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st4rhwa · 4 months

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𝗥𝗘𝗖𝗬𝗖𝗟𝗘𝗗 𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗥𝗗𝗨𝗦𝗧 k. hj

김홍중 | playboy!kim hongjoong x afab!reader smut, light angst, fluff

synopsis: much like recycled stardust, no matter how far you drift from hongjoong, you'll always find your way back into his arms.

cw: university!au, deliberate lower case, smut, angst, fluffy ending, reader has feminine attributes, ex boyfie joong, push-and-pull kind of relationship, it's not toxicity i promise, hongjoong's a little bit ooc, brief mentions of alcohol/drugs, making out, pet names (baby, princess, joong(ie)), empty threats

wc: 5.7k

𝗮/𝗻: first tumblr fic ! this might be kind of messy ?? i'm still in the learning process of everything lol inspired by: i'm yours (isabel larosa)

sw: unprotected sex, switch!joong, switch! reader, desperate make up sex/kind of hate sex?, praise kink, unprotected sex, creampie, oral (f receiving), overstimulation, multiple orgasms, i really did try to start this blog off with a soft fic but i couldn't help myself

"-you'll come, right?"

just a normal interaction, is what you kept telling yourself. it's nothing special, nowhere near the sort. just a conversation. nothing out of the ordinary.

that's what it would have been if kim hongjoong, your ex boyfriend, hadn't been the one to stop you in the middle of the road to convince you it'd be a good idea to attend his party next saturday. because i mean come on. sex? alcohol? ket? shrooms? please. that's child's play.

but how he's so relaxed around you cognisant of the long history the two of you share, you'll never know.

"i would but.." your witless muttering isn't doing anything for you other than digging your grave. his keen gaze makes your palms sweat; is it the comical height difference or the general attention he seems to be adamant to give you?

"come on," he whines. "i could convince anyone else in the world other than you to go. why do you always make it so difficult?" "not my thing," you should know that, is what you would have liked to add. "sorry." making tracks however, obviously wasn't justifiable in his books. immediately reaching for your wrist, you don't make it much further than two steps before he locks you back in his gaze.

"come on, y/n," "i don't-" "please? i'd really like you to be there." your eyes snap up to his, and the way he looks at you so enticingly makes you want to crawl up into a ball and die.

you hate the fact that he has you in the palm of his hand. especially because he knows it too.

"my ass." you mumble, shoving past another group of people. you're sweating, trying to weave yourself through the crowds of intoxicated young adults mingling, drinking and swaying to the music. you hate it. you hate it so much it's unbearable.

your friends squeeze you into a mini dress and cake you in makeup, just to leave you five minutes into the party to fuck some junkie they'll never talk to ever again. and kim hongjoong? he's nowhere to be found.

your entire being reverberates in time with the heavy bass line of whatever fusion afro beats were playing in the living room. in times like these, the kitchen becomes your safe haven; surrounded by countless bottles of alcohol for you to mix and match as you wish, only seeing the occasional person enter who'd greet you and refill their cup.

you wince when you begin to find the music has become much more bass accelerated, and you decide you need a breather. you would have guessed hongjoong would have retreated upstairs with a girl by now. you guess wrong, however, when your eyes briefly meet his in the midst of the sea of bodies.

his eyes are wide, puppy like, vivid colours reflecting in his pupils. he looks at you expectantly, ignoring the people trying to catch his recognition left and right. he opens his mouth, as if about to say something, before a girl tugs on his arm, sidetracking his attention again.

you keep your head low, shaking it as you run a hand through your hair. you make it through the living room, the foyer through to the dining room, and make a quick move to lock yourself in the bathroom noticing it's vacancy.

the door acts as a soundproof wall, concealing you from all the commotion, the chaos. what was the point of showing up anyway? you had false hope - nothing was going to happen between the two of you even if you got down on your hands and knees and begged.

in truth, kim hongjoong is a coward. it doesn't matter how hard he tries to deny it, it's simply his thing. he makes a move, poised and mighty. but once the conviction begins to fade he shrivels into nothing more than a drop in the ocean, and hides his uneasiness by picking up another side chick. one moment he loves you, the next, he doesn't.

you shake your head, hands resting on either side of the sink. your heart is racing rapidly, and you feel pathetic. you feel pathetic because you know that your cheeks are red because of him. your palpitating heart is because of him. your thighs pressing together is all because of him.

you hate him, is what you keep telling yourself. you hate him and his reckless actions, his arrogance, his popularity, his likeability, his devilish smile, his handsome face, his perfect body- fuck. that's not it. you don't hate him. you hate how much you love him, how deeply you fell for his charms.

your index finger drags along your aegyo sal, wiping away smudged mascara and eyeliner. your eyes settle in the mirror dragging over your worn expression, and you sigh. it'd probably be best if you left before it got too late.

you jump slightly when there are a few desperate bangs at the door. "c'mon! gotta fuckin' piss-" you snatch your phone from the shelf, frantically unlocking the door and pushing it open, running off before you could face any confrontation.

maybe you were just a coward too.

you immediately approach the adjacent door which leads to the garden. reaching for the handle, you swing it open and slam it closed behind you before anyone else could follow. your back rests against the cool glass, and you exhale softly, finally being able to find some peace and quiet in the midst of the clamour.

you catch your breath, pulling out your phone from your back pocket and opening it to call an uber.

