500kcal 62kg —> 55kg
Breakfast………… blackcoffee ☕☕☕
Afternoon………. chiken, rice, soy 500kcal
Dinner…………… tea 🍵🍵🍵
Didint workout, didint fast. Im so angry at somepeople doctor my nurse my bigsister they think they can say their opinion at situarions first, i didint fucking ask can u just listen. Two dont tell ur opinion at some things if u didint be in that situation. Tre dont u dare victimshame me or call me crazy or “just a nother teenage girl with no real problems” My nurse and my therapist are so annoying right know tey fucking victimshame me !!!! I hate this i hate this i hate this!!!!! My nurse wants me go to scool so bad yeah i get it to get a real job but almost a year ago i got raped again im not fucking ready to anything if it isint listening music or being drunk do fuck off im not fucking doing anything right the man who raped me was a subwaydrawer im not fucking going home and off the scool in a fucking subway!!!!!! And im not even had my madisonsssss yet are they even listening when i talk next time i just say SHUT UP!!! also i need to stop eating carbs this waterweight is drawkng me grazyyy also my therapist is skinnyshaming she says “skinny people are stupid and slow bc they get no nutrions” like what the fuck everybody isint skinnyfat its normla to be skinni, anyways a little rant today for u guys <3
1125kcal 61,4kg —> 55kg
Breakfast……….. blackcoffee and thinspo
Snacking……….. Candy+vitamins 300kcal
Did full body workouts and fasted 20h. I feel disgusted with those calories i missed my thic silky hair so i was like lets not eat under 500kcal today, well what an mistake i feel misrable disgusting fat piggy. I meet my nurse today the *guy one* i wanted so bad to talk about my ed but i couldnt of course. Im lonely, bored with my life i havent see any friend more than a month im depressed becayse theres literly nothing going on because my huge social axniety, and my friend big brother sells weed,hardcore drugs but he dont sell those to me *not even weed* i guess its bc im her littlesisters friend and hes literly see me hangout with her since i was like 8 years old lol xd yeah i get it but still! Not even weed :(
I went to dance school a lot as a kid, and later dance school… I was to audition for usher, as a backup dancer; but I quit bc of another extremely traumatic happening😶 I’m not an amazing dancer but I love it.
My goal is to get my stamina back up to where it was and get back in shape. I’m gna post my “workout/dance diary” here so… you have been warned 😈
Let’s start this journey again
CW 240.6 lbs
65kg —> 55kg
Today i eat too much food
Breakfast : nickocados mukbaangs
Afternoon : dryfruitcake,sandwich and coffee
Dinner : tortillas, pepsimax, candy and chips
I didint counttoday i just kinda lost it next week im gonna workout and eat really little, i didint weight my self neather it eould just make me more depressed. Today im very triggered by sexual traumas and i feel really really cross and i wanna literly just die
Wtf. I’ve been watching what I eat, drinking a shit load of water, switched to drinking my coffee black, making sure I workout at least 3 times a week…
AND IM STILL THE SAME WEIGHT I WAS 6 MONTHS AGO WHEN I STARTED!
Losing weight the healthy way isn’t working. Argh!!
I’m so frustrated.
Want to lose weight?
Just like… Break your own heart and go into a depression and not feel hungry and only eat one meal a day but remember to drink coffee and water. 🤷🏼♀️
Guess who’s back on their bullshit
Weighed in yesterday(12/02/2020) before breaking fast
So today was a vegetarian dinner with Morningstar farms veggie grillers with some Spanish rice. It’s not baaaad but it could be better. Do y’all have any suggestions on making it taste better?
Maybe if I post it on here I’ll actually do it. Tomorrow I’m going for a run and I’ll post an post run picture after it.
Im so close to getting into the 160 range!
Spent last few weeks eating like shit, not sticking with my ADF
So now I’m back at 231.8 lbs
CW-247lbs (17 stone 9lbs)
GW-147lbs (10 stone, 7lbs)
100lbs to go! Yay! Been a while since I got here. Soon, it will be in double digits and that is seriously something for me to celebrate. For absolutely ages, about 2 years or so, my goal has been losing around 130ish lbs, so to be really near minus 100 lbs to go, that is utterly fantastic for someone like me who has struggled all my life with my weight.
I have always had excuses. Ans this year has been no different, but things have changed a lot for me this year, namely my transition to a vegan lifestyle and 3 close family members dying in the space of 3 months.
Running around after my folks too as they have been unwell most the year so my weight has come off from helping them, also eating a bit less often than usual and cutting down on snacks has helped too.
I am celebrating with a few beers tonight and some vegan chocolate and then doing some extra fasting to make up for it later in the week. Roll on weight loss. I have plans to be much healthier than I am now lol
Gotta love when your father is in a pissy mood and says that if a car hit you that you would do more damage to the car then the car hitting you would do
The view of the night sky across the street from my flat underneath the streetlight before my daily/nightly walk last night