#Day in and day out it's all the same

[jacky-tradey]

Cracked

Her eyes lazily scanned down the list of contacts through her cracked screen, wondering if anyone would be up this late at night. Of course they would be up, she thought to herself. It was only eleven at night. It's just that no one wanted to talk to her right now.

She closed the contact screen and resigned to talking to herself. Because who else was there to talk to? Not her friends, if you could even call coworkers that. They wouldn't want to be interrupted to hear about her woes. Not her family. Mother and father were gone anyways. Not that they would want to listen to her complain about her life for the millionth time. Her sister? No. She never seemed to have the "mental space" available to talk.

Her chest heaved a heavy sigh as she placed the phone against her chest, eyes flitting around the room. The pink walls seemed to mock her with their pastel, easy happiness. Why did they get to be pink when she was stuck so grey? She noticed her old paintings, still hung proudly on the walls. She was proud of them. She has made those. She has thought of something and it had been created.

But she wasn't creating anymore.

The hands that once spent hours at the essil covered in paint were now only used to swipe mindlessly across that cracked screen. That damned cracked screen. She knew how to fix it. But she didn't. She didn't know why. It was the money to buy a new screen, she told herself. A glance at the new necklace she'd bought herself reminded her however that money was not the case.

She picked up her phone again and traced the cracks with her finger, vaguely aware that glass might embed itself within her skin. She could just go online and order a new one right now. Her sister had even offered to install it for her. All she had to do was take that first step and order it. Maybe she'd finally just complete that once simple task that has been driving her crazy for months.

Or maybe not.

Maybe she would just let it stay cracked. Maybe she would just keep complaining about the shards of glass her fingertips. Maybe she would keep watching videos with distorted quality. Maybe she would let it stay broken as a reminder that she was the one who broke it. Maybe she would just ignore the screen until the phone became so broken that she had to get a whole new phone to replace it because she was too stupid to fix her old phone!

And then maybe she would drop that new phone too.

Maybe she wouldn't replace it's screen either. Maybe she would say that the phone still works fine and cracked didn't mean it was broken. Maybe her sister would offer to help her fix it like she did last time. Or maybe she would realize that asking to help was futile. Maybe the new screen would stay cracked too.

Maybe she was bound to have glass in her fingers forever.

Maybe she wasn't meant to have a fixed screen.

Maybe she didn't deserve one…

Maybe tonight… she would just go to sleep and push off ordering a new screen for another day. After all, she could forget the screen was broken when her eyes were closed.

#no one will read this #an attempt was made #an attempt has been made #seriously help #I have no one to talk to so I'm talking to no one #kinda depressing #writing #depressive shit #depressive disorder #depressive memes #depressive episode #Help #tumblr help #please #send help #someone help #i hate this #i can't do this anymore #It just keeps repeating #Day in and day out it's all the same #i'm done

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico referring to his mom as "Mama" implies he most likely at least used to refer to Hades as "Papa" and i 100% headcanon he still does but mostly in the manner of him having the entire Underworld wrapped around his finger for being the baby of the family

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #headcanon #my art #nico flexing youngest child privilages by pulling out the most pitiful expression he can manage #anyways i find it fun to explore character word choices #cause yknow no two characters are going to select their words the same way #or even necessarily think about it to the same degree #i like to think Nico thinks about his word choice a lot #so of course every time he uses ''papa'' he fully knows he's pulling the Baby Of The Family card #Hades definitely knows this too but falls for it every time anyways #cause Nico hasnt called him ''papa'' regularly since getting his memory wiped - just detached ''father'' or at best ''dad'' #so it just reminds Hades of How Much He Just Wants His Children To Be Happy Like The Old Days #and how much poor Nico has been through and he's just the baby of the family and- #cue Nico smugly staring at the camera cause he knows how much power he holds #also i say Nico is Hades' only son cause mythologically even when Zagreus *is* Hades' son (rarely) he's. dead. #a major part of Zagreus' mythology is that he died #and im p sure every other deity said to be Hades' children are all goddesses and also are like 50% of the time not his #theres also only like 3 of them. and as far as we know in riordanverse canon one of them is implied to not be his daughter #so Nico is Hades' only son and also youngest in the family (cause Hazel is older by a month chronologically or 1 year biologically) #(and everybody else is a deity if children of hades at all)

