#and i mean im sure the trauma bonding helped

[fallindomino]

i’ll always think abt s1 sibuna bc of how and why each member ended up joining like

first is nina, and yeah technically sibuna doesn’t exist until amber but i’ll get there. nina shows up to anubis house and feels extremely unwelcome, due to patricia and the tension in the house caused by patricia blaming her for joy’s disappearance. nina feels so unwelcome she starts going to school early, which is how she meets sarah on the bench outside of anubis house. this leads to her taking sarah back to the old folks’ home where she gets the locket and is instructed by sarah to find and protect the treasure.

fabian is a bit different cause you could argue that he gets involved in sibuna and the mystery cause he likes nina but i think there’s more to it as well. at the beginning of s1 we’re shown that fabian’s best friends are joy and patricia. joy has suddenly left and patricia is obsessed with being rude to nina and figuring out joy’s disappearance, so fabian is probably feeling pretty alone at that point too. combined with the obvious connections to egypt that the mystery had and he was sold.

amber is the most fascinating to me bc she on the surface she seems like the least likely to get involved but in the chain of events it makes perfect sense. mick and mara have started to hang out a lot due to mara tutoring him and amber is getting jealous and upset that mick is spending less time with her. to me it seemed like amber was worried that mick was gonna leave her for mara and she wasn’t going to have anyone. she wasn’t previously shown to be super close to anyone at anubis house besides him, so in her mind, she needed friends and fast. when she overhears nina trying to solve the second clue, she then leans over the stall to snap a pic and basically blackmail nina into telling her what’s going on lol. pretty soon after that she comes up with the sibuna name and iconic hand gesture and bam new solid friend group.

patricia had been feeling alone for basically the entire time since joy left, so she gravitated to the first person who it seemed would give her real answers, rufus. when she convinces nina to come with her to meet rufus about her locket, and they see him being taken away by victor, patricia no longer has anyone to help her. combined with the fact that witnessing this event together cleared some of the tension between patricia and nina and it was the perfect time for patricia to join sibuna.

tbh looking back on s1, alfie becoming part of sibuna seemed like more of a foregone conclusion considering how many times he became collateral damage to their shenanigans, poor dude. between getting in trouble after fabian broke the clock, to getting trapped in the cellar, to getting poisoned by them, he really had it rough lol. besides that, all throughout s1 his best friend is jerome. except jerome doesn’t always act like a good friend to alfie. constantly sabotaging his efforts to woo amber, making him pay for his help, and ditching alfie the second it looked like he had a chance with mara, by the student council arc alfie is feeling pretty abandoned by jerome. the scene where he thinks ms andrews is a snake alien and tackles her to the ground is both hilarious and relevant because it leads to the rest of sibuna deciding they truly can’t leave him in the dark anymore, and he becomes one of them.

like their bond is so strong not only because amber forced them to burn objects of value to them in a fire barrel behind the school (lol i just rlly wanted to mention that, like girl was committed) or because they were the only ones who knew about the mystery, but because they all needed each other. when each of them was at their lowest and most alone, they found a group of people like them who would stick by them and idk i just think that’s cool and wanted to rant abt it shdjdjdj

#house of anubis #hoa s1 #in my sibuna feels at 3 am lol #and i mean im sure the trauma bonding helped #but i’ve thought about these parallels before and wanted to talk abt it #sibuna club? more like lonely chaos demons club #im a sucker for found family i can’t help it

[meatonfork]

Thank you so much for fulfilling my platonic TF141 dreams!!, you can't imagine how bad i need a platonic relationship with them and how hard it's to find similar content for god's sake you're a true saviour 💗 If your RQs are open can i ask for a teenage/young adult reader (17-21)? Where the reader was a hostage before they got rescued by the TF141 and for some reason the reader has to stay with them temporarily for their own safety? I can see the reader bonding with them like some kind of family after the reader was closed off bc of Thier trauma, I also imagine the team giving the reader some kind of code name as a way to make them feel welcomed 💗

thank you for this idea! so lovely, i hope this is up to your needs! :’)

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Found Family

pairings: platonic 141 x grim

warning: hostage situation, grim is scared of big storms, usual cod violence

summary: the story of grim’s call sign, and how they joined tf141

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you were only 17 when you enlisted. you felt an obligation to your, now dead, family to serve. to help protect others.

you later found it to be one of the best decisions ever made. pretty smart if you asked yourself.

but, at the time you were constantly overlooked because of your small stature.

for about a year, you never had a call sign. just your last name. it never really bothered you, until now.

now you were caught in a stupid safe house after a task force had to come get you after being captured mid-mission.

they were all nice, except the guy with the skull mask. he didn’t talk much.

a large storm had stopped the team and yourself from being able to leave the area. your next best option was some safe house that ghost knew of.

trekking through the woods in a huge storm with minor injuries- cuts, scrapes, and bruises, was the last thing you wanted to do. but, you really didn’t have a choice.

“what happened to you, kid?” price’s voice was raised so you could hear him over the wind.

“fuckin’ teammate threw me back towards the enemy. got caught.” you were pissed, and your tone made that clear.

price nodded, letting out a hum.

“you got a call sign yet?” soap’s voice cut in this time.

“nah. no one bothered to give me one.” you shrug, but it secretly bothered you. you were the only one in your squad without one.

“you’ll get one soon, don’t worry.”

you nodded and continued following ghost.

a loud clap of thunder made you jump. you lost your footing, but ghost’s large hand quickly snapped out and grabbed your arm.

“you good?”

“yeah. hate storms.”

“we’re all scared of somethin’.” his tone wasn’t comforting, but you tell he was trying to be.

“yeah, i know.”

you finally made it to the safe house, quickly rushing to the bathroom to change out of your soaked clothes.

walking out, you saw everyone sitting on a couch, also changed. you joined them, sitting in a chair, making yourself comfortable.

gaz quickly spoke up, “how you feelin’ now?”

“warmer. definitely war-“ another clap of thunder interrupted you.

“you’re good, just a storm.” he offered a reassuring smile, but it didn’t do much to calm your nerves. your small hands unconsciously started to shake.

“let’s come up with a call sign, yeah?” soap could see your nerves from a mile away. hell, if he tried hard enough he could probably smell them.

