#I want to go home but nowhere is home

[yonemurishiroku]

something something Nico builds Bianca a grave and he puts flowers on her grave and he's mourning the part of him that died with her.

#been thinking ab this for a while #it's just that it goes with a bunch of other prompts and i don't have the willpower to finish them all atm #obsessed with nico building bianca a grave by manipulating the earth #and makes the flowers (marigolds i think?) bloom using the spell that Persephone taught him #'This way you will be home with me Bianca'. Bc Bianca is Nico's home. Home is where your family is. #all of which reminds them (nico and bianca) of their roots. Hades. The Underworld. #Bianca didn't have a grave. ya know. Even if Nico wants to mourn her there's nowhere he could go. that's just sad dont you think? #the grave serves more as the temple of nico's grief than bianca's resting place #bianca di angelo #nico di angelo #pjo #hoo #toa #yone rambling #percy jackson and the olympians #heroes of olympus #trials of apollo #nico and bianca #underworld siblings

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little. #AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair. #AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother. #GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns. #he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales. #YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!! #you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound. #elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now. #this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

[fromtheseventhhell]

I don't think anyone who believes Arya is focused on revenge has ever actually read her chapters, it's just been one long game of telephone where people repeat a take they heard so they can pretend they know what they're talking about

#arya stark #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #and usually the evidence is that she's with the faceless men?? when it's been made clear she's with them because she has nowhere else to go #this isn't even subtext it's literally just what written plainly on the page but people still have trouble understanding it #Arya's focus has always been to return home and to her family and that hasn't changed + won't change in the future #if she truly wanted to hunt down the people on her list then why hasn't she ever thought about doing so?? #or thought that she wants/needs to stay with the faceless men so she can learn their skills to take revenge? #people act like we don't have direct access to the character's thoughts and try and fill in the blanks based on assumptions and vibes #I challenge anyone who thinks this to give me any actually evidence to prove that Arya is solely focused on revenge #need idiots who lowered the curve of their english classes to stop speaking on complex characters they can't seem to comprehend #like Arya isn't the one poisoning a disabled child cause she was told she'd benefit from it worry about that instead of speaking on her

[bonksoundeffect]

The born in Eastern Europe curse of knowing you were doomed from the start

#being told growing up that the west was an utopia thats got their shit together #and you spend your whole life dreaming of escaping your home country and finally getting to *live* #but then you grow older and maybe you travel a little and even study abroad and you read the news and you realise #that it's all a lie #no one got their shit together and the west is just as much of a shitshow except they have money and hide corruption better #and you're left with nowhere to go #double whammy when you're also queer #its just one of those days when you talk to your aunt who worked at a factory during soviet time and listening to her experiences #and realising that the cycle did not break the cycle is looming over your heaf #and also knowing that as a queer person you will be alone for it #personal #anyways fuck bulgaria this country will be the death of me and yet i dont want to die on foreign soil #i grew up here and yet i dont wanna grow old here too

[shootingthe-stars]

the repetitiveness of writing the marauders in school is getting to me like how many fucking train rides and quidditch games can i possibly write about. like i’m skipping this please i need to get to the good shit already

#sorry i’m writing the end of 3rd year rn and i just skipped the entire train ride like oh my god go home already #literally groaning out loud as i get closer to having to write more sports #so many sports #or classes. you’re only here for story relevance i don’t really want you around #i think 40% of my fic takes place at night for this reason #marauders #marauders era #jily #wolfstar #james potter #sirius black #remus lupin #lily evans #dorcas meadowes #regulus black #nowhere man

[enden-k]

boothill was made for me tbh

#a cyborg and a cowboy? looking like arle? sigh (opens wallet) #he will run w robin right? hsr banners really wanting to take me out while arlecchino and 3 haitham constellations are looming like bro #i already have to skip sparkle and chiori..............just to get aventurine/fu xuan perhaps and arle/weapon and C6 my haitham w min costs #but w ROBIN around and now boothill out of nowhere...haha......sob #guess i have to start farming as many ressources as i can and cover the rest bc im NOT going home without them #babbles #tbd

[quickhacked]

I ONCE KNEW A MAN WHO HAD FIRE IN HIS EYES // BLOODY RIGHT HAND, HE HAD TAKEN HIS ENEMIES' LIVES

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#cp2077 #edit:ambrose #nuclearocs #nuclearedits #not to worry he's managed to retire now :^) goodbye forever and ever stupid arasaka he is thriving without you #arasaka twisting the narrative to their own hand to trick people in doing dirty work for them is something that makes me soooo #ambrose fully believed what he was doing was to keep the city safe. to keep the 'game' (read: corporation pissing contests) fair #make sure no secrets would end up on the streets and protect people that way #and then over the years he started to realize they were simply using him as a weapon and nothing more and it's so. weegh #how do you come back from that. what was there left for him to do. he was already balls deep in the corporation nowhere to go #no home to go back to and boom then you're suddenly also a dad taking care of a young orphaned girl. from a mission YOU failed #AND you're struggling with early stage cyberpsychosis on top of all that. and then after retiring from special ops arasaka wants you back #i would have just died on the spot right then and there. tbh #anyway yes hi hello first time using my taglist i'm scared but hi :] ambrose is my late 40s babygirl

