Letter to Zain.

What is love?

What you must know, to let go, is quite simply your FEELINGS matter.

 Especially in an intimate relationship. 

If you dont feel SAFE, seen, heard, valued, understood as the person you are - there is no reason to stay and waste your time. 

He is who he is, and he will not change for anyone. He is emotionally unavailable and also told me more than once he thinks he will be single at the end of his life. I truly believe he probably will be. 

You are not crazy. You are with the wrong person. A man thinking he is going to be alone and causing you to keep seeking clarity outside of the relationship to know you arent losing your mind is the sign the relationship isnt working. Would you agree? What do you think? Ask yourself. 

We could discuss all the bizarre things he says and does. I know there are alot. Discuss what you hope for, and why your hopes are always dashed by him ... but alot of those things are your own preferences and his preferences so you end up more confused looking at the whys and likes and dislikes (you should be able to discuss things like this but with him you really cant) Is one of the games he plays. You keep waiting for things to make sense and they keep getting more complicated and confusing overall despite happy moments sprinkled in here or there, overall things are going nowhere good and you know you shouldnt feel so bad. 

He isnt ready to love he wasnt from the beginning, he admits he will probably never be ready to love, and he is not going to change. 

Nik told me flat out he has problems with respecting women and that he doesnt see them as worthy of the same respect as men and maybe these issues come from his childhood. Is probably one of the most insightful honest things he ever said to me and if i didnt think you really deserve to and need to know i would keep his words a secret but you need to understand how he sees you in order to even begin to get away from the situation. Is so hard. 

You have to know who you are, and stay grounded in your own perception of reality. 

Dont beg him to change because hes not going to. He doesnt know how to change in my opinion. Accept the disappointment and heartbreak and walk away before you waste years not getting anywhere you wanna go in love. 

Im not any relationship expert, and because im not im not comfortable giving you alot of advice regarding love and relationships what things should be like. 

But its mostly common sense to me what im saying personally you should be safe talking to your bf/husband.. and they should care if you are happy and just how you feel in general. He will make you think these things are alot. Would you agree? You have to ask yourself because you are your way out. 

I can only tell you Nik I feel 100 percent certain is not going to love you the way you want him to (or any woman) no matter what you say or do, because he doesnt want real intimacy, closeness or accountability for your relationship. 

He will debate problems with you but will not resolve anything you bring up... endlessly. He will make you feel like you dont want the relationship (tell you its you, youre not happy and you dont love him) when all you really want is for him to care at all if you are happy with the relationship and that is completely normal in a relationship to want, you both should matter. 

No you dont expect him to make you happy. You are your own person. You are pretty brilliant from what I could tell, chasing your dreams. You just want him to care, and he should, or HE shouldnt be with you. 

Do you care if he is happy? of course you do. You want him to be happy, i assume? Is why you are seeking clarity. Because your heart cares.. youre confused

You need to be careful not to overexplain yourself to him. You need to deeply and completely internalize the idea that if he was the right guy for you he would care how you feel. Without question. Unless you simplify things you will never escape the arguing with him. Do not argue about how you feel. 

Intimate relationships are not meant to be constantly unhappy, unsafe, or confusing. You start going crazy nothing makes sense. 

The issue with Nik is the more you say, the more you overthink, the more confusing things become. You absolutely must simplify things. 

You love him and he does not love you. Is probably the clearest way to see things. 

From there you can vent your feelings to friends and heal. Because it does suck getting your heartbroken. And he is definitely the most confusing person I ever dated. He is great in theory and has moments so you just wanna hold on. It was almost impossible for me to get out. You cannot use logic, because you have to avoid arguing - you have to value your emotions. 

You shouldnt be seeking help, you should be able to talk to him. Safely. But you cant and you wont be able to at all. Is one of the reasons its so hard to walk away because you want the clarity you will never get from him. Is closure of the relationship but clarity with yourself is what you need to pull yourself out of the relationship. You have to be on your own side, you dont need his permission or anyone elses. You are not imagining what you are going through. Neither was I, neither was Panda. 

I wish you so much strength and a much better future. You can leave and life will get better in time if you allow it to. Life will not get better with him. 

Value your feelings. EXPECT your boyfriend or potential husband to do the same (reasonable). You are allowed to have some expectations in love and you really have to. Because him not valuing your feelings is why you are ultimately hurt and confused even if it seems like a thousand other things. Is the way I got out. 

🫀🔑

[rusted-sun]

he's sitting there alone, by that ancient tree. the branches of it massive, the roots coming up from the ground.

he does that a lot. physically distancing himself from people. his friends. his family. his partner.

although he swears up and down that he's getting better, today just felt... off. he needed to escape from everyone. to hide.

so there he sat, with his shitty music playlist and headphones as his only companion.

it was as if he was in a different world in that moment, just looking at the wind move tbe grass and watching the branches move around from said wind.

he was alone and it felt perfect. correct. as if all was now right in the world.

unknown to him, his partner was nearby, looking all over for him. he'd apparently been gone for hours, so they went out looking for him, knowing the forest was a safe haven.

and then, they see him, and start walking in his direction.

"hey!" they called out, relieved to see him.

no response, he hadn't heard them. obviously.

they get closer and he feels the nearby presence of someone, and looks around, finally noticing them.

"oh. hi there."

"hey! nice tree you got there. got room for one more?"

he just scoots over, taking off his headphones and putting them in the bag he brought along

taking the invitation, they sit down next to him.

"so... whats on your mind?"

"a lot."

"... mind elaborating?"

he looks at the ground below, before saying "i... i think im an awful person."

an inhale.

"what?"

he keeps his gaze trained on the grass, the pebbles, the dirt. anything but on his other half.

"i was told that.. uhm.. when i die that.. noone will even notice. but hey... who cares if noone will ever mourn me... ha.."

he tries smiling, to make the situation less severe, to take away the seriousness of it.

"i care. i would care so much."

silence. its clear to them he doesnt believe them at all, by the way he drops his smile, almost grimacing.

"look at me, please," they plead.

he finally looks up at them, expressionless. they look worried, yet still pull a small smile of reassurance.

"i know how you feel, i truly do, but remember that i will care for you as long as youre here, and i will not stop even if youre gone. never, ever will i stop. you are wonderful, and you will be remembered and mourned. you truly will. if not by anyone else, than by me."

he blinks. their words have such a finality to them, that he doesnt even want to say anything back, and turns his gaze back on the surrounding area.

instead, he just nods.

".. would you like to see these new stickers i got for you?"

they figured after such a downer conversation, he deserves something nice.

his eyes snap back onto them, instantly getting that spark back, a grin on their face.

