#real talk there was a natural progression LMAO

[wolfythewitch]

im so so confused rn the last time i had social media you were a mcyt artist??? now as far as i can tell you are in the bible fandom and the odyssey???????? im so lost bro like i wasnt on the internet for a full year but still lol??? love your artwork btw!!!

Sometimes we find god when we least expect it

#real talk there was a natural progression LMAO #ive been into the odyssey since january #wolfy tedtalks #beeswask

[octopotto]

Yandere! Azul Ashengrotto General Headcanons

OCTO NOTE: Okay I know I said that I would work on the Cloud Strife hcs but then I got sad and thought about Azul lmaooo

Think of this as a celebration post for the live action The Little Mermaid release!! Has anyone seen it yet?? 

Warnings: NOT PROOF-READ, Yandere behaviour, manipulation, obsession, OOC madness, blackmail, insecurities, Jade and Floyd, this is a mess lmao I’m sorry.

**WILL CONTAIN SPOILERS FOR TWISTED WONDERLAND

REMINDER: Yandere behaviour of any kind is unhealthy behaviour. It should not be something to seek out in real life. If you are experiencing any sort of inappropriate behaviour, please contact help/seek out help.

**The reader will ALWAYS be Gender-Neutral! 

ps. HAPPY PRIDE MONTH TO MY FELLOW LGBTQIA+ <3333

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- Azul can be described as a greedy, manipulative, and intelligent individual who uses logical reasoning and sometimes solid ‘evidence’ to succeed, whether it be his business or his education. 

- At least on the outside.

- On the inside is an insecure, isolated, and paranoid little octopus that when cornered, just can’t help but slowly become unable to contain the facade he worked on for years.

- Now imagine this sad lil’ octopus as a yandere

- Not good lol

- I mean yes, the manipulative and intelligent nature of Azul are probably the main reasons as to why he’s one of the more terrifying yanderes in the TWST cast.

- But it’s because of him being very self-conscious of everything, as well as years of being isolated from his peers at a young age, Azul can be very much a clingy type as well. Especially to ones he cherishes the most. 

- Which is unfortunately you! :D

- At first, Azul thought nothing of you

- Only seeing you as a pawn for his own selfish gain.

- But as Book 3 progressed and the on-going reports from the Leech twins, Azul can’t help but become curious of your character, dear prefect.

- Why do you care so much about those 3 fools? You haven’t even known them for a year and yet here you are! Sacrificing your well-being to save them.

- It sickens him.

- The thought of your selflessness makes him sick to his stomach.

- But despite that, he starts to think about you more.

- And begins to imagines

- What if he was the one you were going all out for?

- The one you were taking care of?

- The thought of that shell-shocked him for a bit.

- He shook it off and proceeded to his planning once more.

- Once everything ended with Azul’s overblot, you decided to personally talk to him.

- Telling him that you also went through some of the same issues that he had as well.

- Pointing out your flaws, outwards and inwards.

- It’s just you trying to show Azul that he wasn’t alone when it came to these problems. That’s he’s not the only one who’s worked so hard to cover up their past in order to move on.

- To say that Azul was shocked was an understatement.

- In fact he didn’t really say anything while you were talking to him.

- All he did was listen to you.

- And for the first time

- He felt that he wasn’t being made fun of or mocked.

- It was…comforting.

- Azul is clingy.

- Be it in his human form or his octopus form.

- During the museum scene in Book 3 (when the gang looked at the field trip photo), you couldn’t help but hug him after seeing lil’ smol and chubby Azul.

- He looked soo cute and cuddly!! 

- Bby Azul!!

- He was in shocked

- He couldn’t move

- But didn’t try to leave your embrace.

- He just stood still.

- He didn’t understand 

- For the first time in a while, he felt at peace.

- But at the same time, his heart was starting to beat uncontrollably and his breathing was becoming heavy.

- Ace was weirded out.

- Deuce had no idea what was going on .

- Grim was hungry.

- Jack wanted to leave.

- Floyd and Jade were snickering in the background while this unfolded 

- Azul was fuming out of embarrassment when he heard them snicker.

- It was at this point where Azul fell in love with you.

- So ever since then, he secretly longs for your company.

- Walking beside you

- Asking if you’re in needs of favours that only he can fix for you

- If you give him a hug, that man will hold onto you for a while.

- He doesn't even realize it until you mention it to him.

- Even if you’re in the Monstro Lounge, as long as he knows you’re somewhere in the same vicinity as him, he’s at peace for a bit.

“Ah! D-dear Prefect! I didn’t even notice you’ve arrived at the lounge. W-well I know! I know that I wasn’t in the lounge when you came in, I was in my office working on our marriage contract— I mean—! Contacts for fellow peers who need some assistance. And— Floyd! Jade! I can hear your mocking from here! Stop it!”

- Speaking of Floyd and Jade,

- They very much enjoy having you around the lounge.

- Or just when you’re around in general.

- You provide so much entertainment for them, it’s amusing to watch.

- Especially if Azul is around.

- They haven’t seen Azul like that since he was a lil octopus.

- But, like Azul, they also grown fond of you.

- Not like that tho

- Like a sibling

- A lil Shrimpy for them to protect and play with!

- As they grow more fond of you, they start to see you as a pitiful and defenceless Shrimpy.

- Despite you saving them from Azul’s blot form but oh well—

- They have to protect you!!

- So don’t try to run away from them

- It’s pretty much useless at this point.

“Hey hey, Shirmpy~ Let’s play together!! You know it’s useless struggling! Especially since you’re soo puny~ *Giggles* C’mon! I promise that if you stay good, I’ll squeeze you less tight than usual~”

“Fu fu fu~ Floyd please be gentle. You don’t want to scare them more than they already are. Dear prefect, don't be alarmed. We simply want to spend a little quality time with you before Azul orders us to bring you to the lounge.”

******

- Despite Azul being a very cunning and manipulative individual, he’s also very self-conscious. 

- Azul puts these precautions and restrictions on you because he’s scared that you’ll leave. 

- He’s paranoid that you’ll just run off and find another person that’s better than him.

- He’s always been casted aside for almost all his life.

- That’s why he made sure to cover up all of his past self.

- He doesn’t want to be that ‘octo-twerp’ anymore.

- He doesn’t want you to think of him as that twerp he was years ago.

- He doesn’t want you, the person he loves so much, to see him like that.

- Even with all the reassurance from you.

- Believe it or not, Azul takes your opinions of him in high regards

- Meaning if he finds out about something you don’t like about him (beside the obvious problematic traits he has), he would make sure to change, if not conceal them, in order  for you to stay happy with him.

- As long as you’re happy, he’s happy.

- He just doesn’t want you to leave him, is that so hard to ask for?

- So please just stay

- For the sake of his own being entirely.

- And if you don’t?

- Hoo boy—

- You thought Azul was bad during the 3rd book with his contracts? 

- It’s gets worst 

- Especially since it’s business mixed with love. 

- Let’s get this outta the way, this man will search high and low for any flaw or problem you have. 

- He’ll find anything and I mean anything.

- Whether it be you’re struggling with (school, education, etc) or something you did. 

- If he can’t find worthy material, he’ll just make up something believable. Then will exaggerate that shit till you can't even defend yourself.

- He will find a way, he'll find something to use against you.

- And once he has all of the information he needs to trap help you, all he has to do is call in one (or both if you’re slippery lmao) of the tweel twins to ‘kindly escort’ you to his office!

- This is Azul we’re talking about. He’s always ready to lend a hand to a fellow peer in need.

- And it’s totally out of the kindness of his 3 pure and selfless hearts.

- What a saint.

- 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

- Whatever problem Azul decides to blackmail you with, the only way for him to solve it is for you is to give your unconditional love and devotion to him.

- He will also give you his love and devotion as well. But he didn’t say that out loud.

- At this point, you just have to give in.

- I mean, look at what could happen if Azul leaks out the blackmail material he’s using against you.

- You could possibly get kicked out of Night Raven.

- Where would you and Grim go? You’re not even from here! You don’t even have enough money saved up.

- Even if you could threaten Azul with fraudulence (if the accusations he presented were false), there’s nothing that Floyd and Jade can’t do when needing to silence someone.

- And both are glad to do so if you’re planning to leave them. 

“My dear Prefect! Why are you looking so downcast? Is it because of what I said? Oh, don’t worry! If anything happens to you, it will be alright as long as you sign this contract I have provided before you. You don’t want to? Then hopefully you don’t mind Floyd and Jade kindly convincing you to do so? I promise you, prefect, you’ll be fine with me as long as you do what I say. My generosity and unconditional love holds no bounds when it comes to you.”

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OCTO NOTE: OKAY! This is probably the most out of character fic I’ve written so far. So please forgive me!! 😭😭😭

But I hope you enjoy this lil fic! I will be working on Cloud’s Headcanons now! <33

ALSO— THANK YOU ALL SM FOR 100+ HEARTS FOR BOTH SILVER FICS!!!! I PROMISE I'LL ALSO WRITE MORE FOR OUR SLEEPY BOY ❤️❤️❤️

#tw yandere #yandere twisted wonderland #yandere twst #yandere azul ashengrotto #yandere azul x reader #yandere imagines #yandere headcanons #male yandere #twisted wonderland imagines #yandere scenarios #yandere #twst imagines #twisted wonderland #azul twst #azul twisted wonderland #twst headcanons

[alltimefail-sims]

Part 1 Ft. The (in-progress) Living Bonehilda...

Buckle up because this series will have a varying amount of long-winded explanations and timeline word-vomit... but I'm having fun, and I love lore, so I wanted to share my own. Basically, I've been working on fixing the plot holes and lore inconsistencies of some of my favorite sims in The Sims franchise, and I wanted to start with the lovely and vivacious Bonehilda. Fair disclaimer: I don't think that all the lore in the Sims is inconsistent. Some of the lore is likely ongoing or, in my opinion, intentionally vague. However, plot holes and ambiguity drive me crazy, so for my personal saves I had to eliminate speculation and create a timeline that felt clean, consistent, and interesting to me. So, with that being said... let's deep dive!

read more below the cut ↓

Let's start by talking about her life and death. After initial research, it became clear to me that Bonehilda would have lived around the same time as the flirty spirit Claude René Duplantier Guidry (an implied lover/admirer) and the angry, wrathful spirit Temperance (who is highly implied to be her sister), so she most likely would have been a living young adult somewhere between 1910-1920, and died somewhere in the mid to late 1930s as an adult. Why do I believe she died in adulthood, you ask? I think she likely died in adulthood because the one consistent detail across all three iterations of the game she appears in is that she is an adult skeleton, therefore it's only logical to conclude that she died in her adulthood and unfortunately never made it to elderhood.

I've seen some people argue that she is not actually dead, that she never died and did reach elderhood but just evaded death, but I disagree with this because (1) she is not an "elder" skeleton and (2) my eschatological-philosophy-inclined brain interprets eternal-life as either a divine gift or punishment. This is backed up by the fact that, normally, sims do not come back as skeletons but as spirits and living sims who do have eternal life maintain a sim form but are either occults (vampires) or have taken some elixir of life that just maintains their youthful appearance. Ergo, Bonehilda is closer to the Grim Reaper in nature and distinctly different than a previously living sim - she's a seemingly death-defying being that can be summoned from some unknown ether. Could this be the work of a curse? A sacrifice? A ritual she was involved in...willingly or unwillingly? There's no definite answer, but I do have a personal interpretation that I'll save for another day as it involves some other sims we'll take a deep dive into.

All that being said, I wanted to keep her human form consistent with this established timeline because...well...I'm kind of nuts I guess lmao. But I do like the challenge of working with "eras" in my saves because it makes the passage of time feel more realistic and deepens the interpersonal "legacy" roots that I like to create in the game.