"i was almost convinced you weren't gonna show."

your eyes clamp shut. make it a nightmare. make it some sort of weird twisted dream. maybe someone spiked your drink - perhaps you were just hallucinating.

you blink once, twice, before hongjoong's index finger catches your chin. "hey. look at me." you can barely pick out his features, the dim lights emitting from the inside of his dining room just barely illuminating his cheekbones. "stop-.. running, from me.." he sighs out at the sight of your uncomfortable facial expression, thumb brushing against your bottom lip. he continues, before you can stop to think, "i try to talk to you, we give it a go, you regret ever giving it a go and run off, and this whole cycle repeats itself." his hands drift to your shoulders, down your sides before finding welfare on your hips. "and i don't think that's fair.."

his soft and rich tone makes your shoulders relax, and your head leans back, gently bumping against the door. "talk to me." you pull yourself together and shake your head, pushing him off you. "you talk like it's just me doing all the running. that's pretty ballsy coming from you," the way he looks at you tells you he knows that. better than anyone else. "and why does it matter anyway. go back inside, it's your party. bet your side chick's already waiting for you."

to your dismay, his hands reach for you again. he ignores your snarky comments, hands coming up to cup your cheeks, forehead bumping against yours. his eyes are large; doe-like. they're nothing short of innocent, but you're not blind to the small flames kindling within his pupils.

"i want to know why you're ignoring me. why you've stopped loving me so abruptly." his eyes fall shut and his eyelashes tickle your forehead. "otherwise i might have to make you tell me.." he tilts his head ever so slightly, soft, pillowy lips brushing against yours. "hongjoong.." your voice only comes out in the form of a whisper, and it makes hongjoong nod softly. "shh baby.. i've got you, it's okay."

"i don't-" "what happened, y/n? just abruptly telling me you're breaking up with me and then avoiding me for weeks on end isn't you. you're better than this!" "you're not right for me, hongjoong!" shit. that came out wrong. like that, the flames in his pupils douse. hongjoong's shoulders droop and his hands fall, but his eyes stay glued to yours. "no," you shake your head, rephrasing. "i'm not right for you."

"what makes- what makes you say that?" "listen to me closely, hongjoong." he wished you'd use his name in a brighter light. "i'm not right for you." "you're repeating the same shit but you're not telling me what it fucking means!" he rips away from you, a hand tugging through his hair. "what the fuck happened?! i thought we were doing well i-, i made sure you knew i loved you and i tried to make time for you-" "that's my problem! you're too busy- you've got no time for me! you've got dance, singing, producing, all these fucking parties! where does that leave me? does it make me love you any less? no! but i can't afford to be neglected by you!"

hongjoong's mouth opens and closes like a fish, trying to wrack his brain for something- anything! but deep down he knows you're right. he's busy, he can barely catch a break. and then off he goes throwing parties when he should be spending time with you. but somehow, 90% of what you say goes through one ear and out the other-

"you still, love.. me?" you scoff. "of course i do. but i just.. think it's better if you move on an-" "why do i have to move on when i haven't lost anything?" a smile grows on his face, and he grips your wrists excitedly. "i- i thought you hated me! and-" "are you not grasping anything i'm saying right now!" you yell over his excited yapping. "i'm saying!-" he quiets down to a soft pause. "-..you need to find someone who suits your needs better."

you barely register his sudden movements as he bursts forward, taking your cheeks in his hands as he slams his lips against yours. his eyes roll back as he sighs into your mouth. god how he's missed the feeling. he presses his body flush against yours, revelling in the feeling of, well, you. your addictive lips, your sleek hair, your compelling curves, he basks in you.

you try to break away, but your body seems to have other plans, arching into him. "hongjoong-" it's not longer than a second before he once again encapsulates your lips with his. you try to make out a sentence between desperate kisses. "we- .. we- shouldn't-" his front teeth graze your bottom lip, and he pulls you nice and tight against him, just the way you like it.

you would have made more of an effort to flee if it didn't feel so fucking good. his hands never cease to wander your body like it's an uncharted island in the pacific ocean. if they're not massaging your waist, they're sliding up and down your exposed back. if they're not sliding up and down your exposed back, they're groping your ass. he just can't get enough of you- of how intoxicating you are.

"hongjoong for fucks sak-" "shh." he smirks softly against your lips. he knows that bit by bit, little by little, you're giving in to him. or more, the idea of him. you melt into his hold, whining a little at an attempt to show your frustration. but he just coos mockingly, taking your hands in his and pinning them above your head. your right leg naturally hikes up against his hip, and he holds it in place with his vacant hand. "so good for me," his lips part and he kisses your nose. "such a good girl."

you can't believe this is happening. you're internally sour, trying to search for any reason left in this bottomless pit of lust you're drowning in. you can feel it rising inside of you, and it'll swallow you up eventually.

you don't think you've ever wanted him so bad. in fact, you don't think you've ever wanted anyone as badly as you do right now. you have to have him. otherwise it might just eat you alive.

"do you want-.." he's breathless, making sure your eyes never leave his. he's stuttering over his words, suddenly finding himself shrink under your gaze; it almost makes you smile. "uh- no pressure, by the way i-" your finger gently drags along the surface of his lip, deep red nail getting caught in the dip between them. you whisper softly, pulling him in for a soft kiss. "let's go."

sneaking away could have definitely been easier if hongjoong didn't always blatantly stick out like a neon highlighter in a tub of black markers. man of the hour or not, he can't help being stopped and pinched into conversations left and right and your patience is thinning. "hongjoong.." you mumble, and he nods profusely towards you in apology, excusing himself to his mates and bidding them a good night.

