#WHAT A WAY TO START 2021 OH MY GOD CAN YOU BELIEVE

[dawnoftime22]

a black cat.

| N.R

Warnings: None

Summary: You and Yelena wanted a dog, but it seems Natasha had other plans, along with a secret she kept away from you.

Word Count: 1.6k

Category: Fluff

A/N: An old work of mine I chose to finish... more of my past works will be posted for now until I finish all my wips that have been left in the dust, so you'll be seeing a glimpse of my old writing here and there

| Started on 21/12/2021, 11:22 AM |

| Finished on 16/03/2023, 10:10 PM |

"The padding of footsteps, and the sound of a soft meow."

детка = baby

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"So...can we get a dog?" You ask, leaning forward at the open space from the backseat.

Nat's eyes were focused on the road in front of her, her hands gripping the steering wheel as she thought about the question.

Yelena was beside her in the front row of the car, and her eyes brightened up when you mentioned about getting a dog.

"Ooh! Yes!! Pleasee? Can we get one??" She asks, looking at the redhead like an excited little kid.

"Oh, my god." Nat says under her breath. She was tired of the two of you begging to her for weeks to get a dog, but she loves you too much to straight up deny it. Instead, the redhead has been making up excuses.

"Come on, Clint has one, we should have one too!" You try to encourage her,

"Then you can go visit Clint just to see the dog." She said to the both of you, turning the wheel to make a smooth turn.

"Yeah, but we barely visit him," Yelena mutters, putting up her pout as she looked at her hands that were in her lap.

Natasha's eyes flicker towards Yelena before going back to the road, the atmosphere going silent.

"Fine. If you don't want a dog, then maybe you're a cat person,” you said in an attempt to convince her to at least get one pet, if not a dog, as you turned to look at the window, arms crossed.

Your eyes went to the rear view mirror, looking at her face, but your head still fixed to point at the window. It seemed like Natasha’s expressions had changed for a split second, before it faded away.

“I saw that!” You jump forward in your seat, the orange streetlights passing by glowing over your skin.

“Saw what?” Nat tried playing it off, but you can see right through her deception. The blonde next to the redhead in the meanwhile, turned her head to look at the both of you, her eyes filled with curiosity.

“You definitely like cats.” Now, Natasha was smirking, and Yelena stared at her with wide eyes and her mouth open.

You stayed silent for a few seconds. Nat looked away from the road with the moment she could, her smirk now a smile. She had a certain glint in her eyes, and honestly, you could already tell she's holding a secret. “...Wait. Don’t tell me you already have one and didn’t tell us?!”

An unbelievable expression was on your face. “…Did you?” Nat's eyes drifted to yours for a second before focusing back to the view in front of her, her eyebrows raising.

“You said I shouldn’t tell you.” Yelena rolled her eyes while shaking her head, not believing what is happening.

You cuss under your breath. Damn the redhead and her stubborn personality.

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After you arrived home, Yelena went straight for her room, saying she wanted to sleep. She's also probably disappointed that Natasha didn’t accept the question of having a dog.

Nat, on the other hand, sat on the living room couch. The dimly lit room hitting her skin in the most perfect ways.

You smile softly, seeing her from the hallway, still near the door since taking off your shoes.

You walk over to her, quickly getting on her lap and embracing her.

You nuzzled your nose into the widow's neck, lettiny out a sigh of relief. A relief to be able to cuddle her almost everytime you see her. Meanwhile, Natasha could be heard giggling, the vibrations could be felt on her neck.

Not before a moment, you still smiling, you pull back and instead went to rest your head on her shoulder.

The redhead was watching the tv, her emerald eyes shining due to the lighting of the screen.

You stare at her for a bit, but soon got up with the help of her shoulders, facing her with your legs around her waist.

You moved your head closer to hers every second, stopping right before your lips meet hers.

Natasha's eyebrows furrow in confusion at the sudden stop.

"You wanna tell me about that cat now?" You teased her, wanting her to give an answer before you gave her what you want.

"Not before you give me a kiss, детка," she challenged. Your soft lips were inches away from hers, making her even more eager to just fill in the gap, but she wanted you to do it.

You smile, her returning it back with a heart-melting smile.

Neither of you did anything, except her scrunching her nose up slightly at waiting and staring at you.

Finally, you inched closer until both of you could feel soft lips touch one another.

She gently pulls away, but still keeping you close. "You're adorable." Natasha said, a knowing smirk on her face, making you go hide back at her neck.

"Shut up." You mutter, her eyes shining with amusement you couldn't see.

"Now come on, get up." Nat suddenly said, having an intention to go somewhere.

"Wait, what?" Your voice was filled with confusion, and you pull back slightly from her to see her face.

"Just get up!" She said with a smile, with her hand moving up in a way to express her seriousness.

"Alright, okay!" You got off her, letting out a small laugh, while she rolled her eyes, and went to lead you away.

When she stops, its at the backdoor of the house. You were curious, knowing that it usually stays locked in order to keep intruders out, and would only be unlocked whenever taking the trash out or emergencies, but for this situation, it seems different. The lock clicks when she turned the key, and she opens the door, her steps going outside. You follow from behind.

Soon, a small meow sounds from under.

You look down, and yellow eyes can be seen staring into you. A soft but curious face looking at the new person that it's friend has brought.

She tilted her head before her friend, Natasha, goes to kneel down in front of her.

Her eyes had a certain shine in them, it was similar as to how she would look at you, but only that it was different. Her hand goes off to rub the soft fur on the black cat's head, down to it's back.

Within the silence, most of it filled by the purring of the cat, Natasha looked up at you, who's been staring at it with a small smile.

"Well? Don't just stand there. You said you wanted to know more." She got one last pet in before putting her hand to her side to let you touch it.

"What's it's name?" You bent down, putting out your hand for Liho to sniff at first. The cat went to rub its head onto your hand, making you feel its cold nose every now and then, but also her way of showing that she accepted your request.

"Liho." A cat named after what means misfortune in Russian. You couldn't have thought any name that fit any better.

You hummed. "Ironic, but a beautiful name for a beautiful cat."

"Beautiful just like you." At that, she looked at you with a raised eyebrow, but her eyes sparkled.

"Cliché." She turned her head back to Liho, and while the small furry friend had its eyes closed because of you scratching and stroking it, its eyes opened after a bit, meowing as if it could understand what the two of you were talking about.

"See? Liho agrees." She laughed, shaking her head, but her heart filled with warmth.

A quietness that only had a few noises of purring, bodies shuffling, and the few crickets that live by, awake for the rest of the night.

"Hey, what are you guys do--" Both of your heads snapped to look at the voice with an easily recognisable accent that came from the entrance.

“Is that a cat?” the blonde asked.

Silence was all that responded.

“Wait…” Yelena's eyes flickered from the furry friend to you, and then to Natasha, piecing together what she was seeing, “Have you been taking care of a cat without telling us??”

Natasha's eyebrows furrowed, her gaze moving back to Liho to avoid her sister's look of smug.

“No... I just see it whenever I take out the trash," she tried covering the truth. Even though it was quite obviously, true. You held in your laugh, your lips tucked in. She almost gave you a deathful glare when she saw you.

“Bullshit. You just wanted to have it all to yourself.” Yelena accused her with a playful voice before she joined to stay beside you. You let her touch the cat by moving your hand. The moment her hand felt the soft fur, her eyes brightened up, and you could see a flicker of excitement.

"Can we take her in?" You ask hopefully, looking at her in such a precious way, that she can't even give you an excuse or deny the request. Then again, she's grown far too attached to her small friend anyway. Even if she doesn't admit it.

Later that night, the three of you went back out to grab some supplies for the newest member in the family. Yelena, whose energy was low after the day earlier, wasn't as low anymore when she went with the two of you. She was far too excited just to keep a pet.

Even Liho was happy to have a few more people to hang around with.

Yelena did want a dog rather than a cat, but Liho is still fluffy and cuddly to have around, so she accepted it. Maybe one day though, she’ll get one.

After a few weeks later, you'd sometimes see Nat hanging out with her small friend. The way she looked so content, it made you adore her even more.

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[skibasyndrome]

what do you think wilmon is doing right now at this very moment on april 23, 2024?

oh my god sjkaskdfhdsafkadshf this feels like a math question almost, wait, I am so lost on the timeline.......... happy car scene was 2021, right? Either way THANK YOU, WHAT A LOVELY QUESTION 💜💜💜

Okay well I'd like to believe that they are currently taking a little evening walk through Stockholm (where both of them study at university). They're meeting Felice for dinner later and, responsible as they are (mostly because Simon will not let Wille get in the way of his studying, pretty and kissable and right there as he is), they've already finished their reading and assignments for the next day back at the library (a good place for studying because there's less risk of giving into the temptation of having a very pretty, very kissable boyfriend right there). They're holding hands. Wille has taken Simon's hand and buried it in his coat jacket while still holding onto it tightly because while he'd love to swing their hands around between them (he will normally never miss an opportunity to show the world that this is the guy whose hand he gets to hold) he knows that Simon does not enjoy the cold one bit, and he will do anything to keep him warm. It means they can't walk quite as briskly as they normally would and it also means that they keep bumping their shoulder into each other, but that's honestly not a problem, in fact that makes it just a little bit more fun (because, with that as well, Wille will never miss an opportunity to show the world that this is his boyfriend and that he is Simon's boyfriend and he's very happy to be that couple hogging most of the space on the sidewalk). They're enjoying the last minutes of sunshine, both because it makes the cold a little more bearable (Simon doesn't mind having to squint, give him every last ray of sun please) and because, in Wille's opinion, Simon just looks extra beautiful in the golden light (like it's not actually the sun, but him that's glowing). Simon pulls his hand out of Wille's grasp to fix his beanie and pull it further down, hiding his ears from the relentless wind and Wille gets that, but it's really hard not to pout when he's suddenly no longer able to touch Simon. And like he can read his mind (every day it gets a little more difficult to believe that Simon doesn't actually have psychic abilities), Simon turns to give Wille that look, lips curling in the corners of his mouth like he's trying to keep that beautiful, wide grin that Wille knows so well from breaking out, eyes crinkling in the most adorable way; that look that means you're unbelievable, you're such a sap, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, you make my heart ache. And Wille, knowing full and well that he is a sap (and that Simon loves it), bites his lip so he doesn't start giggling (no, years later he still hasn't gotten over those butterflies that flood his chest when he can see his own love and adoration mirrored back in Simon's eyes) and that's all it takes for Simon to slip his hand back into Wille's coat pocket and to intertwine their fingers again as they continue on their path.

