#and it sucks you know? that’s my MOM

[whatthefuckisneurotypical]

wow. um. you know you’re traumatized when you see a tiktok of a mom surprising her daughter by being at her wedding dress fitting, and your first thought is “oh ABSOLUTELY not, FUCK that, that would be TERRIBLE.” like. the idea of my mom surprising me by showing up at a wedding dress fitting makes me upset and anxious and just sounds all-around awful. she would be intruding and overstepping her bounds and being presumptuous in that situation. it wouldn’t be cute or funny for me. it would just fucking suck.

#but like. my bio dad or my step dad or any of either of their parents would be fucking AWESOME!! #but like. my mom? or her parents? NO. just NO. #i don’t know man #i have therapy tomorrow #i’ll talk to hayden about it then #but like. it’s all so much. #idk it feels like my relationship with my mom is just crumbling to pieces lately #and it’s not my fault but like. at least when i was still pretending things were fine i could make myself believe that we were okay #now i just keep looking around and seeing how many things aren’t really black #they’re just fucking burnt. #and it sucks you know? that’s my MOM #she’s supposed to be all of these wonderful things #we’re supposed to have such a great relationship #but like. we don’t. we never have. i don’t trust her. #and she’s never hurt me on purpose #but i have to specify ‘on purpose’ #whatever. i’m gonna talk with my therapist about it tomorrow. #i’m gonna go make hot chocolate now. #rea rambles

[corpsentry]

a love like burning

#my art #my stuff #art #comics #comic #original art #WOAH i have nothing to tag for this since it's just mine!!!! so cool #revolutionary concept even #already went ham in the instagram caption (@ corpsentry same username) so i dont rlly wanna ham again #i would prefer to Tofu Based Substitute in the words of the ideological west #tofu is really just its own thing i dont know why theyre obsessed with making it a Healthy Vegan Food #your Mom is vegan shut the fuck up karen #anyway . we will do a shortened version of it #i am from a place and community and society wherein being vaguely unintentionally homophobic Is the norm #i am also Gay #what this means is if i cut off everyone who was even a little in disagreement with my identity i would have like 1 person left in my life #and that kinda fuckin sucks. but i also love them. my grandma is cool af #And So. we Carry These Contradictions In Us And We Keep Peeing or whatever #ill leave you folks now adoo adeu adobe acrobat etc #its summer im drawing again! thats right baby #bye #updating this to say if you’re not from southeast asia and you call this hypocritical in any way ill cleave your ass in half with my tongue

[buglaur]

calloway family reunion ✧

#ts4 #sims 4 #I HAD A BLAST DOING THIS #the amount of lore i have for these guys swimming around in my head #too bad i don't know how to logically get it out of my brain #i'm gone now though bye see you in march #unless i spontaneously drop out of school because i can't take this much longer #will answer asks when i get back sorry to keep u waiting #ily 👋 #also #top row cillian and cathal you know them #row 2 felicity daithí's daughter and margot felicity's mother #row 3 the twins aunt róisín and their sister who's name i can't remember i'm so sorry LMAO #and finally their mom muireann i LOVE HER #i would like to do a part 2 with the dad n uncles and the twin's other sisters #but they don't fit the prompts and i don't have time!!! #i also really want to make a family tree but plumtree sucks #gonna have to just make one in photoshop #ts4 cas #goodnight it's almost 1am

[korrasamibottles]

For @wukoweek2024 Day 5: Angst:

“I've had moon peaches before, Wu."

"Mmmm not like this you haven't,” Wu says, plucking a slice from the plate and reaching for a bowl of hot pepper sauce, his mouth curling up in a smile. His lips look petal-soft, and Mako drops his gaze down to his own hands.

“Isn't that for the dumplings?” he asks, picking at a hangnail and tracking Wu's movements out of the corner of his eye.

“So what?” Wu shrugs and spoons a bit of the sauce onto the peach, bright red over deep gold like an arc of flame at his fingertips. “You can do whatever you want.”

In which doorknobs are melted, insects are rescued, and Mako learns there's more to life than just surviving.