Now let's look at her name, which I very much doubt was literally Bonehilda. I think the sims team chose her name to be a play-on-words. For example, I see a sim like Marcus "Flex" being a good example of this. I interpret "Flex" to be more of an acquired nickname due to his fitness prowess, not his actual last name (perhaps it is even a variation of a real last name like Fleck or Fletcher). That being said, after wayyyy too much thought I came to the conclusion that her first name was likely "Brunhilda," a name referencing a Germanic heroic legend, protector, and queen consort; a name that means "armed for battle" (just like our Bonehilda who protects living sims from malicious spirits). I like to think that our Brunhilda commonly just went by Hilda for short during her lifetime. The bone part, in my lore, became a moniker she was known by because, well, she's a skeleton (duh). But more than that, the likely explanation is that stories and legends about her created an unintentional game of telephone - meaning that as time went on and people told tales about her, her name morphed from the real Brun-hilda to Bone-hilda. I mean, it actually makes sense because they're so similar! Plus, I could see her embracing the nickname for its whimsy, as it's clear she has a kind heart and a good sense of humor. For simplicity though, I will continue to refer to her as Bonehilda.

Lastly, I'm going to touch on her personal appearance. We know that when she takes a "human" form (like when she showers if you add her to your household) she has an average body type, green eyes, and red hair, so I kept all those things consistent. Now, personally, when I think of Bonehilda I think of the words "lively," "spirited," and "trendsetter," so right off the bat I chose to make her hair short. Keeping up with desire to be historically-accurate, I imagine she was very into the rising women's suffrage movement of the 1900s and wasn't scared to turn some heads. Plus, I loved how bouncy and beautiful the hair looked and thought the shorter hair fit her face shape better. (It's an added bonus that I've never seen a human makeover of Bonehilda with short hair, so I thought it was a unique choice.)

In my personal lore, the Goth family was the last family she worked for before she died, and they definitely would have paid and treated her well; I've always assumed the Goths to be exceedingly progressive and far ahead of the times. (Side tangent: the Goths are consistently compared to the Landgraabs for good reason, and I've always seen this as old money versus new money, wealthy but with humanitarianism and philanthropy at the core versus wealthy with the intention of hoarding wealth at the cost of or with little regard of others and so on.) Truthfully, I could see the Goths of the early 1900s seeing Bonehilda (and any other staff that worked for them) as more like a part of the family than "paid help." That being the case, they would be generous and ethical, and Bonehilda would therefore have more freedom and means than your typical working-class single woman of the time, so she would be able to keep up with fashion trends/buy nice clothes/keep up with unique haircuts, etc.

As for her makeup - I am actually super happy with how it looks, so that likely won't change. Her blush is intense, but that's pretty accurate for the time period she lived in. I went with a paler, more natural lip than the movie-starlet red that was coming into style because I wanted her to have a demure, youthful look. I also went with a thin brow, but I do think it could be more "filled in" to suit the dramatic eyebrow look which was rising in popularity at this time. Lastly, the beautiful dress she's currently in is not staying as it reads too 1930s to me. My goal is to find an older looking maid's outfit to put her in that suits a 1915s-1920s look better.

I know this may come off like a lot of unnecessary thought and information for a seemingly silly, throwaway sim. However, I would argue that Bonehilda has appeared in 3/4 of the sims games... so as a long-running character she deserves attention and a consistent lore. As we continue this deep-dive series, she'll be connected to more of my personal favorite sims... so I'm really excited to share more with you guys!

I hope you all enjoyed Part 1! I don't know how many more parts there will be, but if you read all of this, know that I appreciate you and I'm so glad you're here!

Until next time... happy lore exploring, curious cats!

#bonehilda #simblr #ts4 #the sims 4 #sims 4 #sims lore #ts4 cas #ts4 lore #the sims lore #the sims #the goth family #ddseries #atfs #SO happy to be doing this. Lore is why I love the sims and this has been an idea of mine for so long. I hope you guys enjoyed this <3

[yeyinde]

HELLO! In 2021, I read your ao3 work, "baby, (dont) fear the reaper" for the first time. For 3 years since, i have been haunted. Occasionally i would go back and read your work front to back. Tbh, i didnt know much about dbd lore at the time. i read it bcs it has some vibes that im into, and boy oh boy, those vibes do not disappoint! Halfway through i realized that if your work was a novel, i would buy it 100%, no matter the cost. I fell in love with how the reader was portrayed, how such a somber and melancholic personality can be twisted into such a calculating, patient, and analytical character. Danny too, how the hell did you capture such a narcissist is beyond me. Reader's descend into revenge felt normal, a natural progression, like how a river flows into the sea. Though i never expected Reader to start hunting Danny back, i thought Reader will always be the prey, never the predator. Though, there are tells, from how the reader feels a bit detached (?) from their childhood, carrying heart scars from a toxic childhood friend, how Reader continues their friendship with the aforementioned toxic childhood best friend (a love for rebels, maybe? Or is it a want for the dark resulting in admiration, and then, love?) despite the harm it inflicts. (That flashback chapter to Reader's childhood will always be one of my favorite chapters!) Whatever it is, Danny is the nail in the coffin, pushing Reader into the cliff to freefall into madness. Danny is the real head scratcher, though. Even though there are whole chapters dedicated to Dannys's POV, i still cant understand why Danny is so enamored with Reader. Yes, Reader gets him in a way no one can, but what is it with Reader being a past victim of a homicide that attracts Danny so hard? He even lets his guard down around Reader-he invites her to his motel for god's sake! Albeit to craft alibi, of course, but still. There's a whole chapter on it, where Danny finds out about Reader's case, but i still cant wrap my head around it. As the author, would you mind delving into Danny's head again to explain why Reader has such a chokehold on Danny? (no pressure, of couse!)

-also sorry for bad English, love you! <3

i love talking about bdfr! it's my baby!! i still have the original Google Doc with all the chapters, the playlist, and the outline because it was one of those things i could never really part with. and i can't believe you've enjoyed it so much!!! i'm so thankful for that because this was really a labour of love. i left pieces of myself in it that i don't think i can ever get back, and i genuinely don't think i could ever write anything like it again. it was my lightning-in-a-bottle moment, for sure. and ahhhhhhhh, 2021??? has it really been that long?? it feels like it was only a few months ago that i was sitting in my car eating a lobster roll and writing out the "Home Depot" opener on my phone lmao

but Danny's obsession with their case stems largely from his own narcissism, really. it's also his eventual downfall. Danny (and most, if not all, of the Ghostface Killers) is canonically obsessed with horror. a very morbid fanboy. so him meeting a surviving victim of one spurns his curiosity but also, his competitiveness. Danny is the showstopper. everything he does is very theatrical. he can't help the nagging sense of inferiority whenever someone else comes along. so he's caught in a loop of comparing himself to this other person, and also angry that you let yourself get caught by someone so subpar.

eventually, Danny comes to the conclusion that you're supposed to be his Final Girl, but someone else got to you first. and it's the anger, the jealousy, the obsession that really kicks everything into motion between them. and the reason Danny comes to this conclusion is a bit of a misunderstanding in three parts. Cat and Mouse (killer versus spunky Everyman Journalist); the Perfect Victim (Final Girl Blueprint); and then Two Sides of the Same Coin (or: there was always supposed to be two Ghostface killers, right?). that's the outline i stuck to when writing their specific arc.

this got super long so i put my notes on all three arcs Danny goes through under the cut. i mapped this story out pretty meticulously, so i hope my initial outline sheds some light on the insanity that is Danny lmao

Cat and Mouse is just a manifestation of Danny's boredom. at this point in his life, he's pretty stagnant. this arc would be Halloween H20 for him. the Florida Murders haven't happened yet, but he's been all over the US and no one has come close to catching him. Jed is still a persona he can use without worry of being caught.

and then you come along, and you're immediately wary of Jed. this hasn't happened much for him. he's able to read people with a shocking amount of ease and knows how to tune himself to their personality. either being overly friendly (Leslie and Jed), flirtatious (Gemma and Jed), competitive (Colton and Jed), or extremely competent (Jonah and Jed), but you're the outlier. the one he can't read. he tunes himself into the Old You, but it obviously doesn't work anymore because that version of you is gone. he misreads you. this strikes a nerve. it's never happened before.

it's exacerbated by your wariness of Jed, too. the way you go out of your way to avoid him, despite how much he adjusts his supposedly infallible personality to match you, it never seems to work. you're always on edge. you never trust him.

and then you make the comment (to his face, no less) about him being a narcissist. and this shouldn't be as huge of a moment as it is. Danny's been doing this for a long time, and it's kinda crazy to assume no one has clocked his Ghostface persona. but it's the fact that you say this so openly. and given everything that's happened to you, it heightens the stakes for him. for the first time in a long time, Danny feels like he could (potentially) be cornered. he also feels seen. and for a narcissistic serial killer who craves attention and admiration and fear (as noted in his POV chap., song choices), this is straight dopamine for him. it's everything.

so, he tosses you into the role of his foil. the one who will chase him to the very brink. but he doesn't anticipate the fact that you'd almost willfully ignore the warning signs right in front of you just to remain inside this bracket of normalcy you're still desperately clinging to (which is your own narrative downfall). he goes out of his way to make you catch onto him, almost angry that you don't.

it then kicks off the second part. he starts to consider you HIS Final Girl. but there's a problem. you're not his. you'll never be his. for such an unrepentant narcissist, this is almost too much. he's bordering on the edge of utter fury and an almost noxious jealousy. he wants to be your demise so badly that it bleeds into just pure, unfettered want.

and then the final part of their story is Twisted Soulmates. it kinda struck me as odd that every single Scream film had TWO Ghostfaces. it's kind of the blueprint. but DBD does not. they just had Danny. so i started thinking about what would happen if there were always supposed to be two, and added elements of Danny's loneliness. he wants, desperately, to share his work with someone who understands but this sort of thing would never appeal to the general public that's he trapped inside. he also risks getting caught. it can never happen.

until you. your anger at the man who did this to you, who ruined your life, is as potent as his desire to kill. he can see it in you. this darkness. this shifting, ugly rage brimming just below the surface. it makes his hackles rise because you could be the perfect partner.

it's a big part of why he spends so much time trying to "show off." why he gets so jealous when you focus your attention on Michael Myers instead of him. and why he feels the need to get rid of Leslie. she's a moral obstacle in your way.

he wants your attention now. he wants your everything, but there are parts of you that he'll never have, and this loss is too great to ever let your relationship work in the "real" world. but in all honesty, he's fine with being your eventual demise if you decide not to go with him. being your FINAL killer is something he fantasises about a lot. he wants to kill you from the moment he sees your wariness over Jed to the very end when he makes you chase him all the way to Utah.

but then the Entity intervenes, and suddenly Danny has a way to have everything he wants. your death (over and over and over again), and you with him (forever, always, eternity). but his narcissism does not let him see the killer you're shaping into. and when you end up turning the plot on him, using your "friend" as bait to lure him in, Danny knows he's gravely misunderstood you. in fact, he's never really known the real you at all.

this, of course, just spurns the obsessiveness in him further, making it very unlikely that he'll ever let you go.

#and please don't feel the need to apologise at all!!! writing in a language that isn't your mother tongue can be extremely difficult esp Eng #and i wouldn't have known if you hadn't mentioned it!! #your English is perfect (and much better than mine) 🖤 #also sorry this got sooo long!!!!! #i have all these extra notes that i could never really anywhere so the moment someone is like “tell me BTS about bdftr” #the lore just comes out in a flood

[latenightbreezeinheaven]

Synastry chart (Marilyn Monroe and Johnny Hyde)💕

So, I read the book named "The secret life of Marilyn Monroe" because I really adore her and I was also extremely curious about her childhood, how she got into the film industry etc. And I discovered the relationship between her and Johnny Hyde, who was a powerful person in the whole film industry and who was a protector and a father figure for her. My astro nerd ass went straight to the astro.com and calculated their synastry chart and I found some aspects which may indicate their chemistry. (I hope this doesn't seem creepy though because I definitely don't have bad intentions.)🤍

Johnny Hyde's sun conjuncts Marilyn Monroe's MC

This indicates that the sun person can help massively in MC person's career or become like a pivotal for MC person's success in public. The sun person just knows what MC person needs or wants in their life as a purpose or a goal. The sun person will also always support the MC person to achieve their dreams. I shared this aspect with my ex-crush. I was the sun person and he was MC person. I was willing to do everything I could to make him shine in the crowd. I wanted to be his cheerleader and like a sponsor (LMAO I mean sponsoring him in a business way and not about those sexual things😂). I wanted to solve things together with him whenever he told me about his job problems. But our fate just ended really quickly so that didn't get to happen in real life but I had never felt so much desire to support someone chase their dreams in my entire life.

