#something about love and sacrifice being the same and yet being more bc of it

[villruu]

I am being so normal :) <-[writing the most self indulgent jam one shot ever]

#vrill talks #oh jam were truly in it now #ITS ABOUT KINDNESS AND TAKING CARE OF OTHERS AND FIGHTING PAST ABLEISM AND THE SACRIFICES YOU MAKE FOR THOSE U CARE FOR AND #AND THAT SHAME HAS NO PLACE WHEN YOU CARE FOR SOMEONE. ITS ABOUT SACRIFICE ITS ABOUT DEDICATING YOURSELF FULLY TO A TASK. ITS ABOUT #MUTUAL CARE ITS THE THEMES THE FUCKING THEMES OH MY GODFGBDJG #anyways. fics set post entry 72 w tim taking care of catatonic jay where the fuck YOU ATTTTTT #this is so self indulgent lol #someone please ask me about the fact that tim took care of jay while he was practically catatonic post 72 PLEASE PLEASE I AM SO INSANE #YOU DONT UNDERSTAND YOU DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND #TIM TAKING CARE OF A FULLY CATATONIC AND MON RESPONSIVE JAY.... DO YOU TRULY UNDERSTAND HOW BIG OF A THING THAT IS??? DO YOU????? DO YOU!?!? #lmao is it noticeable that i jave taking care of people not there mentally before #i had to take care of my granpa post-stroke and just damn damn DAMN DAMN #something about love and sacrifice being the same and yet being more bc of it #anyways taking a break from writing the fic to smoke n drink bc I NEED TO CHILL OTHERWISE THIS ONESHOT WONT GET WRITTEN AAAAAAA

[mifunebooty]

Really funny this white dude in my speech class group i remember he kept making eye contact with me and i was like does he like me um and turns out he did that with everybody white people weird

#cherry says #anyways fun inside GOD THAT SEMESTER WAS STICKY my mom could not take unemployment well #me i got used to the cycle of looking for jobs getting nothing then stop looking bc my mom said dont worry about it ill pay the bills #i did that over and over and with film jobs id just look at texas film commission sometimes just to look #but i myself got used to the job hunting so i felt zoned out from it yet #that area felt as much a daydream as my wanting to go make a movie i didnt think i wanted to tell myself that #especially because i still was doing acting looking for acting #but yeah there was times my mom would make violent fits she would wonder what was happening #i think those times revealed a lot of the weird complexity of our relationship after high school #i didnt pity her but i did feel like i owed her something i believed so many things she told me #i feel like she wanted me to see her work as a sacrifice so i must do this and that but it was way deeper #parental love became a fucking duty to show it that was just it i did what she said #to at the same time comfort myself when i had no job and maybe even to comfort myself for being scared #i think tbh i need to face that past action that i was scared i was scared of reality even if it was a reality she talked of #i was scared of growing up and didnt wanna think about it i was scared of the future in 2 months when class ended #so maybe my mom with no job suddenly presented the risks we were all taking #maybe it made me more scared of what was to be on the outside #somebody who put fear in my head who said dont worry u study i work and that was gone #perhaps i shouldve taken that opportunity to realize NOTHING LASTS. #YOUR MOTHER WHO ALWAYS MADE IT SOUND LIKE THE WORLD WAS CONTROLLED AND PREDICTED BY HER IS AS VULNERABLE AS YOU NOTHING LASTS #but i didnt i instead became the punching bag again the quiet good girl and kept on thats a lot to swallow even more

[madaqueue]

conversations about love

synopsis: as a psychology researcher, your job is to understand the most complex human emotion: love

pairing: choso kamo x gn!reader

a/n: i am...not...doing....good ....anyways here's some sad fluff i wrote in 30 minutes bc i am tormented !

“what does love mean to you?”

your voice is clear as the sound echoes across the room, the question one you had grown accustomed to asking. over the past year you’ve posed it more times than you could count, now a routine part of your research work, striving to better understand the psychology of human emotion. as participant after participant entered your office you always began the interview the same, letting them take the lead on defining one of the most complex feelings the soul can experience.

your current participant, a man named choso kamo, sits across from you, his leg bouncing nervously as his shoes hit the dark green carpet of the interview room. his gaze shifts from yours down to his lap, absentmindedly picking at his nails while the question hangs in the air.

“i think,” he takes in an uneven breath, “i think love means sacrifice.”

tilting your head slightly you write his response in your notebook, hiding any reaction you may have, a skill you’ve been forced to develop as you’ve been working in this field. hearing innumerable answers to this question, choso’s evokes a pause, a novel and deeply personal confession.

“oh?” you hum, implicitly prodding for more.

your eyes are on him as he leans back into the couch, tilting his head and looking up at the ceiling, lost in thought. the sound of the overhead lights buzzing fills the space as he contemplates.

“i think love means being willing to do anything, give anything, for the people you care about,” he follows, his voice deep, soft.

another momentary silence falls between you two. “do you love anyone?”

at the question, one that is nothing more than a standard part of the interview to you, he freezes, breath catching in his throat. it was a necessary one to ask, imperative to investigate how each person views their own relationships with others, but choso nonetheless struggles to articulate a response with the weight of it. tilting his head down he finally makes eye contact with you, his dark irises deep set with tiredness.

“yes,” he states softly. “i love my brother.”

a smile tugs at the corners of your lips at the endearing sincerity. “tell me about him.”

a new steadiness enters his body, his eyes now focused on yours as a soft grin forms across his face. “his name is yuji,” he begins. “he’s a few years younger than me, and i’ve been taking care of him for a while now. he’s in highschool, and he’s gotta be the smartest kid i know.”

you can’t help but grin yourself as his adoration flows. “what do you love about him?”

his smile continues to grow, warmth encompassing his body at the opportunity to share his fondness for his brother. “he’s kind, and strong, a-and he inspires me to be better.”

“and how do you know that you love him?”

“because i would sacrifice everything for him,” he answers without a second of hesitation. glancing up from your notes you see a conviction behind his eyes, a reassurance that he completely and wholeheartedly would.

“do you think he loves you?”

again, a routine question, but something flashes across choso’s mind as he hears it - the tiniest, most hesitant, shred of doubt.

“i hope so,” he breathes truthfully.

something in you, some very human part, wants to reach out and hold him, to cradle his tenderness between your arms. instead, you offer him a smile, one he returns genuinely. you find yourself hesitating as you prepare your final question, not yet wanting your time with choso to end.

“do you think he knows that you love him?”

with a tired smile, his gaze softens. “i hope he does.”

#might do this series w some of the other boys but this shit HURTED #q writes #drabbles #choso kamo #kamo choso #choso x reader #choso x y/n #choso x you #choso kamo x reader #choso kamo x y/n #choso kamo x you #jjk #jjk fanfic #jjk x reader #jjk fanfiction #jjk fic #jjk x you #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen fanfiction #jujutsu kaisen fanfic #jujutsu kaisen x you #jujutsu kaisen x y/n #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk drabbles #jjk spoilers #jjk leaks

[hyperfixationstati0n]

ABOUT SEJANUS!!

I used to love to imagine that if he was in a relationship with a Capitol girly he wouldn't have been so reckless cuz he'd have something to lose right?

But now imagine the ANGSTTT

Sejanus having to chose between expressing himself freely and defying the Capitol like he used to because daddy's money can only get you so far and he's terrified that capitol!reader will pay the price of his actions, him constantly battling in his head between what he knows is right and what will keep her safe?