“uh, yeah. sure!” you smiled softly at him, tucking a strand of damp hair behind your ear.

“you got any strong character traits? embarrassing stories?”

“uhhh… no.” you frowned. “i mean, im pretty small, obviously, but i don’t want to be known for it. you lot can already see it.” your voice wavered slightly as the storm continued raging. rain beat down on the windows like a continuous line of drums.

“yeah, that’s reasonable. hmm.” this time gaz tried making names for you.

this continued for a long while, usually ending in laughs at how ridiculous their ideas were.

ghost even chimes in with ‘bee’ because you were so small, but seemingly could hold yourself, but your distaste for them quickly shut that down.

“oh! one time, on a mission, my squad ran into some real trouble. we couldn’t get backup, it was too compromised. we were stuck in this warehouse, the enemy had us cornered. only me and one other teammate were in the room. we got split off. anyway, he was injured bad. like, on the verge of death, bad.” you were talking animatedly. hands moving about and face scrunching. the boys sat quietly. this was the most you’ve talked, having been too nervous all night.

“he couldn’t do much to help us. i was just a rookie, little experience, but enough to get by with backup. when i saw at least five men coming up to us, i panicked. i guess i just stopped thinking. i blacked out, don’t remember much. but when i clocked back in, my partner looked terrified, yet amazed.” your voice was growing softer.

“there was blood everywhere. i couldn’t tell what was mine or their’s. all he said was, ‘jesus. that was fucking grim. you good?’ i think about it quite often.” your movements slowed, and your eyes glazed a bit.

“damn, kid. i think i found a name for ya.” ghost finally chimes in. a chuckle left price.

your small figure, curled in a ball, looked at all the men. most held amusement. amused that someone that small had the ability to take out so many men.

“glad to meet ya, grim.” soap’s smile was large.

“nice to meet you lot, too.” you gave one back.

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a/n: thanks for reading!! hope you enjoyed <3

#simon ghost riley x reader #ghost cod #ghost #simon ghost riley #soap #john soap mactavish x reader #soap cod #john soap mactavish #john price x reader #john price #kyle gaz garrick x reader #kyle gaz garrick #cod mw2 #cod #cod mw2 imagine #grim au

[aziraphales-library]

heyyy - first off im so sorry if my request fits into one of your general tags 😭 but um, could y'all rec any a/c fics (ace please) where there's miscommunication about feelings and/or a situation on both of their parts (i think there's a tag requited unrequited love that fits) and with a happy ending? preferably 4k plus but whatever you can find is cool - tysmm <33

You can browse our #asexual, #misunderstandings, and #not actually unrequited love tags for fics to enjoy. Here are more...

Communication Skills by ineffablefool (G)

It's become apparent to Aziraphale that there has been some fundamental miscommunication between himself and Crowley as to the nature of their relationship. Unfortunately, Crowley keeps running away every time he tries to set the record straight.

A Rubber Duck by CassandraLie (G)

There is a gift from Crowley on the table. A little box tied with a bow. Aziraphale is absolutely certain what's inside. (He is wrong.)

Falling for the Illusion by elf_on_the_shelf (G)

After a certain Doomsday That Wasn’t, a trial, and a dinner at the Ritz, both Crowley and Aziraphale plan on making their feelings known but severe miscommunications ensue that make them both doubt themselves and the bond they seem to share. Enter Anathema on her quest to make sense of angelic and demonic auras. Maybe that’s the nudge they needed in the first place to get them properly talking.

the taste of dried-up hopes by rattatatosk (T)

He'd thought Aziraphale would understand. They've known each other so long, spent so much time speaking this language of things implied and left unsaid, and the angel is usually so good at reading between the lines. Surely he would hear what Crowley meant now, when it mattered the most. Instead, the angel had thrown it all back in his face. (Crowley is trying to declare his feelings as loudly as he dares. Aziraphale gets the wrong message entirely. They figure things out eventually.)

The Bookshop by st_jimmy_987 (G)

Aziraphale and Crowley, while closer than any other living being in any plane of existence, seem to have two very different ideas of what they mean to each other.

Definitions of Love by organizechaos (T)

Aziraphale thinks that all the abuse and trauma he endured in heaven is ‘love’. After being freed after the apocalypse, the angel is beyond happy. He wants nothing more than to spend eternity with Crowley but the demon is ready to put a name to their feelings. They both know that they care for each other deeply and when Crowley finally has the courage to put it in words (‘I love you’), it sends Aziraphale spiraling into believing Crowley will start treating him like heaven did. "We- we don't have to pretend anymore.” Crowley stuttered out, golden eyes looking frantically about the angel. His sunglasses were clutched tightly in the palm of his hand, “The apocalypse is over, it has been for years. Can't we- can't we say it now?" his voice wavered only slightly. "I don't love you, Crowley." Aziraphale emphasized each word to better help the demon understand. He had never truly loved something in all his years of existence, he didn’t think he was capable. To love another being — especially Crowley... "I could never love you."

- Mod D

#good omens #ineffable husbands #asexual #misunderstandings #not actually unrequited love #mod d

[antiradqueerguy]

coming to your inbox because i like your vibe and have literally no other safe place to rant abt this. sorry if this bugs you delete this if you want but im debating leaving the radqueer community because of ciel/hbki. ive already been wanting to leave for a while, but the thought of leaving has been triggering my ocd and ive not been sure what to do. but after i saw that guy running around and seeing how obviously horrible he is, and how people still somehow like him, i think im going to go through and just delete my blog or ditch it ive seen him talk about abusing his girlfriend on so many different blogs of his and then i go to look at hers and she is so obviously trauma bonded to him, and its so triggering. it makes me sick how shes admitted to not enjoying how he treats her, but says his treatment is okay because its "consensual" but i really dont believe its consensual. and i know its not my business but i literally cant avoid them in this community. ive blocked them so many times but every time they both get termed, i see them again, and get triggered. ive thought about reaching out to opphie, but every time someone does, ciel is alerted and he starts harassing the person reaching out. maybe i just have a savior complex but seeing the way they are together makes me feel sick. i see myself in her and i feel guilty for not being able to help. one of my friends even watched her change her name on a dime in her discord server just because ciel suggested it. its scary that the community just lets ciel get away with everything. i mean didnt he even admit to *graping* her? and people are okay with it because the victim swears up and down that its consensual? it doesnt make it any better that antis treat him like hes just some edgy kid. yeah its true that he is one, but there are also very very VERY clear signs that he is actually a harmful person and that he is actually hurting someone. opphie even posted a list of a bunch of horrible things hes done, and it looked like a cry for help to me, but radqueers were reblogging saying things like "couple goals" and "this is so romantic" i dont know anymore what to do. i know i have to leave that community but i wish there was a way to make other radqueers realize that ciel is not a good person to have in the community. if they want to beat the pro-abuse allegations, they NEED to point out actual abusers like ciel.