"aye! hongjoong, over here!" "hey guys!-" you pinch his elbow, pressing your lips to his ear. "go over to one more person and you'll get it." he feels himself twitch in his pants, but he just rolls his eyes and smiles at you with a satirising tone. "c'mon babe!~ it's 3RACHA! i can't just ignore 3RACHA!" he tries to shake away the thoughts nagging him to turn back in his head, releasing his arm from your wrist and jogging towards them. so much for not neglecting me. your tongue pokes the inside of your cheek, and you swing back around, making a beeline for the stairwell.

you're aware of hongjoong's strict rule of the second floor being prohibited during parties, but regardless of it you sneak past the numerous couples humping one another in the hallway, climbing the stairs up to his bedroom.

you exhale softly with your forehead pressed to the door, hand resting on the golden handle. you shouldn't be this nervous. it's only been a few months, you used to spend more time here than you did in your own apartment. but once you step into the room and shut the door, the overwhelming scent of him leaves you dumbfounded. your shaky hand drifts to the handle in a moment of diffidence, but you shake your head, and do nothing more than wipe your sweaty hands on the fabric of your dress.

you kick off your heels, feet dragging along the the off-grey carpet flooring as you trail over to his king sized bed. the satin sheets are cold against your lower thighs, and your hands gently grip the lush material. your eyes drift over his walls as you slip your arms out of the sleeves of your dress: his desk, his wardrobe, nothing had changed. however, what does catch your eye is a bottle of your signature perfume on his shelf, nearing its last millilitres.

you have your suspicions, bringing his pillow up to your nose. you sigh softly at the faint smell of your perfume lingering all over it. you haven't used that brand since you were last here all those months ago. you shimmy off the rest of your dress leaving you in your red lace lingerie, and you stride over to the shelf and pick up the small glass bottle. you flick the cap off with your thumb, and spritz the scented spray all over your body and the sheets.

laying back into the duvet, you feel your core throb with wanting and need as the aged memories invade your mind. your hands wander, just like his. they trace your curves the way he would, almost like it's muscle memory. "mh, joong.." you whisper to yourself as your back arches off of the mattress, unhooking your bra and tossing it to the side.

your hands fondle your breasts, and you let out the softest moan as your thumbs brush over your perky nipples. "hongjoong.." you whine the tiniest bit louder, hands hooking into your underwear and sliding them down your spread legs. sighing, your index and middle finger slip themselves between your folds, pushing them apart and lathering your wetness all over the digits. they slowly trace around your clit as you snatch your phone from the bedside table.

you would have never thought you'd be doing this again, but you open his archived chat left inactive for 5 months and click the camera in the bottom left corner. this was risky, and you'd be most likely to regret it. but nonetheless you begin recording, and whine softly into the phone. you feign innocence, pinching your clit softly between your fingers before you insert them both inside you. you gasp as you release an over exaggerated moan before hitting the send button.

you wait with a satisfied look on your face, watching one tick turn into two, from grey to blue. at that, your phone is forgotten, and your eyes flutter closed as you give your undivided attention to yourself.

hongjoong is becoming desperate. having to act like he didn't almost cream his pants at the sight of your wet pussy through his phone screen was tougher than he had originally imagined. he tucks his phone into his back pocket, trying to subtly adjust the baggy jeans hanging on his hips. while jisung and changbin eagerly talk to him, his eyes daintily drift to the side, catching seonghwa's gaze from the pool table.

seonghwa tilts his head, and hongjoong pats the side of his leg before tucking his index, middle and ring finger into his palm to form a phone sign. he holds it for two seconds before focusing back on the conversation he's having.

he thanks seonghwa indebtedly when it doesn't take much more than a blink of an eye before his phone vibrates in his back pocket. "sorry, i have to take this," he's apologetic, gesturing towards his phone. "have a good night guys!" he gives seonghwa a pat on the shoulder as he passes by, and seonghwa returns the gesture with a wink.

he can't resist himself as he walks through the hallway, opening the video again and feeling his cock throb violently in the confines of his jeans. he practically sprints up the stairs when you send another text: "you better hurry up or i'm leaving." it was a lie, obviously. hongjoong knew it too. but that didn't stop him from becoming overly eager.

he bursts through the door, eyes almost bulging out of their sockets at the sight of three fingers plunging in and out of your pussy, presented proudly out in the open for only his eyes to see, the erotic squelching sounds become apparent when he closes the door: "what took you so long," you sigh out accompanied by a breathy moan. "i'm sorry baby." he mumbles, already reaching for his belt as he kneels at the bed, unbuckling it and tossing it to the side.

"you should be," you pull your fingers out, using your clean hand to pull him into a sloppy, open mouthed, all teeth and saliva, kiss. "i'm expecting compensations." he pulls back with a grin, tugging his black tank top over his head. "of course, princess."

his knees straddle your hips, leaning down to press open mouthed kisses to your neck. with his jeans already hanging so low on his hips, your feet make a move to slide them off to his ankles, he finishes the job off, discarding them on the floor. the beautiful, overbearing scent of your perfume makes him shiver, and he grips the sheets on either side of you, striving ever so hard as not to completely lose control of himself. he wants to take this slowly with you, enjoy the moment of finally having you back in his arms again.

or at least that's what he would have liked, but it seems you had other plans. "so, you gonna fuck me or what?" you exhale, arching up into him when his lips find your pebbled nipple, suckling gently as his hand gropes your unattended tit. he supposes he could wait to take it slow another time.

