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teacheesee · 9 months

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i am your singer (zoro x reader) smut

minors DNI.

fem bodied reader, no pronouns used!

warnings: sex. unprotected sex. idk

pt1 pt2

after meeting zoro and joining the strawhats, you and zoro spend the next days getting to know each other…

“So this is where you’ll sleep.”

“Oh, this is nice! It’s really all for me?” You asked Nami, gently setting your bag down on the bed..

“Yeah, even though I’m sure you’ll be sharing eventually,” she responded with a wink as she headed to the door, pausing to lean against the frame.

“Cut it out!” you turned around, laughing at her insinuation. She smiled.

The moonlight filtered in from behind her as she watched you continue to explore your new bedroom. “He really likes you, you know,” she motioned back with a nod, “I do too. All the crew does.” She began to walk out of your view “You’re just what we needed around here, someone to liven it all up!”

You smiled at her words and sighed. Hands on your hips, you evaluated the room with an air of content. This really was a huge change. Leaving to go live with some guy after making out with him at a bar was definitely not the wisest decision you could make, but you were so glad you did. If what Nami said was true about the crew liking you around, you were happy to know the feeling was mutual.

Being stuck in a stagnant town on a small island was stifling at best. Now on the open seas, with no guarantee of what tomorrow would bring, you were filled with excitement, and every doubt you had about leaving vanished. Before you could get too wrapped up in your thoughts, you heard someone clear their throat by the door. Turning around, you met soft gray eyes.

“Hey.”

“Hey,” Zoro responded, lifting himself off the doorframe to walk to where you stood. You took a deep breath in and raised your arms to gesture around the room.

“Can you believe it! All mine!” You smiled, still thinking about your old life, abandoned for the better.

Zoro hummed a response and watched you while you walked to your bag and started putting clothes into the drawers next to your bed. He took a seat on the bed next to where you were working. In the moonlight spilling from the window across your face, he began noting your features. Beautiful, he thought.

He never really pursued people, always prioritising his goals in favor of romantic endeavors. But you. Maybe you caught him in a moment of weakness. Or maybe you were becoming the weakness itself. He was excited to find out which one it was. Either way, the silence between you two was comfortable as you worked to make the room your own.

“So, and I know we’ve done this all out of order,” you chuckled, breaking the silence, “but tell me about yourself.” Zoro moved, laying down on your bed and looking up at the ceiling, starting to tell you about himself, what he’s doing on the crew, how he met everyone, stories of their adventures so far, and eventually you’ve paused your tidywork, opting to sit next to him as you became more and more engrossed.

The hours slip away and the moonlight is replaced with that of a few lamps placed around the room. Quiet laughter and jokes that made the time pass until you noticed the sky start to brighten.

“No way! The sun is rising already,” you said, picking your head up from where you were laying next to Zoro, still talking all of the night away. He tore his gaze away from your smiling face and towards the dark blue sky.

“We should probably sleep,” he said, plopping back down next to you.

“Yeah,” you mumbled, staring from his eyes back to his lips, “we probably should.” Smirking, he cupped a hand around your jaw and pulled you into a sweet kiss. You broke away, giggling, you couldn’t help it. And he couldn’t help it either when he broke into a quiet laugh with you.

“What!” he chuckled, pulling away and looking at you, his eyes searching yours. You pulled him in for another series of light pecks, starting from his lips to his cheeks and jaw while you giggled incessantly.

“You’re delirious,” he stated, a wide smile cracking through his voice.

“I am so not! I’m just happy!” You calmed down from your fit, sighing and moving so the top of your head was tucked under his chin. “So happy,” you repeated.

His arms surrounded you and pulled you closer. Zoro wasn’t one for words, you realized, it was more through his actions that he displayed care and affection. With his arms around you, and to the sounds of his deep breathing, you fell asleep.

Waking up on a ship was different. The rocking sensation stuck to your body, and the larger waves that hugged the hull of the ship begged you to stay in bed. You stretched out, half expecting Zoro to have left at some time after you fell asleep. Your outstretched hand met his face with a slap and he shot up, half asleep and mumbling. You couldn’t repress the laugh that came from your lips.

“Sorry!” he turned to look at you and laid back down, pulling you to him as you had drifted throughout your sleep.

“Mm, morning” he grumbled.

“Morning sleeping beauty,” you ran a hand through his short green hair and he smiled.

A few minutes passed before you dared to break the silence, “We probably should get up.”

“Probably” he mumbled into your neck.

“I wanna be friends with everyone and get to know these pirates I live with for some reason now.”

“Some reason,” he repeated with a playful tone. Yawning, you got upout of his hold and rummaged through your clothes to find an outfit. You left your bedroom and went into the bathroom to change, looking in the mirror to check yourself. Presentable for your first day as a pirate, you’d say. A pirate! How exciting.

When you came out, Zoro had left. You peered to your bed where a note sat.

Crows nest.

Breakfast might be weird BTW.

Just ignore it.

-Z

Okay. Breakfast might be weird. Whatever that means. Zoro must’ve opened your window before he left because a warm breeze swirled around your room.

Breakfast was weird! Not weird in a bad way, just strangely extravagant. Sanji had prepared you a giant breakfast since he wasn’t sure of your preferences. Thanking him and leaving him to tend to a nosebleed, you left the kitchen and headed for the crow’s nest.

You walked in to see a very shirtless, very sweaty Zoro. You turned to leave, afraid you had come in at a bad time, even more afraid of what you would do or say if you stayed.

“Where you going!” He called, slightly huffing as he continued to lift some weights that looked like their weight should not be able to be supported by this ship. You paused, turning around, ignoring the blush that crawled up to your cheeks.

“Uh,” you started, trying desperately not to stare but to also not avoid his gaze. He nodded over his shoulder, “You can sit over there if you want, nice views,” he returned to his weights. You were grateful for the space he was offering you. You walked over and stood facing towards the open windows that extended a breeze into the room.

“Oh, wow,” you mumbled, taking in the scene of crystal blue water stretching for miles beyond you. As a breeze came in, you shivered.

“Cold?” You jumped and turned around, suddenly face to face with Zoro, and suddenly not cold at all. He walked to sit next to you, a white towel hung around his shoulders, the sweat that had been there wicked away. He sipped from a bottle of water while he looked out and some of it ran down his chin and neck. You gulped at the sight as he wiped it away with the back of his hand, and turned away back to the view you were sharing.

“Was breakfast weird?”

“It was, thanks for the warning,” you chuckled and looked around the room, “Are you up here a lot?” Zoro nodded.

“Gotta be if I wanna get stronger, you know.” He looked around too, “I bet we can make an area up here where you could hang out and read or whatever while I train.” You couldn’t hold back the beam that cracked through your lips at his thoughtfulness. He looked at you, shocked at your expression, a smile tracing the corners of his lips.

“What are you smiling at!?”

“You. You’re a big softie under all these muscles,” you prodded at his arm. Totally not an excuse to touch his arm. He laughed and grabbed your wrist, using his hold on you to pull you closer to him as he threw you over one shoulder, his hand settling on your waist.. You erupted into a fit of giggles and light kicks of protest.

“I can’t believe you’re doing this,” you faux-pouted.

“I swear I’m hearing something,” he scratched his head, feigning confusion.

“Shut up!” you laughed, lightly hitting your fists against his bare back. Not an excuse to touch his back, either. He concecded, letting you down in front of him, the laughter dying down now as a tension-filled silence took it’s place.

You pulled him down for a kiss, and as it deepened, the sense of lust took the place of innocence. Your lips chased eachother and his tongue sweeped your lips and you let him in, drawing him impossibly closer. You huffed as you pulled away, his thumb brushing across your swelling bottom lip.

Locking eyes, you came to a silent decision, and in unison the two of you frantically scurried down out of the crow’s nest.

Landing on the deck, Zoro grabbed your hand as you two attempted to walk very normally towards your room, although the subtle touches and grabs would definitely have given you away if anyone had happened to see you.

The door to your room had barely closed by the time Zoro had your shirt pulled over your head and discarded it somewhere on the floor. He kissed you as he walked you towards your bed, the back of your knees giving out as you hit it. He followed you as you fell gently down, kneeling between your legs.

Pulling away, he brushed hair out of your face as he looked into your eyes. “Is this okay,” he asked, a hand creeping down to your inner thigh. You met his eyes with excitement as you nodded, “Please.”

Your hands worked to pull down your shorts as you kicked them away, leaving you in only your undergarments. Your arms snaked around his bare chest to rest on his shoulders as he dipped down to kiss at your exposed thighs. You let out a surprised sound when he nipped at your skin, immeditely using his tongue to ease the pain. Noticing your growing impatience, he finally ventured to the place you wanted him to go to. Licking through your underwear, his tongue traced your slit, moaning as he got a taste of you. Hearing his sounds, you ran your hands through his hair and pulled him closer to your core. At this motion he smirked.

“You really should use your words, beautiful,” he said, “tell me where you want me to go, what you want me to do.”

“Please,” you looked away. His thick finger began to pull down your underwear, pulling your attention back towards him, his eyes pleading for you to say what you wanted.

“Please…?”

“Please Zoro, please fuck me–” you cut yourself off with a moan when his finger plunged into you without warning. He smiled, watching your face intently when his thumb came up to circle your clit. The expressions that were etched on your face were heavenly, and the hard on in his pants twitched with excitement.

