#or at least not the cause of the issues

[dredshirtroberts]

today is my mom's birthday. and i hate her.

i hate her for not being curious or sharing what she did know about our family's health issues. i hate her for not paying attention to her children when they needed her. i hate her for not paying attention to me for decades unless it benefited her. i hate her for having gotten a special super duper surprise birthday theme for her 51st birthday when the very next month for my Actual Milestone Birthday of turning 30 (which my family has always treated as special) i got BLATANTLY ignored on MULTIPLE points in the "evening of festivities" including WHILE EATING MY SPECIAL DINNER (which was a backup option because the whole plan for my birthday i had was thrown out for whatever SHE wanted to plan instead). as in i ate it almost completely alone in a different room because no one wanted to choose to sit with me. For my own fucking birthday.

i hate her for hating herself so loudly and specifically that i know why she doesn't like me. I wear her face better than she does, and she's angry she doesn't think she looks hot and I do. And I can't point out that i look just like her or i risk pointing a mirror at her and going "So you *don't* love me, because i look like all the things you hate". But if I point out I look like any of dad's family i don't because then i'm trying too hard to be a boy which she hates.

i hate her. i hate her for never taking us to the doctor. i hate her.

i hate her because she was supposed to love me. but she didn't.

and now that i've rescinded my love... now what?

i can't call dad if my tire blows out on the highway. I couldn't do that even before I stopped talking to them because of how far away I am now, but... now I really can't. All I'd get is a lecture on how dangerous i'm probably being (even if the reason for the car troubles is in no way my fault, it has to be my fault. it's always my fault.) and told to figure it out for myself once the panic is over.

i've never been able to call my mom for anything.

Ever.

she was never the person i went to. she couldn't be. she probably wanted to be on occasion, but she never did the work either.

In cutting my parents off, i really didn't actually lose anything. the amount of contact i've had with them since i blocked them everywhere last July has been about on par as what it used to be before i stopped talking to them - just without the anxiety of a potential reemergence of them into my life.

and i hate my mother. and there might be a hole in my heart (non-metaphorical, and also non-concerning, somehow). and i hate my mother.

#we're not doing *great* over here my guys #heart is probably (?) fine #or at least not the cause of the issues #nor a major contributor at that. but otherwise i'm just... #every step i'm going 'okay just gotta get to the next step and then maybe there'll be an answer. okay no answer at that step but with more #not really #only 4 total appointments scheduled and attended but like. #i know i'm extra drained because of the weather fluctuations and whatnot but like. i'm way too exhausted to deal with this shit right now. #returning with minimal findings - just *just* out of normal range #or on the edge of normal range #nothing ever serious or alarming which is good! i prefer to be Not Dying personally #but so if the tests are coming back with no issues then why do i always feel like shit? #and also i hate my mother

[obsessedwithstarwars]

A series of murders have been taking place in Blüdhaven. (Is that how you spell it?)

BPD are at their limits. They call in a specialist. An unregistered meta??? woman who has very specific demands that the police department must follow to the letter.

She is somewhat a ghost story (haha) throughout the states. When a department needs help, her services are found in a letter on the chief’s desk, along with specific criteria for her offer of help. If they don’t meet her demands, she vanishes, leaving chaos and destruction in her wake. She has been considered dead many times due to the damages. But she’s always appeared a few weeks later, helping another department in a different state and leaving the solved case of the one she abruptly left.

Her demands are this: All windows closed and blindfolds down.

No electronics. If they can’t be moved, then they must be disabled. If that can’t happen, then the police department must leave a green flag on their station.

She will only visit under cover of night.

They will know her by the DP insignia on the black armor she wears. Her red and blue hair (that almost looks like it’s floating?!) will be the only defining feature aside from glowing green eyes. The rest of her face will be covered. If anyone asks, they did not see anything discernable about her.

There is only one police officer she will share information to. He or she will be standing outside.

This officer will wear a belt she brings and it will remain as part of his or her uniform.

No questions.

They will take all of the credit and never mention her or her description to anyone in white.

Her help will not be put in the case files. There must be no evidence that she was there.