"patience," he grins, drifting down to your pelvis, deciding this is where he wanted to leave his mark. "let me take care of you, sweetheart." he nips, sucks, kisses, littering red, lip sized marks all over your pubic bone, making sure they would last at least a few days. your hand reaches down to grip his gelled back hair, and he groans softly as you tug on the strands. your legs spread as he makes himself comfortable between them, and he swears he almost cums in his boxers when your ankle moves to the back of his head, violently shoving him into your wet pussy.

he moans out, arms wrapping around your thighs as his lips make contact with your clit. you taste better than he ever remembers. sweet yet salty, flavourful, delicious. "mmh, that's good.." you whisper softly, and the praise makes hongjoong ever the more motivated to pleasure you. "am i good for you baby?" you grin and nod softly. "so good." he smirks and coats his index and middle finger in your slick before pushing them into your already stretched out hole.

and you know the second that his fingers, longer than yours, push and curl into you combined with his tongue lapping away at your clit, that you won't last long. more of your slick drips out and onto hongjoong's hand; you can't remember the last time you were so desperate. "missed you so much baby." he whines out, unable to resist rolling his hips once, twice, into the mattress, trying to alleviate the aching in his boxers. "so- so good hongjoong- shit," you stutter out in between gasps and whines, feeling that familiar pit in your pelvis when his fingers drill themselves against your g-spot.

the long suck to your nub that follows straight after is what throws you over the edge. you're just tinkering on the edge of an orgasm, and you know it when your legs begin to shake. "hongjoong! hongjoong- please! oh god- oh fuck i'm cumming," you thrash around, legs wrapping themselves around his head and suffocating him in your pussy.

hongjoong feels his hard cock positively twitch and leak like a broken faucet as translucent, salty liquid leaks out of you and onto his stuck out tongue. he hums appreciatively, chest puffing up with pride when he realises he made you cum with just his fingers and tongue. faster than ever before, too. he makes the lewdest slurping sounds with his tongue, drinking you up as if he were a feral, famished man. at this point, he might as well be one.

"good?" he asks with a toothy smile, his sharp canines peaking out through his swollen lips. "so good. so good for me, joongie.." you whisper to him, running a hand through his hair before tightening it, curling and tugging him towards you. his lips meet yours in a kiss much gentler than any of the ones exchanged earlier, and you can taste yourself on his tongue. your hands reach down to feel around the wet patch of his pre-cum on the front of his boxers, and you make a fast move to tug them down his legs, tossing them to the side before pulling him into your arms. "think you deserve a reward, baby?"

he nods so eagerly, you swear you see a tail wagging behind him as he hums keenly. "yeah?" you croon, enjoying watching him become desperate to please you and himself too. he doesn't even make an effort to hide how eager he is to slip into you and fall into a deep abyss of euphoria, brain filled with nothing other than praise and pleasure - and maybe a little white noise too. "what does my baby want?"

"to cum.." he mumbles, leaning down to nibble at your neck while his cold fingers drift down to where he had left his bruises on you, tracing them lovingly. it was almost primal, to him. to see you marked up. it reminded him that you truly did belong to him. "wan' make you cum too- wanna cum inside.." he twitches when your hand comes to wrap around the base of his cock. "i'm so fuckin' hard.. i wanna fuck you so fuckin' bad, baby." he begs breathlessly, thrusting up into your hand for more friction.

"you're so lucky i love you," you mutter under your breath, and his breath hitches as his dick simultaneously twitches in response. his stomach erupts into butterflies, but he tries to suppress the mushy feelings for the post-orgasm conversation he knows he'll end up having with you whether you like it or not.

"you really are just leaking aren't you? so messy." you tease, thumb swiping over his slit and he curls into you with a hiss, eyes falling shut. "sensitive today, are we?" you mumble, twisting your fist around his cock head again to draw another reaction from him. "been hard all day," he admits, head falling into the crook of your neck. "wanted to wait so i could fuck you." you shake your head with a chuckle. "so bold to automatically assume i'd let you fuck me."

hongjoong honestly believes he sees the gates of the afterlife appear in front of him when he finally feels your wet heat press against his cock. you drag your folds up and down the base of him, using a mixture of your cum, slick and his leftover saliva to lubricate him. "w-well i'm here now, aren't- aren't i?" you sigh, guiding his tip to your sopping hole. "eh, i guess so." your palms rest against his back when you slam his hips down onto you in one harsh movement. hongjoong's breath is knocked out of him at the unexpected movement, and his fingers grip your hips as he whines loud. "oh fuck-!"

you've missed him so badly. skin to skin, lips to lips, heart to heart, you have him fully. you hum, head dropping back into the satin pillows. "that's it.. i've missed you, joong. missed this big cock so much." you don't think your cunt could ever get used to the delicious stretch his cock provides you with, with or without fingers beforehand. he just reaches that particular spot inside you that nobody else ever could, and it drives you absolutely mad with adoration.

but what snaps you out of your bliss is that you realise hongjoong has no plans of moving. his head just stays dipped into the crook of your neck, hands gripping your waist so hard the skin will positively bruise, panting hard. "hello?" you mumble, poking the side of his head. he grumbles out something unintelligible, and it makes you sigh, propping yourself up onto your elbows. "this pussy's not gonna fuck itself, is it?" your question is more rhetorical, but it makes hongjoong wince. "c-can't." his voice is strained, and you have an idea of why, yet you still choose to prod further. "what do you mean, 'you can't'?"

"feels too good.." he whispers, and you grin. admittedly, hongjoong is indeed, a very busy man. jobs, producing, lectures, dance classes, clubs, parties, he's everywhere doing everything all at once. but the most critical aspect of it all, was that he was loyal to you. he hadn't kissed, touched, or fucked a single other person since he last had you, holding onto that small slither of hope that he could win you back when the time was right.

that, however, now leaves him in a sticky - no pun intended - situation where he knows that if he doesn't pull himself together, he'll drain his balls within minutes of fucking you. "oh? poor baby.." you feign innocence, just for a few seconds before your legs wrap around his hips, beginning to grind up onto him in search of your own friction. "that's too bad."

hongjoong yelps, trying to ground himself by fisting his duvet into a death grip, little whimpers making it past his sealed lips. your hands take a hold of his hips, aiding you in your movements. "you gonna help me now, or what?" you grit out, and all he can do is shake his head frantically, bottom lip jutted out into a pout. "i- i'll cum baby- i can't!-" "so what? cum or not, we're not stopping until i do." he exhales shakily.

