#probably gonna feel bad about having made fun of joel to his face for the rest of the night though đ
can't believe I went to the meet & greet today just to complain to Olli about the free poster not matching my interior design and to tell Joel I'd like one Big Mac, a large drink and garlic dip
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Sleeping Bag (Joel Miller x Reader)
Word count: 1.7K
Summary: you canât get comfortable in your sleeping bag, so joel invites you into his
Tags: age gap (mostly implied), anxiety, fluff, protective/caring!joel, comfort, cuddling, sharing a sleeping bag (instead of the one bed trope lol), kissing (forehead and lips), itâs just cute short and fun
A/N: simple and quick, inspired by ep 4 when joel and ellie were in sleeping bags in the woods, but no explicit spoilers. Iâve been wanting to write for joel since episode one and finally got an idea. pretty sure more will be coming soonâŠ
Cross-posted to ao3 âą tlou masterlist âą writing masterlist
After sleeping in a bed in the QZâs for years, suddenly trying to get comfortable in a sleeping bag on the ground was proving difficult for you.
What a spoiled thought to have, right? Well, it wasnât just that. You were out in the open woods. There could be infected anywhere. They could come for you any second. How could you close your eyes and rest peacefully knowing you were no longer behind the barrier walls?
Ellie was already asleep, you could hear her light snores. Your back was facing him, but you assumed Joel was asleep as well given his stillness. You rolled from your side to your back and sighed.
You had to sleep. You shouldâve been tired. You and Joel had taken turns driving, although since you didnât have much driving experience Joel became concerned when you began to struggle with the gear shift and mixed up the pedals (it only happened once but he couldnât let it go). Joel had grown exhausted and didnât want to stress you out by making you drive without him as backup/support, so you all stopped for the night. He was thoughtful like that; even if he was a bit grouchy sometimes.
You turned from your back to your other side, eyes landing on Joel. He was facing you, eyes closed, breathing steadily. The older man actually seemed to be at peace. He only looked like that when he was asleep. The moment he woke up, you knew heâd have that slight pout and furrow of his brows that youâd become accustomed to.
If Joel caught you staring, you wondered what heâd say. You could never pinpoint the way he viewed you. Friend? Daughter? Burden? Youâd be way more okay with the previous two as long as it wasnât the third. Although if you were being honest with yourself, you hoped it was none of the above.
Despite his age and his tough nature, you had a thing for Joel. Like, a thing. Feelings, attraction, affectionâwhatever you wanted to call it. Definitely a crush. Love? Maybe. It was a little bit confusing, but nothing in this life was simple.
Joel had taken you under his wing a while back and looked after you. He was incredibly protective and even if he wasnât the best with expressing himself, Joel cared for you. He made you feel safe. He was there for you when you had no one else.
You rolled to your other side. Then back. Simply put, tossing and turning. The thought that you were being loud donât even cross your mind untilâ
âWhat are you doing?â Joelâs voice caught your attention.
You let out a sigh, feeling bad that youâd woken the man up. You turned back to face him. âI canât sleep,â you confessed.
âI can tell,â he murmured. âDo you plan on rolling around all night?â
You frowned to yourself. âI'm sorry.â
Joel exhaled softly and even in the dark, you could see the sympathy in those deep brown eyes of his. You hadnât realized that subconsciously, youâd moved closer to him.
âItâs okay.â He had a soft spot for you, even though heâd probably deny it.
âIâll try and be⊠still, I guess.â You knew you werenât going to be able to sleep. âJust go back to sleep, Iâll be fine.â That was a lie.
âNo,â he decided after a moment. You furrowed your brows. âYou need sleep too.â
âI canât get comfortable,â you replied. You let a few seconds pass before adding, ââŠand Iâm too anxious.â
âIâm not gonna let anything happen to you,â Joel promised like if there was one thing he was sure about, it was that.
It meant a lot, it really did. But you huffed out a humorless laugh and went to a worse case scenario. âYouâre all the way over there. If an infected wanted to get me, it could. Before you could stop it.â
Joel was quiet for a few beats. You hadnât meant to insult him, but it was true. It didnât matter how safe you felt with him there. They were faster than him. Faster than anyone.
âSo then come over here,â Joel offered, voice still thick with sleep. It sounded incredibly enticing.
The image of you crawling into his sleeping bag crossed your mind faster than you could stop it. You had to do a double take. âLike⊠scoot over there?â you tried to clarify inconspicuously.
âIf youâre against sharing with me.â
So, he had meant what youâd hoped for. Your heart skipped a little beat and you swallowed.
âIâm not.â
All Joel did was hum. You unzipped your sleeping bag and left the warmth. Joel was ready and waiting when you moved over to him, enveloping you into the safety of his sleeping bag and heavy arms. You wiggled around a little bit until you got comfortable. For the first time since youâd left the QZ, it didnât take long.
âThank you,â you mumbled softly, trying to keep your breathing calm. Being so close to Joel was causing you to become less focused on sleep and more focused on the way his breath sounded so close to your ear.
âMmhhmm,â he hummed from deep in his throat with closed lips. You thought it was going to be left at that, but then you heard his gruff voice. âI know itâs been hard on you.â You opened your mouth to deny it, but he continued. âEven if youâre too stubborn to admit it beyond makinâ snarky comments.â
You took in a breath. He got you on that one, and you both knew it. âSince when do you know me this well?â
âSince always,â Joel pointed out. âYouâre easy to read.â
âFor you maybe.â
âYeah, for me,â he agreed, sounding pleased with himself. Joel was silent for a long moment, listening to the soft rustle of your body as you gazed around your surroundings. The grass, the trees, the darkness⊠âIâm sorry for being so selfish.â
The sudden apology confused you. âWhat?â
âYouâve never been outside of the QZ before, and for good reason,â Joel started. âItâs a scary world out here and I shouldnât have subjected you to it. I shouldnât have brought you along.â
His voice was full of guilt that seemed to come out of nowhere, but given all he had to say you suspected heâd been carrying it since you left.
âI wanted to come with you,â you assured him. You never second guessed that decision despite everything that had happened so far. âWhere is this coming from?â
âYouâre scared and itâs my fault.â You could hear the deep frown in his voice.
âYouâre the reason I feel safe right now,â you said without a second thought. It was true. You wanted him to know that. There was something you wanted to know too, now, and you couldnât help but ask. âDo you not want me here?â
âI do,â Joel confessed. âThatâs why Iâm selfish.â There was a pause but you didnât dare speak. âI didnât want to be away from you.â
A wave of realization crashed over you.
You wiggled around, turning until you were facing him. You offered him a soft, delicate smile that you hoped he could see despite the dark.
âIt almost sounds like you care about me. A lot,â you couldnât help but tease.
âYou know I care about you,â Joel stated, like it was the most obvious thing. Maybe heâd tried to cover it up in the past, but someone would have to be blind to not see that you meant something to Joel.
âI care about you too,â you admitted with much more ease. He knew, though.
Joel, in an uncharacteristically soft gesture, pressed a kiss to your forehead. You could hardly believe it. But it felt nice. You liked the affection. And coming from someone like Joel who never let their guard down, it was significant enough to leave you speechless.
âItâs gonna be daylight soon,â he muttered. âYou should try and get some sleep.â
âYeah, okay,â you agreed with a slight nod. âJust⊠one more thing.â It took everything you had to be brave enough to say that, and to do what you were going to do next.
There was basically no space between the two of you, but you managed to bring your hand up to Joelâs face and cup his jaw. You leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to his lips.
Joel didnât hesitate to kiss you back. He took charge, but it wasnât surprising. He had a dominating presence and was rough around the edges, you didnât think heâd be delicate with you.
Not that you minded.
His lips moved against yours, almost in a frenzy. Like he was scared youâd slip away from him. It was so needy, so passionate. You wished you wouldâve done this much, much sooner
Joel found the willpower to break away from the kiss before you. You wouldâve happily lost consciousness in order to kiss him for just a few more moments. But then youâd worry him, and you hated to see Joel worry.
But you didnât see worry when you looked into his eyes. You saw a hint of wonder. You were both staring into a new beginning as you gazed upon one another. He was panting a little, both of your soft breaths intertwining.
âYou need sleep,â he reminded you.
Of course he still couldnât drop the protector role. He wasnât wrong about that, either. You smiled to yourself, the feel of his lips still ghosting yours despite the distance. You twisted in the sleeping bag without a word, knowing that youâd never be able to sleep facing Joel. Youâd probably be too busy staring at himâŠ
So yeah, you laid with your back to his chest and closed your eyes. His arms held you tight against his firm body. Not only providing warmth, but security as well.
âGoodnight,â Joel mumbled to you, already dozing back off. You could hear the soft smile in his voice despite the tiredness. It seemed easier for him to sleep wherever, although you liked to think you were bringing him some kind of comfort as well. With the way he held you against him it wouldnât be an unrealistic thought.
âGoodnight, Joel,â you replied softly, finally able to relax your breathing. The feel of Joelâs body pressed against you, his strong arms around youâit felt like a dream. Safe and sound, away from the dangers that lie not far off. And soon enough, you were finally able to close your eyes and fall into a peaceful sleep.
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state-of-the-art
sex on fire chapter two
*chants* ceo joel ceo joel ceo joel
part 2 to you shook me all night long!!! massive credit to @whore-4-pedro again for the concept this is SO much fun. work trip coming soon babies!!! masterlist here, ao3 here đ
pairing: ceo!joel x fem!reader
summary: joelâs had a rough week at work. you figure you know the perfect way to relieve some of his tension
warnings: 18+ (minors dni!!!) more teasing and touching, oral (m receiving), getting handsy in public + fingering, unprotected semi-public piv sex, creampie, daddy kink, softdom!joel, age gap (reader is late 20s, joel late 40s), cursing, workplace relationship
word count: 6.6k
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The stretch is too much; heâs all the way in down to his knuckles, curling and then uncurling his fingers deep inside you. Your hips are slowly circling by instinct, rutting against his hand as it fucks you, sending fluttery waves of pleasure all over your body.
You ball up your fist, nails digging half-moons into the skin of your palm, attempting to fight the tidal wave fast approaching as Joelâs fingers snap harder into you, a third beckoning your orgasm nearer and nearer.
Youâre there â right where he wants you, almost throwing your head back with the feeling heâs giving you. And then you make the mistake of looking at him, catching that ever so Joel smile when, shielded from the others by his hand, he breathes, âThereâs my girl.â
The black mug. Not the one with the gold handle â thatâs one of Marthaâs. She doesnât use it much â at least not as much as the one with her granddaughterâs face printed on it â but she once left you with a stack of paperwork to shred all by yourself just âcause you made yourself a tea in it.
No. Just plain black all over. No words, no pictures. Plain. Black.
Few spoonsful of coffee into the filter, hard granules sprinkling over the white paper. Close the lid, flick the switch, and then wait for it to brew. Once itâs done, fill the mug almost to the top â until the coffee kisses the bottom of that one chip in the ceramic. No sugar. No sweetener. No nothing.
Just plain black.
âThanks, darlinâ.â Joel takes the mug carefully from your hands as you wander over, then you perch yourself by his side on Marthaâs desk. He takes a sip and nods like usual, confirming what you already know.
You make a damn good cup of coffee.
âYouâre worth, what, a few hundred million? You canât buy a better coffee machine?â
ââs wrong with that one?â he asks, mug on his bottom lip.
âWorks like itâs from the eighties or something.â
Martha clears her throat behind you both. âI am gonna give you five seconds to explain what you mean by that.â
âI meanâŠitâs not exactly state-of-the-art, is it?â
Joelâs jaw drops dramatically. His head wobbles like itâs about to implode, hearing what you just said. âYou hear that, Martha? We ainât state-of-the-art anymore, you ân me. Weâre older ân that coffee machine, you know.â
Marthaâs shaking her head, clicking away at her computer.
Joel nudges your arm with a soft chuckle and you sigh, turning away to watch the four men in his office; stood an awkward distance apart, small talking, pacing, adjusting their suits. One of them is messing with some trinket on Joelâs bookshelf.
âYou think theyâre nervous?â you ask, and he laughs from behind you.
âI reckon theyâve a lot to be nervous about.â
âWas it that bad? On Monday?â
Joel had spent the better part of four hours locked in that conference room, right after you two â you know. He was late for lunch by the time he was ushering them out, collars loose, jackets slung over arms. It was probably a good thing youâd tired him out a little beforehand, or heâd have been way more unforgiving than he was.
Three departments in Joelâs company have gone over budget. It isnât a huge deal. He has the money. Just, he wants the right people in charge of it, and right nowâŠhe clearly doesnât have that. Honestly, you hate to admit it, but it makes sense. Youâre kinda on Joelâs side.
Heâd given them to the end of the week to come up with action plans, figure out how to undo the mess. This is the end of the week. This is supposed to be the big reveal.
Joel runs a hand through his hair, palm hooking around the back of his neck.
âWasnât great,â he mutters.
You knew that much. Youâd asked what he wanted to eat as he passed your desk en route back to his office, and heâd waved his hand and told you to order whatever you wanted with his card. When his door closed, you glanced over to Martha, who shrugged, and went back to playing solitaire.
You figured he wasnât down for more sex. He didnât reappear until five oâclock, when he walked you down to the street, carrying your jacket for you, and helped you into your cab.
The elevator dings and the brass doors separate, revealing a figure behind.
George Mackley. Short. Stout. Obnoxiously bright red tie. Head of marketing.
He waddles in a hurry toward the three of you, nodding curtly to Joel as he passes. His shaking hand fumbles around the handle of the office door, which he pulls on instead of pushing, and gives an awkward chuckle before rushing inside.
âFuckinââŠfinally,â Joel grunts, passing you his mug and standing up.
âShould I order my own lunch again?â you ask, looking up at the man stretching his arms out before you. Like heâs about to go in and punch sense into them all.
Youâd probably love him to do that. Itâd make for some great sex afterward.
âIâll be takinâ a lunch break,â he replies, tapping your knee, âwhether weâre done or not. Be out at one.â
You nod, and he stalks off to his office. His mugâs still warm in your lap. Youâre still staring when he enters the room, watching how all five men immediately file into the couches across from his desk just at the sight of him. Watching how Joelâs lean figure sits back against his desk, his ankles crossed. His arms folded at his chest. His broad shoulders beneath that tight white shirt.
He has that way about him. Commanding, confident. Strong. Itâs probably what convinced you to fold, if youâre honest. Sure, heâs kind, and heâs a good boss, all things considered. Heâs funny. But heâs cool. It takes a lot to shake Joel.
This meeting? Itâs not shaking him. Heâs barely even giving these guys enough attention to sit up straight. Heâs so damn breezy, so laidback that when he pushes off of his desk and stands up, you give a small gasp.
You lift his mug, drinking from the same spot his lips touched only minutes ago.
âThought you hated black coffee,â Martha murmurs.
âStress sipping,â you reply. âFucking hellâŠâ
Joelâs erratic. Waving his arms, pacing around the room. You swear the men cower as he approaches; shoulders hunched and heads low until heâs past them.
He looksâŠYeah. Fuck it. He looks a little shaken.
Martha tuts. âShouldnât be idiots with his money.â
âHe has money, though,â you offer. âLike, this ainât that big a deal, is it? He can afford to go over budget sometimes.â
âJoel doesnât like anyone messinâ with whatâs his,â she tells you. âDoesnât like other hands on his toys. Itâs not the overspending heâs pissed about. Itâs the crossinâ the line.â
Your eyebrow cocks. She canât see your expression, and good thing, because itâd probably give you away. Doesnât like other hands on his toys.
A flash of movement from Joelâs office drags your eyes from the dregs of his coffee back to the transparent wall between you. Heâs whipping the shades closed one by one, putting a barrier between his office and the outside world.
It canât mean anything good, right? It doesnât look like theyâre about to sit in a circle and braid each otherâs hair. Sure as hell arenât about to see Joelâs good side.
âI gotta go in,â you declare, lifting off of Marthaâs desk like youâve taken flight.
She calls your name, almost tired of your antics. âI donât think thatâs a good ideaâŠâ
But youâre already scooping up a notepad, slipping it under your arm and fishing a pen from your desk. Already walking over to the office door, hearing the dangerous hum of Joelâs voice through the wood.
Your knuckles rap three times. You donât wait to be called inside. Just push the handle down and slip in.
Heâs stood against the frame of one of the windows, hands in his pockets. When you materialize from behind the door, his face relaxes. Brows loosen, jaw slackens. Lips almost tug into a smile.
âSorry Iâm late.â You sidle over to his desk and sit down in his chair, biting on your bottom lip, casting an unsure glance around the room.
Five pale faces turned to you. George Mackley looks like heâs about to weep.
Joel thanks you and then steps forward. âSo, Ken, we were at last monthâs sales.â
âUh, yeahâŠâ Ken draws his gaze from you when Joel moves in front of the desk. As he waltzes by, he spins slowly, giving you a look as he passes.
Kill me, he mouths, rolling his eyes. You smile, looking down at your blank notebook. Youâre not here to take the fucking minutes. You know that, Joel knows that. Youâre only here so he has something to keep him from losing it. Something to sit and look pretty, and calm him down.
Also: you kinda want the gossip. What the fuck did these guys do with all of Joelâs money, right?
Almost two hours in, a dozen games of tic-tac-toe against yourself, and one very crude drawing of Monday morningâs activities, Joel startles you by slamming a file down onto his glass coffee table.
âAnd you think thatâs a solution?â he spits, voice laced with fury.
âJoel, you gotta see it from my side. Iâm managing thirty people down there, itâsââ
âân Iâm managing five idiots from up here. Mackley,â he turns to the face as red as the tie below it, âyou got anythinâ else for me?â
George Mackley shakes his head. His hairâs unkempt; it was gelled flat to his head when he arrived, but his hands have been through it more times than Joelâs lapped the office.
âAlright. Yâknow what,â Joel seethes, backing up and motioning for them to stand, âeveryone out. Meetingâs over. Go.â
âJoelââ A tall man with blue eyes stands up.
âIf you ainât about to offer me somethinâ that can fuckinâ fix this mess, then shut your mouth and get out of my office. All of you.â
The men sheepishly collect their briefcases, their documents, themselves, and stand, filing out of the door one by one. You rise from Joelâs chair, taking your notepad between your fingers, and slowly wander around the desk.
Heâs standing with his head in his hands, shoulders swelling with his breathing. Does he want you to leave, too? You donât want to rile him more; certainly donât want to be the first face his angry self sees. But you want to make sure heâs okay. Want to check on him.
Plus, heâs kind of hot when heâs pissed.
Youâre tottering toward the door when Joel drops his hands from his face, notices you, and says, plain as the coffee in his mug, âNot you.â
You turn back, pushing the door closed behind you.
âDidnât mean to yell.â
You donât reply. Your hand lifts to find the lock blindly behind your hip, and you click it. Now thereâs nobody, no one to disturb you both. No one to walk in, no one to see.
You approach him.
Heâs still talking: âDidnât want you to have to hear all that. I spoil your morning?â
Your head shakes and you mutely take his hands, leading him around to his chair and pushing him back into it.
âBaby, whatââ
You part his legs with your own, his fingers still interlocked with yours. Then you think he gets it. Understands where youâre going.
You sink to your knees between his thighs.
âThey were beinâ idiots,â you say, fingers undoing his belt. âân you didnât spoil my morninâ. You gave me a little bit of excitement.â
Joelâs breath shudders as he watches you tug his belt through the loops of his pants and drop it to the floor. Still, he laughs, and asks, âIs that so?â
âNâ Oh, fuck. Not like that. Likeââ You pause, breathing out a sigh.
Yeah, okay. Like that, if you want. Iâm down if you are.
His pants are open, lying loose on his hips. The waistband of his boxers visible. You hook two fingers over it and peel it down a fraction, following Joelâs happy trail as it grows thicker and darker, when he puts a hand over yours and breathes your name.
âRelax,â you mutter back, nudging his hand off of yours. âJust let me take care of you.â
His head falls against the back of his chair and his shoulders sink into the leather. You pull on the elastic and take hold of the base of his cock, already stiff, slipping it out from beneath the black cotton.
Joelâs knees fall slack when you take a hold of him. Two hands, because heâs so fucking big. Your fists pump him a few times, feeling him harden in your grasp, warm skin rock solid in your hands. You lean forward on your knees, thick bead of saliva falling from your lips onto his head, dribbling down his smooth shaft.
Joelâs watching through hooded lids. Caressing your hair, petting you. Your fingers collect your spit and drag it up and down him, and you swear he almost fucking whines.
Almost isnât enough. You want to really hear him. So you slacken your jaw, part your lips, and slide them down, tongue flat against the underside of his length as he fills your mouth. Joelâs fist tightens, pulls harshly on your hair for just a second, until heâs breathing out again in relief, body relaxing to the feel of your wet tongue around his hard cock.
âDonât need to â do this, babygirl.â
âMhm,â you mumble around him.
âFuckâŠâ he whispers.
Your elbows are hooked over his thighs, holding yourself up in place between his legs. He tastes salty; skin warm, smooth. Your tongue flickers over his head, collecting precum, and Joel groans.
You pull off of him and lick your lips.
âWhat you gonna do?â you ask, fingers squeezing and dragging saliva and Joelâs arousal up and down. âAbout the budget stuff?â
His chest is heaving, hips lifting out of the seat almost like heâs trying to put himself back where he belongs. âWhatâŠcan I do?â he asks through desperate pants. âCanât â fuck â canât drum sense into âem.â
You wrap your puffy lips around his tip, kissing it, tongue playing with him again. Swirling around, gathering him on your tastebuds. âWhy donât you cut âem loose, then?â
Your head dips again, lips sucking around his shaft, tongue still darting around his swollen head.
He can barely fucking answer. His eyes close over and, with a groan either side of the sentence, he replies, ââs not that easy, baby. Fuck. Keep doinâ that.â
You loosen your lips enough to let your reply pass them. Your voice is muffled, thick. âSounds easy to me.â
âShut up,â he grunts. âKeep fuckinâ â usinâ your tongue.â
You obey, running your tongue up and down his length and coming to rest to pay more attention to his tip.
