Ok, It Gets Better, Then It Gets Worse
BEFORE YOU READ! KNOW THAT THERE'S SOME CRAZY SHIT IN THIS! VERY BIG TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR INSANE KINKS! DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT I SWEAR! THIS FIC IS NSFW TO THE MAX! DO NOT READ THIS AND COME AT ME I HAVE WARNED YOU!
I decided to read some more of I Love Atsushi to see if it gets better or worse.
And.... it's.... ok?
I mean, a few parts after the first one are ok....
There's plenty of incest, but I've read enough of that to be ok with it. (For fics, in this instance)
And then.... it gets sooo much worse.
I've never read the words dog pussy so fucking much.
No joke, there's a part where the reader is a dog and Atsushi's just super down bad.
And I'd be fine with that. I'm ok with bestiality shit for fics.
But the term dog pussy just made me so uncomfortable.
And I didn't get too much further after that.
There's a part where the reader and Atsushi go to a bating cage.
(This is gonna get weird, so I'm cutting it here. Yes, it's weirder than the dog pussy imo)
And there's lots of very public sex in this.
Like, there's people bating in the cages beside Atsushi and reader. (It's implied anyway)
And reader just strips their pants while Atsushi shoves the bat up their pussy.
And not just a little bit, no no no.
From the end of the bat all the way to the fucking handle.
(And I'm pretty sure it doesn't work like that!)
And then he just picks up the reader while they still have the bat inside them by the bat's fucking handle, and swings them.
And fucking hits a ball with the reader on the FUCKING BAT!
I had to stop after that.
It was too ridiculous.
But I will say, there's some shit in their I don't mind.
Ima check and see if there's any piss kink kinda shit, but besides that, I probably won't read too much more.
But I'll keep whoever is actually interested in this in the know.
(But also, I'm still amazed at the author's brain for coming up with this. I fucking love twisted people. Never a dull moment)
EDIT FROM LATER: I COMPLETELY FORGOT I WAS GONNA DO THIS SEGMENT!
I'm gonna read some of the requests that were given to the author!
And they're all somewhat worse than what I've just talked about.
(This post is so long and I'm so sorry....)
Something for a 20 inch cock and another request for a 20 foot cock
Maggots on Atsushi's dick
Vore with Dazai and Atsushi
Atsushi, Dazai, Akutagawa and Atsushi wants everyone to peel his foreskin off and his dick falls off and they have to stitch it back on
Clothed sex (the most normal one here)
Lactation (this one's pretty normal too I guess)
Atsushi fucking tied up sleeping reader (Ok, more of these are ok than I thought)
Horny Atsushi with 2 dicks
Atsushi fart fetish (???)
Reader is Atsushi's waifu body pillow
Reader is a public toilet? He shits and pisses in them? Then he fucks them wtf? (also, this is the 20 ft cock one)
Btw, that 20 inch cock one involved Atsushi getting stuck inside the reader forever
Umm.... Fiona (from Shrek), Reader, and Atsushi have a threesome.... Bestiality and long double cock for Atsushi
Atsushi fucking reader in front of entire agency (Finally, a semi-normal one)
Atsushi wears reader's skin as a skin suit (Never fucking mind)
Gun sex..... Doggy style.... Threatens to shoot reader if they cum early..... Still shoots reader anyway and leaves them to rot.... wtf....
Reader has scoliosis so Atsushi drills a hole in them (???) and snaps their bones back into place WTF?!
Atsushi fucks an orange and makes reader eat it with his cum inside (After those last few, this is kinda ok)
And then a wholesome picnic where reader and Atsushi eat pickles
I know these are probably just for shock factor (just like the entire fic itself), but some of these are sooo fucked up it makes me nervous.
Alright, I'm never going back to this so I'm just gonna list some of the rest of the parts because fuck this.
Poop kink
Body swap
Reader is tinker bell (oh hell no I know how that one's going down)
Doctor Atsushi
Atushi and Fyodor
Wax kink (this one's ok)
Atsushi has tentacle dick
Camgirl
Daddy kink (please no)
Piss kink (I'm checking this out. I'll update and say how it was) (Update: Not my kind of piss kink, but not as bad as some of the other chapters)
Reader is worm
I had to click on this one cause I couldn't read the full title (it's about bondage) and a warning says "Questionable use of organs" TF DOES THAT MEAN?!
Reader is bike (because of course)
I CLICKED ON ANOTHER ONE AND IT SAYS STOMACH ACID KINK IM NOT SLEEPING TONIGHT WTF
Oh.... last chapter is.... normal vanilla sex? Ima check this and see if this is true. Will my eyes finally be ok? (This chapter was perfectly fine, but the comments were all like "This is boring! Bring us the skin suit! Bring us shit and vomit and blood and gore!" And I swear, these people were feral. They were so pissed at not having a fucked up chapter)
I swear, I'm never coming back to this unless that piss kink one is good. (Those are hard to find, don't judge me)
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we're sitting under the stars on my best friend's balcony,
and everyone but us have gone in for the night. I've just told you, hazy and drunk, that my astrology app feeds me bullshit every day, and sometimes I'm weak enough to believe it. But most of the time it's bullshit.
