#I was nearly late for a date but it was 100% worth it

[guhhhhhhhhhhh]

Other eventful news, yesterday I said hi to my neighbor as I was walking up to my house and he said "let me finish walking the dog, in 20 mins I'll come knock on your door, I've got something to show you" and, because I live for the thrill and spice and variety that life can provide, I said cool, slay, cannot wait.

He took me and my roommate into a different house across the street that I guess he's moving into, and showed us some AMAZING, ANCIENT books like,,,, manuscripts from the 1500s, volumes full of etchings by rococo artists like..... books like a foot and a half tall and 6 inches thick with insanely detailed and delicate leather embossing. What I'm saying is when funky old men offer to bring you into their house sometimes it is worth it. Sometimes you don't get murdered and you actually get to see neat books

#but also always bring a friend just in case #like we walked in the house and one of the first things he did was show me the sweet spot in his dining room while BLASTING let it bleed #and then took us back through the labartnthine house to the library where he had all the books #he's an ammetuer landscaper and a professional metalwork artist but the thing he's done longest is restore old books #like he used to run his own printing press and publishing house #very wild #but yeah also at some point he pulled out the pill bottle in his pocket and showed us all the drugs he's on #absolutely bonkers #I was nearly late for a date but it was 100% worth it #he mows our lawn and hates our landlord with us so 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ we sort of owe him our life #personal shite

[goodstuffhappenedtoday]

Millions of U.S. apples were almost left to rot. Now, they'll go to hungry families

NOVEMBER 27, 2023 By Alan Jinich

It's getting late in the harvest season in Berkeley County, West Virginia and Carla Kitchen's team is in the process of hand-picking nearly half a million pounds of apples. In a normal year, Kitchen would sell to processors like Andros that make applesauce, concentrate, and other products. But this year they turned her away. ... Across the country, growers were left without a market. Due to an oversupply carried over from last year's harvest, growers were faced with a game-time economic decision: Should they pay the labor to harvest, crossing their fingers for a buyer to come along, or simply leave the apples to rot?

Bumper crops, export declines and the weather have contributed to the apple crisis

... While many growers in neighboring states like Maryland and Virginia left their apples to drop. Sen. Joe Manchin of West Virginia was able to convince the United States Department of Agriculture (USDA) to pay for the apples produced by growers in his state, which only makes up 1% of the national market.

A relief program in West Virginia donated its surplus apples to hunger-fighting charities

This apple relief program, covered under Section 32 of the Agricultural Adjustment Act of 1935, purchased $10 million worth of apples from a dozen West Virginia growers. Those apples were then donated to hunger-fighting charities across the country from South Carolina and Michigan all the way out to The Navajo Nation.

Mike Meyer, head of advocacy at The Farmlink Project, says it's the largest food rescue they've ever done and they hope it can serve as a model for their future missions. "There's over 100 billion pounds of produce waste in this country every year; we only need seven billion to drive food insecurity to zero," Meyer says. "We're very happy to have this opportunity. We get to support farmers, we get to fight hunger with an apple. It's one of the most nutritional items we can get into the hands of the food insecure."

At Timber Ridge Fruit Farm in Virginia, owners Cordell and Kim Watt watch a truck from The Farmlink Project load up on their apples before driving out to a food pantry in Bethesda, Md. Despite being headquartered in Virginia, Timber Ridge was able to participate in the apple rescue since they own orchards in West Virginia as well. Cordell is a third-generation grower here and he says they've never had to deal with a surplus this large.

At the So What Else food pantry in Bethesda, Md., apple pallets from Timber Ridge fill the warehouse up to the ceiling. Emanuel Ibanez and other volunteers are picking through the crates, bagging fresh apples into family-sized loads. "I'm just bewildered," Ibanez says. "We have a warehouse full of apples and I can barely walk through it." "People in need got nutritious food out of this program. And that's the most important thing" Executive director Megan Joe says this is the largest shipment of produce they've ever distributed – 10 truckloads over the span of three weeks. The food pantry typically serves 6,000 families, but this shipment has reached a much wider circle. "My coworkers are like, 'Megan, do we really need this many?' And I'm like, yes!" Joe says. "The growing prices in the grocery stores are really tough for a lot of families. And it's honestly gotten worse since COVID."

"It's the first time we've done this type of program, but we believe it can set the stage for the region," Kent Leonhardt, West Virginia's commissioner of agriculture says. "People in need got nutritious food out of this program. And that's the most important thing." Following West Virginia's rescue program, the USDA announced an additional $100 million purchase to relieve the apple surplus in other states around the country. This is the largest government buy of apples and apple products to date. But with the harvest window coming to an end, many growers have already left their apples to drop and rot.

#good stuff #food #apples #agriculture

[lovergirly]

the love languages (wednesdays version)

hi my loves! i’m sorry i haven’t been here, i’ve been horribly busy the past couple days. i met the love of my life over break and i’m trying to start a relationship with them so fingers crossed 🤞🏻

this isn’t a request, but feel free to leave me some! <33

they say there are five different ways to display your love to a person. love languages. conventional couples constantly love showering each other with affection and giving each other flowers or go to the drive in for dates. wednesday was the opposite of conventional. she finds it hard to believe she was even capable of loving someone, let alone be able to let herself be vulnerable around someone. even her girlfriend she struggles with showing affections to. her girlfriend however was able to see every single love language wednesday provides for her.

1. words of affirmation

waking up was always the hardest part of your day. who was sadistic enough to make teenagers wake up at 6 in the morning everyday?

“mi amor it’s time to wake up.”

of course your macabre girlfriend enjoyed this torture. you don’t answer her and instead groan into your pillow. unknown to you she rolls her eyes and starts to open your curtains. this doesn’t give her the reaction she wanted as you only hide more into your blankets.

“y/n we have school and i can’t be having you late. get up, my love.” you still don’t move and now wednesday is getting annoyed. “cara mia, if you don’t get up i’ll deny you your kisses for the rest of the day.”

knowing she was 100% serious with that threat, you slowly force yourself out of bed causing your perfectly dressed and composed girlfriend to smile, “you look absolutely miserable.”

“thank you, i am.”

“well even while miserable you look absolutely breathtaking mi amor.”

2. acts of service

after getting ready for your day, you and wednesday had to seperate and go to your classes. the only problem is these kids have been teasing you. a group of three girls tried to start a rumor about you and nearly tripped you just in this period alone. finally after they “accidentally” spilt their drink on you, you run out of the classroom only to see wednesday standing right there with a bag of muffins she got for you. she saw you nearly sprinting out with tears in your eyes and a group of girls all watching you and laughing. she realized she either had the option to kill then now or go check on you and kill them later. knowing you’re worth more than those imbeciles were, she ran after you to see you sitting with your knees to your chest crying in a random corner. she saw how vulnerable you looked, and wished she could take away your pain just as fast as those girls inflicted it.

“querida mia, what happened?”

“wednesday those girls are just awful! they tried to make up a rumor about me and they’re just so mean.” you stuttered while sobbing. her heart broke for you. just because she had thick skin and can easily take down a bully doesn’t mean she knows you get too overwhelmed to defend yourself in situations like this.

“y/n don’t let them get to you. they’re a bunch of clowns who are jealous of what you have.”

“what do i have that they don’t?”

“me. the love and adoration i try to provide for you.” she simple walks away after that and unbeknownst to you, is planning a way to get back at those intolerable girls. it wasn’t until the next day when you saw how your girlfriend sent thing to cut giant chunks out of all the girls’ hair and a horrified expression when they see you with your beloved.

3. gifts

wednesday comes from a rich family. it wasn’t a shock. she was a trust fund kid and often asked her parents to take out money to get you some lavish presents. you weren’t used to the high class lifestyle she had, so she made sure to buy to the most luxurious items. you like that jacket? it’s yours. it’s $500? that’s not too bad, she thought it would’ve been at least $2000. wednesday wouldn’t say she’s carelessly throwing away money, even if your closet had got restocked by her. she just enjoyed the look on your face when you got the newest all black Balenciaga bag or the softest pair of pink pajamas money can buy. the presents you liked the most, however, were when she tried to be romantic with her gift giving.

one night, wednesday walks into your dorm with her hands behind her back.

“hello my love! i missed you so much.”

“i missed you as well y/n. i actually got you a present.” she pulls out two viles and a little needle.

“i want to show you that i am completely enthralled by you and wish to grow old with you until we both face our demise.” she goes to sit on your bed “i want to give you some of my blood that you can wear as a necklace. it’s supposed to represent the deepest trust and love i have for you. you of course don’t need to give me one, but i want to give you one.”

“oh my love of course i’ll give you one. will you do the honors of pricking my finger for me?”

with that you and wednesday spent the rest of the night making and presenting blood necklaces for each other.

 4. quality time

wednesday doesn’t believe in small talk. she thinks it’s a waste of time. she does enjoy a good conversation with you, but she doesn’t want to hear the little details about who said what last friday and why it’s so bad. her writing hour was her time. she frequently kicks enid out during that time because she needs to think and get inspiration. people don’t give her inspiration. she hates people. viper de la muerte hates people. well everyone except her girlfriend. vipers girlfriend who is a little too similar to you. how did she get the inspiration to creat vipers girlfriend? by making you stay in the room while she writes. the first time you stayed in the room it was a nuisance. you were with enid and laughing the full hour. it was torture, and not the kind she enjoys. now, she can’t write without you in the room. whether you’re just reading over her shoulder, she loves your critiques. even if it’s just a simple “i love your writing my love!” or “i like this part!” she needs those words to allow her creative mind to continue. she feels pathetic , relying on you to do something as simple as writing, but nothing makes her happier than seeing your face as you read her writing or give her shoulder rubs the second she finishes her writing hour. even if you’re not reading with her, just you in the room gives her a calm feeling. she loves when you’re both in her dorm alone, doing your own thing silently. it makes her feel like you’re already a married couple and the dorm room is simple your house.

5. physical touch

if wednesday hates one thing the most, it’s physical touch. the only people who can touch her without dying is her family, and even they barley can touch her without her pulling away. you might think you’re an expection, but wednesday addams doesn’t do cuddling. she hates it. not because she gets hot or anything at night. she just simply hates it. the only way you’ll even get her to consider cuddling with you is after constant begging. you literally have to get on your knees in front of her (which she liked more than she’d like to admit) just for her to put her arm around you in bed. she’ll never be caught dead being the little spoon. whether you’re her height or six feet tall, she’ll be the big spoon. she likes the feeling of protecting you at night. you’re her love, it’s her job to keep you safe.

and while wednesday would deny any of this as love and would never admit to “mellowing out”, the wednesday addams found a love. a love she can cherish and treat just as her father treats her mother. she wants to cherish you and protect you from the world in the only way she knows. the love language of an addams.

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i hope you guys enjoyed, i wrote this in one sitting so it might not be the best. i really want to make each of these little snippets it’s own story, but i’m not sure yet. definitely leave a like if you enjoyed though and leave more requests <33

#wednesday #wednesday addams x reader #jenna ortega #lgbtq #addams family #jenna ortega x reader #fanfic #wednsday addams

[ellieswifie]

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warnings: bsf!nick, completely platonic, fem!reader

authors note: i love nick so much guys and im very disappointed that nobody requested a hc for him. you guys are losers, but im feeding you with this best friend hc. ill make a bf hc, male!reader for nick if anyone is interested. i hope you all enjoy!!