[frienddungeon]

finally actually finished signalis (i immediately quit the game after the fake ending thinking that was it bc i'm a coward when it comes to horror games, but wanted to know what the story was actually about so i watched a breakdown. didn't think i'd be that interested but was hooked within five minutes. watched the whole thing and realised i never properly finished it. put off finishing it and watched more videos) omflllll this game is insane. it's so quickly become one of my favourite games of all time, like a game hasn't deeply impacted me and made me feel so much since i first played nitw back in 2020

#and the fact that it was made by TWO people #crazy talented. I can't get over it #but yeah once i resumed it actually wasn't all that scary 😭 #definitely bc i already had a good sense of what to do but oh well #i was relieved once i “finished” it the first time #i was like hmm this isn't too bad.. i'm having fun... then i got to nowhere and was like. #oh this just turned into silent hill. i want to go home. #although bc i had practically no resources and no map it was probably more stress than fear #very glad i finished it tho :] would replay on survival to get the last two trophies but i'm satisfied now #not a big replay/rewatcher anyways #all in all 10/10 game i am never gonna shut up about it 💖 #getting my bff to play it as we speak #signalis

[evanture]

thinking of dess and gaster dynamics

#deltarune #dess holiday #dr wd gaster #wing dings gaster #utdr #december holiday #very complicated dynamic between these two in my eyes #i hc dess has been gone four years #year one was still kind of that denial stage #where she was sure she would find a way out eventually #year two was a mix of anger and bargaining #it was a lot of desperate pleas for freedom that gaster unfortunately could not give in to #and i think atleast once #she tried to kill him #and it was one of her lowest poins #but she was desperate and she wanted to go home and she missed her sister #she missed her dad #she missed asriel she missed kris hell she even missed her mom #and so she thought maybe Maybe if gaster wasnt there she could leave #it was an impulsive spur of the moment decision and it lead nowhere #all he is is one of a thousand fragments #scattered everywhere and nowhere #and she broke down #theres more to their dynamic #but ive already written a lot #so i wont talk your ear off anymore #OH! #the song in the first image is #the nunemakers parable by everybodys worried about owen #alright bye now!

[ciderjacks]

Zionists love to be like well Jewish people are indigenous to Israel! Like LOL u colonial weirdos have no idea what being native means do u. It doesn’t mean “my far back ancestors were at one point originally from here”, it means a place is you and your peoples home. the logic of “indigenous identity” zionists have would also mean then that Cajuns are indigenous to Canada. Natives were (probably) not the first people to be in the Americas, migration happens all the time and used to happen freely a lot more! We also probably came from somewhere else and ended up in the Americas. We don’t have some fucking magical ethnic connection to the land, we just lived here for millennia and over time developed our own cultures and traditions and tribes and communities and homes. That’s it. The only reason Native identity has all this mysticism around it, is because at some point white settlers came, decided they were owed the land, decided they didn’t want us there, and killed us.

Notice that if I take that paragraph and make it about Palestinians it’ll still make sense, but if I make that about “israeli” settlers, it won’t? Yeah. Stop co-opting our movements.

#ndn #indigenous solidarity #palestine #anti zionisim #colonialism #The Cajun thing was a very intentional comparison and I do want to note that yeah a lot of Cajuns were/are mixed Mik’maq #Because before we were kicked out of our homes Cajuns were in really close proximity and relation with Mik’maq people #So. Mingling occurred. #Why even the “white” cajuns tend to look different than actually white French people (ie diff face shape darker skin darker hair) #And then with nowhere else to go rly Cajuns settled in the bayou which happened to be yet again in very close proximity to a couple #Native tribes #And more mingling #Which is why around like 40% of cajuns are also ndn. Like im Cajun-Coushatta #Cajun history is rich and really interesting actually #Which is why I do not and will never consider myself or my people “indigenous” to Canada despite likely having mik’maq ancestry #& I do not think ANY Cajun would in a million years consider themselves indigenous Canadian #Those of us who are cajun-ndn consider ourselves indigenous to america

[whispers-of-gallifrey]