#fuck it. wuko manifesto. i just think they're neat! also this partly a mako character study bc that guy really needed his brain picked. #my favorite emotionally constipated single mom💖 #i know this isn't what most of you came here for but listen. fandom is a big ol sandbox & i wanna play. also i put my whole pussy into this #never written m/m before so hopefully this doesn't suck idk how men act. like regular people i guess? Men: They're Just Like Us. anyway. #wuko #wukoweek2024 #mw

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

they had pokedonalds after this ☝️

#if you can't read my handwriting... im sorry #im so proud of this 🔥🔥🔥 im COOKING #i dont even know if they have makeup safe for pokemon but LET'S JUST PRETEND IF IT'S NOT THE CASE!!! I KNOW RUBY CAN DO MAKEUP #EVEN BETTER THAN HIS OWN MOM (I SUCK AT MAKEUP) #GARDEVOIR MY BELOVED RAAHHHHH #pokespe parents #~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #ruby.fam #🍀 s/i: jaide (mangaverse) #my hand is actually dying #FUFCIKCKCKC I CANT EDIT IT I TURNED OFF MY COMPUTER RAAGGH #jaide (mangaverse).insert

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[droldm3n]

I'm watching Batman the animated series again, so you know what that means: it's time for me to overthink the trajectory of Harley as a character and get mad

#batman #harley quinn #harleen quinzel #wlw #harley's tattoos suck ass #i don't like most of her designs #ppl forget my girl was a gymnast #Harley's got a scar from when Mr.J pushed her out of a window #whoop whoop #clowns #clowncore #psychiatric-ward-core #harley x ivy #dc joker #dc comics #redesign #character redesign #droldm3n #ibispaint art #art #fanart #dc fanart #if you recognize the stickers I'll kiss you on the mouf #i don't know how to draw feet #post Mr.J Harley Quinn #dcu #Bud&Lou #Harley's a proud pet mom #women with tattoos #muscular women

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[artist-ellen]

I have a Ko-fi!

This exists! I just... keep forgetting about it. ┐(︶▽︶)┌

Like my work? Want to send me a treat to reinforce the good vibe rewards for an art series you're a fan of?

Like any small creator support for my work is game-changing. It makes my work more and more legitimate as a source of income. Ko-fi has donation options and shop options. It also usually has commissions, but I'm going to pause those until May so I can take a quick break to recharge a little bit.

#ko-fi #look at me mom i'm trying to make a business #this is how you write a request for monetary support right? #no? #well that's par for the course #I do better art than writing #Carving out a living after being laid off kind of sucks #you guys make it worth it #honestly #tiny business #ellenart #ellen artistic #please support me #i know money is tight #sharing my work so it more people can see it helps a ton

[tearlessrain]

god I wish I could look up ftm stuff without being hit by an absolute deluge of detrans/pregnancy shit in the tags. I viscerally hate both of those things to the point that I mostly just don't go looking anymore because it isn't worth it. would it be so damn hard to not put those things under the regular ftm tag.

I don't blame the people with those kinks for having them mind you, it just feels really inconsiderate to be throwing your "teehee I'm a confused girl" fantasy shit directly into the faces of anyone who searches ftm tags and might already be really fucking tired of hearing that from people who are completely serious.

#considering how much work it is in real life just to get people to stop treating me like Nonbinary Plus™ it's just. must we #why is everyone's first reaction to trans men apparently to find absolutely any excuse to not refer to them as men #I mean I know why it's because we let the terfs con everyone into their whole 'the only correct opinion about men is to hate them' tripe #but still it's annoying and disheartening like no wonder I've got perpetual imposter syndrome #even my fuckin mom after I came out was like 'oh yes you know I've always seen you as more gender neutral' #WELL THAT SUCKS FOR YOU BECAUSE I'M NOT #I HAVE A GENDER. NOT THE GENDER ANYONE APPARENTLY WANTS ME TO HAVE BUT I HAVE IT NONETHELESS #DON'T REALLY CARE ANYMORE THAT IT MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE NOT BEING ABLE TO SHIT ON MEN AROUND ME #the really annoying thing is that the whole 'trans fetishization' thing (WHEN IT'S CONSENSUAL) can be hot just. #not in the way these people are doing it