And then sej slowly starting to resent her bc he feel like the more he abandons what he truly believes in for the sake of making sure nothing happens to her, the more the Capitol has a grip on him and basically won?

But he can't just break up with her and stop caring about her bc no one's more in love than that guys is and she's most of the time the reason why he hasn't gotten insane in the Capitol (yet)

There's just this constant battle in his head and!!

Coryo is the little devil on his shoulder, trying to convince him the reader makes him weak, he'll never be able to change things if she holds him back, the whole love is a weakness stuff blablabla

While reader tries her best to be supportive but can't help being upset/a little mad when he act so impulsive and rebellious bc SHE LOVES HIM AND IS SCARED TO LOSE HIM

So having the two closest people in his life "messing" with his head like that is just making sejanus go straight up INSANE

oh this? this if fucking evil but also so genius?? i also def want to write something for this (but maybe a little longer than what i’ve been writing so idk when that’ll happen)

but i so agree. like Coryo is their biggest hater (just because he’s a narcissist and salty) and Sej has to battle with either losing the love of his life or his only friend.

And the resentment is definitely there for him, but for both of them. Because I think Coryo would end up getting into his head more and he would resent reader more and more so he kind of listens to him, which leads him to kind of act out more and gets im in trouble like how he did and left to be a peacekeeper in canon??)

But obviously the love for reader doesn’t just disappear so he misses her like hell, regretting his actions and just wishing he could go back and make it right. And he tries to write letters to her but maybe she doesn’t respond, or she writes and he doesn’t respond out of guilt?? And it drives him crazy not to have her.

So now he’s just kinda alone because he realizes he can’t have both Coryo and reader at the same time, but he doesn’t know where he wants his loyalties to lie anymore. He either sacrifices his self expression and his best friend so he can keep reader and her safety, or he sacrifices the person he loves to maintain a friendship he’s starting to see flaws in even if it grants him more freedom. Both situations he’ll end up miserable in.

i dont know if im just babbling or if this was even coherent but im obsessed with this !!

#anon request #icarus chats #sejanus plinth #sejanus plinth x reader #tbosas

[pashminalamb]

So when I said a ditzy girl for Sae I meant someone clumsy and dense! I feel like a lot if what I’ve read is a more sound person but I want someone that bugs him and he’s annoyed with But still falls for & it irks him that she’s so oblivious? Basically someone he falls for first! I love the other ideas you’ve picked for him too. I would LOOVE a false south sequel honestly, idk what would come after and if he’ll miss her but I’ll literally eat up anything :p I HAVE MORE IDEAS FOR SAE TOO LOL

Omg sorry for the third note lol but I had an idea for a prompt with Sae: 1. Accidental pregnancy - I know he’s too careful for this but still I wana see how he’s react. 2. A divorce with Sae - you tried but he hasn’t changed and it’s time to end the marriage .. maybe they have a kid to complicate things? 3. Childhood friends Sae had a thing for but bc of the falling out with Rin, she’s disgusted by him - basically unrequited on Sae’s end. Ok that is all for now LOL

Sae is arrogant as he is rational, and sometimes he would find your behavior illogical, wondering why you were smiling around him or why your expression broke from being serious to a lovesick little puppy when he came into your sight. It doesn't make sense for someone to be so happy around someone else, not to mention your rushed actions that seemed rash and done without a thought. There were times when you frustrated him, test tube slipping out of hand and falling to the floor or days where you'd forget your pencil case or notes, wanting to borrow things from him instead. Going on car rides annoyed him when you sang the lyrics all wrong and wondered if anyone had ever told you about your voice cracking or the fact that your words sounded similar to gibberish than the lyrics that were written and released. His actions soon turned loving, a passive expression on his face yet hand moving to place the seatbelt across your torso when you forgot about it; placing your order at a coffee shop, remembering the things you were allergic to and watching the barista make your beverage, his sight not moving an inch. his actions are subtle but caring, while you were oblivious a cheerful "thank you" coming from your lips as you took the coffee from him, the milk foam making a mustache. "Is there something on my face?" you asked, watching him stare at your lips intently. leaning forward from his laid back position he grabbed a tissue, one hand holding your face while the other wiped away the remains on your upper lip. "Can't take a ditz like you in public or anywhere." he muttered, making you pout. Yet, he still remembered your coffee order and held your hand to cross crowded roads. 1. Accidental pregnancy - Sae would take responsibility for it, understanding that it took two to tango and he was responsible just as much as you were; first tries to calm you down when you begin to panic and cry, shushing you while caressing your head while rocking you back and forth. He'd be distant at first since pregnancy and child birth are new concepts to him, but knows that it is totally worth it when he feels the squeeze of his baby around his finger; realizing that he was ready to sacrifice things he hadn't ever thought of for the sake of the little one in his arms. he'd be a good dad tbh 2. Divorce with Sae - He treats it like a joke when you bring it up, brushing it off his shoulder with a 'Mhm Hm... you'll be here in the morning anyway-" Until it wasn't when your things were missing in the house including the keys to your car that were on the table. He tries calling you to fix things but you don't knowing that things would be the same and he would never change. Signing the divorce papers is something he is reluctant to do, not wanting to put you out his life until you showed up, standing with a clenched jaw. 'It is not working out, Sae.' 'I have tried to provide with you with everything you want and need, yet it is always you, you and you. My life in line for your career. I can support you, but I won't give any more of my life for something that you're obsessed with.' After signing the divorce papers, he still visits the building where you have your new life, staring into the dimly windows of your house; sometimes even coming to your workplace during the day but always turning to leave when the lady at the reception called out to him, asking if he wanted to visit you. 'No thanks.' is all he would say, opening the glass doors to leave

3. Childhood friends falling out - You were there the night Sae had shattered Rin's dreams, watching them in the playground. There were times when you thought if your decision for cutting off ties with him were done on an impulse. 'How could you say that to him? Do you know how hard he has been working to make you look at him?' you yelled, each word becoming louder than the last. 'With that kind of hard work, he belongs in a fucking third grade football team. With what he has shown during the time I have been gone, he doesn't deserve to set foot on the world field. If there were other players here, he would be crushed; consider it a blessing that I did it for him.' he said simply, turning his back to you. 'You are not the same.' you said, voice turning into a whisper. There were times when you had accompanied the duo, watching them play and sometimes keeping up with them a smile on their faces still burnt into your memory. 'People change. Yet the two of you have remained the same.' he said. 'Pathetic.'

Venomous words were exchanged that day, neither did the two of you do anything to repair it; your bond deteriorating day after day until you had become strangers. It wasn't until one day when you had been assigned to interview him that the two of you had seen each other again. Trying to take as much of a relaxed position as possible, you finished the questionnaire, grabbing your things to leave. "Thank you for your time, Mister Itoshi." you said, turning to leave when he caught hold of the sleeve of your coat. "Coffee." he said, eyes trained on your quizzical expression. "Let me take you out for one." he said. Despite time, it was easy to tell that this wasn't going to be ordinary outing but one where you would skip time and know everything about him, learning to understand, accept, forgive and forget. One evening... where you would no longer be strangers.

