#to many characters uhhh

[rockhousejai]

I saw something here that had “Mickey” and “Pokémon” in the same sentence, and then I was reminded I made headcanon Pokémon teams for the Toons last year hahdjwhx

Anyways though I might show them although warning since it is kind of old and there are some I don’t agree with anymore ahdhhavzhaw

Feel free to ask me about them

#i’m not sure what to tag this #Pokémon #Jai talks #to many characters uhhh #mickey mouse #oswald the lucky rabbit #bendy the dancing demon #ortensia the cat #felix the cat #julius the cat #Julius doesn’t understand the concept of Pokémon he just catch the ones that look like him #this was cringe #i’m so sorry

[clfixationstation]

idk if this is a hot take but I don't think Armin is friendly. I think people find him generally off-putting. Like, people think he looks sweet, but also find him strange; for the topics that interest him, the way he didn't stray far from Eren (& Mikasa) socially, and his general demeanor.

I think that as Armin established himself more as he grew up, he developed better interpersonal skills that compliment his rhetorical prowess. I think he's the type of person who sees value in life and in minimizing harm. He offers kindness to his friends and understanding to all. But I don't see him as particularly "friendly"

#cl thoughts #this is just my perception of the character #and everyone is allowed their own interpretation! #all of ema are off-putting idc #I'm also of course projecting a little #I forget socializing is a thing I should do #simply does not occur #so while I have similar values and way of operating to Armin I'm not received as friendly #also y'know how ppl are often revolted when neurodivergent ppl get super enthusiastic about something? #that's the reaction I see many having toward armin #though others (like eren) will find it inspiring #armin arlert #aot #snk #armin analysis #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #uhhh i'll tag ships too #eremin #aruani #they'll have opinions I'm sure

[quinn-pop]

let’s do some autistic meta knight headcanons!! over explaining my interpretation of meta knight yet again wooooo

this orb has NO idea how to talk to people!!! outside of work anyway. a lot of this is partially due to upbringing (suppressing his emotions all the time) but he does not know how to express emotions, like…at all.

this goes into a few things

1. yeah talking is hard. even after figuring out what he wants to communicate he will struggle. conversation can be so overwhelming, especially under pressure. he will need time lol

2. because of that, forming connections is hard. i really don’t think meta is much for shallow relationships, and certainly not early in the timeline. which also means he has very little experience with friendship. so a lot of the relationships he did have went kinda neglected, and issues that probably could’ve been worked on by talking became…*cough romk* escalated.

3. honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if meta convinced himself he couldn’t feel emotion (anymore) until like. katam-ish. he tried very hard lol

vulnerability is terrifying. (though this gesture here is also just comforting, like his little cape cocoon thing he does.)

unmasking—yeah im taking the mask thing very literally here—is a big deal and a very slow process for mk. i’m sure he has a lot of feelings on that lol. it served as a way to ensure no one could ever, y’know, see him.

i can’t say i think he’d ever fully ditch it—there’s always gonna be some days that are more stressful than others and if having it could help him get through it, it just makes sense. mainly when working.

it really is about vulnerability. granted, i don’t think he has the most expressive face (in my head every astral just tends to stare at things) but i doubt he has much control over it. can’t fake a smile but also can’t hide it. probably blushes easy because yeah, astrals; just look at kirby’s face.

just the idea that someone might be able to read his expression and know what he’s feeling before he’s ready for them to (or even understands it himself…) yeah he doesn’t want that

but emotional turmoil aside, i think his mask also hides a lot of his stims

remember that whole “suppressing your feelings” thing? yeah turns out that ignoring half your instincts isn’t a good idea. so in true meta knight style, he tries to stim as subtly as possible

1. he has the least control over his wings, so they will flick and twitch on their own. they’re usually a good indicator of how he’s feeling, not unlike the body language usually seen in cat ears and tails lol. flapping is also an extension of this of course, though he probably suppresses it more.