[moregraceful]

suffering through the heat death of the universe (new house has no air conditioning AND two floors AND i can't leave the house right this instant to get coconut water bc the dog finally stopped panicking and fell asleep (on my pillow)(help)), send me asks to ponder tomorrow while i unpack please

#how many 5 minute cold showers in one day is too many cold showers. asking for a me. i know we are in a drought #anyway i moved and it. sucked. moving sucks when you're single with no roommates did you know that #also my monstera is DYING HELLO. YOU GUYS SAID YOU WOULD TAKE CARE OF HIM WHILE I MOVED #YOU SAID YOU WOULD PUT HIM IN THE SUNNY CORNER WITH THE OTHER MONSTERA WHY IS HE IN THE MISERY CORNER #mom was like oh so we have katya the monstera (named after the trans woman she belonged to) we can name him kenneth :) no his name is elias #literally all i have left in this world are my monstera my two snake plants and my dog all of which are in various stages of disorder #if elias dies i will die. then you are left with my unkillable snake plants i named after former orioles during the pandemic. and my dog #thinking of getting another snake plant tho. i want a little one. i will name him adley. he will grow up big and strong. hopefully. #anyway send asks...morale is in the gutter. maybe tomorrow i will go apeshit in the safeway and buy a watermelon #fresno oilers.txt

[yuridovewing]

As a fellow Dovewing lover, it's frustrating how the fandom watered her down into a whiny brat who never cared about Ivypool. I mean, seriously? Not only did Dovewing care about her sister (reacting in horror when Lionblaze, her own mentor and Jayfeather are willing to potentially sacrifice Ivypool's safety by employing her as her spy instead of trying to get her out of the Dark Forest's clutches, hiding a thorn in her nest to cover for her scarring from her training).

Heck, even the scene where she tries to feed Ivypool her catch during a hunting patrol was demonized because 'she was trying to make Ivypool break the code like SHE does, as if it doesn't matter' and because she got upset when Ivypool started arguing with her! But you guys said she didn't care, right? Plus, people act like being forced into a prophecy is something you should be grateful for, as if it didn't irreparably change her close relationship with her sister? As if Lionblaze and Jayfeather didn't still keep her out of the loop (and for all the fussing they made about keeping it a secret, Lionblaze confesses his power to Cinderheart and Jayfeather doesn't even care).

Meanwhile Nightheart is angry he isn't orange and hates his mom for being exiled and the whole world has to stop for him. 🤪 And Bramblestar is simply so tortured by having an evil father, the only choice is to train with him and his evil half-brother and hide this from his wife! (But remember, it's bad when that witch Squirrelflight hides the parentage of the three from him, even when Blackstar and Leopardstar were still around after being complicit in the torture and killing of halfclan cats.) Why are these male characters sympathized with, even when they actively harm people (Nightheart forcing himself into Sunbeam's life by lying to everyone about being her mate without even asking her if she would be fine with that beforehand), Bramblestar (we all know what he does), but when Dovewing or any other female character is upset, people freak out and call them whiny brats or abusive for (checks notes) asking her partner if he loves her anymore after they argued multiple times in a book. Really makes you think! (Sorry this is so long, you just have based opinions!)

dovewing being characterized as this flighty airheaded vain popular girl stereotype in fanon is like. one of those biggest "we didnt actually read the books" things in the fandom. like theres so much fanart where shes grinning and giggling over the prophecy and shes besties with the trio and shes got preferential treatment, and then in the actual books shes basically the autistic kid no one actually likes. people really, REALLY overexaggerate that one scene where she snaps at ivypaw and brags. (and i dont wanna shit on amvs but i am forever side eying how the animation community handled dove back in the day. more than one person animated her getting murdered. normal.)

i do think its gotten better recently at least. but wow does it feel like at least one person on the writing team has a bone to pick

(also awww thank you <3 no need to be sorry i love getting stuff in my inbox)

