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mondaymelon · 4 months

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MERRY CHRISTMAS !!! gifts ensue.

he really went. blep. hi user @ilyuu. im proud of this one so congrats wanderer takes home first gift wooo

lmao id like to apologise in advance as this was brought on because of me but I got super burnt out drawing like 20 of these over the course of 2 days... if you see the quality of the drawings declining ( which you will ) please don't mind it!! thank you.

@anonbinaryweirdo. sigh. i get whiplash whenever you're super nice and then in the span of the next three seconds immediately do something vile

@soleillunne. we don't talk much but from what I know you are such a sweet person omg !! and your works??? dies inside (in a good way). the way you write xiao maks me so. puddle like

@realkavehgf. we agree on one things (amongst others) and that is that kaveh is. kAVEH IS. MALFUNCTIONS PERISHES.

@emphasisondrvgs. you scare me. please take your ranpo and quietly see yourself out LMAO /j

@pjsk-writin. AMIMI ONE OF MY FIRST EVER MOOTS !!! im so proud of mikoto. sighs. straitjackets are smth else to draw .. BUT HES SO. MMMMMM !!!!

@circyexistforcontent AAAHHH HI PRECIOUS. I LIKE YOU BUT I DONT REALLY LIKE DILUC SO. TAKE THIS... quietly throws up

@whats-it-mean. puka puka. head empty. puka puka. please stop your affairs with my mother.

@falors. UGLY SOBS. UGLY CRIES. I LOVE YOU /P SM. WAAHHHH TEARS TEARS TEARS you are the most talented person ever I S T G gRAAAHHH YOU BETTER GET 18412409128410948 FOLLOWERS THIS YEAR OR I WILL RIOT. mwah.

@dustofthedailylife. omg. hi dust... tbh ive been so concerned for you recently with how much life is running you over with a pickup truck so wishing for your improved health soon !! alhaith is a smort guy what can I say

@the-white-void. DEAREST. literally one of the first people I ever interacted with on this platform and you're actually. like. literally one of the sweetest people I have ever met. KLEE IS SUCH A CUTIE FJSFJDK

@kaeffeinee. OMG. m..my kitten- woah WHO just said that. wild shit right there. have something you don't like?? have something that's been pestering you for far too long?? no worries. its the official nag seal of mendokusai !!!!

@lillonvia. sobs. I didn't do the man justice.loud sobs. DFSDDSF YOUR ART MAKES ME WANT TO LIKE DISENTAGRAT INTO GLOWING BALLS oF FUZZ AND FLOAT INTO THE HEAVENS I DONT KNOW HOW ELSE TO DESCRIBE IT. WE ARE SO DELULU oVER XIAO. FOAMS AT THE MOUTH

@absolutelyobsessedkiya. HELP WHY IS MINORI SO BRIGHT.... she's literally shining what. we need to talk more pspsspsp I just now found out that you're a fan of milgram!! remember like last year I was all 'whose that pretty pink person on their pfp??' AND NOW I FINALLY KNOW THATS ITS MUU RAHHHH

@auroratumbles. meow. cat. what a sweetie. I don't even know what my art style is doing here anymore Istg what even. what even BYE LETS TALK ABOUT XIAO LATER !!

@papiliotao. mwah. a kith for you. mWAH. ANOTHER KITH. SJFKSDJFLS GRAHHH YOU ARE THE SW E. E T E ST AND YOUR THE SWEETEST AND YOUR CAT IS THE SWEETEST AND YOUR VOICE IS MAKING ME WANT TO ELEVATE INTO THE CLOUDS AND YOURE SO SILLY EVEN THOUGH YOU DONT LIKE AKITIO SHINONOME

@yinyinggie. hihihi ying !! it honestly amazes me how you're able to juggle so many events and servers at once. im actually in awe. always look at xiao he's so emo and short

@solxima. GRAHHH HI. I DONT LIKE HOW JINGYUAN LOOKS IN THIS BUT. DLJFLSDJ DIES> I CANT DO THIS AN Y M O RE. your honor. hes so cat coded hes so cat coded he's so PERISHS

@yelshin. WAIIIIT NO YOUR NAME GOT CUT OFF> iM SORRY. I don't know why he looks... so r e g a l in this but its definitely giving off oRAtRice MecAnIquE DAnAlySe CARdiNAle .

@vennnnn-diagram. LOUD SCREAMING N O . YOUR NAME GOT CUT OFF TOOOODJSKFLSD JGAIJFAD JKLJFD:LFS. anyways. I need to see nahida smiling more she deserves everything and then some. aranaras are so silly giggles

@lume-nosity. I hold the slightest bit of guilt for putting your angsty ish drawing right next to happy lil nahida buT AHAHAH IT MAKES IT HURT MORE IG. took some inspo from your blog title... mwah ily lume. I WAS SO SCARED TO TALK TO YOU AT FIRST WHEN I SENT YOU THAT MOOT ASK BUT I AM EVER SO HAPPY THAT I DID !!!

th end. im actually so dead lmao my fingers actually were starting to bleed afklsdjfaskdjfklsdjflkasdjflksjflkjowejtoij enjoy your Christmas gifts mooties !! if anyone asks why I haven't been posting fics as promised. this is why. ill be in a coffin for a while please let my soul rest

OH AND FORGOT TO MENTION I DREW THESE BASD ON THE MOOTIES THAT COMMNTED ON MY THINGY LIKE LAST WEEK WHICH ASKED WHICH CHARACTER THY WANTD I LOVE YOU ALL PSPS I PROMIS

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hailuchiha · 1 month

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Hey! Your blog is right up my alley and I love your writing? I saw something similar on a different blog, and I really wanted to see your take on it. Feel free to ignore if you don't want to write it 😿💔

Req: Itachi has a younger sister close to his age. When she's of age, Fugaku wants to teach Itachi his place and duty as Uchiha heir and has him breed his sister.

!! 18+ NSFW!!

!!MINORS DNI!!

!!ALL characters involved are 18+ NO MINOR CHARACTERS!!

incest; betrayal?; expectations; breeding; sibling incest; old customs; lineage; loss of virginity; first time; misogynistic behavior; impartial treatment; noncon; taboo

Know Your Place

While Fugaku was far less intense than some of the older generation clan heads, be it Uchiha or from other clans, he still had to uphold some practices, especially since all eyes were always on the Uchihas.

His beloved wife was loathe to put her precious children through that ritual, begging him to use his position as clan head to vote his children out of it. However, Fugaku was nothing if not dutiful. He would not show any bias towards his family. Ancient Konoha customs were especially sacred to the Uchiha and Senju, since they were the founder's blood.

After many fights and arguments, Mikoto had unhappily relented, seeing that she couldn't change her husband's mind. His heart ached for his wife as he could imagine where she was coming from. So, to spare her somewhat, he suggested she should go visit her friend the fated day and to even have a sleepover if possible.

While she had still not been happy about his decision and what would befall their children, she had thanked him for the suggestion, ever courteous, and went to sleep with her back turned towards him.

The fateful day finally came. Mikoto, despite being upset with her husband, had taken his suggestion and planned a date with Kushina to spend the whole day together and end it in a sleepover. She had already told Sasuke to come straight to Naruto's home with him after their training ended. If there was one silver lining in the situation, she figured it was that her baby would be spared the fates of his elder siblings.

Their daughter had come of age around a week ago. Fugaku knew what had to be done. And it had to be done today, with his wife safely out of the picture so as not to have to witness what needed to happen.

Sometime before noon, Fugaku came into the living room and called for both his eldest children in a booming voice. Itachi came first, coming in from where he'd been in the back garden, looking mildly curious. Fugaku gestured for him to wait, to which he obliged, knowing he'd find out whatever his father wanted once his sister came down.

His second born, and only daughter, tiptoed down the stairs, poking her head around the door to gauge the situation. She flinched upon seeing his intense expression and straightened up, quickly slinking into the room and sitting opposite him, beside Itachi.

"You're both old enough now," he got straight to business. "Itachi, you're my heir. You need to stake your claim. As for you," he fixed his daughter with a cold gaze. "You must ensure and strengthen his position. Your place is beside him."

She bit the inside of her cheek, looking towards Itachi for clarity, but he was staring in confusion at their father.

"I don't understand father," she said, trying to lower the intensity radiating off of both the men. "It's understood I'll make sure his position is strong... Why are you saying it like this?"

Fugaku breathed out through his nose, praying for patience to get through this. He kept his demeanor and tone harsh, knowing that was the most efficient way to get through this.

He barked at her to undress, that she was to do as she was told. That was her position. He ignored the angry, hurt tears welling in her eyes and kept his gaze focused on his son, whose fists were balled tightly on his lap.

Out of the corner of his eye, he could see his daughter looking to Itachi for help, but eventually realizing her older brother wouldn't take her side here. If the situation weren't so dire, he would have smiled in pride at his son's sense of loyalty. Fugaku knew how much Itachi adored his younger siblings, but to see that he would do whatever it takes for his clan and village made him proud.

His daughter slowly undressed, fighting back tears and looking forlorn. When she was completely bare, she folded her arms over her chest, trying futilely for some semblance of modesty. He could see the slight tremours in Itachi's arms as he fought for restraint.

Fugaku took a quick inspection of her folds, having her hold her cunt open, feet spread far apart. He nodded with satisfaction upon finding her virginity in tact. Now to move on to the next part.

Next, he had her lay on the low table in front of Itachi, barking at her to spread her legs and keep them open when she would start to close them, shaking from the absurdity of the situation.

Itachi hadn't moved an inch from his spot, still kneeling at his seat. He didn't meet Fugaku's eyes when the clan head turned towards him.

"Itachi," he called out sternly, although his voice was considerably free of the harshness he had used on his daughter. "You are to be the future leader of this clan. You must take her, and make sure to spill inside. She'll bear many children for you."