"of course i would! what kind of question even is that?!"

#im a really big fan of the line #who cares if noone will ever mourn me #and wanted to write a lil story basing it around that #chess writes #this is for me and me alone. i am the target audience for this shit

[hey-hamlet]

Can we hear more about some of your SVSSS AUs? I’m particularly curious about how the linked souls/dreams one would play out, but they’re all intriguing!

YOU ARE MY FAVOURITE PERSON I LOVE YOU

AHeM-

YES YOU MAY

OK SO! Linked Souls! Sickly!Shen Yuan because im projecting a little bit, hes also around 4 years younger than Shen Jiu. When Shen Jiu turns four years old, he starts having hazy dreams of a soft, warm bed, a full stomach, but constant fevers and aches. He feels bitter - not even his dreams let him really enjoy anything. Its quiet and mostly formless until Shen Yuan learns to talk - they gain the ability to talk to eachother, like riding passenger in a car, able to talk and watch but not interact. Shen Jiu learns to read better than any of the other slaves, and teaches Yue Qi everything he learns.

 He tells Yue Qi about Shen Yuan, and Yue Qi believes him because he’d always believe his Xiao Jiu. Shen Yuan likes his Qi-ge a lot, and likes him even more when he sneaks Shen Jiu sweets ‘for a-yuan to taste’

When Shen Jiu turns 11, he’s taken by the Qius. He feels scared and guilty, because Shen Yuan will feel this too, no matter that the little brat didn’t deserve it. He was still too soft and naive, this might break him. He begs Shen Yuan to find a way to leave, but he refuses to leave his ‘big brother’ all alone.

3 years pass, Yue Qi never comes back. Shen Yuan gets sicker and sicker, and Shen Jiu fears that one of them will die before the year’s end - either from sickness or Qiu Jianluo. Qiu Jianluo tries to touch Shen Jiu one night and he snaps, killing the man and everyone in his way on the path out. He might have grit his teeth and borne it if he was alone, but he’s not letting Shen Yuan get hurt like that.  

Shen Jiu doesn’t go with Wu Yanzi after Shen Yuan begs him not to - the man is scum, and while Shen Jiu might be scum himself, Shen Yuan is soft and sweet, he doesn’t deserve to see a man so vile. Cultivating from manuals he steals from people who are likely scammers, he ends up at the immortal alliance conferance. Shen Yuan convinces him to enter - hes too tricky to get himself killed by any of the monsters, and placing anywhere better than the last dregs will be impressive for a 15 year old rouge cultivator.

Wu Yanzi is back! And hes trying to murder Yue Qi, who caught sight of Shen Jiu and froze like a deer in the headlights. Shen Jiu runs him through with a sword he stole from some asshole a few months back and then cries all over Yue Qi’s robes, and then has a very repressed panic attack about getting blood and tears on robes that cost more than his life. 

Yue Qi is also crying! Shen Yuan has no control over Shen Jiu’s eyes but by the way he’s babbling he’s probably also crying! Everyone is crying! 

Yue Qi brings Shen Jiu before his master a bit like a cat presenting a dead bird and Shen Jiu wants to die in a hole a little bit because he’s scruffy and bloody and everyone around him look like peerless immortals. He covers this up by acting as much like a pampered young lord as humanly possible. Shen Yuan is cheering him on internally. 

Shen Jiu is snapped up the the Qing Jing peak master because he’s obnoxiously intelligent and knows a truely frightening amount of characters and some really impressive maths, esspecially considering his lack of formal education (Shen Yuan, internally “Yes Jiu-ge I know, I’m amazing and the light of your life and you’re so grateful to watch my miserable homeschooling lessons”)

Yue Qi explains nothing about why he didn’t come back because! Thats just what the man is like. Shen Jiu is less furious about it and more depressed because having a perminant Shen Yuan in your head helps you develop slightly less violent coping mechanisms. Plus, Shen Yuan can’t hold a grudge to save his life and Shen Jiu uses the fact Shen Yuan missed him as a reason to visit. 

Yue Qi sticks his foot in his mouth a little less. 

Liu Qingge hates Shen Jiu On Sight as usual, and is still convinced hes a murderous little noble snake. Shen Yuan is furious, and Shen Jiu has to fight the urge to laugh at the creative streams of insults he gets running. 

Shen Yuan gets well enough to attend high school in person. He doesn’t really make any friends, but hes not lonely considering the other Shen who, while not there constantly, is basically always there by the time his first lessons start. The running commentry makes it less dull anyway. 

He graduates, applies to university. Shen Jiu becomes head disiple. Shen Yuan finishes his first year of a teaching degree before his illness relapses hard. He gets through another year of part time study before he dies. 

Something in Shen Jiu, now Shen Qingqiu, Peak Lord of Qing Jing, dies with him. His students liken him to a ghost, dressed in mourning white, rising late and sleeping early, but often seen wandering the peak in the dead of night. Yue Qingyuan visits often, but Shen Qingqiu says nothing. 

Liu Qingge, angry at what he assumes is a fit of drama crashes onto the peak in a self rightious rage, challenging Shen Qingqiu to a duel. Thats the only time he ever loses a duel to him. The Yue Qingyuan has to pull them apart, Shen Qingqiu still snarling with rage. 

The news that he deviates that night shocks no one. Yue Qingyuan is frigid with Liu Qingge, and it unnerves the other peak lords. 

Shen Qingqiu has barely recovered from one of the worst Qi deviations he’s ever had when a disiple all but crashes through his door, scared shitless of the half dead looking man who stumbled through the peak’s barriers like so much air. 

Shen Qingqiu doesnt dare hope - Shen Yuan is dead, and a world away at that - but wouldn’t his soul be allowed to pass through the barrier? Shen Qingqiu had never had a problem when they shared bodies.

The man (barely a man, he would be 21 if he hadn’t been dead for 3 months) looks truly awful, feverish and flushed, but Shen Qingqiu know’s that face better than he know’s his own. 

“A-Yuan?”