#belle.☏ #.lost sheep : veraberaxx #blue lock x reader #bllk xreader #itoshi sae x reader #bllk angst #bllk fluff #blue lock angst #blue lock fluff #blue lock x y/n #blue lock x you #bllk x you #blue lock headcanons #bllk imagines #blue lock imagines #sae itoshi x reader

[cl00udyyanan]

Oh, you want some angst, huh? 😏

How about gn! Reader who gets tainted by Xiao's karmic debt but decides to not tell him bc they doesn't want to scare him?

But, unfortunately for them, they will not be able to hide their condition for long: they will die in front of Xiao, while suffering and screaming in agony, and he'll can't do anything to stop it, bc there's no cure for it.

love and it's sacrifices

synopsis: love makes you and xiao naive and selfish.

warnings: mc death, description of pain, angst with no comfort

character: xiao

notes: i edited this really late and i can't say it's any good but i hope ppl enjoy anyways

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"you're so silly," your arms wrapped around his slender neck, a smile dancing on your lips as you littered his neck with loving kisses. "i love you too much to let something like that deter me." you rest your head on his shoulder as you spoke.

the sun shone on your glistening skin, warm to the touch. it felt nice- all of this- being in xiao's arms, the wind playing around the two of you as you stood atop one of liyue's mountains. you had begged the adeptus to set aside his duties for once and indulge you in a nice picnic after hearing that he hadn't had one in almost 500 years. you couldn't let an opportunity to bask in the sun with him go. yet, as you were enjoying this moment, something was weighing on xiaos mind,

"you shouldn't be so naive. i've told you countless times that i have karmic debt. its dangerous. im dangerous." his words were softly muttered into the crown of your hair, he sighed, taking in your sacchrine vanilla scent. "...i don't want to hurt you." he moved long strokes against your back, relishing in the comfort you brought him. you felt so soft compared to him and he felt as you were so fragile he would break you.

"xiao, even if i loose my sight, or my lungs shrivel up and i can't breathe anymore. i'll still be by your side and love you all the same. it just makes my life all the more worth it."

he knew how stubborn you were and that no matter how much he wanted you to change your mind, you wouldn't. maybe he could be selfish just this once and bring you with him into his melancholy reality rust was his immortal life. he had a slimmer of hope that you could break his curse and maybe you'd be that one person who would stay by his side.

how naive he was.

one chilling night, xiao was out fufling his duties - and he had left you home alone. when he was gone, you would take short walks around the inn, the serenity of the flowing water and bright laterns gave you a relaxing feeling, which was something you seldom felt these days. night were longer and days were shorter with your chest constantly growing heavier with each breathe and every step you take more painful than the other. you never thought your adeptus boyfriend's debt to be real until you'd spend lonely nights sobbing at how your body burned, after having kept a facade all day to xiao that you were okay. that he wasn't slowly killing you every time he was near you.

you resented him, but you mostly resented yourself for lying to him. telling xiao you were okay when you were fucking not.

"hah-ha" your chest stung as you gripped at it as you were huddled over on the ground ears ringing your head being tugged and pulled by the horrid sensation. a dark swirl of green had surround you, enveloping you in a suffocating anguish. 'xiao' his name rolled of your tongue like a silent plea that you incoherently babble over and over, but your begs turned into whistles in the air. just when the pain began, it was over.

xiao had found you, passed out on the wood flooring the next morning, his eye wide and brows kneaded with concern. you'd simply told him that the wood was seemingly comfortable that night, he'd shrugged it off as 'weird human behavior'. you never told him what happened that night, leaving it as a bitter memory that'd bring you to tears on your pillow in the night.

since then, days begun to feel longer; the sun lost its shine and the moon seemed to mock you high up in the sky. you'd give it a longing look at the wee hours of the night, pondering endlessly.

was it worth it? the question would come up every now and then.

of course it was, you respond.

your stomach churn and grind, your legs turn into lead as you plummeted onto jagged ground, the grass cradling your abused body. eyes bleary as you hyperventilated. you said- no- screamed his name with winded breath. uncontrollable sobs falling from you. your body burned with a gnawing feeling, like your whole body was being spilt and torn in half. the draft of air became all too familar, that suffocating feeling returned, you felt the weight of all of your sins crawl through you. not only yours, but his. his karmic debt that you oh so tried to deny that was real. yet, every waking day when a sense of yours slowly deplted, your eyes sight worsening and blurrying, your hearing weakened and smells that you once loved had nothing but an empty sense of joy, inside you knew, that it was his karma affeccting you. you had turned into a product of his sins, he'd never be able to truly love someone, and you were so foolish to think you could defy the law of the adepti. that the rule didn't apply to you,.

you were naive just as he said, and you'd pay for your ignorance.

"no-no...please" xiao stumbled over to your mutturing and confused body. his knees scraping against the terrain as he pulled your body to his. you clutched to his shirt, shouting into his chest. he cupped your face, searching all over at your tormented expression. your face was red, stress lines scattered as you babbled and scream into him.

your cries became louder, the pain you felt was something no human should ever experience, and in his attempt to console you and save you. his presence made the air thicker, your lungs completely overtaken by his dark energy. you clawed at his shirt, practically ripping it open. you wanted to thrash at him, blame him for what he had done to you. he couldn't understand the horrendous feeling it was what he was causing.

"yn..." he spat your name out like venom, his cheeks red with anger and eyes full of tears. "why didn't you listen to me?" he shrieked, his fists balled up to your collar as he curled over your weakened corpse. he watched as the color left your skin that once glistened in the sun, your eyes soulless as m tears that had flown down your checks were dry. the yakshas's yells turned into quiet sobs, as he slowly realized what he has caused. darkness devoured him whole, eating at his heart and his mind. his light faded in his arms, it was then he became a husk of a man with no drive left in him. his motivation and ambition, his love and reason for living died in his arms.

he was left alone again in the world with only his debt to console him.

#genshin impact #genshin fluff #genshin impact headcanons #genshin headcanons #genshin impact scenarios #genshin impact fluff #genshin scenarios #genshin x reader #xiao x reader #xiao #xiao scenarios #xiao headcanons #xiao angst #xiao x gn reader #xiao genshin impact #xiao fluff #adeptus xiao

[randomnameless]

To continue the woobified view of the Elites and my comparison of them to the Black Eagles :

Same for me regarding the BE, especially because they also literally fought Edelgard's troops in WC when you choose their house, and even if you don't, they definitely still would know that Edelgard dus nasty shits in WC.

The idea that media literacy is dead is quite fitting, because the idea that even rotten persons have loved ones/that having loved ones doesn't mean you're not rotten is a known thing, yet the Eagles and elites get a pass solely because "they genuinely believe in the cause" and "they love and care for each other"

Probably Fraldarius was as devoted to Nemesis as Ingrid to Dimitri, Lamine very well may have been as sassy as Dorothea, perhaps Goneril was as brave and endearing as Caspar, or Maurice was as loyal to his clan's interests as Petra to Brigid's happiness (through a strong bond to the Empire) but like the BE, they are butchers, who relished in the destruction of everything those against them hold dear, lap dogs and rabid curs of someone they definitely know have crushed innocents and scorn the very idea of peace except under their domination.

The only meaningful difference between Edelgard-following BE and the elites is that we can know more about the BE and we are forced to dislike cutting them down even as they refuse to let northern Fódlan alone.

Honestly I need a fanfiction where the BE are called out for that bullshit.

Yep!

That's the tone deaf feeling I got from Nopes, the Deers are hunting someone bcs their leader wants her dead for no reason, but Raph only comments on how hungry he is.