2. this also effects when he takes his wings out. pretty much every time he’s excited or nervous it just happens. kinda makes me wonder if his wing cape ordeal might also go into the suppression thing… (i’d say yes, but using a cape is also very comforting so it’s not necessarily a bad thing)

3. going back to the mask thing; he stims a lot underneath it. think like biting or pursing your lips. he bites his tongue and clicks his mouth. that sort of thing. his mask also makes it harder to notice that he is constantly sighing, humming, grumbling…all that

one nice thing about the mask though is that it helps a little bit with lights!!! woo

(look at him and his magically floating glasses)

sensory stuff—i think he’s mostly bothered by light and sound. maybe a bit of texture. he’s pretty sensory avoidant and perfectly happy standing off to the side not touching anything.

the one exception to this is physical affection, which is, despite all of this, most of how he shows affection. it’s a lot easier to hug someone than to try to explain your feelings for them, after all.

i think he would like pressure though. so that’s probably part of it. and i’m pretty sure there’s some connection in here to fighting (dang, is that the only way he knows how to get his energy out?)

anyway, pretty much all of this is in contrast to kirby, who i would gladly nominate as the champion of Doing Whatever He Wants. he might pick up a few bad habits, but he will never mask the way meta knight does. he might not understand how he feels, but he’s in tune enough to express it…usually.

this is a very good thing for meta because it helps him to do the same thing. kirby’s so energetic, it’s hard to not want to stim with him. it reminds meta to be kinder to himself and explore his own emotions. he can also help kirby understand themselves, so this connection is very important.

yeah, at the end of the day, everything kinda just boils down to kirby and mk as parallels

this is the conclusion i promise

to me, meta’s arc is about growing stronger by growing kinder, and this is mostly by learning to be kind to himself. letting himself be a person again, loving and understanding other people, and eventually, letting go of all the expectations placed on him and doing the things he’s always wanted to do…

autism headcanons are fun for me because it’s cathartic to write, but at the same time, it just makes sense in this sort of narrative. meta is, to me, inseparable from these things. and so is kirby! that’s a dynamic that’s a lot of fun to play with, and it’s at the heart of my kirby interpretation.

if you actually read all this WOW thank you

#i almost considered not posting this on a wednesday but then i wrote everything and uhhh yeah i think i gotta so #happy cringe day wednesday #for as many notes as i have on these characters i really don’t talk about it much #but meta knight is a special case because i am terrible at subtlety and he wouldn’t be meta knight without it #so this is to contextualize some things #because of what ill have in the next few days haha #basically these are just things i consider when writing meta #but a lot of it is subtextual and i dont know how well it comes across #kirbyposting #kirby #meta knight #headcanons #autism headcanon #this is practically an essay lol oops #i have like 2/3 of a fic that explores most of this in a way i probably won’t do again #but we’ll see if i ever finish it #god kirby concepts are so fun to chew on #i overthink everything i make so much lol

[kiisaes]

bi panic (catholic school au)

#i imagine sunny would frequent the church a lot for a lot of pointless reasons that he thinks are not pointless #like refusing to come to terms with the fact that he might like dudes. lol #daphne and bowen would be frequent side characters .. they probably volunteer at the church frequently #omori #sunny omori #aubrey omori #basil omori #kel omori #daphne omori #bowen omori #sunburn omori #sunflower omori #suntan omori #fan art #comic #omori au #becki draws stuff n stuff #just realized how many times i used the word frequent in the tags. uhhh. whoops

[laidenbreecatchall]

It's been a good drawing day

(transcript under cut)

Character not pictured: "I'm cleaning your nasty ass hats"

Peng: "I feel so naked"

Messy silky black hat hair

Shachi: "Be gentle with them"

Sooour! (Based off Odas drawing of Laws reaction to eating Umeboshi)

(Next to a little doodle of myself) I feel grody

#one piece #trafalgar law #my art #one piece shachi #one piece penguin #hatless shachi #hatless penguin #pirates of heart #heart pirates #law ate a umeboshi btw #penguins hair was impossible to figure out. i tried so many different styles and all of them felt wrong #if or more likely when i draw him again if hes not wearing his hat i'll make his hair uhhh better #shachi looks exactly how he looks in my head #penguin not so much i may futz with his design a bit #i feel like he could be more square #also his nose seems slightly too similar to how i draw Law's #also whenever i dont know what outfit to put a character in its always button up hoodie combo

[narsh-poptarts]

