#and god i have no fucking clue what it is and thats kinda driving me insane
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Mythix rankings!! Kill me!!
Now let me get a complaint out of the way
THIS!!!! THE FUCKING FLOWERS!!!!
How are we going to design a mythical transformation??? Put all the girls in the same length homecoming dresses and glue a bunch of random flowers on them
Why are they're so many flowers everywhere! Why does Stella have so many flowers on her??? Why do they keep doing this to Stella???? They went really hard on the flowers for Tecna too???? You cover the fairy of technology in flowers???? For what????
Anyways I hate all the flowers!!! I hate them!!! I hate them so much!!! Why are they all covered in flowers???
Telling you all now so I don't break off into a rant about the flowers in each ranking, because god I would
Oh and all of their skirts are the exact same length, with the same collar for most of them, and only Stella has different sized boots. Because individually is above their pay grade
1) Bloom
Her wings in Mythix???? Flat out gorgeous. They look like layered flames and I love them so much, I wish they were on a better transformation in a better written season
Her dress is the least offensive to my eyes, with some mild visual interest. The arm warmers are cute. It looks so ugly in 2d but in 3d it's tolerable, that shade of blue and purple are pretty together. Over all I love her color palette and wings, and I do not see the rest of it
2) Flora
I am OBSESSED with her wings. Like they TRULY have a vibe I'd associate with the name Mythix. They look old and worn, with the holes in them, but still powerful. Like an ancient set of wings Flora got for herself, and it's such a cute visual
Flora being covered in a petal dress is lazy but easily the least egregious because she is the fairy of nature so it at least matches her personality and powers
3) Tecna
TENCA'S WINGS ARE WEIRD AGAIN!!! NOW MAKE THEM WEIRDER!!!!! I love how geometric they are they look so strange, perfect perfect perfect
Her heels are also metallic which is sufficiently weird
Tecna would literally never wear that dress however, at least it's pointy, but it's a complete flop on the weird scale. Make it weirder. Make it cyber. Make it Tecna
4) Aisha
Why is she a red head again. Well with Wow and s8 I think we know why
Anyways her wings are ready mid. They kinda look like a plant and I'm physically restraining myself from saying anymore about that. Her heels are weird in a fun way, and she has what looks like an ice skaters dress on?? I have no clue why they put Aisha in that but whatever. It's better than Flora's dress, win
5) Stella
Her wings are almost good but I hate the shape of them. The colors are gorgeous though
Anyways Stella's dress is boring and the FUCKING CORSAGE. AHHHH. I'm normal I'm normal
Anyways her dress is so fucking boring and literally for what!!! It's just orange!!!!
Her purple part under her skirt and the fabric over her boots also look like fire???? For some reason?????? Like it looks like a mix of a Bloom and Flora outfit and it drives me up the fucking wall
6) Musa
I like her corset, it looks like musical staffs
Thats it
Her wings look like moth wings, her hair is so ugly, her shoes have weird staff plant things on them, her skirt is weird and fuzzy, her hair things are weird and fuzzy
HELP HELP HELP HELP IM DYING TO DEATH
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So
Last night this morning I had a really strange dream that woke me up and basically
Also this is the second time I’ve had a dream about CB like I actually can’t this never happens I never dream about my crushes
So it’s hard to explain the basic plot of said dream but at one point I “run” into him and we start a conversation and for some fucking reason his dad is also there??? For context his dad is a teacher at our school and his family goes to my church
Anyways so his dad is there like hi mr b and he’s kinda watching our conversation and like c and I are going back and forth about something and this is when my dream gets kinda lucid bc I distinctly remember being able to control my dream expression but I also remember being able to tell what Mr b was thinking and c not hearing it or something??
Regardless so we’re going back and forth and Mr b starts making this face/thinking “oh you definitely like my son” and I’m like forcing my dream expression to stay neutral/positive and continue carrying on the conversation with c but like dear god
Why do I have a crush on him and why is it so strong lmao
Anywayssss
I’m also like super deprived of interactions with him it’s really sad
But during choir
I was trying to walk to my seat and he was trying to get across the room and we were in each others ways and so we kinda just ended up staring at each other like waiting for the other to move and I’m like “sorry” and I can’t remember if he said “oh it’s fine” or “sorry” but I’m gonna go with the first one bc that’s more his style ngl
But like
There was room
For him to go around me
We did not need to have that stare off
And I’m like exaggerating this a bit but it genuinely did not last more than 10 seconds but just the pause… it felt a lot longer than that. Especially bc he could’ve just gone around me
Idk if it’s like a habitual thing for him to go on that exact path orrrr if he was waiting for me to metaphorically make the first move
Idk but I’m still thinking about it now
OH and yesterday, I got out of school late and while I was driving home I was driving next to the xc team and one of my friends is an absolutely amazing runner her form is incredible I just have to like pause and comment on that
But it was funny bc for some reason running is kinda a turnoff for me? Like running is so awkward imo
But for some reason, when I was watching him run, the very first thought I had was “oh his children will have a good build” like wtf??!? Why did I think that??? I mean he’s tall (do I like him or is he just tall) and his hair is like super fucking pretty I like desperately wanna ask him what he does with it bc tbh he probably has no clue what a hair routine is and yet his curls??? Are so nice??? And defined?? Confusion??? It’s probably bc he’s always wearing a baseball hat to keep his hair out of his face
THATS ANOTHER THING if he doesn’t like his hair in his face why doesn’t he cut it. There has to be a reason. It can’t be maintenance bc maintaining short hair is much easier than the shoulder length curls he currently has
Anyways I could ramble about his hair quite a lot (it’s also a really nice dirty blonde kinda wheatish idk I think it’s pretty)
But he’s tall and skinny and when he runs he really uses his height and dear god there was a part of me that found it attractive and another part that wishes I didn’t bc there’s literally nothing attractive besides the fact he has good genes
Like why am I suddenly a post plague eldest daughter wishing to marry a man with good physical genes for survival. Why am I evaluating a potential suitor based on their physical attributes
Like not to hate on main but if he wasn’t tall he’d be built like a sickly Victorian child lmao
He’s a stereotypical xc runner - tall and lean
Very aerodynamic lmao
But somehow that’s attractive but also not idk
I just wish
We could interact more
I want his attention I want to ask what he thinks of me platonically or not
I’ve had brief not actual interactions with him pre choir. Like talking in his general vicinity but to another person
Idk I’m desperate highkey
Argh until another day
#crush thoughts#do I like him or is he tall#do I like him or his hair#idk#i’m desperate#is staying delulu the solulu#it’s the delusionship for me highkey#I like him#but I also like the fact that he’s secure#as an idea#ya know#or does that make sense#who knows
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Coyote Club Ch1
I hate waking up in the morning, cause it’s like, I have to like, fucking, get up, and I really don’t want to, but at the same time it’s really uncomfortable to do so. Especially since usually my fur is covered in sweat. I don’t really wear blankets at night since like, I have fur to do that for me, but I still need to have something on me or I guess my brain doesn’t recognize that I need to be sleeping, so I only sleep with a light blanket on. Oh, and before you ask, I’m Coyote, not Cat.
Now, I know you might be shocked or surprised or something that I’m, you know, Coyote, since, you know, there’s not like a lot of us, but hey, I’m me. You might also be asking “what the hell is a Coyote person doing on East Island of all places?” That’s a common question I get a lot, since there’s like no Coyotes here. Well, let me fucking explain for you I don’t know. So basically, I’m Coyote, wow, shocker. More specifically, I’m Kékek. Or actually, I should probably call myself Očhéthi Šakówiŋ, since that’s the correct term for us, or at least it is according to Wikipedia. I have zero fucking clue how you’re meant to pronounce that, so I just call myself Kékek, since that’s actually able to be pronounced. As for why I’m here, well apparently when I was born I was put up for like adoption, don’t know why, think it was cause my parents couldn’t support me or something. I don’t really care, since I have like zero connection to them. Well anyways, I should have been adopted by another member of the tribe, or at the very least, by a Coyote, since I know they used to have Coyote children be adopted by white families to assimilate them into American lifestyle, but I guess I skirted around that or something. I guess no Coyote wanted to adopt me, which is kinda funny, but also kinda sad when you think about it. I’m pretty sure it’s ultimately just cause there’s like no fucking Coyotes. Well anyways, I was adopted by a white family in Empire and thats why I’m here. So kinda weird, but whatever. My family’s cool I guess, I’m the youngest, and the only adopted one, since it’d be weird if I was the oldest and adopted, or maybe not I don’t know. I’m also the only Coyote in my family, since everyone else is white. It is weird going to school and being the only Coyote there, since there’s like a few Cat people, but like absolutely no Coyotes. You think I would experience a lot of racism, but I don’t know if my school was like super progressive or something or if I just like forgot about it or whatever, but I don’t remember experiencing racism really. I’m sure it had to happen, and I think I remember it happening like a couple times, but honestly, didn’t experience it really. Which is kinda weird when you think about it, since East Island is like really god damn white, but I don’t know.
Anyways, I go to Wopowog, which is a little bit up north from where I live in Connetquot. Oh yeah, I live in Connetquot, forgot to mention that. Currently, it’s winter break so I’m hanging out at home for the time being. I can’t drive yet, even though I’m 18, since I don’t really give a shit about driving to be honest. It’s not like I hate cars like some people do online, but I just really don’t care about driving. East Island has decent public transport, and I can take the train up to Wopowog if I want to. My brother’s out living his own life, and my sister is working over the break, so I’m left here, which I don’t mind. That being said, I can’t wait to get back. It’s my first semester, so I really really like the independence that living on campus gives me, and I can’t wait to get back. Of course, there’s also my friends. I have a few online friends that I’ll sometimes talk to, but really, I’m much better with real life friends. More specifically, I can’t wait to see Gabriel again. Gabriel’s like the only other Coyote person I’ve met in real life, which is kinda funny, especially since he’s like not fully Coyote. His father is Coyote, but his mom’s white, so he’s mixed race. That being said, it’s still enough for him to be considered a member of his tribe, which I’m pretty sure is the Nadene. His father was actually in a similar situation to mine, being adopted by a white family halfway across the country, although I’m pretty sure him being adopted by a white family was specifically so that he could be assimilated into white society. Gabriel’s cool, since we can bond over being the only Coyote’s in a 50 mile radius. Well, actually I think there’s a reservation out east, but whatever. There’s no other Coyote’s on campus as far as we’re aware. So seeing him again would be pretty cool. Oh yeah, what am I like, kinda forgot to mention that part. My name is Phillip, which is a result of my family being Dutch. I thought all the Dutch people in Empire lived upstate, but apparently we’re one of the few Dutch people still down here. I’m Coyote, mentioned that earlier, so my fur is tanish-brownish, which I think is a really pretty color, in my opinion. My eyes are brown, which is kinda expected being Coyote. I’m 18, mentioned that earlier, and yeah. Not much else I can think of to be honest. I kinda just sit around most of the day, my parents want me to get a job or internship over the summer, so I should be looking for that, but honestly, just don’t really feel like doing that to be honest. So I just lay around and watch Youtube or Twitch, or play games. I mainly play random games I just have laying around in Steam. That’s all that’s really important right now I’m pretty sure right now, I’ll go back to campus in a few days, so I can’t wait for that.
I wrote this mainly bc I had an idea in my head last night, and I wanted to get it out. This story has a lot of "kinda" and "like", mainly because it's meant to replicate how I think and speak, so it features a lot of that. It may make it hard to parse, sorry about that.
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loved everything you said about ep11 and the preview in the asks you got! other than ep11 being focused on pat and pran we're pretty much in the dark about what's actually going to happen. i also think a break up makes no sense and you saying some other chaos might arise is very true. bc remember how they hit us in the face with pat getting shot??
maybe a sea gull attacks and steals their food? maybe one of them (pat) almost drowns? maybe one of them (pat) almost falls off a cliff? /j
anyway do you have any crazy ideas about what kind of angst they could throw at us? i would love to hear them if so!