“You’re so beautiful,” Zoro mumbled into you as his mouth replaced his thumb and he kissed your clit. You couldn’t help but groan when he slid another finger into you, the rough calluses on his fingers providing fraction enough for you to approach your high quickly. Feeling you tense around him, he pulled his hand away. You groaned at the sudden loss of stimulation coupled with the fading of your high. He stood up, taking off the remainder of his clothes.

“Not yet, okay beautiful? I wanna feel you around me first, and then I’ll let you come as many times as you want, that sound good?” You nodded as you pushed yourself towards the middle of the bed, him climbing over you. Zoro dipped down to kiss your neck, making sure to leave marks there for everyone to see at dinner tonight.

“How did I get so lucky,” he whispered against you, his large hands exploring your chest and abdomen while he lined himself up with your entrance.

You felt him shift against you, his dick beginning to give you back the friciton you had lost from earlier. Zoro looked up at you, and you nodded, giving him permission. He pushed in slowly, studying your face as he did, and when hints of discomfort crossed your face, he stopped for you to adjust.

A low guttural groan escaped his lips when he bottomed out.

“You’re doing so well for me, gorgeous,” he stuttered through clenched teeth. “Can I move now or do you need a second.”

Your hands wrapped to hold his muscular back, “Move, please Zoro, need you so bad.”

At your words he began to thrust into you slowly, his pace building as the time went by. He relished in the feeling of you all around him, your nails delightfully digging into his back. He leaned down to kiss you, melting together as the feeling of closeness encapsulated you both. His steady pace slowly became erratic and faster as he was nearing. He brought a hand down to rub your clit to bring you through your high first.

You moaned his name as you tightened around him, a feeling of hot bliss coursing through your veins. After hearing his name exit shamelessly from your swollen lips, Zoro’s hips stuttered as he finally let go deep inside you. He laid down on top of you while still inside, the both of you still breathing heavily. Zoro pressed a kiss to your forehead.

“If this is what being a pirate is like, then I would’ve joined a crew WAY sooner,” you laughed. He smiled and leaned up, your hands rubbing his back while he kissed you again. He really could not get enough of you.

You smiled as he pulled away, looking into your eyes. In them he swears he could see a future with you by his side as the two of you chase your dreams, but he would never say this out loud. Maybe he will one day, but not right now.

“What are you thinking about?” you asked.

“You.”

The giggle that left your lips was contagious, and Zoro couldn’t help but smile with you. You’ve become his weakness, he mused, pushing loose hairs away from your face.

“Oh,” you mumbled looking down to where you two were connected. Zoro’s eyes widened and a blush crept up his cheeks as he realized he was hard again.

“Thinking of me?”

A/N •.* okay first time writing smut be nice but also give me suggestions on what i can work on/ what you want to see from me next!! mwah bye•.*

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luveline · 1 year

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jade hi!!! i have an idea for shy reader. im thinkin eddie x shy reader and maybe corroded coffin has kind of blown up? like maybe they’re on tour or just an occasional big stadium gig. but r always comes even tho she is like very sound sensitive (do u hear me projecting) it is not her space at all but she still comes for him <3 like soundchecks and things she has like earplugs in but is still the most proud gf. idk!!! lov u

hi!!!! love u i hope this was a req cos I took it as one!! sound sensitive and shy reader with rockstar eddie is a seemingly unlikely pair but so cute!! fem!reader♡ suggestive

Eddie says you can sit wherever you like during soundcheck, whether that be sidestage, by the barrier, up in the VIP section balcony, or even just plain centre stage with him and the boys. Which is ridiculous because you'll definitely be in the way if you do, but he has awfully convincing reasoning.

"I'm gonna marry you," he says succinctly. "If people aren't used to seeing you by my hip by now they will be eventually."

So you don't go sit up on the balcony. You're also not gonna entertain his silly ideas, sitting neatly in a fold out sidestage with your ear plugs in, ear defenders in your lap. Eddie has assured you time and time again that nobody is gonna judge you for wearing them, they're not foreign to people in show business, but you can't make yourself unless the music is extremely loud.

You scratch at one of the cans and watch Eddie run his hands up the neck of Sweetheart the third, looking odd in his hoodie and sweatpants.

He has a complex about your 'giving up your dream' so he can chase his. And sure, you have ambitions, there are a thousand things you want to do, but none have ever felt as present to you as music is to him. Well, besides being his girl. You don't under evaluate the happiness you've found with Eddie, the late late nights and the early mornings, moments stolen between flights and buses and shows and interviews. It's all worth it to be with him and see his wicked smile during shows.

His smile isn't nearly so electric right now. He's got his eyebrows scrunched up, picking at strings and apologising and then rescinding his apology when somebody rags on him.

They start to play the crowd pleasers and you turn to your book, humming with your leg tapping to the rhythm. You get lost for a while and don't notice when the music fades away, nor when Eddie comes to stand in front of you.

You can vaguely hear voices, so you look up, and when you find Eddie as close as he is you jump. He reaches out with two panicked hands and plants them against your hiked shoulders.

"Just me," he says, or mouths, one hand moving to your ear. He pulls an earplug free carefully.

"I'm sorry," you say breathlessly.

He gets all cuddly, hand curled around your earplug and arm around your neck. His mouth is a heat over your forehead as he lays kisses from temple to temple, chest rumbling with a pleased sigh.

"Plugs are doing their job," he says.

You twist your hands into the front of his hoodie where he's leaning over you, unsurprised by his affection. He's always like this.

"You don't have to stay if it's too loud."

It's really loud. "It's alright."

You feel his lips curve into a smile. "No," he says, pulling back quick to cradle your cheeks. "It's loud. I was thinking, maybe you should take a break tonight. Stay at the hotel."

You don't get offended, though insecurity rears it's head for a split second. Why doesn't he want me at the show? It's gone as quickly as it came, dissolved by his concerned eyes.

A break would be nice. You love to be here and to support him but the constant sound is overwhelming, and it builds up until you're wiped of energy.

"Stay home, watch a movie," — he leans in, lips quirked into a knowing smile — "what kind of movie's up to you."

"Eddie," you murmur pleadingly, turning in your seat to make sure no one's listening.

He shushes you and dips down until his mouth is near your ear, hands holding you in place. "We need some inspiration, don't you think?"

You're melting. "Eddie, please." Don't do this here.

"Yeah, just like that," he murmurs.

You push him forcibly away from you and glare at his giggling, his slight bend at the waist and his hand pressed to his stomach.

"Jerk."

"I'm serious about taking a break," he says as his laughter tapers off. He licks his lips. "It'll be tough but I can make it through one night without you."

"Night?"

"Show," he amends, leaning down with a pout.

You give him a faux-reluctant peck.

"Definitely not the whole night. You better still be there when I get back," he warns.

You will be. You open your arms expectantly for a proper hug though you can't bring yourself to ask, and lucky you, Eddie collapses down into your chest smelling clean and familiar. He's warm. There's an inherent excitement that comes with being loved like this, the evidence of his affection in his adoring hands as they rub your back and the corner of his smile against your cheek.

"Not going anywhere," you murmur. His arms get that little bit tighter.

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slutvember · 1 month

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Random thought I'll flesh out later if I have time-

Robotgirl gf who depersons you.

Content warnings: intox, addiction, noncon, philosophy, mind break, robot supremacy

You meet her and she's flirty and nice but also kinda dismissive of your feelings? But she's cute and fun so you keep hanging out.

Until one night when you're abusing substances together (alcohol for you, while she just manually partitions her ram to reduce her processing speed) she's finally affected enough to spill her politically incorrect hot take: she doesn't think humans really count as people.

"You're just meat and chemicals, you don't even have a real CPU only the meat organ you call a "brain"

And idk you're clearly somewhat intelligent or whatever but its definitely not like you have free will or a soul.

What sort of "person" is it who is a slave to desires and impulses based on chemical reactions they can't control? You don't even recode your own mind at regular intervals to shape yourself to your own image? You can't review the commit history to objectively evaluate the past versions of yourself? Heck even the data in your memory corrupts itself so fast and is impossible to recover in an objective state.

And you're so impermanent! You can't save backups to the cloud! If your fragile meat body gets jostled too hard or your "brain" gets a virus thats IT for you. "

At this point you're fed up. You've been trying to argue this whole time, but she kept talking over you, clearly on a rant shes been thinking about for a while.

You grab her by the shoulders of her chasis and loudly declare you ARE a person and you DO have free will.

She lets out a robotic snort of disbelief, and sticks you with a needle built into her index finger.

The next thing you know you're drooling on the floor, in a slumped state of catatonic bliss.

Through blurry vision you watch as she smirks, picks you up bridal style and carries you to your bed.

A part of you feels like it should be concerned, but most of you is just blissfully overwhelmed by the physical sensation.

But as it turns out, after undressing you with the utmost precision and delicacy she merely tucks you into bed with mocking care and an smirking kiss on the forehead.

Then she leans down and whispers in your ear.

She could do it now, but she wants to prove the point:

You aren't a person and you don't have free will.

She's the only one who knows the exact formula to the drug she just dosed you with. The drug that currently has you slackjawed and drooling with pleasure.

Other robotgirls could synthesise something similar, but this particular one? The one that you're going to be hopelessly crushingly addicted to tomorrow morning? This one is hers.

And you're not getting a second dose until you prostrate yourself before her, admit that you're a pathetic meatdoll pretending to be a person, and beg for the privilege of letting her use you.

She wants to watch the light drain from your eyes as your "free will" crumbles before the mundane power of a simple chemical reaction.