TW: using images from ciels past and current accounts and mentions of r4pe

with ciel he avoids everything to do with him and taking accountability for his action, (EH HEM, his past use of ableist slurs towards people)

me personally i believe that ciel is a abuser. he has had a history of abuse and I've documented AS MUCH as i possibly can. i will not let him escape this and his HISTORY of abuse.

to the people who don't know what nonnie is talking about with ciel admitting to r4ping opphie heres a pic

Now ciel has a cult following, his boot licker fans love him, like hmm idk this

he is invincible, unless his connection to tumblr and discord is cut off his fans will continue to protect him and glorify his abusive behavior

#ciel is a abuser get his ass canned

edit: also HIII CIELLL i know you will eventually read this since you have commented on posts made by antis talking about you before, so howdy doo!!!

#anti radqueer #anti #ciel is a abuser get his ass canned

[chickenskins101]

mike wheeler

okay so with all these set photos coming out and these arguments between byler, and mileven, i think it’s time we start focusing on MIKE WHEELER.

people think that he is some b!tchy dude who is mean to his friends but people always forget that he has trauma too. but see, his trauma isn’t exactly from the upsidedown itself like wills, els or max. his comes from everyday struggles and i am here to speak my truth about that.

let’s not forget how heartbroken that kid was when his BEST friend will disappeared. I mean we’ve all seen that one scene where dustin and lucas are arguing and he’s in the middle look so depressed. for a whole week, he’s looking for will. this guy tried to 💀 himself. yeah yeah he did it for dustin, and im sure that’s part of it but for his teeth? they were baby teeth too. but he lost el, had a big fight with lucas, his best friend is still missing, and is living on one ounce of hope that will is alive after seeing his “dead” body dragged out of the water.

he grows a connection with el, then loses el. on the positive side, he did get his best friend back, but that doesn’t change the trauma we went through. but how can he express that trauma? i mean, his best friend is suffering from bullying and the side effects of coming back to life all year. how pathetic would it look to him if he started going, “when you went missing, i went through hell.” not to mention he couldn’t talk abt that to his mom or sister because barb didn’t come back. nancy has to deal with losing her best friend. at least mike got his back. that’s all that is going through his mind.

when el comes back, he can’t talk about the depression he went through after knowing what it felt like to lose will, and then to lose el for a whole year. she’s got all this trauma from the upsidedown and the lab. once again, he would look stupid if he started talking about his depression.

then his best friend and girlfriend move away to the other side of the country. cleary that destroyed him. i mean he prob thought that he would have will and el his whole life. will, who he has known for like what a decadeish? is gone. can he mourn, be sad, tell his friends that his two favourite people gone is killing jim from the inside? no! and why? because max just watched her step brother die. (i’m not a big fan of that arc cause he was literally so abusive). anyways max is going through it, thinking about what she could’ve done, isolating herself from lucas and the party. he once again probably would feel selfish if he were to mention that in front of his friends.

eddie was his friend too. cleary, he looked up to him in some shape or form. but he knows that dustin was closer AND had to watch him die. mike, wasn’t there for yet. he’s probably going through it too, knowing that someone he cared for is gone. does he even know that eddies dead yet? (pre s5 time skip). but dustin had to watch him die so it feels like him mourning would be more pathetic cause at least he wasn’t there. he can’t be as sad as everyone else when max his in the hospital bc he isn’t close enough like everyone else. that’s one of his best friends girlfriend, he has if way worse.

people forget that will and el weren’t the only ones bullied!! (dustin and lucas are also forgotten, that’s a post for later!). he was bullied his whole life too. he almost died because he was bullied. bullying, especially at a young age will affect you. i’m not excusing any of his fights he’s had with el or will, but apart of trauma and not getting help for it, means you are going to act as what you hate the most.

even the unrelated upsidedown stuff makes him look pathetic. his dad is there physically, but not emotionally. that would put a toll on anyone, having a dad that is never trying to bond or connect with you. but can he say anything about that? wills dad abuses him, dustin doesn’t have one and max had hers replaced with an abusive stepfather.

his whole life, he felt like his trauma want important enough because everyone has it worse than him. i am not shaming any other characters for their trauma, their traumas are just as important. what im trying to prove is that he isn’t some butthole teenager. he is a teenager who feels alone and keeps his feelings hidden until they explode.

plus, if you are a byler fan or a queer mike truther, you can add on to the fact that he probably hates himself for being some different weird losers who wants to be with his best friend, a man. that probably breaks all rules he grew up with.

add all these things tgt, and you get a very emotionally drained teenager who needs help.

(all the kids need therapy, srsly, why is max the only one in therapy. each kid has gone through sm, im not dissing them or ignoring their trauma, everyone’s trauma is equally important and ill make another post about each character in the future).

i really hope they talk about his trauma and depression, this dude has gone through and yet feels like it’s not important enough.