âYeah, just like that. Good girl.â
You hollow your cheeks and let your lips trickle up and down for a bit before releasing him with a pop. Joelâs writhing underneath you, leaning almost horizontal in his chair.
âGonna cum, daddy?â
He nods, eyes still screwed shut. âYeah, pretty girl. You want it down your throat again?â
âMhm.â
âFuck â dirty girl.â
Itâs all the encouragement you need. You widen your jaw, taking him in your mouth in full, until heâs choking you down to what feels like the bottom of your fucking neck. You fuck him with your throat, bobbing up and down, his fist in your hair pushing and pulling even though you donât need him to. Your mouth meets the skin at the base of his cock over and over, dark hair brushing against your glossy lips.
Joelâs moaning each time, when his cock kisses the back of your throat, when you involuntarily choke around him, when your tongue drags along his length as he pulls you up and down. And soon his breathing loses rhythm, hips tense, and you know heâs there.
He cums, hard, at the back of your mouth. Warm release spilling out over your tongue, neatly running down your throat as you wait for him to still. His cock throbs with each shot of cum, swelling and jerking between your lips. When Joel sinks back into his chair again, you slip him out of your mouth and back under his boxershorts.
Your head lulls to the side, resting on his big thigh as you swallow him with a smile on your lips. His grip on your hair loosens, turns instead back to soft stroking, chest still panting as he comes back down. You watch him through glazed eyes; his shoulders rising and falling, breaths passing his lips like waves at the beach.
Heâs twirling your hair gently around his finger, looking down at you like youâre made of twinkling gold dust.
Eventually, Joel takes a deep breath and sits up straight, beckoning you to do the same. He tucks his shirt back in, redoes his pants, then leans forward and hooks both hands under your arms, pulling you up to him.
You giggle as he lifts you onto his lap, straddling him with your knees either side of his waist. Your elbows rest on his shoulders, hands linking at the back of his neck.
His jaw turns upward, and you lower yours, your lips meeting in a soft embrace. You laugh against him, letting his tongue slip into your mouth, pushing yours into his.
âBetter?â you ask once you part.
âBetter, darlinâ. Thank you.â
He kisses you again, a little more rushed, little less tender. Then his hands squeeze your ass and you squeal into his mouth, jumping up off of him.
You pass him his belt and lift the empty coffee mug off of his desk. âRefill?â
âYeah. Sure. Thanks,â he says, slipping the leather through his belt loops. His shoulders are lifted, tummy sucked in as he feeds it through. He almost looks cute.
You smile and then turn on your heels, wiping the corners of your mouth as you emerge from the office.
âââââ
âIs he cominâ, or what?â
âHuh?â
Martha jerks her head in the direction of Joelâs office. Sheâs stood at your desk, hands on her hips, bag over her shoulder.
âHeâsâŠYeah, he said he would be. Let me go check.â
You close over the budget report file youâd been reading through and shimmy out from behind your desk, trying to amble as casually as possible over to the shuttered blinds.
You turn the handle, poking your head around the door.
Heâs stood at his desk, raking a hand through his hair, top button of his shirt undone. Tie sitting loose around his collar. He spots you and gives an apologetic smile.
You cominâ? you mouth.
Joel points to his phone. Some panicked voice fills the silence between you both.
ââŠso I gave the two of âem a tellinâ; they shouldnât make any more purchase orders without my permission. Without your permission, Joel, I meanâŠAnd about last monthâs sales, tooâŠâ
You step over to his desk, slow, suspicious. Mischief on your mind.
âSorry, baby,â he whispers, tucking a lock of hair behind your ear.
You cock your head, brows furrowing. Youâd been looking forward to lunch with Joel all day; something to take his mind off the meeting this morning.
Martha had called his favorite restaurant, theyâd told her they had no space, sheâd mentioned it was for Mr. Miller, and a table had magically opened up. Then youâd encouraged her to ask Deb, knowing sheâd inevitably ask James, her admin assistant, and, before you knew it, your small lunch was a party of five.
Worked for you. You and Joel would probably be too caught up in each otherâs company to notice the rest.
Except, the way things are looking, Joel isnât getting off this call anytime soon. Soon meaning within the next thirty seconds, given the reservation is in ten minutes.
Youâre growing desperate. Running out of time, knowing if you donât do something to shut this guy the fuck up, your little daydream of sitting side by side with Joel, so close you can feel the heat off of him, feel his chest vibrate when he talks, maybe even feel his hand trailing up your thighâŠwonât come true.
âWhat if you justâŠâ Your fingers walk along Joelâs desktop, heading for his phone. ââŠlostâŠconnectionâŠ?â
He doesnât say a word, but the smirk that forms across his lips grants you all the permission you need. Your fingers clutch the receiver, lifting it barely an inch, then drop it back into its cradle. The panicked voice cuts.
âOops.â You shrug, straightening up in front of Joel.
âOops,â he repeats, wrapping his strong arms around your shoulders and pulling you into him again. You lift your jaw to kiss him only quickly, before youâre pushing yourself off of his chest and dragging him away from his desk.
âSorry, Ken!â you call as Joel yanks the door open, the pair of you laughing like schoolkids.
You meet the others outside the building, huddled together at the bottom of the concrete steps. Deb puts her cigarette out on top of a trashcan when you both approach.
âWell, we thought you werenât cominâ,â she utters to Joel.
He lifts his eyebrows in response, hands slipping into his pockets, and glances around the group. âWe goinâ?â
âWaiting for your driver, Mr. CEO.â Martha winks.
âAha,â Joel replies, face unmoving, âfunny.â
âItâs, like, two blocks, we can walk,â you say, setting off down the street. Joelâs quick to follow, strolling at your side, but thereâs a chorus of groans from the rest of your party. âCome on!â you yell over your shoulder.
âWeâre supposed to be dining with the head of the fuckinâ company!â Martha cries, and Deb cackles.
âI gotta live like the rest of yâall sometimes,â Joel shrugs, walking backward, âkeeps my feet rooted, doesnât it?â
âI hate you,â you mutter, and he knocks into your shoulder with his own.
The Courtyard is bright, modern, andâŠbeige. Itâs only Joelâs favorite because it was a buddy of his from grad school who opened it, but youâre the only person heâs entrusted with that information. Itâs decent food â they do a great chicken risotto â and it is always busy, so Drew must be doing alright with it.
You walk under a fake ivy plant covering the entrance, past twinkling fairy lights and to a rustic wooden reception area. Some hyper server comes bounding over and introduces himself as Jake, before Martha gives the name of the reservation and he batters it into a keyboard.
âLopez?â you ask Martha, screwing your face up.
âYeah. Comma Jennifer. I like to make it exciting.â
âIf you wanted exciting, go for BeyoncĂ©, or something. Lopez?â
âYou really think BeyoncĂ© is gonna come eat here?â
âYou really think Jennifer Lopez is?â
She bats you away, turning her attention to Deb, who finds the JLo joke hilarious. When Jake springs off, beckoning you all to follow him, Joel leans in close to you.
âShe used to use Pamela Anderson. Glad sheâs evolved a little.â
You snort and follow Jake toward the same table Joel always sits at: the very back of the restaurant, quieter, separated by screens of more fake greenery. Windows looking out over the busy streets. Bare lightbulbs hanging from unnecessarily long wires over the tables.
Joel pulls your chair out for you and slots in beside you, on your right. Martha, Deb, and James â who hasnât said or done much more than chortle at anything Joelâs said â sit opposite. Jake borderline frisbees the menus at you guys and tells you to give him a shout when youâre ready to order.
You turn to Joel who shakes his head, hand cupping his chin.
The five of you scan down the menus â at least, you, Joel and Martha pretend to. Youâve been coming here regularly enough for long enough that you know what youâll inevitably end up ordering. James is asking Deb if the steak might fill him up too much before his squash practice later on tonight when you feel a familiar heat on your leg, and look past your menu to see Joelâs hand curving around your thigh.
You hold back a smile, pretending to be really into the laminated sheet in your hands. So long as he keeps it PG, and James keeps rabbiting on about squash being good for your hand-eye co-ordination, this is fine. This isâŠenjoyable.
This is exactly what you fucking wanted, when you organized lunch.
But when Jake returns to collect the menus under his arm then scurries back off, and Martha and Deb start discussing some TV show theyâre both hooked on, Joelâs hand begins to rake higher. Taking the hem of your skirt with it. You suck in a deep breath, pretending to watch the two women and trying your best to listen to the words theyâre saying, but heâs getting dangerously close to yourâ
âYou ever try squash, Joel?â
âHuh?â Joelâs hand halts instantly. You exhale.
James is sitting forward, elbows on the table, nodding with a perfectly innocent smile on his face. âSquash. Yeah. I play every Friday evening, straight after work. Itâs fantastic for shakinâ off that week-long stress, yâknow? Not that workinâ here is a stress, but sometimes it can build up, sometimes you just need something toâŠâ He balls his fists and jerks them, gritting his teeth.
You choke on a laugh and play it off as a cough.
Joel shifts a little in his seat, his palm still clamped around the top of your thigh. âNever played squash. More of a golfing guy.â
âThat what youâre gonna do this weekend? Burn off all that stress youâve had with a round of golf?â you ask Joel, lips almost trembling with the effort itâs taking you not to burst out laughing.
âNot what I had in mind, naw,â he almost spits back.
âWell, if you ever wanna try it, you know who to call. Squash, I mean. I mean â sorry, I donât mean call squash. I mean call me. To try squash. You wonât find a better stress reliever.â
âThanks, James,â Joel mutters, fingers fumbling with the cutlery on the table in front of him.
You could fucking burst. No better stress reliever than squash, right Joel? Nothing like it. Not even the one sitting next to you, her thigh under your grasp. Nope.
Youâre thankful when Martha calls your name and averts your attention.
âYou have got to watch it. I reckon sheâd really love it, right?â
Deb nods eagerly.
âWhatâs that?â you ask.
They both start chirping away, describing the plot of some mystery thriller. Itâs hard to keep up, what with them both speaking over one another, deciding which parts are safe to tell you and No, we canât tell her that, thatâs a spoiler, which actors are in it and how many episodes it took for them to really get into it.
Not to mention Joelâs hand, which has resumed its climb up your leg.
âThere are three seasons,â Martha says, finger drawing shapes on her placemat, âand do not go lookinâ online for anything, because at the end of season two, thereâs a massive death, andâŠâ
Your thighs are bare again, skirt rolled up and held at the top of your legs by Joelâs wrist. Heâs squeezing as he goes, massaging, driving you fucking insane as he adds more and more pressure. Still, your legs part for him the higher he goes.
âW-whatâ where can I watch it?â you ask, your eyes closing over as Joelâs fingers loosen their grip.
Deb says something, but itâs muffled. Drowned out by the ringing in your ears. Joelâs right hand sits under his chin, elbow propped on the table as if heâs musing over the weather or considering what to do with his weekend.
His left moves swiftly over to run along the elastic of your panties. Sift his thumb down below them. Fingers drop to cup you over the lace fabric. Suddenly, youâre sitting upright, your arms propping on the table, then falling to your lap, then one elbow up, then both down again.
What the fuckâ how the fuck do you make this look casual? Being touched by your boss at lunch, with three colleagues sat opposite you?
Joel seems to be enjoying watching you squirm. You hear him breathe a laugh into his hand, and then his fingers begin to travel even further south, moving your panties to the side to sift through your folds.
Which are, regrettably, fucking soaked.
âHm,â you hear Joel hum, and you canât look at him. Knowing heâs found exactly what he was looking for. Knowing heâs achieved exactly what he set out to do.
You sit stunned, staying completely still for fear you might draw attention from your company. But then heâs dipping a finger in, pushing deep inside you, and your jaw falls loose, a silent moan escaping in the form of a sigh.
âOh, that reminds me,â Martha addresses you and Joel, âas requested, flights organized. You leave for Paris next Friday morning, fly home Monday afternoon.â
âYep,â you reply, shuddering slightly. âSounds good.â
Youâre not fucking listening to a word sheâs saying.
âThanks, Martha,â Joel says, as casual as if he were telling her the time. Almost bored.
You drop your hand and it clamps around Joelâs wrist; youâre sure youâre scratching him, but you donât care. Not only does he deserve it, but itâs all you can do to stop yourself from screaming out when he inserts a second finger.
The stretch is too much; heâs all the way in down to his knuckles, curling and then uncurling his fingers deep inside you. Your hips are slowly circling by instinct, rutting against his hand as it fucks you, sending fluttery waves of pleasure all over your body.
You ball up your fist, nails digging half-moons into the skin of your palm, attempting to fight the tidal wave fast approaching as Joelâs fingers snap harder into you, a third beckoning your orgasm nearer and nearer.
Youâre there â right where he wants you, almost throwing your head back with the feeling heâs giving you. And then you make the mistake of looking at him, catching that ever so Joel smile when, shielded from the others by his hand, he breathes, âThereâs my girl.â
Itâs the last push. The last fucking shove.
Your walls clamp around his fist, your entire body screams, a scream that forcibly dies out in your throat as you lean forward and â
You slam your fist down on the tabletop, the sudden jolt of cutlery and glass making the three opposite you jump.
âAre youâ whatâs wrong?â Martha asks, leaning closer.
âCrâ fuckâ cramp,â you mumble, eyes screwed shut, hand still gripping Joelâs wrist. He slowly drags his soaked fingers out of your tight cunt, casually maneuvering his arm back where it belongs whilst the tableâs attention is still on your head and shoulders.
âCramp?â
âMy â fucking â leg. Iâll be â right back.â Youâre almost hyperventilating as you shakily stand, shoving your chair back with your legs only for it to be caught by the hand Joel had inside you seconds before.
You waddle off to the front of the restaurant, nearly breaking out into a run when you reach the hallway leading to the restrooms. The door to the ladies room bursts open and you throw yourself against a sink, gripping onto the ceramic, chest heaving, shoulders hunched. Your cunt is still throbbing, waves of your orgasm slowly losing power and retreating.
You wave your hand under the faucet and cold water automatically flows, filling your cupped hands, cooling your blood, cooling your skin when you dab it onto your cheeks. You sigh with relief, leaning against the sink, catching pathetic glimpses of yourself in the mirror.
And then, the door pushes open. And his silhouette sneaks inside. He leans back against the wall, hands in his pockets. Face with a smirk you want to slap off of him.
âHowâs the cramp?â
âAre you fuckingââ You flick your hands toward him, splashing him with water as he throws an arm up to dodge it, laughing. That fucking laugh.
He wanders around you, looking your shaking body up and down, and comes to a halt with his chest against your back. His chin leans into your shoulder, and you look at each other in the mirror.
It takes everything in you to fight the smile growing on your lips, but when Joel mirrors it, you canât help it.
âFucker,â you whisper, and he kisses your shoulder. You lean back into him, ass pressing against him, feeling something you already suspected would be there.
âFeel what you did to me?â he asks, voice muffled into the cotton of your shirt.
âMhm,â you reply, and you drop your hand to take the outline of him through his pants.
âYou wanna fix it for me?â
Your head rolls back against his shoulder, smutty grin melting across your face. âYeah, daddy.â
âGood girl,â he tells you, lips dragging across your neck, hands at his belt.
Your fingers clutch your skirt, still hiked halfway up your thighs, and pull it further. Joelâs hands replace yours on your hips and he shoves his pants apart, lining his bulge up with your core. Then his palm is at the bottom of your back, pushing you forward into position. Your knuckles whiten around the ceramic sink.
âFuck,â you whisper when you feel his tip at your entrance. Youâre already soaked through, no need for him to take his time. Not that you have time, anyway, with three coworkers out front waiting for the two of you.
Joel thrusts forward, entering you in one go, filling you up so fast you nearly double over. He keeps a tight grip on your hips, dragging you up and down the top of his cock a few times before slamming all the way into you again, eliciting a cry from your lips.
âQuiet, babygirl,â he says, low, dangerous. âJust gettinâ you warmed up.â
âYour hand wasnât enough of a warmup?â you throw over your shoulder, and he takes your arms and pulls you flush against him.
âYou gonna run that pretty mouth the entire time weâre in here, or you gonna let me fuck you?â he breathes around the shell of your ear.
âBoth.â
You bite back a whimper when his hips buck into you painfully. A telling: donât start.
Joel establishes a pace quick enough, both of you aware you canât take too long in here. His grunts match the rate his body snaps against yours, your panting matches the rate you bounce up and down on him.
Youâre watching the sight reflected in the mirror: Joel hooked around your shoulder, lips against your ear, whispering praises and filth, and you, leaning back against him, rutting on his hard cock with a thick smile on your lips.
âDaddyâŠâ you whine, and Joelâs vice grip tightens even more.
âGood girl,â he pants, âso fuckinâ good for me.â
Itâs not long before that heat is swirling around your core again, sparks of lightning jolting through the whirlwind of pleasure Joelâs hips create between yours. You take a hold of his arms for stability as you begin to feel your orgasm crest the horizon, knowing by the sounds heâs making in your ear that Joel isnât far off, either.
âCum in me,â you whimper, watching for his reaction in the mirror.
He pulls a face thatâs almostâŠdefeated. Groans like youâve given him an impossible problem to solve.
You plead with your eyes. âCum â in â me.â
Itâs like youâre pressing on the weakest part of a porcelain vase; daring it to break. Daring it to fall apart. Joel knows he shouldnât, knows itâs more sensible not to. But the way you look, body against his, whining and whimpering and fucking smiling right back at him â the way you feel, so warm and wet, squeezing him so tight heâs surprised heâs even lasted this longâŠ
He canât fucking help himself.
He moans and his hands clamp on your waist, forcing you forward as he ruts into you once, twice, three times before heâs twitching deep inside, warm seed spilling out and coating your walls. Your release floods over you, then, too, your head falling forward as your legs give for a few seconds, Joelâs grip the only thing keeping you upright.
Stars in your eyes, you pull the strength to lift your head and look at your reflection; Joel behind you, face to the ceiling as he slowly stills between your legs.
Your cunt throbs, and you move your hips back and forth gently, drawing a noise from Joel that you wish you could never stop hearing.
âBaby,â he lulls, looking down to watch as your dripping cunt rocks back and forth, taking him all and then letting him go again.
Itâs a minute or so before you both return to reality. Bodies still connected, Joel places a steady kiss to your cheek. You lean into him, turning to place your lips against his. Youâre both hot, sweaty, itâs probably pretty noticeable you just fucked.
And you donât care.
Joel slips out of you and backs up, letting you fix yourself in the mirror as he stuffs himself back into his pants.
âYou think you can walk back to the office?â he asks, smirking.
âCall Rand,â you reply, and his head tips back in a laugh.
He nods toward the door and the pair of you slip out discreetly, you first to check the coast is clear, and Joel right behind. You walk along the hallway, heels clicking, like youâve just come across each other right outside the restrooms.
âHey, Joel,â a voice says from behind you both as you wander past the bar.
âDrew,â Joel replies, and shakes the hand of a tall blonde guy in all black. His t-shirtâs so tight you can make out his pecs underneath it.
âHowâs it goinâ? You been in long?â
âJust waitinâ for our food,â Joel says, âitâs probably out by now.â He glances over at you and your legs clench subconsciously. He introduces you then, says, âMy assistant. Best assistant I could ask for,â and your lungs close up.
Drew shakes your hand and then turns back to Joel. âDonât go without catchinâ me, ainât lettinâ you pay a thing. Howâs business?â
Joel nods. âGood, good. Weâre, uh, weâre heading out to Europe next week, so.â
âJean-Marc?â
âYep.â
âNice.â
âYeah. Place is lookinâ good, same as always.â Joel glances around, pointing randomly to the light fixture above your heads.
Drew does that thing men do when trapped in a dry conversation: folds his arms, looks to the floor, and nods some more. Waiting for Joel to say â
âAlright, well. Great seeinâ you again. Thanks for lunch.â
He puts an arm around your back and guides you off back to the table.
âNice meetinâ you.â You smile at Drew as you pass and he returns it, turning back to the bar.
Once youâre out of earshot, you look over to Joel.
âSomething going on there?â
âHuh?â
You scoff. âYou two couldnât wait to be away from each other. Whyâd you always come here if itâs so awkward?â
âWell, if I see âim, I get free food.â
You slap his arm as he pulls your chair back out for you.
âFeelinâ better?â Deb asks, pushing French fries around her plate.
You nod, pulling your seat in beside Joel, whoâs still laughing at himself. As you settle, you feel the warmth he left behind spill out of you a little, pooling in your underwear. And Joel seems to notice, whether from some sexual sixth sense he has when it comes to you, or just the way you awkwardly shift in your seat. He hands you a smug smirk, nudging you with his elbow.
You narrow your eyes at him and turn back to Martha.
âSo, you were saying you fixed the flights for Paris?â
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The cheating
Pairing:Â Joel Miller x reader
Summary: You misinterpret a situation and think that Joel is cheating on you.
Warnings: angst, jealousy, misunderstanding *not proofread*
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"where's Joel?"
"I'm happy to see you too Ellie" you joked, easing her backpack off her shoulders.
"No, I just mean, he usually picks me up from school" she explained
"He was busy today"Â
"doing what? What's more important than me?" she asked, raising an eyebrow.
"first of all, I love the way you think, never change it, second off all, I don't really know, he went out in a rush"
"He didn't tell you?"
"no, not really"
"oh I'm gonna have a field day scolding him about not declaring where he's going like he wants me to do"
"he does that because he loves you"
"yeah, well, it's time he gets a sip of his own love" she air-quoted the last word, making you smile.
"you little demon" you chuckled, pulling her closer as you started walking off.
"what the fuck?" you exclaimed, as you swung her backpack on your shoulders "What the fuck do you have in here?"
She looked up at you, a malicious glint in her eyes
"Have you ever heard of books?"
__ __ __
"So how was school?" you asked, as you rounded a corner to get onto the main street.