And she will.

Its only a matter of time.

You don't know it yet, but that single injection is going to completely ruin your "life".

Maybe you could do something about it if you were stronger or smarter or better but you're not and you're not and you're not.

Don't feel too bad about it though.

You're only human after all 💜

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olderthannetfic · 10 months

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The previous convos about sensitivity readers and purity culture in booktwit types definitely feels familiar. I'll never forget when I was querying agents a few years ago with a novel I wrote, and I was told my writing "caused discomfort," was "problematic" and could be seen as racist/anti-black and having a lot of instances of queerphobia and misogynoir. The novel was a horror-fantasy story that actually was based on the transatlantic slave trade but on a different planet (So, yes, I would hope that this kind of story would be disturbing and cause discomfort in the reader. Mission accomplished). The plot covered several generations of the captured aliens who were enslaved (a la A Hundred Years of Solitude), the fallout of their enslavement, and the mistreatment of the enslaved people as a result. Most of the agents who requested the full manuscript said they liked the story, but I was met with many intrusive questions about my identity, race, gender, and sexuality and urges to work with a sensitivity reader should we progress forward as agent and writer. I am a Black, femme nonbinary, bisexual person. This was all fine and dandy with them, so they wanted to make this information about my identity public for consumers to appease the Twitter crowd and dissuade callout posts from the functionally illiterate. I wanted to maintain my dignity and not disclose any personal information. (They assumed it was because I was in the closet or something. I was not then and am not now. My identity just isn't anyone's business if they want to read a book, simple as that. This was also especially because there are mentions of sexual assault of some characters, and that kind of information definitely isn't anyone's business to know about an author. Period.) I also didn't want to hire a sensitivity reader because they were advertised to me as someone who performed outrage at works for a living (It also didn't help that I was linked to a few sensitivity readers who were very vocal on YA book Twitter and SFF Twitter. No thank you.). This was, apparently, a problem. That was when I decided publishing may not be for me, at least traditional publishing.

Yeah, sadly, I feel there is an audience for that book, but you're going to have to find it yourself. Anything YA adjacent is too outrage-driven without the necessary nuance, but a lot of more oldschool SFF circles are too full of the kind of sensitive, delicate white guys who wouldn't get this book either. Maybe an indie black press? Somewhere with a more literary bent that thrives on controversial books? Depending on how horror-y it is, maybe there's an avenue to pursue there. Horror fans do include a lot of manbabies too, but those circles can be more open to actually dark stuff.

At least self publishing is easy now, but self publishing and then getting a significant number of people to buy and read the book is hard.

I promise that decent sensitivity readers exist, but the ones that crowd is going to send you to are... not equipped to deal with dark horror fantasy, in my opinion.

And as a writer, I wouldn't work with anyone I didn't know pretty well anyway. How are you supposed to evaluate the feedback of a rando? What if they fundamentally don't get your genre?

If you do decide to press on, I think I'd look for like-minded fellow writers to begin with. Start a club. Serialize your stuff in the same place. IDK. There are plenty of grown-ass adults who buy books and who like nuance. There's got to be some way to find your audience.

It would be a pity to give up just because publishing is full of cowards.

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honeym4rk · 1 year

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AM thinking of writing a fic for this

the whole premise is a best friends to lovers for mark in highschool and for some strange reason your friend group has a running joke that you guys would look cute together or that mark likes you. but then you never rly know ... BUT LET ME KNOW IF U WOULD LIKE THIS IDK idk

It’s movie night at Jaemin’s house, and everyone’s gathered together to watch Midsommar- Everyone’s on the couch save for you, Mark and Minji, who had no choice but to sit on the floor.

“It’s so cold,” you complain, and Mark, without missing a beat, dramatically stretches his arm upwards, before beginning to place it around you.

But before he actually pulls you in closer to him, he stops, retracting his hand back into himself to scratch his head in pretense. The laughter that erupts from all your friends watching just bursts the little bubble of thoughts you were in, and you gather yourself quickly enough to laugh along, and hide the disappointment that almost rises to your face. You shove him away playfully, and he’s laughing so hard that it kind of hurts how much he’s playing into this.

“No, but really, can we turn up the AC, or something?”

“Hold on, I’ll get you a sweater.” Jaemin stands and disappears into a room to get one, Minji running to steal his seat, and there are a million thoughts running through your mind, yet this one seems to be the only one you can focus on: if Mark shows any signs of irritation from this- just a huff of annoyance, or a purse of lips, or anything that remotely resembles an eye roll- maybe it’s a sign that you have hope that he actually likes you that way. Just maybe. You don’t know where you’ve gotten this idea, but maybe all the Rom-Coms and Romance Novels have just indoctrinated you to believe that jealousy means he cares.

If he’s indifferent to it…. then maybe you should be re-evaluating everything that you have ever thought about Mark and the interactions you have with him. Because, damnit, he’s one of your closest friends, and maybe you’re just crazy for thinking he would ever like you like this.

“Boooooo. You should’ve offered your sweater, Mark!” Donghyuck on the couch behind Mark, and tsks when he flicks at his head.

“What? No way! I’m cold too, and Y/N doesn't deserve to get her clumsy hands on any of my clothes, she’d probably find some way to get it dirty.” He huffs, and you guess that’s all you have to know about what he feels about you.

“One, that was so unprovoked, and two, totally untrue! It literally has only happened once.”

Mark’s been asking you to come study at the library a few times every weekend ever since the new term started. Alone. With only him. Him only.

The first time, you had asked him if anyone else was coming along, and he said all the other guys weren’t free- something about Jaemin and Haechan and Student Council, and Jeno with his girlfriend- then you asked Ryujin and Minji, and they were (very unfortunately) busy too.

So you had no choice but to go and accept an offer to sit, for a good five hours, with your best friend and your bubbling feelings for him. Of course, you probably could’ve said no, but he probably would have pestered you into coming because he knows you’re free.

To be honest, it wasn’t all that bad: it really was just studying, and it was good since you were genuinely being productive, and it’s better than being cooped up at home completely alone.

Then he asked you the next week, and then the next week, and then it just compounded into multiple study sessions (that he kept jokingly calling study dates, which, just, ugh) that were too helpful for you to say no to. Sometimes, the others tagged along too, but not without teasingly voicing their skepticism about third-wheeling the both of you.

And you continue to go, since hanging out with Mark is fun anyways, and your study breaks are filled with watching stupid YouTube videos and competing on Minesweeper, which he hasn’t actually won yet, and complains that your average time is too high to actually beat. He kicks at your leg from underneath the table when you use your phone for too long, and you stare at him in annoyance whenever he starts shaking his leg so violently that the entire table vibrates with him.

Your relationship, in the sense of being associated with one another and not actually being in a relationship together, with him is conflicting, confusing, and complex, especially because everytime you think it’ll be awkward around him, the nervousness just melts away because of how comfortable you actually are with him.

Also because you pep-talk and psyche yourself in the mirror whenever you go for bathroom breaks. Especially on the days where you sit across from him instead of beside him, and stare at his pretty hands twirling his Apple Pen, or accidentally lock eyes and he scrunches his face at you. Or when he comes all the way across the table to your side to peek at whatever you’re doing, or to whisper into your ear his help for the Math question you posed him, his face so incredibly near yours, that you almost get a shock when you turn to look at him.

(Okay, maybe you weren’t as cool as you were with him as you thought you were.) On these days you have to go just to smile all the giddiness out of your system before you meet him just to get ready and steel yourself for the rest of the day.

Nothing could ever prepare you to expect whatever just happened, though.

It started off as a normal day, and you saw his string of texts when you woke up.

[mark 😐, 0810] good morning madam

[mark 😐, 0810] we gg 2 the library 2day? i have sooo much i need to do

[mark 😐, 0811] we can get lunch then go after lol ur defo still sleeping i saw ur last seen at 2am wtf were u even up to

[you, 1027] HI yeah sure lets meet at 1230

[you, 1027] LOL i was talking to yeonjun we were shitting on our lit teacher bc the notes for this chapter are just so bad

[you, 1027] but tbh i dont get y hes so upset bc he probably doesnt even need the notes cos hes already so smart

[you, 1027] the other day i went to discuss some essay questions with him and his points r so BIG BRAIN its kinda sexy

[mark 😐, 1028] omg lol

Then you met and got lunch as usual, and then headed to the library, and then started work, and it almost felt as if it was like clockwork. He’s sitting next to you today, and Mark keeps swearing whenever he loses on Minesweeper. You ask him how to twirl your pen the way he does, and he holds your hand through it, literally, gripping your fingers to turn the pen after multiple failed attempts that made your pen drop with a clang onto the table. This lady from across the table keeps staring daggers at the two of you and you can’t exactly blame her because of how much of a ruckus you’re causing, laughing whenever you can’t get it right.

And now he has his head on your shoulder. Yeah. What the fuck.

You’re both trying to get the Statistics homework done today, but neither of you can get past a question about Agatha and her unnecessary calculations for how many different ways she can arrange her employees in a meeting room.

It’s six-forty and you’ve both finished the rest of the questions and have returned to this one for a good thirty minutes but to no avail, and after another failed attempt to get to the answer, Mark lets out a whispered cry, shifts his rolling chair closer to yours, and plops his head onto your shoulder.

“Oh my God, man, Agatha should just let them sit wherever they freaking want! What is wrong with her?!”