Uh, sure Raph, you're not the most thoughtful character in there, but come on? Some commentary or exposition on what you're doing? Hello KT? Can we have characters be challenged or even react to the events of screen instead of wondering what's for dinner/teatime?

No??

I wouldn't say it's an issue of media litteracy being dead, but more something in the lines of people being more and more "all or nothing" nowadays, without any nuance and conflating liking a character with the idea/image that might project on you : if I like ASOIAF's Cersei, I don't think everything she does is "justified", but modern fandom, I feel like some people would categorize you as a "good" or "bad" person based on the characters you like, and it's just... not what fandom is or was supposed to be imo, I'm here to nerd and gush about favourite characters, not write litteral essays about the Geneva Convention.

Corollary is what, imo, made the Fodlan fandom hell : some people really take "criticism" against a character personally - sure the way FE16 was written invites projection, but at the end of the day, making a Berning Fire Joke is, just, making a joke about a bunch of pixels, nothing more.

Back to the BEs, they can have a sense of camaraderie and genuinely support each other... as they tear apart "people because Supreme Leader told me to" and fight side by side with Bob the Carpented who was turned into Waldi the demonic beast.

Ferdie can skewer Flayn on her father's lance because she is "a creature that has plagued humanity for ages" even if they reached a C support before shit hit the fan - and still protect Mercedes and Bernie from their abusing Fathers. Does that make him a great guy? A nuanced guy?

I think the trope is called "even evil people have loved ones" or something like that?

I don't think so, but he is no random one note villain sycophant either - now, what is the more annoying with the Fodlan games is how this dichotomy is never called upon : everything is just a giant blob or Hresvelg Grey ("morally grey" but only applied to Supreme Leader) where no one really is angry at her, and all the "sacrifices" she's making are off-screen while the characters on-screen always moan about her "ReFoRmS" and "IdEaLs" without talking about the cost bar some milquetoast "but war bad". And no one, in the game, will ever throw this hypocrisy to their face - Gallant Ferdinand will dream about the Opera as he wipes off the blood of a young woman who just wanted to return to the only home she had.

Yay.

FWIW, some mutuals and I have nothing but pure lols about Doro's line in the non-CF routes being "we killed Ferdie professor :'(" because, hey, why should I care more about Ferdie than about random loldier 55 ? Rhea? Felix? Claude? Ignatz?

Maybe the Elites were really friends and became """"nice""" persons with time, to their families and loved ones ?

Does this magically erase what they did before? Will that "good" they did erase all the "wrongs" they have previously done? Will theyr forever escape the consequences of their actions?

In a game that depicts Flamey as a terrorist for 11 chapters only to drop that plot point by the window to moan, again, about her "IdEaLs", "consequences" are maybe something you can eat as a snack, or throw in a trashcan.

So following the rules of this verse, given how Supreme Leader never receives flak for her Flamey stunts, why should the Elites receive any for what they did? Look, Maurice calls Daphnel his friend, surely he is not that bad of a man? Well yeah, he might have seduced women and planted a lot of wild oats here'n'there, but he cares about his friends!

Jeritza likes ice creams and cats! Surely it's more important to paint him as a cat lover than to deal with all the consequences of his stunt as the Death Knight, kidnapping and implied rekting young woman while he was in GM, under Flamey's orders, right?

Calling it now, after eviscerating Seteth's older brother, Goneril might have melted in front of one of Rhea's kittens, and adopted the cat asap. Surely that makes Goneril a "good" character right? And forget the entire "genocided a bunch of hippies living isolated in their village" stuff?

I don't have fanfics recs where the BEs are called hypocrites, but I confess I don't read a lot of fanfics in the FE16 fandom because of all of the aforementioned issues.

#maelor321 #replies #i don't even know if i replied to your ask lol #i disgressed and ranted #fandom woes #FE16 was designed as a game where you'd feel bad for fighting against 'your loved ones' aka precious students #the writing and execution is so artificial that they couldn't even make it believable for a second #so instead we are hit with giant signposts that read 'plz be sad now' #like Doro's we killed Ferdie sad uwus #or even Billy's choice in SS/VW of i don't want to kill Supreme Leader/I want to walk with her uwu #she is revealed to be Flamey she has been warring for 5 long years she caught Rhea #she had so many randoms peons killed #and yet the game has the nerve to give us this? #evening salt #SW!Anakin loves his fiancee so much uwu #sure he murders a bunch of babies and toddlers but don't you want to walk with him to create a galactic empire and kill #people who don't agree with him? including his beloved wife? #people conflate nuance and 'grey' with 'my fave did nothing wrong'

[heartshapedbubble]

Coming off of anon and I’ve been doing just fine for a simple request: Murro, Percy, Bane and Leo with a reader who views him as a father figure.

Let’s throw Servais in there too bc I love him and don’t see enough of him

Gotta gotta be down because I want it all YESS i get so happy when i see people build up the courage to come off anon we're all cringe equally here ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 ALSO big W for the character choice we need more love for these especially murro🙏

murro, percy, bane, leo and servais with a reader who sees them as (a) father figure(s)🐗🧟‍♂️🦌☄️🪄

murro morton🐗

him?? out of all people?!

you've pretty much cemented murro's trust now...

murro has quite a bit of experience being the older sibling, but being a father figure? no way

the fact that you find him that special even though he's just being himself really warms his heart, not gonna lie

might shed a tear or two just thinking about it ok. this man is quite emotional

once you tell him that he begins to act a bit more carefully in front of you and give you advice more often

i mean, shit, what kind of an opportunity is it to be someone's very own dad figure? just thinking of it makes his heart jump out of joy

murro is a very selfless person but the fact that you look up to him *that* much does make him want to chase that feeling forever. it makes him feel so much better about himself and gives his life a new purpose

he could never see himself as a father or a guardian - but if it's you who does, then that shall be it!

percy🧟‍♂️

percy stopped acting on his human instincts and emotions a while ago - although he still can feel/sense them, it's but a fading feeling and even if he wanted to act on them he couldn't due to the fact that his vocal cords are damaged and his whole body - including his mind - is paralyzed and doesn't feel like his own

yet this... this does ignite something within him.

it's not hatred, a reflex or some other kind of urge a body would have - it, is fact, love. a caring type of love. the love you observe from fathers' eyes as they hold their child in their arms, the painful glint in them filled with so much care and the need to protect

it hurts trying to act up on it and verbalize how much he appreciates you, as he knows he can't get further than a few coughs and groans and perhaps shaky or cramped limbs, and he's aware of how dead and lifeless he looks

yet he can't appreciate your attention and trust enough. although he might just respond to your energy with a slight nod or a bleak look in your direction, know that deep within his body his dead heart seems to start beating whenever he sees you coming his way

bane perez🦌

the monster of darkwoods? minotaur? half man half deer? bane has heard it all, and obviously got tired of it

but "dad" ? that's a new one.

not that he doesn't like it though.

once "dad" nonchalantly slips from your mouth as you two tend to the flowers in the woods, he might just never be the same

bane, in fact, likes being a dad. he would want to be one if the circumstances weren't, you know, that he was a half dead man trapped inside of a manor basically forever

he has a strong urge to protect and teach and love, cupping his strong, calloused hands as gently as pillows around every fallen baby bird that he finds and cradling it back to its nest

that's how bane sees your relationship - he may not have experience with caring for humans, but he'd sacrifice anything to bring you towards him and care for you as if you were his own child

leo beck☄️

it's a bittersweet feeling, really.

as much as he loves being there for you, following you around and showing you the right way, it never goes without the guilt at the end of the day.

he thinks of lisa, where she is now. if she's sleeping as deeply as you after he has tucked you into bed. if she ate as much as you did after he made you breakfast. if she smiled as widely as you after he has retold you the same story he always tells yet again.

it's the guilt of not being able to provide the first time after providing the second, to love after not having the time to the first time, and it all makes him spiral into self hatred

it makes him want to protect you even more, now that he already lost so much

as he reaches to hug you, he always manages to find something of lisa's on you. the mole on your arm starts to look similar to the one that his beloved lisa had. there seems to be something of lisa's in your laughter, too.

yet, he has to deal with the harsh present as rationally as possible - accept and love you as dearly as he should have accepted and loved before, and pray for his daughter every night, when everyone is already asleep

servais le roy🪄

i fear it might be below this man's pride to admit his care for you..

but, one thing's for sure, and that's that it occupies his mind too much for his own liking.