After she leaves, they will discover a letter for an Agent O. He comes within two days. He’s always furious after reading it and practically interrogates the officer who stood outside the door. She recommends that this officer immediately go on vacation for a week.

The police departments she has worked with (that have cooperated with her demands) all claim she was a godsend. Her methods were unconventional but effective. Ignore the one sided conversations she has at the crime scene and she’s the perfect specialist. Their only issue is that she will not work with the same department twice so they’ve had to get creative and send the officer she worked with to another department (small rural town) to solve another cold case for them.

She can somehow figure out exactly what happened to each victim without seeing the body or the case file and tell the police departments the exact description of the suspect just by having a one sided conversation at the scene of the crime. It’s almost like someone is answering her, but no one ever does. If no body was discovered, she can tell you exactly where it is.

AKA Jazz figured out she can communicate with weak ghosts. As a liminal, she has been able to solve many cold cases just by speaking to the victims.

Dick Grayson is assigned as her designated officer. Chaos ensues because of course it does.

Extra thought: What if the GIW use a liminal serial killer (could be in Blüdhaven or Gotham) to draw Jazz out? Are they paying the killer? Forcing someone to kill? SO MANY HORRIBLE POSSIBILITIES!

#dp x dc #dc x dp #dp x dc prompt #danny phantom #jazz fenton #dp x dc crossover #dc x dp au #jasmine fenton #danny fenton #phantom helps when he can #Tucker and Technus for sure help with any tech issues #they want to remain anonymous #leaving the belts is Team Phantom’s way of ensuring at least one officer won’t be overshadowed in case of an ecto-attack #the GIW shows up ​if the police departments don’t follow directions #jazz can usually handle herself #but Danny likes to be a little shit #I mean help #Danny likes to help #Dani LOVES causing chaos for the GIW #It’s her passion #oooh what if Dan’s the one who helps #Dick is about to have an interesting week #same with Nightwing #Jazz definitely goes to Gotham next #Dick follows #Red Hood has fun times investigating and attempting to stop his brother’s matchmaking #if someone writes this i will love you forever

[ofswordsandpens]

I'm sincerely very happy for anyone who is enjoying the show but every time I see takes that the show has improved the book characterizations or that the book characters are underdeveloped in comparison to the show...

#our experiences are very different lmao #pjo show crit #sure the show isn't completely out yet #but id argue that the characters (namely the trio) seem way more developed and well-rounded in the book by this point in time (episode 4) #and look im not saying every change the show has made is bad #but by and far there has yet to be a change to characterization that feels like an IMPROVEMENT from the source material lmao #the closest contender I'd say is show Percy does seem a tad angrier than book Percy #but again I wouldn't call that an improvement... its just different and I think that /change/ works because it feels like the same essence #but even that has had some issues because I feel like the show has inadvertently cut down some of Percy's canon book empathy here and there #I think the show has nailed Annabeth's pride and intelligence and her warped worship of her mother #... but they've also made her hyper competent to the point that she's not making half of the mistakes she did in the book #which ISNT good because book annabeth is smart but she isn't infallible #its a big point that she has the theoretical intelligence but none of the real world experience/application #she gets tricked by medusa and goes to visit the Arch just cause she loves architecture and that's okay!! she's twelve and a nerd! #I also dont like that they've cut/toned down her little crush on Luke #actually they've not even showcased the familial bond between annabeth and Luke either in the show so like lmao #and then grover #by now grover's fear of failure and repeating this past mistakes and wanting a license has already been acknowledged in the books at least #in the show?? not so much #and his canon book suspicions and wariness of medusa... were given to annabeth #like medusa in the book was Grover's moment to shine cause his instincts were right! #and in the book fight he even very intentionally attacked medusa #but his highlights there were cut completely in the show #and finally sally #...idk who that is in the show but that's NOT my sally jackson #percy jackson #mine

[braimin]

The only reason Sanji noticed ZORO was flirting with him is cause Zoro literally went "we are getting married" and Sanji went like "???? We aren't even dating wha-" and then Zoro "well now we are". Like Zoro and Law might have the tisms but Sanji has the whole mental illness package this man is nawt noticing anyone tryina hit

