#I will cry doing so

[onaperduamedee]

"It is hard to exist. Man is a knot into which relationships are tied, and my ties serve me hardly at all. What is this in me that has broken down? What is the secret of substitutions? Whence comes it that a gesture, a word, can give rise to endless ripples in a human destiny? Whence comes it that in other circumstances I should be overwhelmed by what seems to me now remote and abstract?”

― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Flight to Arras (tr. Lewis Galantière)

For a maybe Moiraine meta, I was looking for a completely different quote from Flight to Arras about the expectation of death in battle when I landed on this one and UH.

Ever since I finished FoH, I regularly get hit by waves of sorrow thinking about how desperate and isolated she grew in the two last books. About how frayed her ties to the people who she may have cared about. About how fruitless her legacy must have seemed (her cramming Rand's mind with a lifetime of knowledge because she knew that was the only thing she could give him now). About how uncertain the utility of her sacrifice was.

As she crossed the doorway and burnt, did she experience regret? Relief? Resentment? Even hope?

It's not even her death that hurts. It's witnessing her actions and words up to that moment, and inferring what must have been her true, unveiled state of mind.

Light, my chest feels hollow.

#meta #wot meta #moiraine damodred #wot book spoilers #the fires of heaven #remblai #if you've been following me for long enough you know that regularly I will fall in love with a character that is very Saint-Exupery-esque #and I will assign them random quotes from Night Flight or Flight to Arras #I will cry doing so #but uh yeah Moiraine reminds me a lot of Rivière #something about how much it takes to go 'I will die with the hope that others will continue the fight after me' #not 'my sacrifice will save the world' but 'I trust people to make the right choices after I'm gone' #like I get so sad about how desperate she was in the last few books and still STILL #truly the most character #I want 10 books about Siuan because she's just the best character but Moiraine is just so ridiculously tragic #DO YOU FEEL THE TERROR AND PITY

[astearisms]

catalysts, protectors

#man those episodes #so many things put into perspective #like Simon’s role as a protector and his kindness and empathy and compassion and existence being the catalyst for the rest of ooo to #flourish #and Betty is a protector of Simon #I wonder if the last two episodes will explore more of her character? there’s so much to be explored about her giving so much of herself #to Simon but not thinking about what she wants for herself #do we get to explore her feelings or see her at all? will she have changed or learned to let go #I think there will be some sort of closure for the both of them #but at what cost #I am still crying over that scene with Simon’s memory of Betty and their song #my art #fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #golbetty

[foundfamilywhump]

the question, you see, is not ‘is it too ooc for this character to cry’ but rather ‘what circumstances would push this character to cry’

this is the whump wisdom, go forth and make that character cry

#gav gab #‘it’s sooooooo ooc to make that character cry’ no you see I think it is ooc #to put this character through absolute unimaginable hell physically and emotionally #and NOT let them cry about it #sometimes canon framing and media format and genre #limit the ability to let a character emotionally Feel all the insanely traumatic shit that’s happened to them #that doesn’t mean that in a different medium or genre exploring these things #it would be ooc for them to do so #send tweet. let those characters feel and emote. it’s not ooc or cringe and anyone who tells you it is is a reductive dick

[wordfather]

this is inexplicably my favorite tiktok ever it brings me to tears every time why did he do thatttt

#WHY DID HE DO THAT #i think it the buildup its so fuvking funny #im crying h fucking BUCKED

[mydairpercabeth]

I really love the way they have written Sally and Percy’s relationship in the show. Sally being the mom of a neurodivergent kid and feeling like shes constantly failing. Her being isolated because she doesnt have anyone to talk to about this as a single parent. And she makes mistakes, she feels human. Then we have Percy feeling like a burden to his parent. He cant understand why none of his parents want him around even though its for his wellbeing. It’s so heartbreaking but so real.