For a long moment, Fugaku feared his eldest won't obey. That this was where he'd draw the line and Fugaku would have to use stricter means. He fixed his son with a cold look, barely paying attention to his vulnerable daughter, who had hidden her face behind her hands. He let her hide for now.

Then, slowly, Itachi shifted, reaching out to grab the only item Fugaku had prepared for this occasion. He took the jar and opened it, dipping his fingers into the thick lubricant. Wordlessly, he brought the fingers to his sister's pink folds that were splayed uncomfortably in front of him. He didn't waste time in teasing or arousing pleasure, and simply got to work using his slick fingers to lubricate and open her up with quick motions as if sensing Fugaku's rising impatience.

The man pulled his daughter's trembling hands away from her face, revealing her teary eyes and conflicted expression. He wanted to give her a kind smile and comfort her, but he remembered his duty as a father and clan head were most important right now.

"Look at him," he said instead, words as stern as his eyes. "Don't bring your hands up again!"

Pleased with his work when her hands dropped to her sides on the tabletop, clenched into tight fists, Fugaku went behind Itachi who was lining up his manhood to his sister's prepared cunt. With a hand on his son's shoulder, Fugaku watched as his thick, engorged head breached his daughter's virgin entrance, telling him to keep pushing as she began to squirm.

He didn't comment when Itachi's hands went to her waist, holding her down as he spoke gentle words to calm his sister down and reassuring her that the pain would subside.

“Easy, love. Just a bit more… It’ll get better,” Itachi murmured against the skin of her neck before pressing a gentle kiss there.

With a few more thrusts, he was buried inside her, having successfully breached her cunt. Fugaku winced, having caught sight of the thin streaks of blood from her hymen coating the length of Itachi's fat cock as he pulled out to thrust back in, the red now pinkish from mixing with the white lubrication Itachi had used generously while preparing her. The clanhead patted his son on the back as he finally started to fuck his sister properly, seemingly having gotten over the inhibitions from earlier. Content in knowing that his work was done, Fugaku quietly exited the living room and retreated to his study.

As he leaned back in his chair and lit a cigar, he wished Mikoto would return home tonight instead of sleeping over at her friend's house after all. He was only human, and the past couple hours had aroused his need for his wife.

He blew out a ring of smoke, letting his eyes fall shut as the muffled sounds of his son breeding his daughter filtered through the thin walls to his office.

NOTE: edits and corrections may come along as i have time and notice them

#itachi uchiha #uchiha smut #naruto headcanons #naruto scenarios #naruto #itachi #itachi smut #fugaku uchiha #itachi x sister #uchiha oc #uchiha reader #sister ocs

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good-beanswrites · 5 months

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If it's okay with you, could you write a drabble about the hypothetical aftermath of Amane getting attacked by Kotoko?

Welp thank you pal for making me absolutely insane with this request 👍 I ran through a few hypotheticals and realized I had to shift some things around since there were so many absolutely tragic outcomes. I worked something out but damn if it didn’t make me emotional to think about how uniquely rough Amane has it. Even making sure she's in a good place at the end, this got pretty serious, so warnings for child abuse and cult references.

(So in canon, Kotoko goes in order and attacks Fuuta, but Kazui steps in. Then she attacks Mahiru while he’s distracted with his injuries. She’s about to attack Amane, but Mikoto gets in the way (my hc that he did it on purpose survives!). By the time they reach a draw, Kazui is back, and the two of them can prevent Kotoko from any further action against Amane. Sticking to this apparent system of three attacks and one rescue, I’m just shuffling around the injuries for this story. Fuuta’s attack went unnoticed, and he’s in the same state as canon Mahiru. Mikoto steps in before Kotoko can fight Mahiru, so Mappi’s the one who get out physically unscathed. While Mikoto checks on Mahiru, recovers himself, or discovers Fuuta, Kotoko is able to attack Amane next. Kazui comes to help, but not before she leaves Amane looking like canon Fuuta.)

Mahiru could practically feel her heart shatter into a million pieces when Amane finally cried in front of her. She hadn’t shed a single tear yesterday – it was the shock, Shidou said. Mahiru was skeptical. After all, she had been shocked, too, and cried plenty.

Amane woke as she came in with breakfast. She took a moment to survey herself, bandages peeking out from beneath her pajamas and an eyepatch securely over her right eye. As calmly as one might say “good morning,” she started to cry. Mahiru might have missed it, if Amane hadn’t wiped at her good eye with her sleeve.

“Oh, sweetheart…!” Mahiru rushed over to her. “It’s okay, I’m here.” She wanted nothing more than to wrap the girl in a secure embrace, but she remembered the mass of bandages that were around her chest. Shidou had mentioned broken ribs and bruises. It took everything in her not to cry along with Amane, at the thought.

“I can get you another ice pack, if you need. Or more medicine.” Her mind spun with ways to help with pain. Many of the first aid supplies had been used to keep Fuuta from the brink of death, but surely there were extras to spare for Amane.

The girl just shook her head.

She muttered, “I can’t… I…I’m going to be punished, I’m going to be punished…”

“No! You’re safe now.” Mahiru placed her hands gently on Amane’s arms. “Kotoko’s not coming back. We’re all watching over you. You’re safe. She’s not going to hurt you anymore.”

“That’s not…” Amane pulled away. Her voice stayed level, despite hiccups interrupting her. A hand reached up to her eyepatch. “It’s this. It’s all of this. It’s sinful. I took it off last night, but he must have…” She started unwrapping it. “They’re going to punish me...”

With a careful motion, Mahiru held it in place and took Amane’s hands into her own. She’d been picking up on the signs ever since they arrived here together, and a final wave of understanding washed over her.

“I can’t let you do that.”

Amane’s expression twisted, though words came out far more frantic than fiery. “Let me go.”

Mahiru didn’t. “I’m sorry. Amane, you need this treatment.”

“That is not your decision to make. That is not any human’s decision to make.”

Mahiru pressed her lips together. “I know. But I can’t watch as you… I can’t sit by again while someone…” She was careful not to apply any pressure, but she could no longer fight the urge to gather Amane up in her arms. “You don’t need to be afraid of those people, anymore.”

“I’m not afraid.” Amane hiccuped. “They love me, and I love them. I need to be good for them.”

“I love you, and I don’t want to see you in pain.”

“You just pity me because I’m young.”

“Why does your age matter? You are a lovely young woman – you are my friend – and I can’t bear to see you in pain.”

The two sat in silence for a moment. Mahiru doubted she would take that as an answer; Amane had refused to call any of the others her friend. At least she didn’t argue. In fact, it seemed she was leaning into the embrace a bit more. She sighed a shaky breath into Mahiru’s uniform.

“Listen, Amane. Can you do me a favor? I’m trying to be a good girl, too. To make up for something awful, I need to make sure you’re alright. Can you help me? Can we be good together?”

A long pause followed. Amane’s voice spoke up, ever so gently.

“I suppose I can consider it.” She added quickly, “for the sake of your redemption. Of course.”

“Of course.”

#milgram #amane momose #mahiru shiina #thank you so much! i dont want to be bubbly on such a serious drabble but i want to give an enthusiastic thanks because this one really got #the gears turning!!#i started making plans as soon as i saw the ask and it took so long finding something that wouldnt result in straight up tragedy :(#if i kept to the initial timeline and said kazui didnt step in until amanes attack then both fuuta and mahiru would be close to death #and given there seems to limited supplies i think one of them would have died if shidou needed to treat three critical patients #so i moved people around to make sure everyone survived #which brought me to the main problem of amane self sabotaging her medical care #even minor injuries could have resulted in death if she got her way and removed bandages/refused treatment #but the mental strain of keeping the treatment would be just as bad as the physical pain -- shed be paranoid 24/7 of #divine punishment and repeating the mistakes that led her here.... it would hurt more to be forced like that #so i needed someone to be able to get through to her gently #but the only one who shes been able to trust just got the shit beat out of him and is in no position to talk!!!!#everyone else would just make her more upset or not know how to convince her the right way :(#still - i think mahiru could do it the best! with her own trauma from allowing loved ones to die in front of her i think shed be motivated #so. yeah.#i know amane is supposed to be talking in the plural pronoun now but i couldnt get it to work - lets just say that kicks in soon after this #tw cults #tw child abuse #drabbles

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whats-it-mean · 5 months

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hi hii! may i request either 03 or 09 (or john !! whichever u think would be most interesting) x reader going through the effects of the unforgiven veredict？

if what i mean isnt understandable i can explain further

Innocent in their eyes ☆

Fuuta Kajiyama + Mikoto Kayano (separate) x reader

A/N - Fuuta is my cat. i love him. Hope its ok i went with mikoto rather than john, but i’ve been wanting to write for the silly boy for a bit so i took this as a bit of an excuse to do so ^^ (john does kinda make an appearance tho)

C/W - Anxiety, hearing voices

─── ･｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─── Fuuta Kajiyama

Any concern he had for his own well being was gone in an instant as Fuuta rushed to your figure, you being curled up and shaking in the corner of your cell. In a matter of seconds, his arms were wrapped around you and you were brought right up against his chest, his breathing just as rapid as yours as your tears wet his clothes.

You sputtered out a faint apology, followed by ‘this is my fault’, and the boy practically shattered. He desperately tried to pull you closer, burying his face in your shoulder as he held you.

“Shut up. No it’s not.” His voice was almost frantic as he spoke. “It’s not your fault, okay? Don’t.. don’t say that.”

For the first time in a while, it felt like the voices constantly condemning you hushed while Fuuta hugged you on the floor. It was comfortably silent as he simply held you, breathing heavily from the way he ran immediately to you from where he’d been upon hearing about tour verdict.