Johnny Hyde's saturn conjuncts Marilyn's IC

I found out that Johnny Hyde was strict towards Marilyn even though he loved her so much. According to the book, he made her read books about acting and stuffs and he didn't want her to waste her time on superficial matters. He wanted her to do activities which would be progressive in her career all day long. In short, he was like a teacher not only in the business cases but also in her daily life activities. Once, I have shared a conjunction of saturn and MC with my childhood teacher. As a teacher, he was strict towards every student but it was way far different for me. He always tried to control how I represented to the public, how I acted and talked with other people and he even wanted to decide for my future career. It was like interfering my privacy and whole life. But he also taught me etiquettes like how to eat, how to make an eye contact while talking to others, how to fight back in a graceful way etc.. so thanks to him though.😶

They both shared venus-sun conjunction as a double whammy

I saw someone saying that this aspect is overrated but I think it is very wrong. This aspect is clearly NOT overrated. I don't know how to explain this but I've seen multiple charts of married couples and 80 percent of them have someone's venus conjunct to other person's sun. This aspect indicates pure love, adoration and attraction. It may not be like steamy hot and wet but the attraction between two people just comes naturally and you have no idea why or how and you just love that person as they are. No wonder why Johnny Hyde felt thunderstruck when he first met Marilyn. I also had this aspect with my ex-crush (oops I have too many crushes🤭). My friend also has his venus conjunct this unknown girl's sun and he told me that it was a love at first sight and that he has loved her purely since then. Basically, the venus person loves the sun person and sees them as their ideal type and the sun person loves the attention they get from the venus person and appreciates it most of the time. Even if it's platonic, the venus person loves the sun person as their bestfriend!🥺

Johnny Hyde's lilith conjuncts Marilyn's moon

I also saw someone saying that lilith aspects are overrated in synastry and I felt very disappointed. I don't know if it's only me but lilith contacts are too intense and scary for me. I know lilith is a bit not too personal in a person's chart but it at least holds some power which can make one person obsessed with the other depending on the planets and aspects of course. He literally was obsessed with her emotionally and it was a really deep connection in my opinion. I have shared this aspect with some guy. I was the lilith person and he was the moon person. I was emotionally obsessed with him and I wanted to get all over his whole body and into his deepest heart and soul. It's not the same as the pluto aspect and it's a milder one but somehow I was just obsessed. That's all I can say. O-B-S-E-S-S-E-D.🤒

Johnny Hyde's pluto conjuncts Marilyn's sun and mercury

Here comes the intense one. I have never experienced a conjunction between sun and pluto or mercury in pluto BUT I believe that I am always drawn to people who have their pluto conjunct my moon. As the moon person, I feel like I can rely on the pluto person on a spiritual level and I feel like they just get me. They always understand me in a unique way. I feel like I can share about almost everything and they will never judge me. So back to Marilyn's story. Marilyn finds Johnny intriguing from the start and I feel like Johnny might also be a bit manipulative towards Marilyn. For instance, he persuaded Marilyn to marry him so that when he died, she could become super rich.

Johnny Hyde's sun conjuncts Marilyn's chiron

Generally, the sun person can heal the chiron person's wounds just by their existence. Marilyn used to call Johnny "daddy" and she also mentioned that he was a safe place for her and the person she could fully open up to without having to worry about other things. She also had an absent father so he was like a comforting and powerful father figure who could protect her at all costs. However, this seems a bit dangerous in my opinion though because my recent ex had his sun and mercury conjunct my chiron and yes his existence and his words were truly healing for me but he also gave me some wounds even though they are not actually that deep. I consider him as my enemy now and I don't even know why but maybe because he was disrespectful towards me aside from being supportive or encouraging. He triggered my past traumas too. And our conjunction was also in my 7th house, so this can also be the reason why he became my enemy. (7th house is considered as a lovey-dovey in a synastry chart but be careful, these people can also become your enemies one day, this is not for everyone though)😬

I'm really surprised about how I even decided to write this because I was simply reading that book and out of the blue, their relationship made me feel inquisitive about their synastry chart lmao😂 my astro addiction can never end😭. Anyways, thank you so much for reading and have a great day! Stay happy and healthy little fellows! 🌻🐝

#synastry observations #synastry notes #synastry #astrology observations #astrology notes #astrology #sun conjunct venus #sun conjunct pluto

[thebindingofpillo]

Lilith

Some of you are about to get real mad at me.

While Lilith is traditionally considered Adam’s first wife, that couldn’t be further from the truth. In fact, her status as mother of all demons is also false because Lilith is not a demon at all, she’s a monster. Or at least she was, before making a deal with Satan, we will explain everything in due time. I wanted to make a separate post about the differences between demons and monsters, but there’s not much to say about them, so I’ll condense everything here.

Monster = mortal, weaker than demons (but still stronger than a human though), their magic is more specialised and requires physical things like blood ad flesh (usually human blood and flesh) to work. Unlike demons, who are naturally evil, monsters can be more morally grey, and while there’s a lot of them who eat and kill humans for whatever reason, friendly monsters do exist.They are born, not created, and are native to Earth. Monsters were incredibly common on Earth in the ancient times, but were progressively driven out of their habitats by humans, which brought most of them to extinction. Nowadays monsters are very few, tend to stick to their own communities or blend into human society and fly under the radar. This is what Lilith does, she’s a preschool teacher and lives a quiet life with her Incubus. Demon = immortal, have access to more magical powers (and brimstone!) and are born in hell, which is on a different plane of existence. They can still visit Earth, but it takes time and energy. And also they’re all evil. Sorry.

Lilith is a Hebrew word, that might derive from the Akkadian Lilitu, which might derive from the Sumerian Ki-sikil-lil-la-ke (or just lil). All of these words describe a type of female monster that lives at night and preys on men (If you’re a nerd like me, here’s the handy video that started this whole thing lmao). The noun (yes, noun) “lilith” is used exactly once in the Bible (Isaiah 34:14) and is translated as “lamia” in the Greek version of Symmachus (dated around 200 c.e.) and the Latin Vulgata, which is another type of female monster that feeds on children and kills men after seducing them. Everything fits. King James’ bible translates lilith as “screeching owl” so I decided to co-opt that for her design, and give her some feathers.

And now for the actual lore, the preamble is done I swear.

Note: I’m gonna use “lamia” when talking about the creature, and “Lilith” when talking about the character What are lamias (in my AU) Lamias are a type of female monster whose powers revolve around illusions and transformation. Their normal state is usually of half-bird women with pronounced snake features (like Lilith in her normal form), but they can turn into full snake ladies if they need to (usually to protect their territory, or fight off other lamias). Doing so requires a lot of energy, and is a difficult form to maintain, even for the oldest, most powerful ones. Lamias can also turn into beautiful women to better attract men, their main source of food. They are also known to feed on human children, who are usually kidnapped from their homes and eaten whole. Lamias can feed on women and cattle too, but this is quite uncommon and usually only done in dire situations, like after a war. They are all females. Male lamias do not exist. This is another reason why they need men: they cannot reproduce by themselves.

Lamias usually live in family groups, composed by a matriarch and her (often many) daughters and her granddaughters. Once the matriarch dies, the eldest daughter takes her place, and so on and so forth. These groups can get quite large! So much so that sometimes, the oldest daughters might leave their mother to create their own pack somewhere else (usually due to lack of food and resources).While lamias prefer forest terrain and hotter climates, any place with a lot of hiding spots and a decent dry season is enough for them. It’s not uncommon to find them chilling amongst abandoned buildings, or in the mountains, in caves etc. they’re very adaptable, and while their wings might seem small, they’re still able to travel long distances to find a perfect place for them. Note: their wings are usually only accessible in full snake form.

Lamia culture is usually passed down orally from mother to daughter. They worship the Earth as the First Mother, from which every creature came, and to which every creature will return after death. Their rituals usually revolve around fertility, love, abundance of preys etc. I still don’t know if they believe in the afterlife, but they probably believe that once dead, they return to the womb of the First Mother, where they can rest in eternal bliss and be loved forever. With deforestation, poaching and human being less afraid of monsters in general, lamia population has greatly decreased, and with them being mortal, there could be a very concrete possibility that Lilith is the last lamia alive.

Lilith time for real this time Lilith is a sweetheart. A big softie and a hopeless romantic, perfectly content in her quiet life of preschool teacher. She likes cheesy romcoms, long walks and hot chocolate, but it wasn’t always that way for her. Born a little after the birth of the Roman Empire (around… 40/45 AD, she’s the youngest of the immortals), Lilith used to live in a secluded forest with her mother and sisters (and her daughters too, even if she didn’t have that many yet), occasionally luring men in, eating human flesh and generally having a good time. Think… Libia. Around there. I don’t know. Somewhere with both trees and Roman occupation, I’m not gonna pour more hours into this character PLEASE I’m doing all of this for free. Anyway, life was good for her and her family, until one day Cain passed through that forest, looking for a new place to live after he was exiled for the umpteenth time. Lilith immediately noticed the man and tried to entice him, but Cain (who had at least a couple of millennia more of experience) was not having it. He just wanted to leave the forest behind and find a new home, he didn’t have time to entertain a lamia, so he booked it out of there as soon as he could. Unfortunately, Lilith took that as a challenge and started chasing after him, hoping to tire him out enough to pounce him and put an end to his existence. The chase lasted two whole weeks by the way, but at that point Lilith was too stubborn to let it go. Cain was smart enough to always stop in densely populated areas as to lose his scent and get some extra protection (lamias and monster in general were already close to extinction at the time, and usually steered clear of human cities) but even with the best precautions, Lilith managed to corner him and finally get to him, but she was also exhausted after two weeks of constant chase, and could only knock him down and give him a couple of nasty bites. Cain still has the scars to this day. Sadly, Lilith was not aware of the other, worse part of Cain’s curse, so when she hurt him, her destiny took a turn for the worst. The man managed to wiggle free of her grasp, and while Lilith would have gladly chased after him some more, she realised she had been away from home for way too long, so turned back, only to find her beloved forest and family gone forever. In the weeks she was away, a Roman troop had levelled the forest, cutting down all the trees, killing her mother and sisters and selling her youngest daughters into slavery. She was desperate, and vowed to take revenge on the whole humankind, and that’s when things got even worse! Hearing her cries and pleads for revenge, Satan himself, king of hell, decided to pay her a visit. He offered her eternal life, a chance at taking back what was hers, and in return she would become his, in body and soul, and help him grow his army even further (which is a very fancy way of saying Lilith would become his wife, give him children, and he could also do whatever he wanted to her). Now, Lilith would have never accepted such a rotten deal, but she was incredibly desperate and in a very vulnerable position, and Satan knew that. He played her and used her trauma as an excuse to grow closer to her, promising her he would help her take revenge on the people who wronged her, and would even help her save some of her family, if there was anything to be saved.

Anyway, Lilith accepted the deal, and thus became immortal. Her new home was in Hell, ruling at Satan’s side… only he didn’t really want her ruling anything at all. He was a terrible husband, let me tell you. Once he secured the deal, Lilith was just another unfortunate soul to exploit, so he relegated her somewhere in Hell, and only came to visit once in a while, to check in on her and maybe send her on some errands. Pretty soon, Lilith became restless, and started pushing for her husband to hold up his end of the deal, only Satan wasn’t really planning to. In a fit of rage, he gouged out her eyes, and left her helpless and without sight. Luckily Lilith was immortal now, and losing her eyes didn’t kill her. She could even put them back in again, if Satan let her, but he usually kept her eyes hidden on him all the time, in a little satchel around his neck, only letting her have her sight back if he needed Lilith to run some errands for him. Satan kept her blind to control her better. After enough time, Lilith decided that a life of servitude to a man she didn’t even love wasn’t cutting it, so she walked out of Hell. She was strong, she could handle being blind, and even managed to snatch one of Satan’s little minions on the way out, her trusted Incubus. It was a meagre victory, but at least now she was free, and the Incubus useful enough. Sadly, there wasn’t much she could do about her revenge now. The Roman Empire had fallen while she was in hell, and the men who killed her family were already long dead and forgotten. She managed to meet Cain again after a while, in a different place, as different people, and the two actually became friends. This friendship would only grow stronger over the centuries, Lilith being one of the very few people Cain could be fully open, and while Cain could be considered the source of Lilith’s misery, she was quite understanding of the nature of his curse, and while it took some time, she came to understand that it wasn’t his fault.

