#to the depth they deserve. and that sucks ! their relationship is so complex i think everyone deserves to get to dig into and study it !

[maybeimamuppet]

I LOST THE ASK IM SORRY ANON BUT HERE

REGINA

favorite thing about them

heheeeeeehoooo i’m a lesbian but honestly she has so much like depth to her in a way that’s not immediately obvious and it’s really interesting as a writer getting to explore that beyond canon

least favorite thing about them

i don’t like that i relate to her!!!! i don’t like the idea of being mean and she is and i’m entirely convinced she and i have the same personality disorder and i am terrified that i’m like her. some people have said it and i just hate that it might be true

but like as a character in and of herself it’s how she uses people for her own gain. that’s not cool boo

favorite line

“boo, you whore” from the movie

“that’s what i keep trying to explain to the president on twitter but he blocked me” from the show

i can’t remember enough of what she says in the new movie rn but i’ll find smth later i’m sure lol

brOTP

damian. she and damian both love taylor swift and they listen to every song together and fangirl together and also damian gets her into musicals. regina likes the dark gritty ones with good music like les mis and little shop and damian likes the classics (obvs)

OTP

post redemption arc i ship her with like every woman in this. like any combo of gretchen and karen, i’m an absolute SUCKER for cadina (like i’m literally on my knees begging for cadina fic prompts please), rejanis is. it has potential not my fav but i do partake from time to time.

but like aaron would just turn out bad nobody really likes shane or kevin and damian. is gay. so none of the men lol

nOTP

this woman is GAY so again any of the guys lol. also if it’s done wrong rejanis can be real icky and i don’t like that

random headcanon

she can juggle. cady is the only one who knows and regina will absolutely kill her if she lets it slip

unpopular opinion

she is a victim who made the wrong choices and not the monster a lot of people make her out to be. she is not the villain of the story she is the villain of her own life by fault of her own mind which is the fault of her upbringing and she is making the only choices she knows how which just so happen to hurt a lot of people. she absolutely can be redeemed and she deserves it. which is why the bus doesn’t just straight up kill her.

song i associate with them

i think i said this for janis but monster from frozen has very much internal regina vibes to me that she like is terrified of letting anyone else see. also i know it’s about something VERY DIFFERENT but all grown up from bare seems like it would really speak to her. and also just all of renee’s songs bc duh

favorite picture of them

it’s a gif and this is how i lost the post last time but uh

like. holy shit.

DAMIAN

favorite thing about them

i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again but that boy drinks his loving janis sarkisian juice every morning as part of a balanced breakfast. he knows they’re each others person and i think he navigates their admittedly strange relationship really well. 

and also i love that this ~17 year old fat openly gay kid has SO MUCH confidence in himself. could he be overcompensating and actually have a lot internally that he doesn’t like about himself? yes absolutely . but the way he chooses to handle himself with such grace and confidence as he navigates such a complex web of social issues is really admirable to me and i don’t think he gets enough credit :))

least favorite thing about them

some of the stereotypes aren’t like super cool but like they had to come from somewhere so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

favorite line

damian is what got me into this show tbh i have so many

but i thiiiiiink it’s gotta be either “and they are more addictive than opioids and girl scout thin mints combined” (also hot take but i’ve been a girl scout for 18 years and thin mints SUCK)

OR

“did she just leave while i was actively caring about her? no. / she’s leaving! just like my DAD.”

honestly just like all of stop all of cautionary tale just him i love him yes

brOTP

besides the obvious answer of janis again i would say regina. but also he and gretchen get coffee at least once a week and bond over dances and choreography and whatnot and he and karen are joined at the hip whenever they’re together and you cannot tell me otherwise. and cady is basically his little sister

OTP

THEATRE BOY FROM THE NEW MOVIE OMGGGGG but also like. i don’t really know lol

i usually write him as being with aaron but that’s bc when i was writing like three months in i asked and all my (four) readers at the time said they wanted damiaaron it was not my first pick. but it has grown on me a lot and i think they’re super cute together

nOTP

i am terrified of the amount of romantic fic out there for him and janis?? like y’all ran face first into the point and hit ur heads so hard u still couldn’t see it huh

random headcanon

he kicked janis’ front teeth out in tap class when they were five and janis still has a small scar on her lip

unpopular opinion

i know i write about it a lot and stuff but making him trans feels really reductive of his personality sometimes. we need more trans rep obviously and i love people being able to take characters like him and feel seen but i question it with him in particular a lot. similar vibes to people who make matilda trans i just dk. lots of complicated feelings about it

also that he is the best goddamn character in the whole thing

song i associate with them

uhhhhhh for whatever reason 9 to 5 by dolly parton?? and jolene are the first two to pop into my head lol idk why

oh and also better work bitch by britney spears (i think??)

favorite picture of them

#thank you anon i’m sorryyyy!! #i’ve been here for nearly three years and still can’t figure out how to remove gifs from posts lol #entropy with ezzy #mean girls #damian hubbard #regina george #caps tw #swear tw #cw food mention #ezzy gets an ask

[i-sveikata]

i have recently started reading (and finished) graveyards.. absolutely amazing work 👍 i really liked how deep tankhun’s character was and hated kinn with all my heart lmao. like i never liked him before but lord i wanted to kill him so bad when he said “you let him talk to you like that?” when he knows the relationship between vegas and pete. why is porsche talking to you like that then? what’s the difference between porsche and pete, both are bodyguards and both are dating mafia heirs lmao. what a prick 😭 then he was like “you forget your place” when pete was actually trying to save your life and protect you against his love of his life?? (i feel pete’s glare while writing this)

i’m sorry you probably didn’t want to listen my hate towards kinn but god i hate him so much😭 can’t you kill him please 😭

now that pete has the ring that means he is the head of the minor family until vegas wakes up? or maybe vegas will wake up before him who knows 😭😭 and are you planning on adding venice to the story in the future? and (i don’t know if they asked this before if they did i’m sorry) are you planning on bringing bottom pete back or is it only top pete from now on because of his trauma?

i hope i was not too annoying and didn’t disturb you ❄️ my english sucks i had to check vocabulary many times 😭 merry christmas! have a nice day 🎄❄️

thank you so much!!!! ahh thanks so much!! tankhun really is a fascinating character i feel like he has so much depth to him for sure and i totally understand the kinn hate lol as i wasnt that impressed with him myself in the show. ugh yeah so so gross of him like super inflated ego and superiority complex!!! hahahahah i feel your frustration he is such an irritating character who doesnt deserve the loyalty he gets from some of the bodyguards and from porsche.

ahhh no not at all i love to hear it thanks for sharing!!! i guess in vegas' mind yes? he would think that makes pete the head of the family but i doubt the main family is going to be onboard with that at all. im only writing based off the show so i dont exactly know who venice is (adopted son? distant relative?) so he wont be in this fic. definitely planning on pete switching again but yes it is slow going because of his trauma.

omg not at all your english is perfect thank you for coming to say hello! Merry christmas, happy new year and i hope you have a wonderful day!!!

#fic asks #ill fill the graveyards until i have you

[danggirlronpa]

haiiiii :3 akane anon again. im off work now!

i agree w absolutely everything u said. she's been my fav ever for years and i have so many in depth thoughts abt how she could function on relationships w like. most of the girls. i could probably make a chart if i figured out a format.

chiakane soooo crazy. never been my main ship but ill consider anything. they r most interesting from a doomed standpoint to me...... akane as a remnant vs chiaki's existence as ai and (counting dr3 as canon which im not usually interested in doing) death before the tragedy. i think of them in almost a similar vein to the tragedy between madoka and homura except if homura was replaced by a kyoko who's a little worse w emotions. chiaki's entire being has become dedicated in one way or another to serving class 77 even if that means sacrificing herself over and over and akane has had every single meaningful relationship (or what SHOULD have been) ripped away or twisted and never having even really existed and she is so afraid of going through this again she doesn't even try and have relationships she cares about deeply (or at all!) that aren't w her siblings. so she would be PISSED to fall in love w chiaki who is already dead and doomed to die again. ive never believed the mastermind akane theory people talk abt at least fully but it IS interesting. i can make a killer chiakane au w it. w madoka magica parallels even. but ur right they can also be very very sweet. i think they would play super smash bros and akane would kinda suck at it (spams the buttons and thinks it's a pro strategy) but chiaki would let her win every once or twice. akane hears the rumours abt chiaki dating some random reserve course guy and sends the "im so happy for you and your ugly fucking boyfriend I'm serious" text after swearing to herself she doesn't even gaf

that's uh. that's a lot. im so sorry can you tell i have autism. this isn't even my favourite ship for either of them ask me about pekokane and i start growling like a rabid dog.

YES yes yes yes!! I am a HUGE Akane fan. She's the only character I have a real little collection of merch for (though that's partly just because so much merch excludes Mukuro). I didn't really attach to her the first time I played SDR2 but over time I've grown SO fond and defensive of her, she is such a sad and complex character who deserved to be treated better by her writers (and have less racist tropes associated with her. Spike Chunsoft. cough cough) and still deserves to be treated better by the fandom.

And I think you got it RIGHT on the money why I'm inclined towards Chiaki/Akane, actually. Akane has lived such a dark life that not only does she not know how to ask for help or rely on others, she doesn't even realize she needs to - for her, this is just how the world is. Akane, to me, is like the equivalent of a housecat looking at their humans and going, "They don't even know how to hunt. They're all so stupid. I have to go kill mice so they can eat. Are they even bathing themselves properly?? Licking time. Morons." She's incredibly resilient and smart within the context of the VERY SPECIFIC lifestyle she's lived.

And something really appeals to me about someone who solely exists to help people meeting Akane, thinking they can 'save' her, and slowly coming to realize that she is not dumb or unskilled just because she isn't skilled in the way they value. Learning that intelligence isn't a measure of worth and seeing & valuing Akane for who she is - and, at the same time, helping her see that some of the things she's gone through are truly, deeply traumatic, and helping her learn how to rely on others for the first time...that shit gets me. I Just Want Akane To Be Happy

#you are also correct and SO funny abt akane being pissed to fall in love #what is this? an emotion for ants??? #asks #anon #talk to the mod #chiakane #meta #headcanons #chiaki nanami #akane owari #sdr2

[navree]

What about the Baratheons in the book?

Renly - Renly's fine, he's just not someone that compels me in any way and he does kinda tend to come off as more of a wannabe-Jaime to me than anyone who's interesting in his own right. Plus he's a dick and it takes a lot for me to get fond of characters who are deliberate assholes, and that generally involves them being self aware and having a purpose to it than Renly, who's just a bored pretty boy with too much time on his hands. Best way I can describe Renly is he's the Brucie Wayne personal of Bruce Wayne without any of the hidden depths or complexities, and also if he lived in medieval times. There's elements of Renly I can get behind, like Stannis says, the boy he once was seems to have been very sweet and bright and that does sometimes make me Sad, not to mention his relationship with his brothers holds a wealth of drama that makes him interesting enough.