"dad", he mumbles, as he cleans his wands and folds his colorful cloths. he'd gladly scoff at it, but for some reason he just lacks the power to do so

he can't get it out of his head. he's not fit to be a dad, hell, he doesn't even behave as appropriately as someone who should be looked up to, why are you so nice and dear to him?

yet, all these new, troubling thoughts will soften mr. servais' rock hard heart over time. mmyep.

he just has to embrace it at this point, you know what? burst out of his shell and take you to get food, or go watch a movie or read with you. tend to you when you're sick and talk to you until you feel at ease. how could he not?

he still doesn't know what you could possibly see in him, but since you already look up to him, might as well make himself worth it.

#identity v #idv #idv headcanons #identity v headcanons #idv imagines #idv scenarios #idv murro #idv wildling #idv percy #idv undead #idv bane #idv gamekeeper #idv leo #idv hell ember #idv servais #idv magician #servais le roy #bane perez #leo beck #murro morton #hell ember #gamekeeper #undead #idv hcs

[gralunaisland]

I swear every time I see a loyal character say the name of the person they're loyal to too often, especially when they use an honorific, I get a juvia flashback. It's horrible bc one of my favourite character from another anime does it and I don't want to associate him with juvia !

How to Not Compare juvia to Your Favorite Characters

I so understand you, Anon, I feel the same way a lot of the time when I'm enjoying anime or manga, where I analyze the characters who act even minutely similar to juvia. It really does suck, and you have my condolences.

One example off the top of my head is Ainz and Albedo from the anime Overlord whose first season I just watched for the first time recently. Even though I like Albedo, one could say that Albedo acts extremely similarly to juvia, always using the honorific of "sama" for Ainz, always mad on his behalf, always prepared to sacrifice herself for him, frequently misinterpreting his words to mean something more romantic, fighting with Shalltear over his affections, trying to be by his side all the time etc.

However, I'm able to pretty much subdue my nagging idea of juvia by thinking carefully about the fundamental differences between Albedo and the blue-haired witch:

First, I understand that Albedo only acts this way because she was literally programmed by Ainz to be madly in love with him, so it is not of her own free will that she lusts after and sometimes bothers Ainz, unlike juvia. juvia has all the free will she needs, and yet still she decides to bother Gray and ignore his consent.

Second, it is her duty as the Head of the Guardians to address Ainz as "Ainz-sama". It's not her just arbitrarily and uncomfortably deciding to undeservingly give this immense honorific to him, literally all of Ainz's servants address him as such. He is a Supreme Being and thus created some of them, and he is therefore like a god to them. So, unlike juvia, Albedo has a reason to show so much reverence to Ainz.

Third, Albedo actually obeys Ainz's orders. Of course, it is also her duty as his servant, but even when she acts a little out of line, one word from Ainz has her subdued and apologetic. Contrast that with juvia who never apologizes for her behavior and never thinks that what she's doing is wrong. I'm not saying she should obey Gray like Albedo does, but she should listen to him, and yet she doesn't, making a big difference between them.

Fourth, it's shown that the only reason that Ainz isn't very infatuated with Albedo in return is because of his new undead form. There is literal magic that makes him calm at all times and quiets his emotions when he gets excited in one way or another. When he first gained his skeleton body, he got excited by Albedo, and even before then, he'd made her love him. So, it's pretty safe to say it's not Albedo's fault that Ainz doesn't love her, unlike juvia with Gray, because juvia's awful personality (or lack thereof without Gray) just makes her repulsive to him.

These are just a few differences.

Sorry for going into a tangent about Overlord, but that was all just to say maybe you could try doing the same thing, just taking a little time to list out why the character you like isn't really the same as juvia even if they look like they act like it on the surface. I hope this might help! I won't say it completely cures my mind about thinking about juvia, but it does help me enjoy the other characters regardless!

Anyway, so sorry to hear about your favorite character; I really hope you're able to blot juvia from your mind when you see him eventually! It just goes to show how juvia's toxic behavior oozes its way into people's enjoyment because of how hard it is to forget how terrible her actions are.

#it does suck seeing juvia everywhere... #how about seeing her nowhere? whos with me? #anti gruvia #askgraluna #anti juvia #anti juvia lockser #anti juvia loxar #fairy tail #ask #defend gray fullbuster #gray fullbuster #anti gray x juvia #anti gray fullbuster x juvia lockser #protect gray fullbuster #overlord #ainz ooal gown #albedo #ainz x albedo #momonga

[ghostly-cabbage]

Title Challenge:

Two Steps to the Left

Ooo! I really like this title! Thank you so much for sending something!!! Hmm...

Honestly the vibe I get from this right away is maybe like a summoning fic... I think that’s super fun! Also how about a college!AU?

Black magic is often referred to as the left-hand path. I think witchy Sam is delicious so I’m imagining... Sam convinces Tucker late one night to have fun and try this ritual she found in some grimoire from that bookstore she likes.

I love more realistic AU’s but keeping Amity Park weird as hell, so I think I’d keep Amity a thin spot with natural vortexes and portals and plenty of entities and things that go bump in the night. Maybe this particular spell is a protection spell of sorts. Written in latin which Sam knows the basics but isn’t fluent. (i.e. She doesn’t read the fine print.)

Tucker is reluctant of course, but Sam is like, “Come on, Tucker, It’s just for fun. Quit being such a stick in the mud. Plus, are you saying that it wouldn’t be nice to have some protection from all the crazy shit happening lately?”

Tucker begrudgingly agrees, because... yeah. Shit’s been freaky.

So, they do the ritual.

And well. It doesn’t go exactly as they planned.

( Nitty gritty of my thought process for the spell itself, feel free to skip: With left-path magic, intention is the most important, secondary is the objects and components you use to further refine it. Despite the bad rap, satanists that practice left-path magic don’t believe in sacrifice or blood offerings. Emotional energy and intention is far more powerful. That being said, I think I would make the spell be an invocation of compassion, and be something adjacent to spells from the Book of Leviathan. Leviathan, serpent of the black abyss, usually related to evil or the fight of good and evil and blah blah blah. I’m also thinking about the Feathered Serpent, or Quetzalcoatl, from Aztec religion. Quetzalcoatl is a supernatural deity that was said to be able to pass through different planes of existence, like life and death. ANYWAY. These are the places I’d draw inspiration for the spell!)

Sam and Tucker’s desire for protection is real; I think for more things in their life than just the ghosts in Amity. Regardless, the spell works.

