#I haven't felt good today

[wanderingmind867]

I don't know if I'm sick or if I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed, but I certainly feel like I'm sick today. I have a very sore throat and I've had it ever since I woke up this morning. If I am really sick, I'll be kind of upset. Because this is the second time in 3-4 weeks that I've felt sick. I seem to have horrible luck nowadays. And hopefully it isn't just all allergies, because I don't know if I'll ever feel better in that case.

#sick #sickness #head cold #sore throat #I haven't felt good today #i really wish I felt better #because twice in one or two months? #really? #I'm that unlucky? #i guess so #autism #asd #audhd

[fakemichaelsheen]

-the bookshop-

crowley: *lounging in a chair*

aziraphale, watching him, casually: nina seems to think you're in love with someone

crowley, glances at him: oh *pauses* why?

aziraphale, raises an eyebrow: so it's true?

crowley, splutters: what? no! *waves a hand* you know what humans are like. making stuff up

aziraphale, doubtful: she seems quite convinced

crowley, rolls his eyes: yeah, well, you know me better *holds his breath* what do you think?

aziraphale: *looks at him*

crowley: *waiting*

aziraphale, sighs: I can't feel anything

crowley, relieved: well, there you are, then. if you can't feel it, I can't be in love with anyone, can I?

aziraphale, smiles briefly: I suppose not

crowley: exactly

crowley & aziraphale: ...

crowley & aziraphale: *both miserable*

#imagien if they had communication skills that good... #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #good omens #good omens 2 #muriel: hello mr fell / az: hello muriel. what brings you here today? / muriel: nothing really. I just love it here. it's so warm and cosy #az happy: oh. well that's- / muriel chuckles: you must really love your books mr fell. I haven't felt a love like this anywhere else / az: #ineffable chatfics

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #freema agyeman #haven't giffed this part in a while! #when i was driving home today i felt so exhausted #and i have a feeling i'm gonna come down with a cold later this week ;__; #last year i think i lasted until november before i got sick sighhh #i'm listening to gallifrey war room 2 though!!! absolutely loving it #i also finished the once and future story with ten and missy and the paternoster gang #i loved it!!! ten and missy were a delight together!!!! #ok bye good night friends

[fictionadventurer]

There's something about reading really great writing that's so relaxing. You can just sit back and let the words wash over you, knowing that you can trust the writer.

#random thought of the day #books #part of the reason i'm not getting writing done today was because i spent most of my free time reading from books i've let sit for too long #i haven't been able to sink into good fiction for a while #so elizabeth goudge felt like a spiritual experience #cleansing and uplifting #it always takes me a while to get into her books #there's a learning curve of a couple of chapters to adjust to the style #but once i break through it's bliss #it becomes easy as breathing #there's nothing quite like what she does #i love books that understand that goodness isn't boring or trite #you don't need to have 'darkness' and 'grit' to be complex #like one bit that took my breath away was the talk about sallie and david's marriage struggles #they're both good people who love each other #but they also have their differences because they're human and that causes struggles #not marriage-breaking struggles just nuanced life struggles #and i'm not sure i've seen something like that in a book before #it's a good marriage they married the right people but that doesn't mean life is perfect #goudge uderstands that marriage isn't happily ever after--heaven is #and a good marriage is two people partnering up to help each other reach that goal #it's so much more adult than any 'complex adult' work i've seen

[moonchild-in-blue]

I just got the biggest jumpscare of my life, so naturally had to run here real quick.

STOP BEING OMINOUS BABYGIRL 😭

#mind you it appeared right after i saw Espera's story #i felt like i was doing something incredibly illegal 💀 #what DO you know. you bitch #(also yay i literally use the same brand for my violin strings. i need to restring my guitar so. we're staying in the family) #(actually now that i think about it i do have a fair bit of violin stuff from them. the rosin is SO NICE yum) #(anyways hope yall are doing good. i haven't looked at practically anything today 😔 if you see me spam reblog at like 2am. no you don't) #sleep token #sleep token iv

[front-facing-pokemon]

