#<- bookkeeping tag

[pyrriax]

You seemed to like the first ones so uhhhh here is more because i really enjoy drawing this guy. digital this time!

AUVFHJNDMKVFDK,LM?????/ MY BOY. MY BOY!

#ask a ghost #asker: saltyr3mix #au: where the dust settles #tagging this as nyx #<- bookkeeping tag #anyways oh my GOD?? #lovely watcher boy <3 he has seen hell and back and he's literally just. a random 17 year old. #canon age for you with that one :3 #(this is why pandora refers to him as a kid a couple of times.) #also eensy little canon detail: nyx has brown eyes :3 #a couple of appearance notes since im thinking about it: nyx's hair was bleached at the time he was caught because of a bet he made w viole #he's one of the younger people working for starr after getting recommended to go there by a few people #i have no idea how far you are in the story PVNKDL there's a point where this all gets shown but i could happily talk more #he deserves more screen time but pandora hates him vehemently so he doesnt get a lot of it </3 #<- this is why i have plans for alternate povs and other stuff. since pandora has such a limited scope. #nyx is the youngest person in the group (before that title was held by accius but only barely) #okay thats enough random info pfnjhfdkmld #also i swear to god im gonna cry one of these days youkeep DRAWING THEM i never expected anybody to do that </3 #(happy tears i swear)

[theycallmekaibara]

Veteran followers and mutuals know exactly what this means...It's time to go back to school....

A collab with the wonderful @doctor-aceus-art !!! Jay and Kaibara in the Ouran uniforms!! This was such a wonderful return to form, I MISSEEEDD these uniforms!! I did the lines and Doc did the colors! 🥰

#mun arts #bookkeeping: collabs #i have 1000% forgotten my ouran tag LMAO #ouran #ohshc #ouran high school host club #fun fact if u search ouran uniform on google images....you might see someone familiar 🥴

[roetrolls]

Wow... it's been over 2 years since I decided to maim Veylin

#i was looking at my old dms w chase last night #and i was like WOAH I FORGOT I DREW THAT #wow look how small it was there #i sure did not keep it small #(but that wasnt me being evil that was me going 'oh yeah harlans hands are. fuckhuge') #should i. put this in the art tag??? #for bookkeeping purposes? #eh whatever

[paimonial-rage]

For people that enjoy my bookkeeping!verse series, I am planning on editing and revamping all of my previous chapters and posting it to Ao3. I understand that it's difficult following chaptered works on Tumblr, so hopefully that'll make updates easier to follow. I'll let you all know when it gets uploaded. ;v;b

#personal #it definitely will not all be uploaded at once though #i think quite a few of the chapters need a decent amount of work #i feel that my writing style has changed a decent amount since i started writing on here and like.... #the earlier chapters are very choppy in a way i don't like haha #i'm going to do my best to revamp them in a way that doesn't change too much but no promises #i know i reblog my bookkeeping!verse fics when i release them but it's because like..... #a lot of people follow me specifically for that series so i don't want them to miss it #i doubt most people are regularly looking for new fics on tumblr on a daily basis or follow the zhongli x reader tag #the only hard thing i have about the whole posting it to ao3 thing is that idk what to tag them as #not to go into character analysis mode but like zhongli is a very difficult person to figure out romance wise #i can't say for certain if this series will have a clear romantic ending #so idk if i want to tag it as zhongli x reader or zhongli & reader #i don't want to lie to the audience #it's hard orz

[bwooomscratches]

oh god toontown oc time. ref at the bottom is old! cool boots' outfit has changed a bit but im posting it bc i probably should and the sketch refs for the other guys arent final ill probably be updating their designs soon lolll

#toontown corporate clash #fanart #original character #cog oc #toon oc #cool boots #dr. pumpkinsnout #bookkeeper #paper shuffler #arbiter #hatchet man #toastmaster #tagging by job title rather than name bc its easier #technically misty and graham and chip are here but like. i this isnt rly a post About them so i wouldnt wanna clog the tag

[alluraaaa]

48 for all the paladins + allura + coran bevause i'm insane

48. scariest moment of their life

(rubs hands together. autistically. evilly.) (also skipping any close calls in battle because boring)

shiro: crash landing on earth in episode one. he had spent a year going “at least i’m the only one here. at least if matt and sam are out somewhere in space they’re not here. at least the aliens didn’t reach earth” and now he’s going to earth and will probably be chased after and he can’t talk sense into anyone because he’s forgetting details and they’re not listening and he’s being pUT UNDER AND—

he wakes up with his total amnesia after that. but once he remembers it all… those few small moments of panic are the worst he’s ever felt because there was so much at stake and so little he could do about it.