He knew full well how awful it was, the way the voices never stopped, the way it felt like you were constantly being watched, being judged. The pain was almost unbearable for him, but the idea of you suffering through that brought out a side of him nobody ever saw. He was scared- All he ever wanted was to make sure you were okay and safe, and the idea of you having to suffer through the anguish of a guilty verdict was worse than his own.

You let out a weak smile as his breathing finally started to slow back to a normal pace, and felt yourself leaning into his hold. “….Thank you.”

A slight calm washed over him as he heard your voice, and his grip tightened. “It wasn’t your fault. You.. You aren’t guilty, okay?”

He sighed, smiling against your shoulder as he hugged you.

“You’re as innocent as can be as far as i see it.”

─── ･｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─── Mikoto Kayano

No words were spoken as Mikoto slid himself next to you on your mattress, quietly offering you a mug of hot chocolate with a tired smile. He leaned over you slightly, placing his arm on your shoulder and let his fingers play around with your hair. All you could bring yourself to do was stare into the mug, but you laid your head on Mikoto’s shoulder in a small show of gratitude.

“You know..” His voice was quiet as he spoke, just loud enough for you to hear. “Es is wrong. We’re gonna get out of here soon, okay? I promise.”

With the hand that wasn't already busy with your hair, you felt his fingers entwine with yours as he squeezed your hand ever so slightly. He was convinced even before now that the verdicts given by Es weren’t accurate- As far as Mikoto knew, both of you were there by mistake, but that didn’t stop the turmoil that came with being deemed guilty.

For days since receiving the verdict, you had stayed holed up in your cell. You wouldn't even leave for meals, and so Mikoto coming by like this with food and drinks had become a routine over the past few days. He was the only one you were willing to see at the time, and even then you barely spoke to him, just sitting next to him and taking in all the warmth he had to offer to distract you from the pain.

And watching you go through that triggered emotions in him he hasn’t had to deal with in a long time.

He couldn’t remember any of it, but some of the other prisoners told him he’d even gotten into a fistfight trying to stop Kotoko from hurting you. And even without memory of the fact, as he sat here, your hand in his with him whispering any sort of encouragement he could to you, there was no doubt about it;

You didn’t deserve this, and while he may not know it yet, you could tell he was gonna be doing something about it later.

─── ･｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─── End

#⤥ Mairu Writes !#milgram #milgram x reader #mikoto kayano x reader #fuuta kajiyama x reader #mikoto kayano #john kayano #john kayano x reader #fuuta kajiyama #fuuta milgram #mikoto milgram #john milgram #orekoto #09 x reader #03 x reader

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faceless-es · 6 months

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Thoughts On Milgram Characters

(This is pretty lighthearted and doesn’t go too deep into them as characters, just silly thoughts that pop into my head)

Haruka - I kin this man. Ever since I saw Weakness and was hit by a fucking bus of relating to later being hit by a fucking train from All-Knowing and All-Agony. (If you all are curious I wrote an entire note on all the lyrics and how I relate when I first watched it and basically trauma dumping, may show it if demanded) Besides kinning him I feel a lot of empathy and attachment for him. Do I condone his actions? Hell nah, but I just want him to have therapy and love. I rest my case.

Es - I love them. (I don’t know if I kin them or if they’ve just taken over my very being but-) There’s never been a snarky 15 year old in fiction I have adored more. I love their personality. The sudden changes in their personality with the bell and such leads me to be very curious about them, and also deeply concerned. Their lack of memory does the same. I worry for their future. I worry for them. The theories don’t help. Don’t hurt them, please. I want to take them and carry them away. Also, they are very much gender. Their voice is also very gender.

Fuuta — Our silly little gamer boy. I love him. He’s cocky, but he also is remorseful. He’s reflective and realizes his actions were not just. He’s smart. He calls shit out. He has good intentions. He’s snarky, fiery, but kind and passionate and willing to learn. He’s very reasonable, like if I were a prisoner in MILGRAM I wish I would be like him. His actions make so much sense and I applaud him for it. He doesn’t deserve this shit. He’s been wronged. I love him, a lot. Everything about him. I want him to have happiness. I also love his voice.

Kazui — Our dearest gay(?) man. I love him. (I say that a lot, don’t I?) I want him to take me under his wing. I love him. He’s so fatherly. He’s so fucked up. He’s the dearest. I’d love to talk to him and help him accept himself. I’d also recommend therapy. Our dear man, he’s so attractive too. But that’s besides the point, he’s also just so goofy. I love him. He deserves to live a good life and be loved for who he is.

Shidou — Our lovely doctor. I feel like he’s very misunderstood in the community, so many people say he’s an organ harvester, when he would just ask families to pull the plug and donate organs to other patients. He’s often painted out to be some crazy mastermind, I may just be dumb but I don’t see that to be the case at all. I think he’s lovely. He may be a bit of a mystery but I still love him. He doesn’t seem to be an ill-intentioned person at all. He also deserves therapy. I’d love to help him. Poor guy.

Yuno — I love her a lot. I love her personality, no matter if it’s “cold” or not. I completely stand by her. She deserves the world. I feel she needs therapy. She’s amazing and I love her sassiness and bluntness. The way she calls shit out as it is. She’s great.

Mikoto — Oh, dearest! This man, I love him. I love him more and more each day. Every theory I read about him leads me to have more and more empathy for him. God, I worry a lot for him. I hate how much he’s sexualized. I hate how he can be misunderstood or demonized. He doesn’t deserve any of it. I want to take him far, far away from it all. He needs therapy. I want him to be okay. I fear for him. I want to give him a big hug, and tell him it’s okay. God, I love him and his complexities as a character.

Mahiru — Oh, dearest. She had such hopes and happiness all shatter. Poor girl. She needs therapy, for sure. I feel bad for her. She clearly didn’t know what she was doing was wrong. I really hope she will be okay. She doesn’t deserve such pain.

Amane — She may be a bit of a brat, but I’ve grown to care for her more the more I learn. Poor girl has been traumatized so badly, I feel so bad for her. I do not agree with the way she uses her religion, but what can you expect? She was raised in a cult, it’s all she’s known. This poor girl, I want to hold her close. She needs therapy. She’s 12 for gods sake. I wish she didn’t have to go through all this. I hope she will break free from the cult. I still am angered by how low her vote has been, seems many people dislike her. I get that her personality is not great, but you have to take into account her circumstances.

Muu — Ah, our manipulative rich girl. I can’t say I like her, since that’d be a lie, although her songs are absolute bops. Yet, I don’t despise her, I just very much dislike her personality. She’s manipulative and self centered, perhaps partly due to her upbringing. She was likely a bully herself too. Not good vibes from her. Does she deserve to be thrown into some torture chamber prison for that? No, of course not. Also, Muu, stay away from Haruka. I’m warning you.

Kotoko — Ah, the savior complex vigilante. If you couldn’t tell by that, I don’t like her much. In fact, her self righteousness gets on my nerves a tad. She judges anyone and everyone freely based solely on her beliefs, yet she always is in the right somehow? Don’t like it. Although, the way she is a parallel to us the audience is genius. Really makes you think, huh? I’ll give her that, she makes me think. I wish she’d get off of her high horse though. I can sense there’s some deep insecurity in her, perhaps that’s why she does this. She is interesting, and could become a better person with work perhaps.

I hope no one is offended by this, these are just some thoughts that popped into my head when thinking of them. It’s pretty lighthearted. I mean no disrespect, all the characters are morally grey! I just have my own biases and therefor like some more than others. Thanks for reading it you did!

#milgram #milgram project #haruka milgram #es milgram #kazui milgram #shidou milgram #fuuta milgram #yuno milgram #mahiru milgram #mikoto milgram #muu milgram #amane milgram #kotoko milgram

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cottoncandy-cult · 7 months

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Masrur X Slave! Reader

So the first time I heard Masrur my heart hurt because he sounded so familiar, upon looking it up his voice actor is actually the voice actor of Mikoto Suoh from K... 😭 I'm so stuck cause I'm “happy” cause they are similar characters so it's like "Yay! The Red King lives on!" But then it's like memories of his death and die all over x.x

Tw mentions of slavery and abuse brief description of bodily injury

It was a beautiful day in Sindria, Sinbad and his generals had decided to take a walk through the kingdom that afternoon and see how the citizens were fairing. They had just made their way to the outskirts, walking along a trail through a small, forested area in the northern part of the kingdom. The sides of the trail were slightly raised and lined with fruit trees and flowery bushes; it was a rather beautiful place given the various colorful array of flowers that bloomed throughout the area. Though soon they came to a stop when the sound of a loud rustling to their right reached them, like something was just hauling ass through the forest.

Masrur could hear the individual footsteps, and easily made out that they were human, given their pace he moved to shift to a fighting stance just in case. But then a young girl came tumbling through the greenery, falling rather hard to the sandy ground bellow. He could hear her whimper as she pulled her battered body upwards to sit on her knees, she was definitely a fenalis, though her hair was a bit of a lighter pink which had likely meant she was kept somewhere dark. It was almost like cotton candy, at least what he could see that wasn't tangled with blood and mud.

Her body had barely been covered by a grey ragged dress with splatters of blood old and fresh easily seen, what could be scene of her body was a sad sight. Her skin was covered in scars, some being faded while others appeared to have only recently healed, though most concerning were the open gashes on her back. The back of her dress was a shredded and bloody mess, showing that she had been whipped rather violently within the last few hours. She was much smaller than someone her age should have been, the girl clearly being underfed. The chains on her wrists and broken shackles on her ankles told them all else they needed to know; she was a slave.

Slavery was something not allowed within Sindria, infact slave owners were punished quite severely when caught passing through. "Miss are you ok?.." Sinbad spoke softly but still she jumped; the small female tried to move away but she merely fell over with a whimper. She was severely injured, her pain rendering her frail body near immobile. She couldn't move and she was obviously terrified, though when Sinbad began to approach, she didn't try to run again. Instead, she closed her eyes and curled up with a sob, it made Masrur's heart clench though he did not show it. The girl was broken, having been mistreated for so long that she was quick to submit and accept the beating she expected as she knew any more resistance could hurt her more.

