#I feel like crying is a very masculine thing to do overall

[inkskinned]

we heard that you were very disappointed in us both as a generation and specifically as a generation of women (emphasis yours), how we had let ourselves go and now we were slutty and ill-tempered and holding onto notions of feminism like "having a savings account" and "equality."

we were very sorry about it, we didn't realize. it is very hard for you, in your life, because your entire definition was centered around the word providing, and that's a really vague and undulating word. it is hard to be a provider. for your purposes, the word provider here can be defined as "having a job", although it sometimes also extends to "doing yard work", "grilling on occasion," and "knowing basic car anatomy."

we had to do some reading but we divided it out. do not worry. high-value women will fill in the rest of the gaps of your life - all those silly feminine things like doing the dishes. we didn't realize we had asked too much when we asked you to pick up after yourself. we did not realize you were rendered small and scared and crying about the possibility of doing the laundry. here is a joke to lighten the sentiment: a man that listens when you talk to him.

we heard about how we had fallen from glory and it sickened us and made us very, very sad. lindsey had to cut all her hair off and tara threw up. we lit one million candles and we are going to have a vigil about it tonight. all of the people in this world that you do not approve of are going to be there and we will all be in mourning colors because we have lost your respect which is of course the only thing that any of us were looking for.

we searched around our bedrooms and our closets and for some of us it took a while but we all found the pricetag that we were originally born with, the one that gave our listing offer, the one that smells like rot and pine needles. we were horrified because many of us had taken deductions and hadn't realized it. i had scraped my knees and decided to be a lesbian so they had to take my voicebox out so i could never call home again. janice had been with too many people overall so we had to put her into the big squisher that will hopefully collapse her walls so that when you're with her, you'll feel so big and powerful. it will be like you're conquering something instead of being close with someone.

we are all going to the funeral of feminism and we will tear at our bodies and fall over ourselves. we will invite you onstage for a live recording of your podcast about the occasional minor inconvenience of self-reflection. you will talk about how we have targeted you and made you feel the sweat slick down your back, and we will teach you basic self-defense out of solidarity.

do not worry, we are seeing to all the outliers. taylor asked to be taken seriously so we have shipped her off to prison. laura asked you to accept her femininity regardless of her presentation. you will be happy to hear all women are now and forever going to have to be small and thin and pretty and white and ablebodied and quiet and unassuming and ladylike, which is different than how society has previously told us to act.

i am going to have to shave off my jawline, which is a little masculine, and they are going to have to reshape my hands, which are very square and thick - all the work i've done with them has made their veins stand out, so we're just going to have to exsanguinate me. i am horrified to have been out in public like this.

we are going to sit around the campfire and we will talk about being weird little girls that made potions in pink teacups. we will talk about the first time we made a difference. we will talk about the private lives of crickets, and then, at the stroke of three in the morning (the witching hour, obviously) - we will all promptly shut up.

and this will be your beautiful world. this silence that spans every corner of every street and every zoom meeting and every alley. i do not think you'll notice at first - it will be the same as every television show and movie and book. we will all just simply sit there in our doll dresses and smile blithely at your advances and none of us will do you the dishonor of answering and none of us will appear to be in distress and none of us will nag you or make a fuss or get hysterical about it. it will just be quiet, and you will say finally, some peace for once! and we will smell of smoke and our teeth will be white and the next day will come.

tonight we are going to bury the last little bits of our humanity. you are not invited. it is going to be ugly.

#spilled ink #warm up #sorry for going missing lol #my week in review: #got in trouble at work #for not being at work during non-working hours #then crashed my car within 2 hours of this #and then less than 24 hours after that #in the hospital with the flu #im okay now but ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm #who put a fuckken curse on me #btw this rant is trans inclusive love u

[kalamity-jayne]

Sorry for asking but I am a cis male teenager (well, I thought I was.) but lately I have realized I think I might be a trans girl? I am very scared to drop my masculinity. How did you find out you were trans if that’s okay to ask?

Of course it's ok! I am always happy to help someone who is questioning their gender. However, this is actually a pretty loaded question, because while there is a lot of talk about "when my egg cracked" in trans circles, figuring out you're trans isn't always attributable to any one singular event. Some folks might crack through and emerge from their egg in one swift motion but that is not true for everyone, it certainly wasn't true for me. Sure I could tell about the moment the first crack in my shell appeared, but a single crack in the egg is a far cry from actually breaking out. For many it's a process that can involve a series of revelations and tends to require lots of self reflection and learning how to love yourself. So, there is no quick and easy answer for this. However, I think my story will have a number of different lessons relevant to your question.

Before getting into all that though, I feel I must point out that cisgender folks rarely ask themselves these kinds of questions and when they do entertain these thoughts it's brief and comes with very little agony. The fact you have gone so far as to reach out to trans woman for advice, the fact the you are clearly worried by the prospect of being trans, is a pretty clear indicator that you probably are trans. Regardless of whether you actually are transgender or not, I want you to know that either way, it's ok. You will be ok, no matter what conclusions you come to.

Now, the story of how I figured out I was trans. Bear in mind, the first “aha moment” was 20 yrs ago and things were very different back then. I was about 17yrs old at the time and the term transgender didn't have the currency then that it does now, there wasn't the robust set of terminology that we have today, there were far fewer resources to turn to, no social media, and the overall public opinion was significantly more hostile towards anything LGBT. Anyway, more below the cut.

I didn't follow the typical trans narrative of the time in the sense that, as a child I didn't really care about my clothes so long as my favorite cartoon characters were on 'em, I liked toys typically marketed towards boys, I looked like a boy and everyone referred to me as a boy. So I thought I was a boy. However, I do have a vague memory from early childhood, somewhere between the ages of 4-6, of sneaking into my mother’s room and stealing a pair of her satin underwear and trying it on (it surely would have been too big on me but I remember liking the texture of the fabric) and hiding it under my bed. This memory has since been confirmed during my adulthood by my brother who shared a room with me at the time and had apparently found the hidden stash.

From an early age I was explicitly shunted towards masculinity. I was regularly told to “stop acting like a girl,” and “quit crying like a girl,” and even at one point to “stop walking like a girl,” by my peers and one of my brothers. By the time I was a teenager I was doing my best to be as masculine as possible going so far as joining the highschool wrestling team, a sport that is as homophobic as it is homoerotic, and I hated every minute of it because being manly didn't feel natural to me (and it definitely didn't stop the bullying). It felt like I was trying to ice skate uphill. I fit in but only imperfectly for I was merely acting.

I was also very confused about my sexuality. I thought maybe I was gay or bisexual (turns out the latter) but that didn’t really explain what I was feeling. Around 17yrs old I got curious about transsexuals, thinking maybe the answers would be found there and hoped on to the early and oh so clunky internet. Now I knew of transsexuals conceptually but I didn't know anything about them. Sadly, pornography was really the only reliable way to actually see what a trans body looked like back then. I was stunned because the women I saw did not look at all the way I expected. I was blown away by how so many of them, genitalia aside, looked indistinguishable from cisgender women. And they were all absurdly beautiful. I felt an immediate attraction but there was something else I felt too, envy. And that realization was the first crack in my eggshell.

After that I couldn't get the thought of crossdressing out of my head. So, I dug through a box of my mother's old clothes and took a few items she no longer wore, an old white tennis skirt and a very very 70s sleeveless orange blouse. I was so comfortable in those clothes and when I looked at myself in the mirror I felt good, really good. So, I continued exploring, shaved off all of of my body hair, went to department stores that were open late at night to buy girl clothes (deathly afraid someone would recognize me), I would stay up late at night to watch HBO because at midnight they would occasionally air stuff about trans people, (I remember two documentary shorts in particular and the movie Soldier’s Girl) and I scoured the internet for more information. The internet search brought me to a website called TG list (at least I think that’s what it was called, this was 20yrs ago after all) which was a directory of resources ranging from The Breast Form Store (which still exists!), a myriad of gender identity quizzes (I took nearly every single one), and Susan’s Place.

Susan’s place was one of the few reliable places to hear from actual transgender adults. Unfortunately, while Susan's Place had a lot of useful information the forums there were full of horror stories, a never-ending supply of all the things those women had suffered. So needless to say, there was little to no positivity around transness to give me hope. I was afraid to call myself trans as a result, afraid of what it meant for my life, my future, and my physical safety (you have to remember that back then Mathew Shepard wasn’t old news, his tragedy was practically current events). So I called myself a crossdresser but for reasons I didn't understand at the time I deeply resented that label. I think deep down, no matter how much I tried to deny it and bury it, a part of knew I wanted to be a girl. So when I came out to my parents as a crossdresser and explicitly told them I wasn't trans, that I didn’t have any desire to transition to female, there was that lil voice at the back of my mind calling me a liar. That voice would follow me until my late 20s.