Just watched Fury from the Deep and I love Victoria's exit so much it breaks my heart. She's so worn down by their travels always ending up full of danger and death and her always being put in the position of damsel in distress. She really doesn't want to leave jamie and the doctor but she doesn't want that life and I love that it let's her make that choice. And I love that Jamie's concerned she won't be happy living in, what is to them, the future but she acknowledges she's changed too much to go back to Victorian England, and she's highly unlikely to get back there anyway, not without more death and danger. That the doctor changes his mind about slipping away in the night and agrees to stay another day so Victoria can think about her decision properly without feeling as pressured. The fact that she knows the doctor won't say a proper goodbye because that's his way. The way she stands on the beach watching them row out to the tardis, knowing she'll never see either of them again. The fact she doesn't go back to the tardis with them to collect her belongings. Jamie's "I don't care where we go next" because he's miserable that Victoria made that decision. The Doctor's "I was fond of her too, you know" which is the closest he'll get to admitting how much he cares about them all. I just love it

#i just have so many thoughts about her #i love that the story builds to her exit with her saying shes tired of being frightened and asking why they never end up anywhere nice #her exit's similar to tegans in that theyre both worn out and sick of it but i love where tegans exit is impulsive #and very much in the heat of the moment #you see victoria considering it throughout the episode even though she cant bring herself to say it to jamie and the doctor #and yeah i just love that we get to see the travelling take its toll bc when you get down to it she is just a kid who never signed up #for any of this #and where new who companions get breaks between adventures and have lives outside the doctor #classic who companions dont get any of that by virtue of the 'the doctor cant control the tardis' so the doctor and his lifestyle is all #they have #and it goes even more so for victoria bc shes one of the orphaned companions who has nowhere to go back to #(sidenote i was thinking the other day about how many classic companions have nowhere they want to go back to particularly with 1 2 and 5 #which fits with the whole 'cant control the tardis so they cant ever go back so we better make companions who dont want to' #idk i just love that so many of the classic exits are companions finding a new home/realising they can do good in this new place #like they can never go back to their old home and they end up with their temporary tardis family until they find somewhere new to call home #and ik we rarely see the outcomes of these decisions so we dont know if they were the right ones but still) #anyway this was about victoria #in conclusion: i love her and her exit #doctor who #victoria waterfield #jamie mccrimmon #second doctor

[kitamars]

so i watched Cars (2006) the other day. you know the drill

#back on my souyo bullshit (propaganda) #the entire time i was watching the movie souyo was just running around in my brain like goddamn #LIKE IF YOU REMEMBER THE DRIVE THEY TAKE IN THE MOVIE TO WHEEL WELL HOTEL YOU CAN SEE THE SOUYO THERE YOU KNOW IT #im going to make you care about the last au you would have thought of and there’s nothing you can do about it #yosuke being the snarky upstart racer with no friends and a shitty attitude who ends up learning that what he thought he wanted #wasn’t what he thought it was all along #souji being a hotshot city lawyer that eventually just cracks and winds up in a small town in the middle of nowhere where he gains a family #it’s not much but it’s an honest home #you think this is something? wait till i get to the angst :D #still deciding whether i wanna keep them as car racers or give them motorbikes maybe? that could be cool #plus souji making yosuke eat shit on a bike #yosuke’s sponsored by junes btw and he HATES it #cue him singing the jingle with the most deadpan voice you’ve ever heard #nanako’s the only person in the town that appreciates him :> #souji will warm up eventually #im taking a lot of liberty with this au but honestly i think it’ll be fun #you guys will probably enjoy it lol #i know i am #yosuke hanamura #souji seta #yu narukami #souyo #persona 4 #ok bye #souyo cars au

[kedreeva]

How are your mice doing these days :)

you know. hanging in there.

#mice #mouse #rodent #rodents #almost all of them have found homes already! #for some reason I said oh I'm gonna cut down my colony by a lot #a) baby fuckin' EXPLOSION #and b) people climbing down my throat wanting mice out of nowhere #so it worked out #AND I finally have a set of nice PA tricolors all set up to go #the other tricolors are languishing because they breed poorly #but these guys are Ready to Fuck I guess #I just set up F7 to breed so F8 should be on the way soon

[pollyna]

Nobody really ever let Mav drive because, even after 20 and plus years of having his drive licence, he's still shit. Not like I just started to drive shit, but I get bored after the first five minutes. Why does this thing go so slowly? kinda of shit. But the day has been long, and Mav is the least tired of the four, with Amelia and Penny sleeping in the backseats and Rooster barely keeping his eyes open. A day by the sea always has this effect on you, eh kid? He asks, ruffling his hair, and receives an uhuh as an answer. C'mon twenty minutes tops, and we'll be home, he murmurs a little to himself and a little to everybody else.

Twenty minutes later, Mav parks in front of his home, and he already has a foot on the concrete when a hand stops him. Mav? Where are we? Penny asks, and Pete smiles, she has to be still sleeping if she doesn't realise they are home. Home! he answers, already thinking about if he should take Amelia or let Bradley do the job because his back kinda hurts now an-

Dad Bradley calls his attention back to him Dad, we aren't there yet. This isn't Penny's home. He continues, his voice soft and his eyes a little wet.