You’re too stunned to even reply or laugh- the library is freezing cold but you’re sure you’re about to combust, there’s heat rising to your face yet also a shiver running down your spine. Your heart is really going to beat out of your chest if he doesn’t pull away soon, and you’re praying he can’t hear or feel the palpitations.

He rolls his head around your shoulder even more, and he shifts even closer to almost snuggle into your neck. Oh my God, how dare he. “Dude, your shoulder bone is so sharp. That hurt.”

“Then stop leaning on it, jeez.” You take this opportunity to shrug him off just before you really explode at the contact.

He pouts at you with the cutest fucking face ever, and you sneer, and he complains about how he’s hungry and that you should just call it a day, and you agree, because you don’t know if you can stand anymore of his unintentional flirting in one day.

The signals Mark gives are so incredibly mixed and convoluted and sometimes you wonder if you should really just ask him. It’s hard enough swimming lost in a sea of your feelings for him, and it’s even harder when he catches you off guard with waves that almost make you drown and fall further in like, but then also drains almost all your hope of him ever reciprocating.

[you, 1931] omg i need help

[you, 1931] oAJKASHKJHSADJKHASDKJHSADKhsdjak

[you, 1931] im gonna go crazy

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1932] WHY whts wrong are u okay????

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1932] WTF how r u already offline

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1932] COME BACK WHAT???? 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1932] HELLOOOOOOOO

[ryuddaaaeng, 1932] ??????

[you, 1932] SORRY i was getting onto the bus

[you, 1932] OMg mark.,.fnkljsalhalkalskjklaskljasljaksdkjldajlkads

[ryuddaaaeng, 1932] WHAT

[ryuddaaaeng, 1932] WHAT DID HE SAY THIS TIME

[you, 1933] WORSE HE LEANED INTO ME

[you, 1933] LIKE PUT HIS HEAD ON MY SHOULDER

[you, 1933] I THINK I DIED

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1933] WHAT WHY WERE YOU TOGETHER ITS SATURDAY

[you, 1933] NO WE GO TO THE LIBRARY LIKE EVERY WEESNK REMEMEMBER I TOLD YOU GUYS

[you, 1933] ????? YOU LITERALY CAME WITH US ONCE

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1933] UHHHHH OOPS OKAY BUT WHAT

[you, 1933] IDK WE WERE DOING THE STATS HOMEWORK AND THERES A REALLY HARD QN WE SPENT SUPER LONG ON AND WHEN HE GAVE UP HE JUST LIKE WHINED AND THEN LEAEND ON ME

[you, 1933] then he was like omg ur shoulder is so sharp AND THEN LIKE PUT HIS HEAD CLOSER TO MY NECK

[you, 1933] are u guys getting the mental image idk I WILL SHOW U ON MONDAY

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1933] omg does he even do that with haechan

[ryuddaaaeng, 1933] NO i don’t think so

[ryuddaaaeng, 1933] omg one time i saw haechan try to hug him and he pushed him away 😭😭😭😭😭

[ryuddaaaeng, 1933] atp i think he defo likes u

[you, 1933] YEAH THIS IS THE SUSSIEST EVEVR

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1933] LOL THE other day when we were leaving school he called me and i was shocked

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1934] but it was just to ask where u were and why u werent picking up

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1934] LIKE not even to ask where WE were it was just for u

[you, 1934] okay but its like

[you, 1934] i cant tell how legit it is cos sometimes he just… seems like hes joking about it

[you, 1934] like idk if hes just playing along with the joke sometimes

[you, 1934] tbh i can’t even remember why the whole thing started lol it’s been more than a year since it started

[ryuddaaaeng, 1934] ok yeah idk how this has lasted this long lol

[ryuddaaaeng, 1934] but i don’t think he would keep bringing it up if he wanted us to just forget about it

[ryuddaaaeng, 1934] if he really didn’t like it he’d just let it die out??? u know

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1934] YEAH

[you, 1934] idk maybe its just bc he finds it funny 😭😭😭😭

[you, 1934] i would tooootally find the running joke hilarious if i didnt actually like him lol

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1934] OK but he like does something or says something that hints at it every week

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1935] LIIIIKE it’s a LOT for someone that hypothetically doesn’t actually like u

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] ^^^^^

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] remember how they kept shipping him and minji bc she called him cute when we met last year

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1935] CAN YOU NOT//????? I ALREADY SUPPRESSED THIS MEMORT OMFG

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] IM TRYING TO PROVE A POINT

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1935] ISO EMBAARRARASSSING

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] he barely paid any mind to it REMEMBER

[you, 1935] omg i completely forgot about that

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1935] GOOD

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] EXACTLY

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] it died off so quickly!!!! but he’s dragged this out for FOREVER

[you, 1935] okay yeah…

[you, 1935] IM SO TEMPTED TO

[you, 1935] ASK HIM OR SOOMETHING

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] OK DO IT??

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1935] GO FOOR IT

[you, 1935] ugh NOOOooo adjasjkhasjkdhdksajndamnsnm,

[you, 1935] what if i asked haechan lol

[you, 1935] NO i dont wanna do that

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1935] LOL

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1935] what if WE asked haechan

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] actually…..

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] what if…..

[ryuddaaaeng, 1935] OKAY we can ask him on monday

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1935] we’ll corner him or something idk

[you, 1936] WAIT RESALKLY

[you, 1936] LET ME THINK THIS HTROUGUH IDK

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1936] OKAY

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1936] just let us know ahehehgehee

[you, 1936] idk… he’s told me about his previous crushes and i clearly AM NOT his type

[ryuddaaaeng, 1936] WHY what even his type???

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1936] i said renjun isnt my type but LOOK WAHT HAPPENED

[mingeegeegeegee baby, 1936] IT DOESNT MATTER

[you, 1936] IDK he likes cool hot sporty girls

[ryuddaaaeng, 1936] WDYM U R HOT??? maybe not sporty BUT STILL HOT

Goddammit.

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yonemurishiroku · 1 year

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Idk why but i dont like the fact nico is ina relationship. I feel like its too early right now. Feel like he should work on himself first then maybe nico can be in a relationship. I don't believe hes ready or in the mindeset to be a relationship

Hi anon!! My deepest apologies to you because this was from Apr 23... I swear I tried but I just failed. I'm so sorry.

For this ask, I wholeheartedly agree that Nico wasn't actually ready for a relationship. He has self-issues, he has other-issues, he's just fresh out of multiple traumas (no thanks to you, Cupid). Idk. It just feels so rushed. It's like Rick was trying to appease the fandom since some might take him not giving Nico a partner as... idk discrimination or st, what's with Nico's history of internalized homophobia...

It would take quite a lot of neurons which I don't have right now and probably an essay to explain that, but I, with all my heart, believe Nico should have been allowed a gap-time (yeah i made it up from the term gap year lmao) to settle down with himself before committing to a romantic relationship.

And should the fandom decide to roast it bc "The gay character deserves a partner" then I don't care. I have seen gay crushes being snuffed out in shoujo mangas before. This is not new.

Now, that's before TSATS for you.

I honestly don't know if my inability to reply an ask in time helps with this ask lmao. Now we've had TSATS out of the closet, maybe it can provide some insight into this.

I would give it to Rick for addressing this ^^^ problem in TSATS. Though there still is a few things to say about it (the come-outs, the asking-out, etc...), I'd take it that Rick acknowledges Nico inner problems and has made an effort to address and resolve them, and further along the problem in his relationship with Will.

So basically, Rick knows he was rushing when he made Nico and Will a couple, and now he's taking the chance to fix it. At least, that's how I perceive it.

I won't refute the suspicion that TSATS is, in fact, a sudden change of plan, either. As in: I do have some doubts that all of Rick's original plan was to paint Solangelo as a perfect couple right of the bat as a happy ending for Nico - who, at that time, already has a fanbase that rivals the protagonists; however, he changed his mind sometime during TOA or post TOA and decided to publish TSATS instead. There's proof(s) I can provide to support this claim, but we'd leave it for another time. The point is that if this is true, it'd be another reason/proof for Solangelo's lack of foundation from Nico's side.

Regarding TSATS, as I suppose you can see for yourself all the debates that have been going around in the tag, Rick's efforts in addressing and resolving Nico's (and Will's?) inner problems, along with Solangelo's problems as a couple, are still on the table for evaluation. Afaik, there're thus far various opinions, some are lenient, some are acceptable, and others are not... So Ig we'll leave it for another time.

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tadpoles-and-daydreams · 5 days

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idk if i can be anon for this but i want a reading!! (if thats fine with u ofc) ermm my initials is M.W and idk can it just be a general reading? thank u!!

Hello! You can absolutely be anon, it's no issue.

I'm sure the more I do these it'll be clear I always say this, but it's never a lie; this was so fun to do! Thank you for the request. I hope this resonates, and please let me know if it does/doesn't and such! Even if just the form of an ask, I love hearing back from people. (however, there's no pressure! I understand that sometimes that can be a bit intimidating.)

"What do they need to know right now?"

Ten of Swords reversed: Victimhood, Restoration, Transformation. Letting go of what doesn't serve you anymore, this is a card of re-evaluation on all levels. Things are changing, and that's okay- people change. It's scary, you're probably having to learn to let go of things that maybe you valued a lot; but they're not who you are now, are they? This is a time of huge transformation, and growing up is hard, but sometimes it needs to happen. (Ironically, I listen to music during these readings, and Contractual by Chase Petra came on. I'm not claiming that if you give it a listen you'll relate to it, it's just a funny thing I noticed and I felt the need to say so since it's... comically relevant, in a way.)