Do people like wips? idk, i like my wips. have some wips <3

they're all for class but it's an excuse to work on my oc stories <333

#wip #my art #wips #so many projects so many comics so much character design so many illustrations #all of these are for class #and im going to lose my mind over it all #the first set of 3 is for a 16 page comic #mr cowboy man is just going to be illustration #im gonna add vultures and blinding light and it'll be very fun i hope #last two are for a 2 page comic #and then i also have a 3 page comic im working on but uhhh i don't have any sketches so you can't see any sketches sorry #Jack Argyle Cassidy #wizard and apprentice #Barnes #Andromedus #robots story #The Robot #robot story #The Calamity #skull #horse skull #creepy #< cw tags #the Calamity is one creepy guy #and just to think!! there's technically more of them out there!! #Jack Cassidy #OCs #my ocs

[51ft]

yeeEEeee

#doodle #baldur's gate 3 #wanted to try drawing the others too.. #uhhh too many characters to tag

[stuffedsand]

People in the milgram tag tell me what non deco songs you associate with what characters gogogo

#milgram #sand speaks #i have like 600 songs i associate with every character #but like tell me the ones that make you personally go insane #one that jumpscared me was my sibling saying fragile night work for shidou or mikoto #fuckign kamawanaide naide harawete ite #hananikaze is a mahiru song #so many songs are kazui songs #shoujorei is a muu song #there was one i said was a haruka song but i fuckign forgor #uhhh fuck. hurricane and where is the justice death note musical for kotoko #if its eeally silly ill draw them in the thumbnail like im doing for some of the covers hehe #but also i uust wanna see

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

Lab Jonarer

#mandela catalogue #tmc #tmc labrats au #patient 07 (jonah) #body horror #shmorps art #the jonah....goat Man #Uhhh dunno how many other lab Characters I could draw in a format like this- #I suppose Gabriel perhaps? #Anyway yeah they're all so silly (sad. so. so sad)

[graveweaver]

ffxiv keychains..... theres so many characters and i have to do a lot more LOL

also with the job stones, i know a lot of people do job stone stuff, so i was like "how can i make mine different?!" and opted for a cel-shaded sort of style.... i think i like it! my mom really likes them, she took the machinist to put on her work badge even though she doesnt know what it even is ahaha

#ffxiv #final fantasy 14 #job stones #keychains #emet selch #venat #hythlodaeus #g'raha tia #thancred #zenos #fandaniel #sadu #uhhh theres so many characters im dying #aymeric #ardbert #haurchefaunt #dark knight #black mage #white mage #yshtola #yep i give up now

[en-chi-la-da]

What are your thoughts on Yuma x Vivia? I seem to be in the minority cause Vivia's mostly shipped with Yakou, but I personally see Yakou as more of a father figure to Vivia. Also amazing art as always.

short answer: they mean da world 2 me 💜

#rain code #kokolight #ask draw #long answer> UHHH chapter 4 is so good for many reasons. ch 4 really helps jumpstart them as a duo/pair and ESPECIALLY #as character foils. one example being their opposite views of what it means to fight for the truth as detectives #vivia wanting to believe in a safe lie vs yuma wanting to find the cold hard truth #and with vivia finally wanting to aid yuma in the mystery labyrinth despite the harsh truth bc yuma helped HIM #with finally understanding his role as a detective. and having to come to terms with facing the truth even if it's hard and sucks :( #PLUS THE GUMSHOE GABS AND THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE obvs #'guy who's a bit short x guy who's too fukcing long' lmao #vivia twilight #yuma kokohead #mdarc #master detective archives: rain code #ari art #i actually have a bigger kokolight post ive been itching to draw so look out for that too eventually ✌🏼 #AND TY ANON!! i can also see yakou as a father figure but with yuma mostly lol #or at least the older cousin you know that's kinda wierd but you still like hanging out with them :) that's what yakou can be #to the NDA gang LMAO

[emry-stars-oc]

The real reason Bo keeps wearing his mask around for a while when they all show up in Bylldewn

Character chart below

#wicked tan line lmao #my art #ocs #original character #oc art #west facing #quinton bell #bo church #ambrose larkspur #betony summers #chibi #digital #uhhh as always #if you want context and dont mind me sending so many messages about these guyd #pls. i promise i dont bite #i will not be fixing typos here

[beanghostprincess]

When Robin was first introduced, she had been working with Crocodile in Alabasta for the past several years, so I could understand her skin tone being a little lighter than it used to be, but not this bad.

It's extremely fucked up. I would understand the "it was an animation error" argument if it wasn't because it happens with all the characters (not only Robin) and they're whiter and whiter each episode (even the characters that should be black).