#tropius #HE SO APPY!!! FUCK!!! HOLY SHIT I LOVE THIS ONE #i've never looked at tropius up close before i didn't even know they had a little helmet and shit. this is WONDERFUL. they're SO appy #i hope you all appreciate this as much as i do because this is very good. i don't even know anything about tropius. jack SHIT. except that #they're so appy. and i will accept this. i gotta work but i've been too busy thinking abt how appy they are #i also started the process of remaking my main blog. bc it just had a lot of posts on it all the way back to way back in my past #and i felt like it was weighing the whole blog down and making me not want to use it. and that blog needed some housekeeping for me to want #to associate myself with it. so i'm currently in the process of coming up with a new URL before i start really renovating #so the hunt for miss ffp starts anew or something. unless i've lazily replied to you in a comment once and you remember my url #i've done that to a few of you. demifiendcruithne is one. shoutouts to you demifiendcruithne you're the best #then there was that one who assumed i use windows. despite recognizing that i'm “rather techy.” yuck! #had to respond to that one to clear up any suspicion that i might be a windows user. this is all totally unrelated and also will be #totally irrelevant by the time this post gets up anyway. hopefully. y'know if i haven't come up with a new url by then then #i mean. that's my fault. but this isn't gonna post until july 23rd. 10 days from today. so. hopefully! #see you all then

[zharizard666]

🎶Raindrops are falling on my head🎶

#demoman #tf2 demoman #today I haven't felt so good but that song made me happy #demo is the best man #tf2 #team fortress 2 #sketch

[essektheylyss]

Okay but for real, please download Merlin, the Cornell-based bird-logging app. It is so great. It will tell you about birds in your area. It will make you so insufferable on hikes and outings. It doesn't have any comments section so if this site gets nuked do NOT try to find me there but know that that's where I'm hanging. Having a great time birdwatching. Logging the bluejay that bullies my cats. Helping researchers track where birds are for climate change-related population monitoring. 10/10, highly recommend getting a life and doing some silly birdwatching.

#I forget who here recced me the bird app cuz it's PHENOMENAL so I'm sorry I am blanking #also if anyone has recs for apps for tracking flora pls lemme know cuz I am on the hunt #if you have had a good experience with inaturalist I wanna hear about it cuz it felt too social media-y for me #is it good? I do not know. I actually really want to cuz I need to be able to better identify plants. #it would be so funny if I just didn't open my inbox and instead made a post about birdwatching for every ask I get this weekend lmfao #I really think it's what the dash deserves #I'll tell you about arizona birds! it'll be great #I also have seen some GREAT juniper trees and stars today. yes STARS. #literally if you haven't done it lately go find somewhere dark and see the stars. v important. #anyway junipers are making berries rn! they're delightful!

[wanderingmind867]

I don't know if I'm sick or if I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed, but I certainly feel like I'm sick today. I have a very sore throat and I've had it ever since I woke up this morning. If I am really sick, I'll be kind of upset. Because this is the second time in 3-4 weeks that I've felt sick. I seem to have horrible luck nowadays. And hopefully it isn't just all allergies, because I don't know if I'll ever feel better in that case.

#sick #sickness #cold #head cold #sore throat #illness #I haven't felt good today #or yesterday #I wish I felt better #I'm starting to think I have terrible luck? #Because really? #sick twice in four weeks? #autism #autistic #adhd #audhd

[cerise-on-top]

Hi!! This might be awkward because it's my first time requesting something but I'll try my best.

Could you write a Fem!Reader x Farah where the reader is a Belly Dancer?

Just them meeting and feeling a spark between them. I'm a dancer and it would mean the world to me.

Thanx in advance!

Hey there! I went a little wild with that one since I've been wanting to write something a bit more elaborate for a while now, hope you don't mind =)

Farah with a Belly-Dancer!Reader

The chill of the evening made you shiver, its breeze gently caressing your skin as though you were a lover long lost. And yet, your performance continued as the audience cheered for you. Four evenings you had been performing now, calming the minds and souls of the weary freedom fighters that battled demons each day, trying to gain their freedom from their cruel oppressors. In the darkness of the night, you danced, giving them a glimpse of hope, showing them what they’re fighting for: A future in which neither man nor woman, adult nor child, had to fear for their life. A future in which everyone was treated as equal with love and compassion. From the ashes of war, that future would arise, growing, nurtured by the community found in the broken homes of the people crying for help. You were there to remind the fighters that that was the life to be had once all of this was over.