The wind was blowing but the sun was up in the sky, resulting in the perfect temperature.
The pebbles under your feet sounded with each step as the commune's buildings started surrounding you.
"useless, as usual," Ellie grumbled, her tone scarily matching her dad's.Â
"oh c'mon, I'm sure you learned some interesting things"
"nope"
You glared at her "Did you at least have some fun?"
A smile crossed her face "That I did" she said, "Me and Dina found a dead frog!"
"ew! gross!" you grimaced "You call that fun?!"
She laughed "I do, it was so soft and... sticky" She touched her fingers like the feelings still lingered on them, and you watched with more than a bit of terror as her eyes sparkled at the memory.
It was at times like this you wondered just how much she had taken from Joel.
"I'm gonna puke" you commented, making her snortÂ
"Relax we didn't do anything bad, Dina insisted we gave it a funeral"
"thank god" you breathed a sigh of relief "That poor thing,"
"We buried it under a tree and gave speeches and everything, it was really moving"
"What did you say?" you asked, as you surpassed the refectory
"You know, the usual stuff" she shrugged "How good of a frog she was, how she'll be deeply missed yadda yadda yadda"
"of course" you chuckled "the usual stuff"
She smiled too now "I'm fucking starving" she moaned
"language" you reminded her, and as usual, got in return the same scowl that told you: first just how hypocritical that was coming from you, and second, that she was never gonna listen to you, and you both knew it.
"Why?" you ignored her look "Didn't you eat?"
"Today was vegetable loaf day" she responded like that was enough of an explanation.
"So what? That sounds good"
"it may sound good, but when you get that green goo on your plate I promise you're gonna change your mind"
"goo?" you made a face
"Yes. Goo." she repeated, "They say Ms. Meril dumps all the rotten vegetables into a pot and then adds a special ingredient, that I personally believe to be..."
You had stopped listening to her a while ago as your eyes stared at the image in front of you.
You would have recognized that hair from a mile away.
He was there. Joel was there.
And not alone.
Your eyes fully focused on the man and woman in front of the pub.
You could see they were talking, and not just that.
Her hand was on his chest, as she stood so close to him they could probably taste each other's breaths.
You couldn't see his face, Joel's face, your boyfriend's face, but what you could very well see was that he wasn't pushing her away or protesting in any other way.
If you hadn't known any better you would have thought they were about to kiss.
And just then, you realized that you did, in fact, not know any better.Â
You felt your heart speed up, as your feet slowed down, unconsciously coming to a stop.
That's why he had to leave in a rush?
To go fuck another woman?
As much as you felt the rage boiling inside of you like a fire, what really prevailed was the pain of the realization.
You stood there, watching them, as tears clogged your throat.
So much for I love you
So much for I was lost before you
You could physically feel your stomach twist and turn and suddenly you were nauseous.
All this time, you thought, and he's cheating on me
"Hey, you ok?" Ellie's voice was distant, muffled behind the wave of emotions coming at you.
When you didn't respond, she followed your line of sight, still firmly pointed at the pair.
"Oh fuck" she said quietly, making everything worse.
You had secretly wished she would have seen something else, given you an explanation, and laughed at how crazy you were being, but her tone told you everything you needed to know.
"I'm-I'm sorry y/n"Â
Never, had you heard her stutter.
"I can't believe this- he's an asshole, I'm gonna-" she took a breath "I'm gonna beat him up, and he's gonna regret this, I swear"
As much as you wanted to laugh, you feared the moment you opened your mouth a sob would have fled it instead.
"I can't believe this" she repeated, and the truth was, you couldn't either.
You were happy. There was nothing that didn't work, you had a great relationship, you barely fought, you loved each other's presence, everything was good... or so you thought at least.
And he had thrown it all down the drain
And for what? For some slut he just met?
No, you immediately stopped yourself, No I'm not gonna be one of those women that blames the other woman.
This is all his fault.Â
He's a cheating, lying bastard who doesn't deserve a minute more of my time, you decided, taking a breath.
"Let's go," you told Ellie
She frowned, confused "A-are you sure"
"let's go"
__ __ __
Ellie hadn't left your side for a second.Â
You were sat side by side on the couch, your gaze fixated on the chimney in front of you, as Ellie probably rummaged through her mind to think of something to say.
You were frozen. All the anger and the pain mixing together to create a seeming numbness.
"Listen I-"Â
Ellie's words immediately stopped when the front door opened.
"Hi, I'm home!" He half yelled from the entrance.
"Hello?" He spoke again once he didn't get an answer.
His heavy steps sounded against the floor as he started walking to the living room.
"Where is every-" he stopped once he saw you "There you are, why didn't you answer?"
The confusion on his face only multiplied once you took both your expressions in.
"what is it?" he asked, clueless "I'm sorry I couldn't come get you today something came up"
"Yeah, something," Ellie remarked, disappointment clear in her tone.
Joel frowned "What are you talking about?" he asked, "what's she on about?" he turned to you now.
You were about to speak when the girl beside you interrupted you.
"You know very well what I'm talking about Joel, don't play dumb"
The wrinkles on his forehead increased as his puzzlement persisted.
"You should be ashamed of yourself," she said "I can't believe you would do something like that, especially to y/n"
"what are you-"
"we saw you" Ellie anticipated his question "In town"
"I don't kno-"
The girl wouldn't let him speak, and you'd be lying if you said that didn't make you feel a tiny bit better.
"there's no point in lying anymore we saw you with our own eyes Joel"
He looked at you once again, and you adverted his gaze to look at the very angry girl at your side.
"thank you, Ellie, but I think I can take it from here"
She hesitated, looking between you two "You sure?"
"yes" you swallowed your nerves away "don't worry"
She shot Joel a look for far longer than necessary and then finally got up.
"alright" she nodded "I'm gonna go next door then, but if you need anything just yell," she said, starting down the doorway, but not before stopping at Joel's side "And you... I'm not talking to you anymore" she decided, getting out and closing the door behind her.
The silence that filled the room was louder than any sound you'd ever heard, except the one of your pounding heart of course.
You stood up, walking to the other side of the couch so you were facing him but you were still carefully distant.
"What is going on?" Joel finally spoke
You took a deep breath, reminding yourself that you needed to keep your cool because you're sure as hell not wasting any voice or tears over this asshole
"Joel I know you're cheating on me, or at least have cheated"
"What?"
"When I was getting Ellie home from school we saw you in front of the pub"
You watched as realization crammed his face.
"y/n that was not what you think"
"I'm sure it wasn't Joel" you rolled your eyes "Listen I don't care for any lame excuse or apology, I just need to know one thing... why?" you said "You at least owe me that. Everything was good wasn't it? What was it that made you feel the need to go and fuck some other woman?" for all your promises your voice was getting louder.
"I didn't- y/n I've never cheated on you"
"stop lying!" you burst "Be an adult and fucking own up to what you've done!"Â
"y/n" he stepped closer to you and you took a step back.
"stop" You put a hand in front of you, signaling for him to not take another step "Answer my question"
Now he took a breath. And god if you didn't want to punch him.
You're frustrated? You're mad? How do you think I feel?
"y/n" he spoke again, his tone more even, "I swear to god sweetheart I have not cheated on you. The woman you saw me with is Jessie, She's just Tommy's friend. Nothing happened, Of course, nothing happened baby, I love you, you know that. I would never hurt youâ
âOh please, so you're telling me all of Tommy's friends get their mouths that close to yours?"
His lips gaped open, as he struggled to find the right words.
"Alright," he breathed, convincing you you were about to get a confession.
A mix of nausea and homicidal rage electrified your body.
"She is... well, she had been- flirting with me," he said "But I've never led her on, sweetheart, I would never do that, I don't have eyes for anyone but you" he sighed, and his deep brown eyes were pained "Listen," he took a step, and this time, for some unknown reason, your feet wouldn't budge, "My brother called me about an emergency and I rushed there to help"
"an emergency at the pub?"
"just-" There was anxiety and sadness creeping up his voice "Please let me finish, I swear it's not what you think baby"
"fine" you nodded
"I helped him out and he invited me for a drink over at the pub and I accepted. We talked for a while and then when I was about to go, Jessie showed up, and she was trying to get me to go to her house, to which I said no and headed out, but she kept following me until we were outside, and that's when she cornered me and I decided it was time to stop being nice and tell her I don't want anything to do with her"
Silence fell again.
"I can call Tommy if you want, he saw all of this"
"Like he wouldn't lie for you" you commented
"You're right, but you also know how strict he is about these things"
that's true, you had to admit.
"Please sweetheart" he begged, his hand trying to grasp at yours "Y/n I love you, I love you more than anything, I'd give my life for you, I'd do anything for you" he promised "I know it's hard to believe me but I swear to anything and anyone you want that I'm telling the truth. we can even ask Jessie if you want, just please- I need you to believe me" If he sounded desperate it's because he was.
"If that's true why didn't you push her away?"
"I-" he stuttered "I didn't because I didn't want to cause a scene, I just wanted to talk like a civilized person, like you always say I should do more"
You bit your lip, trying to make some sense of the mess in your brain.
"Joel" you huffed "Are you being honest? Because I'm giving you a chance to come clean now and if I were you I'd take it"
"I am" he answered within a second "I am sweetheart, I'd never cheat on you, you're the love of my life for god's sake," he said, his hand finally grasping yours.
You looked up at him, and a dark pang of surprise came over you as you noticed the glinting glaze on his eyes matching yours.
"please" he murmured "I can't lose you y/n, not over something like this. I understand how you could have misread things, I do, but I promise that's not what happened." he breathed "I'm yours y/n, I only want to be yours"Â
Your eyes fell to where your fingers intertwined, all the memories rushing back like a raging river.
"You promise?"
"I promise," he said, and you believed him. because this was Joel Miller we were talking about, the man that you had fallen for since he first saved you, and kept falling for each time he saved you again. He was a good man, no, not the traditional definition of that term, but to you, he was a good man, the best man.
"alright" you decided "Seems like I'm gonna have to have a talk with Jessie"
"And I with Ellie" A small grin tugged at his lips
"Oh she's pissed alright" you chuckled "I don't know if I'd do that if I were you"
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I have covid (for the first time ever wtf) and Iâm feeling sick and pathetic. Just thinkinâ bout how I have to take care of myself and I hate it. How do you think sugar daddy Joel would take care of our sugar baby reader without spending any money if she got Covid or the flu??
I need some fluff to get me thru. PS I love u and your writing so flipping much.
Sugar Daddy!Joel Miller x F!Reader
Word Count: 1.1k
Warnings: mentions of illness, reader can eat chicken noodle soup, reader has hair that can be brushed away from her face
Timeline: this does not fit into the current TCOY story line and is just a separate drabble in the same universe!
[a/n: first of all, OH NO. I know how bad COVID sucks. (fun fact I've had it on five separate occasions, I basically collect a new round of it every time a new strain runs through our hospital). Please please please make sure you stay hydrated above all else! Obviously I don't know your medical history, but the best general advice is to not get dehydrated. Your body needs fluids to fight the good battle. second, I love YOU and I know this isn't much and it's not that great b/c I threw it together in fifteen minutes but I hope it makes you feel a little better, my loveđ]
TCOY DRABBLE:
HOMEMADE IS BETTER THAN STORE BOUGHT
"happiness is homemade."
âBaby girl, I need you to sit up for me.â Joel hummed.
You were buried in the thick comforter of his bed feeling absolutely miserable. The cold had come on suddenly. A small cough, more irritating than anything else, spiraled into full body aches, a splitting migraine, and congestion so bad that it felt like your head was filled with concrete. Joelâs heavy hand brushed aside the hair matted to your forehead with dried sweat. Your fever was lingering last Joel checked, but the Nyquil he forced you to take with a bottle of water earlier was helping some.
Joel murmured your name once more and you just moaned in response. You felt the bed dip with his weight and his hand dragged up and down your back. The motion brought with it a comfort on par with medication itself.Â
âYou think you can eat somethin', sugar?â Joel asked.
âMaybe later.â You mumbled. âSleepy.â
âThatâs probably the Nyquil.â Joel replied. âI sent Riley to pick up some stuff from the store.â
You felt Joel lean over and his lips brushed against your temple. You shook your head, âYouâre gonna get sick. I should quarantine alone.â You buried yourself deeper into his bed. With your nose stuffed like it was, you couldnât smell his sheets and that bothered you more than it probably shouldâve. âDonât you have that meeting today too?â
âIf you think Iâm leavin' you like this, sugar, then that feverâs got you delusional.â Joel snorted. You felt the covers you had bundled yourself in begin to untangle and a whine that could only be described as pathetic slipped your lips. Before you knew it though, Joel was under the thick comforter with you and you felt yourself get pulled into his warm chest. âCâmon, baby girl. Sleep it off.â
You snuggled closer into his grip and focused on the random patterns he was rubbing on your shoulder with his hand. As a human, this was obviously not the first time you had gotten sick, but something about this time felt different. With Joelâs thick arms wrapped around you it dawned on you that it was him. The last time you were sick you were forced to take care of yourself and work through it. Having your sugar daddy around made you needy as all hell it seemed, but the comfort Joel immediately showed you had you melting against his chest.
âWhen I wake up, can I have soup?â You blurted the words out, half asleep.
Before sleep took you completely, you heard Joelâs deep chuckle, felt it rumble against you, âSugar, you can have anythin' you want.â
When you woke up, you did feel marginally better. Joel was no longer in bed with you and you slowly sat up to rub at your face. You craved a hot shower to wash off the sweat and open your sinuses a bit more. A groan left your lips, still feeling crummy, and you began to climb out of bed.
âWhoa, whoa, pump the brakes.â Joel called out. He came into the room holding a tray and you chuckled at the sight of him. He set the tray down on the nightstand to usher you back into bed. âWhere do you think youâre goin'?â
You gave him a tired smile, âShower. I feel icky.â
âIcky?â Joel asked and you nodded. He chuckled and leaned forward to press his lips on your forehead again. He sat back and rubbed a hand against your leg. âThink you can stomach somethin' first?â You nodded again and Joel grabbed the tray. It looked like a bowl of chicken noodle soup, but not the kind that came out of a can of Campbellâs. âHere we go.â
You tilted your head, âWhereâd you buy the soup?â
âDidnât.â Joel grinned. âMade it.â
âYou made it??â
âUh huh.â It was honestly adorable how proud he looked of it. âHomemade is better than store bought, right? Gets you better quicker.â
You laughed, âIâm not so sure about the science behind that.â
âNo, no. When I googled the recipe it definitely said this would get you better faster.â Joel teased.
You picked up the spoon and carefully blew the heat away before bringing it to your lips. The first thing you tasted was salt. A lot of salt. Too much salt. You coughed in response and tried not to twist your face to reveal the reaction. You cleared your throat and smiled, âYum.â
Joel furrowed his brow, âWhatâs wrong? No good?â
âNo. Itâs†Itâs good.â You said quickly. âItâs⊠I like the, uh, theâŠâÂ
Joel grabbed the spoon from your fingers to take a sip himself and he immediately spluttered with a cough and groan, âWhat the fuck is that?â Your lips twitched up into another smile. âThat tastes awful. Jesus Christ. Gimme that.â
He took the tray from you and set it on the nightstand again away from you. You set a hand on the side of your face while watching his face crumple into a grumpy look of annoyance. You shook your head, âWhat did it taste like as you were making it?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âYou know. While you were making it did it taste okay?â You clarified. Joel narrowed his eyes at you in thought and you tilted your head. ââŠDid you taste it while making it?â
âYouâre supposed to eat it while you make it??â
You laughed, âNot eat. Just taste.â
âShit.â Joel scoffed. âI ate some of the chicken and it was good.â You reached out and cupped his face. He looked annoyed with himself, but at your touch the grumpy demeanor morphed into a soft look of concern and disappointment. Joel sighed and turned his head to press a kiss to your palm before leaning into your touch again. âIâm so sorry, sugar. Just wanted to do somethin' nice for you myself rather than just buyâŠâ
You shook your head, âThis was nice. I loved it.â
âThere is no way you loved that soup. It was just salt, damn it.â
âNo, but I love that you tried.â You replied. âItâs the effort that counts.â
âThatâs just what people say when they fuck up.â He grumbled.
You leaned forward and kissed the tip of his nose, âYou said the homemade version would make me feel better, and this has definitely made me feel better, daddy.â
Joel wrapped his hand around the back of your neck and stared softly for a moment before his smile returned. âYou missed my lips, sugar.â
âI already told you. Iâm icky.â
âDonât care. Still want you.â
âYou are already pushing your luck.â You scoffed in amusement. âYou are gonna end up sick.â
Joel pulled you closer, and even at full strength youâd never be capable of refusing this man. He paused with his lips just barely touching yours. âIâll risk it.â Joelâs lips sealed against yours tenderly. A soft kiss of comfort rather than of passion. A wordless act of reassurance that he was there. Joelâs tongue just barely brushed against yours before he leaned back and left you wanting more. He hummed, âYou taste like salt.â
âYeah, gee, I wonder whose fault that is.â
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Ep 3 of The Last Of Us was at least more interesting than last weeks episode. Ironic that the most fun I've had with the show so far is when I catch a glimpse of just how Joel was living his life the last 20 or so years. That being said they made one vital error that made me not be able to emotionally care about the characters spotlighted in this episode. They made Frank really unlikeable at the beginning and they rushed his romantic and sexual relationship with Bill. Like I get that in the apocalypse when you haven't seen another human being for a long time emotions can be heightened and the need for human contact can be so great that you aren't exactly going to be taking people out on 2 or 3 dates before you fuck them but come on ONE day? Not even a full day? For someone so paranoid like Bill I just couldn't buy that, at least give them a week or two. Also I didn't like how Bill seemed just so scared when they were about to sleep together for the first time (after knowing each other a couple hours maybe) like why the fuck was the actor told to play him that way?! It made me uncomfortable and made Frank seem like a predator and I didn't like it. Also Bill was right, Frank should not be using up his fuel just to mow the lawn and shouldn't have been inviting Joel and Tess to them without Bill's permission, just because it ended up working out doesn't change the fact it was a huge risk in the middle of the fucking apocalypse.
Overall though with some minor tweaks I'd have probably liked this episode more than Ep1 but because of the botched beginning to that relationship I ended up only caring about how Joel reacted to what happened to them because so far the only character I've managed to create any meaningful connection with is Joel. I feel like a better way to give us Frank and Bill's story would have been for Joel and Ellie to actually meet them in person first, let us get to know them through the characters we are meant to care about and THEN show us their story (and eventual joint suicide which I'm just gonna say it coupled committing suicide because one thing bad happens to one of them wasn't romantic when it was Romeo and Juliet and it isn't romantic now. Also bad case of bury your gays when one of those characters is apparently alive in the game so.....)
All that being said this episode was pure padding in a series that really didn't need it. The Last Of Us game is long. The cutscenes alone are almost 4 hours, that's almost 2 movie lengths, the season is only 9 episodes and they've already speedrun to getting Joel and Ellie meeting in Episode 1. Like I now know the creator who's helping on this show was the one with more or less full creative control of TLOU2 so he must really want to get to his story by Season 2 but considering I know most fans while they might like Part 2 most will agree its not as good as Part 1 (which is why Naughty Dog continue to milk Part 1 for all its worth) I figured they'd try to pass Part 1 out to at least 2 seasons on which case padding episodes like this would have been expected and necessary but they aren't. They clearly intend to finish this season with the end of the first game. They're apparently casting for Abby right now so next season is going to be Part 2 (poor Pedro Pascal they can't let his handsome face catch a break its either getting smashed in or hidden by a helmet these days).
Also why are they now telling us how many miles they are outside if x y or z place when in Episode 1 Joel and Tess just sort of teleport from inside the Quarantine Zone to wherever Ellie is without even showing us A. How they got there and B. Where Ellie even was in relation to where they started. Either locations and distances matter or they don't cause genuinely I laughed when Joel just appeared where Ellie was cause I was so confused I didn't know if they were in the same place this whole time or if someone had moved and we just weren't shown how it was all so bad it was comical.
Also what the fuck was Ellie doing to that Infected in the basement? Genuinely question like she's acting like one of the kids who'd burn ants it's quiet unsettling.
And lastly for the dudebros who'll tell me im a toxic gamer purist, I haven't played The Last Of Us. I understand changes have to be made. I'm not against Ep3 existing as I said I was at least less bored in this episode cause I decided I did actually kinda like Bill and thus what happened to him mattered to me. BUT I find it odd that such a short series based on quite long source material (I'm aware plenty of the gameplay material can't translate to television very well) needed padding but as padding goes this wasn't terrible.
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** sour sentence starters.
brutal.
â i think that iâll die before i drink. â
â i'm so caught up in the news of who likes me and who hates you. â
â i'm so tired that I might quit my job, start a new life. â
â they'd all be so disappointed because who am I if not exploited? â
â where's my fuckin' teenage dream? â
â if someone tells me one more time "enjoy your youth," I'm gonna cry. â
â i'm anxious and nothing can help. â
â i wish I'd done this before. â
â i wish people liked me more. â
â all I did was try my best. â
â this the kind of thanks I get? â
â they say these are the golden years. â
â i wish I could disappear. â
â god, it's brutal out here. â
â i feel like no one wants me. â
â i only have two real friends. â
â lately I'm a nervous wreck. â
â i love people I don't like. â
â i hate every song I write. â
â i'm not cool, and I'm not smart. â
â i can't even parallel park. â
â got a broken ego, broken heart. â
â i don't even know where to start. â
traitor.