Where is Lilith now. As said before, Lilith is now enjoying a quiet life. She works as a preschool teacher (children have always been her passion). She lives in the same city as the majority of the rest of the cast (her and Maggy are coworkers too!) and maintains a close friendship with Cain. Her magic has greatly diminished over the millennia because she firmly refuses to consume human flesh. She doesn’t really see the point in it anymore, since her whole family is gone and monsters are incredibly few. What little of her magic remains, she uses to keep a human form during the day, so she can work and run errands without much trouble. She could theoretically return to her full powers (and even transform fully into a lamia) with some generous blood donations, but it’s not really something she has any desire to do. Over the years she’s ha many relationships, some even quite serious, but tried her best not to have children. She doesn’t know if her immortality would be transferred to her daughters and doesn’t want to run the risk of seeing her children die. Incubus is still with her after all these years, and while she can’t exactly take him out like a normal pet, he can still follow her everywhere by hiding in her poofy hair. He loves it.

Other stuff that I couldn’t fit anywhere else

Lilith is not her real name! That’s just another name for her species, like calling someone “human”. Her real name is unpronounceable by a human mouth, and with lamias being basically extinct, she’s made her peace with the fact nobody will ever call her that again. While “Lilith” is not an ideal name (she prefers going by “Lily”) it’s still okay.

Can sustain herself with human food too! Just prefers her meat extra rare. This is how she maintains that little magic she needs to turn human.

Incubus is sentient, but to a lesser degree. He’s like a very intelligent animal (his ref is coming eventually I didn’t have time for it UGH)

I hope you enjoy her! I did not proofread anything of this, just take it.

#reincarnation AU (working title) #tboi reincarnation #tboi lilith #tboi #binding of isaac #the binding of isaac #tboi repentance #tboi rebirth #tboi au #pillart #lore post

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

I’d like to know more abt the main five v bbfa2 dynamic, and maybe more abt tweek & craigs background like how long had tweek had an alc addiction, and maybe like how it turned into an addiction

Ayyyy that’s wassup first up Main 5 vs Broken Bottle Quartet!

So in general OJV is more style/m5 centric, especially earlier in the timeline, and the Main 5 all grew up in South Park, attached at the hip frfr

All five of them are extremely attached to each other, which is why when they graduate they all find a house close to campus to hold onto that familiarity from childhood for just a little while longer. Cartman was actually the one to suggest that they live together that first year despite not going to college himself, because OJV Cartman is EXTREMELY opposed to change (I delved into his psyche on that matter before and had a lot of fun thinking abt it lmao you can find some hcs here) that’s why despite caring wholeheartedly for the other four, he’s still an abrasive asshole for the hell of it.

After the group starts getting their footing in the post sp world, they become less reliant on familiarity as a crutch and more of as a comfort. Aside from the couples in the group, their are other pairs that are especially close (Stan and Kenny, Cartman and Marj) Stan and Kenny especially have this extreme unspoken understanding with each other, my beloved Disaster Duo, and of course Cartman and Kyle still butt heads and shoot the shit out of the need to mentally challenge themselves (though not out of any real anger. Most of the time)

Stan and Kyle are ofc the lead players of the OJV, and for sure the most parental in nature of all seven of the main cast, which brings me to:

(I’m gonna put a cut here this post is gonna be long)

Their role in the Broken Bottle Quartet.

Broken Bottles From Apartment 2 was an idea that languished in my notes long before I came up with the ojverse, and I knew I wanted it to revolve around a mid 20s Craig and Tweek moving into the same complex as Stan and Kyle.

At this point in their lives, the Quartet is pretty well settled into their careers and their lives (I’ll get into the Tweek of it all in a sec) and Style especially has that Adult Thing going on. Don’t be fooled, they’re still massive losers, but since Stan is a little over two years sober when they meet Creek, they fall into the mentor role really easily, just happy to have new neighbors their age.

Stan and Tweek get really close as the quartet story progresses, and Tweek and Kyle soon after. Craig and Kyle are in the same boat and have things they can bond over and they find that their dissimilar personalities actually work well. The most difficult relationship to form, though?

Craig takes a longggg time to get used to Stan. I’ve said before that ojv Craig is autistic, diagnosed at a young age, and that definitely plays into his struggle getting comfortable with style (new people in general) despite the fact that he doesn’t initially hate them. The thing that first puts him off about Stan is that OJV STAN IS A HUGGER and Craig does nottttt like being touched without his consent. And Stan of course is an awkward sweetheart who just wants to be friends with everyone, so he struggles to find something to bridge that gap.

That bridge comes in the form of a little brown cat. YEP Moose breaks the awkwardness! He’s drawn to Craig because Craig is calm and quiet, and of course that cat is so charming and precious that Craig’s immediately curious to hear his Lore and Stan is THRILLED bc 1) he gets to talk animals 2) he’s having a real conversation with crog.

Boundaries and communication are the FOUNDATION of the Broken Bottles Quartet, as opposed to the Main 5 who have been practically fused together since birth. It’s very much more of an Adult friendship than the Main 5.

As for creek background, they didn’t grow up in sp, or even in the same town as each other, but met in college. They just clicked perfectly, balancing each other out, and their relationship moved really quickly. By the time they meet Stan and Kyle, they’ve been married for about five years. Which brings me to:

The Tweek Of It All.

So when Tweek and Stan have their heart to heart in chapter 5 of BBFA2, he mentions that he’s always been a really anxious person, and Craig was the only one who could get him to really calm down, but a few years after they got married, Tweek’s parents were arrested for being whole ass drug lords. Tweek had no idea about any of it (yeah poor guy did ingest some meth coffee growing up but his parents stopped drugging him at around 10) so when everything came to light, he felt like his entire life had been a lie, pulled out from under him. Suddenly it was all he could think about, and while he’d only been a casual drinker before, now he found that he couldn’t get his brain to shut up again, unless he had enough alcohol in him. It built up over time, and he started hiding it because he convinced himself that he was enough of a burden on Craig already just because of his general mental health issues, so he started to rely on alcohol more than his husband. He was drinking heavily for about two years.

That fic was really important to me in general, but especially the message of sobriety and a support system. I’m SUPER attached to Sober King Stan lmao he’s the CORNERSTONE of the Quartet and Tweek’s healing arc was gratifying to write.

Thank you SO SO SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK my dude!

#I WILL TAKE ALL OJV ASKS #thank u for the ask! #I know you’re a Tweek gorlie lmao #south park #my shit #main 5 #ojv #OrangeJuiceVerse #ao3 shit

[lovesickbrat]

I'm so interested in your style progression. I remember that it was classic coquette (when you were in like middle school) - then classic coquette and grunge (brat mag era) - then coquette noir now. Can you like explain what you wore and why it progressed the way it did? (I'm a fashion nerd)

mmmm for me it was kind of a natural progression bc even back in middle school i was into darker styles but i wore uniforms and had no money so the only time i got to wear cute clothes was summer so therefore more classic coquette clothes but they were all from like marshalls and i was also a middle schooler so not quite crop tops, lots of wet seal too, overalls, flowery dresses stuff like that

the part thats missing truly is high school i would say bc i was like Thee grunge/punk girl in high school after my quick normie phase at 14 bc i was tryna figure myself out and during my darker high school phase i was also going thru a lot with my like gender idenitt bc i felt like a girl but i also didnt but i also waant nonbinary lmao sooo lota of matching sets (this one plaid one i got from f21 was my fav til someone else started copying so i had to change it), mini skirts + band tees were my signature look, lots of boots, fishnets (i was real scandalous for that one), turtlenecks etc. i was the reason they stopped dresscoding ppl bc i would wear mesh shirts and ahit and not care

also ive had blue hair since high school like i had ot from 15-19 so my blue period was def my grungiest era

when i was in brat mag era it was rlly me reconciling the parts of me i felt i had to throw away (i still had a fascination with nymphet but i was under the impression that i could talk abt it out loud) so i started to just go back to what made me happy during quarantine i was done with HS i was in my room i could rlly just rediscover myself and my old interests and indulge in them at my pace instead of throwing it away?

like the iconic blue romper was from goodwill i got it while with my cousin and she bought it for me bc ahe said i just had to have it, lots of early shein clothes before i knew it was bad so cherry print dresses, tube tops, short shorts bc at the time during quarantine i rarely went out so me and my mom often too trips to the park to relax lots of my rlly popular pics from that time were taken by my mom lol

but i also wore lots of clothes i already owned like the dickies dress, and my black ripped shorts, and my tie dye crop top i got from a church thrift store like i rlly wanted to add my personal style

then idk a lot of stuff happened to me from 19-early 21 so i just kinda became a more moody and morose person and i also was (and still am) frustrated with lots of aspects of current coquette esp since ppl clown me for wanting my flowers and im kinda feeling the same as i did when i was 18 and wanting to indulge in my past desires so my clothing during my last two years of college were all over the place plus i gained a lot of weight and was tryna figure out my new body

i chopped all my hair off dyed it auburn now i have massive boobs and im in a state thats hot year round soooo less effort lots of shorts and tank tops some pieces from LA apparel etc another “finding myself era”

so now im kinda like who 12-13 yr old me wishes she coulda been if she wasnt a literal baby LOL like i talk abt this in the book club discord but if we take the morality of what we were doing out of it we just were a lot freer during og coquette days and im kinda like…hm well gonna go back to not caring and being weird and not in the cultivated weirdness way of the histrionic coquettes now but like just genuinely talking abt shit i like and clothes i like and its rlly just a blend of all of my past selves coming together tbh but its just evolving

so back to boots but more variety not just combat/docs, more mini skirts again (my plaid skirt 1 graphic tee combo coming back), fun coats, oversized sweaters, well fitting bras (im trying at least), mini dresses, bootcut jeans

#ask.pdf

[adonis-koo]

Hi Missy! I know this is random so ignore this if it’s too intrusive 😭 but I remember you saying you’re a virgin. I’m a year older than you and I’m also in the same boat. And now that you’re trying out firsts with your current crush (? sorry idk what to call them 💀) how do you go about it? Like when do you let them know you’re a virgin? I’ve only ever tried dating once and I thought he wouldn’t care bc all my friends have told me that it shouldn’t matter but he got turned off and said that taking someone’s virginity was too much for him. I’m assuming he thought I would get too emotionally invested to him bc of it. But I told him I don’t take my virginity that seriously, I just never had a chance to meet a man I fully trust 😭 now im scared and don’t know how to go about it lmao

hey babes!! first off I know exactly what you’re experiencing! I’ve dated in the past and never made it so far as holding hands with someone before I met my current partner, and honestly? I found it really boils down to meeting someone you’re really compatible with, of course physical attraction matters, as we would not be dating if I didn’t find him cute, but personality is such a big thing.

and personally, I’ve found that stating your boundaries and expectations for how a relationship is gonna go in the very beginning has worked well so far for me. We were both very clear on what we wanted and expected from one another, one of those things for me was stating that I wanted to go slow, and him saying that he was perfectly okay with that.

I didn’t tell him I was a virgin until a few weeks in to our official relationship and our conversations started to naturally float in that direction (in a kind of curious, testing the waters way), now we were friends before this and had talked about relationships so he already knew I had never actually been in a relationship before, so he wasn’t surprised, told me it was nothing to be embarrassed about and we could take things at the pace I felt comfortable.

not only this but he isn’t someone who jumps that quick either, so there wasn’t any pre-existing pressure to perform for him.

If a guy has certain expectations whether you’re a virgin or not- he probably isn’t someone you should let be your first time, like I didn’t believe it at first, but there are guys out there that will go at your pace and respect your decision, those are the ones that you’ll have a much better time with.

