#always too much and never enough

[daphnix]

you ate me up and spat me out, and i can’t help but apologizing for the inconvenience of not tasting good enough. but wishing you kept on chewing

#vent #im just #tired #sad #anxious #unlovable #lost #used #discarded #always too much and never enough

[1982brucespringsteen]

some good news!! the spanish state's ministry of equality has finally passed one of the most progressive trans laws on the planet, shielded free and universal access to abortion and banned conversion therapy and genital surgery for intersex babies, among a lot of other feminist policies. the minister of equality irene montero gave a speech thanking spain's lgtb and trans associations for helping her draft these legislations. couldn't be more proud!!

#spain #trans #ill always prioritize queer&trans revolution over reformism but man. man these are good news #these are gonna make people's life so much more comfortable #i was lucky enough to live in andalucia where we have THEE most advanced regional legislation on trans rights #so i didnt have to fight too many people to access hrt and to change my name on legal docs #but other ppl on the spanish state have been suffering so fucking much #and yeah this law doesnt cover non binary people or migrants but the door is fucking open. its a step forward #and after this terrible terrible week #after the antitrans antisemite game & brianna's murder and so many rampant transphobia #it feels nice to get a win #to have someone in power be so unwaveringly supportive #the queer community in the spanish state is NEVER gonna forget this. never #anyways!!! #felicidades gente trans española!!!! nos vemos en el registro civil dkkskdkkdkxkdk #mine

[haunted-xander]

I made this AAAAGES ago and forgot to post it and now I'm annoyed by how it's rotting away on my phone so here. Bratty teen Thancred being a menace to Fourchenault (and a bad influence on Urianger lol)

#we never see fourchenault & thancred interact in any meaningful way (outside of Group Interaction) and i like to imaginr #its bc fourchenault Did Not Like thancred when they were kids and has resolved to just ignore him now #and thancred-the little bastard that he is-wouldve 100% messed with him on purpose if he had the chance #bc i just KNOW he pulled stunts like this to annoy fourchenault all the time #fourchenault tells him to eat more orderly and thancred gets more messy on purpose yk. he is wired to be petty against stuffy rich kids #also urianger isnt actually being influenced much he has always been down to break the rules if he wants to #hes taught by louisiox thats like a requirement. him & his group of unconventional little smartypants #only reason he went to thancred specifically for help here is bc 1) he knows thancred knows how to easily get onto the roof and #2) hes like idk 13 here so hes still a tiny baby size. hes too short to reach up lol #anyway thats enough silly kid rambling time to tag #fourchenault leveilleur #thancred waters #urianger augurelt #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[ruporas]

can’t talk about it

[ID: Black and white comic of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The comic starts with the sounds "thud, thud, click". Vash, mid-action of peeling an apple, turns to the sound, noticing who it was that entered, and says, "Oh, Wolfwood, you're back." He resumes back to his apple in the next panel as he speaks, "Where'd you go? You snuck out of bed quickly this morning..." Wolfwood's hand then enters the panel, hovering over Vash's cheek and Vash looks up as Wolfwood asks, "Can I?" Vash responds, "Not going to talk about it?" while using a hand to gently hold Wolfwood's hovering hand and presses a kiss to his inner palm.

Vash then gets up fully, setting down the knife down on the table and the apple onto a plate, He leans into Wolfwood as Wolfwood explains, "Had to meet someone. Nothing interesting to talk about." Vash kisses Wolfwood's left cheek and a hand moves to cup his other cheek while muttering, "You're being vague." Wolfwood says neutrally, "If yer really that curious, keep askin'. We  can talk about that instead of doing this." Vash leans back and responds, "Let's talk after, since... You look so tired."

The panel pans to a close up of Wolfwood's downcast eyes, bags heavy underneath his eyes. He doesn't allow Vash to sit in that moment for long though, then saying, "Yer not helping, Spikey. Being all slow with it... I could fall asleep right now." He moves his hand to start unclasping Vash's coat, starting from his collar. Vash with red cheeks, responds briskly, "Oh, shut up. I'm worried about you. I can't be worried?"

The final shot shows Wolfwood's back to the viewer while Vash's softened expression can be seen as he holds gently onto the side of Wolfwood's face and a hand firm on his waist. Wolfwood responds, "I'm fine, seriously," pausing for a moment before continuing, "Is it okay to still..?" Vash responds, "Yeah, it's okay."