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comfort. nick is always the person to go to when you feel the need to just rant and cuddle up with your best friend. he’s like a big teddy bear that always gives the best friend advice and hilarious comebacks. you guys are either laying on the couch in the living room or in his room just talking for hours. he wants you to always feel comfortable enough for you to talk him always.

sleepovers. you guys are always having sleepovers if it’s at either his house or yours. you’d guys be watching hilarious movies or crying to childhood movies you guys both grew up on together. if the sleep overs are at nicks, you guys are hanging out with matt and chris all the time too. his brothers love having you around and you’ve all grown to be amazing friends.

baking. you guys are always trying to bake and craft new things. you’ll pull something up from pinterest then send it to nick, and you’ll be at it hours later at his house trying to create it. matt looks at you guys like your morons but you guys can’t help yourself. it majority of the time turns out like shit bc you guys clearly can’t bake, but it’s always worth the try.

music. you guys have nearly the exact same music taste so you guys love dancing around or late karaoke drives. your driving ofc guys kick can’t drive, but it’s always so fun turning on doja or sza and just jamming in the car for hours.

protective. nick likes to see you as his little sister so if someone or even fans are harassing you, he goes off. he’ll respond to comments like ‘shut up’ or ‘what about it’ just so nobody can talk shot about you.

if you were in a relationship with matt or chris, nick would always make sure his brother is treating you with the respect and love you deserve. if not, he’ll talk some sense in his brothers because he cares a whole lot about you.

bsf brother. back to the conversation as if you were dating matt or chris, nick would do everything in his power to avoid walking in on you kisses on of his brothers. he loves you both dearly, but him just seeing his best friend and brother showing any sign of physical touch makes him want to physically die.

he’d walk into every room he knows you guys are in with his eyes closed, or hands over his eyes. "nick is walking in! six feet please!"

you and matt or chris would be laughing wanting to see his reaction, but bowing he will kill both of you, so you guys play it off, scooting away from each other and laughing from the couch.

friendship dates. it’s either a picnic outside, or a movie night with pizza. you guys constantly have just get together and a eat food and talk. or you guys will go out to the movies together, like best friends, and watch a horror movie or something extremely depressing.

skin care. you guys love doing face masks together or even paint each others nails. nick will literally do just about anything because he loves hanging out with you. you love his presence too so doing a best friend spa day or skin care night is your guys favorites.

car videos. you don’t appear in a ton car videos bc the fandom is weird, but when you do your sitting in the back with nick, sharing glances at something chris or matt said. it always ends up with you and nick laughing your asses off while chris and matt are so confused.

compliments. you and nick love complimenting each other, nick more than you. if either of you don’t feel 100 percent or feel yourself, you’ll immediately compliment your best friend. not only does it make them feel good about themselves, but it shows how much you guys really care about each other.

"you look hot today." nick would say, while your struggling to apply makeup or something.

"really?"

"please you look hot everyday."

teasing. as much as you guys love complimenting each other, you just as much tease each other. in the best friend way. you guys would be walking outside or in a mall, somewhere in public, and if either of you see a cute guy(or girl even), nick would start punching your shoulder teasing you to talk to him or her. of course you stay where you are, ignoring his middle school behavior, but secretly loving it.

considering how much he cares for his family and brothers so much, nick would one hundred percent be an amazing bestie. it’ll be like having an older brother who will do absolutely anything to protect you and make you happy.

#ellieswifie #gracie writes #fem!reader #fluff #nick sturniolo x reader #nick sturniolo #nick #best friends #sturniolo head cannons #headcannons #nick sturniolo head cannons #sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #nicolas sturniolo

[withahappyrefrain]

Neighbor!Peter finding you are alone on what was supposed to be a blind date and decides to accompany you, completely making your forget you were stood up. Happy Thirsty Thursday!!

Wait ahhhh I love this, I love 16+

Peter was not one to snoop. At least, not willingly.

It wasn't his fault that the walls were so thin. That he could hear you getting ready. The sound of a hair dryer, the spritz of your sweet perfume. The clicking of your heels as you waited. You calling whoever was supposed to have arrived twenty minutes ago. The sniffles coming from your nose as you fought back tears.

He heard it all. Peter knew he should have gotten the balls to ask out you six months ago, when you first moved in. He knew it was a bit messed up to take the chance when you had been stood up.

But better late than never, right?

So he knocked on your door. You opened it, quickly wiping your eyes.

"Hey, can I borrow- woah. You look....wow. You look amazing. Not that you don't normally look amazing! You're always beautiful," Peter paused, "I'm so sorry, that was out of-"

You laughed. It was much needed. "It's alright Peter. I-I appreciate it."

"W-where, I mean, a-are you going somewhere?" Peter asked, trying to play the oblivious card.

"Well, I was," You sighed, "I had planned to go on a date that was supposed to have started twenty-five minutes ago."

"D-did they," Peter paused, not believing what he was about to say, "Did they, did y-you get stood up?"

You nodded your head, "I mean, the definition of being stood up is when they don't show up at all and don't text or call you to explain themselves, right?"

"Well....and pardon my french, they're a fucking idiot for doing that. Anyone would be lucky to go on a date w-with you. Not that that defines your worth! That is not w-what I mean, what I'm t-trying to say is-"

"Wanna be my date?" Peter was stunned. You asked it so casually that it took him a second to process what you had just said.

"I, you....with m-me?" You couldn't help but giggle at how cute he was when nervous. It was one of the many things that caused you to develop a crush on him almost immediately.

"Yeah! We were supposed to get drinks and then go to dinner at seven. I think it's too late for drinks, but if we leave in the next twenty minutes, we can make it-"

"I'll be ready in five minutes," Peter told you quickly, all but running down the hall to get back into his apartment.

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You weren't sure how, but by the time you and Peter arrived at the restaurant, the two of you had your arms linked.

You also weren't sure how Peter's hand got on your knee. It happened at some point during dinner. Probably when you had leaned over in the booth to make a joke about the arguing couple two tables down. That was most likely what led to you two walking out of the restaurant, holding hands.

You did know how you ended up pressed against your door with Peter's lips on yours, his hands roaming everywhere on your body.

That was 100% on you. The date was going so well, you nearly forget that you originally weren't supposed to be on a date with Peter. Which was ironic, considering the only reason you had agreed to that date was because you were trying to forget about Peter.

Life works out in funny ways. All it took was your fingers lingering on his neck after fixing his collar and a quick lick of your lips while staring into those big doe-like eyes of his.

Just a few seconds of eye contact gave you enough courage to grip Peter's collar and pull his lips onto your's.

Peter was incredibly thankful for your bravery. Because he was still trying to process the fact that you were touching him.

"I d-don't normally do this," He stammered in-between kisses.

You grinned, "I only do it for the really cute and sweet neighbor who I've been crushing on for the last six months."

"Oh." Peter's eyes widened at the realization. You were talking about him. You wrapped a finger around one of his brown locks.

"S-six months, huh?" He asked. You simply nodded your head.

"Was....w-was it really obvious?" Peter asked, despite knowing the answer.

You giggled, "I....my dad gave me a whole set of tools when I moved into my first apartment."

Peter couldn't help but laugh, "So all the times you stopped by, asking to borrow a hammer or a screwdriver?"

You shrugged, your cheeks warm, "I just wanted a reason to talk to you."

Peter laughed, running a hand through his hair, "Well, that makes me feel a lot better about asking you for some flour."

You gasped, feigning shock, "Peter Parker! Did you lie to me?"

Peter leaned in, his lips dangerously close to yours, "I don't see it so much as lying. Moreso a reason to see you."

"Well, I don't think you need to come up with 'reasons' anymore," You said slyly as you draped your arms around his neck.

"I don't think so either." You felt Peter's hand grip the back of your thighs. The next thing you knew, he was holding you as he walked to your bedroom.

Not that you were complaining.

#my writing #peter parker x you #peter parker oneshot #peter parker x y/n #peter parker x reader #tasm peter x you #tasm!spiderman x reader #tasm peter x reader #tasm!peter imagine #tasm!peter x you #peter parker drabble #peter parker imagine #tasm!peter parker x reader #tasm!peter x reader #tasm fanfiction

[daisynik7]

prob really weird/random ask but any big sister advice for someone who's a lovergirl but also terrified and not interested in dating apps?

oh gosh I’m the worst person to ask for advice lol, but I’ll do my best my lovely anon!

I met my current partner nearly ten years ago at a college party and I was a late bloomer (never been kissed, never had a hint of romance in my life lol). I thought he was cute, got a good vibe from him, and just went for it, despite my lack of experience. I went up to him, asked him to dance, and the rest is history. It was terrifying and completely out of my comfort zone, but it ended working out in the best way possible. My advice is to just go for it. I know it can be scary, but most times, taking that leap of faith is worth it. Maybe it doesn’t work out 100% of the time, but at least you can say you tried and you’ll always learn something from it. I hope this helps!

#My lovely anon #asks

[bciwasinlove]

I got this anon a few weeks back after sending someone else an ask about h*ylor 2 years theory when the whole song fiasco happened and even though there was a reply that could have been given it was not worth my time and effort that night to reply so I just blocked the anon who sent me it.

But since this anon was sent to me a week or 2 ago @thoughtsthatarehardtoexpress has DMed me so many 💀💀 h*ylor tweets about them having been a thing for nearly 2 years so now I can't help but explain why believing h*ylor was a thing for nearly 2 years without having been seen together till nearly a decade after Jan. 2013 makes no sense vs why believing larry is a thing for 10+ years without having been seen together publicly since xfactor 2016 does.

If h*ylor had been a real couple and they were together until 2014 during peak 1D fame and peak 20s pop taylor fame we 100% would have had photos at some point of them being seen together !! + their teams would have milked their relationship for some added PR bc newsflash even real celeb couples milk their relationship publicly for extra PR !! How tf do you have two of the biggest under 30 stars of the 2010s dating and NOT be seen once ??

While the notion of larry being a real couple for 10+ years means their closeted bc when it comes to H specifically 1D and his solo team have been marketing him as a womanizer/lady's man since he was a fuckin teenager! And larry being seen together after 1D in any capacity fuels larry rumors, thus fueling 🏳️‍🌈 H rumors, which his team doesn't want. So why would it make sense for them to publicly go anywhere together and allow themselves to be seen if their teams [especially 1D/H solo team] has been actively wanting to mute the buzz on larry/gay rumors? But of course any time H gets mentioned in louis solo interviews he's all hearts and blushes.

So do the math on why it makes sense for larry to be a long term real couple without having been publicly seen together since 2016 vs why it doesn't make sense for h*ylor to have been a long term real couple without having been publicly seen together after the dramatic boat pic of taylor all alone and don't send anons on how we make no sense but h*ylors do.

I won't even bother going into a long rant about the part of this anons ask, saying no lyrics of their songs directly reference the other except hello princess park ?? we saw ed in manchester ?? same lips red same eyes blue same white shirt couple more tattoos ?? and all of louis major love songs talking about one long term lover he meet when he was young [who else did he met then when he spent 90% of his late teens/early 20s with the 1D boys] and no this is not a rhetorical for any anti to come mention the dog walkers name in response. 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️

#louis #harry #taylor #pr stunts #bearding #long term relationships #context matters #larry is real #mfers #h*ylor was not

[late-to-the-fandom]

which obscure Media would u recommend to another empty fandom collector such as yourself?

You ask an intriguing question! I mean, there is so just so much to choose from and I have no idea where your interests lie to guide you better. So here are all the tiny fandoms I am proud to have been too late to join or remain the only member of (in a variety of media):

-The Engineer Trilogy is a book series by KJ Parker that has, as far I know, no fandom at all. It’s just me and a thousand fic ideas I will never really finish because no one will ever read them. Which is a shame because the series really lends itself to fanfiction (literally every single character is a poor little meow meow). But despite having no fandom, these books are probably objectively some of the best, most ambitious books ever written and the reason I maintain that the best books are never appreciated in their time.