Like I said, clear communication, set boundaries and personality is everything, when you find someone you click with, the progression feels so natural, I never thought I’d find someone who was okay with a lot for things about me, the pace I wanted to go and what I wanted but I’m now happily a month in and still taking things at a steady pace.

we went from a hand hold, to a cuddle, a hug, a kiss, and even after it got real saucy he kept checking with me to make sure I was okay, and then respected and supported me when I didn’t want to go further.

like ??? I NEVER thought I’d find someone that made me feel 100% safe and comfortable every step of the way and yet he popped up out of NOWHERE. Please stay hopeful and do NOT settle because the person who’s meant to be your firsts will come along, I do hope this helps a little bit though 🫶

#missy answers #anon #i hope this helps ?? #I’m still very new to this 😭 #but my partner is very patient and reassuring #he’s also very good with his tongue #man had me saying ‘thank you for destroying my mouth’ 😭 #actually embarrassing #💀

[cinnamon-sticks-and-coffee-cups]

salut mes anges! today i thought i’d share some tips for learning french (or any language really)! please enjoy lovelies <3

⁎⁺˳✧༚ form a book club!

this is a great way to improve in all areas of language learning (reading, writing, speaking, listening) and make it fun and social! if you have a few friends also learning the same language as you, why not try to read a book in your target language every month? you can get together to discuss your favourite parts, what you did and didn’t like, and even write a review at the end! this works well both irl and virtually (discord would be a great platform for this <3)

⁎⁺˳✧༚ listen to music!

finding some good songs in your target lang can be really helpful! singing along in the car improves your pronunciation, you can note down new vocab as you encounter it, you could give translating the lyrics a go and learn new idioms/metaphors or you could just sit back and enjoy being immersed in the language you’re learning ! i found this one super fun and relatively low effort so maybe give it a chance :D

⁎⁺˳✧༚ speak!

this sounds basic af but i promise there’s actual insight here. speaking whenever possible means you apply all new grammar and vocab you’ve learnt to real life situations! you can chat to your friends, to your pets, record voice memos with shopping lists/notes/observations/diary entries, converse online, read passages of books aloud in your target lang, talk to siri in ur target lang, sing whilst you do mundane chores etc. speak every opportunity you get, because it really does improve your fluency!!

⁎⁺˳✧༚ change your phone settings!

when I first did this, it was definitely scary but ultimately really useful. it forces you to interact with the language daily, and even if you don’t understand everything at first, context and previous knowledge helps you to piece things together. also, your phone has a lot of high-frequency words that are insanely useful in everyday life!

⁎⁺˳✧༚ keep a diary!

this helps you improve fluency and express yourself better, highlights gaps in your vocab, means you learn all your most used words in your target language, helps you to learn how to apply grammar rules and form sentences that sound natural and gives you a record of all the progress you’ve made! you can look back at how far you’ve come which is honestly one of the most rewarding experiences :D

⁎⁺˳✧༚ don’t give up!!

when you’re a beginner, everything feels new and exciting and you feel super smart because you’re learning so many new words! however, as you improve, you’ll realise just how much you don’t know (“i can carry a conversation, sure, but what if i wanted to talk about something specific, like philosophy or biology? there’s just so much i still have to learn!”) don’t let this discourage you! it’s a sign you’re improving :) just try to interact with the language often and keep up the good work <3

i hope this was useful! sorry for the long post lmao T-T je t’aime!!

#cinnamon’s french posts #français #french #frenchblr #langblr #polygot #language learning #language learning tips #studyblr #apprendre le français

[venusiansilk]

hiii io!! i hope ure doing well! i wanna ask about taming of the screwed sooo bad bc ur tuesdays au is genuinely one of my favs of all time ☺️💗

hi nonie! thank you sm for asking :3 it makes me genuinely so excited when anyone is excited for any of the additional parts i’m working on.

taming of the screwed takes place three months after tuesdays when satoru and reader have been dating and while satoru thinks this is the best love he’s ever known, reader is dangerously unfulfilled by the lack of romance. it’s satoru’s first time loving someone. he’s new to all this, but reader takes it as his lack of interest. and cue our friendly neighborhood yuuji who swoops in to save satoru’s day by taking him out on the town for the day and helping him escape the terrible bf allegations. even though they hate each other very much, their tolerance for each other def increases. this one is like a sandwich and all of the middle is satoru x yuuji enemies to frenemies arc lmao.

1.8k snippy under the cut :3

1:07 pm. satoru:

y/n, hello. i hope this message finds you well. do you want to formally spend time together tonight to discuss things?

it’s his bold attempt at trying. maybe he could make you dinner. perhaps you’ll be willing to curl up with him and talk about it fairly and thoroughly, so he can make an action plan.

1:10 pm. y/n:

not if it means we’re staying home, no. i really don’t want to keep talking about it.

it’s right then, when he winces at the abrupt feeling of sharp pain, that he realizes he’s bitten his lower lip so hard, he’s broken skin and started to bleed. he’s losing you. he can feel you slipping away in real time. he’s not good at catching cues, at reading between the lines, but he perceives your dying willingness, your fading tolerance in the dismissiveness of your speech. he feels as if he’s witnessing you give up on him. if he thinks about it too hard, it makes his eyes burn again, and he tells himself he can’t just sit around and cry about his confusion. if he wants to make this work with you, you want him to do his own research and come a natural conclusion of his own that suits him. the problem is he has no idea what suits him. satoru has never really dated a girl before. he’s gone on simple dinner dates but it never progresses past there. as such, he’s developed an understanding that things like dinner dates aren’t suitable, and this pattern persists across a variety of temperaments and personality types. in his mind, it’s merely the most likely conclusion and he’s always heeded it. he’s always chosen more intimate experiences that involve close proximity and the comfort of home. he doesn’t know enough about what activities you like and what activities exist to satisfy that avenue of enjoyment. as he’s lost in his melancholic web of doom, a soft knock on his door breaks him out of his mental spiral. he rises to his feet, unsure who would be at the door but uninterested in seeing a single soul. he’s got a full morning and afternoon of sinking into the depths of dread and mulling over ways to avoid losing his first love so soon after accepting you in his heart and mind as such. when he opens the door, satoru's already sour expression deepens as he takes in the sight of his least favorite neighbor, yuji. he calls himself a baker but satoru calls it bullshit. he very evidently has disgusting hygienic habits and to satoru, it makes him morally reprehensible.

“what do you want?” satoru grumbles. “the answer is no if you’re here to ask for more butter.” yuji's eyes roll dramatically. “ignoring that. anyway, i want to help you, surprisingly enough.” it is surprising. in all the time that satoru's been forced to tolerate his presence, he’s never tried to hide the depths of his distaste for the boy. satoru doesn’t like yuji. and because of that, satoru doesn’t bother to hide his genuine feelings toward him. no, he doesn’t deem yuji to be worthy of civility. satoru snorts. “well, i don’t need help, especially not from you.” “look. i didn’t want to say this, but…you’re fucking screwed.” yuji tells him seriously. “i kind of overheard your entire argument with y/n? she…has a point, satoru. how have you been dating for three months with no date? honestly, that’s not a good look as a boyfriend…or as a man. so…i want to help you become a better one.” this confession makes satoru first stare at the pink-haired boy blankly without a word. next, he bursts out into a round of amused and absurd laughter. “what do you know about being a boyfriend? i think i’m okay without your advice. perhaps, better off, even.” satoru muses. “i’ve been dating the same girl for three years. i’ve taken her on plenty of dates, thank you very much. she only doesn’t live here because her family’s very traditional. they would never be okay with us living together without the ‘proper commitments’ and all that.” yuji waves a dismissive hand. “huh,” as if anticipating satoru's oncoming insult, yuji's teeth grit together. “what?” “i don’t take you for the type that’s skilled in maintaining a serious relationship. who would want an unsanitary baker?” yuji rolls his yes, unamused and growing more and more irritated by the second. “you don’t know me, first of all. and secondly, when she is here, you don’t hear us having a lover’s quarrel in the hallway.” “gee, thanks, yuji.” satoru mutters, arms folding over his chest defiantly. “whatever, and lastly, i’m not fucking unsanitary and it pisses me off that you say that.” this time, it’s satoru who rolls his eyes. “look. i’m not trying to rub you the wrong way or anything, but based on what she said, your time with her will burn out quickly if you don’t step it up. and you’re kind of a shrew, so i think you need help, but you’re too proud to ask someone you feel is beneath you, satoru the grumpy, un-neighborly shrew.” there’s not an ounce of satoru that feels as though he can tolerate his presence or his idiosyncracies for much longer than he already has. “why do you refer to y/n and i with these random titles?” yuji shrugs. “life’s fun when you treat it like one big story. sometimes i like to break the fourth wall and narrate inside of mine to throw my readers off.” for a moment, satoru says nothing, opting to stare at the boy to gauge the level of his seriousness and assign a numerical value to yuji’s level of stupidity. how could he ever accept help from someone who narrates themselves in the third person for his nonexistent readers?

i think he might be, quite literally, insane.

“i thought i was a bit…on the odder side, but…you…you’re so fucking weird, yuji.” satoru doesn’t usually find himself so willing to be so vulgar, but around yuji, he watches a side of himself come out that he almost can’t control. the capacity of his disgust is unmatched. again, a shrug. “yuji the baker is already quite exasperated, understandably so. he releases a shallow sigh.” yuji follows his statement with a dramatic sigh. “i’m closing the door.” satoru says blankly. yuji quickly wedges his shoe between the door and its frame, watching satoru's face crinkle in very obvious repulsion. “wait, you moron. i’m trying to help you!” “no, thank you; i’ll take my chances.” he tells him shaking his head. what could he ever hope to gain by letting someone like him dip his disgusting, little nose in his life and sniff around in his personal affairs? satoru is now certain that his present assessment of yuji is absolute, unquestionably true.

but then, yuji says something that takes a metaphorical sledgehammer to his composure and his resolve. satoru values the truth, but that does not deter his fear when a truth commits to brutality. this truth is the one that’s breaking him down inside. “you’ll be single by the end of next week, guaranteed.” yuji tells him simply. he’s not reasoning with satoru. he’s simply laying the truth out before satoru, unavoidable and in all its devastation. “you heard her in the hallway this morning. this isn’t what she signed up for…” no, it isn’t. satoru is slowly, but most assuredly, beginning to realize that he doesn’t fully understand what you seem to want from him, but one this is absolutely clear, crystal, pristine: he is currently not fulfilling a fundamental need you have. but your lack of faith in the relationship is what’s wounding him the most. 

she’s really giving up on me.

“why do you want to help me?” he asks in a soft voice. yuji inhales deeply and exhales a sigh that presents as agitation. “the truth is it’s not for you. it’s for her, y/n. she helps me a lot, so i’m helping her by helping out her incredibly clueless boyfriend, whom she likes a fuck ton despite the extremity of his general disregard for the bare minimum. and…it seems like you might need it. you might be a shrew who doesn’t care about other people’s feelings, but i’m not, and neither is the girl you’re dating, so…maybe you should be a little more willing to take some advice from others?” fatality. defeat. surrender. “…fine. give me your advice.” satoru looks down and avoids his direct gaze. he already feels himself teeming with shame and repulsion so deep he’s starting to feel dirty. was he really going to let this ineffable buffoon help him? “i have a feeling it’ll take a while for you to grasp. let’s go have breakfast and talk.” yuji suggests, removing his foot and stepping away from the door. an immediate protest founded and funded by the volume of presently-standing dislike for him and general disgust of him. “i refuse to eat anything you cook.” then, yuji narrates himself again, and satoru wonders if death might be better than wasting any more time in this doorway with him. “suddenly, yuji is overcome with disgust and irritation by satoru the shrew’s presumptuous notion. yuji glares at him, spitting ‘i was never planning on cooking you shit, asshole. let’s go to a diner and work on your attitude. you’re so unapproachable it’s nauseating. imagine how her other friends will feel when you meet them.’ yuji waits for the oversized grump to gather his bearings and join him for breakfast.” an angry huff, a contemptuous twist of the gut. “can you stop fucking doing that?” “doing what?” he asks, tilting his head to the side innocently. talking to him is similar to talking to a mindless, empty-headed toddler. “narrating and referring to yourself in the third person like a fucking moron.” “it depends. can you stop fucking doing that?” satoru's teeth grit together. “doing what?” “being an insufferable asshole for no reason? nobody goes around raining on your bland, shitty parade despite you being equally odd.” satoru feels his anger rising, his fists squeezing and releasing with every word he speaks, “you don’t know anything about me.” “ah, but on the contrary, i know your girlfriend. and i also happen to be who she talks to about you when she comes over. i know about all your little oddities. she thinks they’re adorable, but i think you’re pretty fucking weird. who itemizes the cost of a single paper towel?” he groans. “why won’t she let that go?” “because she finds everything you do endearing except for how she’s been dating you for three months, and you’ve not taken her out or given her a good fuck. so let’s go to breakfast, and maybe you’ll get to keep both your girlfriend and your roommate.” and he goes. with all the contempt and disappointment in the world, he goes.