The next image is a shot from later that night after the previous comic. Vash and Wolfwood are now in bed, half naked. Wolfwood's buries his face into Vash's chest, his arms wrapped around him, while Vash is petting at his hair. Vash reminds him, "Hey. You said we'd talk about it." Wolfwood pauses for a moment before piping up, "In the morning? I'm sleepy." Vash says, "Okay..."

The next two pages start from the morning after. Wolfwood is already fully awake, pulling on his outer jacket as he says to Vash, whos' still bundled in his blankets, "Breakfast is on the table. Make sure to eat it. I'm going to grab some things in town and then we're leavin'. Got it?" Vash says, "Mh." Wolfwood responds, "Good. See ya in a bit." The dialogue starts to shift into Vash's inner thoughts now, as he gets up and eats toast, thinking, "Wait. Weren't we supposed to... talk about it?" The next shot then shows him fully up, meeting Wolfwood in town. He carries a half worried expression with him while Wolfwood slides on his glasses for him. A quick panel shows Wolfwood's tired expression from the night before and quickly juxtaposes with Wolfwood in front of him who's smiling gently, the shades covering his eye bags. Wolfwood asks him, "Still not awake yet?" Vash pauses, his thoughts stirring, thinking, "Oh. I guess I was getting ahead of myself... thinking you owe me that kind of honesty." He smiles at Wolfwood and responds, "I'm awake!" His thoughts continue, "Maybe one day, you'd trust me enough to share your burdens."

The final image shows Wolfwood pulling at Vash's cheek and Vash complains, "Owwwww why..." Wolfwood quickly says, "You were thinking something stupid, right? It's all over yer face." Vash mutters, "Nooo, I wasn't..." END ID]

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #Theyre both thoroughly exhausted tired individuals -- vash having to fight this lonely battle for over a hundred years and getting dragged #back into inevitable situation with knives after a 2 years hiatus of being a gunslinger. they both need so much Rest and comfort in this #department... .SIGHS. BUT I JUST THINK ABOUT WOLFWOOD . AND HOW... LITTLE He has existed on no man's land. how majority of his years being #alive is being used as a weapon and to kill when him at his very core is the most giving and selfless individual ever #badlands rumble inspired me a bit but i do think wolfwood gets dragged into occasional tasks from the eye of michael while on his duty of #guiding vash -- or i think that one chapter where we got to see other members of eom -- there's like a clear division within the eom too #i think.... so i figured similarly to vash but not to the same amount -- there are people that look for wolfwood too. but most of the time #it's probably wolfwood that has to look for someone else and take them out. i feel like it happens ever so occasionally. #evidentially these two don't talk enough canonically but they always know how to express things properly to affirm that they're okay #they have the worst time ever sharing burdens - can't willingly burden the other and has neeever asked for help or reprieve in their #desperate situations... vw is a huge case of right person wrong time syndrome so they just. in the time they get to spend together -- even #if romantically - they don't have enough time to heal to get over that kind of hurdle. They've just never asked for help in all the years #they've been alive -- they don't even know how to and its just aughhhsgskg #and well! they don't even need to ask! because they'll be there for each other anyway at the end of the day -- company and presence alone. #ruporas art

[justaz]

thinking about klance.

keith who is always left behind and abandoned, either voluntarily or not. keith who has trouble trusting people and talking to people and getting along with people and-…keith having trouble with people in general. keith who is used to fending for himself and not relying on anyone bc the two (2) times he’s done that, his parents and shiro (died, left, disappeared), didn’t end well. keith who despite finding shiro again couldn’t help the gap forming between them as his brain and heart insist that something will happen again and shiro being here isn’t permanent. keith being proven right in season 2/3 and being left alone again.

lance who is SO trusting that he comes across as a bit naive. lance who worked hard to get where he is, who studied and practiced day and night to be at the top of the class. lance who always fell short and just missed the cut and ended up a cargo pilot. lance who only excelled once keith was gone but was stuck living in his shadow. despite the fact that iverson was mean to keith, keith was his favorite student and iverson always held a grudge for lance taking his place and was downright cruel to him at times. lance who started a rivalry w keith in his head bc he was determined to prove that he could be better than keith. lance who was moved from blue to red paladin, following after keith yet again. lance who worked hard to prove that he was worthy of being red paladin but always failing bc he was never keith, he was never good enough.

klance who found what they lacked in each other. lance who was there for keith when it seemed like the universe was crumbling down around him. lance who stood by keith’s side and told him what he needed to hear, supporting him being leader and helping lead the team together. keith seeing lance as an equal and relying on him the way lance relied on him. keith who was loved and supported by someone who never left, lance who was seen for who he was and who never doubted him or his place on the team. klance who turned on each other.

