#pretty tired today bc I worked on some music so didn’t feel like typing much a

[softholand]

wild side | harry holland

pairing: bestfriend!harry holland x reader

summary: your and harry’s relationship take a turn after he helps you out at the club

warnings: swearing, alcohol, a creep, smut— minors dni

words: 3.7k

a/n: yay, my first harry fic is here!! i was clearly inspired by the song wild side by normani and cardi b to write this so, if you haven’t listen to it yet, go do it bc it’s really good and fits this fic to a t ;)) i really hope you guys like it, pls let me know your thoughts, your feedback is always appreciated !! i think that’s it— ily <3 be safe xx

It was Friday night again and you and your best friend found yourselves at yet another party. You and Harry had met through work and instantly become party buddies. Every Friday, he’d stop by your house, where you’d do a couple of shots before going to any party that was currently available. And today it was no different.

You walked the few stoned steps that led to the nightclub, where music blasted through the speakers, making you that more excited to go inside. After showing your identification, the security finally let you in, you and Harry quickly making your way to the bar, to get yourselves some drinks.

“It’s crowded today!” Your best friend shouted in your ear, that being the only way to make you hear him through the extremely loud music. “Uh-hu, just how I like it!” You smirked, taking a sip of your freshly made drink. Harry laughed, already knowing it was going to be one hell of a night.

It wasn’t long before you started to feel the effects of the alcoholic beverages on your body, making you lose yourself on the dance floor. Despite enjoying parties, Harry wasn’t much of a dancer, he’d rather stay back, relax, and enjoy his drink of choice.

You, on the other hand, absolutely loved dancing, that was like the main reason you enjoyed going to these parties, and the alcohol, of course. You were currently on your third drink, your legs already feeling like jelly from all the dancing you’d done. “Harry, c’mon, you’re so uptight tonight, come dance with me!” You pouted, making grabby hands in his direction. “You know I don’t like dancing, love!” Harry stated the obvious, making you roll your eyes. “Just one song then, please?!” You knew your friend couldn’t resist your pleading face, a smirk appearing on your lips when you saw him smile, shaking his head. “Just one!” He repeated, before being dragged to the dance floor.

Harry stayed with you for a couple of songs, which was more than you asked for, so you couldn’t really be mad when he left and went back to the bar. You, on the other hand, stayed exactly where you were, swaying your body to the overplayed pop song currently playing on the club speakers.

Your vibe was suddenly cut short when you felt something, or rather someone approaching you from behind your back, “What’s a pretty girl like you doing here all alone?” The catchphrase alone made you want to throw up, the person’s hot breath on your neck as another reason. “She was having fun until someone rudely interrupted her!” You let it out, not wanting to deal with this guy anymore.

But of course, it wasn’t enough for him, since all he did was laugh, pretending to be offended, “C’mon, I can male you company, princess!” You rolled your eyes at the nickname, “I’m not interested, thank you!” You tried, but once again the guy didn’t stop, his smirk only growing in size. “Oh, so you’re gonna play difficult, huh?”

Growing tired of dealing with him, you excused yourself, saying you needed to use the bathroom. There, you shot a text to Harry, asking him to wait for you outside since you were almost certain the guy would be waiting for you to exit. Your best friend only sent you a thumbs-up emoji back, having already been in this type of situation before.

It was common for you, and every other woman on planet earth, to be followed and harassed by men who didn’t know the meaning of the word no. Often you’d ask for your friends' help to get rid of some creep that just wouldn’t stop following you and apparently today wasn’t going to be different.

Once you got out of the bathroom, you were grateful to see a mop of curly red hair waiting for you by the wall, just scrolling through his phone. “Hey!” You said, getting his attention. “Hey, you alright?” Asked Harry, looking at you. “I’m fine, just some idiot not wanting to get off my back.” Rolling his eyes, Harry scoffed, “So, the usual?!”

Laughing, you made your way back to the bar hand in hand, getting yourselves a round of shots before going to the dance floor. This time, since you didn’t feel safe anymore, Harry decided to follow you, staying close enough in case the creepy guy showed up again, which of course, didn’t take long to happen. “Oh God, it’s him!” You let it out, spotting him just a few steps away from where you were. “Who? The one with the disgusting looking beard?” Harry asked, praying it wasn’t him. “Yep, that one!” You exclaimed, rolling your eyes when you saw him smirk.

Getting closer to you, Harry put the hand that wasn’t holding his drink on your back, leaning in to whisper in your ear, “Maybe now that I’m here with you, he’ll think we’re a couple and fuck off.” You relaxed, being more than grateful for your friend, “Thank you, H!” You smiled, “Don’t mention it!” Harry shrugged, hugging you close.

You and Harry stayed together for the remainder of the song, but that wasn’t enough ‘cause you could still feel the guy’s eyes on you. “Is he still looking?” You asked Harry, to which he responded with a quick and annoyed “Yep!” You turned in your friend’s arms, quickly catching his gaze. “Dude, seriously? Why he doesn’t just fuck off?” You huffed, frustrated. “I don’t think he believes we’re together.” Harry let it out, making an idea pop into your head. “Well, let’s make him believe then.” You said, leaving your friend confused. “What?” You smirked, slowly leaning in to whisper in his ear, “Let’s give him a show!”

As soon as the words left your mouth, the song Wild Side by Normani and Cardi B started to play, making your life, and the performance you were about to make, that much easier. Turning around, so your back was against Harry’s chest, you put his hands on your hips while you grind on him to the rhythm of the song.

“What are you doing?” The boy asked almost immediately. “Dancing!” You responded, keeping your movements going. “I see that! I mean— why?” Harry insisted, making you roll your eyes. “Can you stop complaining and pretend you're actually enjoying this, please?” You huffed, pressing your body firmer into him. “I’m not complaining, love!” Gripping your hips a little bit tighter, Harry suddenly whispered in your ear, making a shiver run down your spine. “I was just asking why you’re doing this— with me?”

“I want that bastard to leave us alone, maybe with my ass practically in your face, he’ll get the hint.” You snarked, earning yourself a chuckle. “Okay! For the record, I wanna make it clear this was your idea, I’m just going with it.” He stated, his grip still firm on your hips. “Yeah, yeah! Stop talking and do something helpful!” You ordered, letting your head fall to one of his shoulders.

Harry took advantage of your exposed neck, and surprised you with his lips on your skin, leaving open mouthed kisses that trailed to your jaw. “Fuck!” You moaned, your eyes shooting open as soon as the word left your mouth. You prayed the song was loud enough for Harry not to have heard you but, by the smirk on his face, he had heard it as clear as day.

“That good, huh?” He whispered in your ear, making you swat his stupid face away. “I’m just going with it.” You threw his words back at him, a smirk covering your lips. “Fair enough!” Harry chuckled, turning you around. When you met his eyes again, the usual warm brown color that always captivated you had now turned into a darker shade, they were almost black, filled with lust.

Harry pressed his body firmly against yours, and while you knew your friend was kind of a lady’s man, you had never experienced this side of him, not directed at you at least. But you couldn’t deny you were liking it, his hands roaming your body, stopping right on your ass, before asking, “Is that okay?” and once you nodded, he squeezed your bum, tenderly massaging the flesh.

Suddenly, the lyrics of the song started to feel more than appropriate for the moment, and while Normani’s voice echoed through the speakers, you couldn’t help but lean in, catching Harry’s lips. He was tense at first, having been caught totally by surprise but once he returned consciousness, he kissed you back, fervently.

Harry’s hands stayed on your hips, while yours kept tugging on his reddish curls, eliciting sweet little moans and grunts from his lips. When you felt your lungs burn from the lack of oxygen, you had to let him go, Harry’s eyes going straight to where the creepy guy was when you started.

“It looks like that twat finally believed us.” Your friend was saying, before you rolled your eyes, kissing him again, letting go of his lips only to whisper in his ear, “Take me home!” The line left your friend completely speechless, frozen in place like a deer caught in the headlights. “What?” You laughed, swatting his chest, “You heard me, don’t play dumb now!”

“I mean— yeah, I just… you sure?” Harry insisted, his eyes never leaving yours. “I am!” You nodded, a playful smirk hanging from your lips. “Okay then, let’s go!” Your friend announced, taking your hand in his. Cardi B’s part of the song was still playing when you and Harry left the club, hand in hand, walking faster than you should while wearing heels, both eager to just get to your destination as fast as possible.

Since your flat was only a couple of blocks away from the nightclub, it wasn’t long until you were both getting into your house. Passing Harry the keys, since he was sober than you, you let him open and close the door before quickly slamming him against it, connecting your lips to his in a hungry kiss.

Harry’s tongue was inside your mouth in no time at all, and from there, things only escalated. One moment you’re on your doorway making out, the next Harry is hoisting you up on your kitchen counter, settling between your legs. His hands worked fast and before you knew, your skirt was already bunched up on your waist, his slender fingers tracing your still clothed core while he left open-mouthed kisses on your neck.

“Is this okay?” He asked, while his fingers teased your pussy. “More than!” You moaned, squirming when you felt one of his fingers push your panties out of the way, slowly tracing your folds. “You’re so wet, y/n! God, can I— can I taste you?” Harry practically begged, and a quick nod from you later, he was kneeling on your kitchen floor, hoisting one of your legs on his shoulder.

The moment his mouth got in contact with your core, you were gone. Moans and grunts left your lips, while you tried your best to stay still and not squirm too much. “Fuck me,” you moaned, tightening your grip on Harry’s curls. “That’s what I’m doing!” Your best friend smirked, moving slightly away from you. “Shut up!” You scolded, pushing his head further between your legs.

When he added one of his fingers to your core, you couldn’t help but scream, Harry’s movements only increasing in pace. Feeling your arms give up, you let your body fall onto the counter, the cold surface making a shiver run down your spine. “Harry, please, don’t stop!” You moaned, feeling the coil in your stomach ready to burst. “Don’t worry, love! I wasn’t planning to.” Harry smirked, and if he wasn’t making you feel so good at the moment, you’d probably slap him for being such a snarky little shit.

“Fuck, I’m gonna cum— fuck,” you moaned, feeling an intense wave of pleasure hitting you, washing over your body until your legs spasmed, almost crushing Harry’s head between your tights. You felt him move away and, once you opened your eyes, you were met with an image you’ll never forget. Your best friend staring at you, a huge smirk on his face, eyes filled with lust, and chin covered in your juices.

“Fuck,” you let it out, getting up and crashing your lips against his. Harry moaned, gripping your body tighter until he was practically carrying you to your bedroom, kicking the door open. “Hey, you’re gonna pay for that!” You smirked, Harry laughing at your remark. “Really? We’re about to fuck and that’s what you’re worried about?” With one more step, he dropped you on your bed, his body collapsing on top of yours. “You sure about that?” You joked, chuckling at your friend’s confused expression.

“No— I mean, yeah… no, I just…” Harry stuttered, making you laugh. In a swift motion, you flipped you both around, getting on top of him, straddling his waist. “Shut up, Holland!” You quipped, kissing his lips, while your hands worked on his belt, trying desperately to tug his jeans down. “Eager, aren’t we?” Harry smirked, making you groan. “Harry, help me!” You pouted, making your friend laugh.

After a quick peck on the lips, Harry helped you take his pants and boxers off, his shirt going next. “Why am I the only one taking clothes off?” He whined, going to open the zipper on your skirt. “Eager, aren’t we?” You threw his snarky comment back at him, a playful smirk on your lips. “You— are— such— a— bitch!” Harry’s words were accompanied by wet kisses all over your, now exposed, chest.

With a quick movement, Harry unclasped your bra, his lips immediately connecting with your already erect buds. “Fuck,” sweet moans left your mouth as you arched your back, your grip on Harry’s curls only tightening. “I always loved these!” Your friend mouthed, giving each one of your breasts a good squeeze, making you giggle.

While you were enjoying the way Harry played with your breasts, you couldn’t help the desire to do something, to make him feel good too. So, with a hand to his chest, you pushed in the bed, a devilish smirk on your lips. “Your turn.” You stated, trailing open mouthed kisses through his body, until you found his member, already hard as a rock, precum leaking from the tip.

“Oh my God…” Harry moaned as you pressed a kiss to his shaft, his mind going completely blank when you put him in your mouth, one of your hands wrapped around what you couldn’t fit, while the other played with his balls. “Feels so good!” Your friend groaned, guiding you by a makeshift ponytail.

You kept your movements going, bobbing your head up and down, putting as much of Harry’s shaft in your mouth as you possibly could, until small tears started to form in the corner of your eyes. Once you pulled out, Harry let a groan fall from his lips, his cock twitching from the lack of you.

Taking you by the hair, he pressed his lips to yours in a hungry kiss, his tongue exploring every inch of your mouth. “You’re amazing!” Your friend cooed, kissing and biting your ear lobe. “Harry,” you whined, making him look at you with lustful eyes. “What do you want, baby? Tell me!” He said, kissing your already swollen lips. “You— I want you!” You admitted, not caring about how you sounded.

Harry smirked, loving seeing you so desperate for him. “Hands and knees, darling!” His words went straight to your pussy, making you clench around nothing, your tights pressing together to try and get some release. But Harry stopped you before you could move, asking if you had a condom and after you instructed him to your bedside table, you got in position, feeling a little awkward at first but the feeling subsided once you felt Harry slap your ass, massaging the flesh right after.

“So gorgeous! Are you ready, love?” Your friend asked and after a quick nod and strangled yes from your lips, Harry positioned himself at your entrance, slowly easing himself inside you. The feeling of his cock on your already sensitive pussy was overwhelmingly good, and it only got better once Harry started to move, hands gripping your hips so hard you were sure to leave bruises the next day. “So tight, love… so perfect!” Harry praised you, your moans the only thing cutting through the sounds of skin slapping against skin.

It wasn’t long before Harry was relentlessly pounding into you, the pressure on your back so strong you couldn’t hold yourself up anymore, your chest collapsing on the bed with a loud thud. “Fuck,” you moaned, feeling one of Harry’s hands sneak under your body, where he toyed with your clit. His chest suddenly glued to your back and, with this new position, Harry hit your sweet spot over and over again, making you cry out from pleasure.

“I’m gonna cum, please, don’t stop! Please!” You repeated, your voice muffled by the pillows. “Let go, love! I’ve got you!” With one last flick to your bundle of nerves, Harry made you come, your moans so loud you were sure your neighbors were going to call the police.

You felt your legs spasming, the effects of the best orgasm of your life being enough to make Harry cum too, releasing his load inside the condom, before collapsing his body on top of yours. A thin layer of sweat covered your naked bodies and it took you both a few minutes to come back from your highs, slowly catching your breaths.

You were tired, you couldn’t feel your legs anymore, the only thing bringing you back to life being Harry’s kisses on your shoulders before getting up to discard the condom. When he came back, he had a wet towel with him, which he used to clean you up, after kindly asking if he could do so.

You felt the bed shift and a couple more kisses on your shoulders later, you heard Harry ask if you needed anything. After getting you a bottle of water, which you practically chugged it all down, he joined you in bed, covering your bodies with one of your blankets, depositing one last kiss to your shoulder, before hugging your waist, that being the last thing you remember before falling asleep.

The next morning you woke up to the sound of bowls and plates in the kitchen, Harry’s side of the bed now cold, indicating he had left a while ago. Getting up, you felt your legs sore, being barely able to put on underwear and a shirt before making your way to the bathroom, heading to the kitchen/living area after.

You found Harry on your sofa, a bowl of cereal in his hands, looking adorable as ever wearing some sweats and a hoodie— that he kept in one of your drawers, in case of emergencies— ginger curls all over the place.

“Morning!” You announced, joining him by the sofa. “Morning! Did I wake you?” Concern filled his voice as he asked the question, making you smile, “No, you didn’t! I had to use the bathroom.” You lied, not wanting to make him feel bad for waking you. “Great!” Harry smiled, taking a spoonful of cereal. “Want some? I can make it for you!” He was already getting up, but you stopped him, saying you weren’t hungry but thanking him anyway. “Okay!” He mumbled, going back to eating his breakfast.

You loved seeing him like that, at ease, casually eating cereal from one of your pink bowls, really making himself at home even though he wasn’t. “So…” Harry said after finishing his breakfast, putting the now-empty bowl aside. “What?” You asked, having been snapped out of your thoughts. He chuckled, shaking his head, “We’re not gonna talk about what happened last night?” Harry smirked, locking eyes with you.

His cocky expression gave you an idea, one that you were way too excited about. “What are you talking about?” You asked, furrowing your brows, your friend’s smirk immediately disappearing. “What? You— you don’t remember?” His eyes were wide and you had to bite back your laugh. You shook your head, before adding, “I mean, a little?! We were dancing, then we came home, but after that, it’s all a little bit blurry.”

Harry’s face almost fell to the floor, his eyes looking anywhere but your face. “Oh, hum… okay! Yeah, that’s— that’s what… happened.” Your best friend mumbled, his lips a straight line. Admitting you have had enough of this game, you decided to give in, a smirk settling on your lips. “Oh, and I think we fucked too, didn’t we?”

The sigh that left Harry’s lips was one of relief, but also annoyance, “You fucking idiot!” He exclaimed, throwing a cushion at your face, while you laughed. “So you do remember?!” Your friend asked, just wanting to make sure you weren’t joking around anymore. “Of course I remember, Harry! Who do you think I am?” You asked, crossing your arms, a devilish smirk hanging from your lips, “Also, how could I forget the best shag of my life?”

“You’re such an idiot, I honestly hate y— wait… what?” Your last words finally seemed to catch up to Harry, his eyes going wide, “Really?” He asked, and you nodded. “Uh-hu, and you know I had a lot!” You smirked, wiggling your eyebrows, inching closer to him. Harry only laughed, allowing your lips to ghost over his. “That means we can do it again?” He asked, eyes roaming your face. “Absolutely!” You said crashing your lips together.

In a quick but precise move, you straddled Harry’s lap, his hands resting on your hips, while you threaded your fingers through his curls. You were just about to take his hoodie off when Harry stopped you, “Wait, it’s just— I meant it like… I don’t know, maybe taking you on a date or something first?” He asked, your lips forming into a smile, “I’d like that!” You nodded, biting your bottom lip. “Cool!” Harry exclaimed before you both fell silent.

“That’s gonna take a while though.” You began after a few seconds, playing with the hem of his hoodie. Your best friend smirked, already getting your intentions. “You’re right! We already did it anyway!” He shrugged, a squeal leaving your mouth when he laid you down on the sofa, his body hovering yours. “Now that I have you, I’m never letting you go,” Harry announced, leaving kisses all over your face before settling on your lips. “I can live with that!”

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[laurelier]

An anti/former harry fan has made several long blog entries about why harry is not political, just privileged and out of touch. Can we please prove them wrong? It makes me sad.

x/x/x

Listen, like.

Ok. Sigh. Big sigh. Because—here you know what I’m gonna put this under a cut bc frankly I don't wanna clog my blog up with discourse. So. If yal care what I think about this then keep on readin.

Honestly? Honestly. Honestly I know this isn’t what you want to hear but I…….. think this person raises some important points. I don't agree with everything, obviously—I wouldn’t be a fan of Harry if I didn’t see such gracefulness and compassion and strength in him and his work. But. Yeah. Some of this is stuff we should consider.