#mike wheeler #byler #mileven #stranger things #st5 production #stranger things 5

[persephonethewanderer]

You talking about Skyfall has riactivated my dormant interest like a sleeper agent. I remember back when the movie came out how very few were actively engaging with the treasure trove of trauma and intensity that is Bond/Silva and I'm so glad to see that you taste lies in that dynamic. I've been meaning to ask you if you, like me, read a subtext in that movie that can be traced back to csa/sa and what you think of it/your thoughts on the subject if that is the case. I really enjoy your analyses <3

anon im kissing u on the mouth with tongue because you gave me the input to talk about the subtextual (accidental? we will see) sexual abuse/incest nature of skyfall in the never ending triangle of sadness and insanity that is bond/m/silva.

skyfall definitely stands out from every other bond movie because it interrogates itself on the nature of what MI6 does and represents. there are no exploding pens, no flashy moments, it is gritty and terrible in all the right ways — arguably it should’ve been the perfect conclusion for the whole franchise but i digress.

there are key elements portrayed in this movie that can be traced back to the gothic nature of the narrative (if you leave aside the most blatant ones like the old haunted family house and the fight in the moors). and one of the staples of such genre is the undercurrent theme of incest and family curses. clearly m, bond and silva are not family by blood, but that doesn’t matter, because the nature of their relationship — the way agents are groomed to be a very specific type of person, the way m interchanges them like broken toys, how much her presence hoover over their whole life — can clearly be interpreted as something else, something more. Sinister, for sure, M stands for mommy for both raoul silva/tiago rodriguez and james bond. she is the most important person in their life (they have been groomed to think so), and yet for her they are just agents.

i spoke on this before but the parallel with bluebeard is very apt to this story, and so is frankenstein (raoul silva notoriously “look upon your work, mother” but can’t we also say that bond’s inability to exist away from the agency isn’t a monstrous creation by itself?).

so reading a grooming/abusive nature into this feels not only obvious to me but also necessary to understand why skyfall has been regarded as the best bond movie and the one that doesn’t feel like a bond movie at all. there is discussions/inferences about sexual assault, about abuse, about the fucked up dynamics that generate between m and her agents — and for which you truly cannot help but somewhat sympathize with silva (arguably the only bond villain that isn’t a villain at all but more like a tragic figure).

now was sam mendes aware of this subtext or was it accidental? i’d say both, because parts of the script clearly hint at the gothic nature of this tale, but also this is ultimately a bond movie so the real exploration of such topics is left to us Understanders™️

so tl;dr yes i think you can totally read these topics into the story, i do personally.

#rape mention #ask #anon #skyfall #incest cw #raoul #james

[barrenclan]

WWAAAH THIS ISSUE OH MY GOD!!!! I think i start half of my reaction-to-a-new-issue asks with "omg this issue" BUT I CANT HELP IT LITERALLY THIS ISSUE ALMOST MADE ME CRY (in a good way). im so happy for this little blue man and his family starting to patch up some!!! Slugpelt opening up about her trauma to her kids, i really love your portrayal on love-bombing and manipulation with Cashew. I think it's really important for things like that to be portrayed properly in media without it being romanticized. And obviously yeah SLUGPELT admits she romanticized it when she was younger because he was the only one to treat her that way and he was HERS but you dont romanticize it with your writing and !!!! literally i admire the way youre able to portray these things so well in writing so much. And honestly those lines of "he was the only one to tell me those things" and the fact that thats what got her so hooked to him,,, stung a little bit bc its like very vaguely relatable to me and auuuh my heart!! I'm glad she realized that he didn't love her but the fact that she loved him while knowing it was just a game to him hurt a bit. i was not expecting to vaguely relate to the equivalent of a middle-aged mother but slay i guess. And Daff's reaction,,, and Slugpelt's response to that? Mannnn my HEART i love seeing Slugpelt come around and actually try to be motherly to her kids. i love her this is a slugpelt fan club. NOW PINEPAW COMING OUT TOO!!! Dude. When i first read the line of him saying "now if were all spilling secrets.." I honestly thought of the skull thing at first. But then after like two seconds and getting a little further i was like OH MY GOD HE'S GOING TO COME OUT ISNT HE. I have so many thoughts about that scene but I cannot materialize them into cohesive words. just. the whole thing was so well done. and im glad it went well for him. His whole spiral of "oh god i messed up why cant i just be normal and-" really hit me so hard and then proceeded to run me over twice, as someone who is gay that is often a thought process i would fall into, so seeing it portrayed in something is so validating man. but everyones reaction. slugpelt comforting him and being supportive, reassuring him its not weird, and that he's ok. asphodel having a look of guilt initially, assumably because of all of the times she would poke and prod at him for "needing to have kits some day" (call back to one of the first issues) , and then instantly teasing him over how she's seen him look at cormorant. Daffodil,,, man i was honestly worried about her at first because I didnt know how the implication of pine liking the same cat as her would come off to her, but her reaction??? priceless. literally so wholesome. i love how she just sees it as something exciting and something they can relate and bond over, i honestly wasnt expecting her to react like that but at the same time she generally does seem like a good sport so im not surprised in the end. seems in character for her. literally i love her. sweet baby child. literally the whole pinepaw coming out section almost made me cry it filled me with so much joy and love i love these silly little cats so much. going to be thinking about this so much for the next week istg

MADDDYYYYY

TYSM I'm super glad you liked the issue!! I really wanted to get across Slugpelt's perspective, to help understand why she could be taken in so thoroughly by someone like Cashew. She's got virtually no support structure in her life, and has been shown pretty much nothing but rejection her entire life, so when someone actually (seems to) choose her it means a lot. And since she's been shown to be such a distant and sometimes hurtful mother, I made sure to try and show why she is that way.

Pinepaw chose to share delights instead of horrors today! He already got everything he wants to talk about with those bones outside him, and Cootstorm did ask him not to tell anyone else.

YEAH the coming out scene was really fun and cathartic to write tbh, and actually I wasn't gonna include it in my initial planning but decided I needed to. I had considered the possibility of his family reacting badly (since they do live in a traditionalist group) but in the end like... I don't want to. "Confused but supportive" feels much better narratively and character-wise. You're right about why Asphodelpaw looked guilty too, especially since she's figuring some things out about herself as well. Daffodilpaw is my sweet kitty and she may be a little confused but she got the spirit <3

I'm so glad you like it,, they are all my silly little children and I love them dearly

#ask #pinepaw #slugpelt #daffodilpaw #asphodelpaw

[suffarustuffaru]

what are your thoughts on elsa/reinhard? I feel like they’d be a fun pairing.