"so are you gonna be a good? or will i have to go find someone else who can fuck me right?" hongjoong grits his teeth, shaking his head and putting all of his body weight on you until you come to a stop, he experiments, thrusting up once, twice, before mumbling a soft: "okay.". you rub his back gently, whispering in return: "come on.."

the sudden snap of his hips catches you off guard. you squeak, hands frantically reaching for his biceps to ground yourself. "shit! th- that's it hongjoong! ngh-" he nods frantically, yanking your knees up to your chest to thrust even deeper. he groans, eyes squeezing shut as he tries not to focus on how gorgeous you look beneath him, or how slick the sounds between you are, or how good your pussy feels, or how badly he wants to fucking cum.

he sets a brutal pace, balls slapping against your ass with every deep, meaningful thrust into you. "atta boy.. ohh baby i-" you gasp out, feeling the pad of hongjoong's thumb press down on your clit, rubbing up and down in synchronisation with his thrusts.

he pants hard and desperately it's almost concerning, lips parted and drool dripping from the corner of his mouth as he buries his head deep into the crook of your neck. you arch up into him, breasts pressing flush against his bare chest. your rhythmic clenching, the borderline salacious amount of wetness inside of you, the raking of your nails on his back, it's almost too much for him.

the longer he pursues you, the more he realises that he in fact, cannot wait, and will cum. he had tried not to too early, truly! but he had been close the second he walked into the damn room, and the amount of different versatile sensations he has no choice but to feel drive him over the edge. "baby- i can't- i can't i-" your legs wrap themselves around his hips, locking him in. "it's okay baby. go on. cum for me. fill me up."

with that, he's gone. you don't think you've ever seen him behave this way in the years you've known him. "oh godd yes- yes yes yes-" he's lewd, and he puts professional pornography to shame. the way he presents himself is obscene, head thrown back, eyes rolled into them. a staggered groan escapes him as he comes undone, his seed flowing inside of you as he gently rocks his hips, knuckles whiter than white with the pressure he's putting on the pillows either side of your head. you guide him through his orgasm, petting his hair softly.

his back glistens with beads of sweat among the moles and freckles dotted along his shoulder blades, and they flex as his arms slowly yet surely move to wrap around your torso. he exhales, nuzzling into you as he catches his forfeited breaths back.

you supposed that if he were unable to continue, it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. it was even between the two of you now, and you were both correspondingly satisfied. you reach down and grip the base of him that isn't enveloped inside of you, and can't even begin to attempt to suppress the grin on your face when you realise he's still hard. "not satisfied yet, are you?"

he's about to defend himself, promise you he's not as filthy as he presents himself to be. but there's no need for it, seeing as you give him no time to rest before you climb on top of him, and start rocking your hips. and honest to god, hongjoong has absolutely no idea what to do with himself.

he's being used like a toy, and he loves it. but at the same time he isn't sure if you want him to help you or if he should take it, so many thoughts rushing through his mind but in reality he's just trying to stall so he doesn't cum again. he's a ragdoll in your arms, the pleasure he had been feeling a few seconds ago returning in an instant with a new found sensitivity, your pussy even wetter with his cum. he ever so desperately wanted to take back the dominance between the two of you, he knew he could do it. but the most he could do to even voice a reaction was curse loudly, cry out and throw his head back.

he takes it back. completely. there was no way he could do anything other than accept it without any objections. it was everything he had ever wanted and more, there was nothing going on in his mind other than perpetual euphoria.

"fuck i'm close," you whisper, cursing in approval when hongjoong's index and middle finger work at your clit in time with your bounces. "c-cum for me? cum for me baby?" hongjoong's eyes brim with tears, a mix of sentimentality and overstimulation. you nod frantically, finally letting the knot in your gut come loose, letting out a wail as your orgasm washes over you.

he whines softly at the feeling of you gushing around him, and he cums a second time. he fills you up again with a groan through gritted teeth, in smaller spurts with less amount than the first. you pant, falling limp on top of him with a grunt. "that was good," you hum, hand moving to trace his collarbone.

hongjoong's arms come to encircle around your waist, pressing you close to his chest as he begins to soften inside of you, making no move to pull out. he kisses your temple, one of his hands moving to the back of your head, caressing your dishevelled head of hair. hongjoong has never felt such relief as he does holding you, your body feeling just right with his, and he can't help but think to himself..

"i love you." he blurts out. the confession is rushed, panicked and hesitant. you feel his body tense up the moment he registers he's said it, but you just smile against his chest, poking him in the rib. "you're okay i guess." not getting the answer he wants, he groans. "princess.." his tone is whiny, and you giggle, sitting up to plant a passionate kiss to his lips.

"i'm joking, joong. i love you too."

#⋆｡°✩ star's fics #ateez #kim hongjoong #hongjoong x reader #kim hongjoong x reader #hongjoong smut #ateez fanfiction #ateez smut #ateez x reader #hongjoong fanfiction #hongjoong imagines #hongjoong hard thoughts #ateez au

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nthydra · 8 months

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The Hydra Manuscript

Lol it's just an intro and boundaries

Read below :)

Nice stuff first, important stuff and no-nos at the bottom, please read everything!