#i'd kill a man for you #svsss au #svsss #i just worked out my arms are like jelly #painful painful jelly #key to my heart is asking me ab my svsss aus #and i know you asked about all of them kinda? but you got an indepth breakdown of #one way by day and another by night au #i think thats a shrek quote but whatever

[thepictureofsdr]

friendly reminders

- alastair was on his way to self love, was finally in a good place, dyed his hair back, cut off charles, and tried to apologize, only to have it all come crumbling down and ran out of the room in tears

- alastair is so secure in the idea that he is truly despised that he assumed the thieves would laugh about elias’s alcoholism

- alastair had to deal with his fathers death and getting involved in a murder investigation only to get out and be manipulated into seeing charles

- alastair is now dealing with the death of his father, his pregnant mother, and the reputation of the family all alone because the one person he thought he could rely on ran off to paris leaving him alone once again

- alastair denied himself a relationship he desperately wanted partially because he believes he’s unlovable and partially to protect the person he adores

- alastair thought charles was a good partner beause alastair has never witnessed or experienced true unconditional selfless love

- pretty much everyone knew about elias’s alcoholism and did absolutley nothing, the thieves still continued to harass alastair 

- alastair has been was threatened with being thrown into the thames, told he deserves cruel treatment, and it was insinuated that alastair makes his sister uncomfortable, all in front of her during HER WEDDING (and she did practically nothing)

- according to cordelia elias “had broken his son’s heart in a dozen different ways”

- alastair is probably so well spoken because he had to take over official house correspondences while elias was too drunk

- alastair never had a childhood

- alastair has never had a true friend

- alastair is the only character to have been fully alone almost his entire life

- alastair is despied for things he did years ago as a child that he didnt even want to do in the first place

- he still blames himself and carries the guilt 

- hes been punishing himself since he was a child

- he still hates and punishes himself 

- alastair has been enduring abuse and trauma from the age of 10 and has been alone the entire time

- alastair does things for people all the time and all anyone does in return is take 

- people insult alastair even when hes not there

-alastair doesnt believe he can be loved

- im putting all of these in one place 

- thomas said he was thinking of how alastair must be feeling after the death of his father and alastair began to cry because he is just that unfamiliar with the concept of people caring about his feelings and he so fully believes that because of his past actions, (which he never even wanted to do in the first place) he does not deserve love

- thomas’s closest friend group created an environment where he could never them about the person he’s increasingly liked and loved since his first year of school, where he’s had to put everyone before himself for years, where he’s had to keep the affections he has for the only person hes ever loved a secret his the whole time

- alastair sees a travel year as a vacation when everyone else considers it work because his entire life has been such a draining job that working away from his normal life and the demands forced on him every day makes him feel like he’s on vacation and not on an official job posting

- alastairs friend group for 90% of his stay at the academy were the boys who had spent a year bullying and beating him into a person he despises

- alastair himself has said he has absolutely no friends and that sona wouldnt even question why he would be with christopher because she would be so delighted at the idea of him having a single friend

- alastair intended to protect cordelia from elias’s alcoholism forever, and never intended to tell anyone he was trailing thomas. he gives so much of himself to the people he loves in secret without ever expecting anything in return, we will never know just how much he has done for others because he never tells anyone how much he sacrifices, because everything comes from the unimaginable amount of love in his heart with expectation of nothing, kindness just for the sake of kindness

- matthew still partially blames alastair for what happened to the baby, and this will 100% eventually be revealed, most likely revealed to alastair with a cruel accusation of guilt, and alastair won't think and say "you cannot blame me for your actions," he will completely blame himself on top of everything else he blames himself for and all we can do is hope this amount of guilt won't send all his progress and sanity crashing down

- the only person alastair can somewhat rely on, his sister, has literally said the words "I suppose you think I am terrible, still loving him" about him

theres so much more but honestly im too sad for this

#i figured everyone was getting tired of me posting all of them separate #I genuinely didn't think id have this many im sorry #yes this is a compilation #alastair carstairs #chain of iron #chain of thorns #chain of gold #the last hours #tlh #the shadowhunter chronicles #tsc #the infernal devices #tid #cordelia carstairs #matthew fairchild #thomas lightwood #thomastair #sdr hc #sdr essay

[0nerd-at-heart0]

Can’t Stop Loving You

Aaron Hotchner x Reader (female)

Word count: 2k

Warning: angst with a happy ending, bold means flashback

 It's just like everything you dreamed it would be. The smell of freshly brewed coffee, the feeling of being able to do anything and everything at the same time. It’s all you work for and it feels great.

The BAU, sure you were just an intern, but being an intern is one step closer to being a true profiler.. 

It's your first day. The lady at the counter hands you some papers to file and with that you head to the bullpen. You walk in, a  stack of paper in your hand, fresh smile,  ready to take on today and then you see him. The papers all fall, time has stopped, your heart is pounding, your head is racing, you didn’t expect to see him.  You heard through the grapevine that he transferred , what is he doing here, what are you doing. You remind yourself to get a grip,  you need to compose yourself.

You quickly pick up the papers and give him a quick smile as you runoff to your office. He doesn’t get to see you fall apart now, not after  all you’ve been through, not after what he did to you. You don’t even give him a second glance fearing that if you look at him your fall apart you’ll have the urge to run back into the arms. As you are in your office filing our papers, the memory starts to hit you like a ton of bricks.

It was in October afternoon, you guys had just gotten back to his apartment after a lovely day including a picnic at the park alongside getting ice cream, even though he claimed he didn't want any but truly devoured it in seconds. 

At this moment in time you guys have been dating for five months. You have yet to meet his son but that’s because his son has been away to a soccer camp. And with the crazy schedule you guys had of you being still a grad student trying to finish up everything to start your career and him working cases all over the place it wasn’t with it in the stars for you to meet Jack.... yet. 

You guys were cuddling on the couch, he wanted to stay silent and enjoy this moment as you ran your hands through his hair but you really wanted to watch a new movie that came out. As you guys debat, your  heart starts to flutter. Everything is perfect, you tell yourself. How can this get any better. So in the spur of the moment you said those three words. I . Love. You.

He quickly stands up and his brows furrow. He tells you to take it back. He starts pacing saying that you can’t love him, that you need to leave right now.  He starts to ramble saying how all this was a mistake. How the only reason you guys were together was because he needed a distraction.

The tears started to fall. You wouldn't believe what you were hearing. You quickly said how dare you and left running. Five months with a man who could never love you, a man who just wanted a distraction from his life. Five months just done the drain. 

You hadn’t noticed you started to cry until teardrops started to hit the papers you’re holding. You got yourself together the best you could and went out back to the bullpen because you need to give Dr. Reid some papers to sign.  

Talking to Reid was an adventure in itself, and as the rest of the team started to surround you to get to know you, you could feel a pair of eyes staring at you. You quickly looked up and saw him looking at you through his window. You shook off the feeling of yearning for him and continued to talk to the group. 

That was until he came down stairs and approached the group.

‘ Everyone back to work, now!” he said in an angry tone.

Everyone scattered off in their own direction and his eyes beckoned on you. 

“ Y/N Y/L/N right? You're the new intern hired by Strauss” he asked like he had no clue who you were.

Two can play at this game.

