#or maybe it’s just october!

[frayedcircus]

Whatcha thinking about rn?

i like horror, but you know what i like more than horror? what happens after the horror. what happens to the ones who survive.

an experience like that leaves you pretty messed up, especially if the events were in some way supernatural. like what are you gonna do when a demon kills all your friends? the cops show up and find you covered in blood, surrounded by bodies and you’re gonna tell them it was a demon? a monster? a ghost? there is no way they’ll believe you. and if they don’t think it was you, you’ll probably get institutionalized for telling people what really happened.

but if you choose to lie, keep the magical business a secret, you’re left with this horrible truth rotting a hole into your mind. you can reason away the events, try to forget it, but something like that will never really fully leave you. maybe you manage to block out at least the ghost parts, but those memories, that fear, will always be lingering in your subconscious. you will always, in the back of your mind, know.

and you’re suck with this. alone. everyone else who would fully believe you is dead. anyone you tell might apprehensively listen to your story, but they can’t fully believe you. how could they? they weren’t there. they didn’t see it all. but you did. only you did. you’re alone in this truth, no one to tell, no one to talk to who would really listen.

it’s a special kind of loneliness, the isolation that comes with such a burning secret.

(tma the lonely tma the lonely???? i could talk a lot most abt how this ties in specifically with the lonely from the magnus archives)

the horrors you experienced cast a shadow over your whole life, your whole future. what’s the point of anything if there are demons and monsters and horrible evil things beyond mortal human powers? college certainly seems insignificant in the face of an eternally hungry evil.

it’s interesting to see how traces of these themes show up in media that isn’t horror as well. children’s media where the teen main character discovers another world? so often in those stories, keeping this discovery a secret from their family and the rest of the world is a major point of distress. We see them bonding with people in this new world, but when they inevitably have to return to their own dimension, of course it’s so much harder for them to connect with their peers or participate in normal activities. befriending jessica seems a lot less significant now that you’ll never be able to share with her this place that is so important to you. history class or ballet lessons dont seem so useful when you’re learning to cast spells with your new fairy friends.

in more recent media(i’m thinking of two specific cartoons that i won’t name bc spoilers), the main characters share a lot more with their family and friends, and they’re mainly very supportive and loving which i find really nice. it helps the main character feel grounded in their own world and less isolated.

anyway back to horror movies, so many of them cut off right after the “final girl” is saved, which i think is a real shame. i knowww i know the main plot is over and the after stuff isn’t really necessary but MAN is it interesting. show me the survivor going back to school and not being able to find words for what happened when someone asks. show me them debating how much to tell their family and friends. show me them trying to return to normal and ignore how everything feels hollow. show me them struggling and healing and falling apart. pls and ty.

(also like two hours ago i saw a guy with the LONGEST pair of wireless earbuds i’ve ever seen and i’m still reeling from how strange they looked)

#TLDR: grrrrrrrrrrrrrr ggrrrrr foaming at the mouth exploding shaking running in circles #MAYBE this is abt the magnus archives #but also maybe this is just bc i watched a horror movie recently #or maybe it was all those scary story readings i’ve been listening to #or maybe it’s just october! #how am i supposed to tag this #rambles #horror #tma #tma lonely #horror movies #the lonely #asks

[turtledotjpeg]

ok logistically this makes no sense but: what if you put little charms on the chains. like a charm bracelet

#i started this in october but now it can be birthday doodle art lol #maybe in another six months i'll finish leorio's birthday art :') #hbd to the chain bastard 🎉 #hunter x hunter #hxh #kurapika #gon freecss #don't ask how the chains are out when he's asleep it's kurapika he's just all chains all the time idk #also technically the charms should fall off when he... un-conjures(?) the chains #Unless #he deliberately decided to conjure the charms too? :') #(also sorry to izunavi and to anyone i forgot. i ran out of charm ideas TvT)

[glassedplanets]

a few months ago giffy was like "haha hear me out, what if tattoo au" and then we blacked out and talked about nothing else for like three weeks

#my art #one piece tag #zosan #if you've been here since 2012 then a) i'm sorry. thank you for your service. b) PLEASE have a Sensible Fucking Chuckle with me about this #honest to god the ufnniest possible thing that i personally could have done in the year 2023 #if you're wondering what happened in 2012 then please leave that stone unturned. tghank you #anyways this whole thing brings me INSURMOUNTABLE joy ask me any question about anyone and i am sure i will have an answer #we have meanings or reasons for just about everything visible here and uhhhhh soooo so so so much more (ask me questions.. ask me....) #fitting the general fuckbonkers insanity of one piece into a modern au was both challenging (fun!) and INCREDIBLY hilarious #giffy is the funniest fucking person on the planet for coming up with half the situations that we shoved everyone into #(i did these in.. october i think?? maybe earlier? during the time i limited myself to sketches only) #tattoo au tag

[secondary-colorentimy]

ok so firstly: merry christmas (well christmas eve) to all who celebrate and happy holidays for those who dont >0<

and secondly: a fact about me which i believe i have 100% stated before online, the nutcracker is my FAVORITE ballet!!!! so heres Rook as the nutcracker, there WAS supposed to be a clara Vil to accompany him but the fates didnt allow it (i wasnt liking the sketches i was making 😞) so perhaps in the future i shall reunite them but for now take him <3