Here's the thing: personally, I don't necessarily think that H's reputation for quietness on social issues or for making soft statements is as awful as it's made out to be. Would I be elated if he said more? Sure, absolutely. He is so, so, so privileged, and he has such a huge platform. But what I see in him is a careful and thoughtful person who prefers to show solidarity through action or appearance rather than words. Which is, frankly, usually enough for me. I understand why it's not enough for some, but most of the time it is for me: I can take what he does and my interpretation of it and apply the goodness and kindness I see there to parts of my own life.

But really, getting to your actual question, I think this person’s point that if you’re pro-choice but are not willing to make unequivocally damning statements about abortion, you shouldn’t weigh in, is..... a fair one. It's interesting. Like, I don't totally know how I feel about this, to be 100% transparent with you. I don’t think I’d want to entirely gatekeep that conversation, and I want H to be able to express support for his fans in the ways he feels he can and should, but I do see where op is coming from there. Seen from a certain angle, H's statement does feel like a flippant nod to an issue that is very, very, very contentious and painful. And personally, I would appreciate a full-throated denouncement of laws prohibiting abortion from Harry much more than this kind of sort of maybe TPWK thing that we keep getting—but I think we have to remember that that kind of statement is not Harry’s thing. It's not, and hasn't really ever been; Harry’s music is all navel gazing and figuring yourself out, internal rather than external, and I don't think he promises us more than that. I don't think he needs to. And, like I said, I can understand why some would resent him for that, given his immense privilege, but really—Harry’s a human, and no matter what he says or doesn’t say people will scream at him and tell him he’s awful horrible evil or amazing gorgeous perfect, the combination of which has to be incredibly confusing, and not to baby someone who’s been read as a white man his whole life but—I don’t know that I’d want to try to make eloquent and perfectly measured statements on social issues if I were in Harry's position, either. I'd be terrified of my own platform. I just—he’s a person. Let him be one.

Granted, this particular instance is a bit tricky because being pro-choice *is* black and white right-wrong for me, where something like gender or sexuality (other issues he's often demonized for not "speaking out" enough on; utter BS, that) is very much a gray-area ~different for everyone and he'll share when he's ready or able~ type thing, but this idea of entitlement to all of Harry’s opinions and thoughts is still so tiring and frustrating to me. I'd like it if we could just let him figure things out at his own pace.

And, also: listen to what he's saying. Right? Like. He literally never said "abortion". I do think he was making a nod to it, but honest, the way I read that statement originally was—Harry doesn't want anyone to tell *him* what to do with his body. I hear, more than anything, just straight-up bodily reclamation there. Someone had to point out that it could be applied to the Texas law for me to get that part of it. It's layered. I feel like he's letting those who hear him decide what he means (yet again). And I see why someone might take issue with him making a statement that, because it's vague, could be misconstrued (even to the point of being twisted into an antivax statement, but I don't really think that's Harry's fault, it's pretty clear where he stands on that issue)—or see this as him maybe kind of going, eh, let's just throw abortion in there while we're at it as if that's not an issue that would deserve its own statement—I just. That's not what I take from it. And in any case I agree with op, in a twisty turny kind of way: I can't expect my politics to come from Harry Styles. I am a fan of Harry Styles because I think it's awe-inspiring that he shares his shifting, expanding knowledge of himself through his art, always with his trademark, ever-present grace and softness and vulnerability.

Really what it comes down to is. The person whose posts you linked said that his statement, if it's about abortion, is inappropriate because it puts the onus on those people actually harmed by the issue to "fix" it by supporting one another, and again, yeah, I can see why they said that—but I still don't think that's the only way to read it. What I hear when I hear Harry ask us to have one another's backs is: kindness is absolutely foundational, kindness is everything; acting human towards yourself and others, even when others do not, is not weak but is rather an act of defiance and it is very, very brave; is a way of fighting, really, for goodness; this is a world in which we all must take care of one another, and it's courageous to do so. He didn't say all that any more than he made a clear-cut statement about abortion, but still.

Whether H means for all of his equivocation and shallow-seeming statements to have so many interpretations isn't really my concern, at the end of the day. I don't know what's in H's head. What I do know is what his art has done for me—so even though it might sound hard to believe after reading this longass answer that I've written you today, nonnie, I do try to focus on only what I can see of H, remember that he's a privileged human being who, like all of us, is far, far, far from perfect, and not idolize him too much. It's important to encourage accountability for what he doesn't say and maybe should, but equally so to hear what he does.

#asks #anon #EDIT lmao i'm so aggressively pro choice that i forgot this is online and u gotta specify those things #a typo in an earlier version of this almost made it seem like my dumbass was pro life so if you were victimized by that earlier #i apologize #rambles #discourse

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

hehe glad i could make you laugh, oooh that sounds awesome! yeah id love to be tagged it sounds great :)

YES the differences are so fucking weird. like, they do know they're the same age right? i feel like its just an exagguration of how much the persons role in the group matters, like we see chan being held up as such a mature, old leader while jungkook who is literally the same age, is still babied etc. like enha hyung line is basically the same age (if a bit younger) as chenle and jisung but somehow the rules are different?? as you point out, still legal but still bizarre. hehe yeah, i mean where else are we going to rant? quora lol. mmm, hopefully more people can just write less smut abt people who are barely adults

ah, no prob it didnt take long. yeah i think thats right (i keep forgetting you know my url lol) mmhmm :( i think if that happened irl there would be some major trauma going on. knock wood it never happens to you or me lol (/hj)

hehe same! oooh glad Redemption For Cheese was realised! yess we cant rllycomplain that theyve written/produced too much good music lol. yeah, ive dragged him into being a stay so *dusts hands off* mission accomplished. mmm yeah, they tend to have a certain vibe but tbh it couldve worked if they were any other group but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ahh ur one step ahead of me on the stages of listening to ssick i think, still not convinced but thats okay! hehe, it had to be said. yesss the itch in the back of my brain is very satisfied by sorry i love you, felixs vocals deserve to be appreciated! (side note i feel like hes trying to sing more like his speaking voice, sorta husky, but tbh i wouldnt be mad if he sang like in glow, his sweet honey vocals made my life lol. but i think ive heard him say he doesnt like singing like that cos it makes his normal voice less husky, so what can you do)

> YES SOMEONE SAID IT. seungmin rap KING, he sped thru that rap like it was nothing, he deserves more rap lines. i do like how they gave minho some melodic rap lines this comeback, my guy deserved to show off those skills that made him not be eliminated (flashbacks to stay collectively wanting to murder jyp) and we already know changbin can sing, my man murdered masked singer. hyunjin can obviously sing as can jisung and felix, and i want to hear chan rap more! i feel like he started as part of 3racha (as a rap unit not producing) and then just became a vocalist (which im fine with, but it could be nice to hear him flex his rapping skills) and was partially replaced by hyunjin. anywayyy

back to album talk. lmaooo sad music to twerk to PERFECTLY describes silent cry. yes secret secret is and will always be, a masterpiece. hehe glad i could make you laugh :) i just felt like they have similar vibes. putting off skz stuff bc of not having time to cry IS the kpop stan life summarised. oh my beloved track, red lights. ahh thats okay, we can have different opinions, but by god the lyrics are *chefs kiss*. *banging on table* TWISTED AU TWISTED AU TWISTED AU. yess id love to see ur take on it! sdfghjkl it would have been glorious

no no! not stupid, just able to predict my brainwaves. ooooh thats so cool! makes me want to go there (wherever there is lol) yeah the waves are pretty good here, but none of my familys a surfer, so we dont rlly enjoy the full potential lol. YES moving on to gone away, it is indeed a heartwrenching track, but the vocals and the bloody key change? makes me want to brave being sad just to listen to it. mmm yeah, good point :( i feel like ive just gotten used to overthinking so much so that it doesnt matter what mood im in, ill do it anyway, so might as well just do what i feel like doing anyway.

yeah i think ur right! it is quite comforting knowing that all the tracks will get the love they deserve. i feel like also people assume kpop is just one genre which is utter bs. there are so many different vibes and feels and songs, i couldnt get into kpop (of which i thought only the bright cheerful present day bts stuff existed smh) until i heard gods menu so... idk where i was going with this but yeah. :)

YES FUCK YG, theyre literally on the brink of being kicked out of the big three and they are holding their salvation hostage without letting them do ANYTHING. idek what thought process goes thru their minds but arghhh its so infuriating. yess lisa's cb will be awesome but ot4 is the gold standard here.

hehe, glad u could get to this point. no no! u dont sound like a cult member at all lol yeah, i loooove some of their songs but the whole 23 members thing is getting to me. thats prob a common problem with nctzens but what can i say? im a simple girl with a limit to how many korean boys i can give my money to. atm im just trying to get into ateez and finish memorising enhypen's faces. also kard is kinda sucking me into their fandom atm, as well as eric name lol. ah what can you do? ooh thats good!

hehe i love it too! its exactly like online penpals, that was rlly well put. aww ty! hmm im okay, recovering from a bad case of rsv so thats fun. im doing okay mentally, starting therapy soon (after having to convince my mother that its not just smth i can brush off). physically i wont go into, basically i should be doing stretches to help but they dont completely fix it so my lazy ass doesnt do them, plus i got told recently im going to be stuck with this condition for the rest of my life so thats fun! ah, before you type smth dw abt me ill be fine. the weather atm is cloudy but warm, its been raining on and off today which is good for the garden. uhh i just finished reading sunburnt veils and im in the middle of prom theory which is rlly good. ummm ive got a concert tonight? that i may or may not be able to sing in (bc of the whole rsv thingo) and uhhhh idk. my dog is cute? im drinking tea rn? ive got a school dance coming up?

wbu? hows ur day going, how are you? whats the weather like on ur end? done anything interesting lately? found smth that makes you rlly happy? just any random thing youve been dying to tell someone?

no no! dont apologise, i love these exchanges. i think im happy to continue them for a long time :) on the other hand, if you get tired of them, feel free to just not answer at any time. goodness gracious this was a long ask haha hope it isnt too annoying

<3 w.a. 🐺

sorry it took me a bit to reply, i was fixing my theme ;n;

yeah, i figured it was because of the roles too. my friends and i still get taken aback when 3rd gen idols are the same age as 4th gen ones. in my head it doesn't add up sometimes. PLS THE RANT AT QUORA SKJDK tbh tho it's just going to be normalized as the years pass? esp that the boys are growing older and the amount of explicit fics will just increase. i might have to start blocking tags.

i had to look up the previous ask to remember what we were talking about xd i hope the events in champagne problems never happens to anyone. realistically, it probably happens a lot. damn i really won't wish that pain on anyone. dragging your brother into being a stay i whEEZED JFKSA additional noeasy music enthusiast o.o and ALL I CAN SAY WITH YOU GUSHING ABT FELIX IS AHA WHIPPEEEED OML can't blame you tho, i also want to hear felix sing more in other shades (if that makes sense HAHA) i really hope they'll do the role exchange in the next comeback :( or like in the near future bc i know they can do it :( the day i hear seungmin rapping it i will respectfully pass away. minho was given more lines this comeback thank fUCK i could rmb my irl being vocal abt her frustration. i don't get why minho barely has center time/lines in title tracks??? like the line distribution in the past eras just made me ???? if seventeen can balance lines with 13 members why cant a group of 8 do the same? moving on. i haven't watched the stray kids show simply bc i don't want to cry HAJS but i've seen clips. imagine if skz debuted without minho and felix?!?!? i rmb another irl catching bias feels towards changbin bc of the masked singer only to find out that the man's a rapper. i love how skz's vocals were highlighted this comeback :c there were a lot of mellow tracks! i find it cute when chan sings/raps bc it gets kinda obvious that he's a foreigner? the accent (im not even sure if it's the accent) it just shows. "putting off skz stuff bc of not having time to cry IS the kpop stan life summarised." CORRECT.

abt the twisted au o.O i'll inquire my irl if she wants to write it or not. if she doesn't want to, i'll do it. i miss writing twisted aus <3___<3 and i also miss going to the beach with my friends :' ) but it's starting to get cold here and i don't think i'll be able to enjoy the beach as much as i would if i went beaching in the summer. so maybe next summer? gone away really has an sm-ballad vibe. the thing about skz being a self-producing group, their songs don't sound like typical jype songs? and i just appreciate that bc in all honesty im not a fan of jyp groups at all. PLS the overthinking. i wish i could mute overthinking.

anyone who assumes kpop is just one genre obv hasn't listened to a single track. if kpop was just one genre why do i like some tracks more than the others??? oh you've only recently become a kpop stan? tbh im not a fan of the bright songs of bts either. i liked their older ones *chefs kiss* really matched high school vibes. yg has good artists and they're just wasting the talent ~.~ that strategy they have will get tiring eventually. people will stop waiting on blackpink and move on to newer more active groups ://

HAHAHAH yeah the 23 members is pretty overwhelming! it was the reason i didn't bother stanning before quarantine started. i don't regret stanning tho, met my ult bias in that group <3___<3 i don't really purchase albums unless i like the tracks xd ohhh getting into ateez just in time for the comeback! let me know what you think about them! i was fond of them at some point but grew out of it. good luck with memorizing enhypen! it took me a while to distinguish to people there XD i haven't checked out kard yet but chan plays their songs during lives and they're sexc hype music me likey *u*

i had to look up rsv im sorry. i'm glad you're recovering! please rest more and don't stress yourself out. bro i wish i could go to therapy too bc i have weird issues i can't justify and i need a professional to tell me what's the reason behind it. stuck with what condition btw? what happened? i'm sorry in case i just forgot. yesterday was a bit rainy for me too :(( it's not the type of rainy that makes me anxious so B) oh concert! good luck and i hope you'll be able to sing but i also don't think it's best for you rn :c what's your dog's breed? and yes i just finished drinking tea too. AAAAA i miss school dances :(( the last one i was supposed to have was cancelled bc of covid.

i was less productive today and i'm teetering between being mentally stable and becoming a hermit again. i'm anxious with a lot of things atm so like : D not the best state. today it was a bit sunny but not hot hot which was nice. i changed my theme today bc i couldn't wait for sept. 1st. and no i haven't found anything that makes me happy HAHAHA shit like that's hard to identify. don't have anything to say too, i'm just thinking about why i'm procrastinating too much atm T_T and i'm listening to this rap song atm and one of the rappers sounded like han.

it isn't annoying! i enjoy the long exchanges but i do admit it takes me awhile to type down a reply. so if i get more busy, it'll prolly take a bit longer for me to reply.

#toff.asks #wild anon 🐺

[chilling-seavey]

What if Florence and Daniel got into a fight bc both of them are stressed out worrying about money and taking care of the kids?? How would my OTP resolve their fight??? 🤔

This was lowkey emotionally draining to write...wowey. 3.3k words later, here’s some proof that Florence and Daniel’s relationship isn’t as perfect and flawless as it seems... x

Monday, November 4th, 2024

Daniel let out a heavy breath as he got into his car after another shift, having spent most of it with his supervisor never being satisfied but that wasn’t new. He turned on the car and connected his phone to Bluetooth to call Florence as he always did before leaving. Strangely, he was sent to voicemail but a text came through instead.

Can you pick up diapers on your way home?

He sighed and replied with a quick ‘ok’ before pocketing his phone and putting the car in reverse. Closer to home, he parked outside the drugstore and headed inside, rushing down the aisles to find the diapers and grabbed the biggest package before bringing it to the cash.

“$37.45.” the cashier said after ringing up the item.

Daniel waved his card and was directed to the machine. He typed in his pin and waited a moment only to be met with card declined: insufficient funds. The glance from the cashier made Daniel feel even worse and he cleared his throat nervously, brushing a hand through his hair before shuffling through his wallet to only be met with a $10 bill and a few loose coins.

“Sorry… I, uh, left my other card at home.” Daniel said softly before leaving the store empty handed.

He sat behind the wheel of his car and tried to steady his breathing after being unable to afford diapers for his baby daughter. After a few moments of trying to calm down and trying not to cry, Daniel turned on the car and headed towards home.

The apartment smelt like burnt supper when he walked in and the noise was insane, the baby’s piecing screams topping it all. No one even heard him come in. Daniel set his guitar case and backpack on the floor in the doorway to the living room, taking in the messy kitchen and loud TV with Clementine sat admits a pile of toys trying to watch it, Penelope on the couch with her face in a pillow and her hands over her ears as she cried, and screaming Lucy in Florence’s arms as the dishevelled looking mother tried to put the dishes in the sink.

“Hey.” Daniel finally spoke, earning the glances of Florence and Clementine.

Clementine jumped up and ran for him as if he was her saviour from the chaos and he picked her up with a tired grunt.

“What’s going on here?” Daniel asked softly.

“Mommy burnt the house down!” Clementine said with a giggle as Daniel carried her towards the kitchen, his eyes lingering on Penelope on the couch for a moment.

“I just burnt the lasagna a bit.” Florence sighed, wiping her damp hand on her shirt that was already covered in tomato sauce and baby drool. Her hair was pulled back but still almost completely falling out of its tie and her makeup-less face looked like she hadn’t slept in days. “Did you pick up the diapers?”

Daniel cleared his throat nervously, setting Clementine back on the ground to let her run back off to the TV, “No, my-”

“Goddammit, Daniel, I ask you to do one thing.” Florence snapped as quietly as she could, tossing the pan in the sink a bit too hard, making Lucy scream louder in her arms.

“I tried, I just-”

“It’s not that hard to remember. Your daughter needs diapers. We have, like, four left but that’s fine; when we run out I’ll just tie one of your shirts around her like a freaking monkey at the zoo.”

“Florence, what is going on?” Daniel asked at her obvious stressed out state.

“I had to pick up Penelope only an hour after dropping her off this morning because the teacher called and said she had a meltdown and wouldn’t relax and everything is setting her off today. The damn oven beeped and she lost her mind. Of course Lucy’s crying only makes it worse and she won’t shut up because she’s teething.” Florence pushed her finger in the five-month-old’s mouth to get a look at her swollen gums and the baby just cried louder. “She also pooped all over everything today which is why we needed new diapers earlier than planned because her personal nuclear bomb ruined half the things on the change table.”

Daniel watched with wide eyes as she rushed over to grab the last two plates from the dining room table and tossed them in the sink too before turning on the tap and letting the water run over everything.

“And Clementine is demanding that she gets this new set for her doll that everyone has at school. She won’t even hear of it for Christmas because she needs it now.” Florence continued. “And she keeps testing me! Judging everything I do like she’s the adult. ‘Mommy, the lasagna’s burnt’. Like I didn’t know!”

“Okay.” Daniel sighed softly, reaching over the counter to take the crying baby from her and made his way to the freezer to take the cold teething ring out and held it out to Lucy. “I’ll take the girls and get them ready for bed and then we can talk.”

“I don’t want to talk. I wanted you to get the diapers like I fucking asked.” Florence grumbled.

“Flora.” Daniel snapped sharply to shut her up.

His glare certainly helped, and she clenched her jaw before looking back to the dishes without another word. Daniel bounced the baby lightly as she kept screaming through the teething ring he desperately tried to put in her mouth as he headed back to the living room.

“Clem, angel, can you tidy up your toys and go get your pyjamas on please?” Daniel asked softly as he turned off the TV.

The almost six-year-old nodded and got up from the rug, starting to gather her things, “There’s a new set you can buy for my dolls, Daddy. It’s a whole car they can ride in and the radio even plays music! It’s really nice and all the girls in my class has it. I wanna get it so we can play together at school.”

