#this was one of those times lol

[pinkautist]

so, after a long time of contemplating it, i finally decided to buy myself some bold red lipsticks for the first time! one is a lipstain, and the other one is a lipstick, and while i really like how both of them look, i definitely like how the lipstain feels a lot more.

my knowledge in makeup is extremely limited, especially when it comes to things other than eyeliners, cover up, blush, and lip gloss. i've been wanting to try dabbling in makeup, though! particularly bold eye and lip makeup! i want to ditch cover up and just go with the other stuff, because i want to become more comfortable with the way my natural skin looks :3

#makeup #hee hee hoo hoo #the joy i experienced when i first saw myself with the bold red lip colors on was so invigorating #it was almost overwhelming! #it felt like the pure joy i would get when i was really happy about something as a child #i don't typically flap my hands UNLESS i am EXTREMELY HAPPY about something #this was one of those times lol #i legitimately couldn't stop smiling whenever i saw myself in the mirror

[tiktaaliker]

everything everything's my computer has been stuck in my head ever since i first heard it so im dusting off my old animation cap and doing a fun lil thing with two of my older robot characters. both of them got fresh coats of paint p recently and i love them both so much

still need to work on some of the movements + fix up the timing on a few parts for the lipsync but yknow. so far so good. this is also prob the most lipsync ive ever had to do for a single animation, and its also def the fastest ive attempted!

original file corrupted completely so i had to remake this from scratch. honestly tho im liking how this is turning out a bit better than the original one sooooo

#howling #art tag #sometimes i hear a song and get struck by the need to animate to it #this was one of those times lol #this is also the first time ive tried animating w 24fps #i usually do 12fps so this is gonna be. fun #aka if i ever finish it its going to take SO much time to do

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[isjasz]

[Day 265]

OK listen but what if i (also) make them fight /SILLY

(This one has been on the todo list for so long ever since i saw @ommmmara's and @mellozheist 's posts >:D)

#dddaily4sherin #grian #goodtimeswithscar #i mean #poultry man #hotguy #hermitblr #hermitcraft #desert duo #my art #this is one of those “i spent way too much time on this” ddd's (AGAIN)(JAS WHY) #poultry man's mask design from beloved zipzap #+ a big part of the outfit is inspired by the yiga armor in botw/totk! I just thought it fitted LOL

[vacueye]

looking through old tf2 stuff again + felt like reuploading some of my favorite (mostly spy) art throughout the years

#seeing the water themed ones makes me want to draw more of those lol theyre always so fun.... i just like messing around wit lines and color #tf2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 spy #tf2 pyro #tf2 demoman #tf2 heavy #tf2 medic #tf2 sniper #tf2 scout #tf2 soldier #tf2 engineer #miss pauling #tf2 miss pauling #spycrab #fanart #might put together a small artbook / zine of these as a sort of archive for myself / showing my art progress over time #i still have stuff back when i first started drawing digitally bc of tf2 (its rly bad) #bright colors #eye strain #- just in case

[personishfive]

in which dialogue is exchanged

#p5 spoilers #goro akechi #joker p5 #akira kurusu #persona 5 #my art #comics #this one marks a change. that change is i have switched to clip studio paint because it was on sale #glad i could keep this blog's aesthetic lol. every art program should let u disable anti aliasing methinks #this ones based on an old old sketchbook comic. well like half of my comics are based on sketchbook comics. i still have material to work w #from those. lol #long time no comic in my defense i am as overwhelmed with life as ever. but you already know that. love u guys<3

[upon-the-snow]

early mornings after nightmares

#just realized I made a pinned post with this art before putting it up whyyy am I like this #anyway headcanon time: I like to think they hang out while the sun comes up after the doctor has a nightmare and they just sit and talk #or Donna will read and just keep him company (I love watching the sun rise it’s such a unique feeling! i suck at getting up early tho lol) #Doctor who #fourteenth doctor #donna noble #I need like. A platonic ship name do we have one of those for them? #my art #not super happy with it but ITS DONE #doctor who fanart #the doctor #catherine tate #david tennant #procreate #Digital art #uh #incase my handwriting is as illegible as I think : Donna’s says “worlds best mum” and the Doctor’s says “worlds okayest uncle” #okay this looks more like a sunset so??