-Jonathan Strange and Mr Norrell by Susanna Clarke is the other best book of all time that I can’t get anyone to read because they’re just not ready. It at least has a small fandom because they made a BBC miniseries of it a few years ago that was actually quite decent and had the added benefit of casting some very attractive actors. Definitely worth a watch and if you like it, 100% worth the read (this book is my Bible)

-Laurie R. King, the Patron Saint of fanfiction, whose Sherlock Holmes and Mary Russell series survived the great Mary Sue hate of the late 90s early 00s, and who is actually a wonderful author in her own right. She used to have her own very small fandom site where people posted fanfiction and art but not nearly enough and it’s not active (at least that I can tell; I came in - you guessed it - late)

-Deadwood, that will always be one million times better than Game of Thrones to me, never had the fandom Ian McShane it deserved. Again, late so idk if there was a lot going on for it at the time but it certainly didn’t leave behind much fanfic for us stragglers

-Labyrinth, which I hesitate to include here because its not obscure and truly does have an insane amount of fanfiction but its fandom is mostly old (like me) and inactive (tell me I’m wrong and point me in the right direction!). Probably because the movie isn’t very popular anymore. However, it’s a great example of a tiny half-dead fandom with more fanfiction than it knows what to do with (even I haven’t read through it all).

-Watchmen (the graphic novel, NOT the new series). This did get a nice little surge of fans with the movie that came out and was probably the only time in my life I was there waiting for it. Ah the glory days of soaking up Rorschach/Night Owl fanfics on the ground as they came out… but it’s dead now, the book very close to cancelled and the fans mostly in hiding. There’s still a good bit of great fic out there if you love angsty slash pairings

-and last but not least, if you’re interested in random fandom-light video games, I can recommend several World of Warcraft fanfics that are absolutely lovely (and only some of them are mine 😅). I write for one minor-ish character in a now out-of-date expansion, as do @shipping-through-eternity and @mousterian-writes and @mysdrym to name a few. But all of it is lovely in their own different styles and genres, so if you have need of a dying video game fandom in your life I highly recommend!

Let me know if any of that helps, or if you have any recommendations of your own!

[slowtravelingcat]

Cat meditation and Olympic National Park

Monday, August 23rd, 2021

CAL - After nearly two weeks of constant company from the large, bald one, I was finally given a break this weekend. Around nightfall, on Friday she left the house without so much as a goodbye. Judging from the size of her bag, I estimated that she would return on Monday morning. Having 2 full days to myself, I engaged in my own form of silent meditation and am just starting to make sense of this past year on the road. 

MICHELE - After two full weeks without adventure, I finally left our temporary home to explore Olympic National Park. The adventure started on Friday evening with a 30-minute ferry ride from Coupeville to Port Townsend. The boat was small and the route is popular, for this reason, reservations are highly recommended. 

Upon arrival in Port Townsend, I made the 1.5-hour drive to a private campground, just outside of Port Angeles. My little RV proved to be the perfect jumping-off point for the most well-known sites in the park.

Unlike most National Parks, this one spans nearly 1000 acres, which includes highways and entire towns. It’s broken down into areas of interest, each with its own park entrance kiosk and visitor center. It can be overwhelming and difficult to navigate, especially with the lack of cell service throughout the area. Luckily I planned ahead!

On Saturday I started the day with the hour-long drive to the town of Forks. I made a quick stop for breakfast and coffee at “A Shot in the Dark”, a drive-through coffee hut. Upon arrival at the Hoh River Rainforest, I waited approximately one hour to enter the park, due to the parking lot being full. For any summer visits to the park, I’d recommend budgeting extra time for this reason. 

I spent most of the afternoon hiking the Hoh River trail, in search of a place called One Square Inch of Silence. Located 3.2 miles into the forest, this space has been designated as the most silent place in North America. I followed the directions provided by OneSquareInch.org and found the location on my first try. 

After successfully experiencing the silence of the rainforest, I took about 20 minutes to peek into the Hall of Mosses, the better-known trail in the area. On the way back to Port Angeles, I passed through Forks again, stopping at the Subway in the 76 gas station for lunch. A short, 15-minute drive landed me at Rialto Beach for a picnic with one of the most dramatic views I’ve ever experienced. If possible, I’d recommend arriving at Rialto during low tide. 

By the time I was heading home, it was already starting to get dark. I made my final stop at the Sol Duc Hot Springs Resort for a quick soak. For just $15 of admissions, you can enjoy up to one hour of soaking time in 3 different pools. The full capacity is 100 people, so reservations may be required. I personally found the facilities to be overcrowded and left after just 20 minutes. 

For Sunday, I focused on exploring the sites closer to Port Angeles, starting with Hurrican Ridge. This is a must-see if you are ever in the area!

After a 45-minute drive up a mountain, I landed at one of the most beautiful views to date. The visitor center alone is worth the drive up the hill. After consulting with a park ranger, I decided to hike the 1-mile loop, called Cirque Rim, just outside of the visitor center and Hurricane Hill, which is a 3.2-mile (round trip), paved pathway to a stunning, 360-degree view of the Strait of Juan de Fuca and the Olympic Mountains. 

After a morning of hiking, I enjoyed a late lunch in Port Angeles and then headed over to Lake Cresent Lodge for a slow amble along the beach and then to the Salt Creek Recreation Area to sit on the rocky beach as the tide came crashing in for the evening. 

After a long day, I ended up back at my home base with a pint of ice cream for dinner. After a brief encounter with Netflix, I slept like a rock before waking up at 6am to catch the ferry back to Whidbey Island. What a whirlwind weekend! I could have easily stayed at Olympic National Park for a full week. 

#cats #travel #slow travel #digital nomad

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All our most brilliant friends

December 9th, 2009

So, lately I’ve found a fair few exciting free and legal mp3 downloads online, so for the less erudite of you, I thought I’d stick them up here for you to feast your eyes and ears over.

FIRST UP…

Parenthetical Girls have a history of making Xmas themed releases. Way back when they used to go by the name Swastika Girls they released their Christmas with… EP, then, as (((GRRRLS))) you have A Parenthetical Girls Family Christmas, two absolutely sterling releases, but this year, with “The Christmas Creep” they’ve totally outdone themselves. Featuring Flowers For Albion, a wartime piano and horns stomp, which is Zac’s most obvious outpouring of Anglophilia to date and their rendering of Sparks‘ Thank God It’s Not Christmas as a synth pop masterpiece, this is well worth your bandwidth. And it’s FREE.

SPARKY DEATHCAP // Glasgow Is A Punk Rock Town by TheArtOf… Our friend Rob releases music under the name Sparky Deathcap. His Tear Jerky EP (which he sold on tour with us across the UK, this past October) is available to buy from his store here, but as a taster you can download his song Glasgow Is A Punk Rock Town over here. To me it sounds like Scott Walker recording in his bedroom. Probably not to anyone else though. Some of you may know that recently Rob has been playing as the 8th member of Los Campesinos!, so you have allegiances to him even if you don’t realise it. And it’s FREE.

My favourite album released this year (by nearly a million miles) is Fleurs by Former Ghosts. More on that soon, but my pal Freddy updates his blog reasonably frequently, and often, with no fanfare at all, for he is disgustingly modest, he’ll upload new tracks. This is a cover of If You Need Someone by The Field Mice. An already really pretty song, that he’s made even prettier and added a whole heap more sadness to. And that’s why I love him. And it’s FREE.

One of my favourite songs of the year now has a video. Frankie & The Heartstrings are going to be massive next year (assuming there’s any justice) and this video is testament as to why. A slow burning song that explodes into a heart wrenching chorus. Warm, warm organ, perfect for this time of year. The video’s right here, but you can buy the 7″ single, by clicking here.

Slow Club are a really special band. I think I’ve made that clear in the past. They’re continuing their tradition of not releasing anything crap with their Christmas EP Christmas Thanks For Nothing. It’s tangibly released by Moshi Moshi on the 15th December, but it seems to have sneaked out digitally on iTunes. £3.49 for six class songs. You’d have to be a pretty soulless bastard to download that illegally, amirite? BUY. True to form; it’s brilliant. I would marry this band (though the divorce would be a nightmare).

FINALLY, amongst all the moronic “Get Joe McElderry’s Label Mates to Christmas No. 1″ facebook campaigns, and then all the “Oh no m8, that’s not indie/mental enough, let’s do it with with <insert even more shit idea here>”, there’s one diamond in the turd*, and that’s this:

A cover of Do They Know It’s Christmas? by Fucked Up and friends. Including Bob Mould, Kevin Drew, Andrew WK and David Cross amongst others and with 100% of all proceeds being split between Justice for Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women, DTES Power Of Women Group and Sisters In Spirit. After all this free stuff you’ve got your hands on, why not head to iTunes to spend a measly 99p on it. Nice one fellas.

* for the record, the Xmas charts, in my lifetime, have always been about novelty TV tie ins and just-a-bit-of-fun nonsense so I hope you realise that every time you slag the X-Factor it’s like you’re shitting on my Xmas Tofurkey, right infront of my Gran. It’s called X-Mas for a reason, y’know?

#2009 #gareth!blog #lc!blog

[mcjour]

This is me talking through a decision so if you stumble upon this post, keep scrolling, not worth your time lol.

I kinda wanna join the AMC Stubs A-List but kinda don’t.

100% I see how it is an awesome deal and pays for itself almost immediately.

And the timing works out well. Like I would only want a summer subscription I think. It has a 3 month commitment, then if you stop you have to wait 6 months to join again. Okay so basically. I can just do it every summer when I’m on summer break?? I feel a little late to the party this summer though because this is my 3rd week of summer break and I have 6 weeks left. Like ideally if I were to do this next summer, I would start the subscription in June instead of mid July!!

And I 100% need more things to do by myself during summer! And it’s perfect for like an afternoon activity after summer school. And we have gotten sooo much rain this summer and it’s a good rainy day activity.

But idk. I’m not a big movie person! There are truly not a lot of movies I’m dying to see in theaters. Or ever. Like I would absolutely not be the person to watch 3 movies/ week every week. But I am sure I could find the at least 2 per month needed to break even. Even if they are ones that I wouldn’t normally see.

Even this summer, there’s quite a few I’d want to see, but a lot of them are the Disney re-releases and I’m not sure if I can justify going to the movies every two weeks for movies I can watch for nearly free on Disney plus at home. I think I might go a couple times but I’m not sure. And then another movie I want is a $3-$5 older movie so I might as well pay that price lol.

And going to the movies means spending $$$ on snacks!! I know I could always eat beforehand or sneak in snacks myself, but part of the experience is the buttery popcorn and I would want to treat myself at least occasionally. But looking at the website it legit costs $20 just for a popcorn and drink. More than the ticket! Eek.

And I hate driving too. I don’t take the highway, so it’d take me 25-30 minutes instead of 15 to get there. And that’s not a bad drive at all, but like that would definitely keep adding up.

And I have a lot of trouble leaving the house. Intertia, driving anxiety, social anxiety, idk. But I’m just not sure if I can get myself going that often! I already have an amusement park season pass and I’m definitely going to get my money out of it, but I would be lying if I didn’t say it was really hard to actually get me out the door!!

There are other movies I am interested in throughout the year, like the upcoming new Disney movies. But they are so far apart that again I can’t justify it.

So I think this summer is a no, but I definitely want to keep it in mind for next summer. Assuming release dates don’t move around too much, there’s already a few movies I would be willing to see, like inside out 2 and despicable me 4. And I’m sure there will be other big summer movies. And they might also run summer movie camp thing again. So I’m sure I will have a thrilling movie summer.

I ended up joining the mid tier premiere level. Which is funny because when I first looked at it I was like wow that is pointless. I changed my mind. It’s $15 for the whole year and it waives the online convenience fees (over $2 per movie.) so I’m like okay I just need to go to 7 movies in the entire year to save some money (not to mention saving money with earned points and stuff). I think that’s more doable for me! I’ve already got my Barbie ticket as the first one. And you know what, if I don’t break even, $15 is a relatively small cost to eat

[bigmatrimonial]

Timeless Quality: Are Citizen Watches Worth the Investment?