Robert - I hate Robert. Like, I really, really hate Robert Baratheon, with the burning passion of the sun. I find him to be such an unimaginable asshole and I'm glad his death was slow and long suffering. I think it's entirely valid of Lyanna to not want to marry him for being a philanderer and an ass of a person (even though I don't approve of the 24 year old grown married man with two kids swooping in and taking advantage of that and starting a war in the process) and I think it's very very valid of Cersei to want him dead and to not miss him after he raped and abused her for years. Not to mention, perhaps it's just me, but if you keep sending assassins after innocent children (Viserys and Dany were innocent and clearly were in real danger) and condoning the absolute butchery of Elia and her children because they were "dragonspawn", then you deserve to get beaned in the head with a chair forever. Fuck him, he sucks.

Stannis - Stannis 👏 the 👏 mannis 👏👏👏 I love him. He's another top character in ASOIAF for me, I do adore him. For one, he's a character archetype that I love, I love the outwardly emotionless, cold characters with a good mind and a firm belief in themselves who have hidden depths that very few see (and there's not a lot I approve of what the show did with Stannis but the scenes with him and Shireen, minus the last one, were top tier), so I'm incredibly predisposed to liking him on that alone. For two, as a character he's so wonderful. I can't find the post but someone said that Stannis's arc is just "what if an account was mistake as a world saving fire sword wielding hero of ancient prophecy" which is what it is and that's very funny. But Stannis as someone who feels shoved into this role not because he wanted it, because Stannis has never wanted anything of what he's had to deal with, not the dead parents or the issues with his family or having to settle for Dragonstone and certainly not being Robert's legitimate heir, but because he has to, because he has an ironclad sense of justice and wants to do what's right even if it's against his own wishes? That fucks. That fucks really hard. Stannis has a very strong sense of right and wrong, it's why what happens to Renly tears him up so much, not just because of the love he had for his brother but because it goes directly against his moral code, and considering all the grey morality of ASOIAF, that's very fun to watch. There's also this great element of Stannis in that we are never in his head, we only ever see him through the eyes of others, primarily Davos. So we see and hear about his bad qualities, his intransigence and stunning lack of charisma, from peoople who don't care for him and are on opposite sides of him, but we also see him through the eyes of someone who really loves him. Someone who views Stannis as the best there is, in spite of those qualities, and through that we can see Stannis in that light too. We can see the boy who was tenderhearted enough to nurse Proudwing, who clung to his atheism not due to any beliefs but just because of how upset he was when his parents died, the seventeen year old who had to fight against his own morals ("my king or my brother, my blood or my liege" GOD) for the sake of family, who starved himself in the service of his brother's war and was probably giving as much of his food as he could to his little brother, who accepted Davos into his service with a minor punishment and who clearly relied on him and loved him in turn just as much as Davos did. The complexities and the layers to Stannis are amazing, I love him so much. And his claim is the most legitimate one besides, even if he's not gonna get the throne in the end. Also, Stannis and Davos. Just read any of the chapters where they share scenes, they're gay as Hell.

#personal #answered #anonymous #god stannis breaks my heart sometimes but in the best possible way #there's a certain kind of character where if i say 'they break my heart' you know that i love them dearly #it's not all of my favorite characters but it is a lot of them #and i adore stannis

[milfsamwinchester]

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#i might make a post going more into my thoughts about this later #but i think the strict divide between samdean shippers/nonshippers + sam stans is hurting everyones enjoyment of the show and sam and dean #like this divide. does not exist on spn twitter. samdean shippers/sam stans/nonshippers all follow each other and are in the same gcs #and are close friends #deancas shippers dont get it and will be like wtf why do you follow a wincest shipper and theyre like 'theyre my friend' and thats that #on the basic level samdean shippers just adore the canon relationship between sam and dean ! #we see their relationship the exact same way nonshippers do ! theyre platonic soulmates and thats so interesting #we just go in a different direction in terms of exploring their relationship in fanon. thats it thats the only difference #sam and dean are so fucked up in the show that ive had ppl come to me being like ?? i dont know if i ship sam and dean or not ??? #if u dont read fics then where IS that line of shipping and not where does it cross over from just enjoying their relationship in the show? #being afraid of being labeled as a samdean shipper has scared people away from talking about sam n deans relationship #to the depth they deserve. and that sucks ! their relationship is so complex i think everyone deserves to get to dig into and study it ! #samdean shippers have stuff to offer gen stans and gen stans have stuff to offer samdean shippers #anyway i do have a lot of mutuals who dont ship sam and dean ty guys youre awesome this is more looking at tumblr fandom in a broad way

[academicdisasterfic]

2021 in Fanfiction

Okay, I had this idea to do the three defining fics of each month of 2021 for me, in a very self-indulgent and rambly way, and Lou said it wasn't a completely stupid idea so...here you go? This list will mostly be Wolfstar and Drarry with a few other pairs, but otherwise vary wildly in terms of date, rating, and themes. Please be sure to read all tags, etc.

This was a very turbulent year for me and I read so many fics and consumed so much art that helped me get through it - much of which didn't make it on here. I tried to narrow it down to the pieces that have really stuck with me or evoke very specific memories - the fics that I'll think of when I think of this year.

If you would like to do your own list, please do and tag me! However I will not tag anyone because this legit took me hours lol. We all have to preserve our energy around this time of year.

Without further ado:

January

I reentered fandom after years of not really engaging with it by reading All the Young Dudes by MsKingBean89 (Remus/Sirius, 526k, M) - and look, when I say it destroyed me, it destroyed me. It's now got the most amount of hits on Ao3 of any fic (nearly 5 million what) and deserves every single one. I don't think I could ever read it again, purely because of the inherent trauma of Remus and Sirius' canon stories, but I am so grateful to have read it and for how much MsKingBean89 has given the Wolfstar fandom.

So in an attempt to rebuild my serotonin, I turned to the wondrous Text Talk by @juuuuzou (Remus/Sirius, 141k, NR) and it was the most delightful reading experience. This fic has became one of my favourites to revisit and the dynamic between Remus and Sirius was so well done and gorgeous.

I also read Liebestraum by @quoththethestral (Remus/Sirius, 101k, E) and this was such a dreamy, heartbreaking, ultimately joyous fic. The sequel just dropped and I squealed when it hit my inbox. The pain and joy of seeing Wolfstar address their past and rebuild their relationship is breathtaking, and James and Lily are pure perfection.

February

I started off the month in magic realism heaven with Everything's Connected by mizdiz (Remus/Sirius, 44k, M). I think this was the fic that made me realise how creative it was possible to be with my own writing, and I was so inspired by the imagery and language of this fic. It has the classic hurt aspect of Wolfstar, but a whole lot of comfort too.

My next read was Alt Ed by nachodiablo (Remus/Sirius, 61k, M) and I very quickly bullied everyone in my life into reading it after. This story reimagines the Marauders if Remus were homeschooled and it's such a joyous ride - non-canon compliant, amazing Sirius and James friendship, boss Lily and Remus friendship, hilarious, witty, and so imaginative.

And then...I reread Running on Air by @tinyhistory (Harry/Draco, 74k, T) and boom, I'm back in my Drarry phase. This is such a popular fandom classic, but it's for an excellent reason - it's as close to a perfect story as I could possibly imagine. It made me want to be a better storyteller, because I fell for this story in a way I hadn't fallen for a story in a very long time. This fic genuinely changed my life in that way - I don't think I would have had the courage to start writing without it.

March

Hooo boy, Such Great Heights by aideomai (Harry/Draco, 93k, E) sucked me in and did not let me go. No matter what I'm reading, I look for elements of whimsy, and I think that's why I love aideomai so much. Obviously their other fics are excellent and I devoured them immediately - I especially loved In the Hand - but this fic was my entry point and therefore gained a very special place in my heart.

She Was Pretty by @skeptiquewrites (Parvati/Lavender, 4k, E) is one of those stories that punched me in the gut with feeling and depth. I am a massive Tee fan and I think the overwhelming feeling I get from her fics is home. This fic felt like home. It has the nuance and complexity that these girls deserve, a complete unravelling of JKR's misogynistic bullshit, and Tee's usual stunning prose. I read this perhaps five times in a row.

freely, as men strive for right is my favourite @bixgirl1 fic (Harry/Draco, 17k, E) which is saying a lot. I actually just reread it after typing that last sentence because I hadn't in a while - I am obsessed, it's fine. Ron's conversation with Harry in the kitchen - iykyk - is something I think about at least once a week? I think this fic, in short, is just everything I love about Drarry in relatively few words. I also adore examining relationships, watching them grow, rather than the story ending at the happy-ever-after. I love friends to lovers. I love this Draco. I love this fic with my entire being. I don't think I can drive home the point more???

April

The Ordeal of Being Known by @lou-isfake (Harry/Draco, 146k, M) came into my life exactly when I needed it. My anxiety at this point was so awful that I couldn't sleep more than a few hours a night, I wasn't eating, I wasn't functioning. I think that if you've read this fic - and at this point, if you haven't, what are you doing - you know how special it is, and I've certainly screamed at Lou enough about how much I adore it, but it truly has become my comfort read and something I revisit over and over when I need some joy.

I already yelled about A Brief History of Dragons by @eyra (Remus/Sirius, 21k, M) in this post but will I ever stop? Probably not. It's my favourite Wolfstar fic I've read this year, utter perfection, so creative and atmospheric and whimsical and heart-wrenching. It's the most beautiful depiction of neurodivergence and love I've ever encountered. I don't need to go on, you need to go and read it thx.

Oh gosh, Soup-pocalypse and the Great Curry Cataclysm by @norelationtoatticus (Harry/Draco, 104k, E) - much like TOOBK - came into my life when I most needed it and instantly became my safe little security blanket. I've probably read it six times (can you tell I'm autistic and latch onto familiarity???) and each time it's like a hot bubble bath for my soul. It's hilarious and endearing and charming and I just wanted to hug Draco and Harry the entire time. Plus, it's my favourite ever Harry raising Teddy fic.

May

This was the month GallaPlacidia entered my life and I read every single fic in a two-day hurt/comfort fever dream. However, my absolute favourite was The Bolthole, which Galla wrote with aideomai and @tepre (Harry/Draco, 54k, E). I started listening to it on the GallaPod while going for very long walks and something about it - the setting? the amazing believability of Harry's trauma and how it manifests? literally everything about this Draco? - got me. It made me cry in just the right way, and made me laugh just as much.

I then read If the Fates Allow by saras_girl (Harry/Draco, 80k, M) and - yeah, this is another fic that I just consider to be perfect??? Friends to lovers, mutual pining but Harry's an idiot, there's an adorable village, saras_girl signature cute and whimsy creatures, plus Harry has a dog!!!! I tell literally everyone to read this because it's just that good - and I couldn't tell you why this fluffy advent fic beat Turn or Foundations!verse for this spot (both fics were also favourites this year, and I read them all in a row) but perhaps it's just that it saw into my soul a little bit.

Okay babes, I need to find more people who have read Astra Inclinant by @tinyhistory (James Sirius Potter/Scorpius Malfoy, 336k, T), because at the moment I have only one (1!) person who understands the narrative MASTERPIECE that is this fic. I don't think I can even do it justice??? It's not epilogue compliant??? Harry and Draco are both single dads and James and Scorpius are only children???? Teddy is the actual love of my life??? Harry's growth as a father is the most emotional and beautiful thing in the world???? The slow burn isn't even painful because the journey is so sweet??? The wedding scene (iykyk) is the funniest fucking thing I've ever read????? I have highlighted quotes from it that I want read at my funeral. What can I say, I'm a prepared lad.