#em.wip #𖥨. ݁︀ 𝐝𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐛𝐨𝐱 ꒱ ֺ💌ৎ #୧ ‧₊ ☁️ ⋅ 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐞. #𐙚 ‧₊ 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬. #f: taming of the screwed. #re: tuesdays.

[nilikhangdiwa]

2023 Fic Wrap Up!

following last year's post, i'm going to go through all of my fics for the year and talk about them a bit! again, um, mostly a3, but yeah!

1.

unbearable warmth

tasuhoma, master loves a mystery

this one was a comm for my lovely friend asra who really loves tasuhoma, so i wrote her a little thingy! there's nothing too much to say about it i think, but i struggled writing it because mlam isn't really my usual playverse. i think it turned out okay though!

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2.

if the sky stops dancing

washisora, kuyuki, +3ghosts, first crush baseball, akiyama twins, canon-compliant (mostly), canon character death

this one was a comm for my friend mic, aka the ceo of washisora and my co-ceo of misuomi! i think i ruined a few lives with this one, not gonna lie. it's a little thing of hikaru and sora getting closer, and they're sooo cute. i've never done anything wrong in my life.

the comments in this are so funny if you check them out! and this fic was the reason for one of the next fics in this list.

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3.

FUCK YEAH, THEY/THEM!

transfem banri, transfem nonbinary taichi, established relationship, fluff, silly

i took a break from destroying lives to write this silly fic. actually, i was in a pretty bad writer's block in the earlier part of the year, so this is one of the first fics after, like... rarepair week 2022 that isn't either a gift or a comm. i wrote this in the school library when i was supposed to be writing a paper, lmao.

it's a sequel to YOU GO, SHE/HER! which i wrote in 2021 and consider to be my magnum opus bantai fic. it's basically the same tags as this one.

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4.

i hope this little light reaches

washisora, kuyuki, +3ghosts, first crush baseball, akiyama twins, canon character death

after the first kuyuki fic, mic came to me like. an hour later with more terrible ideas. so, of course, i helped them make it happen! mic had the idea for the plot, so i just wrote it out into the world, and then this! and then i got sniped by my friends who came for my neck for both of the fics.

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5.

modern talking, modern walking

bantai, transfem taichi, internet friends to irls to eventual lovers

okay, no more angst. only sillies. this fic was for a little server exchange for my friend max! we both love bantai and transfem taichi, so like. this was the natural progression of things, i think! there's not much to say, just that it's very silly and i like it very much.

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6.

i wanted to be your tomorrow

homachika, non-explicit sex

please note the one and a half month gap between the last fic and this one because my god i was so tired from life. but then this roleplay thing happened, and i was playing homare, and my friend was playing chikage, and then... and then i brainrotted so hard. it was so bad. chikahoma was all i could think about for weeks.

there's so much backstory for the chikahoma that inspired this, but it does end in character death, so i'll warn for that real quick. homare confessed to chikage via poem (i am not good at poetry but i tried lol) and they got together and they just... they were so in love with each other and just wanted to protect each other. but it ended up that homare was dying, and as he's about to die, chikage promises that he'll continue writing poems in his stead. and i. and i shatter every time i think about that.

brb crying. anyway.

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7.

elogium

hex & willis, patholosite

SNRK. NUMBER 7. okay. so patholosite is the oc universe of my friend, jas! and i'm very mentally unwell about it. patholosite ruined my life. 10/10 would recommend. it's basically about this doctor, hex, who has, like. seven million issues, the most pressing of which being his inferiority issues. and he's basically currently working under willis, who is a genius and is not helping hex's inferiority complex at all.

stuff happens. please ask please ask please ask. i need to inflict the world with patholosite.

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8.

Lost and Found

samlil, devil's gambit

okay, so this one is a gift for my lovely girlfriend, quill! umm. she did not ask for it. she just randomly sent me money so i sent her this in retaliation.

for context again, me and some friends made a little fake theater troupe like a3, and we're all split into little subtroupes. so devil's gambit is the lead play of my oc/sona (lance, playing sammy) for the troupe, and quill's character (quill, playing lilith) is the colead!

so. um. yes. gay. also this is from before we got together so like. yeah. finger guns. sometimes the gay precedes the gay.

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9.

Why do you, as a man, call another man your partner? Because you're gay?

misukazu & tsuzuru, queerplatonic relationships, established relationship, aromanticism

this one was for the pride month exchange on twt for my friend, link! she asked for a couple things, so i settled on this. it was really fun to write, since i, like kazunari in the fic, am aro, so i was like. hahaha, projection go brr.

(note. i did not have a girlfriend yet at this time. but i do now and i'm still aro. so like. um. the projection projected back at me.)

i was actually supposed to also write a second fic, since i managed to finish this one pretty early. a 5+1 fic about kazunari again, but then i didn't manage to finish it. maybe one day!

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10.

we can be dyed in any color we want

sakuya & kazunari, mentioned bansaku, smoking, just bros hanging out!

this actually wasn't supposed to be the next fic. this fic takes place in the same universe as this, like. kazuchika/bansaku universe i have fluttering around my brain? kazuchika is not mentioned in this fic, but bansaku is. it's not necessarily an au, it's just... a thing.

anyway, so the next fic was supposed to be the main kazuchika fic. but then the main kazuchika fic was turning out too long and i wanted to post this fic. so i decided, hey, instead of posting the main one first and then this side fic, i'll just drop the side fic. i mean, it still makes sense!

so, yeah. this. hopefully, i'll be able to finish the main kazuchika fic this year. maybe.

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11.

someday, i'll be falling without caution

chikatsumu

okay, this one is one i wrote for chikatsumu week, so i'll go through each of the entries. it's chikatsumu week, but the actual thing went on for about a month with 7 prompts. i didn't get to finish all of them, but it was slay!

day 1, first meeting. chikage meets tsumugi in act 5. i don't think there's too much to say about it, since it's pretty self explanatory, but i think they're silly. they should stare at each other and try to peel each other.

day 2, letter. a letter that tsumugi writes to chikage following some unspecified incident where chikage disappears. i wrote this with the intention of it being the same universe as this au i have where april becomes the next organization head, lua.

day 3, domestic. it's just chikage picking up tsumugi after rehearsal and they hold hands and talk and walk. i can write so much about people just doing the most mundane shit, i swear. i love writing mundane shit.

day 4, angel/demon. playverse fic, morimiche (moriarty and michael). this one was inspired by a roleplay me and my friend did a billion years ago. basically, moriarty wants to corrupt the angel and drag him to hell with him. which, like. i mean. i fuck with that. go moriarty go. moriarty is a meanie.

day 5 fic, i ended up putting it in a separate fic (next fic in this list) because it touches on some more sensitive topics.

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12.

silver sulfadiazine

chikatsumu, attempted suicide

day 5, scars. so this one is an unofficial sequel to a fic i wrote on my alt, where basically chikage. y'know. this is the aftermath, and it's from chikage's pov, and he's kind of hazy in-and-out and doesn't quite know what's going on. it's unofficial because the actual fic didn't have any intentions of chikatsumu, but i figured it'd be a nice little what-if.

the original fic was titled freezerburn, and had a lot of themes of like warmth and coldness and such, so i carried that over here. so this one is titled silver sulfadiazine, which is used to treat burns.

i actually wrote this whole thing on a flight to visit my aunt, and then i posted it when i touched down at the airport. very fun.

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13.

a collage of cicadas

tsumuguy, tasuguy

this one was for fuyu ship week, though regrettably i only finished two, because i was preoccupied with rarepair week that started days later. i was also really busy at the time, since i was fortunately able to take my latest term abroad, but that also meant i was packing my shit and running documents for weeks.

day 1, garden + growth. nothing too crazy, just cute tsumuguys! i love tsumuguy. i love guy ships, though there aren't very many, which makes me sad.

day 2, debut. no-mankai au where guy still has journey, and tasuku is still at godza. this is based off a tweet i saw once about this concept, so i just wrote a little something.

i actually had plans for the rest of the week! very briefly:

day 3, beach. tasuhiso. tasuku picks hisoka up from the beach at 3 in the morning.

day 4, passion. tsumuhoma. it was going to be just ages of homare waxing poetic about how much he loves tsumugi's passion for theater and gardening and life.

day 5, snow. azutsumu. they're drinking hot chocolate in the lounge in winter and azuma laments how the flowers tsumugi was tending to are dying because of the cold. tsumugi tells him that there are flowers, too, that bloom in the snow. like you, azuma-san!

day 6, home. azuguy. my note for this just says "guy: tadaima; azuma: okaeri". and like. that's all you need to know, really.

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14.

i just want to hold you tight (i don't want to go back to that lonely life)

lantaru, past tonoita, self-shipping, knights of round iv, internalized homophobia, kind of a character study

HEY. YOU. DO YOU WANT TO HEAR THE LANTARU AGENDA. "what the fuck is lantaru?" you may ask. LANCELOT AND ITARU. listen. hear me out. okay. i just think that, as a child and a teen and even into adulthood, itaru yumes with lancelot. that's his lanchan. that's why his hair is bleached at the tips, so they matchy. that's his 2D anime british twink boyfriend.

the fic itself is a little bit of a love letter to self-shipping in general, and how it can help people get through some tough times. it kind of just explores itaru's relationship with lancelot as a character, and his relationship with the people around him, and just. idk. i like them. because, hey, listen. sometimes i can make out with hisoka in my head as a treat and it fixes me a bit. insert that post about being a little mentally unwell to get better.

i like lantaru a normal amount please hear me out on this.

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15.

fool's errand

chikatsuzu, chikamerl, knights of round iv

rarepair week 2! um. listen. i blame my friends wholeheartedly for this. like several other fics, this was inspired by a roleplay between me and some of my friends. and like. god. i'm so mentally unwell. tl;dr is that merlin spent the entire time antagonizing everyone, but then he's becoming human and shedding his magicky dragon-y nature, and chikage, for some fucking reason, decides to be kind to him.

and my brain has never let go of it.

my god i hate them.

i love them please make out.

but yeah. i really like how this one turned out, actually! i like how merlin talks all fancy and old timey and chikage's like uhh ok lol. merlin refers to chikage solely as "chikage utsuki" in this fic, rather than "utsuki chikage" which is how i usually write it. this is because merlin is white. thank you.

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16.

my universe is filled with you (more and more)

sakyoita, future, marriage, established relationship, moving

itaru and sakyo move into their house together! there's not much to say about this, i just really wanted to write an itasakyo fic for rarepair week. they're just really cute and shaped. this one was a little late i think, so all my rpw fics were a little late, but hey! that's fine.

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17.

meet me where our scars collide

tasuchika, introspection, intimacy

i am obsessed with chikage and his scars. like. i swear. i just think about them randomly. it also goes a little into chikage's default flight response of just running away from the problem. i just think. i don't know, man. just... chikage's got so many issues, i think kissing men could fix him.

it's actually really funny because i posted this fic in august, and then like i got a dm in december from one of my friends just SHAKING ME. and i was like WHAT DID I DO. and she was like MEET ME WHERE OUR SCARS COLLIDE. THAT'S WHAT YOU DID. and i was like I POSTED THAT FOUR MONTHS AGO???

anyway, i really like how it turned out!

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18.

despedida

citokazu, act 8, canon compliant

before rpw, someone in a server was like, hey, someone give me a rarepair for day 5 of rpw? i'm thinking citokazu, but idk... and i was like, YO CITOKAZU DAY 5 THAT'S LITERALLY MY PLAN TOO THAT'S CRAZY !! DO IT.

this fic is actually really timely beecause actually between the previous fic and this one was my flight to japan. so i literally had a despedida like when i was writing this. i really like citokazu, though i haven't talked about them a lot recently, so i wanted to write something for them for rpw!