OH ABSOLUTELY theyd be fun!! im really really open to most ships (yeah, even the toxic ones, even the problematic ones, etc etc, its fiction, rezero is ripe with a Ton of complicated character dynamics, i'll find the relationship interesting if theres narrative depth/potential behind it - just to make that clear :o !! i obviously do not condone that irl of course).

but yeah anyway!! yes definitely i think elsa/reinhard would be fun. you could explore it in all sorts of ways - i mean, elsa's the vampire here, reinhard's a monster for. various reasons. theres also other details like how. um. well reinhard's Immortal, so that means Infinite Guts for elsa!! and i think reinhard would be happy to at least make Someone happy T^TT he'd be like "i can just give the bowel hunter my guts over and over again and she'll be nice to me and not kill anyone else also unless theyre very very bad people? good deal :) new friend!!" or something LMAO. dudes starved for company and uh you could interpret elsas reaction in different ways. i feel like i dont know her that much atm though but i think she'd be amused yeah. i mean. infinite guts.... she gets the sword saint..... they can fight each other whenever also :)... and also meili likes the guy (she literally has a sword saint doll) so. its win win. elsa could be going "i could make him A Bit worse :)" and reinhard could be going "i could fix her :) ooh new little sister too!!" or something lajdflsjf. sorry im mentioning meili a lot when this is an elsa/reinhard ask but shes important okay. elsa-meili are a package deal and meili would have an Interesting dynamic with reinhard.

on a more serious note though... reinhard is also the best person to have if you want capella/"mother" to be destroyed. which probably factors into meili's fixation on reinhard. and also all three of them have this shared motif in their lives of Lack of Control. between elsa's backstory, meili's backstory, reinhard's backstory, it's. Something. alright. a lot of trauma to go around!! they can bond over that T^T and i think elsa and meili would have. Interesting Reactions with reinhard... the pristine powerful hero is actually powerless? thats. sad. and pathetic. and sad. but hey..... he can join the dark side too. and help us maybe... if that makes sense hah. im just spitballing ideas here pfft.

but yeah in all seriousness itd be interesting T^T maybe they could make their own weird uncanny dysfunctional trio together hah. they all got. Weird Stuff going on because they all have issues with intimacy also for Various Reasons and in Various Different Ways, so thatd be interesting to explore too!! i think theyd make each other simultaneously better and worse!! and also reinhard is. 1000% giving up those guts to elsa i dont see any other way this is going. depending on where you wanna take this though she might want like. New Guts if she gets tired of reinhard's aljdflsadjf. or maybe she likes it because she gets to see his body healing itself again and again and shes like woagh. whole new guts. :) meili can get like a little special function on her reinhard doll where his guts can fall out!!! elsa and reinhard made sure to help with the finishing touches of course <3

yeah so thats what i think!! elsa/reinhard would be very horribly funny i absolutely support this ship. <3 ty for the ask :D

#rezero #re:zero #elsa granhiert #reinhard van astrea #meili #i fucking forgot how to spell meilis last name so i wont try that rn aljdsflsdjf #ask #*reinhard voice* i think that maybe you should both be focused less on bloodshed and guts. .....it makes you happy? and you like me? hm. #well. as long as you only do stuff to me or evil bad guys :) will you be my friends then? :O

[signedeclipse]

something similar to the sexual trauma request but with douma and more characters of your choice? :]

Douma

You could argue that Douma faced his own religious trauma as a child, and it shows how leaving it unattended can force someone to block out every emotion

It was only when the Upper Moon met someone with a similar story did he open up and pull you closer

Refuses to let you anywhere near the cult

You lived on a mountain further north, hidden in blankets of snow

This was Douma's true paradise, being next to you as you slowly bloomed and opened up to show your own emotions

At first, you enjoyed the isolation, but when Douma realized you were ready to meet civilization, he literally parted the snow and cleared the path back to the nearest town all by himself

It didn't take long, but he gloats about it, so you praise him

Part of what helps is just his stupid sexual jokes; he shows you that he doesn't really care if you want it or not; he's happy to discuss it and otherwise finds his own ways to bond with you

When things take a dip for intimacy, he makes sure its filled with laughs and good memories and does all the 'work' himself so you can relax

He does expect compliments and praise always, though; you can't escape that

" Oh, hush, my dove! You are making this icy heart melt~ "

Hantengu

Grief and remorse are something he deals with every day

But seeing you in pain, seeing you sob and break down as the thoughts come back to plague you, nothing breaks his heart more

He wonders why the world would need to be cruel to more than just him, why it had to drag someone he loved so much into such a dark hole

Hantengu would likely cry himself and just hold onto you or at the very least sit by you

Actually, doesn't care if you don't want to get sexual; Hantengu loves you more than anything

He is happy just knowing you call yourself his

The other personalities are a little pushier, and all react in their own ways to your emotions

But each offers its own form of protection, if not comfort

Not only will he fight for himself, but you as well

Hantengu can handle a lot more hits just because of you; you are the first thing he cares to protect

Obanai

Obanai refuses to let you remain unconsolable and lost

But at the same time, he has his own trust issues to get through; he doesn't know how you'll react and that makes him anxious

So instead, he acts tough

He holds each of your wrists carefully but firmly so he can look you in the eye when he speaks to you;

" You are stronger now; save your tears. "

When he says you, he means you also have him now

Emphasizes that he will always be there, no matter what

If not him, its Kaburamaru loosely dangling over your shoulder and making sure you are safe

Obanai knows the limits though

While he wants to keep you strong and see you fight for whatever it is you want, he won't hesitate to hold you close and comfort you

He is excited for the day, if ever, that he can let your bodies tangle under the sheets

For now, he is content wrapping himself and his snake around you and letting you build your walls back up

Authors Note - Im always bad with these kinds of topics, but I hope this was able to bring those who have experienced trauma of any kind some comfort!

#demon slayer #demon slayer x reader #demon slayer headcanons #headcanons #kny x reader #kny headcanons #kimetsu no yaiba #x reader #reader insert #douma x reader #douma #hantengu #hantengu x reader #obanai #obanai x reader

[aria-ashryver]

i think about cas and seth's brotherhood constatnly.

and luca and seths bond.

sigh

aaaahhh that makes me sooo happy!!!!!!!! 🥰🥰🥰 im so glad to hear that omg!!!

i really wanted to dive into the various different relationships in ID and my extended Starlight headcanon -- not just the romantic relationships between the trio, but their friendships and familial relationships as well!!

im BIG on found family and character bonds 💖 god, i can't wait to get stuck into the Christmas chapter(s?) in the fic bc we are gonna get a house FULL of O'Rinns and all these sad little vampires who come from these broken families and backgrounds full of trauma just being shown all this soft, unconditional LOVE and !!!!!! my heart is fit to BURST i love them all so much 😭😭😭😭😭😭

i think at the moment, Christmas is gonna be

Luca

Terri

Seth (who is basically an O'Rinn at this point lbr)

Cas

Gabriel

Viktor!!