Coming out was a real struggle for me because not only did I think my life would literally be in jeopardy, I thought everyone would think I was making it up, having not followed the stereotypical models of transsexuality. When I came out to my parents they didn't disown me or anything but they were noticeably uncomfortable around me when I was in girl mode. At a certain point I needed their help (credit card) to buy a gaff for tucking and that was when my parents, out of a misguided desire to protect me, pushed me back into the egg. Because of their rejection I spent the rest of highschool and most of my college years trying to hold the egg together with even more denial and by doubling down on masculinity. While I did have some fun during my college years, on balance I was miserable and depressed. I chafed at my male costume and I knew I was lying to myself the entire time, and I hurt myself a great deal.

During my senior year of college I started privately dabbling with crossdressing again, the desire had been nagging at me incessantly. A short time after graduating I met my wife who accepted that side of me and she introduced me to the BDSM/kink community, and the overall culture of nonjudgmental acceptance there cracked the egg for good, because is provided spaces besides my own room where I felt safe being a girl. From that point on I slowly but surely came out of the egg, first calling myself a crossdresser, then genderfluid for awhile, then GENDA passed in NY making me an explicitly protected class and for the next 2 yrs I presented as a they/them genderqueer woman 100% full time without HRT (I was still reluctant to call myself a woman).

I wrestled a long time with the choice to go on HRT. Ultimately that was always a big stumbling block for me. Therapy had gotten me pretty far but I was still afraid of so much and was unsure I would be happy with the changes because my parents had initially rejected me as their daughter in very paternalistic fashion I struggled to trust my own instincts. I still struggle with that sometimes. Eventually, I befriended a trans woman in my neighborhood who pointed out HRT works very slowly and that it takes a long time for any permanent changes to take root. So, she suggested I give it a try and if it didn't feel right I could stop.

I was also taking gender identity quizzes again. Now most of these claim to be diagnostic and those ones a generally misogynistic garbage (they ask stupid questions like, “are you good at math?” and assign a gendered value to the answer) but I happened upon one that started with the disclaimer that it wasn't diagnostic and instead only offered questions that are good to think with. Two questions in particular were very helpful. The first asked, "If you could take a pill that would allow you to wake up tomorrow as a girl, would you take it?" My answer was a hesitant yes, but that yes was bolstered by the next question, "If you could take a pill that would allow you to wake up as a man, in your current body, but without any dysphoria or desires to be feminine, would you take it?" My answer was an emphatic no because that would have felt like killing an important part of myself off. I then at the age of 33yrs old started HRT and 4yrs in I am incredibly happy. That was one of the best decisions I have ever made.

Now, I know that was a lot of fucking text to read but I wrote all of that because I know the prospect of maybe being a trans girl feels scary to you right now but I want to assure you that as daunting as it may seem there is so much about being a trans woman that is full of beauty and joy. I love my trans womanhood and despite the hardships, I wouldn’t give it up for anything. In fact the opposite is true. Knowing what I know now, I would give up almost everything in order to be a woman. So if you feel like you want to give girlhood a try, do it! You can take small incremental steps and you can always stop if it doesn’t feel right, either way you will gain a degree of self knowledge most cisgender people lack completely and that is absolutely priceless! Plus, unlike me when I was a teen, there’s all kinds of resources and information available to you now and an entire community of people ready to help you, and unlike the women in the forums from my past, we aren’t all gloom and doom.

As for your fear of giving up masculinity, don’t let that fear lure you into the denial trap like it did me. Denial is like quicksand, once you’re in it becomes hard to get out, the more you struggle the deeper in you go and it is so very suffocating. And the thing is, you actually don’t have to give it all up. Back when I was presenting full time as woman without HRT, I felt like I had to be ultra feminine all the time, full face of make-up, dress, heels, the whole nine yards. Now that I’m 4 yrs in with HRT I don’t feel that pressure anymore and have since reclaimed certain aspects of masculinity I actually liked. I sill like presenting high femme from time to time but these days I mostly rock a soft butch aesthetic, flannel/t-shirt, jeans and the only makeup I wear daily is just a lil bit of blush. At certain point you become comfortable and realize that gender is just a sandbox to play in and experiment. Masculine and Feminine are just concepts, they aren’t real! so regardless of being cis or trans, don’t let those mere concepts box you in! Just do what feels natural and right to you!

I hope all of that was helpful to you anon, and that at the very least you walk away from this knowing you don’t have to have all of the answers about yourself right now. Now, I don't no the particulars of your situation, so I’m happy to speak with you further if you have follow up questions, just send another anon.

Best of luck to you anon, I am rooting for you!

Big hugs,

Mother Calamity

#advice from a trans mom #Transition #HRT #Transgender #cracking the egg #ask/answer #anon #mother calamity!

[taurusreads]

what do they want you to know?

masterlist || paid services || ko-fi

messages from spirit, a significant other,

passed loved one, etc.

pile one

overall energy: king of swords

im sending masculine energy straight off the bat here. that doesn’t mean that the person is male per say, just that they give off more masculine energy than feminine. i think this could be someone that you used to talk to, and are possibly talking to again, or someone that you’ve just been having more contact with as of late. this person could have heavy air placements.

i think that there could have been a falling out at some point, and the blame is more so coming from their part. they feel guilty, and want you to let them back into your life. i think they could want a second chance if they get close enough, whether this be platonic or romantic. i think at some point during your separation you had a leveling up, and they definitely noticed that.

i think this is more of a message to say call back your power. if there was a choice that your gut has been forcing you to make, or an idea that won’t leave your head, then go for it. trust the voice in the back of your head when it tells you something. the only opinion about you that should be important to you is your own. the only person who you should need to be happy for you and routing for you is yourself. your own thoughts and opinions will make you feel more than anything anyone else says.

channeled messages: purple, black, self help, self sabotage, relationships, 555, masculine, karmic, meditate, reading, educate, progress, air signs, air placements, family, reliance, love, hugs,

pile two

overall energy: the tower

i think that you might have just come out of a hard period of your life. whether that be coming of age, heartbreak, grieving, etc. you’ve been through it for a while now, but you’ve finally come out of the worst end of it. i feel light, like a weight was taken off of my shoulders finally.

i think you should take some time to take care of yourself right now. stay in this unbothered phase for as long as you can. take note of how you feel, how your body feels, your emotions, etc. how do you feel day to day when you feel this good? enjoy it because i feel like there was a period when you wanted something so bad that you couldn’t let go of it. not being able to let go is going to be your worst enemy. the outcome you want will come so long as you affirm it. if you believe it will happen, then it will happen. don’t cry over spilled milk, there’s better things in store. step into you masculine energy. we all have it in us, there should be an equal amount of masculine and feminine. you have to balance out yours now. you may have gotten what you wanted, but thankfully, the work doesn’t stop here. start figuring out what it is you want out of life next.

you’re starting to take the time to figure out what it is that you want out of life exactly. you’re leveling up in a new way because you’re starting to learn what it is that life means to you. this beautiful energy needs to be accompanied by hard work though. it’s time to put in the extra work to get the things you really want.

channeled messages: yellow, release, 999, “leave the past in the past and start anew”, empath, meditation, manifestations, “you ask and you shall receive”, friends, self love

pile three

overall energy: the hierophant

i think you’re a very patient person. your someone who values their work and education heavily, you may even be interested in teaching as a profession. i feel like you’ve been in a beautiful time of your life for a while now, and you’re happier than you’ve ever been. there’s a certain relationship that could use some work possibly, as far as communication goes. im getting masculine energy from this but of course, that does not mean they are a male.

i think you’re protective over your energy in a very healthy way. it’s very hard to get into your inner circle but that’s because your energy is so special that you can’t afford to give it away that easily. i think someone around you really admires that. they love the way that you can stay unbothered and keep pushing forward towards your goals. you just seem to keep going up up up and they’re soooo proud of you. i honestly think you’re a little surprised by yourself as well. but soak in this feeling. enjoy the fruits of your labor. treat yourself, have fun. you DESERVE IT.

you don’t have to be so humble. you did something that many aspire to do, and many don’t have the courage to. you faced your demons and used the newfound strength to build yourself up into a new person. you didn’t change who you were, you just became assured in who you were. but i’ve never said that it was wrong to be a little vain sometimes. we all get to have our moments, you included. it doesn’t make you mean, it doesn’t make you stuck up, it just makes you confident. now im not saying flaunt it all the time, but do things out of the ordinary that are tailored to YOU and what YOU need. have a whole day dedicated to the things you want to do and how you want to take care of yourself. you deserve to enjoy the rewards you reaped from working so hard.