#it does also feel so insidious to me just how long the bramblesquirrel conflict was painted as ''equally kind of wrong'' #the ppl who put words in squilfs mouth sometimes which. btw ill get to that when i read the book #and tbf part of it is that sometimes abuse isnt as easy to spot if youre primed to the mainstream version of it #like. bramble isnt a born evil wifebeater everyone can see coming from a mile away. hes a complex guy with his own insecurities #and his own goals and people he openly cares about. and even in some fanon stuff i see ppl kinda erase that part of him #(which i wont pretend im above- ive been trying to walk that line myself) #and that doesnt match how abusers are usually percieved by the public. or in this very series. #like. the main excuse for clear sky is literally ''hes sad his sister died and tried to save her! no one changes THAT much'' #anyone can be an abuser. you could be an abuser. i could be an abuser. that doesnt mean that we ARE but we are capable of it #and the thing that catches ppl off guard is that abusers are really good at hiding who they are and theyre often charming #i often hear this account of abuse that goes something like ''my parent abused me but no one believed me bc theyre nice in public'' #you dont know whats going on behind closed doors. and ik this is about funny kitties at the end of the day but its quite telling #so... yeah bramble has his nice moments. hes got his GREAT moments even. i love his relationship with his mom for example #but those moments dont mean that hes not capable of being worse. of being a monster to his loved ones #its why squilf keeps getting sucked back in. hes not a one dimensional asshole. hes capable of being kind to her. #and thats what makes his disgusting moments hit so much harder #wow ok i got off topic in the tags but yknow. idk i got feelings abt this matter as someone who's experienced toxic relationships

[atthebell]

bell I do have a crochet question for you. how do you get better at freehanding things? is it just experience? bc I've been crocheting for a few years now but I still sweat if I can't find a pattern for what I want to make 😭

so my initial answer is just fuck around and find out-- as in just start making stuff, sometimes don't even try for a specific shape, just do stuff and see what shapes you make and get a feel for how increasing and decreasing impact a work, how to incorporate larger stitches (i.e. switch from sc to dc to make one side of the round taller), all that kind of stuff. and maybe try and make something purely based off an image-- as in, no pattern, no fucking clue how to go about it, just go at it and see what you get. it won't always be pretty, but it'll teach you! and practice helps immensely, so you can even just work on things you do have patterns for/know how to make and that will teach you how shapes come together and how to sculpt something (bc that's what amigurumi is, really, just figuring out how to sculpt something with loop & hook-- imo, it's what makes crochet pretty different to other fiber arts, although you can do 3-D stuff with them as well) into what you want.

my other answer is i've been crocheting for thirteen years and i consider myself pretty damn good at it and i still whine and cry when i can't find a pattern for what i want 😭 i think getting really good at tracking stuff down and also sometimes just resigning yourself to having to buy a pattern is really the answer. also, tbh, you can look at how someone else made it and try and replicate that without a pattern-- if you sell stuff, i recommend you still credit the original designer, since you are basing it off their work, but looking at how someone else made something and trying to do the same thing is how a lot of artists build technique. again, don't rip them off entirely, but going "how tf did they make this?" and trying to do something similar can help you learn more about how pieces are put together.

also ravelry, pinterest (if you know how to use it properly and are willing to deal with the spam/clickbait fake pins... bane of my existence), various pattern databases, and, tbh, just rando people's blogs are your best friend. i have a few amigurumi artists where when i'm just absolutely lost, i go on their sites and search up what i'm trying to make to see if they've done it before, and sometimes they have! elisa's crochet has really cute stuff, as does ami amour, and you can find way more people through instagram (the one and only time i will recommend going on that site)

#asks #anons #crochet talk #really truly genuinely fuck around and find out though. make weird stuff and see how it turns out and tbh. finish it even if it sucks #you never know maybe your niece would really love a lopsided freak little lobster creature with no eyes! whos to say #i freehanded a random little multilegged creature and gave it to the kids at my mom's work and they LOVE it #it looks like an scp but they're obsessed #also im in the middle of pepitos mask like i keep saying #and figuring out how to get it to the shapes i want is really fun #maybe ill do like a process discussion post along with the pattern whenever i write it up #also im thinking about making a ko-fi in case people want to throw a few bucks my way for the patterns #the commie in me wont actually let me put them behind a full paywall #but if people want to give me money for them that would be neat #anyway long rambling aside. practice practice practice #that is really the key to every skill