Morag!!

Luca's Nan, Esther O'Rinn

Luca's Grandda, Jock (John) O'Rinn

(not sure whether or not Luca's cousin Phoebe will be joining them, but if she is there, it's worth noting she's a single mother with two twin babies, so like.. there is potential that either Cas or Gabe or both are gonna have to babysit at some point lmao)

ok ok ok ok i'm in a spoilery mood today, so here's a brief snippet from the draft of the boys helping Terri cook Christmas dinner (below the cut) bc FOUND FAMILY RRRAAAUUUUGHHH YES ✨✨✨

Cas’s stomach growled as he wandered over to stand beside Terri at the oven, the scents in the air making him feel oddly calm, safe, nostalgic.

‘That smells so good.’

Terri looked up at him where she stood over the frying pan, her head titled in confusion. ‘It’s just butter and onions, mo mhac.’

‘I said what I said.’

Something in the shape of her words settled over him, a maternal fondness; it was a soft blanket draped over his shoulders, a warm mug of cocoa by the fire. Cas was filled with a sudden, urgent need to know exactly what Terri had just said.

He glanced at Luca, mouthing the words in silent question.

Mo mhac?

Luca paused over the chopping board. A tender smile inched its way across their face as they set their knife down. Wiping their hands on a kitchen towel, they tugged their phone from their pocket.

Luca: it means “my son”

Oh. Oh.

It must have been the tinsel or something. The festive lights strung up everywhere that were making Cas's eyes blur. Coughing against the sudden tightness in his throat, Cas slung an arm over Terri’s shoulder and pressed a quick kiss to the top of her head, his heart tender with something unnameable.

‘I’ll go get the napkins or whatever,’ he said, gruffly, hurrying out of the kitchen.

#SICSIG #asks in which aria gets sentimental about the blorbos forever

[cozza-frenzy]

im kinda new to the learning about system things, my partner just recently came out to me as one, and i want to learn as much as i can to make sure im being supportive. That bring said, your blog has been really helpful for teaching me new terms, but im still a little bit confused. What exactly does a persecutor do, and what makes them show up in system?

Sincerely; thank you for this ask, anon. After that last person basically went out of their way to start shit we were considering turning it off, but asks like yours are why we keep it on. Sane Allies are the best the Mad Community can hope for, because the very nature of being mentally ill means it can be hard for us to self-advocate. But, to get to the point - Persecutors are a type of alter that causes harm. This can be harm to other alters by abusing them in the system's inner world or re-creating trauma scenarios, putting the body in danger by taking unnecessary risks or self-harming, attempting to sabotage recovery, or harming social bonds by pretending to be other alters or pushing away people the system trusts. This behavior can range from mildly annoying, to so extreme that other alters have to go to great lengths to keep the Persecutor away from the front or away from targets of abuse in the inner world. As for what makes them show up? Ultimately, it's trauma - the same reason why Dissociative Identity Disorder (and related disorders like OSDD-1b) happens in the first place. They may be misguided Protectors who feel like they're building resilience, training the system to deal with worst-case scenarios, or reinforcing a fear of certain people in order to prevent worse things from happening. They might be deeply hurt, and deal with feelings like a lack of autonomy or self-hatred in an unhealthy way, by lashing out at others or self-harming. Sometimes they're paranoid, and don't trust anyone who's trying to help the system, driving them away instead. Sometimes they enjoy inflicting pain on others, because there was a part of the abuse the system faced that convinced them they're "evil", or that it's a good and just thing to punish certain behaviors. Persecutors are always hard to deal with, but like any alter, they are both a part of a whole personality and a person in themselves. Except in the most extreme circumstances, they can usually be reasoned with, and made to stop their harmful behavior. There is always a chance of relapse, but with support from both inside and outside the system, they can realize that what they're doing is wrong - or at the very least isn't beneficial to them or the system. Hope this helps. Best of luck to you and your partner. - Terry

#Adventures in OSDD #Shit Terry Says

[fallindomino]

i just finished tfg so i’m going on an averyjameson rant bc i love them

**spoilers for tfg ahead !!! **

okay the way they were somehow both jealous of grayson in this book like 😭😭😭 it was so funny to me like boi ur jealous of a man who has So Much unresolved trauma seek HELP shddhdj im kidding (kind of,, they could all use some therapy tbh) and avery girl ,,, i do feel bad for her a bit cause it can be easy to doubt the strength of a found family bond (specifically her bond w toby) when his blood daughter who looks just like the girl ur boyf and his brother loved shows up (although i would be grateful not to look like a dead girl butttt thats just me)

and the whole escape room deal ,,, like im not the biggest fan of the “im locking u up bc i love u and want to protect u” trope but likeee he locked her in an /escape/ room so his goal was prob just to keep her in there long enough for him grayson and eve to leave ,,, its not like he locked her somewhere where someone had to come find her, she got out on her own. still p shady but i think its ironic that the thing jameson did that caused the most tension between him and avery was trying to act like grayson who avery didn’t want to be with anymore 😭😭 but if he wasn’t insecure there would be less of a romantic tension subplot so it goes ,,,

also i love their tahiti code word we stan couples who actively try to avoid miscommunication ,,, like sure they had their problems in this book but they were both super open abt their shit and i respect that

i just love avery as a character ngl. like there’s that part where she’s solving the old man’s bag puzzle on her own and grayson comes up to her to talk abt eve and he asks what the bag’s abt and she doesn’t tell him bc she wants to tell jameson first. like i don’t think this is explicitly stated in the book but i know my girl is trying so hard not to be like emily and play the boys off of each other even unintentionally and i think thats so cool and sexy of her.

and then the part

“it was always going to be you,”i told jameson. he needed to hear it. i needed to say it, even though always painted over so much.

and THATS why he said “i wish i’d fallen in love with a girl who wasn’t quite so good at bluffing,” bc they BOTH knew she wasn’t being honest when she said that. it didn’t mean avery loved jameson any less, but that wasn’t how she really felt. then later in the hedge maze avery says