[bigfatbreak]

"what's the biggest difference in Tom's character in the dad villain au" you've never seen a papa-bear go so grizzy mode so fast

#my art #miraculous ladybug #marinette dupain cheng #tom dupain cheng #lê chi��n kim #dad villain au #also the final straw for marinette was that the day kim pulled that shitass prank on her #that gave her like. love trauma in the show #was around the same time sabine passed out for the last time and never woke up again #so marinette realized that she was publicly humiliated #by chloe via kim as a proxy for the 'prank' #was going to lose her best friend who was moving #and was going to lose her mom #basically all in the same day

[jamiethebeeart]

Lineart by @ovytia-art which was such a blast to color - I love the entire vibe of all of them hanging out together so much @green-with-envy-phandom-event

#greenwithenvy2024 #danny phantom #i picked it for Dani originally but i really do love seeing all of them interact together it makes me really happy to see #fun fact the flats (including background) took almost 4 hours. + i had to spread that up over a few days due to eye problems slowing me dow #but it was so so worth it. no one else will really understand but working on it gave me the same kind of goofy fun stress free feeling as #when me and my friends hang out at our dennys. i have a newfound fondness for nasty burger. #anyway do NOT look too closely at the car background because i /know/ they're messed up perspective just. hush. #i designed some nasty burger logos for this based on the canon sign! it was very fun!!!! and i reused them for another piece #dp jbee

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[dismas-n-dismay]

I like to think Marcille is extremely in love w Falin but pre-death she’s like “Hahaha yep me and Falin, best friends, oh my fucking god she’s never gonna reciprocate my feelings” and cries herself to sleep

Like she’s THAT kind of pathetic gay meanwhile Falin is like “man kinda weird we don’t kiss considering she’s my gf but that’s okay”

#Falin thinks they’ve been dating for at least a year and a half #meanwhile marcille thinks Falin is never gonna like her in the same way and cries about it all the time #the day they talk it out is just 8 hours of them making out sloppy style #extra points if they’ve kissed before or have make out sessions frequently #but marcille just thinks it’s weirdly platonic and totally not romantic bc she’s insecure #falin touden #falin thorden #dunmeshi falin #falin dunmeshi #falin dungeon meshi #farcille #marcille dunmeshi #marcille dungeon meshi

[mugwot]

funnyjokespunperson

#cozy-comfy reading a book recovering <3 #vulnerability? sorry all they got is puns #love them for it tbh so real for that #i imagine this being somewhen post-game so #isat spoilers #sorry but i do not believe that Vaugarde or really any other place has no constellations at all #they are so usefull! for navigation or for calendar keeping! #so yeah now there Are constellations they are just niche knowledge for like sailing or for understanding how the calendar formed #i guess there is also specifically ursa minor what a coincidence #did you know that there are myths based on how constellations behave through out the year? #scorpio and orion are never seen on the sky at the same time and theres a myth about how the scorpion killed him #but he was immortalized on the night sky (the scorpion also got immortalized because fuck orion) #rant over have a nice day #isat #in stars and time #isat siffrin #my art

[vampcaprisun]

why do all of the options for talking to wyll after mizora's punishment feel so mean? the poor guy just got sent through the tortures of the nine hells and had his body permanently changed, and it's clear that all of this is because mizora was deceiving him, and you're telling me i can't just...check in on him? like what's even the point of having five different options if all of them are just different flavors of "you had it coming"? i think he's been beaten down enough by the devil who just showed up to fuck him over and treat him like something less than human while doing it, let me just be nice to him!!!!!