June

Look, Beneath a Big Blue Sky by @eyra (Remus/Sirius, 68k, E) is not the only reason I want to move to Yorkshire, but I'd be lying if I said I don't sometimes daydream about tiny lambs and rolling fields and Hope Lupin's crumpets. This story is so sweet and meandering and expansive, with Eyra's usual intricate and poetic writing, and this is now one of my Wolfstar staples. I'm going to cheat a little here and also throw in the Crowns and Coffee Cups series also by eyra (Remus/James, 9k, M) because this series got me into Wolfbucks and now I'm a bit obsessed.

Electric Light (Neville/Draco/Harry, 18k, E) is my favourite seefin fic and my favourite triad fic. I am a huge Neville fan (he's just a good boy) and I love his depiction here, as well as how he draws Harry and Draco together. Harry is utterly heartbreaking but so loving and loveable, and Draco is just trying his best (bless). The emotions in this fic feel so realistic and present and raw. This fic got me into exploring more triad fics and also looking at character studies in a new way.

Friends? Is That What We Are? by @l0vegl0wsinthedark (Draco/Harry, 33k, E) is the fic I go to now whenever I'm sad. It's just so funny and real and the most perfect friends-to-lovers scenario, and is full of the A+ banter and amazing chemistry I've come to associate with this author. June was a really difficult month for me and this fic made it so much brighter.

July

Well, Rooney. You've come out as trans and left your marriage. What are you going to do? You are going to read Just what the doctor ordered by @wolfstarting (Remus/Sirius, E, 96k) over and over again until you know every word of this damn perfect fic off by heart. I don't have enough good things to say about WrappedUp's writing and stories - I love all of them - but this fic pretty much carried me emotionally through the aftermath of my breakup and reminded me that 25 is actually really fucking young. Remus in this fic felt like he saw my soul. I'm obsessed.

This is also the month I met one of the best people in the world, because a friend sent me 1:40am by @softlystarstruck (Harry/Draco, 5k, T) and I then went through and read every single one of Bee's fics before sliding into their DMs and more or less begging them to be my friend. Something about 1:40am made me think that whoever wrote it had to have the most beautiful, lovely mind, and I was right.

I've been reading @lqtraintracks for years, but this was the month I read Heart Like Neon (Harry/Draco, 41k, E) and fell in love with LQT all over again. This fic just felt really comforting to me - Drarry's relationship was so well done and just gorgeous, the story was fascinating, and it has fantastic trans rep. After reading this, I went on a week long LQT binge and it was such a happy and horny and healing time for me.

August

Okay - sometimes, part of healing heartbreak is just consuming nonstop angst, and stitched and sewn by @wheezykat (Harry/Draco, 8k, E) is the perfect mix of heartbreaking and painful with an ending that warmed me to my toes. In a month where guilt and grief and overwhelm threatened to drown me, this fic was a hopeful reprieve, and I can't thank Kat enough for writing it.

In a similar vein, sometimes healing heartbreak is also just consuming things that feel like pure sunlight, and that's what Life goes not backward by @shealwaysreads (Harry/Draco, 9k, T) feels like to me. I read this sitting in my favourite spot, a quiet stretch of beach that tourists rarely find, and as I read the last line Evermore by Taylor Swift started playing and I burst into tears (I am nothing if not a gay cliche).

Rounding out this (frankly embarrassingly emotional) month was Modern Love by @tackytigerfic (Harry/Draco, 61k, E). I had seen this fic recced so many times and it did not disappoint. The development of Harry's relationship with Draco was perfect, slow and uncertain and wonderfully vulnerable all at once. It's such an original story, so perfectly executed and I devoured it. Also, I read the scene where the vicar and Draco kissed about five times and sometimes I hear Christ, Draco in my dreams and wake up in cold sweats of horniness.

September

I usually flat out refuse to read canon compliant Wolfstar because I try to not make my depression worse lol. Then my darling @scattered-moonlight said that annual honesty by @alwaysalreadyangry (Remus/Sirius, 18k, T) was their favourite fic and talked so much about it that I got sucked in...and I am so glad I did. Look. It's sad. It fucked me up in the best way possible. It's also one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. I couldn't recommend it more.

And then that trend continued because I came across the queer masterpiece that is Calamity's Child by @aibidil (Teddy/James Sirius, Remus/Sirius, 42k, E). Admittedly, it makes Wolfstar's story even sadder. I cried a lot. But it also healed and stitched me up so beautifully and filled me with a buzzing hope. Teddy's characterisation just spoke to me on a whole 'nother level - as a mid-twenty-something with a string of failed relationships, bad decisions, and still no idea what I want to be when I grow up, it just felt lovely to have someone be like "that's all okay! you'll get there!". This fic was an amazing tribute to queerness and queer history and I couldn't possibly love it more.

And then! AND THEN. @onbeinganangel and @babooshkart hit us with Quick as a Flash of Lightning, Unhurried as Eternity (Harry/Draco, 10k, E) and this whole masterpiece just...lit up my soul. Harry's internal dialogue was so heartbreaking but the promise of the future, the pure and utter joy of future Drarry, was just magnificent. When I finished this fic I was like "This is why I love Drarry." And Boo's incredible art - oh my god, I saved it onto my phone and stared at it for probably hours. Painful and joyous all at once.

October

Hello again my love @lou-isfake. This was the month I read Like the Son Holds the Moon and was instantly like, okay, favourite. But then I read Oh, Sinnerman (Harry/Draco, 40k, E) and it was like Lou tore open my chest and peered inside. I've never felt so raw after reading a fic. @babooshkart also produced art for this fic that I once again stared at for hours; Boo is so amazingly talented at capturing the essence of a story. I talked about this fic in this post as well but I think it was Harry's voice that really got me here - perfectly done.

This was also the month that Lou sent me a message saying "Roo, have you read The Taste of Țuică by @fluxweeed (Harry/Draco/Ron, 15k, E)?" after I spent twenty minutes waxing poetic about how much I love Ron Weasley. And then I read it. And reread it. And reread it. oh my fucking god. This fic. Let's put aside the scorching hot smut for a second and talk about the character study of Ron done here because it is flawless. FLAWLESS I TELL YOU. Godlike. Oh my fucking god. Also, as a Percy Weasley stan (which I will not apologise for) Show them the night that they dreamed about before has to be mentioned as well - kill me. ded.

And then, another comfort fic entered my life. Just Stay by @nv-md (Harry/Draco, 2.7k, M) is the mutual pining of my dreams. Not only is Ali an amazing beta, friend and all-round good egg, she is an incredible writer who captures love in such a special and tender way. This is the fic I read when I wake up at 3am after nightmares. It's my happy place.

November

Not to brag but I have very amazing friends who trust me with their words and I got the privilege to cheer read to be a bit of warmth (for you) by @softlystarstruck (Harry/Draco, 9.3k, M). Although I knew instantly it was going to be such a special story, rereading it once published still made me weep. Bee does hurt/comfort to perfection and this is no exception. The way Harry and Draco's relationship unfolds is so unique, so precious and tender and sweet, and it blows me away every single time.

You know how there are some fics where you just want to reach through the screen and personally thank the author for writing them? Yeah, Bridges by @cavendishbutterfly (Harry/Draco, 16k, E) is one of those fics for me. Set in Budapest - my favourite city ever, huge bonus points for that - this story not only has an impeccable Draco whom I love more than life, but is a wonderfully gentle and tender exploring sexuality narrative for Harry, and is just done with such care and joy.

Stupid Love by @the-sinking-ship (Harry/Draco, 17k, E) had me wheezing into my pillow at one in the morning. I read this after seeing the amazing artwork that @bluebutter-art did for this fic and it was so fantastic that I was like i have to read this fkn fic. It's so good. It's so funny. It's so quintessentially Drarry. You can just tell how much Sly loves this ship, and it's a fic I'll definitely be returning to over and over again.

December

I'm doing four recs here. Deal with it and read them all.

Starting off this month was a comic by the wondrous @bluebutter-art - so rest your weary heart with me. (Harry/Draco, M). I'm pretty sure this fic made my heart expand to about three times its regular size - my chest ached. Fuck. Blue's incredible style paired with the heartwrenching premise made for a blissful reading experience. I love it with every fibre of my being.

I read Special Recipe by @peachpety (Harry/Draco, 1.1k, T) after seeing @ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm's gorgeous art for it here. I am a sucker for AUs, particularly college AUs, particularly with jock Harry. I've decided this fic is my love language. It's up to everyone else in my life to work out what that means.

Joy's art also led me to Mise en Place by @corvuscrowned (Harry/Draco, 5.4k, T) which - as someone who feeds everyone in my life rather than talking about my emotions - brought me endless joy. Draco was just perfectly sneaky, and Harry understandably oblivious. What a delight.

And finally, @m0srael's show me how to be your boy (Harry/Draco, 14k, E) is the hurt/comfort of my fucking dreams. Draco and Harry are so sweet and scared and gorgeous, Teddy is an angel, and I love unusual careers. This prompted an excellent cathartic cry and subsequent general contentedness after reading. Amazing.

...and that's the year! Please, if you read any of these fics, leave the authors kudos and comments and praise them for the brilliant work they do for this fandom. Thank you so much for carrying me through such a turbulent year, endlessly inspiring me, and letting me meet some of the most amazing people ever. I hope everyone has a wonderful 2022 xxx

#drarry #wolfstar #fic recs #2021 in fanfiction #drarry fic #drarry fic rec #wolfstar fic rec #academicdisaster #rooney recs

[freyfall]

OOH OOH OKAY INK AND/OR NIGHTMARE FOR THE 002 MEME THING

disclaimer: i will be using personal interpretation (think closest to how i portray both of these characters within Lifeline)

INK:

How I feel about this character: The trait I love most about Ink is just... his callousness, and the way he's clearly a flawed person but tries his best anyways. Like, he doesn't have the same empathy level as most people, even with the vials to help him, and despite the challenge, he tries to do what's right/be a good person.

All the people I ship romantically with this character: ...xgaster and that's literally it. what the fuck where did all my ink ships go

My non-romantic OTP for this character: I think that Ink and Dream make a very interesting dichotomy - Underverse does a very good job (especially in 0.6, even though it's just a couple throwaway lines) of showing how their goals oppose each other and how their friendship fell apart. i think their relationship is just so interesting in that regard

My unpopular opinion about this character: GOD I hate how people portray him while off of his vials/fully soulless. he's not completely devoid of personality. he's just devoid of empathy, which is an entirely different thing. and yeah being devoid of empathy can lead to some dark places and give him problems interacting with others, but like. Just fucking look at the character we're given in canon UT as the prime example of what soullessness does to a person. Flowey is the spunkiest, most malicious and angry character in the whole game, and it makes no fucking sense for Ink to just be like "husk devoid of any personality"

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: there's not much canon to go off of, so I can't really say much except I wish we'd gotten the ending to the 'his story' comic, which iirc was supposed to have a couple more parts (which, i totally understand, art takes time, and iirc myebi is also an art student, and I know firsthand how much school saps your ability to create personal art)

my OTP: i guess Ink/XGaster since he's LITERALLY the only one I ship him with ('ship' used in the loosest sense possible, since as time has passed the more i prefer portraying ink as aroace w/no exceptions)

my cross over ship: none? unless everything is a crossover by virtue of the utmv?

a headcanon fact: i like to headcanon he gets really panicky/closed off when he's running low on his vials and can't refill them immediately, it's a fun character aspect to play around with

NIGHTMARE:

How I feel about this character: I love the potential Nightmare has for emotional complexity and growth, and think she deserves more depth to her motivations and emotions than just "haha evil" like how she's presented most of the time.