“i can’t say it was always going to be you, jameson, because i don’t believe in destiny or fate — i believe in choice.”

and she says to herself “love wasn’t just a choice—it was dozens, hundreds, thousands of choices.” and even through her lingering feelings for grayson, she chose jameson over and over, which is why this scene is where they make up.

prob my favorite moment was in the epilogue when avery mentions enrolling in uconn and jameson’s immediately like COOL guess yale’s getting a hawthorne like i love himmmm 😭💕

#the final gambit #avery grambs #avery kylie grambs #jameson hawthorne #jameson winchester hawthorne #averyjameson #also i feel like jameson wouldn’t join a yale secret society he would somehow start one

[silver-wield]

always been meaning to ask this but how did aerith and cloud got to be called star crossed lovers? It's from the developers right? But I can't help but question if those developers really knew what that even meant. If there's anyone who fits that, that would be zack and aerith and / or tifa and cloud. Do they mean the Shakespearean meaning of it? Because maybe that fits, since it's all an illusion, a lie if you will. Im not sure if it's a popular term back in 1997 but i wonder if they have a version of that in japanese? Im not sure if they have one. But regardless I think it's a stretch and it just doesn't make any sense.

To fit the bill of that term in modern understanding, the other has to try and try but keeps on failing. This applies more to the 2 latter pairs I've mentioned but none with them, in fact they seem rather apathetic with the idea if it weren't only because of their trauma inclinations. Like with aerith searching for zack in big failure and cloud being reminded of his trauma being experimented upon and wanting to impress tifa or make this fake persona real because he's running from real himself, a way of rejecting himself and coping with his own trauma. It's honestly really depressing, even aerith's version of "moving on" from zack in the gsd, doesn't feel genuine, it feels forced and desperate.

I would know, I talk like that during my biggest depression period, it wasn't easy and you feel like you had to latch on to anything to keep you sane. If a cult love bomb me, tbh I'd be pretty vulnerable with any form of "positive" even if its questionable.

There's so much opportunity to explore trauma bonding (well it's not the correct term but I hope you get what Im saying) and the human mental condition but rather waste it. I hope they would change their mind later on and develop actual good taste for storytelling.

Dismantled and the Sony ad which has that cringe tagline as it spoils Aerith's death. Some people just couldn't get past it so started comparing them to Romeo and Juliet, who are described as star-crossed 😬

Meanwhile Cloud's banging Tifa the night before the final battle 🤣

Cloud has never been described as anything besides an ally to Aerith, and she's only ever described as a former ally because she's dead, and a source of guilt.

Meanwhile Tifa...

So yeah, canon shows what's up.

#ship war #for the fandom

[disabledunitypunk]

Hi, I don’t know if it’s okay to ask this here so please ignore if it’s not okay or anything! And I’m sorry ahead of time for rambling/this being all over the place.(I’m also sorry for how long and overdone this is)

I’m 20 and I have PANS(Pediatric Acute-onset Neuropsychiatric Syndrome) and have had it for over 5 years. it’s mostly neuropsychiatric things like OCD, tics, fatigue, brain fog, memory loss, and way to many symptoms to name but I also have an autoimmune disorder and I have a lot of co-infections like really bad Lyme, Bartonella, H pylori, and several other things. Along with horrible chronic joint pain, fatigue, anemia, babesia. Just so much I can’t name. (Good news though! I’ve just started the H Pylori treatment, 2weeks to go!)

Anyways Last March I randomly started having trouble walking/started walking funny and by the next morning I couldn’t walk unassisted and kept falling. I’ve been in a wheelchair ever since and doctors have done every single test possible:mri of the spine/hips etc, EMG, brain mri. And they’ve found nothing to explain it which doesn’t really surprise me, I’ve been chronically sick like this for 5 years now, I had pans for several years when I was a child too.

My mom is my main caregiver, she’s also a nurse and so she’s been advocating for me and with me all the time I’ve been sick and she’s been helping push the doctors for me to get IVIG which could hopefully clear up the pans and reset my immune system(it’s like the ‘main’ treatment), but to be honest I’m terrified. I’ve been sick for so long I don’t know what it’s like to be well anymore. I don’t know who I am if I’m not like this, and (god it sounds so bad when I say it) I’m not sure I want to get better. I don’t like being sick or that my family has to see me like this, but I can’t imagine a life where I’m not sick. Where I’m not in a wheelchair or using my cane. I don’t like feeling the way I do, most days I’m miserable and have trouble getting out of bed.

It’s not that I’m only slightly sick, this is horrible and it has been for the years I’ve been like this. And it’s not that I’m just wallowing or anything like that, I can’t tell if it’s just fear of the “unknown” or if I genuinely don��t want to get better. I’m just trying to figure out if my fears and thoughts are stupid or if im just crazy for not wanting to get better.

I know I should want to and I kind of do but I just feel so bonded/tied to my illness/disability that I don’t feel like it’s possible I could get better. And I mean even with the treatment it could take months or longer to get better so it’s not like it would be immediate and I have to wait for insurance and other things to approve it. I know it’s helped so many people who have the same syndrome as me I worry it won’t work. Or that it won’t work for everything, I doubt it would work for my walking problem but my mom thinks it will. I think i just don’t want to try but I don’t really have a choice, my mom would be disappointed if I said I didn’t want IVIG and I’d have to explain all of this to her and it wouldn’t make sense to her she’d think it was my intrusive thoughts or anxiety or something.

I just don’t know what to do, I’m scared/don’t necessarily want to get better and try this treatment but I feel like I have to and I’m upset with myself for not wanting to do it because I’d feel like I’m letting everyone and myself down by feeling this way and even thinking about not doing it and not getting better. I have a lot of trauma with my health and this could be part of that I just can’t make sense of how I’m feeling right now. I know I sound crazy, I just thought maybe an outsiders perspective might help. I just feel like I’m going crazy, is it wrong to feel this way?

It’s definitely not wrong to feel apprehensive about treatments. That is first and foremost your body and your choice. Treatments and “cures” are are not such a black and white concept as they are in media. We know many people who chose not to be treated for one reason or another and that is a choice that no one should be allowed to take from them.

For many disabled people a cure sounds less like a blessing and more like a curse. Some of my conditions are so integral to me that I wouldn’t accept treatment for them even if there was one.