(a photo I took on a walk in Stockholm for the ~mood~)

#wilmon #WELL THAT ESCALATED #sorry Martina you truly bring out the worstbest/bestworst in me <3 #themarsbar #answered #young royals

[sweetmariihs2]

List of inspirations that I noticed in ✨️The Amazing Digital Circus✨️

an almost-essay (PART 1)

When I watched the first episode for the first time I started to notice several similarities to other subjects that I also like and know, other fandoms and popular things on the internet, and I soon thought about sharing them on Tumblr (which I'm doing now).

I know there will be things that other people have noticed that will be missing from the blog, but I will try to include all the things that I remember recognizing at that moment. Feel free to share them, though!

I don't know the formal names of some things I'm gonna mention, and also my english It's not the best, I'm trying to practice my writing <3

I'll have to divide this blog into two parts because Tumblr doesn't support more than 10 images per blog. grrgrrgr I really wanted to put everything together but I can't. At the end of the blog I will put a link to part 2 and you can continue reading [when i finish the part 2 of course]

1 - Popee the Perfomer

Popee the Performer is a low-budget animation made in 2000, at the time when 3d animation was still a new technology. It's a collection of shorts and they talk about three circus performers' interactions. People found this on the internet in 2021 and they started a new fandom on top of it. What makes this show talked about it's the disturbing situations the characters put themselves through. There are a lot of violent scenes and sometimes the characters die by the end of the episode, but when we go to the next one they're just alive again, and that makes us question if they are living stuck in an eternal loop with no way of getting out of that small circus setting.

The 3d is pretty simple, mostly because it's old, but that makes me think about the connections between PTP and TADG are the aesthetics, the whole "disturbing adult cartoon about serious topics with a children's colorful aesthetic" thing, and also those connections with the Nintendo 64 graphics. I'M GONNA MENTION IT TOO!!

And a part of this fandom also it's part of Raggedy Ann and Andy's fandom. They were pretty close in 2021.

2 - Raggedy Ann And Andy

Ragatha, next one

I'm kidding there's more

Their fandom started around 2021 because the YouTube algorythm just decided that it was time to recommend a video about Raggedy Andy to EVERYONE! And that's how I discovered them too <3 (I WAS THEREEE I WAS THERE). Andy got the main focus and he was everyone's dream boyfriend lol

Also that's completely unrelated but I wanted to say that I'm one of the people whose video was recommended to everyone through YouTube algorythm and helped the fandom to grow even more (I'm so proud of myself guys I'm sorry awnqbehdjwndbwjdnh)

I believe that if that first video that helped me (and more people) to discover them were never recommended to us, maybe Ragatha wouldn't even have that design!! It's alright that Ann is a doll from the 1900s, but the whole "Raggedy Ann And Andy" thing wasn't a fandom topic, they were just normal ragdolls and they were recognized only by grannies and "the anabelle doll" (this one makes me pissed)

3 - Nintendo 64 (and old 3d art)

And this recognition that it is a fandom united this subject to other famous fandoms, leading to the same audience, and this audience is also TADG's audience. I'll talk more about this at the end of the blog! (Edit: Part 2 of the blog. *silently cries*)

And there's this blog:

That low budget 3d aesthetic it's turning really popular recently. I'm not much of an expert on the subject since I don't know much about games, but I recognize it from the old graphics and my biggest reference is Mario 64. There's a good explanation for it being so popular, I have a theory that it's related to liminal spaces, but I'm not sure. Still, it's worth mentioning.... and also that bubble character really looks like chain chomp!!

They're besties

4 - liminal spaces (backrooms and the "dreamcore" aesthetic)

happy balloons because the backrooms scare me (i hate it)

I think if you're on Tumblr it's very likely that you already know what the backrooms are. A part of our reality, but outside of it. There are floors and floors of eternal levels, where you wander in the same place and don't go anywhere. As if you had broken the matrix and were trapped outside, in a bug. This has become very popular on the internet and it's interesting that it is being used as inspiration for creating a show.

Furthermore, there was also the popularization of aesthetics such as dreamcore, traumacore and weirdcore, which consist of images that look like they came out of a dream. Things that you recognize, but don't know where they came from, like a deja vu, which makes you uncomfortable. It's extremely linked to the backrooms, since it's the same feeling. Many of the images are things that take us back to childhood, to the past, but they are not right, as if they were corrupted. Old 3D is also used a lot to make some of these images, like the example I gave of the Nintendo 64. The fandoms are all interconnected!

In this whole concept they also like to be inspired by childhood characteristics, such as old images of toys, empty birthday parties, playgrounds, and it also takes us to that famous sensation on the internet that I don't remember the name of, but it is basically feeling afraid of a place where people should be going, but they aren't. Abandoned places. The fear of being alone. All those topics revolve around each other. They makes us question abour reality, "do I even exist?" (I know I do, but writing characters that way and exploring the possibilities is kinda nice)

I know a brazillian youtuber that made a good video about it, her name is Replai and in the video she talks about how Poppy Playtime's art was made, but I know that most of the people reading this don't know how to speak in portuguese so... yeah. It's a good video.

5 - Children's aesthetics (but something's off)

This gif speaks for itself. It's that traumacore/dreamcore/weirdcore thing that I was talking about.

Still talking about that empty feeling of knowing that something it's familiar but don't knowing where it came from, childhood memories can be related to this, as they are vague, distant and sometimes carry a feeling of sadness. I'm not a great expert on the subject, but somehow the way that's explored scares us, I know there's a good explanation on the internet. This reminds me of the reason why people are afraid of clowns: they wear this fixed smile on their face and try to appear friendly, but it's this frozen, empty expression that leaves us afraid that there are other intentions underneath. And the fact that they are so related to childhood and children's innocence makes us fearful, because we don't know if they can do any harm to them. (of course, this all happens subconsciously, you don't think about it that way but your brain activates this instinct of fear) (not you YOU, people with that phobia)

I refuse to believe that these things are not interconnected. There is a strange feeling that can be explored from this childish aesthetic and connection to childhood.

Many media are using this aesthetic as part of their stories, especially horror ones. Five Nights At Freddy's was a pioneer, exploring this in the early 2010s, and then there were other franchises like Poppy Playtime, Bendy And The Ink Machine, other FNAF games (and there are also discoveries of things that do this unintentionally and that were created before this popularization, like Popee the Performer. In music we also have great examples like Melanie Martinez's old albums, during the Cry Baby era. There are also other aesthetics who like to explore this childlike-creepy vibe, and they're a little unrelated to all this stuff, like Morute/Dollcore). Whenever I talk about this I remember FNAF SB Daycare, as it is the result of all these topics we have talked about so far. The Security Breach DLC "Ruin" decided to explore this fear of empty, abandoned places, but which once had happy children walking through the corridors. This feeling is very scary.

Do you remember when I gave clowns as an example? The circus is also a way to explore this scary+childhood feeling. A place where there should be lots of games, but which only causes fear, as in the case of those scary clowns. It's quite common in the media for the circus to be used as a focus of terror, however in the internet version we were talking about just now, it doesn't have to be directly a horror circus, just feeling that childish sensation and feeling that something is wrong is enough. Enough to make us feel uncomfortable. It's like the characters were suffering, but they can't scream for help, and it's a disorted vision of how a circus should look like. Hi Pomni!!

The Daycare Attendant also explores that.

6 - Bendy and Fnaf (for the same reasons I already told you all, but one more)

Jax it's Bendy's and William Afton's lost son. We don't need no DNA test.

(I'm obviously just kidding btw, his design was probably inspired by them, MOST ESPECIALLY BENDY and maybe the Cheshire Cat from Alice because of his smile??? Idk)

stay tuned for part 2 <3

#tadg #the amazing digital circus #pomni #ragatha #zooble #jax #gangle #kinger #bubble #caine #backrooms #liminal spaces #raggedy ann and andy #popee the performer #five nights at freddy's #fnaf #weirdcore #dreamcore #traumacore #poppy playtime #bendy and the ink machine #clowncore #spamton

[yeyinde]

HELLO! In 2021, I read your ao3 work, "baby, (dont) fear the reaper" for the first time. For 3 years since, i have been haunted. Occasionally i would go back and read your work front to back. Tbh, i didnt know much about dbd lore at the time. i read it bcs it has some vibes that im into, and boy oh boy, those vibes do not disappoint! Halfway through i realized that if your work was a novel, i would buy it 100%, no matter the cost. I fell in love with how the reader was portrayed, how such a somber and melancholic personality can be twisted into such a calculating, patient, and analytical character. Danny too, how the hell did you capture such a narcissist is beyond me. Reader's descend into revenge felt normal, a natural progression, like how a river flows into the sea. Though i never expected Reader to start hunting Danny back, i thought Reader will always be the prey, never the predator. Though, there are tells, from how the reader feels a bit detached (?) from their childhood, carrying heart scars from a toxic childhood friend, how Reader continues their friendship with the aforementioned toxic childhood best friend (a love for rebels, maybe? Or is it a want for the dark resulting in admiration, and then, love?) despite the harm it inflicts. (That flashback chapter to Reader's childhood will always be one of my favorite chapters!) Whatever it is, Danny is the nail in the coffin, pushing Reader into the cliff to freefall into madness. Danny is the real head scratcher, though. Even though there are whole chapters dedicated to Dannys's POV, i still cant understand why Danny is so enamored with Reader. Yes, Reader gets him in a way no one can, but what is it with Reader being a past victim of a homicide that attracts Danny so hard? He even lets his guard down around Reader-he invites her to his motel for god's sake! Albeit to craft alibi, of course, but still. There's a whole chapter on it, where Danny finds out about Reader's case, but i still cant wrap my head around it. As the author, would you mind delving into Danny's head again to explain why Reader has such a chokehold on Danny? (no pressure, of couse!)