keith: the announcement of the kerberos mission failure. the one (1) person he let himself trust fully, truly, completely since his dad. he felt like the floor disappeared from under him and he couldn’t process it. because shiro promised he’d come back and shiro doesn’t break promises he doesn’t he doesn’t he doesn’t what’s going on where is my brother?

pidge: when she’s listening to alien radio chatter on a garrison roof and hears the word voltron for the first time. she gets chills like no one’s business and doesn’t know why. there’s a sense of just how big the universe is, and she’s so, so small in comparison. it was wild and definitely scary to hear aliens talking, but she never got a real word from it until voltron. she’s shaken to her core for a total of five seconds before it’s taken over by her trademark frantic curiosity.

lance: he has a nightmare in his childhood bed after the war ends. he wakes up screaming and crying and sweating and he’s used to that. used to the way someone is coming in to comfort him, but he’s not used to that happening in a house overlooking the beach, with band posters on the wall, his mother’s calloused hands wiping away tears. there was always a degree of separation between his family in cuba and his family in space, and he loves them both more than anything, but they’ve always been separate. when his mom is wiping away his tears and coran, who had been in the guest room, comes in to help him take deep breaths and squeeze his hands, he realizes that the war will always haunt him, the internal fight will never be quite over. that terrifies him.

hunk: first time in the healing pod. he had had the sensation explained to him before but that’s nothing like the real thing. at one moment, everything hurt and he was so worried about the others as well as himself and the mission and how he shouldn’t lose consciousness but does. and that panic and adrenaline doesn’t go away. so before the glass went away and he fully woke up, it was just his instinct and he knew he was stuck somewhere. he’s stuck and cold and tingly and stuck stuck stuck. and then he’s not and he’s falling and being caught by his friends— his family and everything’s okay. but for a few seconds there, he was trapped and alone.

allura: similar to hunk, it’s when she’s waking up from the cryopod. she’s still full of emotion, not knowing just how much time has passed. it’s for a split second, when she’s waking up and calling for her father, that she’s free falling, completely alone and confused and afraid. she feels gravity and someone catching her and her senses come back, but that moment of pure unbridled fear is a very significant part of her panic in that scene.

coran: allura’s first mission at the end of season one. he’s worried about anything bad that could happen to her and then something horrible happens and he wasn’t there to save her. and he didn’t even know until she was already in zarkon’s central command. he did nothing as alfor’s daughter was delivered to his greatest enemy. he didn’t breathe right until allura was safely back

(send a character + a number)

#girls when they o|–< #ask #anon #for context i wrote this with completely neutral body language while working with my mom #i bounced between ‘here’s how to do accounting and bookkeeping’ and ‘what would haunt this character for their entire life?’ #it was really fun (means that genuinely because i’m insane) #<3333 #team #long post #ask to tag #lmao

[fleapit]

it's like people forgot about phantom limbs overnight. feeling a tail/ears/muzzle/paws/whatever is a really common therian occurrence it doesn't mean you're "physically shifting" and it doesn't make you a clinical lycanthrope.

#obviously this doesnt apply to actual psychotic people but ill tag it as #double bookkeeping #just in case #barking #therianthropy #fuck also #reality checking

[gleefully-macabre]

It says something about me that one of my favorite moments from EXU: Calamity is from ep 4 when Alessander refers to Badran’s betrayal and subsequent execution as “organizational restructuring”.

#Alessander Kyrus #exu Alessander Kyrus #exu calamity #exu calamity Alessander Kyrus #I made this post just so Alessander would have a tag #support your local bookkeeper

[xxlovelynovaxx]

I am (very politely) begging other delusional and psychotic and schizophrenic people to stop stating things like "delusions are incredibly distressing" and "being schizophrenic is hard and miserable" and "psychosis is not something anyone should want to experience/talk about as a pleasant experience" as absolutes. I know it's almost always an honest mistake, but it still leaves people like me feeling incredibly isolated.

Some of my delusions are mildly distressing. They'd probably be significantly distressing if I hadn't already gone through years of therapy for help with things like intrusive thoughts and depression/anxiety (treatment for those two in particular helped me recognize not all thoughts are "true").