Lol Sanji's got so many problems he sometimes can't even tell if someone wants to be his friend. But I think biggest reason why he never realizes dudes are flirting with him is because they're guys. Like if it's a woman he will catch on at some point (though when he does he refuses to really believe it because there's no way a goddess is gracing him with attention. And he doesn't deserve it if she is.) But if it's a man he's it either just never sinks in that he's being hit on, or he's probably going to shut it down. Even though Sanji is attracted to men, he still absolutely despises them. He is also in denial that he is in any way appealing to anyone and cannot fathom someone looking at him and thinking 'yeah I wanna tap that.'

Personally, I think zosan's relationship started out as a really dysfunctional fwb situation. Zoro never thought about any type of love before the Straw Hats, he had connections with people, sure, but he didn't understand fully what they were or what they meant to the other person. Love is the last thing on his mind. When he's hitting on Sanji it's always sexually charged and while he says shit that is romantic he doesn't realize how it's going to be perceived or that he even means it in that context.

Sanji does understand at least somewhat how love feels and how relationships are supposed to be, but he's a total homophobe for a while. And it's not gay if it's with your crewmate, that's just two guys helping each other at sea. So even though they're fucking Sanji thinks even the thought of loving Zoro is 'disgusting'. They have this really weird dynamic going where Zoro is incredibly open about his desires but doesn't think about love and Sanji just can't admit that he likes men but wants so desperately to be loved by the one in front of him.

So anyway, I don't think it's Zoro that's saying 'hey we're getting married.' It's more like Sanji gets to a point where he can accept himself and gets tired of how stupid Zoro is so he goes 'omfg can you just say you love me already.' And then Zoro is like 'oh is that what this feeling is?' And then Zoro is like 'Okay then I am now never leaving you and we are husbands and you have to be with me until the day you die.'

#zosan #sanji #zoro #one piece #I think Zoro is the type of autistic that can't always catch onto what feelings mean #*I am projecting lol* #however when he is told that what he's feeling is love he's like well then you are now mine forever #Sanji has a Lot of self-esteem issues #He notices Zoro is flirting cause he has No shame and was literally like you should fuck me #Law at least has Some self respect and won't be gross like that

[viriborne]

They should just make Satan canonically autistic at this point

#obey me #or at least with sensory issues 😭 #when the brothers were like ‘he used to get pissed off if we breathed too loud’ it reminded me of myself when I get overstimulated lol #that and them dealing with his outbursts in the worst ways possible which causes him to react MORE #like I genuinely sympathize with Satan and it’s sad to see abuse being taken as a joke again in om

[skitskatdacat63]

2010 Bahrain Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso

#aaaaaahhhh what a good podium!! he looks so good bark bark bark #i love how theres like 2 immensely iconic pictures from this gp #its still so cool that he won his first race with ferrari!! #tho its a shame bcs its mostly due to seb's technical issues :( #not saying i dont think fernando shouldve won but rather that i was excited for a potential vettonso podium sigh #i already made a post w my thoughts abt it ^ but man i rly loved how 3/4 of this race was vettonso playing cat and mouse #and all the discussion post finish were abt comparing thier performances #twas a very exciting moment for me as you prob know ;;;; so its a shame that after all that they didnt end up on the podium together #OH MY SPEAKING OF THAT. it was so hilarious bcs they cut from nando celebrating in the car to seb's car on the side of the road SOBBBBBB #ah at least we got a little webbonso moment. that moment in my race notes literally says 'webbonso???' cause mark came from nowhere #anyways that gif where hes spraying champagne(rose water ig) at the camera makes me FERALLLLL AAKUHDKJAK #ngl even tho its not champagne it sounded pretty tasty. sparkling water/rose water/pomegranate juice i think? #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #fa14 #2010 bahrain gp #<- feels rly cool to write 2010 finally

[n3onwraith]

GOD I love drawing those stupid jorses 😭😭

Straight up made an infection AU bcs it was going around tiktok and now I keep drawing those little fuckers and making new ones it's becoming a problem

Art under the cut, tw for gore in general in some

There's so much more but omg it's becoming a problem 😭😭

Anyways if yall wanna see the infection it's @/mlpchronicwastingfiles on tiktok and updates are slow and actually kinda mediocre because I made the first parts and the next one I have in drafts before I had the progression figured out, so it's all sorts of boring and full of plot holes rn but I promise it will get better!