Hi there! I'm... actually that doesn't matter. Call me Hydra, DB (Usually my user is DBHydra not NTHydra), H, or no name at all, whatever works! I am probably the softest (Not in a gaining way) encourager and admirer you'll ever meet. Honestly I'm just here to make friends and get comfortable with my kink.

I'm a queer, cis male, and there is a reason I'm saying that.

A lot of these blogs discourage cis, straight, male, and especially a combination of the three from interacting. I personally feel that it's a bad thing to discriminate based on ANY gender identity, and sexuality, so everyone is welcome here! Of course, if you are one of the people that are like how I mentioned, I will respect your decision and won't interact.

This being said I absolutely will not tolerate any racism, sexism, xenophobia, homophobia, transphobia, or any type of bigotry.

I especially want to emphasise that this is a safe space for transgender people and I will do everything to defend your rights and always respect who you are. (As an ex-american I know the horrors being committed upon y'all)

Things I'm into:

• Gentle encouragement

• Soft belly play/body worship

• Mutual gaining*

• Healthy gaining**

• Big stuffings and bloats

• Stretch marks

• Inflation

• More will be added as I go!

*I'm not a gainer, but I enjoy mutual gain content.

**As you'll see below I'm not into death feedism or immobility.

Things I enjoy but with limits:

• Humiliation, teasing, etc.

• Force feeding/inflation (Must be consentual in real life scenarios)

• Loss of mobility*

• Hyper Extreme/Unrealistic wg

• I probably have more but forgot hah

*I like hearing about losing mobility or it being harder to move, but I have a limit.

Things I'm not into:

• Slob related content

• Non consentual acts

• Anything to do with body fluids* or chucking

• Extreme sadism

• Death feederism and full immobility

• List will most likely expand with time

*An exception to this would be a certain type of inflation oop (iykyk)

I'm always down for encouraging, admiration and chats related to this kink, but I also just like having conversations in general! If we really connect I will be very responsive, but I don't always expect the same because I know everyone has their lives to attend to first.

Alright now the important things to know.

Trust me, I'll know if you've read this. 👀

First and foremost, I intend to keep my kink life very separate from the rest of my life, this is going to mean:

• You will not be getting a lot of personal details out of me unless they're here or I'm comfortable sharing something.

• I will not send any videos or images of me.

• I am an adult (18)... That should be a given though

I find it important to note I am in a closed relationship, am loyal af, and really not into anything sexual in general.

• Do not send explicit photos, videos, or messages.

• I will not roleplay of any kind, especially not of the NSFW variety.

• Do not appreciate any sort of advances or flirting.

• I will not be in a relationship with you

A side note, language like "Cute, adorable, handsome, etc." Are ok in certain contexts. I generally will use these when admiring, but do not mistake that for flirting of any kind. I consider it harmless words if meant without a romantic or sexual intention. If you're not ok with this, please LET ME KNOW!

Now when it comes to age: Minors, you really shouldn't be here! And although I'm ok with people older than me messaging me, I'd say if you're around 35 or older (with exceptions), you're free to stay, but I encourage you not to dm me.

Otherwise just be nice, don't be a dick, and if my content isn't what you're looking for, it's ok! Have a wonderful day ❤️

Here's the cookie ;) 🍪

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mar64ds · 1 year

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JEVIL

where do i begin with my funny little friend... jevil is a character that i have always thought was really fun: a secret difficult boss fight, a mysterious connection to gaster and overall i think he has a really funny personality, i've always really liked him! he wasn't my favorite character and i don't think i was as invested in this character as everyone else was in 2018, back when he was the most mysterious character that we had met so far, but when chapter 2 came out i kind of started to appreciate jevil more? Since we were all so focused on new content that made me remember how much i liked chapter 1 and my love for jevil grew more

I have always really liked his relationship with Seam even if we never see them actually interacting, I have mentioned before that they just seem to me like they would have a very Sam&Max dynamic asdfghjkl and i always like duos like that they are funny and endearing. And adding all that tragedy to their relationship makes it even stronger, I just really like these two and I don't care how their relationship is interpreted they are companions and i like them and if they don't talk to each other in the game again i will break my computer

I focus on him and Seam the most but Jevil is a character that is really fun to make interact with anyone, some based on canon material and others just fun concepts

I think the idea of him and Susie becoming friends (perhaps even family) is so sweet to me, these two have so many parallels and I love the way they interact, Susie is very blunt with him and that doesn't bother Jevil at all, they are two sharks prepared to fight!!

I personally like to think him and Gaster were genuine friends, that Gaster didn't mean for Jevil to end up the way he did, that they both just wanted a friend...

Him and Spamton are really funny, wacky cartoon characters in one room together what could go wrong, funny exes. I know I don't focus a lot on them but I like them and some very talented artists make such cool content of them that it makes appreciate them more, keep up the good work everyone

Jevil mentions Queen once but I really like to believe they got along really well, that maybe all the other kings were stuck-ups but she was always the one who found him funny the most..... 🥹 I think they are friends :)

Now for relationships that are completely made-up by me? Jevil and Toriel, they are friends to me, they are such close friends. Heartache used to be Jevil's theme!!!! They both like jokes!!!! They both have horns!!!!! They both feel trapped and lonely!!!!! They could be best of friends. I also think him and Papyrus could have really interesting interactions, they are both positive people, just two different kinds of positivity