â brown guilty eyes and little white lies. â
â i played dumb but I always knew. â
â i kept quiet so I could keep you. â
â  ain't it funny how you ran to her the second that we called it quits? â
â  ain't it funny how you said you were friends? â
â it sure as hell don't look like it. â
â you betrayed me. â
â i know that you'll never feel sorry for the way I hurt. â
â loved you at your worst but that didn't matter. â
â guess you didn't cheat, but you're still a traitor. â
â there's no damn way that you could fall in love with somebody that quickly. â
â ain't it funny, all the twisted games, all the questions you used to avoid? â
â remember I brought her up and you told me I was paranoid? â
â i wish that you had thought this through before I went and fell in love with you. â
â you gave me your word but that didn't matter. â
drivers license.Â
â i got my driver's license last week. â
â just like we always talked about. â
â today I drove through the suburbs crying 'cause you weren't around. â
â you're probably with that blonde girl. â
â she's so much older than me. âÂ
â she's everything I'm insecure about. â
â how could I ever love someone else?  â
â i know we weren't perfect but I've never felt this way for no one. â
â i just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I'm gone. â
â guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me. â
â all my friends are tired of hearing how much I miss you. â
â I kinda feel sorry for them because they'll never know you the way that I do. â
â i still see your face in the white cars, front yards. â
â can't drive past the places we used to go to because I still fuckin' love you. â
1 step forward, 3 steps back.
â i called you on the phone today. â
â all I did was speak normally. â
â you got me fucked up in the head. â
â like am I pretty? am I fun? â
â i hate that I gave you power over that kind of stuff. â
â  it's always one step forward and three steps back. â
â i'm the love of your life until I make you mad. â
â do you love me, want me, hate me? i don't understand. â
â  maybe in some masochistic way I kind of find it all exciting. â
â which lover will I get today? â
â will you walk me to the door or send me home cryin'? â
â it's back and forth, did I say somethin' wrong? â
â it's back and forth, goin' over everything I said. â
â i'd leave you, but the roller coaster's all I've ever had. â
deja vu.
â strawberry ice cream, one spoon for two? â
â i bet she's braggin' to all her friends, sayin' you're so unique. â
â so when you gonna tell her that we did that, too? â
â that was our place, I found it first. â
â i made the jokes you tell to her when she's with you. â
â do you get dĂ©jĂ vu when she's with you? â
â do you call her, almost say my name? â
â i hate to think that I was just your type. â
â don't act like we didn't do that shit too. â
â play her piano, but she doesn't know that I was the one who taught you Billy Joel. â
good 4 u.
â well, good for you, I guess you moved on really easily. â
â you found a new girl and it only took a couple weeks. â
â remember when you said that you wanted to give me the world? â
â good for you, I guess that you've been workin' on yourself. âÂ
â i guess that therapist I found for you, she really helped. â
â now you can be a better man for your brand new girl. â
â well, good for you, you look happy and healthy. â
â not me, if you ever cared to ask. â
â good for you, you're doin' great out there without me. â
â i've lost my mind. â
â i've spent the night cryin' on the floor in my bathroom. â
â it's like we never even happened. â
â what the fuck is up with that? â
â good for you, it's like you never even met me. â
â remember when you swore to god i was the only person who ever got you? â
â well, screw that and screw you. â
â you will never have to hurt the way you know that I do. â
â maybe I'm too emotional. â
â your apathy's like a wound in salt. â
â maybe I'm too emotional or maybe you never cared at all. â
â like a damn sociopath. â
enough for you.
â i wore makeup when we dated because I thought you'd like me more. â
â i know that you loved before. â
â tried so hard to be everything that you like. â
â i read all of your self-help books so you'd think that I was smart. â
â stupid, emotional, obsessive little me. â
â i knew from the start this is exactly how you'd leave. â
â you found someonĐ” more exciting. â
â you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong. â
â you always say I'm never satisfied but I don't think that's true. â
â all I ever wanted was to be enough for you. â
â maybe I'm just not as interesting as the girls you had before. â
â you couldn't have cared less about someone who loved you more. â
â i'd say you broke my heart but you broke much more than that. â
â i donât want your sympathy, i just want myself back. â
â donât you think i loved you too much to be used and discarded? â
â don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing? â
â donât tell me youâre sorry, feel sorry for yourself. â
â someday iâll be everything to somebody else. â
â youâll be the one crying. â
happier.
â we broke up a month ago. â
â your friends are mine you know. â
â youâve moved on, found someone new. â
â i thought my heart was detached from all the sunlight of our past. â
â sheâs so sweet, sheâs so pretty. â
â does she mean you forgot about me ? â
â i hope youâre happy but not like how you were with me. â
â iâm selfish i know. i canât let you go. â
â find someone great, but donât find no one better. â
â i hope youâre happy, but donât be happier. â
 â do you tell her sheâs the most beautiful girl youâve ever seen? â
â an eternal love bullshit you know youâll never mean. â
â remember when i believe you meant it when you said it first to me? â
â now iâm picking her apart like cutting her down will make you miss my wretched heart. â
â sheâs beautiful, she looks kind. â
â she probably gives you butterflies. â
â i wish you all the best, really. â
â say you love her, just not like you loved me. â
â think of me fondly when your hands are on her. â
jealousy jealousy.
â i kinda wanna throw my phone across the room. â
â all i see are girls too good to be true. â
â i know their beautyâs not my lack but it feels like that weight is on my back. â
â comparison is killing me slowly. â
â i think i think too much. â
â iâm so sick of myself, iâd rather be anyone else. â
â my jealousy started following me. â
â i see everyone getting all the things i want. â
â iâm happy for them, but then again, iâm not. â
â i canât stand it. âÂ
â oh god i sound crazy. â
â their win is not my loss, i know itâs true. â
â i canât help getting caught up in it all. â
â all your friends are so cool. â
â you go out every night. â
â youâre living the life. â
â i want to be you so bad, and i donât even know you. â
â all i see is what i should be. â
favourite crime.
â know that i love you so bad. â
â i let you treat me like that. â
â i was your willing accomplice. â
â i watched as you fled the scene. â
â doe-eyed as you buried me. â
â the things i did just so i could call you mine. â
â the things you did. well, i hope i was your favourite crime. â
â you used me as an alibi. â
â i crossed my heart and you crossed the line. â
â i defended you to all my friends. â
â every time i siren sounds, i wonder if youâre around. â
â you know that iâd do it all again. â
â itâs bittersweet to think about the damage that weâd do. â
â i was going down but i was doing it with you. â
â i say that i hate you with a smile on my face. â
â look what we became. âÂ
hope ur ok.
â his parents cared more about the bible than being good to their own child. â
â wore long sleeves because of his dad. â
â somehow we fell out of touch. â
â hope he took his bad deal and made a royal flush. â
â donât know if iâll see you again someday. â
â i hope that youâre okay. â
â her parents hated who she loved. â
â she was brought into a world where family was merely blood. âÂ
â with the courage to unlearn all of their hatred. â
â we donât talk much. â
â i miss you and i hope that youâre okay. â
â address the letter to the holes in my butterfly wings. â
â nothingâs forever, nothing is as good as it seems. â
â when the clouds are ironed our and the monsters creep into your house, every door is hard to close. â
â i hope you know how proud i am. â
â i hope that youâre happier today. â
â i love you and i hope that youâre okay. â Â
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karaoke w the bloomic LI's (+ onion + 2two)
pairing: bloomic boys headcanons, theres no reader character in this but U can Like... Imagine ur there
prompt: hcs about doing karaoke with the boys! :D
tags: headcanons, foul language, alcohol mention(s), no pronouns or gender-specific language, fluff!!!, not proofread bc this was very stream of consciousness in my notes app
enjoy!!!! :DDD
XYX
song: Never Gonna Give You Up - Rick Astley
only sings funnyman songs
eg: all star, country roads, the pokemon intro...
does NOT take it seriously AT ALL
the first song he sings is a rickroll (obviously)
but annoyingly is not a bad singer
(because he's good at everything apparently...)
(he goofs around but his voice really suits those like frank sinatra, johnny cash esque songs...)
enjoys himself A Lot he likes listening and making fun of everyone's song choices
has the most fun singing together w everyone! (you did wannabe by the spice girls one time and he swears those were the best three minutes of his life)
NAKED TOASTER
song: Dancing Queen - Abba
VERY shy about it
doesn't wanna sing at all at first but xyx forces encourages him to (and he has a bit to drink)
when he does end up singing he picks very classic karaoke songs so everyone can sing along!!!
(their face is FLUSHED afterwards but they did have fun)
not a bad singer per se but they struggle w melody and tone and stuff
(+ he doesn't sing seriously because he Is Embarrassed)
also the type to forget the lyrics (even if they're on the screen right in front of them)
prefers listening to the others sing and provide backup vocals/instrumental
the guy with the maracas/tambourine
NIGHTOWL
song: Gotta Go My Own Way - High School Musical
the Musical Theatre guy... Or like really trashy 2000s pop
sings duets by himself.......
the one that suggested you all do this LOL
hes suuuuper high energy.. hes having so much fun
his neighbours ring his doorbell like Seven times and ask him to Shut Up
(he does not)
bad singer and he owns it
(his charisma makes up for it)
puts on a whole performance, jumping around, using a hairbrush for a microphone and shit
QUEST
song: Take On Me - A-ha
this guy.. he sings old songs.... like queen maybe billy joel stuff like that
probably the best singer out of all of them .. but he doesn't take the compliment
loooves karaoke.. loves suggesting songs you all do loves listening.. Hes just a karaoke guy
he needs a couple of drinks to get out of his shell fully but then hes unstoppable
hypes everyone up SO much full on cheering and shit
likes singing romantic duets... ;-)
in general, he does like Ten Minute Long ballads but no one minds because hes a good singer... and hot guy privilege
ONIONTHIEF
song: Mr Brightside - The Killers
does NOT want to sing
but nightowl picked a song and now he HAS to.. tch
(embarrassed but he is a good singer... and hes probably cocky abt it...)
"Ugh, can I go now." when the song is done (doesn't go.) (doesn't want to go)
probably judging everyone's song choices ("Pff, nightowl. Britney Spears? Really?")
he literally listens to Like mcr and shit in secret But OK!!!! !!!!!!!!!!
("Their lyrics are poetic." OK emo boy.)
does end up having a little fun Maybe but hes being all tsundere abt it -__-
TWO2
song: I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry
the music guy
not a singer but his mum probably made him go to choir or something so he can hold a tune
another hype man! loves singing with his friends! and loves telling them that!
picks songs from every category probably, like he will sing the beatles and avril lavigne right after
has fun no matter what... likes singing by himself, listening to the other, singing together.. he is just a little guy
knows Literally every song ever... I feel like he has super broad tastes
notes: had thoughts. me and friends did a little discord karaoke thing recently and i was like yeah this is cool but what if Blooming Panic LOve Interets. loads of thoughts abt the li's tastes in music btw send me an ask and i will talk about it more ;-)
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Part XVI: Camping
Authorâs Notes: Just a romantic trip out in the woods. Thanks for reading! I hope you guys like it. Iâve been really busy lately and Iâve had this chapter half written for like a month. I wanted to get it right and I feel like this is pretty good, so again, I hope yâall like it. Hopefully I can start writing on a more consistent schedule again soon. And last but not least MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Genre: Peak Fluffiness IMO
Summary: You and Joel go on the aforementioned camping trip from the last chapter. You guys fish and hike and all that nature ooey gooey fluffy mess.
Ship: Joel x Reader
âYou ready for this?â Joel looked back at you as he packed the backseat of a station wagon. Being a prominent figure in town, he was able to pull some strings and borrow the keys to a newly fixed up car.
âAs Iâll ever be.â You gave him your bag.
The two of you drove down one of the patrol routes for about 45 minutes before Joel turned down an unpaved pathway. Feeling your weariness, he gently took your hand in his. You turned to him for a second before laying your head back on the rest and closing your eyes. The slow tunes flowed from the stereos and filled the car. Before the trip, you went down to the library and checked out a handful of cassette tapes to get you through the car ride. Just as you finally let yourself relax to the hum of the engine and Joelâs voice, the car shut off.
âThink hereâs a good place to stop and set up camp.â He said, turning to you. You took in your surroundings, noticing that he had parked in a small clearing circled by tall pine trees. It was a serene view and for that, you offered a small smile.
âI think youâre right.â
The two of you unpacked the trunk. There wasnât much: just a tent, sleeping bags, your backpacks, fishing poles and a cooler. As Joel carried out the last of the items, you decided to take initiative and start putting up the tent. You convinced yourself that it couldnât possibly be as difficult as it looked; It was just fabric and poles. You could hear Joel snickering from behind as you struggled to hold everything together. Expletives left your mouth before he decided to step in and help. He took one of the poles out of your hand, turned it around and snapped it into place with ease. Rolling your eyes, you grabbed another set of poles and followed suit. You finished up the tent while he set up some simple booby traps around the perimeter of the clearing.
After getting settled, the two of you hiked hand in hand to a wide river. He sat the cooler down next to a boulder and took one of the rods that you were holding. Patting the boulder, he beckoned you to sit next to him. Shoulders touching, you watched as he pulled a can of worms from the cooler and baited it onto the hook.
âNow, mine is all set, so Iâm gonna show you how to set up yours so we can fish together.â Joel said. âGrab your hook. You wanna tie it to the line. A simple little knot will do.â You tried to mimic his actions. âWell no, like this, darlinâ. Thread the line through the hook, then bring it back, wrapping it around itself a few times. Feed the end back through the loop and pull tight.â He let out a little grunt that you found adorable. He handed the rod back over and reached for the can of worms.
âDo I have to use worms?â
âYouâre not squeamish are you?â Joel smirked. He knew you werenât, but teased anyway.
âI just feel bad for impaling a live worm.â
He shook his head. âWell then youâre not gonna like what weâre about to do with the fish.â You shot a look at him. âYou do want to eat tonight, donât you?â He continued to tease.
âJust pass me the can.â You stuck your fingers in the slimy conglomeration and pulled out a long one.
âThatâs a good one. Now, bait it like how I did. Hook it through as many times as you can to secure it. If not, it can fall off into the water or a fish can grab it before getting hooked.â Joel peared over your shoulder to make sure you did it right. âGreat! Now letâs get on to the fun part.â Leaving his rod on the ground, he walked you over to the edge of the river and stood behind you. He adjusted the line before ghosting his hand over yours. âYou want to draw your arm back,â He pulled your arm up, guiding the rod as well. âAnd snap it forward.â In one sweeping motion, he pushed your arm back down and the line shot out from the rod and into the body of water. A large smile was plastered on your face.
âNow we wait?â
âNow we wait.â He confirmed.
Joel grabbed his own rod and repeated the motions. You remembered him saying that he was rusty, but in your eyes he looked like a pro. The two of you traded glances before hunkering down in your respective spots. You didnât realize how much patience was needed to fish and after all that waiting, all you were going to get was one fish. Your mind began to think back to a documentary you saw long ago about commercial fishing and it made you wish for a large net to replace the rod. You glanced back at Joel only to find him in a completely relaxed state with his rod positioned between his knees and his arms crossed behind his head while leaning against a large rock. Your gaze lingered on his form until you felt a jerk from your rod. A yelp left your mouth. The line began to pull out of the rod at an accelerated speed. Anxious, you stood back up. Joel abandoned his rod and ran over to you. From behind, he guided your hand to spin the reel. He slowly lifted your rod as you continued to reel the line back in. Suddenly, a fish broke the surface of the river. You didnât stop spinning the reel until it was eye level with you.
âOkay, hold it steady. Iâll unhook the fish.â Joel instructed. The fish was wiggling around violently. âDamn, I shoulda brought a net.â With two hands, he grabbed it. âGah dammit!â
âAre you ok?â You exclaimed.
âYeah, just a lilâ scratch.â Joel was referring to the gash on his forearm caused by the fish spines.
Carefully, you sat the rod down and he talked you through unhooking the fish. After it came out, you put the fish on some ice in the cooler. When you looked back at Joel, he was shirtless. He used his button down to put pressure on the wound. You told him to sit and wait while you went back to the car for the first aid kit, but insisted that he was fine and wanted to continue fishing. You could tell he was serious, so you agreed to stay so long as he let you look at it after another fish was caught. You picked up your rod and did exactly as he showed you. You were able to cast it longer than before. You hoped that meant you could catch something quicker this time.
âSon of a bitch!â Joel exclaimed. You turned to see his hand covering his neck.
âWhat happened? Let me see.â You ran to him and moved his hand out the way to reveal a hook caught in his skin. It was only a flesh wound and it didnât dig deep enough to hit a main artery but it was still stuck in there. âHow did this happen?â
âI whipped my arm back too far causing the line to cast out in the wrong direction. When I snapped forward, the hook flew right into my neck.â
âDoes it hurt?â
âOnly when I touch it.â
âI gotta get it out for you.â You took out your pocket knife and cut the wire off the hook. Joel winced as you tried to finagle it out carefully. âThere!â You held it out in front of him. You noticed the tiny wound turn red as it began to slowly bleed. âCan we just go back to camp now? That fish is big enough for the both of us and I packed some snacks for us.â
âAlright, letâs go.â Joel said. He held a small cloth to his neck with his one hand and carried the cooler in the other.
Back at camp, you patched up Joelâs arm and neck. He let out a deep sigh âWhatâs wrong?â You asked.
He sat there in silence before responding. âI just feel like an idiot. Who gets a hook caught in their neck?â
âIt was an accident.â
âLook at me, darlinâ. Tommyâs gonna see me when I get back and think we ran into a horde or somethinâ. I wonât hear the end of it when I tell him it was all from some fishinâ. Between the fish cuttinâ me up and not catching anything, Iâm just...just a little annoyed. I had a...uh...vision of how I wanted this trip to go and I feel like itâs not working out.â
âJoel, we just got here! We still have tomorrow to enjoy it. Besides, todayâs not over. You said you were gonna show me how to fish and you did exactly that. I saw you relaxing while we were waiting for a bite. We were one with nature. Tell me that was not a part of your vision.â
He shrugged. âSâpose youâre right.â
âOk, so how about you find yourself a non-bloody shirt to wear and Iâll start a fire. Deal?â
He chuckled. âDeal.â
The two of you sat by the campfire and ate the fish you caught. The sun had just finished setting by the time you were done. After several minutes of enjoying each otherâs company in silence, Joel suggested playing a song. A soft grunt left his mouth as he got up and made his way to the car. From the trunk, he got his trusty 6 string and began to play a tune as he walked back to you. He sang a little bit here and there, but mostly he kept playing the same complex chord over and over again.
âHey there.â He spoke up after nudging you. âYou wouldnât happen to be fallinâ asleep on me now would you.â
âAsleep? Of course not.â You began in a drowsy tone. âJust resting my eyes is all.â
He put his guitar down. âProbably about time we both rest our eyes.â
*****
âHey, darlinâ, itâs time to get up.â You woke up to Joelâs voice. It was still dark.
âWhy? Itâs not even morning yet.â You said in a whisper.
âActually, it is. Câmon, (Y/N), I gotta show you somethinâ.â
âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothinâs wrong. Just gotta show you somethinâ is all.â
âNow, Joel?â
âPreferably yes.â
After your eyes adjusted to your surroundings, you noticed that Joel was already dressed and ready. You hurried up and did the same. As soon as you exited the tent, he held out his hand for you to take. He gave it a gentle squeeze before guiding you down a wooded path.
âWhere are we going?â You asked.
âItâs a surprise.â Joel responded.
âYou know, this isnât the first time youâve blindly led me through the woods under the guise of a surprise.â
âI know and if I recall correctly, it went well so if it ainât broke....â
âOkay, well why did we have to get up this early?â
âBecause itâs part of the surprise.â The two of you hiked up the side of a small mountain as the dark sky began to lighten. âWeâre running late.â He gently tugged on your hand as the two of you broke into a jog. You almost ran into him when he abruptly stopped at the edge of the peak. âThere.â He pointed to the east and your gaze followed.
From where you were, only a small section of the sky was illuminated with an orange glow. All of the trees below you were still shrouded in nightimeâs darkness. Watching the sun rise was a slow progression that made you realize how much of a sweaty mess you were. It wasnât until 15 minutes in did you decide to sit, swinging your legs over the ledge. After another 15 minutes, you finally saw the sun itself peek over your line of view, allowing the rest of the sky to turn blue. The view of the forest below took your breath away. You were so enamoured that you didnât initially realize that Joel was not by your side anymore. Still sitting, you turned around to find him. Assuming that he was still standing, you looked up. It caught you off guard when you saw that he was eye level with you, bent on one knee. A nervous smile began to grow on his face as he held out a ring between his fingers.
Joel knew that this was how he wanted to propose, with the backdrop of the sun rising, but he never prepared exactly what to say. Everytime he tried, the words never seemed good enough and saying them out loud wracked his nerves. He figured that the words would come in the moment. The problem was that he also did not prepare for the view that was currently before him because if he was stuck before, seeing the golden rays of light radiate around you rendered him speechless. Your messy hair framed your face so perfectly and the way you looked at him in that moment was filled with pure innocence and love.
âDaggum, woman, you know how to make a man weak.â Joel said, almost in a whisper.
âThatâs the goal.â You said with an ever growing smile.
âI donât know how else to say this, so I just will. (Y/F/N) (Y/M/N) (Y/L/N), I want to be your husband and I want you to be my wife and my hope is that you want the same. I canât guarantee you a perfect life or some fairytale, but Iâll try damn hard to give you happily ever after or some semblance of it in this world. Listen darlinâ, Iâve struggled for a long time with survivinâ; Iâve almost given up so many times before. Do...do you remember a while back when you told me about how you got bitten?â You nodded. âYou were questioning why you didnât die and I told you that, no matter what, you had to keep finding something to fight for. I knew you werenât tryna hear that at the time, but those words were true because of you. You were, are and will always be my something to fight for until my last breath. Youâre it for me, darlinâ and thereâs no one else I want by my side more. Will you marry me?â. His eyebrows were raised in anticipation. You stood there speechless; you didnât know what to say first. You were flooded with so many different feelings. Most of all, you were surprised by the proposal. You didnât expect Joel to formally do so at all. The emotions fighting to break surface caused you to simultaneously laugh and cry out of nowhere.
âIâm sorry! Iâm not laughing at you. Joel, yes, Iâll marry you!â You wiped your tears on your sleeve before getting up. Joel did the same to close the space between you.
