#am i anxious

[godshideouscreation]

I do not feel well.

#Am I sick #Is it something I ate #Am I anxious #All of the above?

[cupid-moon]

why

#am i anxious #tf #like??? #sir?????

[uncanny-tranny]

This might seem like an "old man yells at cloud" situation, but it's just wild growing up and being told how dangerous distracted driving is - how, at highway speeds, you can traverse the length of a football field (100 yards, 91 meters) in a matter of seconds - how one split second sending a text while driving could result in a potential fatal crash, and then getting on the road as a driver and being surrounded by billboards. Their entire purpose is to catch one's attention, so they're lining major roads, which tend to be highways. How is it that you're told how important it is to never be distracted while driving, but still being advertised to?

At best, this type of advertising is an eyesore to pedestrians and motorists and a general waste of electricity to light it, and at worst, it is an active danger considering they are there to advertise and therefore, must catch people's attention.

I'm not even against advertising in theory, but this particular mode bothers me so much and I hate how pervasive it is - especially in large cities or highways.

#politics #i don't know much about são paulo banning marketing billboards but on paper i want that here in the USA #as a motorist it at best just makes me more anxious driving in those larger cities because i want to FOCUS ON THE ROAD #and passing 5000 billboards per mile isn't helping actually! #i've gotten good at filtering that out of my FOV but it's still fucking exhausting lol #i especially hate those modern electric billboards. despise them actually #i am aware that advertising is a critical aspect to business management in some cases... #...but it shouldn't risk the safety of the populous for you to advertise to them and i see things like billboards as risking safety... #...i feel similarly about online advertising in that so much of it risks internet user's safety... #...such as flashing ads online which risk triggering epileptic seizures in light/photo-sensitive folks #distracted driving (texting): NO >:( || distracted driving (being advertised to): YAYYYY :D #i've been driving on my own for a few years now and i've been thinking about this for ENTIRELY too long

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[annarubys]

finding out how many minutes of music people listen to in a year is so interesting especially as someone whose stats are comparatively low. how do you 60k minutes per year people focus on anything. that’s a skill you should put on your resume

#to be clear i am not judging you i want to be you so bad #i def had missed opportunities at the beginning of the year because i was anxious about having airpods in at my job lol #but that wouldn’t have brought me up by that much and i only had 19k how do you do it #a.txt #spotify wrapped

[otaku553]

He’s perfectly sane I swear

My submission for @where-does-the-heart-lie‘s DTIYS! Congrats on one year on tumblr!! Your art is always an absolute delight to see :D I hope this does it justice!

#one piece #sabo #whery dtiys #this finally pulled me out of my rendering block…. amazing #it’s been quite a while since I’ve last done a dark background rendered piece #I did end up accidentally changing the pose just a bit….. mostly just raise the elbow #rendering fire is such an experience. man. #do it for the wüsthof 17 slot walnut wood knife block……… #the longer I look at it the less I like it so I need to post it Now #I am Nervous and Anxious and bad at replying but ASKSJFJFJSJ THANKS FOR THE SXF ACE ART ITS AMAZING #I am Going to draw that sometime soon it is So Cool

[demigods-posts]

canonically, percy isn't aware of the crushes people have on him until it's too obvious to deny — like when annabeth kissed him, or when nico straight up told him. and since percy isn't aware of rachel's crush on him until the beginning of tlo, that means there was a point in time when rachel was actively trying to get with him and he had no idea. and it's not even his fault lol. he just only saw her as his good friend and just thought her advances were her being friendly. i just have to see this in action.

#percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #pjo text post #pjo headcanon #percy jackson #rachel elizabeth dare #just imagine rachel taking percy to an expensive event and holding his hand #and percy's all: #'oh my friend is probably anxious of big crowds. let me hold her hand because friends help each other in their time of need🥰' #or rachel taking any chance she gets to grab his bicep or touch his shoulder #and he's all: #'rachel is a very affectionate person. it's cool tho. so am i when i'm around people i care about. rachel is such a cool friend🥰' #i desperately need someone to write a fic or sum lol

[aresonist]

(/p) shout out to lovely by twenty one pilots

#my art #mcyt #gtws #hermitcraft #goodtimeswithscar #grian #life series #i am so anxious to post this one actually bc ik it will be taken as shipping but it is what it is #desert duo #all rab songs are somewhat conencted to life series desert boys but im not sharing all that #this might become a series atp

[kiraxo]

I absolutly LOVE Mr Keating, but if he did that impromtu poem scene to me I would never ever forgive him, no matter how good a teacher he might be, I definitely would've start crying on the spot.