-also sorry for bad English, love you! <3

i love talking about bdfr! it's my baby!! i still have the original Google Doc with all the chapters, the playlist, and the outline because it was one of those things i could never really part with. and i can't believe you've enjoyed it so much!!! i'm so thankful for that because this was really a labour of love. i left pieces of myself in it that i don't think i can ever get back, and i genuinely don't think i could ever write anything like it again. it was my lightning-in-a-bottle moment, for sure. and ahhhhhhhh, 2021??? has it really been that long?? it feels like it was only a few months ago that i was sitting in my car eating a lobster roll and writing out the "Home Depot" opener on my phone lmao

but Danny's obsession with their case stems largely from his own narcissism, really. it's also his eventual downfall. Danny (and most, if not all, of the Ghostface Killers) is canonically obsessed with horror. a very morbid fanboy. so him meeting a surviving victim of one spurns his curiosity but also, his competitiveness. Danny is the showstopper. everything he does is very theatrical. he can't help the nagging sense of inferiority whenever someone else comes along. so he's caught in a loop of comparing himself to this other person, and also angry that you let yourself get caught by someone so subpar.

eventually, Danny comes to the conclusion that you're supposed to be his Final Girl, but someone else got to you first. and it's the anger, the jealousy, the obsession that really kicks everything into motion between them. and the reason Danny comes to this conclusion is a bit of a misunderstanding in three parts. Cat and Mouse (killer versus spunky Everyman Journalist); the Perfect Victim (Final Girl Blueprint); and then Two Sides of the Same Coin (or: there was always supposed to be two Ghostface killers, right?). that's the outline i stuck to when writing their specific arc.

this got super long so i put my notes on all three arcs Danny goes through under the cut. i mapped this story out pretty meticulously, so i hope my initial outline sheds some light on the insanity that is Danny lmao

Cat and Mouse is just a manifestation of Danny's boredom. at this point in his life, he's pretty stagnant. this arc would be Halloween H20 for him. the Florida Murders haven't happened yet, but he's been all over the US and no one has come close to catching him. Jed is still a persona he can use without worry of being caught.

and then you come along, and you're immediately wary of Jed. this hasn't happened much for him. he's able to read people with a shocking amount of ease and knows how to tune himself to their personality. either being overly friendly (Leslie and Jed), flirtatious (Gemma and Jed), competitive (Colton and Jed), or extremely competent (Jonah and Jed), but you're the outlier. the one he can't read. he tunes himself into the Old You, but it obviously doesn't work anymore because that version of you is gone. he misreads you. this strikes a nerve. it's never happened before.

it's exacerbated by your wariness of Jed, too. the way you go out of your way to avoid him, despite how much he adjusts his supposedly infallible personality to match you, it never seems to work. you're always on edge. you never trust him.

and then you make the comment (to his face, no less) about him being a narcissist. and this shouldn't be as huge of a moment as it is. Danny's been doing this for a long time, and it's kinda crazy to assume no one has clocked his Ghostface persona. but it's the fact that you say this so openly. and given everything that's happened to you, it heightens the stakes for him. for the first time in a long time, Danny feels like he could (potentially) be cornered. he also feels seen. and for a narcissistic serial killer who craves attention and admiration and fear (as noted in his POV chap., song choices), this is straight dopamine for him. it's everything.

so, he tosses you into the role of his foil. the one who will chase him to the very brink. but he doesn't anticipate the fact that you'd almost willfully ignore the warning signs right in front of you just to remain inside this bracket of normalcy you're still desperately clinging to (which is your own narrative downfall). he goes out of his way to make you catch onto him, almost angry that you don't.

it then kicks off the second part. he starts to consider you HIS Final Girl. but there's a problem. you're not his. you'll never be his. for such an unrepentant narcissist, this is almost too much. he's bordering on the edge of utter fury and an almost noxious jealousy. he wants to be your demise so badly that it bleeds into just pure, unfettered want.

and then the final part of their story is Twisted Soulmates. it kinda struck me as odd that every single Scream film had TWO Ghostfaces. it's kind of the blueprint. but DBD does not. they just had Danny. so i started thinking about what would happen if there were always supposed to be two, and added elements of Danny's loneliness. he wants, desperately, to share his work with someone who understands but this sort of thing would never appeal to the general public that's he trapped inside. he also risks getting caught. it can never happen.

until you. your anger at the man who did this to you, who ruined your life, is as potent as his desire to kill. he can see it in you. this darkness. this shifting, ugly rage brimming just below the surface. it makes his hackles rise because you could be the perfect partner.

it's a big part of why he spends so much time trying to "show off." why he gets so jealous when you focus your attention on Michael Myers instead of him. and why he feels the need to get rid of Leslie. she's a moral obstacle in your way.

he wants your attention now. he wants your everything, but there are parts of you that he'll never have, and this loss is too great to ever let your relationship work in the "real" world. but in all honesty, he's fine with being your eventual demise if you decide not to go with him. being your FINAL killer is something he fantasises about a lot. he wants to kill you from the moment he sees your wariness over Jed to the very end when he makes you chase him all the way to Utah.

but then the Entity intervenes, and suddenly Danny has a way to have everything he wants. your death (over and over and over again), and you with him (forever, always, eternity). but his narcissism does not let him see the killer you're shaping into. and when you end up turning the plot on him, using your "friend" as bait to lure him in, Danny knows he's gravely misunderstood you. in fact, he's never really known the real you at all.

this, of course, just spurns the obsessiveness in him further, making it very unlikely that he'll ever let you go.

#and please don't feel the need to apologise at all!!! writing in a language that isn't your mother tongue can be extremely difficult esp Eng #and i wouldn't have known if you hadn't mentioned it!! #your English is perfect (and much better than mine) 🖤 #also sorry this got sooo long!!!!! #i have all these extra notes that i could never really anywhere so the moment someone is like “tell me BTS about bdftr” #the lore just comes out in a flood

[codename-adler]

DANCE TIL YOU FIND SOMEONE TO DIE FOR UPDATING??? YES GOD YES!!!

Yes!!!!! It really warms my heart that you still care anon 🥹🫶

Adler's PiPs ~ Project: dance 'til you find someone to die for (dtyfstdf)

Premise for newcomers: What if instead of Seth, Riko had tried to get rid of Aaron? The night Seth was supposed to "accidently" die, Ravens found their way to Aaron instead. By pure dumb luck, Kevin answers his call for help and from then on, Kevin and Aaron are thrown together to brace themselves for every deadly trap sent their way. The dangerous game they play isn't just Exy anymore, and their hearts might get caught in the crossfire. >>Here on ao3 or >>here on Tumblr (masterlist of all parts)

Oh dear lord I have not updated since… 2021. I am so sorry. Things in the brain and the body got in the way. But that does not mean I have stopped thinking about Kevin and Aaron and the alternate timeline I have created. I’ve just had to scale down the plot a little bit, for now, as well as my expectations and goals. It became too big for me and that scared me, and discouraged me. So now it’s little bites and little steps! Or what they call “filler episodes” in the industry… We love those, right?

Up next: Shower Scene. Will it be sexy? Uh, yeah, you could say that. Will it be angsty? Oh yeah. That’s the main goal. I’m drawing a lot from personal experience with physical scars and how it affects routine activities such as washing up. I wanted to give a new perspective on scars, different from Neil’s or Andrew’s, and realized that I could expiate some of my demons through Aaron (like one does), who now has scars similar to mine due to every injury he has suffered in the fic until now. I also just love shower scenes in aftg fics. They’re so tense and charged!! There’s Kevin, and there’s Aaron, having an emotional conversation under hot water, only separated by a stall wall. Ugh! The boys have got to get hot and bothered about each other at some point, ya know? Anyhoo, that is the starting point of this new era for the fic. It’s small in the grand scheme of things, it’s full of dialogue (my péché mignon), it’s good therapy (for me, not them) and well that’s the dream for now!

Now, what after that. There are, evidently, unavoidable parts that must happen in order for the story to progress both in its own timeline and according to the canon timeline. There is the infamous New Year’s in NYC / holidays at the Nest thing, where I want to explore how Kevin copes with both Neil and Andrew locked away, and how Aaron helps (or aggravates) him considering how changed their friendship is. Thea also has to make an appearance at some point, both for the sake of this fic and for her own spin-off with Katelyn. And also so I can end things between her and Kevin in a way that I deem respectful and believable enough for both Kevin and her. I have little fillers here and there that mean the world to me, but they all lead to a First Kiss. They gotta get there at some point right? I’m not sure yet which of them will make the first move. I got multiple scenarios for each. There most certainly will be blood involved.

I really want to give you a snippet. I’ve got nothing ready or non-spoilish. But maybe, just maybe, by the time I post the corresponding part, y’all will have forgotten about this? So, um, there:

P.S.

Ye olde playlist

#project: dtyfstdf #project: dance 'til you find someone to die for #dance 'til you find someone to die for #kevaaron #kevaaron fic #aaron minyard #kevin day #seth gordon #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court #twinyards #kathea 🌺 #aftg kathea #katelyn aftg #kateaaron #katelyn mackenzie #katelyn young #thea muldani #theodora muldani #riko moriyama

[actiasteeth]

ASKBOX MEME 052 / SLEEP TOKEN'S THIS PLACE WILL BECOME YOUR TOMB

All prompts taken from Sleep Token’s 2021 album, This Place Will Become Your Tomb. Adjust as needed.

"Anything to get me to sleep."

"It's a pain they know they don't understand."

"Wash away the blood on my hands."

"Don't wake me."

"Take from me. Leave nothing left; take everything."

"Just make me bleed."

"Give me all that I want."

"You know you hypnotize me, always."

"I am certain that you and I are crashing course."

"You will be mine."

"Did you not say we were made for each other?"

"Do you like that?"

"Bury me to the sound of your name."

"Keep the freak show talk to a careful minimum."

"I'm still full of the love you want."

"Seems your heart is locked up and I still get the combination wrong."

"Or are you simply waiting to save your love for someone I am not?"

"Maybe you believe that in the end, you will be better off that way."

"Won't you fall for me?"

"I feel like I'm losing touch with what I am again."

"I remember why I cannot pretend that I never think of you in all this screaming silence."

"Oh, god, I wish you were here."

"I am yours in the end."

"Every once in a while, something changes."

"It's too late for me now; I am altered."

"She's perfectly misaligned."

"I'm caught up in her design, and how it connects to mine."

"Either way, I'm into it."

"I can tell I'm falling further, again."

"I won't turn away."

"It's far too late for me."

"I swear she is not like any other."

"It's too late for me."

"Just take it all for nothing again."

"You can't recall my name."

"I've been left no choice—don't you see that?"

"You come crawling back to me, but I'm already on the ground."

"We all know that talk is cheap."

"What would you do for me?"

"Why don't you just say what you wanted to say for once?"

"This is the start of something."

"For the time being, I will still avoid my own questions."

"We both bury that history deep."

"It seems my hell is your high water."

"I'll smile through the agony for you."

"I will admit my defeat again."

"I will accept that I can't pretend we will ever be together."

"I can't hold myself together."

"I'd give anything to borrow your indifference."

"It still makes my blood run cold to remember what I did before."

"It still makes my blood run thin to remember what you are to him."

#rp meme #askbox meme #ask meme #sentence starters #sentence meme #sentence prompts #rp prompts #askbox prompts #rp starters #m #.am #.actiasteeth #long post

[crowtrobotx]

I know this is out of the blue, but thank you so much for being a real one 👍✨️

Like I have nothing against people who see Heisenberg as a gay man, they’re entitled to think that. But I draw the hard line at people who feel the need to bash others just because their views don't align, and then when confronted use the piss poor "it's just a joke" or "it's just an observation" excuses. If you're going to be a bitch at least have the balls to own up to it.

