#probably. i mean i should

[araneapeixes]

currently experiencing. sad autism where im scared that bc i post so slow everybody has already gotten over bg3 and theres no point in me getting to all the ideas i still have bc novody will care. can anybody just reassure me real quick that you will still want me to draw shadowheart once every 3 months in the future

#3 particular shad ideas r at the top of my list currently but im having a hard time even getting to work on them #bc i feel like its already too late? idk this probably doesnt make sense and is stupid #delete later #probably. i mean i should #im also scared that bc i talk to people on here so sporadically that nobody cares. just a good day overall

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[xan-from-space]

Senshi is probably the most fandomized character in Dungeon Meshi, and while I don't exactly mind it, I do think he has more depth than that. I find all his little quirks and idiosyncrasies to be fascinating; he's very stubborn and set in his ways about things that seemingly don't matter, he thinks about things that other people don't, he has a deeply set value system that informs everything he does. He cares A Lot, like, this man cares So Much. That's the kind of person you have to be to drop everything to help a random group of adventurers save one woman. But because he feels so strongly about things, he can also be surprisingly immature at times (although he's also the character most likely to admit he was wrong about something). I think part of that is because he's lived in the dungeon on his own so long that he's not used to working with other people. He will extend empathy and friendship to almost anyone, but he does things his own way, and he doesn’t always feel the need to explain his way of thinking because again, he's usually on his own. He's both incredibly wise and kind of childish in ways that seem contradictory at first, but make more and more sense the more we learn about him. Major kudos to Ryoko Kui's writing and pacing to make that transition so seamless and have all those details from his backstory click into place perfectly. And on a wider thematic level, Senshi is kind of a perfect counterpart to characters like Thistle (or any other dungeon lord). Senshi understands the dungeon in ways that even its creator doesn't. Although everyone is scrambling to take control of the dungeon, Senshi is the one who actually takes care of it. He's the one who thinks about things like nutrition and proper sleep and the ecosystem, all those things that it's easy to ignore when you get swept up by the grandeur of it all. He's the most important character to have present in a story that explores life and death and hunger. His constant, invisible presence holds everything together.

#I'm not finished it yet so I don't want to make any big sweeping claims about what his story means in the greater context of the manga #but. I really like him so. Senshi thought dump #I really thought this was going to be shorter...idk if I really got what I wanted to say across but once I started writing I couldn't stop #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon #senshi #senshi of izganda #edit: yeah I should probably tag this #dungeon meshi spoilers #shouldn't I

[hotdogmchiggin]

I guess DARE wasn’t a thing in Goron City

#saw someone call zelda the gorons drug dealer and I couldnt get the image of her in a trenchcoat peddling marbled rock roast to children #like one of those shady guys selling wristwatches in cartoons out of my head #anyway that’s where this came from #trying to figure out comics and shit. not my strong suit so sorry if its rough. #figuring out an optimal level of detail is hard :( first I’m like oh i’ll just leave it black and white and then i’m like maybe ill add #color and then i’m like well now it needs shading and THEN it needs lighting and THEN IT NEEDS A BACKGROUND AND THEN IT NEE #anyway i should. probably stop rambling bye #loz #tears of the kingdom #totk #totk spoilers #i mean sorta. not huge spoilers. slight spoilers for goron arc I guess #zelda #myart

[thechaoticdruid]

Tav: *breaks up with Astarion or Gale for someone else*

Astarion and Gale:

Tav: *Breaks up with Wyll for someone else.*

Wyll: Understandable have a nice day.

We don't deserve Wyll. He's just too good. Fucking takes it like a champ. What an absolute Chad.

#baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #Tav x BG3 #astarion bg3 #astarion ancunin #astarion x tav #bg3 tav #bg3 wyll #wyll ravengard #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #gale x tav #wyll x tav #Wyll Ravengard appreciation post #Wyll is honestly the kind of man you should date irl ngl #I mean I'm stupid so I'd still probably go after Astarion #But you should date Wyll dear user #Wyll is too pure for this world

[benrybenrybenry-chr]

being into sherlock holmes is so stupid like. yeah here's my blorbo, you don't know him. you think you do, but unless you've systematically fallen in love with him through the personal writings of his retired army doctor best friend you really don't. yeah. he's one of the most popular and well known characters in the world. I have interacted with at least 60% of the current fans. hey do you think he associates the sounds of waterfalls with death? do you think he'll ever get over that? I won't. good talk

#sherlock holmes #acd canon #acd holmes #acd sherlock holmes #like idk bro something abt it is so surreal to me #it also just feels so stupid to say when ur talking to people who dont. get it #they think of him like an icon more than a beloved book character #like he isnt a character to them hes a representation of detective media #so it seems silly to them #yk that I care that much #its interesting #to me at least #those books mean way more to me than they probably should #its probably the autism

[gaysquares]

Kait Rokowsky || Mary Shelley, Frankenstein || @hopepunk-humanity || Jenny Slate, Little Weirds || Intricate Explorer || Melissa Broder, Problem Area || Kerri Maniscalco, Kingdom of the Wicked || Louise Eldritch, The King of the Owls || Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know || Damir Omerović || David Leviathan, How They Met and Other Stories || Ariana Reines, The Cow || Anaís C., Am I Good? || Okechukwu Nzelu, Here Again Now || Max Muselmann || Fernando Pessoa, I See Boats Moving || Mary Maclane, I Await the Devil's Coming || Jhumpa Lahiri, Whereabouts || Mary Oliver, Spring || Jordan Steranka Tathlyn Auvrynval: On Endurance, Defending, and Being Made A Weapon

#long post #web weaving #oc: Tathlyn #not gonna lie i saw haarleps posting abt web weaving and it made me wanna try #also i should post about tathlyn more probably #userhaarleps #did u know his name means midnight assassin #there u go there's a fun fact

[demigods-posts]

if i could have the show change anything, it'd be the kiss in tbotl. everything pretty much stays the same. he screams at her to get out because they don't have time to think of a plan. and she still kisses him. except this time around. he tries to kiss her back but she pulls away before he can. i think it would allow them to acknowledge the mutual desire for what could have been if they had time. but they can't ever be because time isn't on their side.

#i mean obviously however rick wants it to go is how i'll welcome it #bc i trust the guy obvi #but i would still love this very much #lowkey tempted to write a fanfic/short blurb #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo text post #pjo #pjo headcanon #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #percabeth headcanon #percabeth fluff #percabeth angst #fics i should probably write 👀

[lucabyte]

you dream of devouring your friends whole

#the 'it' and 'that' sif is referring to is the act 3 loop hangout but i enjoy being vague in dialogue it feels natural. tee hee. #serious time means everyone gets noses btw. sorry about the slow metamorphasis back into my usual style from my mimicry #in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #isat loop #isat act 5 spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat siffrin #in stars and time fanart #isat fanart #sifloop #YES IM TAGGING THE SHIP. THUMBS UP. READ INTO THAT HOW YOU WILL BECAUSE IT WAS ON MY MIND WHEN DRAWING IT AT THE LEAST #aaaaaanyway. my personal reading of loop is. how do you say... flowey-esque. to invoke a fellow antagonistic timelooper. since imo #they do seem even fuuurther gone than sasasap sif was when we saw them. and BOY DOES LATEGAME ISAT SIF HAVE SOME INTRUSTIVE THOUGHTS #so uh. who's to say what happened in there. since we know start again isnt quite congruent as loop never beat the king. #i wouldn't blame them for going maybe a little mad. just a lil #it is important to me that loop is. perhaps a bit haunted. AND THAT THEY GET THROUGH IT!!! but they are haunted #lucabyteart #anyway uhhh. probably should put a cw for implied cannibalism?? #cannibalism mention

[imma-triple-a-battery]

bonus:

saw this on @mha-quotes-and-such and just had to draw it

#bnha #bnha fanart #mha #bakugou katsuki #kaminari denki #this counts as th bksquad right? #probably #bakusquad #idk if i should tag aizawa #i mean he's there #for like two seconds #aizawa shouta #anyway #they're so dumb #defenestration #i love that that’s a tag

[avephelis]

somehow forgot to post this for five months but DIGGING UP MY SPREAD FROM DONZINE ✌️✌️ which you can still check out btw!! donnie my garden warrior