Because I’m terribly predictable, I would change Danny’s design from canon and have him look way more creature and entity like. Maybe have him be all black/mostly shadow figure, save for his eyes. And the long tail ovb bc I love Danny being snek.

The “Two Steps” from the title, I’d want the “two” to represent Sam and Tucker. Because they performed the ritual together, Danny (or Phantom) is bound/corded to the both of them (for life or until they break the spell if they wanted to). Again, bc I’m predictable, I would make this an everlasting trio fic because I love the them.

Sam and Tucker, who were not expecting THIS, are rightfully freaked the hell out. That scene would be so fun, because Phantom would look like THAT and yet he’s there to protect them from any and all manner of ills within his power.

I don’t actually like fics where Danny is fully dead, but for this idea to work the way I’d want it to it’s unavoidable I think. To remedy this I’d have him still be able to assume a human form. People can still sense something very... off about him, but he’s able to pass as human.

HOWEVER, the other side of the coin! The fun of Danny being dead, but not knowing who he was or how he died. Leaving the story to Sam and Tucker to pick up and assemble the pieces. A good ‘ol mystery fic heh heh! 

Sam would be an enviornmental science major and Tucker would be computer science and engeneering. Danny is... Well. Dead.

Cue Sam and Tucker now trying to keep their new overbearing ghost hitchhiker a secret while still also being normal college kids. For fun I’d throw in some A-listers but make them chill now. Maybe some of them are in the same dorm hall heheh. 

This idea is also HEAVILY influenced by Loveless’ cover of MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. That song has the vibe that I would chase for the fic.

#tho tbh that song also has SWWDF vibes gfzghkdslJAK i'm dipping into my swwdf songs for this 100% #oh god oh no i'm no going to be thinking about this fic idea all night now aren't I? #actually no wait someone please ask for more so i have an excuse to think and post more about this idea #everlasting trio #summoning fic #college au #witchy sam #hmmm MUCH to think about #my stuff #my writing #fic ideas #danny phantom fic #danny phantom #okay so im thinking more about this and i could absolutely find a way to finagle danny into still being half alive if i wanted to #which i might

[nightfayre]

I wanted to share a thought on He Cheng that has been on my mind a lot lately.

Have you ever thought about young He Cheng? His life and development during his teenage years? My heart breaks at the fact that He Tian had lost his mother at a such young age, the child who missed all the tender touches and kind smiles from that mother's unconditional love. But I think we tend to forget about He Cheng. He was only a teenager when he lost one of the most important and the most loving people in his life and was left alone to battle against his father's ideology in order to protect his little brother. During his teenage years, when he only knew what the life was like with both parental figures, the years when he just started to become his own person; the same years he lost something so precious in his life and was left to deal with the consequences all by himself. He knew that the father had power over him since he was not yet independent and the other still held guardianship over him. He was aware of the father's line of work which he despised since childhood because it made his mother cry. But he made a personal choice, that in order to subdue his brother's misery from the affect of that side of his father, he would become the prodigy. He would become the one responsible and the perfect child so He Tian will have the freedom to become someone who He Cheng did not get a chance to become. He Tian once said that He Cheng became a person he hates the most, but who said that He Cheng does not hate himself for that as well? He sacrificed his future in order to protect a loved one (He Tian). He sacrificed his life in order to give He Tian that gleam of opportunity for something pure. As much as it hurts to see the panels where He Tian feels lonely and isolated, it becomes even more unbearable because the only person who knows exactly what it is like, is being misunderstood by him. I think He Cheng is one of the most loneliest and the most heartbreaking characters there are in that universe.

Thank you, I just wanted to share a little piece of mind

hi!! <3 sorry for the delay in my response. I’ll explain why I waited to reply in a second

but first I want to say that I completely agree with every point you made! I don’t want to waste too much time restating all the thoughts you explained because I think you said them well enough yourself <3

but still, I agree that He Cheng made/makes a lot of sacrifices for He Tian. he clearly loves his little brother. but I also think He Tian is too young and ignorant to fully understand that. he’s still harboring hurt from when he was blindsided by Cheng when he was younger. clearly they had a much better relationship before Cheng “became someone He Tian hates the most.” I can’t imagine the isolation they both must have felt when Cheng began to adapt to their fates. and it’s not just about the dog — it’s about everything else too. it’s about the fact that they only had each other after their mother passed, and then they quickly lost each other, too. they are both very, very lonely — but neither of them are willing to show it bc of their lovely, lovely pride. He Tian is beyond lucky to have a brother like Cheng, given their circumstances; he just can’t appreciate that fact yet

and listen: I know I won’t shut the fuck up about my ongoing fic, but the timing of this ask is too perfect to not mention the chapter I just posted to desecration. that’s why I wanted to wait to post this response. although it’s a tianshan fic, the He brothers were one of the driving factors/inspirations behind the story

lmk if you’re not interested in reading the entire fic but still want to see excerpts that explain my thought process/evaluation of the He brothers’ relationship and history! <3

#19 days #mailbox #anonymous #he brothers

[fantasticalleigh]

Hey, I love your work, esp your Dramione stuff! I noticed the tags on some of your posts and I was wondering: are you planning on turning Sweet Sacrifice into original fiction? I would be interested in seeing more genre romance in the mainstream

Aw, thank you! I've had the intent of adapting Sweet Sacrifice away from Harry Potter lore and into its own original work for a while now. (I talk about it some on my writing blog here and here.)

I sort of started on this already by working on an AU comic loosely based on Sweet Sacrifice since last year. It covers some of the same ground but the plot has been reduced down to mainly just being about Caius and Isolde (formerly Draco and Hermione) because if I cover anything else from the actual fic plot this comic would be like a hundred pages long. I'm working on chapter 2 of the comic right now and it's at 13 pages currently and about to get very NSFW, but I don't know if I plan to make a chapter 3 to the comic because it's really intensive work, but we'll see. This is mostly for fun but it's also helped me consider how the story might go now that I've stripped the HP elements from it and am trying my hand at world building and developing these characters further into something of my own and not relying on someone else's lore.

(I'll post more of chapter 1 of the comic but I don't think I'll post it here. So far what I've shared of it has been mainly on WordPress and DeviantArt but the full pdf is up on my Patreon.)

As for writing, I would really love to give Sweet Sacrifice a do over and make it a proper horror novel starting at a point before D + H/Caius and Isolde meet. I really want to flesh out the doomed village better and really delve into life before/during the werewolf's haunting before we get into the whole mated life thing.

I like the idea of doing it on my own and just compiling it into an ebook and "publishing" it on my own site. If I did it any other way I'd probably have to change specific/significant aspects of it to keep it from getting flagged or rejected or something, considering the themes running throughout the fic. I don't want to buckle on it remaining horror/dark romance (and the romance is questionable, at that). I don't see my type of work ever hitting mainstream (and I don't think I'd want it to either, to be honest). I don't like the idea of having to really water down the things I write to appeal to a larger audience when I already have you and many others as an audience (who already know what you're in for)!

I'm sort of taking a break from writing it right now because I've been feeling burnt out at how long the chapters have gotten and I still need to figure out the rest of the plot but the intent is absolutely there so I'll get to it soon, I hope.

TLDR: Yes, absolutely this is something I want/plan to do! I've got this story shredded between my teeth and I'll rearrange these letters to tell it in as many ways as I can, and make it my own.