(i haven't been in your asks before and want to say i enjoy reading all your thoughts, both posts and tags. i appreciate them a lot bc they help me process the episodes ✨)
:))) thank you dear anon for being so sweet im glad my rants can help you deal with processing the ep bc thats what they are for me too we're all just trying to unleash our emo thoughts somehow lol
and its so so true that they really could throw something at us from left field. we had no prior hints at all for the whole gun scenario and honestly 'pat got shot' is still a sentence that i cant believe can come out of my mouth and be true lol.
and honestly, way way more so than for any other eps, i really have no clue what ep 11 is gonna hold, and that thrills me and terrifies me and excites me and makes me so so nervous. bc yes they're running away and im so so happy about that, that they're taking the time to escape all the stress. but like... for how long?? are they gonna let anyone know?? are they just gonna disappear off the face of the earth?? what about uni, and friends, and pa, what are they gonna think??
and how are they gonna spend their time?? what conversations are they gonna have?? these are all the things im really looking forward to bc first of all i just wanna see them relax and chill as they should, but also bc i feel like theyre in a place to be really honest and open with each other and really talk, yknow, let out all the stuff theyve been holding in.
and as for angst, again, i have no clue. i tried to sleep on this ask and proceeded to think about it all morning but came up with nothing and that scares me bc if i cant predict then that means they could really do anything. i know there’s that clip from the trailer or credits of them in those same outfits standing outside their houses and looking over at each other, and that scene has kinda become contextualised to me as they’re going back after having time away and facing their families. and the look to me is not sad. if anything, it has some strength. there’s reservation and fear and nerves which makes sense bc they dont know whats coming next and there’s a sort of wistfullness which we now know is bc they’re time together at the beach is over; they have to go back to reality and ‘face the music’. but that’s not a look of ‘ill never see you again’, thats a look of ‘lets go and do the hard thing knowing we’ve always got each other to hold on to’.
and i think what happens next is gonna depend on the parents more so than pat and pran. we know what they want, to be together, to be happy. we’re not sure exactly if pat’s gonna want to forgive his dad for what he did, how he’ll treat him, and likewise, we don’t know how pran’s gonna behave around his mom with this whole ‘i know why you did it but you shouldn’t have done it’ mentality when he finds out the truth. but the driving force of the story will be the parents, whether pran’s mom feels willing to forgive or move past this feud and her need for hostility, and whether pat’s dad will finally be responsible for his guilt and make steps to build bridges where he didnt before.
but at the same time, i think what needs to mend more so than the drama between families is the relationship between the parents and their sons. what needs to be realised is that the feud should never have affected that relationship and that there’s no need for hostility there. they can hold onto their hate for each other if they really have to, but that shouldn’t extend to their sons.
i realising that im rambling a lot about how i see a way forward but thats just me trying to be positive and also survive this week without going crazy. but you asked about angst so... i think maybe, instead of breaking up, there could be a period of separation, where pat and pran say lets sort out our own families first before we try and bring them together. maybe thats what that look was, a see you on the other side as in we can be back together normally again when we’ve resolved some things, and in the meantime they just text but concentrate more on their families?? thats not too angsty tho. and i’ve seen some guesses about possibly one of them moving away, but i couldnt see that either. pran’s mom wouldn’t move him again bc i think she feels guilty, especially after the slap she sees how her anger has hurt her son. and pat’s dad couldn’t move him bc i don’t think he has enough power over pat anymore, not now pat knows what he did. i could see moving as more as a ‘fresh start’ for one of the families bc they cant exactly get over the feud but they’re done with still trying to compete and therefore dont feel the need to live next door anymore and anger each other, but at the same time, pat and pran are still at uni together and they have 2 and 3 years left respectively, and their dorms are next to each other, and theyre adults. their parents dont have the power to uproot their lives.
idk anon this is messy my brain is so void of thoughts which is new and every time i try to predict something i reason myself out of it in the same second. im well and truly putting this to the people bc, despite the length of this rant, i dont have any words. we’re well and truly in the dark.
#i hate this#i hate being this lost#and not knowing#next ep looks like a bunch of therapeutic and cathartic fluff#but my brain is telling me thats not all#there's still time for the final blow#and god i have no fucking clue what it is and thats kinda driving me insane#bad buddy#made by jemmo
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Hallo, i hope you are alright and that my ask aren’t annoying but I wanted to ask do you have any c!puffy headcannons? —🤡
YOURE NOT ANNOYING AT ALL !!! NEVER THINK THAT ILU VERY MUCH. MUAH /p
as for c!puffy headcanons, i am not the best person to ever organize their thoughts properly but ill try my best >:’D
ahaha. this got. super complex and way too long and more of like an introspective study to puffy now instead of harmless fun headcanons so, uh. under read more <3 (also reminder this is all /rp and /dsmp)
* i like to think that she has a hero complex, but its a bit different since she never really sees herself as an ‘important’ part of the story, not the main character but a support one, hence ‘im fine with being the side character’ or how she’s said she doesnt care what happens to her and would gladly sacrifice(?) herself if there werent other people she had to protect. girl u need therapy urself <3
* though very open with how she feels and never afraid to say when someone/something is upsetting her, ‘opening up’ is still a whole mountain climb for her, apparently. like, she’d rant about the egg, get mad at the eggpire, let off some steam by committing arson or exploding stuff, she’ll rarely ever talk about how much the stuff that upset her actually HURT her. does that make sense? LIKE, she’ll lash out, she’ll get mad, she’ll take NO SHIT thrown at her face, but to show the kinda vulnerability of dealing with that? to cry about it talk about those feelings with someone? I think she’d rather eat her own foot lol
* adding onto the thing above, she doesnt necessarily actually realize this about herself. less of actively doing it and rather growing... used to the ‘cycle of violence’ in the smp as they call it. and the fact that rarely have people really asked, that no one’s actually available for that, w her losing her closest friends, bad and ant, sam being busy w the warden stuff... and niki. yeah. there’s foolish, but i doubt she’d ever see venting to someone she considers her son appealing
* also. puffy is just sometimes... really bad at conveying sadness. i think she’s a rare crier. id go as far to say that shes even more emotionally constipated than dream, lol (but maybe not while the guy’s in his prison arc) and that she’d be the type of person to tell you its okay to cry but beat herself up over something if she let a tear slip in a heated moment
* speaking of sadness. she’ll only ever actually Be Sad if she’s alone or with someone she doesnt necessarily care the opinions of. yknow how she mourned for tommy and blamed herself? those dialogue bits? yeah, those are only times shed actually be vulnerable
* puffy’s go to response to the egg and how its fucked up her relationship w her friends is pure fury. but, going off of her line about ‘failing bad and ant’ i like to think that she probably hates herself the most about it. THAT IS A STRONG WORD LOL BUT YEAH. she yells and curses and gets mad, but sometimes i wonder if the words she had spat before were more directed to herself
* THIS GIRL HAS SELF-IDENTITY PROBLEMS. CAN WE GET A HELL YEAH FOR THAT CHAT? outside of having no goddamn clue about where she came from, how she got here and who she even is, scrounging up a role for herself in a server with a war on the background and traumatized kids got her resignedly coerced into thinking that she is only a Parent. Only good enough when she’s actually doing something Useful for people. SO. when she finds that ship? of having a crew and having a curse? OF FINDING OUT SHE MIGHT HAVE/ HAVE HAD A MOM THATS WAITING FOR HER? the sense of control she has on herself is absolutely crushed. shattered, and she’s left to pick up the pieces w no one to talk abt it with <3
* adding onto the above, it’s why the line ‘I’m supposed to be mama puffy. me.’ hurts me so much! so yes! please cry with me :D
* also to add more on the fact that she thinks she’s only worth something when she’s being useful, puffy literally contemplated leaving the server, thinking that it wouldnt matter leaving since no one really needs her anyway, since she’s failed so many people. bad and ant, tommy, dream. shes said how foolish can take care of himself on how tubbo and ranboo have each other, how she and niki have drifted so far away from each that it might as well be a break up.
HOOOOOOOOOO OBOY . anon youve really given me the perfect chance to ramble huh? sorry for the rather incomprehensible brainrot, here’s more lighthearted headcanons about puffy asdhfkd
* she cannot stand still sometimes. she always has to be doing something extra, walking when the prime path is right there? shed rather go through tedious little holes or hop and balance onto fences to get where shes going. she’ll mindlessly fix up the path when there are holes or mismatched wood, and one time went on a long, long LONG journey cleaning up the paths tommy purposely DESTROYED near lmanburg and even added cobblestone sidings which werent there before
* puffys a bit of a sentimental person. writing in her log to clear her thoughts sometimes and cared enough to try and preserve lmanburg with the glass sheet and trying to find possible surviving artifacts of history to respect it, even though she’s never been a part of it. its also why, when doomsday happened and lmanburg got permanently poofed, she began to appreciate the buildings that are still standing and began taking more pics
* she’s not used to being... what do you call it, um, cared for? she’d deflect compliments sometimes, when shes having a particular bad day, like, she’d laugh nervously and change the subject, sometimes she’d outright deny it, most days she’d jokingly say ‘staphhh it’ and add a very genuine thanks. my point being is, do something for puffy that is mildly nice and she’d keep that moment in her heart forever.
* also funny story regarding the above. u know how karl is notorious for stealing her materials? and how puffy was contemplating doing something in retaliation for them? karl says hi for once when she joins the server and she goes ‘alright fine youre safe for saying hi’ LOL THIS WAS PROBABLY A BIT META WISE but something about this implying that the bare minimum or LESS is enough to make puffy forgive someone is very sad and funny at the same time for me. girl really said ‘oh you said hi to me? thats nice all the crimes youve ever done towards me is now forgiven. <3’ (this is a bit of an exaggeration on my part, ofc, i just think its funny LMAO)
* ironically, despite being the ‘captain’, whenever riding a boat with someone, she prefers being on the backseat and letting them drive. ig shes just there for the ride i suppose, her and her uber drivers :3
* she either has a rather unhealthy obsession with baked potatoes or she just doesnt wanna waste eret’s massive potato farm
* idc what cc!puffy says is c!puffy will always and forever be 5′2″ in my HEART. u are the shortest member, u cannot change this <3
* shes really fond of animals/ neutral mobs. she often baby talks to them and they help boost her mood a lot when shes having a bad day :D
* up to this day, the little secret rooms she’s created around the server have all been yet to be discovered, unless the one under bad’s house has been found. she rarely ever really keeps tabs on them, and more often than not they are just collecting dust. she still visits sometimes and cleans them up ofc
* she still genuinely thinks dream can change. cc!puffy’s line about that, ‘i’m his last hope.’ really makes me think about this a lot.
* ive seen people talk abt it a bit but the headcanon that puffy acts as the server mom to fill the ‘void’ of her missing her mom makes me cry at night /hj
* she really likes her rainbow onesie! i headcanon that eret gave her that along w the sunglasses, but she started wearing that less when she found her old captains uniform. shes never really said why, though, and nobody ever really bothered to ask
* god bless this woman but sometimes the server members get on her nerves sometimes so she goes out of her way to traverse along far away from the main community to maybe commit a few crimes. let off some steam. these take a few days but she always returns
i probably have a lot more hcs but i cant remember them >_> THIS IS A LOT ANYWAY. HOPE U ENJOYED MY BRAIN VOMIT. IF U READ THIS FAR ILU THANK U
if there are mistakes it is bc i am crying and cannot see my keyboard and also i am sleep deprived /hj
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god ok i need to know what this specific thing i do is even about or caused by because it drives me NUTS genuinely this is so fucking genuine what the actual fuck is wrong with me
the short of it; if things touch my arms i get really overwhelmed and overstimulated and lose all my spoons EVERY time and go into a blind rage and or break down on the spot.
the long of it;
i cannot work at my computer in a jacket. the ONLY exception is if its my comfort jacket (ie my mickey mouse jacket and literally only this jacket), because. the risk, that my jacket, catches on my desk or my ipad or my mouse or ANYTHING in a way that i do not like, happens? if this happens? and it tugs on my arm in a way i cannot predict exactly and know is happening and can prepare myself for? i have a fucking FIT.
i.. its really cold in my dorm rn, im ikn a hoodie (bad for computer) and a jacket (its got large sleeves so its not only bad but EXTRA bad) and... i am on the edge of a breakdown because my jacket keeps... rolling up my arm. and the blanket i have on my shoulders (not as bad, i expect how it moves bc i sleep w it every night) keeps... also moving and sliding off my shoulder. this shit is just... moving. and im on the verge of tears. and i can FEEL myself choking up in my throat.