>>:((((( SPOIL YOURSELF!!!!!

channeled messages: green, 111, princess, lighting, mother yourself, follow your heart, you’ve made it, believe it, spoiled, im seeing the pinterest core with the sparkly dresses and designer handbags but it’s blurry and shit, solo dates, find inspiration, we’re all routing for you :(

#pick a card #love tarot reading #pick a card tarot #pick a pile tarot #tarot #tarot community #tarot reader #tarot readings #astrology #divination #taurusreads

[sugawhaaa]

<3 Thinking Of gunil as your Boyfriend <3

👗Fluff head canons👗

We all know he's a real softy at heart and he would totally spoil the shit outta you

He's the type of boyfriend to send you random "I love you" messages while he's at work

If he's feeling extra nice he might send you a cute selfie too

Bro definitely brags about you to the members, saying how sweet and kind you are.

He's the type of boyfriend that'd get absolutely heartbroken to see you cry and would probably genuinely cry himself.

Gunil wouldn't like you wearing makeup, sure you can if you want to of course but if gunil had a choice he'd rather your natural face.

He'd give you soft kisses everywhere when cuddling (little baby 🤧)

He always becomes a sooky baby when it comes to you, if you say no to cuddles bc you're busy he'll whine and fuss for you to finish faster.

But his dominant side might come out every once and a while and he'd make you sit on his lap or pin you on the chair to make you give him attention

He'd love to flex his masculinity around you too. If something (like a jar of pickles) was too hard to open he'd instantly do it for you, same with reaching things or carrying things.

This includes when you take Gunil shopping with you. He'd insist on paying for almost EVERYTHING and he'd carry all of your bags despite your protests

To add to that he'd be a great support when your trying on clothes

Gunil would be the type of boyfriend that'd be anxious when going out to the pool for another man could see you and want you

To prevent such things happening he stands next to or near you at all times to be 1000% sure no man is going to steal you

Not that he doesn't trust you he just doesn't think he's good enough for you (🥲)

~Scenario~

"Gunil, seriously I can hold them," you say as you leave a shop in the mall. Gunils arms were loaded with bags full of clothes, make up and other little trinkets. He refused to let you carry any of the billions of bags he had.

"Nope, I got it," he reassured you. You sighed in defeat. He did this every time you went out, he wouldn't let you carry anything. He had to prove he's got it covered. The two of you went into another store and since it was near Valentines day there was a huge stuffed bear in the entrance. You got excited and pointed it out to your boyfriend. He said it was cute and you moved on. Later when you were trying a dress on, you went to go show gunil and you couldn't find him. After searching around a bit you found him at the cash register. The big bear plushie in his hands.

He then walked over to you and offered it to you

"My treat," he smiled.

💄Spice head canons💄

I think Gunil is a very hard yet soft dom. I don't think he'd be very dominant often but when he is he's definitely aggressive and rough

But his words don't match his actions he'd be praising you constantly and saying sweet gentle things while literally destroying your insides (💀)

Everyone imagines Gunil to be a bit of a choker but I'm just like 😨 whenever someone says that. I think he's too soft to do something like that to you, but if you're really that into it and BEG him he may just grab your throat.

But I think overall Gunil is very bottom energy and generally would be, he's a pretty cocky character but he just shatters underneath you.

He'd be a big baby for you, whining and begging for everything and depriving him of his relief is his biggest enemy so you use that against him.

I think whimpering would be his main source or sounds when having sex. You'd think because he's the whimpering type he'd be rather quiet but no no no he's LOUD.

Hit that right spot and he's melting all over you.

He's very sensitive to every kind of touch really but touching his face gently as you jerk him off could make him cum right there and then.

Toys wouldn't really be his forte but if you wanted to use them he wouldn't mind

But lingerie on the other hand, that's where it's at for him

If you're ever feeling submissive the number one way to make him wanna be the top is by wearing lingerie, it's that easy.

As for "mommy" and "daddy" terms I think he'd like to call you mommy but he'd do it in a quiet, innocent way.

As for you calling him daddy, he doesn't really care. If you wish to call him that go ahead

He would be such a body worshiper (😭)

He'd love to pleasure you as well. He'd often say things like "just sit on my face," or smth sjsjsj

~Scenario~

"Please mommy," Gunil basically whispered in your ear as you gave him a handjob, very slowly.

"Please what?" You asked seductively as you looked him in his eyes. He swallowed hard and avoided your eyes looking at him desperately.

"Faster," he somehow got out between whines. You gently grazed the palm of your hand across his cheek and angling it up to look at you.

"Your going to have to say it a lot louder than that,"

After he begged louder and louder you decided to give it to him (finally) and you decided to be kind and let him cum all over you. "Good boy,"

💕aftercare head canons💕

Gunil immediately goes into softy mode when you say your finished

He would also ask what you want to do, sleep, shower, bath, read, talk, the list goes on

He would offer you snacks and a drink of course

He would give you tons of cuddles (🤭)

He would ask if he hurt you too much if he was being dominant

~Scenario~

"Are you hungry?" He said, turning to you on the bed. You thought for a moment and nodded your head. "What would you like?" He asked and the two of them went out to the kitchen to grab a snack. You ended up just getting some packaged snacks and some milkis to drink with them. He gave you loads of cuddles and attention (as if you didn't have his undivided attention like 5 minutes ago) and you fell asleep on the couch with him after eating all of your goodies.

A/N: this one sucks lmao 😭 my parents have been fighting a lot and it's distracting sjsjsj

#xdh imagines #xdh smut #xdinari hero fanfic #xdinary heroes #xdh #xdh fluff #xdh x reader #xdinary heroes fluff #xh gaon #xh jungsu #xh gunil #xdinary heroes smut #xdinary heroes gunil #goo gunil #gunil smut #gunil

[koko-mochi]

I just finished the first season of The Chosen, here are my thoughts...

For context, I have a Master of Divinity degree from Harvard, and I am a United Church of Christ preacher and member-in-discernment.

Overall I am really enjoying the show, I've cried a few times, and it has made my faith feel deeper and made me feel more connected to Jesus. I can't wait to pick up season two from the library on Monday and keep watching.

Here's a list, in no particular order, of things on my mind as I finish season one:

I love the show's portrayal of Jesus. He is welcoming, friendly, funny, and sensitive. At the same time he can be strange and uncanny. Jonathan Roumie absolutely crushes it in this role, and it was easy to think "this is Jesus" instead of thinking it is an actor playing Jesus. I do sort of wish Jesus was a little bit scarier, a little more challenging, but I get the feeling that will come later.

Nicodemus as a POV character is an inspired choice. Much like many modern Christians, Nicodemus struggles to believe what he is seeing, yet he longs to believe anyways. It's easy for me to see myself in him, especially as a highly-educated theologian. Additionally, seeing things from Nicodemus' perspective adds nuance and depth to how we see the Pharisees and the Sanhedrin, instead of succumbing to the unambiguous (and grossly antisemitic) villain treatment so many Christians still gleefully participate in on Palm Sunday. And the astute viewer will remember that Nicodemus has a very important role to play at the end of the story, when we eventually get there.

On the other hand, the Romans are cartoonish villains for most of the first season. I started rolling my eyes whenever Quintus appears on screen, eyebrow cocked, wicked sneer on his lips. It sure drives home the point about the Romans being violent colonizers and oppressors, but in a story that presents everyone as redeemable--even tax collectors--the fact that Quintus doesn't seem redeemable stands out. Gaius seems to be quite a bit more nuanced, so I can't help but wonder if we'll continue to see development for him.

I liked the portrayal of Matthew as autistic-coded. To me he doesn't feel like a caricature, I can see myself in him, and I empathize with him. The scene when Jesus asks him to follow really hit me.

Much has been said about this show's portrayal of emotionally-vulnerable masculinity and I strongly agree with it. The men in this show are tender, they're affectionate, they're supportive. They laugh and cry and hug freely. It's probably the best portrayal of masculinity in media that I've seen since Lord of the Rings.