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Dream, Geno, Cross, Killer, Reaper

My non-romantic OTP for this character: I enjoy platonic relationships with all of the above too, but I really enjoy how Nightmare and Ink interact, with Nightmare's character being all about emotions and how they've affected her and brought her to this really dark place, while Ink struggles with maintaining his own emotional core and despite how it would be so easy to stop caring, he refuses to.

My unpopular opinion about this character: Canon Nightmare Fucking Sucks

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: If we're talking specifically about the apple incident, I wish canon had taken the route of "Nightmare sunk to a level of maliciousness and anger and corruption on her own which was just heightened by the corrupted apples" rather than "Nightmare was sad and ate the apples which made her evil"

my OTP: HMMMM if I had to choose,,, then Dreammare, probably

my cross over ship: same deal as with ink

a headcanon fact: Well, I clearly prefer fem Nightmare - moon symbolism is traditionally associated with femininity, also fits the 'opposites' narrative w/Dream, and also I just like feral women. (And also I was sick of having literally all the characters be men. So it's not just Nightmare, it's several other characters too, but Nightmare specifically has more reasoning behind it.)

#ink sans #nightmare sans #utmv

[ladybeug]

Okay remember the chloe breakup playlist? 

@peachesandheather​ and @chaotictaste​ THANKS FOR ASKING i know its way later but i would LOVE to break this playlist down lets get GOING! 

this is a follow up to THIS post. 

CONTEXT:  for this fanmix to read correctly, you need to know its an aged-up AU. Chloe’s grown a bit already, and she’s learned to value making other people happy just for the sake of making them happy. She joins the superhero gang and they all reveal identities and she dates marinette for a bit but realizes that marinette is still into adrien, and so chloe breaks up with her. That’s the facts, theres a drabble about it here if you want more emotional depth. 

LISTEN HERE ON SPOTIFY and follow along. There will also be links to youtube lyric videos if you prefer that. 

Without further ado: 

The Louvre - Lorde 

This is a key track. The title track. 

The metaphor of the louvre itself really sits with me. On the one hand, it’s The Louvre - an internationally recognized place to Put Important Things. What’s more, to put Art - beautiful things that defy description. And yet we keep trying. On the other hand, it’s The Louvre - there’s a suggestion that you’re not supposed to touch it. It’s precious enough that it needs to be preserved and displayed carefully - don’t knock into it. That’s a scary new relationship. Something extremely precious that you almost trust. 

Now remember the louvre metaphor, that one comes back in track 7. 

The rest of this breakdown is under the cut to spare the poor people just trying to scroll through tumblr. You guys enjoy your evening. Everyone else, follow me!!

If you’re reading this i love you thank you for indulging me. 

 You’re Gonna Make me Lonesome When You Go - Madeleine Peyroux 

Despite not being the title track, this is the song that inspired the whole playlist! I love it. Its layered. 

I like to imagine Chloe has a moment, like the calm before the storm, when she realizes she has to break up with marinette, and she feels almost zen about it. Maybe she’s been struggling with trying to open up and be vulnerable and ask for love. And finally she decides she doesn’t want to ask for love anymore, she’s tired of it, and she’s going to go back to pushing people away. For a moment it’s just a relief to stop trying, it’s comforting to revert to who she used to be in the face of losing marinette. 

This song has a resigned feel to it. It feels like someone who doesn’t quite really believe they deserve love. That’s a theme throughout this playlist too.

Lastly, in the context of the AU - chloe would feel good about giving marinette a chance to be with someone she really wants to be with. She’s grown a lot since she was a kid and likes to be the kind of person who cares about others. It’s bittersweet but feels a little... right. 

Call it Off - Tegan & Sara 

They break up. 

Paper Bag - Fiona Apple 

Chloe takes it back, it doesn’t feel ‘bittersweet but a little... right’!! It sucks!! 

This one’s about chloe feeling sorry for herself about having to break up with Marinette. It’s bitter and frustrated, it says why can’t I have nice things?? It’s about being SO close to love - so close you could taste it - and having to cut yourself off. 

It also has that resigned feel to it - the need to starve yourself of love because you can’t have it. The disbelief in a happy ending, and a little bit of self blame.

Woke Up New - The Mountain Goats 

This is the other side of the breakup coin. If ‘Paper Bag’ is the bitterness and reflection on how chloe feels about breaking up, ‘Woke Up New’ is just about... not having marinette. 

It removes the self-reflection and the over-thinking. It’s just about loss. You miss someone. And I think chloe would miss marinette. She’s been lonely before, and for a while she didn’t feel lonely, and now she feels lonely again - it’s uncomplicatedly sad. It’s just a sad moment. 

Be Mine! - Robyn 

Okay now we turn up the tempo a little, we’ve been sad, we’ve been self-reflective, bring on the poor coping mechanisms! Turn up the volume, pour yourself a drink, and get a little mad about your breakup!

But also dont forget to be kind of resigned and defeatist about it. That’s still crucial and will continue to be crucial for a little longer. 

Fists Up - BLOW 

This is another key song, and is our second reference to the Louvre. 

But it brings a third, new aspect to the Louvre, that Lorde didn’t bring. The security of the Louvre. BLOW says, ‘my love is a fortress, my love is the louvre, but it can’t ever thrive if i’m forced to keep proving it’. There’s the same suggestion that love is worth valuing, but also reminds us that love is difficult to access - which is absolutely true for chloe, who protects herself instinctively. She’s always been very defensive, and part of growing has been fighting to overcome that instinct - it’s what let her get so close to marinette in the first place. But it didn’t work out, which is bitter, and makes her angry. There’s almost a self-righteousness, trying to blame someone else for not treating you precious enough. 

Also worth noting that this song is about the internal fight between hope and defeat in a relationship. Chloe ended the relationship with ladybug because she didn’t believe it would work, and she doesn’t believe she’s enough. But it’s so hard to stop hope, which makes defeat more painful.

Shampain - Marina and the Diamonds 

Remember when we started drinking to Robyn’s “Be Mine”? We are drinking a LOT more now and we are SO COOL and DONE thinking about this. We are NOT SAD ANYMORE!!! ITS FINE!! 

Hurricane Drunk - Florence & the Machine 

Chloe is still very drunk and is now being sad on purpose. 

Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs 

Now it’s 3 am and chloe is not that drunk anymore but she is soooo so so sad. Chloe misses her girlfriend sooo much. this sucks this sucks this sucks alcohol did not help??? how come that didnt work?? 

If you wanna get creative this is the scene where chloe shows up on marinettes balcony and makes a scene and marinette takes her home and tucks her in very kindly and very platonically. 

Gotta Have You - The Weepies 

This song is on the cusp of acceptance. This playlist is admittedly like... a little depressing, especially as I write it all out - theres a lot of wrestling with self-esteem, and fighting loneliness. That’s hard. This song is tired. It’s tried everything. 

It’s the thematic foil to ‘You’re Going To Make Me Lonesome When You Go’. Both songs have the same gentle, steady rhythm. In the first, chloe was in the relationship, sad but accepting that the relationship would end. Now, she’s out of the relationship, and she just wants to be back in. But there’s a little bit of that same acceptance. 

This song feels like saying out loud what you want, and even though you can’t have it, the fact that you know what it is and you can say it feels good. 

Go Ahead - Rilo Kiley

Alright guys we’re solidly in acceptance by now. We’re out of the heavy emotional woods. We’ve made it. 

This song is bittersweet and not a truly happy one, but it holds a genuine wish for someone else’s happiness that hasn’t appeared in most of the songs in this playlist. It’s reminiscent of the wish chloe had in the first place, to end the relationship not only to protect herself but to give marinette a chance to be happy. To do a good and selfess thing. 

It’s both. It’s sad and it’s good. It’s complex. 

New Years Day - Taylor Swift 

This is the third key song. And it’s a truly beautiful one. 

This song ties us back to the beginning, and says do you remember what all this fuss is really about? What was so important that you put it in the Louvre?

Chloe is still on a team with marinette. There’s a point at which she would have to choose to cut marinette off, or... figure out something else. This song is about figuring out something else. The ‘what comes next’ of a difficult relationship. They don’t get back together, but they stay friends, even if its weird, and even when chloe feels left out or marinette doesn’t know what to say. But they want to stay in each others lives. And it’s worth the work.

A Fairytale Ending - The Boy Least Likely To 

A reflection on how difficult it is to grow and face life head on, and how it changes you.

I Wanna Get Better - Bleachers

We have to have some closure here. It’s going to be okay. 

THATS THE PLAYLIST 

Pretty somber now that I have it all written out like that. but still a great one.

#chlonette #fanmix #i spent almost exactly two hours on this post #two hours well spent #now thats what i call recreation

[mxrekai]

You see this tweet? This tweet right here?

It’s gross and I’ll tell you why, and I’ll break down the article as well because it makes me as angry as a bull.

You simply CAN NOT break these characters down to these (biased!) individual traits. And in Jason’s case, it’s not even a trait, it’s just damn slander with a photo of him dead attached to it, because DC still likes to push the narrative that it’s his fault he died. When in reality, he was a CHILD who was tricked and betrayed by his mother, and in the end still tried to save his mother who was responsible for his death. Joker and Sheila are responsible for this child’s death, NOT HIM.

These are all incredibly complex characters, with incredibly biased descriptions.

For Dick (the only one with his hero name for some reason), the oversexualized Robin by the fandom is more like it rather than ‘the cute Robin’. Which is kinda sad because he has a lot of depth that can be explored and stories that have been told that are really great (not Ric, screw that guy). Like his relationship with Bruce, his relationship with Damian, his relationship with his teams, his life outside of heroism, police life, dealing with his mental health, etc.

From what we’ve seen if I had to pick a single descriptor for him, I’d pick “The protective Robin” or “The first Robin”

Because he’s always willing to throw himself into harm's way to save others. Especially when it comes to his found family. Or the first Robin works well because he was the first. He started the whole Robin line.

For Tim, I’m sorry but I can’t really comment on Tim because I haven’t read his run yet, it’s on my to do list. But from what I have seen from other comics that include him, ‘the smart robin’ doesn’t fit very well because to be Robin they ALL had to be smart. And they all were smart Robins.

If I had to describe Tim, it would be “the detective Robin” because out of all of them, he is the best detective and is the most proficient at it.

For Damian... oh boy, I’m so sorry but he’s not my favorite Robin at all. But I know he’s complex and has depth. If anyone who reads this is a Damian stan, feel free to add onto this and tag me.