Anyway, loved your work since 2021 and wishing you all the good vibes. 🤗

Oh my goodness, thank you!!! This is such a kind message and I appreciate you so much. ❤️ Good vibes right back at you. I’m glad that my rantings have resonated with folks because sometimes I wonder if *spongebob voice* I’M the maniac. Getting dragged into this stuff really makes me feel like it sometimes, haha.

Yes! To be clear I also truly do not care what your HC’s are! I love that there are people for whom gay Heisy is their thing and I hope they are having fun and keep making their art/fic/etc! Even if I really can’t stand the popular fanon ship I’m so glad it exists for folks who enjoy it and I am not going to spend my time posting about what I don’t like/agree with when they’re not hurting me and I can spend my time on stuff I do like!

And like. I know. I KNOW a lot of these people are teenagers. And I struggle sometimes because “do not fight literal children” is a rule I try to live by lmao but I also really don’t like seeing people target and mock folks for harmless fun. (It’s on sight if a 25+ year old starts putting this shit in the tags tho. I know they’re out there.)

Still, it’s extremely weird because they always defend themselves with “it’s just a joke/it’s not that deep” or “oh my god no one is stopping you from liking x why are you so pressed 🙄 i can’t believe you’re letting my nasty opinions bother you just because i put them right where you can see them with the intent of insulting you.” 💀💀💀 Like what could possibly be the point of doing this if not to, at the very least, actively try to dissuade people you don’t like from engaging with the community? Obviously no one can stop me but if I know that there are dickbags out there who are going to vaguepost and make fun of me when I do, I don’t care how confident and thick skinned you are (and I am very,) it’s still going to sting!

People are not bothered because they’re disconnected from reality and think they’re really married to a pixel man, they’re upset because life is hard enough and you come into your hobby space to have a good time and then find lame ass idiots infesting it. I also think the whole “ohhh my god why are you so upset he’s/she’s not real!!” is a blatant attempt to discredit the hurt parties by once again insinuating that they are “crazy” which once again conveniently ignores multiple realities, chiefly that 1) most people are not upset by a simple opinion that their fave wouldn’t fuck them IRL, they are upset at the blatant meanness of the person making the accusations and 2) even if they are genuinely hurt by the thought because it’s a coping mechanism for them, why does that make it okay for you target them? What gives you the right to harass and mock people who are not bothering you? Do these people think they’re doing these folks a ‘favor’ by forcing them to contend with what they perceive to be some kind of delusion? Shut the hell up. Why do people decide it is their god given right to hold strangers on the internet accountable for psychological “problems” that they’ve completely made up.

Anyway SORRY I have a serious problem shutting the fuck up lol. I have never been good at phrasing my thoughts in a coherent way especially when I’m grumpy. I am very glad my little circle is full of awesome, open minded and levelheaded folks and not gatekeepers/weirdos (derogatory) who have decided that diversity of opinion in fandom is bad actually and that women and femmes specifically are enemy number one.

#asks #whisperinghallwaysofmirrors

[degreeofdisorder]

young royals s3e3 episode reaction

episode 3 is where everything always turns to shit so I'm super not looking forward to this lmfao

ohoho the queen of sweden is having a nervous breakdown. so relatable of her.

I'm lowkey also having a breakdown over wille immediately going into prince mode just bc his mom isn't doing well.

"why do you think I didn't tell you anything? because you wouldn't be able to handle it" NNNNNOOOOOOOO

oh my god that one hit WAY too hard. I can't deal with the mommy issues today.

ugh deeply agreeing with wille. simon needs to lock his social media and throw his phone away. he's starting to stress me the fuck out.

"both for me and the people around me" oh that's... quite the sentence. I know simon just got sucker punched by the fact that it's always gonna be like this

"all I want is to be with you" well you can't!

bro I hate teenagers so fuckin much lmfao

NOT BORIS WANTING TO PSYCHOANALYZE AUGUST

that was psychic warfare from wille idc

"he's decided that I'm evil" lmao you are

"I don't see the point in being nice if he's never gonna forgive me" "well, sometimes being nice to others can make you feel very good" JDKFJDLFJDKFJDKFDJKDOGIDL BORIS LOVE OF MY LIFE

THAT IS SO SHADYYYYYY LMFAO

I genuinely cannot stand vincent. if there's anyone in that school who's legit evil it's gotta be vincent.

oh. yeah. I'm feeling murderous.

fuck you country of sweden you know what you did.

FREDRIKA TYING UP HER HAIR TOO WHEN THE HOUSEMASTER CALLS FELICE OUT OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOD

god. teenage girls make the world go round.

NOT WITH THE SCHOOL INSPECTORS PRESEEEEENTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

NOOOOO SKRKSJRLSKFLSKFLSKDLSKDLD

YOU TWO KEEP REHEARSING

NOT PLAYING A SINGLE KEY AND HUMMING SIFKDLFKSLFKSLFKSLFKDLFKDLFF

oh my god my baby boys

it's the fact that them being so public means that not one (1) person in that room believed they were "rehearsing" jdkfjdlfjdlfjdl

the crown prince alone in a soundproof room with his boyfriend? sure.

god that was HILARIOUS

"I just wish I could get a single moment with you without getting interrupted" [get interrupted]

cinema

of course vincent is going to LA. my bro is going to be an oscar winner in no time, given all the dramatics.

oh

oh sweet jesus

simon, this is NOT the time or place to die on the labor movement hill

oh god

man being a teenager was so exhausting I'm so glad I don't have to do anything like that again

when they eat the rich I hope vincent is first in the grill

I hope felice singlehandedly closed the school lmao

I don't wanna like the whole sara and micke thing I really don't but UGH it's so sweet.

oh

OH

oh he's not is he

IS HE FUCKING

BROOOOOOOOOOO THERE'S NO FUCKING WAY

"he seems nice" oh august you are so clueless

this isn't happening skfkdkgkdkflf

oh my god what is it with royal boys and going "you're the only one I can talk to" y'all can afford a therapist can't you

NOT THE BAKING OHHHHH MY BABIES

"you may have inherited my diagnoses, sara, but you're not me" oh fuck

bro I am like. super into sara and micke hashing shit out, neurodivergently

I can't take wille seriously in the chorus. I cannot. he's so funny

oh god sara is coming back

oh fuck me up I love it when they're all sun kissed and beautiful and have nice lil conversations in front of everyone bc they're boyfriends publicly ohohoho

oh

oh my god

oh is that gonna be the hallway scene

not august waving at sara??? bro get up????

omg the looks from stella and fredrika were SCATHING

not them skipping and swinging their hands together you guys I'm losing my whole damn mind it's getting bad it's getting so bad

WHOOOOOOOREEEEESSSSSSS

OOHHH MY GOD

holy fuck that was....... quite the scene huh

um

let me rewind just now for a lil bit

for science

my brothers in christ you are sluts.

something abt them getting to have slutty slutty sex and finishing off with an I love you heals something in me that has been broken since 2021 ngl

like look at them! they're my boys!!! they're in love and they get to have somewhat public (bc like, a hallway? really?) sex bc they're together and everyone knows!!! they love each other and they can express that in a physical form!!!!! my little strumpets!!!!!!!

ah. fucking figures, huh

of course, thanks micke

oh they're in the literal and metaphorical afterglow!!!!! I love this for them

oh that's not a great train of thought to have after sex now is it

"you can trust me" wille, my love my darling, I love you, truly, from the bottom of my heart, but can he? can he really?

oh that's an actually genius move to show both sides of the coin

I do think simon probably should not be there. son's gonna get too much attention

oh I just remembered the episode description a hahahahahahahaahahahahahaha ha oh I don't want to watch

that was precious but I swear to god simon think with your brain for once aaaaaaaaaa FUCK

great now she just posted his location. and he also fully reposted it didn't he

is he genuinely that dumb like at this point even if you're not famous by proxy you still should know not to post your live location?????? Simon. please.

oh right I forgot the monarchy can't be seen involved with that...... I was more worried abt his safety ldjfldjfldkf

oh

oh no

I was right to worry about his safety

FUUUUUUCK

ugh

#yr livenats #young royals spoilers #yr s3 spoilers

[dizzyduck44]

All Is Not Well At Alpine

So I think it’s time we talk about the French Elephant in the paddock. Alpine/Renault

It can no longer be ignored. Something is terminally wrong at that team and has been for a while.

I’m old enough to remember the Renault team the first time round and their questionable antics, however either rightly or wrongly I have always laid the blame for that era at the feet of Flávio Briatore. However the writing has been on the wall since 2016 and finally we are out of excuses.

Let’s start with the revolving drivers. Palmer, then Sainz, then Hulkenberg, then Ricciardo, then Ocon, now Alonso and Piastri. If you have been a fan of any of those drivers you will probably feel that the team treated them poorly, threw them off at the first opportunity, or if a “better” option appeared. Netflix caught it perfectly, the toxic production line the team had going. And how many times have we excused them for it, “oh he’s under performing” “well of course you would take that driver if he became available”. It still breaks my heart thinking of Carlos being binned off and just looking broken having given up his Red Bull ties for Renault to be booted out a year later. They were literally playing God with people’s F1 career.

As an engine supplier. The split with Red Bull was messy and public. The signing of Daniel Ricciardo felt more like a middle finger to Christian Horner than actually looking to Daniel’s best interests. Isn’t that evident that after a single year, he was on his way out of there through choice? I remember Paul Di Resta saying in 2020, “when Daniel leaves the team I hope he tells you what he’s done for that team, because it’s unbelievable”. As far as I know, we never found out.

Then the partnership with McLaren. Everyone seems to place the switch to Mercedes engines with Seidl, but as I recall at the time, with McLaren beating them in the championship engines had started to be a little slow in delivery or mid season, amazingly, couldn’t be saved or fixed for the papaya team meaning grid penalties. Again we all smiled and chalked it up to gamesmanship.

To sabotage your competitors is one thing but then we discover that Esteban has mechanics he really doesn’t get along with. Now each to their own on Esteban as a character, I’m not going to tell you what to think*, but to sabotage your own driver in such a way. I can’t think of a single reason why you would do that.

Then 2021, the big money star driver is off to your rival and then out of nowhere bye bye Cyril. That was probably the first WTF are they playing at moment.

Let’s talk the young drivers academy. They had collected a wealth of young drivers into their academy to fight for an F1 seat. To date, have they placed any one other than Romain Grosjean? Zhou left and went to Alfa as there was no way in, Lundgaard went to Indy same reason, Piastri has walked away from them now. If you look at what happened with Max Fewtrell, what as an academy did they do to support their drivers following the death of Hubert? I think at this point the Alpine Academy is a failure and a huge waste of money. At least Red Bull and McLaren have their juniors and “finds” dominating the grid. Even Ferrari legitimately have placed 2 drivers. It kind of breaks my heart that is where Abi Pulling is, as I think she is young enough and talented enough to punch through, but sadly is at the wrong team.