“We’ll think about it.” Daniel said, trying to hold back his nausea from the harsh inset of reality. He wanted nothing more than to buy that stupid toy car for his daughter but it was no where near realistic. He set Lucy in her playpen with the teething ring before moving to tend to his middle daughter who was still face down on the couch with her hands over her ears. When he set his hand on her back she startled. “Just me, bug.”

Penelope rolled over, giving him a good look of her swollen red eyes and matted dark hair and tear streaked cheeks, and she held her arms up to him through a hiccup.

“What’s wrong, my love?” Daniel pouted as he bent down and scooped her up, the four-year-old cuddling right into him through her sniffles as he took her to her room to get her cleaned up for bed. He sung softly as he wiped her face clean with a damp cloth and got her into her pyjamas, something that always helped calm her down, and he took his time to help both her and Clementine brush their teeth and comb their hair before tucking them into bed.

Daniel grabbed Lucy for story time, all three girls cuddled up with him as he read them a bedtime story. Lucy fell asleep quickly, probably tired out from all her crying – same with Penelope – and he kissed the oldest two good-night before taking the baby down the hall to bed too. He let his eyes linger on the remaining three diapers in the basket before letting out a small sigh and took one out so he could change her into her pyjamas. Lucy was tucked into her crib with the teething ring beside her just in case and he pushed a pacifier past her lips, watching her for a second as she sleepily sucked on it for a moment, the plastic bumping lightly against her tiny nose.

The apartment was eerily quiet as Daniel closed the nursey door, baby monitor in hand, and made his way back down the hallway for a conversation he really did not want to have.

Florence had the kitchen cleaned up by the time he was back, and they shared expressionless glances as she closed the last cupboard.

“I’m sorry you had a bad day,” Daniel said, placing the baby monitor on the counter between them, “but you don’t need to take it out on me.”

“Maybe if you did what I asked, we wouldn’t have this problem.”

“I tried.” Daniel protested. “It was a hard day and to top it off my card-”

Florence held up her hand to cut him off, “You go to work to play music for eight hours and then come home to a good meal that you don’t have to cook. You have it easy.”

“Easy?” Daniel gaped. “Are you kidding me? You know how much shit I do in my job and how many late nights and early mornings and weekends I put into this. It’s no where near easy.”

“Oh yeah.” Florence chuckled humourlessly. “When you don’t have to lift a finger around here, leaving me to practically raise your children.”

“You think I like never seeing my wife or kids?!” Daniel frowned. “It was bad when Lucy was first born, yeah, but we even had a whole discussion and I got much more time freed up. But I can’t just sit at home all day with you guys, this isn’t a fairy-tale.”

“I know but you act like I’m a psychotic bitch when I let it all get to me! I got shit on today! And walked over and hit and kicked and bitten and screamed at and I burnt my arm trying to get the charred dinner out of the oven. You just don’t understand what it’s like to stay home!”

“You have no idea what it’s like to work! To go out and earn a salary! You could have gone to school and gotten a degree and then figured out what you wanted to do with your life but instead you chose to cruise off everyone else. You didn’t even pay for your first apartment! Callum did! You have no freaking idea the value of money!”

“I was raising my daughter.” Florence seethed. “Fuck you for even saying that.”

“You could have made it work.”

“Sorry I chose to focus on her rather than shoving her in daycare to be pretty much raised by a stranger for the first four years of her life. I didn’t have the money for any of that. I barely had money to put food on the fucking table half the time and you know that.”

“So get over yourself! Stop being so goddamn selfish if you’re so finically-aware!”

“Fuck you!” Florence shouted, walking around the counter as if she were going to leave the room but she stopped in the middle of the living room and turned back to him. “I get that you have to work and I am thankful that you even have a job, but a little compassion isn’t a lot to ask of you.”

“Compassion? Are you serious?” Daniel scoffed loudly, taking a few quick strides across the room to stand in front of her, shouting back his rebuttal, “I nearly wait on you hand and foot and I drop everything whenever you need me and for years I always have! I have done nothing but work my ass off for you and our kids and you still have the audacity to say that it’s still not enough? I work too much and now I don’t work enough and then I don’t ‘understand what you’re going through’. Well, dammit, Florence, what the fuck do you want from me?”

“I want you to care about other things than your work!”

“I already cut my hours! We’re nearly fucking broke, Florence, I don’t know why you can’t understand that! We literally cannot afford for me to lose one more hour a week! Last months rent virtually drained us and we are surviving on a $10 bill and my fucking shoelace right now! I’m pushed to the fucking brim half the time trying to get all the shit done so I don’t have to work overtime so I can still come home to you and the girls and all I’m met with is attitude and snark and an ungrateful wife who scolds me like my goddamn mother when I walk in the door!”

Florence didn’t reply for a beat and the silence lingered heavy over the apartment. Her eyebrows furrowed first before her face scrunched up in anger and she jabbed a finger in Daniel’s face before yelling, “Fuck you! I am not staying home just to make you a supper and serve you a beer in a pretty pink dress and heels with a face full of makeup and a fake smile when you get in from work. This isn’t the 19-fucking-50s! I am allowed to have emotions, Daniel James, and right now you are tugging at every single last one of them! How dare you say these things to me!”

“You are freaking out for no reason!” Daniel shouted louder to top her. “You’re twisting everything I’m saying! Do you even hear yourself?”

“All I can hear is you being a selfish and ungrateful son of a bitch!” Florence screamed, throwing a couch cushion at him.

“Throwing things at me? Real mature, Florence. Real fucking mature! God, why don’t you understand?!” Daniel shut his eyes and threw his hands into his hair and tugged hard to try and rid his frustrations. “You’re so naïve sometimes, you drive me fucking crazy!”

They were already even listening to each other anymore, simply off on their own tangents trying to out-volume the other. Daniel and Florence didn’t fight often, priding themselves on their open communication, but everything eventually hits a bump and when they did, they really did.

“Just go play your pretty music, Daniel! Make some pretty music with your friends and put it online for everyone rave over and shut up. I’ll be here taking care of and being hit like a punching bag by your children.”

“You know what, I would appreciate it if you stopped fucking accusing me of being a shitty father because I have a job! I have been trying my best and if that’s not enough for you then I don’t know what to tell you!” Daniel put his hands up.

“What? You’re gonna leave?” Florence laughed humourlessly, throwing her finger in the direction of the door. “Fine! Go on! Wouldn’t be the first time! Leave when it gets hard Daniel!” She cut her screams, leaning in closer to him to whisper sharply, “Just like Matt did.”

Their fight seemed to echo through the apartment as silence fell again, her angry expression still glaring at him as his face melted into neutrality.

“Don’t say that.” Daniel said softly, trying to each for her.

“Don’t touch me.” Florence stepped back before walking quickly down the hallway.

“Flora, I’m not gonna-” Daniel started after her but the slamming of the bedroom door startled him to stop in place. He took a deep breath and ran his hands over his face to try and calm down, leaning back against the wall of the hallway. It was surprising that the baby wasn’t crying given the fact they just had a ten-minute-long screaming match.

Daniel composed himself enough to open the girls’ bedroom door and peak in, finding them both huddled up together in Clementine’s bed, frightened looks on their faces.

“Hey, my loves.” Daniel sighed, sitting himself on the side of the bed. “I’m sorry if we scared you. Mommy and I haven’t been talking as much as we should have been, and we got a little crazy. Do you forgive us?”

Clementine and Penelope nodded. Daniel kissed each of their heads and got them tucked in again in their own beds.

“No more yelling tonight?” Penelope asked.

“No more yelling.” Daniel promised, smiling sadly between his two eldest. He couldn’t help but let his gaze linger on Clementine a moment longer, remembering the night Matt walked out, leaving nineteen-year-old Florence and baby Clementine alone and a mess in their small apartment. She stared up at him with those same blue eyes he always remembered, and he gave her an extra kiss on the cheek, staying with them until they were drifting back to sleep, “Daddy’s not going anywhere.”

Daniel found himself back outside the master bedroom door with his hand on the knob and his forehead against the cool wood, taking slow breaths to keep himself calm to try the conversation again. He finally opened the door and slipped inside before closing it silently behind him. The light was on in the ensuite and he stopped in the doorway.

Florence glanced up at him from where she stood in front of the vanity brushing her hair. She silently turned back and continued what she was doing.

“Come here.” Daniel whispered, stepping closer and gently pulled her arms down from her hair to wrap around his shoulders and he tucked his own tightly around her waist, peppering a few kisses over her cheek and across her shoulder. “I love you. So fucking much. Even when you scream at me and swear at me and throw things at me.”

Florence sniffled a little, holding him tighter. “I love you too.”

“I’m not going anywhere, okay?” Daniel rubbed a hand over her back. “No matter what.”

“I’m sorry.” Florence mumbled, wrapping her fingers around the material of his shirt and buried her face in his neck.

“I’m sorry too.” Daniel sighed. “My card got declined today. It scared me.”

“What?” Florence leaned back with concern, holding her hands on his biceps to keep him close as she stared at his flushed face.

“$37 for diapers and my card was declined. I felt like a fucking idiot, like an absolute joke of a father…can’t even buy the necessities for my kid.” Daniel sighed, turning to lean back against the counter and hung his head. “I don’t know what we’re gonna do, Flora. I’m scared.”

“I know.” Florence mumbled, petting her hand through his hair. “Maybe we should talk to someone? Get a budget figured out until we get back on our feet. Worst case scenario, we ask your parents for a bit of a loan. We’re not going to lose anything from this.”

Daniel nodded, biting his lip as he stared at the floor, fingers holding tightly onto the edge of the counter behind him.

“I’m sorry.” his voice broke and he struggled to hold back a small sob, quickly hiding his face in his hands.

“Oh, sweetheart, it’s okay,” Florence frowned, wrapping her arms around him to let him cry against her shoulder, “I know how hard you work. You’re such a good dad and an amazing husband. I know you’re trying your best and I also know it’s slowly starting to destroy you.”

Daniel whimpered as he nodded, clinging onto her tighter through his tears as he muffled a sob into her neck.

“I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you.” Florence sighed, running her hand up and down his back. “I took my own shit out on you. I needed any excuse to yell, I guess.”

“Better me than at the girls.” Daniel chuckled lightly, pulling back from their hug a little to wipe his eyes with the back of his hand.

“I love you.” Florence said strongly, taking his face in her hands. “$0 in your pocket or millions. Doesn’t matter. Don’t you forget it, okay?”

Daniel nodded and leaned in to kiss her once, lingering there a moment longer before pulling back.

“Now no more tears.” Florence said, taking a deep breath herself as she started to feel herself start to cry. “There have been to many tears in this house today.”

#daniel seavey #why dont we #daniel seavey imagines #why dont we imagines #why dont we music #anything but mine #imagines

[paolopallegient]

good morning, today is a better day.

i feel like all my work in the morning for the past 2 days have really helped achieved this feeing of me tal safety. To explain

3 days ago i learned that Gabbi had cut me off. It was hard to find out, i went ahead and slept it off, it meant nothing to me at night. I woke up and the information sunk into my heart. I was at my worst that morning, but i forced nyself to do good to myself. I remember not wanting to move, but i put my clothes in the laundry, showered, meditated, had a good bfast too with black bean noodle and some egg. It was good. Then i had work later with Darren and Dhan. It sucks because i love working with Darren and Dhan but i wasn't in no mood to communicate or talk to anybody. It makes me sad. I went home and facetimed Nicole and she had told me the true meanings as to why Gabbi had cut me off, which included why kiana had cut me off as well.

i went home and showered, got into bed and listened to music the whole time. I didn't want to talk to my parents, i didn't want to do anything bro. I waited for my parents to sleep just so i can eat by myself. I remember crying to Nicole about this moment because i felt like there was no hope for me. I remember late at night i hopelessly texted Kev so that we can talk it out. I needed to talk it out with somebody. Somebody who'd have my back. The insecurity within me had a feeling he wouldn't like what he heard or even lose another friend with him. It turned out well though.

The next day, I did the same stuff. I woke up, showered, did my laundry, made bfast, and even picked up an earlier shift. I usually work 4-9, but on this day i worked 1-9 so i was there longer. It turned out to be good for me. As i mentioned, i had to meet up with kev to talk about it. It was really good for my mental. I feel like i'm really learning how to grow and surround myself with good things nowadays. I guess i've experienced so much people leaving my life and the presence of their absence affecting me had taught me something 😂🤝😂. It's crazy, anyways, Yeah he was able to give me the guidance i needed. He told me that what i did isn't as severe as to what people are doing concurrently. Men are doing much worse than what i've done. He also said something very nice to me near the end, where i was dropping him off at his place. I was playing a logic song, a song off his new album No Pressure, but the song was in the background really so i wasn't paying attention. Kev placed my attention to the song and he said to me that he doesn't want me to be in the fear of being "cancelled" or crossing paths with somebody that doesn't like me because "that's not freedom."

damn.

That's not freedom. The song was "Amen", one of his favorite song off No Pressure. What he said there was something i carried through the whole day. I went to work after i dropped him off and i was thinking about that endlessly. I went to work and Kevin & Will were working. I realized that i like working with Kevin because he actually likes to talk and conversate. He's not as bad as people talk about him. It's merely the opposite, he surprises me. At the beginning he was hard on me when making drinks because, i was learning yenno? But now, when i do something "lazy" i'm surprised that he does the same. He made 3 drinks in a a blender lol. I've gotten condemned for doing such so i don't do it anymore. Anyways, talking and working the first half of the shift was nice. I was happy to talk to him. Kathy and Solo came in later. Solo is always dope, it's hard to talk to him doe because he's quiet as fuck and i like my music loud lol. Then Kathy was where it was at tho. I'll just say what she told me rather than how the conversations went. She told me she used to study film. She wanted to be in Film Production(i think) and went into Film Criticism on accident bc she wasn't looking close enough as to what she was studying or what classes were part of the curriculum. She told me as well that she's married, and that her and her husband used to own a restaurant, an american chinese place like Panda Express. 3 years ago she used to work at a boba shop, a local one in Orange County. I noticed that she refrains from telling me the names of the places she works, maybe those were years she didn't want to remember. It's understandable. 2018 and 2019 are years I do my best not to remember. Typing those years out actually made me reminisce and wow yeah i understand her, suggesting that her bringing up the names were the case as to why she wouldn't wanna talk about them.

Anyways, later in the shift around 6-7 it got busy and i started getting real mentally negative. It was insane to me, i started just drifting off while making drinks and i remember secretly slamming my hand down on bar. It just sounded like normal noise considering things are slammed all the time anyways, so nobody noticed anyways. Later, something crazy happened. I saw a girl come up and she had very familiar eyes. This is where my ability to recognize people astonishes me because I saw this girl's eyes and i recognized her as Noah Abel Cruz's girlfriend. Then i look whose next to him and it was Noah lmao. I had the quickest intuition to discount them, then i pulled out... i didn't tell Kathy to discount them... I wish i did. It was like my authentic self remember 2014, then my older self remember 2017-2018 😂 lmao stupid. I wish i coulda saved them some money in the name of growth. Although, what i did had shown that I was affected by his and my decisions from the past. I didn't appreciate what he's done or said to me in the past. Although, i still made their drinks... i think...? I remember yes, i did make their drinks. This moment i really am not proud of lmao so, it was pretty ass haha. I made their drinks and i remember being done for awhile, and Solo was busy AND KATHY WAS BUSY SO I MIGHT'VE HAD TO BRING THEIR DRINKSS TO THEM. But naw, I was able to hear Kathy's next order i think so i just remember beginning it and then solo came and brought the drinks. What happens later with the Noah story is crazy. from 7:10-7:50 i was going relatively crazy. I was thinking and repeating that moment forever. "shoulda discounted them" "shoulda shown him that i've grown" "should brought their drinks to them" idk. Earlier in the shift i texted Melissa if she could roll my weed because, yesterday with Dhan and Darren, Dhan gave me weed...? LOL Like, i have no form of smoking it but yeah. He just gave it to me, and Melissa agreed to roll my weed. Then i get a snap from Christian that they're both hanging out at the time i text her. I told him that, if they want free boba, come bc we close at 8, and they got excited. They came around 7:50 and were so playful?

They were happy to see me... It was nice to felt needed, or at least produce excitement for somebody. It was nice. I remember somewhat scrambling because solo was making drinks and I wanted to make their drinks and yeah. I made their drinks, said goodbye, etc. Then we closed, nothing much this night, just showered and laud in bed, ate later and watched Japan Sinks (which i don't like lmao, i won't be finishing this series lol). Anyways, yeah. I forgot to mention, the Noah thing. So we closed, i got into my car and called Kevin bc he called me while we were closing. He told me that Noah called him, and told him exactly what i was telling him. Like, "man i felt weird" stuff like that. He was saying that we'll probably reconnect at a listening party in the future at Kevin's. I think i have to organize my feelings with Noah first. Thinking about it now, i'd still feel weird. We'll work on it. I'll work on it. Anyways, yeah. crazy.

Christian, Melissa, Noah, Coworker Kevin, Vrother Kevin, Dhan, Darren, Nicole, all these people enjoy my presence. Even my parents enjoy my presence too. i have to remember this.

today, i will get up, use the restroom, i want to brush my teeth bc i didnt brush last night. I'll come back, make my bed, meditate, then shower, then fold my laundry, Kevin is coming around 12:30 so i'm assuming that we'll probabky eat when he comes. We'll be watching Do The Right Thing and Once Upon A Time In The West, an oldie double feature. It'll be good. Later in the day, i'm going to melissa's so she can roll my weed. I appreciate her. I appreciate kev. Today will be good and i'll further beaing good to myself. Tired of being tired of being tired.

Kiana, Gabbi, Justin, Preet, Bianca, etc. I want you all to know that i'm choosing to grow. I feel like i have potential to achieve greatness in this life. I want to do better for my seed so that my sons or daughters know consent and know how to "read the room" and not make people uncomfortable. I want to teach them and educate them. My nephews and nieces as well. For the future, if i become a teacher, i do want to teach my students as well. I want to become a person of change. I will change, i'll show you all. You can decide to be present for that, if not then...

I wish the best for all of you. I remember a life where i cared for all of you. Thank you for being apart of my journey. I have 0 defenses in my case if i get cancelled, i admit to what i've done. Although, i'm not going to allow that to restrict me from growing and being a better person. If you ask me, why wouldn't cancel culture WANT me to grow and be better? Idk. If i lose more friends to this, I won't be surprised but, yenno what i'll do?

Wake up in the morning, shower, meditate, do my laundry, and eat breakfast. I'm done being a shit-person to others, but it begins with myself. I have to love myself.

Today is day 3 not getting cancelled. I have a dentist appointment sunday. Next week is Julius's bday. Gabbi's too but i won't be celebrating it lol. Then Passdown retreat, then the week after school starts. Then blam. Life keeps going. I will grow.

Thank you Paolo for taking the time to just type this whole thing out... this was also a step towards loving myself. Alright, i have to shit. See yall in my next post. Love you all. Swag.

[whatadaze]

day 4: favorite ship: noah boom + liv reijners

warning: this will be long and chaotic and 98% of it probably won’t make sense

I thought about not writing this but I started a couple days ago and just couldn’t stop myself. And yes, I made two posts for today but that’s how passionate I am ya know? lol...and if it isn’t obvious by now i literally have no life + post shit no one cares about :-) 

This will be long so viewer discretion is advised.

Noah and Liv are good for each other. 

That isn’t to say they don’t have flaws, but overall they just work. In OG skam, it was emphasized over and over again that William and Noora were very different, but it’s those differences that drew them together and for them, that worked. In the case of Noah + Liv, if they were too different from each other I don’t think their relationship would have the same dynamic as it does now.