I don't know why I told you - to you, the stars are lifeblood, or at least a personality gauge based on spinning planets and hair size. "Leos are known for their big hair," you'd said, maybe only a few hours prior. I can't remember why I chose that bone to pick - I think I've reached a barrel-scraping desperation where I feel the need to assert, over and over again, that 'I defy you, stars!' even though it would be much easier to say that mercury in retrograde may be causing my acute depression.
You pull up your astrology app. We're friends on there, and I think I remember checking our compatibility and feeling drawn to the sex & love section, but that would be ridiculous. There's something in the bullshit my astrology app fed to me that I read out loud in drunken amusement that resonated with who I am in your eyes, sitting in front of you under the stars. Your app tells you that you might experience a big change when the sun comes up, that you'll have to reach for it with both hands, and I see your eyes flick over to me.
There's a defense mechanism that locks in, underneath my skin, that acts as a human deterrent. I look at my best friend and there is something primal and soft that begs to lean my body against her and touch her with a casual intimate care. But when she laced her fingers with mine, pushing up against my stiff palm like digging through stone, I had to look away. She knelt down by her puppy and took my hand in hers, pressing my knuckles to her forehead to show her puppy that I am safe, that I can be trusted, but the little creature watched me like a sentinel behind my best friend's back, wary and right.
I think I told you it might be bullshit; I can only remember myself contrary in the string lights. You insisted that it could be true. "What if everything changes," you said, "what if it's right and today" - we were far past midnight - "and today the-"
"The world ends?" I finished for you.
I don't think that's what you wanted to hear, the careless laughing way I said it. I stared at the back of my best friend's house today, hours after you left, and I thought about fate. I bent over backwards and stared up at the stars, framed by the staircase up to the porch we sat. The world didn't end, nor did it change substantially, and I'll admit I didn't want either. I want to stay the same forever, but the goddamn stars keep moving.
I've played this game before, and I've been the one to lose every time. I'd like to say I'm a good sport, but there's only so many hits you can take before it starts getting personal, and I'm afraid my jagged edges are sharpening in preparation. I can't let you be another meteorite I strain every muscle to push to the top of the hill only to fall back in the same bloody crater. You have to understand; where you see fate in the stars, glinting just for you, all I can see is apocalypse.
(28 August 2023, 3:26 am)
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thinking about how the three of the biggest relationships in bucks life are pretty significantly tied to helicopters/helicopter crashes,,, (partially inspired by this post by @maygrcnt)
taylor kelly: met her when her news helicopter crash. not the first person he seriously dated but definitely is the most serious romantic relationship he had yknow. can’t forget the whole couch metaphor arc.
eddie: i mean it’s pretty self explanatory but eddie’s helicopter crash when he was in the army caused him to be discharged and forced to be reliant on his family again, which is what made him move to la, where, of course, he met buck. they’re literally thee most important person in each others lives. they’re besties. coparents (when the only help eddie’s had as a coparent is shannon, who left (no hate to her it’s complicated shit and she did die but still she did), and his parents, who were controlling and not what either of them needed and also just generally really shitty to eddie at the time (ESPECIALLY re his parenting). and then buck comes along and like within a year he’s like i trust you with my life and my son and my sons life! after everything!! and puts buck as chris’ legal guardian in his will—) n e ways yeah that but also eddie’s ptsd related to the whole helicopter crash incident was super significant later in their relationship too bc eddie was at his lowest point (a place he’d been before but back then, his wife left him and his parents actively made everything worse instead of helping) and buck just like. steps in WITH eddie and gives him what he needs and like takes care of eddie and chris in they way they both need instead of forcing them into what he thinks they need like eddie’s parents did. yeah. and eddie actually did some healing then unlike the last time. so eddie is easily the most important and serious and intimate (like platonically but also Not) relationship buck has ever had, more so than any of bucks gfs.
and then tommy comes around!!! a fuckin helicopter pilot. he and buck first meet not necessarily in a helicopter crash but in a helicopter. in an emergency situation. and they draw SO MANY parallels between tommy and eddie and taylor (he and eddie have a lot in common like with the whole army and martial arts stuff and they get really close really fast and then BUCK HIMSELF drawing the taylor parallels. literally biting at my enclosure.) and wow! look at that! they kiss (and soon start a relationship) and tommy is literally not only the first man buck has ever kissed, but also the catalyst for buck realizing he’s bi. (or, at least, that those feelings bucks had for men in the past (cough cough eddie) are like mushy romantic/sexual/Very Not Platonic things.) literally even if they just kissed that once and had no relationship past that it’s still a massively impactful (non)relationship for buck!!!
and somehow. somehow the most important relationships in bucks life are all connected to helicopter crashes/emergencies. and they’re only characters who have such big connections to said helicopter crashes/emergencies. and they all have relationships that are incredibly important and impactful to buck. this is literally canon.
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