??????? literally what the fuck is up with that why do i do that
but also this has been a thing for . as long as i can remember
when i used to have a wacom tablet i would have full on breakdowns and destroy my sketchbook and damn near break my tablet in half i got so mad. because. the wire, connecting the wacom to my laptop, would. touch. my arm.
i do the same thing with my headset still, where if it gets twisted in a way i dont like i get distraught and super mad, but. since i use it every day, ive kinda learned how to put it away and maneuver the wire so it doesnt touch me in a way i can’t tolerate.
i just.. i genuinely... what the fuck is this even about. like i get mad when things dont go my way sure whatever i have anger issues and i know how to cope with being upset but this is like. over the fucking edge sometimes it will bring me to the brink of a mental breakdown and full on depression SPIRAL if something touches my arm incorrectly. literally genuinely what the fuck is wrong with me and why do i do this hello god????????
also like literally no idea what. PROBLEM i have that would cause such an extreme reaction because the highest contender is ADHD thats the only thing i can think would make me fly off the ahndle SO FAST
the other idea is it might be a hospital trauma thing bc of ivs but i highly highly highly doubt that but its an idea. otherwise something is just fucked up with me and i dont have a damn clue why
#chatter#SO sorry for talking about this so long im kind of ranting and venting while trying to explain but it. makes me so genuinely furious#ugh im gonna crash and burn in a few hours i know it bc i think its just a slow burning fuse rn... got mad enough to start going craayazaay#whatever ig. would love any idea what the fuck is wrong with me genuinely#and no i cant change to my comfort jacket its dirty and not warm enough#im not even warm in the hoodie jacket combo im in rn but its better than nothing
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having a very rough day, do you have anymore top willy moments to gift us?
i am so sorry u are having a rough day pebble. i decided to go a bit rogue with this, in that it is instead a Top Willy Interviews On the Leafs Youtube Page listicle. i hope it makes ur day a teeny bit better.
idk if you’ve ever been to toronto BUT this look is very like. like this willy lives in the junction and hates the “noise” of the downtown and has waited 2 hours in line for bangbang ice cream in august. he likes to smoke weed in trinity bellwoods. he goes to poetry readings on bar roof tops and says shit about how everything north of dupont is “north york”. hes been known to sit at the piano in the common room at university college (uoft) and play scales. he can and has fucked ur boyfriend.
this willyum is your coworker at canadas wonderland one summer. he does not know what hes doing. he is either like :| or like :D depending on the moment. his nose gets sunburnt at the beginning of the summer but only ever in a charming way!!! u never see it peel. he works the stuffed animal stands and cannot understand why his has a line and none of the others do (hint: its bc every1 has a crush on him!!!!). before the park opens he wanders around with one of those velcro monkeys around his neck. he likes the mindbuster the best bc thats MY favourite ride and this is my listicle.
also i miss willys gigantic front teeth gap. he used to have little tombstone teeth. what has he done to them.
hey i love kyle dubas with my whole heart and all but there was something to be said about how when lou made them all be clean shaven and hair short it meant that willys hair was always kinda like a dragon ball z character and also his skin was all fleshy and elastic like a babys arm
speaking of kyle dubas i found this choice shot of willy blinking while kyles prattling on about nothing and like has anything ever been more My Aesthetic
god. has any1 ever been more iconic. this willy lives just north of bloor on dufferin and will tell anyone that the ossington strip is the “most underrated part of the city” (& hes right!!!!). they know his name at sugo. he takes all his out of town friends there and he gets tattoos at ink + water (thats at lansdowne right? now ive confused myself). he goes to the value village there and owns 29 pairs of sunglasses. he has his bed on the floor. he listens to a lot of better oblivion community centre. he long boards. he goes to bulk stores for groceries. he wants to start brewing his own kombucha. actually u know the more i typed this willy might just be me whoops.
this man is my next door neighbour for the summer in cottage country. he has a fishing boat but he doesnt fish because fish suck. i invite him over for bbq and telling stories around the campfire. we drink shitty beer. he is not interesting but he is hot. maybe we make out on the dock. willy looks weirdly good in green.
whenever someone has bracelets on their wrist my mind goes str8 to SUMMER CAMP. willyum is a camp counsellor at a camp maybe on like idk lake erie or some shit. he is a cabin leader and he loves his little sprouts/campers. frederik gauthier is the HEAD LIFEGUARD and willy thinks hes so funny and weird and sweet and cute and he doesnt realize!!! until the end of camp!!! that he has a big crush on freddie goat!!!! its the last night of camp and theres a big campfire and a camp dance and willy asks goat to sneak away with him. they go down to the beach and sit on the picnic table under the lifeguard tent and willy kisses goat and its very romantic.
okay 1) love a man in a puffy coat & 2) there is something about “my father will hear about this” draco malfoy looking like He Was a Diplomats Son mp3 willy that just really gets my goat. he went to a boarding school in the swiss alps and fucked ur girlfriend. he has a closet for his shoes. he dated a member of the swedish royal family for a summer but broke up with him bc he was too clingy.
speaking of that bitch…..here he is again. this is after his tour after high school. he rented out an apartment in lisbon and would smoke cigarettes with beautiful people on the balcony. he spends a month in the south of france turning golden on the rocky beaches and buying dinner every night from the market on his way back to the hotel. this willy takes molly at a gay club in dresden and wakes up in an architect students bed and then he goes to the park to sweat off a hangover and pretend to read nietzsche
this willy is absolutely the rapscallion son of the president. whats that movie with mandy moore (maybe???? oh no wait i just googled it its katie holmes) - that movie with katie holmes where the first daughter like falls in love or whatever?? this is willy. OOH IVE GOT IT. okay so this willy is absolutely a zoey barlett type from the west wing who is very cute and everyone loves him even though he is a spoiled brat sometimes/all the time. ENTER the assistant to the president - zach hyman - in a charlie young role. they fall in love over a pot of chilli. its the most beautiful thing u have ever s33n.
okay so like willy is the new Legal Assistant at the office. kyle is a Partner in Law or whatever tf they’re called. willy and he are Working Late One Night and u know what that means…..they go to rol san bc its open until like 6am and they eat the FUCK out of some dumplings and then kyle drives willy back to his apartment (maybe in this one he lives in a shitty place at yonge & college???? like classic “roommate in the living room” toronto living??) and they KISS in the CAR and its ROMANTIC.
this willyumm is your date for thanksgiving dinner. he comes extremely bundled. my parents live north of toronto so i imagine this willy driving us north for the weekend. his scarf is very evan from skam and its sexi. he does not like the folk playlist that you have put on but its FALL and the TREES and OCTOBER MEANS HOZIER and hes like UGH FINE WHATEVER and is a bit grumpy but then u pass thru the holland marsh and he’s like “hm smells like onions” and its all fine again. his laugh confuses your extended family and he sucks at scrabble and is a pouty bitch about it but its a GOOD TIME.
god THIS WILLYAM is ur older brothers BEST FRIEND and he comes over to play video games ?? i guess ?? i never had a brother but i YEARNED to crush on a brothers best friend. he is very handsome like a lion. maybe you write some weird diary shit about it. every time he comes over ur SO WEIRD and he KNOWS ABOUT UR CRUSH and hes VERY NICE ABOUT IT.
also would a willy listicle be complete without me marvelling over his long straight nose??????????? look how straight it is!!!!!!
this will ham is in ur intro to gender studies class on friday mornings in sid smith. hes in one of ur projects and hes got no fucking clue whats going on. hes on the varsity blues hockey team and he thought that he clicked on “intro to geography”. despite the fact that he has no idea whats happening ever hes enthusiastic about listening. one time u go for coffee at mallo across from where honest eds used to be and he asks u what the male gaze is.
okay. i hope u enjoyed this. it took me awhile and i enjoyed every second of it. to conclude, here is several screen shots from my favourite willy interview:
u ever see a man more beautiful
lil elastic face weirdo
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1-100 >:DDDD REVENGE!!!
FELIXXXXXXXXXXXX >:((
1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?
-spotify
2. is your room messy or clean?
-it’s pretty messy i guess
3. what color are your eyes?
-blue and grey
4. do you like your name? why?
-yeah it’s fine
5. what is your relationship status?
-single
6. describe your personality in 3 words or less
-certified intrusive thot
7. what color hair do you have?
-brown and rn it’s red
8. what kind of car do you drive? color?
-i dont have a car
9. where do you shop?
-hot topic, goodwill, target
10. how would you describe your style?
-comfy emo
11. favorite social media account
-of mine, probably discord or youtube
12. what size bed do you have?
-twin >:((
13. any siblings?
-i have 1.5 brothers
14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?
-probably vancouver, idk canada seems lit
15. favorite snapchat filter?
-i like the one with devil horns and a tail but its cute
16. favorite makeup brand(s)
-i dont wear makeup
17. how many times a week do you shower?
-i used to shower every day, but i dont do anything that gets me dirty so like maybe 3 times but if i leave the house then i shower
18. favorite tv show?
-stranger things
19. shoe size?
-8 or 9
20. how tall are you?
-5′6 with shoes >:((
21. sandals or sneakers?
-sneakers wtf
22. do you go to the gym?
-lol no
23. describe your dream date
-making some pie or something together and then eating the pie and then sitting on some rooftop looking at stars
24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?
-quite a bit actually but i’m saving up for a phone lol so soon it will be like maybe 10 dollars lmao
25. what color socks are you wearing?
-not wearing socks but the ones i had earlier were white (ankle length)
26. how many pillows do you sleep with?
-just one but it sucks
27. do you have a job? what do you do?
-NO BUT IM TRYING TO GET A JOB BUT THE FUCKIN PEOPLE THERE ARE GHOSTING ME AND WONT REPLY TO MY EMAILS SO LIKE SBJHBJS
28. how many friends do you have?
-like 4 lmao
29. whats the worst thing you have ever done?
-idk nothing super bad but i do a lot of small shit that makes me feel guilty when i realize what i did
30. whats your favorite candle scent?
-juniper rosewood
31. 3 favorite boy names
-leo, clay, charlie
32. 3 favorite girl names
-ivy, uh... idk thats all ive got
33. favorite actor?
-no clue
34. favorite actress?
-no clue
35. who is your celebrity crush?
-not a celeb but i’d smash danny phantom
36. favorite movie?
-nightmare before christmas or edward scissorhands
37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?
-no, but my fav book is probably the prince and the pauper? idk
38. money or brains?
-CASH MONEYYYY jk probably brains but if your entire personality is being “smart” like fuck off lmao
39. do you have a nickname? what is it?
- a bunch of people call me son (see #49, #100), some call me rat, dumdum, goth boy
40.how many times have you been to the hospital?
-just once i think when i was birthed. i also went once with my brother cause he kicked some scissors i left out on the floor and it sliced his toe the fuck open and he needed stitches and i watched him get the stitches and almost passed out :/
41. top 10 favorite songs
-please dont make me do this i dont have it in me
42. do you take any medications daily?
-yea i take 20mg of vyvanse but i need to get it raised to 30 cause 20 is Not Enough
43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)
-i got some dry fuckin skin yall dont even know
44. what is your biggest fear?
-it depends. the dark is a pretty constant one though
45. how many kids do you want?
-like 2 or 3 eventually
46. whats your go to hair style?
-in my face, looking stupid
47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)
-it’s pretty small
48. who is your role model?
-i dont fuckin know lmao
49. what was the last compliment you received?
- “i belive in you, my son, you’re an amazing human being“ (same friend mentioned in #100, not actually a parent of mine)
50. what was the last text you sent?
-”no it’s a raccoon“ YOU GET NO CONTEXT LMAO
51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?
-i dont think i ever hardcore believed in him, maybe i did though i remember sleeping under the tree one christmas eve waiting for him but i was like “oh yeah that makes sense“ i guess
52. what is your dream car?