And last but definitely not least... Jason Todd.

This whole tweet and the article attached is Jason Todd slander (not what I pay for the DC Universe app for!) and a misrepresentation of his character.

“The Robin we’d like to smack some sense into.”

He👏was👏not👏a👏bad👏robin👏

He was a CHILD who just wanted to help and make a difference! He wanted to help the people in crime alley because he knew what it was like to be in that situation and he wanted to save people! When he first put on his Robin suit it gave him MAGIC. He had Robin magic but that Robin magic wasn’t enough to save him from getting beat to death by the joker.

Yes, sometimes he did not listen but that goes for EVERY robin, my girl Carrie Kelly included.

He had sense, he was also a child who made mistakes! Like all the other Robins!

Then he was brought back under the WORST possible circumstances, to come back and find out his death had little to no impact (unbeknownst to him of Bruce’s grief). Then go under some intense training, deal with pit madness, have his mind tainted with, then grow some problems with the man he loved who took care of him. His father.

If I had to pick a label for Jason? It’d be the discarded Robin. He was this boy who was thrown away by the fandom at the time by murder. Then like a broken toy, the writers proceeded to get a new Robin.

Or the redeemed Robin. When Jason was reborn as Red Hood, overtime he became a fan favorite in the DC community. Even won DC’s sexiest man. He was hated at first but is now loved by many.

Heck, maybe even that label because he’s grown from his first resurrection so much. Instead of being angry at the world, he’s now chosen to accept what happened to him and even reconcile his relationship with his family.

Or even the

Now onto the article...

Holy moly, this article sucked all the life out of me until I was left DCeased (get it?). It is way too obvious an angry stan wrote this.

Oh. My. God.

How is this in any way Jason’s fault? I don’t recall him having the ability to write his own comic book? This is the writers fault, not Jason’s.

Onto the second one.

Okay, sure it was rude to interrupt them, I’ll give them that one. But I’m also pretty sure Jason’s insert was for comedic effect. Tons of comic books have these moments.

I had to laugh at the “SO NATURALLY JASON TODD DID SOMETHING ANNOYING TO INTERRUPT IT” it’s just, damn. This article just reeks of bitterness.

This one confused me, so I went to go read the comic book that they were talking about. This, once again, was intended to be a comedic moment. Jason was simply expressing his excitement for going to go to the Gotham library so he blurts our “Holy Gutenberg!”. Bruce spins him around and tells him to never do that again. Even Jason’s confused on why he doesn’t like the reference. I think this is simply comedy, such as when he threatens to fire Carrie if she moved the batplane in the animated movie.

If a crowbar was right there Bruce NEVER would have grabbed it to hurt Jason over a REFERENCE. No sane person would.

Let’s look at the keywords here,

“Nightwing took a heavy dose of Scarecrow’s fear gas and had an extended nightmare about an alternate life.”

Once again, YOU WANT TO BEAT JASON UP FOR SOMETHING OUT OF HIS CONROL, AND NOT HIS FAULT? TO TOP IT OFF, NOT REAL?

Want someone to blame? Blame Scarecrow and the fear toxins for making Dick see all that. This was an alternate dream reality, no characters were in control or even there.

Yknow what, valid. Honestly, I’m pretty sure the heroes there have memorials elsewhere as well and Jason only got that robin suit on display (which was honestly more so to remind Bruce of his failure and make himself feel guilty), but fair.

CONCLUSION

In conclusion, this better have been some abstract marketing (which I hope it was) for the new Death in the Family movie coming out.

All in all, the Jason slander from DC was infuriating and frankly unnecessary. He deserves so much better because once again, he is a complex character who deserves a deep dive. 

Please remember that this is just my two cents/opinion, and it is totally okay if you disagree with anything I said here. 

Have a good day :)

#Jason Todd #Tim Drake #Dick Grayson #Nightwing #Red Hood #Red Robin #Carrie Kelly #I saw this tweet and got to WORK #this was longer than expected #that dive on the article was improvised #We don't stand for Jason Todd slander in this household #Or Dick or Tim slander

[sunshine-alice]

Prompt: "Don't say goodbye (again)."

00:15 AM:

Oikawa don't drunk text Toru: hey, could you give me a ride from the airport, like, right now? Terminal 3? U still live in tokyo, right? - toru <3

You stared at your phone, unsure whether to be more disgruntled by your ex-boyfriends blatant request after ages of radio silence or the obnoxious (but characteristic) use of the heart emoji.

Two years ago, the short but intense affair you have had with the volleyball pro player had ended rather abruptly when he got a last-minute offer from a club in Argentina.

You were aware that you had absolutely no business being sulky about his sudden departure, after all, what the two of you had could hardly be considered a committed relationship.

Despite that, unwelcome thoughts of “what if...” whenever he contacted you from overseas made you let your conversations fizzle out slowly until at some point, they stopped completely.

You allowed yourself 5 minutes of consideration, fingers ghosting over the keyboard of your phone without touching the cold display.

00:21 AM:

will be there in 45

Barely 10 minutes went by as you slipped out of your pyjamas into somewhat presentable clothing, did your hair, put on some light make up and left the underground parking of the apartment complex in your shiny black company car.

Given the late hour, traffic had mostly died down and you reached the expressway directed to the airport in no time while trying very hard to focus on driving and not think about what was to come, the butterflies in your belly flustered enough as is.

You pulled up at the pick-up area at 1:00 AM to the tick. Toru was hard to miss, standing at the sidewalk accompanied by two suitcases and clothed in a fashionable (and undoubtedly designer) winter coat

Courtesy of the tinted car windows, he didn't recognize you immediately. You pressed a button on the centre console and the passenger seat window slid down without a sound, revealing you to the outside world.

“You owe me for this, just so you know.” You leant over to the open window and into Toru's field of view.

The man's eyes widened a little with recognition and a disarming smile appeared on his face.

“Anything, sweetheart. You have no idea how happy I am to see you.”

Without comment, you pushed another button and the trunk opened with a click. Toru loaded in his luggage and the coat, closed the trunk and proceeded to fall into the leather seat on the passenger side.

“Nice ride. Life treating you good?”

He turned on the seat heater and connected his phone to the car's entertainment system. A bassy R&B song started playing.

You shrugged non-committally and glanced over to him as you pulled back on the road.

“I guess you could say so. But you know how it is with me, I'm hard to please.”

He looked great, which didn't come as a surprise, his hair a little shorter and a shade lighter, his skin tan and smooth as per usual. You swallowed and pointedly ignored the fluttering in your chest.

“I wouldn't put it like that,” he sounded amused, “You've always been remarkably... ambitious. It's something I find very captivating about you.”

Out of the corner of your eye you saw him eyeing you up. He seemed pleased.

“We're headed to the Hyatt, by the way.”

You bit your lip, fingers thrumming on the steering wheel. Things went exactly as expected, Toru sweet-talking you and you reacting like a lovestruck lamb that had found it's way back to the shepherd.

“Don't take this the wrong way. We left on good terms and I like doing you a favour. You don't have to massage my ego in return.”

“Left on good terms? That's what you call it? Please darling, nobody ever ditched my like you did. What happened to let's stay friends, let's keep talking no matter what? You're lucky I don't carry grudges.”

You laughed outright at his bantering complaints.

(never before in you life you had met someone as unforgiving as Oikawa Toru)

“In that case, the fact that you ask a cold hearted bitch like me to give you a ride must mean you're really pining for me,” you said, not entirely serious either.

“Joking aside – I'm... not great at staying in contact long-distance. Talking to you reminded me of the good times we had together and on bad days, I missed those too much for my own good. I'm sorry if I hurt you.”

The mood shifted while you spoke and you could nearly hear Toru pondering your explanation. Inadvertently, you wondered if you had revealed too much.

“I do that too, you know. Miss that thing we had.” He stretched in his seat beside you. “But that's not how it has to be. I'm here right now, and so are you, and we could make this count – if you want us to.”

Without replying, you pulled into an open space next to the impressive building that housed the Tokyo Hyatt and the low rumbling of the car engine lapsed into silence.

Toru took your hand. His skin felt familiar on yours, like it would with an old lover, and simultaneously electrifying, like on a first date.

You turned your head towards him and were met with eyes that sucked you right into their depths, and you fell deeper and deeper every passing second.

“I'm serious about this. Please don't say goodbye again. Don't let this be the end. We deserve more.”

A knock on the driver's side window dragged you back into reality and with frantic movements, you reached for a button and the window slid down, revealing a middle-aged man in a posh uniform – a valet.

“Would you like me to park your car in our underground parking garage, madam? We guarantee twenty-four-seven monitoring and the best care.”

The next morning, your car was squeaky clean and the interior smelled like expensive detergent.

This post is part of the drabble challenge.

#haikyuu #hq x reader #oikawa toru x reader #oikawa x reader #1k words drabble #oikawa toru #haikyuu x reader #oikawa tooru #oikawa tooru x Reader #oikawa x you

[ancienticecream]

The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System: Final Thoughts [EDITED]

Finished the main novel of Scum Villain's Self-Saving System this evening - still have the extras to go. Overall impression? It's clearly MXTX's first attempt at a novel - it certainly doesn't have the storytelling power of Mo Dao Zu Shi - but it was definitely entertaining. Spoilers below the cut.

The story follows a familiar plot device found in a lot of anime and games - a person is sucked into a book/TV show/game and becomes part of the canon world. In this case, it's Shen Yuan, an incel-type who obsessively reads "stallion novels" - male power and sex fantasies in which a Gary Stu-ish hero commits acts of over-the-top violence and has plenty of sex with a harem of women. The book he’s reading as the story begins is Proud Immortal Demon Way, which follows the exploits of the half-demon Luo Binghe as he collects women, defeats men, and eventually unites the human and demon worlds - physically. Shen Yuan finds the plot preposterous even by stallion standards, and he loudly criticizes the book with what turns out to be his dying breath. (The novel implies Shen Yuan has been ill for some time, the donghua had him choke to death on a meat bun). His soul is thus drawn into the book by a mysterious cyber-entity called The System, where he is given the chance to reform the plot from within. The catch: He doesn't fuse with the protagonist of the novel. Instead, he is dumped into the body of the villain, Shen Qingqiu - whose fate in the original canon was literally to be torn limb from limb by the hero. (The donghua softens this by having him imprisoned in a pickle pot instead). His mission: Transform Shen Qingqiu from a villain to a sympathetic character without going OOC. If he fails, he will be either sent back to his home world - where his body is already dead - or suffer the fate of the original villain.

As one might imagine, the result is filled with humor. Shen Yuan - who immediately begins to think of himself as Shen Qingqiu - fights a constant battle with The System, clashes with other characters and keeps up a running mental commentary on his situation. Slowly, he begins to change things - a character who should have died having his life spared here, a bully getting his comeuppance there. And above all, he seeks to improve his relationship with Luo Binghe - who, at this point, has not discovered his demon heritage and is a sweet and agreeable disciple who was abused by the original Shen Qingqiu. Things turn around, however, when Shen QIngqiu finds himself having to commit an act of cruelty that The System will not let him out of. From here, the fates of both Shen Qingqiu and Luo Binghe are dramatically reshaped - as is the world around them.