#Todd is stronger than I am #prolly would've had a panic attack #like who does that to an anxious teenager?? #especially when he's the new kid #dead poets society #dps #todd anderson #john keating #mr keating

[positivelyadhd]

i have been reading through the diary I kept from ages 14-17 and realising how helpful it can be to keep a record of how you're feeling at different moments.

not only is it helpful to write down and process how your feeling and give yourself time to truly think about it, it's nice to have something to look back on. to not just remember how you felt about a certain situation but to actually have yourself from that time tell you.

and also, from an adhd perspective, it's really lovely to have reminders of things I'd almost entirely forgotten. it's easy to think that your life right now isn't interesting, but in 5 years time? to know what songs you were listening to or book you were reading or even that Thing that you were so worried about but now you can't even remember the details. it's nice to have a physical reminder that time passes and things really can get better.

#i think part of whats makes it so special to me is that (like it is for a lot of people) those ages where so *much* #and i was so stuck in my head and socially anxious and i feel like those years of school rly shaped who i am now ect #but id kind of forgotten? its become a blur emotions over time and its nice to see it clearer #but also how i changed? and to read into it and see what i did or didn't write #im also a big fan of the inner child and doing things for your younger self and its a lovely gift to have her speaking to me directly #also if you want to journal i highly recommend doing it in a normal notebook rather than a pre planned one #it gives you the freedom for it to be whatever you want with none of the pressure #recovery #tips

[zephyrd17]

Helloooo a quick question for all the fanfic enjoyers out there!

Please reblog for sample size!

#polls #fanfiction #writing #please how do these things work #i am an anxious writer just tryna get by #aka i am once again procrastinating on that one fic #writers on tumblr #ao3 #ao3 writer #ao3 fanfic #ao3 tags #how do tags work #how does posting on ao3 work???? #i am so confused #honestly hoping I'll get some feedback on this #zeph yapps #zeph tags #zeph writes #zeph complains

[queermasculine]

getting a lot of questions starting with "am i allowed to call myself" or "am i allowed to be," and my response to those questions is always yes, you're allowed. that's the short answer. the longer and truer answer is buddy, i don't even know if i'm "allowed." not sure i even know what that means. i just know i identify with my chosen labels strongly enough that being challenged on them isn't really a factor in whether i use them or not, and i wish for you the same kind of conviction. because no matter what labels you pick, someone out there's gonna take issue with it. you gotta find words you're willing to hold on to despite that.

#but yeah if you're the kind of person who gets anxious about these things. rest assured you'll never see me take on the role of gatekeeper #never received an ''am i allowed'' question that felt unreasonable or nonsensical to me. everyone has their reasons & thats enough for me

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 147

psychically induced chronic illness squad

#day 147 #year 4 #aradia megido #sollux captor #homestuck #arasol #solluxs migraine thing is right in his introduction #but we only get like. one line from aradia in her singular conversation with rose in a5 #where she mentions an 'elusive feeling of sickness' following her for her entire life #which i think you could read as like. anxiety/sense of impending doom due to upsetting psychic whispering 24/7 #but when i was a kid and i felt anxious it ALWAYS manifested as a feeling of Oh I Am Going To Barf About This #to the point that i spent like a full year getting a whole barrage of medical tests trying to figure out what was wrong with my guts #turned out it was simply undiagnosed mental illness because nobody really considered that a 6 year old could have one of those #but such is life anyway catch me projecting onto these two once a fucking gain

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

growing up with a perpetually anxious primary caregiver is such a mindfuck. that shit will rewire your nervous system

#not a shitpost #i get that parenthood and modern life in general is extremely anxiety inducing #and that anxiety is a common mental health issue and anxiety disorders exist and do not disqualify you from being a loving parent #but i am begging you PLEASE do not project your anxiety onto your kids #especially younger kids #your job is to make your kids feel safe and secure. that is a primary requirement #that doesn't mean you can't be anxious! #but just like being angry doesn't mean you're allowed to yell at your kids or slam doors or break things #being anxious doesn't mean you are allowed to surround your kids with your own fear and stress or teach them to share your anxieties #your job is to be a comforting nurturing parental figure. that means projecting comfort and love #even when it is hard! even when you are tired or angry or scared! #which is a damn hard job! and you won't get it right all the time! #but dammit babes you gotta TRY #kids deserve to feel safe and comfortable in their daily lives #you CANNOT be teaching them to expect catastrophe lurking around every corner

[whenthewallfell]

~ honey just put your sweet lips on my lips // we could just kiss like real people do ~

#the hunger games #everlark #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #peeta's wearing an elastic band he snaps when he's anxious #katniss doesn't get it but her coping mechanism is slaughtering the local wildlife so... #i have a whole headcanon about peeta's leg if ppl are curious #this pic ain't done but i am #pls zoom in i'm really proud of the lineart #fanart #mcbaart

[fluffyfangirl]

Defnitely summoning Byler Kiss in S5.

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things #fanart #fluffyfangirlart #byler fanart #MiwipWednesday #it is wednesday somewhere already #I have spent the last days screaming at everyone except work and family that they started filming #so summoning byler kiss in s5 #also this is what me destressing looks like #i am 120% anxious about work recently