I mean, this whole season starts off LITERALLY showing the viewers how similar they are with their morning routines. The clip feels cohesive and whole, nothing seeming out of place and as they flip back and forth from liv to noah, everything transitions very smoothly. So in a literal sense, noah and liv are similar in their ~aesthetic~ (lol), with very vintage-y, hipster styles. 

But it’s so much more than the physical stuff!!! 

Here’s what I mean: 

1) Liv and Noah are both artists and musicians. We haven’t seen Liv draw much in season 2, but it was shown in season 1 that she can draw (look @ her insta for her sketch of imaan <3) + she’s also musically talented. Noah has a guitar so it can be assumed that he can play (unless that really is a tool to get girls lol) + he’s an artist. They both have similar interests and I’m looking forward to seeing how their passions intertwine in the future because i stg if we don’t get SOMETHING where they are using their talents together in a clip, I will riot. Also, an interesting thing to note is that when Liv is stressed or upset, she seems to push music away. It causes more stress for her. But with Noah, he seems to immerse himself in his art even more. We see that when Liv finally sees him in the funeral clip. He hides himself away in his room + sketches while the guests are all downstairs for the viewing. (don’t know how that fits into this but i always thought that was interesting) 

2) They are both lonely. Yes, they both have their own group of friends but we’re all familiar with the phrase “you can be in a crowded room full of people and still feel utterly alone”. We see Liv isolate herself a few times throughout the season. The first, when she steps out for a bit during Jayden’s welcome party. Then again when she leaves Isa with the boys and goes to her room. Another when she calls her dad and gets upset in her room while her friends are out in the living room. We can see her feel alone when she’s with her friends—when she finds out about Noah’s mom, when their getting their nails done, and during the benefit—her mind is not where it should be as it continues to drift off to Noah. She’s alone because in this moment, she has no one to confide in. Noah has his friends, Gijs and Micha, but we rarely see them together. In fact, most of the times we see Noah is when he’s alone (or with Liv :-)). One thing I actually enjoyed about OG skam was the friendship b/w penatrator chris + william. Yes, they were both two fuckboys but you just knew right away that they were best friends. With Gijs and Noah I don’t really get that vibe (but maybe they’ll explore that later??? although i doubt it bc we running out of time :( ) And we see Noah isolate himself even more after his mother’s passing—literally—by closing himself off from Liv and holing himself up in his room.

3) That brings me to the third point: they both avoid seeking help. Liv is the mother of the group. She takes care of them, gives them advice, and is always looking out for them. But rarely do we see her be the one to ask for help. She doesn’t tell her friends what’s really bothering her and when Isa notices that she’s been acting weird lately, Liv tries to brush it off. Liv’s way of coping is to simply hide her true emotions, put on a brave face, and wait until she’s alone to really act on her feelings. She doesn’t express frustration to her dad even though we see her visibly upset. She writes in her journal about having a shitty day and then steps out of her room with a smile on her face. It isn’t until she begins worrying about Noah that she finally asks for help. We can see that it’s hard for her to do so, but she finally does! Noah is the same way. When he finally needs someone to lean on, he isolates himself. When Liv finally goes to him, he pushes her away and tells her he doesn’t need her pity. His first thought is that Liv isn’t there to be with him but because she feels bad for him. This shows that he’s not used to people genuinely being there for him + caring about him. Liv sees through that BS and stays by his side, and the look on Noah’s face when he realizes she’s staying is enough proof that he needed someone by his side all along. 

4) And my final point is the way both communicate. I’d say both are pretty outspoken individuals and they don’t really hold anything back. From the very beginning, it’s very clear that Noah is interested in Liv and he has always been honest + open with her about that (even though she wasn’t too happy). He had never tried to trick her or blackmail her (and no, i don’t consider the date a blackmail). Noah never used Engel (no, i don’t consider that phone call as him using her) and he tells her that he wants to know what would make her believe that he is serious about her. He directly tells Liv that he is tired of the game between them and even GIVES UP. ANDDDDD MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL he IS HONEST ABOUT HIS BROTHER!!!! Liv is also pretty outspoken and from the very beginning, we see that she isn’t afraid to speak her mind. She tells people how it is, makes it clear to Noah when she doesn’t want him pursuing her the way he did (going by her house which BTW HE STOPPED RIGHT AWAY) and went to noah’s house ON HER OWN with the sole purpose of seeing him AND STAYED WHEN HE PUSHED HER AWAY. So we have two characters who are very open about what they want/don’t want, and like to express their opinions (i.e.: conversation during their first date) and what i LOVED is during the clip w/ their first kiss, liv doesn’t list all these things she didn’t like about Noah. She knew that what she was feeling was true, but she didn’t think that what she felt was the right thing (going back to the whole liv being the mom and looking out for everyone else). And what does Noah do? He says he understands. Because he does. And from their first date, I think Liv knew that Noah was able to read her in a way even her close friends couldn’t. 

YOU KNOW WHY!? 

BECAUSE THEY’RE THE SAME.

So what makes them work? 

Liv helps Noah learn that not everyone that cares about him is doing so out of pity. That there are people who care and want to help him. We see that especially during the funeral clip. Before they go to sleep, he asks Liv if she likes him, and he has this faint smile on his lips when he realizes that she really is there because she wants to be. Liv learns to ask for help from others because she wants to help him but doesn’t know what to do. And in the next few episodes, we will see Liv being the one to push Noah away (*cries*)  when she needs him most and she will have to learn to accept help during a time when all she will want to do is be alone. 

Another important theme in their relationship is trust. From the very first date, the topic of trust has been brought up over and over again. Noah tells Liv that he doesn’t know her well enough to trust her, Liv responds with “Maybe” when he asks if he can trust her. And after they get together, he tells Liv that he can’t wait until she can trust him. I don’t think that was his way of saying “i want you to trust me so that you have sex with me�� it was a genuine desire on his end for her to fully trust him. And so when that trust breaks, it will cause a huge rift between them (*cries again*).

Anyway, that was me going off topic for a bit. 

IN CONCLUSION, Liv + Noah challenge each other. It’s what draws them to one another, whether they like it or not. Noah’s life seemed pretty mundane before Liv and even as a character I have to admit that he was kinda dull and I was initially indifferent about him when he was introduced. But after Liv went off on him and we begin seeing a different side of him (someone who is playful, makes jokes, and obviously doesn’t know how to flirt), we start to view him as more than some fuck boy who wants what he seemingly can’t have. And it was a good decision on skamnl’s part to slowly develop their relationship because we know that Liv is not the type to quickly fall for someone she was not into just one season ago. This slow development is what makes us as viewers also fall in love with Noah, grow attached to Liv, and witness these two beautiful people open up to each other and fall in love 

(*bawling now*). 

People usually say opposites attract, but I think that what Liv and Noah share in common is what pulls them towards each other. Liv is used to being alone, being the one who takes care of others, and doesn’t like being a burden to others. Noah pushes his way into her life, and when she needs him most, he will be there for her. Noah is also used to being alone, and before Liv, I think he liked it that way. He had an indifferent attitude about everything and when he wanted something, he usually got it. Liv challenges him, and I think he sees a bit of himself in her. When they’re on their date, Liv asks him what he thinks of her. He says that he thinks she’s reserved, likes to be in control, and doesn’t trust people easily—and all of this is true—but as we learn more about Noah, we see that he’s the same way as well. 

When Liv + Noah are together, they express their true feelings + emotions, which is why their interactions seem so raw and genuine. They get mad and frustrated at times, but they’re also genuinely happy. The emotions they’d usually push aside come out whenever they are with one another. Liv doesn’t hide how she’s feeling + Noah doesn’t either. Liv doesn’t feel the need to be in control around him because the moment she tries to be, Noah challenges her back (and vice versa). And although neither of them have verbalized it yet, we as viewers can see how much they trust each other already. They’ve seen each other in their most vulnerable states and that wouldn’t have occurred if there was no trust involved. 

also, side note:

i’m not saying that liv + noah are mirror copies of each other. of course they have some differences (i.e.: see example of their reactions to music/art when stressed) and while liv + noah are both outspoken, I’d say the way they choose to express themselves differ as well. liv is loud—whether it be through her voice or body language—she just has this strong, bold presence about her. noah seems more reserved (vocally and physically) so when he does say something, it’s usually super impactful. there are probably a lot more similarities + differences but honestly i don’t have all day so i’ll end it here lol 

OK WOW. 

So if you actually read all of this, I apologize for anything that didn’t make sense (which was probably all of it tbh) and I owe you a huge thank you and a gold star. I just have a lot of feelings and used this challenge as an excuse to write it all down.

noliv4ever 

#skamnl #skam nl #31 days of skam nl #god literally never asked for this

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March 2019 Pond LiveChat Recap

We had a great time chatting today with @bamby0304! Thank you so much, Amber, for joining us!!

We talked about Planners (writers who outline and plan out their stories) vs. Pantsers (writers who fly by the seat of their pants), and had some great questions and answers from everyone who joined! A rundown of the chat, as well as the usual general Pond news, is below the cut.

Michelle: I love attending writing panels at comic cons, and at one, the presenter said there are two kinds of writers, and that each type has their strong points. Planners have tighter storylines, but pansters tend to have stronger characters because they start with the characters and the story writes itself. (This is a broad generalization, so there are always exceptions to this rule.) As a pantser, it made me feel better about my writing, because I felt like CRAP because I can't outline for shit. Before hearing this, I thought, “My writing is crap and it’s always gonna be crap because I don’t outline and plan,” even though readers told me they liked my writing. Hearing that how I write is a valid process and there are successful writers like me really helped me to embrace it and feel better. We can always learn from each other, though, which is why we’re here!

Amber: I do find that sometimes diving in head first, with no thought, can result in a more interesting story. While most of my fics are planned, I do sometimes just get an idea and run with it. Having an outline can be a little restricting at times...

Q: Amber, how do you keep track of all your work in progress?

Amber: I have a doc that lists all my past, present and future fics which is very detailed. Everything is color-coded and alphabetized!

Q: For the pantsers, how do you end a story? I started writing my story as a series of one-shots that accidentally connected, and now I have a 15-chapter story that needs an ending....

Michelle: When I write, I always have an end goal in mind, like a road trip. I know where I want to go, but not necessarily which roads I’ll take to get there. Only once did I not do that, and it was just crack, with me just trying to stuff a lot of ridiculous crack into it, and it doesn’t have much of an ending, really. My advice for where you are, though, would be to sit down, close your eyes, and put yourself in every character's shoes. Think about how they feel about what's been happening, and disregard all of the other characters. Think about what they want and what they might do next. When you find the characters with the most interesting motivations and potential actions, there's the rest of your story.

Q: Amber, are you a planner in other aspects of your life, too?

Amber: I'm a planner with everything. My dad has a saying that's been drilled into me since birth: Better to have it and not need it, than need it and not have it. He also says: Better safe than sorry. So I guess I've just always felt the need to be organised and prepared. I'm at least half an hour early to everything. My books and DVDs are in alphabetical order, my wardrobe is colour coordinated... I'm all about organisation

Q: Michelle, do you find that your end goal gets lost in the middle? Like, if you don’t plan the small stuff, do you take a left turn instead of right and end up losing your original plan?

Michelle: Oddly enough, I don’t. There have been times when the story made a left turn, and after a short while, I got blocked. Every time I get blocked, it's a sign I made a wrong turn. If I go back to the turn and start fresh, it always works out. In my recent NaNoWriMo fic, I was on day 3, and suddenly, I lost all urge to write it. Nothing was coming to me. It was all crap. I went back, threw out almost an entire day's worth of writing, and then forged ahead. It was nerve-wracking, because it put me behind on my daily word count for the month, but it worked.

Q: Amber, did you learn how to outline from someone, or are you self-taught?

Amber: At first I was a full time pantser. I was a shipper who just wanted Elena and Damon together, and I didn't care how they got there. Now, though, I think about pretty much every step I take... well, almost every step I take.

Q: Are your outlines in complete sentences or just points you want to make in each chapter?

Amber: Depends on the story. With Wolves just had dot points for chapters, but The Hart has a full doc of details. I would jot a few words down for With Wolves, because I also try to stick to a word count for each chapter so sometimes the idea would spread into multiple chapters

Q: Is sticking to a word count per chapter a thing that you do for yourself for pacing, or for your readers so they don't have long chapters?

Amber: Mostly for pacing. Most of my reader insert fics are 1.5k-2.5k words long. Except Her Saviours... that's 3.5-5k long. I like things to be uniform.

Q: I can't get past 1k would outlining help with that?

Amber: Outlining could help, sure. But you need ideas to outline, first.

Q: Do you have a writing schedule that you stick to, where it's your priority for that time to write, or do you just write when you can?

Amber: I started uni this week, so now it's more of a do-it-when-you-can kinda thing... but I like to write in the evenings. I make a cup of tea and sit myself down, and make myself write. Often I don't wanna... but I have a posting schedule to keep up with, so I don't have much of a choice.... I also put on SPN when writing that fandom. I specifically stick to the season that might go along with the plot of that fic. I can't write in silence.

Michelle: I can't write if there's anything AT ALL happening anywhere in the world that I might find remotely interesting. Silence, no music, no TV, nothing good on my dash, it's terrible. Literally, anything is more interesting than writing for me, until I get going.

Q: Do your stories ever break from your outline?

Amber: All the time! For instance, in Her Saviours (sorry about name dropping my fics, but I just like using examples) Sam is misbehaving big time. He keeps on doing things I don't want him to do, which moves the plot along faster that I'd like.

Q: How do you even start an outlining process?

Amber: it might be a slight OCD thing... because I'm organised with everything... but a lot of my planning is motivated by the fact that if I don't plan I'll lose interest in my stories and give up. 

Followup Q: I want to try, but you made it sound a bit overwhelming.

Amber: It's really not overwhelming. You get the idea for a story and then you want to write... so jot that idea down. Then jot down other ideas that go with it. Set up a timeline. Dean wants pie Dean goes to get pie Dean meets girl at bakery They laugh, have fun He buys her pie Turns out it's magical pie that people get addicted to Dean has to decide whether he ganks witch (pie girl) or not. Just write simple stuff like that.

Q: Do Pantsers lose motivation easily?

Michelle: Sometimes. If I don’t know what I want to write next, it’s really easy to get distracted and not write. I need a writing schedule that I stick to. I used to have one, but I've filled it up with being tired from having a life.

@manawhaat: Yes and no. if I lose the motivation, it's because the story isn't there or i'm not having the right thoughts to help that story along. Like if I generally know what the fuck is going on in a story, I'm probably not writing it because I already know it. It's the ones that are a mystery or Mr. Toads Wild Ride that I end up writing bc I'm actively motivated to figure it out.

Q: Do you have a posting schedule? And if you do lose motivation, does that affect said schedule?

Michelle: I do not have a schedule. I have an order in my head of what I want to write next, but unless it's for a challenge, no due date to write it by.

Mana: I have never had a posting schedule because I am not the schedule type person and will 100% abort from the plan and not stick to it at all. Even signing up for challenges, I'm wary of time frames because I'm more likely to drop out if I can't figure my shit out within that time. I'd rather drop out of a challenge than pump out something that isn't really what I want to write or doesn't tell the story I need to tell.

Amber: I pace myself with posting. I give fics certain days (like today is Spanner in the Works day) and I post them weekly on said day. I choose the days by title most of the time... I like alliteration, so Spanner in the Works is posted on Sunday S + S.

Q: Are you really a pantser, or a planner in denial? Do you just not realize somethings you do are baby steps into becoming a full time planner?

Michelle: When it comes to writing, I've tried to plan, and I just can't. If I plan too thoroughly, then I feel like I've already written the story, and I lose motivation to write it out. But I'm more of a planner in life. I have a calendar and a routine that I follow, simply because there are days when I'm not cognitively aware enough to make actual decisions. If everything is muscle memory, I can run on auto pilot and not crash. To use the road trip analogy, when I go on an actual road trip, I figure out the route and all the bathroom breaks ahead of time. Completely different than when I’m writing.

Tips gleaned from writers at writing panels at comic cons:

As you're writing, keep an "outline" of your chapters with only a sentence or two describing each chapter. This helps you if you need to go back and reference something later, and helps you see the overall story arc.

Naming characters - Try to avoid naming characters with the same first initial. A reader's eyes will sometimes only hit the first letter of a name, so keeping track of character names helps. Write the alphabet on a piece of paper, and write down every name as you go along.

If you're stuck, or feel like your story is meandering, try to picture in your mind what the movie trailer for your story would look like. What makes this movie more interesting than similar movies? What is driving your story?

If you've got a good flow going, and then it suddenly dries up, go back to when you last felt confident, and move on from there. Something you did since then wasn't right, and you'll see it when you start again.

Thanks to everyone who was there! It was a great chat!

General Pond Updates and Reminders

Angel Fish Award nominations are accepted all month long! No need to wait to tell us how much you liked a fellow Fish’s work!  If you have sent in a nomination, but have not received a private message confirming we received it, we didn’t get it. Be sure to use Submit instead of Ask!

Don’t forget to submit your stories to be posted to the blog! When your stories are on the blog, then they are easier to nominate for Angel Fish Awards!

SPNFanFicPond Season 14 Weekly Episode Writing Challenge - New prompts go up after every new episode, and there’s no deadline! Check out the prompts and rules at the link!

Say hi to February’s New Members!

Check the Pond CALENDAR to see when Big Fish will be in the chat room and other Pond and SPN events are happening! Know of something that’s not on the calendar, send us an ask or submission with the deets info details!  The calendar offers a lot of features, such as showing you when things are in your own timezone! Since we’re an international group, that’s a definite plus!!

In April, we’re going to chat with one of our Big Fish, @deanscarlett about writing in English when it’s not your first language! Hope to see you there!

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Drummer Girl pt.3

masterlist

A/N: There are a lot of POV switches so forgive me in advance. Also, can someone help me make a masterlist because I’m struggling..

Roger Taylor x OC

Warnings: language, bad writing bc I’m tired

Lavender’s POV

Sunlight beams in through the windows and shines through my closed eyes. I attempt to pry open my eyes when I’m blinded by the brightest white. Groaning and closing my eyes again, giving up on trying to see anything, I stretch only to feel a sharp pain seep through my whole head. This seems bad but I’m use to it now. Yeah, yeah, call me an alcoholic, but this is the only way for me to cope. Blacking out drunk is quite a common occurrence these days, a few months back my mom passed away, at least she’s reunited with pops. My grief was too much for people to handle I guess. It was my fault anyways, moping around and my self deprecation was my way of coping, but it was too much for people to handle. Soon enough my boyfriend broke up with me and my closest friends lost contact. I guess I just decided to hide my true feelings deep down and drink ‘em away. The only thing keeping me sane now a days is the band. They’re all I got in this shit hole of a world.

I reach over for the pain reliever I keep on my nightstand, attempting to feel for it while keeping my eyes closed, but I don’t feel it there. ‘Huh, that’s weird, I always keep my pills here’ I think to myself. I squint so I can see enough and I realize, this isn’t my room. Then it hits me. This strong scent of cologne could only mean one thing. I went home with a guy. By now I’m fully awake, head still pounding, but fully awake. I look down to see I’m in nothing but an oversized shirt. The first thing that passes my mind was ‘did I sleep with this man?’ I check and see that my undergarments are still on. I sigh in relief, but I still am in a strange man’s home.