-i honestly dont give a shit as long as it actually fucking works
53. opinion on smoking?
-cigarettes? fuck no that’s nastyyy. weed? that’s fine i guess but wait till you’re like 18.
54. do you go to college?
-no. am sophomore n highschool
55. what is your dream job?
-musician/palentologist
56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?
-fuck the suburbs lmao, but also im tired of rural, so like.. semi urban??
57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?
-no but i take the little soaps >:))
58. do you have freckles?
-yes
59. do you smile for pictures?
-awkwardly, yes
60. how many pictures do you have on your phone?
-dont have a phone but i have like 12 on my computer currently. 4 are of me, the rest are of my cat or random shit
61. have you ever peed in the woods?
-yes
62. do you still watch cartoons?
-cartoons these days kinda suck but like if they were good fuck yeah i would like gravity falls can come hang yknow?
63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?
-i had nuggets from mcdonalds today so i guess them? i dont really care
64. Favorite dipping sauce?
-i got sweet and sour but i dont like it that much. that schezuan sauce was great
65. what do you wear to bed?
-wouldnt you like to know? ;))
66. have you ever won a spelling bee?
-NO ive only been in two. the first one i misspelled the word “turmoil“ cause i had never heard it before and the second one i spelled the word “owed“ as “ode“ cause i was thinking like ode to joy and then i felt like a big Fool afterwards :((
67. what are your hobbies?
-lol what hobbies
68. can you draw?
-i am physically able to draw, but not well, no
69 (haha). do you play an instrument?
-yeah i play a few
70. what was the last concert you saw?
-i saw Chicago in either georgia or tennessee i cant remember in like 2016
71. tea or coffee?
-hot coffee, iced tea. NOT the other way around. (i love both though)
72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?
-starbucks
73. do you want to get married?
-sure why not
74. what is your crush’s first and last initial?
-dont have a crush
75. are you going to change your last name when you get married?
-idk maybe
76. what color looks best on you?
-i dont know but i wear black a lot and that’s pretty dope
77. do you miss anyone right now?
-yeah
78. do you sleep with your door open or closed?
-closed
79. do you believe in ghosts?
-on the fence. not 100% “oh my god look at these gHoSt oRbS i need to sage my house!!!“ but i accept that there’s some things i wont understand about the world and that i have no answers to. i wouldnt be surprised if there are, and i wouldnt be surprised if there aren’t.
80. what is your biggest pet peeve?
-whatever my adhd decides i viscerally hate with a firey passion right at that moment
81. last person you called
-my brother (the 1 of the 1.5 from #13 and the one who sliced his toe in #40)
82. favorite ice cream flavor?
-chocolate is dope
83. regular oreos or golden oreos?
-regular double stuff. if you say golden, mint, peppermint, or thin oreos i’m gonna have to euthanize you, i dont make the rules.
84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?
-rainbow cause it’s prettier
85. what shirt are you wearing?
-queen shirt from hot topic
86. what is your phone background?
-i didnt get a phone between question 60 and now but my computer one is some mountains with the moon in the background
87. are you outgoing or shy?
-really depends on who i’m around
88. do you like it when people play with your hair?
-YES FUCK AAAAAAA (this girl played with my hair literally once in middle school and i was like oh shit and i had a crush on her until the end of middle school true story,,, so ashley if you’re out there-)
89. do you like your neighbors?
-to the left they’re fine and their dog is nice but idk what happened to the horses so that’s sus but that’s where our cat came from so they can hang guess, behind me they’re fine but their boys are loud, to the right they’re fine, and even further to the right are the dope neighbors and waaaaaaaaaay far to the right is a llama and he’s dope as hell
90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?
-whenever the fuck i remember to/have the energy
91. have you ever been high?
-i dont think so but i wouldnt put it past myself
92. have you ever been drunk?
-not that i can remember, no
93. last thing you ate?
-sloppy joe from a can
94. favorite lyrics right now
-”not gonna waste my life, cause i’ve been fucked up“
95. summer or winter?
-fall. fuck you
96. day or night?
-night but i like it when it’s actually night and it doesnt get dark at like 4 fucking pm cause that makes me depressed
97. dark, milk, or white chocolate?
-dark is good, milk is fine, white is only suitable for fancy stripes on chocolate covered strawberries
98. favorite month?
-i vibe with september
99. what is your zodiac sign
-sagittarius (was almost a scorpio but i was holding out >:)))
100. who was the last person you cried in front of?
-in person, my mom like 6 months ago, on a discord call, my friend (i love you by the way, you’re the best,,, i dont think he has tumblr but im just putting it out there) like a month or so ago. i hate crying in front of people, i turn into such a hyperventilating snot monster which is not suitable for human gaze and thats the real tea :/
felix this took like 2 hours of my life i will never get back i hate you and i hope you’re happy with what you’ve done <3 <3
also anyone who wants to stalk me, enjoy this information that im handing to you on a silver platter :)) <3
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FOLKLORE
FIRST THOUGHTS
ft. very little editing
LONG SONGS! LONG SONGS!
AESTHETIC TITLE!
63 MINUTES!
1. the 1
PIANO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg her voice is so soft
if you wanted me you really shouldve showed
IF YOU NEVER BLEED YOURE NEVER GONNA GROW OMG ALREADY A BANGER LINE
OMG HOW SHE SINGS THE BRIDGE YESSSSSS
THATS CATCHYYY
2. cardigan*
DEEP VOICE
SULTRY
OOOOOOOOOO
the piano reminds me of jazz
the IIIII
hand under my sweatshirt baby kiss it better
omg this is sexi ?
OMGGGGGGGGGGGG wow the chorus
and when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone’s bed you put me on and said i was your favourite
WOW
playing hide and seek part omg her voice
the IIIII part is sooooooooo nice
omg this is hot but sad but like NICE
THE STRINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JADORE TELLEMENT
you drew stars around my scars but now im bleeding
THE STRINGS
THE CHORUS
THIS IS SO GOOOOOOOD IM CRYING
PETER LOSING WENDY
this is tugging on my heart strings... that bridge... wow...
im literally crying tears rolled down my cheeks wow that was so beautiful im still crying LOL
3. the last great american dynasty
oo that twang-y in the distance
im still crying from cardigan sorry
all her what friends? was that bleeped? LOL [The clean version of the album on Spotify was available for me before the explicit version]
omg how she sangboys
you can HEAR her smiling i love it so much my precious bean
THESE STORYTELLING LYRICS I NEED TO RELISTEN TO IT ALL
STARLIGHT VIBES?
omg i had a marvelous tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiime <3
4. exile (FEAT BON IVER!!!! OMG?!!!)*
i love how much piano there is in this taylor i love it thank u
WHAT A RICH VOICE
youre not my homeland anymore?? so what am i defending nwo? im baby
STRINGS!!!! <3
this reminds me of the last time kinda duet i cri
balancing on breaking bridges
im not your problem anymore so who am i offending omg wow
her voice is so pretty
i gave so many <3
5. my tears ricochet
omg the intro is nice is that her voice?
or keyboard voices
i didnt have it in myself to go with grace
that electronic voice during chorus reminded me of getaway car... i c u jack
+ the beat... in the bridge
wait wake? I NEED LYRICS TO FOLLOW ALONG SKFSKDFNS TOO DISTRACTED AND CONSUMED BY THE MUSIC [I was indeed distracted and not following the lyrics so I thought the wake was connected to one of the previous songs gskng I was like who died omg dummy]
6. mirrorball
ooo this sounds pretty from the start
this sounds like a gem i find on youtube at 2 am
when no one is around my dear! oooo i like
AW SHINING JUST FOR YOU! IN HER HIGHEST HEELS, LOVE?
That's so cute
i can change eerything about me to try to fit in is SO relatable
her vocals r so pretti
aw this song makes me smile, the bridge was v cute
[Little did I know when I’d relisten and read the lyrics that this song is not one to make you smile ma’am]
7. seven
this is different!
this doesnt even sound like her omg but its so nice
omg the verse hehe cute
THE STRINGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YES big fan
aw is this from kids pov? pirates poor lil bb
sweet tea in the summer, cross my heart wont tell no other
this is different but beautiful
8. august
oooo yes another youtube sounding gem with the quality of the music and her voice
oh wow how she sang more
OMG YES louder THIS IS NICE
twisting in bed sheets aw
cause u were never mine
oh wow after second chorus the MUSIC YES THIS IS SO NICE IM SO HAPPY AND CONSUMED
one ting? huh?
cancel plans in case you call... omg
MEET ME BEHIND THE MALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you werent mine to lose
aw... this song
i like a lot
omg the story telling im crying i missed this so much it reminds me of fearless era
this is so
wow tat resumed loudly LOL
i laff
but omg this is like happy but sad at the same time
THE STRINGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
I CANT THIS MUSIC IS SO NICE I WANT IT TO CONSUME ME AND JUST LISTEN TO IT FOREVER
like an instrumental version. just driving. even this version. this was so nice. i missed storytelling like this. i adore
9. this is me trying
i like dis so far yes, another youtube gem
ORCHESTRA
my words shoot to kill when im mad i have a lo of regrets about that
sphere omg
at least im trying!!! wow ma'am that was so pretty ????
the build up to the bridge wow
jack?
10. illicit affairs*
beautiful guitar, wow
omg yes those vocals?? lil guys? or is that guitar i like
oh wow yeah def an illicit affair huh
this is pretty folk
dis make me sad but excellent storytelling omg
clandestine meetings
ooooo the BRIDGE YES omg !!!! youve shown me colours that you know i cant see with anyone else
you taught me a secret language i cant speak with anyone else
OWWWWWWW
11. invisible string
this is fun to dance to its so cute
bad blood ? *side eye emoji*
prechorus is really nice and catchy
her voice is so nice ugh
i like this bridge <3
is this about joe?
chains around my demons
one single thread of gold tied me to you!!!!
centennial park
blues then purple pink skies! lover <3
12. mad woman
nice piano
and strings
the beat
o wow i hate you forever (... is this clean? fuck you forever?) UPDATE IT IS FUCK YOU FOREVER WOO!
omg you found something to wrap your noose around
w o w, that's so powerful
women like hunting witches too; omg wanting me dead has brought you two together wow but when she sang it wow i love
watching you climb over people like me
wow this is pain :(
the vocals in the background are so nice and add to the feeling it makes my tummy sad :(
those back vocals make me think she can still sing safe and sound live one day maybe so tha tmakes me happy though
13. epiphany
the intro feels like an epiphany lemme tell ya
i close my eyes thats nice
i dont understand whats happening i need lyrics to follow along
but it sounds nice
strings <3
does this have to do with the wake?
the outro is so soothing
british accent?
14. betty
country! this is country! COUNTRY!
OMG SHES SINGING COUNTRY!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOO!!!!!!!
LIKE ACCENT! OMG
the classic storytelling... taylors so good at this my god
the worst thing that i ever did was what i did to you
PARDY
music between chorus and bridge UGH YES
JAMES!
YESSSS THE SOLO BREAKDOWN yes
the only thing i wanna do is make it up to you
i showed up at your party? aw! (and then you kicked me out LOL)
will you have me will you love me will you kiss me on the porch aw
shes so talented wtf. man
aw standing in your cardigan
kissing in my car again stopped at a street light you know i miss you aw
[this was the clear trio clue lol]
15. peace
omg that guitar yes sexi rich deep yez
thats so nice
that was catchy omg (when she started)
OMG IT IS CENSORED...... i talk * with my friends? GIVE US THE UNCENSORED GOODIES CMON!!! oh i just saw the one thats explicit
CLOWNS TO THE WEST WEY IT US
aw the rains always gonna come when youre standing with me
16. hoax
so simple, vocals and piano wowie
omg best laid plan around there the STRINGS are stunning. seriously stunning wow im obsessed
this is nice
sad feels
the guitar added agh yes
omg im gonna cry
it still hurts beneath my scars when tey pulled me apart
im cryin.... that part im cryin!!!!!!!!! THIS WHOLE BIT
the background vocals are stunning
her voice :(
the stirngs :(
the piano :(
the guitar :(
the simplicity :(
me saying okay and nodding while crying
Note. The asterisk was me trying to decode which songs were part of the trio, but I kind of lost track and got confused once we hit Betty / I was too distracted by it being country hahaha
#folklore#first listen#personal#taylor swift#taylor swift folklore#folklore taylor swift#taylurking#taylornation#taylor nation
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BNHA AU Ideas: Bamn! And the kid is 4
Also on AO3!