He ran a thumb across your wet cheek as he smiled down at you. âYou had me scared for a second there.â Once, your face was dry, he focused back on the ring in his other hand.
âHow could I ever say no to you?â You asked lovingly.
âYouâve been known to do it from time to time.â He said in a deep yet jovial tone. Gently, he steadied your finger and slid the ring onto it. âHow does it feel?â
âIt fits perfectly.â You smiled up at him.
âI love you.â He whispered as he leant down for a kiss. The two of you stood there near the edge of the hill in each otherâs arms. At this point, the sun had just about risen for the morning. âI donât know how you wanna go about this. I know thereâs no marriage license to register, but I can find someone to officiate or if itâs just you, me and our word, I can live with that too.â
âWe have the rest of our lives to figure that out, love.â You impatiently pulled him back down into another long kiss.
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Joel x reader ( pt 9 )
summary: You and Joel prepare for the upcoming patrolÂ
warnings: noneÂ
you can read the previous parts here
âI donÂŽt think its a good idea to split up.â Jesse shakes his head and you look at him out of the corner of your eye, him and Dina sitting next to you. Joel and Tommy sit across from you while Marie and Ellie each took a seat at the head of the table. âBut the infected has been sighted here-â Tommy points to the card in front of him and marks the place with a red pen. âin town and here.â He connects the dots to show how far away from each other they are, and Maria sighs. âWe have to get to them somehow, we canât risk to let them any closer towards Jackson.â She takes the map and slides it over the table towards her, looking at the route with a deep frown. âwhat if we build teams to secure our lookouts, and meet up somewhere in the middle after weâre done?â Ellie looks around for any faces of approval, and you nod. âThis could work, If anything goes wrong and one of us doesnât show up to the meeting point, we know where they went missing and can take a look.â âbut some lookouts might be more overrun than others.â Joel sighs and takes the card from Maria, trying to find a route that is somehow a little safe for everyone. âThat could also happen on normal patrols, we can try to come from all sides and meet up here-âDina leans up from her seat and points to the supermarket Joel and You cleaned a couple weeks ago. âThis way each of us can cover a lookout and has roughly the same way to the meeting point.â âand some lookouts were freshly cleaned this week, it shouldnât be too much trouble.â Tommy tucks a strand of hair behind his ear and looks at Joel. âWhat do you say?â âI donÂŽt like this, but it might work.â Joel shrugs his shoulders and you nod, looking at him. âLetÂŽs partner up then, who knows each lookout the best?â You say, sinking deeper into your seat and waiting for someone to speak up. âYou know your way around the radio tower?â Jesse asks Ellie, pointing to the first dot on the map. She shakes her head, no. âI know this route, I used to do go with Eugene.â Dina speaks up and Jesse briefly looks at her before approving. âAlright, you and Ellie take over the west side, after youâre done you can check the village and go to the supermarket.â âAre you sure you know the way?â Joel stares at Dina and you can tell heâs worried, while Ellie lets out an annoyed huff. âI do, donÂŽt worry Joel.â Dina smiles and Maria claps her hands, getting everyones attention. âAlright, Joel and Tommy will cover the east side, you know your way around the hotel and lodge, right?â Maria looks at her husband and Tommy elbows Joel who has a frown on his face. âWe got this.â âY/N and I will go through to the city and forrest.â Jesse and you make eye contact and you smile at him, nodding despite the nervous feeling in your stomach. âIÂŽll send a troop to clean the areas close around Jackson so you guys donât have to do everything alone.â Maria circles the lookouts on the map and slides it back towards the middle for everyone to see. âEveryoneÂŽs okay with this?â She asks, rubbing her temples with her fingers. âDo we have another choice?â Joel chuckles and starts pushing his chair back, you getting up as well. âOkay we will wait for the weather to clear up and leave in one or two days.â Jesse starts putting his jacket back on and Ellie gets up with a sigh. âfucking infected.â She mumbles while Dina walks over to her, a small smile framing her face. âEverything will be okay.â She says goodbye to everyone and you wait for Joel to finish chatting with Tommy before walking back home. âThis whole partner patrolling doesnât sit right with me.â Joel mumbles under his breath and you link your arm through his while you leave Tommys neighborhood. âWhy?â You cuddle into his side to block out the cold and Joel sighs, looking at his boots. âDina and Ellie and Jesse and you together? It would have been better to pair you guys with Tommy or me. We know our way around and have more-â âHey.â You interrupt him, stopping your tracks and standing in front of Joel to make him look at you. âJesse is very responsible and wouldnât do anything that puts us into unnecessary danger. Ellie knows her way with guns and Dina is a cautious person. We will be fine.â You shrug your shoulders and Joel tilts his head to the side, scanning your flushed face. âI worry too much, donât I?â He lowers his head and you giggle, continuing your way home. âYeah, you need to stop or youâll get wrinkles from all the frowning.â âI already have wrinkles.â Joel furrows his brows and you laugh. âThatÂŽs cause youâre old.â You tease and Joel mocks your laugh. âHa ha, very funny. Youâll look like that one day, too.â He nudges your side and you put on a serious face, eyes looking into his hazel ones. âHopefully, and when I grow old its your turn to make fun of me.â âIÂŽd like to see that.â Joel opens the door to your home and you slip inside, instantly shrugging your snowy jacket off and hanging it onto your wardrobe. âYou want some Tea?â You ask as you walk into the kitchen. Joel grunts and you hear his heavy boots walking upstairs, probably to change. You put some water onto the stove and prepare the tea leafs. You wait for the liquid to boil and pour it into two mugs, giving Joel the one with the owl on it. You make sure to grab the handles tight and make your way upstairs, squinting back and forth from the mugs to the stairs in front of you. âJoel?â You shout as you gently kick the door to your bedroom open with your foot, only to find it empty. âIn here, baby.â Joels voice comes from somewhere behind you so you turn around and check the bathroom, finding it empty as well. Itâs not until you hear the itching of a blade against wood that you groan at your own stupidness and go into Joels crafting room. There he sits, knife in one and a piece of wood in the other hand. âWhat are you working on?â You ask as you sit down next to him, placing the mug onto the work plate. âThatÂŽs a surprise.â He smiles at you and you take a sip of your tea, cursing when you burn your tongue. âAm I allowed to see?â You try to peak over Joels hands but he covers most of the wood with his palm. âDonÂŽt spoil yourself, itâs not finished yet.â âHow long have you been working on it?â You hug Joel from behind and he drops the wood, quickly covering it with a cloth. âStarted last week.â He leans back into your chest and you rest your chin on top of his head. âI didnÂŽt notice.â You kiss his hairline and he runs his hands over your arms, holding your shoulders tight. âThat was the plan baby.â He chuckles and you play with the fabric of his shirt. âBut now I know about it.â You tease and Joel rotates his chair so heâs facing you. You stand in-between his legs as he holds your hips, massaging the soft flesh. âAlso planned. I know how impatient you can be.â He smirks and you gasp, slowly sitting down on his lap. âThatÂŽs torture!â You hold onto his neck for support and Joel bounces his knee, urging you to inch closer. âIt will be worth it.â He nuzzles his head into the crook of your neck and starts placing kisses along your veins. âYouÂŽre getting my exceptions up.â You say laughing while squirming away from his wet kisses. âAre you implying that its not enough that I made it? With love?â He gives you puppy eyes and you push him away, standing up and grabbing your mug. âThatÂŽs always enough. IÂŽm outside at the porch if you want to join.â You turn around and Joel hums, turning his chair as well to continue his work. âIÂŽll come soon.âÂ
You sit outside and inhale the cold winter air, legs crossed and arms leaned on the table as you continue to embroider a jacket you found some time ago. You hum a soft tune and are very cautious not to poke your thumb with the needle. Your tea is long finished and your body is getting more and more heavy when Joel joins you. âEvening madam.â He lifts his imaginary hat and you look up, piercing the needle into your fingertip. âOw!â You drop the jacket and hold onto your thumb, glaring at Joel. âYou scared me!â You rub the irritated fingertip and Joel chuckles, sitting down across from you and picking up his guitar. âSorry babe.â He softly smiles at you and you put your stuff together, extending your arms. âLet me play, Iâve been practicing.â âsure your thumb can take it?â Joel teases and you roll your eyes, hiding a smile when he hands his precious guitar over to you. âIf I continue to get better, IÂŽm gonna need my own soon.â You brag as you rest the painted wood on your lap. âconvince me.â Joel leans back in his chair and crosses his arms, eyes fixed on you. âI will.â You bite your lip and look down, preparing to grab your chords when you already strum a side and a crooked sound escapes. âups.â You laugh nervously and wipe your sweaty hands on your jeans before trying again. âbut IÂŽm not singing.â You briefly look at Joel and start playing the song he played you at your first evening together. âNot bad.â Joel smiles proudly and you start bouncing your feet to the music, concentrating on pulling the right strings. âIÂŽm still wobbly with this part, my fingers canÂŽt spread that far.â You frown and stop playing, but Joel stands up and simply stands behind you, grabbing your hands and placing his fingers over yours. âLet me help you.â His hot breath tickles your ear and you watch as he presses your fingers back onto the neck of the guitar, changing the position for your index and ring finger. âNow try.â He whispers and you strum the sides, beaming when it sounds right. âSee, you can do it.â He kisses your temple and you drop the guitar next to your chair, leaning to the right and quickly pulling Joel down to kiss you. âThanks love.â You mumble against his lips while he pushes his tongue past yours. His beard scratches against your cold face and you grab his cheeks, feeling the stubble itch in your palm. âWanna go to bed?â He pulls away and you nod, out of breath and with flushed cheeks. âI feel like an ice cube.â You shiver as you get up and Joel laughs while grabbing his guitar, opening the door for you and stepping inside after you. âYou know, once patrol is done, I have a little surprise for you.â He cheekily kisses your neck and you squirm to the side, almost tripping on the steps. âAnother one?â You ask gasping. âI promised you a proper date, didnât I?â Joel pinches your sides and you grab his hands, pulling him up with you. âI thought you forgot.â You happily look over your shoulder and Joel chuckles. âI didnÂŽt. Just took me a while to find everything I need for it.â He shrugs his shoulders and slips past you as he makes a line to the bathroom, you going into your bedroom to change. You lay in bed and wait for him, eyes wide open and staring at the small lamp in the corner. âCan I guess?â You ask as soon as Joel returns and lays down next to you. He smells like soap and toothpaste and you instantly snuggle closer, head laying on his chest while your arm wraps around his torso. âNo. I wonÂŽt budge.â Joel closes his eyes and blindly switches the light off, trapping you in his arms afterwards. âNot even a little bit?â You mindlessly play with Joels shirt and feel his chest rumble with laughter, before rising and sinking slowly again. âGo to sleep babe, you need to rest.â He kisses your hairline and you huff, laying your hand flat on his stomach and finally closing your eyes. âYouÂŽre a tease.â âYou love me because of that, donât deny it.â Joel gently massages your back and you sigh. âYeah I do.âÂ
âJoel? Y/N?â Loud banging on your door wakes you up and you groan, instantly covering your face with a pillow. âWhat time is it?â You mumble sleepily as you roll over, not meeting any resistance. You frown and open your eyes, pillow slowly sliding down your face. âJoel?â You reach out with your hand but it lands on an empty mattress, and you lean over his side to turn on the light. HeÂŽs nowhere to be seen, so you quickly get up and rub your eyes to get the sleep out of them. âIÂŽm coming!â You shout to the impatient visitor, its hamming against your door not slowing down. âOne sec.â You tiredly fumble with the lock and curse at the coldness on your naked feet. Now in front of you stands Tommy, fully dressed and with a rifle hanging over his shoulder. âTommy?â You ask confused, voice raspy from just waking up. The sun barely started to rise and the sky is still painted in darkish colors, making you wrap your arms around yourself. âCan I come in?â Tommy cranes his neck to look past you and you nod, moving to make space for him. âOf course.â You close the door after him and wrap your robes tighter around your body, feeling slightly exposed in your shorts and shirt. âWhereÂŽs Joel?â Tommy asks as he rests his rifle on top of your dining table. You shrug your shoulders and open your mouth to say something, but another voice cuts you off. âIÂŽm here.â Joel comes walking down the steps, clothes covered in dust and wood splinters. âMaria is sending us out, the weather cleared up faster than expected. WeÂŽre meeting in one hour at the east gate.â Tommy looks between you and Joel and an uneasy feeling settles in your stomach. âI thought weâd wait a couple days.â You furrow your eyebrows and a deep wrinkle forms on your forehead. âChange of plans.â Tommy shrugs and Joel sighs, a deep hum coming from his throat. âOne hour?â He asks. Tommy nods and moves to leave again, grabbing his rifle and scratching it over the waxed surface. âI got to go and tell the others.â He leaves without another word and you stand on your spot, arms hanging from your sides and body too tired to move. âThatÂŽs a bummer.â You mumble as you rub your temple, Joel skipping down the steps and walking over to you. âLetÂŽs get this over with. When we come back youâll get your surprise.â Joel wraps his arms around your neck and pulls you into a hug, your own arms winding around his waist. âYou finished?â You mumble against his chest, inhaling the strong scent of soap and dusty wood. âThatÂŽs why I got up early.â He clears his throat and you look up, the tiniest smile forming on your lips. âYou didnât have to do that.â You kiss the skin within your reach and Joel laughs softly, slowly loosening his grip on you. âI know, but I wanted to.â His hands skim down to your back and sides, quickly slipping under your clothes and brushing over the naked skin. You shiver and straighten your shoulders, looking deeply into his eyes. âYou and Tommy will be fine, right?â You ask, voice dripping with worry. âof course, always are.â Joel leans down and kisses you softly, no tongues, just lips moving in sync with each other. âDonÂŽt worry baby, or youâll get me worried again.â Joel jokes to lighten the mood and you chuckle, kissing him one last time before pulling away. âSorry, Iâll stop.â You giggle when he attacks your cheek and jaw with kisses and his stubble brings your skin to life. It prickles and burns slightly at the same time, a sensation youâve grown to love. âJoel youâre distracting me.â You weakly push your hands against his chest and he pulls away, a smirk on his tired face. âGood.â He is about to dip down again when you turn your head and make his lips land on your neck, gasping when you feel his teeth gazing your flesh. âIÂŽm serious.â You say with a giggle, grasping onto his bicep for support as your knees become wobbly.Â
âWe need to get ready.â You breathe into his ear and Joel nods, teeth slowly sinking into the crook of your neck, surely leaving a mark. âI know.â He calms the flesh with a kiss and pulls away, biting the inside of his cheek at your flushed expression. âYouÂŽre the death of me.â You mumble with a weak smile and Joel retreats from you, slowly turning to walk into the kitchen and make breakfast. âIf that is all.â He winks and you shake your head laughing, walking up the stairs to get ready for the day. When you come down again, Joel is already sitting at the table and cuts some bread, mindlessly humming a tune you never heard him sing before. You creep up behind him and quickly kiss the back of his head before joining him on the table, giving your grumbling stomach the food he so desperately grumbles for. You barely get to clean your plates afterwards, when Joel places your backpack on the table with a heavy thud and calls out for you. âY/N we have to go.â He slides his own backpack on and you open the drain, letting the soapy water wash down and wiping your wet hands on a towel. âIÂŽm coming!â You quickly place Joels mug next to the sink to clean it later and join him in the dining room, grabbing your rifle and knife before putting on your jacket and backpack. âCanÂŽt say I missed this.â You groan as the strings sink into your shoulders, the weight of the weapons and your first aid kit heavy on your back. âYou carrying stones in there or something?â Joel asks with a half smile, handing you a pair of gloves you happily slide your hands into.âNo, just the necessities.â You step out of the comfort of your home and breathe in the cold ear, the munching of boots against snow ringing in your ears. âAlright.â Joel sighs next to you, grabbing your hand and intertwining your fingers. You look at him in disbelief, as its something heâs never done out in public before, but he looks straight ahead and starts walking. âDonÂŽt look so surprised.â He says bluntly as you keep staring at your intertwined hands while walking. âIÂŽm not suprised, just happy.â You respond instantly, holding his hand tighter and walking so close to him that your shoulders occasionally brush. âWhen this is all over-âYou start, waving your free hand in front of your face. âHow about we go into a museum? Ellie told me you showed her one with dinosaurs and space. IÂŽd like to see it too.â You look to the side to read any emotion in Joels face. He briefly looks at you and nods. âSure, I think youâll like it there.â âDid you go to museums often? Before the outbreak, I mean.â You ask casually, enjoying the conversation more than silence. âYeah, you can bet Sarah made me go into every damn museum in our country. She loved them.â He smiles sadly and you nod, comprehending what he just said. âDid you enjoy them, too?â You ask after some time. âSome more than others.â He looks at you with a crooked smile and licks his lips, the cold drying them out. âIÂŽm more the movie guy.â He adds after some thinking. You bite back a laugh and bite your tongue. âI havenÂŽt noticed.â You joke, implying on the endless nights you spent on the couch with some 80ÂŽs movie running in the background. You know Joel loves them, Ellie told you that long before Joel and you were even a thing. âI canÂŽt help it Iâm a guy with decent taste.â He laughs and you rest your head against his shoulder, your temple brushing up and down with each step. âWeÂŽre almost there.â You blurt out as you spot the others in the distance, horses already prepared and ready to get picked up. âI know.â Joel stops and cups your cheek, making you look up at him. Your breaths mingle in the cold and you stare into his eyes, trying to simply take all of him in. âI love you.â Joel whispers and dips his head down, meeting your lips in a sweet kiss. âI love you.â You say back, swallowing down the anxious feeling in your chest and hugging Joel close. After some seconds of just standing there and sharing intimate kisses, you pull away and grab his hand again. âLetÂŽs meet the others, it looks like theyâre already waiting for us.âÂ
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Sorry for the wait, but Iâm only now starting to feel better. IÂŽm busying myself with writing tho, so the next chapter shouldnât take too long :) weÂŽre slowly coming to an end yÂŽall, IÂŽm not ready..Â
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Hymn (Part 4)
Winchester Brothers x Sister!reader
Wanna start from the beginning? Here is the Masterlist!
Warnings: a good amount of feels and angst. . but there is fluff!
Summary: Y/N Winchester has wrestled with demons ever since her mother died, but when her younger brothers lives are in danger itâs their souls she fights to save, because isnât that what a big sister should do? (Based on the song Hymn by Joel Porter)Â
A/n: *Throws chapter at you and runs away* Have fun! (gif created by the lovely ellen-reincarnated1967)
âWhat do you think your doing?â Your voice slightly raising as you stepped back into the motel room, shutting the door softly behind you with a loud click.
âDefinitely . . . Not jumping on the bed?â Dean tried, both him and Sam staring down at you from their perch on the nearest bed.
âWow. Iâm convinced.â
âIt was Deans idea!â Sam quickly pointed, his little hand lightly smacking against Deans face as he did.
âI leave for three minutes and you guys go crazy? Now I know I can never leave you guys again, which is disappointing-â you sighed. âSeeing as I was gonna give you guys this extra bag of funyuns.â You slowly pulled the bag out of your hoodie pocket, instantly making Dean freeze.
âOkay, wait weâre sorry.â
âOh are you? I said no funny business while I was gone.â
âYes! Iâm sorry! Can we have them?â Dean was practically vibrating at this point, teetering on the edge of the mattress.
Narrowing your eyes, you let a silence fall between you before giving in and toss the bag onto the other bed. âFine, go to town. No crumbs on the bed.â It didn't even take a second before the middle child was vaulting over the space between the beds and ripping the bag open.
Sam grimaced, not making a move from his spot at all. âFunyuns are gross.â
âYeah, well thatâs why I got you this-â being a subtle as you could, you passed Sam the candy bar you had grabbed from the vending machine with a quick wink, his eyes lighting up as he grabbed it.
âThanks, Y/N.â
âYeah, donât tell Dean.â
âI wonât.â
âPinkie promise?â
He linked his small finger with yours. âI pinkie promise.â
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âSam? . . . Sam!â
Suddenly snapping back into reality, Sam whipped his head around took at his brother. âWhat?â
âIâve been talkin to you for the past five minutes, have you even heard a word that Iâve said?â
â. . .yes?â
âWow, you are a terrible liar. What the hell were you even thinking about?â
Pressing his lips together the younger Winchester contemplated whether or not to say anything. You were always a risky topic . . . Especially to Dean, and seeing as his brother had been in a decent mood most of the drive he really didnât want to take that away.
âDude, seriously. Tell me whatâs going on in that weird head of yours.â Flexing his hands on the steering wheel, Deans eyes bounced back between the road and Sam.
âY/N. . . What else do you think I would be thinking about right now?â
Dean sucked in a breath before he nodded his head in understanding. âWanna talk about it?â
âNot really. Sheâs gone. Whatâs it matter?â
He expected Dean to snap, lash out- like he did when they were younger and the wound still fresh, but instead he was silent. . . Only because he was trying to remember everything he could about his sister, both good and bad. He needed something to keep him grounded. For instance, You had been good at making people laugh, youâd take things in directions people wouldnât expect- lewder, darker, more absurdâ then ambush them into responding. Some of Deans humor stemmed from your own, he liked to think it was his way of keeping you close. Along with a love for old western movies and a passion for classic rock.
Happy thoughts. Just keep thinking happy thoughts, Dean. Just because Sam brought up Y/N does not mean you need to get bitter.
Turning his attention towards the radio, the hunter played with the volume until it was a soft hum that could easily be spoken over.