I roll off the bed onto the cold floor and shiver a little. Slowly but surely I make my way to what I assume is the living room when I hear a flirty giggle. I arch my eyebrow. Am I in a girl’s house? What is happening? I keep walking until I see Roger and some redhead getting frisky on his lap. I cross my arms and the girl spots me.

“Ummm Rogey...” she says glaring at me, “who’s that?”

He looks over at me and I smile devilishly and wiggle my fingers at her.

“I’m your worst nightmare sweetie, now scram unless you want me to prove it” I say narrowing my eyes.

Her eyes widen as she grabs her purse and struts out quickly, but not before she flips her hair and slams the door. I snicker at the sight.

“Oy! What the fuck was that for?” He says frustrated. He strides over to me and uses his height thinking that it might intimidate me. I scoff.

“I don’t think you get to ask questions before me.” I say poking his chest as he falls backwards a bit looking a bit flustered. “What did you do last night and I swear to God if you did anything to me-“

“No. I didn’t.” He said putting his hands up in defense, “you were so fucking wasted I took you home.”

“And you promise that’s all?”

“Yes! And I even slept on the couch.”

“Well then, I take back my statement.” I say crossing my arms

“No ‘I’m sorry’?” he says smirking at me, “no thank you? How bout an ‘I’m sorry about scaring my date away and thank you for protecting me life’?”

“Nope, she didn’t seem like your type anyways.” I say trying to walk away. I wanted to get my stuff and leave, I had to go to work, hungover or not. Roger had other ideas, he grabbed my bicep and pulled me back.

“Hey, where do you think you’re going?” He said smiling down at me, “I’m not done talking to you” his gaze fell on to me and stayed too long for my liking.

“I going to be late for work” I said turning and pulling away. He grabs my waist and pulls me me back “you owe me, and by the way, you look ravishing in my clothes only”

I don’t think, I just slap his sorry face. “Get your paws off me. I don’t owe you shit. I’m a capable woman and I could have taken care of myself last night! I didn’t need some Prince Charming to swoop in and take me home.” I spat.

Roger’s POV

I clutch my cheek where it stings. Man, this lady has a strong hit. Out of all the times I’ve been slapped, this has to be the worst. I look at her dumbfounded. Don’t get me wrong, she looked smoking in my shirt and her bed hair, all of it was instinct and it usually works. The hip grab, all of it! Who is this lady to turn me down especially after all I’ve done for her.

“You ungrateful brat” I say. This whole thing is new for me. Girls rarely turn me down, and it’s never been like this. I honestly don’t know what to do.

She scoffs and walks off. I don’t chase her, I leaver her be, except for the death glare I send her way as she walks out my door. She throws my shirt into my chest and walks out.

I should be done with her. She should be out of my head, but for some bloody reason, she’s all I can think about.

Lavender’s POV

The nerve of that man-child! How am I the only woman to put him in his place? Ugh, now I have to go to work hungover and enraged. I walk through the doors of the small music store only to be greeted with,

“Oy! Liu, you late, again!”

“Yeah, thanks for the reminder Pat” I say slowly wobbling over to the desk.

“You look gross” I roll my eyes at the statement, “are you hungover again?”

“I’m also pissed, so get on my nerves. I dare you.”

“Calm down goodness” he says putting his hands up in surrender. “How’s this, you’re teaching the 3:30 guitar class today...” he says as I groan, “but! I will sub for you, if you tune for me today.” I hated tuning, I had to go around and tune all the guitars, ukuleles, violins, etc..., but I would much rather do this than teach a bunch of noisy kids, especially today.

“Deal.” I said as his face lights up.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~time skip~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I’ve tuned like half the guitars and two violins. By now I’ve already gotten tired of it and started procrastinating. I strum the riff to “Paint it Black” by The Rolling Stones. I want to play this at our next set and was going to ask Pat about it until I heard a voice.

“That was really great Lav. I didn’t know you were into the Stones.”

“Brian?” I say looking at him, he looks pale and sickly.

“Are you hungover as well? You look like you’ve been drinking gasoline for 5 years” I say snickering.

“Thanks, but no. I’ve been pretty sick and honestly I shouldn’t have gone to that party.” He says as he takes a sip of his drink.

“Well then, I just have to ask, why are you here? Is it just a coincidence or have you been stalking me Mr. May?” I say putting the guitar back on the stand.

“Well I was going to call you, but I found out where you worked and decided that following and telling you in person would be easier.”

“That’s not creepy at all.”

“Just hear me out ok? See I have a practice tonight with the guys because we’re touring a new album soon, but I’m clearly not in any shape to go. They’re only rehearsing this one song that isn’t quite perfect yet, but I wrote it so I obviously know what I’m doing.” I roll my eyes at his last statement.

“Ok so what does this have to do with me?”

“As I said, I know what I’m doing, but the guys need to practice, but I’m too sick... so I need you to fill in for me today. I can teach you right here right now and I already asked Fred and he’s alright with it.”

It all sounds like a solid plan until I remember Roger is part of Queen and I don’t want to see that douche again today. “I don’t think so Brian. I just want to go home and sleep.”

“Please Lav! I really need you to help me out! Your the only one capable that I know.” He begs. I just look at him with an unreadable expression, “I’ll pay you!”

“Thats all I needed to hear.”

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~time skip~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Roger’s ROV

“Where the hell is Brian? We were supposed to start over half an hour ago?” I say getting very impatient. That stupid Lavender girl has been stuck in my head and I just want to go home and relax.

“You haven’t heard?” Deacy says looking at me

“Haven’t head wha-“ just as if the world was reading my mind, Lavender busts through the doors with a guitar slung across her shoulders.

“What the hell is she doing here?!”

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Barista! Jihoon

Genre: fluff, fluff, and fluff

Word Count: 2054

almost never looks like he’s happy

like honestly some people question how he even got the job

bc like aren’t baristas supposed to smile brightly at you when you order and send you off with a ‘have a nice day’ ?

Jihoon isn't the type to do that though

he stares at you with his dead college student eyes, sometimes managing to work up a mini smile

makes you wonder whether he’s patiently waiting for you to order or silently imagining ways to kill you if you don’t hurry tf up and order

hands you your coffee with a curt nod and an occasional ‘enjoy’

it’s hard for him to just drastically change when he puts on that apron

bc honestly,,,

he doesn’t like his job

while he’d much rather spend his time elsewhere, the bills aren’t going to pay themselves

he only ended up in this cafe bc working somewhere walking distance to the dorm and pays well is huge

ofc it helps he was hella fast on picking up the recipes for everything

manages the BGM in the shop

someone once started playing this absolutely horrid song that completely ruined the atmosphere of the cafe

and uninterested Jihoon was the last person they expected to throw a fit

soon enough no one could mess with the BGM

even when Jihoon wasn’t working he had it preset to playlists he made

honestly it made his job so much better

and as a music composition major he had to sneak in some of his own work

it felt a little embarrassing at first, but after much convincing from all his friends/co-workers, he started putting them in his playlists

now a little after this is when he started to notice you

he’s seen you come in before, quite often

sometimes he’d take your order and sometimes Mingyu would, who Jihoon usually shared shifts with

admittedly he thought you were attractive

you’d ask about his day when it wasn’t busy and there was no one in line behind you

always striking up a simple, friendly conversation with him

he enjoyed those conversations too

sharing a few laughs about random things happening on campus or a little playful banter as you both were the same age

but it wasn’t like other customers didn’t do this also, or you didn’t do this with other baristas

it was just people being friendly after all

but on a particularly slow day, when the cafe was only filled with students trying to take advantage of the free wifi and drinking multiple cups of caffeine in hopes to finish whatever was due the next day

you walk in, the both of you flashing tired smiles at each other

you weren’t quite friends with Jihoon, but at this point he was definitely a little more than just an acquaintance

“hope you aren’t too tired to make me a latte?”

he does that little smirk he always does and shrugs

“i guess i could make an exception”

“i’m honored”

you hand him your money and stand off to the side where you could talk to him as you watch him make your drink

leaning against the counter you try to clear your mind from the stressful assignment due tomorrow and drown in the soft melody of the song playing throughout the cafe

Jihoon takes a short glance at you and unconsciously smiles to himself

your smile is pretty

“this song is pretty,” you say without looking at Jihoon, “what’s it called?”

you knew Jihoon controlled the cafe’s music and he always knew what he was playing

when enough time has past where you should’ve already gotten your answer, you turn to him

and furrow your brows at his expression

he’s staring at you, his body frozen and mouth slightly agape

quickly snapping out of his trance, he mumbles something you don’t catch

but you catch the dust of pink on his cheeks that wasn’t there before

“Jihoon?” you say confused

if you wasn’t for his odd reaction you would’ve pulled out your phone and snapped a picture

it’s not everyday one can see Lee Jihoon flustered

“i think I’m calling it ‘Drift Away’” he repeats so you could actually hear him

you open your mouth to reply, but pause to actually process what his words implied

you wait until he hands you your latte before smiling

“your song is really good Jihoon”

before he gets to chance to reply, you let out a soft laugh

“i would want to listen to it again, you should post them online”

“i’ll consider it” he resists the urge to let out a wide grin as you walk out the cafe

you made his entire day

your comment felt a little different than receiving one from a friend

although his friends don’t necessarily sugarcoat for him, they participated in the songs making it not completely unbiased

he knew you genuinely liked the song

you liked it enough to ask for the title, to want to listen to it again

and for a college student/aspiring producer like Jihoon, that was everything

if he had to pinpoint the moment where he started to fall for you, that would be it

“is that your voice” you ask

you happen to hear one of his songs again when you come in

“yeah”

“you have a nice voice”

once again he felt a surge of happiness

and this he doesn’t resist the urge to grin

he grins fully at you, letting out a shy chuckle

“thank you”

one night, maybe ten minutes before closing, you decide you needed a good cup of coffee, even at that time of night

as expected you were the only one in the cafe, save for Jihoon at the counter

“at this time of night?” he says first with his teasing tone

you roll your eyes

“you know how finals are”

he hums, not saying anything else and goes to make your coffee

you’re about to leave but Jihoon stops you

“Hey wait”

you look at him curiously

“give me your number”

he says it so casually, you’re typing it into his phone without thinking

“ah so you make the first move”

you mean this jokingly

and he laughs, taking it that way also

but gosh you might have developed a tiny crush on Jihoon

your phone rings, a text obviously from Jihoon

you give him a glance before going to look at it

it was a link to a Soundcloud

“i posted some songs yesterday”

you smile, your heartwarming

“and you couldn’t just tell me this?” you say playfully

he shrugs, shoving his hands into his pants nonchalantly

“Maybe it’s an excuse to get your number”

you smirk, ignoring the blush rising to your cheeks

“who knew you could be so smooth”

“i just learned today”

you both chuckle and you shake your shake at his response

“i’ll text you when i’m done listening”

so you do, and as expected you’re mind blown by his songs

it showed another side of Jihoon, a deeper, passionate side

‘I love all of them’

his text bubble pops up a few seconds later

‘it’s like 3 am, why are you awake’

you smile to yourself

it was just like Jihoon to say that instead of taking your compliment in full stride

‘you made me the coffee’

you send another text, ‘i got done with my assignment and i’ve been listening to them for the past hour’

‘swear you aren’t just being nice to me?’

‘aren’t we past the point where we have to sugarcoat everything we say? trust me, your songs are amazing’

and as Jihoon lays in his bed, he lets out a small giggle

forgetting he shares a room with Seungcheol and Wonwoo

thankfully the darkness hides his redness well

“what’s the cold-hearted Jihoon laughing about at this time” Wonwoo mutters loud enough for the other two boys to hear, rubbing his eyes tiredly staring at his computer screen

“what do you mean cold-hearted? we all know Jihoon is a softie” Seungcheol chuckles

Jihoon scoffs

“if i didn’t know any better I’d say he had a girlfriend”

Seungcheol says this jokingly as Wonwoo chuckles

Jihoon rolls his eyes, “it’s not like that”

“wow I was just kidding, it’s actually a girl?” Seungcheol straightens up, curious and excited to hear about his friend’s love life

“again, not like that, I met her while working, we just talk sometimes”

“how romantic,” Wonwoo comments, “seems like you like her”

“what makes you say that?” Jihoon glares at the ceiling

he didn’t know if he believed it or not

love is complicated

“because you don’t go out of your way to talk to just anyone”

Jihoon hums, accepting Wonwoo’s answer and turns over

the conversation ends there and goes back to a comfortable silence

but he realizes Wonwoo’s right

and when has he ever just let someone listen to his songs

I mean he wanted people to listen to his songs

but going out of his way to send you the link wasn’t like him

anyone else we would’ve just told them to look it up

but you weren’t just anyone to him

not anymore

it’s nearing 4:00 but he decides to send you a text anyways

‘I’m not working today, wanna grab lunch after class?’

he hoped you didn’t ask if it was a date, because he didn’t know either

‘yeah sounds good’

smiling to himself, he falls asleep thinking of you and your pretty smile from when you first heard his song

Jihoon picks you up from your class later

and the both of you begin walking to some basic lunch place near campus

the conversation flows nicely

you get to know him outside of the cafe

he’s not just the static baritsa who you thought was cute when he smiled

“hey,” you say randomly

he nods for you to continue

“so is this a date?”

Jihoon coughs

you giggle as he struggles to compose himself

clearly, his didn’t expect it

but from your experience, two people, eating lunch together, who hopefully shared a mutual attraction

that was a date

“I want it to be” Jihoon answers honestly

his eyes don’t leave yours, waiting for your answer

you smile to yourself, “we’re dating now then”

the more dates you went on with Jihoon, the harder you started to fall

rather than sweet words, he expressed his feelings through actions

whenever you come to the cafe, he pays for your coffee despite your protests

and if you happen to pay that day, he brings a pastry over to you

“I didn’t order this?”

“I just don’t want you to drink coffee on an empty stomach”

not so secretly exchanging kisses when he hands you your order

you stay after to wait for his shift to end, so the both of you could eat something that’s not a pastry and drink something that’s not coffee

and he walks you back to your dorm always

probably says some manly excuse about how he wants to protect you

but you know he just wants to spend more time with you

like you can protect yourself pfft

this goes on for months

like months

and ofc all of Jihoon’s friends are like wOW we can’t get used to you being together with someone

they say this as you guys are all gathered in the cafe secretly staying past closing time

you turn to look at Jihoon, who has your hand in his

that’s when you realize something kinda important

“Jihoon, are you my boyfriend?”

he looks at you as if you’ve asked a foolish question

“of course I am, I don’t kiss just anyone”

“OOOOHHHHH”

the other guys show mixed reaction, some showing faces of disgust, some squealing as if they just witnessed absence from a drama

you press a kiss to his cheek

“you’re pretty good at scoring yourself brownie points”

he blushes, almost unnoticeable

“shouldn’t making your coffee be enough?”

he’s just joking, teasing you

so you only laugh, nodding

as he continues his conversation with the others, you squeeze his hand from under the table and murmur

“it’s more than enough”

you say it so quietly you aren’t sure he heard you

but when you feel his thumb brush over your hand and pull you closer, you know he did

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[nctjournal]

Changed Feelings (Chenle)

Gif Credit

word count: 2278

An au where you two went from strangers to decent friends

You basically go to the same school as the dreamies

Though you’re closest to Jeno

Bc he’s your best friend

BUT you mainly have the same class as Renjun

Hella confusing i know

Honestly the only class you guys DON’T have together is art

ART OUT OF ALL CLASSES

Ok before i get out of hand with your school life

CHENLE

He’s in your little friend group, but you don’t really talk to him

Heck your locker is next to his too

He’s in some of your classes but again, you don’t talk to him

Renjun tried to get you to talk to chenle but it never works

Jaemin also tried to get you to talk to him

Yet you still refused

Of course you eventually did

But it ended up you two hating each other

It wasn’t to the extent where you both would get in trouble

You guys would just write your hates on sticky notes and put them on each others lockers

Chenle would talk about how much he hates you while you’re not around

You just keep it to yourself

Apparently something caused both of you to hate each other

Knowing you, renjun probably thought it was something serious

Yet knowing chenle, it was probably something stupid

It lasted for months

Literally how?

The thing is, renjun and jaemin caught chenle spilling compliments about you as he was complaining about you one time

“YOU LIKE THEM!!!”

“NO I DON’T, WHY WOULD I?”

“DON’T LIE.”

Then chenle would spill how much he hates you

But they know he had a crush on you

They can feel the regret from him every time he complains to them

Soon you had a project to do, and you must be working with a partner

Literally everyone else was taken but chenle

YOU CAN’T BELIEVE RENJUN BETRAYED YOU FOR JAEMIN

You two needed to pick a topic but you guys ended up spending two days trying to pick one

Apparently you guys can’t agree on a topic

“How about music?” your teacher suggested

You both ended up being silent as you both were about to argue again

“You know you guys just can’t keep arguing.” your teacher sighed

You just stood there while chenle crossed his arms and looked away

“Why can’t we work alone?” you asked

“Well….” your teacher knew you work better alone, but i guess she wanted you to get used to working with other people

“Is it so Chenle gets an actual grade?”

“Hey, at least i’m passing!” he protested.

“Chenle, you may be passing, but your test scores is quite something…. Failing this project can result in you failing this class….”

“Ms—“

“Chenle, I’m trying to help you pass.”

You rubbed your neck while the conversation was going on

Even though you kept a straight face, you wanted to laugh

After the whole conversation with your teacher, you guys ended up doing music

Just the different types of music is what the assignment is

Honestly you thought someone took the topic, but people might actually want to do something new

Music isn’t something new to the both of you, but at least it makes things easier

Well you hope

Now you guys need to find the time to get together and actually talk about it

Except you guys ended up being silent

Heck you guys didn’t even bother to exchange phone numbers

Luckily your teacher lets you work on it in class

Everyone sat next to their partner and working together

Then there’s you and chenle, working independently

Well, it looks like it’s just you who’s working on it

Your teacher was about to scold chenle for not working

But to everyone’s surprise, he was actually working

It’s almost like you two use telepathic powers to split the work

Unless you two ACTUALLY talked about it

Yeah right

It looked like he actually started the day before

But you eventually got the same amount of work done in a span of 45 minutes

Your teacher walks up to you and crouches down by your desk

“Y/N, I think you should talk to Chenle, especially about the project.”

You looked at her as if she’s insane, and she gives you a look, causing you to sigh

When she walked away, you looked where Chenle was sitting and finding out he fell asleep while working

Guess he wasn’t used to working this much

You were actually debating, but eventually you left a sticky note on his desk

When he woke up, he saw the sticky note

Here’s my number, and it’s only for the project, got it?

Honestly, who knows if he’s gonna text you

Later today, you got a text

Is this Y/N?

Oh, he actually did

Yeah, so this is chenle?

Yep!

He seems happy to text you

Why?

It’s just for the project

Is there you want to talk about the project?

Probably something you both don’t want to think about, but you had to

You were expecting a quick reply from him, since he was replying fast earlier

But he left you hanging

Oh well, you weren’t mad

A couple hours later, you were working on the project, looking through the information you found

Your phone vibrated on your desk

Of course it’s Chenle texting you back

Do you want to hang out at a cafe sometime? So we can actually talk about what we found and how we’re going to put it together.

For once, he’s not wrong

Sure, I’m pretty much free everyday, so you can pick the day.

Is tomorrow fine? Since it’s the weekend and all.

Already? I thought it was thursday.