Most aren't. Most aren't even neutral. They're pleasant. I vibe with them. They're still absolutely delusions, like believing I am physically fae*, that I exist simultaneously in multiple realities and can move between them as a deity-like entity, that THIS reality has multiple layers and what is called "reality" by most people is just one of them (and that two mutually exclusive things can be true because of this), that most if not all objects are sentient but simply communicate differently than humans, that system-hopping is possible (but should only be done consensually)...

*note: my otherkinity is partially due to being delusional, and that's okay. psychological otherkinity is just as valid as spiritual otherkinity and if you exclude delusional otherkin from the community you're just a garden variety ableist.

None of these are difficult for us or cause any dysfunction.

The damned negative and cognitive symptoms of our schizophrenia are a pain in the ass, but we're managing them. It's not like we don't have other diagnoses that have upsides and downsides - ADHD, autism, DID, BPD...

Like, I want to be experiencing my delusions while I'm experiencing them. Even some of the distressing ones! I want to continue to experience them! Being schizophrenic, psychotic, and delusional CAN be hard, the delusions CAN be distressing, but to phrase it implying that they are for everyone all the time not only is active misinformation, but it also is erasure of a not insignificant part of the delusional/psychotic/schizophrenic communities.

And it's literally so easy to fix. "MY delusions are incredibly distressing". "Being schizophrenic is [often/sometimes] hard and miserable". "Psychosis is not a pleasant experience for many of us".

Also, for the love of gods, don't EVER fucking tell a schizophrenic/psychotic/delusional person that they're romanticizing their disorder/symptoms/neurotype just because they experience nondistressing delusions or talk about enjoying their psychosis or gods forbid have experiences that are close to a stereotype, etc. And since that goes hand in hand with fakeclaiming, don't fucking do that either. You do that around us, you'll catch a block so fast your head will spin. This paragraph alone is not being asked politely. This paragraph is a warning.

Just please remember that your experiences aren't universal. In fact, if you've said stuff like in the first paragraph, much of your experiences are only the dominant experience in white western culture, as I talked about on another post. At least for schizophrenia specifically, in other cultures, it's common for delusions/hallucinations to be pleasant or at least not scary and painful.

But even living in a culture where it is common, aside from the fact many people will just go undiagnosed if they don't have the typical distressing delusions and won't recognize them as such, there are still plenty of people that don't share that experience. Please remember that we exist, that some of us experience both, too, and that all of us are facing the same ableist society anyway so we might as well take care of each other, especially when it's as easy as inclusive language.

#delusions #endel #posic #reality shifting #otherkin #psychological otherkin #system hopping #double bookkeeping #psychosis #schizophrenia #ADHD #BPD #DID #inclusion #ask to tag

[catfoodsminmo]

honestly hiding Exile Vilify in portal 2 was so diabolical one minute you're minding your own business and going "i wonder if that radio in the trash does anything" and then you look it up and find out "oh take it to this hidden room" and then RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF MINDING YOUR OWN BUSINESS IS

you've got suckers luck

have you given up

does it feel like a trial?

does it trouble your mind, the way you trouble mine?

#i need to lie down again i need to scream i need a sedative #portal #tagging it mostly for my own bookkeeping but also #woe upon ye if u track the portal tag go sit and listen to exile vilify and sob

[dandyshucks]

i think it is a little bit funny (not necessarily haha funny but like a "huh. thats something." sort of funny) that the two main F/Os of mine (Guz and Julian) both have abusive parents fnfkdl like ,,, idk i guess like attracts like but ough theres something about that that makes me feel a little bit "this probably says too much about me" dbdkdkl (also the mk system,, and one could make an argument for the celestial robots too tbh with how theyre treated at the company djdksl)