#i'm still posting this is 2023 surely that counts for something right #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise donnie #avepharts #donzine #bad bitches (me) will work on an artwork for two months and then never post it. cough i mean who said that #eyestrain #not really kinda? in case. anyway. #you should be able to click each side to zoom it was designed for a double spread but tumblr probably gonna crunch this shit so #i won't get into why there wasn't a super public release of this zine but it IS STILL THERE! if you wanna check it out loads of amazing art

[reds-skull]

Anatomy is one of the biggest thing I need to work on, so why not do it while drawing these two fuckers.

Tried to focus just on the sketch/lineart, so no shading on this one...

#call of duty modern warfare 2 #cod mw2 #cod ghost #cod soap #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #cod fanart #ghostsoap #soapghost #ghoap #Incredibly homoerotic. as it should be #POV you're a FNG watching the LT go on a rampage after your Sergeant went down #only to find them like this after the fight ends #also of course they're covered in blood #honestly... should've put more of it #really dunk them in red paint yknow #also yes the next chapter of not alive nor dead will probably come out tomorrow #bc i left yall on another mean cliffhanger and i feel bad. again. #still got a lot to improve on with anatomy but i dont hate this

[iris-of-the-eye]

"I could be on drugs!" is a reference to a time Georgie dragged Jon to a party during uni where people were doing drugs. Trying to fit in, the jittery mess we call Jon did a line of coke, only to immediately stop shaking and have his thoughts slow down. He refused to listen when Georgie asked him to get tested for ADHD afterwards

#i mean cocaine is a stimulant! #he should probably just stick to adderall tho #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #georgie barker #tma shitpost #get him some prozac too

[coconuts-are-mammals]

gays, claim your "I survived the summer of 2023" tokens here

#see also: “I barely survived the summer of 2023” tokens as well as “I didn't survive the summer of 2023” tokens #Hozier #Unreal Earth #good omens season 2 #go2 #Wwdits #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #Barbie movie #red white and royal blue #rwarb #heartstopper series #honestly I'm probably forgetting a lot still. feel free to bury me nameless in Boston and spit on my grave #should that be the case #but hi. hey. we still alive?? #lgbtq #I also mean gays more so as queers but I personally am more inclined to use the word gay when describing this lovely community #Even though in this state none of us are happy #neil gaiman #Nimona

[lakesparkles]

Trying my best to draw with my old laptop that is THE WORST, so sorry if these aren't the best.

Btw I'm having a great time reading the Scott Pilgrim comics and I just got to volume 6 and I'm so hyped to meet comic Gideon that I already drew him. I'm sure I'll love him too <3 Also, why no one told me Ramona is the best character ever in the comic??

Also, I'm thinking about doing a Goosepowers AU with their comic versions but I'm too lazy for it so far.

#gideon graves #gordon goose #i mean kinda #julie powers #ramona flowers #scott pilgrim #my laptop is so bad it took 20 minutes to send these images to my own email #i'll probably draw comic gideon more once i actually read his volume #i should draw movie gideon too because he's my favorite gideon

[th3e-m4ng0]

re: that post about the lack of enrichment in trucks

i bring yet another megop au where op is another depressed fellow whose EM field is always emitting gloomy and tired vibes. vs megatron who is at his happiest when hauling materials and messing with his coworkers/friends

they haven't seen each other in years since the war ended and they signed all these treaties and paperwork !

#wip #au #op wonders why he's the only odd one from his peers that feels specially unhappy with his post-war life. he shouldn't. work pays well and h #has a house all by himself. he's not in immediate danger. no one is actively trying to kill each other. has access to energon and treats #his friends are all near him (and yet he doesn't try to contact them bc he might be bothering them) #by all means he should be happy but alas. he is not ! (sadge) #and then megatron's like YEAHH. ROCKS. I HAUL THE MATERIALS. i will dump dirt on top of you if you are distracted. do not try to tip me ove #i will punch you. oh optimus prime? idk he's probably passed away idc. look at this buiding. i'm helping #[truck with Sufficient enrichment vs truck with lack of enrichment]