TL;DR: Izuku gets hits by a de-aging quirk and it turns out hes always been super cute.
izuku gets hit w a de-aging quirk back to like,, age 5-8
angst + fluff + dads happens
izuku, iida, bakugo, kiri and all might are getting groceries
not a great team for shopping but its like, just post internship pre cultural festival so its no a disaster
all might is there to make sure they dont do something stupid or get lost. he was kinda hesitant to go with them because he cant protect them anymore but they are little heroes! so they should be ok, right?
w r o n g
the villain attacks katsuki just outside the store, the only one of them that doesnt have a licence, izuku takes a hit for him and he and iida quickly take the villain down while kiri protects the bystanders
then izuku collapses and bakugo is ready to yell because if izuku takes one more hit for someone hes going to be the hit
all might runs over because even though its still dangerous he has a hero license (bc it hasnt been cancled yet because no one wanted to be the person to do it) and thats his s o n. iida is calling the people he should be calling
all might finds just, this tiny tiny green freckly mess in izuku's oversize clothing and he wants to cuss up a storm because FUCk hes liKe 6
bakugo runs over because all might looks like hes going to cry and hes not ready for that today and he sees this horrifically familiar face. he he does swear.
izuku looks so lost but he sees bakugo and he lights up!!
"kacchan!! youre so tall wow!!! so coool!!!"
and bakugo is going to scream bc f u c k hes so annoying and adorable. bakugo tells izuku that he is normally his age but got hit with a quirk that made him small and hes!! so excited!!
hes rambling about how cool the quirk is and wondering how long it lasts and how it works and allmight is just shell shocked still
"young bakugo, should we tell his mother?"
",,, inko is in america chasing down her husband to divorce him. i dont think she needs this shit right now"
"understandable"
kiri comes over bc whats happening? and he shrieks a little and hugs izuku
izuku is very lost but hes giggling bc kacchan's cool friend likes him, so maybe kacchan likes him now! bakugo is like "fuck why do i feel emotions thats wack"
so iida, having just reported what happened and now on the phone to aizawa walks over to tell aizawa everyones status. he and sees izuku and goes dead silent
"iida?? iida whats wrong?"
",,, hes,,, so s m a l l "
"wAiT WhAt"
"like,,, shrunk?????????"
"no sensei like,,, hes 5"
just a loud "F UUCK" as aizawa hangs up to run over
ok but they are all awkwardly buying the food bc they really need to get food, tiny izuku or no
and so izuku is with bakugo and allmight while the others do the worlds fastest grocery run
and izuku asks all might "mr? is your quirk being really tall? because thats super cool if it is!!" and bakugo is dying because what the fuck does all might say to that
"no my boy, im actually quirkless!"
"oh,, sorry sir"
"why are you sorry?"
"i dont know, but thats what everyone says to me when i tell them so i think its bad?"
and he just mumbles
"kacchan said i could play with him again if i got my quirk but i never did. do i get my quirk now? is that why we have cool friends??!"
and bakugo is going to cry bc all might looks so sad and he cant deal with that
so iida and kiri have bought all the crap and they are waiting out from with this tiny bubbly kid who they have to hold hands with or he Will run off to go look at stuff
aizawa shows up in the school car (,,, driven by mic because he cant fucking drive) and izuku is like OH HI
and aizawa is like ",,, hello?"
and izuku sees mic too and he thinks for a few seconds
"are,,, you two the new heroes that just started? from that really cool sports festival!!! i heard you from my preschool!!"
and bakugo is cackling be he fucking remembers that
and aizawa is red and nods and mic is like TINY CHILD WHO ARE YOU because aizawa didnt tell him what was going on
izuku is like "hi im midoriya izuku! please call me izuku!!" and mic is crying bc??? baby boy??
so they get an update ab the villain, apparently the quirk lasts for 2 weeks and allmight is caught between happy bc Tiny and sad bc My Boy??? he says how long it lasts and katsuki groans loudly
"bakugo?"
'AUntIEs iN aMEricA For 3 WeEKs"
"shit"
in the car all might has to hold him because aizawa didnt think this through and there isnt a child seat, so izuku is playing with all mights fringe because its long enough to be in his face and allmight is cry bc its his boy!!!!
they are up front because iida and katsuki need to talk to aizawa about whatever is going down with izuku. kiri is just there for moral support honestly, he is still pretty lost
izuku is asking present mic all these questions about his quirk ands all might is legitimately impressed at the control mic has because h looks like hes 30 seconds from bursting into a screech of joy at this tiny boy but his voice is just a little louder than normal
mic is singing a song in english
and izuku says "thats a rude song! my mum said so!" in perfectly understandable English and katsuki l a u gh hs
"I WAS WAITING FOR HIM TO SLIP UP HAHA"
and mic, cackling bc hes worked it out had to pull over for a sec
all might is red because hes been swearing in english the whole time oops
aizawa is like "Um????? whats happening"
katsuki, through tears : this little shit has known english his whole life but he didnt want more english homework so he just pretended he didnt through middle school and forgot to admit he could when we started UA
izuku looks lost bc what did he do?? mic is saying sorry to this tiny child for singing a rude song, iida is ab to have a stroke
mic and izuku chat about mics quirk in english happily and they pull up to ua and izuku is like wAIT WHAT. bakugo is cringing bc howwww do they explain this
present mic and aizawa, 0 clue what going on "its UA. you go to school here."
"oh, did i get into gen ed? is that why kacchan is my friend again?!!"
"youre in the hero course with me, brat"
and izuku looks upset and aizawa is lost because what kid cries when they are told they get to be a hero
"dont be mean, its rude to lie"
"why would i lie?"
when izuku says hes quirkless bakugo and all might look like someone kicked them
aizawa is like "wait,, quirkless?" and izuku looks at him confused because evryone knows izuku is quirkless
"yeah,, i have the toe thing-y."
and the kids face crumples
"does this mean i cant go into UA now??"
mic picks up the kid before he can start to cry and says "of course not! i bet youd be a great hero, quirk or not!!"
aizawa and mic are giving all might and Bakugo a Look because they look so sheepish
kiri and iida are lost because izuku Very Much has a quirk, it explodes him
all might all but pushes everyone through the gate and aizawa and mic are just staring at him because they Know hes not spilling something
anyway, eri comes to visit!! bc izuku is small!!
she calls him deku and izuku looks sad bc kacchan only calls him deku when hes mad at him and izuku just whispers "you can call me izuku please?" and eri is like "YES IZUKU HI IM ERI HELLO"
izuku is very happy
hes still like, wearing a shirt dress basically so aizawa gets momo, who has a little quiet "HES SO SMALLL" scream in the cupboard, then pops out to make him a onesie. izuku asking if it can be allmight and momo is like “OF COURSE IT CAN YOU LITTLE MUNCHKIN ID DIE FOR YOU”
izuku gets this massive fuzzy onesie and hes like !!!” yourequirkissocoolallmightiloveitsoftthaNKYOU”
momo just hugs him because hes so tiny and cute oh my lord
eri and izuku play heroes!! eri is lemillion and izuku is all might and they are defeating the great villain Kirishima
kiri wasnt warned he was the villain. he just has these kids yeeting on to him and hes so lost
all might and bakugo are trying to make a child sized dinner. they are working together bc if they pretend they are doing something important maybe aizawa wont kill them
aizawa is just,,, glaring at them. he hasnt moved from the corner of the kitchen. bakugo is getting nervous, all might is trying not to spit blood into the food
its like, 4pm? and izuku and eri are sleepy but they are Big Kids so they dont need to nap. all might and bakugo are trying to finish the food before they fall asleep bc god damn it they worked for this
aizawa is trying not to smile but they are so goddamn cute. izuku is cheering because they made katsudon
"kacchan how did you know this was my favourite!! youre so coooolllL!!!!"
bakugo, suddenly feeling crushing guilt: yeah,, im,,, awesome
aizawa is like, walking slowly towards all might and hes scrambling to think of something to spare him from his wrath
bakugo : OH YAGI WERENT YOU ALL MIGHTS SECRATARY
izuku, crying: OH MY GOD
yagi, crying also : thankyou bakugo i owe you my life
izuku is asking so many questions aizawa has to remind him to breathe
please tiny izuku is very fond of aizawa but no one has any idea why bc the dude is scary
"eraserhead sir, when can i see my mum?"
aizawa, suddenly wishing he had kurogiri's quirk: ",,,,you seee"
ok but like, just for a little pain
"it'll be like a sleep over, ok kid?"
"you really want me to stay? most kids wont let me even play for a little while, so no one sleeps over. i can stay home without my mum if you want! i dont wanna bug you,,,"
aizawa, feeling a rush of fondness for this terrible child "no its ok, stay here. youre a good kid"
baby izuku clumsily braiding aizawas hair bc his mum taught him
consider: baby izuku and shinso
baby izuku is on a need to know basis bc there is a traitor somewhere. shinso is just minding his own business and runs into a giggling curly boy
and hes like ",,, who are you???"
"im izuku!!!"
shinso just looking at him and groans
"of course its you. its always you"
he picks up izuku and takes him to aiawa. izuku is patting his hair happily
"i found the gremlin"
"hi eraserhead!!!"
"thank god
izuku makes him help with his hero notes because he doesnt know kanji yet. izuku is just telling him what to do while shinso does as hes told, trying not to smile
#bnha au#bnha#mha#midoriya izuku#midoriya#kid midoriya#deku#katsuki bakugou#bakugo#shinsou hitoshi#shinsou#aizawa shouta#aizawa#eraserhead#allmight#present mic#bnha eri#eri#kirishima eijirou#iida tenya#the kid is 4 au
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watching the 1963 LOTF movie for the first time: my reactions
lets go me!! i wanna watch but i cannot focus on JUST watching a movie and the minecraft server i usually play on is down, so i decided to write my reactions bc ive seen people do it for other movies and why not. also i wanna look back in the furture when i watch again bc why not. pls dont judge me. lets go team
-yo wtf is the choir so creepy when they sing like okay
- piggy is adorable and i’d kill for him
- music when they first arrive on shore: creepy, but that could just be cause i know its boutta go from 0-100 real quick
- we got our first suCKS TO YOUR ASSMAR
- PIGGY’S LAUGH IS SO CUTE IM LEGIT GONNA SOB WHEN HE DIES WTF
- Percival? so cute
- did jack fuckin make em sing as they approached? legend. icon. love the flex.
- i love how sad the choir kids all look. theyre all so fuckin done.
- god pls forgive me for laughing when Simon just fuckin collpased
- god simon is adorable
- imma cRY stop making fun of piggy
- jack just fuckng casually scratching his nose with his knife like okay flex again
- holY SHIT MAN HOW MEAN CAN U BE SIMON WAS LOOKING AT THAT
- stop attacking pigman i stg
- i, myself, as a hermit crab owner, am kinda sad :( leave them alone they are trying to be in sand
- im gonna cry simon is so cute with his lizard friend i love him sm
- could the plane not see the kids running on the island? maybe im wrong. idk
- i rly wanna hug ralph :( hes so upset about the fire
- yo the whole cult pig chant thing was creepy but when u hear actual kids say it? terrifying. no thanks.
- a+ acting piggy but alos i fuckin love u so its ok
- k fuck u jack. fuck u. also, simon’s voice is so sweet when hes like “here have ur specs” and he hands them over so nicely like God simon ur the best ur so valid sweetie
- jack that was a fake ass apology.
- u better bring em back ralph. he makes his tone a lot nicer with piggy than he does with jack which i appreciate
- ur slurping is fckin nasty. poor piggy. also thank god for simon which i have saud before many times, and will say again many times.
- get em ralph. call that assembly. they suck.
- god, percival is bby. imma pretend that hunter is maurice like in the book and thank the lord for him as well. finally, a hunter does something valid. way to go.