"Hey now it's ok, I'm not gonna hurt you." The others slowly approached, Masrur moving the closest as he kneeled down and listened to Sinbad's words. That's when something came to mind, his large hands were gentle when taking her small hand in his own before he pressed it over his heart. He felt something spark in him as he watched her calm down, she watched him as he reached up to wipe her tears. The purple haired leader quirked a brow but when he noticed how she seemed to calm he tried again. "I am Sinbad, the ruler of Sindria. These men are my generals, we simply want to help you. Will you let us?"

The girl glanced away from Masrur for a moment to lock eyes with Sinbad before looking back to the fellow Fenalis, Masrur had given a slight head nod and so she returned to looking at Sinbad before nodding her own head. Masrur, careful as can be, lifted the girl bridal style and tucked her against his chest. He knew she was hurt and didn't want to make it worse; he didn't want to cause her any more pain. Though before the group could leave a creepy voice was heard from just beyond the bushes, it creaked and cracked like a demon of the old world. "My sweet songbird where have you gone? Must I clip your wings for you to stay?"

The girl had tensed with a quiet whimper, nestling into Masrur as he held her closer. An older man could be seen walking out of woods from the right of the path, he carried a sickle as he creeped closer to the group. His wicked grin and sunken eyes creeping out some of the generals, he certainly didn't seem like one of the good guys. The old man stopped about 15 feet from them when he realized the girl was in the arms of the large fenalis, though Sinbad and Jafar quickly blocked the two from view.

"Masrur, take her back to the castle and make sure she's taken care of. We have things handled here." This had been Hinahoho's voice, the large man standing tall with a look of disgust at the man who had clearly committed many horrible acts. Masrur had silently nodded as he quickly left the area, thanks to the enhanced speed of the fenalis he got back to the palace rather quick. Everything after that had been a rushed blur of maids and healers trying to take care of the poor woman, Masrur had sat in the common area as to not be in the way of the whirlwind.

Soon he was joined by the others who spoke of how the man had his ass kicked before Pisti had returned with some guards to arrest him, now they had to handle the topic of the broken girl. "We can't just send her on her way, she probably can't take care of herself." This was Yamraiha, surprisingly Sharrkan was agreeing with her. Then again most the generals had already weighed in that they wanted to let the young girl stay there, at least until she was stable and okay enough to survive alone.

Sinbad sat nodding his head, leaning back in his seat as he heard the others out. "Then it's settled, she's gonna stay here. She needs our help, and we will give it to her." Masrur only half listened to the group. He was more focused on the rushed footsteps of the medics and servants, though as they slowed, he both relaxed slightly and grew nervous. He was snapped out of this trance by Pisti waving her hand in front of his face, having likely been trying to get his attention. "What is it?..." His voice was a low mumble, his arms crossed over his chest as he looked at them.

Sharrkan had been the one to speak now, leaning forward intently. "What was that thing you did that calmed her down, you know with her hand?" Masrur gave a heavy sigh; he almost knew this subject would come up. "It was something I saw a lot as a slave, when I asked an older fenalis he said it was a quiet promise. That the female fenalis were our women, and we needed to protect them." He looked to his friends who held faces of awe and sadness, he understood of course, it seems like a sweet gesture, but the circumstances really make it sadder. "A lot of times when a male would make this vow, he'd take her beatings and punishments, if the owners would try to breed the girl the males would do anything they had to in order to have the right to breed with her. Because he made the promise to protect her, and if it must be done, he wants to be sure she will be ok."

Pisti had exploded into tears, this sweet gesture was buried in a dark and twisted origin. It only made her despise slavery more, the others held grim looks as the topic had always upset them. They hated to hear these horror stories of slavery, though for some it triggered anger. Generals like Hina and Sharrkan wanted to go hunting for slavers after hearing these things, it wasn't surprising really. Even though some wouldn't expect it from Sharrkan, he was a playboy sure, but he never forced anything on anyone, nor did he approve of it. He was a man of morals, even if he was a little goofy at times. Their attention had quickly turned to the line of servants lead by a medic that left the hallways which lead to the girl's room, the elderly gentleman giving them a smile. "She will live, but her injuries are severe, and she must not leave bed unless absolutely necessary. I've prepared some special powders; she'll be in quite a bit of pain once she wakes up. Just a little in her drinks should do the trick."

The tension in the air seemed to disappear at the good news, the generals giving him and the maids a thanks as they walked out. "We should take turns caring for her, she'll be here a while so we need to make sure she gets use to all of us and so she will hopefully see us as friends." This had been Hina's idea, Pisti immediately perked up and stood on the table. "We can do it by week shifts, that way we get to spend a decent amount of time together!" Everyone had agreed to the idea, some actually really excited to welcome the girl to a better environment.

"I'll take first... I did make the vow." Masrur had stood up trying not to be too quick for the sake of his pride, leaving the others to sort out who goes after who as he went to her room. The tall male had taken her to the nearest guest room when he came in, being located next to his own. When he came in the first thing he noticed was that she had been cleaned up, despite her scars she was quite cute. She only had a couple on her face, a thin vertical one went down over her left eye and a small horizontal one went over the bridge of her nose that just barely reached her cheek bones.

She was bandaged up and under a cover, so not much would be seen of her body type but from what he had seen earlier he could tell she had a rather nice one despite the starvation she seemed to have gone through. Had she not been taken from the dark continent she likely would have already been married with a family, and something about her simply made his heart ache. Perhaps it was seeing such a beautiful gemstone in such poor condition, or maybe his past had been pushing him to her as he was likely the only one to truly have any real idea of her suffering.

As he contemplated these feelings, he was left distracted when she began to stir and wake, she stared off a bit and was clearly dazed. The pain medicine the medic had given her before probably still active in her system, which was good as she wouldn't be in too much pain. He moved to sit in a chair by her bed, her magenta eyes soon began focusing on his form. Her eyes looked so sad and lonely, so without even thinking he took her hand. "Hey there, just take it easy, ok?" He wanted to make sure she stayed calm, so she didn't accidentally hurt herself in case she became overwhelmed, the shy girl simply nodded her (H/c) head as she seemed to take comfort in his physical contact despite it being such a simple gesture. His grip was gentle, his hands rough but warm and caring. "My name Masrur... What's your name?" She watched him for a moment, the medicine making her mind a little hazy as she thought to the thing that no one had ever asked her before.

"My name... Is (Y/n)..."

#candy cult vault #Magi #masrur #x reader #fem reader #slave reader #its still odd to me he has 2 wives and 4 children #still can't believe he and Mikoto have the same voice actor #fluff #masrur x reader #masrur x fem reader

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ferret-does-stuff · 8 months

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What I think could happen in Double because the wait is killing me:

So if you've seen my blog before you'd know I am a little bit insane about Milgram, especially Mikoto so I thought that I would make one last theory post on him before the release of Double. This will mainly focus on his song's teaser and voice lines

First let's look at the official translation of Double's lyrics so far:

"I should have saved you, but why are you crying?"

"Rely on me, praise me with your song, I am your saviour"

Let's start with the first line before we piece everything together

The singer saying that "I should have saved you" makes it seem that the main speaker of this song will be one of the alters. The title "Double" could refer to this alter and the host Mikoto, or this alter and another potential alter if the three alter theory is correct, although the former seems more likely.

I think that a major part of Double will be some kind of flashback to Mikoto's past and how the alter/s came to be. I mentioned in a previous post that Mikoto's father could potentially be the reason for his DID through child abuse, which he may have been arrested for, thus him being out of the picture and Mikoto not remembering much of him (possibly through repression)

Now for the second line, "I am your saviour" points to this alter being a protector, most likely the first one to make themself known. I think part of the MV will show the first time an alter protected mikoto, possibly by attacking the person responsible for the repeated abuse.

Could this tell us anything about the victim? Probably not. But I'm going inhale some copium and try anyway.

Mikoto's victim (or at least one of them) is almost definitely a colleague of his. I don't personally believe the gang theory (because Mikoto dislikes violence, not much else sorry) so I believe the victim may have been harassing him, overworking him or just generally causing him to become ridiculously stressed to the point an alter intervenes, or Mikoto himself does.

In the voice line trailer:

"Oh, Es... It's been a while"

Not much to say, Mikoto doesn't seem the remember the initial interrogation. This seems to be Host Mikoto.

"Ack... oww... my head hurts"

This might hint that over the course of the trials the other alters may have been fronting more, or this could be a stress response to being put in a previously stressful situation.

"*screaming* DESTROY EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING! EVERYTHING!"

These glitches voice line translations are iffy, but if the other lines are to be believed then this may be what Mikoto was saying/going through his head when "he" committed the murder. The screaming makes it seem like he's not... himself. Mikoto could be suffering a breakdown of some kind, or a more agressive alter was responsible for the murder.

Any other theories I would love to hear! If I made and mistakes please correct me.

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konata-izumi-kinny-writes · 2 years

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Strongarm (RID2015) x Quiet F! Reader

(A/N:I love this big lady so much 😭💙)

(A/N 2: lol she go bouncy bounce i love her!!!! >///u///<)

Warnings: Nothing other than kisses and heart-melting fluff

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You've spied on the scrapyard for a long time, not because of any malicious intent or plans to expose them, you were just curious and wanted to know more. Your main focus, though, is on a certain blue and white femme.

You found her so pretty, and despite her strictness and temper, she has a kind heart and cares about those around her. You love her but don't know how to tell her. How will she react? Will she be angry? Will she think you meant in a platonic way? You just don't know.