(This was a really long answer to your question I'm sorry T-T ) but thanks for asking!

bonus: i don't think i've posted these here yet but bottom left is a WIP shot of the SS ch. 2 cover and image on the right is a pre-background/text flats layout of one of the final pages from chapter 1. Putting this bit under a read more bc of the sensitive material.

#leigh speaks #leigh writes #dramione #sorry for all the links I truly loathe self promo i feel like a hack every time #but my blog really does have better insight bc i post about fic/comic status somewhat regularly #also making comics is fucking hard idk how the pros do it good god #also I'm really just excited about this admittedly very self-indulgent dark werewolf tale #this took an unexpectedly long time to write a response so i'm pinning this so you can find it easy anon! #i genuinely forgot i made the last artwork bc it was sitting in a folder and now i'm mad bc i should've made that the cover for ch. 1 gdi #does the wardrobe of either character reflect the time period i meant this to be in? no! and i'm very annoyed w/ myself about it #i know this question was about writing and not art but this is all i've got going on rn so it's the best answer i can give

[fivveweeks]

i am so crasy abt ur tweet abt verdante being a tragedy its like in my mind at all times. like ,,, im rotating it in my head, im so ruined, this idea consumes me u do not understand i am opening up google docs and writing a fic im morose im captivated i am making an ao3 account

like ur so right 4 that one banger

KYAAAA ON MY KNEES... i have so much feelings on it u have no idea. twitter doesn't let me go ham but since we are on tumblr let me write a goddamn essay on this

the thing is that yes i enjoy both verdante being a romcom comedy or a tragedy or anything in between. ofc we'd like them to be happy but part of me like to explore what would happen if we really stayed canon-compliant

and like. let's take a look at them both. Vergilius is canonly someone who's weighed down by his past sins (killing and assassinating and orphaning children), who fully well accepts that he deserves the karma that comes for him (like this man literally is expecting it and doesn't fight it), yet he chooses to drag himself forward bc if he doesn't he will sink into despair. he is full of guilt and shame. verg also seems reluctant to form new bonds which is understandable considering that he lost everything prior to limbus, and how he doesn't want to drag people down with his karma, at the same time it would be extremely hard for him to trust people due to the risks of betrayal and manipulation in the city. he KNOWS that kindness and empathy will be consumed by the city if they don't adapt (see leviathan and his thoughts on garnet) therefore anyone would be wary bc there's always a catch. vergilius is also extremely duty bound to restoring garnet and lapis and it weighs down on him a lot

now i dont see Vergilius as oblivious bc the man would obviously recognise signs of attraction from Dante. but vergilius, despite his harsh exterior, is also kind deep down or at least practical, so taking the above into account, in this scenario he would probably outright address it to dante that he has... personal goals. maybe dante will be sacrificed at the end for limbus company as a whole, maybe not, but Verg makes it clear that he WILL choose lapis and garnet over dante bc that is his responsibility. what he owes to them.

executive manager, he doesn't say, do not be a fool.

and to his surprise, dante just nods and writes him, "I'm aware. It's ok, I understand."

bc dante respects him. they respect his space and not push anything at all (alongside how they probably feel that they are not worthy yet, or that they don't want to burden Vergilius, bc c'mon they're stumbling through their responsibilities after losing their memory, work is more important than personal interest now), i also like to think dante isn't say, self-depreciating, but more like they've accepted that they have so much to live up to and Vergilius has something to achieve and they will not stand in his way, so they're content to just spend time with Vergilius as manager and guide.

and there's that. they don't talk about it after the day. nothing changes between them. they continue on as manager and guide.

the only exception is that now Vergilius is aware that Dante fully accepts that he will sacrifice them for his own goals. yet Dante is content to spend time around him and vice versa (he doesn't admit it)

and isn't that the tragedy?

vergilius, to be aware that something could have sparked between the both of you, yet you cannot afford to cross the line due to circumstances. occasionally imagining what it could had been if the both of you were actually allowed to. how should you feel when the other person still seeks you out and befriends you despite knowing that you will never pick them

and dante, getting the confirmation that you will never be picked and will be the third or fourth or whatever choice but that's okay. manager and guide is enough, you WILL enjoy whatever there is between the both of you without asking for more

personally, unrequited love as a tragedy is not effective to me bc it's not that hard to respect another person's feelings and not make yourself the victim.

the REAL tragedy here is being aware of the lost potential and what-could-had-beens, yet IN SPITE OF THAT theres the quiet acceptance and humble enjoyment of whatever there is between the both of them bc that's all they can afford. how fate and the city fucked them both up. yet they stay professional because they respect each other too much (to the point of suppressing their personal feelings for the other) to make this into a hassle

maybe dante dies at the end of limbus and verg would reminisce on what it could had been. maybe verg dies and dante occasionally recalls the little moments they get to spend together. maybe they both die. maybe they both live but they walk a too different path to ever converge again. maybe we slap canon in the face and let them survive or meet up again in the future.

whatever it is, i just really enjoy the sweet sweet pining between the both of them throughout limbus company. the horrors of Knowing. i'm going to bite something

#chatter #limbus company #verdante #yes i am insane i am aware #i don't know if i phrased it as well as i wanted to but i want this out of my brain rn #basically verg tells dante bc god forbid them if they allow personal feelings get in the way of work #then he gets stunned when dante is alr fully aware of it yet they don't let it affect them #so now they're both stuck w the curse of Knowing #verg wise i can see a scenario where he actually slowly gets charmed by dante after this #but does it even matter bc he cannot do anything about it #augh i'm going to lay down #if u write a fic on it just know i will explode myself

[i-am-beckyu]

Okay then I'll participate! I completely missed you asking for em oops...

Have em! I won't send a whole lot bc it looks like you've got wayyyy too many lol

—

1. Only thing stronger than fear is curiosity

2. Dancing with fate

(one I also sent brick but brick never did it yet and I wanna know how you'd use it)

Seems like its an answering inbox prompts kind of day ^v^

Only thing stronger than fear is curiosity

Wilbur loved to Roam the streets at night. It was quiet and allowed him to enjoy satisfying his needs as a cat shifter easily whilst also getting out and about for some air. But he had a tendency to explore places he probably shouldn't.. Look, what's the first thing anyone wants to do when they see a sign that says DO NOT ENTER? You want to enter right? And as a cat, no one ever questions why you went in, only how you got in. Thanks to that mantra, he's seen things that only a few people would. But there is one place that he will never enter. The old ruins of Lmanberg. He doesn't know why, but something about the place just felt: off. So why of course is it that the one place he wishes to avoid, he can hear frantic meowing pulling him closer? Or: Wilbur is a cat shifter that in a past life built and destroyed the city of Lmanberg. He can't remember this of course, but the meowing of a cat in distress is the one thing that he just can't seem to ignore (yeah its catshifter Tommy with the same story :3)

Dancing with Fate

Lets do someone different :3

Dream needed power. The people of the smp had begun to divide, Chaos beginning to follow in its wake and it was his job to make sure everything remained in order. But if they weren't weren't going to listen, he'd make them. The old texts spoke of a powerful being that could grant him all he desired and more. XD All he needed to do, was offer it something of great value. Dream was prepared to offer the God his soul in order to regain control, but what he wasn't expecting the God to want, was George. Could he really sacrifice the tiny that he valued more than himself?

I was going to take this on a different route, but I thought this would be better :3

So sorry this took so long. Last time I did it I got so many and lil burnt out haha. BUT! I hope these were worth the wait and thank you for sending them 3D!!