[fizpup]

valentine, you're a horse ❤️

#my little pony #mlp g3 #wish-I-may #wish-I-might #ok so. I'm gonna ramble for a sec #normally when I post on valentine's day I complain in the tags about being single. but I won't this year! #I've recently realized I'm definitely somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. and that I'm perfectly content without a partner #in the past I've described myself as 'emotionally unavailable' or having 'commitment issues' but neither of those things were ever true #I'm a very loving and loyal person! #I've always been extremely affectionate with friends and family but unable to have the same level of love for potential partners #unsure if I'm just demisexual/demiromantic or actually aroace but I'm definitely not the default settings type of gay lol #I'm a big fan of romance and sex in fiction! but irl? 😅😬 idk about that fam! idk! #hypothetically I would like to have a gf one day and maybe fall in love but now I understand why that may not happen #or atleast is gonna take a while. and that's fine :) #tldr; if your top song on spotify last year was Cupid by Fifty Fifty it's time to do some soul searching lol #happy valentine's day!! 💕

[pien-art]

Sun Queen Moiraine (x)

would she be a good queen? no. do i want to put her in the situation? yea <33

(click image for optimal quality)

prints available here!

#one of those drawings i could work on for a billion more days #but it will drive me crazy lol so ive decided it is finished #my art #wot #the wheel of time #wheel of time #sun queen moiraine #moiraine damodred #moiraine sedai #frank dicksee #the two crowns #cairhien #sun queen au #fanart #wot fanart

[98chao]

doodles for today

#its 12am and im really tired but i spent a long time on that first one lol #sonic the hedgehog #sonic fanart #barbie the movie #monster high #bratz #lalaloopsy #<- those are where the outfits are from #amy rose #blaze the cat #rouge the bat #cream the rabbit #surge the tenrec #metal sonic #shadow the hedgehog #metadow #the ending of their story in sonic rivals 2 is really funny to me #why did he rip that chaos emerald out of his chest for shadow with no hesitation #my art #ms paint #2023 #1k

[sinlizards]

next batch of kofi requests!

requests are still open here starting at $15! might be closing em up soon so get em while you can >_o

#keep telling my self i wont fully color all of these but then people keep requesting characters i really wanna color LOL #santa 999 #aoi kurashiki #bestoll #rena ryuugu #iris sagan #zero escape #aitsf #ai the somnium files #999 #higurashi #<- tagging that one cuz i am gonna eventually read higu its just a matter of time #my art #2023 #undescribed #fan art #idk when ill close these but i'll make an announcement for the last day or something along those lines! #i just dont wanna get too overwhelmed with kofi stuff while im focusing on finishing bigger comms

[darqx]

Upgrading the 'polaroid magnet' idea of 2019 for 2023's Xmas card trades, these ones are made from wood and use actual magnets! Luxurious! |D All the poses are also referenced from actual party photos i've taken of other people, to add to the candid vibe lol.

The dreamcatcher is kind of a gag gift (yes the craft project i reffed here) for some friends. Since they don't have the ability to fight their nightmares i have offered to [try and] do it for them XD

Made from: Wooden craft polaroid (plus some backing MDF pieces), magnet, misc decorating items (glitter, wooden shapes, gel pens, paint etc). The dreamcatcher is just a storebought one with laminated paper mes wired to it

#art #crafts #polaroid #magnet #craft trade #christmas card trade #dreamcatcher #christmas 2023 #gifts for friends #miniature #FINALLY THE LAST ONE SEEMS TO HAVE BEEN DELIVERED #ironically all the INT friends got theirs first and the one i have to send in my own damn country took it's time getting there #tho i suppose half of it is underwater at the moment #i have to say strade's 'wish you were here' is probably the funniest magnet of the lot #for those of you who don't get the dreamcatcher thing #i have a lvl 9000 fight response in my nightmares so they tend to end up with me going aggro on anything in them #sz #on an unrelated side note i've been sharing a room with my niece this holidays #and so havent been able to look at anything 18+ whilst she's in here with me lol. i have a lot to go thru in the BTD tag later |D #or any other spicy fanarts ppl have drawn for me whop