Jevil is a secret boss that doesn't get much screen time and we barely know ANYTHING about him, so a lot of my headcanons are just based on what I believe he COULD have been like or could be like at the moment, it's all pure speculation and having fun with a character i like and that i think has a lot of potential, he's slowly just becoming an OC at this point lol. I like to believe he was a little prankster as a kid and the funny kid on school but he didn't have many friends, when he was a teen he goes through his 'emo phase' and tries to pretend he doesn't care about being a funny little jester anymore and focuses more on his 'grim reaper' style (and the reason why he does this it's not just because it's a funny idea it's because he's tired of being rejected for being so 'different', he's masking pretty much), when he's a young adult he goes back to trying to be a funny jester and he ends up becoming the court jester!! The rest is history and I think he meets Seam after he has been the court jester for a little while

I see Jevil as trans, ace and aroflux! Autistic as well! Jesters and rubber ducks are two of his biggest special interests, he stims with his hat, tail and hands and has a a chew stim toy in the shape of a spade! He of course also vocally stims all the time! He repeats words often and likes to imitate sounds. And I also really like the idea that he has a lisp!

This might sound silly but Jevil has helped me a lot with my confidence towards my autism this last year? Papyrus too, they both have helped SO much. I don't know, i'm a very insecure person and sometimes i think i'm extremely childish (not as in... a mean childish attitude, i mean having childish interests and things like that) or sometimes i can just feel very different from everyone around me, and thinking about Jevil i don't know makes me happy? Like i get it he's the court jester but he's a guy that likes playing games like roundabout and things like that, and he vocally stims all the time and it's established that he was very lonely but the people that cared about him? They cared, they cared a lot, he was someone that was missed. And uh... wow that means a lot i'm going to explode and cry

Anyway, i like jevil, worst character ever

#YOU UNLEASHED THE JEVIL INFODUMP WHAT HAVE YOU DONE #(thanks anon)#deltaruneundertale

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deltaruminations · 1 year

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disjointed rambling on Highly Speculative Gaster Theories/Headcanons wrt to themes/characterization specifically that i've been sitting on and keep trying to write about coherently but i’m feeling a little too scattered right now to fully articulate. i could be extremely wrong about any/all of this so take it with a spoonful of salt lol

G parallels Flowey in being a mirror of player assumptions & tendencies, but rather than reflecting Completionist impulses/emotional distancing from the story in the pursuit of content, he reflects a firmly True Pacifist player who’s so immersed/invested that he has trouble seeing outside that perspective. he wants us to "be friends with"/save everyone but that may simply not be possible, and/or attempting to do so might cause harm

G may not simply be a metaphorical player but also a parallel to fan creators (yeah romhack metaphor again lol sorry) — bringing in a player, changing the UI and certain assets where he can, attempting to change the ending. this is thematically relevant if we take the stance that Deltarune is largely a story about telling stories, and about the dialogue between creators, creations, and audiences. this also brings into question the reliability of certain things we experience and information we receive, since it would make Deltarune the Game G's transformation of Deltarune the Universe

G parallels Chara in having a strong sense of justice, but G’s is less cosmic retribution and more an inwardly-focused sense of responsibility complicated by adult perspectives/pressures and impulses for self-preservation

G also parallels Chara in being trapped by narratives/memories, often defined by worst traits & failures. if narrachara isn't considered, then neither really had a Voice to tell their own stories. if narrachara is considered, then G is truly the last character with whom we have yet to become "friends" (or at least see another side of). G seems to be asking us at times In A Highly Masked Fashion how we feel about him or things related to him, maybe in part as a way to gauge how he should feel about himself. FWIW self-image/personal narrative is a consistent theme with other characters, Susie in particular. we also find Alvin at one point pondering (praying to his father?) and asking if he’s right to be doing Something. it’s like. a thing. ok

character themes: craving connection but struggling to navigate it, intelligence vs. wisdom, idealism vs realism, desire to be useful vs. fears of consequences, preoccupation with narrative and perception by others, manipulation of information (by him and by others wrt him), dislike/fear of self (or lack of self-insight in general) resulting in poor boundaries resulting in bad things happening

this is highly editorialized and more headcanon than anything. but basically: G is sort of innately a Weird Guy who struggles with emotional cognition and affective empathy but is also fundamentally well-meaning and kind of sensitive/sentimental -> wants desperately to connect meaningfully with others but is somewhat unskilled and interpersonally naïve & feels he's treated as kind of a misfit weirdo by most people he meets -> lack of self-insight and confusion over Who He Should Be causes him to rationalize/internalize perceived rejection as a Him Problem that can somehow be solved empirically rather than accepting that it’s OK for him to just be kind of Weird and finding ways to work with that -> when encountered with Dark Worlds (seemingly a fantasy space that lacks Real Stakes), starts experimenting with befriending/"helping" Darkners by giving them what he thinks they want (rather than what they actually need). maybe does some other misguided stuff in the Dark Worlds also ex. opening Neo Dark Fountains (considering the You Two mentioned in ENTRY NUMBER SEVENTEEN, could Dark World research have been partly a pretense for G to simply Hang Out With Friends, similarly to Susie and Kris?) -> later realizing errors, loses faith in his own judgment and decides he can’t trust himself to act, reinvents himself as reclusive scientist/civil engineer, distances himself from any potential heroics, focuses on public works like the Core and puts off liberatory research like DT extraction -> failing to act allows new and exciting forms of harm (perhaps Asriel & Chara’s death, perhaps Asgore’s child murders) to befall others, causing him to feel like he’s damned either way -> attempting to finally "transcend" this (die) instead forces him further into a position of both hyper-awareness (being able to be ever-present and listening, having full insight into both the consequences of his choices and others’ memories of his failure) and helplessness (being unable to speak to anyone or take direct action to help them or fix mistakes) -> realizing possibilities presented by players in undertale (did G have a role in introducing players to that universe as well?), decides he has one more shot to make things right/change what he did -> engineers Deltarune the Game out of Deltarune the Universe to steer players in what he thinks will be a better direction, maybe obfuscating evidence of his past involvement out of shame and/or fear of being hated or losing the player’s trust