keith who turned into what he hated and leaving lance behind. lance who saw keith as weak and selfish for leaving him the team behind. keith who came back to a lance who was so angry and upset, but who never left his side bc lance was just Like That. lance who was so hurt and upset, who said cruel things in the vacuum of space, but keith never saw him as less for it, who never got angry enough to hurt lance back.

at the end of everything, lance searching for keith to sit at his side as they watched the sunset bc lance will always be at keith’s side. keith who told lance how relieved he was and hopeful bc he knows what lance is capable of and how much he needs him. klance being what the other needs, holding each other’s heart in their hands but never taking the opportunities to crush each other. lance who never left keith behind, keith who never saw lance as less despite the vitriol he spat at times.

#soulmates #idk if i articulated my thought well enough #but it is what it is #i just wanted to get this down #they are exactly what the other needs #they could be each others downfall but they love each other too much to do so #lance who could prove to keith that his mind is right - that keith is doomed to be alone. that everyone will always leave him. #keith who could prove to lance that his mind is right - that lance will NEVER be good enough for anyone. that hes unworthy of veneration #klance who could utterly destroy one another and have enough reason to but never doing so #theyre on like a dangerous precipace but their love for one another is enough to keep them from falling to their doom #does this make them two sides of the same coin? kinda right? #lance mcclain #keith kogane #klance #vld #voltron #voltron legendary defender #chracter analysis #does this make sense #angst #klangst #but also not #but also yes #keith angst #lance angst

[beatcroc]

something about perspective, representation, or finding beauty in imperfection, i don't know. i mostly just wanted to say that fake pep looks like shitty ice cream.

#this was one of those things i thought of and was like. i cant believe i havent seen this done yet. it's right there. #misshapen and melty and the weird orb eyes are never in right....but that's the charm of it you know #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #it's not important but technically thats dougie jones in the van #was going to have it be noisette at first bc lbr awful ice cream is SO on brand for her #but she was not inconsequential enough. needed 2 be fully bg type character u kno. #i dont know maybe hes selling them for her by proxy #i mean dougie works for the noise right? maybe he knows noisette+does her bidding too #<- doing the thing i always do where i find the MOST trivial characters or bits of lore to bring to the forefront for the hell of it #u guys havent gotten much of that here with pt yet but we may get there. i do think about mr. incognito too. #also SNICK i want to do stuff with snick i like him. we'll see. we'll see. #pizzaposting #anyway the second panel is my fave fp ive drawn yet also PLEASE fullview the first image. i die

[rynpie]

felt the need to doodle lilia

#twst #lilia vanrouge #finished the first part of ch7 #im so nervous but also excited for the rest on en #i love this dumbass so much gdi ch7 is going to end me #ive had alot of artblock lately #so between school and bg3 i havnt been able to draw much of anything that i like enough to post #have too many unfinished lilia doodles #might post a bunch of them here since who knows if ill ever finish them #this one was surprisingly somthing i drew earlier but then fixed it up #which is something i hardly do lol #usually i need to be hyperfocused and finish the art in one day lol #which is why i feel certain i'll never be able to ever take on commissions orz #trying to get into the art zone is very fickle and im sure it always will be

[myuminji]

dedicated to the audience: me, myself, and I— I finished the discarded sketch

#another idea i had that never goes through: post-tristamp ww who lost vash meets post trimax vash who lost ww #i wasn't mean enough to do it #nah i lied i honestly would but i got too lazy to draw that and settled with this instead HAHA #tired guy can get a treat. meets his partner's adjacent but lil-ify. who gets concerned for him the first thing he sees #breaks his heart even more wondering how his ww would react if he could see him now. and knowing lil guy will also get the impending doom #and we have lil guy who gets a treat to see his partner's hair not the blonde he'd always known and loved #who cries when asked and never gets an answer #sorry i ramble too much this is supposed to be silly but i ended up overthinking it #myuminjiart

[skeletoninthemelonland]

This was supposed to be posted yesterday for Women’s International Day :’D sorry I don’t know how to draw bed sheets 😭

#springdad au #fnaf #I LOVE WOMEN #my art #if you see me making art of characters i haven't explicitly talked about- #this means i'm not entirely sure of who they are yet #Alice is a very kind woman. a little troubled too #she's trying very hard both as a person and as a mother #she thinks she's not doing enough tho #life has always been rough and she's never got to rest until she stopped working as a performer and found Elizabeth #she believes she's made poor decisions as a teenager and swore not to let herself be manipulated or influenced by others #that's why she is very suspicious of Springdad at first... #she just needs some time for herself that's all #I like to think she received support from her family and found a new. much better job #anyway so. this is her :]

[thejasontoddarchives]

Batman #650 (2006)

Batman and Red Hood (2011-) #20

Red Hood and the Outlaws (2016-) #25

“Bruce works out so he can carry Jason around like a baby” he is dragging him by the broken edge of the boy’s helmet, knuckles digging into his eyes. He is definitely strong enough to carry him but that’s not the point. He thinks Jason deserves this.