A small celebration it was, with many having gone to bed, dreaming of green plains among which their children would play. But not you. You would dance the night away. For as long as you could move, for as long as you could improve someone’s night, you would continue to dance. Your graceful movements, paired with the drums of another, made for quite the spectacle. Although tired, the people cheered for you to continue, to entertain them with your entire being. Those fights riddled them with fear, engraving into their hearts emblems of terror, but you dulled the pain, if just for the duration of which you performed your heart out. The rewards weren’t applause, whistles and flowers being thrown at your feet, it was tomorrow. A tomorrow that was one day closer to being ideal. One day, the wars would be over, but until then you shall hold on.

And the chill of the evening almost made her shiver as well. Farah took notice of the gathering of people over at the building, convening in front of it as though offerings to praise the gods were being made. But there was no such thing, for a benevolent and kind deity would never allow this many of her brothers and sisters to fall. And yet, her curiosity betrayed her in that she turned to look at the blissful scene. As her people clapped along to the music, she felt intrigued. Who was it that brought joy in such dark times? Who would bring about such bright smiles? Who would make those soldiers feel at ease during times of war? It must have been someone, who had lost their mind, evidently. And yet, there was a sense of gratitude. Why wallow in misery, one day it will all have been worth it. One day, those uncertain times would finally be over and they could finally rebuild their cities from the rubble, that, which has been so unfairly been laid waste to.

And among that stage was something Farah would have never believed, had she not seen it with her own eyes. A trick of the dim light, perhaps. Maybe even a phantom, sent to entice her. She was strong, much more so than even her closest companions would believe, but what she saw on stage gave her a feeling of contentment. There was no certainty you were real, perhaps you were an illusion caused by her fears and worries, perhaps you were a foul demon that sought to get her off her path of righteousness. Either way, you were ethereal. The passion behind your movements was enough to convince her that you must have been some greater being. You brought cheer and happiness to the almost hopeless. Oh, how Farah wished she could have gone onto that stage, show her chivalrous side and protect you from all harm. But her mission would allow her to do so anyway.

And what you saw almost made you freeze in place. A woman, hardened by the battles she’s fought and won, but the kindness in her eyes was very much there. She was rough around the edges, she had been beaten down so many times, but she never ceased to fight, she never ceased to do what was right. For herself and the people she believed in. From below, she stared right back at you, her eyes sparkling brighter than the stars above. Although you had recognized her from hearsay, you never would have thought you would get to see her in person, much less have someone of such importance watch your performance. It was the incentive you needed, the energy boost given to you after a small break, that invigorated you. You were born anew under her gaze, a warm feeling overcoming you. And just like that, just because that woman watched you with such intent, you could continue to dance the night away.

But even as that youthful joy began to settle in your heart, you felt the urge to talk to that woman. She, who had no name you knew of so far, had captivated you in a way you couldn’t describe as you were. Perhaps the gods knew what it was you were feeling, but you, a mere mortal, lacked the understanding. And thus, as the masses slowly began to disperse, seeking the warmth of rest, you stepped off the stage for just a moment. There she was, her arms crossed, and yet she seemed approachable. With a gentle smile, she waved you over. In a world where most deities seem to leave humanity to fend for its own, why would a goddess of beauty, love and war come to call you, of all people? It was an enigma you had naught but an inkling of a reason. And yet, despite all the wars she’s fought in, she seemed to be so kind. Your heart was drawn to hers.

“Your performance was really nice.” Her voice, sweeter than sugar trapped in honey, enticed you. Her melodious voice beckoned you closer, and you followed suit.

“Thank you, that’s very kind of you. You’re the commander, right? It’s an honor to meet you. I’m Y/N.” Almost shy in your approach, but you seemed more fierce than a lion defending his own kin. Although you held no guns, you fought for your beliefs in your own ways. How admirable.

Farah may not have been a believer of destiny, thinking that one could only carve one’s own path as the world would do whatever it took to prevent one from achieving the greatest of things, but it felt as though her and you had been intertwined. Oh, what cruelly sweet fate had brought you together? What made you meet under these circumstances? But perhaps fate had brought you together for a reason?

And for the first time that evening, the both of you could finally share in the warmth of a new companionship.