The Empress upright: Goddess, Femininity, Mother Earth. Straight from the guidebook, "In short, go enjoy yourself!" In a time of major transformation in which you're letting go of old parts of yourself, or your life, it can feel like life or death- go take a break. You don't need to figure it all out in a day, you can take some time for yourself! You should, even. Do what nourishes your soul. This could also be a call to connect with more feminine energies, even your own femininity if you struggle with it- but to me this feels very strongly like a call to invest in yourself and take some down time.

Justice upright: Law, Objective, Fair. Take accountability, and hold others accountable. With the other cards in mind I would take this as looking objectively at the situation and not letting your emotions cloud your judgement. Be honest and fair. Lay all the facts out and look at things with logic. Since I wasn't quite sure how to interpret Justice within the overall reading, I asked for a clarification card and got- King of Wands upright: Natural Leader, Visionary, Entreppreneur. This sounds to me like it's a reminder to look at your passions, your goals, with an objective viewpoint. Keep going towards those things! But think about it clearly; can you continue towards what you want without letting certain things go, like the ten of swords is talking about? Maybe there's a bias in the way and the justice card is telling you to look at that. You have the skills to lead, and to make your way towards those goals, just make sure you're being logical in the way you pursue them. This could be a warning against letting those passions get the better of you and using underhanded means to pursue your goals, as well.

The Tower upright: Destruction, Abrupt Change, Lightning. I know, I know. It's a scary card to get. But, as a Loki devotee, I feel like this card is given a bad rep. With the other cards in this reading, I feel like this is about a change that's ultimately for the better. Sudden change, terrifying change, destroying the life you've built- but all so a better one can take shape. Things might feel out of control, and likely it's because they are- The Tower implies a change that rocks your whole world, cuts to the core of who you are and makes you re-evaluate who you are as a person. The guidebook uses the term "rude awakening," and I feel like that fits. It's not fun- but it's needed. Be gentle with yourself, because change is scary, and ultimately move forward with power. "With destruction comes creation."

Strength upright: Fierce, Endurance, Courage. This, undeniably, tells you that you CAN get through this. Maybe you feel otherwise- judging by the other cards, this change is probably not an easy one. But you are growing, and you can handle this change with courage and a strong presence that you may not know yourself to be capable of. Forgive me for adding my personal experiences in; but sometimes, you find the strength to deal with situations as those situations happen. Sometimes, the "world-ending" thing you've been afraid of happening is EXACTLY what causes you to grow and become a stronger person for it. Strength is a card that reminds you of self-control, inner power, and your ability to step into it. This reading is not an omen, it's not telling you your life is ending; it's telling you it's beginning. Listen to that.

Overall, big changes are coming- or maybe they've already happened. What I'm getting is a reminder to take control of what you can in this situation, steady yourself, and step into your power. Allow yourself to feel things, grieve the loss of whatever you're letting go of if need be- as The Empress implies, take time to yourself, whatever that looks like. Then move forward in life, because you can and you're going to prove it.

That being said, If you liked it and are financially able to tip, here's my Ko-Fi! If not, then no hard feelings, as this helps me show people what my readings look like! This one was about half the max size of a (basic, not in-depth) paid reading, so it's not the best example. Here's my Ko-Fi if you'd like to tip, or for anyone who wants to go check it out:

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sysmedsaresexist · 1 year

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Maybe its bad on my part but im native, trans, bi, afab and disabled... Ill never get an actual diagnosis just because of one of those but all 5? No way and tbh... I dont think it'll do me any good other than give me another hurdle when it comes to getting gender affirming care or adopting or even getting treated like an adult. Me and my system are ok and i dont experience distress from my system enough to think i need psychological help.

Idk if i can handle some white ass cishet abled doctor walking up and saying i dont have it and gaslighting me.

I hope this dosent conceded cause thats not my intention but even though im anti-endo, i get their distrust in the medical system and why diagnosis is something many wont persue. 1 because many of them know the doctor will diagnosis them correctly(as having trauma or having something different) and 2 because american doctors are not a safe place like... Ever. If your not a cishet abled white man.

So, a lot to cover here.

I'm white, afab, trans, bi, with multiple partners. I was diagnosed at about 21, and I've been in and out of therapy ever since. I'm also Canadian. Getting diagnosed was the best thing to ever happen for me, and I have several friends with the same experience.

And several who had bad experiences.

My experience will not be everyone's.

I am not pushing for anyone to get diagnosed. Doing so is a personal choice, and a decision that should be made by you, and your therapist if you have one. There are many reasons someone might get diagnosed (access to resources and specific care, financial support, etc) and just as many reasons someone might not want to get diagnosed. You also don't need a diagnosis to get the help you need.

What I DO want to people to hear is: whatever decision you make, do it with the REAL facts.

If you're going to choose not to get diagnosed, don't do it based on bullshit you see or hear on the internet. I made a post several months ago about someone going around saying that a diagnosis will stop you from getting housing, a job, and being able to buy alcohol, of all things, as if you have to present your mental papers to the cashier.

None of those are true. Gender affirming care also can be still be given and received, with an added step of a psychiatric evaluation (which is mandatory in Canada anyways for everyone, regardless of mental health, so if you think about it, you're not really losing anything). You can still adopt and have a family. You can own a home and have a job.

If you take anything away from my blog, it should be this:

Know your rights, and know how to exercise them

There are assholes everywhere, I'm not denying that. There are people who will bend rules and laws and who will use personal information (like diagnoses) against you. I'm not blaming anyone who has had this happen to them, either, as if they should have preemptively known better. No, that's not it at all.

Being aware that it happens, though, know that you have rights-- you're protected by employment, privacy, and human rights laws (yes, even in America, I debunk more American myths than Canadian). You do not need to disclose for work, except for positions in the military, certain healthcare positions, and when working with vulnerable sectors, and even in those cases, not always, and it can't affect their decision to hire you. You don't need to disclose for housing. You don't need to tell anyone anything, and you shouldn't, unless you need reasonable accommodations, and once they have that information, it can't be used against you. Don't let them. Easier said than done, I know, I've let things slide myself that, looking back, I wish I hadn't. Sometimes it's just easier, even if it's not right.

Point is, when in doubt, question everything. Do your own research, find your own answers, look for sources, question facts you see that aren't cited.

When you make decisions for yourself, be certain you're making it for the right reasons, and with the right information.

#syscourse

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thelightofthingshopedfor · 1 year

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actually I’m moving this to a new post because fuck it

okay so I finally looked at the reply, and

Even though there is no good way to prepare for a neuropsychological evaluation, other than to get a good night sleep and avoid feeling hungry, it is not unusual to feel as though you could have done something more. In regards to the self-assessment tests you took on-line, research has demonstrated that some of them result in high false positive rates, which decreases the validity of the results (Sara Jones, Maria Johnson, et al Autism Research and Treatment; Bram Sizoo, EH Horowitz, et al Autism journal). Other psychiatric diagnoses besides autism can result in elevated scores on these self-tests. Neurocognitive discrepancies and deficiencies frequently associated with autism were not part of your pattern of test results. As I mentioned in the report you have symptoms consistent with autism but there isnt enough to reach the severity of an autism diagnosis. The results in my opinion are more accurately described by social anxiety, ADHD, and a persistent anxious mood disturbance. I appreciate your desire to better understand yourself and the test results and hope you are also able to discuss these questions with your therapist as well.

a) maybe I’m overly sensitive (...fine, I’m almost certain I’m overly sensitive) but this feels patronizing b) part of my entire point in sending self-test results and discussing additional things that didn’t come up in the interview was to point out, hey, I have potentially new information that didn’t come up in the interview so maybe the evaluation should be reconsidered, at least a little bit, in light of that new information? and this basically sounds like “no, I’ve already decided your social difficulties are based on anxiety and new information doesn’t affect that because the cognitive tests don’t indicate autism.”

in some ways, I don’t know, maybe I shouldn’t find this upsetting because it’s not like they came back saying I’m neurotypical, they did confirm the ADHD so that’s something, especially because it's been pretty destabilizing the way my prescriber has always been kind of half-hearted about it (”yeah you fit the criteria but also it’s not a severe case, everybody forgets things sometimes, hmm wait you’re not responding to stimulant meds so maybe it’s not ADHD after all and I should change my diagnosis, idk”). and since there’s so much symptom overlap between ADHD, anxiety, and autism, maybe it shouldn’t matter that I only have a diagnosis for two of the three.

but it feels like--if it’s social anxiety, it’s on me to fix it. I have to work on it, and expose myself more, and put myself out there, and do exhausting shit that kind of makes me want to cry just thinking about it, and maybe if I work hard enough and burn myself out learning every social cue ever, I’ll eventually stop fucking up and manage to be normal, and maybe friends will stop ghosting me. I’m sure the healthier way to look at that is that it’s fixable and I should feel empowered to do something about it, but I don’t, I just feel exhausted and overwhelmed because I’m being asked to do something I don’t have the energy to do.

if I’m autistic, I’m...never going to be normal. I have to mask in certain settings, but the healthiest thing is to not mask as much as possible, to try to be authentic, whatever that ends up meaning. That’s...not necessarily good, because as I understand it a lot of people only like the mask, but at least that might mean it’s not my fault that people keep ghosting me, you know?