Task Force Z #6 (2022)

Catwoman (2018-) #57

Bruce and his habit of flattening his son onto the ground and standing on top of him like a lion does to its prey, while saying degrading things.

Batman (2016-) #138

And would you look at that. He finally lowered himself to face Jason. After rendering him completely powerless.

#definitely not cowardly at all!! #so far anytime somebody said Bruce is being ooc in the Jason tag I made a post like this #I’d argue Jason is too capable to let this happen every single time #but yeah have this I guess #his way of reminding Jason that he’s below him and always will be #what was it that Alfred said to Bruce in under the red hood? #right. ‘The son has not surpassed the father.’ #some instances are more unhinged than others but more or less the rhetoric is the same #aside from how it’s a generally shitty way to treat your kid #it isn’t a good look considering how so much of Jason’s story is riddled with casual classism #but also I guess this goes to show it’s never been an equal/fair fight #not because Jason isn’t good/skilled enough it’s not about that #it’s because Bruce never ever intends to be fair #‘you can’t be allowed to make your own decisions’ is what he has always been pushing so it makes perfect sense #that this is what it culminated in #this is why I never agreed ​with the framing of Jason & Bruce’s disagreement as fair because this has always been the underlying ideology #jason todd #red hood #dc #under the red hood #red hood and the outlaws #task force z #gotham war

[myrkkymato]

Yara's ghost

Yara definitely approves Abby as Lev's new big sister. Maybe she walks by their side as a ghost and tries to protect them both?

This started as a rough sketch centering Lev. I used photomode references that can be found below as links to the original posts:)

Yara: @saltlake-crew

Abby: @abbysthighs

Lev: @707selizabeth

#yara tlou #lev tlou #abby tlou #abby anderson #tlou2 #tlou fanart #fan art #sketch #illustration #mixed media #myrkkymato art #the last of us part 2 #the last of us #i cried last night when drawing this #it always hits home when older siblings make sacrifices for the younger ones in fiction #i would do almost anything for my siblings #but i have never felt strong enough to be the big sister #too much angst in the tags sorry

[nat-without-a-g]

Lowkey terrified that the oak twins are going to end the show with nothing but each other and ultimately that might be the worst if not most suiting horrific twist of fate

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads season 2 #dndads spoilers #dungeons and daddies season 2 #lark oak garcia #sparrow oak garcia #if normal and hero want to go no contact when their old enough I don’t blame them #but thinking about how Henry always told them to put each other first… it’s giving ‘too much of a good thing’ #they listened to what their dad told them to do and now they Only have each other #do I think normal and hero ARE going no contact anytime soon? #honestly no #I just like scaring myself with hypotheticals #normal seems to have mostly handled his problems #and hero has never really expressed hatred for her dad #and they haven’t ever given her a hard time for not wanting to be the chosen one from what we’ve seen #I guess what I’m saying is I either want the oak Garcia swallows house to be oakay or in complete RUINS and both would be a good end #at least narratively for the arc their o #n

[thefirstlioveyou]

mind you this is byler while they still having unresolved conflict

#yes they fight #but they never let their egos destroy the relationship #everytime mikes messed up hes always made sure to admit to his faults because losing will hurts too much #real love will always require effort but putting in that effort shouldnt burden you so much if you love them enough!! #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things #just yapping

[mishzar]

I always imagine the aurora as a massive ship. I know it’s probably not but just something about a network of hallways that stay largely untouched and isolated, especially after nastya goes out… it just does something to me

#the mechanisms #the mechs #idk I just have thoughts about how perpetually empty she feels #no matter how many people join the crew #there’s always too much space and never enough people to fill it #I’m purposefully ignoring the logistics of a ship that size only having one pilot and one engineer to keep her running #(and then not even that)

[infectiouspiss]

parents love to pick one specific thing and tell you you're always doing it wrong no matter what

#am i putting too much washing in the machine and not getting my clothes clean #or not putting enough in there and wasting water and electricity #i have never found the middle ground where they're both happy #im using the washing pods wrong always too #they go over and under the laundry at the same time apparently #i don't hang out my washing right either #or use the tumble dryer #im fucking tired i just want to do my damn laundry

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Oh we are so BACK

When I tell you I saw this and died. HELLO?????