- is that my dumbass squid boy? i love him
- jack shut tf up and stop being mean to piggy challenge
- simon is so precious and whomever said “no” like that does it again imma beat ur ass wtf hes telling the truth. insert that jesus meme here, which applies in many ways.
- jack and ralph argue. again. wow whom the fuck knew. thats all they do jesus they just bicker forever. also, have i said fuck jack rights? because fuck jack rights. piggy has the funmkckin conch
- wow ralph sim n piggy are so valid. love em. cherish em.
- love samneric too, theyre adorable
- ralph is putting jack in his place again and again, whcih is very appreicated and thsank u ralph.
- simon i love u.
- ralph’s smile is orecious af
- no clue why they put the camberly thing in but glad they did bc more piggy content
- oh simon, i love u sm but honey u got a big storm comin
- cue more jack and ralph bickering. also, if i was ralph i would not fumckin climb a mountain with the verified psychopaths but i mean maybe thats just me
- ahhhh.... the corpse
- “boys armed with sticks” THERE WE GO RALPH THATS MY BOI
- i like how dramatic the scene is where jack dips
- siMON
- okay ummmmm lotf is creepy as shit thanks
- choir trying to be tight and kill pigs n shit then go back to singing practice? yeah right losers ur fuckin nerds
- simon pls just go back to ur lizard and ignore the pig pls
- i am not ready
- love how theres like a grand total of 6 people in ralphs tribe lmao
- go ralph!!! ur so valid sweetie
- ralph i stg... go home... ur vibes are rancid rn
- SIMON FUCJDJIN RUN NOW
- his screaming is so awful... it hurts my heart
- simons body drfiting out while the creepy choir song plays is so sad wtf especially with the glimmer or the creatures or whatever like its just sad
- piggy i love u but we BOTH know that was murder.
- as much as raph sucked for killing simon i wanna give hm a big hug
- mkkay accident? maybe, MAYBE i can get behind. but he was FUCKIN INNOCENT PIGGy
- okay fuck jack rights
- awe pigGY
- SIMON BUILT THAT SHELTER
- oh wow rock throwing
- lemme just say: respect ralph rights. hate him for killing simon but u can tell he respects piggy cause when hes yellin at the choir hes all mean but he is nice and tells piggy to wait cause he knows hes worried
- he even gives him the conch to make him feel better!
- FIUCK GET EM RALPH GOD I LOVE U UR SO VALID HUN
- DAMN RIGHT HE IS U TELL EM RALLPH
- u tell em piggy
- okay that was so uncool. who the fuck said that was ok
- OKAY THAT SHOT OF THE BODY BEING TAKEN AWAY WHILE RALPH WATCHES IS SO RUDE
- im sorry for laughing but ralph just seeing what happened and just dipping is so fucjncj funny
- sam and eric are such real ones and i appreciate them as well
- mmkay that cutfrom the coast guard to the island in flames is so funny
- poor percival
- ralph looks so upset. imma cry. like hes legit shking. not ok
aleight i did it. it wa sso sad. i think imma watch the 1990 movie another night cause ibe heard its funny af
ummmm tl;dr, i love simon, i love piggy except for after simons death, jacks a bitch and so i roger, and ralph is valid af. i didnt really see the characters that way in the book, like i imagined ralph was blonde and simon was nothing like that kid, no matter how cute he was. good movie tho!!!!
thats about it. if u read this idk why u did but thank u. if u wanna know where i watched just look up google drive lord of the flies and its there for free! ;000
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Can you please do some more Kent/chowder friendship body swap bc if you write like anything at all I will die happy
this is going to be an Unorganized Mess because i’m doing it right before bed because WHY NOT but here. [Note: You gotta have read this post first to make sense of this.]
So, like, as mentioned, I really want this friendship to develop after they switch back but the question is like... how??
In my last post I talked about how Parse would send Chowder nicer clothes (and sheets because wtf is that thread count christopher??) but i think this happened because-- wait lets go back
Okay so Chowder gets to go to the Aces/Sharks game and go backstage (not the right word for that but lets just move on) and meet people so while he is obviously ALL UP IN THE SHARKS, he introduces his family also to Kent as “and this is my friend, Kent Parson” and admist the confused stares (coming from both his family and Kent Parson), Chowder is just like “we met at Samwell!!”
And Kent Parson, who is never really referred to as a friend (more a teammate, tbh, or “ex” or “celebrity crush) has like acquired some sort of blushing instinct (he blames his time in Chowders body) because he sort of blushes and stammers (JUST A LITTLE OKAY) before finding his cool again and--
“Oh, also,” Chowder tells his little sister. “You gotta feel that inside of that sweater-- it is like SO SOFT.” and so that is actually where Kent gets his first idea to send Chowder nicer clothes (the expensive CASHMERE clothes yaknow... (sidebar: is cashmere soft? i don’t... actually know things about nice clothes))
But he doesn’t do it right away because like.. c’mon he’s not going to seem desperate here. He’s Kent Parson. He... they switched bodies for a little. Surely Chowder doesn’t actually want to... be his friend.
WRONG.
Because Chowder gets on a flight and heads back to Samwell and Kent Parson gets back to Vegas (and snuggles Kit) and THEN Kent Parson gets a text.
And that text is chirping him. Hard. For his coding notes.
“Lol. Dude. Really?? These don’t even make sense!”
“I told you I was bad at it! You’re lucky I tried.”
“It looks like you gave up halfway through and started doodling hockey plays.”
“... that is actually supposed to be some zeros and ones?? he wrote them on the board??”
“holy shit.”
and suddenly kent parson finds himself sort of smiling and laughing at his phone and he would say it is one conversation but then he gets a GOOD LUCK! text before his next game and then a bunch of texts DURING the game that he sees after and then-
Then he gets a “Remember to ice your shoulder!!!” the next day and, okay, yes, it’s weird that this guy has BEEN IN HIS BODY and thus knows that his shoulder bothers him but its also... its also nice??
So Kent Parson says fuck it. And he sends Chowder that sweater he liked so much. Because Chowder is being really nice to him and he... okay he will try to have a friend.
Note: Kent Parson trying to have a friend is a Disaster. because Kent Parson knows his weaknesses: He is bad at emotional conversations, he cannot give relationship advice, he is sarcastic and rude and-- he is not good at being Friends with someone. Chowder’s natural friendliness is something he can appreciate but has difficulty reciprocating.
But you know what he does have?
Money.
Lots and lots of money.
And no one to spend it on.
Until now.
Kent Parson cannot say “Thank you for wishing me good luck before my games” so he buys Chowder fancy sweaters and t-shirts and fashionable pants and sends them on over. Kent Parson cannot say “It is cool you remind me to ice my shoulder” so he also sends new sheets (accompanied by pseudo-snide remarks such as “so i dont have to lay on that sandpaper if we ever have to switch back”). Kent Parson cannot tell Chowder that texting him during the day has become something of a highlight but he CAN buy chowder that coding software he was going on about and e-mail him the product key and he also can get people on the Sharks to sign stuff and mail it to Chowder and, look, he knows that getting Chowder’s family season tickets to the sharks game would be Too Much (at least... right now) but he does offer them when chowder goes home for breaks.
Look, as they text more and more, Chowder puts up with his sarcastic sense of humor and dark moods and doesn’t seem to take it personally when kent just texts back ‘yeah whatever’ after loses.
Chowder is just plain nice to him and Kent does his best to follow Chowder’s complaints about school and tries to offer advice when Chowder admits that sometimes he feels torn between Nursey and Dex and their constant bickering and wishes they would both just stop but Kent knows he cannot actually be that helpful. Even when Chowder texts: “gosh its nice to have someone not involved that i can vent to,” kent knows that he is not adding to chowder’s life nearly as much as chowder is adding to his.
With the time difference, Kent now usually wakes up to a few texts from Chowder and Chowder thinks Kit is the devil but still doesn’t mind when Kent sends pictures of her and Chowder... Chowder sometimes ever so casually reminds him that he doesn’t actually need alcohol (”you could just go home dude. wanna play starcraft?”
Oh right. That’s the other thing. Chowder has got him into computer games. Games that they can play together. On the same time. Kent has never done it before and its embarassing to be bad at something but somehow with chowder its not so bad and he’s already promised that after the season, he is going to have much more time to dedicate to it and chowder thinks that they can get really GOOD over the summer and it becomes... their thing
When Nursey and Dex are driving Chowder crazy or Kent is actually free, the two log on and play some nerdy computer game shit (kent’s words. he keeps calling it that even after he admits he "sorta kinda likes it okay??”).
OF COURSE BECAUSE KENT PARSON CANNOT COMMUNICATE, he just keeps SENDING GIFTS. Which Chowder accepts at first, partly because he doesnt really know how much all this shit costs.
Nursey finally clues him in “dude, is that shirt fucking All Saints?” and Chowder is like “uh... what?” and that breaks the mystery and suddenly Chowder is like... wait a minute. this dude has sent me probably over a thousand dollars worth of nice ass clothes (and sheets and towels) all in the name of “In Case We Ever Switch Back.”
Not To Worry: At this point it is Summer Break. Which means that Chowder can just go, meet up with Kent in person and tell him that while he appreciates the gifts, kent should probably stop. They both now know not to wish on any shooting star anymore. They are probably good.
So Chowder texts Kent something like “dude im home may 22nd-- when are we meeting up over break?” and Kent gets it and lowkey PANICS because like... Chowder wants to hang out with him?? And he can’t even just take him to a hockey game because the season is over?? WHAT WILL THEY DO??
Better to stay on home turf, Kent decides. He can take Chowder out in vegas and they can hit the casinos and maybe he’ll rent a limo and-- “Im free anytime” he texts back, hoping that doesn’t make himself sound lame. “when do you wanna come over?”
And then Kent Parson is thrown for a loop because Chowder ruins his plans by saying “you should come here! i’ll show you non-hockey parts of san jose! first weekend of june?? promise no one will yell at you!!” and kent... well hes not gonna say no obviously but he... he can’t take chowder to casinos if they arent in vegas and--
“Bring your laptop” chowder says. “starcraft IN PERSON”
Look this deserves a 15k fic of its own but picture: Kent Parson, nervous, awkward, feeling a little like he did when he visited the zimmermanns except not because he and chowder are just friends so there’s less... challenge and also he has grown up a little and so its just very embarassing for him and chowder’s whole family is the nicest and he sleeps in the guest room and they just-- They play starcraft. They go see a movie. They walk around Chowder’s favorite park. They drive up to the beach with Farmer. They go to an arcade. Normal people stuff. They do normal people stuff.
And Chowder sits Kent down and is like “dude you gotta stop sending me presents like some kind of weirdass sugar daddy” and Kent does turn bright red at that one because he was kind of just lowkey hoping chowder didn’t notice but Chowder manages to make it not TOO awkward and then its just sort of a funny and Kent promises to stop (he wont really... chowder gets a new gaming computer for his birthday but kent claims that is because chowders weak ass system is affecting his gameplay but that not til later so thats okay)
MORE SURPRISING is Chowder agrees to come up to vegas to celebrate kent’s birthday on july 4th. Farmer comes for part of it (but she has work) while chowder stays for five whole days and they... they stay in kents apartment and play more computer games. chowder tries to build up kent’s tolerance for spicy food and then laughs at him when he dies. they go play hockey at the rink. they just... hang out. like friends.
It’s weird and bizzare and THEN TO TOP IT OFF Chowder (who is a wee bit drunk at this point because they aren’t just going to not drink or gamble at all-- chowder had doubled his 40 dollars today!!) says something like “do you think we can switch back again? if we tried?”
and kent (also tipsy, but just like... tipsy. not wasted) says “uh... no?”
and chowder says “LETS TRY” and kent says “why?” and chowder says “FOR FUN” and kent says “alright if you want”
and the two stand and hug and kent thinks “alright switch back” and then he pulls back
And look into his own face
Which is grinning at him.
“oh my god” chowder (in kent’s body) says. “This is gonna be so fun.”
ENDING THERE FOR NOW because i’ve got to stop writing this AU. what is this. what is my life. i don’t... i don’t even go here.