#like He Would Not Fucking Say That. None Of My Tavs So Far Would Fucking Say That #they would all have different reactions but this is just. five flavors of the same reaction and it doesn't fit any of them #not to mention with the timing of the scene in this run it happened the same day that wyll found out his dad was kidnapped #like he just had the roughest fucking day and you're telling me i can't just. be nice to him????? bullshit #wyll ravengard #bg3 #baldur’s gate 3

[amphibianaday]

day 1421

#uh just a heads up if you expand the tags to see all there's. a lot. very long #amphibian #frog #poison dart frog #based on my most popular frog to date (day 651) #inspired by everyone pointing out what they think it looks like #here's a fun secret fact the original guy is actually a phantasmal poison dart frog (Epipedobates tricolor) #(according to the original artists title of the drawing) #not Anthony's poison arrow frog (Epipedobates anthonyi) #i feel too awkward to really point it out though because they look the exact same. i cannot tell if there is a difference #im half convinced the same frog was just discovered and named twice #its very curious btw if you go on the (english) wikipedia page for either species it doesn't mention the other #while hereptiles.info (no idea if this is a trustworthy site) lists both names as common names for the same frog (incorrectly??) #while inaturalist lists them as two different frogs. curiously with tricolor having wayyyyy fewer photos #ok anyway that's my rant i went on a whole journey trying to figure out if these are the same frog or not and i have no answer #i did some more 'research' and i am more confused. some sources seem to imply they are now considered the same species ( e. tricolor) #i think my conclusion is i am willing to agree the drawing looks more like e. anthonyi. it seems like tricolor is generally less vibrant re #and the white is darker and more green? #i feel like thumblr should stop me from typing more in the tags at this point this is a whole essay #at this point i am failry convinced this is specifically the Santa Isabel frog. isthat the real subspecies or morph or whatever #or just the name pet sites are using to sell it?? #i even found some sources (frog selling websites) refering to it as “Epipedobates Anthonyi 'Santa Isabel' Phantasmal Poison Dart Frog” lol #Anyways if you read this far hi. species are confusing. i am not a frog scientist #the first few tags are like an hour old now i just kept trying to figure it out and adding more tags

[mobius-m-mobius]

#just a wizard gentleman and his butler 🪄🎩

#mobius #loki #lokius #victor timely #loki spoilers #mcuedit #lokiedit #marveledit #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #wasn't gonna make this set until later in the week and we all know mobius is calling the shots BUT #even though it's not the same thing i can't get a slow burn valet au out of my mind and it's driving me insane please someone write this 😭 #the way mobius is constantly supporting and hyping everything about loki they were taught to push aside... never getting over it... #and just because it needs to be said i've been crying over owen in that victorian fit for days now god is he beautiful 😭😭 #loki s2 spoilers #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs #flashing cw

[rambles-about-minecraft-ocs]

one of my favorite things about zedaph is that on a server full of people that find strange and oft-overlooked minecraft mechanics or rare events and then see just how far they can push them in the name of spectacle or efficiency or world-breaking, zed is over here finding these mechanics in order to do the weirdest things he can think of in as entertaining a manner as possible

like i 100% have faith in zedaph's theoretical ability to be just as efficient or spectacular or world-breaking. if he wanted to do that stuff, i trust that he absolutely could. but thats so far from being his priority. instead, hes going to spend around a week of irl time focused entirely on eventually having the good luck to spawn in something insanely rare so that he can convert it into something even rarer, the result of which being something that 99% of the server reacts with complete and utter shock that it even exists in the first place, just because its zany and funny and he wanted to. and i love that

#zedaph #hermitcraft #genuinely i adore the clucky few project im not even done watching the episode and i had to pause and make this post #i saw impulses video first and went ''that HAS to be some sort of datapack or something-'' #only to immediately go ''no. no it cant be. because this is zed #and its practically a trademark of his to push the limits of the game as far as possible in the direction least expected #not for the purpose of efficiency or spectacle or intimidation or whatever like some players who push limits #but purely for the purpose of making something so funny you cant help but laugh at whats going on #and maybe being a bit impressed that he ever thought of it in the first place'' #at which point i went ''holy shit. since its zed doing this. somehow he ACTUALLY got a villager on a chicken. with no cheats. thats INSANE' #i was relieved when i checked my subscriptions to see what the next video i had to watch was and saw he would be next in line #bc if i had to sit through 19 other hermits videos before i could watch his and find out what the fuck he was doing i would have been so sa #sidenote but i feel like a zed video where he interacts with this many other people all in the same video is so rare #idk i didnt watch season 9 and i know he started collabing a lot more w/ other hermits then #so maybe its not nearly as rare these days #but like the last one that *i* saw where he interacted with this many people at once was towards the end of season 8 #when all the people he experimented on earlier in the season came back to experiment on him #and like i would like zeds videos with or without the collabs. but its a lot of fun to see him interact with people #so its very cool to me when he does it with a lot of people all in the same video

[ewwww-what]

You guys don’t get it, they used to be the high 5 heroes. They used to be the high 5 heroes guys. They used to. They used to be starry eyed freshmen. They had to choose each other. They had to have awkward introductions. They had to pick that name together. I’m never okay ever.