The best thing about this novel is watching Shen Qingqiu mature before the audience's eyes. He may not have the depth of Wei Wuxian or Xie Lian, but we see him go from your typical "netizen" - someone with a huge entitlement complex and a need for gratification - to a person who has love at the center of his life, and is willing to sacrifice for that love. It's his growing up that reshapes the novel world around him, until it literally changes genres from "stallion" to "danmei." One of the best sequences is when he's able to view scenes from the past of the original Shen Qingqiu and suddenly understand the actions of the villain he had despised when he was a mere reader. By the end of the book, he's dropped his notions of a black and white world and realized that anyone can be a hero or villain - you are literally in control of your own story. The whole thing is both a commentary on creating your own reality and MXTX's Valentine to fanfiction authors, and how their tinkering with canons can completely transform the orignal.

Another thing I liked was how she emphasized the “We’re all people, and believing stereotypes and rumors of others are bad” theme (which would also be at the heart of MDZS) by making her antagonists OBJECTS, rather than humans or demons - in the end, the villains were a mind-controlling sword and an obnoxious computer.

As for the sex (really closer to rape) scene at the book’s climax . . I originally had a lot to say about that in the first draft of this review, but I’m just going to say this: It was necessary to the plot and I can see why it was deliberately unpleasant to read, but it was also the most problematic thing in the book and I’m glad that the donghua will, out of necessity, be taking that scene in a different direction.

Overall, though, I enjoyed the book, despite that one major flaw. It's not an all-time classic like MDZS, but it doesn't deserve its status as the poor stepchild of the MXTX canon, either.

By the way, Team Donghua has been doing an excellent job with this material so far, and I am very much looking forward to the rest of the series. (One plot point from the original that will never make it into the donghua is the running gag about Shen Qingqiu and Luo Binghe being the subject of a popular bawdy ballad. That was damn funny and a telling commentary on memes and rumormongering. It's a shame that they can't use it in the animated version.)

#svsss #scumbag system #mxtx

[perseusjackson-jasongrace]

Hi C!!! It's meeee

Anyway I don't know why but I just kinda want to put this out in the world. You got me on Jercy (I'm not kidding I hated Jercy before you) but Percabeth is my OG ship like they started me ok fanfics and they're like my first real ship period. And I hate all the hate Annabeth gets because I really love her so I just wanted to ask you if you could go more in depth with why you aren't big on her/Percabeth please

Love you!! ❤❤

Hi my Gretch seeing your username (on any of the platforms) makes me forever and eternally happy. Okay onto this beautiful, intense ask:

First things first: I love Annabeth. Like Annabeth as a character? wonderful, incredible, unreal. She is so versatile and full of so many things that make us human and I see her character and character arc as a complex web full of intricacies and weaknesses (yes i said web on purpose).

My favourite things about her:

1. She always has a goal, whether it be long term or, I'm just trying to stay alive in this second. For people like me who kind of go through life on vibes and a vague sense of what they want it is awing to read about and meet people who have solid, planned goals that they live, breathe, and perform by.

2. She is proud of her friends. Since her fatal flaw is pride it is very easy to see the downfall but there is also an upside in that she uses that well of pride as an extension of her and it reflects on others. We know she is proud of Percy, and grover, and Thalia, and why Luke’s betrayal hit so hard for her

3. She continues to break stereotypes. Not just as the dumb blonde (which was admittedly a big thing at the time of the book’s release) but also in her being a girl who saves herself, who goes on the dangerous quests, who isn’t helpless. I never had a lack of female role models in my life but adding Annabeth to the mix only did me more good.

4. She thinks things through: I am kind of impulsive when it comes to certain aspects in my life and I have some thought process for other parts but Annabeth is not impulsive. As much as she has ADHD, in which impulsivity is fairly common, she doesn’t present with it. And it’s refreshing and exciting to see this character that thinks through plans and decisions and tries to predict the outcome, not only so she can change it if need be but also to prepare herself for what is to come. Narratives (especially at the time of those books) were full of impulse and quick decisions and always being on the spot. Hell Percy was exactly this kind of narrtator. And while I love dit because I mean what ten year old doesn't love fast-paced intense excitement? it was so truly wonderful to read about someone who thought further. It allowed you to connect to the next page, chapter, book. 

5. She is a complete badass. And I love it. I love badass women. I could never get enough of them and I think they should rule the world. And I love smart people. I love them. Smartness, intelligence, is so attractive to me. Because it means you have passion, and the ability to think beyond your surroundings. Annabeth Chase is hella smart.

What I've been having a crisis over for the last few years is Percabeth. It is summed up most accurately here but just to continue my thought:

Rick changed the percabeth dynamic so much in HOO that it became almost unrecognisable. I think in the bid to have this whole, everyone is a couple and everyone deserves someone (which boosted Leo’s narrative but was also the cause of great conflict in everyone else’s narrative expect percabeth) he forgot to make them friends. And that was the basis of percabeth. It was the reason percabeth were so godsdamn cute in PJO. Because they were friends who ended up becoming a couple. In HOO they were just a couple. And it sucked out the life of their friendship so that we could only focus on their relationship.

And unfortunately it is Annabeth’s narrative that really brings this home for multiple reasons (all of which we can blame Rick for):

1. This is the first time we got other points of view beside Percy which means everyone’s flaws were much more obvious. Annabeth’s fatal flaw specifically was really played (the entire reason she went on that Mark of Athena quest; why  they landed up in Tartarus). it made focusing on her harder especially because Percy’s Fatal flaw is loyalty so he spent a lot of his narrative focusing on others. this one is mostly my bias as I prefer to have a character’s narrative that also focuses on the happenings of others with the characters personal thoughts. Annabeth was the kind of narrator who focused on herself first. 

2. The entirety of HOO was about relationships. Rick didn’t bother to form any actual friendships with any of the characters (something he was undoubtedly great at in PJO) so when we got to percabeth scenes it was things like: Piper being jealous of them; Percy being worried about them; Annabeth being worried about Percy as a person or herself in her quest; Leo being sad that he was alone; etc. It made liking any of the couples extremely hard.

3. As you (and my other Tumblr babies) may know I don't believe Percy and Annabeth’s fatal flaws work well together. I think Percy is often the one to sacrifice himself and Annabeth sacrifices her wants (material things) and it is not the same. Percy is loyal to Annabeth. But Annabeth’s pride continues to rule her life. For example, if Percy had gotten in the way of Annabeth rebuilding Olympus I fully believe she would have attempted (at the very least) to get rid of him. I don't necessarily mean kill him I just mean he wouldn’t have been in her life. Don’t get me wrong this does not mean she did it or there was even a possibility that she could have. but the reason for that is because Percy is loyal to her. So he wouldn’t have gotten in the way of her dreams. And I think there’s something fundamentally dangerous about sacrificing yourself for someone else’s dreams. If Percy became loyal-to-a-fault towards Annabeth and she then decided to join Luke’s army he would not have stopper her. In fact it’s quite possible he would have joined her. And Annabeth has so much pride for Percy, but her pride-to-a-fault does not lie in people it lies in material things. So she would have gone after her own goals if Percy did not follow. It just seems like it’s luck that they continue to work well together. Percy sacrifices himself. Annabeth sacrifices herself. But only cause their goals align. What happens when they don't?

Please do not make the mistake of thinking I hate percabeth because I don’t. I cannot hate them when those books were the heart and soul of my life for so many years. Percabeth was such a big part of them, to hate the ship, would mean to hate the books and that is absolutely not the case. Annabeth and Percy’s friendships is so important to me. 

TL:DR I love Annabeth she is an absolute badass; I am not a fan of the percabeth dynamic especially in HOO; my bias is present in everything I do. I acknowledge it and try to work to bring all the facts together.

I hope this answered your question Gretch! And do not hesitate to ask if you want me to elaborate on a anything further.

I, of course, also welcome dispute from anyone but remember we do things nicely on this blog.

#PJJG asks #Ciara's convos #gretchen things

[tora-the-cat]

Phantom Troupe Members in order of who I'd be least to most upset to see die

No one asked for it but I just want to be clear on my opinions on the phantom troupe and no one’s been able to stop me yet <3

Disclaimers:

a. if you like these characters then yes I think thats objectively funny but like. it doesn't make you a bad person, cringe culture dead, like what you like, I'm just someone on the internet, etc etc. go ahead and leave angry rants/dissmissive insults/'umm actually's/etc etc for me to not read anyway tho <3

b. I refuse to look up anything about them, including their names, because I don't care enough. And also because I'm going to spell their names from memory and then laugh when people correct me. So, like, know that I'm not messing up any of the names on purpose, and might not mess them up at all, but I'm not doing a joke or anything with the spelling I just really care that little

c. Also!! Mild manga spoilers?? idk why you would care because it's literally just about the phantom troupe but if that bothers u for some reason then goodbye have a nice day <3 this WILL spoil deaths that I'm pretty sure happened. Maybe. No I haven't read the manga I have ADHD and haven't properly hyperfixated on HxH since I was 13 and didn't know what Manga was.

d. I lied through my teeth! I'm a Gemini bitch, if someone somehow actually cares enough about my correct opinions about the goddamned phantom troupe to leave a mean comment I'm absolutely going to read it.e. also if u actually somehow want to talk about the phantom troupe in a civil way (excluding H*soka) PLEASE hit me up. I don't know if reasonable Phantom Troupe stans exisit but I assume they do and I promise I'm funny and nice and surprisingly conflict avoidant and I'd honestly luv 2 study u. I'm not mean the worst I'll do is ghost u I'm an Aquarius mars I swear <3

Hisoka. I hate this clown man so fucking much. Like he has funny moments I guess but it doesn't make up for how uncomfortable I am every time I see him. The rest of this list will be funnier because the rest of them are funny and obviously shiny plot devices and not much else, but the fact that this clown man is alive makes me so angry. Also there'd be no entertainment value left here after the emotional exhaustion I'd have complaining about Illumi and also I forgot he joined until just now, so I'm grouping these bitches together and moving on.

Chrolo Lucifer: this man is so funny purely on a fandom level. Like he has half the personality of a stale potato chip, but he's hot and does atrocities and pretends to have thoughts so he lives in everyone's head rent free any way. Not me tho because I'm sexy and cool. Anyway I want him dead purely because the reactions would be hilarious (on BOTH sides to be clear, because people celebrating his death would be almost as funny as people mourning it), it's what Kurapika and the Kurta's deserve, and there's literally no reason for him to exist other then to eventually die.

sphinx: he's just. really annoying. I can't back this up because I don't remember anything he does I just remember thinking he was annoying.

nobabunga: He was mean to the boys!!!!! It's a death sentence those are just the facts. He cried and I gave a nice good chuckle. I want him 2 die then never get mentioned again until Illumi offhandedly mentions that he's Kikyo's brother or cousin or somehting so Kalluto can inherit his swords. Not because they should use them just because I think Kalluto deserves swords and also it would inspire a wave of people caring about Nobaunga WAY too much (one group hating him on principal for being a member of the Zoldyk family, one group deciding he's a Big Brother Icon and reimagining him having a cute and hillariously out of character relationship with Illumi/Kalluto/Killua/Gon, and a mix of the two pumping out psycology breakdowns with entirely too much time and effort put into them, none of which I will watch but each of which will add a week onto my lifetime out of the pure amused euphoria of knowing they exist).