Well you thought wrong.

You were going to smile at his words, but your thoughts on how annoying and loud he is stopped it

You looked at his recent text

So tomorrow then?

Yeah.

Now you just hope no one from school sees you

Alright! I’ll see you at the school doors then?

I guess, yeah.

And that was that.

Skipping the night, it was time to actually meet him

you just wore casual yet cute

it was a nice day, so you wore a dress, carrying a bag with all the work in it

hair up in a ponytail so it wouldn’t get in your face while you work

when you saw him, he was wearing shorts, with a vest and short sleeves, and a brown beret

and of course, a laptop case

you covered your mouth and chenle pouted

“Now is not the time to make fun of me!”

“sorry, you look like a five year old.”

“Do not!”

“then someone has looked at the mirror.”

you two could go on for hours on your argument, but you both know that’s not what you’re here to do

“come on! the faster we finish, the earlier we get to go home!”

he started to drag you

“You’re the one that wanted to work at the cafe!”

“because it’s better than waiting for a text!”

again, he’s not wrong

you guys finally reached the cafe, and lucky it wasn’t packed

you both entered and picked your seats, getting your things out

you ended up sitting in silence for the past 10 minutes

you looked over your work while he played with his thumbs

out of the blue, he got up

“do you want anything to drink?”

you paused at his sudden request

“ice tea, please.”

with that, he went to order, and while you waited, you looked at your papers

it looks like you didn’t do much, but your handwriting is just small

chenle returned with two drinks, turns out that he got juice

he caught your gaze as you looked at his juice

“i can't stand coffee, it’s so bitter.” he clarified

“lattes exists you know.” you say as you drink your tea 

“then why didn’t you get coffee then?”

“because i hate the taste of coffee in general.”

now you know that you two have something in common

he pulled out his laptop, logged on and showed you the progress he made

you looked back and forth at his screen and your paper, crossing out any information you wrote that he already added

while you were doing that, he just stared at you, as if he was realizing how beautiful you are

until the door to the cafe opened and someone familiar showed up in his vision

you didn’t bother to see where he’s looking

“Hey, it’s Y/N and Chenle!” said a familiar voice

yep, that took your eyes off the screen and paper and shifted to whoever talked

it was renjun and jaemin, how nice

it seems like they were going to work on their project here too

“How are you two doing?” renjun asked

“i don’t want to hear from a betrayer.” you said and went back to work

“ouch.”

Chenle was going to complain to jaemin, but seeing you focused stopped him

for once, he was trying to be quiet and let you work

that surprised jaemin and renjun

“come on, jaemin, let’s start working.”

jaemin pouted, he obviously doesn’t want to work

skipping to a couple hours later

chenle fell asleep again after all the working

you sighed and drank the rest of your tea and went to throw away the cup

as well as chenle’s empty bottle of juice

you guys were close to being done, and you guys could be done by now, but you didn’t want to finish too early

you went back to your seat just sat there in silence, while jaemin and renjun are still talking about their project

honestly, what do you do with a sleeping chenle?

instead of waking him up, you waiting for him to wake up on his own

you scrolled through your phone

you found yourself looking at the conversation you and chenle had

it was short and simple

though you didn’t think much about it, because things were gonna go back to the way they are after this project

you took off his beret, so he doesn’t have to wake up to his hat falling off

checking the time, you guess that you’ve been here for four hours

and you two have been surprisingly productive

you didn’t argue at all, which is a record

even though you were so close to

when you realize the cafe closes pretty early today, you had to wake him up

“wake up, the cafe is going to close soon.” you said in the most soothing voice

even renjun was surprised at the tone of your voice

chenle slowly sat up properly and tried to be awake

when you guys put your stuff away and got ready to leave, he basically clung onto you

that caught you off guard because you never really experienced this

but hey, the boy’s tired

at this point, you figured out about renjun and jaemin

it’s ok, you’ll kill him on monday

now back to clingy tired chenle

he didn’t want to let you go

but you also didn’t know where he lives

and vise versa

what are you going to do with this boy?

by the time you got to the school gates, he let go

now he’s wide awake and energetic

“I can't believe we were so productive today! we should do this again on sunday!”

now he’s acting like he never hated you before

“if you don’t sleep on me again, maybe.”

“hey, this time i didn’t sleep that much last nig—“ he instantly covered his mouth

you shoot him a look

“How much sleep did you get?”

“Like an hour… ow!”

you flicked his forehead, even though it wasn’t even that hard

“you’re taking this project too seriously.”

“i need to pass!”

“health comes before passing, you idiot!”

the fact that he’s putting passing over his sleep is not right

even if you hate him, you know that is something to worry about for a fact

you cross your arms

“if you get enough sleep tonight, then we’ll do this again on sunday, but you can’t lie to me.”

“alright, alright.”

“Now, see you sunday, maybe.”

and you guys part your ways

Now Sunday came by and you met him at the same spot

But you don’t see him anywhere?

Then you see a small figure running towards you

“Sorry, I overslept.”

Well honestly, he didn’t look like he was running late

“It’s fine, I didn’t wait that long.”

Really, he said to meet you half an hour ago but you kinda figured he would be running late, so might as well be late too

“At least fix your bed head.” you said as you brush his hair

He got embarrassed and covered his head

“Now let’s go! I promise I won’t sleep this time!”

“You better.”

Now, this time you guys actually finished your project

Luckily, it wasn’t a project you have to present, because that would take too much time

And too much arguing

You guys had time to spare, and you spent some of that time sitting in silence

Then you feel someone sliding into the same seat as you

“Renjun-hyung!”

Well chenle seems surprised about his appearance

“I came to see how you guys were doing!”

He seems happy, but you feel like something fishy is going on

Also chenle seems like he stopped hating on you

At this point, he’s treating you as if you’re his friend, but it’s one of those where he hardly interacts with, only in classes you guys have together

Sooner or later, you started to feel the same

Though, you’re still going to kill Renjun and Jaemin for setting you two up

#zhong chenle #nct scenarios #nct imagines #nct dream #nct #c; mine #c; Bullet #c; general au #c; chenle

[girlsinthestars]

Tagged by the ever lovely @inkwillstain, also I’m gonna chuck a keep reading in bc this got pretty long

Would you rather have your favourite character all to yourself or as much money as you want?

First off I would have to work out which character is my one favourite character which is a struggle, but, ok, Jadzia was the first to pop into my head so lets just go with her for arguments sake. In which case I would love to have her ‘all to myself’ (???) I feel like she would really challenge me and help me be more confident and comfortable in myself. So my answer would probably be favourite character over money, because I honestly have no idea what to do with money other than buy more books I probably won’t read.

Do you want the ability to eat anything without the food affecting your body or not getting hungry ever/not needing food?

100% eat anything, I eat when I’m bored just like impulsively I want to eat so it’d be great if that didn’t harm my body in the process.

If you could speak any of the fictional languages, what would it be?

…I just have always wanted to speak Tolkien Elvish like literally since I read lord of the rings as a kid.

You favourite outfit ideas.

This is a very vague question, in fact it’s not even a question, but look, at any given moment you can garuntee I wish I was wearing a full cape.

Do you have any pets?

Yes, two adorable cats called McGonagall and Crookshanks.

Do you like makeup?

I like the way it makes my face look but I hate the way it feels on my face and how much effort it takes to put on and get off.

What’s the last movie you watched?

Probably bits and pieces of Pacific Rim, but the last whole movie I watched was Tomb Raider

Describe your current hairstyle.

A curly bob

What makes you go crazy and into full-blown fangirl mode?

I don’t really know? But the last time it happened was when the Panto/Silas clip came out last October

What do you love about yourself the most?

This is not something I think about but I guess I’m pretty proud of my hair sometimes

Do you believe in luck/fate?

I guess I would say I like to believe that everything happens for a reason, that theres some bigger picture. I just feel like in a world full of tragedy you need to believe that bad things happen for a reason, that somehow everything will fall into place, despite everything. So yeah I guess in a way I believe in fate.

What are you currently reading?

A Darker Shade of Magic, which is a really good book, but if I’m being honest the only books I can read without forcing it these days is Patrick Ness books.

What is your favourite way to spend the weekend?

Honestly just watching netflix, but I usually go see my grandma with my dad which is fun.

One book you can read over and over again?

Well the books I’ve reread most are Harry Potter but there are very few books I have the energy to reread now so actually at the moment probably The Marvels by Brian Selznick, the fact that it’s half pictures really helps and also it’s just generally a really moving story.

Favourite poem?

Ngl I’m not a big poetry fan, but we did poetry in literature last term and I actually really loved the poems I did, Valkyriur Song and The Last Song of Sappho both by Felicia Hemans

What was the best thing that happened to you today?

Like nothing happened to me today, but yesterday I hung out with my old best friend who I haven’t seen in like a year so that was really nice so I’m just gonna say that counts.

When is your birthday? 26th October

Which country do you live in?

Australia

Do you like listening to music? What’s your favourite song?

I love listening to music, and at the moment probably Rainbow by Kesha

Best memory of you as a child?

Well I have the worst memory, but honestly probably all the weird stuff me and my childhood best friend did together, she was the best, one time we spent a whole afternoon setting up a spy mystery before we remembered we actually didn’t really have anyone to do it.

How would you describe yourself in 5 words?

I hate these types of things I don’t know what my personality is god. Ok. Um. Tired, kind, nerdy, trying, and confused

Top 5 favourite characters (need not be from the same fandom)?

Damn ok umm I’m gonna be honest these aren’t in order 

Jadzia Dax 

Geordi Laforge

Kira Nerys 

Tina Tevetino (this is more about the fact that she was the first character I’d ever seen say out loud that she was bi and I cried a lot about it)

Farah Black

No look I just need to add more I love so many characters so 5 honorable mentions:

Julian Bashir

Data

Inej Ghafa

Enjolras

Nymphadora Tonks

Ok I tag anyone who wants to do this bc I suck at tagging people and I’m always worried I’ll annoy my mutuals

#get to know me #??? idk how to tag this #shut up cc #gtkm

[beer-and-breakdowns]

do all 150 !! :)

Thanks for this Anon, I needed something to do, lmaoo

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

My ex, which was a LOOONG time ago, lol

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

I’d say I’m a bit of both really, if I get to know you, I’d say I’m super outgoing but with new people I tend to be a little shy, unless the person I’m meeting has a lot in common with me personality wise and interest wise.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Well, I think I’m going out with one of my best friends tonight so her I guess!:)  (But the way I interpret this question, I’m also very excited to see a bunch of bands in the coming year, BFMV, Parkway, Currents, Slayer, Wage War, it’s looking good B))

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I’d say so! :)

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Yeah, I think so, she’s super kind-hearted.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

People with common ground with me.  Metalheads, laid-back people, fans of the same shit as me, etc.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Hahahahahahahanope.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

My mum bc my parents get back from a holiday today!  But also, that one person thats pretty much always on my mind, lol, rip meeee

No, lol

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

One of mutuals!:)

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

Directions of where to find me for someone picking me up from work, lmaoo, HOW EXCITING

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

NOT THIS QUESTION D:  This is gonna be hard, and I can almost guarantee it wont be the same when you read this, lol.

Architects - Downfall, Polaris - Lucid, Currents - Forget Me, Architects - Doomsday, Currents - Life//Lost

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yeah, kinda lol

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I believe in luck, I think!  Not miracles tho, rip

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Well, it’s not over yet, but DOWNLOAD 2018 YEEEET!!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Yeah, why not

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

For sure!  I love believing all that crazy shit, its fun, and also very plausible!

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

Nah, lol

19. Do you like bubble baths?

I like baths, but haven’t had a proper bubble bath in years (NO, I’m not a smelly bitch that doesn’t wash, I shower everyday)

20. Do you like your neighbors?

I dont know them super well bc I moved house a couple of years ago but from what I can tell yeah, they’re really nice!

21. What are you bad habits?

Nail biting, mostly.  I’m shit with money too if that counts, lol

22. Where would you like to travel?

LITERALLY EVERYWHERE OMG.  But a US road trip is on my bucket list!

23. Do you have trust issues?

Nope

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Probably my nightly music/tumblr session.  It’s so relaxing and my music taste is the fuckin’ bomb.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Probably my legs tbh, rip

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Scroll social media whilst my PC loads, lol

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Neither, but if I HAD to choose, darker

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My closest friends

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Nah, I don’t recall that anyway, rip

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Definitely!  Just, not for a little while

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Nope, wish it was tho (not for the pony tail, just want long hair, lol)

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Alexis Kaufman aaaaaaaaand Emily Kinney, maybe?

33. Spell your name with your chin.

oi9wen, went better than I thought, lol

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

HA no

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV 10000000000000%

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Yup

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Nothing really, lmaoo!  I do try to start a new conversation if I’m not feeling too awkward tho!

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Ummm, I know them irl, lol.  Cute as hell, blonde, blue eyes, funny, kind as fuck, an all-round sweetheart with the looks to match.  

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

HMV, lol

40. What do you want to do after high school?

I WANNA PLAY MUSIC FOR A LIVING but that shits hard so idk bc nothing else interest me the way music does:(  Maybe something with psychology and killers.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Yes, 100%.  I fully believe rehabilitation and reformation can work for everyone with the right tools.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I’m either super tired or feeling sorry for myself, lmaoo

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Yup, most of the time!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Space, even tho I’m scared of heights so getting in the rocket would be an ISSUE.  But the ocean is fuckin’ spooky man, I ain’t goin’ down there :o

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Being awake, lmaoo.  I sleep for more hours than I should but I’m not one for staying in bed and once I’m up, I’m up.

46. What are you paranoid about?

Not having a stable life after Uni tbh, the real world terrifies me, lol help.  But also, and probably moreso never making any progress with my music and hopeful music career.

47. Have you ever been high?

Nope

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Yeeeeeee

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Nah

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Black, probably, I dont normally wear hoodies tbh :o

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Originally, I was gonna say no, but then I remembered someone that I’ll forever be jealous of, so yes

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My legs probably hahaha

53. Favourite makeup brand?

What’s makeup?

54. Favourite store?

HMV, again, lol

55. Favourite blog?

Probably either @lovelyfoxes, @meowsonmeows, @emilyharrisxvii and @strawberry-sarcasm

56. Favourite colour?

Black (Dont go telling me that shits a shade and not a colour bc I’ll still say black.)

57. Favourite food? 

INDIAN FOOD PLS

58. Last thing you ate?

Katsu chicken

59. First thing you ate this morning?

^^^ Katsu chicken (I woke up late, okay)

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Nah, not that I can remember lol

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

Nope

62. Been arrested? For what?

7328916312 times.  Being annoying :): :))::)::) (No)

63. Ever been in love?

Yup, rip

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Idk, I kissed a girl.  Sorry it was super long ago and I didn’t think much of it at the time, it sorta just happened, lol

65. Are you hungry right now?

Nah, I’m FULL boii

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

No, but some of my tumblr frands are my irl friends

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter 1000000%

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr 1000000000000%

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Nope, havent in a while tbh

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

Emily, Zac, Laura, Leo, Ethan

71. Craving something? What?

Attention.  Of a specific person.  YES PLS.

72. What colour are your towels?

White, black and grey.

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Twooo

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

Nope

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

7328131691

75. Favourite animal?

FOXES.  Or wolves.  Unless Dinosaurs count.

76. What colour is your underwear?

Grey

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla, man

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Salted Caramel

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Black, lol

80. What colour pants?

V dark blue

81. Favourite tv show?

Atm, probablyyyyy The Walking Dead, Ray Donovan and WWE, lmaoo

82. Favourite movie?

The Domestics just recently took the spot over Pulp Fiction.  WATCH IT.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Only seen the first one, lel

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

21 Jump Street

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

Me

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Me (Prolly the turtle)

87. First person you talked to today?

My friend Leo

88. Last person you talked to today?

Who knows, probably my friend Emily

89. Name a person you hate?

Most modern “musicians”

90. Name a person you love?

Alexis Kaufman

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Nope :)

92. In a fight with someone?

Nah, ya boii is mostly pacifist, I wont start shit

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

Like, 1 pair, lol

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Prolly like 5 or 6?

95. Last movie you watched?

Looper

96. Favourite actress?

Hard to think atm, so probably off the top of my head Emily Blunt.

97. Favourite actor?

Mark Wahlberg or Johnny Depp

98. Do you tan a lot?

Hahahah, thats a massive nope

99. Have any pets?

I used to have a lil cat dude, but nah, not anymore

100. How are you feeling?

I’m goooood :)

101. Do you type fast?

Yeah, lmao

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Yeah, lol

103. Can you spell well?

Yeah, mostly, I stumble when typing sometimes, but I can correct myself quickly and its usually just a mis-click

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yeah, kinda

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Nope

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Probably, tbh

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Nah

108. What should you be doing?

Showering, oops

109. Is something irritating you right now?

Nah, not really! :)

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Yes yes and YES

111. Do you have trust issues?

Nope

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Honestly I think it was my friend Emily, lol (U remember if ur reading this, Sax is never a good idea)

113. What was your childhood nickname?

I didn’t really have one :o

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Yup, been to a few different countries

115. Do you play the Wii?

Used to, lol

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Yeah boiiiiii B)

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

It’s pretty good!

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Ummmm yes

119. Favourite book?

Sorry internet, I’m not a massive reader 3  I don’t really have one :(

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Nah, used to be as a kid tho

121. Are you mean?

Nah, man

122. Is cheating ever okay?

No.  There’s probably a very VERY specific scenario brought on by many other specific actions within a relationship where it might, MAYBE, slightly be the smallest bit justified, but I don’t know what that would be off the top of my head and no one should break someone’s trust like that.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Nah, my shoes get dirty no matter where I go, lol

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Yup

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yeah

126. Are you currently bored?

Nah, I love tumblr asks, dude

127. What makes you happy?

Music, friends and escapsim

128. Would you change your name?

Nah, I’ve come to terms with it now

129. What your zodiac sign?

Libra

130. Do you like subway?

Of course B)

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

I’d prolly see how it goes! :)  I certainly wouldn’t complain!

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

One of my mutuals!

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

“No matter what it is we've facedIt's now part of usWe can overcome” - As I Lay Dying - Overcome

134. Can you count to one million?

I think? hahahah

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I had every single PS2 game ever created... kids, eh?

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed 1000000%

137. How tall are you?

about 5′11″

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Straight hair on me, doesn’t make a difference on others B)

139. Brunette or Blonde?

Blonde (but Brunette is gorgeous too)

140. Summer or Winter?

Summer (But Christmas time is GREAT)

141. Night or Day?

Night, mostly!

142. Favourite month?

October, maybe?  Either than or July, idk

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nope

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Dark B)

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee

146. Was today a good day?

So far, yeah! :)

147. Mars or Snickers?

Mars 100000000%

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“The best thing you can do is follow your dreams“ - James Owen Sullivan (The Rev)

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

Yup, 100%!

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

There isn’t one! :(

THANKS ANON!