Being an extremely well-known watches in the world It is likely that you've seen the name Citizen for a moment or two. However, just because something is well-known doesn't mean it's the best and I've found this through trial and error with some things. This raises the question: are Citizen watches reliable? In this article, we'll look at some of the most well-known models as well as their competition to determine if the iconic brand is still able to maintain its elegance and high-end. Nowadays, I consider myself an expert on watches. Just like a sweet dessert finishes a fine dinner, a new watch completes a perfect outfit. Although I mostly stick to an occasional rotation of trustee watches occasionally I'll break out a flashy piece of jewelry to impress a date or evening out with friends. Although I have an expensive timepiece every now and then. I always return to my regulars. What I am looking for in a daily watch include simplicity, elegance cheap and the ability to tie any outfit together. Does Citizen's watches satisfy these criteria? We'll dive through all of these aspects to identify the most reliable watch brand you can count on regular basis.

What are Citizen Watches?

If you don't be aware, Citizen has been making watches for over 100 years! In fact it's been around for 104 years to be precise (as as of 2022). With the same amount of experience the Japanese company, Citizen is a major brand within the watches market. Citizen was the initial manufacturer to create watches powered by light. In 1976, following the launch of Crystal Solar Cell, the first analog quartz watch powered by light. watch, a revolution was created. Through the invention of Citizen the road was set for other businesses to follow. Citizen also revolutionized the industry by introducing an automated assembly line that produces Citizen watch components. The assembly line was initially used in the 1970's for the production of the quartz movement and continues to be used until today. The majority of the components of the Citizen watches is manufactured entirely in-house. Nearly every component comes from their country of origin, Japan which includes electrical chips, mechanical parts and much more. The exquisite watches are made by specially trained craftsmen, known as Meisters or Super Meisters. The most expensive Citizen watches, like those made by the Chronomaster Quartz model are made by an experienced watchmaker with an unwavering dedication to his craft and has at least 30 years of watchmaking expertise with Citizen. Citizen also set new standards with the release of the first titanium watch in the year 1970. Its model X-8 Chronometer watch was first electronic watch with a case constructed entirely of titanium. To further advance the technology, Citizen launched the first multi-band atomic-based timekeeping watch in 1993. The fact that it is timed in sync with atomic clocks permits they to be accurate to within a second of 100,000 years!

Things to Consider When Buying the Citizen Watch

As we mentioned earlier, Citizen watches are unique because almost each watch is designed and manufactured by hand in the company's own factory. It's impossible to locate a watch manufacturer which is as dedicated to creating high-quality watches like Citizen is. Simply put, no one can make the same kind of contribution to the industry that Citizen is making. Citizen is dedicated to creating top-quality watches that keep track of time. In comparison to its rival, Seiko, which is known for its inability to keep the track of time. It could be a good idea if you're looking for an excuse for being late everywhereand make it appear that your watch tells you that you're in time. It's just not feasible. Quality doesn't have to mean expensive, however. Citizen is determined to make their watch reasonably priced,while getting the quality of some of the most expensive brands, like Rolex. Yes, Rolex may be flashy traditional, but also sturdy but Citizen is always seeking revolutionary innovations that will transform the world of watches like they have done since the beginning of time. Sure it's true that an Rolex might attract the attention of the woman or man you've tried to please however once you've impressed them, you'll not have money to take them out on dates because you've paid for the metallic glimmer that you wear on your wrist.

Citizen Watch Reviews

1. The Citizen Promaster Professional Diver A Citizen ProMaster Professional Diver has been on my list for quite a while. Its simple design is an elegant design that shouts "everyday watch" It is an ideal watch to add to your routine that is sure to draw attention and earn respect. This classic piece is ideal for every occasion and for every daily. Its flexibility is an attribute that cannot be beat by the other watches. Another advantage of the watch's durability and durability. Many watch manufacturers will put an unpretentious diving watch on the market to be part of the club. However, Citizen isn't like most firms. Famous for its quality, Citizen hasn't budged with their watch. The Promaster Professional Diver has a three-hand quartz movement that has an electronic date display. It is equipped with Citizen's exclusive Eco-Drive technology. This means that it can utilize any type of light source to recharge the battery. Therefore, unless you're Patrick Star, who literally lives in the shadows and never has a battery power again. Promaster is also known for its accuracy. Promaster is also well-known for its precision, with +/-15 sec/month precision in the normal temperature range from five C from 5 to 35 C. The price is a huge advantage for this watch. If you are thinking of top quality, you would think of a pricey tag that comes with it. But not with this model. Being one of the more inexpensive models, you can receive everything you might desire and require in an item of jewelry. You'll find the look, durability usability, practicality and dates. (Not the type of date! The watch displays the exact date!) Everything you could want is included in one wristpiece. I highly endorse this wristwatch. 2. Citizen Eco-Drive Chronograph Citizen Eco-Drive Chronograph This is another watch that can be worn with everything. Aren't those my top choices? This is not without reason, however. It's the perfect combination of practical and classy and simple, but stylish and modern. It is classic, but stylish and sexy. The last sentence could be a prank, but you'll get the picture. My favourite part is the fashionable leather band. The band provides the watch with a the sleek appearance that can be worn for daily life, but also will impress potential clients or employers by your refined fashion sense. The face of the watch is packed with features hidden under a simple cover. The watch's stainless-steel case is the renowned Japanese quartz mechanism. Similar to other Citizen watches the one here is solar-powered. A few of the features on the face of the watch I'm not even sure what they refer to! It's pretty cool, isn't it? The watch's diameter is 44mm, which makes it an ideal watch that is suitable for wrists of any size. It has a one-fifth second chronograph that can measure between 60 and 120 minutes. It also has 12/24 hour time as well as a the date. It's waterproof to 100m or 333 feet. Also, of course, the quartz eco-drive, powered by solar power. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWKBb4lj_lA 3. Romaster Dive Automatic For the flashy men out there, get your timepiece right now. This timepiece will be noticed everywhere you go. The high-end metal band is a beautiful accessory to an already elegant watch. For those who love attention, this one will bring you the most attention you could imagine. This isn't your typical watch. It's your watch for the yacht. It's the one you don't wear when would like everyone to ask what you do at work. That is, "Are you rich?" The combination of gold, silver, and royal blue mix effortlessly. The serrated bezel is a reference to a fugu. This is the Japanese name given to pufferfish. On the back of the case you will also see the engraving of a fugu. The masterpiece that is the bezel that rotates joining the stainless steel case in gold tone that is joined by the silver band could not be made more beautifully. It's possibly it's one of the more fashionable watches that I've listed, but the most inflexible. It's definitely a choose-your-outfit smartly however it could be the perfect complement to that perfect outfit. 4.CZ Smart Ghasp! A smart watch? Are I a fake-watch man? Let me tell you that the CZ Smart watch is not the typical Apple or Samsung watch. The CZ blends your traditional notion of a watch's style with contemporary technology of today. Inspired by the design of the traditional sport watches of Citizen's past, you enjoy the sophisticated look you seek in watches, without losing out on the revolutionary technology of tomorrow! The watch comes with an LCD color display as well as being powered by the most prestigious tech firm, Google with its Wear OS technology. Have you ever purchased coffee using your watch? No, I haven't. But this watch may alter this. The watch is compatible with Android and Apple It gives the user the option of choosing which phone model you'd like to purchase. Particularly if you're on team Android just like I! All fun and games aside, prefer the look and feel of a traditional old-fashioned watch but with the latest technological advancements, then this watch is the watch to get all the benefits of two worlds. While I've spoken about practicality, this might seem the easiest to implement. With a real computer connected to your wrist it is possible to have endless possibilities. One of the best things is that that you can enjoy all the features and freedoms you want without losing the style of a classic, sexy wristwatch that you wear.

What are other people's opinions about Citizen Watches?

As an ingenuous, world-renowned brand, customers will have plenty to review your products. Of course, reviews have generally been positive. If you're skeptical, take a look. Here are a few short reviews written by Citizen customers. It's very difficult to find any negative reviews on an online citizen's watch. The verdict is in. And the reviews are all positive. When you work for an organization that is as dedicated to innovation and quality as Citizen is, you're sure to be able to get plenty of great reviews.

My Thoughts on Citizen

What I Like I'm convinced that Citizen is among the most popular watch brands there. It is hard to find the same price and quality that Citizen provides. - Citizen watches are available in all price ranges, which makes them affordable to all. Even purchasing a lower priced Citizen watch does not mean you sacrifice the quality. - There's a broad range of styles to suit the various types of individuals seeking a high-quality watch. - Free shipping is available to The United States, and a 30 day return policy. Warranty is also available on the majority of watches. - There is no need to replace the batteries of their solar-powered or light-powered watches. - Citizen watches are available for any occasion. Whether you'd like to be a normal person or even be a bailer someday. What I Do Not Like Actually, I'm struggling to find something I dislike regarding Citizen watches. If I really want to be selective, perhaps I'm able to say I do not like the colors of a few watches, but that's not a problem for the company. This is just my personal preference.

In conclusion

It's time to address the major question. Are Citizen watches good? My answer is the definitive yes! It's difficult to find a watch of the same quality as Citizen in any field. They have fashionable and robust watches that are difficult for anyone to match. In the end, only you will be able to answer this question by yourself. Does it fit your style? Do you think it is appropriate for your style of living? I'm here to give you the facts. Now , it's your turn to decide on your own. What are your thoughts? Are Citizen watches good? Read the full article

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Replica Bottega Veneta Baggage, Footwear, Belts And Sunglass Online Sale

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[sukirichi]

jujutsu kaisen characters as students in high school: (non-canon AU)

featuring: itadori yuuji, fushiguro megumi, gojo satoru, getou suguru, & ryoumen sukuna notes: some parts include you as their friend, or even their high school love! (this is unedited/ not proofread)

masterlist ! requests are open 

𝐈𝐓𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐑𝐈 𝐘𝐔𝐔𝐉𝐈

he’s not the brightest bulb, but he makes up for it through hardwork and enthusiasm

yuuji is literally that classmate everyone is just friends with

the type who waves with a smile, saying “good morning!” the moment he walks through that door

with that being said, since he’s everyone’s friend, i headcannon that yuuji doesn’t really have a best friend because he’s so open and available to everyone it’s hard to have just a one on one conversation with him

not to say he’s always surrounded by a crowd that you can’t get near him, but everyone likes talking to yuuji

he just fits in so well and understands people 

kind of like how he easily clicked with junpei (please, i miss him, i still can’t believe that he’s...you know...)

whether it’s the guys raving to him about sports

or girls shyly talking about their crush on class or about that new shojo manga

yuuji is open to anything and everyone. this boy wears his heart on his sleeve and he’s honestly such a precious boy, please be kind to him <3

the type of student that gets called to answer in class but isn’t shy to admit he doesn’t know the answer while rubbing the back of his neck

he does pay attention tho

i think it’s canon that yuuji is a dedicated man, like from that time he just watched movies straight and kept his cursed energy controlled so the cursed corpse would stop hitting him

overall, yuuji is a very hard working student! 

he wouldn’t get over the top grades, but he’s really proud of himself (and he should be!)

also that one kid in class that is surprisingly good in sports despite his lanky figure and laid back persona, because all the other sports-craved people are always flexing or challenging other captains 

but plot twist, this boy is ripped and very, beautifully kept in trim

yeah he’s not really into club activities that much

not because he hates them, but he’s just not that into it. he’s more than glad to join in whatever activities though and enjoys them, but if asked what he’d like to do, it wouldn’t be that first thing that came to mind

in conclusion: itadori yuuji is the class sunflower that lights up everyone’s day  🌻

yuuji’s role: the hard worker! 