[airoarts]

Leader and deputy

[Image description: a digital painting of Squirrelstar and Ivypool from Warriors. Squirrelstar is a small dark red cat with green eyes, standing in front of the much taller Ivypool, a gray tabby-and-white cat with blue eyes and many battle scars. The background is dark blue. end ID]

#i havent read a new wc book in years (They are not very good) but have been keeping up with The Happenings recently cause its fun #when was the last time there was a female leader+deputy? leopardstar and mistyfoot??????? #anyway so happy forthem i hope they dont both die immediately #warriors #warrior cats #wc #squirrelstar #squirrelflight #ivypool #art #2023 #I have actually been doodling a ton of cat designs like in classes in the last couple months lol #havent posted them because theyre just Designs and so many people post those all the time but if i get one (1) ask about it i can post them #also just have not felt like posting art recently even though ive been doing it. LOL #worried about squirrelstar cause um. i know cat ages have been generally increasing but she is older than her dad was when he died #if wc wiki ages are to be believed #her husband just retired to be an old man and she took his job #well whatever... i dont even read the books... i dont care... tch #ALSO EDITED CAUSE I REALIZED I PUT HER WHITE PAW ON THE WRONG SIDE #the first few rbs will have the wrong version but whatever. its fine. its fine

[sensitiveheartless]

You know darling, you bring out the worst in me

Sometimes when I’m around you, I feel like pure evil

I guess they say nobody’s perfect

But they’ve never met a devil like you

(From “Roses are falling” by Orville Peck)

Details!

#yes these are not roses BUT #I couldn’t draw draw dazai in his dead apple outfit without bringing in camellias #this is one of those times where a drawing started one way and then went VERY differently while rendering lol #and most of that can be blamed on me listening to Orville Peck almost the entire way through #but I had a ton of fun with it #bsd #my art #bsd dazai #bungou stray dogs

[booasaur]

Special Ops: Lioness

#specialopslionessedit #special ops lioness #special ops: lioness #aaliyah amrohi #cruz manuelos #stephanie nur #laysla de oliveira #special ops lioness 1x06 #special ops lioness spoilers #aaliyah x cruz #femslash related stuff #muslim lgbt #lol putting this together made me realize three things #they keep being vague and wrong about the date and time of the wedding #there are so many things that seem to be pointing to aaliyah not making it out of this :< #and that aaliyah is actually just so very lovely and kind and stephanie nur really is doing so well with all her different layers #but man this is one of those ships that has what people love about popular subtext f/f pairings but is also canon #a central transformative dynamic the whole show hinges on #a connection unlike any either has with anybody else #let's see now that they've set it up where they take it #lol I mean we'e all absolutely expecting a bad end but can at least they both survive...

[anewp0tat0]

Black Butler Amino, Black Arts Magazine - Holiday Party

it doesn't quite look like a holiday party from here, but what I imagined as a humble little piece is~~ Ciel and Lizzy sneak away from the big bustling midford Christmas party and raid the kitchen desserts, like they did when they were kids(it was Lizzy's idea, Ciel clearly hasn't been himself since he returned, and she wanted to bring him back).

#okay it's been a really long while so hi! I hope everyone has had a cool holiday season so far and will soon have a very great years end!! #and merry christmas to those who celebrate #I've been busy with work and art and unfortunately but obviously fortunately meeting and talking with a lot of people. it's very new to me #and I'm very happy with it. even if I haven’t had any chance to open my digital art folders #but yea that's to say that I'm good. i know no one's worried lol but school's been good and not a killer #I'm back in merica but when i go back i hope that ill be able to get back into the swing of drawing and stuff #I've had plenty of time to get settled and would hate to leave all of my big projects for this summer #I'll see! #kuroshitsuji #black butler #kuroshitsuji fanart #fanart #ciel phantomhive #digital art #elizabeth midford #lizzy midford