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19.

Venus

tsumuhiso, uriluci, urimiche, sympathy for the angel, stray devil blues, non-linear narrative

okay. so if you haven't seen me during the a3 play ship poll, i made this propaganda for uriluci/urimiche. the au that i mention there is the same one that this fic is inspired by. and i am so unwell about uriluci it's unreal. i adore them, they make each other worse.

the title is venus, because it's the morning star! morning star, morgenstern, is also associated with lucifer. so, yes. also in the end note of the fic, the numbers indicate which order the different fic sections actually go in chronologically.

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20.

Ichor

augju (kind of), gekka, blood and violence, canon character death

this one was my fic for the gekka zine! (which, hey, if you haven't checked it out, you can find it on tumblr @/gekkazine!) it's just, you know, the usual augju bullshit.

july is a really interesting character to me, and more often than not i end up writing him? to the point that some people think of me as july oomf. which is. um. i don't know if that's a compliment, but sure, i'll take it! he's just really. somethimg. he sure is something.

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21.

you are gold, you are home

chikaita, domestic fluff

a comm for cg! most of my chikaita are stuff for cg, tbh, and i'm not complaining! this one's just a short and sweet one about chikage waking up with itaru in his arms, and something about the vulnerability and gentleness of domestic life that he never thought he'd have for himself... yeah.

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22.

bunnies and red pandas

chikaita

this one was for chikaita week! i had a lot of fun writing for these, and i had previously committed to being chill and low stakes about it, so i didn't have a lot of trouble or stress about it. the title references, of course, their a7 (??? i think ???) animals.

day 1, late nights. chikage hasn't come home and itaru's so worried he throws his matches. chikage's his lucky charm! or actually he's just so worried that he can't focus. either way, they're cute.

day 2, playverse. gawafuta! gawain (kniroun) and futami (uraomote). i think... this is the first fic for them i've posted, though i know there are more on ao3. my and my friend ended up making this ship after (another) roleplay thing, and then just... i just think they're neat, i don't know. i have a lot of gawafuta thoughts. i think that futami's one of the best people to help gawain adjust to getting, like, reverse isekai'd, because of his job. like, yeah, the info gathering stuff, but moreso being a teacher. like, modern jp lit takes a lot of inspiration and cues from earlier parts of jp history and lit, so futami presumably knows quite a bit about history and society as well, and just. i think they're neat.

day 3, office life. this was kind of inspired by when i met my friend and he was telling me about how when he went to shinjuku there were just a bunch of salaryman sitting around on the sidewalks and shit drinking and smoking and i was like... yeah. and then this was born. there's a lot of things about itaru's reputation that he has to keep an eye on, i think... but chikage will help, don't worry! also chikage is super pining and in love in this.

fun fact, there's a deleted line in this where chikage says something like not entirely accurate because he wasn't born in japan and only started living here a few years ago, and itaru calls him a gaijin lmao. i took it out because i don't think itaru would do that but like it's funny to me.

day 4, domestic. "nuh uh" "fym nuh uh" is the reason i wrote this entire thing. i had this exchange with someone on twitter about how itaru just says silly things and i was like. you know what? yes. so i just make itaru say silly things in this one.

day 5, plushies. after writing this, the world plushie didn't even look like a word anymore. and i'm just really obsessed with the mental image of itaru turning all of his plushies away so they don't see him and chikage doing the nasty. there's also references to the extended kniroun lore there (runa) which i am happy to talk about at great length always anytime.

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23.

Oversized

samlil, devil's gambit

same deal as lost and found. although, okay, we were actually already together at this point. she, like... randomly sent me money again. i think because i didn't have enough in my paypal to resubscribe to dropout, so i was like haha is anyone willing to commission me real quick. and then she just sent me money. so i wrote this because i wasn't going to take no for an answer. also i had major samlil brainrot, since i had a manga studio art class where we had to make our own manga, and i was like. okay! great! (makes devil's gambit manga) (does not sleep for three weeks)

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24.

Hunter's Mark

azusakyo, nocturnality extended universe

this one was a gift for soda for a little server exchange! they didn't ask for much, so i was like... hm... what's the last thing you said about azusakyo... and then saw vampires and went, PERFECT. I ALREADY HAVE A SAKYO VARIANT FOR NOCT. although he ended up a little different from how i'd originally made him, but i think this works!

the faust backstory is that he's a vampire who's also the head of vampire hunters. why is he hunting other vampires? who knows. he and franz have a history. also, despite being a vampire, he can interact with holy objects and things. he literally trained himself to do that and not to react when it burns. he's crazy, lol. that part i think was inspired by raphael from the mortal instruments. i'm a little unnormal about raphael santiago, but don't worry about it.

the summary of the fic is an excerpt from goethe's dr. faust, who faust is, y'know, name for. he did this bargain with a vampire a long time ago for something. haven't decided what exactly, but something along those lines.

also, fun fact! in my current noct universe, faust's heir is akito, played by azami.

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25.

Shaped Like Halloween

kazunari & chikage, halloween, liberal use of the word "slutty"

this one was for a halloween exchange in a server! for. um. my girlfriend. IT'S ACTUALLY REALLY FUNNY. the previous fic, the azusakyo fic, it's for a different friend. but initially, the giftee i had received was also my girlfriend. so i asked if it was okay to switch with someone else since i figured she might like to receive fics from people who are, you know, not just me. AND THEN I FUCKING LEARNED THAT BOTH THE GIFT EXCHANGES IN DIFFERENT SERVERS JUST RANDOMIZED THE GIFTEES. SO I RANDOMLY RECEIVED QUILL'S NAME TWICE BECAUSE THE POWER OF GAY OR SOME SHIT??? IDK.

anyway, it's sillies! kazu and chikage. i'm pretty sure that when we'd filled out the forms to join the exchange, we hadn't gotten together yet? and she had something written down like, kazu and chikage, i've been thinking about them recently. and like. i kin kazu, she kins chikage. i know what you are (gay).

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26.

Starburst Tea

bansaku, first meeting, no mankai

for being my favorite a3 ship, you'd think that i'd have more bansaku fics. but, hey, at least i have this one! i also posted this around the time of the bansaku cg, so i was literally losing my mind.

this is based off an actual place i went to while wandering around. me and some irls found this cool little tea shop the city. it was really cozy, and there was an actual wall of tea with different blends. i got carnival! it was good tea. the owner asked my friend if he would be willing to help paint a mural on the side of his tea shop with some other japanese people, so that was slay and fun. there was a fire, we made smores! the owner also has a little wood soldering set, and he let my irl draw his face on the wooden counter. it's really nice. anyway, in universe, my irl is kazu, he just does shit for banri.

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27.

(if) we are meant to be

mukuyuki, soulmate au

last fic of the year! this one was for the secret santa on twt for my friend, aud! admittedly, i don't have a lot of practice writing youngestgumi, but i think it turned out well! i wrote this on the plane ride back home, actually, so it feels like a really nice close for the year.

i'm super normal about soulmate aus, by the way. i have a billion fluttering around my mind at any given point in time.

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thanks for sticking with me this year! hope to write a bajillion more fics again next year~ i actually have one coming up soon for a server secret santa, so look out for that one! >wa)b

#a3 #lanchan talks #fic writing wrapped

[truezero]

OK TOH THOUGHTS let’s go (these are just in order of the episodes progression btw)

Spoilers for Clouds on the horizon below

-look at the collector being a silly little guy!! Love them fr fr

-“what if it’s all chaaaanged? What if YOU changed??” Dude

-“you can barely keep your human shape anymore!” DUDE

-ok so at the very least we know that they aren’t gonna make a new grimwalker while Hunter is still around

-but also Belos’ utter lack of care about him makes me :(

-Yeah Belos free the collector, I don’t think they’re one you want to break a promise of :)

-“you need to have more faith in pinky swears >:(“ the collector grows on me more and more every episode I swear

-I could go on a whole rant about why the shift from their initially just kinda silly behaviour (in my opinion) to truly childlike nature is what both warmed me up to them and made me very scared for him

-but that’s for another post

-KIKI GOT FUCKING DEMOTED LMAO

-I’m gonna punt her

-hidden Blight kids what they doing

-“Blights always uphold their end of the deal” FUCK you

-oh hang on so Odalia talks about “reconsidering her deal” with Alador and immediately moves into talking about how the kids should get more involved, does that mean that Alador has been convincing Odalia not to shove them into business work? I hope so

-HE LOOKS SO DISTRESSED OH NO

-I must say I am enjoying Alador’s gradual redemption. I like that he hasn’t been forgiven right away, reasonably so, but is working to be better I think that’s just a very good way to go about his character and I’m very happy about it

-ok scene change to sum up fuck Odalia I’m gonna crime her

-Dude I want to give King a hug so bad

-LUZ HAS A LITTLE PONYTAIL

-Eber is real funny lookin’ I love them

- AAA Eda seems like she’s trying to put up a brave face and I’m gonna sob

- EGG EGG WGG EGG EGG EGG THATS SO SWEET

-AWE EDA ENCOURAGING LUZ TO GO SAVE AMITY

- “bossy boots” 🥺🥺🥺

-Raine making a promise to Luz aaaaaa

-YES MAKE IT YOUR BATTLE CRY CAUSE PROBLEMS FOR DARIUS SPECIFICALLY

-DUDE Katya is so fun and also my sister is so gay for her

-THEY’RE BEST BUDDIES I LOVE THEM

-H U N T E R MY DARLING THERE HE IS HE HAS A NEW OUTFIT I AM GOING TO GIVE HIM A KISS

-HÉ HAS A HANDSHAKE WITH GUS AWE

-HUNTER BB NO YOU’RE MORE THAN THAT :(

-Gus using the thingy he nabbed from Adrian is so excellent

-“SORRY MAN” Hunter my beloved

-why’d they slide in like that gkdjdhd

-YESS Hunter jumping in to help Luz they are siblings your honour I love them

-THEY ARE ALL SO POWERFUL LOOK AT THEM GO

-LUZ GO BLUSHYYYY THEYRE SO CUTE

-ROMEO AND JULIET MOMENT WITH THE BALCONY MY GOD

-AYO flowers around the balcony??

-ODALIA FUCKING BROKE THE TAMAGOTCHI I’m gonna commit a crime actually

-they tried to burn down. The FUCKING factory. I sometimes fear the Blight twins just as much as I love them

-NOOO AMITY :( I’m giving her a hug too everyone is getting hugs

-Emira prompting Amity to talk about Luz,, I’ll cry methinks

-“I would say all that :)” they’re so cute I’m on the FLOOR

-THE FLOWER FRAMING RESEMBLES THE VINES AROUND THE WINDOW WITH EDA AND RAINE FROM TTBK

-LUZ SPINNING AMITY AROUND IS SO GOOD AND SWEET

-holy shit did the frame rate go up when amity said “I know”

-KISSKISSKISSSKISSKISSKISS AAAAAAAADJGIKSJDDH DISINTEGRATING

-c r i k e y

-They are such nerds I’m going to scream slash positive connotation

-AMITY MAKING THE SAME FACE AS BACK IN THE TUNNEL OF LOVE SHE LOVES HER GIRLFRIEND

-oh yeah everyone else is here too

-HUNTER LOOKS SO GRUMPY

-STEVE TIME

-ooh haven’t seen the elixirs in a while that’s slightly concerning

-HOOTY WEARING CLOTHES WHO DID THIS

-why is Amber the one piloting the ship she’s too TINY FOR THAT

-“it won’t change your voice, so try not to say much” that’s gonna come back

-EDA STILL HAS HER GOLD TOOTH I GUARANTEE THATS GONNA COME BACK

-oh god there goes her head I forgot she could just do that

-mmmm I don’t quite like that they just h a v e a sigil glove

-I trust Steve with my life but it is TERRIFYING that he can (is about to) brand Eda with a sigil just at any given notice

-why the FUCK does Odalia’s hair move like that

-Kiki looks so pathetic it’s incredible

-they are hiding :)

-AWE NO LET KING HELP

-THE COLLECTOR IS IN KING’S HEAD THATS PROBABLY NOT GOOD

-I do NOT like how even the collector HIMSELF is doubtful of Belos’ integrity I am so prepared for him to betray the collector (never planned on freeing them in the first place maybe?) and the collector to go NUTS

-maybe that’s how we get collector!Luz? They team up because the collector feels betrayed and they’re like “Y’know what we do not like each other but this puritan bitch has to go”

-is king getting kidnapped with a trail of hex mix I swear to god

-The music is always so peppy when we get a new Blight product that dichotomy of sound and what’s actually happening is AWESOME

-SNORSEPOWER

-Snorses :)

-dude Kikimora just getting fucking picked up is so funny

-“IM TALLER THAN E V E R Y O N E” she’s so unhinged oh my god

-she’s going to kill someone with that

-and I have no idea if it’s going to be on purpose or not

-WHY THE FUCK IS THERE A RAT THAT LOOKS LIKE ALADOR

-is that his palisman

-I’m gonna start a riot if that’s his palisman

-I don’t even mean it negatively just fucking RAT

-Hunter trying to trick Odalia has no right being as funny as it is

-Dude how did Odalia not notice the abomination-purple hair poking out of one of those masks

-stop calling his voice annoying :(

-“sOrrY mAn” coven scout noooo

-AYO every one of the wild witches in this scene look awesome why are these designs so jammin’

-ok good King didn’t get kingnapped

-King hanging out with Alador? Not what I expected but I’ll gladly take it

-how is Odalia still running a business dude you can’t just fire HALF A TEAM and expect the same work rates

-I hate her

-she’s literally a toxic store manager but a million times worse

-GIRL GIVE YOUR HUSBAND A WEEKEND OFF WHAT THE FUCK

-“sounds like I joined the wrong coven” does mans not get LUNCH BREAKS??