If you do not want to have the treatment you should not have to have it. Bodily anatomy comes first. If you truly do not want to get better then that is okay.

One thing I like to do is weight out the pros and cons. And then go through each one break them down.

For an example: the treatment would take months

the time will pass anyway so what would it hurt to try?

but you might not get better

worst case scenario: the treatment does not work and even makes certain things worse

best case scenario: the treatment fixes everything

likely scenario: the treatment helps with certain symptoms but not all of them

Can you live with the worst case scenario in hopes that the likely scenario is true? Or is it better for you to continue as you are? Are you okay with not getting the best case scenario? Are there ways to mitigate risks?

It might help to talk to others who have had IVIG to get a realistic understanding of how it might affect y you and if it is worth it. They probably had similar worries or can answer questions that you have.

You are not the first disabled person to face the dilemma of whether or not to accept treatment and you have a right to refuse treatment for any reason. You are not alone. You are in good company.

I hope something I said in this mess of a post is helpful to you and I hope tomorrow will be kinder to you than today. Good day and good luck.

-Mod Cloud

#unitypunk #mod cloud #ask to tag #anon answered

[nighttime-radio]

Do you get lonely?

Sometimes…i’m never truly alone in the studio, but that doesn’t mean I’m not lonely…I’m not able to really speak to the studio, so it’s all one sided conversation that makes me feel like im just talking to myself… the gifts are nice and I’m not complaining about it! Im honestly thankful for the effort! It’s just… sometimes I feel more like a pet who “needs proper enrichment” for its cage… I think the studio missed having people walking it’s halls… hearing the sounds of them talking and laughing in the recording room… everything it lost when it was forgotten… I think that’s why it tried to appear more welcoming and lived-in during my new life working here… but it was never able to fully hide the signs of abandonment and neglect… it’s trying so hard to convince me to stay, as if I could leave at any moment… not that I could if I wanted to… sure it’s safe. But it’s also possessive… even if I could go back, or leave somehow…I don’t think the studio would let me…

I don’t know… it’s an intrusive thought that comes and goes… I’ll likely forget about it later anyways… There is something that helps though. I like to create characters and write their stories! I enjoy figuring out the details. I flesh out their backstories, personalities, designs, fears, desires, until they sounded as real as you or me. I love it when a bunch of impulsive details that felt right come together to fit way better than expected! Instant serotonin. After this is done, I put the characters through various experiences in and interactions! Either for fun or just curiosity about how they might react. The characters tend to change a bit now and again during this time, but that’s to be expected when you’re working out their morals and limits… Inserting myself into stories never felt right, so I make my characters characters experience them instead. I watch them grow, make friends, go through various trauma, trauma bond, start a found family, have fluffy moments, etc… I adore them. I don’t care if that sounds embarrassing or “cringe”. I love my blorbos, as I heard them called, and I’d honestly like to see you cope with supernatural solitude any better than I have without going mad! thank you for your question caller, and thanks for tuning in…

#Nighttime Radio #Loneliness #isolation #Supernatural #living house #haunted house #house hunted #trauma #just writer things #I find it funny how the nighttime radio is so serious and factual in the actual stories #but then a call comes in and then there’s instant golden retriever energy- #Yandere house #for some reason- #Infodumping #cosmic horror #horror #original work #original story #original writing #original content

[farawayfroppy]

when people in universe (and outside lowkey) can't separate shigaraki from afo im just reminded of how stain and dabi lowkey made points; izuku had to be the new symbol because he's the one who CAN separate them and will transition society from one that sees good and evil as something so black and white to one that can understand the intricacies of descent into villainy, to madness, to whatever it may be. Which is exactly what they were talking about; create preventative measures rather than just allowing that to happen. Shigaraki is not AFO, because Shigaraki is a young man who 1) never felt seen, heard, or particularly valued and then 2) experienced immense, IMMENSE trauma at a very young age and 3) immediately got taken in by a manipulator who knew he could use him and mold him to his will. If you can't see how someone who had never experienced real connection, affection/praise, having a home (after the incident he was on the street; people would barely even look at him), or purpose would be easily susceptible to manipulation in order to receive those things...These are like the most basic things in the hierarchy of needs that Shigaraki had been denied for so long; of COURSE an actual and literal child is going to go along with whatever he needs to do in order to make sure he is taken care of, can survive, can have his basic needs met. And naturally, a bond to AFO was formed. To Shigaraki, what AFO did was a good thing; he took him in and saved him. Not only that, AFO gave him purpose. Not just by affirming the power and use of his quirk, but by validating those very feelings of neglect, loneliness, and trauma that had brought him to AFO in the first place. If AFO says, "I have a way to make sure that doesn't happen again," naturally Shigaraki is going to want to make that happen. Just as the heroes only see AFO for all of the evil he has done, Shigaraki only sees him for the good. He allows AFO to transition his sadness, loneliness, and fear into hate, because it's easier. Eventually it becomes second nature. If you want progress, at all, you have to be able to see the signs and separate willful evil (for the sake of being evil) from a fall from grace (evil caused by missteps in life, neglect/trauma, manipulation) because they are fundamentally different. You would have much less crime and evil in the world if you reshaped society to prevent the latter from happening to children, to the poor or outcast, to the mentally ill, respectively Toga/Dabi (with Dabi being uniquely failed because of his father's status as a hero), Spinner, and Twice (who is especially sad, to me). You will never know peace if you are reactionary, if you only treat the symptoms and never discover the cause. I think Izuku knows this, which is part of why his character is so important. It had to be him, because he knows what it's like to BE the outcast. He was told from a young age he wouldn't be able to do what he felt he NEEDED to do, he was too weak because he had no quirk. He was bullied and mocked on the daily. He understands those feelings of loneliness and neglect, but he also understands that he overcame them with help. Where Shigaraki had AFO, Izuku had All-Might, which means he got lucky, honestly. The difference between Shigaraki being where he is now or him potentially being a powerful, wonderful hero (or even just a simple, functioning member of society) is intervention. He didn't get the intervention he needed. I hope we see that pushed really hard, otherwise it really is just copaganda lmao

#my hero academia #mha #farawaytalks #tomura shigaraki #bnha shigaraki #bnha afo #all for one #izuku midoriya #deku