𝐅𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐎 𝐌𝐄𝐆𝐔𝐌𝐈

hands down, megumi is THAT student

if you’re volunteering in the library, you can sure as hell guarantee you’ll see megumi there

he doesn’t like studying in class because it’s too noisy, so if he’s in school, you’ll always see his name in the library logs

he’s that kid that aces all exams

the type to scowl when he sees a 96% mark because he’s expecting a perfect mark

okay before you come at me, i’m not saying megumi is that annoying smart kid in class that goes, “Oh, I’m so dumb, just a 96?”

no he’s more frustrated at himself because he knows he studied hard and lost sleep over it. he’s just wondering where he went wrong. he has literal note cards and customize flash cards on an app on his phone, waking up every four am and probably taking supplement classes after regular school hours

i headcannon that megumi is someone who always wants to do his best and actually goes through lengths to prove his worth

maybe it stems from having the need to show who he really is and what he’s capable of

but yeah i can totally see him doing that

also that cute student that keeps visiting the cafe every saturday morning, wearing a black hoodie and headphones tucked in, his pretty hands nestling over a book

he looks like a gamer but honestly i don’t think he’s got time for that lmao

would also be that guy people find hard to approach because of his quiet and reserved self

he’s pretty intimidating too

definitely sits beside the window at the back of the class. you can’t fight me on that

just because he’s smart and loves studying, it doesn’t mean he’ll sit on the front row and raise his hand every damn second

the teachers will encourage him to participate in class a little bit more, especially after seeing he’s awkward during group activities, but megumi just really prefers to do things by himself

i also headcannon him eating in the cafeteria like everyone else instead of having his alone time during a rooftop? like idk i can’t picture megumi completely isolating himself like that

he blends in well in a way that you know he’s just like everyone else; a human

but he also stands out in the manner that he’s a lot more introverted and reserved compared to everyone else

surprisingly good during sports and relay games

100% reliable

the type to stay up at midnight to finish a group project, sighing because his groupmates doesn’t care as much as he does, but turns it in anyway the next day

he’d be annoyed at them, but he doesn’t really like confrontation so he doesn’t out them to the teacher like that

but he’s also not someone who lets people walk over him, so he’ll simply say something about his groupmates becoming more responsible and to be serious for once as a “warning”

and yeah, he may be closed off, but once you get really close with him (even better if you have similar interests) you’ll find there’s a lot more to him than what you’ve originally seen and he’s actually a pretty great friend and supportive classmate

would teach you instead of just letting you copy his work or snap pictures of his notes

ugh he’s so responsible and morally right and that’s so attractive help

in conclusion: fushiguro megumi is the hidden gem  💎

megumi’s role: the intellectual outsider!

𝐆𝐎𝐉𝐎 𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐔

man...i don’t know how to start this

i’ve said this about megumi, but gojo is also that student

no, in fact, he’s THE student

everyone loves him. literally everyone

the teachers? smitten

his classmates? in love

the school guard? calls him by his first name

the cleaning lady? turns into a star with the way she lightens up when he’s there

the cafeteria staff? yeah free food because he’s gojo satoru

gojo is what i like to call the “one who has it all” because....well, he kind of does

he’s really smart and talented, which comes as a surprise to everyone in the first day of school when he nearly gets kicked out for falling asleep in class

only for everyone to be shocked that he knows the answer already and the teacher is only discussing chapter 1 lmao

yeah he’d be that kid who always sleeps in class

or is playing games on his phone behind an open textbook

he literally doesn’t listen to what the teacher is saying at all - or at least that’s what he wants you to think

man is a god at multitasking and his seatmate would snicker because he’s crushing his enemies at a phone game, but then gojo coolly corrects the teacher about history or something

he’s pretty laid back tbh

but when he’s got everyone’s attention on him? ofc he’d show off

basketball meats are wild. even students from neighbouring schools would visit just to see gojo play - and he’s not even an official member! the coach just asked him to replace a sick player but boy won that champion shot

omg BASKETBALL PLAYER GOJO I CAN’T

but he pretty much excels at everything

except cooking class, gosh, don’t ever bring this man anywhere near a fire. that’s probably the only thing that really got him to detention this time because he always somehow talks himself out of getting that red card with his words and charm

also that kid that would receive lots of confession letters, chocolates, and random gifts in his shoe lockers

he knows he’s handsome and he’s not shy about it. in fact, he’s shameless when it comes to his allure on people

but he also doesn’t really date anyone (it’s canon this man won’t stay loyal to a single woman lmao)

if he and megumi were classmates, they’d be sort of rivals

megumi would always come on top of class, but gojo is just a breath away from the former’s perfect marks. if it only weren’t for megumi’s squeaky clean record and reputation - whereas satoru’s is TAINTED as heck - and the fact that gojo doesn’t really study as much as gumi, then yeah he’d also be top of the class if he wanted to

on a much more serious note,,,gojo acts like nothing really bothers him and he’s simply that effortless

but i feel like he grew up with tutors from a very young age and that’s how his natural intelligence was just further improved and increased with that type of environment in his childhood

and unlike megumi, i don’t think gojo would really have a set goal in mind on who he wants to be or what he wants to do in the future

he’d just be enjoying the moment <3

in conclusion: gojo satoru is the effortless god!

satoru’s role: the lazy king everyone is envious of 

𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐎𝐔 𝐒𝐔𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐔

the playboy

you can’t argue with me on this one

he just is, i feel it deep in my SOUL he just is

moment he walks in, all classy and suave aura and all, you can honestly smell and taste the amount of confidence that drips from him

probably came from a well-off family

probably the mayor’s kid lmao and he’s been used to the attention ever since he was young

much like megumi, he’s not really the type to show off his intelligence

and similar to gojo, people are surprised he’s actually got them brain cells just because everyone is more focused on his appearance first

like who would expect this tall hunk beautiful beast of a man with long hair and piercings actually liked classic novels and could effortlessly recite sonatas and poems in different languages

yeah i headcannon that getou is an intellectual, cultured man

ofc having long hair and piercings isn’t allowed in his school, but because he’s geto and the school knows about his family’s influence, they just let it slide

probably comes late to school too

he eats in the cafeteria, but you don’t really see him indulge much. some days, he’ll have his own fancy bento box prepared by a family chef, but geto is actually pretty simple and humble that he also buys packed bread or canned coffee 

takes the library volunteer by surprise when he drops by one friday after class to borrow an old classic novel that even your professors had a hard time analysing

but geto’s like, “oh this? yeah i last read it when i was thirteen, thought i’d read it again”

IDK WHY but I can see him as sort of breaking the rules when it comes to the school uniform

top three buttons of his shirt open when he’s feeling hot or something

doesn’t really keep his tie that tight too

but overall, geto is a composed and well-put together guy

i just can’t picture him slacking when it comes to his appearance, he’s too fancy and pretty for that

he’s also similar to megumi in a way people find it hard to approach them, but most definitely, geto also receives confessions often 

i can see him dating someone after being interested in someone in school and actually being serious with them unlike gojo

then they would be “that” couple that’re just so couple goals

not the type that goes overboard with pda and pulls off the angry face emoji when they hear someone talking about them and they’re like, “NO HE’S MINE”

okay that’s cringe but i legit witnessed that way too many times in high school yall cant blame me lmao

but they’d be more like the chill laid back couple that supports each other in everything and you can just tell they have a happy, healthy relationship

(oh to be getou’s girlfriend in high school and his first love and all his firsts)

in conclusion: getou suguru is the unpredictable!

getou’s role is: that one classmate you really admire but he’s so far out your league but he’s genuinely a good guy anyway so you’re happy for him no matter what <3

𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐌𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐔𝐊𝐔𝐍𝐀

okay okay hear me out but...the stoner

i really can’t see him any other way guyssss

and if you’re his classmate, you most likely wouldn’t see him that much either

dude is like 2-3 years older than everyone in class and he doesn’t give a shit about it

he’ll come like...once a week, if he’s in the mood enough

teachers don’t even bother scolding him for his tattoos anymore because there’s rumours going around he’s the son of a yakuza leader or that he’s a gangster who sells organs or some creepy dark stuff

ofc he doesn’t do that

he just does drugs and gets drunk at most

sukuna doesn’t really have that much friends either. yeah he parties with people and often gets high with some older kids, but he doesn’t genuinely enjoy their companies either

would totally come to school with his uniform unironed

red-eyed from his high and naps at the back of the class, making the teacher soften their voice in fear of waking him up

also doesn’t have a pen or paper

i mean...he doesn’t even bring a bag

fails the exams all the time, making him repeat year by year, and he’s even known for beating his senpai up for something stupid and sending the guy to a hospital where he stays for two weeks

but on the other hand

he’s also freakishly attractive and surprisingly easy to talk to

you probably bumped into him one time and you profusely apologize, but then he notices something about, something odd like, “did you just cut your hair?”

“uhm yes...you noticed?”

sukuna shrugs lazily, “noticed something was different, but whatever. it looks good on you though.”

he’s just soooo nonchalant most of the time, it’s hard to believe he’s actually pretty violent

but yeah this man has anger issues i’m sorry

but with that speaking, i actually don’t see sukuna as a bully with like a gang of his “followers” or that type of jazz

he’s more like the kid that hides under the bleachers or gets high in a storage room while everyone else is occupied with school festivals

it’s a shock he even came, but sukuna just says “free food is always a gift” but ofc it’s not free food...he just steals from the stalls

now here comes the fun part

so now that we know sukuna pretty much is a hopeless case...suddenly, he isn’t? maybe he meets you, the class volunteer who goes out of their way to visit his shabby apartment just to hand him his class work that he’s missed out on

he obviously disses you at first and ignores you, telling you to get lost

but somehow your kindness and persistence has him breaking

now he starts coming to school often, carrying a pack of gum or mint pops because he smells like weed and he’s slightly conscious of himself

this is supposed to be just them being students in high school, but i could honestly sukuna changing colors once he just gets a better grasp of what would be good for him

or maybe something finally interests him and gives answers to his silent questions

i feel like he’s such a troubled kid and just lacks proper care and attention, but once you become his friend and show him you don’t have bad intentions, he’s actually a loyal and decent guy

and when you two finally get close, you eventually gain enough courage to tutor him. sukuna is actually pretty smart too, he just doesn’t like studying, but when you compliment him, oh man, he melts

“yeah, you actually got that right! i told you you could do this!”

tsk,” he scoffs, “that’s all kindergarten shit.”

“if it is, then why haven’t you graduated?”

“shut the fuck up.”

although he sneers, you and sukuna have gotten close enough that you know both of you don’t mean anything bad behind those words and it’s all light hearted teasing

oh and when you ask him to take a picture with you for “high school memories?”

sukuna is disgusted

“get that thing away from my face - did you just take my photo?”

“yeah, you look pretty cute here! i’m so printing this and putting this in my album.”

sukuna is about to scold you even more, but the thought of you putting your photo together - even when he’s frowning in the picture - in something as sentimental as a photo book really has him softening up

would even try - keyword is try - to study more just so you’d stop frowning when you see his paper covered in red marks all over again

and he’d even try cutting down on his weed for the sake of his “health”

ofc he won’t suddenly - or ever, even - become the amazing student megumi is

he’ll still get into trouble because he’s impulsive and has poor coping skills, also he’s not good with words or dealing with his emotions

but on his good days, he’s a pretty funny guy

it just takes a lot to see that side of him, but it’s worth the time and patience

also i was expecting to write funny scenarios or imagines of stoner! sukuna because he’s too high to even hold a proper conversation sometimes but all i got is him saying weird words like “snail trap” or something when you ask him how his day is

would also have that garbled little laugh when he’s so out of it

sukuna will try to be better though, you just need to be patient him

but my GOSH when he finally graduates

he’s going to hide that little smile because deep down, he’s also pretty proud of himself and how far he’s come <3

lol now this makes me want to writer a high school au lololol

in conclusion: yeah he’s the stoner with a good heart 

which is so not canon...this shouldn’t even be a headcanon we know ryoumen sukuna is PURE EVIL but oh well maybe when I’m down from my sukuna high I’ll write him a lot more canonically

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[vhenanshiral]

On the Topic of Seiya Kou.