One day though, you found a gift for her, a giant truck plushie, strikingly similar to her alt mode. It was then that the idea hit you. You could wait until they're out on a mission and leave it there for her with a note! Its perfect, there's no way this could go wrong, right?

The next day you went to your usual hiding spot in one of the trees behind the scrapyard's walls and waited for them to leave, which didn't take too long. With that, you used a rope ladder to climb down from your tree and into the yard. You tip toed around the isles looking at all the vintage items in curiosity before finding the perfect to put Strongarm's gifts.

Feeling happy and excited to see her reaction you start to tiptoe back.. but notice a shadow over you. You look up with panic running through your veins to see Grimlock staring right back at you. You freeze for a good 10 seconds before he picks you up under your arms, then he speaks.

"Hello? Are you okay? ...You're quiet for a fleshie."

You stay silent and curl your legs close to your body as he starts to carry you towards the Alchemor, and calls for backup over the comms.

In a matter of 15 minutes you find yourself here, sitting on the Alchemor with 3 autobots, a minicon, and a dinobot, staring at you hoping for an answer. After a few seconds of awkward silence, Sideswipe speaks up.

"...Soooo, do we ask her things or what."

"Interrogations aren't that simple, we have to take turns asking her one at a time as to not overwhelm her.. well- more than she probably already is."

"We're not gonna start punchin' right? She was nice to hang around with." Grimlock asked Bumblebee with concern and pity lining his voice.

"Of course not, we help humans, not hurt them."

After a bit of debate they decided the order of which bot interrogates you.

Grimlock, Bumblebee, Sideswipe, Fixit, then Strongarm.

You stayed quiet for most of them, only responding in writing or yes and no questions, that is until Strongarm's last question.

"I appreciate the stuffed vehicle, but if i may ask, what this is for?" She held up the envelope with her note in it, the glitter gel pen her name was written in still sparkling in the light. You beckoned her to get closer, she lowered her head to your level, and you muttered out a small sentence.

"Want me to open it?"

Strongarm looked surprised to hear your voice as a small blue blush crept on her face.

"Yes please."

She handed you the envelope, you opened it for her and gave the note back for her to read. You then cover your the lower half of your face as you averted your gaze to the ground.

🌧Pov switch: Strongarm🌧

Still in disbelief of hearing her voice, I gently took her folded note and started reading.

"Hello, Strongarm!

My name is [Y/n], and this may come across as creepy, or strange, but I've been watching you and your team for a long time, but not with any malicious intent. I was curious, and i find you all very interesting. After a while though, Strongarm, I've come to admire your beauty. Not just in appearance, but in who you are.

You're kind and smart, but tough and brave. I find you to be a very amazing person and I've come to the conclusion that I've caught feelings for you. You don't have to feel the same, but I thought you have the right to know.

With love, from [Y/n]."

☁️[Pov change: Narrator mode]🌥

Strongarm looked down at you with a happy but confused face. You hoped you weren't too poetic.

"Thank you Y/n, I appreciate that."

She reached down and rubbed the top of your head with one of her fingers, it felt nice.

"Mind if i ask what you meant by 'you've caught feelings for me'? You're not sick are you?"

You felt your face get red, shyness and heat taking over as you, again, averted your gaze. After a bit of silence, you again beckoned her closer so you could speak at a comfortable level.

"I... love you.. in a romantic way... I'm sorry."

After a good thirty seconds of awkward silence, you gained the courage to look back up at her to see her reaction. She looks surprised and flustered, a glowing blue blush covering her complexion. She looks so beautiful.

"I... I have never had anyone say something like that to me before. And here I was thinking that i had you humans figured out, your kind always finds ways to surprise me.."

You stare up at her in anticipation and wonder as she looks at you with the sweetest smile.

"...okay.. I'll be your romantic partner. May I give you a hug?"

You nod happily and reach your arms out as she embraces you gently, her warm metal plating pressing against your skin.

"Thank you so much.."

She picks you up and puts you on her shoulder and walks back to the rest of the team.

"I've found out her intentions, and thankfully they're not harmful."

"Then what does she want with us."

Strongarm looked at you for permission to tell them, you nodded yes as she lovingly pat your head again.

"She wanted to confess her romantic feelings for me, I returned her feelings and we are 'dating' as humans call it."

The team goes silent for a while before Bumblebee speaks up

"I wasn't expecting that.. congrats, Cadet. By the way did you find out their name?"

"Thank you sir, and her name is [Y/n]."

Bumblebee approaches and looks down at you.

"Welcome to the team, [Y/n]. Can we trust you not to tell anyone about us?"

"Thank you.. my lips are sealed, sir."

He smiled as he and the others left you and Strongarm alone, you turn and give her a kiss on the cheek. She then looks at you with a puzzled look on her beautiful complexion.

"What was that? I've seen humans do that on tv but what does it mean?"

"Its a way of showing love, usually between romantic couples or family.."

She blushed then turned her head to kiss you back, she gave you a kiss on the forehead. Her lips were soft and warm as they pressed against your skin.

She walked over to a pile of mattresses, put a tarp over them and laid down on them and placed you on her chest. You spent the rest of the day talking to her, and both of you learned more about each other.

The day ended with the two of you stargazing after introducing you to Denny and Russel. Strongarm pointed out where Cybertron was, she then turned to you and said,

"Someday I hope to go home with you and show you around.."

"What was it like? On Cybertron i mean.."

"Pretty, lots of lights and big, glowing cities.."

"It sounds kinda overwhelming, but that does sound pretty.. like you."

She let out a chuckle and kissed you again.

"You're too kind, my spark.."

All of a sudden your moment with Strongarm was interrupted by a teasing shout from Sideswipe.

"So, what are ya naming the sparkling, Strongarm?!"

She glared at Sideswipe as her face turned blue.

"She's not comfortable with that yet, punk!"

Sideswipe laughed as he went away as you looked at Strongarm in confusion.

"...sparkling?"

"A baby."

You giggled at the thought before laying your head back down on Strongarm's chassis, your eyes getting heavy.

"I love you, Sweet-spark."

"Love you too, Strongarm.."

You fell asleep as she laid her hand on your back and closed her eyes, ready for anything the decepticons would throw at her tomorrow.

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Thanks for reading

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gunsli-01 · 1 year

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There are more inconsistencies in After Pain than I initially thought. So, I'm gonna list them all. That is what I would say if that's all there was to this. I've been thinking about Mu since It's Not My Fault dropped and I've got to get back to Mikoto. So, buckle up we're ending this today.

Mu's victim never bullied or turned the tables on her. Like I initially touched on here she was literally just taking a walk down memory lane. How does After Pain prove this well with these shots,

Now, Gunsli that's a sock- okay fair but we see this right before it

This is supposed to be her victim walking out of the stall and ignoring her. Something many were quick to jump on and use as fuel to assert that her victim kind of deserved to get stabbed. Because what type of heartless person ignores bullying. By this logic, the victim should be wearing these socks, right?

Oh, but maybe those are just school socks. She isn't wearing the same shoes outside and school slippers are a thing; so maybe... Okay, I'm willing to walk down every bridge in hopes of it leading to the truth. That could very well be the case and I'm not trying to create a strawman I genuinely don't know if that's a thing.

However, we can find out by looking at After Pain. So, let's go-

Alright, yeah, that's not a thing. So, the person walking past the one being bullied was definitely Mu. Which means she was also the person hiding in the bathroom while someone else was getting bullied. This tells us that even if we see the character in one position or doing a certain thing it may not actually be them.

Making it even clearer that Mu and Futa's connection may just be framing. One who has been framed and the other who framed someone else. Though I'm still certain that Futa killed someone just that he more than likely did not do the doxing, but this isn't about him-

Mu claims in her interrogation, "I haven’t bullied anyone. I’d never do such a mean thing! I’ve never hit anyone or poured water over anyone’s head. I wouldn’t do something like that! I’m not lying! I’m not telling you lies! I really haven’t done anything!"

However, later down the line she says, "So if I paid back what my bullies did to me, that would be revenge, right? And if you feel like I had no other choice than that, then don’t you have to forgive me?" (side note: link to translation)

Let's assume that Mu is telling the truth in her voice drama. This doesn't necessarily make her look any better.

It's been shown that the worst thing her victim did was ignore her. So, it wouldn't be difficult to consider Mu's definition of paying them back could have just been ignoring them too.

We also see in her trial two voice drama that she's more than willing to ignore the actions of others even if those actions are abusive or wrong. We see this through her response to Kotoko's attacks. She literally says, "Huh? But that has nothing to do with me. The ones who are suffering are the ones who have done bad things, right? You know, like, what goes around comes around."

So, she's more than willing to ignore people getting hurt if she feels like they deserve it.

Es states in the voice drama, "I see. That’s how it is, huh. You don’t say anything; just because you’re present, your surroundings’ wishes change to benefit you— Oh, so that’s it. Like a born queen. No, it’s like you’re influencing your surroundings not with words, but with pheromones… Just like a queen bee."

All these things add up to one possible conclusion Mu didn't directly bully her victim. She didn't have to her friends did it for her. If these two things I pointed out earlier are correct we begin to get a clearer understanding of the events that took place.

Considering that Mu's victim may have had her favor at a point. That they were possibly in Mu's good graces enough to be given such a large gift regardless of if it was a hand me down or not. I just gotta say real quick Haruka's putting his life on the line and all he got was a hairpin. Let that sink in. If Mu's opinion of the victim suddenly changed, they had a falling out, or Mu made it apparent that she'd been hurt by them in some way her friends would act accordingly.

Because they wouldn't want Mu to be upset. It's also why even though we see her victim come out of the stall the socks indicate the one walking out and ignoring bullying is Mu herself. This also may put the confrontation we see in After Pain under scrutiny. Because it might not be Mu asking them to stop hurting her at all. It could be her victim pleading with Mu to get her friends to stop harassing them or a confrontation before any of the bullying began that we've yet to fully see.