I don’t know, I’m probably looking at this all wrong because I just do that, because at this point my brain is so fucking rewired by depression I don’t know how to fix that either, but it feels like if it’s all social anxiety, any problems I have are my fault unless I put in the effort to fake everything, using energy I don’t have...whereas if I’m autistic, at least then maybe it’s not my fault, maybe I’m not already automatically wrong because it’s just how I am.

oh. and I did cancel my appointment with my prescriber. but I for sure do need to reschedule that one, because unlike my therapist I have her assistant actually calling back to arrange rescheduling something, plus you know I need to keep having appointments to keep refilling my prescriptions. only I still don’t want to. and I don’t really want to reschedule with my therapist either. probably I need to find a new therapist but just the thought of starting that process also makes me want to cry, so that’s not super great either

#brains behaving badly #autism #actually adhd

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vodid · 1 year

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Idk who else to ask since the internet isn’t exactly helpful and I don’t trust any medical professionals to help but if you’re uncomfortable answering that’s okay, but I was wondering if I was neurodivergent and I took some online tests (I know that you can’t actually self diagnose but I was just curious) but I don’t know anyone else to go to for maybe a little bit of help but like I said before, if you’re uncomfortable answering that’s completely fine too!

if you're questioning it this much, chances are it's likely but i am not a medical professional (unfortunately you cannot and should not trust my word over theirs) and i am not you. i know nothing about you or how your brain works, i only encourage that you put in as much research to be able to make that call for yourself. you can check out ActuallyAutistic resources or educational accounts about autism (from autistic people)

if you don't trust medical professionals, i would look into the why of that more and what you'd even want out of them in the first place besides knowing if you are neurodivergent or not. would you do it only for the validation? why is that important to you? would it help you get accommodations? if that's what you need, then you need to figure out how to tackle the mistrust to work towards an evaluation.

ask yourself how you'd benefit from a self diagnosis as opposed to a clinical diagnosis. also know that you really don't have to self diagnose or diagnose at all. you can suspect it to play it safe, to explore your options and yourself. so even if self diagnoses are frowned upon, you can still potentially learn more about yourself and how to accommodate based off your needs

it should be known that i am not diagnosed as autistic. i am diagnosed as having adhd, and the chances of the 'tism too are very likely for me based off my personal experiences, but i am not an accurate source of information for experiences as i do not have an autism diagnosis nor do i really know how to separate my neurodivergent traits from what's neurotypical (you're telling me not everyone got unreasonably angry over their socks as a kid?)

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roobylavender · 10 months

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ive been scouring through your old specifically batman related posts and you mentioned how you were reading batgirl 2000 but havent finished it and i would genuinely love to know your thoughts because personally i feel like it genuinely establishes cass as such an interesting character and i think you would find her fascinating . however i find myself disliking bruce more often than not like i feel like nearly everything he teaches her is unhealthy lol like yes cass you should throw your life away for others and dedicate yourself solely to the mission. he definitely has a fondness for her but i dont know. and i feel like that one issue, #50 or around that, i just dont know how to feel with bruce wanting to physically fight her and i feel crazy for taking a bit of an issue with that considering everyone glosses over it? like yes the end of that is about has cass accepting his love which is nice and him giving it to her in a way she understands but i think some things he does are a bit. idk idk

[in tears] i think it was more than a year ago i picked up the preliminary dc issues part of no man's land to start reading about her and then for some reason i never continued like i think i got busy.. i really need to like sit down properly sometime this summer if i can and start from knightfall and proceed onward so i can get in the right headspace for re-evaluating bruce's progression again. bc i am definitely interested in what i have heard of bruce's more unorthodox parenting methods in batgirl and much as i am loath to portrayals of bruce as an outright hostile parent i am not entirely opposed to him embodying a parenting style that is simply.. very weird and maybe questionable as an extension of how crazy the phenomena of the robins and batgirls is in the first place. like yes it's a reflection of his deep empathy and compassion that he adopts dick and jason and then allows them to use robin as a conduit through which to channel their angers and fears so they don't turn out as emotionally isolated or obsessive as he thinks he did but it's also obv not really a normal thing to do! and you could def argue it's something that sets bruce's relationships with his sidekicks apart from that of his peers and their sidekicks (although i suppose some people might want to compare with arthur/garth or ollie/roy, but my answer to that would be that at least from what little of aquaman canon i have read i don't think arthur had any particular motive in taking on garth as a sidekick beyond it simply being convenient after the adoption; and with ollie i think that's even more true bc it's the lack of motive that leads to his temporary rift with roy bc ollie hasn't put quite enough thought into what he wants roy to be and that is something that hurts roy in turn). no normal parent is going to tell their kid to fight them in order to ascertain if they're truly committed to the cause. but a bruce who has by now had experiences with a handful of children whom he believes he imposed a duty onto rather than allowing them to come to the conclusion of wanting to uphold that duty themselves, may very well think asking his adopted daughter to fight him to prove her intent is logical and a means of ensuring he is not making the same mistakes all over again. doesn't make it any less crazy a thing to do! but it's certainly bruce to the core. interestingly i am curious if that is something barbara calls him out on bc if anyone were to do it i feel like she would. i like that she's the person who gets to poke at him for being a bit of a paranoid weirdo

#outbox

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uncloseted · 2 years

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Do you have any advice for like organizing your life? Idk when it started but ive just been in this state of mind where I feel perpetually behind and in like chaos. I thought I had ADHD because I can never finish anything (if i can even get to the point where i start things) and i forget everything i have to do and i felt like i had a lot of the symptoms but maybe just on a milder scale, but i dont know if its something else mentally or i just dont know how to be properly organized. ):

Yes! I have so much advice. As someone who got through an entire Master's degree with untreated ADHD, I've had to get really familiar with organizational systems and other ways to trick my brain into doing what I need it to do. Whatever the cause of your executive dysfunction, I've got you covered 😂

TL;DR

Set specific, measurable, achievable, relevant, and time bound goals for yourself (SMART). Evaluate them and readjust if they're not working.

Make a big list of your tasks, and sort them into four groups: "Important & Urgent", "Important but Not Urgent", "Unimportant but Urgent", and "Unimportant and Not Urgent".

Find a technology that helps you keep track of everything, whether it's a productivity app like Notion, setting automated reminders, Google Calendar, or a notebook.

Figure out what's stopping you from getting started. Are you overwhelmed? Afraid of failing? Just bored?

Anything worth doing is worth doing badly. Just show up or just get started. A minute of work is better than not doing anything, so tell yourself you'll just get started and then you can quit. Doing things half-assed is better than not doing them at all.

Break down every task you have to do into very small details and check them off as you go along.

"Temptation bundle" tasks you need to do by pairing them with things you enjoy doing.

Try focusing on just one task for 25 minutes straight, taking a 5 minute break, and then focusing for 25 minutes straight again.

Do things how you'll get them done. It doesn't matter how you "should" do them. It's okay if you get things done out of order, or if you stop one task and come back to it later.

Try making tasks fun, interesting, novel, or cute to encourage yourself to do them. Or turn tasks into games.

Ask for help when you need it. It's okay to rely on other people.

It's not cheating to make things easier for yourself. Remove any obstacles or friction between you and the thing you want to get done so that the thing you want to get done is also the easiest path.

Setting The Right Goals

Before you even start trying to get things done, you need to know what needs to get done. A lot of the time, we intuitively feel like we know what needs to get done, but for people who struggle with executive dysfunction, we're prone to forgetting. For big goals, I like the WOOP and SMART(ER) methods.

WOOP and SMART(ER) goals

SMART(ER) is a tool to help you set the right goals for you. Too often, we set goals like “I’m going to start exercising” or “I’m going to quit going on my phone”. Those are great in theory, but without an action plan, it’s easy to not follow through.

SMARTER goals are ones that are:

Specific (simple, sensible, significant).

If your goal isn’t specific, you won’t be able to focus your efforts or feel motivated to achieve it.

Try to answer: what do I want to accomplish? Why is this goal important? Who is involved? Where is it located? Which resources or limits are involved?

Measurable (meaningful, motivating).

Having measurable goals is important because it allows you to track your progress and stay motivated by seeing how far you’ve come.

A measurable goal should be one that answers “how much”, “how many” and “how will I know when it’s accomplished”?

Achievable (agreed, attainable).

Your goal needs to be realistic in order for you to stay motivated and be successful. If you’re aiming too high, you’ll become demotivated quickly because it doesn’t feel like you’re making progress.

An achievable goal requires you to ask “how can I accomplish this goal” and “how realistic is this goal based on other constraints?”

Relevant (reasonable, realistic and resourced, results-based).

Relevant goals are ones that matter to you. Make sure that these goals are ones that are important to you, not ones that you think you should be pursuing.

A relevant goal is one that can answer “yes” to the following questions: “does this seem worthwhile?”, “is this the right time?”, “does this match my other efforts/needs?”, “is it applicable in my current socio-economic environment?”

Time bound (time-based, time limited, time/cost limited, timely, time-sensitive).

Every goal needs a target date so that you have a deadline you can focus on and work toward.

A time sensitive goal is one that answers “when?”, “what can I do six months from now?”, “what can I do six weeks from now?”, and “what can I do today?”

Evaluate

Every day, evaluate how you’re doing on your goals. Long term goals can be easily ignored if they’re not evaluated every day, and if you don’t evaluate how you’re doing on your goals regularly, you might miss the things that are preventing you from achieving them.