If we follow irl reasoning as you say, then all of them should be tanned because they're pirates. They're constantly under the sun. But no, they go backward and instead, they lack melanin every episode. It was already bad, but Egghead fucked up big time.

And don't get me started on Usopp because people could use that excuse on any other character, but Usopp?? I truly, really, don't think it takes too much thinking to get that he's black and Toei just keeps making him paler than Sanji. It's ridiculous and racist and people who ignore it or say it's been talked "too much" (because people say it and apparently there's a limit for them as to how much you can complain about racism) always get on my nerves.

What Toei is doing is just disgusting and people defending it are always the ones who refuse to see any mistakes in the things they like. News flash! You can like something and admit it has mistakes.

#also people are always so violent when they use the “error” argument. okay. whatever you say. calm down. god forbid characters have melanin #usopp's thing is just fucking horrible it makes me want to throw up #he's paler than ME. and i am white. sanji skin type of white. what the fuck is toei doing #and people trying to defend it are just-- awful. jacob did not play usopp for you to deny he's black i mean- #but also it was obvious from the very beginning #usopp's character has always been treated like shit in many ways. both in the fandom and within the story (opla when i fucking catch you-) #i'd write about it because i have things to say but a lot of the stuff would be way better written obviously by somebody who isn't white #so if somebody does write an essay or a post about usopp's character and how he's treated i'd like to read it #and maybe i could help a lil bit? because i have things to say about him (<- is obsessed with analyzing characters) and also uhhh #i'm spanish and the spanish dub is fucking awful to usopp and very racist and people don't talk about it but i think i could provide info #anyway this is SO long i am so sorry fuck toei my final message hate toei #one piece #usopp #nico robin

[leupagus]

I’ve had a post go moderately viral, oh God

but I will say I’ve been scrolling through the replies/reblogs to this and it is F A S C I N A T I N G to see how many people use it to complain about the way others have behaved toward them without once examining how they in turn have behaved.

Thinking of yourself as primarily the victim of other people’s unkindness is treating yourself as a character (albeit a main character) and that might be the most fucked up thing of all.

#that post is not for people to think ‘yeah! right!’ #it’s a post for people to think ‘oh no’ #and yes of course OF COURSE many people have been treated badly by others #but statistically speaking — just STATISTICALLY — half of you are uhhh more sinning than sinned against #let's put it that way #and let me also be clear: I include myself in the 'more sinning than sinned against' half #I have treated so many people in my life like they were just supporting characters #and very few people have treated me that way (at least that I've noticed) #and although I hope sincerely that I've never put a character's nonexistent feelings above a person's I can't guarantee it #so this is not a wagging finger sort of thing #this is a 'damn shit's messed up' sort of observation #but there are a LOT of responses mad at me for not being clearer #which indicates that at least a few of them are hit dogs hollering #so here you go: clarity motherfuckers

[spottys-rathole]

(all q!)

There's that scene where Baghera, Antoine, and Bad go adventuring out with their kids, and Bad leads the way trying his best to show them good dungeons with useful loot that aren't too hard

They cross a field running, jump into a speedboat and dash through until they spot a structure on the horizon. They loot it, rinse and repeat.

They just raided an outpost, Baghera has just stepped in and is trying to collect the bookshelves inside when she hears one of the eggs outside blowing into a horn, calling for attention. All the while Baghera is feeling overwhelmed. She explains out loud that she feels the others don't realize how poor she really is, how she's got nothing and how she's still discovering so many new biomes and new features that were added recently. She wants to take her time to check it all out properly, she wants to collect building blocks she likes for her house - because Baghera doesn't have a house yet.

This isn't the first time she brings it up on this evening. Since the first time she encountered BBH earlier that day, he has been slowly introducing her to the idea of building a house near him and Pierre. He said so himself to the eggs that he's trying to convince her to do so. At first he asked her if she had anywhere to live, then upon learning she's only got a hole dug on the flank of a hill so far, he told her they needed to get her a house. Then he showed her his place, welcomed her in and showed him everything that could peak her interest :

Here's BBH's storage room, Baghera can have free unlimited access to it. Here's a flower field surrounding the place, it's really pretty isn't it ? Here's the beach house Pierre built on the bank of this cool lake, look how gorgeous it is, she could build the same if she wanted to. Also don't fail to mention there's a nearby lavender field around, Baghera really likes purple right ? Surely she could enjoy the biome enough to decide to settle down over there.