I'll touch back on the second part later. Right now let's stick to the first scenario. We see in It's Not My Fault that her victim knew Mu was in charge of this group. So, even if Mu didn't directly bully them, they'd know to ask her to get them to stop.

Admittedly, while this is the most unlikely course of events it should be considered. Especially given that throughout After Pain Mu does her darndest to not just omit what she's done but actively rewrite events to frame herself as the victim and the person she murdered as a bully. It's why even though we're shown her lying on the ground in water after having her phone stepped on, she's not even wet but her victim is soaked.

It's because this never happened to her. She literally can't even imagine getting harassed to that extent. She can't even fathom being treated this way. She's the Queen after all, it's always been that way, and everything went as she wished. If people want to betray her out of jealousy well, they already know what will happen.

Yet, it's incredibly infuriating that she can't even manage to imagine herself in such an embarrassing state to save her life. She's attempting to show an authority figure one that has her life in their hands that she did nothing wrong and she still can't do it. She can't imagine having her clothes and hair soaked. It's enough to make me wonder if Mu was ever bullied at all.

Sure, we have the notes on the board. However, as people have been quick to point out from Mu's insect form in It's Not My Fault. She may not have that high of an opinion of herself. She needs external validation to feed her ego. Validation such as being told nothing she did was wrong, and she was hurt too.

It wouldn't be difficult to assume in the aftermath of her classmate's death her relationships became more strained. Especially if it was made to look like a suicide. Her group may have felt directly responsible. Because of how they bullied the girl before they died, they could have assumed the death was a result of their actions. This would take away attention from Mu's hurt and make her friends begin to doubt all of their behavior.

Them being upset by the classmate's death might even remind her of what she did making her internalize it as bad. This would be made even more difficult by the fact she can't really talk to anyone about what she did. Then if she did confide in one of them about it- Well, it's not difficult to see how the one she confided in would tell the other two and then push her out of the group.

We literally see her yell out after committing the crime,

It's not hard to imagine her telling on herself. She was only a high schooler when she did this. However, this is unrelated to the murder. So, it has no bearing on this case. It is funny to think about her snitching on herself after her parents covered up a murder with money. Her just not being able to keep her mouth shut leading to the bullying she underwent is a ridiculous thought.

It would also make sense because there are only a few comments on the board alluding to Mu committing a crime. Basically, three but I'm counting the picture of the bloody knife and the lake/river. Since we see that one of her friends drew pictures on the board harassing her victim. It also says "Criminal" and "You should go to a reformatory." However, something about this bullying is odd. There's a question no one has asked-

"Would teenagers that knew or speculated someone had just gotten away with murdering one of their peers because their parents covered it up with money do this?!"

Without fear of being next? Those teenagers are stronger than me because if my friend came to me in high school and told me they shanked my classmate I would be like, "Ha, ha funny joke but a little too soon I know you didn't like them, but damn can't you be happy that they're dead quietly. Ha, ha..." If they then gave me a dead serious look while further elaborating like no I'm not joking I killed them but I'm rich so it's fine. I would very quickly become the world's biggest yes man and ride or die. I'm gonna ride because I don't wanna die. You need a hand I got one and I don't wanna lose it.

This is a hostage situation now and I'm not trying to see what's in the great beyond just yet. You got me fucked up I'm not picking fights with someone who I know just got away with murder. What's stopping them from doing it again?! Like that bitch just ignored her and she's in the ground. Motherfucker I'm either switching schools after that conversation or getting real comfortable with a lot of uncomfortable things. I'm not trying to be next sucks but they're already dead and I don't wanna join them.

It's Not My fault literally highlights this aspect of her character with lyrics like, "If you want to betray from jealousy. I’ve told you what’s gonna happen." Like I've already shown you what happens to people who upset me do you want to try it.

Though I doubt this is the case given all this to consider, the notes on the board could very well just be how Mu feels she's being perceived. It doesn't help that even though the board says, "There’s a present for you in your desk! Take a look~!"

All the desks are empty. Including the one we see Mu sitting at during the video. Now there is a shoe on top of one of the desks, this scene apparently takes place in fall, and the seats may have changed by then. However, that doesn't change the fact all these desks are shown as empty. Why highlight that and then show us a room of empty desks?

Now don't get me wrong I don't believe it's the case that Mu was never bullied. Taking into consideration the line "If you’re going to make me the villain it’s ok to ignore me. If it’s endurance, I’m used to it. It’s just having another taste of it." I think her former friends turned on her but they weren't saying she was a criminal because they knew she committed murder-

No, they truly believed that their classmate had committed suicide and that was a result of not all of their actions but Mu. In order to avoid taking accountability for their parts in the bullying they shifted all the blame onto Mu. They came together and said it was her influence that got them to bully that girl to the extent they did to begin with. We were just following her around we aren't the bad ones it's Mu. If she wasn't here, then none of this would've happened no one would've died.

We just did it because if we didn't then Mu would've targeted us next that's just how she is. It wouldn't be hard to turn the whole class against Mu either she'd already bullied several other students. What's that saying; what goes around comes around. It's not bad to do something terrible to someone who's done something terrible to you it's just revenge. Just as Mu said. It's just desserts, isn't it? However, it's only revenge and justifiable when it's not pointed in one's own direction.

In a way just like Es and the participants in the real-life Milgram experiment, they were just following orders; they didn't think it was too bad. Because they didn't think about it at all they let someone else think for them. So, when their actions had a negative outcome, they were quick to blame it on the one in charge. This could be why Mu is so adamant about thinking for yourself and not doing things just because others tell you to. Because no one knows what you want to do more than you do. So, why let other people interfere?

Wouldn't you rather do something you want to do then something you feel like you have to do?

Back to the topic at hand, it could have been difficult to draw something inside of one desk. However, the fact that they didn't sticks out more when you take into account the phones.

Okay, see Mu's bully recording her. This scene is shown to us right before we see this one,

It was put in to act as a visual trigger to prepare the audience to pay attention but not to the bullying, the phone, or the messages/photos on the screen of the phones but the cases.

When what we are led to believe is Mu's phone based on the messages drops this happens,

Now, one of these phones is Mu's the other one is her victim's. I assumed since Mu's victim wasn't in the group photo that meant they weren't involved with the group at all. However, in It's not My Fault we're shown that just because they weren't in that group photo doesn't mean the group wasn't aware of them or that they didn't associate with the group.

Even though there are only four people in the group chat that doesn't mean it was always four people. As we're shown at the beginning of It's Not My Fault there used to be eight people that were in her group, but it dwindled down to four. It's also been established through the socks at this point that the one leaving the stall was Mu. So, chances are the one who was having their phone stepped on was the victim.

This makes the picture displayed on the phone subject to scrutiny as well. Because it's either there to show the victims connection to the group/Mu i.e being sent these pictures from outings she couldn't go on or there was possibly something else there entirely that we have yet to see. If the picture was sent to her then she was probably accepted by the group at a point but was unaware of the bullying. However, there's also the chance that Mu sent her the picture privately in a wish you were here type way.

One thing is for certain Mu's friend group did know of the victim that's for sure. This is why they responded the way they did to them seeing what they were doing. They didn't go what are you looking at or scram instead they immediately told Mu that they were there and saw what they were doing.

The fact that the victim's falling out with Mu, the bullying they underwent, and the murder all occurred during Spring makes it easier to hide the order of events. It's not like the scenery would change drastically given it's still the same season and the same school.

There's a good chance the murder and falling out happened in the same area. As it is likely to be the route the victim used to walk home each day. Something Mu would be aware of if they used to be close. So, the confrontation we see in After Pain is more than likely the falling out that triggered all of this.

Let's go over why I believe the confrontation we see in After Pain isn't when the murder was committed. First off, when she confronts the victim in After Pain these scenes appear,

From the look of things, it appears the victim is walking home alone or storming off. They don't seem to be running away from Mu, but they certainly aren't stopping for her either. We're shown a scene of who we know to be Mu at this point running frantically after the victim. Clearly attempting to catch up even reaching her hand out as if calling to them.

This seems to directly follow the scene on the roof. The one in It's Not My Fault where we see the victim watch how Mu and her friends behave then walk off disgusted. Let's think about that for a second.

Why was Mu's victim on the roof that day?

Hear me out. It's obvious by now that Mu didn't want her victim to find out she was bullying other kids. So, it doesn't make sense for Mu to act this way if she knows her victim is around. If she didn't want them to find out, then why would she do it on the roof at a time of day she knew the victim would be at school during? If they were close at a point, it would have been easy for Mu to know when they'd be at school or not.

So, not being seen by them should have been an easy feat. Especially since both songs put together imply, she'd been keeping the information a secret for a good while up until this point.

This means there's a high chance that one of the people Mu bullied previously told the victim about what she and her friends got up to when they weren't around. This could be why when we see her victim within that insect space, at first, they're hiding behind one of the pillars not just strolling by. Her backpack can be seen behind a pillar as Mu and her friends are running around giddily in It's Not My Fault before she comes into full view.

We can be certain this is her backpack peeking out because the object moves when she does. So, here's a rough timeline. A third party tells Mu's victim about her behavior either with malicious intent knowing that Mu liked the girl or because they just couldn't believe they'd be friends with someone like Mu. Her victim, not believing what the other person said, was probably told to see for themselves and informed of where Mu and her friends tend to act up at and given the time, they tend to do it at as well.

It wouldn't be too hard to believe that after doing this to at least four other people. Possibly three others before the incident on the roof someone would know the group's routine.

The victim does go to check. Either staying later than they usually do or even coming in on a day they usually don't come in. For example, going to school on a Saturday even though that hasn't been mandatory in Japan since 2002. Though Google says some schools have been bringing Saturday classes back.