#its been a day fhdksl #my mother is getting into some stuff that rly fucks w my brain and easily sets off psychosis symptoms so im ... ack! #im trying very hard to keep those thinking patterns out of reach and keep myself tethered but hough its gonna be a bit interesting here #the difficult thing w this is that it is impossible to disprove a lot of the thoughts and beliefs that come into play with these topics #not that arguing with delusions does any good generally speaking (and only harms usually) but ... argh ! frustrating ! #and by beliefs i mean delusions here. i do not want to argue with spiritual/religious beliefs djdksl esp if theyre not hurting anyone #i want to argue with my shitty brain trying to convince me that [redacted] is true (not going to say just in case it sets other ppl off) #and then when u throw double bookkeeping into the mix... well. now ur well and truly fucked djdkdl #ANYWAYS. it is struggle momence over here now eeyikes! #the comforting thought ''my f/o would understand my situation and would have their own experiences to draw from to know how to comfort me'' #(and i could comfort them when they struggle w flashbacks or triggers or just plain and simple difficult days) #i would never want anyone to go thru this bc it is absolute hell and nobody should ever experience this. but... #there is comfort in knowing somebody else Understands bc they've been thru it too (or similar enough that they get it) #abuse tw #vent // #for the tags mostly djfkdl #dandy.cmd

[schokonilk]

OC group shot!!!! These designs are out dated (theyre all from like October-November) oops. Anyway.

This is what they look like at the end of the story (hypothetically. I still havent figured out how the story ends)

Also I havent mentioned this yet!!!!! My story is titled Perception!!!!! (Title pending) !!!!!!!

#Oc art #digital sketch #artists on tumblr #my art #schok's art #Perception Toiba #Perception Victor #Perception EJ #Perception Rosalie #Perception Maxine #Perception Cecily #Perception Callum #Perception Wendy #Perception Marceil #Perception Felix #Thats a LOT of characters i am so sorry #These tags are more for bookkeepings sake TwT i promise i dont usually draw THIS many characters at once

[cerealmonster15]

Have you consider... Cater and silver

Do they even interact much idk but they're interacting in my brain rn and that's enough for me

[hold please. searching for a specific post]

ok well. mission failed bc im p sure the person i thought posted it APPARENTLY DEACTIVATED wahh. anyway there's this one post a twst meme acct made on suggestion that was cater/silver and i Cant Find It but i def rotated them in my mind a few times after that. overly niche twst if youre out there idk if u made that post or if im confusing u with someone else but 🫡

anyway

i think they'd be funny LOL. first of all? fucks me up that theyre the same height. and also the same height as azul. ive said it before but just bc of who theyre usually standing next to, i always feel like cater should be taller and azul should be shorter and silver somewhere in the middle fkldsjfle. but cater interacting with diasomnia in general i think is very fun. im a fan of cater/malleus and i feel like there could be some similarities with silver/cater with like,,, guy who lived his life in the no tech woods vs smartphone clout addiction boy dskljfdslf. i ALSO think it could be fun bc caycay's music besties with his DAD, in the same way that i kinda like idia/silver and think THAT'S funny bc idia is GAMER BESTIES with silvers dad,,,, the parallels,,,

anyway silvers canonically very pretty [according to at least idia and vil and probably other people idr dskljfjs] and i bet cater would get a lot of likes if he posted a pic them together... but i ALSO think cater could get himself a good social media detox if he went to go visit the valley of thorns w/silver :3 also please god family dinner of the diasomnia four + cater diamond. that'd be so funny i think. really sticking any one person with that four would be Very Funny theyre so weird god. cater should teach silver to skateboard. he'd probably like it bc it's a test of balance or whatever. hell yea brother

#asks #kirexa #cereal tries to draw #twisted wonderland #twst #more bookkeeping tags teeeheeeeeee anyway #yeah i can dig it 👍

[theycallmekaibara]

The little cabin is cute and all, but I think it would be REALLY cool if there was a family farmhouse fixer upper kinda deal on the farm as well 🤔 Like maybe they just fixed up the cabin so she’d have somewhere to live initially, but the old farmhouse is a longer term project...much like the farm, lol

I am cooking on this idea, but it definitely involves Kaibara’s friend and DIY Reno queen April Day being invited to live with her on the farm to tackle the project. 

#bookkeeping: queen of the valley #i need a tag for like...story and au musings..... #bookkeeping: writer's room #sdv #stardew valley #sdv farmer #this is definitely because kaibara would want a big ol pink house #and because house flipper is the most addicting game on the planet

[dragonswithjetpacks]

𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝑜𝑜𝓀 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝒶𝓀𝓈…

…𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓈.

#bg3 tav #bg3 oc #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #ferelith #ferelith moonshade #ferelith screen tag #the bookkeeper of baldur's gate #it wat she do #dwjp screen tag

[the-potpourri-backstage]

Coon, Mouse, and Bunny tits for the New Year.

#shy bookkeeper: allison #Well aged: cream #Trinity tag pending