#mom of the year sally jackson #YOURE DOING YOUR BEST SWEETIE #IM SO PROUD OF YOU SALLY #this episode was so good #i did indeed cry #percy jackson #sally jackson #poseidon #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson the lightning thief #pjo tv #percy series #pjo tv show #walker scobell #virginia kull #toby stephens

[anessthetic]

happy new year everyone :]

#fnaf #fnaf fanart #fnaf movie #william afton #mike schmidt #vanessa shelly #abby schmidt #don’t really like this piece cuz i was drawing in hurry and couldn’t do nothing #crying at the messed up details #but you know #i’ll show it #ANYWAYS THANK YOU FOR YOUR FEEDBACK ILY ALL SO MUCH #SEE YA LATER #my art

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[hansoeii]

stede bunnet

#no thoughts just ed and his emotional support bunny #i felt like a genius coming up with stede bunnet this better make you laugh #because im still giggling over it #praying that his name is anything close to this because i need it #fun fact my bunny who sadly passed away in 2020 looked exactly like the one ed adopts and it made me cry a bit seeing that scene #her name was soe and I changed my username for her #she was the most prcious baby she got me through all the hardships #so I believe stede bunnet can do that for ed too #ofmd #ofmd 2 #our flag means death #our flag means death 2 #ofmd fanart #edward teach #taika waititi #blackbeard #ofmd 2 fanart #my art #digital art

[kathaynesart]

REPLICA PLAYLIST

MUSIC UNDER CUT

I have been receiving requests for any songs that inspired Replica, so here, have my personal playlist. Sorry it’s not Spotify/Soundcloud but they don’t have some of these songs available so uh… guess you’re stuck with YouTube vids. For fun I'll include my personal titles for them (which might give a few hints of what to expect in the future/end).

Replica Main Theme - “Die for You” by Grabbitz Like Father Like Son Like Brother (Omega and Shelldon) - "As Above So Below" by Alistair Lindsay Mikey's Theme / The 1st Vision - "Suzume no Tojimari" by Nanoka Hara Military (Mad) Dogs / Central Park Colony - "Imperium" by Madeon Shanghai - "Icarus" by Madeon Boom Goes the Donnie-mite (Mikey/Donnie vs the Sweeper) - "The Red Zone" by Mitsuoto Suzuki The Day the Sky Bled Red - "7 Seconds Till the End" by Nobuo Uematsu Going Out Like a Boss (Raph and Leo) - "Agape" by Nicholas Britell Remembering the Right Way (Mikey and Leo) - "The Souls of Many" - by Alistair Lindsay Mystic Hands / The 2nd Vision - "Am I Dreaming" by Metro Boomin x A$AP Book 2 Trailer - "Sea Dragon" by Covet 7 Years Later - "Iron" by Woodkid Leo's Theme / Attack on the Labor Camp - "Ego Death" by Polyphia Omega's Theme - "Touch" by Daft Punk Flat Lines (Omega Alone) - "Die Toteninsel Emptiness" by 1000 Eyes Spear - "Monsters" by Tommee Profitt Final Protocol - "The Kraken" by Katie Dey Rise / Epilogue - "Close in the Distance" by Masayoshi Soken & Tom Mills

I will admit, it's a little embarrassing since you can easily see the patterns of what I've been listening to for the past year or two. I swear I listen to more than just videogame OSTs, these songs just jive well with the story and I often find lyrics distracting when brainstorming scenes. Regardless, the music I listen to is such an important part of my creative process and some of these songs really defined the scenes I now have locked in my head. So I figured it was only fair to give them the credit they're due.

I will continue to add to this playlist, and will note in comic updates when one of these songs is applicable!

#lofi Donnie anyone? #also sort of celebration for 19k followers wow #should I do something else for it? #I particularly like Leo's theme being titled Ego Death #very fitting #Also the final song makes me cry because the lyrics are just too dang perfect #I'd like to do an animatic with the song when this story is all done #check out the lyrics if you get the chance #in fact I'd like to do an animatic trailer for the Book 2 Teaser #we'll see though #i can't allow myself to get too distracted from the comic itself haha #replica #rottmnt replica #kathaynesart #playlist #music #spoilers? but like... you know how it ends in the movie so not really? #kind of? #did you see the rise movie? #then you’ve been spoiled sorry #posting again at an ungodly hour #I am tired #save rottmnt #rottmnt #TMNT #Donatello #casey jones

[illputdownmyrootswhenimdead]

strawbebbie………. 🍓 blubberrie…….. 🫐 oraneg……… 🍊 peeache…….. 🍑

#i just woke up and im hungry for FUIT but i don’t have any and can’t eat it anyway :( #it’s so fucked up i love the taste of fruit but my mouth and stomach do not. crying so loud #dove talks

[floweroflaurelin]

How do you want to do this?