Franklin: Boring. He's in the phantom troupe he can do better then overplayed-frankenstein-aesthetic and bullet fingers. uninspired. At least everyone else sucks in an interesting way.

Uvo: I can't lie his fight scenes were actually pretty dope, and I HAVE to admit that it is HILARIOUS just how much work Togashi put into overpowering/hyping up Uvo, specifically so he could have an established baseline for exactly how incomprehensibly and overwhelmingly excessive Kurapika's will and hatred is. Also that demi lavato AMV of his and Kurapika's fight is just free dopamine. Glad he's dead but he was funny while it lasted and I can appriciate what he gave to the story.

boxing gloves. I know nothing about them (including their name). They might already be dead in the manga but I don't think so.

Pakunda. I don't know how to elaborate on her bc I don't care about her all that much but some part of me can't help but kind of like her a little? I dunno. her loyalty would almost be commendable if it wasn't to Chr*llo.

Pheiten. his character concept and design is literally 'what if we combined Levi and Aizawa and then made him super fucked up' which is impressive because he was made like two decades before either of them. can't justify putting him this far up the list either because he's honestly kinda boring and overplayed but he looks cool and he's funny in a 'what the fuck is wrong with you??' way so here he is.

Kortopi. No I won't elaborate. Yes I know they're dead and I have no significant emotions about this besides >:I

Shizuku. She's cute and she has ADHD and plinky(?) the vaccum is one my favorite nen-things in the show. I'd love to study her and I honestly like her a bit more then I want to.

Machi. I love her specifically because she hates Hisoka. That's all she needs to get a pass in my book. doesn't hurt that she has pink hair and the closest thing to resembling common sense in the group. If Hisoka kills her I'll riot because she doesn't deserve that but if anyone else does it that's fine.

shalnark should be the leader of the Spiders, there, I said it. he embodies them and their narritive purpose and their nonexistant philosophy and arbitrary but unshakable rules and their faux 'emotional depth and complexity' that so many people buy into. He's so funny I love him so much. Like cholo is out here trying to double major in philosophy and theology and fooling thousands into thinking theres a single thought in his head meanwhile Shalnark's only personality trait is being a buisness major with no empathy, and if he was in charge the phantom troupe would loose all of the ambiguity people somehow beleive they have. Like Shalnark is played so straight that I can't help but lowkey love him. Kurta theory is fun in a fucked up way like tfw u become emblamatic of the group you helped kill your clan and you didn't even know because you live in meteor city. Yes I know he's dead and yes it's the closest I've ever come to caring about the troupe and yes it took me three whole days to get over it. Not my best moment I'll admit.

For the record if Kalluto dies I'm going to have at least one mental breakdown. Fuck you.

#hxh #phantom troupe #hisoka tw #hisoka #illumi zoldyck #chrollo lucilfer #phinks #shalnark #nobunaga hxh #franklin hxh #uvogin #pakunoda #kortopi #shizuku hxh #machi #kalluto zoldyck #luv u bby

[raindropsonwhiskers]

…Danny pink?

Favorite thing: He's a really complex character and I love how much depth he has

Least favorite thing: ...when he's allowed to have it. So much of the time he got sidelined and minimized by Clara and Twelve's messy relationship, and it sucked

Favorite line: I can't remember the exact line or ep, but when he calls the Doctor out for his impact on people,,

brOTP: Uh. Does Danny have any canon friendships/repeated interactions with people other than Clara and the Doctor??

OTP: He deserves better than Clara's attempts at clinging to normality with him, so... Danny and someone who appreciates him

nOTP: ???

Random headcanon: I feel like he's a really good teacher honestly. He's probably good at helping kids work through problems and understand them

Unpopular opinion: As above, he deserves better than Clara because she was in no fit state for a relationship with him

Favorite pic: Pass, because all I can think of is Cyber-Danny and that one hurts :(

#ask games #doctor who #dw

[tbhwhocaresanymore]

Nancy Drew 1x16

Oh my God you guys it has been so long since I have been able to watch a show that is so well written that has clearly been planned out from the beginning where the viewers have been able to theorize and have it pay off and Jesus Christ it is GLORIOUS. If I ever write for a show I would want to work with these writers on a show like this.

Before anything else let me start off gloating that I started calling Nancy as Lucy and Ryan’s daughter back around episode 9 or 10 and I am so fucking vindicated right now, I have been riding an otherwise unattainable high nonstop for the past three days. @kat--writes is this how you feel when you accurately predict things??? Because it feels AMAZING.

For the rest of the episode first can I just say how horribly tragic Lucy Sable is? Kudos to the writers because it was a stunning plot twist that I never saw coming but for some reason it’s almost worse than a murder to me? If for no other reason than how it has affected and will continue to affect everyone around her. Ryan who is now going to be even more guilt ridden about not getting to the ice cream parlor on time, Karen and Josh trying to avenge a murder that never even happened, Tiffany Hudson who died for nothing, Nancy who will be forever wondering if her mother slipped and fell or if she really did kill herself right after Nancy was born because if anything will give you an abandonment complex it’s that.

And hearing Carson say what happened that night with Lucy (PHENOMENAL acting by the way, maybe best scene of the season so far) makes rewatching the earlier episodes, especially 7/8 where Nancy was accusing Carson of murdering Lucy so much more tragic. This girl who he and his wife clearly cared for and felt sympathy for, begging him with her last words to take care of her daughter, knowing he looked away for less than two seconds and probably spending weeks if not months if not years questioning if he’d just looked up a half a second sooner if maybe Lucy would still be alive. Seeing Lucy’s daughter, his daughter, accuse him of murdering Lucy had to be a gut punch and it gives his character so much more depth. I just hope this doesn't put too much of a strain on his relationship with Nancy because they have finally gotten to such a good place and as far as Carson is concerned Nancy is his daughter, and he wasn’t trying to lie to her about Lucy. All he was trying to do was respect Lucy’s dying wish and protect her from the Hudsons. I mean he was willing to go to prison for murder before admitting what happened on the bluffs that night, that should count for something.

Moving away from the Shakespearean levels of tragedy for a moment.

God I fucking KNEW Owen was shady I have known it since the beginning. Granted I do not have absolute confirmation yet BUT: him being in his car outside the Claw when he said he would be out of town, holding a piece of Lucy Sable’s skull? (As far as the skull goes though, loved that bit of Bess/George/Nick teamwork to casually hide it from the cops.) Creepy bastard, thy name is Owen. I have no idea how it will play out yet but I hope to God that it will. But also that is going to be a bit of a blow to Bess, finding out her cousin is whatever he is, and also Nancy who literally just had sex with him.

Speaking of.

Much as it pains me to admit, the writers are clearly taking several steps away from Nancy x Nick for the moment, probably to give Nick x George a fighting chance. Side question. Why is Nick sleeping on a couch when he has over four and a half million dollars? Like he could afford to build a house with that much money. But I digress. I think it will be good for George to have a love interest who is A her own age and B not married, especially someone who she already had a good friendship with. Maybe since Owen is a Confirmed Shady Motherfucker the writers will either keep Nancy single for awhile or pair her up with Ace because their chemistry is off the charts. And as long as we’re on the romance topic, Bess. BESS. My sweet queer daughter. Where are Lisbeth and Amaya? Last time we saw Lisbeth they admitted they were kind of falling in love and slept with each other, last (and first) time we saw Amaya I fell in love and she and Bess had more chemistry than a high school sophomore. GIVE ME MY ON SCREEN BESS ROMANCE DRAMA WRITERS. And am I the only one who finds it a little bit weird that Bess is apparently so good at other people’s relationships when she has never really had one before?

I’m going to take a quick minute to be sad about Nancy x Nick so if you don’t like that you can skip this paragraph. NED NICKERSON. How the FUCK can you be so totally fine with Nancy sleeping with Owen when you two are clearly soulmates and you never liked him anyway? After the inevitable Owen betrayal possibly one of two things will happen with Nancy. She will regress and start to push people (read: love interests) even further away than before, OR she will finally really start to open up to Nick and they will find their way back to each other. Admittedly the second one is unlikely since Nick and George literally just got together but you never know. Just as long as Nick doesn’t cheat on George with Nancy because those two are finally friends and are really good friends to boot, and also George deserves way better especially post Ryan Hudson affair debacle. Maybe she and Nancy can bond over having shady not good for them older boyfriends.

On the topic of Ryan being Nancy’s biological dad every time George complains about Nancy asking favors I want her response to be “you had sex with my dad” every time.

Now we will talk about the promo for the as of now untitled next episode and also what the rest of the season and possibly season 2 have planned.

In episode 17 Ryan will clearly be Going Through Some Stuff, and will also find out that Lucy was pregnant. Whether he realizes she had the baby or thinks it died with her remains to be determined, but that shot of Nancy with a busted lip and her hair cut off in a car being driven by Ryan makes me think maybe he snaps and kidnaps her? It’s a bit of a stretch but it would certainly be interesting. I think we’re also going to see more of the Aglaeca coming after Nancy for not paying the toll, because for a minute we can see Nancy sort of choking and putting her hand to her throat like she’s about to throw up again. Maybe it’s going to keep coming after Nancy until they finally let the Aglaeca have Owen, or maybe its going to try to kill Nancy as punishment for saving Owen. I don’t know but I can’t wait to find out.

For the rest of the season/next season there are a couple threads not related to Ryan finding out Nancy is his daughter. There’s the new detective but I’m not talking about him. Joshua Dude, Lucy’s brother. He is still out and about wherever he is, and does not know his sister killed herself. This will probably not exonerate Ryan in his mind as Ryan’s family is part of what drove Lucy to suicide. Maybe he will come back and decide to sort of take revenge on A the Hudsons or B the town of Horseshoe Bay as revenge for what they did to Lucy. (Sort of like the Black Hood from Riverdale but you know, well done.) There is also Everett Hudson. Last time I checked he had just been arrested for sinking the Bonny Scot and racketeering and insurance fraud and stuff, what the hell is he doing at a yacht club? I can only assume he got out on bail so maybe we will see Nancy (possibly together with Ryan) work to put him behind bars for good. Maybe Carson Drew will finally leverage some of that dirty laundry he has on the Hudsons, or better yet that Grecian urn thing Ryan has will finally be put to good use. And then in the future although there is zero proof of this I still want A for George to become clairvoyant/psychic like her mother and B for George and Bess to be cousins. I don’t think I’m asking for too much here.

Finally, because of how much of a staple character he is in the books I refuse to accept that Chief McGinnis is gone for good. My very being rebels against it. But before you scream at me about how different the show is from the books (those two or three of you who have read the books anyway) even if he were an original character I would want him to stay. He is a fantastic character, he was just starting to get depth, I adore his relationship with Ace and on top of everything else he’s good Native American representation.