This is a Sailor Moon post rather than a Dragon Age post. Shocker, I know, but Sailor Moon is another one of my loves. This will focus on the 90s anime adaptation of the manga. So do not come at me with “but in the manga,” because the 90s adaptation and the manga were incredibly different in multiple ways. Seiya will be referred to as she/her because the male form was a disguise. That being said, any interpretation of Seiya’s gender is valid and I love them all! Anyway. I see a lot of shit talking about Seiya and it’s honestly ... super tiring. So many of the “negative” points against Seiya are misinterpreted, misunderstood, and misrepresented for the sake of making her look like a dumpster fire. 1. “Seiya is creepy towards Usagi and stalks her.” Except ... she doesn’t. They meet by accident numerous times, and in fact Usagi even seeks Seiya out. They develop a friendship, and it’s normal and natural for friends to seek each other out. Usagi and the girls actually, literally stalk the Three Lights more than once during the season. 2. “Seiya thinks Usagi is weak because she told Mamoru to take care of her when they left.” This honestly makes no sense to me. It is repeatedly shown that Seiya admires Usagi’s strength, both as Usagi and as Sailor Moon. It is natural to want the people you love to be protected, and that does not mean that you think they’re weak and incapable of protecting themselves. Seiya knew Usagi was capable and strong because she had seen her demonstrate these traits multiple times. Throughout the season, Seiya repeatedly lifts Usagi up with her confidence in her capabilities. This is even before she knows she is Sailor Moon. Let’s not forget that when Galaxia kills all of the Inners, they ask the Starlights to protect Sailor Moon, so saying that Seiya telling Mamoru to take care of her means she thinks she is weak ... that must mean everyone else thinks she is too, right? It’s absurd. 3. “Seiya can’t take ‘no’ for an answer, always hits on her, and is constantly pressuring her into a relationship.” It is true that Seiya repeatedly quips about “having a chance” with Usagi. It’s also true that Usagi repeatedly reminds Seiya that she has a boyfriend. But it isn’t true that Seiya repeatedly attempts to coerce her into a relationship. It also isn’t true that she does it all the time. While she shouldn’t have done it even more than once (when she was unaware of Usagi’s relationship status,) it’s obvious from the context that she isn’t being serious. Seiya repeatedly making quips is an issue, and while those kinds of situations can and often do mean someone is being a “Nice Guy,” a predator, an abuser, etc., we know from everything that we see that it is not the case with Seiya. Let’s take the “date,” for an example: Seiya throws it out there (literally, just time and place and walks off) and Usagi willingly shows up the next day and is even irritated that Seiya is late. Usagi is not forced or coerced into the date; she retains all of the power regarding whether or not she shows up. She would not have gone if she didn’t want to. Actually, let’s look at these instances of Seiya hitting/making a move on Usagi. - In the “date” episode, Usagi thinks that Seiya is going to make a move on her. Some suggest that Usagi thinks she is going to kiss her, but the language, Usagi’s expressions, and her reaction to the truth seem to imply that she thinks Seiya is suggesting something more intimate. - In the episode with the beach monster when Chibi Chibi opens up the door and pushes Seiya over on to Usagi, Usagi is the one who, again, assumes Seiya is up to No Good, despite it being a complete accident and innocent on Seiya’s part. - In the episode where Seiya spends the night at Usagi’s because she’s alone and Seiya very nearly confesses who she is to Usagi while they’re in her bedroom, it is Usagi who believes that Seiya is going to confess to having a crush on her. - Later in that same episode, when they are hiding in the cabinet and Seiya again thinks about confessing her true identity to her, it is Usagi who thinks Seiya is about to suggest something intimate. In fact, throughout the season, it is everyone from Usagi, to the other girls, to single-episode characters, to even Luna who think that Seiya is going to suggest or attempt illicit activities with Usagi, and not Seiya. It is all but explicitly stated that Usagi is attracted to Seiya. Not just because of the implications of her assumptions, but also because she is scolded over it. In fact, Rei tells her that she needs to sort her feelings out. Haruka and Michiru forbid her from seeing Seiya because she has Mamoru. She may not love Seiya the same way, but she is attracted to her and she does love her (and Usagi being attracted to other people is not a new thing.) Let’s look at the softball episode, because it’s ... pretty problematic and people often point to it as being one of the episodes that paint Seiya as some creepy stalker who can’t just take a hint and tells everyone that Usagi is her girlfriend. It is Rei who thinks that Seiya training Usagi in softball is inappropriate (let’s remember that it is Ami who thinks that something illicit is going on with Seiya and Usagi in the bodyguard episode...) because Mamoru is Usagi’s boyfriend, not Seiya. It is Sonoko who insists that Seiya’s “relationship” with Usagi isn’t acceptable, and it is her that places the bet that if Seiya’s team loses, she’s not to associate with Usagi anymore. Seiya agrees because she’s competitive, hates to lose, has confidence in herself and Usagi, and knows that Sonoko is wrong. When Usagi tries to interject about the actual nature of their relationship (that they’re not dating,) it’s the girls who shush her because they’re expecting Seiya’s team to lose and that will give them the opportunity to make Seiya feel better. I want to touch on the “Seiya knows Sonoko is wrong” part. I think what a lot of people don’t think about is that when Sonoko placed this bet and openly stated her disapproval of Seiya spending time with Usagi, Sonoko was attacking Usagi’s worth as a person. She was openly saying that Usagi wasn’t good enough to be hanging out with Seiya in any capacity. Seiya took issue with this because she obviously believes and knows differently. She values Usagi as a person. Who is Sonoko to decide who is and isn’t good enough to spend time with her? Seiya is not approaching the situation with entirely selfish motives, unlike the girls who fed into the Seiya/Usagi romance for the hopeful eventuality of them being able to comfort Seiya after a loss when she’ll be forced to stop hanging out with Usagi. She uses this situation to help bolster Usagi’s confidence in herself. That doesn’t change the fact that the bet is stupid to begin with, but it is what it is. Oh, additionally ... Seiya doesn’t tell the school that she and Usagi are dating. Them dating is an assumption that Seiya simply doesn’t correct. It’s worth noting that if she did correct that assumption, it would feed into Sonoko’s declaration that Usagi isn’t good enough to be with Seiya. 4. “Seiya tried to make the rooftop scene about herself and used it as a way to try to take Mamoru’s place in Usagi’s life.” This whole entire scene is consistently misinterpreted and has all of the context ripped from it, because that is not what that scene is. No, it 100% was not the best time for Seiya to ask that question (and no, it is not “can I take his place?” that she says,) but people tend to forget that Usagi is not the only vulnerable person in this scene and it isn’t just about her. It is Seiya who triggers Usagi’s emotional breakdown on accident, and in these moments she is watching the person she loves crumble into pieces. The rooftop scene is about both of them and the context makes that clear. Up until this point, the only person who knew that Mamoru wasn’t keeping in contact with Usagi was Seiya. None of the girls knew, none of them. Imagine the amount of trust Usagi had to have in Seiya in order to share that incredibly sensitive information with her and with no one else, not even her closest friends. Usagi had told Seiya a whole 13 episodes before this one, and since finding out Seiya tried her best to make Usagi happy and to keep her mind busy. It isn’t until a few episodes after this that everyone including Seiya finds out that Mamoru is dead. So Seiya spends all of this time believing that Mamoru ditched Usagi when he moved overseas and that he’s a horrible boyfriend who obviously doesn’t care about Usagi. This is naturally hurtful to Seiya, who grows to genuinely like and love Usagi through the season. She cares for her and doesn’t want to see her in pain, which is why she does her best to help Usagi feel less alone. There is no point in the season where Seiya’s intentions are to maliciously shove herself into Mamoru’s place in Usagi’s life. She has no idea who Tuxedo Mask is. She had no idea that throwing the red rose - her own personal trademark - was going to trigger such an emotional response from Usagi. So here they both are on this rooftop in the middle of the pouring rain. Usagi’s breaking down over how alone she feels, and Seiya’s suddenly faced with the realization that not only did she cause this breakdown, everything she had been trying to do to help her wasn’t working and she failed again. She couldn’t save her system/planets, 99.9% of her people are literally dead because she wasn’t strong enough to save them, and she and the other two members of her team had no idea where their princess was or even if she was okay until the episode before this one. Immediately after the destruction of everything they knew, the Starlights had to flee to an alien planet with alien people, disguise themselves, and pander to a bunch of complete strangers that salivated over, stalked, and harassed them, all while searching for their princess  and fighting the minions of the person who ctrl+a ctrl+x’ed their home system. She had no time to process any of the unimaginable loss and failure she had suffered through. When people talk about the rooftop scene and about how Seiya “makes it about herself,” this is everything they’re forgetting. When Seiya is asking Usagi if she isn’t good enough, it isn’t Seiya trying to weasel her way in, it’s Seiya both coping with her own numerous losses and trying to remind Usagi that she’s there for her. In the end, Seiya is the one that Usagi credits with being able to get herself through everything she was dealing with.

#sailor moon #sailor star fighter #eternal sailor moon #seiya x usagi #seiya/usagi #seiusa #bssm #bishoujo senshi sailor moon #90s sailor moon #pretty soldier sailor moon #usagi tsukino #tsukino usagi #seiya kou #kou seiya #sailor stars #sailor starlights

[electricbarnes]

tell me you still see me

steve rogers x reader

summary: steve has been working a lot lately. you begin to have doubts about your relationship.

↳ songs i listened to for inspiration 

wc: 5.9k | warnings: some angst, overthinking, self-doubt, implied smut 

note: this is a repost from my old account that was deleted. so if it’s familiar, that’s why! i wasn’t planning on reposting but i read it over and decided why not. i have another steve fic that i’m almost done with, so i wanted to post this in the meantime. i made a few minor edits. i hope you like it! and if you decide to reread it, thank you x1000 !!

You arrive at your apartment, hands filled with groceries for the week. You struggle to open the door with the many bags on your arms, but eventually make it inside. You kick off your heels and set the bags down on the kitchen counter. After freeing your hands, you reach into your purse to find your phone. You unlock it and tap on the first name at the top of your recent calls.

The phone rings for a bit before you hear the sound of your boyfriend’s voice saying “Hello”.

“Oh my god Steve, you’re never gonna believe what I saw at the store just now,” you say, thinking of the wild thing you witnessed during your shopping trip. It’s not everyday that you see someone throw themselves into a cereal box display. It was a hilarious sight and you just wanted to tell someone about it.

“So, I was just strolling through the isles looking for some snacks when a-” you’re cut off before getting too into the story.

“Honey, can this wait? I’m about to go into a mission briefing,” Steve says in a hushed tone. Immediately, you feel guilty for interrupting him while he’s busy. It was well into the evening and you had assumed he wouldn’t be working.  

“Oh, uh yeah of course! I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to interrupt anything,” you apologize.

“That’s okay,” he reassures you, “I’ll call you later.”

“Okay, talk to you later then.”

The phone beeps, indicating the call was over. You sigh and go back to the task of putting your groceries away.

You decide to lounge around the rest of the day, trading your work clothes for some comfy sweats and a tee shirt. You spend the night mindlessly scrolling through social media while reruns of some sitcom play on the tv. You even send Steve a few memes here and there. You’re not really sure if he’ll understand them but they reminded you of him.

After eating a late dinner, you channel surf for a bit before putting on a random movie. When the movie finishes, it’s nearly 11pm and you realize that Steve hasn’t called you back. You pick up your phone, tempted to call him but decide it’s better to wait till tomorrow. He hasn’t replied to your texts, so there’s a chance he’s still busy despite the late hour.

Unfortunately for you, being a superhero is a full time job, which means that Steve can be busy at any moment of any day. You knew this going into a relationship with thee Captain America. To be fair though, you didn’t think you’d actually get to know the super soldier like you do now.  

When you met Steve, he was just some handsome guy at the park who helped you with directions when you were visibly lost. You ended up seeing him at the park again a couple days later. Recognizing you, he stopped and asked if you wanted to get a coffee. Who were you to deny this man?

You spent two hours in a café getting to know each other before exchanging numbers. In hindsight, his vague answers about his career were a little suspicious. It wasn’t until you went home that night and saw a picture of Steve in a tweet captioned “idc that captain america is like 100 yrs old, he can still get it 😍”.

Needless to say, you were shocked. While you were feeling dumb for not recognizing him sooner, you also wondered why he didn’t say anything. After an awkward confrontation about the subject, he explained how he didn’t want you to go out with him just because he was Captain America. You were quick to ease his worries and reassure him that you were interested in Steve for Steve, not for his heroic persona.

