#so ill be fine

[thatonebylershipper]

my mom is such a silly goose fr

#shes not actually she needs to figure her fucking shit out #i was having executive dysfunction issues and couldnt do ONE thing that she asked me to do since my brother didnt do it before he #left the house like he was supposed to #and so then i was supposed to do it apparently and since i couldnt she started yelling at me and my sister and crying #and playing the victim as always #saying that apparently i never help out around the house even tho i literally do stuff all the fucking time that no one asks me to do????? #anyway like dude i get that you have childhood trauma but you are a grown ass adult and it is your responsibility to work through that and #become a better person for your family #anyway im not upset about making her mad i really dont give a fuck #i mean i know my dad is gonna have something to say to me and my siblings when he gets home later but its the same words every time #so ill be fine #but i am pretty angry that she made my sister cry #she (my mom) locked herself in her room to throw a tantrum like a fucking ten year old 💀 #personal

[ghostofchaos-past]

keep thinking about how im gonna be in ENGLISH CLASS when the trailer drops

how am i meant to focus on To Kill a Mockingbird when there is new footage of the blorbos out in the world?????

#ill probably ask to use the bathroom or smth so i can watch it #also this is a joke btw #im like 100 pages ahead of the class #so ill be fine #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 trailer #fucking unwell

[greenieflor]

Today was my last day of classes and I got to present my research on Achilles and Gilgamesh and their relationships with immortality and it felt like such a nice end to the semester. I still have some papers and two finals but it's so nice to be mostly done and still be in a pretty good place mentally

#lav rambles #school shit #last time i was in school #i ended the winter semester in such a bad place #and its such a testament to my growth as a person #that i was able to present today #and be comfortable with the amount of work i have left to do #im most stressed about studying for my mythology exam #and like #i was the closest thing to a teachers pet in that class #so ill be fine #ALSO #i have all A's for the first time in my academic carreet #and im so happy about it

[littlestprince]

getting crossed on a tuesday eating a peanut butter honey sandwich all comfy in my bed and watching youtube <3

#guys theres a kink club in the city where I live #theres actually a few but theres a queer owned one i really like #but most of their events and stuff are 21+ #which is very smart and it makes me super excited to go when i turn 21 #bc like theyre very safe about how they do stuff and plan things #but im so close to being 21 and they keep having really fun and interesting events happening for spring and I'm bummed i cant go #but also i turn 21 the day before pride 2023 #so ill be fine #just thinking about how excited i am to get real world experience in the community and stuff #and meeting new people and having fun and stuff in a safe and accepting environment #esp bc im very large chested and have a p feminine frame still #like!! im seeing the differences and my legs are getting very masculine and my shoulders and arms and back are also getting there #but i still am seen and treated as a women by strangers i guess #and I think a big reason i have this blog is bc i actually like some of the more feminine parts ofmyself #but i have to become such an extremely masculine version of myself in public bc that's the only way people will actually see me as like #my actual gender #which sucks bc if i was cis i would get to wear whatever i want and listen to whatever i want and do makeup whenever i want #and i looovee dressing slutty but i cant rn bc of dysphoria !!! #and i think even in the short amount of time having this blog #ive been able to get over som #e of that and like allow myself to breath #and touch my body and desire my body #and have other people touch and desire my body #and im not desired bc i 'look like a woman' #im desired bc im a man who enjoys being feminine #which im sure i would have struggled with this as a cis man aswell #but theres just like an added layer there to it #internalized misogyny #and performing for the worlds externalized misogyny #sorry im not making sense

[anadorablekiwi]

Guess who forgot her glasses todayyy 🙃

(I work until 8pm, and commute is ~30mins so im stuck with very slightly blurry vision and probably a headache today)

#kiwi rambles #my prescription is exceedingly small #like. slight astigmatism in both eyes #and 0.25 farsighted in my right #so ill be fine #just frustrated

[wooperoverlord]

I just realised today that I will be visiting the Genshin concert this upcoming Saturday...

In other news, I was internally screaming and shaking. This is also my first time attending a concert

#but a friend who already went to the concert in nyc calmed my nerves #so ill be fine #genshin impact #genshin #genshin concert #anxious but excited

[butterflies2008]

You ever talking to someone about your problems (which happens so rarely) and then realize your a total basket case and theres a reason you don’t go around talking about this stuff 😭

#daddy issues #hard year #but like also i have chocolate icecream #so ill be fine #but also #several other issues

[deadletterpoets]

I haven't ruined a friendship by confessing romantic feelings all year. Proud of me

#id say there's still time #but the only ppl talking to me these days are either lesbians or in relationships #so ill be fine

[thewaitingluna]

If there was no one else and nothing else to love, would you have loved me?

#spilled heart #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #my words #words #spilled prose #you broke my heart #spilled words #love #spilled poetry #spilled tears #spilled truth #spilled writing #so ill be fine #spilled feelings #spilled poem

[sugarcandytuft]

#love #kiss #kinda #life #so ill be fine

[dick-chugger]

You know, witnessing something lowkey traumatic is really fun because one moment I'll be posting about my blorbos on Tumblr and the next I'll be staring into nothing for 30 minutes and then throw up

#i am doing very well 👍 #bur also ive gotten through way worse than this #so ill be fine

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X' #and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!'' #babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness'' #it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!'' #& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell? #you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse? #but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck? #your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross? #HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like. #anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

[ninjasmudge]

doodles of a lamb and their horrible cat

#cotl #cult of the lamb #my art #cotl the lamb #cotl narinder #hey. its me. here are my doodles #i have so many cotl ideas #let nari destroy a few houses as enrichment #its fine #narinder #narilamb #i swear at some point ill do actual narilamb

[ccorinthian]

fuck you ageism fuck you life ending at 30 fuck you makeup industry forcing us to feel bad about a natural process fuck you hustle culture fuck you instagram fuck you youtube fuck you glorification and deification of youth fuck you who make people feel bad for not having "achieved anything" in their 20s fuck you people who peaked in high school and try to drag everybody down by insisting it's all downhill after 19

#im not dedicating hours and days and weeks of my 20s of hard work on my mental health to cope w shit i went through #for some bitches on websites to tell me ill shrivel up and die when i hit 30 unless my life is perfect by then #youre not dragging me down to that mindset and i wont let your doom and gloom about turning older make me feel like shit !! #some of us have to rebuild ourselves from ground up and that shit takes time and thats FINE and if you think otherwise fuck off honestly #ageism is such a disgustingly overlooked aspect thats so ingrained in our culture and you need to recognise it #or you'll just feel worse and worse about yourself with every passing day bc guess what baby you cant go back!! #SICK of the negativity surrounding age on this website get yourself the fuck together honestly

[laniakea314]

Crowley trusting Aziraphale with his life and Aziraphale trusting Crowley with his own, both on the same night

Bonus:

“I could always rely on you. You could always rely on me.”

#they trust each other wholeheartedly i feel ill #Crowley looks so fine in 1941 tho #still can’t believe we got a whole minisode about what happened after the church scene #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #good omens 2 #aziracrow #david tennant #michael sheen #neil gaiman #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers

[faeriegutz]

i didnt show up to choir tonight so i'll get an unexcused absence but i dont give a flying sugarbeet because i got to go trick or treating

also its my first unexcused all term and most likely all year soooo

#they dont notify ur parents until u get like 2 or 3 unexcused #so ill be fine #ollie's school chronicles #halloween