The theology of the show was more progressive than I was expecting, though I didn't agree with everything the writing posits. The show's framing of Jesus' healing miracles as him forgiving the sins of the sick/disabled person grates on me. At the same time, I love how the opening of most episodes present a scene from the Hebrew Bible. It grounds the show's theology and Jesus' ministry in the Jewish scriptures, a thing that I think Christians too often avoid. It also does so in a way that feels connected to the Hebrew Bible instead of being supersessionist.

"Get used to different." What a great line. I wanna use that in a sermon. That's what following Jesus is all about, isn't it? Amen.

#pastoral care posting #the chosen #jesus fandom #jesus christ #progressive theology #queer christian

[arainmorn-art]

Just binged the whole thing

Omigosh. "My Adventures with Superman" was super ADORABLE.

Never understood the apeal of a 100% Lawful Good overpowered invincible protagonist before, but now I do. I haven't even watched anything Superman-related before. Clark is such a good boy. A gentle giant struggling with his non-human strength, he went to the chess club to minimize any chances he would hurt anyone by accident. A shy polite clumsy and nerdy good boy from a good loving family wanting to protect other people and a nice girl he loves. Oh gosh, can I keep him?

The way he's animated, the detailes of his whole body language, gosh, animators did wonders with Clark's character. I adore the first part of the show before the drama, because cheeses, I haven't seen such a cute romance progression in a long time, when they both obviously like each other and they also can see it in each other. Loved it! Giggled through their romance like a schoolgirl.

I liked Lois, how both tomboyish and very feminine she is. This was so friggin' refreshing to see an energetic independant girl who is also sweet, soft, vulnerable and contradicting herself, not girlbossing relatability and feelings the hell out of any interaction these characters might have. In one moment I was displeased with her decisions, when she was hurt that Clark didn't tell her he was a Superman and told him there won't be any relationship between them because of that, it was a big "COME ON" for me, but I liked that actualy it was a product of a very girly tangled way of thinking, "You lied to me! Does it mean you were pretending to have feelings for me too?!" while crying. Yes. Yes, thank you, it was a very brief moment, but as a regular girl I felt itXD I love when emotional girls are depicted rightly: saying one thing, implying another, thinking the third, crying inside and outside how hurt she is on several levels over an idiot who hasn't thought about her feelings properly. Great stuff, approve wholeheartedly. Maybe the battle against brick-faced toxic masculinity in a female wig, oh, excuse me, Holliwood feminist never-wrong-doing girlbosses will be won someday with smart writing and kind-hearted life observations. We have a great soldier here. She also reminded me a lot of Roxana from Megamind, and I loved that girl a lot.

I'm also surprised how there were little to no of Twitter SJW-ness. Very nice. I also joked on the phone with my friend, that it felt very ironic, how there are more female villains (haven't count, but it seems like that), than male, and those angry bitches are fighting against the sweetest himbo on Earth, who is saving kittens, infants and grannies all day long. I don't think it was intentional, but in a current climate of English-speaking media - very nice.

Pacing wise, hm, with a purely comedic first part a really fast pacing was great, but on the second half with drama... eh. It felt very rushed. Also, well, as I don't know the lore behind Superman deeper than it is dispersed in the current pop-culture, I was confused with his alien origin, as it felt a lot like Invincible. I thought the whole schtick of Invincible was about, you know, the main twist, buuuuuuuuuut what's about Superman? I know it's kinda backwards to first watch Invincible then watch anything about Superman, but I had a big deja vu. Maybe I'll read some wiki about Clark, I was hella confused.

Overall great show, loved it. The strange, um, mad genius gay couple was something I wasn't expecting to laugh at so much today. And admiring anime Superman. Wow.

#I repeat #i love himbos #especially nerdy shy ones #with messy hair and adorable clumsiness #Arain reviews #my post #my adventures with superman #superman #clark kent #lois lane #lois and clark

[wrotelovelytears]

Manly Men cry too

Part of the reason I don't believe in the whole strictly gendered astrology ish is because of the men I've known/met through out my life.

My biggest thing is Lilith and her impact on them.

👶From what I've seen men with water Lilith (doubled if its also in a water house) tend to get seen as not "manly" enough. Their manhood is diminished more than fire Lilith's because they are more in tune with their emotions AND openly express them (therefore more feminine than strictly masculine).

👶This could also apply to earth Lilith's too, however their expression of emotions I not as common (still heavily connected to them).

👶Men with Lilith in the water house might have a better connection to their mom and even women/feminine folks in general. These men are involved fathers (parents) who might be a little too concerned about their kids wellbeing.

👶Fire Lilith men get stereotyped as overbearing and misogynistic a lot, its mainly due to their connection with feminity being strained (they fall more in lie with "what men should act like" due to stereotypes pushed on them). I honestly believe they just didn't have the healthiest examples of both feminity and masculinity in their lives leading them to try to learn it from peers.

👶Boys with earth Lilith get seen as the "good kid gone bad", when young they are very connected with all that it means to be a human and during teenagehood they switch their overtly emotion driven life to a more material (physical) driven one. It can also show up as them being good in front of adults just to act reckless around others.

👶Air Lilith men are very good with words only because they learned young to speak their minds when they can gain something. However they might struggle putting emotions into words because of their previous experiences with doing so.

👶I believe Lilith in a man (or even more masculine persons chart) can represent how feminine people (and/or women) have hurt them and they cope with it.

👶Masculine Lilith women don't vibe with feminine Lilith men.

👴Its because both masculinity in women and feminity in men are not praised in society. With masculine Lilith women, they get seen as domineering, aggressive and emotionless. With feminine Lilith men they get seen as emotional, soft, and overly passive. The energies don't match because of society's perception of the individuals.

👶That last point being said, feminine woman and feminine Lilith men get along. While masculine Lilith men and masculine women get along.

👶If you want a hint about how you get along (astrologically) with your dad check both your Liliths. (I recommend True Lilith for this) Then check your moon and his moon house.

👶Men with prominent Lilith/ Lilith aspects to the moon get seen the same way as Lilith's overall energy with women. The sign its in can show where they are heavily desired and hated as well.

👶Honestly Lilith in a man's chart if anything is more like the Saturn in everyones chart. The only difference is Lilith is strictly the feminine people and women a man comes in contact with and has to learn a lesson from.

👶Check your dad's Lilith for more info on his relationship with his mother. Then check your Lilith and 12th house to see if there are any similarities.

If we want better men we all have to do our part to raise and give space for them. Patriarchy didn't rise in a day nor will it go away the same way, if we want honest change we all have to act and say we do. (No bullying boys because you feel some type away about the men in your life, that just repeats the cycle and prolong change).

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#astrology #astro tumblr #astro notes #astrology observations #astro observations #astroblr #astrology tumblr #nymph writes astrology #water lilith #lilith #asteroid astrology #saturn #moon #fire lilith #earth lilith #air lilith

[your-friendly-neighbourh00d-fag]

seeing as you are a fellow mcr enjoyer i have a question for you of the utmost importance: do you think mike wheeler would like mcr or not

OHOHOHOHO YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE ASKED ME THAT. you just need to know beforehand before i am doing the answering of this uestion that i am ooo osooooo normal about this topic. trust me. the most normal

ok.

he absolutely likes mcr are you kidding me look at this man

he's struggling with his mental health, he's struggling with his sexuality, he's idolising a dude with long hair, piercings and pronouns, he's trying to be more metal. it's right there. plus the fact that he is just like me fr fr so i am going like this

and giving him all of my interests + autism (BECAUSE I SAID SO)

so. the question is, what's his favourite album. what's his favourite song. which one of the members does he have a crush on. does he read the killjoys comics. does he listen to summertime at 4am and cry and think about will. ("the song as a whole is about those people you meet who pull you out of your sleep, and make you wake up to real life, the good, beautiful things...")

i think mike would have a contentious relationship with bullets, it took him a long time to get as into it as the other albums, one week its his favourite, one week he hates it etc etc. his all time favourite album is three cheers and he actually told me that himself so idc. black parade is a very close second though, and disenchanted will always make him feel feelings.

favourite songs from all the albums: Our Lady of Sorrows and and Honey This Mirror and Headfirst for Halos (<< ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME IT IS SO HIM) and a smidge of Demolition Lovers. as a treat.

Give Em Hell Kid (BFFR!!!!), The Ghost Of You (another one that makes him feel The Feelings and will get an emotional reaction always. UM SEASON ONE??) and Cemetery Drive.