âYou remember when Y/N used to play music in the mornings while Dad was gone on hunts?â
Sam let out a soft chuckle as confirmation. âYou mean with that dinky old radio she got at a yard sale for like three bucks?â
âYes! Thatâs the one!â Dean snapped his fingers, a grin tugging on his lips. âAnd it wasnât even the good music we usually listened to in the car. . . Itâs was like shitty upbeat soul and R&B.â
âYou know she would probably smack you on top of the head if she heard you say that, right?â
âYeah, probably-â Dean chuckled, flicking on the turn signal as he turned onto a narrow two lane street. âAnyways you know howâd she dance around to it too? For like the soul purpose of embarrassing is even though there was no one else around?â
âYeah, and she couldnât dance worth a shit.â Sam added, smiling as he slowly began to remember.You were always doing stuff to get them to smile or laugh because you knew that in a lifestyle as dark as your families, you needed to keep something lit.
The rest of the drive felt lighter. . . Easier after that small conversation. Even after decades of absence you somehow still managed to put smiles on their faces.Still working hard even in death.
And then Dean pulled into the cemetery and that light and happy feeling he had had moments ago flickered and faded like a dying candle and he could feel his insides slowly beginning to twist as his face dropped. He turned off the engine and barely got two steps from the car before the feeling was too much and it felt like he was being crushed.
âDean?â
âYou know what? On second though this was a terrible idea. Why did we do this? We shouldnât have done this. Why the fuck did I suggest this?â He quickly rambled, backing towards the car and reaching for the keys again. âLetâs- lets just go home and forget I ever suggested visiting this place-â
The older Winchester didnât get very far before his brother was letting out a sigh and pushing him forward again. âWe drove all this way. Youâre not backing out now.â
âSam-â
âDude, we both agreed we would do this. Letâs start with just a minute and go from there.â
There was silence for a moment before Dean huffed and stopped resisting his brothers pushing. He felt like a kid again coming back here. Hell the last time he had been here he still was one. Even though they never found a body, their dad was decent enough to pay for a headstone, a place to come back to.
And then they never did.
The cemetery was cool, dew still on the grass as the morning sun began to peak through the trees and light haze. The place was empty except for them. . . Because who visits a cemetery at 6:30 in the morning? Dean sucked in another breath of fresh air, jamming his hands into his pockets despite it growing warmer out as the sun began to rise.
âYou know, we probably should have brought mom with us. Itâs kinda a dick move on our part to do this and not tell her.â Dean grumbled, eyes already glued on the headstone ahead.
âSheâs still on that hunt with Jody. I didnât really want to bother her.â
âOh yeah, youâre totally right.â Dean snarked. âWould hate to remind good olâ mom that her first born has a headstone right next to hers.â
âWhy are you being such a dick? You suggested we visit.â
âItâs nothing, Sam. Just drop it.â
Gripping his brothers shoulder suddenly, Sam halted Dean in his tracks. âNice try. Tell me whatâs going on. You were fine ten minutes ago.â
Dean gnawed on the inside of his cheek for a moment before letting another sigh sleep through his lips. âDo you remember that case we worked a few weeks ago with the psycho spirit that caught us?â
âYou mean reverend Johnson? Yeah, why?â
âI keep thinking about what he said-â
âDean, he was a vengeful spirit. He was crazy.â Sam shook his head, dropping his hand from his shoulder. But Dean squeezes his eyes shut as if trying to forget. The words from the reverend still banging around inside his skull. Bad guys really needed to stop it with their monologues.
âWhat Iâve seen is that the lord provides for those who need it. If you donât have something, that generally means you donât need it, or you donât deserve it.â
At first it had made perfect sense and Dean had just gone with it. He didnât have his sister because he didnât deserve to have one.
But then again, by that logic, they didnât deserve a home when they were younger, and they didnât deserve to love their sister and be safe. Y/N didnât deserve her life.
âYouâre right.â Dean nodded, in hopes of getting Sam to back off. âYouâre right. Dude was crazy. Just hard to get those fuckin words out of my head.â He mumbled, the two of them somehow turning in unison to look at your headstone a few yards away.
It was like the granite slab was staring them both down. The two brothers both afraid to get closer. . . Because to Dean it was like having to face the truth all over again. You were gone. Here reality was set in stone (Pun intended). But then his legs were moving before his brain was and he was kneeling down the wipe the dirt and dust away from your name, calloused fingers smoothing over the engraved letters.
âWhyâd you have to go be a hero, huh?â He whispered under his breath, feeling the sudden and familiar sting of on oncoming tears.
He could remember it all so clearly still, how you had thrust your rifle into his hands and quickly tugged on your oversized canvas jacket. How the wind had whipped at your partially pulled up hair when you swung the door to the motel room open. How you told them youâd be back and then never were. Dean wondered if you would still be the same now. Back then he was still too small for his flannels and still wasnât sure how to aim a gun properly. If you were still alive what would you have looked like now? Would you be taller? Would your hair be longer? . . . And would you have recognized what he and Sam had become?
Would you recognize them at all?
âWe shoulda brought flowers or something.â He mumbled, picking the few stray weeds that had grown around the base of the stone. He was fidgeting. He did that when he was uncomfortable.
âWe can always go get some. We ainât too far outside of town.â
Dean mumbled a soft I guess as he rested his chin on his knee, arms looping tightly around his leg as if trying to mimic a hug.
âI think Iâm gonna call mom. She would want to be with us for the next stop we make. . . We can always come back here too if she really wants.â Sam spoke up, extending a hand to help pull his brother up.
âDo what you think is right or whatever. Iâll be in the car.â rising to his feet, Dean wiped the dirt from his hands onto the front of his jeans. If he stayed here another minute he was bound to start crying. As He began the trek back through the maze of headstones, his fingers absentmindedly tugged on the piece of fabric on his wrist. The bit of flannel gave him a sense of comfort, because sometimes a bit of cloth could feel like love, and that was all he really wanted right now. It was one of those moments in which he realized how many things he had lost that mattered. Dad. Bobby. Y/N. Sure he had lost mom, but she was back. The rest were still gone.
All he wanted was the chance to see Y/N again, to hear her say I missed you, and I've come home.
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Top 10 Personal Favorite Hit Songs from 2020
You know, when I finished my latest list and realised every decade had the same pattern and that we were slowly going towards a series of great years for pop, I didnât realise how good that year would be.
Whatâs at the top? Am I boringly predictable because I already said I loved that song all the way back in January 2020? Letâs find out.
Disclaimers:
Keep in mind Iâm using both the year-end top 100 lists from the US and from France while making these top 10 things. Thereâs songs in English that charted in my country way higher than they did in their home countries, or even earlier or later, so that might get surprising at times.
Of course there will probably be stuff in French somewhere on this post. We suck. I know. Itâs my list. Deal with it.
My musical tastes have always been terrible and Iâm not a critic, just a listener and an idiot.
I have sound to color synesthesia which justifies nothing but might explain why I have trouble describing some songs in other terms than visual ones.
So. Uh. How was your 2020?
Mine was actually surprisingly good, considering. Iâm lucky enough to have a job that I can partially do from home, and I was extremely paranoid from the get-go and nobody got sick under this roof so far. Turns out Iâm even better at my job from home and I got permission to work from home one day per week even after the health crisis is over! My first name was also finally officially approved and I canât tell you how happy I feel about that. I almost feel bad to have had such a good year considering the circumstances. I feel like an asshole just because Iâm happy, haha.
The only frustrating part was that I was supposed to see Hatari in concert in Paris in early April which, as you can guess, was cancelled. Iâm not too mad about it though, since their tour was called âEurope will crumbleâ and the message saying the tour was cancelled started with âsince Europe is actually crumbling due to Covid-19âł and thatâs hysterical.
Good or interesting albums that came out in 2020 now, letâs see.
Nightwish released Human/Nature, which was a huge letdown compared to their previous album, but I will relisten to it at some point to make sure I wasnât just in a bad mood that day.
The Birthday Massacre released Diamonds, which might be their weakest album since their debut, but contained some real gems (I listened to The Last Goodbye on a loop, it floored me. Flashback and Enter are also very good).
The 1975 released Notes On A Conditional Form, and letâs be real, itâs a fâcking mess. You could cut half the tracks and end up with an excellent album, but as it is itâs like, yes, a collection of notes ; however thereâs some truely excellent shit on it (see unelligible songs).
Thanks to a friend on a discord server I was exposed to Dorian Electraâs music and I havenât been quite the same ever since. Iâm so happy to be alive to see other enbies making such great music with an insanely good aesthetic surrounding it and asking so many interesting questions about gender. Also the arc the âgentlemanâ character goes through over the course of the entire tracklist of the 2020 My Agenda album is absolutely hilarious, donât @ me.
I also discovered 100 Gecs this year. Why are most of you guys saying itâs unlistenable garbage. Itâs just as abrasive and over the top as industrial music is, but with none of the edginess or drama. I love it. What the hell. But yeah Tree of Clues was released this year. Good.
Speaking of industrial, in March 2020 Nine Inch Nails were like âhey remember when we released Ghosts I-IV a decade ago entirely for free and how amazing that was? Well weâre all in lockdown and bored as hell so hereâs Ghosts V-VI and itâs also free. Enjoyâ and I fâcking died instantly. And itâs even better than I-IV. What the hell was that year
Jonsi released Shiver. Itâs strange and highly experimental. Iâm pretty sure itâs a good thing I was into hyperpop this year, otherwise going from his previous material straight to this album would have been brutal.
Yadda yadda yadda After Hours by the Weeknd good yadda yadda.
Iâve joked about that already but if you had told me in 2019 that 2020 would have fires, a pandemic, riots, monoliths appearing and disappearing, and also a super good Machine Gun Kelly album, guess which part I would have found the most ridiculous. But yeah uh. Tickets to my Downfall good
So uh this year I tried to listen to some hyperpop and liked it a lot, and I also dipped my toes timidly into screamo and listened to Svalbard, who released When I Die this year, and the entire album was a very beautiful, very intricately decorated punch to the face. It sounds like God Is An Astronaut except with a shit ton of yelling. I love it. Open Wound is my favorite track on it.
But no, despite all of this, my album of the year was from a band I had never even heard about before that year, called Spanish Love Songs. The album is titled Brave Faces Everyone and itâs line after line after line of extremely relatable generational angst but yelled with complete sincerity and itâs so propulsive and energetic you canât help but feel both exhausted and ready to fight the entire universe. I donât know how it works, but itâs incredible. The entire album is wonderfully brutal, so itâs kind of difficult to pick my favorite songs on it, but Beachfront Property and the title track stand out.
Unelligible songs, now, and thereâs, uh, quite a few of them too so Iâm also gonna use bullet points. Good lord this post is gonna be long.
First, let me say I have literally no idea why Midnight Sky by Miley Cyrus wasnât a bigger hit. Itâs not on the year-end US top 100 and it feels extremely wrong. Would have made it to #4 on this list otherwise.
I still entertain the vague hope that stuff from Machine Gun Kelly will chart higher in 2021 but I doubt it will happen so I might as well tackle it now and say that Bloody Valentine and especially Forget Me Too are both excellent and that itâs a shame radios arenât playing them more often.
Heaven by the late Avicii featuring Coldplay should have charted in 2019 and still didnât chart in 2020 and thatâs a real shame.
If the world was a bit less unfair, Lovesick Girls by Blackpink would have been a hit rather than the awful Ice Cream.
One day I will stop complaining about my bafflement concerning the lack of mainstream pop charts success of The 1975. Today is not that day. I just love how they keep making songs about extremely awkward relationships full of weird details, and I havenât grown tired of that yet. So yeah If Youâre Too Shy is about a guy whoâs crush is asking him to get naked on Skype in his hotel room and heâs, uh, not too sure about that idea.
And Me & You Together is about a guy who never finds the right moment to tell his best friend heâs in love with her, and he manages to do so at the end and itâs cute as hell. My fave part is âI'm sorry that I'm kinda queer / It's not as weird as it appears / It's 'cause my body doesn't stop me (Stop me) / Oh, it's okay, lots of people think I'm gay / But we're friends, so it's cool, why would it not be?â. Relatable as fâck.
And now for an international hit that should have been bigger in the US and/or in my country but wasnât: Head & Heart by Joel Corry and MNEK.
Iâve heard Nos CĂ©lĂ©brations by Indochine extremely often on French radio for months now so I was very surprised to see that it didnât crack the local year-end list. What happened.
I can finally hear the appeal of Bring Me The Horizon. It took me ages. And also Death Stranding. The song Ludens isnât in the game per say, but itâs among the ones you can pick to broadcast briefly when people drive by your constructions, and long story short it's been living rent-free in my head for months now.
Phew.
Itâs time for a round of Honorable Mentions for elligible songs, containing a couple of guilty pleasures, which is saying something considering the kind of shit I put on some of my previous lists.
Ne Reviens Pas (Gradur et Heuss lâEnfoirĂ©) - Heuss is a French artist that kept baffling me while making my lists for the previous years, and I was like â??? ok, thatâs it then, I guess Iâm getting too old to get what teenagers find funnyâ. This one worked for me, though. And the music video doesnât hurt. Really dumb and really fun.
Adore You (Harry Styles) - Perfectly good little pop song, very pleasant to listen to, never outstayed its welcome for me.
Mood (24kGoldn) - This doesnât sound like a very good relationship, my dude, but thatâs still a super pleasant song.
WAP (Cardi B & Megan Thee Stallion) - This song is absolutely hilarious and I will hear no argument from any of you.
Control (Zoe Wees) - Was clearly a hit here. Should have been even bigger though. What a powerful but comfy voice. If I had better taste it would be on the list.
Hot Girl Bummer (Blackbear) - I. Uh. Listen. I keep saying I have bad taste and nobody believes me. Do you believe me now. But yeah. âFâck you, and you, and you~, I hate your friends and they hate me tooâ is gonna pop in my head every single time someone is being a jerk anywhere near me now. Itâs been happening all year already. Someone trashed my documents at work? Someone isnât wearing a mask in public? That guy has filled his car with rolls of toilet paper? Brain goes âFâck you, and you, and you~â. Every. Single. Time.
Come & Go (Juice WRLD & Marshmello ) - Damn, thatâs a pretty good little song. Iâve seen plenty of people saying itâs ruined by the drop, but may I remind you Iâm the person who loves Blue by Eiffel 65 with all my heart. If the song was ramping up consistently until the end instead of ending like that, it would have made the list, definitely.
And now, the actual list. This one actually feels pretty solid, I genuinely like everything on it, thereâs no filler here for once.
10 - The Box (Roddy Rich)
US: #3 / FR: #23
Now this is a weird case, because for the longest time I couldnât figure out why this song was so popular and I was completely neutral about it. Then, one morning in September, my mental jukebox (which always, always puts a song on a loop in my head when I wake up) decided to play it. And I was like oh wow?? I never noticed the atmosphere in that song before? Itâs so great. And that hook too. Letâs listen to it.
So yeah, I donât know what happened. It just clicked one day and everything fell into place, I guess.
9 - Alane (Wes & Robin Shulz)
US: Not on the list / FR: #93
Come on. You canât do a remake of one of my previous #1 songs and let it chart in 2020. Thatâs cheating. Even with this subpar drop, I have to put it on the list, now.
Iâve already said my piece about the original, so Iâm just going to send you back to my 1997 list.
8 - Kings and Queens (Ava Max)
US: Not on the list / FR: #76
[BBC documentary voice] After Lady Gaga decided to make piano balads and left her musical niche vacant, Ava Max quickly took her place as the top predator pop diva. Even after Lady Gaga was re-introduced to her natural habitat in 2020, she still hasnât fully recovered in Europe, where Ava Max still reigns supreme on the charts -
(tldr I think itâs hilarious that this isnât on the US Billboard while Lady Gaga isnât on the French year-end top 100)
7 - Roses (Saint Jhn & Imanbek)
US: #19 / FR: #3
What an earworm. It doesnât even bother trying to have an intro or an outro, so it loops almost perfectly. Itâs like entering a party that started long before you arrived, and it will go on long after you leave it to go back home. Kind of hypnotic in a way.
And yes, my mental jukebox was very fond of using it to wake me up this year, so this is another song thatâs here almost solely because of that.
6 - Physical (Dua Lipa)
US: Not on the list / FR: #69 (hehehe)
âHey Iâm not that oldâ says the guy whoâs definitely a sucker for this kind of retro throwback that was so popular this year. Oh well.
I donât have anything interesting to say about this one, though. Apart from the fact that everyone seems to have a different fave song on that album. Guess thatâs quality for you.
5 - Rain on Me (Lady Gaga & Ariana Grande)
US: #48 / FR: Not on the list
That is far from being Lady Gagaâs best song, but it was a joy to listen to everytime it was on the radio anyway. Also Ariana Grande has surprisingly good chemistry with Gaga! This year was full of strange duets mostly made for commercial reasons, and this one isnât an exception, but unlike a lot of them, it really, really works.
4 - Dynamite (BTS)
US: #38 / FR: Not on the list
Iâm still not 100% sold on k-pop even if a ton of it sounds super good, but come on. Even if some bits of this song (especially the beginning of the second chorus) sound a bit like they were made on autopilot, it still sounds just as happy and fun several months after I first heard it and I never got tired of it. Thatâs quality. You hear it and you canât help but tap your feet and smile.
Actually, Iâm sure thereâs people somewhere that donât smile when they hear this song. And they must be avoided at all costs.
3 - Godzilla (Eminem ft Juice WRLD)
US: #62 / FR: Not on the list
What are you doing so high on this list, old man. Why are you still here in the year 2020. I thought we left you in the previous decade. Who gave you the right.
Iâm gonna tell you who did, and itâs actually Juice WRLD. Because that chorus is incredible, and like a lot of people Iâm pissed off because the guy died super young and this shit shouldnât happen to anybody. No, his early material wasnât great, but Iâm sorry Iâm gonna say it again: have you heard this damn chorus? Itâs suspenseful and dark, itâs got this lowkey menacing quality, itâs an earworm and a half, and itâs more convincing in like six lines than Eminemâs own flexing is in the entire song.
The beat is extremely good as well, and the flow, obviously, impressive. The weakest link is Eminemâs writing, which is as usual full of puns and weird wordplay, except here a lot of it isnât great, and that last ultra fast part at the end is technically impressive but it also drives the song up a cliff and stops it dead in its tracks once itâs over. But frankly the lines fly by so fast itâs difficult to be too annoyed by them.
Can I sincerely put this extremely flawed song so high on my list? A better question would be âdid I spend hours trying to learn how to sing this shit without choking on my own spit?â. The answer is yes. To both.
2 - Heartless (The Weeknd)
US: #28 / FR: Not on the list
Iâve said it on my 2015 and 2016 lists already, but just for the record Iâll say it again: it took me ages to like The Weeknd, mostly because I found most of his songs fairly boring, or disliked the lyrics, or both. Also I never really liked the general vibe of his âsexyâ songs like The Hills, they felt dark but in an unpleasant creepy way. Felt like miserable hedonism, if that makes sense.
So, because Iâm a person with extremely consistent and logical tastes, hereâs the exact same shit he was making before, except that this time I absolutely adore it.
What is he doing differently that makes the whole After Hours album click for me whereas almost all of his previous material failed to do so? Is it the energy? Is it the reverb? Is it the fact that the narrator sounds properly unhinged and, frankly, scared to be spiralling out of control? Why are the colors so beautiful yet full of anxiety? Why is that bridge so fantastic? How can you make your voice look like a glowstick in the dark?
I give up. I have no clue. At least Iâm done talking about-
Oh.
1 - Blinding Lights (The Weeknd)
US: #1 / FR: #1 (listen sometimes somethingâs just that good, ok)
Surprise. Or not.
Wow, look at that, Johannes has put this yearâs number one pop song at number one on their personal playlist. The audacity. The edge. What a hot take.
I discovered that song when it first came out at the end of 2019 and I adored it instantly. And I was so scared it wouldnât be a hit. Which means Iâm a fâcking dumbass considering it ended up breaking all sorts of records in 2020. But what can I say, overplay can be a blessing when you love a song that much.
Like every single song I put at number one on one of my lists, I will draw this one at some point and you will understand how incredibly satisfying it is to listen to a song called Blinding Lights, talking about city lights looking blurry when youâre driving at night, while looking itself like a bunch of blurry city lights passing by super fast. Perfect in every way.
Also it sounds exactly like A-ha, and that never hurts.
See you next year! Pretty sure it will be even better music-wise.
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jukebox hero (stars in his eyes) â give her every reason to accept that youâre for real (i know iâm in love)
Pairing: Stephen Strange x ER Nurse!Reader
Word Count: 4,389
Series Summary: The five times you caught Stephen singing as he did work around the hospital and the one time he caught you.
Chapter Summary:Â Stephen Strange is new to the whole.. love thing. Thankfully, he figures it out with a little help.
Authorâs Ramblings: HAPPY YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO JUKEBOX! itâs officially been a year since weâve started this journey together! iâm so glad i started this story, and iâm thankful for everyone who has supported it through the year! anyways, iâm gonna stop rambling! this is it! weâre close to the end! (the gif has NOTHING to do with the content.... he just looks so nice in it okay)
also, since itâs the year anniversary, iâm having a little celebration kinda deal! hereâs the post that talks about it more if youâre curious! enjoy the chapter!!
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Stephen went back to his apartment that night and paced until he was about ready to pass out from lack of sleep.
He's messed up. He's very, very aware.
It's uncharted territory.
Stephen's never really... liked anyone this much before. And because of that, he was shifting gears to go into panic mode. While he was up pacing, he was trying to think of ways to tell you that it was all about you.
It's always been about you.
All he could come up with were grand displays of affection. Those weren't much his style. Nor yours, so that was out before it was ever in.
When he finally fell asleep, his dreams were about you and him. The relationship you two could have if he didn't mess it up.
That's when he knew he needed to ask for help.
Stephen never goes to anyone for help. Ever. Usually, heâs got everything under control, and fixes it no problem (ignore the fax and printer machine from that one time and the other time when he almost, almost broke some important thing when he was just starting his residency).
But this time was.. different.
"Please help me out, Christine. You're my only hope."
"I cannot believe I'm basically your Obi-Wan Kenobi right now," Christine stressed as she buried her face in her hands with a groan. She took her time sitting up properly at the nurse's station on the fourth floor of Metro-General before clearing her throat, the pads of her fingers moving to rub her temples. "I am not your only hope, first of all. And second: what the hell did you do now?"