#cod #cod x reader #farah karim #farah karim x reader #I felt pretty good today so I decided I'd write something a bit longer #something truly amazing happened and I can barely put my happiness into words :D #I feel like people would call me weird if I told them what it was though #it's been a while since I've written something like this! I haven't lost my fic-flow entirely just yet!! #I know barely anyone is going to read this since barely anyone cares about Farah (shame on you) but I don't care #I sort of like this piece :> #I hope it's to your liking too anon! I tried to make it good this time! #truth be told I haven't really been satisfied with my writing as of late so I'm just gonna try harder! #I wanna make the language a bit more flowy again! even if it's just a small ficlet like this! #one day I'm gonna write a proper fic again! just you all wait!

[lumspokenfor]

i have this very bad habit of turning self insert mcs into my ocs. oh i'm supposed to be the mc? too bad, it's (random oc i made twelve seconds ago)'s turn today

#self insert #i had a realisation today #twisted wonderland #love the yuusonas in that fandom #oc #original character #twst #yuusona #disney twst #twst oc #obey me #LOL #haven't played that game in a good while cause i physically cant play otome games unless im in the right mindset #oc for om was kinda silly #she was just stupid #felt really inspired by the sheep mascot smth idk #love and deepspace #started playing that one yesterday actually #the graphics freaked me out at first #scary looking men #not as in ugly but as in freakishly realistic #i dont like men but i can get to customise my very own character 💔💔 #oc x canon #obey me x mc #twst x yuu

[buck2eddie]

fic moodboard inspired by into the fire by @gayhoediaz

Buck thinks he could be drenched in gasoline and lit on fire, and it wouldn’t make a difference - he wouldn’t know - he’s already there; they’re it. Their bodies together. Them together.

After all, this is what a fire is - it’s what a fire does. It doesn’t matter how controlled it is, or how contained - a fireplace, or even a harmless, small candle flame - all it takes is one mistake - one misstep - and it devours everything in its path with ruthless enthusiasm.

#reread this one today and was just as good as the first time and I really wanted to make something for it!!! #tried to fit as many stuff as i could hope i managed to get the vibes correctly #if you haven't read this fic look away from the next tags ok great #the elevator kiss. chris's book and what happened after. bobby at the hospital. buck and natalia's talk in the jeep. #buck going over to hen's at night (with the tea). and eddie's and buck's talk at the end #and the do better line with emerald green felt like it was a must #just incredible fic mwah hits all the painful spots #would read it ten more times #so yeah nie thank you for writing this fic and sharing it with us im very grateful for it <3 #buddie #fic moodboard #m*mbs #buddie fic

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

#hopefully the meds work but while waiting for them to kick in I get so damn nervous #and sometimes I do get nights where even on my full dose my anxiety is too overpowering and I just. Do Not Sleep #I mean I do eventually but not without spiraling first :') #way before I was prescribed sleep meds my longest was 3 nights without sleep while on a VERY stressful trip #I felt like I was gonna die and I did not sleep until I got off the plane and was back at home #(this was like 15 years ago already but it still haunts me fhfgsgdh) #my best friend and I were having a conversation today #and she was like 'not sleeping can make you hallucinate right?' #and I was like :') I get the hallucinations in other scenarios too #BUT I also get what she meant #not sleeping is really bad for me mentally which is why I can't do 'sleep restriction therapy' #and fun fact #a lot of my OCD obsessions revolve around sleep!!! #which is 'awesome' because laying in bed with insomnia makes my OCD flare up so like #the two get to feed off each other and make my life a living hell!!! #and don't even get me started on my sleep paralysis episodes #(which I like to think of as just my brain misfiring but that my aunt tells me is saints or demons trying to talk to me) #'cause she hallucinates too but hers are like 'spiritual' or whatever #same with my mom's hallucinations as well #and to add fuel to the dumpster fire of my mind and body is the fact I've been overcaffeinating again #which I've known not to do ever since I was in middle school and saw the pediatric cardiologist who specifically said 'hey don't do that' #fast-forward to adulthood and I still haven't learned how to handle anything #like. I have heart meds and sleep meds and migraine meds and IBS meds #and yes meds are good but like. I know you need to incorporate lifestyle changes as well #which I do for like 2 weeks until the next time I fuck up #I've been so irresponsible lately but like. ESPECIALLY today #didn't eat #took some meds on an empty stomach and forgot to take my other ones at all #had too much caffeine #stressed out over some stupid situations thanks to overthinking