Since then, your relationship with Steve has been nothing but amazing. He was always so sweet with you, taking you on simple but romantic dates. There was something about that 40s charm that was so endearing. You loved the small things, like how he would always open the door for you or how he would bring you flowers on each date. It was so easy to talk to him about anything and everything. You felt like he was not only your boyfriend, but also your best friend.

There were times where you wondered why he ever picked you, an average person compared to the super people he’d work with everyday. He could’ve had anyone he wanted. Steve would say that you were like his sanctuary from the hectic world of being an Avenger. It meant a lot to you that you could be that person for him. You thought he deserved some peace after everything he’s been through. He wanted to protect you from the evil that inherently came with the job, which you understood, so he rarely spoke about the missions he’d go on. The less you knew the better. Though sometimes, you would wish he’d open up more about what was going on while he was away. Especially since he would be gone for days on end.

It was only a month into your relationship that you realized how hard it’d be when he would leave to be Captain America. It was his first time leaving for a mission that lasted longer than a day. He had to spend a week in some place on the other side of the world with no way of contacting him. Of course, you were worried the entire time he was gone. Despite trying to distract yourself with work and personal tasks, Steve was always at the forefront of your mind.

You had never felt such relief than the day he called you after a whole week of silence. Steve had even asked you shyly if he could come over that night. You felt butterflies in your stomach when he told you that he needed to see you. It was the first time he had spent the night at your place. Having Steve’s arms wrapped around you the entire night just felt right. You knew as early as then that you loved him.

Over the year that you had been together, those long missions became easier to manage. You’d always trust that he’d come back to you in one piece. Steve would sometimes feel guilty about being away for so long that he’d try to make it up to you by taking you on an extraordinary date. But you always assured him that you were happy to just be with him, even if it was just something like the two of you watching a movie at your place.

Lately, Steve has been more distant with you. You’ve chalked it up to the fact that there’s a literal distance between you two since he’s moved upstate to the newly built Avengers compound. Before, he was just a short drive away from the Avengers tower to your apartment. Now, he’s hours away from you. There were discussions of you moving in with him, but your job was in the city and you couldn’t leave that behind.

You both decided to make the best of the situation, calling and texting whenever possible. FaceTiming was the usual occurrence throughout the week, often before bed. You’d tell him about your day in the office and he’d tell you about the new recruits he would train. On the weekends, he’d stay over at your place. It was rare that you’d stay at the compound. Steve said he’d preferred your apartment, claiming it was homier than the compound. Plus, you’d actually have some privacy.

For a long time, it had been a good system. You love Steve and did anything to make the relationship work because he’s worth it. Yet, you couldn’t help the lonely nights where you wondered if he felt the same.

Calls were less frequent. Texts were unanswered. Weekend plans were cancelled because Steve would be assigned to missions during those days. You’d understand, of course. He’s out there saving people! You can’t fault him for that, but it doesn’t stop you from missing him.

Now, it had been almost two weeks since you’d last seen him in person. You had texted him throughout the day, but texting wasn’t his favorite thing. Texts were usually reserved for quick check-ins and reminders of I love you’s. He preferred calling and you did too, hearing his voice was much better.

After learning that he had been back from a short mission, you texted him.

You: FaceTime later? ☺️

You were eager to see him, even if it was through a screen. You were just hoping he had the time.

Steve ♡: Sure.

Later that night, you sat on your bed with your laptop, opening up FaceTime. After a few rings, Steve’s face appears on the screen. A smile immediately breaks out on your face.

“Hi babe!” you say cheerily, finally getting to see your boyfriend after what felt like forever.

“Hi honey,” he says with a soft smile.

Your smile dims a bit, eyebrows furrowing when you recognize the background. “Are you still in your office?” It was pretty late and you assumed he’d be in bed by now.

“Yeah, I was finishing up on some mission reports,” he explains, shuffling some papers on his desk.

“Oh, I’m sorry, I thought you’d be done by now,” you apologize, recalling the last time you had interrupted him from his work.

“No, no” he waves his hand, “I thought I’d be done by now too, but it’s a lot more than I expected.”

You frown at the thought of your boyfriend overworking himself. You want to ask him about it, but you know he’ll say what he always does when you ask about his missions: It’s classified.

“You’re not stressing yourself out too much, are you Steve?” you ask, concern evident in your voice. Even through the hazy quality of the webcam, you can see the tired look in his eyes.

“Never,” he says with a smirk.

“Somehow, I don’t believe you,” you say with a teasing tone.

“You’ve got nothing to worry about honey,” he reassures you. “Besides, I wanna know what you’ve been up to.”

You scoff, “well, it’s definitely not nearly exciting as your week must’ve been.”

“I still wanna know,” he says with that boyish grin you love.

Steve always knew how to make those butterflies appear. You end up telling him about the incident you witnessed at the store which makes him laugh as he imagines the odd sight. He tells you about a prank Tony pulled on him and Sam and you beg him to send you the recording of it. He refuses, but you know you’ll get your hands on the footage eventually. Things felt normal again, just talking to him.

“So I was mixing the dough and halfway through I realized I completely forgot about the eggs,” you were in the middle of telling him about the new recipe you ended up ruining earlier this week.

Steve hums in response. You notice him looking to the side, not looking at the screen and you hear the sound of typing.

“and then a blue monster broke into my apartment,” you make up in an attempt to get his attention.

“Mhmm”

“and he stole all the cookies,” you continue.

“Hmm”

“Steve,”

Silence.

“Steve,” you say with a little more force.

“Huh?” he finally looks up at the screen.

“You’re not listening to me,” disappointment laces your voice.

“I was,” he quickly defends but you don’t buy it.

“Uh huh,” you cross your arms and lean back against your headboard. “What was I talking about?”

Steve glances elsewhere, not meeting your eyes when he mumbles “something about a party?”

You resist the urge to roll your eyes. “yeah, like 10 minutes ago.”

“I’m sorry honey, I was listening, really… but these reports need to be done,” he says with an apologetic look on his face.

You couldn’t stay mad at him, but you did feel hurt that he would pretend to listen rather than just telling you something.

“Okay,” you sigh. “I’ll let you get back to work.”

He must notice the disappointment on your face because he apologizes once more.

“I’ll make it up to you honey,” he promises.

“Are you coming this weekend?” you ask hopefully. He couldn’t come last weekend and you were missing him terribly.

“Of course,” he gives you a tired smile that you return.

“Okay, finish those reports and get some sleep,” you instruct, emphasizing the last part.

“Yes ma’am,” he raises his hand, mock saluting you which makes you giggle.

“Goodnight Stevie, I love you,”

“Love you too sweetheart”

The call ends and you go to bed with a smile on your face.

The rest of the week goes by quickly. You’re excited to get to the weekend because that means you can finally see your boyfriend, in person! Not just behind some screen. It’s been almost three weeks since the last time he came over and you miss his touch.

It was Friday afternoon and you were sitting at a small table in the cafe you frequent, taking a lunch break. Halfway through your break, you got a call from Steve. You were a little surprised to see his picture pop up on your phone since you’re usually the one to call him. Nevertheless, you smiled and answered “Hi babe.”

“Hey honey,” he greets.

“I’m glad you called, I was thinking of picking up a few things from the store after work today. Do you need anything?”

“Uh… about that,” he says in a low voice. Your heart immediately sinks, already knowing what he’s going to say next.

“You’re not coming.” A statement, not a question.

“I’m sorry honey. A mission came up and we leave tonight,” he explains and you almost want to laugh. Of course he’s leaving again.

“How long?” you ask. Maybe it’s just for a day and he can still come on Saturday or even Sunday.

“Two days… maybe three,”

You take a moment to process his words. Part of you saw this coming. It seemed too good to be true that you’d finally have him all to yourself. You glance up, trying to fight the sudden feeling of tears in your eyes. You didn’t want to cry in the middle of a busy café.

“There’s… there isn’t a chance you can skip this one?” you hesitantly ask. Normally, you’d just accept it, but your patience was running thin. This is the second time in a row he’s cancelled on you.

“You know I can’t. This is important,” he says it so sternly, like he doesn’t realize he’s breaking your heart. The missions are always important. More important than you.

“Yeah, but you’ve been working nonstop. I mean, don’t you want a break? Aren’t there others who can go instead?” you argue, voice raising.

“Y/N, I’m going. I have to,” he insists, leaving no room for an argument. You knew how stubborn Steve could be, so you knew he wasn’t going to change his mind on this. Rationally, you knew he probably had no choice in the matter but you took a chance anyways.

“Okay,” you relent.

You can hear Steve sigh before saying, “I’ll make it up to you.”

He’s been saying that a lot lately, but you know they’re empty promises.

“Okay.”

“I love you,” he says much softer than his previous tone.

“Love you too,” you say back, but your heart hurts.

Before you met Steve, sleeping alone wasn’t so bad. Some nights you would be on your phone, scrolling through social media till you eventually got sleepy. Other times, you’d lie in bed staring at the ceiling thinking about your day and mentally planning the next. Too often you found yourself overthinking about something you did, something you wish you could change. Or you would be anxious about something coming up, running through different scenarios of how it’d go. For some reason, your mind wouldn’t let you succumb to the sleep that your body desperately needed. But you were used to it.

Then Steve came along and he’d be there to ease your mind. On the nights he would stay over, sleep came much easier. There would still be nights where your mind kept you awake, but Steve would be lying right next to you. You’d be on his chest, his hand soothingly rubbing your back as you told him about that meeting you were nervous about or how you got in trouble by your boss for a simple mistake. Steve would assure that everything would be okay and you found it easy to believe him.

He always knew when you needed a distraction from your worries, bringing up mundane things like last night’s baseball game or telling you about the modern music he actually started to like. Sometimes, he’d tell you a story from his life in the 40s. Stories like how his friend Bucky would drag him all over town, trying to find a date for the evening. Or about that time he had to star in an action movie when he just started out as Captain America (which you made a mental note to find later on Youtube). You loved hearing about Steve’s old life, curious about what made him into the man you love today.

Sometimes he’d just entertain your wild thoughts, especially when you’re half asleep. Conversations like how different life would be if dinosaurs never went extinct or if flat earth conspiracists were right. You’d be lying with your back to his chest, his arms wrapped around your waist while you mumbled any thoughts that came to mind. He’d listen till he heard your soft snores and he’d give you a gentle kiss on your head before he’d fall asleep too.

Then there would be nights where words would rarely be spoken. A night of soft moans as he took care of your body in ways only he knew how. He’d whisper praises, drawing out moans from you as he hit all the right spots. It was always different and exciting. You never knew what to expect, but he would always be so loving. You’d always stay close, basking in the afterglow.  

After having the comfort of Steve in the night, the times he’s not there feel a lot lonelier than before.

Like now, you’ve got your eyes closed but you’re not sleeping. Your thoughts seem louder than ever and they’re all about Steve. It probably doesn’t help that you decided to wear one of his tee shirts to bed, the faint smell of him making you miss him even more. After he cancelled on you (again) this past weekend, you started to wonder if he even wanted to see you at all.

You want to be mad at him, but how can you be? He’s Captain America! He has a responsibility that he can’t ignore, not even for his girlfriend. Lately, you can’t help but be worried at how many missions he’s been going on. To make matters worse, you’re left in the dark about all of it. He says it’s safer if you don’t know. You just have to trust him and trust that he needs to go.  

But what if he doesn’t actually need to? What if he wants to go so he doesn’t have to see you. Okay, that’s extreme, but it’s a possibility? It seems like he doesn’t even want to talk to you at all sometimes. You’re always the one texting and calling. It’s never really him unless it’s to let you down (again). Maybe you’re just being needy. Were you asking for too much? Are you overreacting? Probably. But it’s normal to be upset about not seeing your boyfriend for weeks, right?