"Wait, hold on, I'm not Leiaâ"
"Stephen, yes you are. Now what did you do?" Christine demanded, her hands landing onto the desktop harshly. Stephen let his jaw drop momentarily at her outburst before sighing, trying to loosen up his tense shoulders.
"You know how I was trying to get the courage to tell Y/N about how I feel?"
Christine let out a soft sigh, letting her hands slip from the desktop to her lap. "I remember. Did she not take it well?"
"No! Sheâ Well," Stephen started hopefully as if he was about to lie about your reaction before huffing and rubbing a hand over his face. "Yes. She didn't."
Christine tried to hide the groan of frustration she let out as she buried her face in her hands.
"You're a damn idiot."
"Yes I am," Stephen agreed immediately, moving to cross his arms over his chest. "I don't know how to fix it."
Christine let her hands run down her face before finally letting them rest just under her chin to hold her head up. "You're asking me to ask Y/N out for you?"
"Noâ"
"That's such a smart idea! I can't believeâ"
"Christine!" Stephen said sternly, letting his hands slam on the counter top that the desk was placed in front of. "That's not what I'm asking."
"Then what are you asking?"
That made Stephen stop and think.
What was he asking?
Stephen seemed frozen as Christine studied him as he looked for the answer. The words he was thinking of to describe what he needed help with weren't coming up easy.
This is what his mother meant when he was younger when she said he was hard to help, didn't she? Stephen noticed the look Christine was giving him. It looked as if she was concerned.
"Do you.. Do you not know what to do to win Y/N over?" She questioned gently now, starting to realize just how serious this was to Stephen. He was never this silent for long.
"I.." Stephen stopped to take a deep breath and push off of the counter. "Yeah. I don't know what to do."
"Really?"
"Yes really, Christine," Stephen heaved. "If I didn't care so much about this I wouldn't have asked for help. I've already messed up so much, I want to be able to come back from this, y'know." Stephen felt terrible after he said that. He sounded rude. And if he wanted help right now, he should actâ
"Okay, okay. I'll help you."
Stephen's shoulders relaxed immediately at her reply before thanking her profusely. Christine could only laugh at his sudden joy and eased him down. "You're welcome, now shut up and get back here so we can plot."
Stephen was never faster to get behind the nurse's desk in his life.
He flung himself into the empty office chair in front of the free computer next to Christine, right leg bouncing nervously.
âSo,â Christine started easily, pulling out a small note pad out from a drawer and grabbed her pen before crossing a leg over the other and holding it as if she were a therapist. âWhat have you thought of so far?â
When Stephen started listing his ideasâstarting with extravagant and ending with simplisticâhe didnât expect pouring his lovesick heart out to Christine would be this easy. She was supportive and understanding with some of the ideas he originally had and was also willing to completely call him out on how the idea was a stupid one.
Stephen was feeling thankful he was on her good side for once.
He and Christine agreed to put down everything in two different columns.
One was deemed the âDefinitely Usefulâ Â and the other was deemed âBad Ideasâ. And the bad ideas weigh out the useful ones after they took a few minutes to talk it all out.
âI mean, I could start trying to drop hints when we talk? Maybe you could try to serenade herââ
âWhat?â Stephen questioned, suddenly scared as he sat up straight. âNo way.â
âWhat do you mean no way? You sing all the time around here anywaysââ
âYeah, when Iâm alone, not in front of people on purpose, Christineââ
âOh my godââ
âWhatâs going on?â
Stephen and Christine looked up from the writing pad quickly to see you looking at the two them confused. Stephen seemed to let out a groan of thought, his mind completely moving elsewhere as he took in your appearance.
This was the first time he was seeing you since last night, and he could definitely feel the guilt wrapping around his heart when he noticed your eyes were a little redder than usual.
"We're just.. uh, we were justâ"
"We're talking about making a technique together," Christine said, letting out what sounded like an agitated sigh. "But someone is too picky and won't choose something that could be improved on."
Stephen got the hint. He could hear it in Christine's voice.
He just couldn't come up with words. It's like after seeing you last night he can't form sentences.
"Yeah. Uh. That."
You couldn't help but eye the two of them behind the counter, shifting the bag you had on your shoulder. You were just getting in for your shift, it seemed.
"Well, as much fun as I'm having," Stephen started, his voice wavering with what he could assume was nervousness as he got up from the chair he was sitting in, "I've gotta dash. I've got a.. A uh.. thing."
"A thing?" You questioned, your voice practically dripping with what sounded like annoyance. Stephen tried to put on a confident face as he nodded in response, slipping past the opening of the nurse's station.
"A thing. I'll see you both later?"
Stephen didn't wait for a response from you or Christine as he sidestepped past you and moved into the hall that led into the hospital and out of the first floor of the ER.
His heart was pounding. It always was after talking with you. But this time? This time it was pounding out of fear and anxiety.
Maybe Christine was right. Serenading you could be an option. If he could even speak when he interacted with you the next time.
Running his hands over his face before letting his hands slip into his hair, Stephen sighed harshly while absentmindedly traveling to the wall of elevators to get to one of the floors he was set to operate in for the day, not even hesitating to slam his hand into the buttons on the panel that was attached to the wall.
The rest of his day was spent thinking about you, and all of the possible songs that he could even use to serenade you. Billy had actually played a few decent songs while they were in the OR together, but they just didn't fit.
He also kept coming back to ABBA and more stuff by The Eagles, but he just didn't think any of their songs fit the situation either. Well, some ABBA songs probably did. However, he didn't want you to correlate him with ABBA, since he knew that you'd hate him even more than you do right now if he did that.
He figured it out when he got in his car after his shift, already having another awkward interaction with you under his belt and another round of scolding from both Christine and Claire.
Billy Joel.
It was the first thing that came on when he started the car. Billy Joel's Tell Her About It. If he recalled correctly, from his 1983 album "An Innocent Man".
Why did it just hit him now? How the two of you met, months ago, he remembers calling you Billy Joel fondly. Why didn't he think of that sooner?
He really was an idiot.
"Jesus Christ," he muttered under his breath as he turned the volume dial of his car radio up after buckling himself in, preparing for his drive back to his apartment.
That night, he listened to most of that specific album on a repeat, finding it in a small stack of vinyls he happened to have thanks to a friend of his who thrifted them. Everything felt as if it was falling into place as he sang along to the song for the third time in a row as he got ready for his shower.
But the next day at work most certainly did not matter.
Stephen had come in his favorite pair of scrubsâthe dark purple onesâand actually shaved prior to coming in, only to find that you weren't there.
Obviously, his first stop on his way in as he finished his coffee was the nurse's station to find Christine hunched over some paperwork.
She somehow knew that it was him who was about to speak up and relayed the information.
"She's not here today."
"Wait," Stephen said, his face scrunching up in concern. "Really? Like, not at allâ"
"No," Christine replied with some laughter, looking up from the paperwork she was doing, "Y/N had a family thing to attend upstate."
Stephen clicked his tongue as he nodded, looking around the empty waiting room of the main floor. "Got it."
"Did you figure out what you're going to do? Is a serenade in the cards?" Christine questioned, her eyebrow wiggle accompanying her slight dramatized tone interest as she spoke.
"Maybe. Thank you for the cover from yesterday, by the way," Stephen replied, placing his cup of coffee down on the desk for a moment. "A new technique?"
Christine rolled her eyes as she smiled, shrugging.
"What can I say? I'm the best! Now go clock in. I have paperwork to do."
Stephen let out a dramatic whining noise as he grabbed his cup, turning to the doors that led into the rooms of the ER.Â
He was quick to get to the locker room after clocking in, already singing the Billy Joel song quietly under his breath in between gulps of coffee. Even though Stephen considered it stupid to sing the song even though you're not here, it's stuck in his head. So he really couldn't help it.
However, Stephen learned Christine lied the second you ran into his chest. You were leaving the locker room as he was coming in.
And Stephen was forever thankful that his coffee was pretty much gone when the cup fell out and onto the floor, not even spilling as the plastic lid popped off.
"I'm sorryâ"
"I'm so sorryâ"
After you both spoke at the same time, you took a step back to get out of Stephen's personal space. The awkward air was tangible.Â
"Uh, hey!" You exclaimed with a forced smile.
Stephen greeted you back with a stressed laugh, noticing you were wearing some scrubs that had planets and stars speckled on the fabric. That meant..
"You're here for work?"
"Yeah! Actually.. yeah I am," you started as your hands slid into your pockets. "The thing I had got... cancelled, so I just decided to come in."
Stephen had a feeling that the story was a cover up now. He shouldn't be so quick to judge, but he has a hunch. Maybe you were lying to him just so you could avoid him?
He's really messed it up that much, hadn't he?
"Oh? A thing? That's a shame," Stephen replied evenly, ignoring the pang of sadness he felt in his chest when he realized that, yes, you were probably trying to avoid him now.Â
"Yeah, but it's rescheduled for two weeks from now, so it's all good," you explained quickly, almost as if you didn't want to stop talking to him.
It made something in Stephen's chest soar. He ignored his racing thoughts to pay attention to what you were saying once you cleared your throat awkwardly.
"I noticed you were singing uh... Tell Her About It? That Billy Joel song, right?"
"Uh, yeah. Yeah, off his 1983 album An Innocent Man."
"That's such a good album," you said softly, taking a breath before shaking your head and giving a genuine smile that knocked the wind out of Stephen's lungs. "I'll uh, catch you later."
Stephen agreed quietly as he watched you leave the locker room, scrunching his face up in confusion as he leaned to pick up his empty coffee cup and plastic lid.
Were you catching on? Or were you just coming to terms with the mess that Stephen had made that you had no clue about?
One thing that stood out in his mind though, was that he was headed in the right direction. Now his only goal was to try and stay in it.
He wishes there was more time to dwell on it, but after he put everything away in his locker, the day was nothing but being occupied with multiple surgeries and sitting in on other operations. Stephen barely had time to stop and think about everything that's already happened in the first half of his shift. However, for the second half, he was determined to sing under his breath whenever he could.Â
Stephen barely bumped into you. Even after clocking out to go home, you were nowhere to be found.
Day two of.. whatever he was trying to pull was almost exactly as the first one. Busy, full of surgeries and singing Billy Joel whenever possible, and barely running into you. Part of him was starting to wonder if he should just bite the bullet and talk to you out right.
But that genuinely scared him. The idea of confrontation, especially with a topic he can't quite get a whole grasp on yet? He'd rather take his chances singing under his breath.
However, the third and final day of what he deemed as "Subtle Serenading" after sitting and realizing he needs to try and speed this process up, Stephen changed the song.
Billy Joel's Leave A Tender Moment Alone was shoved into his head and he was going to make sure that it didn't leave at all until he actually got to see you for the day.
Stephen's shift was going well. Although it was a night shiftâhis least favoriteâhe still found ways to be productive while he sang the slow song. Some of his coworkers did watch him sing a little too loud as he made copies of some paperwork to place back in a file he was working in, though. That made him a little self-conscious.
When he was doing some rounds for information on some patients he had helped operate on, he caught glimpses of you and Claire behind the counters of the floor you were all working on.Â
He also noticed your choice of scrubs today was just a regular dark green color, which made him wish he chose to wear his pair, it would have been terribly ironic, but maybe it would start conversation rather than intense stares across the halls of the quiet hospital.
Around midnight, he decided to get coffee. It was his third of the night already, sure, but he had seven hours left in his shift. He was sure he needed the caffeine to keep him from losing his mind.
Stephen was trying to hold back the volume of his singing as he made his way to the break room, dramatically bopping his head back and forth before throwing the door open. His voice faltered slightly as he saw you working on paperwork in the middle table.
The very same table that you tried to nap at on the day you almostâ
"What's got into you?" You questioned suddenly as Stephen felt the door hit him square in the back. He let out a grunt, moving over to the countertop where the coffee pot was placed.
"I just.. didn't expect you in here."
"In the break room?"
Stephen felt the sudden urge to slap himself, realizing how stupid his reply was. He let out a quiet sigh as he started to mess with the coffee machine, getting ready to make a fresh pot.
"Yeah. It's.. It's one of those days."
You seemed to take that as an answer, humming in agreement before all the two of you could hear was the scratching of a pen on paper.
It took Stephen a bit to work up the courage to actually start singing again, but he started singing the chorus of the song just under his breath as he placed the filter in the coffee machine's required compartment before filling it with one of the vanilla flavored coffee grounds that someone had left in the designated coffee cabinet.Â
The silence was a little tense, but Stephen didn't mind. He would never turn down time with you, whether you were conversing with him or not.
You had decided to speak up as he started to sing the song over.
âCould you please stop with the Billy Joel?â
Stephen turned around after he finished checking that the coffee machine was ready to be started before pressing the start button. âIâm sorry?â
âYouâve been singing Billy Joel for the past three days and itâs been driving me  crazy,â you explained as you continued filling in what looked like paper work at the table you occupied.
Stephen rose a brow, starting to feel his heart to pick up speed, âmay I ask why?â
You paused writing on the paper and took in a deep breath before continuing.
âBecause you sing the songs perfectly and it's making me wish thatââ You cut yourself off as you realized how frantic your voice was getting. You took a moment to collect yourself before huffing. âNevermind. Itâs not worth it.â
âHey,â Stephen said gently as he pulled up a seat to sit next to you as you finished filling out the page you were on, âitâs worth it if itâs bugging you. You know you can tell me, right?â
âI-Itâs stupid.â You placed the pen down slowly after capping it, rotating it in your hands to avoid Stephenâs eye contact.
âItâs not stupid, Y/N,â Stephen said sternly.
You finally glanced at Stephen and he felt his heart clench in his chest from worry. He watched you hesitate and take a deep breath before speaking.
âItâs making me wish that... That it was about me. The singing, or whatever.â
Stephen froze.Â
His mind was racing with your confession. You wished it was about you. Â It was about you. You just didnât get that. Itâs always been about you since the first day you actually talked to him. Itâs never not been about you.
Stephenâs brain was kicking into overdrive. This wasnât the plan he and Christine had decided on at all. He usually stays on script. He canât stay on script.
He may as well be throwing caution to the wind with the rest of your relationship you have with him, if he could even call it thatâ
You let out a shaky laugh, gathering your papers together into a small stack.
âIt was dumb. I told you. I told you. Letâs forget this ever happened, âkay? Coolââ
âCan I tell you something?â Stephen said quickly his hand reaching out to grasp your own that wasn't holding the paper, making sure to make eye contact to let you know in his own way that heâs serious. You hesitated again before sighing, everything in your hands abandoned onto the table top.
You gently pulled your hand from Stephen's and waved it. âKnock yourself out.â
âThe other night, in the parking garage,â Stephen started slowly. How the fuck did he even get to this point? The plan was far in the rearview mirror. He had to keep moving forwards and bite the bullet.Â
He took a deep breath and ran his hands over his face with irritation. You can do this.
âI was talking about you.â
The silence you had in response was deafening. Stephen didnât dare breathe while he waited for a reply.
âI.. You.. Â What?" Was all you could reply with.Â
Stephen didnât know if that was due to shock or happiness.
âIt was about... Â you, Y/N. All of it. I didnât mean to make it sound like it was someone elseâIâm not too sure how I could, if Iâm honestâbut that doesnât matter. It was about you. When you talked to me and Christine a day or two ago, I was asking her for help on what I could do to.. to fix this mess, I guess.â
Stephen took a moment to glance up at you now, no longer looking at his hands that were trying to avoid picking at his nails. He couldnât read your emotions on your face like usual, so he took it as a cue to keep going as he stood up from his chair to start pacing around the break room rather than try to think about bouncing his leg.
âI knew it looked suspicious but I couldnât figure out what to do, and--and it was just so hard for me to figure it out on my own because this is the one thing I didnât want to try and mess up withââ
âStephenââ
ââAnd I donât know what I would do with myself if you ended up hating me. I canât stop thinking about you almost every time I turn the radio on and hear a classic rock song. Itâs like the radio is hooked up to my brain and just knows Iâm thinking of you in some wayââ
You tried to interrupt Stephen again, but he continued rambling.
Stephen Strange never knew how to shut up once he got started rambling. Whether it came to his studies or you, apparently.
âStephen,â you said, cutting him off for the third time, standing up and placing your hands on his chest to stop him from pacing. âYouâre rambling.â
Stephen looked at you before you watched his face turn a fairly cute red color as he realized.
âI-Iâm.. Iâm sorry. I didnât mean to start rambling. This is turning out just greatââ
The words in Stephenâs throat died just as quick as they started spilling out again, your hands curling around the collar of his scrubs to yank him down and finally, finally kiss him.
Stephen was in a state of shock for a minute, taking a moment to realize that yes, your lips were on his.
After he came to his senses, he kissed you back gently, as if he was trying to hold back. Still unsure of your answer, even though your answer was in the kiss.
Sadly, you had to pull away, knowing that Stephen had to breathe, since you had cut him off while talking.
Although, something told you that he would continue kissing you, with or without air in his lungs.
Your hands were still wrapped around the collar of his top, your shared breathing soft as another blanket of silence fell over the two of you.
It was... relieving. As if the kiss you just shared cleaned the slate and you knew where you both stood.
Which is why Stephen leaned back in for another kiss. Except this time, it was more desperate and almost like heâs been waiting to let himself out of his own head and just act on his instincts like he did with everything else.
When you met him in the middle, throwing your arms around his neck as your lips molded perfectly with his for the second time today, you found yourself kissing back with the same amount of hunger. You tried getting up onto your toes to makeup for the height difference, but Stephenâs arms wrapped around your waist and lifted you slightly as he shuffled the two of you towards what you could only assume was the counter top.
It turns out you were right as your lower back ran into the edge, causing you to squeak against Stephenâs lips as your hands gripped handfuls of his hair in the process of your shock.
That made Stephen pull away to chuckle breathlessly just inches away from your lips, pressing his forehead to yours. His laughter was extremely contagious, and you found yourself giggling with him as you let your head fall back slightly.
Stephenâs anxiety was for nothing, he realized in this moment.
His panic to try and make amends with grand gestures wasnât as dire as he believed it to be. All he had to do was get himself rambling and it all worked out.
It all worked out perfectly.
"So," you started quietly once your eyes were locked with Stephen's once again, the giggling out of your system. "You take song requests now?"
"For you, Billy Joel? Anyday."
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The Masked Singer Season 4 Episode 3: Group A... again? Playoff Time! Commentary & Guesses
Hi all my Masked Singer fanatics! Time for episode 3 of this new season of The Masked Singer woohoo! Group A is back... and you are probably thinking how about Group C? Group C wonât be performing until after the World Series which is about last week in October to first week of November... so next week we will be seeing Group B in the playoffs as well, but having said that, letâs focus on Group A Â (aka Popcorn, Giraffe, Sun, and Snow Owls) again because my guesses have changed like a lot since last week... I feel more sure about my guesses this time, I swear they are better and more researched this time...Â
But First letâs talk about the eliminated contestant who is....
DRUMROLL PLEASEEEÂ
THE GIRAFFEÂ
Performance: He sang âGet Down on Itâ by Kool & the Gang and it was much better than his first performance, even though the beginning was a bit scary. However, I kind of figured he was going to go home because the rest kind of outshined him by a lot.Â
Anyways, the Giraffe ended up being...
*INSERT DRUMROLL AND AN AUDIENCE SCREAMINGÂ âTAKE IT OFFâ*Â
BRIAN AUSTIN GREENÂ
And if you are like, um who... same! Well he is from the hit show Beverly Hills 90210 and heâs Megan Foxâs ex husband.... and I actually was convinced due to a large amount of YouTube comments saying that it was him because of the clues (did you see how wonderful that segue was? Come on, that was flawless):Â
The Fox from Season 2 and Transformers clues= his ex wife/mother to his kids, Megan Fox referenceÂ
Peach Pit= famous scene from 90210 (idk man Iâve heard of the show but never seen it, donât judge me)Â
Robins on his shoulders= nod to him being best friends with Robin Thicke (weâll talk about that hilarious moment in a second, btw spoiler alert Robin didn't guess his best friend) since they were both 16Â
Golden Ear Time:Â
Itâs been a while since last time they didnât show it (btw Jenny got a point for guessing Gremlin) so lemme explain this is the segment where I talk about the judgesâ guesses... but today I am just gonna talk about Ken and Robin because they had some funny moments with these guesses (oh and btw I am gonna do judgesâ guesses for the rest of them, and Joel McHale was a guest judge so heâs included below.. just so you guys know who I mean when I say Joel)Â
So Ken guessed Shia Lebouf.... um, ok? Not the first time... Whatâs funny tho is that his explanation for his answer was so much that even the Giraffe fell asleep like damn lmaoÂ
Then Robin... his best friend since age 16 (these men are both in their 40s, married/divorced with kids and everything), his neighbor, they were in a 2 man band together.... and HE STILL DIDNâT GUESS HIM (and a bunch of 90210 fans did and even got the reference wowwww). The best part was his face when he saw it was Brain, he was like nooooooooo I done messed up (I was about to curse, but this is a family show), funniest thing ever 10/10 would recommend watching just for that reaction
Anyways, we are done here, now to the final 3 for Group A:Â
1. THE POPCORNÂ
Performance: She sang âFallingâ by Harry Styles and damn what an improvement! This is the stuff I was looking for when I saw how adorable her costume was. Omg this was my favorite performance of the night, it was so memorable and amazing!Â
As for my guess, I changed my answer and I feel confident about this one, I am locking it in....Â
I think that the Popcorn is 80s pop star....Â
TAYLOR DAYNEÂ
Hereâs why, clues please:
Mention of her being sick and having anxiety as a kid= when she was 5 she underwent ureteral reimplantation surgery and struggled with panic attacks, anxiety, and agoraphobia (fear of open/crowded spaces)Â
Crimper and Rubik's cube= 80s reference, when she started her career (1985) and gained success
LGBTQ+ Flag= huge LGBTQ+ supporterÂ
Venus= planet of love, which most of her songs are about
Judgesâ Guesses:Â
Ken: Katy Perry?! (I know itâs Ken and heâs not great at this, but really?!)Â
Joel: Gloria Gaynor (meh, thatâs better, Iâve seen this guess a bit, but nope)Â
Jenny: Vanessa Williams (nope, I donât think so Jenny, thatâs worse than Gloria Gaynor)Â
2. THE SNOW OWLSÂ
Performance: They sang âLike Iâm Gonna Lose Youâ by John Legend and Meghan Trainor and I really heard the country in their voice this time and they sounded older so the moment I heard them I was like yeah nope not Julianne and Derek at all. However, even though I love them, I really preferred their first performance even though this one was cute and I really want them to go super far.Â
As for my guess, I changed my answer and thank you to all the people who helped me out by yelling at me on the YouTube comments section, I am gonna go with country duo....