—

Goodbye, Faithful Caregiver.

#critical role #fcg critical role #cr fcg #bells hells #critical role fanart #critical role campaign 3 #cr3 #bells hells fanart #critical role art #cr fanart #otohan thull #fresh cut grass #floweroflaurelin art #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #dorian storm #orym of the air ashari #cr frida #imogen temult #laudna #chetney pock o'pea #sam riegel #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #rip fcg #AHHHHHHHH #SOBBING AND SCREAMING #this took SO LONG but I had to get these feelings out #four days on a single project I need you to understand how unprecedented this is for me #sam riegel WHY do you keep making me CRY

[beeturtlle]

Maizula nation please where r u

#maizula #azula #mai atla #they r so. #i think we as a fandom ignore how obsessed azula actually is with mai and all the boiling rock situation #my god when she find out abt mai's new boyfrriend and she just WHOS THIS IMBECILE. #IJUST HTINK THEY R PPERFECT TOXIC YURI AND YOU ALL SLEEP ON IT #Mai its like #imagine the worst person you ever meet it's now crying like a child demanding you answers #what do you even say in here

[beybuniki]

band-aid ^-^

#1st one basically has everything in it that I love to see in the world #my point is that deku eventually stops crying but bakugo never stops being stressed out he is an anxious chihuahua #2nd one was a small comic but i literally cant do comics and i didnt want to do the backgrounds so i just colored in this central sketch #sorryyyy just imagine the lore :(( #bnha #midoriya izuku #deku #bakugo katsuki

[contactlessdrivethru]

just finished opla mood

#oh followers. i really truly really loved it #i was worried with the first episode but wow it truly got great #episodes 6 and 7 made me cry so much #imo. the most important thing about adaptation is to make the audience fall in love again #with the story and the characters #and oh followers did it do that in spades #they are SO dear to me #i love them profoundly #truly. truly i had a great time #opla #one piece #one piece live action #monkey d luffy #roronoa zoro #cat burglar nami #black leg sanji #vinsmoke sanji #usopp #straw hat pirates #straw hats #mugiwara #mugiwara no ichimi

[lazylittledragon]

more t4t steddie because it turns out it wasn't the black mold and i'm still deranged

#steddie #stranger things #t4t steddie #stevie harrington #eddie munson #context: my hyperfixation lasted my entire year in my last house so i assumed it was mold or co2 poisoning or something #i think it just went away because i was. Severely depressed #anyway today i thought about steph getting her hair coloured or doing her nails and just enjoying being a girl after being closeted #and almost started crying

[hamable]

I’m thinking about Mahito’s great great uncle maintaining and preserving a peaceful and beautiful thing in a way that to an outside observer looks tedious and unimportant, hoping to pass the duty off to a successor but ultimately he cannot find one and dies with it.

I’m thinking about the specificity of the blocks being made and handled with care, not with malice or ill intent.

I’m thinking about Hayao Miyazaki, a bastion of beautiful 2d hand drawn animation who refuses to retire.

I’m thinking about a world where animation is so rarely made with love over profit and efficiency.

I’m thinking about how, though the old man didn’t see it, the next generation still hangs onto a piece of that beautiful, tedious thing and takes it with them because it feels important.

I’m thinking about Mahito being told he should forget, but no. He shouldn’t.

#the boy and the heron #the boy and the heron spoilers #tbath #how do you live #hayao miyazaki #studio ghibli #I love seeing a film that I can’t quite process right away and then hours later my brain is like DING DING DING PROCESSED! #fully crying actual tears right now I’m Not Okay #I hope he knows how much he means to so many people