And Baghera's immediate response is to use Pierre's waystone to teleport the gang to her actual place. Actually, she doesn't exactly teleport them to her place, she teleports them to Phil's place first, which is right across the river from where she lives. Because she doesn't have a waystone to herself, because again : She is poor.

She then proceeds to show them around her "house", which is a (yet to be) repurposed dungeon. It's empty so far. BBH notices and remembers it's a dungeon that he had already raided with Dapper a week ago before Baghera found it.

Baghera doesn't have much if anything at all. She started the afternoon with -37 coins and a gapple which she offered to Acau as a welcoming gift. Still she was so happy when she accidentaly discovered that dungeon and loved its aesthetic, even if the loot that was left inside was barely useful, but to her it was all she had.

Back to the pillager outpost, Antoine overhears Baghera mention how exhausted she is and how meeting everyone at spawn earlier has been really draining for her. That's why she usually prefers exploring alone because then she can do it at her own pace without feeling pressured, because what is of interest to her may not be for her adventuring partners.

Antoine immidiately tries to reassure her the best he can, tells her that she can take all her time and shouldn't hurry for them, that they will wait for her. Baghera apologizes. While BBH is wondering what they're doing, Dapper goes up the tower to check on them, Antoine asks them to wait for them as they are taking their time. Baghera apologizes. When alone with her again she explains that it bothers her to not be able to take breaks and go at her own pace, but she blames herself for it because she accepted to go exploring in group and obviously even if Antoine and Bad keep telling her that they understand and try to make her feel the most at ease, and giving her food and gear. Well anyone would still feel pressured because making the others wait all the time might become boring for the rest of the group whether they say they're okay with it or not. At some point Baghera explains to Bad that she isn't feeling so hot, when she turns around he is 30 ft further ; something caught his attention and he wanted to check it out briefly. She comes up to him again and tell him she needs to get sugar because she is feeling dizzy, she insists that they shouldn't wait for her. Once she comes back, she tells the group that she wants to part ways and go back to building her house. Right on queue, Bad reminds her that she is the most welcome if she wants to come live near his place. Baghera still doesn't explicitely agree nor disagree with the idea, she only says she wants to build because that's what she enjoys doing. Right after, the group catch her up on what they were doing while she was afk : They're about to go raid this very dangerous sky dungeon, and Bad invites Baghera to join them. She iterates that sadly she will not, but Bad who's attention was caught by Dapper, has already ran off to listen to his child. Pomme and Antoine tell her it's okay, but then Bad rushes back towards them to excitedly show them what cool shenanigan Dapper is up to. Baghera bids them goodbye and Bad seems both surprised and disappointed to hear she's leaving now. As she is walking away, Antoine once again whispers to Bad that she was feeling real tired to which the latest answers he completely understands.

It's not so relevant of a moment lore-wise, but I've still been thinking about it a lot because I'm usually really into these kinds of small interactions that are still loud because of everyone's points of views ? Baghera's been there for 3 days and she still hasn't properly brought up to anyone what happened to her during Purgatory - she is not doing fine (I'm not going to go in depth because I'd have to slap a big ol trigger warning but her reaction to reading Pomme's and Richas' signs kicked me in the guts with the strenght of a 3T truck). And meanwhile BBH is this close to kick the bucket too and there's all his motivations that push him to surround himself with people when he would previously be paranoid about inviting anyone to his old base (and none of the french-speakers knew back then). Antoine is just vibing good for him (this was his last qsmp stream too lmao pretend i'm not crying rn /hj)

But it's one of those cases where everything was set up perfectly for it (Pomme was literally jumping with excitement at the idea of two more of her parents getting to live near) but it simply wasn't meant to happen -at least not that day-

#just to be clear : this is not me pointing fingers and going such or such character reacted wrong hell no #i am never about this i just point my finger towards a general situation and go “hey look at this interesting thing unfolding” #I'm staring at sand slowly decanting in a glass of water right now #I already know the outcome but I still think it's interesting #as i repeated baghera felt overwhelmed -> because it was an overwhelming situation and not just for her #when you're in group there are so many things to look around for that will distract you #and it's completely normal and there's nothing to blame about it #ie deadly mobs creeping up on you and eggs communicating in non verbal ways which requires different parts of your brain to operate #okay now i need to figure out how tf i tag this uhhh #i usually write these big ass nothing texts on Discord either about fictional women or about RPZ Forum Drive Families my belovèd #the fuck do i do #q!baghera #q!antoine #q!badboyhalo #qsmp analysis #-> (BIG QUESTION MARK : decanting sand) #qsmp #11/02/24