Then we need to discuss Alain Prost. Not only to leave the team, but do so with such scathing criticism of the organisation. Alain is respected up and down the paddock and if there was any doubts left something was very wrong, this was the tipping point.

So then we arrive at what has transpired over the last two months. Alonso saying that the threat of Oscar taking his seat was constantly being used, Oscar believing there was no seat for him. I don’t think he’s even got to do the two FP1s he was promised.

Don’t get me wrong, I have never been Fernando’s biggest fan. The damage he did at McLaren in 2007 and then the unnecessary public outbursts during 2017 are still raw, but he is clearly one of the top 3 drivers in the sport at the moment with Lewis and Max. Charles, George, Lando they can’t cope with him yet. So why make him think his seat was ever in doubt? Open the cheque book and ask how much for how long. It’s not hard!

Then to allow Otmar to go out there (and I honestly believe he believed what the team told him) and belittle Oscar’s integrity, for us then to find out Alpine had no legally binding contract with Oscar at all, has to be the final nail in the coffin.

There are no more excuses. This is a team that has been free falling for a while. They treat everyone connected to them appallingly and when you step back and look at it, people have been fleeing that team for a number of years now. Including press officers!

As much as I want Gasly to get a real shot outside the Red Bull programme, if I were a fan of his I’d be screaming “no, don’t do it” every time a move to Alpine is mentioned. I really don’t want Daniel to go back there. The fact he paused for so long before saying yes he would go back speaks volumes.

I’m sorry Alpine. No more free passes, no more excuses. We see you for what you are.

*For the record, I personally have no issues whatsoever with Esteban.

#alpine #alpine f1 #renault f1 #fernando alonso #oscar piastri #carlos sainz junior #carlos sainz jr #nico hulkenberg #daniel ricciardo #esteban ocon #f1 #formula one #f1blr #formula 1 #mclaren f1 #sorrybeenthinkingaboutthisawhile

[marmixedwithabitofintellect]

The Story of You

Hi my friends! The new part is here! This are starting to get real, and baby will be here sooner that we think!! I hope you enjoy this new part, come and talk to me about what you think, it really makes me happy to have your feedback :) All the love, Mar 💜

Disclaimer: In no way do I wish to spread hate or negative opinions about any of the characters here depicted, this is just fiction and with the purpose of entertaining you guys

Click on the visuals to enhance your reading experience!

Part 12: In Between

September 16, 2021: Week Twenty-Eight

New York, New York. 11:15: AM

I was pulled out of my thoughts when Randy called my name, it had been a week since I had left Harry and the band on tour, they were currently travelling from St. Louis to Philadelphia for the next show.

I smiled and followed her, she took my vitals and then I went into Betty’s office and waited for her, a few moments after Betty came in, “Well hello to my favorite patient!”, I smiled, “Hi Betty! How are you?”, “I am well darling”, after a hug we sat down on the chairs

“Now first things first: happy third trimester! Wohoo”, I laughed a little, “I can’t believe we are already here”, “Me neither darling; let me tell you that these thirteen weeks will fly; now. For the second order of business, let’s see this baby “

We moved to the little stretcher she had on the room, she measured my belly and then felt it to see where baby was located, “Oh! I can see little one decided to grace us with his or her presence huh?”, “Yes, they did, they are especially responsive to dad’s music”

“Aww that’s very sweet, how is he?”, my heart dropped a little, “He’s okay, he will be coming here in three weeks’ time”, “Oh that’s perfect, still set on a homebirth?”, I nodded, “Okay so we will discuss what we need to have ready for the birth”

After she finished, she went and turned off the lights and turned on the ultrasound machine, “Okay let’s see this baba”, she turned the screen and as soon as she placed the probe to my belly I could see their profile

“It never gets old”, she laughed, “No it doesn’t, let me take some measurements and then we will do a 4D okay?”, after she finished she gave me some copies and we sat down back again, “So I will like to see you every two weeks now, and when we hit the 36 weeks I will see you weekly, just to make sure everything is perfect okay?”

I nodded, “Also, I would like for you to start taking some iron along with your vitamins and supplements, this brand works”, she handed me a post it with a name and I made a mental note to buy them on my way home.

After booking my next appointment we said our goodbyes and I made my way to the subway, as I was waiting for my train, I texted Harry the ultrasound.

Harry. Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. 12:00 PM

Jeff and I were leaving the gym after a workout when my phone dinged with a text, I took it out and smiled when I saw it was Y/N, Jeff turned to look at me and said, “What has you all smiley huh?”, I laughed, “Wouldn’t you want to know”

We got into the elevator and then stopped in our floor, “Remember we leave at 2”, I nodded and went into my room, I removed my mask and went to turn on the shower and grab some clothes, I set my phone to charge and took my shower.

Once I came out, I grabbed my phone and decided to open the text Y/N had sent me and I felt my heart leap out of my chest.

From Y/N <3 (11:50 AM): Hi dad! I miss you! I hope you have an awesome concert tomorrow! [Attachment]

To Y/N <3 (12:20 PM): Oh my god, hi baby! 😍😍😍 I miss you more my heart, cannot wait to see you, talk later?

From Y/N <3 (12:25 PM): Sure, talk later H, break a leg!

September 19, 2021: Week Twenty-Eight

Harry. Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. 5:45 PM

 I turned to look at the ultrasound Y/N had sent me once again and smiled, I was in awe at how quickly they were growing and how crazy it was that the next time I saw them we would be 10 weeks away from meeting them, and how beautiful Y/N looks being pregnant.

Y/N. I felt a wave of sadness overcome me as I thought of her, although we talked seldomly I still felt I was so far away from her. “H everything okay?”, I got pulled out of my thoughts by Jeff who was sitting next to me.

I shrugged, “I just miss her”, “Mate you saw her yesterday and she will be back for the Nashville show”, I furrowed my brows, “Huh?”, Jeff dropped then pen he was using to write and turned to give me an incredulous look

“You were talking about Olivia, right?”, “Oh yeah sure”, he sat up straighter, “Harry, we are friends, please don’t lie to me”, I sighed and ran my hand down my face, “No, I wasn’t, I was thinking about Y/N”

“Well, I wasn’t expecting that; everything okay?”, I debated internally but ultimately decided I needed some advice, and just as I was about to speak Mitch came into the room with three coffee cups, “Hey, everything okay?”

He handed Jeff one, who after thanking him told him, “We have some girl issues”, as he was making his way to the sofa, I was sitting on he said “Oh?”, I thanked him for the coffee and he sat down next to me, Jeff took this as a sign to continue

“Well, you see Mitchell, Mister Harry Edward Styles here spoke up and said and I quote, ‘I miss her’, to which I answered that she would see her soon”, Mitch spoke up again, “Olivia? Yeah, mate she will be in Nashville won’t her?”

“But wait Mister Rowland, the story gets better; upon making this comment I noticed he became serious, to which I asked if he was talking about Olivia”, Mitch then turned to look at me, his face was one of surprise, but it also held a little smugness in him, “You were talking about Y/N”

I nodded and slumped on the couch, Mitch doing the same, “Oh wow mate, how do you feel?”, I sighed, “As I was about to tell Jeff, I don’t understand what is going on, I haven’t for a while; when she reappeared, I felt something in me come back to life, something that died the day she broke up with me”

“I had a plan, it was always going to be her, the one I married and had children with, then things went south, and we broke up, and those were hard months for me; but then she came back, and it wasn’t only her, it was our baby too, and now, well, now I don’t imagine my life without either of them”

Jeff spoke up, “And Olivia?”, I turned to look at him, “I feel comfortable when I’m with her, I was able to discover things about me that now help me be who I am”, “But you don’t love her”, after Mitch said that the room went quiet, “I care for her”

“Pfft, love and care are not the same things Harry”, I turned to look at Mitch, “I know, but the love I have for her comes from a place of care, of understanding”, “And for Y/N?”, I turned to look at Jeff before answering his question

“She’s having my baby, no pun intended; and this sounds like a dick move, but I love her for that, for the fact that even if we were not together, she still kept it, told me and is letting me be a part of every single step on the way”

Jeff spoke up, “You are right, you are a dick, you seem to forget that the baby is hers too Harry, and honestly? She owes you nothing, and as your friend I’ll tell you this: should she have chosen to be a single parent, she would have done an amazing job”

Mitch then interfered, “H, I will be honest with you, and I hope you don’t take this the wrong way: sort your feelings, you are all over the place, I mean just a few weeks before Y/N let you know she was pregnant you were ready to move in with Olivia; and with Y/N, you need to separate whether you have real honest feelings or just excitement for the baby, don’t drag her into your mess”

I nodded, “Thank you guys, for listening, I have a lot to think about”

September 21, 2021: Week Twenty-Nine

New York, New York. 10:30 AM

Little bean you are now twenty-nine weeks old!!! I really can’t believe we just have eleven until we get to meet each other, I’m getting really emotional just thinking about meeting you and kissing your lips and cuddling you <3 I have started ordering some things for your nursery, since we do not know if you are a little boy or a little girl, I’m sticking to very neutral colors and I’m loving the whole vision board and ideas I have! When we see your dad in a few weeks we will be buying your stroller, car seat and many other things; speaking off, your daddy has been busy being a rockstar all over the US, but don’t worry, we have been talking about you and he is excited to see you in about two weeks! I love you with all my heart bean, I’ll write to you soon.

I closed the diary and placed it on my drawer, I left my room and went to the kitchen, as I was preparing myself some oats when my phone dinged from the other side of the counter; I served my breakfast and went to grab it, turned it on and saw I had a text message waiting

From H. Styles (10:45 AM): Hey you, you busy?

To H. Styles (10:48 AM): Hey, not at all, why?

From H. Styles (10:49 AM): Up for a FaceTime call?

To H. Styles (10:50 AM): Sure, give me five

I went into my room and grabbed my laptop and breakfast, after that I sat down on the living room and I sat down to wait for his call, which came through a few minutes later, I pressed answer and waited a few until I saw him appear on the screen.