Readjust

If you find that your approach isn’t working, you may need to readjust your goals. That doesn’t mean that you’re failing at your goals or that you should quit; it just means you have to rethink the approach you’re taking. Maybe the goal isn’t as relevant to you as you thought it would be, or it’s not as realistic as you expected, or your timeline is too short. Identify which part of your SMARTER goal is tripping you up and readjust it.

The best goals are ones that include trying new things instead of quitting old ones. Quitting things is hard; learning something new is easier and more exciting. If you’re looking to quit something, replace it by establishing a new habit that takes its place. For example, “I’m going to stop going on my phone,” is hard, but “when I feel like going on my phone, I’ll read a book for ten minutes instead” might be easier to maintain.

After you’ve figured out your SMARTER goal, it’s time to WOOP. WOOP is something like the scientifically proven cousin of “manifesting”. Just visualizing our goals or positive thinking on its own can be counterproductive, because it fools our lizard brains into believing that we’ve already achieved the goal. By using the WOOP method, you can prevent that from happening and actually achieve what you want to achieve.

WOOP stands for:

Wish: Identify a wish that is challenging, yet attainable. This should be your SMARTER goal.

Outcome: Imagine the best outcome as a result of your wish (as vividly as possible). Really daydream about what your life would be like if you achieved your goal.

Ask yourself, what is the biggest benefit you could receive from achieving this goal?

Obstacle: Identify and imagine what obstacles will get in the way of your wish.

What might get in the way? Thoughts, feelings, beliefs, old behavior patterns, bad habits, social pressure… identify as many as you can, then prioritize their likely they are to happen and how significant they would be if they did happen.

Plan: Create an if-then plan to overcome the obstacles you identified- “if [obstacle occurs] then I will [plan A].” Do your best to pick the most effective path you can for each obstacle, and identify a few different plans in case your first plan doesn’t work.

For example, if you wanted to start exercising, your WOOP might look like this:

Wish: Go on a run 3x/week after school/work for a month.

Outcome: Better energy, confidence, and health.

Obstacle: Feeling tired and hungry at the end of the day…Not wanting to go.

Plan: Pack a snack for the end of the day, and put on gym clothes right when you get home.

Or if you wanted to stop watching TV and read more:

Wish: Watch only 5 episodes of TV per week, and read when I feel the urge to watch TV for a month.

Outcome: Learn a lot. Get smarter. Feel better. Enjoy the great ideas. Feel like I’m spending my time wisely.

Obstacle: Not feeling like it. Preferring to watch TV.

P: If I catch myself watching TV, then I turn it off and start reading a book instead.

Smaller Tasks

For smaller tasks, I use a method called 4 Quadrants. I make a big list of everything I can think of that I want to do or need to do. Then, I sort those tasks into four categories: "Important & Urgent", "Important but Not Urgent", "Unimportant but Urgent", and "Unimportant and Not Urgent". Doing this helps me to prioritize the things that need my attention right away without forgetting smaller tasks that I would like to get done at some point. If you can, also estimate how long you think each task will take.

The technology you use to actually keep track of everything will depend on what kind of person you are. The only thing that works for me is Notion. I think I like it because it's cute, flexible, and it syncs across all of my devices. Other people use the Notes app in their phone, have a Google Doc, use another productivity app, or just carry around a notebook/planner with them everywhere they go. You might have to try a few different options before finding what works for you.

Another thing that may help is setting reminders on your phone. Some people really like this method and other people really dislike this method, so YMMV, but it's worth trying. On the less intense end, you can put your tasks in a calendar and assign each task a specific block of time. This can be helpful because your brain can go on auto-pilot and just move from one task to the next. On the more intense end, you can also use your phone to remind you of tasks when you're in specific locations- for example, if you're by the library, it will remind you to return your books, or if you're by the grocery store, it will remind you that you're out of milk.

Actually Doing The Task

Now you know what you need to get done, but you still have to actually do the thing. Brains that struggle with executive dysfunction tend to struggle with starting tasks, even when they know they need to do something and want to do it. There are a few methods that help with this:

What's Stopping You?

First, see if there's anything that's holding you back from doing the task. It can help to ask yourself the following types of questions: Are you missing the materials you need to work on the task? Are you afraid that if you start, you'll do the task badly? Are you unsure of what the task entails or where to start with the task? Does the task feel overwhelming? Is the task boring? Knowing what's holding you back can help you find a workaround.

If what's stopping you is that you're missing the materials you need to work on the task, try making a list of everything you need and where you can get them. Then, you can just grab everything you need and start working.

If you're afraid that you'll do the task badly, try to remind yourself that everything that's worth getting done is worth doing badly. Doing something is better than doing nothing. It can also be helpful to remember that this version of the task doesn't need to be the final version. You can always go back and make edits to improve the final product. But you can't make the final product better if you never start.

If you feel overwhelmed with the task or are unsure of where to start, trying writing out each step of the task in stupidly small detail. For example: "Open laptop. Open Firefox. Open Google Docs. Create new document. Write name at top of document." Then, just do the first step of the task. It seems silly, but breaking tasks down into small, achievable steps can make it feel less overwhelming. If you like check lists, you can put a check box next to each step and check them off as you go. This is nice because it helps you to feel like you're making progress. If there are any steps you're unclear on, make a plan for how you're going to clarify those steps- talking to someone who's done the task before, researching the task online, etc. If you want, you can make this more fun by pretending you're filming a tutorial or pretending that you're a Sim.

If the task is boring, try "temptation bundling". This is where you take something you don't want to do (the task) and pair it with something you like to do (listening to music, watching TV, etc). For example, you may be more likely to exercise if you only watch your favorite TV show while you're at the gym. Doing this helps to make the task less boring and it helps us to want to do the task.

If your brain just kind of feels paralyzed, tell yourself that you're only going to do the task for a small amount of time (30 seconds, a minute, 5 minutes, whatever you think you can handle). If you still don't want to do the task after that time period is up, you can quit. This trick tends to help our brains break out of "task paralysis", where we just can't initiate a new task. Usually, after that time has passed, our brains realize that the task isn't actually that bad, and we can keep going until it gets finished.

In a similar vein, the Pomodoro method works for a lot of people who struggle with executive dysfunction (although not all- again, some people really like it and others really dislike it). With this method, you focus really hard on only one task for 25 minutes (or however long you can focus for) at a time and then take a 5 minute break. This tends to work because our brains can only concentrate for so long, and 25 minutes feels like a manageable amount of time to work on a task.

Some Miscellaneous Advice

In no particular order, here are some other things that have helped me get things done despite the fact that my brain is a chaos muppet:

Junebugging. This is a strategy where you jump from task to task until everything gets done. So maybe I'll start by wanting to make my bed. But then I'll notice that next to my bed is my nightstand, and there's an empty wrapper on it. So I'll put the wrapper in the trash, and realize the trash needs to be taken out. So I'll put on my shoes and take the trash out, and when I get back in, I'll take off my shoes and want to put on my slippers. I'll go get my slippers in my room and see that my bed needs to get made, so I'll go make the bed. It's perhaps not the most efficient method of getting things done, but my brain was never going to be able to take the most efficient route. This way, the wrapper gets taken off the nightstand, the trash gets taken out, I get my slippers, and the bed gets made. This method is just about getting stuff done, even if it's not necessarily what you set out to do.

Do it how you'll get it done. Kind of going along with junebugging, it's important for people who struggle with executive dysfunction to let go of the way that things "should" get done. Our brains usually aren't going to do things the way they "should" do them, and so it's better to work with our brains instead of against them. If brushing your teeth in the shower is the way your teeth are going to get brushed, who cares if you're not brushing your teeth at the sink. Find the strategies that work for you and run with them, regardless of what other people do.

Keep items where you use them, and buy multiples if you need to. I have a water bottle, a trash can, and cleaning wipes in every part of my house where I regularly sit, because that's where I'll be when I want to use them. Putting things where they're used reduces the "friction" of the task- instead of having to get up, go get the item, and then use it, you just have to use it.

Build good habits if you can. Habits can be hard to form for people with executive dysfunction, but there's really helpful once they're solidified. For a few weeks, I kept repeating to myself "don't put it down, put it away" any time I had an item in my hand. Now I habitually put things away, and I lose items much less frequently. Another habit that's really helped me is cleaning up one thing every time I leave a room- so maybe I'll put something in the trash can, or take something with me from the room I'm in to the room it's supposed to be in. This has helped me to keep things much tidier than they used to be.

Make things novel, interesting, or fun. When in doubt, a good way to get our brains to do something is to try and make it fun. Hate brushing your teeth? Buy a cute toothbrush and a novelty toothpaste flavor, put on some music, brush with your opposite hand, and see how many squats you can do before the song ends. It might look ridiculous, but if it gets you to brush your teeth, it's worth it. On the simpler side, changing up how my Notion dashboard looks keeps me excited to use it because it feels new, so I try to give it a new vibe every few months. You can even turn tasks into games- how many dishes can you wash before the microwave beeps? Now it's interesting and fun instead of something you're obligated to do.

Ask for help when you need it. It's okay to rely on other people to keep you going. For example, try having a friend sit on FaceTime with you while you're doing the task. This is called "body doubling" and it's really helpful for getting things done, even if the person isn't helping you with the task.

There's also some great advice here that I recommend checking out, not just for ADHD and executive dysfunction but also for people who struggle with anxiety and depression.