[prototypelq]

I HAVE HALFWAY WROTE A DEFEAT LETTER BUT I HAVE MANAGED TO FINALLY BEAT M19 SOS VERGIL Y E S FINALLY I WILL FREAKIN CRY TEARS OF JOY HERE

#I DID IT I DID IT I DID JT #i ran around like a freakin headless chicken in the end and IT PAYED OFF #oh freakin hell #ahaha now only to repeat this with nero who i haven't touched in about a year now ahahahaha #...st least he has better options for dealing with the clone #game even awarded me with s though there was nowhere near s gameplay to be found #i am a bit overwhelmed now #i am now fully realising Exactly How Far Away from a 'hardcore' gamer i am #can you believe i started the year thinking 'if i go slow and casual at it i think i could take on harder dmc5 difficulties' #i feel ready to go back in time and theottle that idiot #this was...not fun but it also kind of was only because dmc5 gameplay is so good and dante is amazing to play as #and vergil is a great opponent he makes you take the situation seriously but you also learn to start goofing off its great #however i am NOT built for this i am so freakin not built for this boss grind i came through only because i like dmc so much #and i felt like if i could spend even a fraction of my fandom time in the actual game i could be much better at it #there is a number of games I overplayed to the point of starting to hate them and where the frustration overwrote the initial joy i felt #i felt like ive given myself enough time because i started to feel that frustration about dmc5 and i decidedly do NOT want that game #to end up like those i love it and want to enjoy it further so i was ready to concede defeat today #turns out i just had to be a better chicken thats good as nero is next and he is an arguably better for chicken tactic #maybe ill finish this sos run after all i would be glad if i could manage that #also im this close to 3 million and i want the dance taunt at least for dante))) #phew what an evening #mutuals my beloved thank you for constantly cheering me and reading this i can't find the words to express how much i cherish your support #and thank you tumblr for allowing me an entire book in the tags section hellsite my beloved

[m-eltdown]

#i went on a little nature walk today c: #i haven't felt too well lately so it felt good getting out a bit #my post #mine #myself #my photo #my photography #taken by me #me #my legs #legs #jeans #jean shorts #fashion #style #aesthetic #car ride #nature walk #denim #denim shorts #clothing #photography #woman #tummy #navel #stomach #midriff #pale #sitting

[devilsskettle]

i hate that this website has location based ads now like it's one thing to promote the local grocery store chain to me but i am seeing ads for my workplace now :/

#stop it...... #i don't want to go back but this is the last sick day i can reasonably take #i probably should've gone back today but i told them when i was still feeling worse that i wasn't coming in....... #ohhhh i dread going in tomorrow so much. i don't even dislike this job i just hate being somewhere everyday #each day feeling its meaninglessness...... my meaninglessness in the space.......... the repetition and redundancy #selling people who don't need to be there things that they don't need #standing all day long just fucking bored #hoping that enough has happened since i've been gone that people can fill me in #ugggh because it's soooo boring but stressful to have to generate conversation with the same people every day #when nothing new ever happens #and i get sick of everybody even the people that i like and i don't really think anybody likes me that much either #i guess i felt this when i worked there part time but because i only had to be there part time it wasn't this constant gnawing feeling #and they didn't have me in the shop all the time....... this schedule is fucking killing me #i walk there i stand all day and i walk home #that's one of the reasons i haven't come back in yet - i was so dizzy and nauseous that the idea of standing all day was like. #i obviously can't fucking do that even if i would otherwise feel well enough to come in #if i had a sitting job then it wouldn't matter if i was a little dizzy #but getting back and forth to work and then standing for 8 hours. even when i'm feeling well it's kind of a lot #idk i guess i'm pretty unhappy with this job and where i am in life etc but i can't quit rn because what else would i do #there's literally job of this type that is going to pay as well and have good benefits #and i'm not qualified yet for the type of work i hope to do in the future #so i just gotta wait it out but it feels like. endless. #sigh anyway i'm just lazy lol #all this is to say. stop putting ads for my workplace on my dash lol i don't need to see all that