#my fic#again i dont know what this is or what my life is#kent parson#chower#parson#check please fanfiction#body switching au#they are going to use this power to get into SO MUCH TROUBLE#i guarantee it#Anonymous
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do all the identity asks!!
1. if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?
Read: Chameleon Moon by @thesylverlining, it perfectly encompasses just.. who I am, what I’m about. Everything is going to be okay, because we’re not gonna stop trying until it is okay.
Watch: Uh... honestly I don’t really know. I don’t watch things??
Listen to: Wolf 359. Eiffel is... very me. Episode 51 (Shut Up and Listen) really kind of... gave me the drive to just keep going, keep fighting, keep trying to be the best version of myself I can be. It was released exactly when I needed to hear it
2. have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?
Terry Pratchett’s writing style is very, very similar to how words form in my brain. I started reading Soul Music (wasn’t able to get very far, it didn’t keep my attention) and was just like Well Shit.
3. list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.
Undertale/Deltarune: Ralsei
Chameleon Moon: Gabriel (and Rose, and Rowan, and Finn... and like half the cast lmao)
SAYER: Dr. Brady, probably. I don’t particularly identify with anyone but his eternal exasperation with everyone on his team is a fucking mood
The Penumbra Podcast: Rita, though I aspire to have Peter Nureyev’s fashion sense.
Wolf 359: Eiffel
Uhh, I don’t think I’m really in a lot of other fandoms?
4. do you like your name? is there another name you think would fit you better?
I mean I picked this one myself, so I like it quite a lot. :p
5. do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?
I uh... tend to place my worth on how much I’ve accomplished, which for someone with disabilities is kinda unhealthy tbh?
6. are you religious/spiritual?
Spiritual, definitely, though I’m still working out a lot of fuckery around it. I’m also pretty strongly connected to being UU, bc that’s how I grew up and it’s shaped a lot of who I am
7. do you care about your ethnicity?
Uhh. I mean I’m white and like I’m aware of that, idk really how to answer this question?
8. what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?
My Chemical Romance got me through the worst parts of my life. Uh... I’m a bit brainfogged so I can’t think of much else.
9. are you an artist?
Yup! :D
10. do you have a creed?
Not... really? I try to keep to my word and be kind to others, but thats it.
11. describe your ideal day.
Uh... I wake up, I get to snuggle all my partners, there’s good food, I get to play fun games, more Chameleon Moon content is up... yeah.
12. dog person or cat person?
Both!!!! Also rabbits!
13. inside or outdoors?
Inside pls, outside is cold and when it’s not there’s bugs.
14. are you a musician?
Mhm! I play clarinet and I really like to sing (though I’m a bit shy about singing in front of people)
15. five most influential books over your lifetime.
1. Chameleon Moon2. Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (kept me sane when I was in and out of the hospital)3. Eragon (One of my first headmates was a fictive of Arya)4. Uhh... can’t think of any more honestly.
16. if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?
Definitely not.
17. would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?
Yeah it’s pretty good, I think I come off pretty accurately.
18. what’s your patronus?
A lynx!
19. which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?
Hufflepuff all the way lmao
20. would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?
Uh... anywhere that has magic I can use tbh.
21. do you love easily?
Yup, probably too easily tbh. I love quickly and I love intensely.
22. list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order.
1. Dissociating2. Loving my partners3. Talking to folks on Discord4. Playing Overwatch5. Watching Youtube
23. how often would you want to see your family every year?
Maybe like... 2-3 times? Not super often but not never.
24. have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone?
Not entirely sure what you mean, but if you mean like being super in sync with someone, then @f0xf0ce and I are always like that lol
25. could you live as a hermit?
Oh god no, I start to have issues when I don’t get physical affection for like a couple hours.
26. how would you describe your gender/sexuality?
I have no clue lmao
27. do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?
On days where I can manage to like. dress up and look okay then yes. Gremlin!me is not a great representation of actual!me
28. on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?
Certain things set me off at like a 3, but honestly overall it’s more like a 7, it’s really not that easy to actually piss me off.
29. three songs that you connect with right now.
Far From Perfect - Rise AgainstScared to Death - HIM Wired Wrong - Steam Powered Giraffe
30. pick one of your favorite quotes.
Uhhhh.... idk tbh? too brainfogged to answer
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exo love me right repackage album ranking bc why not
love me right- dude,,,,,,this song is SO GOOD I LOVE IT SO MUCH tho i still have no fucking clue whats happening in the music video its fine bc they look great and they look happy and the song is fantastic. however this album is so good that its only mid tier if i were to rank it that way but i cant bc im indecisive lmao 10/10 pls someone tell me why theyre american football players im so confused
tender love- okay exols,,,,,,who here CANT hear baekhyun singing "chicken tender~" when this song comes on????? if you cant that probably means youre a baby-l which means welcome to the fandom!!!!! its from a livestream him chanyeol junmyeon and jongdae did late 2015-early 2016?? (and since youre a baby-l sorry im referring to the members by their real names and not stage names that gets confusing when youre just starting out so uh junmyeon=suho and jongdae=chen okay?? good) where they sing songs from this album and the sing for you album its hilarious bUt aNyWaY this song is so cute and fun and that mini video they did (i think it was a vcr at one point but i cant remember what for) is so adorable i wish exo did more of that stuff 10/10 gimme more cute shit
call me baby- this song always gives me the same feeling as when i heard it the first time. i remember vividly how i felt when i saw the mv for the first time especially since i was more of a casual stan of kpop wayyyy back when and had stopped around the end of 2013 and only got back in the end of 2015 as a die hard exol. i was just in awe of everything and i couldnt stop listening to this song for MONTHS (also couldnt take my eyes off minseok and yixing the whole time lol still an exom stan at heart),,,,,,it made me feel nostalgic and like i was discovering something new at the same time and the swirl of emotion i get when i hear it happens every time and i love it so this has a special place in my heart 12/10 side note uhhh why do we STILL have no answers for the pathcode teasers?????? SM TELL ME
transformer- uhhhh this song took YEARS to grow on me,,,,,like i only started to like it THIS year,,,,,,yeah im a little late lol sorry imo the beginning of the song is something i still dont really like and i think the chorus could be better but its not as bad as i was thinking when i first heard it,,,,,that said i hardly listen to it and its probably near bottom of the list for this one 7/10 the chinese version is a lil better tao really shines and i love that
what if...: mmmm i love this song,,,,a vocal masterpiece,,,,this is a song i like to listen to while on a long drive staring out the window contemplating life,,,,,,its so pleasant to the ears and ksoo really shines in this song id love for him to do solo songs like this 10/10 im lowkey imagining what luhan would sound like singing this song the whole time 😔
my answer: ONE OF THE BEST SONGS ON THE ALBUM ITS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL and i wish they performed it more ;-; this is another song kyungsoo shines in (he sings well in chinese too) but i LOVED junmyeons voice here as well he sings sweet love ballads the best same with yixing!!! 🥰 12/10 give us more songs like this please and thank you (also imagining luhan singing this 🤧 why sm why)
exodus: OKAY THIS SONG IS SO UNDERRATED AND THATS SO UPSETTING THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITES ON THE WHOLE ALBUM AND NO ONE EVEN MENTIONS IT WHAT THE FUCK like i cant even explain what i like about it its just so good?????? also when baek (or jongdae if yoy listen to the chinese version theyre both so so so good) goes "shes dangerously HOOOOOOOOOOT" damn, gets me every time also chinese version we get raspy singing tao which is ALWAYS welcome 12/10 appreciate this song god dammit
el dorado: okay i wont lie,,,,,,,,i wasnt sold on this song UNTIL i saw the concert version then my third eye was opened WIDE,,,,,,,this song is so epic and no one talks about the chinese version but its also amazing?????? like everyone talks about baekhyuns high note which is amazing and deserve praise but dae does it too and its just,,,,WOW but i guess people arent as wowed bc he does high notes more often????? idk this song is just amazing in every way 12/10 i wonder what this song and mv would be like if it had been a title track,,,,,that music video would be SICK
playboy: CONTROVERSIAL OPINION ALERT!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! so yall know jonghyun from shinee wrote this song and gave it to exo and theres a clip of him at a fansign singing it and to be honest its 10000000000000× better and sexier than exos version. come at me idc i said what i said and i stand by it djhajjhdhs like,,,,,the performance of it is sexy but i think the song by itself doesnt go far enough with the sexiness and for me, if i need to watch a performance of the song to like it and cant enjoy it by itself, then i dont think its a success, at least for me. i mainly listen to songs through headphones while im doing literally anything so id say 90% of the time i only hear the audio and if only the audio doesnt do it for me i skip it 8/10 has potential but jjong shouldve kept it imo sorry
first love: i always forget this song exists,,,,,,and ill probably forget it again lmao its just kinda whatever for me even now its kinda boring imo the only thing notable for me is that the "ow" parts in the background are used in a funny exosexo vine and every time i see it im like "oh whats that song called again i always forget :/" 6.5/10
hurt: THIS is what im talking about,,,,,,this is my favorite song on the album its hauntingly beautiful and brUH THE HARMONIES ARE AMAZING also JONGINS VOCALS SHINING WE LOVE TO HEAR IT!!!!! the "you huuuuuuuurt me" part is so satisfying for some reason?????? goddamn i love this song both versions just kill me 12/10 gimme more
lady luck: this is another song i dont like the beginning but unlike the other song after like 30 seconds it immediately becomes PHENOMENAL tbh if i could just cut out that first part itd probably be my favorite song,,,,,,also for all baby-ls listen to this song live you will be transcended their live vocals are no joke 9.5/10
beautiful: i dont know how to really explain how this song makes me feel,,,,,,like the instrumentals just take me to a fantasy or dream world where everything seems happy and sweet like something id imagine in my childhood,,,,,,i feel like that made no sense and it probably didnt make any sense sorry lmao 11/10 i should listen to this song more (both versions are amazing what the fuck thats not fair why am i so indecisive)
exo 2014 (promise): this song is like a pavlovian response, i hear the first couple piano notes and immediately get emotional jxhsoalsbdhbx they really poured out their hearts and souls for us for this song and it makes me ugly cry every time ESPECIALLY CHANYEOLS RAP HOLY SHIT ITS SO POWERFUL AND SO RAW AND EMOTIONAL,,,that was the moment i saw his growth as a rapper and as a songwriter,,,,,same with jongdae his singing and the lyrics he wrote were beautiful,,,,,and minseoks and junmyeons voices were so soft but so emotional,,,,,and we could NEVER forget yixing and how this song wouldnt exist if he didnt write the chinese version first and the members convinced sm to use it after yixing went to them with the song and sm rejected it,,,,,,i and many other exols feel like the chinese version is written more to the former members and the korean version is written addressed to us exols and theyre both SUPER FUCKING HEARTBREAKING,,,,yixing really bore his soul for us and i cry every time which is exactly what im doing rn lmao 12/10 this song should come with a complementary tissue box
in conclusion el dorado shouldve had an mv and i mourn the missed potential every day, my hate for sm entertainment grows each day im on this mortal coil, and please tell me what the fUCK call me baby and love me right have to do with the lore ITS BEEN FIVE YEARS
#for the most part i didnt talk about the chinese versions bc the main reason i liked them more isnt there anymore so#unless i mention it specifically just assume i mean the korean version lol#this album is still god tier among kpop and i love that about her#exo#exo album ranking#next is sing for you
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I have feelings about the ode to joy and im going to dump them on you
At the time i am writing this part i have suffered through twenty two (22) hours of “ode to joy” repeated in my brains so you are gonna suffer with me now. Srsly, ask @madgronkish i kinda lost it around noon..
Anyways. First thought when i heard it was literally" theyre not going to fucking reunite them to THAT SONG??!?!“ Whilst i was wrong about sherlock driving the car…they still did that. Thanks mofftiss.
Ok now down to business. First off, DISCLAIMER, i am in no way qualified to do this? I dont know much about music and have like half an experience at writing meta? so..sorry in advance, maybe just look at this as inspiration and well..gay feelings bc i have enough of those to go around rn.