#mlp #horror #gore #mlp infection au #mlp infection #my art #god these stupid ponies are ruining my life (joking and affectionate) #i need to learn how to draw LotR too but ill figure that out later cause going from realism to illustration is HARD (for me at least) #also #funfact #google will just show you images of necrosis no issue #but my stepmom had to dig through like 8 sites for the temps of antarctica #soooo #(we were watching Return of the King and both went on tangents that bounced off each other. my Dad loooooves watching movies with us lol)

[chaoticas-hell]

Im torn between thinking that Nicky really was that stupid when it came to andreil and thinking it was just hate fucking or if Nicky knew it wasn't and knew that Andrew was in love with Neil but this was his way of giving Andrew privacy with his emotions that he's historically kept very guarded and tried to kill

#cause like Nicky cant be that stupid right? #he clocked some of Neils issues right away #and to raise the twins he had to have at least some smarts #Im torn #aftg #all for the game #andrew minyard #neil josten #andreil #the kings men #tkm #aaron minyard #nicky hemmick #the foxhole court #tfc #the raven king #trk

[drusic]

bro apologized and said he’d do better and call shit out next time and ppl are still complaining about it like i’m pretty sure most of dttwt only likes dnf now and act like they like sapnap just bc dream said dteam is a package deal

#i think it’s ok to not like someone like i am not saying they have to like him especially cause rn they’re not really doing content together #but i feel like they feel pressured to still like him bc of dream #i swear they complain about absolutely everything he does they bring up the kick thing at least once a week move onnnnn #like yeah he should have said something especially after he said he wanted to bring change to kick but i mean. it’s a gaming issue not a #platform issue. like the exact same thing could have happened on twitch. AND IT HAPPENS !!!! #so tired of twt also no one cares about those long ass statements about him btw #discourse #*

[bonesblubs]

Saw your fetal Mobei jun post and was wondering how you think SQH would snap if smth happend to Mobei?

As an author, he can be quite creative with his revenge...

I see LBH as a bit of a self insert/power fantasy for SQH. They both share qualities; the biggest difference between them being confidence/power. SQH could be a lot bigger of a player, but he chooses to blend into the background where LBH is front and center. I think though the way they present themselves is wildly different, the way that they love is quite similar. They have almost childish approaches to love and devotion. It’s possessive, so I think if something happened to MBJ, SQH would be just as ruthless and vengeful as LBH, it would just manifest in different ways. 

#art tag #ask box #svsss #im sure u meant feral but the typo is killing me #at least im assuming you meant feral #kjfshajh #everyone in SVSSS is very lucky that SQH is humble/goofy cause he legit could have so much power #but it feels like he doesnt even consider that- or doesn't want it. #PIDW is like a power fantasy in a lot of ways #SQH is LBH with the opposite of what a protagonists halo is #thats just my take on it so far! #they also both have a thing for aloof powerful men #SQH was writing PIDW and said 'im going to give my protagonist so many cool features' and instead just passed down all of his issues #but balanced it by giving him a rly big sword

[wuakdd]

i relate to her so much that its almost unbearable

#nitw #night in the woods #mae borowski #like.. while im not as violent and social as she is #i still am rude and irresponsible and insensetive and i do something first and then think about it #but at the same time reason for her actions are her deep flaws that were caused my mental issues #and im like. just deeply flawed but still mentally stable #which annoys me bc at least my behaviour could be more understandable. #AND THE FACT THAT IT ANNOYS ME ANNOYS ME EVEN MORE!!! #like seriously WHAT THE FUCK is my problem #i hate myself sm i’d rather just stopped existing #IM ALSO SORRY FOR ANYONE WHO SEES THIS. sorRy #*by mental issues

[phenikas]

We have so few renders of Zane here, maybe just a teensy zane flynt, for the starving zane fans out there (including me </3)

Here he is, the boyo himself!!