“Yes, sir. I am new here, who are you?,” you stated, trying to stand your ground.

He let out a small chuckle.

‘ I am Agent Hotchner and here’s a word of advice, don’t distract my team. Thank you.” he glared and quickly left back to his office.

What was once sadness boiled into anger. How Dare He.

The work day went by pretty quickly after that. Dr. Reid and you got along pretty quickly. He understood the feeling of being new and the wrath of Hotch. If only he knew half of it. 

As you get ready to leave, Morgan tells you that everyone is going to this cool bar that just opened up and that would love for you to join them.

Prenitss tell you that it’s not everyday they invite a newbie let alone an intern join them. 

You take pride in that and agree to join them.

At the bar. all of you were laughing and drinking. The only one missing was he who shall not be named. 

You're not one to drink but if Rossii was buying suddenly you didn't mind. Prentiss, Morgan, Garcia and JJ were off dancing. Rossi was hitting a woman wayyy out of his league. And at the table you were trying to convince Reid to at least do one shot with you.

You were pretty much all up in Reid’s personal bubble but he didn;t seem to mind. Maybe it was because he had already had a couple sips of your drink and was easing up.

As you and Reid were bickering and laughing, he walked in.  Hotch quickly walked to Rossi, they had a quick chat and then came over to the table.

“ Look at you two, where’s everyone else,” he asked as he took at seat

‘Dance floor”, I say bitterly.

“ I thought you weren't coming,'' Reid questioned.

“ I just had to drop off Jack at a sleepover, sorry to burst your bubble.” he said.

The night went on and Reid and Hotch talked about god knows what. You were more focused on the fact that Hotch was looking at me every now and then. Like what's his deal. You had enough drinks  to decide to go dance.  

As you dance you could feel his eyes on you. You decided to give him a show, show him what he lost. Finally get your mojo back. It’s been 4 months since you broke up and you are ready to let it all go. After months of crying and pinning and eating ice cream. He has no power over you anymore.

After too much dancing, and the fact that the bar is closing everyone huddles up to go there separate ways. You are holding on to Spencer (finally in the mindset to call him Spencer). You all walk to the parking lot seeing who's going to give who a ride. When Hotch speaks up and says that you guys live close to each other and he can give you a ride. No one seems to question it since they are all too tired to even function. 

But you know that’s a lie. You live across town from him. What's the endgame?

Everyone says their goodbyes and you just submit to Hotch giving you a ride.. You want to see what;s going to happen. Screw the alcohol for making your brain go all wonky. What happened to your independence. It all flew out the window. 

You and Hotch were in his car. Sitting in the parking lot. 

No one dared say a word. He hadn't even started the engine. 

‘’So, Agent Hotchner, are you going to take me home anytime soon?”, you sort of slurred.

“ Agent Hotchner,” he laughed, ‘ so formal, I guess I deserve that”

“ You deserve a lot worse’, you mumble.

‘’Y/N, please let me explain” he pleads with you, finally looking at you.

You look away, cross you arms and pout as you say, “ oh so now you know who I am”

“ I am not having this conversation in the car”, he says as he turns on the engine and begins to drive.

You stare out the window, the drive is silent. You don’t even realize he led you back to his house.

“ What are we doing here”, you ask as he opens the door for you.

“ I want to talk, and after I will call and pay for an uber back to your place if it makes you happy.” he says with puppy dog eyes that are hard to resist

You nod and he leads you into the house. You guys sit across from each other on the couch. He places water in front of you and you mumble a thanks.

“ Y/N, I can't ask you to forgive me because what I did was horrible. But I was scared. Everyone I love gets hurt when they are with me. And when you said you loved me, something in me told me that I had to call it off. You were getting too close to me and I couldn't let you in. I couldn't let you see the dark side of me. All the bad, I was scared that the moment I said that I too loved you, you would rather get hurt or regret being with me. And as strong as I seem, you have my whole heart and with that you have the power to break m..”, he pleads.

“ So because you were scared, I had to get hurt. No matter what, I still came out hurt above it all. The pain you caused me was astronomical.” You yell

Then he does something you didn't expect.

He gets on his knees in front of you.

‘ I don't expect you to forgive me. When I saw you walk into the bullpen my heart dropped. I felt like a teenager in love. You took my breath away all over again. Y/N, I can't let you go again. Seeing how you were with the team. The world I tried to protect you from. I am sorry. I am deeply, deeply sorry. I will spend the rest of my life trying to make things right, even if it means you won't take me back, I will do it because I still want you in my life. Even if we are just friends.” he cries.

“ You have been this new found light in my life, this last 4 months without you have been horrible. I am an idiot., please Y/N.”

His tears are running down his cheek and you realize this man has gone through so much loss in his life.  Nothing will truly justify what he did. But you can't lie and say the 5 months you were together were not the best months of your life. 

You gently lift his chin up to meet your eyes. “ I can't forgive you just yet, but that doesnt mean I ever stopped loving you, I am willing to try again because I will be darned if I too let you go. Hotch- I mean Aaron I mean it when I say you are one of the best things to happen to me.

He starts to smile and stands up. As he stands he pulls you into and embraces and gives you the most passionate kiss. Pouring his heart and soul into it. As you break for air he whispers, “ You, Y/N are the love of my life and I can say that I am no longer afraid to say that out loud. Let the future come, I will take it as it goes. But you Y/N, you are it for me, if you will have me”

That all you ever wanted to hear. And again you kiss. A kiss so magical, it feels like the beginning of what's to be finally a happily ever after for you two.

#aaronhotchner #aaron hotchner x reader #aaronhotch #hotchner #hotch x reader #bau #aaron hotchner / reader #aaron hotchner x y/n #Criminal Minds #hotch x you #hotchner x reader #aaron hotchner x you #fanfic #self insert #cm

[halcified]

i see a lot of ppl, esp on twitter, talk about how c!tommy knew that c!techno was going to blow up lmanburg, and that he was mostly in the wrong for betraying techno. and that... doesnt really sit well with me. so... heres me trying to look at everything that happened from tommys perspective LMFAO

for starters, techno actively kept tommy from learning about his plans for majority of tommys stay with him. he erased the line in his to do list, would lie when tommy asked about it, and consistently told him that the hound army, the weapons, and everything else were there for the purpose of retrieving the discs. 

tommy was already in a vulnerable place after leaving logstedshire. he was lonely, being manipulated, and felt helpless. when techno took tommy in, gave him food and a home, how else was he meant to understand that? he was at his weakest, and had no choice but to believe that techno meant the best for him. 