I keep hiding my face lahshjsdhjgfsaf HE HAS NO RIGHT. NO RIGHT AT ALL BEING THAT SEXILY INTENSE AAAAAAAAAAA

Anyway, I should probably try to make some attempt at describing the event since. If I don't I'll just be barking/crying/hiding my face for the next twelve hours.

Basically--and I'm not sure this is going to be across the board, but it held true for Napoleon and Sebastian at least--each suitor has a birthday event this year instead of a separate story. Comte's won't be released until tomorrow, but they have posted a preview.

From what I gather, he talks a little bit about himself and reveals parts of his past that haven't come to light in the game yet. There wasn't really enough to convey a coherent narrative beyond attending a party, but the line displayed here does get across the larger theme:

Comte: (I don't need momentary pleasure or ephemeral affection any longer. Now that I know love, there's nothing but you.)

He talks about how the aristocracy have thrown parties and extravagant celebrations for his birthday for most of his life. But none of it has ever really made him happy, largely because he knows that they are attempts to strengthen and broadcast power relations within high society. While I don't think he means it's entirely devoid of well wishes, I do think he sees it as a nexus of influence--and thus, by nature, impersonal. And honestly, I don't think he's wrong about that; the higher the echelon in social standing, the more it requires performance to maintain the position.

That being said, there is a fascinating flashback where he remembers a pureblood telling him about how falling in love with a human is an experience of another caliber entirely. My understanding is that Comte was still a fairly young vampire at the time, so he didn't really understand what the person was getting at. It seems like the other pureblood was trying to convey the difference in feeling, perhaps the fact that humans are more grounded in accordance with how they live--the reality and necessity of change.

After reading this--and the recent 5th bday story--I can absolutely see how change is something Comte has a complicated relationship with. He's known a certain way of life for so long, has constructed a sensibility of distant, rational maturity. After all the heartbreak of his youth, and two very acute traumatic events in his life, I can see why he'd be so afraid of broaching any kind of proximity with another person. Because on some level it's so much easier not to put your feelings on the line, to never have to fear devastating loss. And that's to say nothing of the worry of being unable to measure up on behalf of another person, of letting them down.

I'm so excited to see the rest of the contents, but something about the preview made me equal parts giddy and enamored (all I do is kick my feet with excitement LOL). I think what gets to me with Comte is that he truly does love companionship as a place to rest, a place where he can be honest about himself and his feelings without fear of ridicule (and the same goes for MC). In a world increasingly obsessed with surface level performances of power, status, and emotion, it's hard not to feel his exhaustion to the core.

Also, because these lines at the end more or less destroyed me in the best possible way:

MC: ...The you who had nowhere to belong no longer exists. In much the same way...Abel, I belong to you. Comte: ... Comte: I wish I could say to myself all those years ago, the me who kept indulging in such paltry things. Comte: Until you meet MC, you will never know love... The warmth of MC in my arms filled me with such joy I was near tears. (I don't need momentary pleasure or ephemeral affection any longer. Now that I know love, there's nothing but you.) The moment my lips found hers, the sweetness lit a fire deep in my body. Comte: These cute lips that melt against mine, the heat of your skin, the love that envelops me in your embrace--always leaves me so deeply in love with you.

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp spoilers #LETS GO ABEL UNPACKING ALL THOSE COPING MECHANISMS #**pats the couch next to me** CONFIDE IN ME #but in all seriousness i really do love how raw his relief and happiness feels #to have spent all of those years trying to subsist on emotional crumbs and numbing himself #and mc is so real for just gathering him in her arms and holding him tight QUEEN MOOD!!!! #i really really really love that general recurrence in his stories too #of how he always feels so isolated and out of place even when he's surrounded by people #yet all it takes is mc saying 'you belong to me--just as I belong to you. you're never truly alone :>' #to make him both overjoyed but also unhinged with so much love for her--to feel alive #also man........MAN..... #him looking back at who he used to be vs who he is now #im so caught between memeing like 'you know what that is? growth!' #but also lowkey weeping from the fact that he feels loved enough to look back and fully admit it wasn't quite happiness #that he was just surviving the only way he knew how--not really living #ABEL THE THINGS YOU DO TO ME #CMERE LOVER BOY #comte propaganda #fangdad propaganda #baguettosaurus #literally october was always my favorite month but its even better now that it just becomes a comte-loving festival for me #truly all the joys of monsterfking all tg