CLINT BLACK AND HIS WIFE LISA HARTMANÂ
Hereâs why, clues please:
Witch hat= Lisa played a witch, Tabitha, in the Bewitched sequelÂ
Going through a messy breakup = Clint had a pretty bad legal falling out with his management company
Anchor with MANagement= Clint was in a movie named Anger Management in 2004Â
Opportunity fit for a queen= their song together âWhen I say I doâ going to the Tonight Show and her being apprehensive about it, but him pushing her to do it.Â
Judgesâ Guesses:
Ken: Will Ferrell and Rachael McAdams (whatâs your proof?)
Joel: Garth Brooks and Trisha Yearwood (I like that one, pretty close)Â
Jenny: Keith Urban and Nicole Kidman (also close not mad at this guess)
3. THE SUN
Performance: She sang "Prayingâ by Kesha and wow, so good! I loved it so much, her and the seahorse are stiff competition. Sheâs amazing, I am really into her, sheâs one of my faves.Â
As for my guess, I am doubling down on my last guess (only one I felt good about).. Letâs go:Â
LEANN RIMES
Hereâs why Iâm doubling down, clues please:
Fractured home= parents were divorced
Into the woods= she used to date Tiger Woods (say what now?! yes this is real, I searched it up after reading a comment on YouTube)
Ugly Rumors= She appeared in Coyote Ugly/ sang for the soundtrack and there were really horrible rumors about her and her divorce
Over the moon= her songs: canât fight the moonlight and nothing new under the moonÂ
8 Ball= She was on Star Search at age 8
Judgesâ Guesses:
Nicole: Carrie Underwood (her logic is bad, but close enough)Â
Jenny: Mandy Moore (um, idk the voice doesnât match)Â
Robin: Katherine McPhee (I like his logic, but no, the voice is too distinct)Â
Alright so thatâs it! Sorry for it being late but better late than never. I hope you guys enjoy! Let me know if you agree or disagree in the comments and Iâll see you in a couple of days for the Group B playoffs (little fun prediction if you made it this far: I think the Whatchamacallit is next to leave)! BYE!!! đđŒ
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Okay so meeting them this time was an unreal experience and Iâm shaking.
We got to the venue around 5:30 and wasnât inside until 8:30. Latin men are late, which they were about an hour behind tbh.Â
It was pouring rain but I made friends with other cncowners and thatâs what I love about the fandom. One girl guessed I was a Richard and Iâm like, âDamn howâd you knowâ
Iâm gonna skip the nitty gritty like how I was fucking freezing, hungry (I hadnât eaten much because I felt like I would vomit), and my feet sore because I was in heeled boots.Â
Also yes, they bought pizza for us but I wasnât going to eat it in fear of pizza breath and being bloated.Â
When we got inside the venue, I took my mom, it was an intimate space. There were a bunch of rumors that we had to wear our jackets to take the pictures. But yâall I picked this outfit with the help of @yatusabess so I wasnât gonna let it go to waste. Luckily, you couldâve left your things on the floor near the exit.Â
Also no phones. So if they saw you with your phone, youâd be kicked out of the line.Â
After setting all my stuff down, I had my photo of the basketball game on the ready.Â
TĂłxica was playing on the loud speaker. Like okay, itâs not the best choice of hype song but itâs our boys so we stan.Â
Then we got closer to the front and Ya TĂș Sabes starts playing, which slaps if you donât listen to the lyrics. Â
Thankfully I actually know the lyrics.Â
Then Iâm about two people behind from meeting them and the chorus hits so Iâm dancing and singing. Ya TĂș Sabes has that beat thatâs so sensual?? I was just having fun to loosen the nerves.Â
Their videographer saw me dancing to the chorus and took video.Â
Then, Chris sees me and weâre kinda dancing together, pointing at each other and swaying our hips to the beat as though we were dancing with each other. Â
I swear it was like a Y/N moment we write about.Â
Hereâs THE Christopher Velez just five feet away from me and we are matching the beat and not caring whoâs watching us. Literally Ya TĂș Sabes sounds like a bad bitch song so Iâm feeling it and because Iâm having fun with it, so is Chris.Â
Like I said before, thankful that TĂłxica just finished playing because I canât get down to that.Â
In fact, Chris got so distracted by our small dance party, he forgot he was supposed to be taking a picture with another fan and instead kept his eyes on me as we danced to Ya TĂș Sabes.Â
In my head Iâm thinking damn ok can we hit the clubs after this?? I donât even wanna hook ups with you, I just want to have a good time.Â
One of the store managers is like âhug the first three, picture, then hug the last two.â
Iâm just agreeing with her but highkey no one listens to that.Â
So now itâs my turn and I go to CHRIS and show him my picture. CHRIS takes the photo and is genuinely trying to recall the memory so I said, âI donât know if you remember but we took this photo. My ex broke up with me because he saw it and turns out he was cheating on me.âÂ
I was trying to be fast and coherent. When youâre at a M&G you have to utilize every second you have.Â
Now Chris and Erick are both staring at the photo then at me. Chrisâ mouth is hung open trying to process what I said.Â
Erick takes hold of my right bicep and says, âWait really?â
I remember this because in order to reply I had to look into those STUNNING JADE eyes!!
So I nodded, âYes. Really. He BROKE up with me. But he was the one cheating all along.âÂ
Iâm so proud of Erick and how far heâs come to be a buy linguini king âđŒ
Wbk but Erick is really fucking beautiful lol.Â
But then Alex, their security, is rushing us like âpicture, pictureâ so I go to hug Zabdiel and Richard.Â
Richard cheek kisses me and hugs me like weâre best friends and heâs like âHi baby.â Pretty sure the hug was longer than the other boys but thatâs because Iâm most comfortable with Rich.
Tbh what I remember about Richard was how firm his embrace was and feeling his lips against my cheeks. He was super chill.Â
Iâm not.Â
Iâll rob a bank for that man.Â
The boys originally stood in a 5 line formation but none of them were paying attention to their managers or Alex and instead they broke formation to huddle around me and are talking to me.Â
CHRIS cuts in front of Erick and Zabdiel to ask, âWait so you found out about him cheating because of us?â
I was prepping for the photo said, âYeah and Iâm so so thankful. You have no idea.âÂ
Richard was all proud and piped up âOh yeah! I remember that day and about your ex.â
He would remember because I met him in August and spilled everything back then. Rich was so cute when he said that like he was closer to me than the others.Â
Like we had a secret the others didnât have.Â
It was funny to see how they all kinda competed over who remembered me and that game. When really it was probably Richard that recalled me most since I actually sat next to him and talked with him.Â
Honestly there were too many hands holding my own and lips on my cheeks to remember who did what and where.Â
But the first picture is taken. I remember a hand being outreached and I placed my own in it and whoever it was, gripped onto me tight. I got the photo and didnât know I was holding Chrisâ hand but damn, I felt loved.
FACTS THE BOYS SMELL WONDERFUL!!!Â
During the first picture, I really felt like I was on a cloud or something. They were all so soft and I was being surrounded by cozy hoodies and warm bodies.Â
I was hugging Richard again, he kisses my cheek. Richard consumes me like nobodyâs business.Â
I know Joel said âWait! I remember that day.âÂ
I feel like Joel really wanted to be a part of the commotion and that was sweet.
Their videographer actually took photo or video of the basketball picture I brought them.Â
Now it was my momâs turn for her picture. Her first language is Spanish so sheâs talking to the boys in Spanish like itâs no big deal.Â
Iâm standing between Joel and Richard. Richard turns to me like âHonestly, forget that N-word, I told you before.âÂ
And I said âYeah, I know.âÂ
I appreciate Richard for the fact heâs ALWAYS taken the time to talk to me privately.Â
Even if itâs just for a moment, a second, Richuki has always made me feel seen and heard.Â
Back in August, even when they rushed him into the bus, he turned around to me to say âMove onto the next one.â
Then yesterday, as I was standing by him, he turns to me to reaffirm that Iâll be okay.Â
That I can move on.Â
My mom is talking in Spanish to Zabdiel and Erick, whom btw were mystified that my mom was speaking Spanish. I was watching Zabdielâs face and he was tilting his head and nodding at my mom like sheâs some sea creature at an aquarium.Â
My mom says she felt the boys wanted to ask how she knew Spanish but didnât know how to approach the question. Â
As my mom is lining up for her picture, I asked Richard, âCan we do a proposal picture because thatâs my mom?âÂ
So heâs like âSure what do you want me to do?âÂ
Richard looked behind him and made sure there was enough room between him and Zab to actually do this photo.Â
Quickly, he grabs my hand and gets down on one knee.Â
I love how down he was for it. He didnât hesitate or question anything, he just got to his knee and took my hands.Â
If you look at the progression of the photos, itâs my smiling mom totally unaware that her daughter is aboutta get proposed to. Richard is a little blurry because heâs getting on his knee and I look genuinely surprised that itâs happening.Â
Then my mom sees Richard, the second photo, and maybe itâs finally clicking.
The third photo, of course Richard is sticking his tongue out and my mom is hella shocked she just got a new son-in-law.Â
Richard said: Her last ex fucked up but itâs okay because she upgraded đ
It was everything I wanted. I was surrounded by all the men we love, my mom was there, and it was professionally taken!!Â
Oh and as Richard was getting to his knee, the rest of the band, was making cooing noises.Â
I remember Joel because he was right next to us, going like âoh woah. Woah. Woah.â Hence why heâs making those đ± face.
I think heâs the one that gets asked to âproposeâ most or so Iâve seen from the pictures. Thatâs why I think for Richuki to do it, the boys support.Â
Anyways, the boys are doing their typical hoot and holler.Â
And Iâm fucking giddy af. Like pretty sure I blacked out. Just seeing Richuki and feeling his hands hold mine was so unreal.Â
They snap that photo and Iâm absolutely so happy.Â
My mom says âI was getting ready for the picture and suddenly I see him get on his knees so Iâm shocked. I had no idea he was gonna do that.âÂ
Richard and Joel hug and kiss my cheeks again. We say, âbyeâ again. My mom goes to hug Richard and BYPASSES JOEL but Joel thought she was gonna hug him so I had to nudge her. Then she turns to Joel and they hug, it was actually cute.
Then security cuts off our bracelets and they say, âyou should leave the photo for them.âÂ
So I wrote a little note and left it with them.Â
If any of yâall get to meet them, my biggest advice is to have fun. You get back what you give into the M&G. Itâs okay to be nervous but donât let nerves run your experience. Be honest with them, talk about music, and just remember theyâre people too.Â
Also etiquette, donât shove your hands down their pants or tongue in their throats. There are some poses that are obviously more comfortable for the boys than others. I know we all want that picture perfect shot but I saw some pictures and the boys werenât totally themselves. Â
That kind of discomfort translates into the final shot.Â
Finally, I wanna always thank the boys for everything theyâve done.Â
They helped me out of a bad relationship, theyâve given me a whole genre of music thatâs extended my music library, and above all they gave me this CNCOwner family, that I couldnât go a day without being a part of.Â
Iâm eternally grateful for everyone here đđđ
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unspoken passion
Iâm writing about Tim Murphy but donât get too excited.
itâs better if you have âjust the way you areâ by billy joel playing on repeat in the background. trust me.
Dedicated to Madeline<3Â
I made this tweet earlier and this is basically what this is:
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âThanks again for this,â Madeline turned to her best friend, the tall redhead in a suit that didnât quite fit him right. He gave out a chuckle, rolling his eyes as he fiddled with one of the buttons on his blazer.
âStop thanking me, youâre becoming a clichĂ©,â he playfully hit her on the back making her stumble slightly forward. He laughed. âYouâre so dramatic.â
The wedding reception was lively and filled with people she either didnât know or met maybe once or twice. At least this time she wouldnât be stuck at the singles table again. Last time, it was full of sad girls who got drunk and tried to sleep with virtually anybody and old men who no one knew. Sheâd spent the whole night regretting even showing up. Timâs gaze flashed around the room, eager and childish, biting his lip, probably eager to get on the dancefloor.
There was a lot of noise, this wedding seemed a lot more lighthearted than the last sheâd been to but maybe it was because this time she wasnât alone. Tim was always the one that made things more exciting for the both of them. The bus rides to museums were always filled with the music from his mixed CDs or heâd fill scrapbooks full of cut out comic book pages and heâd create his own so that she could read them on the bus. Things like that always made her feel better, so just having him here with her made her feel a hundred times better.
She and Tim made their way to their table, this time she knew she was going to be sitting amongst friends, not only was she very close to one of the bridesmaids but also anyone Tim met ended up being his friend by the end of the night so it wouldnât be nearly as awkward as it usually was. Sheâd just let Tim take the lead, do most of the talking and if necessary sheâd crack a few jokes or ask a few questions but mainly, the only thing she was there to do was support her friend. Who just got married. She must be here somewhere, my friend, uh, Marie--no Joan, wait--
âTim,â Maddie said lowly, her eyes wide and her cheeks getting slightly redder as time went by. Tim turned to her, eyebrows raised. âWhose wedding is this?âÂ
He burst out laughing, she hit his arm, trying to get him to stop so that not too much attention would be drawn to them. âItâs one of your friends! How am I supposed to know?â
âI donât know, Timothy, I've been to so many lately Iâm losing my mind!âÂ
âThis is so funny.â
âPiss off,â she rolled her eyes. âDo you know or donât you?â
âYes, I do,â he said smugly, her face lit up, happily, that only made him giggle. âThat doesn't mean Iâm gonna tell you, thereâd be no fun in that!âÂ
âThis isnât fun,â she pushed him, barely doing anything at all.
They got to the table and the first thing Tim did was shake hands with everyone there. He introduced himself, smiled, cracked a few jokes and all she could do was stand behind him and smile awkwardly. She spotted her friend, the bridesmaid, and her shoulders relaxed. âLyn!â She shouted making Lyn look up and smile. Lyn was tall and skinny and naturally a model, she probably worked with Calvin Klein or something at the moment, Maddie couldnât keep up.
Tim turned slightly, looking at Lyn as she budged past lots of different people with the brightest smile on her face. Tim was intrigued, he didnât make it obvious but something about his body language made Maddie raise an eyebrow. âYouâre drooling,â she scoffed. Tim jumped out of his skin and shook his head, pretending he had no idea what she was talking about.
âOMG, Maddie! I havenât seen you in so long! How have you been?â Lyn pulled her into a hug, and Maddie happily accepted. Lyn was one of those people that connected with anyone through touch. She would take any opportunity to let you know that sheâs supporting you and listening to and stuff like that. She was an overall nice person.
âIâve been good! I saw you on a billboard last week, thought I was going crazy! Youâre super popular now, weâre a long way from high school!â Maddie giggled, everything about her tone hinted at the fact that generally, she wasnât being genuine, as much as she like Lyn, she found her a little annoying, everything with her sounded like a competition, so Maddie always had to lay down the compliments to avoid it getting annoying. Maddie turned to the overgrown boy next to her whose eyes were wide and stupidly pretty. âTim, this is--â
âLyn Carter,â Tim breathed. He shook himself out of his trance. âIâm a huge fan of your work, I saw what you did for all of those charities and your expedition to plant new trees in the rainforest, I really, really love what you do for the environment,â he shook her hand, her smile got brighter, a little shocked.
âThatâs nice to hear, Tim, what do you do?â
âIâm a palaeontologist. I study dinosaurs,â he scratched the back of his head nervously, a blush rising on his cheeks. Madelineâs eyebrows knitted together and she cleared her throat.Â
âShould we sit?â
Tim spent about an hour babbling to Lyn about the environment and basically spitting out any facts he knew or could remember, debating them with Lyn and they went back and forth for ages. Sometimes heâd turn to Maddie and rub her shoulder with a smile and ask if she was okay, to which Maddie only smiled and nodded back. In truth, she was bored out of her mind. She wasnât even really listening to what they were saying, sheâd spaced out then minutes in and had only really spoken to Mr H, the old man sitting opposite her, sheâd asked him to pass her the salt because heâd been hogging and sheâd been waiting for ten minutes.
Timâs hand on her shoulder took her out of her trance, heâd stood up. He leaned down and with a smile, he said he was going to the bathroom and gave her a quick and innocent kiss on the cheek. She didnât know why, this rarely happened but in the moment she didnât really think much of it.Â
Lyn watched Tim leave with a smile on her face and Maddie rolled her eyes. As soon as he was out of sight, Lyn squirmed and moved up onto Timâs chair and sat next to Maddie. âOh, my God, Mads,â she blinked with a huge grin, her mouth slightly open. âWhat have you done to this guy?âÂ
Maddie deadpanned for a minute. She wasnât processing what Lyn had just said, it didn't make any sense. âPardon?â
âHeâs literally obsessed with you, I donât know what you did to this man but heâs completely enchanted by you,â Lyn giggled at Maddieâs expression. âDo you seriously have no idea what Iâm talking about?âÂ
Maddie thought about it. Tim and Lyn had been talking for an hour straight, not once to her directly, she basically felt ignored most of the time, and pitied every time Tim checked up on her. This didnât feel like Tim was enchanted by her, mainly like he was just doing her a favour and was having a good time without her.
âOkay, let me lay it down for you--â Lyn cleared her throat, turning around to make sure he wasnât coming back yet. âTim brought your name up in the conversation every two sentences, he told me about fourteen stories about your childhood together, showed me a picture of you and him holding some award he won and literally zoomed in to your face to comment on the colour of your eyes. If that ainât love,â she laughed.
Madeline didnât say anything. She kept opening her mouth but nothing was coming out, it just felt like a rush to the head, none of it made sense. She felt a bit like she needed to chuckle or brush it off as if it were a joke but Lynâs eyes didnât have a trace of humour in them, just a gleam that showed some sort of glee at this discovery. âTim isnât in love with me,â was all Maddie could muster up. Her voice was quiet and cracked slightly and suddenly she was begging to feel a little lightheaded.
âAnd donât even get me started on you and your green eye,â Lyn laughed.
âMy eyes are blue,â Maddie said, confusion covering every inch of her face.
âI meant your jealous little remarks and faces! Girl, youâve got it and you've got it bad!â Lyn pushed her shoulder playfully and Maddie didnât move.Â
âI donât know what youâre talking about, I donât have anything!â
Thatâs when she saw Tim coming back from the bathroom, childishly pulling his trousers up and trying to frantically tuck his shirt into his pants before getting to the table. Lyn followed Maddieâs gaze and mouthed âhere he comesâ before she moved back to her own seat and begun tucking into the food she hadnât gotten a chance to eat yet.
Once Tim joined them once again, he didnât sit, he just placed both of his hands on the back of Maddieâs chair and leaned forward to whisper in her ear, a crooked grin on his lips. âWanna dance?âÂ
Lyn choked on her food, making both of them look up and all she did was laugh and hold up two thumbs. Maddieâs stomach dropped and she swallowed slightly, suddenly feeling very nervous. All she did was hum back and stood up, Timâs hand snaked around her waist as he lead her to the dance floor.Â
The light was blue, it felt like a school dance, barely anyone was in the middle dancing although there were a few couples scattered around the sides, gently swaying to the mellow melody of the music, Maddie suddenly felt watched.Â
Don't go changing to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore
They got to the middle and Tim had a slight flush on his face as he placed his hands on her hips, biting his lip slightly, his usual smugness somehow washed away and now it was just him, vulnerable in front of her. She wrapped her arms around his neck so that their faces were really close to each other and she just watched his eyes as they seemed to scan her face.
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care
Maddie cleared her throat. âBilly Joel, huh? This really is a wedding,â she chuckled awkwardly, Timâs eyes flashed from hers to her lips and Maddie was looking over that fact, too anxious to think about any unspoken feeling that she may or may not have bottled up over the course of almost twenty years.
I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are
In that moment, Timâs head ducked down and he kissed her. Maddie was caught back, completely shocked and for a moment she didnât move. As he slowly pulled away and looked at her with what seemed like fear in his eyes--fear of having ruined something or completely misread the situation--Maddie just watched him for a couple seconds. They didnât move. Then something came over her, something that had been hiding for so long, something that needed to be let out. With one glance at his lips, she pulled his head back down and reconnected their lips.
Memories flashed in her mind of sleepovers when they were younger and him waking up in the middle of the night sweaty and screaming and sheâd have to comfort him and lull him back to sleep, his head on her chest and her hands in his hair, or memories of when sheâd wear long sleeves in the summer just so Tim didnât feel weird about being the only one, because sheâd never wanted him to feel embarrassed about his scars or left out. She thought about when he comforted her when her first boyfriend dumped her so Tim took her out for ice cream at two am and talked her down to the point that she fully forgot sheâd been dumped.
That was them, they were always there for each other, no matter what, when Tim was down, Maddie lifted him up and same goes for the other way around. Maddie had never really thought about anything else but really, it was there. She loved him, always had and in one way or the other something in her knew this would happen and as much as it came as a shock--it just felt right. Perfect.Â
And in that moment, thatâs all that she needed. No more overthinking or anything. In that moment, it was just them two.Â
No one else.
As the song played, the night went on and it was perfect.Â
I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you?
I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are
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