I- he tries to say something, but the house in front of him speaks louder than any words. Yes, yes, I'm sorry. Just tired. We will be there in a minute, Pen'.

No problem, Pete, it happens sometimes she answers, a soft smile on her face and Bradley's hands still around his arm.

He smiles at her and at Bradley, starting the car again, trying his hardest not to look in the rearview mirror while the place he still calls home gets farther and farther away.

(Thirty-two, blonde hair tips, and I think this is the last one, Mav he said. Now I can officially say, welcome home, love he added, picking him up in the middle of an empty living room with just a couch and a coffee table to occupy the space. Welcome home, my dear, he rebuffed, laughing and spinning around, kissing the man he was soon to marry.) 

#and I can go anywhere I want #anywhere i want just not home #pete maverick mitchell #penny benjamin #bradley rooster bradshaw #amelia benjamin (mentioned) #top gun: maverick #canon compliant #angst #hurt and little comfort #dead tom iceman kazansky #icemav #otp: i heard from the heaven that clouds have been grey #home is the place where mav used to always come back broken mended happy and euphoric kissing ice sweetly before going to work and sleeping #home was the place where they saw bradley grew up and where they cried over him not being around anymore #home was everywhere ice was and now ice is nowhere if not in mav's memory and in a house he will forever remember the way too #if love could have saved you you would have lived forever

[curiosity-killed]

This is one of those things that is both actually frustrating and just sort of stupid, but my parents are very very bad at like. visiting. In multiple senses of the phrase but right now I mean mostly just actually coming to visit.

So like my sister has lived in the same city for a decade, owns a home, etc., and my parents visit exactly once a year, and I have lived in the same city for over two years and they have visited once (for 3 days). Which is all kind of frustrating and hurtful because we are pretty close (if dysfunctional) and I’d like to share my life with them—but also at this point, just kind of a background frustration that we’re used to.

EXCEPT then they sometimes try to make up excuses for not coming and it’s all just…absolute bullshit lies. Very very bad lying. Like “oh we wanted to come visit sometime but our schedules…” ma’am you are retired. “Oh we thought about coming to see you in the Nutcracker but we’ll have your sister’s dog…” you are both adults who could handle a dog on your own AND you literally just decided to dog sit like this week while knowing FOR MONTHS that I would be performing and never asking a single question about when it was or tickets or anything.

#i am very probably flying home Christmas Eve and I know my mom’s going to feel Some Type of Way about it #but I’m also a little like #yknow i love you and I make every effort to come see y’all #both for holidays and just to fly for 8 hr to hang out in the middle of nowhere with you #AND we’re all adults #with different priorities that influence our choices #and frankly YOU have been making choices entirely based on what YOU want for years #personal #very much like u made this bed and that’s fine that’s your choice but also that means ur sleeping in it

[da-proti-toku-grem]

sorry i needed to say this somewhere and my mom isn't home rn so here it goes because this is making me too anxious

#honestly wtf? #i was going back home by bus right #and no one usually gets off in the bus stop where i get off because it's a bit in the middle of nowhere #but it's the one closest to my house so i get off there #and today was the first time i took the bus at this time so it wasn't either of the two drivers that i usually see #and this one was literally shouting 'do i have to stop in the next one?' and people shout back if yes #(which is not usual because there are buttons to ask for the bus to stop anyway but oh well) #so when my stop was the next one she asked and i said yes AND press the button just in case #also note that i was already standing next to the door by this point #but she just passed by my stop and i was like 'excuse me i had to get off there' #and she got SO MAD at me and started saying 'then why don't you answer when i asked?' #and i told her i did respond and she didn't believe me until a woman that was there told her i did in fact say it #so she went on saying 'i'm not going to do this again next time i won't ask and let everyone tell me when they want to get off #because it's already happened to me twice today' #like girl if it happened more than once i think it's nit my fault here yk #and also the next stop after mine is literally in another town so she got mad again because she couldn't go back #(technically she could bc there was a roundabout only a bit further away but she didn't want to anyway) #so she literally stopped IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD. opened the doors and went 'are you going to get off or what? 🤨' #tbh i was so shocked that i didn't even know what to say so i just got off the bus #thankfully it wasn't too far away from my bus stop and there are not too many cars so it was safe i guess #but honestly wtf was that #like maybe i'm overreacting or something becuse i'm so exhausted after 12 hours at uni today #but that's NOT an appropriate behavior #i'm so fucking tired rn and idek how i went through 12 hours of uni with only one 30 minutes break w/o having a mental breakdown #but this was the straw that broke the camel's back #anyway #ranting #venting #random #maca speaks