I Dont Love You, Disenchanted, and Teenagers absolutely. (are you fucking kidding me??? the most mike wheeler songs EVER and i will die on this hill nobody TOUCH ME),

Save Yourself, I'll Hold Them Back (his self sacrificing instincts are showing), S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W (at first he hates it, but after he reads up on the lore and the whole TTLOTFK thing he gets way into it), and Planetary, for no reason other than it sounds great 👍

EDIT: Conweap his favourite overall is cw5 and his fav songs are Burn Bright, The World Is Ugly and AMBULANCE

he absolutely looked at gerard way and said i need that man's gender RIGHT NOW and was just absolutely in awe of all his tour outfits and woke will up in the middle of the night to show him a video of cheerard with a flamethrower. that was a big 'wait i can dress less masculine if i want to??' thing and helped him find his personal style i think. and i also think. he has a n eeensy weensy teeny little crush. on gerbar. shh.

also.

look at this dork.

this absolute cringefail loser.

this nerdy nerd nerd.

the absolute second that mike finds out there's a comic that inspired danger days, he s p r i n t s to the local bookstore and cleans them out immediately. he binge reads them for like two nights straight and wakes will up constantly because look look LOOK WHAT HAPPENED WILL NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THEY-- he then spends the next month entrenched in killjoy lore and ends up with posters up all around his and will's apartment like this

trying to figure out the universe. (he also writes fanfiction but nobody tell 🤫)

anyway. this is a. bit of a long post and as you can tell from my introduction i am so so so so normal about mike wheeler, mcr, and my precious little headcanons.

tldr: yes he would love mcr and no one can take that away from me.

#thank you for the ask i truly needed to put this into a post #mcr #my chemical romance #mike wheeler #byler #mike wheeler headcanons #the true lives of the fabulous killjoys #stranger things

[transmascwillbyers]

I don't know if someone has said this before, or if it even needs to be said, but I feel like there's something so interesting about the contrast between how Will and Mike deal with (i.e., bottle up) their feelings for each other.

For example, Will suppresses his emotions quite a lot, even the ones that aren't related to Mike. It's shown throughout the show that he has a tendency to just go along with what he thinks will make others happy at the expense of his own feelings- in fact, one of his very first scenes, when his character is still being established, is Jonathan pretty much just saying that he's been trying to force himself to like baseball, traditionally masculine things, etc., instead of art so he can impress his dad and prevent even more fighting in his family. Something something baseball is a metaphor for heterosexuality something something.

But it's also worth noting that Will's almost always conscious of the fact that he's hiding how he actually feels from people. It never seems like he's unaware of the fact that he's withdrawing- plus, he usually isn't able to keep it up for long, and eventually, all the emotions he's suppressing just coming flooding out (think of the rain fight in s3, or on a smaller scale, him crying at the end of the van scene). Will definitely hides aspects of himself from other people, but it's very hard for him to keep it up, and sooner or later, the facade ends up cracking.

But Mike is the opposite of this. Mike represses his emotions- he pushes down his real feelings as a coping mechanism, a survival strategy, and due to everything he's been through he's reached a point where it's part of his nature. He's no longer conscious of all the parts of himself he's trying to hide from other people, because he's been doing it for so long, actually being himself would feel less natural than repressing.

I honestly think this is part of the reason why the GA is less aware of Mike's arc than Will's. Since Mike represses so much, we don't really get as many shots from his POV, or as many glimpses into his mind- because Mike himself isn't even fully aware of everything that's going on in his head, and the Duffers don't want to explicitly let the audience in on something the character doesn't realize himself. So, we need to sort out the pieces for ourselves- and hopefully, anyone who's paying a reasonable amount of attention to the show and isn't blinded by heteronormativity can do that- but we still don't get the same direct focus on Mike's emotions that we do with Will's. There's no lingering shots of Mike staring at Will (although he does do that lol- it's just not usually as focused on by the camera), and because Mike's mask is so superglued on, he has less moments of him breaking down- and even when he does break down, it's less likely to be directly about the thing that causing him pain, and more likely to be him projecting his emotions onto another, more obvious target (think his fight with Hopper in the s2 finale). Overall, it might seem like Mike isn't as big of a voice in the show as he used to be- but that's not because he isn't an important character, it's because there's only so much of Mike's character that the Duffers can hint about before they give away aspects of his arc that are meant to be subtle and fly under the radar for some people (like Mike himself).

So, where does that leave us? Well, to sum everything up, Will and Mike both bottle up their feelings- the difference is, Will consciously suppresses his, whereas Mike unconsciously represses his, which makes his less obvious to the audience as a sort of side effect. What's interesting is that Mike's repression and Will's suppression both peak in s4- Will encourages Mike to mend his relationship with El, resigning himself to continue his cycle of suppression for the rest of his life, and we see the least of Mike that we have throughout the whole show (plus we got the love confession but i don't wanna talk about the love confession aaaaaahhhhh no). Hmm, let's see, what else happened in s4?

Max is in a coma

Vecna won

Hawkins is generally in shambles

Spores are raining from the sky

Nobody's having a good time. At all.

So, uh, yeah, I think it's pretty safe to assume that s4 was the lowest point of everybody's arcs. So what does that mean for Will and Mike? Well, if Will stops suppressing his emotions in s5, it'll make him more outgoing, more honest, and more of an active player in the party's dynamics, as well as a less subtle character for the audience to interpret. Which sure does sound a lot like the Will Byers Main Character Era. Huh. And if Mike stops repressing his emotions in s5... if my predictions are correct, we'll finally get a direct focus on his feelings and perspective, even more than s1 originally revealed. Huh, funny. That sure does sound a lot like Byler Endgame.

...See you in 2024, Duffers.

#byler #will byers #mike wheeler #mike wheeler i know what you are #gotta love how this was originally supposed to be like two paragraphs and it turned into an entire essay lol #oh well i'm sick and i have too much time on my hands so here we are #happy byler week my fellow gays #byler is endgame

[vodkacranberrywitch]

Harry Styles as a Husband

He's going to approach his relationship with a successful attitude. He wants it to succeed and he will do what is necessary to keep it flourishing. He is going to be a happy husband and he is going to feel inspired in marriage.

Deeper look:

With ace of wands, he's going to be the head of the household. Somebody sent me a message asking if he was a feminine person or girly or something. I am not picking up on that really. If anything he can balance it, but overall he is very masculine. I would even argue from being in his energy he can be a guy's guy most of the time. Anyways, this card is the epitome of masculinity, so think of the traditional guy role in a relationship. This kind of reminds me of those guys that see their partner crying and instead of comforting, they immediately want to fix the problem. He's going to be a gentleman in the way that he is going to pay for things and do the typical things that are expected of a guy in the relationship. He is also going to be very loving, in more ways than one if you catch my drift.

This card also tells me that when he gets married, he is going to be at a time in his life when he is feeling confident about himself. He is going to feel sexier and bolder than he does now.

Justice rx tells me that there may be a power struggle or imbalance in the relationship. He is going to be the more dominant one in the relationship. He is going to be the one calling the shots most of the time as a husband. He is going to be grounded in the relationship as a husband, but also strict and stubborn. However, he will also be looking out for and handling any injustices against his partner.

7 of wands rx. This is a good card for him! He is going to be taking accountability more as a husband. When he does something wrong, he is going to apologize for it and do better. He is going to hold himself to a higher standard as a husband. He is also going to be a lot more vulnerable with his partner. He will be protective of them as well. However, he is also going to be a bit insecure in his relationship, in that he is going to feel like something is going to mess it up. He needs some more confidence in himself and he needs to forgive himself for his past mistakes in relationships.

5 of pentacles rx. Okay, here's where that insecurity shows itself. This card indicates abusing power. As a husband, he is going to be taking advantage of influence. Now, this could be for wholesome things such as getting them VIP tickets to a show or getting them seated at a restaurant immediately. But the fact this is rx tells me he's going to be using his power for things that aren't necessary or appropriate. So this could be, having his assistant get information on his partner when they're dating or having his bodyguard keep tabs on his partner under the guise of "protection". There is going to be some abuse of power here due to his insecurity so he really needs to work on that.

Ace of wands. This is a really good card to end on! He is going to really love his partner and he is going to make sure they feel that. He is going to feel like this is true love or fate. As a husband, he is going to be careful and attentive to his partner. He might even give in to their wants a little bit and take them into account in his decisions. I can not emphasize this enough, he is going to be a really caring husband.