-THE WIND BLOWING AFTER KING MENTIONED NEVER MEETING HIS DAD

-IS THE TITAN TEYING TO GIVE HIM A LITTLE PUSH ON THE SWING

-SCREAMING

-dude did Alador make that swingset for the kids??? It’s very abomination-y so it doesn’t seem unlikely

-I hope so that’s so cute

-“I’m gonna spend more time with my kids. Get to know them.“ SOBS

-oh fuck he knows now

-“I’m tired of all this draaama” I’m going to kill you

-AWE AMITY DEFENDING LUZ LOOK AT HER STANDING UP TO HER MOM I’M SO PROUD OF HER

-“oh no, no, that won’t do” dude she’s literally acting like Luz is like,,, a fashion choice or an object she’s so yuckyyyy

-YESSS GO AMITY SHE’S SO POWERFUL

-STOP HUNTER LOOKS SO SCARED AT KIKI THREATENING TO BRING HIM TO BELOS

-all the more reason for me to punt her

-“The Emperor has eyes everywhere” THERE BETTER NOT BE A TRAITOR I SWEAR TO GOD

-I really hope it’s just the collector watching through King and not a traitor

-oh fuck they plotting

-GO AMITY HELL YEA SHE IS UNBELIEVABLY POWERFUL

-“IT WAS THE POWER OF SCIENCE” what a nerd

-WHAT THE FUCK SHE KNEW ALREADY

-ODALIA IS SO SO ICKY

-G O D

-bro Amity gets her red-faced trait from her dad that’s kinda cute

-THANK YOU ALADOR FOR REALIZING YOUR WIFE IS SHIT

-I forgot how oracles fight that’s pretty sick

-WAITWAIT LUZ DID THE HUNTER TELEPORT

-THAT’S NOT NORMAL

-ARE THEY ILLUSIONED AS EACH OTHER

-ok “Hunter” blowing a raspberry at Kiki they’re definitely illusioned as each other

-“Hunter” did Luz’s classic little lip curl

-I will now be pointing out every detail that is proving this until either they switch back or I am proven wrong

-“LUZ” HAS A TOOTH GAP

-I REPEAT

-TOOTH GAP

-also both of them aren’t talking much did Steve not say illusions can’t change voices 👀

-Ok so Luz’s plan was definitely to illusion them as each other for some reason yea

-unfortunately, the jet pack did indeed work

-NO ODALIA LETS NOT GET BACK TO BUSINESS I AM GOING TO BITE YOU

-YES GO AMITY CUT HER OFF

-mmm Odalia calling amity “princess” just really gave me the icks I Do Not Like

-AYO Alador can pack a fuckin punch his eyes went purple and everything

-“Also, I quit” DIVORCE ARC

-“I’ve been meaning to find a new competent business partner anyway” Odalia that’s your fucking HUSBAND. Who you are MARRIED TO

-this slightly implies that she married him purely for business and that’s just :(

-and off into the mist she goes

-bye bye bitch I hate youuuu

-damn even Alador is scared of Odalia

-Gus is still holding an illusion even though the fight is over 👀 👀

-DUDE I FUCKIN CALLED IT

-THERE HE IS

-HE LOOKS SO DISTRESSED HE IS NOT USED TO KINDNESS FROM ADULTS ALSO HE IS NOT IN FACT LUZ

-oh no

-OH NO

-OK SO LUZ GOT HERSELF CAUGHT AS HUNTER ON PURPOUSE

-WOW THATS NO GOOD

-FUCKING CLIFFHANGER GOD DAMN IT

FINAL THOUGHTS

Very good episode 8.5/10 Hootys from me

#the owl house #toh #toh season 2 #toh spoilers #toh hunter #toh luz #emperor belos #toh lumity #toh the collector #more characters to be tagged but I don’t feel like it lmao

[first-only]

I've noticed that paras aren't the only type of attraction that the 'progressive proships' think deserve conversion therapy, I've seen it happen to incestuous attraction too

For an example of this, I was looking into the replies of a proship post, and the OP said something along the lines of "If my sister felt that way (attracted) towards me, I'd send her to a psychiatric hospital." Which really fucking disturbed me. Cause like, that is, by definition, conversion therapy!

This isn't even about whether or not irl incest is okay, I mean I think it's fine irl, but even if I didn't, I would still think that it'd be fucked up to send someone to conversion therapy for an attraction

Like, how can these people be so blind to what they say?!

oh yes absolutely. consanguinamory was actually a pretty big discourse topic among proshippers (on tumblr at least) not that long ago. it was kind of a split between the ONLY in fiction crowd and 'yo what about that bodily autonomy' people. im pretty sure you can still find self-described proship accnts with a very aggressive dni if u support ~illegal~ acts irl (disregard ofc the nature of different laws in different countries and the difference between ethics morals and laws and the idea that attraction =/= action and how consensul relationships work and and and so much shit). it was a great time for my blocklist, it grew exponentially lmao

the idea of attraction in general seems to be very much demonized. yes, taboo attraction specifically, but also kinks that were considered vanilla in our spaces until recently. AND just plain old attraction - to fictional characters, to ~real people, to celebrities. especially if that attraction is conveyed in a slightly non-traditional way, like rpf for example. you see ideas of it being immoral or unethical to be attracted to friends, or to someone who doesnt feel the same way, or to experience attraction without telling the person or the whole world about it. people with non-traditional attractions are called 'predators' liars, gaslighters if they dont announce it publicly or to everyone they talk to (and if they do theyre shunned ofc).

i think we all remember the hot take that "if you are deliberately attractive to your partner in a public space you're engaging in SA" and the political lesbianism of "women arent evil feral beasts like men are, they arent horny [for other women] they just appreciate them". like yes, what you're saying is definitely true - taboo attractions and talking about them is seen as an actual harmful act somehow. but i argue that we're racing to, and we're halfway there, to a point where talking about and even experiencing ANY attraction is considered a "sin." because you know, magical thinking - or "thought crimes" as the layman term is established.

#ask #i dont know if people are 'blind' to what they say #i think at least some of them genuinely believe that if you have certain thoughts youre tainted and evil and theyre afraid its contagious #i dont think thought purity is possible without a very aggressive self-conviction that what you believe is pure even in the face of proof #that it isnt #or rigid self-regulation which ironically is a bigger predictor for bad behaviour #if you dont let yourself to know and experience your thoughts fully you dont get to know your mind and self #and you often dont extend that charity to others #and there's no perfect people in existence so the hunt to find and surround yourself with them is futile

[farawayfroppy]

when people in universe (and outside lowkey) can't separate shigaraki from afo im just reminded of how stain and dabi lowkey made points; izuku had to be the new symbol because he's the one who CAN separate them and will transition society from one that sees good and evil as something so black and white to one that can understand the intricacies of descent into villainy, to madness, to whatever it may be. Which is exactly what they were talking about; create preventative measures rather than just allowing that to happen. Shigaraki is not AFO, because Shigaraki is a young man who 1) never felt seen, heard, or particularly valued and then 2) experienced immense, IMMENSE trauma at a very young age and 3) immediately got taken in by a manipulator who knew he could use him and mold him to his will. If you can't see how someone who had never experienced real connection, affection/praise, having a home (after the incident he was on the street; people would barely even look at him), or purpose would be easily susceptible to manipulation in order to receive those things...These are like the most basic things in the hierarchy of needs that Shigaraki had been denied for so long; of COURSE an actual and literal child is going to go along with whatever he needs to do in order to make sure he is taken care of, can survive, can have his basic needs met. And naturally, a bond to AFO was formed. To Shigaraki, what AFO did was a good thing; he took him in and saved him. Not only that, AFO gave him purpose. Not just by affirming the power and use of his quirk, but by validating those very feelings of neglect, loneliness, and trauma that had brought him to AFO in the first place. If AFO says, "I have a way to make sure that doesn't happen again," naturally Shigaraki is going to want to make that happen. Just as the heroes only see AFO for all of the evil he has done, Shigaraki only sees him for the good. He allows AFO to transition his sadness, loneliness, and fear into hate, because it's easier. Eventually it becomes second nature. If you want progress, at all, you have to be able to see the signs and separate willful evil (for the sake of being evil) from a fall from grace (evil caused by missteps in life, neglect/trauma, manipulation) because they are fundamentally different. You would have much less crime and evil in the world if you reshaped society to prevent the latter from happening to children, to the poor or outcast, to the mentally ill, respectively Toga/Dabi (with Dabi being uniquely failed because of his father's status as a hero), Spinner, and Twice (who is especially sad, to me). You will never know peace if you are reactionary, if you only treat the symptoms and never discover the cause. I think Izuku knows this, which is part of why his character is so important. It had to be him, because he knows what it's like to BE the outcast. He was told from a young age he wouldn't be able to do what he felt he NEEDED to do, he was too weak because he had no quirk. He was bullied and mocked on the daily. He understands those feelings of loneliness and neglect, but he also understands that he overcame them with help. Where Shigaraki had AFO, Izuku had All-Might, which means he got lucky, honestly. The difference between Shigaraki being where he is now or him potentially being a powerful, wonderful hero (or even just a simple, functioning member of society) is intervention. He didn't get the intervention he needed. I hope we see that pushed really hard, otherwise it really is just copaganda lmao

#my hero academia #mha #farawaytalks #tomura shigaraki #bnha shigaraki #bnha afo #all for one #izuku midoriya #deku

[horce-divorce]

Not Replying bc reddit isn't ready for my galaxy brain hot takes but like. Does this feel like the recent anal beads poker cheater thing to anyone else? I mean that's a super recent example just bc it's what comes to mind but like I always kinda wondered about this. There was the whole effort of "Marilyn Manson is making your kids SATANIC!" and we (the kids) were like "haha yeah" and it totally never brought anyone closer to Jesus, for SOME fucking reason????

Pivoting to "he's so gay he sucks his own dick" just feels like the natural progression of evangelical thought to me, as a total heathen. Like that's just how fundamentalist Christians talk about non Christians lmao. Not everyone wanted to be a Christian but MOST of my classmates could still agree on homophobia. we're talking about the 90s and early aughts. like I definitely had peers who thought removing ribs to suck dick was just a real thing that gay people did, purely bc they heard the Marilyn Manson myth.

I think the spectacle of the idea is so ridiculous, and so specifically gay for no real reason at all??? That surely homophobia played a hand in why it spread so far. And I'm sure there are countless other examples of this that better brains than mine could conjure, but like we were literally just talking about this w the anal beads thing so that's what I thought of

#me #disc horse