Unfortunate truly love not being a teenager anymore. However, not taking into consideration the schools that may have made them mandatory again, people tend to go to school on Saturday for extracurricular activities or to put in some extra studying. Oh, and how did Mu answer the first of her second trial interrogation questions?

What kind of kid were you-

"I think I was a pretty normal kid. I had a lot of friends, and I also did extracurricular activities."

If her victim skipped going to school on Saturday while Mu and her friends all went that day. It'd be easy for Mu to keep the fact that she was bullying others a secret from her victim. If they won't be in that day, then she doesn't have to worry about them seeing anything she didn't want them to.

This time though she was in that day. When Mu's friend turns to speak to Mu on the roof as they're bullying the other student, she spots them out of the corner of her eye leaving the roof looking angry. She quickly makes Mu aware of the situation. The information immediately upsets Mu who turns to see if that's true along with her other friend.

They all recognize that whatever her first friend said is bad news. Either for all of them or just because they know Mu will be hurt by it. Meaning it immediately needs to be rectified. It takes precedence over everything else. The bullying is put on hold. This is illustrated by what looks to be a silver hourglass on the steps being laid on its side as she rushes after her victim in After Pain.

Mu rushes off the roof trying to catch up with her victim to attempt to talk out the situation. Let them know this isn't her fault or it's not what it looked like.

We see in the shots above that they're leaving the school rather calmly. Mu is the one frantically chasing after them trying to explain something. Getting winded from seemingly chasing them from somewhere far back or far up. Reaching her hand out as though telling them to stop. By the time she manages to catch up to them you can see the sweat running down her face.

The thing that makes this timeline of events the most likely is what happens when she catches up to her victim in After Pain. As soon as she finally reaches out and catches the victim it fades to white transitioning us into another scene.

White is used throughout After Pain to censor or omit information, here are some examples.

There's no need for any of these things to be whited out if we're being shown what happened directly after. Unless, what we're being shown isn't the full truth or what actually happened directly after. After this fade to white we're brought into the confrontation that leads to the victim's murder.

Mu talking to them frantically with sweat that could be mistaken for tears on her face. Probably after chasing them down one more time.

We see when she stabs her victim that she wasn't crying.

There's moisture on every part of her face but near her eyes. Even if in both scenarios Mu is chasing after her victim covered in sweat it's not likely that all of this occurred over one day. Given all the bullying we see her victim undergo in It's Not My Fault and After Pain. Chances are Mu's friends started bullying her victim after she began ignoring Mu after finding out they were all bullies.

If her victim just spoke to her and let things go then Mu probably would have forgiven her. So, she silently sat back and ignored her victim getting bullied waiting for them to come to their senses. It's none of her business after all it's not like she did anything. The bullying got more and more extreme. Eventually, causing Mu to wonder if her victim honestly believed she was such a terrible person that going through all this harassment was better than just talking to her.

Probably even convincing herself to an extent that her victim brought this on themselves or was choosing this. Because to her the solution was simple just talk to me again and it stops. Maybe even having feelings like,

"Friends aren't meant to stop friends from doing what they want to do anyway! You're the bad one here, not everyone has to be like you! Friends are supposed to make each other comfortable! Do you think I was comfortable having to hide all this?! I hid it to keep you comfortable. The one who did something wrong first should apologize first you abandoned me even though all I was trying to do was avoid making you feel bad. Do you get it? I did all that so we could be comfortable together without worrying about all that stuff! If you just stop being so judgmental and stop harping over little things we could go back to how it was! I didn't judge you but you've always judged me how is this fair?!"

Ultimately, as the bullying escalated Mu got more and more upset. This led to her once again seeking her victim out in a rage. Probably telling her something along the same lines as that. Thinking that the victim was the one behaving irrationally, asking if she really hated her this much then when she pulled away ignoring Mu again she just lost it.

Now, with all that done I'm going back to my Mikoto essay~

#milgram #kusunoki mu

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corruptratcat · 2 years

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Shidou Kirisaki x reader | How do I heal this wound? | Gender neutral

You're a prisoner, 011, in this hell called milgram, your sin, you killed your whole family for revenge, your hatred for them still stays in your heart all from your own selfish desires, but now you're in this prison, you got voted guilty by the guard, es, after es disappeared a few days ago, the true hell occurred.

"Please, s--spare me!" You begged slowly backing away from the figure in front of you. "It's my duty to serve justice." Kotoko said as she grabbed her bat, she felt no mercy for you. "Please d--don't, I'm sorry! Please, just please!" "How far will a simple sorry take you?" She walked closer to you, you saw what she did to the others, she beat Fuuta and Mahiru up, Mikoto surviving in a tie, you wish this wouldn't happen, but the punishment is here.

--- "P-Please..." You raised your hand up, laying on the ground, you were bleeding as Kotoko walked away, someone was stopping her preventing you from getting hurt any further, you feel like you were dying, slowly bleeding, "Hold still, stay calm, you'll be fine." You hear a familiar voice, it's Shidou, you've been talking to him a lot ever since you got in milgram, you were always interested in medical work even if you were just a clerk when you weren't in prison.

"Shi-Shidou..." You calmed down, even if you felt extreme pain, you tried to calm down, Shidou is reliable as he healed the others who got hurt, you trusted him. "It's the 3rd time someone got severely hurt because of her, good thing Mikoto knows how to protect himself." He sounded so calm despite the circumstances, experience? Probably.

"They also gave me medical tools because I was voted innocent, even if I wanted to be guilty, I cannot deny that these are useful at these times." You didn't know what Shidou was doing, but you just knew you felt much more calm now that he's here. "Can you sit up?" Shidou asked as you slowly got up, almost everything hurting but you know he could heal this all up.

Shidou then changed his position to look at you and examine your face, you kept looking at his features, he was pretty handsome you thought, he has pretty eyes that you could look for as long as you want, it distracted you from all the pain. "Your face is getting a bit red? Are you having a fever?" Shidou put the back of his hand in your forehead "O-Oh I'm fine!" You quickly looked down trying to forget your thoughts about Shidou.

"Look at me, I'll need to examine your face." Shidou requested as you looked at him, trying to think about something else. 'Shit, what else should I think about? Uhhm...' Trying to think about something kept you distracted, till you noticed Shidou's touching a wound "Ouch!" you moved away from Shidou a bit "Sorry if that startled you." He moved closer as you sighed.

"Kirisaki, thank you." you smiled looking at him "You can call me Shidou like you did earlier, we're quite close anyways." He looks at you and smiles back "Right, thanks Shidou." "No problem, it's my job as the medic and as a friend." Your heart started to beat faster, he moved away looking at your other wounds.

He brought his stethoscope and put it near your chest, listening to your heart, it was quite fast. "Are you nervous? Your heart tells me you are." You look at Shidou "I- Uh-" "You don't have to be nervous, I'm here anyways." He pats your head, his hand on your head was soft, you want to feel it again but too scared to ask. "Right! It's just..." You see Shidou tilt his head lightly raising a brow "Ah- Nothing!" You look away, was he really this caring, was he really this pretty?

"Are you feeling a bit better at least?" Shidou said as he started putting bandages on you. "Of course! All because of you, emotionally and physically." You smile "I'm glad, well, let's put this here." He puts a small bandage on your face, you blush a bit "Hah, that was cute." Shidou softly giggled and proceeded to focus on other parts "H-Huh?!" You turned your head to Shidou. "I said that your face was cute with the obvious blush." "R-right! Thanks..." Your face turned red and looked away from Shidou.

"Healing you up is almost done, you'll need some rest afterwards, ok?" Shidou looks at you as you slowly turn your head. "Alright, thank you again Shidou." "You don't need to thank me that much, I'm again just doing my job, have you ever thanked your doctors?" Shidou replies as you think "I think I have, it just happened a few seconds ago." you put on a smile as Shidou chuckles.

"Alright, I think we're done, just relax here." He guides you to a chair as you had some trouble walking, you slowly sat down. "I can't thank you enough really, I don't know how to pay you back." You look down and holding both of your hands together. "Well all that matters is you're healing from the attack." Shidou sits at the chair beside yours. "Why did I even get myself to this situation..." You sigh and look at Shidou "We all committed a sin, murder, this is our punishment because of it." Shidou looks afar as you look away from Shidou, facing forward "Perhaps you're right."

After a few seconds of silence, you thought of making a move, perhaps, you knew you had feelings for this man, his silver hair, pretty face, a personality you liked, you thought, 'Why not? I should always try.' You slowly breathed and looked at Shidou "Hey Shidou." Shidou turned his head to face yours "Hm?" "I- Uhm- How do I-" You kept stuttering trying to say it, Shidou simply laughed "Trying to make a move?" You stopped, how the fuck did he knew?

"It was quite obvious, but really cute too." He put on a smile that made your heart beat even more faster, your face, red, you don't even know what to say at this point. "I uhhhmm..." Yep you couldn't say a word. He got up from his chair and faced you, grabbing your hand and pulling you to his arms, "Sh-Shidou, I uhh..." You kept quiet, gripping on his chest and hiding your face at his shoulder. You were absolutely on fire.

Shidou softly and slowly pushed away and kissed you on the forehead, "That's how you heal the wound."

(I have my ways on how I made this so quickly)

#milgram x reader #shidou kirisaki #shidou kirisaki x reader #milgram #xreader #x gn reader

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hopeischord · 1 year

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*MASSIVE SPOILERS FOR FUTA'S SECOND TRIAL SONG BACKDRAFT - LISTEN TO THAT FIRST THEN COME BACK HERE*

Note; I ramble a lot. I thought I might upload my thinking here if that's okay.