Edit:

Someone wanted to know what his views are on monogamy and open relationships.

Current views on monogamy - 10 of cups rx, the hermit rx, 5 of cups. He sees monogamy as something he can't achieve right now. He is in an energy where he feels like any monogamous relationship he gets into, inevitably gets ruined. He is sticking to the bachelor life for now. He might have been in a monogamous relationship in the past and been heartbroken or something because he has some depression or despair concerning monogamy.

Current views on open relationships - page of wands, 4 of wands rx, 3 of pentacles. I think he is participating in open relationships now. He has this energy of "I'll try anything once". However, open relationships make him feel a little crazy. He'll do them when he's bored and not interested in putting in work for a relationship.

How will he view monogamy when he's married - 2 of cups. He'll come around to it. I also think that even before he's married, if he has a genuine connection with someone, he can be monogamous.

How will he view open relationships when he's married - 6 of pentacles rx. He won't want to do them because he feels like it will destroy his marriage. Okay, smart boy.

Thank you for reading! Let me know if you have any questions. Requests are closed.

As always, these readings are alleged and for entertainment purposes only.

In cases of future readings, outcomes are subject to change slightly or completely due to the person. See my page for further detail.

#celeb tarot #harry styles #harry styles tarot #tarot reading

[almostoreghano]

Dad!fukuzawa x male!reader?? kind of?

Warning: mentions of detransitioning, possibly going back to using deadname, overall struggling with gender identity

Note: this is very much a comfort thing (because I desperately need comfort right now) but if you relate to it, lit. I might do one for Poe since I want to marry that mf but that might come later.

Summary: reader conflicted of whether they want to go back to using their deadname

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Fukuzawa was at his desk organising documents when you walked in muttering something.

“Anything wrong, my son?” He asked a little concerned. You looked up quickly before blushing.

“S-sorry dad, just thinking about something,” you said softly, clearly avoiding his gaze.

Fukuzawa motioned for you to sit on the couch near his desk. He slowly approached you and sat down.

“You don’t have to tell me,” he said in his usual baritone, “but if it’s bothering you a lot, you can tell me,” he gave you a comforting look, at least he tried too.

You pouted and opened your mouth to speak before closing it again.

“I- I’ve been thinking of going back to my deadname,” you said looking at your shaking hands. You had been pondering this for awhile, but was afraid to take that step forward. Fukuzawa had been the most supportive parent ever when it came to your initial transition, but you were still afraid.

Fukuzawa noticed your hands trembling and gently patted your head.

“That’s ok,” he paused to chose his next words. “Is the name you chose simply not fitting as well?” He asked genuinely wanting to understand.

“I don’t know,” you let out a shaky sigh, “I just- I don’t know I’m detransitioning or if I just don’t feel like labelling my gender at all?” You looked at the floor, willing yourself not to cry. You both sat in silence. You thinking your dad was disappointed, Fukuzawa simply trying to find the correct words to comfort his child.

“Are you comfortable with me referring to you as my son?” He asked in a kind voice. You looked up at him with wide eyes.

“Y-yeah,” you smiled softly. Fukuzawa nodded and rubbed your back.

“You can always tell me if you change your mind, I’m here to help you, my boy- uh-“ he froze up at his slip. You giggled and hugged him, “it’s fine dad, thank you,” he exhaled in relief and hugged you back.

“What brought this on?” He asked, trying his best to sound unthreatening.

“I don’t know, i still like masculine titles but I also like feminine ones as well,” you pursed your lips, trying to explain better. “I want to be someone’s ‘boyfriend’ but i also liked when Kunikida-kun used to call me ‘little miss’”

“I don’t entirely feel like a boy or a girl,” you sighed and leaned on him. He gently placed an arm around you.

“I think I understand,” he nods, “but if I ever make a mistake in how I address you, tell me,” he kisses the top of your head, it was something he had started doing with you and Ranpo. It was the last thing anyone would expect the ex-assassin to do, but he wanted to show you he loved you very much.

You nodded and smiled softly. Your dad was always trying his best, even if he didn’t know all the terms and labels, he wanted to do his best for you. You felt nervous though…

Nervous that perhaps this wasn’t going to work…

Nervous that you’d be back at square one if you make this change…

Nervous that your deadname will only bring back the horrid memories from ‘then’…

Nervous…nervous…nervous…

But Fukuzawa, ‘Dad’, brought you back to the present.

“You’ll be ok, don’t see this as a setback“ he said snapping you out of your mental battle with yourself.

“See it as, learning more about yourself. If you want to look more feminine or masculine, then that’s your decision but I will do what I can to help you,” he tapped your shoulder gently. You nodded and sat quietly before looking at him.

“Dad,” he looked at you with the softest eyes.

“Thank you,” he smiled softly and you hugged your dad tightly.

‘Dad’ who did his best to make you feel comfortable…

‘Dad’ who would tap your shoulder whenever he saw a pride flag on the street…

‘Dad’ who would help you find a ball gown or a suit if that’s what you wanted to wear…

‘Dad’ who saw you as a treasure, regardless of your gender…

His baby…

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[fujoreads]

To Strip the Flesh // Review

To Strip the Flesh is a short tales collection in manga format, containing 5 stories in total—the main one going by the book’s title.

I remember someone mentioning this in a book-related podcast I listen to, but I don’t remember which one. I found it at a bookshop when I went on a little date last year, and I just had to buy it! It took me a while to finally read it, but I’m glad I did.

CW: Gender Dysphoria, Explicit Nudity; Organs; Hunting; Animal death; Sexism; Transphobia; Body Horror

This manga was something else. I may not have the exact same experience as our protagonist Chiaki, but I related so hard I cried—thrice, in fact. I got such a headache from crying I had to end the day that evening. Powerful stuff.

I knew I would probably enjoy it because of the art and the topic of trans issues. I myself am a transmasc bastard, so it’s always nice to see manga talking about these things.

When I finally finished it, I had to pause for a minute or two. For the first half, I read many scenes where I felt dysphoric together with Chiaki, but the way the story ended made me actually try to be stronger and fight for my right to happiness, even if I have to face transphobic doctors on the way.

Chiaki Ogawa has never doubted that he is a boy, although the rest of the world has not been as kind. Bound by his mother’s dying wish, Chiaki tries to be a good daughter to his ailing father. When the burden becomes too great, Chiaki sets out to remake himself in his own image and discovers more than just personal freedom with his transition—he finds understanding from the people who matter most. (The StoryGraph)

Although the main story is this one about Chiaki, there are many others who are also just as enjoyable, albeit shorter.

This tale is condensed in about 100 pages, but packs an emotional punch enough to leave you in tears. It made me realize that I have my own found family and I don’t need to keep living a lie.

The flow of the story may have been somewhat rushed due to its overall length, but it still felt neatly presented. I do wish I could have seen more of Chiaki and the rest of the cast, especially his late mother.

This manga’s artstyle is interesting. It feels very anime, but it does feel different in some aspects, like how soft the eyes are. I really enjoyed it.

As someone with a big chest, I personally related to Chiaki’s struggles and the way it was visually presented was just wonderful.

Chiaki is the son of a hunter (who also butches his own kills). He lives as a closeted trans man and desires not to betray his parents’ wishes for him—to be a bride—hurt as it may. He struggles with trying to impose his masculinity to his father, who refuses to see him as anything else but his daughter, saying how “women don’t hunt”, and never letting him get hurt, seeing him as a frail girl. However, we also see his weaknesses: how he never lets his father know his true feelings, even when his father clearly shows he cares for what he thinks is best to Chiaki. It’s understandable, but also what strains their relationship at some point, even if from Chiaki’s perspective.

It’s so sweet to see Chiaki’s growth after a big moment where he has to make an important decision, both for him and his father, and how that improved their overall relationship.

His father was an interesting character to follow as well, even if we see less of him, and usually accompanied by Chiaki. I wish we could have had more moments with him.

I enjoyed Takato as a friend of Chiaki’s, but while he is sweet and supportive, he’s also a bit annoying. Maybe having him grow more throughout the story instead of a last-minute development would have made him more justice.

This was a lovely read, and not just for the main story. Personally, the Hot Watermelon short story was my second favorite, followed by David in Love.

I got even more excited seeing how Oto Toda, the author, worked as an assistant for Tatsuki Fujimoto on Fire Punch—one of my favorite works ever, as despair-inducing as it was.