[threemoonsareshining]

i read through all the 'get to know me uncomfortably well' questions and honestly i couldn't pick because i'd love your answers to any of them so idk just answer the ones you feel like answering? is that allowed in these ask games? idk i'm making it allowed (also have a great day!) xx

Hi!!!!!! Oh my god you’re blessing my night with this message because let’s say... I haven't had the best day today, and I’m sure that’s allowed in these ask things, i mean are there even rules? I do’t know how many i’ll be able to answer but I’m going all in so let’s go

2. How old are you? 19 such an ugly age let me tell you

4. What is your zodiac sign? taurus and i’m not really into astrology and stuff so i don’t know if i can relate to my sign or not

5. What is your favorite color? i really like earthy tones, and i’ve always loved dark colors but i’m trying to broaden my horizons in terms of colors, unsuccessfully this far

6. What's your lucky number? i’m not sure if it brings me luck but i’ve always loved the number 5, maybe bc it’s my birthday, i think it’s really nice overall

7. Do you have any pets? yes!! i have 2 cats, i love them so much even though they’re not the friendliest cats in the world you know. I used to have fish but they kept dying not matter how hard i tried! It makes me a little sad but in the end it was just too much work and if i wasn’t able to take care of them properly i’d rather have no fish honestly

8. Where are you from? i don’t like to say these things but i think it’s pretty obvious if you pay a little attention to what i post every once in a while

9. How tall are you?i’m 1.64 or so, which is like… 5.3-5.4??? I’d like to be a little taller tho

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? I don’t own many, this year i bought some winter shoes but i just realised all my summer ones are either a little too used or i just don’t like their style anymore so yeah i should do some shopping (if only i had time to do that hah!)

12. What was your last dream about? i don’t remember very well but i think i saw my economics teacher riding a bike with no pants after i’d been fined by the police for having a water balloon war in the middle of the street, I wasn’t happy about that. I’ve had many dreams i was able to remember these last days, but they were more like nightmares i’d say, many of them about being kidnaped, other studies-related (i failed my math test again, i had to retake my college-access test… just terrible), and other were with people i actually know, which wasn’t the best thing ever honestly

15. Favorite song? Plant life by owl city, i’m going to paste the answer i wrote to explain why it’s my favorite (Plant Life by Owl City, that song just describes my soul at a spiritual level, like I could choose 1564 other songs by Owl City that describe me as well but this one is the one that I can relate to when i’m going through the worst times, but also gives me the hope that things will get better idk. And it’s funny because I still loved it before I had the level of English to understand the lyrics, and then I found out what they meant and i was like “woah this actually speaks to me in a way i can’t explain” it was a really weird feeling idk, that song is just me)

16. Favorite movie? billy elliot, actually it’s been a really long time since i last saw it. I remember i watched it like 7 times in a row in one week when i first saw it, i just loved it so much

17. Who would be your ideal partner? Just… someone that i’m 100% comfortable with, which should be a given, but apparently that isn’t that easy to find. Idk i’ve been thinking a lot about this lately basically because some of my coming decisions are going to be based on who i want as a partner, obviously not in a serious-for-life way, but in a way that i deserve right now. I’d like to have someone that doesn’t make me feel inadequate like almost everyone does, that doesn’t make me feel like a temporary asset in their life until they get want they want for me and just don’t care anymore. I don’t know, recent experiences have made me realise I need to figure out what I want and fight for it, not settle for someone just because it’s convenient, or because i don’t want to be alone... because in the end, if someone is making you feel like shit for being who you are and it’s acting like you are not important, even though they’re willing to be with you (even if it’s just for the physical part) that clearly makes you feel even more lonely

18. Do you want children? I’d say my #1 fear in life is getting accidentally pregnant (i know that shouldn’t worry me that much if i use protection and stuff), i meant a good reason i’m so wary of having sex is because i’d go crazy just considering the possibility that the condom failed or something. I think this answers the question, i really don’t want children, idk if i’d be able to take care of a kid, and above all, i don’t want to. Every time i see a kid in the street or in the public transport i pray he/she doesn’t interact with me because i just find it so so so difficult to be nice to them, basically because i don’t know how . Then i also look at their parents, their tired look, and don’t get me wrong, I’m sure they love their kids and all but I don’t think everyone can find happiness in having kids, and I don’t think I’m one of those people that won’t feel complete until they have kids or stuff. Furthermore, I’m not willing to sacrifice my body and to suffer the pain of giving birth, that doesn’t even cross my mind. So if I consider the possibility in the future i think I’d adopt.

20. Are you religious? I already answered this so I’ll just paste it I’m sorry this is so lazy (i was raised catholic and as a child i was really really devote, i truly believed in god. But you know, as years go by, then you find out you don’t agree with a lot of things the Church preaches (being in a catholic school doesn’t help, i will never forget the day i heard a priest telling literal 7-year-old girls that their only duty in life was to have children). My environment was really really conservative and I was lucky to somehow realise how fucking wrong some of the stuff they were teaching us was, sadly, i still see a lot of kids in my school being brainwashed… it’s crazy to see the way some families think. Anyways, that contributed to me getting distanced from everything religious-related. Now i could say i’m somewhere between agnostic and non-practicing. I still pray every once in a while but i’m not sure if i truly believe it or it’s just out of custom, i just feel too hopeless and detached from everything to believe there’s something greater than us… this question is too hard!)

24. Baths or showers? I used to hate taking showers just because I didn’t have the strength to go through all the process of taking a shower but I’ve been trying to fix this mainly because 1) Personal Hygiene and stuff 2) Even though i don’t have the willpower to do it, i always try to think about how nice it feels to be clean after a shower, or how relaxed you are (even if it’s for a short period of time) after taking a bath. So yeah I don’t like either of them but they’re obviously necessary

26. Have you ever been famous? I haven’t been famous but I’ve been mistaken for a famous people more than once. The first time i was very young and a man asked me if i was that girl (idk who) that was on tv and I said no, and the other was more recent, last year, when someone mistook me for a youtuber

28. What type of music do you like? I love instrumental music, specially orchestral but i also adore celtic themes. And i hate to admit it but i love electro pop, the owl city - type, even though many people (aka my dad) may think it’s not the Best Quality, but i mean who cares at least I enjoy it

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? I’m a mess so most of the time I have a coffee so I don’t die of tiredness throughout the day and if i have time i eat some fruit and cookies, not a lot honestly, which isn’t the most healthy thing to do but hey idc

34. Have you ever fired a gun? No. I really, really hate guns.

37. Favorite swear word? I never swear in public, just when I’m alone, I don’t think I can choose any word!

38. What's the longest you've ever gone without sleep? Maybe 24 hours, the thing is that i sleep very, very little, but i always end up sleeping anyway

41. Are you a good liar? Even when I’m actually telling the truth there are people who don’t believe me so yeah hah not really

42. Are you a good judge of character? i’m really good at getting the vibes of people, sometimes i think i’m just overreading everything but a high percentage of the time i end up being right, so yeah not only regarding people but also with other aspects of my life… i like to trust my gut. However, i don’t always say it bc i’m afraid i might be wrong, but when my suspicions are proven, I’m like yeah i was right how weird hahahahhhhhhhhh, i amaze myself in this aspect honestly

46. What is your personality type? i think i’m intj, but i remember retaking the test a few months later and getting another result but yeah i can relate to the architect type, introvert, cautelous, focused on analysing rather than acting blah blah all that stuff (i love this stuff)

49. Are you an innie or an outie? Innie 4 life, because I’ve tried to force myself to be more outie and let me tell you that didn’t go well

50. Left or right handed? left!!!

51. Are you scared of spiders? I’m really scared of them but i also cry every time i kill one bc i feel sorry for her (but it’s either my life or hers i’m sorry) although most of the time when i see i spider i face my fear and i put in in a box or something to release it outside

52. Favorite food? i’d eat ice cream every day of my life for every meal all the time just give me all the ice cream

58. Do you have much of an ego? My ego is so tiny sometimes i forget it exists and let people step on it like it’s nothing

61. Do you sing to yourself? I perform to myself, i love singing alone in my room. I used to care about my neighbour hearing me but you only live once right

62. Are you a good singer? i wouldn't say i’m a bad singer, nor a good one bc the problem is that my voice is not very strong, so it’s very hard to hear me. But yeah, i’ve been complimented for my singing in some occasions, and i really enjoy doing it on my own (i still don’y know how i was able to sing in public the only time i have done it)

63. Biggest Fear? that i’ll keep missing stuff due to my anxiety, oh that and having unwanted kids obviously

64. Are you a gossip? it’s always interesting to hear stuff and be aware of what happens around you but i‘ve always said that things would be better if everyone just… minded their own business a little bit more, you can’t get mad at someone if they don’t want to tell you something, it’s their life and they don’t owe you all the explanations after all

66. Do you like long or short hair? i have really long hair and i’d love it if it wasn’t so so so hard to maintain… i’m pretty tired of it honestly and i know i said i’d be cutting and donating it this year but… it’s such a part of my identity (which is so silly but it’s true, i’m introduced to some people as “the girl with really long hair”) and… i don’t know i think i’ve enough changes this year, so i’ll keep it for a little longer

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? i’m so scared of the sea i think i’d die

71. What makes you nervous? sadly, even the most insignificant stuff makes me nervous, and apparently, ignoring them doesn’t mae them disapear! so yeah i’m basically suffering at all times due to stupid stuff, i’ve just learned to ignore it enough so it doesn’t interfere with the rest of my life (most of the time it works but it’s mentally draining now that i think about it)

77. Have you ever drank underage? I’m one of those people that can say that never drank alcohol until it was legal for me to do it, I didn’t do it even when my mom offered me something at family gatherings… yeah i think that’s the reason i drink so much now

80. How many piercings do you have? I don’t like piercings for myself (i obviously don’t have a problem with other people having them) but i just think it’s an unnecessary way of mutilating yourself (i hate needles)

86. What are you allergic to? Ironically, I’m allergic to cats, even though i have 2. It comes and goes, and it’s not serious, i sneeze a lot, my eyes itch a little sometimes, but i’m willing to pay that price for my cats honestly

87. Do you keep a journal? I do, but it’s been months since i last wrote mainly because i always feel like shit after writing, so now i can’t bring myself to do it, that’s why i post so much about my personal life in here, because i’m not able to journal but i also don’t want to forget about what happens in my life

90. What makes you angry? Anger is a weird concept for me. I get angry very often, but I’m angry in general, not at anyone in particular, I just find myself unable to get mad at someone, the anger instantaneously turns into sadness, so I don’t know what’s worse. If I’m being mean to someone (most of the time my parents are the victims) it’s not because of them, I’m just angry for no reason and I just can’t keep being nice.

Hey congratualtions if you made it till the end, i was really bored so i answered a lot. Thanks for the message again 🐱🐱🐱🌳🌳🌳

#ask #mutuals #suspended-in-gaffa #long post #i'm so sorry these are all over the place #but ot was nice

[bangtan-spells]

Namjoon Scenario: Opposites.

Request: Namjoon fluff where you bring good luck and Namjoon brings bad luck (bc of his clumsiness) and you both are tired of it so when you two meet everything balances out.            

Genre: Fluff / Romance

The world was a harsh place for those who weren’t on good terms with luck, oh if Namjoon knew. He was a loner by choice, because not many people wanted to be around someone who attracted accidents and misfortune with only showing up and breathing, his only companion had been the bad luck weighing on his shoulders, floating around his form like a dark cloud while he went tripping and crashing on almost everything he could do so.

Namjoon tried his best to be attentive, to not let his clumsiness take everything around him down, but it was as if he carried a curse of sorts. He remembered complaining about his bad luck out loud when he was younger and his mother was around, she had laughed softly and told him that he could make something out of it, to make that bad his and turn it into a good thing and in all the years that followed, Namjoon was still trying to do what she’d told him, trying to find his strength in every broken cell phone and lost shoe.

That particular morning he was feeling hopeless and annoyed, there hadn’t been any rain announcement but there he was, drenched from head to toe because he went out and the clouds decided to play a joke on him, he’d lost the bus to his seven am class so he was also going to miss a test that was going to cost him twenty percent of his final grade if he was lucky, and he was never. Namjoon sighed, squeezing a corner of his shirt while he was almost at the bus stop, only to have a car driving fast by a rain puddle and getting him even more wet.

–Fuck this shit! – he groaned at the same moment you were arriving to the bus stop. He noticed your presence because you laughed at his outburst and then you were taking a small towel out of your gym bag and handing it to him.

–Here, seems like you need it–

Namjoon stared dumbfounded at the towel and then at you smiling prettily, yes, he needed it and for the first day of his life, he didn’t feel so stuck on his bad luck.

He laughed, taking the little towel you were so kindly offering him. –Thank you –

You laughed softly and dismissed the gesture with your hand. –You’re welcome, I always carry a spare one so you’re lucky–

Namjoon dried his face and shook his head at your choice of words. –I doubt so, that’s a funny way to describe me–

–Oh so you’re skeptical? There are people who would kill to say they’re lucky– you were smiling playfully at him and Namjoon looked down at his wet sneakers stopping himself from staring too long at you.

–It’s hard to explain…– he trailed off awkwardly, talking about all his misfortune didn’t seem like the type of proper ice breaking conversation.

You went to sit at the low bench of the bus stop and once there, you shrugged softly. –It’s alright, being lucky isn’t that good anyway –

–What? – he couldn’t believe your words, he’d give it all to be lucky.

You laughed but it was a sort of sad laugh. –I don’t know, everything turning out good every single time isn’t that good per se, when everything is perfect and good it can get tiring too–

You were the only two at that stop and the silence came, he didn’t know what to say to that since he’d never experienced a life like that, so he looked to his side and he noticed a crumpled ball of bills next to him, when Namjoon unfolded it, the quantity made him gasp. It only occurred to him then that the spare cash he carried on his pockets for transportation and a hopefully decent coffee that the wished didn’t end all over his clothes and burning him, was most probably as wet as his jeans, so this money came in handy.

You giggled next to him, observing the way in which Namjoon looked stupidly at the bills and he felt flustered suddenly, something was definitely weird today, he wasn’t one to go around finding help, let alone money, if so, he was the one always losing it all.

–Still thinking the same? I can recognize luck when I see it – You laughed airily, playing with the tip of your ponytail.

–I have no words – he truly didn’t have them, it was a mix of the events and you, you shared a look that had you both laughing softly and averting your eyes from each other after a moment.

–That’s my bus – you stood up with a shy smile, taking your iPod out of your bag and putting on your earphones before going away with a last look at him.

Namjoon managed to hear the slightest bit of your music, recognizing the same song he’d been jamming to for the past two weeks, so he smiled stupidly at nothing; perhaps at everything of that morning.

After his encounter with you, Namjoon found a forgotten umbrella at the bus, arrived at his next classes on time and managed to convince his professor about recovering the lost score of his test with some extracurricular work, he didn’t slip on the rain while rushing through campus neither did he break anything the rest of the day, so even now, while he was already lying on his bed and a few minutes away from falling asleep Namjoon couldn’t believe his day, not quite.

Maybe he’d gotten too excited with the glimpse of normalcy on his life, two days after that Namjoon’s usual bad luck came back full force. He sighed, looking at the torn strap of his back pack and his reading glasses broken at his feet.

–Fantastic – he mumbled, crouching down to pick up his broken glasses when a guy with a skateboard crashed against him.

Namjoon got away with a few awkward apologies and a sore shoulder, decided to go home and call it day even if it was roughly midday, until he saw you. He didn’t expect you to recognize him, let alone remember him, but you did.

–Hi – you eyed him up and laughed softly. –You look a lot drier today –

–Yeah, I guess, it’s the sun, good to dry people out – Namjoon rambled, and then laughed at his own lame attempt of a joke but you laughed along and hey, maybe he wasn’t doing it all that bad.

–But you still look troubled – the same little frown you had seen on his face the day you found him at the bus stop was there. –Or is this your normal expression? –

He shook his head. –Nah, it’s just… it’s been a long rough day –

You decided not to mention the fact it was only midday. –You have a lot of those? –

–You have no idea – he said with a tired voice but a little smile and it made you bite your lips, he looked good smiling even if tiny.

You laughed together at his words, he seemed like a funny guy, despite always looking so troubled and all over the place, you didn’t know what a bad day was like for your own experience, people always said how you were so lucky for things always working alright for you but you had started to hate it, there was nothing thrilling in knowing everything was going to always be good, whatever you did to ruin it and taste your so called good luck. Maybe that’s why you felt this imperious need of talking with him, like you were drawn to him or something, like you wanted to know him more. You suddenly found yourself also wanting to ease out his day too.

–Can I know your name? – he seemed surprised by your question and you wondered if you were too bold, but then he smiled, his cheeks dimpling cutely and reaffirming what you thought about him smiling.

–Namjoon, I’m Namjoon –

–Nice to meet you, I’m Y/N – You weren’t usually so blunt at introducing yourself, so before you deepened in why you were acting the way you were doing with this particular guy, you made your next question. –So Namjoon, do you have something to do right now? – His name on your lips felt easy, warm.

–Not really, why? –

You smiled –I’ll show you a solution for bad days – In your experience, a cup of high quality coffee and butter cookies could make anybody feel better, so you took Namjoon to the coffee shop you were heading to before encountering him, telling yourself it was only because you were already going there anyway but knowing it was because you wanted to talk with him some more without looking desperate to know him.

Namjoon handled his coffee with extra care, he didn’t want to make a fool of himself in front of you, more than he already did after walking straight into the glass doors of the coffee shop even if you warned him. You were too pretty and he was still astounded by you and a whole lot embarrassed too.

You talked lightly about too many things, books, college, life, movies, drinks, and he felt so at ease, so relaxed with you, nothing had shattered and you were still there, clearly interested in what he was saying. He’d never thought so much about what being lucky entailed, but he was kinda feeling like it despite everything. He almost didn’t want to leave that coffee shop to crash into whatever surprise destiny had prepared for him, but you had classes.

–I hope I could make your day a little less bad – you rested your chin on your palm and smiled at him, your lips were adorned with a deep burgundy lipstick and he couldn’t help but look at them.

–Yeah, yes you did – he rushed to say after clearing his throat, you stood up and he followed you too quickly, knocking over the little plate where the butter cookies had been but you caught it on time and placed it back on the table and at safe distance from him. Maybe you had already learned how to go around Namjoon.

–Don’t run into more glass doors Namjoon – you said softly and he smiled.

–I’ll try my best – he shrugged and you giggled, covering your lips.

–See you around then… –

–Bye– he waved at you, hoping you really saw each other again.

 You started to find each other more often, mostly at the bus stop. There were days Namjoon missed the bus to his early classes and then would catch you heading to the gym, other times, you would simply run into each other and talk. Bit by bit, he noticed how his luck didn’t seem so bad when you were around and the more time you spent together.

A few weeks ago, he’d asked you if you ever felt like the luck wasn’t on your side, and you had said no. He’d said that he would trade his life for yours and you’d laughed, shaking your head, telling him he’d get sick of it eventually and continuing reading your book, one he’d recommended to you. Maybe you were right, because lately you seemed so happy when something surprised you and didn’t turn out the way you expected it to, he was still amazed at that.

Namjoon was someone out of the ordinary, maybe you had known it deep down but only realized it after meeting him, and with him, your life seemed to start balancing out, like he was the missed piece of sorts. You laughed silly, you had seen your luck as an actually weight, but you were sure it had been the thing playing good to bring Namjoon to you, or maybe take you to him whatever way it was, you were glad because you liked him a lot. When you were together things stopping happening bad or good, they just happened normally and unexpected and it was good.

What were the odds of finding your perfect match in someone who said he had the worst luck out of everyone else? Now you actually wanted to taste the odds, to believe in the game of luck.

–What are you smiling for? – Namjoon asked by your side in his deep voice and you felt a stash of butterflies, he was holding your hand, walking you home and you were just coming back from your official second date.