Okay but like, genuinely. I'm re watching Backdraft and it's genuinely such a good way to reach further into Futa's character. (And I'm not even a giant Futa fan, but his songs are possibly the best with the individual prisoner songs imo)

Although my two favourite scenes that really seem to get my little brain thinking is the 'You and You throwing around rules for fun' and the last note. I was not expecting ES to pop out of nowhere, it made my jaw DROP. Although while writing this, I think I get why. We as the audience are ES, we're the one that caused him to get viciously attacked by Kotoko and become a shell of his former self. While I haven't listened to all of the voice drama yet. It's not exactly the same as the initial first VD. In fact, Futa doesn't seem to be like himself. It's more like, he's uncomfortable, scared. He doesn't even seem to address ES, it's the opposite. He's scared of ES, and in turn, of us. He won't forgive us for voting him guilty, although admittedly, he kind of is guilty but I think he's learnt his lesson, but voting him innocent might cause a whole, I dunno but it doesn't seem good. When I think about it, I just get reminded of what Jackalope said after the first trial. We are the ones that decide their fate, and well, Futa might go batshit if we vote him innocent, but may go even more batshit if we vote him guilty. This kind of feels similar to a few other characters, like if we vote Kotoko guilty after she was voted innocent. She's obviously going to lose her shit, or if we vote Aname innocent and Shidou is guilty then... yeah...

Another thing about that scene though. While I get that Futa is most likely melting into ash and holding himself together. Another thing I initially thought was about Medusa. I can't exactly explain why? Although ES being the so called Medusa, it kind of makes sense? At least in my head? Medusa can turn people into stone if they look at her in the eye, but, in this MV. ES didn't have eyes. In fact, all there was to ES was their clothing. I think this is again another nod to us as the audience. Kind of like Yunos mv in which she directly told us she didn't want to be perceived as innocent even though out of the entire cast she is the most innocent. I think she is anyway in my personal opinion. Please don't cancel me.

And the throwing around rules for fun? Again, that's another nod. I think Futa was referring to how we were the ones to let him get hurt because of Kotoko. I remember initially when I first got into the fandom, I was so confused about how Kotoko was deemed innocent and Futa was deemed guilty. Although why I do get it now. (Futa targeted someone without evidence or when they did nothing wrong and directly was the reason they committed... you know what while Kotoko just bet up really awful people to the point they died) it still left me a little confused because Kotoko, while she is a vigilante and she did do something for the right reason. The actions she took, both before and during Milgram (I joined the fandom May this year during the hiatus between season 1 and 2) but then kind of destroyed that by beating up 3 out of the 4 guilty parties. I don't know, I'm not really partial to the ones she beat up but it kind of rubbed me wrong. Maybe because she literally almost killed Mahiru? I dunno. It's weird to explain but I recall thinking that Futa and Kotoko were two sides of the same coin? Even though I'm now aware that it's Fuuta and Muu, Kotoko and Mikoto that are the two sides of the same coin. I still think that Futa and Kotoko are similar in their actions or that they have the hero complex and all. But I think while writing this, I get why I prefer Futa. He genuinely seems to get that he's done fucked up. Although he realised this after he caused someone's death while in Kotokos case, and because we voted her innocent. She's not going to get the same treatment, which I guess makes sense. Both had different targets and stuff. And if Kotoko gets voted guilty this season, its just going to cause more mayhem.

But the one thing that stuck out. God, it made my stomach crawl when I realised. While I don't tend to read much into what people were saying, I have a feeling its referring to how cancel culture works and now he's had a taste of what he's dished out. Like what my dad would say, he has a glass jaw. Especially with the succumb line, that made me feel sick because he's finally understanding and is getting it right back where it hurts.

Although; I genuinely don't know what to think. Like I jokingly mentioned in my last post. I'm just dumbstruck. I looked at the official site in which people are voting him innocent which makes some amount of sense. Its really hard to come to a conclusion because of this video, and of course. This is the first time we've seen a guilty person sing. This genuinely makes me curious about how Mahiru, Aname and Mikotos MV are going to go. And of course, there's no translation to his VD yet although knowing how quick this fandom works it's going to be up in maybe another hour.

All in all; its a hella good song, and I like it. Still very excited for The Purge March though. Sorry about my rambling, I thought it might be good to share my opinion and all, if that's okay ofc.

Keep in mind this is just a rambling of all of my thoughts. I really love this MV, but I have no concrete idea on what to think. Hence why I'm writing this and hoping I can have a discussion with others to form more ideas. Although I get its mostly about remorse and all.

ALSO THE BEAT DIDNT HAVE TO DROP THAT HARD LIKE SHEEEEESH

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #backdraft #ramblings #i hope this makes sense

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hii hiii is it alright if I request something with kotoko and haruka?(platonic ofc) their character foils drive me insane with all the weak stuff authngghn icant be normal about them

Oooh thank you so much for the request! I realized that these two actually have one of the smallest windows to talk easily, given Haruka's nervousness and Kotoko's T2 changes. They have such interesting approaches to strength/weakness, and I hope I could capture it a bit here! This takes place immediately following Kotoko's bday timeline after Harrow's release:

“I’ll accept those birthday wishes…” Kotoko gave him a wave over her shoulder as she returned to making her bed.

She shook her head in awe. It was rather impressive how quickly the boy had changed after his verdict. The others had more subtle differences, but he was someone entirely new. She could rest easy, at least, knowing that her verdict wouldn’t change her much. For as long as she could remember, she’d been like this. She knew where she stood, and neither guilty nor innocent verdict would affect that. This verdict was really only an indicator on whether the warden could be trusted or not.

Her body tensed up when she turned back around, startled by Haruka lingering silently in the doorway. She decided against chastising him for scaring her half to death. Still, she couldn’t keep the bite from her voice as she asked, “did you need something else?”

“Ah… I just…” He twisted his hands together. “I had a question.”

He fell silent, but Kotoko could tell he was chewing on his next words. She waited.

“H-how do you do it? All the time? You’re older and stronger and braver and I-I just don’t know how.”

“Give yourself some credit. I’m not that much older, or stronger. I only have, what -- two, three years on you? And you did very well in the arm wrestling tournament the other day.”

She wasn’t being patronizing. For someone so sheltered, Haruka could do some damage. He stood a few inches taller than her. The others had taken the arm wrestling as a little game, but Kotoko had used the event to measure up her fellow prisoners. After his close match with Mikoto, she had made a mental note to take him seriously.

“No…” his expression twitched, getting frustrated with the misunderstanding. “Not muscles. I mean… you don’t have someone like Muu. You don’t need someone next to you all the time. But you still talk with everyone… and it looks easy. All the time. You always know what to say, and what to do. You never look scared. You never cry.”

Kotoko’s smile softened. She wasn’t the prideful type, but his words gave her a wave of accomplishment. She certainly was scared. She did cry. But she wasn’t about to show a single crack in her resolve in front of anyone here. Haruka had given her the greatest of compliments by confirming her success.

“Ah, you mean strength of spirit. Well, that doesn’t just appear out of nowhere. It comes with my purpose, with my virtues.”

“Virtues…?”

“I see the injustice around me, and want to protect the innocent. When I see how awful the world can be, when I see the monsters that are hurting those who are weak, I can’t help myself.” She clenched her fist. “The power to do so just comes to me.”

“Oh…” Haruka looked down at his palms.

Her heart sank, realizing he didn’t quite understand. It was a shame that not all of humanity could be as righteous as her. That heroic drive had always come so naturally to her; she wasn’t sure she could put it into words to explain to others.

Haruka’s open hands were trembling. “Um. Is there any other way?”

“Hm?”

“All my life… I only cause pain to everyone.” His worry gradually turned to desperation.” I hurt everyone who gets close to me. Especially things that are small and weak. My whole life, I’ve been nothing but a… a curse. So… is there another way? Please. I want to be better. I want to be strong! I want to be like you! Tell me!”

He stepped forward, pleading. Kotoko stepped back.

His blue eyes widened at her sudden shift into defense. “Ah! I. I’m sorry. I’m-I’m sorry. It’s your birthday. You should be… Have a g-good day.”

“Wait.” Kotoko stopped him before he could flee. She was aware of the massive gap between them, the vastly different backgrounds they came from. Still, she offered the same advice that had helped her in her toughest of days.

“Don’t worry so much about others’ strength. The quickest way to burn yourself out is getting overwhelmed with the power that’s all around you. Once you start putting all your focus toward honing your own skills and strengths, you’ll realize how much you’re truly capable of. You don’t need anyone else. You’ll realize that you are enough.”

“I… am enough…?”

She placed a hand firmly on his shoulder.

“So, no need to get all worked up now, okay?”

“O-okay. I’ll do my best.” He stiffened, trying to appear worthy of her words.

She let out a bitter laugh. “I told the others not to do anything for my birthday, but I don’t think they paid me any mind.” Kotoko still couldn’t fathom how they were so friendly with each other given the situation. “Let’s go see if there’s some cake or something.”

#milgram #kotoko yuzuhira #haruka sakurai #thank you so much! this one was super interesting to write 👀#the thing is even though they dont have any direct problem between them they would still have a hard time communicating #but once they DO communicate there would so much they could learn from/help each other with!!!#this is leaning into my theory that kotokos murder (like harukas) was a rightful emotion that spiraled out of control #it really puts it into perspective how young kotoko is when you remember shes not too much older than haruka #and theyre both susceptible to strong emotions that stem from feeling weak int he face of the big scary world #but kotokos sees her as some blessing of power to serve her heroic thoughts and haruka sees his as a curse #ty to my pals who helped me find the exact spot in the timeline i was looking for 🙏#although kotoko doesnt believe she can change that easily she 100% undergoes the exact type of dramatic change as the others #once again referencing the arm wrestling info from yamanaka #between that and the fact that strangulation actually takes a fair amount of power #i just think its very good to remember that haruka is so physically strong #also something something kids looking up and wanting to be like kotoko and her complex emotions on that....#these two are sooooo interesting AH #drabbles

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