#fanart #twisted wonderland #twst #rook hunt #you can imagine a Clara vil #or you can imagine a clara Yuu #whichever you fancy to imagine UwU #my little toy soldier <3 #hehehhehe #i loveeee hiwm #i wanted to do more but it just wasnt working out 🥺 #maybe by new years? #fact i came up with this idea in october #and held onto it until december when it made sense to make christmas art

[saphira-artandoc]

''We found one''

"A real one''

#springtrap #william afton #fnaf #five nights at freddy's 3 #five nights at freddy's #my art #fanart #...will you believe me if I told you I did this in 2hrs??? #Anyway hi #he's been living rent free in my head since october #if you're wondering where the animatronic's eyelids are they are there just not rn #i also think maybe the spring bonnie animatronic suit had the ears divided at three different places like the plush variant from fnaf 4

[applecranberryjuice]

My pookie blorbo babygirl crazzzzy girl dinner girlfailiure of a girlfriend

#uhhh #hi #ninjago #lloyd ninjago #just putting those two down i am not tagging this properly #its october 2 #which means its been almost a year since o last posted my art #which is wild. #and deppresing #so to show i do draw #even if i dont post #my boy #maybe ill post again this year #no inktober though i am done there #uhhhh wip? #wip #never yo be ip wip #yeah

[marblerose-rue]

click for better quality!

must be fall

#my art #eye contact #tw eye contact #scopophobia #scopohobia tw #furry #sfw furry #oc #let me know if i need to tw tag this more or give me the proper tags if im not using the right one!!! #i do not remember my oc tag bc when i went to look NOTHING would pop up . so maybe i'll edit this later and see #I HAVENT DONE ART FOR [ME] IN A REALLY LONG TIME which is why ive been working up to posting this AHBDFKU #BUT YEAH i am really happy with this. im having a fun time switching between the first sketch and the final product #im also eating a bag of blue raspberry sour patch kids like my life depends on it theyre so good #my hair is also getting pretty long i think and im debating on just letting it grow out or buzzing it again or a Short haircut #we'll see i'll probs figure out by the time october is over #ive been stalling the last 30 minutes to post this LMAO

[lerildeal]

doodles for a game I haven’t played in over 5 years 😔

#ace attorney #pwaa #Phoenix wright #miles edgworth #klavier gavin #but uh with a mustache because I thought it be funny #maya fey #I dont even know why they’ve been on my brain recently #but it did get me playing the great ace attorney #and like omg im loving these games #how dose everyone end up queer in these games #All of the characters are so gay #which is wild #anyway i thought it just be fun to post these #I have a shit ton of doodles from over this quarter that i’ll post over spring break #honestly the next month is gonna go crazy for this blog #like how october usually is for some random reason #maybe ill do some fully rendered TGAA fan art or something #who knows? Im just makin art for the grade #and a lot of that’ll get posted to honestly i think im doing some cool stuff #digital art

[kingofthering]

a list of motogpblr creators

Hello, I initially wanted to do this to celebrate some kind of milestone of mine but I have none of them in sight and I got the inspiration for this earlier this afternoon, so, here we are.

My memory is not the best and I tried to research stuff through my blog but I already know that I have forgotten people and I obviously don't know about everyone here, no matter how small motogpblr may seems to be, so, my apologies.

Just a quick thank you to everyone who uses some of their time to create for the fandom and also a thank you to people taking the time to interact (with likes, reblogs, comments) with the content created, it's always appreciated.

☼ gifs : @whoregaylorenzo @flyingfabio @suzuki-ecstar @kwisatzworld @celestinovietti @marcsmarquez @micksdoohan @somkiatchantra @cuthechicane @blorbogp @eneabastianini23

☼ fanarts/drawings : @ilikecarsandlike4people @alexxuce @carlosheinz @vroom80085 @urmomgoodwoman @emergencysideblog @eovaldi @azul-days

☼ fanvids : @russquez @marcsmarquez @f1vegas @urboimatt @callmecams27

☼ web weavings : @f1vegas @micksdoohan @captainbradmarchand @flyingfabio @blorbogp

☼ (mini) fics and au exploration : @whatwepostintheshadows @babynflames @f1vegas @baking-soda @agnst-crrnt @lestelledreams @its-always-silly-season

+ ao3 writers : @remapped-soul @speedtrapped @agnst-crrnt @waru-chan8

☼ stats and technical stuff : @waru-chan8

☼ books (quotes), history things : @kwisatzworld

☼ polls, ask games : @lil-italian-disappointment

#motogp #like I have 570 followers and this blog's anniversary was in july so #watch me regret posting this when I realize who I forgot to include #please complete this if you want #last time someone made a list I was in I gained like 10 followers in two days so maybe this can help people find out about other great blog #I'll prob make an other post for just general content and my favorite taggers (because fun tags and opinions are very important to me) #* #and you can tell me if for any reason you wanna be removed from the list #I was literally in the middle of making a tony/salac thailand 2022 gifset when I paused to do this #anyway #publishing this and running away #(go finish my gifset) #if you see this towards the end of october/beginning of november go vote for your favorite fabio hairstyle

[fjordfolk]

Melis hasn't been to the cabin very much (because it rained so much last year, ground that is usually solid... stopped being that) so when we decided to take her with us on a two-night trip for a change of scenery, we didn't know quite how she'd react.