during his stay in the arctic, tommy made it clear that he would only side with techno if they got the discs back, and kept tubbo and lmanburg safe while doing it. all of these are terms techno agreed to, even if he didnt mean it. 

of course, techno came clean eventually. once he saw tommy as his friend. 

on the day before he sided with tommys abuser. 

when techno came clean, tommy was placed into the same situation wilbur put him in. the brother who manipulated and used tommy for his own means, who convinced him and tubbo to die for their beliefs. the brother who he hates, but loved until the very end. 

tommy is placed into the same situation, with the person he blamed for everything awful that happened to his home, and the person who, when he was at his lowest, gave him a home. 

and so he agrees. the same way he agreed with wilbur, because he thought that he could convince wilbur he was wrong too. because he didnt want to lose the people hes close to. not when hes lost literally everything else.

and then the confrontation with tubbo happens, and tommy realizes that he doesnt have to lose everything after all. he can have lmanburg, and his home, and tubbo back, and in a moment of confusion and conflicted feelings, tommy decides to side with the one person who has been a constant throughout his time on the server. 

and, as we all know, techno reacts badly. and then he reacts by siding with dream. 

which only solidifies the choice. 

i think its safe to say that tommy has a hard time explaining how he feels. its always been hard, especially apologies. so when he tells techno that dream wants to kill him, he assumes that techno understands what that means. tommy assumes that “he wants to kill me” and “i dont know how to feel about him” means the same thing to him as it does to techno. 

so techno, siding with the person tommy is so, so terrified of, only makes tommy believe that techno never truly cared for him in the first place. it makes him believe that all the time they spent together didn’t mean anything, that techno was suddenly betraying tommy. and then we get doomsday, and it is so much worse than tommy thought.

that scene, with tommy and techno yelling at the top of their lungs, really only says one thing to me. its two hurt individuals yelling desperately to each other, to be heard. 

and they both achieve this, to some degree. they both hear the awful things they say about each other, but never the thought process behind it. not the months of trauma and hurt that have lead them to where they are. 

and, in a way, their argument was the one place where they were actually able to think about their feelings towards each other. 

tommy represses every awful thing that happens to him-- he refuses to speak, let alone think of the awful things wilbur and dream did to him. and even though techno is on the same level as them in that moment, he is able to spit ideas out, to really reflect on what lmanburg, and what technos friendship meant to him. 

and what he concludes on isn’t accurate to technos perspective, not at all. 

but for a kid who has been manipulated, used, and torn down so many times? it is so justified. 

and he decides that techno is just as bad as dream and wilbur, because every single relationship he’s had has hurt him in some way. no matter how good, people have always hurt tommy. it happened with dream, and wilbur, and even tubbo. but the difference between all those people is that tommy already hated techno. he already blamed techno for everything that happened, for causing an active threat to everything he cares about. and after tommy is convinced that techno isnt that bad, he’s forced to reconsider and put techno back in the black and white box he had him in previously. because... if he cant blame everything on wilbur, and he cant blame everything on dream, he has to blame it on techno. 

it doesn’t take technos feelings or the time they spent together into account. dear god it doesnt. but this is a kid, who thought he finally had a home in someone, who wouldnt kill him, or blow up his home, or exile him, and felt betrayed when he realized he didn’t. 

all in all, they both deserved better. 

#dream smp #dsmp #dream smp meta #meta #this isnt anti tubbo lol he is a complex character of his own i jsut dont have space 2 talk abt him #AT THE END OF THE DAY. THEY ALL DESERVE BETTER #this is 900 words of minecraft meta what am i doing

[acaciapines]

@mallowstep

woulda sent this as an ask but uh. moth ghost au wont leave my head and this got. long. hope ya dont mind i think about hawkfrost and mothwing A Lot.

under a cut bc. again. long.

bc see the thing is. if i were to do a moth ghost au. the kids are all young when she dies (at least, i think? idk their timeline, i’m assuming they’re like, 3-4 months, so, youngish), so it’s like...ghost sister? ghost sister. sasha cant see her because it’s no fun if she can, so we get hawk and tadpole, both who feel like they’ve killed their sister, both who are kids and cant deal with that grief. but like...moth is right there! she’s right there! she’s still their sister even if shes a ghost and as they get bigger and lose their kit-fluff she stays the same. she’s their sister.

but sasha....sasha just lost one of her kittens, nearly lost the other two, and now the remaining ones are talking to moth as though she’s still there? cats dont leave ghosts behind--cats aren’t trapped like that. humans are, sasha was a housecat and she’s seen how humans pace around their houses, but cats are sneaky lil guys. cats arent trapped to the earth like people are. cats die and leap into the sky and become the world.

moth isn’t stuck, moth is the world. so sasha tells her sons that their sister isn’t a ghost with them, but she’s the world around them--the prey and wind and sky.

hawk and tadpole look at each other, at their very-much-there ghost sister, and are like....yeah sure mom.

so we get a hawk and tadpole who refuse to let moth go. it’s hawk who clings to her the most, i think--he acts as though nothing happened, as though nobody drowned. tadpole is...starting to listen to their mom, a bit. he knows moth is there, but...should she be? nobody should be trapped like this. her spirit deserves to move on.

“we should help her,” tadpole says.

“she’s fine,” hawk says, “she’s right here, and she’s fine, and i’m not going to let you kill her again just because you have something against ghosts.”

and tadpole doesn’t ask again. he was the first one out out that basement.

eventually the kits end up in riverclan, and tadpole doesnt really talk about moth to anybody. like, he still acknowledges her, but only when they’re alone or it’s just hawk. hawk, on the other hand, doesn’t care! sure he’s like, 6 moons old, and moth is still stuck at 4, but! who! cares! and so while the clan teaches them their clan ways, teaches them about starclan, tadpole listens and he’s able to find some comfort in the idea. that theres a place his sister can go, can move on to. he’s always liked the stars. moth will, too.

but hawk...

well, the thing is, hawk’s not a clan cat. he’s got a clan name, now, he’s down a mother and he’s a very young kid staring up at these riverclan cats, but he’s nothing if not stubborn, and he’s clung to his sister thus far and he’s not about to give her up.

the clans dont think much of other religions. they tell hawk and tadpole that there’s no such thing as ghosts. dead cats go to starclan, and only clan cats, at that--your sister isn’t there, why would she be? she died a loner. but dont worry, now you’re here, in the clans, and when you die, you’ll be together in starclan.

“it’s stupid,” hawk says, to moth, alone in their den, “who cares about starclan? thats not mine, and its not yours. if you’re going anywhere it’s the wind, not the stars.”

“did you see that one thunderclan med cat apprentice at the gathering?” asks moth. “i thought she was pretty.”