You shake your head, trying to get rid of these thoughts. You pick up your phone from the nightstand. The clock reads 3:12am. You unlock your phone and open your messages to see the last few texts Steve sent.

Steve ♡: I’m sorry.

You: just be safe

             —

Steve ♡: I’m back.

You: okay

Your thumb hovers over the call button for a good bit, contemplating if you want to bother him so late at night. Before you can overthink it, you hit the button. You turn to lay on your side with the phone against your ear, anxiously waiting for the ringing to stop.

“Hello,” Steve answers, voice deep and filled with sleep. You feel guilty for waking him up, but at the same time feel relief at the sound of his voice.

“Hi,” you say shyly. Honestly, you weren’t expecting him to actually pick up. You were prepared to just leave a voicemail.

“Is something wrong?” he mumbles.

“No, no. There’s nothing wrong… I just…” you can feel the heat rising in your face, suddenly embarrassed for some reason. “I just miss you,” you say quietly, not even sure if he’s heard you.

You can hear the shuffling of sheets.

“I miss you too sweetheart,” he says and it warms your heart for a moment, “and as much as I wanna talk right now, I have to be up in a couple hours for a mission.”

“Oh,” the small smile you had on your face quickly disappears. You had no idea he was leaving again even though he just got back the day before.

“I’ll call you tomorrow, okay hon?” he says tiredly.

You feel a lump in your throat forming but you push past it, “yeah… yeah, of course.”

“Love you,”

“Love you too,” you practically whisper.

The phone call ends and the tears start to slide down your face. You didn’t have the energy to fight them anymore.

The last call you had with Steve a few days ago left you torn between logic and your emotions. You knew he was just tired, but you couldn’t shake the feeling that something had changed between you two. In the past, he never seemed to mind talking to you, even in the odd hours of the morning. You always believed that you guys were so in sync. It seemed like he knew when you needed comfort and would be there to provide it.

You would be able to tell when something was off with Steve and though you would always offer to talk about it, he would brush it off. Thinking back to it, maybe he never really opened up to you for a reason.

You began to question if you are more invested in this relationship than he is. It feels wrong to even think so, considering how sweet and caring he is, especially with you. But everyone has their limits, right? Maybe he’s just gotten tired of you. It’s clear that work is his number one priority right now, maybe he doesn’t have time for a girlfriend anymore. He always makes promises of making it up to you another time, but maybe there will never be another time.

The thought of him leaving completely sends a pang of hurt to your heart.

You: can we talk?

You had sent Steve that text what felt like forever ago, but in reality has only been 20 minutes. You had spent that time repeating in your head what you were going to tell him while you paced back and forth around your living room. You were going to ask for a break. You didn’t want to break up with him completely, no, but you thought that this would be better in the long run. You’re hoping a break will give him the space he needs and then you guys can go back to the way you were. You figured it was better to let him focus on being a hero. You didn’t want to become the clingy girlfriend that he’d eventually resent.

You had no idea how he would react. Maybe he would agree. It’ll be tough, but every couple goes through something like this, right? Sure, it’s a special circumstance with you dating an Avenger, but other people have busy partners. You wonder how they manage a relationship when they don’t see each other so often. Maybe you were giving up too easily? But you’re tired of feeling pushed aside, like you aren’t his priority when he’s at the top of your list. You’re tired of feeling guilty for being upset when he can’t come see you. You’re just tired of feeling like you’re losing him.

Just as you start to doubt your whole plan, your ringtone breaks the silence. You pick up your phone with a shaky hand and tap on the answer button.

“Hello,” you say, hoping he doesn’t notice the nervous tone of your voice.

“Hey honey, you wanted to talk?”

“Uh, yeah…” you reply, already struggling to keep your voice even.

“Is everything alright?” he’s concerned and you can imagine the look on his face.

“Yeah…yeah,” you lie, “I uh… I just wanted to talk… about us.”

“Listen honey, I’m sorry about last week but it was really-“ he begins to apologize, but you shake your head, not wanting to hear another excuse.

“It’s more than that Steve,” you interrupt.

“What do you mean?”

“I mean…” you hesitate, trying to gather your thoughts. “Do you realize it’s almost been a month since we’ve last seen each other?”

There’s a pause before he answers, “…I didn’t know it had been so long.”

“Do you even care?” you ask, voice giving in to the mix of anger and sadness you feel. The tears begin to well up in your eyes.

“Of course I care, you know I do” he defends.

“Do I though?” you question. The rehearsed words you mentally prepared are long gone. “…I’ve been sitting here thinking of what I’m doing wrong because I feel like something’s changed between us.”

“What are you talking about?” he sounds genuinely confused, “Nothing’s changed.”

“Steve… we don’t talk like we used to, I barely get to see you. I miss you all the time.”

“I know I’ve been working a lot lately,“ he acknowledges.

“And I don’t blame you for that,” you clarify.

“I know how important your job is, but… but I’m feeling a little left out here,” your voice cracks at the end. You wipe the few tears that started to fall down your face. “I mean, I feel like I barely know that part of your life. You’re gone most of the time and you never talk to me about it.”

“I can’t, for your safety. We’ve discussed that.”

“Yeah and I thought I could handle it, but you’re giving me nothing here,” you argue. “I wanna be there for you Steve, but it’s hard when you don’t tell me what’s going on.”

“I... I can’t. I want to but it’s better if you don’t know,” he says pleadingly. You want to believe him, but you just can’t seem to let this go.

The silence lingers over the phone.

“Maybe we should take a break,” you eventually say with defeat.

“A break?”

“Maybe we just need some time to sort things out. You can focus on your work and when things get better… we can try again.”

“No, no…” he starts to argue, “that’s not fair.”

“Steve, please…” you beg, “just try to see where I’m coming from. I still love you, I always will. I just think we need this.”

He doesn’t say a word, making you anxious.

“Steve-”

You’re cut off by the phone hanging up. You sit in disbelief, letting the weight of the conversation fall on you.

You spent the rest of the night just curled up on the couch. You keep questioning your decision. In your mind, this was the right thing to do, despite the heartbreak you knew you’d be feeling. But you didn’t think it would hurt as much as it does now.

Steve’s reaction made you rethink the idea of a break. You worry that he thinks you don’t love him anymore when it’s the complete opposite. You did this because you love him. You didn’t want to lose him completely, but it looks like you lost him anyways. Maybe, deep down, a part of you was trying to save yourself from the inevitable heartbreak.

The living room was dark, the only light coming from the street lights outside. The tears have stopped flowing, but the headache lingers. It’s almost 2 in the morning and despite being worn out from crying, you have trouble sleeping. You’re about to get up for a glass of water when you hear a knock on your door.

Your first reaction is to panic, because you weren’t expecting anyone at such a late hour. You mentally run through the self defense moves Steve insisted on teaching you. Slowly, you approach the door, trying to not make any noise.

Knock knock knock.

“It’s me.”

It’s softly spoken, but you hear him loud and clear. You quickly open the door to reveal Steve with a look of sorrow on his face. You can’t help but stare at him in shock, taking in his disheveled appearance.

“I don’t want a break,” he says hoarsely, breaking you out of your trace.

You all but pounce toward him and wrap your arms around his neck. He immediately wraps his arms tightly around your waist. You bury your face in his neck, inhaling the familiar scent that reminds you of home. Despite everything that happened over the phone, you feel a flood of relief from finally being in his arms.

You stood in his embrace, relishing the feeling of him being there for a good minute before you pulled away. You meet his eyes, noticing the tears surrounding them and it hurts your heart.

“We should talk,” you say, voice rough from the crying just hours ago.

You’re sitting side by side on your couch. You look at him and can’t believe that he drove all the way to your place in the middle of the night. You can see the worry on his face and you want nothing more than to comfort him, but you hold back because you want an explanation first.

“So..” you start off, “you don’t want a break?”

“Y/N, I know I’ve messed up, but please don’t give up on us,” he says with pleading eyes.

“I don’t want to. I thought that’s what you would’ve wanted. I thought…” you shy away from his stare, “maybe you didn’t want me anymore.”

Steve looks at you with guilt, realizing for the first time how much he’s hurt you, “I’m sorry… I know I’ve been saying that a lot lately but I never wanted you to feel like I didn’t want to be with you.”

“Then what's been going on?” you ask, looking back at him, determined to know why it took you asking for a break to get him here.

Steve looks down at his hands, visibly nervous. Why? You have no idea.

“Talk to me Steve,” you encourage him. “Please.”

He turns to look at you, taking a breath before saying “I’ve been looking for Bucky.”

You’re immediately confused. Out of all the things you thought of him saying, this was never one of them.

“Bucky? Bucky Barnes?” you question. You knew of his friend from the stories he would tell you. Bucky was practically a brother to Steve.

“Yes,” he says easily, but it just makes you more confused. The thought of Steve going crazy briefly crosses your mind.

“He’s the Winter Soldier,” he explains. You recognize that name from the news. He was a part of the incident that happened in DC.

“What? H-How would that even be possible?” you question, not really being able to wrap your head around it. From what you knew, Bucky died in war back in the 40s.

“HYDRA was using him. They found him after he fell from the train and they brainwashed him for decades until I was able to snap him out of it when we fought in DC,” Steve continues, “After he saved my life, he disappeared.”

The pain in his voice is evident as he talks about his friend. You scoot closer to him and you take his hand into yours, offering him comfort.

“Sam and I have been following any lead we could to find him,” he explains, “I’ve been doing that along with all the other missions I get sent on. That’s why I’ve been gone so much.”  

It finally makes sense to you.

“Oh Steve,” you say, “I wish you would’ve told me this sooner.”

“I know honey, I should have…” he squeezes your hand, which you reciprocate.

“HYDRA is evil. I’ve seen how cruel they can be,” he continues. “The thought of them coming anywhere near you kills me,” his voice filled with emotion and his eyes gloss over with tears. “Sometimes it’s hard for me to get out of that headspace…”

He looks away from you, head down, “you shouldn’t have to deal with that.”

You reach over with your free hand to touch his face. “Steve,” you turn his head to look at you. His blue eyes shine even in the dim lighting. “Please don’t shut me out. I want to know these things. You don’t have to tell me everything, but I just want to be there for you. You shouldn’t have to go through this alone.”

Your eyes beg him to understand you. “And I get it now. Bucky is your friend and I know you’ll find him again someday. Just don’t put all that stress on yourself,” your thumb wipes away a stray tear falling down his face. “I want to help you in any way I can. You can always come back to me.”

He subtly nods and looks at you, faces only a breath apart. “I don’t deserve you,” he says quietly, like he’s in disbelief.

He closes the distance, lips finally meeting yours. Your eyes flutter shut, as you continue to cradle his face in your palms. You focus on conveying all your love for him into the kiss. You pull away briefly to move on to his lap as he leans back into the couch. His hands naturally fall on your hips as you get impossibly close.

You break the kiss again, “Promise not to leave me again,” you plead, but your tone is much lighter this time. You never wanted to leave his arms again.

He looks up at you, eyebrows furrowing a bit, “I can’t promise that,” you give him a sad smile, already knowing that. His hand leaves your hip to push a stray hair behind your ear, “but I can promise that I will talk to you more and show you how much you mean to me more often. ”

You genuinely smile at that.

“This is important to me,” he says, pulling you closer, emphasizing his words, “you’re important to me.”

“I love you”

“I love you too,”

You lean back in to kiss him again, smiling in between because you’re happy to have your Steve back. And you know things will get better from here. There’s still going to be some tough nights when you miss him and he can’t be there, but you know he’ll be missing you just as much. You won’t have to doubt his love for you again.

You pull away once more, “Remember how you said, you’d make it up to me?” you question with a mischievous look in your eye.

“Yeah,” he says looking at you expectantly.

You simply raise your eyebrows and smirk at him. He catches on and mouths an “oh”.

You’re lifted from the couch so you latch onto Steve’s shoulders, giggling loudly at the sudden movement. He carries you into your bedroom, where he definitely made up for lost time.

You slept much easier that night.

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