[liebelesbe]

my mom made a wedding cake <333

[ID: A black, two-tier wedding cake with simple black decorations. End ID]

#do you know how hard it is to dye a cake black?? #it's very very hard #fondant is easy but fondant sucks so my mom had to practice dying buttercream black for like 2 weeks lol #but it's so prettyyyyyy <333 #doddie redet #it's for the wedding of one of my moms friends btw :) #mom's friends SON. I forgot a full word there

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#oh wow... #i just had an oh shit fuck moment #wow #i usually complain about the one therapist i had in my entire life and how she wouldn't just listen to what i was saying #if it didn't fit her textbook definition of whatever she was thinking at the time #and how i talked to her about my anxiety and how that made me feel and she would only focus on how i acted #so the example i gave her was the one time i went into a shop to buy something by myself #because my mom didn't want to go in for me and arguing with my mom in front of the shop in public and then inevitably have to #go in myself either way was way worse to me #because of the embarrassement of arguing in public. the fact that my mom was gonna spend the entire walk home telling me how i have to #''just suck it up and learn and just overcome my anxiety because i don't have a problem'' or whatever #and then having to go into the shop where the lady had been watching me from inside the entire time how i clearly didn't want to go in #and possibly be even more awkward with teary eyes because of the anxiety and awkwardness i already bring to the table any day... #all of those things that were going inside my head were trumped by the fact that i did go in and did buy what i needed #although my heart was coming out of my chest the entire time... all that didn't matter to my therapist because in her words: #''if you had anxiety. you simply wouldn't have gone in'' #which is ridiculous #but anyways... i just had an epiphany... that was masking wasn't it? #forcing myself to do something that brings me major discomfort to make my mother and the shop lady not judge me? #pretend i'm a normal human being just doing normal things instead of someone who's about to have a heart attack buying embroidery thread? #panicking the entire time because i wasn't prepeared and hadn't scripted the entire transaction in my head? #yet still going in and putting on my ''normal person'' mask to try to seem like i wasn't just dying seconds ago (and still was)? #isn't that literally what masking is?! #and the ''autism specialist'' ass therapist was like ''if you did it then you don't have a problem'' #when i'm literally telling her how much of a problem it actually WAS?! #you know what's the best part about all this #that when i told my mom after i left that therapist that she didn't listen to me because [insert everything above] #my mom's response was ''well sometimes therapist will say things that you don't want to hear but you have to accept them''.... #same woman who's always saying how much she hates therapists because they ''will say whatever and pretend they know shit'' #ok so it's only The Truth when I tell you it isn't...

[friendofthecrows]

they gotta make nap-length sleep mediations. Also ones where the speaker doesn't sound like the world's most annoying yoga intructer or perhaps therapist.

#hal rambles #meditation #miscellaneous #i'm spoiled bc my mom was really into meditation #and she was taught by some very good martial arts instructers as well as her dad #so she really had SUCH a knowledge base by the time I was around #and since I started learning early I've really developed a 'style' of meditation that works for me (or rather a few different ones that eac #have many many options/variables for the meditations themselves) #but like since my mom taught me that whole time #she's very familiar with how i meditate best & so when she wants to teach me a new one her guided meditations are perfect for me #i've never had luck with sleep meditations before (and only found out about them online a few years ago) #i don't know if the scientific basic for them is as strong either (haven't looked into it much) #but I really want them to work so I'm trying to find one that I would actually use & enjoy using #because the videos I found so far irritate me SO MUCH #no wonder so many of you are like 'i suck at meditation' and 'i tried but meditation never worked for me' if THAT is what you had to work #with #like. bestie i'm sorry. wish there were better resources out there #(there probably are and by satan i will find them)