“never change,” hawk says, fondly.

but he starts to think. as he starts to spend more and more time alone, with only moth for company. and moth is moth but she is...a ghost. she’s trapped. she doesn’t grow and change like a living cat does--at this point she doesnt even know why she’s still around. something about...drowning, maybe? it happened so long ago. she’s just happy to have her brother with her.

tadpole worries. hawk pushes him away. tadpole tells him they have to let their sister go. that they have to move on--that he loves moth too, and he misses her every day, but they’re clan cats, now. they have to be the best they can be, so nobody else is ever hurt again.

so i dont hurt anyone again, he doesnt say.

because tadpole doesn’t think moth’s ghost is around, either. he’s stopped seeing her. maybe he never did. maybe he was just a kid who lost his sister, who killed his sister, even if on accident. maybe he never was able to cope with that.

he wont see his sister in starclan. he probably wont see his mother, either. he doenst know what happens to loners. sasha told them, once. the wind and the sky and the leaves. becoming a part of the world, again. energy that can never truly die, just change shape.

but that was so long ago. he’s nearly a warrior, now. who remembers the stories they were told as kids?

anyways.

hawkpaw becomes the medicine cat.

he’s got two sets of beliefs rattling around in his head--starclan, everything the clans are telling him, and half-remembered stories from his mother, that moth remembers best of them all, forever trapped as a 4 moon old kit. and somewhere along the line these have been mashed together, into one big: starclan isnt letting moth in, because she died a loner. starclan wont ever let moth in but they’re going to take me when i die and i wont let them. i wont let them tear us apart.

it’s not easy. riverclan says he’d need a sign to become a medicine cat, but since when have the dead done that? they’re dead. moth is a ghost at his side, and she watches the flowers, and the bees, and remarks about thunderclan medicine cats that hawk can’t help but be begrudgingly fond of, if only for her. 

but he can do this. he has to.

hawkpaw fakes a sign. hawkpaw becomes medicine cat.

hawkpaw goes to the moonpool, and the stars tell him the same thing the clans do: there is no place for your sister here. our heavens are for worthy clan cats only.

hawk is still the villain here, just...in a different way. if this were a warriors book he’d be a villain flat-out, a med cat turning his back on starclan, who lied and cheated his way into this role, who never cared about anybody but his dead sister. but this isn’t a warriors book.

tadpole is the hero. hawk looks at the stars and tells them to their faces if you wont let my sister in, then i’ll make you regret it. i’ll show everyone that you’re nothing. that they worship cats that arent even ghosts. cats that are trapped. maybe youre wrong. maybe moth isnt the one youre keeping out. maybe shes the free one.

hawk plays the long game, though. gets his full name. learns medicines, how to heal.

how to harm.

moth watches him from the shadows. tells him kit-stories about rebirth.

the clans dont believe in that. hawk doesnt know what he is. he doesnt either.

theyre all trapped. thats what he believes.

he sets a trap for mudfur. a fox-trap down by the lake. then he, hawkfrost, will be the only link riverclan has to the stars, and he won’t listen to a word they say.

tadpole is the one to find out, to intervene before mudfur dies. to say hawk, you betrayed us all!

you betrayed me first, says hawk. me and moth both.

moth is dead! says tadpole. you can’t let her go!

you follow the words of the dead, says hawk in return, thats all the clans do. all mudfur did. he didnt want me to be his apprentice. he needed the dead to tell him what to do. what kind of life is that? and if you agree with what he did, how is it any different than me and moth? at least i know she’s real. that she’s our sister. the clans would let her die.

and so tadpole kills his brother with a stake through the heart.

he thinks he can see moth for a second. a flash against the blood.

hawk dies. he doesnt die a clan cat.

was it worth it? tadpole asks.

im going to be with moth, hawk says. youre going to go to starclan.

why dont you answer that question?

...

yeah thats my moth ghost au. is this anything? who knows! its certainly not in any way fleshed out, just the barest bones of an idea. i want leafpool to still get her ‘blood will spill blood’ prophecy--maybe she and hawk become friends, somewhere in there. who knows.

ghost moth man. fun to think about.

#warrior cats #mothwing #hawkfrost #tadpole #i write #anyways time to go to bed its fully one thirty am #i have to wake up early tommorow #i have plans #this is what warrior cats does to you

[steves-on-a-plane]

Better Together

Words: 2042 Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader   Request: “Hello, favorite blog writer! :) I may also request a Bucky Imagine where maybe he's your Ex (breaking up cause of he doesnt want to get you in danger cause of the avengers) but he is lost without you and totally changed in the bad way, but you feel the same.. then one night he wants to leave the Avengers behind but Steves get you there and you convince him to stay while hes already on his bike.. then you talk, decide to give your love another chance annnd end up in bed :) hehe. THAAANK YOU DOLL” - Anon Summary: Steve Rogers comes knocking on Reader’s door in the middle of the night. He shows her a note from her Ex Bucky who plans on leaving the Avengers and starting a new life. Steve thinks Reader is the only one who can convince Bucky he’s already where he belongs.

You woke up in the middle of the night. You’d been tossing and turning most of it but that was nothing new. You’d been having trouble sleeping ever since he broke up with you. He said he was doing it to protects you. A part of you knew that his concerns were genuine. He always said he loved you and you could tell when you looked into his eyes that he meant it. Being the significant other of an Avenger had its risks. That was why Clint had kept his entire family secret, even from the rest of the team. There was plenty of news footage to act as proof of the dangers Tony had put Pepper in.

The only difference between you and Laura Barton or Pepper Potts, was that you knew what you’d signed up for. You didn’t know Bucky before the Winter Soldier. You’d only been a part of his journey after he tried to separate himself from that persona. It wasn’t as if you’d lived a normal life together for some time and then he happened to get invited to join at team that put the world at danger just as often as it saved it. But, just like the first time he’d told you he loved you, once Bucky decided to leave, there was no changing his mind.

It had been roughly three months since he’d left. He’d asked the others to stay away to help keep you safe, so when Bucky left most of your friends did too. They all had loved ones of their own and they knew they’d do anything to protect them. The team didn’t agree with Bucky’s decision, but they at least tried to respect it. You wished they had respected you enough to ask for your opinion instead of treating you like a child too fragile to handle yourself.

Your throat felt scratchy and dry. You decided to get up and get a drink of water. It wasn’t like you were going to be going back to sleep any time soon. You ambled into the kitchen letting loose a loud yawn. You rubbed your eyes and made your way over to the sink. You’d just been about to fill a glass with tap water when you heard a knock on your apartment door. Your eyes glanced over at the microwave. It was four in the morning.