#da3dm my beloved #beckyu writes #fake fic titles #not taking anymore currently lol #I still have so many left lol #mcyt g/t #mcyt gt #dsmp gt #dsmp g/t

[vvindication]

8, 17, and 20 annnyyy ocs for the suffering asks

ily ghost thank u for sending me oc asks (platonic) 💖💕💞 im gonna answer for multiple bc I CANNOT be stopped

8. Do they feel glee at the sight of blood? this is such an pointedly edgy question and I love it for that. do any of my ocs ??? generally no, but circumstantially yes

this doesnt fit with my planned Disco OCs answers because I can easily say no for them off the top of my head without much thought, but I do think my Cyberpunk man Vance gets some sort of fucked up thrill from drawing blood when fighting with knives in close combat. the smell makes him sick for trauma reasons (best friend died horribly) but he's a vengeful & impulsive adrenaline junkie, ofc he likes getting into risky fights and making his enemies bleed

funny thing is he almost always feels guilty about hurting people anyway. hes just very good at hiding it under a sarcastic veneer <3

17. What little regrets do they have? ohhhh okay this ones gonna be more difficult for me. I always think about the big hard-hitting stuff (as seen below . um) lets see ...

Vincent regrets not being able to identify unclaimed deceased. does that count as little? actually compared to everything else he's got going on, yeah, im counting that. he regrets plenty of social interactions, not being comforting enough for distraught civilians, not being supportive enough for fellow officers drudging through the same soul-sucking work he is. he always wishes he could do MORE to help others, but hes just one neurotic little man surviving day to day in a war-torn city, in a barely functioning police force

I know for sure theres shit im not thinking of with my other beloveds but now im super stuck thinking about codependency cause I wrote that answer first. oops. codependency ..........

20. Are they codependent? Do they have abandonment issues? YOUVE ACTIVATED MY TRAP CARD !!!!! this is one of the fun new characterizations im leaning into hard for Mr. Travart and his very apparent relationship problems. hes been abandoned A Lot (both by choice and by tragedy) and it fucks with him so much. he wants to be loved so bad that when he finds an ounce of it he'll give his soul for it. yaaaaay codependency !!! 🎉💖🎉

this is a big reason he falls for Arcelis so hard when flirted with. he wants to think somebody actually wants him for who he is, even if he is a corrupt politician blatantly manipulating him, and it (obviously) gets him into a fuckton of trouble.

basic history behind this is he and his mom were abandoned by his father before he was even born, his mom died as a teenager, the uncle who took him in literally only did so as a favor to his sister who'd died and treats him like shit. I think part of him thinks he has to Make Up For Something because people keep leaving and he wonders why HE hasnt been a victim of circumstance yet. why does he have to stay and suffer?? not even to mention Arcelis breaking up with him and Joakim dying for him ...

he doesnt unlearn this by the time he gets involved with Harry OR Kim. thats a point I particularly want to make. he isnt magically fixed by these relationships and would sacrifice his own life for them in a heartbeat whether they appreciate it or not. something something ... life without them would be more painful than dying. at least he wouldnt have to face more loss that way

... can you tell Ive been writing some heavy shit lately. hehe ^_^

#vvin babbles #vintageghoststories #lee #vance ryder #vincent travart

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I have to ask have you ever considered the Matthew & Jesus dichotomy for Marchand & Bergeron bc you get both the reviled apostle (tax collector/resident ice pest) & the worshipped savior (Bergeron the same in every interpretation) + Matthew (along with other apostles) took on some of Jesus's role after his death to spread the gospel (to be a good leader? What does it mean to inherit Bergeron's legacy) - this being a much more obnoxiously optimistic approach to both Marchand + Bergeron and the post-Bergeron bruins ofc

Okay so first of all this is a much kinder interpretation of Marchand so I actually really like it. It still touches on a lot of the same notes (saint/sinner, love, devotion, loss, legacy) without having to deal with the betrayal. Excellent take. Thank you for sharing it!

"Bergeron the same in every interpretation" made me feel so !!!!!!!!!!! and also it reminded me of this:

(Last Days of Judas Iscariot.. again)

Now here comes my defence of Judas as Marchand

(.. again)

(I'm sorry)

(I love talking about it)

So part of the reason Judas is an easier fit than St. Matthew is because there is just so much more written about him in terms of poetry

(and theatre, which I assume from your ask you've already read my other post about so I won't repeat all that)

Here's a few of my favourite Judas lines:

To: Judas Iscariot, Thérèse Naccarato

"Damned to hell, damned in verse, damned to an eternity without him."

The Sacrifice, Frank Bidart

"Wiping away our sins, Christ stained us with his blood—; 

to offer yourself, yet need betrayal, by Judas, before SHOULDERING 

THE GUILT OF THE WORLD—; 

… Give me the courage not to need Judas."

The Judas Passion, Orchestra of the Age of Enlightenment

"I was called to sin-as-virtue, to virtue-as-sin… of course with a kiss: kiss of repentance, kiss of inexpressible sorrow"

Sadly there are less poems about the other saints/disciples. I did initially look into St. Peter (Jesus washing his feet, Peter cutting off someones ear in the Garden of Gethsemane), but I ultimately found it less compelling than the Judas narrative.

(the three acts of denial killed it. Marchy never shuts up about Bergeron, actually)

It's just.. the DRAMA of it all. BETRAYAL WITH A KISS. Killing the one person you love more than anyone in the world. This idea of Judas, who is universally seen to be the worst person in the whole entire world, just being so Human and Flawed and wonderfully relatable. Judas' REGRET after the fact when its already too late!!

It's just so !!!!!!!!!!!

There's doomed by the narrative and then there's damned by the narrative.

(somewhere on this app there is a post about how as a kid who grew up Different, seeing monstrous and unloved things makes you go: "but what if I loved them. what if they were secretly good. just misunderstood. what if I gave them a hug." and so maybe there's an element of that in there too)

Marchand's narrative arch needs some violence and some villainy and awfulness and questionable decisions I'm afraid (said with love). It is important to me that Judas' crime occurs AFTER he's gotten to know Jesus. It is not a Part Of His Life Before. One of my favourite things about the Bergeron / Marchand dynamic is that Bergeron sees Marchand exactly for who he is - good and bad - and loves him anyway. He doesn't try to change any part of him. That's love baybey!

Also Marchand fighting anyone who even looks at Bergeron funny?? Where is that post that goes: it my fault my love language is acts of service and all I know how to do is kill?

But ok sorry for rambling. Back to your ask: the retirement point you bring up is something I've been playing with as well. I'll post the first draft of this poetry post because the original poem was actually a LOT MORE BLASPHEMOUS, but it also does a better job explaining the parallels between the narratives..

Full poem can be found here.

It's just.. casting Marchand as Judas and Bergeron as Jesus doesn't just change the way I look at their dynamic, it also changes the way interpret the Bible story. OF COURSE THEY LOVED EACH OTHER. Because look: Bergeron and Marchand love each other.

#Im sorry #you asked about Matthew and I made it about Judas again #BUT THE NARRATIVE!!!! #AND THE POETRY!!! #AND THE ART!!!! #you are right though. Matthew would be a good fit I just love drama #thank you for the ask <3 #it speaks #I should make a judas tag at some point probably #brad marchand #patrice bergeron #tw: blasphemy #judas tag #poetry post meta