After trying to get his files out of bl3, I can understand why there aren't that many renders out there :/

#request #SPrenders #Zane Flynt #borderlands #borderlands 3 #jfc the gun took me the longest time to get right.. and even then it's not 100% right cause of some issues #but hey at least I figured out that one thing that's been bothering me for months now #zane the operative

[eddiebuckley-diaz]

I know they won’t do it, but I would have loved to have seen Buck having to deal with his trauma of thunderstorms

Even seeing the 118 fam having that trigger too since it was the most severe injury any of them have been faced and is clearly a traumatic event for all of them

#I just think that would be neat #like actually delve into the trauma of things regarding buck at least ONCE #yes I love Buck injuries cause I love him #but where is the Followup whump ever? #he needed to deal more with water issues #with fire truck issues #with the ligthening issues #and we never get that #which makes me sad #:( #911 #911 on fox #911 fox #evan buck buckley #evan buckley #911 on abc #911 abc #911 speculation #?? sorta #911 s7 #911 season 7 #s7 #season 7 #tagging for season 7 for some hope still

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

new Gianni stream is really cursed. can you clip whatever was at 27 minutes . I don’t know what it was

I know not everyone sees every post so I’ll keep sayin it

Not taking requests anymore BUT do not worry since I do watch every stream and do write down most of the clips. Like 95% of em. There is an almost certainty that I will post things. Eventually™️.

It’s just easier for me to wait for it to be uploaded to YouTube and go through it when I have time, due to the way I organize things.

#I skip the ones that aren’t exactly postable which is mostly like happy birthdays n stuff like that #it was just causing issues for me to be skipping around streams and finding 1 clip #plus I don’t post things in order #and when people would request it makes it seem like im ignoring them if it doesn’t get posted within a few days #I still have some requests from weeks ago I haven’t gotten to yet #mainly cause for some requests I want to at least Attempt to do a little drawing or somethin for them #non voice post #ask #asks

[grimmgrinningghouls]

Ruby’s not okay yet. She hasn’t healed, and no one’s saying she’s just perfectly fine after the ascension. But she is doing better. She’s just started her road to recovery, and it’s going to take time for that to heal.

#Rwby v9 #Rwby spoilers #Ruby rose #Just cause she’s happier doesn’t mean she’s suddenly okay #it doesn’t mean she’s just suddenly fine and all her mental health issues are gone #not yet at least #but I’m seeing some ‘It’s unrealistic that she’s just fine after that’ claims

[rioblitzle]

i guess im not too involved in the zelda fandom cause seeing a post about rabid totk defenders is wild to me. from my perspective people were singing that game's praises for 2 months total before it fell to the "popular game bad actually" criticism wave and i don't think i've seen anyone say positive things about totk since then lmfao

#maybe it's just twitter's algorithm showing me discourse and criticism to try and spark engagement or whatever #ive experienced the same thing with mario odyssey which sucks cause i DID get into that game well after release but whatever #i think the game has plenty of flaws but is still like. one of the best games on the switch and that's not an insult to the switch #and most of my writing issues are 'well this sucks but also makes reasonable sense within the constraints of the game design' #like the lack of sheikah tech or the repetition with the backstory cutscenes with the sages #ive also never been super interested in trying to piece together the timeline or linked universe fan stuff but that might just be me #i feel like botw/totk is way better when you view it as a retelling of the zelda universe and give up on trying to reason with the timeline #for making a direct botw sequel on the same map w the same formula and still trying to make it fresh they knocked it out of the park imo #at least in regards to gameplay? #i acknowledge that there is a MASSIVE flaw in the non linear gameplay clashing w the linear story cutscenes this time #(... but that one didn't personally affect me since i saw the memories in mostly the right order and the story hit me weirdly hard) #but anyways yeah where are all the mean totk defenders i keep hearing about i thought that game fell out of the public consciousness #all i still see about it is NintendoMarioJimmy47536 on twitter calling it 'mid af' or whatever #and occasional gorgeous paintings of the light dragon on my dash