I will also tag some lovely people who actually know how to do this whole meta thing, and who knows, maybe one of you actually reads this mess and makes somethin out of it? Possibly? Idk, i dont blame you if you dont, really. @quietlyprim @loudest-subtext-in-tv @joolabee @hudders-and-hiddles @love-in-mind-palace @teapotsubtext @beejohnlocked @kinklock @marcelock @gaytectives @ormondsacker @culverton
So.. for all of you who dont know, ode to joy (originally “freude, schöner götterfunken”) is part of beethoven’s 9th symphony, it is the first ever symphony to incorporate voices, the lyrics mostly come from schillers “Ode an die Freude” and the melody itself has been the european anthem since 1972 (1985 if you insist on EU).
Ok so lets have a quick look at the lyrics(and i really mean quick, these are my notes from this morning, not exactly coherent but enough to get a general idea of my feelings about this, we’ll get into more detail later) i also put both the english and german version bc i felt at some points things got lost in translation, but honestly i dont know what to do about that so yeah, if you speak german, good for you, if not and by the end if this youre not bored to death and still have questions dont hesitate to ask i will awkwardly but gladly try to elaborate (this applies not only to lyrics btw)
O Freunde, nicht diese Töne!
Sondern laßt uns angenehmere anstimmen,
und freudenvollere.
/
Oh friends, not these sounds!
Let us instead strike up more pleasing
and more joyful ones!
(Literally lets have happier stories, also the score.. yes lets get the johnlock theme back,please)
Freude!
Freude!
/
Joy!
Joy!
Freude, schöner Götterfunken
Tochter aus Elysium,
Wir betreten feuertrunken,
Himmlische, dein Heiligtum!
Deine Zauber binden wieder
Was die Mode streng geteilt;
Alle Menschen werden Brüder,
Wo dein sanfter Flügel weilt.
/
Joy, beautiful spark of divinity,
Daughter from Elysium,
We enter, burning with fervour, (Cant set the heart on fire if its
heavenly being, your sanctuary! already burning w/ love, yall)
Your magic brings together
what custom has sternly divided. (Gayyyy!!!!!)
All men shall become brothers, (Secret brothers,reunion…)
wherever your gentle wings hover.
(Idk, mrs hudson is an angel?)
/
Wem der große Wurf gelungen,
Eines Freundes Freund zu sein;
Wer ein holdes Weib errungen,
Mische seinen Jubel ein!
Ja, wer auch nur eine Seele
Sein nennt auf dem Erdenrund
!
Und wer’s nie gekonnt, der stehle
Weinend sich aus diesem Bund!
/
Whoever has been lucky enough. (Luckiest man in the world,
to become a friend to a friend, my only friend, … )
Whoever has found a beloved wife,
let him join our songs of praise! (Uh….how bout no?)
Yes, and anyone who can call one soul
his own on this earth! (My john…..)
Any who cannot,
let them slink away
from this gathering in tears! (Mary crying,then disappearing)
/
Freude trinken alle Wesen
An den Brüsten der Natur;
Alle Guten, alle Bösen
Folgen ihrer Rosenspur
.
Küsse gab sie uns und Reben,
Einen Freund, geprüft im Tod;*
(Like.. sherlock died and
came back for john what more proof??)
Wollust ward dem Wurm gegeben,
Und der Cherub steht vor Gott.
Every creature drinks in joy
at nature’s breast;
Good and Bad alike
follow her trail of roses. (Good and bad, rosie, hmmmm)
She gives us kisses and wine,
a true friend, even in death; (Or only in death?hey mary)
Even the worm was given desire, (Mycroft? Nah,probs moriarty)
and the cherub stands before God. (Sherlock, my lil cherub)
/
Froh, wie seine Sonnen fliegen
Durch des Himmels prächt'gen Plan,
(Plans…ominous)
Laufet, Brüder, eure Bahn,
Freudig, wie ein Held zum Siegen.
Gladly, just as His suns hurtle
through the glorious universe,
So you, brothers, should run your course, (the way it was always
joyfully, like a conquering hero. meant to be…..)
/
Seid umschlungen, Millionen!
Diesen Kuß der ganzen Welt!
Brüder, über’m Sternenzelt
Muß ein lieber Vater wohnen.
Ihr stürzt nieder, Millionen?
Ahnest du den Schöpfer, Welt?
Such’ ihn über’m Sternenzelt!
Über Sternen muß er wohnen.
/
Be embraced, you millions!
This kiss is for the whole world! (,!!???? Like???????Yes pls)
Brothers, above the canopy of stars
must dwell a loving father. (Or two? Hey dads)
Do you bow down before Him, you millions?
Do you sense your Creator, o world?
Seek Him above the canopy of stars!
He must dwell beyond the stars.
Well that was……….. kinda gay. Yeah yeah i know its just a queer reading no i dont believe it was intended to be gay by either beethoven or schiller (or was it?? Irdk) but. in the context of the show. which is rather what were looking at. Pretty damn gay, right?
Ok lets have a look at my absolute favourite lines first:
Your magic brings together/what custom has sternly divided.
Well… i think we can all agree that society has, quite sternly indeed, divided holmes and watson, romantically. Homosexuality just simply wasnt a custom, or at least very frowned upon, mildly speaking. It is rather magical to watch this wrong being righted though, i should think. More specifically in bbc sherlock, the divide has come through a custom of not speaking to each other, and guess what?? Yeah hudders is friggin done with that bs these two are talking now!
And then…
Be embraced, you millions!/This kiss is for the whole world!
*shrieking* do i? Do i really need to talk about this? I think not. This just…. yeah. I mean really…..
I would like to add at this point that, at least to my ears, embraced sounds like a rather tame option of translation. “Umschlungen”, to me personally conveys a certain vigour, almost as if the embrace might… idk.. come as a surprise to some extend? Take the air from some peoples lungs? Yeah dunno what that could be about……
If you still need more i guess i could just blubber some more about it all but tbh what is structure? so yeah, here we go, feel free to leave anytime i mean its already pretty gay and hurts my heart i wont blame you if you think
•WE ARE NOW ENTERING THE REALM OF JOY… yep thats happening things are getting happy, please, god, let them actually. And this joy that we will feel when John and Sherlock ( finally) get together will mend all the wrong thats been done to those two, and us Holmes fans, during all these years of being kept apart by society and norms and customs, homophobia and heteronormativity. Were entering a sanctuary, we are literally save here!
•General message of schiller’s ode to joy is literally that HUMAN CONNECTIONS ARE THE CROWN OF HUMAN EXPERIENCE like wow yes thank you it is as if human connections were the stuff that…completes you as a human being. Say what?
•Not only is this true for johnlock but also for our entire community, were bound together by the joy of this show, our joy will mend what heteronormativty destroyed, the joy of their kiss will unite us, we will embrace it and the joyfull gayness will embrace us!
•The fact that its literally such a groundbreaking piece of music. There have been symphonies over and over but this is new, this is different, he incorporated voices. Groundbreaking,earthshattering… u get it. Seriously if anyone who has even a slither of a clue about music wants to educate me on what the inclusion of voices could stand for please im begging enlighten me my brains too fried im already struggling to get this done(as you might be able to tell. I am so sorry)
And now, onto some more shit i stumbled upon in the original poem that, sadly, didnt make it into the song but:
•Have patience for a better world to come, god(mofftiss) is good and will give you what you deserve
•Forget hatred and revenge, forgive your (arch)enemy who shall not have to cry or be rueful (ahem mary. Also possibly mycroft to some extent who knows whats gonna happen)
•Bravery even in agony,help where innocence is weeping (hi john)
•Something about oaths and telling the truth to your friends as well as enemies and how lies will bring everything down……
•Narrowing the circle, making oaths with wine and staying faithful(keep believing!!)
•Salvation from tyranns, hope to the dying, mercy in council, forgiving of sins and ENDING HELL well ok then yes to all!
No honestly theres a lot and im horrifically underqualified and have a headache so i’ll stop now. If you actually read this whole mess of a thing.. thank you. Bless your soul. I’ll make you an origami elephant or something
#oh wow look#my first meta#contributing#sherlock#bbc sherlock#s4#sherlock season 4#sherlock s4#tld#the lying detective#sherlock soundtrack#sherlock meta#ode to joy#meta#mine#textpost#my meta
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omg :’)
2. is your room messy or clean?
my room at home is spotless but my room here in maui is fucked zoinks i got clothes on every inch of the floor
4. do you like your name? why?
eh im okay with it!! i like that it means strong like i think thats super cool but i dont think its the most melodic
6. describe your personality in 3 words or less
fuckin shite lads
8. what kind of car do you drive?
i don’t even have my learner’s permit
10. how would you describe your style?
i wear clothes that would flatter absolutely no body type from a period of fashion which should never be repeated (but here i am anyway)
12. what size bed do you have?
queen
14. if you could live anywhere in the world where would it be and why?
probably norway!! i’ve been super into it for a long time now lol i just think it’s so fuckin beautiful and the language is pretty cool
16. favourite makeup brands?
i tend to lean toward urban decay and nars i feel like they’re both pretty solid!! mac is more affordable though and i like that
18. favourite tv show?
oi uhhh buffy the vampire slayer will be my top favourite forever but the killing, pushing daisies and the x-files are up there too (i know i’m forgetting a couple)
20. how tall are you?
5′7″ and a bit
22. do you go to the gym?
not as often as i should
24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?
60 bucks
26. how many pillows do you sleep with?
just one
28. how many friends do you have?
i honestly have no clue man
30. what’s your favourite candle scent?
yeah there’s this campfire smellin one from a boutique that my mom burns and it’s so lovely
32. 3 favourite girl names?
violet, ruby and laila
34. favourite actress?
viola davis knocks it outta the park most times so prolly her and also julianne moore
36. favourite movie?
inception and almost famous
38. money or brains?
brains
40. how many times have you been to the hospital?
for actual sick reasons?? 5 i believe
42. do you take any medications daily?
i take a lotta supplements cause my system’s right fucked
44. what is your biggest fear?
i’m too scared to type them down and speak them into existence tbh
46. what’s your go-to hairstyle?
forgetting to brush it and letting it do whatever
48. who is your role model?
lin-manuel miranda, carrie fisher and my mom
50. what was the last text you sent?
to my friend noah and it says “can u give me an advice”
52. what is your dream car?
idc man i know nothing about cars
54. do you go to college?
i do!! i’m mostly studying history rn i’m tryna play the whole field and see what i like best
56. do you prefer living in rural areas or suburbs?
neither i prefer living in the middle of a city
58. do you have freckles?
nuh uh
60. how many pictures do you have on your phone?
1,667
62. do you still watch cartoons?
yea man
64. favourite dipping sauce?
?? iunno anything spicy
66. have you ever won a spelling bee?
god no
68. can you draw?
i completely wish but no
70. what was the last concert you saw?
i saw james bay in september that was nice
72. starbucks or dunkin donuts?
we dont have the latter in canada so starbucks
74. what’s your crush’s first and last initial?
i don’t play with demons (once again i don’t like speakin this kinda stuff into being bc i feel like the universe doesn’t like my plans going as uhhhh well planned)
76. what colour looks best on you?
red
78. do you sleep with your door open or closed?
closed!! always closed because sometimes when i wake up i see someone standing in my doorframe if i don’t as like this weird sleep paralysis thing it’s super spooky
80. what’s your biggest pet peeve?
loud yawning really rustles my jimmies
82. favourite ice cream flavour?
mint choco chip
84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?
chocolate
86. what’s your phone background?
the lockscreen is a picture of ezra miller and the home one is a photo of oscar isaac, daisy ridley and gary
88. do you like it when people play with your hair?
it’s my favourite thing in the world
90. do you wash your face at night or in the morning?
both!
92. have you ever been drunk?
yes a bit too drunk on a few too many occasions to i try not to drink now
94. favourite lyrics right now?
a line from holy shit by father john misty and it goes: “oh, and no one ever ever really knows you, and life is brief. so i’ve heard, but what’s that gotta do with this atom bomb in me?” i think it’s really cool
96. day or night?
night
98. favourite month?
may
100. who was the last person you cried in front of?
hmmmm it was about a month ago in front of my friend mac because we watched the perks of being a wallflower together lol
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