If you care about stories centered around trans issues, you’ll certainly like it. It’s also a tale of father-son love, and how old wounds can be treated, even if it seems all too late.

This is a very short story, followed by other even shorter stories, so if you desire a more detailed and lengthy tale, you might not enjoy this. It’s a powerful narrative, but it’s rushed at times and unless you personally relate to Chiaki’s struggles, you might feel less emotionally affected.

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#review #manga #lgbtqia+ #trans ftm #cw: gore #cw: dysphoria #to strip the flesh

[queer-and-dear-books]

Title: I Think Our Son Is Gay

Author: Okura

Genre: Comics | Family | Friendship | LGBTQ+

Content Warnings: Slight Homophobia

Overall Rating: 10/10

Personal Opinion: A wholesome story about acceptance, unconditional love, and unrelenting support. Told from the perspective of a mother who thinks her teenage son is gay (and he definitely is), you will absolutely fall in love with how she learns about the best ways to support her son and unlearn certain behaviors and thoughts. I truly wish and hope that every queer kid has a parent like this mom.

Do I Own These Books? Yes! I own the first four volumes!

Spoilers Below For My Likes & Dislikes:

Likes:

- First of all, I think these comics are incredibly relatable. Personally, for me, Hiroki represents my queer experience growing up. I don’t care for male idols much but I adore female idols. I fall for more masculine-presenting people. And I have definitely looked up “muscle men” on the internet when I was thirteen. Not everything about Hiroki is relatable. Some things are exaggerated for comedic effect obviously, like when he gets super-focused on attractive masculine men. But even then, I feel like he’s representing my inner thoughts and I appreciate that.

- Obviously the best part of the manga is the mother’s undying love and support for her son. She wasn’t thrilled when she first found out he might be gay but she realized, if he wasn’t hurt or hurting others, then there’s nothing wrong with him being gay. She makes mistakes, she slips up, but above all else, her love for her son will prevail in the end and she will respect him and any choices that he may or may not make. That’s the ideal kind of parent to me. 

- But the other best part is Yuri, the little brother. I adore him so much. Because he knows (or suspects) that Hiroki is gay as well and doesn’t care. But when someone tries to pry into Hiroki’s life, Yuri is there to defend him. There’s a scene where Hiroki’s dad is grilling him about something and Yuri gives Hiroki an out by saying Hiroki isn’t obligated to tell the dad anything. He’s such a smart and kind boy and I love that he and Hiroki have such a healthy relationship as siblings. I think that further shows that their mother did a great job raising the two of them.

- Hiroki’s obvious crush on Daigo is adorable. He sees Daigo as this cool and dependable person that is capable of doing anything he sets his mind to. But he doesn’t treat Daigo like a machine that will do anything for them like their classmates do. To him, Daigo is a friend first and foremost and he treats Daigo as such and it’s so wholesome. I love how he treasures gifts, photos, and words from Daigo because I would be the same.

- However, that being said, I love how Hiroki took a step back when Daigo got a girlfriend. He didn’t panic or cry or get angry about it. Throughout the series, he’s depicted as a very emotional person but he’s also very emotionally mature. He wants Daigo to hang out with his girlfriend and he wants Daigo to be happy even if that means not being together romantically. I find that so sweet.

- Toono-san! An actual, confirmed, explicitly stated gay man exists in this manga. He has a partner and he’s open about that if he’s asked about it. He has his past and his problems but he’s happy and that’s all I could want for a queer character. For them to be thriving. Best of all, he’s Hiroki’s mom’s co-worker and I find it so adorable how she comes to him when she needs advice about raising her son or a queer perspective on her son’s experiences. But she also learns through him that gay men aren’t a monolith, not all of them are going to act or react the same way in a situation as another. And I just love that.

- This manga series is so education for queers and non-queers alike and I think just about everyone should read it.

Dislikes:

- The older lady co-worker who said, “What a waste that he’s gay” about Tonoo-san. I hate those words. She also stereotyped him later on when she learned he was gay. But you know what, this story isn’t about her. It’s about what we can learn not to do from microaggressions like her’s.

- I’m not sure I’m a fan of Hiroki’s dad. I just have to hope that his love for his sons will overcome any judgment and prejudice he may hold against queer people. I also hope that his wife calls him out on his bullshit more. Overall, I do appreciate his character’s presence and what it adds to the narrative.

#booksbooksbooks #Book Rec #Book Review #Book Blog #Comics #Manga #Queer Comics #I Think Our Son Is Gay #Uchi no musuko wa tabun gei #Okura #LGBTQ #Queer Representation

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I think something wild about being an afab going on T at almost 30 and also being someone who’s lived an overall queer experience under a somewhat tedious labeling process is that I have MET toxic masculine trans men. For the record, I very much appear as a cis woman to people, and most people I meet just kinda sum me up as “some sorta lesbian.”

TW from some harsher personal experiences.

Back in my early 20’s, one of my FTM franchise managers sexually harassed me at a company party very inappropriately. Within the same time frame, one of my now ex-friends and on-site manager was dating a trans men who fit ALL the stereotypes of toxic masculinity: disregard for others, pavement princess giant truck, constantly talking over others or using his strength as a source of intimidation (and I would say a source of overcompensation as well lets be real here lol). At a certain point he made this ex-friend cry so much, I had to ban him from my house and tell him I’d try to get a restraining order if he came back.

So it does really annoy me that there seems to be an ignorant group of people who form online when trans women speak about transmisogyny within the community. Because there are trans men out there who act like complete douchebags and assholes to validate themselves in their identity or they’re just plainly assholes, and this is something I would see a lot at gay clubs as opposed to tight knit groups or niche online circles. Trans women and others are trying to tell ya’ll that this is a problem that happens and some of you are childishly sticking your fingers in your ears and going “LALALA TRANSANDROPHOBIA SHHHHHH” and it’s like… Ya’ll, you don’t have to turn a blind eye to this shit because quite frankly it’s embarrassing and very misinformed.

I will say however that as someone who is thinking about transition now, I can empathize with the knee-jerk reaction as well. It’s really scary to have people tell you the negative things you could become or ways you could hurt people. It can actually in my experience be a whole driving force in continuing to remain dysphoric through your life because it’s better to do that than feel like you may end up being completely alienated from everyone, especially if all women are a very important part to you in your life.

The whole “T is poison” thing runs deep. I always had this fear that the moment I’d start it would be the moment I would become the very thing I’m made to be afraid of even if it’s what I want to be. It’s such a difficult ball of yarn to unravel. What if I did get male privilege, but even in my gender euphoria, I end up hating myself anyway? What if I don’t get male privilege or “pass” but people in the “community” (such a loose and confusing word imo) also hate me and then I have no one? If straight women treat me bad after or before “passing”, if lesbian women see me in ways I don’t want to be seen, if cis straight men think I’m a freak and gay men think I’m an intruder… Where does that place me in the world? And who really am I? Will people believe me less or more when I’m hurt by others?

I think it’s atleast something for people to consider because as someone who’s dealing with really bad dysphoria right now, these are the kinds of thoughts that have been running through my head.

It’s also good to remember that online is online and real life is real life. Yes sometimes they reflect each other, but oftentimes, people lie on the internet (GASP!) and speak in exaggerations.

This is why it’s always good to try and strive for local connects to maintain your own sanity. At the end of the day, I know my own friends who still see me as the same person. And getting to know my own family of queer people of all kinds who I love dearly and they love me back does make the world feel like a more understanding place and less like a cruel and divisive one. I guess it’s just something to keep in mind.

#trans men #transgender #lgbtq+

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Well...That Happened...

Reactions and Thoughts For Episode 8 Under the Cut:

Hey, so my initial feeling about the episode honestly is that I'm really disappointed. Hated how the final fight went down. I feel like they handled the whole SB thing badly from the beginning. I feel like they (MM, Starlight and the show itself) put him on the same level of horrific as HL, and I'm sorry, but that just isn't true. (Although I do understand MM's motivations.)

Now SB is a racist, chauvinistic, rage-filled asshole. But HL is all that and a MILLION times worse!! Soldier Boy at least seems human, he's shown restraint a few times. (at least since he's been back from Russia) He has at least paid a debt for his crimes with 40 years of torture. Homelander has done NONE of that!!

Literally, SB may have been manageable, maybe his experiences in Russia changed him a bit. Who knows, but I feel like there was at least some wiggle room with him, somewhere to go. HL has proven time and again that he is incapable of being stopped. He's done every sadistic, horrific thing under the sun, but somehow SB was the one that absolutely had to be taken out?