[astarlightmonbebe]

i'm only at the beginning of li tongguang's descent into obsession (eps 17-18), but already it's both hurting and hitting. hurting, because we know li tongguang's capabilities, and his level headedness, and the potential he has, that he seems to throw out due to this obsession. hitting, because when you think about it, the obsession storyline and characterization does make perfect sense. obsession like that is a double edged blade, which can turn from love to hate, childish belief and joy to embittered rage in a second.

on one hand, it's painful to watch ltg's childlike desperation when faced with ruyi again. we want to grit our teeth and think of him as idiotic, unable to take a hint. but the reality is that it's a completely normal response to be expected from him. i mean, it's a dream come true, to see the person you 'love' the most in the world to be whole in front of you. it's probably what he could only dream about, especially being the one to apparently find her bones and bury them.

on a deeper level, ltg's initial reaction is very much a manifestation of his inner child, almost peter pan-like in the 'child that never became an adult/grew up' way. by that i mean to say the desperate urge to please, the constant worrying, and the oscillation between hot and cold moods are all so indicative of someone who grew up in an insecure/unstable environment, usually with volatile or simply unavailable authority figures. from what we can gather, he had no father, his mother wasn't in his life ("she doesn't want him around, nor can she bear for him to be away, so that's why he's like that" per empress zhaojie's words to ruyi). the one authority figure that entered his life to offer some semblance of guidance was ruyi, and even though it's clear that she held care for him, she was also a twenty year old assassin used to training subordinates, not children. her mentorship style is clearly so different when you hold ltg and yang ying side by side, and we know from ruyi's own mouth that she doesn't consider herself to have taught ltg well, and wants to remedy that through/with yang ying (i'll probably make a whole different post comparing this and the affects of this after watching some more episodes lol - there are bullet points in the drafts). so even though ruyi was his authority figure, she was still an emotionally unavailable one who couldn't meet ltg on the level he probably needed at that time in his life, and which no one probably ever did. hence his up and down reaction and actions.

it intrigues me, too, because i think, in a very subtle way, ltg is very much a character foil to ruyi in that he reflects some of her worst attributes, or more accurately represents the sort of person she was, or at least acted like (yuan lu's comment about how ltg has ruyi's gaze was meaningful outside of the jealousy arc - to me at least). i saw someone make a really interesting comment on how ltg's devotion to ruyi parallels ruyi's own devotion to empress zhaojie, which i'll also probably comment on more later.

obviously, ltg's obsession stems from an issue much larger than ruyi herself - she just happens to be the unfortunate target of it. and, clearly, i know his descent into it will be ugly, if understandable. i understand ruyi wanting to leave that part of her life behind, but also - to think that maybe many of the issues faced in future eps could have been avoidable if she'd been upfront with li tongguang about her identity early on.

#star stumbles #a journey to love #一念关山 #cdrama #my thoughts #li tongguang #eps 17-18 #sorry if i jumped from one point to another this is just a stream of consciousness #and by that last sentence what i mean is that if ruyi had acknowledged him #and then told him something like 'i'm on a mission right now so don't do this or that' etc #even without explaining her situation. i think he would have been much more toned down #of course there is a chance it would have fed his delusions but really anything she did would do that #but not acknowledging him is worse in so many regards #especially when he has a whole thing (elephant in the room sized issue) about abandonment and acknowledgement #his future irrational behaviors are a child demanding to be seen/heard #which is like. embarassing! because we know his potential we saw it but now he's just reduced to this #but i think it's true to the sort of character and story he has. which is the sad part. #ok...i had one more thought but i've forgotten it twice now so uhhh #onto ep 19 in a bit. i will be cringing through it #yeah but i just can't get over his personal reaction right after leaving in ep 17 #because that is EXACTLY how children with emotionally abusive/manipulative parental figures act #the anxiety about pleasing them the dread you messed it up the desperate urge to fix it.... #it's really sticking with me #honestly some have argued that ruyi was abusive and i don't combat that but it's out of pocket #for the time period/context lol. also not really the point if that makes sense