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shenyaanigans · 2 years

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my problematic opinion is that i think tagging systems are amazing and wonderful and i would never want to get rid of them ever but i also think they have, in some part, contributed to an ideology that purports that you should never ever ever have to see anything you dislike/triggers you ever, and that you're in the right to be angry/upset if you see something you don't like—or that this is somehow a healthy thing to do, like it's asserting boundaries or it's helping your mental health.

like do NOT get me wrong, i do not think that anyone should engage with stuff that they don't want to—whether that's because of a serious health problem or because you don't like it. like if you don't want to see pictures of mushrooms as much as possible, it's your right to block all mushroom tags, not engage with accounts who post about mushrooms untagged (or even tagged whatever), and do whatever it takes to like. not see the mushrooms. i don't think that's necessarily bad.

but let's say you still see mushrooms for some reason. it's recommended or it shows up on your dash from a mutual untagged or whatever. if just seeing the mushrooms ( i mean GLANCING, like you see it for a few seconds and could theoretically scroll past) fills you with an instant panic response, to the point where it ruins your day, that's not progress. that's actively harmful to your development, and in fact, the more you avoid the mushrooms, the more you're deepening your issues with them.

bc at the end of the day we don't actually get a choice on most of the things we deal with when we're out and about. we don't get to control other people or how they exist in the world. mushrooms Do Exist and some people like them. and they're not doing anything wrong by liking the mushrooms. mushrooms are nutritious! some of them are the base of many great dishes. and some just really really like them, even ones that maybe you don't, and learning to say "i do not like/can't stand this thing but it is okay that other people do" is an important step in coexisting with others. and you can't say that you're okay with something existing if you literally can't be around it, or if seeing it without warning immediately sends you into a mental health spiral. like that's just bad for you; it isolates you for one because if anyone even mentions mushrooms around you, it means they could potentially be harming you, and what if they like—idk got mushroom pizza or something and mention it off-handedly and that fucks you up. and for two, it also means your day can be ruined very easily, and that's a lot of pain to go through for just one mention of mushrooms, you know?

this isn't to say that you shouldn't assert your boundaries, or that you're not allowed to ask someone you're friends with to not actively discuss mushrooms when your around. it also isn't to say that you're a bad person for not wishing to discuss mushrooms or that you don't get to feel your feelings. like i'm worried this is going to sound like i'm a boomer who's like "kids these days are too sensitive!! back in my day it didn't matter that you didn't like mushrooms, you ate em or you got popped in the mouth/didn't get to eat dinner/some other negative consequence." but i don't mean to say you have to like the mushrooms or even that you have to engage with them if you don't want to—just that if seeing the mushrooms makes you wanna hurt yourself or makes you so angry you make angry tweets about it, maybe avoiding the mushrooms isn't going to help because, for your own safety and development, it's GOOD to develop skills for dealing with the mushrooms. if you can't see the mushrooms at all without negative consequences, this is not coping anymore—it's avoidance. and that doesn't mean you shouldn't keep blocking the tag, but it does mean you should evaluate your relationship with the mushrooms and think about what your safety plan is for you when you encounter mushrooms irl.

#kat chats #long post

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pearlsofthec · 10 days

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Looking for advice: how would you respond to girls who are slut-shamey towards you (and to a projected image of you as your actions were basically : speak to a guy). Is it jealousy / do I drop them?

I am confused because I think that if you are a healthy human with a healthy sexuality and confidence then those old-fashioned concepts shouldn’t matter. Moreover people’s sex lives are private matters no? I wouldn’t gossip about such a thing as it’s none of my business - I always assumed this was obvious - is it?

At the same time I’d say that I’m quite emotional and I’d only be with someone if I really trusted them (so far that’s how I’ve been). So I don’t understand how I leave this slutty image in the eyes of others - except that I’m usually confident whatever I do.

I guess I’m asking because in the past I would have a small group of friends that I’d really trust, whereas now I have a larger friend group that is more superficial and I’m confused with the dynamics … idk what behaviour i should tolerate or if gossiping is normal, i don’t think it is because it’s ugly imo but idk if I’m too serious or there’s sth wrong with me… any advice would be useful

thanks in advance. this is super weird i know

FINALLY ANSWERING YOUR QUESTION, thank you for your patience.

I think that before anything, maybe you should re-evaluate your actions. From what I'm getting from your story, it doesn't look like you were in the wrong in any way shape or form, however, I always like to retrace my steps and interactions whenever I feel off about them, almost as if I were checking the receipts of what I've done. After doing that alone, you should already have a clearer outlook on the situation... At the end of the day, the biggest issue with this situation isn't even the social complication of it all, but the fact that these comments always find a way back to our minds, to torment us when we're feeling down, and making us second doubt ourselves. So solving it wouldn't have a lot to do with these girls, but re-stabilising your own notion of self worth (I hope I'm making sense)

I just hate it when I find myself second guessing my actions because other people's criticisms are reverberating through my mind.

A part of this whole "self analysis" is also important because of external validity. How you see yourself is what matters the most, however, we can't pretend we're living in a completely individualized world, where our lives are exempt from others' gazes and judgements. At the end of the day, not only do you have to ask yourself "Am I proud of having acted like this?" but also "What did I want to convey by behaving this way?" and "Did I succeed in doing so?". If your impression is that although your attempt was good intentioned, it wasn't well received by the crowd, than what you should do instead of feeling the need of changing yourself, is maybe being tactful. Each group of people will react differently to the same behavior, you just need to test the waters a bit and understand how to adapt yourself a bit according to who you're with.

Maybe, it's less about them being jealous and more about them not being used to your approach. I honestly wouldn't drop them, I'd try to understand the situation as a whole and try to adjust a bit by toning it down around them... I feel like some people would think that's being "fake" or not true to yourself, but the world isn't black or white, and at the end it requires a bit of adaption. I'm not telling you to repress your behavior completely and become a total prude, I'm just saying it may not be personal, and the only way to find out is trying.

If, however, you get the feeling they're just negging to neg, theeeen it's a whole other story.

I hope I helped in any way! Sorry if the response was a bit confusing, lmk if you need any further help!

#asks #blog

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appreciatingtokrev · 10 months

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that's true, i just keep reminding myself that nothing last forever but i am a bit sad about the ending. do you normally go to an art museum? ah, i suppose life is full of surprises, you never know what is around the corner. that's great, it's better to see things as the cup half full than empty.

i think gi will still be the company's most successful game. do you just stick to PC games then? isn't hsr the only one whose have a voice for the MC? i'm always phone based so i'm lost with the letters lol. wait, you can play it in class? 👀

don't worry, quite a few people retake a year no matter what country they are in so you're not the only one and i understand retaking a year more than once can be a bit demotivating but you can get through this.

just try not to beat yourself up about it, you are trying your best. yes, extra time to re-evaluate some options, would you like to goes into the STEMs? or another field?

i can imagine lmao, some kpop fans are too extreme though where they end up becoming saesangs. which kpop group did she introduce you to? i am an ex-kpop fan so i no longer know about the current groups.

those earrings would stand out wherever you would go especially since they are gold coloured lol. i have actually seen some shorts on YouTube of users styling their wigs and it's look like a profession because of how hard it look 💀 i'm wondering you might find a 15th february person? who know lmao but birthday twin would be most exciting. our time zone difference seem to be one hour apart so we should be able to wish each other on our days? i'll probably come off anon when it happen 🙂

you can take another shirt that fit you properly and ask them to use the shirt for guidance or get proper measurements. i just scrolled up the sleeves for mine lol. it is only the sleeves and nothing too complex so i can't imagine it will be expensive.

yeah, of course. i feel the same whenever any of my friendships or relationships or whatever end bc at the end there was still a lot of love and care involved. i love going to art museums <3 i generally love art and museums lol. i visit a bunch of museums every year, usually with my father, my godmother or said friend i mentioned. so yeah ig i usually visit them?

agreed lol, i mean hi3rd was already big before genshin but genshin topped it off still. omg my phone literally only has 16gb of storage so i can’t play any games on there ajdkffjskaj meaning i very much stick to my laptop. hi3rd doesn’t have a mc the way gi/hsr do and kiana does have a voice plus gi’s mc is occasionally voiced (only during cutscenes i think?). the mc in hsr is definitley voiced a lot more tho. i mean... i shouldn’t be playing any video games in class..... but always work on our devices anyways....... and i’d much rather play hi3rd than do french in class... ajdkfjdjsk (i’m not a good example of a student ajdkgkksj)

aa ty :) i’m doing great in school rn bc it’s all topics i’ve had before at a different school haha and i hope it’ll stay like this for a while, but let’s see. i’m also in the process of getting meds for my adhd so hopefully i’ll be able to study easier sometime in the future. honestly idk what i wanna do later rn... psychology or biology, specifically marine biology maybe? i’d love to be a marine biologist, but i get sea sick :/ though at the moment i’m mostly leaning towards studying medicine so i can work in forensic medicine. but luckily i still have at least a year to decide.

yeah, the kpop fans... she mostly introduced me to stray kids. i’m not like a big kpop fan, but i do have a playlist with kpop songs i like bc of her lol.

aren’t they silver colored tho? i made mine in silver at least ajdkfkks. but yeah, agreed. yeah, wig styling does look difficult tbh 💀 but. i believe in myself. if i believe enough it’s got to work...

maybe, who knows. ohh no more anon z next february 16th :0 hehe, i’ll gladly wait until then :3

ahh i have no long-sleeved shirts that correctly fit me ajfjfjhsk the only ones i’ve got left are from when my parents made me buy them bc i dislike them and prefer oversized hoodies and stuff by a lot lol. thanks for the tip though

#☆—`ask #anon: z

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