“Who in the world…?” You abandoned your task at hand to peek through the peephole. Steve Rogers was standing in the hall. He and Sam were the only ones who didn’t abide by Bucky’s no contact rule. They both told you many times and on separate occasions that they were sure Bucky would come to his sense soon. You opened the door and motioned for Steve to step inside.

“I wasn’t expecting you to be awake.” He confessed as you closed the door behind him.

“Couldn’t sleep.” You shrugged. You folded your arms over your chest. “Shouldn’t you be at the compound pretending I don’t exist?”

“Probably.” Steve shrugged. “You know he’s just doing what he thinks is best.”

“Yeah, but you know that just because he thinks it’s best that doesn’t make it the only option, right?” You sighed.

“Believe me, I do. That’s why I’m here actually.” Steve confessed. “He’s leaving, [Y/N]. He packed all his things at the compound. He left me a note.” Steve handed over a piece of paper that looked like it had in fact been scratch across in Bucky’s impatient font. You looked down at the note and began to scan it quickly.

“Rogers, By the time you’re reading this, I’ll already be gone. Don’t bother trying to follow me. I appreciate everything you’ve tried to do for me over the years, but I need a fresh start, a real fresh start. You’ve been the best friend I could have ever asked for but this is the end of the line Pal. -Buck.”

“You have any idea where he may be going?” Steve questioned. You looked up at Captain America. His brows were knit together with worry. His lips were turned down into a frown that didn’t seem appropriate on the face on the Star-Spangled Man.

“Actually, yeah. Are you sure we should go after him, Steve? He seems pretty sure that this is what he wants.” You hesitated.

“Well, he seemed pretty sure that calling things off with you was what he wanted too.” Steve told you. “He’s been a mess without you, [Y/N]. He’s been second guessing every decision he’s made. He’s been short tempered. He doesn’t sleep well. He won’t talk with anyone unless it’s about work. I Think you’re the only one who can convince him to stay.”

“I couldn’t even convince him to stay with me, Steve.” You disagreed. “But maybe together we can prove to him that he’s better off with the team than he would be alone. I’ll get my coat.”

Steve programed the address you gave him into his car’s GPS. The directions led to a log cabin in Virginia that Bucky had purchased a few years ago. Steve parked his car in the driveway. It didn’t look like Bucky had arrived yet.

“I didn’t even know he had this place.” Steve gaped. “You’re sure this is where he’ll come?”

“This would be my best guess. It was supposed to be a secret. He got the idea from Clint.” You told him. “He wanted a place to hide in case he ever lost control again.”

“Why did he tell you about it?” Steve asked. He was clearly a little hurt that his lifelong best friend had trusted you with such a big secret.

“At the time, he told me that if he ever lost control again, I’d be the only one who would be able to pull him out of it. You think you can handle this?” You questioned.

“He’d do the same for me.” Steve said before getting out of the car. You followed after him, the two of you began to walk the perimeter of the house, looking for any indication that Bucky may have already been there and left. After only a few minutes you heard the familiar purr of a motorcycle. You turned a corner as Bucky cut the engine. Because it was still dark out, he didn’t see you or Steve at first. However, he certainly recognized his best friend’s vehicle.

“How the hell did you find me, Rogers?” Bucky mumble to himself.

“A little bird told me.” Steve confessed, He stepped closer to Bucky, which activated a motion sensor light above Bucky’s garage.

“That makes sense.” Bucky sighed when he saw you standing next to Steve.

“Can we talk?” You wondered, stepping closer to him.

“We have talked, [Y/N].” He answered. “I don’t have anything else to say. To you or him.” He nodded at Steve. He tried to walk past both of you towards his front door. You reached out for his wrist to stop him but you fingers only brushed against cool vibranium. He continued walking.

“Well, I do.” You called after him. That seemed to catch his attention briefly. He looked back at you over his shoulder.

“Do you remember what you said, when you took me here?” You called out to him.

“That was years ago. It was a different time, [Y/N].” He shook his head.

“It wasn’t so long ago, Buck.” You insisted, stepping closer. “You said you always wanted a place like this, away from the city. A quiet place to raise a family. You said you liked this house because it had potential, it gave you hope. Hope that we could have a brighter future together than your dark past.” You took another step closer to him and pointed to a large oak tree in the backyard. “You said that tree would be perfect for a tree house, handmade like your grandparents had at their house. The kind with a tire swing hung from a lower branch.”

“That was a pipe dream, [Y/N].” Bucky argued.

“It was more than that.” You insisted. “It was a future we can still have, together. We can be together, James. We can make this work. We can have the two point five kids with a tree house, a dog and a white picket fence, and in another thirty years we can have three rocking chairs out on the back deck enjoying the life we build. It won’t be easy, we’ll have to fight like hell, but you’ve given up too much to not get a happy ending.”

“Three chairs?” Bucky repeated.

“Yeah, when I picture us way older, Steve’s always there. I just want to be prepared in case he never marries and ends up living with us when he’s retired.” You explained. “You know I’ll age faster than you two, so I like to think that instead of remarrying the two of you grow old together. It sounds weird when I say it out loud.” You rolled your eyes. You could just make out the slightest hint of a smirk on Bucky’s face in the moonlight.

“So, in your fantasy reality where we end up together and you are presumably my wife, you envision my best friend living with us?” He chuckled.

“He’s family.” You shrugged. “What else would we do? Put him in a nursing home? Family takes care of each other, especially when they don’t know how to take care of themselves.”

“Alright, alright. Point taken.” You watched Bucky’s shoulders slump and he heaved a great sigh. “I’ll admit, I may have been acting a bit…irrational, the past few months. The truth is, none of this is how I pictured my life turning out.  Sometimes I get into my own head and, it’s hard to love myself, so I can’t understand how anyone else would. I truly don’t deserve the two of you.”

“Nonsense,” Steve came to stand beside you. “There’s no one else on earth stubborn enough to track you down.”

“You know something, Rogers, I think you might be right.” Bucky smiled.

“[Y/N]’s right too, Buck. We’re family. We stand by each other. We fight together. Especially if that fight is against our own instincts.” Steve said.

“It’s pretty cold out here.” Bucky observed. “You guys want to come inside?”

“I think maybe the two of you need time to talk. Can you make sure she get’s home alright?” Steve questioned.

“She already is home. We’ve got it from here, Rogers.” Bucky assured him. “Thank you.”

“Till the end of the line.” Steve told him before walking back to his car.

“You have time to talk?” He asked you. Bucky started walking towards his front door.