“Hey rockstar, how are you?”, he smiled, “Hi love, doing good, how about you?”, I smiled, “That’s good, I’m good too”, “I hope you don’t mind, but I ordered some breakfast to each with you”, “You’re too sweet”, we both ate in silence for a few minutes before I spoke up

“So, how’s tour going?”, “I have loved every single time I have been on stage, I missed it so much”, I smiled, “I am glad, I have been catching some videos and photos, and your outfits are awesome, I texted Lamby a few days ago”

“Speaking of, why is Sarah taking a picture of my outfit every night?”, “Oh, it’s just for a little project I have going on”, he gave me a teasing look, “Oh come on, tell me”, I made a zipping motion, “I will just tell you that it’s for the baby”

“Speaking of, I have been thinking of some names”, my heart started beating a little faster when he said this, “Really? Mind sharing with me?”, “Sure, let me grab my notebook”, he left the screen and returned only a few seconds later

“So, for-“, I interrupted him, “Before we continue, we do agree that Robin will be the middle name, right?”, he gave me a look that had wonder, appreciation and I dare say love from him, “You still remember?”, I smiled “I do, and I still want to do it”

He nodded, “Well once agreed with the middle name, I was thinking, for boy I like the names Carter, Milo, or Elliot”, he turned the page, “And for girl I like the names Juniper, Blair or Julia”, he closed his notebook, “What do you think?”, “I love them Harry, those are great suggestions”

“Have you thought of any love?”, “I honestly haven’t, been busy ordering some nursery stuff, which will hopefully come in time and maybe you can help me set it up?”, his smile went even bigger, “I would love to”

We both sipped our coffee in silence for a few, “Spoke with your mom and Gem a few days ago, they are very excited to come see you, hopefully soon”, “Aww I would have loved to join that call, I can’t wait to see the three of you”, I smiled a little and took another sip of my coffee

“How’s your dad?”, “He’s good, if everything goes to plan, he will be here with Gemma, he is excited to see you and is trying to see if he can stay until the baby is born”, “I am excited to see him too, I think I didn’t ask you, how did you tell him we were having a baby?”, he smiled before he started speaking

June 3, 2021: Thirteen Weeks

Harry. London, England. 12:45 PM

I knocked on my dad’s door and waited for him to open, a few seconds later he appeared and smiled, “Harry! My boy, I missed you”, we went in, and I removed by mask and applied some gel before hugging him, “Hi dad, I missed you”

We went into his living room and sat down, he had two beers and some nuts waiting, that was our tradition, I started updating him on my life and he did the same, “Harry, is everything okay?”, I grabbed the folder I had on my side and smiled, “There’s something I need to tell you”

He grabbed the folder and opened it, he made a surprised face and went quiet, all of a sudden, I saw some tears on his eyes, “Dad?”, he turned to look at me and gave me a little smile while whispering, “You’re having a baby”, I laughed a little, “I am”

He hugged me, and I held onto him for a few, and he kissed my head, we pulled back a little, “How are you feeling? How is mom?”, I sighed, “I am feeling overwhelmed, but happy, oh so happy dad, my heart is full of happiness and love and uhm, as for mom, well Y/N is doing well”

“I’m sorry, did I hear right?”, I nodded and grabbed my beer and slumped on the couch, my dad did the same, he gulped before speaking up, “Dad, I’m freaking out, Olivia doesn’t know yet, and I really don’t know how this will work out”

“Harry let me ask you something”, I nodded and turned to look at him, “Is Y/N okay?”, I nodded, “Is the baby okay?”, I nodded again, “Is she happy?” I nodded once again, “Are you happy?”, I smiled, “Very”, he squeezed my shoulder, “Then everything will work out, I promise”

“Thank you, dad,”, we sat there in silence for a few more minutes, “I can’t believe I’ll be a grandpa soon”, I turned to look at him, “December 13, that is our due date”, “Well, December can’t come soon enough”

“It really can’t dad, I hope it goes by fast”

September 21, 2021: Week Twenty-Nine

New York, New York. 11:15 AM

I smiled, “I’m so excited to see them H”, we talked for a few more minutes until his phone dinged and he frowned, “I’m sorry, I have to go, I need to leave for rehearsals”, “Please don’t apologize, say hello to everyone for me, okay?”, I nodded, “Talk to you soon love”, I waved bye and he finished the call.

I picked up my dishes and got ready for the day and started working on the things I had to get done today.

September 26, 2021: Week Twenty-Nine

Harry. Chicago Illinois. 10:00 AM

I had just woken up, after to back-to-back shows in Chicago feeling rested and happy, we had some days between shows to rest so I was going to take it slow. I made myself a coffee and sat down on the bed again hoping to read a little when my phone started ringing and I smiled when my mom’s picture and name flashed on the screen.

I swiped my finger and answered the call, “Hi mumma, how are you?”, “Hello my sweet boy! I’m doing okay, how about you? Are you up for a FaceTime call?”, “Yeah sure, just let me grab my laptop”, we hung up and I stood up to gram my laptop from my bag.

A few moments later a call came through, I answered and my beautiful mumma appeared, she smiled, and I did too, “You look well rested honey”, “I am mum, these shows were brutal, but we have a few days lo lay back”

We talked a few minutes about how everyone on the family was doing, Dotty and Skye appeared on the screen, and I laughed with the stories my mom shared with me, “I spoke with Y/N last week, she is looking really good”, I smiled, “She is, I can’t wait to see her and the belly, what did you think of the last ultrasound I sent you?”

“I love it honey, I think they have your nose but her lips, I can’t wait to kiss them”, “Me neither mum”, “Oh! Before I forget I wanted to show you something”, she stood up and returned with a box, “So, I have been keeping busy and working on some things for my grandbaby”

She started pulling out some things and my heart started beating fast, “Mum…”, “I know we don’t know the gender yet, so I tried to do It as gender neutral as I could, but I did knit two gender specific things”

She showed me a pair of overalls, some hooded cardigans, a little set that had a bonnet, some pants and a sweater, another cardigan with a hood and a pompom, a sweater with little daisies and one with lambs, and a blanket.

She pulled me from my thoughts, “Honey everything okay?”, I started tearing up, “I love them mum, and I think this made me realize that in just ten short weeks they will be here, how has the time gone by so fast?”

She smiled, “I know love, it is crazy; we are all very excited and happy to meet them”, I wiped my tears, “Speaking of, I know you guys want to stay until baby is born, so I wanted to ask you, would you prefer for me to rent you guys and Airbnb, or would you mind staying with me? I mean, we have 3 rooms, Gem and Michal could stay in one, you in the other and Dad would stay with Jeff”

“Honey it’s okay, I love the arrangements, that way I am able to cook some meals for Y/N and keep them on your big freezer, I remember how much I appreciated the meals your two grandmas made me”, “Mum you are the best”, she smiled and shrugged, “She’s family, and we take care of family”

We spoke a for another half hour until I got a text from Jeff to see if we could have a meeting on a new project and I said goodbye to my mom, promising to speak soon, I quickly got ready and left my room, as I got into the elevator, I received a text from Olivia

From Olivia Wilde (12:30 PM): Hi baby, how are you recovering? Date night?

To Olivia Wilde (12:31 PM): Hey you, doing good, slept very well and feel more energetic, sure, how about dinner?

From Olivia Wilde (12:32 PM): Perfect! Talk to you later

September 26, 2021: Week Twenty-Nine

Harry. Chicago Illinois. 9:45 PM

As I got out of the shower after my workout there was a knock on my door, I opened it and saw it was room service, they set everything on the table I had in the room and I tipped the bellboy, I made sure that my laptop was plugged and called Olivia.

A few seconds later she appeared on the screen, she was sitting on the table on the garden, “Hey you, how are you? Are Daisy and Otis asleep?”, she smiled, “Hi baby, I’m doing okay, I miss you, and yes, they are sleeping”, “I miss you too, but I’ll see you in a few days”

We ate as she updated me on what she did, I told her of how the concerts were going and how editing for ‘Don’t Worry Darling’ was going, after a few she spoke up, “So… I know that tour still has a long way to go, but have you given a thought on what you want to do when it’s over?”

“What do you mean?”, “I mean, where are you, or we, going to settle?”, I had an uncomfortable feeling settle on my stomach, “Well, I think for the time being I want to stay in New York, my mum, Gemma, and Michal will be staying on my apartment and my dad with Jeff”

“Oh, I didn’t know they would be staying”, “Well, I mean it’s the birth of their first grand baby so they don’t want to miss it”, I took a sip of my wine and choked a little when I heard her say, “Do you think they would wany another grand baby?”, after my couching fit I wiped my face, “Well sure, maybe in the future”

She furrowed her brows, “Near future, right?”, “We- Well I think the first one should be born before thinking of more babies”, she rolled her eyes before muttering “Right”, I furrowed my brows, “What?”, she sighed, “It’s just”, “Hey, come on, you can tell me”, “Where do you see us heading?”

“What?”, “Yeah, like are we moving in sometime, or maybe getting married?”, “Liv, where is this coming from?”, “Well, I mean once the baby gets here and you get custody-“, “Whoa, whoa, whoa, who said anything about custody?”

She looked at me surprised, “You are not fighting for custody?”, my face was one of wonder and a little disappointment, “Are you serious? They aren’t even here! What is wrong with you?”, she rolled her eyes, “Well I’m sorry for wanting to figure out my life with my partner and trying to make it all work”

I took a deep breath and ran my hands on my face, “I understand, but that was out of place, I don’t question how you and Jason work out your custody, I respect it and help you make it work, so I ask for you to do the same”, before she could speak up I did, “I’m tired, let’s talk another day, okay?”, she nodded, “I love you H”, I blew a kiss and ended the call.

I brushed my teeth and got into my pajamas, set my alarms, and hoped into bed, I couldn’t stop thinking about what Olivia said, I mean, I knew we would have to eventually discuss this, but now? The baby wasn’t even here.

I tossed and turned for half an hour, when I concluded that sleep wouldn’t be coming anytime soon, so I got out of bed and grabbed my laptop, I started looking through the photos I had received from Anthony Pham from the past concerts.

I smiled when I found a picture of Y/N and Glenne back in Las Vegas, it was crazy to think that the baby was probably bigger at this point and her belly too, but what made me smile the most, was how happy and beautiful she looked, it was true what they said, pregnancy gave women a special glow.

What Olivia said still roamed my head, I knew we would have to discuss that soon, but why now? I mean, it´s pretty obvious that the first few months would need to be next to her, but the more I thought about it, the more I knew that even if it hurt me, I would never subject her to court and custody arrangements.

I would rather have to travel whatever distances I had to in order to see them, I would sacrifice so much for them, and Y/N didn’t deserve it. I was overcome with emotions and inspiration struck, so I grabbed my notebook and decided to start writing a song.