They could have really used him against HL and from the beginning Starlight and MM acted like HL was just a secondary problem to SB! When it was 100% the other way around.

And what?!!! Butcher and Homelander worked together for a minute against Soldier Boy?

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I get they were trying to protect Ryan, but I felt like that was kind of out of nowhere too. I didn't feel like HL's sudden, unswerving love for his son was earned. Obviously it's gonna be an easily overturned love too, as soon as Ryan does something HL feels is a "betrayal" he'll try to take him out too.

Anyway, I'm glad SB isn't dead, but I just feel like his character was kind of wasted. I LOVE his character and not just cause I want him to fuck me five ways from Sunday, but because I just think there's SO much more they could do with him.

In my mind the only way to redeem things is if in the end SB and Ryan team up, with the Boys of course and take out HL for good.

Things I really enjoyed about the episode:

Frenchie finally standing up for himself, being awkwardly badass and Kimiko cheering him on. 😍😍

Maeve kicking ass and freeing herself from the van.

Maeve not losing sight of the mission and kicking HL's ass.

Maeve faking her death and getting to go live a powers-free life with Elena.

Ashley helping her get away with it.

Noir's death scene literally made me cry. Obviously he's done some truly awful things too, but I really liked his character, and to watch his little woodland friends comfort him as he died just ripped my heart out. But that whole scene between HL and BN was incredibly well-done.

The scene between Butcher and SB talking about SB's father, and how it shows there's more than one kind of abuse. Jensen's INCREDIBLE acting in that scene.

Hughie making the right decision, not taking the V, and HELPING Starlight instead of trying to save her.

MM's scene with Janine. That was absolutely beautiful and a PERFECT example of what real strength and masculinity looks like. It was truly wonderful, when Janine puts her hand over his to help stop the ticks, and says, "You're my hero, Daddy." Ugh!!! ALL the tears! 😭😭😭

This line from Hughie when he's talking about his Dad, "He wasn't weak. I just...I didn't know what strength was." Truth. Hughie speaking absolute truth!

Starlight officially joining the boys, although I've disagreed with her and found her incredibly frustrating for most of the season. 😄😄

I've loved this season, overall, and even though I didn't like what went down in the end (If we need more proof that they went after the wrong fucking Supe, we can look to HL's actions in the final scene and the beginning of Ryan's corruption!) I'm still VERY excited for next season. I'm worried about Butcher, of course. I feel like the only way to save him might be to give him real V. Which will be an interesting dilemma for him! And we've got Neuman as the candidate for VP, yikes!!

So, bring on S4.

#the boys s3 #the boys s3 spoilers #the boys s3 episode 8 #reaction #soldier boy #butcher #homelander #kimiko #frenchie #MM #starlight #hughie campbell

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(I'm sorry for the mistakes) Could you tell us about the LI families?

(Yepsies, but I won't go too into it just cause you learn all about it in the stories, but I'll go into it somewhat!)

TW: really awful and abusive parents, death

Minato: Minato had a father and a mother. His dad being an abusive alcoholic and his mom being bedridden from an illness. Minato often protected his mom from his dad and had to clean up after his father and do everything around the house. His mom eventually passed and his dad went to prison, causing Minato to be taken in by his grandparents(From his mother's side). I adore his grandparents so much, they are very sweet. Minato is close to them both, but definitely admires his grandpa the most, he was the most stable father figure Minato had ever had. Helped out as much as he could but his grandparents always teased him about it and said that he should just enjoy his youth and let them handle everything. Now that they're older, Minato is the one taking care of them.

Haruto: It's always been Haruto, Kage, and their mom. Their dad wasn't ever around. Haruto was somewhat close to his mom, definitely holds some resentment for her behavior towards him as an oldest. Having such high expectations for him felt unfair as a 5 year old. Yes, he was older but he wasn't an adult. Still, he loves her and definitely got a lot of his personality from her. He often wonders if she'd be proud of him. Sadly, their mother passed from a car accident in the siblings teenage years and Haruto did have to become the adult of the family. Haruto has felt resentment towards his younger sibling but overall, he adores him and knows that it's not Kage's fault.

Jun: It's Jun, Aki, and their mother and father. After having a daughter, both parents wanted a baby boy. Went through several attempts trying to get a boy, they would purposefully do stuff that would cause a miscarriage if the baby was a girl. Then they had Jun. They tried raising Jun to be masculine but Jun wasn't ever really into stuff like that, any sports, Jun wasn't good at. Jun was decent at building things, but didn't like it. Jun had realized that he didn't feel very masculine and figured out that she was demiflux pretty early on. Needless to say, her parents weren't happy with her, either neglecting her and when they did give her attention they would say awful things and sometimes get violent with Jun. Jun and Aki have always been very close and continue to stay close.

Hoshi: It's just Hoshi, Habiki and their dad. Their mom left when they were young. Hoshi wasn't ever that close with his mom, but is pretty close with their dad. Hoshi and Habiki are pretty close, they often bully each other for funsies and they're probably the only people the other can be themselves around(Other then you eventually) Hoshi and his dad often joke around a lot. His dad is pretty nice, but also is always going to choose his sons, which is why your complaints about them either fall on deaf ears or he has to defend his sons. Hoshi really uses this to his advantage.

Habiki: It's just Habiki, Hoshi and their dad. Their mom left when they were young, though their mom continues to stay in touch with Habiki. Habiki is a momma's boy and hates his dad. Though he also knows it's not really his dad fault that Habiki hasn't just come clean about what he wants to do in life, but he wishes his dad wasn't so dense and could tell Habiki isn't happy about where he's working. So while his dad is really nice, Habiki hold some resentment towards him, even though he knows it's stupid cause it's not his dads fault.

Kage: It's always been Kage, Haruto, and their mom. Their dad wasn't ever around. Kage was pampered a lot by their mom when he was younger. In his eyes, Haruto and him didn't really get along that well, not that Kage blames Haruto, they saw how mom treated Haruto differently. Could definitely tell Haruto had some resentment towards him. Despite being closer to their mom, Kage didn't cry when she died, just focused on Haruto, afraid he'd lose him too. Kage put in a lot of effort to try and make Haruto's life easier, but made mistake every step of the way. Still, the two are closer then ever.

Kei: I've already kind of gone into it. Kei has strict parents, though was often praised for being top of the class every time and at first doing the career path they wanted him to. Of course, after he met you, he started changing and switched career paths, his grade even slipping once because he was too busy watching you. That caused his parents to get physical with him, and Kei just gave up trying to please them. Eventually getting kicked out and disowned as soon as possible. Kei is an only child and has never wanted a sibling.

Yani: It's Yani, her older brother, and their parents(And their "dog") No one in Yani's family likes them. Yani's older brother has always succeeded everywhere, and no matter how hard Yani tried, she was never good enough. At first Yani's brother tried giving Yani a chance but got in trouble for talking to Yani and so he just mostly ignored Yani, though sometimes he'd give Yani the same treatment that their parents gave her. He found it kind of fun to take out all the stress of being the best on Yani, and knew Yani couldn't fight back and Yani's parents wouldn't care even if they knew what Yani's brother was doing. Yani's parents have full on tried to kill Yani multiple times, staving, strangling, poisoning, even stabbing. Yani's dad would put his cigarettes out on him. Yani was always stranger then the other kids, his parents were creeped out by him even though Yani hadn't done anything too bad at the time. Along with Yani being a disappointment and not good at anything, they deemed Yani as useless and a waste of space, not deserving of food or water, or toys, and most time not even shelter, Yani got lucky if they were allowed to sleep in the dog house.

Aki: It's Aki, Jun, and their mother and father. Aki used to be kind of close with Her parents until she saw how they treated Jun. Aki has always been supportive of Jun. Aki has always been a tomboy and Jun has always been feminine, so Aki never really saw the issue with Jun. Aki was close enough to a son and Jun could've been the daughter, though Aki uses only she/her pronouns. Anyways, Aki has also been pretty much disowned for supporting Jun, she doesn't really care much, like yeah it suck, but Aki and Jun have each other, and Jun is much nicer then their parents ever were and ever will be.

#💝-minevn #visual novel #yandere vn #🎤-asks #🐠-Minato #📙-Haruto #🎀-Jun #🍽️-Hoshi #🎻-Habiki #👤-Kage #💻-Kei #💕-Yani #🐍-Aki