It went surprisingly well, only challenges being 1) she gets up an hour before our regular wakeup time and Can Not Fathom anyone wanting to be in bed for even a second longer than that and

2) not used to Troj making noises is her sleep. which makes Melis bark, making Troj wake up to bark, a very confusing situation for Troj that is hard to stop because Troj doesn't know Troj is barking at Trojself.

#very funny to see how similar melis' behaviour is to luna's up there #she hasnt slept up there for almost 6 months and havent been up in general since. september maybe? #maybe october? #but she acts JUST like her. sits out on the steps and when i poke my head out to ask if she wants to come in she just looks at me #like im an idiot for asking #keep telling my mum she'll have to get a sheltie to keep her company indoors while the spitzes are out spitzing

[linterteatime]

Sorry for this, but people have been really fucking annoying on the comments of my posts lately that I'm really really considering privating the blog for some days or something bruh💀

#like cmon now the people on my instagram and my twitter have been behaving better that tumblr thats wild #like okay ppl aren't comenting anything like horrible but it's so stupid like- #logging into tumblr truly is something #i limited comments on the blog for only ppl that follow me for a while so if tomorrow i get anything stupid im just packing up #just for a couple of days dw #anyways sorry for venting or ranting idk what this is #but like!!! i always hear people say that tumblr is the most chill social media site and like thats not true for me bruh #well to be fair i did have some really really chill months for a while this year but i guess that's over now with october idk #anyways maybe i will post art later who knows #not art #delete later #maybe #also this is not about the people that say nice things on my posts don't worry guys this is not about them #sorry if someone thought that

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[bulgogisland]

Nebula DA-4811-5086-7216 by @mossandmolly 🎃🕷🕸🕷🕸🕷🎃🕸🕷🕸🕷🕸🎃

#love this one!! #the views are so cool and i think its so clever 🫠 #it's got a spooky vibe but also feels homey and comforting #maybe that's just me #lol #i love gloomy islands <3 #october da tour 2022 #acnh #animal crossing #animal crosing new horizons #ac #gif #dream address #DA

[disposal-blueeee]

halloween thing i drew for an art trade with @cherry-207 ! she asked for edgar and scri dressed as angel and devil . you can see her part here !

edgar vargas belongs to jhonen vasquez

scriabin belongs to @zarla-s

#hello . uhhhhhhhhhhh #UHHH WAIT WAIT I CAN EXPLAIN I SWEAR #i know i haven't posted a thing since like A MONTH AND I'M SORRY BUT i have a really nice excuse for this . yes . #right after posting devi's drawing my mom BROKE HER FOOT ?? WOAH ! #and idk maybe i was sad or . stressed because i had to do a bunch of things my mom used to take care of and it was really stressing #this + school stuff + a drawing a day + some other things pretty much started killing me #and suddenly i was getting hives every single day after 11.30pm . yeah . it was TERRIBLE #so uh . i had to stop doing some stuff for my own wellbeing . like . drawing . for example #but it worked ! #now i just have a bunch of mosquito bites on my hands . they seem to like them . #OH SO well um YEAH DRAWING #an art trade with one of my friends !!!! drawing this was honestly so fun #as you can see this is from october 25th . but i wanted to wait for brusk to finish her piece before posting it #te quedó precioso emily . valió totalmente la pena la espera . tqm #edgar's costume looked so boring next to scriabin's #he looked way prettier with wings but if i wanted to add them i would have to erase 90% of scriabin and he came out so pretty to do that #so . instead of making him wear something pretty and detailed like scri's costume i had to make him wear something you could see and think #“ oh yeah that's an angel ” #i explained this to brusk after showing her the drawing and she said #“ if you think about it . him having a traditional costume fits his character " #and i was like OH #ACTUALLY YEAH THAT'S COOL #anyways i really like this one . the colors are so pretty . i finally found a way to make my colors warm and pretty . #WELL UH THAT'S TOO MANY TAGS BYE #vargas #zarla s #vargas zarla #scriabin vargas #edgar vargas

[dryemiddi]

SILENCE (AccidentVerse) - OFFICIAL REDESIGN 2022

Finally made a proper updated reference for this lil’ bastard, gotta love him <3 Y’all let me know your thoughts on Silence and his new design, I’d love to read ‘em

#Silence #AccidentVerse #Dream!Error #Redesign #Undertale Outcodes #Undertale AU #UTMV #Undertale #Dream #Error #Sans #Reference #Character Design #Errortale #Dreamtale #just tagging for search purposes don't mind me-- #Vanta's design will come #eventually #maybe october? perhaps? #DryeArt #AV #Digital art