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[burinazar]

[some brief suicide ideation mentions in this post] for those kind of newer to the ebilxperience, my mental health has been way waaaay better since like late 2021 to now than it has for most of my life up to that point (people who followed me before then might remember some...intense sadposting). I just haven't really felt...too super bad very often. I feel bad sometimes but not so bad I wanted to die, which used to be a regular problem. The episodes of intense suicide ideation in response to feelings of wasted potential or the inevitability of feeling isolation from other human beings just sort of stopped happening. I would chalk all of this up to unknowable brain chemistry, by the way, and not any external causes I've been able to identify.

At the time that this changed, what also became clear was the inability to get shit done that we had all just thought was depression did not go away when my depression magically cleared itself out of the way. I still kind of really sucked at getting shit done. This is what ultimately enabled the late-ass-and-i'm-still-not-entirely-convinced-im-not-somehow-faking-it ADHD diagnosis from my psych who was like Oh. Actually That Tracks. The things I'm not good at making myself do largely extend to anything that both involve a risk of rejection/hurt feelings, anything that requires some believe I personally 'deserve it' (job apps, asking for references), and things that don't have built-in accountability/deadlines (funny stupid example: i'll do a job app for sure if someone I know referred me to the position and is going to be aware/disappointed if I don't submit it, because that too is a form of fearing rejection! so oops, i hacked my rejection anxiety into making myself take a risk).

As you can imagine a lot of career related and interpersonal activities, as well as various day to day life tasks, fall into a combo of these things. I haven't really been able to fix that and by objective life milestone measures continue to underachieve in both career stuff and interpersonal relationships. But...it hasn't gotten me down for the past couple years, and the biggest reason is I've been able to get a lot of joy out of my art and writing during this time period.

And this....allows me to...kind of avoid having to look at how unfulfilling those areas are. But I really need to...face it.

Because I've become more and more aware that there are people, ones around my general age range, ones who may face similar Brain Issues or corresponding obstacles, that do go and find self fulfillment in more than one of these fronts. I actually got super sad about this last night for the first time in ages cuz I heard from someone who has a lot of interests in common with me but was finding fulfillment on multiple fronts, creative *and* interpersonal *and* career.

And maybe it's greedy of me to want it, but god, the life where I get to do all my silly creative bullshit/wrting/art/pet ownership but *miraculously, also, somehow* have a job and career that I don't feel conflicted and unhappy and 'i never really tried to make my dreams manifest' about, and am able to make new friendships and like date and stuff, I...do think I want that for myself and have been denying both that desire and the fact I might have the potential to achieve it.

idk this is kind of nothing but tl;dr i'm gonna start trying again and just wanted to ramble about it on tungus for a sec

#i should be able to make at least some of this shit happen ???? idk. i'll try #please feel free to encourage or politely bully on this front

[acaplaya-musings]

Voiceplay Visuals: If I Were A Rich Man/Girl

This video was released on the 24th of July, 2021, and is the first guest feature of the amazingly-talented miss Ashley Diane, as well as Cesar's first video as an actual Voiceplay member! I'm not entirely sure how much I'll actually have to say about this video, but there was no doubt in my mind about me making a post for it, so let's dive right in!

A few things right off the bat:

1. It's cool how the screen "opens up" at the start of the video; I believe Voiceplay did the same thing or something similar with In The Air Tonight iirc (and both videos end with the screen "closing back up" as well)

2. Definitely a bit more of a creative video format for Voiceplay, with the completely-white setting and the cuts between different shots of the vocalists - it's not got choreography or any overly-complex direction (probably), sure, but it's not exactly a "everyone stays standing or sitting in one spot" video either. Shoutout to Layne, who was in charge of this video as well as the arrangement!)

3. Oh my god Geoff is wearing a shirt that isn't just black, white, or blue! 😂 (listen, I make fun of him because I love him, but also you know I kinda sorta have a point!)

(Bonus note: Layne and Tony are credited with costuming in the description, so clearly there was in fact some deliberate thought put into everyone's outfits)

Okay but for real, everybody is styling in this video! (Also one could argue that technically Geoff has the most "simplistic" outfit overall in this video (which wouldn't be for the first time), but I shan't hold it against him)

Also, related to the first image and not the one above, but I'm pretty sure Eli is wearing the same hat he wore in Bang!

Oh yeah and Geoff has a lot of lovely smiles in this video, so, y'know, I'm a fan 😁

(Also peep the bit of grey coming through on one side of his fringe/bangs <3 )

"Please" (SIR-!)

This is a very random thing to care about but whose hand is this? I thought it might be Ashley's, but no, she's got yellow manicured fingernails in this one (very cute btw) (oh and also her top is long-sleeved). It's not Cesar's hand, obviously, and I'm 95% sure it's not Geoff's hand (especially since there's nothing on the wrist. it could be Layne's hand, but does he still have that wrist tattoo on his right hand? So basically, either it's Eli's hand, or one of their behind-the-scenes helpers (Kathy maybe?)

Queen. Love her

(Also shoutout to both Eli and Layne for the lighting design on this one!)

I'm assuming these are all fake dollar bills? (Also how do you do shots like this? It looks very cool. A fan/blower? Someone dropping/throwing them down from above?)

Cesar: *Looking all cool and suave with the dollar bills*

Geoff: Ooooo money! :0 :D (turn your brightness all the way up!)

(I love him)

Go off, Eli! (I like his outfit too!)

Get it, Cesar 💅

🤔

Crazy how lighting colouration can alter the perceived colours of things. Ashley's top doesn't look yellow at all here!

"what?" (girl you know dang well what!)

(I knew this moment would be worth at least a couple of screencaps and it did not disappoint! 😁)

Honestly between Ashley and Geoff in this video, serving Looks (different kinds, though both as powerful), and vocals, well, if I wasn't bi already...

And that's the video! Certainly not a standard Voiceplay video, but frankly does VP even have a "standard" these days? Their music videos can be literally anything, near impossible to predict. Also, this is a killer arrangement from Layne, and one so dang complex that even though I've by and large mastered the lyrics, this is one of the few where I've been trying to memorise the arrangement, but there are bits I forget or can't replicate the right way (not that I can go as high as Ashley can (that freaking riff! girl!) and definitely not as low as Geoff, but y'know). Stay tuned for my next Voiceplay Visuals post! It's probably gonna be a big one!

#voiceplay #acapella #If I were a rich man/girl #If I were a rich man #geoff castellucci #eli jacobson #layne stein #cesar de la rosa #ashley diane #acaplaya analysis #voiceplay visuals

[lolexjpg]

dts s4 e9-10

e9: -another 4433 episode frothing at the mouth for it -if lewis had said 'thats what you get when you dont leave the space' after silverstone could you IMAGINE the things christian horner would've said. but max can say it after running over lewis' head. i guess -anyway i NEED another max/lewis championship fight yall dont understand -'christian is a bit like a jack russell terrier who likes to snap at your heels' no one does reads like toto jfc kaldjfasjdfalksjdf -'i don't believe to be successful you need to be an asshole.' SUSIE I LOVE U MWAH -the way lewis's voice gets high pitched when hes passionate abt something i love him i'm putting him in my pocket -not dts giving michael masi a whole introduction one episode before he gets murdered by public opinion -the shots of jeddah at night are So Pretty i actually really do like this track -the way rb talk about max's ruined quali lap is how i talk abt logan's deleted quali lap in jeddah. btw -the way they use mick's crash to set up "oh theres a safety car all the cars are gonna bunch up now~ wonder if anyone will use this opportunity for new tires :)" just setting up all this information for us to know NOW. for no particular reason :) -not max complaining that the SAFETY CAR is going TOO SLOW hes such a BRAT -god i need to see this race. aus23 levels of chaos it seems -i'm sorry but rb being like 'idk why max is being investigated 🥺 hamilton's the one that drove into the back of HIM 🥺🥺' like omg like max didnt do this EXACT thing to daniel baku 2018. its a PATTERN babes -when will my mans win again :( i'm sad :(

e10: -havent even started but i'm gonna CRY watching this episode i swear i am so serious -i'm already just so stressed out. being a max AND lewis girlie is only for god's strongest soldiers fr -'they like all this drama, but when we actually start racing they dont like it' max is so REAL for this -lewis hamilton rainbow helmet u will always be famous 2 me 😍 -checo max underrated ship btw. that cockwarming fic abt them *chefs kiss* -music is just making my stress worse (phenomenal) -part of me wishes i spent this winter break watching old races instead of watching dts, and this is a moment i'm really feeling it. i'm looking forward to at some point being able to watch this race and form my own opinions -( the end of the day i think regardless this result is never getting overturned and i'm at peace with that and i think other lewis girlies should work on that too~) -i will say. and maybe i'm missing something. i do understand the discourse abt only the lapped cars between max n lewis being allowed to unlap. BUT. if every car got to unlap themselves instead. would the result have been any different. how much does that particular detail matter. -ok now i'm just JEALOUS of u bitches who got to watch this live. i could've been there instead i was experiencing such intense trauma that i've forgotten most of 2021 (also i didnt know f1 existed) -OH I SAID I WAS GONNA CRY I KNEW I WAS GONNA CRY -i love lewis. i will always pick lewis over max. THAT BEING SAID -i watch this and i just feel relief. knowing the pressure he's been under his whole life from his father. for the first time in his life since he was little he gets to lift that pressure off his shoulders. i'm so happy for him. and like. you can TELL. how easier it is for him after this win. no matter the technicalities of this win, i find it impossible to be upset with all that context. i just feel overwhelmed with love

#violently unwell btw #dtsrewatch #she speaks

[lol-jackles]

https://youtu.be/kqNUR5bD0Wg (Gold Panel from Toronto con 7/31)

At ~11:00 Jensen mentions a quote from Kripke where he says "It's not jumping the shark if you never come down." And honestly, that explains so much about how he's running TB...

Also at ~30:00 (after a fan asks about which character Jensen would play on TB besides SB and he talks about how Butcher is basically what Kripke wanted to do with Dean but couldn't) Jared says "Eric Kripke had sent me a text on my birthday like 'dude I can't believe you're 40, I remember thinking you were too young to play Sam and now you're too old' he has a funny sense of humor. But he did say like 'hey, we had Ackles on the show, when are you gonna come play?' and I was like 'well, I'd love too I just have to go do like 4 months of squats cause I know you're gonna show my ass so...' Maybe I can sneak on sometime, I'd love to."

So basically Kripke has talked to Jared more about being on TB than Jensen has about him being on TW... interesting...

But for real, I know a lot of people asked Jensen and Kripke about JDM and Jared being on during s3 promo and they said they would love it blah blah typical PR answer but I hadn't really expected him to actually mention it to Jared. Especially since Jared had done an interview shortly after s2 of Walker ended where the interviewer brought it up about Kripke talking about getting him on TB and he seemed surprised like he hadn't heard anything about it yet:

https://www.tvinsider.com/1049661/walker-season-2-finale-jared-padalecki-walker-independence/

I just spoke to one of your friends, Mr. Eric Kripke over at The Boys and he said that you have an open invitation to come over and make a cameo.