I ALSO WANT VICTORIA TO COME BACK. I HAVE NOT SEEN HER SINCE 2019. WTF WRITERS. YOU CAN’T JUST MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH A DYSFUNCTIONAL PSYCHIC ALCOHOLIC MOTHER LIKE THAT AND THEN ONLY PUT HER IN TWO EPISODES.

Dead Lucy should also continue to stick around, maybe she can teach Nancy how to hang from ceilings or they can bond over how much Everett Hudson Sucks. It’s just that Lucy spent all this time trying to show Nancy that she is her biological mother, and for her to move on after sticking around for 20 years right after Nancy learns the truth? It would be too - and I fully recognize I have used this word too many times but I am going to use it again - tragic.

The wait for April 8 is going to be an agony unlike any other but at least after it comes back there will only be six episodes left, and so it is very unlikely the show will go on another hiatus before the season is up. Let me know what you guys think will happen in season 2/the rest of season 1.

#Nancy Drew #Nancy Drew cw #George Fan #Bess Marvin #Lucy Sable #Dead Lucy #Ned Nickerson #the haunting of Nancy Drew #Ryan Hudson #Carson Drew #Nick x Nancy #Nick x George #Nancy x Owen #sorta Nancy x Ace #if you squint

[exhaustedfander]

When is Enough Enough? [Chapter One]

Since I’ve begun to write a fun little sequel to this fic, I’ve decided to post all of the chapter up on Tumblr, but you can also find the fic, as well as all of my other works, on my ao3. 

The first chapter of the sequel First Comes Love is up now as well.  I’d love to hear what you think! 

Teaser to Story:

“When is enough going to be enough?”

“Remus, please, if you could just attempt to understand where I’m coming from–.”

“Oh, excuseee me. I’m so sorry I’m not “understanding where you’re coming from”. He’s my fucking brother! You won’t even let me tell my brother that we’re together!”

For a moment, Logan felt the urge to take a step backwards, as though he was a frightened animal being backed into a corner. Of course, that was ridiculous. Logan and Remus were merely having a…conversation. In all fairness, most conversations didn’t include this much yelling, but surely things would be fine.

“I – I just need more time. I apologize. I’m not ready.” Anger flashed in Remus’s emerald eyes as he took a step closer to Logan, throwing his hands in the air.

“I can’t fucking do this anymore, Logan!"

1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / Epilog 

Chapter One

“When is enough going to be enough?”

“Remus, please, if you could just attempt to understand where I’m coming from–.”

“Oh, excuseee me. I’m so sorry I’m not “understanding where you’re coming from”. He’s my fucking brother! You won’t even let me tell my brother that we’re together!”

For a moment, Logan felt the urge to take a step backwards, as though he was a frightened animal being backed into a corner. Of course, the notion was ridiculous. Logan and Remus were merely having a...conversation. In all fairness, most conversations don't include this much yelling, but surely things would be fine.

“I – I just need more time. I apologize. I’m not ready.” Anger flashed in Remus's emerald eyes as he took a step closer to Logan, throwing his hands in the air.

“I can’t fucking do this anymore, Logan! I said that I’d give you a couple months before you were ready to talk about us being together…but it’s been six now!”

“Seven…”

“What?” Logan swallowed the lump that was beginning to form in his throat.

“It’s, uh, actually been seven months now. Seven months today.” Remus barked out a laugh, the sound bitter and thick with frustration.

“Seven months. Jesus Christ.”

“I…I know it’s not a specifically celebrated time-frame, but I was going to surprise you. I wanted to take you out for a meal tonight.”

“What? Like you actually want to be seen in public with me?” Logan blinked in confusion.

“What are you talking about?” Remus shook his head, running a hand through his already frazzled hair and laughed bitterly.

“Well, it’s obvious that you don’t give a shit about me. I’m an idiot for not realizing it sooner…maybe Roman was right when he said I was the stupid twin.”

“Sweetheart, no – what? Of course I care about you, what are you going on about?” Confusion swirled in Logan’s head. Today had started out so ordinary, how could things worsen so rapidly? It was as though every word he uttered continued to damage the situation, so much so that if felt like Remus was near a breaking point. But what did that mean for him?

“Oh don’t sweetheart me, Logan!” He pointed an accusing finger at his boyfriend, pressing it into his chest,“You know exactly what I’m talking about!”

“I – I don’t –.”

“You don’t want to tell your friends about us? Fucking fine! I can handle that. But Roman? My brother? I know he and I don’t exactly get along most of the time, but have you ever considered my feelings in all this? Had you considered that maybe, I was happy to be your boyfriend? Maybe I wanted to tell my brother that I was in a loving, good relationship with someone who didn’t treat me like shit for once?” Logan felt as though the air has been sucked from his lungs.

“Was?” Remus set his arms at his side, sighing loudly and taking a step away from Logan.

“Yeah, was. I don’t know if I can do this anymore. I mean, seven fucking months. Do you recognize all of the things I’ve held back? All of the hesitations I’ve demonstrated just to protect your feelings? Feelings that so much of the time you pretend you don’t even have.”

“Rem–.”

“And you should know me well enough by now to know that I do not enjoy hesitating. I speak my fucking mind, and now I’m speaking it!”

“Remus,” Logan struggled to dislodge the name from his throat, his voice coming out far weaker than he intended, “Please, I apologize. Let’s just try and be rational about all this.”

“Oh you threw logic out the window a long time ago, baby. You’ve kept this hidden for too long and it’s driving me insane. But that’s probably what you think, right? I’m insane. I’m too much to handle.”

“Now, I never said anything like that!”

“Ah, but you didn’t have to! You think I don’t know what I’m like? I’m loud, I’m obnoxious, I always say what’s on my mind. I’m crude. I’m nothinglike you, and maybe I’m an idiot for thinking this could work.”

Logan's mind was consumed by panic. He felt himself floundering, desperately trying not to drown in the despair that had fallen over both of them. He'd had no idea that Remus had been thinking this way about himself, about their relationship. he hadn't seen the insecurity deserving beneath crude humor and silly smiles. The movements where Remus had hesitated for just a fraction of a moment before kissing him, the look of unease that had set itself into his features over the last few months. How couldn't he have known? How could he be so dull?

“Remus, I…I don’t think about you in any of the ways you’ve described. The aspects of your personality are things that I love about you. Sincerely and truly. I’m sorry I’m – I’m just so…concerned about your relationship with Roman. You two are already on such bad terms, I feel as though revealing our relationship could worsen things. I would never want to be the cause of such a thing.”

Remus let out a sigh that sounded so heartbroken Logan's hand instinctively recoiled from his boyfriend's shoulder, falling limp at his side.

“You’re just scared.” Logan swallowed, feeling as though his heart was being twisted in his chest, deliberate and slow.

“I…”

“You’re scared that if Roman knows about this, then it’ll be that much more real. If he knows, you can’t hide anymore. There’s no coming back from that, it’s a commitment when you get the family involved.”

“But I am committed to you. Sweetheart –.”

“I said don’t call be sweetheart!” The words eruputting from Remus were raw, having cut their way up his throat like shards of glass. Logan could no longer ignore the tears that were brewing in his lover's eyes, nor did he know how to get ride of them. In a swift motion Remus wiped his eyes on his sleeve and spun around, already heading for the door.

“I’m taking a walk.” Logan barely made it a few feet closer to him before Remus stoped dead in his tracks, still refusing to face him. "Don't you dare follow me. I can't stand the sight of you right now."

The slam of the door sent Logan reeling. He was unsure of how long he stood there, staring absently at where his boyfriend had stood.

He'd had such grand plans for how the day would be spent. he'd intended on showing Remus how much he appreciated him, how much, despite his insistence of being mostly emotionless, love he felt for him. But standing in an empty apartment with his heart beating out of his chest, the love that has infiltrated his heart is replaced with numbness.

Defeated, Logan trudged to the sofa, collapsing and throwing his head in his hands.

How can I be so cruel? 

It isn't necessarily the first time that the thought had crossed his mind. He knows that despite his best intentions, he could be thoughtless. It was a strange thing to consider, the idea of such a logic-driven man being os irrational when it comes to his emotions. But that's just the issue; the complexity of his emotions.

It had never been Logan's intention to fall in love with Remus. In fact, it all happened quite accidentally. Knowing of his and Roman's complicated relationship, when Logan first became aquatinted with Remus he'd lived up to most expectations. He was crass, tumultuous and unpredictable as Roman had described...but it seemed there were some things he'd managed to leave out.

Remus was also endlessly fascinated with the science of the human body, the mysteries of the depths of the oceans and the endless ether of Outer Space as well as so many other things that captured the attention of Logan. Logan enjoyed the enthusiasm that Remus presented when talking about topics he liked, and although he tended to jump from topic to topic at random, Logan liked that too. Remus kept him on his toes, and he had grown to adore their strange, special bond.

It was supposed to stay platonic, or at least that's what he'd told himself. But despite everything, the feelings crept in. He dwelled on fractions of accidental contact for hours, scrutinizing the brush of their hands, the feeling of Remus's eyes settled over him for a second too long. He found himself getting lost in all that Remus described, the sound of his voice becoming one of Logan's very favorite things. Eventually, much of the space of his mind was taken up with catalogs of all of the things that Remus enjoyed, his wide, at times intimidating smile, his bold laugh. Logan found himself consumed in all things Remus and when he found himself in a situation where his friends lips were inches away from his own, he surged forward, claiming all he desired despite how illogical it seemed.

He'd intended to tell Roman right away, or at least that's what he kept making himself believe. At first, their relationship had seemed more dominated by lust than romantic feelings and he was able to convince himself that this was merely a fling. But with time, the feelings gained in strength, impossible to disregard any longer.

Remus was absolutely nothing he'd envisioned in a potential partner. He was boisterous. energetic, contentedly talking about any of the ides that pop into his head, no matter how odd or random. He had a bold, headache-inducing sense of fashion - as if that neon green and pink checkered shirt could even be considered fashion of any kind. For God's sake, he had a mustache and a shock of silver running through his hair! Remus looked like a super-villain in a video game, meanwhile Logan stuck to button-downs and neckties.

By all logic, they should have been incompadible. But it seemed their relationship defied all logic Logan can fall back on, because he'd fallen hard and fast for Remus. Why then, couldn't he muster up the courage to tell Roman that he's deeply in love with his twin? Logan had told himself that it was because of the fragile state of the brother's relationship, but after the argument that just transpired, Logan was beginning to doubt the validity of that.

He wasn't ashamed of his relationship with Remus, he was sure of that. He loved him, deeply, despite all of the differences in their personality and the struggles they face. Why couldn't he bring himself to admit that Remus was the one who had captured his heart?

The thought was interrupted when Logan's phone began to chime. When he picked it up he noted that it was an unfamiliar number, as well as the fact that several hours had passed since Remus stormed out. Not being aware of the passage of time baffled Logan as he pressed 'talk' and brought the phone to his ear.

“Hello?”

“Hello, is this Logan Sanders?”

“Yes, speaking. What is this call in regard to?”

“I’m calling from Bright Orchard Hospital. Do you know a Remus Knight?” Logan felt his heartbeat begin to escalate in a matter of seconds. He clutched the phone tighter, panic swelling.

“Yes. W-what’s going on?”

“I’m afraid there’s been an accident.”

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