–I’m thinking – you decided to tease him a bit, Namjoon was thoughtful but he was also playful and you liked that about him, he almost always had something to say, smooth, or awkward, or funny or really serious, he was a mix of all. –How did you do to take me out after meeting me all wet? –

He laughed, deep and husky and the sound was alluring, you held onto his hand a little tighter. –That’s because I’m a catch –

–More like the caught one – you had reached your house, and you turned in front of the door to look at his eyes. –If you’re like one of all the plates I’ve caught before you broke them, or the vases, or the…–

–Alright, alright, you’re the catch here –

Both of you laughed, because you compensated each other for more than one thing, because you could find solutions together and there was no good or bad luck, there were just you.

Namjoon looked at you and then he was moving forward, he wanted to kiss you so bad, but he tripped on the little echelon of the entrance and sent both of you to the ground.

–I can’t with you! – you said between laughs, propping yourself up a little to look down at him, Namjoon was spread on the ground and you finished what he started, surrounding his neck with your hands and joining your lips with his.

His lips were soft and his hands moved to your waist while you kissed, you felt too many things at once and when your parted for breath, Namjoon’s deep eyes held yours, he smirked and you felt your heart make a full on turn.

–Do you feel lucky now Namjoon? –

He laughed under his breath, his fingers squeezed softly your waist. –With you, I feel the luckiest Y/N –

Luck became a personal joke between you, but good or bad, you were sure it was what brought you together at once.

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[todokori-kun]

WELCOME BACK!

 <3 I really missed you, and it’s so great to hear you had fun! (and omg yes so ready to see all those beautiful pics)

Yaaayyyy join me in MCU feels hell. And oooh, you have a ship for the fandom now! Like, Stoki’s still my favorite Steve pairing but Stony’s really cool too…you know I ship almost everything XD (also am I the only person who sorta hated almost everyone by the end of CW? Like, of course they’re still my favs and there are still some cinnamon rolls, but, come on. Why couldn’t you all just get along ;-;)

Speaking of Illumi, do you know that Hisoka/Illumi is an incredibly popular ship in the HxH fandom? Probably because both of them are so horrible that they have like 0 friends other than each other. Nobody else wants to hang out with these losers. (Chrollo tolerates Hisoka and the adults in Illumi’s family seem to spend enough time with him to give him orders, but that’s about it.) It’s a trash ship with two trashy people and tbh I love it XD

So continuing with the eye jokes, imagine. Hisoillu version of Helpless. Hisoillu version of Satisfied.

“Look into his eyes and the sky’s the limit”

“Intelligent eyes in a hunger-pang frame”

(I know you did thise one before but still) “But when I fantasize at night, it’s Illumi’s eyes”

just, I’m imagining animatics for this with the ‘camera’ zooming in on Illumi’s dead fish eyes every time the lyrics mention them. It’s hilarious and also mildly terrifying

(though I guess if we’re actually making a Hamilton AU Hisoka’s way more likely to do something like Say No To This…)

idk if I’d want to be a parent either really LOL. Kids are adorable but I don’t think I’ll ever be responsible enough to raise one…

If Ishida makes a plot twist or something about it being someone else pretending to be Hide I'm actually gonna get mad. Dude. Not only would that bring the Hide feels right back it’d just make absolutely no sense omg

(also you read the new chapter, right? So, let’s talk about Juuzou and that huge death flag)

I’ve heard of Soul Eater and considered reading it but it’s not really the kind of thing I’m into…artwork’s cute, though, and Death the Kid seems like an interesting guy so maybe someday XD

AGH I’M ACTUALLY SORTA JEALOUS BECAUSE WOW I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA HOW TO WATCH THAT LEGALLY HERE IN KOREA. (unless I ask my dad for help but he doesn’t like manga/anime at all, so…) But yes, I’m really happy Lizzy finally got her moment this time! Now anime-only fans can’t complain about her being a ‘shallow’ character so hopefully there’ll be less fighting over Lizzy in the Kuro fandom :D

FINALLY. Fellow Death Note fan <3333 Who’s your fav? Do you have any ships? Are you done with the anime??? :D (also do you know…you picked a really interesting time to join the DN fandom. The American live-action movie just came out and it sucks so freaking bad, like I haven’t even watched it yet and just from the reviews/clips, here’s what I got:

-They turned Misa into this Harley Quinn-type character. Only without any depth.

-Light/Misa is an actual canon ship, like, it’s not abusive or one-sided like it is in the anime/manga, it’s just…a thing. Light loves Misa. Misa loves Light. It’s like every cringey high school romance movie ever, only with more murder

-They freaking bent the Death Note rules just so Light could get away with all sorts of ridiculous stuff

-L cries, L rants, L is overly emotional

-Light tells L where he hid a page from his Death Note. Light doesn’t deny being Kira. Light shows Misa his Death Note when they like barely know each other and she’s still a complete stranger to him. Light acts like an idiot.

-Oh sure, he’s Kira, God of the New World, but he still cares about going to prom with his girlfriend and making stupid faces as they pose for pictures

-So much unnecessary gore. Heart attacks are Kira’s thing, Light isn’t that emotional about his kills, he doesn’t care as long as the 'villains’ are dead, so why???

-Apparently Rem does not exist. Sayu doesn't exist either. Light’s mom is dead (probably so he can angst over her)

-Light Turner. Light TURNER. Out of all the surnames they could have chosen…

-And now, for the most unforgivable sin:

How dare they not include the Potato Chip scene)

And then random things: JJ and Light have the same voice actor. Yurio and Mello (imo…have you met Mello yet?) could be long-lost twins.

Also:

I’ve fallen into Steven Universe hell and now I’m imagining so. Many. Gem AUs. Have you ever heard of SU?

(look:

1- don’t stress about the messages, and come on, I’d never get mad at you over something like this! You’re way too awesome.

2-  I don’t really know what to say 'cause I’m bad at comforting people, but ugh, it sucks to hear that school’s tiring you out! Queen Luna’s gonna get through this, though. I mean, you’re great at so many things and you’re freaking smart and…this is awkward but maybe you understand Evans Language by now? XD Guess I’m just trying to say that I’m sure you’ll do great, and if you ever need someone to talk to I’m (almost) always free *hugs*

3- Um. So, other than tumblr, I think the only way I can talk with you right now is if we email each other? The email address I used this time is my real one (or rather, my dad’s, since I don’t have one of my own yet…) so maybe we can talk about this more through email and find a better way to contact each other? If that’s ok with you can you send me a message there?)

P.S:

I’ve started college and have no idea what I’m doing

*slams head against keyboard* guess who managed to get sick. It’s only been a week since school started. Whatever, I’m still going to school, but I woke up breathing like a fish on land, bc asthma. Yay.

I’m definitely gonna upload the pics today!!

Okay, but one thing I’m wondering about, is How? Not in a malicious way or anything, I’m genuinely curious to why you ship Stoki (and where it began). Was it that redemption fic you told me about or did you ship it before? 

Tbh, I didn’t hate the characters in CW, I hated the situation. Because there’s so so much pointless conflict that could easily be solved if everyone sat down and talked like normal people. But nooo we have to go around attacking each other. ((ALSO CAP’S LETTER TO TONY, I AM DEAD))

I’ve already learned (and experienced) that shipping is a very weird and unusual thing, so I’ll be honest and say I’m not even surprised that ship exists. At least it has some basis XD

I’m actually tempted to go through the lyrics of the whole musical and find every single eye line there is, only to replace it w Illumi’s eyes.

Not only zooming in on the eyes, the word itself is louder than the rest XD man if only I could draw…

Tbh I’d say I’m responsible enough (HA, that’s more or less a lie), but I’m honestly way too irritated with the little ones to be able to have one of my own. My cousin recently celebrated her 3rd bday and I was stuck looking after her during the party, bc all the adults were talking among themselves and I swear to god, I haven’t moved that much since I had to run 2km for PE. Where do they get their energy. Not to mention the adults thought it would be a good idea to leave me w her, because I’d already drunk 3 glasses of wine (i was bored and not allowed to do anything other than stare at emptiness or look after a 3yo). Turns out my tolerance isn’t that bad after all.

Lol let’s be honest, Ishida would totally do that. He knows the fandom would riot and that’s the whole point.

All the death flags. Tbh I don’t know how I feel about it. It’s obvious that either Touka or Juuzou are probably gonna die and I wan’t neither (If I have to choose tho, I’d rather Juuzou survives.) Also Naki. HNNNNNNGH

I think you’d actually like the manga? It takes a pretty dark turn compared to the anime and deals with lots of mental issues (the whole theme of the later volumes is Madness). Also, lots of death XD Well, the artwork changes drastically, so which one are you talking about XD

The girl in the coat (left first pic, middle 2nd) is the same person for reference. Death the Kid was one of my first anime crushes. The guy has OCD and is a total badass. 

MUHAHAHAHA I think someone uploaded the Lizzy fight to youtube so you can probably find it there, but I am in love. The animation is beautiful, so that’s also a huge plus. All in all, it was handled really well.

Death Note

So last I’ve watched is ep 25, aka the one WHERE L DIES. And i am not okay. I am nowhere near okay. Nope. Not at all.

Oh i’ve heard all about the adaptation. Tbh I find the whitewashing hilarious. Setting the movie in America removes so much of the series’s logic, so why? L being the way he is is probably my favourite mistake. They took the best character and ruined him completely.  POTATO CHIP SCENE NOOOO But my question is: did everything go just according to the keikaku?

Have fun w SU! I’ve watched it for a while, but gave up at some point. I might pick it up again if I have the time ^^ Word of advice, watch out for the fandom, they’re among the most toxic ones I’ve ever encountered. One time, they almost drove an artist to suicide because she didn’t draw Rose ‘thick enough’. So yeah.

What did I do to deserve you as my friend TT^TT Thank you so so much, those words mean more than you can imagine.

Um. Looks like we’ll be staying here, because I never, ever check my mail, despite getting school assignments there, so yeah. If we used mail, you’d probably get a response every leap year.

How does the education system work in Korea? Like, at what age do you start going to which school?

Also, I’ve told you about Mystic Messenger? I think you’d like the newest update, because damn, it’s creeping me out. Also, it’s in Korean, so + ((My thoughts during the prologue of the new route: Nani the fuck))

#evans #submission

[sambashua]

92 questions/random questions/8 things tag~

hello friends !!! i’ve done the first two tags before but it’s been quite a while so ?? let’s see if i can come up w new responses i guess?? also these all have similar-ish questions so i thought i’d combine them so i don’t clog up everyone’s dashes~

tagged by (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ(ilya so dang much my favorite muffins)

92 questions: mariel! @jaehyunscult kelby! @yooncheoly and claudia! @s-lay-ing 

random questions: kolbo! @yooncheoly ommo! @strawberryboo​ and cloodoo! @s-lay-ing 

eight things: em! @seoulscapes mj! @jungnoir and kat! @atshinee

i’m going to tag @everyonesabiaswrecker @hoshi-ssi @king-hao @moonhyook @taeismyking @honestlay @yoonsunha @amessence @kylamassie1 @peachesandkili and also the beans who tagged me above!! you can do one of the ones you didn’t tag me in hehe(≧◡≦)

you guys can choose whichever tags you want!! or all of them ? idk it’s basically either long, easy or creative so whatever you feel like doing… or do none of them!! that works too! if you don’t want to be tagged just let me knowwww also you rlly don’t have to read this whole thing it is so damn long… but w/o further ado…

92 questions

the last…

1. drink: water

2. phone call: my grandma !

3. text message: “THEBOP OF THE SUMMER” (sic)

4. song you listened to: ‘love paint (every afternoon)’ by NU’EST started playing before i got out of the car last night… WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED I WATCHED MX’S NEWTON THIS MORNING OH MY GOD THE BOP OF THE SUMMER THAT’S WHAT THE TEXT WAS ABT BTW

5. time you cried: hmmmm not monsta x surprisingly ? but we have some rlly spicy food in LA and @everyonesabiaswrecker @taeismyking and i had to hide our eyes from the waiter lol

have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: nooo (as i said last time i’ve never dated so these are all no’s so you can skip around a bit i suppose)

7. been cheated on: nooo

8. kissed someone and regretted it: nooo

9. lost someone special: yea

10. been depressed: nope

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: drinking makes ya do bad stuff kids

list three favorite colors (12-15)…

grey, light blue nd light green !

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yeAH SO MANY! irl and online i’m so thankful for everyone i’ve met~~ since i started uni i was rlly nervous abt meeting people and although i have one (1) new friend irl (shoutout to my main main main kat @atshinee literally where would i be w/o you i probably woulda gotten stuck at camp bc of the hail storm) i’ve met countless lovely individuals online that i am forever grateful for;;; now i’m being all sappy someoNE STOP ME

16. fallen out of love: nooo

17. laughed until you cried: almost everyday~~

18. found out someone was talking about you: oh yea

19. met someone who changed you: YES

20. found out who your true friends are: yeah!

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nooooooooooooooope

general stuff

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: idk like probably actually 80% but they’re not people i talk to now ? (kat still yells at me abt my answer last time)

23. do you have any pets: I GOT TWO CATS TOM TOM AND MYSTERY THEY ARE ADORABLE BEANS ND I LIKE TO BRAG ABT THEM SO ASK ME FOR PICS

24. do you want to change your name: i like my name a lot tbh (there’s so many endless nickname possibilities honestly)

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i got gelato w two of my closest frandssss and also listened to nct dream like the whole day it was the best

26. what time did you wake up: um m m i think 9? yesterday i went to bed at 3:30 and woke up at 7:30 so i slept in more today lol

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: trying to read a soonhoon fic from eep and messaging ivy:D

28. name something you cannot wait for: uM IDK EVERYTHING I WAS WAITING FOR ALREADY HAPPENED i guess just moving back to school and starting classes??? i’m so anxious ugh

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 4 ? hours ago ?

30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: um idk i think i’m pretty blessed to be completely honest

31. what are you listening to right now: there’s construction going on in the distance idk what they’re doing but it is LOUD

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i’m so shook people haven’t talked to any toms i’ve met so many i don’t undeRSTAND

33. something that is getting on your nerves: ignorance *finger guns*

34. most visited website: tumblr (i haven’t been on youtube much lately cry)

35. elementary school: yeahhh

36. high school: yeahhh

37. college: yeahhh

38. hair color: blonde 

39. long or short hair: it’s so long rn i’m constantly choking on it

40. do you have a crush on someone: crushes are for noobs

41. what do you like about yourself: “everything, love yourself.” -kat

42. piercings: ears but i never wear them

43. blood type: idk my parents are both AB so my mom says we’re that too but mom that’s not how genetics work

44. nickname: i have so many but my most common one is mir~ i answer to anything tho

45. relationship status: engaged to jeon wonwoo

46. zodiac sign: cancer~

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: game of thrones or below deck (watch it it’s a reality show abt a yacht crew it’s so entertaining) 

49. tattoos: nope i’m too indecisive

50. righty or lefty: right

first…

51. surgery: i had surgery junior year of high school

52. piercing: did they not already ask this oh jk this is first well i still only have ears

53. best friend: in the womb bitchhh (-8 months would be the official age)

54. sport: i think karate ? my dad is super sporty tho so sister and i tried every sport known to man

55. vacation: probably washington bc i have a lot of family there

56. pair of sneakers: literally who knows this tho

right now…

57. eating: nothing

58. drinking: now i’m drinking tea

59. i’m about to: eat a bagel maybe

60. listening to: good luck by aoa (yessss my girls)

61. waiting for: jordyn to get off work so i can see her new dorm:D

62. do you want kids: i always have

63. do you want to get married: i don’t really know marriage seems so outdated…

64: what career do you want: journalist (yay)

which is better…

65. hugs or kisses: hugs!

66. lips or eyes: eyes!

67. shorter or taller: i don’t have much preference but i’m tall and i like being tall

68. older or younger: i don’t really care bc some older people are really immature and some younger people are really mature so~

70. nice arms or nice stomach: i really really don’t care

71. sensitive or loud: these honestly aren’t even antonyms

72. hook up or relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker or hesitant: i’ve never been a troublemaker so ?

have you ever…

74. kissed a stranger: nooo

75. drank hard liquor: neh ?

76. lost glasses/lenses: i have above average vision boiiiii

77. turned someone down: i mean;;;; i think most people have at least indirectly

78. had sex on the first date: nooo

79. broken someone’s heart: i really doubt it lol

80. had your heart broken: jeon wonwoo breaks my heart daily

81. been arrested: nooo

82. cried when someone died: yeahh

83. fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in…

84. yourself: YEAH I GOT THIS! YOU GOT THIS! WE ALL GOT THIS!

85. miracles: maybe ?

86. love at first sight: not even a little bit

87. santa claus:

LOOK AT SOONYOUNG I’M LAUGHING

88. kiss on the first date: i mean i don’t see why not

89. angels: maybe ?

other…

90. current best friends name: sister n em n kat n cass n jords n val :3

91. eye color: grey ish

92. favorite movie: the proposal was my favorite movie for so long;;; i liked moonlight a lot too go see it

random questions

dude i fucking forgot abt this one i thought i was done fuck (why is this font so tiny)

relationship status: single for 19 years bishhhhhhhh favorite color: grey!! but i’ve been feelin orange lately hmmmm lipstick or chapstick: i like tinted lip balm:) but i even use vaseline sometimes try it okay it makes yo lips so soft last song you listened to: well i already said so i’ll do what’s stuck in my head rn: coffee by bts (it’s so good i get such calming vibes from it) last movie you watched: BABY DRIVER it was so ffffff good 100/10 would rec~ the car chases were so cool dude also ansel elgort is such a cutie top 3 characters: i’ll as april ludgate from parks n rec (are you happy jords), celaena from throne of glass, ndddd risa koizumi from lovcom:) top 3 ships: jejun ! soonwoo ! MARKHYUCK(ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ books you are currently reading: rnnnn i’m STILL reading heir of fire (don’t worry cass i will finish it in time) top 5 musicals: mulan is endlessly iconic okay, hsm, phantom of the opera, the sound of music nd mama mia !

eight things

last movie watched: baby driver hoo hoo last song listened to: me gustas tu bitchhhhh last book read: Crown of Midnight still oops sorry cass i’m so damn slow these days  last thing eaten: fig newtons (buy newton by monsta x on itunes) if you could be anywhere right now, where would you be: wherever @atshinee​ is because i want to support her for her test but i know i would probably just distract her:(((((( a fictional character you would hang out with for the day: probably dorian from throne of glass bc he just seems like such a lovable dork i want to give him a big ole hug he needs it  what fictional world/universe would you want to spend a week in: i used to be obsessed w the series Gregor the Overlander as a kid and i’d really want to spend a day there that would be so awesome esp the one where they travel through the one rainforest jungle… but also Harry Potter bc i rlly want to go to hogwarts and just;;; look around? it’s so pretty and i want to see all the paintings and staircases and the people it’d be great last video game played: i’ve never rlly played video games… i used to play the sims does that count rip

well it’s finally frickin done i doubt anyone bared w me for this trainwreck…….. i’m so tired now will i even do more of these today jk i gotta i am so behind but no selfie tags i look trash

#tagged #bye #this was so long #time to sleep #jk #i'm not that tired #just ded #thank you guys for tagging me!!! #i think that was everyone??? #some of those are a bit old rip #who even read this like wow that's dedication #it's like;;; not even rly funny either so rip #only do this if you want to ofc!! #cries bc the random qs was the first tag jen bean tagged me in:((( #mir moos