No s–t! Oh my God, I would love to. I’d have to start doing some squats though so I would be ready to show my naked ass

Now we know Kripke brought it up on his bday so apparently that was the first he heard about it but I kinda just thought it would be a thing talked about for promo and never mentioned again. I bet AA's are about to absolutely lose their collective shit... again... like they did when it was brought up during TB press.

Eric Kripke is reliving his middle-school boy days while TB comic book creator Garth Ennis continues to live out his perpetual teenager days, which frankly I find off putting.

“Butcher is basically what Kripke wanted to do with Dean but couldn't”...Butcher reminds me more of John Winchester, obsessed over what happened to his wife and swallow his feelings all for the for the sake that obsession.  Maybe I can see Dean Winchester in S2 Butcher who is seems to exist to act cute and make cringy quips.  We the audience experience The Boys world through Hugie/Starlight with Butcher as our tour guide and mentor to Hughie, in similar ways we experience Supernatural through Sam with Dean as our tour guide and mentor to Sam.

Jared celebrated his birthday a month early, around the time of the TV Line interview.  After months of people asking Kripke if Jared will be on TB and reporting it, I guess Kripke figured he should actually communicate with Jared on his birthday and avoid another big faux pas that ignited prequel-gate.  In fact, let’s have another look back on June 24 2021 and laugh over it.

Remember kids, this rule applies in your personal life and at your job: Never Assume.

“AA's are about to absolutely lose their collective shit... again... like they did when it was brought up during TB press.”  

Oh yeah, AA lost their shit over that TV Line interview and accused Jared of pulling a Jensen by asking Kripke for a job, until Damian Holbrook shut them down and said he, not Jared, was the one that brought it up with Kripke.  Jared never contacted Kripke about appearing on TB, and now we learn that it was Kripke to contacted Jared to be on TB.   That’s must feel like a carpet burn to the AAs since as far as we know, Kripke never contacted Jensen about appearing on TB.

[transhawks]

Lmao, it always goes back to those Prohero Arc connections and clarity I swear. And people wonder why I’m so obsessed with that arc for this single reason. I think one of my favorite things is the character development you’ve been going through. Perhaps the real iconic narrative arc all along was Rani turning into a passionate AfoHawks spokesperson. *chefs kiss* the pOETRY 🎶

LISTEN. YOU DONT GET HOW FUCKING WEIRD THIS IS????? 2020-21 I was off roleplaying my dhampir!keigo, infiltrating AFO's coven and stupidly falling in love with his ward sacrifice Fae/Werewolf!Tomura and failing in killing him (Tomura cursed him to hell and back and Jin didn't help with his curse, fucking fae :/), but like WE NOTICED when we roleplayed Keigo FINALLY meeting AFO that like....the whole dynamic changed. There wasn't anything non-platonic (except keigo whining in the local monster support chat that the vampire lord of the area was boring af because real vampires throw massive masquerade balls that turn into orgies) but just....Hawks was at once at extremely high alert but also far more honest than he'd ever been. The pleasant and quirky local surfshop clerk/ditzy halfvamp schtick melted. This was a weapon. And not just a weapon; this was a vampire who could see the world just like All For One could, if he'd just flee the coop his human raisers had stuffed him into. Like the similarities in thinking jumped out. Of course Keigo wasn't exactly like AFO but I still remember that our tomura RPer had Tomura specifically mention (once they got all the files from Hawks's treachery/spy chats) how much Keigo sounds like sensei. It was fun! And it made it stick in my mind that surprisingly, Keigo and AFO could interact interestingly. This was bolstered by that chapter in 2021 where Keigo begins psychoanalyzing him, too. It was so interesting seeing him try to think like him. But you know, it's not like I expected canon to explore this. Even in the beginning of the war, I didn't. Something to note is that for the majority of the fight, All For One's own hubris and bias towards very flashy destructive quirks has blind-sided him to Hawks and his role in this war, by which I mean (and I can back up) is that most of the hero effort has indeed been carried on Keigo's back or orchestrated. It took until AFO got rewound to realize how much Horikoshi was setting them up. Endeavor barely mattered between them. And then...well, they started talking. Focusing on each other more. What am I supposed to do, ignore it????? It got heavier and heavier, the panels mirroring each other, converging at times, etc. Just Horikoshi doing excellently for a pair of people I never imagined would interact. And now we have Keigo laying on the ground, defeated, stripped of all that he believes he is, as All For One asks him if he's tired and then leaves with his wings, saying in the end he couldn't protect anyone. Too fast for his own good. Hubris.

LIKE??? HOW AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THE SPOKESPERSON?????? i am a simple man, I like rich dynamics and cool framing and horikoshi feeds me regularly.

EDIT: was about to publish this but got a similar ask

Oh yes I absolutely loved the quietness of this. First he tells him to get out of his way and then, like, "Haven't you done your best?" It's a solemn moment, surprisingly, and I hope the anime does it justice in a year or two. And the god imagery! Ugh! i have SO MUCH to say on this but you have to wait because im doing a Big Meta again lol.

As for HPSC prez Keigo, part of me thinks that would be a Bad End. Or bittersweet at most. I remember misinterpreting one of the vol extras to mean that the HPSC was essentially grooming him to eventually replace her and there's something very fucked in that thought. I do however think he might do something with kids!

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Erik Johnson- Story

summary: the ej x landeskog!sister moment I feel like I needed. ej x fem oc

warnings: fluff galore

wc: 1.1k

Somehow, the first time Celeste met Erik had been when her niece had made her way into the world. Celeste had worked a remote job even before the pandemic, and had always loved to travel. So when Gabe had mentioned off handedly being worried about Mel being home alone so much with a newborn, Celeste had offered to come stay in Colorado for a few months to help out.

What started out as a few months, after meeting Erik, turned into three years, a shared house, and two dogs. 

In 2021, with Erik’s injury and the Avs disappointing playoff run, Celeste and Erik had faced the toughest time in their relationship. Take an injury and the play offs separately, and it would make any player grumpy, but the two combined had made things very tense for a bit after the season. 

Celeste thought herself to be a very understanding person. But after one too many times of her letting Erik snap at her, when he was really feeling sorry for himself, she had been fed up. Then came the huge blow up fight, with Erik sleeping at Gabe and Mels. The next morning he had come home to find his girlfriend with a small bag packed. 

Celeste had gone to stay with Beatrice in a week for the couple to have space.. By the time she got back, Erik had been reamed by his mother and Gabe, and had begged for the woman’s forgiveness. The woman had given it freely, but the two of them had definitely had a rough go of it last season. 

So for Celeste to be standing in the stands with her mother and father and Beatrice, as well as Erik’s parents, watching the boys play in the Stanley Cup Final, felt like a fever dream. “Is this going to happen?” your mother said excitedly in Swedish from her spot between her two daughters. 

“I think it is,” Celeste laughed breathlessly as the time passed the last minute of the Stanley Cup Final. 

“I think I’m going to cry,” Beatrice smiled widely, tears already on her cheeks when she hugged Celeste, their parents embracing. 

“Theres no stopping it,” Celeste laughed, pulling back and turning to a beaming Bruce and Peggy. “Can you believe it!” The Swedish woman said with another wet laugh as she pulled Peggy into a hug, Bruce wrapping the two of them in his arms. 

“Thank you,” Peggy pulled back with tears of her own, cupping Celeste’s face as she saw the blondes confusion. “I know last year was hard. And other women would’ve left, but you stayed. And you helped him get back to where he is today. We love you so much hun.”

“Oh my god,” Celeste gasped out a laugh through her tears, letting Peggy pull her into another hug. The two were broken up by Bruce calling out that people were heading to the lower bowl.

This would always be one of the proudest moments of her life, Celeste thought. Watching her brother lift the Stanley Cup for the first time, after years of hard times. And him passing it off to the man she wanted to spend the rest of her life with, the two sharing a tender moment before EJ went on his lap. 

Celeste felt like she didn’t stop crying during the photos with the cup, even when she was laughing at the boys denting the cup. When the families were finally allowed on the ice, Celeste made a beeline for Gabe with her sister and parents. 

“Gabriel!” She yelled, her fellow blonde turning to his sisters with a huge grin. The two women slipped on the ice as they shuffled over, colliding with his body and wrapping him and hug. “We are so proud of you,” Celeste pulled back with a soft smile, cupping his bearded cheek. “You deserve this bror.”

“Thank you,” Gabe smiled brightly, leaning down to press a kiss to Celeste and then Beatrice’s forehead, before turning to their parents. 

“I’m going to get EJ,” Celeste said to her sister, the woman nodding before the older sister made her way across the ice. She was stopped by Cale and Nate, giving both of the younger boys a huge hug, before finally spotting her boyfriend in an interview. 

She didn’t rush to get over there, even stopping to take a photo of EJ as she got closer. When she was in his peripheral, his eyes cut to her quickly before returning to the reporter, returning in a double take as a smile took over his face. 

“Let me get back to you,” he cut off the woman with a half smile, before skating Celestes way. The blonde had stopped on the ice, hands covering her cheeks as she stared at him.

“I can’t believe it,” Celeste said softly as EJ approached and scooped her up with a squeal, her legs wrapping around his waist.

“We did it baby,” EJ said into her neck breathlessly, squezezing her waist tightly. 

“You did it E,” Celeste tugged at his hair so he would pull back and she could look into his eyes. “I am so proud of you darling,” she leaned down to press a hard kiss to his lips. “I always knew you would be here,” Celeste’s eyes shined with love and pride.

“Marry me,” EJ breathed out, his eyes searching her face as her features froze. 

“What?” She giggled in surprise. “EJ-”

“I’m serious,” he lifted one hand to cup her cheek. “I’ve got the ring at home and everything. Was going to ask you in some crazy way during the off season. But this is us. So marry me. I know I can be a grumpy asshole, but no one understands me like you. And I can’t imagine spending my life without you. Be my wife.”

“Oh EJ,” Celeste sobbed, her hands cupping his head. “Of course I will.” She leaned down to kiss him again, his free arm lifting in a fist pump. 

For years to come, two photos would be sitting on the Landeskog-Johnson mantle. They would be joined eventually by photos of their wedding, and their children, but these two held a special place for them. One, a picture of a champagne drenched Celeste in a too big Avalanche Championship shirt, with Gabe and EJ on either side of her, the three holding Lord Stanley himself. 

The next, was a photo captured by a sneaky Peggy Johnson, of Celeste and Erik kissing, one hand lifted in the air as he celebrated one of the biggest moments of his career, and the start of the next chapter of he and Celeste’s story.

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