#I’m a firm believer in the idea that the rat grinders care about each other as people #not bad kids level obviously. they haven’t had the same experiences that led the bad kids to be so close to one another. #but man. three hours a day in those woods? they’re teenagers. I promise they aren’t all business out there. #like maybe they arent soulmates but they have to be friends to some extent #(I have latched onto the scene of Ivy and Oisin playing beer pong like my life depends on it) #(please it makes me so sad to think about them) #oisin hakinvar #ivy embra #kipperlilly copperkettle #mary ann skuttle #ruben hopclap #lucy frostblade #buddy dawn #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #the high 5 heroes #the rat grinders #txt post

[bogan-mac]

#webweave #web weave #web weaving #webweaving #on siblings #yes theyre holding each other in all the pictures #it just Happened Like That. #also yes I made this on the same day as my last one and let it sit here for a couple days to space it out #but even though its only been 3 days. I need to get it out and in the world.

[ruporas]

cheers to the future of humanity (and the future of us)

[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun. The illustration takes place during the ship/home arc, specifically chapter 21. At the center, Vash is grabbing Wolfwood by the collar and pulls him into a kiss in the middle of a celebration. The pair is colored in vibrant warm hues while their surroundings are colored in cooler colors like green and teals. Luida, Brad, Meryl, and Milly are shown amongst the crowd, occupied in the celebrations as Vash and Wolfwood share a moment by themselves at the center. END ID]

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #hospital yuri (explodeds) like any average vw enjoyer i will never get over that arc #specifically the scene where they heard the news of earth ships coming and did that little handshake they somehow conjured or #Had already. and then the entire ship had a party... meryl and milly started drinking immediately from joy and dragged vash and ww to get #wasted too and overall celebrate together. the chapter moves quickly just like how the hope was quickly withered out and died just hours #later when knives destroyed it. BUT IM JUST THINKING ABOUT IN THE MOMENT OF IT ALL bc in the same chapter #ww asks for a chance for tomorrow and then gets news of earth ships coming. in this same arc vash is thinking of all the things he needs to #resolve so his home doesn't get attacked so the people he love doesn't have to die and the humans he wants to protect gets to live. #i feel like deep down they both semi-recognize that it can't be this easy and regardless of earth ships coming- there's still a wait for #them to arrive and they have to hold out. and regardless ww still has a mission to follow through and vash knows knives would find out #but in that mood of celebration the entire ship brought in - they can at least let themselves relax for a moment and indulge #how they basically engaged with no violence for the few days they were on that ship coaxing them into domesticity... i feel like their #thoughts would wander to somewhere soft and all #allowing them to push aside the tiptoeing and tenseness and be sweet for a night #ruporas art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #wen qing #jiang cheng #Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile. #This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature. #But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly' #My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out. #Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth. #I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity- #-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly. #Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose. #You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok #Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards. #Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever. #To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss. #Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'. #described in alt text #I'm trying it out! *please* give me feedback - I want to eventually Add image ID to all of these comics one day

[letoscrawls]

To honor Akira Toriyama i drew future Trunks aka my first ever crush

#my art #dragon ball #trunks #first time i draw him since i was 8 #i was crazy obsessed with him and i just deep dived his wiki to find out they got him a toxic problematic love interest WTF DUDE #free my man he did nothing wrong he was always the loml #i said it on twt too but if you had a crush on him and not on toxic man vegeta or man child goku you're actually EliteTM #anyways it was bittersweet to see sooo many artists i admire and look up to say that the reason they started drawing was toriyama's work #like we are all connected by the same experience and it's crazy to think he had such an influence on so many #been thinking about it all day