“Yeah,” you nodded, following after him. “But truthfully Buck, I’m exhausted. I haven’t been sleeping great and Steve got me all full of adrenaline on the way over. Now that I know you’re okay, my body is finally starting to register that it’s five in the morning and I should be sleeping. Could I maybe crash on your couch and we can talk in the morning?”

You looked around realizing the house had hardly any furniture. The front door opened to an empty entry way. Bucky kicked his shoes off and left them in the middle of the floor. To your left was a living room with just an old big box TV & a couch. To the right, was a dining room, which was filled with bins and boxes, probably everything he’d moved from the Compound.

“I have a bed you know.” He offered as you took off your boots. “For you.” He added, I can sleep on the couch.

“Steve said you haven’t been sleeping well, you should take the bed. You need the rest.” You insisted.

“You said yourself that you’re having trouble sleeping.” Bucky reminded you.

“Yeah, didn’t realize how much I hated sleeping alone until you left.” You confessed.

“I know the feeling.” He chuckled. “Nearly called you that first night and begged you to take me back. Plenty of room for the two of us. We could both get a decent night’s sleep for the first time in months and we can figure out everything else in the morning.”

“Count me in.” You yawned.

#Bucky Barnes #Bucky Barnes x Reader #Bucky Barnes Reader Insert #Bucky Barnes Fan Fiction #Bucky Barnes FF #Bucky Barnes Fan Fic #request

[banana-with-a-bow-tie]

Nevertheless knowing that a man is not justified by the works of the Law but through faith in Christ Jesus, even we have believed in Christ Jesus, so that we may be justified by faith in Christ and not by the works of the Law; since by the works of the Law no flesh will be justified.

Galatians 2:16

Judgment day is coming.

God has already determined the moment of your last breath on earth. That moment is fast approaching and then you will be instantly judged. (Her. 9:27)

We will all stand before God one day soon and will give an account of our lives. We will all fall short of the standard of God to make it to Heaven (Matt. 5:48) and we will all be given guilty sentences.

Some though, through the mercy of God will be allowed entry into Heaven. Those who will have put their faith in Jesus Christ.

The question though is, what does it mean to put our faith in Christ?

We all know people who say they believe in Jesus, but then their life remains unchanged. That is not saving faith.

On the other hand we all know people who say they believe in Jesus but when asked about judgment day they might say something like:

“I’m a good person”.

“I’ve done more good than bad”.

“I was baptized as a child”.

“I confess my sins to the priest”.

“I’ve done good works”.

Sadly, anyone who utters these words is without saving faith as well.

Having faith in Christ means that you believe that Jesus has saved you from all your sins in an instant.

Having faith in Christ means that you believe that Jesus died on the cross for your sins, because of the fact that you couldn’t save yourself.

Having faith in Christ means that you believe that salvation is through faith in Christ alone.

And the Bible is clear that salvation is by faith alone.

Hebrews 11 makes this point over and over again.

“Without faith it is impossible to please God”, shouts the writer of Hebrews in Hebrews 11:6.

It goes on to say that Noah “became heir of the righteousness that comes by faith.” Hebrews 11:7

The chapter goes on describing that it was the faith of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Joseph, Moses and the countless who came after them that saved them. Not their works.

Elsewhere in scripture, Paul says that faith is a gift of God and salvation must be apart from works or we could boast one day that we got ourselves to Heaven. (Eph 2:8-9)

Anywhere salvation happens in the Bible it is not a process, but it happens in an instant when someone puts their faith in Christ. (Luke 19:9, Acts 8:37, Acts 16:31, Acts 9:20, Luke 23:43)

When someone adds works to faith, then they don’t have any faith at all. It’s not that they have some faith, or that there are degrees of faith, when it comes to salvation it is all or nothing.

The Bible describes faith as confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see (Heb. 11:1). In other words faith is certainty even though it has not happened yet. There is nothing less certain than adding works to salvation.

Faith plus works doesn’t work.

Let’s say you buy a phone at the store. The reason you love this phone is because it is very reliable, “it just doesn’t break”. But then, when it comes to check out time, the person at the counter offers you the insurance and you decide to buy it just in case. Do you actually have faith in the product? No, it is a lack of trust in the maker. It is not complete faith.

If you stand before God on judgment day, and you are trusting in anything other than Jesus’ righteousness, then you are not trusting in Jesus.

Jesus demanded complete trust.

In John 14:6 He says that He is THE way, THE truth and THE life, and that no man can go to the father but through Him. Adding works slaps Jesus in the face.

In Matthew 11:28 Jesus says, “Come to Me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” He wants people to stop doing works to earn salvation and instead to simply put their faith in Him.

Finally in John 6:28-29 he is asked straight out, “What are we to do, so that we may accomplish the works of God?” Jesus answered and said to them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He has sent.”

The Bible is clear that Faith alone in the messiah is what it takes to get to Heaven, and that adding any works as a reason to merit Heaven, not only is a slap in the face to Jesus, but ultimately is a sign that the faith is not there at all.

While James rightly reminds us (James 2:14-26) that a lack of works means that there is no saving faith (or in other words that someone without works hasn’t truly been born-again), We must also remember that a trust in works also means that saving faith is missing. You can’t be born again and not believe in instant salvation! Works demands a process of salvation. Works demands a lack of trust in Jesus’ ability to save. Works says “I do not trust you Jesus!”

One of the saddest things that I think often about is the fact that so many of us are wrong about how it will go for our loved ones on judgment day.

Because of our love for them and our desire to see them go to heaven we assume that they will be ok on that day.

So many of you have neighbors, friends and family, who say that they have faith, but you know that they do not. And yet, you suppress that truth. You ignore it. You’ve learned to live with it. Perhaps you might actually wonder if they might be genuinely saved. Perhaps you’ve created a new way to Heaven just for them.

The fact of the matter is that if your loved one trusts in their goodness, they are unsaved. They are on their way to hell. The are still at war with their creator (Rom. 8:7), whose standard is perfection (Matt. 5:48), and who was willing to crush His Son on the cross for sin (Isaiah 53:10). You must get beyond the surface, and actually think about these truths.

I know that it is uncomfortable, it is tragic to think of a loved one in hell, but for their sake and for yours you must think about it. It might mean an uncomfortable conversation, it might mean the loss of a relationship, it might mean uncomfortable thanksgivings, but for the love of God and for the sake of eternity it is imperative that you consider these things.

One day when we stand before God, we will only be allowed entrance into Heaven if we have faith in the finished work of Christ on the cross. We will deserve hell, and yet, get heaven. We will owe an eternal debt, and yet share in God’s inheritance.

We must preach this Gospel to all and beg people to forsake their futile works and fully trust in Jesus.

#long post