Wingdings Deltarune acts idealistically but recklessly in attempts to connect with/be seen by others, "be friends with everyone," and possibly help them -> Dr. Gaster Undertale devalues/rejects his inherent idealism in reaction to prior failures, spirals into walled-off self-preservation -> The Man attempts to synthesize the two impulses (setting groundwork for change, subtly encouraging idealistic actions, but asking Player/Kris to enact them and continuing to obfuscate the nature of his involvement and intentions). Wingdings & Dr. Gaster both reject themselves in opposite ways, thinking that their problems lie in inalienable traits (Wingdings tries to be more than what’s possible for him, thinking he’d be less lonely if he could only become what other people want him to be; Dr. Gaster closes himself off from his potential to truly liberate his people, thinking that his compassion and idealism are too dangerous), while The Man is (while perhaps imperfectly) doing a secret, third thing (attempting to do the most that he can with the resources available to him). i wouldn’t necessarily say The Man has reached self-acceptance at this point but he does seem to be in a position where that’s possible. The Man’s position is one in which the complexities of in-universe corporeality have been stripped away. both his potential and his limitations in this state are very clear, and he has No Choice anymore but to accept the range of possibilities before him in at least a practical sense

worth noting i don’t think G wants to be remembered as a hero or even remembered at all. i think he believes it’d be better if he were simply never there to begin with, and is trying to actualize that in deltarune. consider that while Goner Kid is terrified by the idea of not existing in this way, they still ask Frisk to forget and not think about them. i think G wants to be forgotten (maybe he thinks that’s what he deserves, and/or he believes he’ll only ever be remembered badly so he can’t risk being remembered at all), but what he needs is to be seen, even if that means exposing his mistakes alongside his better aspects. he cannot transcend what he Is or has done, but he can still be recognized for more than simply his faults. this might be what he needs to let go, and that in turn might be what deltarune’s universe needs to move on (is Deltarune’s One Ending as bad as G thinks it is/presents it as being? is it as bad as being reset over and over?)

#$ waltz of a shattered man #long post #i’ll probably keep circling back to these ideas over time and in more well-considered posts #but yeah i just kind of needed them out of my head

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youn9racha · 3 years

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I Know (Part I)

Pairing: Changbin x fem!reader

Genre: suggestive

Word count: 1.9k

Warning: slight adult content, swearing, suggestive actions, elements of stalker behavior

Extra notes: characters mentioned are all above the age 21 years, a lot of hatred towards the male figure lol. Also this is my first time writing on tumblr, so please bare with me, it may not be the best, but I still hope you enjoy it :)

And baby, I know, I know whatever city you’re in, you’re still the boy that I’d pick…

part ii is up !!!

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This is no way representative of the way Stray Kids act. They’re nothing but references of character, and in no shape or form is this how they act. And I am in no way romanticizing or glamorizing any toxic behavior exhibited, they’re just stories that is meant to be read. Readers discretion is advised

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Men…

Truly the scums of the Earth, who do no good for no one, and are an absolute menace to society. But oh, do I enjoy the looks of their faces at times. The way they would look at me with full hope and infatuation, with full beliefs that I would step down and give them all they want from me.

Hmph. How cute… and pathetic. How pathetic to assume and lower my standards for them. They all are the same. All but one however.

All that men hating… and yet, only one I’d be willing to go down to his level.

Yes, its him… He whom a lot would have not sought to be with, not many would expect a bombshell like myself would be with. But I do not see that in him, not an ounce of what many insecure individuals would see. I see something striking that not many could see, an underrated dignified beauty that anyone could wish to admire. A fanciable and irresistible personality and face.

He was a man.. but a pleasant one.

It all started when I moved in into a new flat for myself. I previously left the old complex due to the cramped environment I had that left me feeling uneasy and stressed, as well as it wasn’t even my apartment, it was for my partner, well, ex-partner. It was simply wasn’t working out, due to our seeming never ending conflicts. But enough of the past, let us move on..

I found this flat that is comfortable and the rent pays well, its only downside is that my room’s window is faced to the next door’s flat, however it’s not a big detriment or big turn off for me so it was fine by me, and also it was prone to have random, yet rare, blackout, but then again what neighborhood doesn’t have that. Anyhow, I was set to take the complex, but before I did, I have noticed something about the neighbor’s window next to me. It was a man. A really good looking one too. Giving his side profile, he was laying on his bed, his black hair covered head bopping with earphones placed in ears, laptop placed in his revealing shorts adorned lap. My eyes began started to stare into his arms then onto his naked well built chest, which indicates that he likes to keep up with his health, as his ring adorned hands was tapping away in his keyboard. I quickly looked away when I saw him repositioned his laptop, and walked out of the soon-to-be my room.

Great… I’ve entered Hell.

But I didn’t let it affect my decisions and got the apartment nonetheless, here I am now, weeks after the incident, sitting in my car, outside of the building, still thinking about the man in his laptop. Has he noticed that I was staring at him? Does he know that there’s gonna be someone living next to him? I hope not. And if he has, I must apologize to him. But before that, let me unload my car. I have gradually put my stuff into the complex as the days go by, it seems dragging, but it felt like the time went by fast, so I’m glad I have done that. However, today was different, as I took stuff more than I usually did, as I desperately do not want to go back to my ex. Typically, I never had assistance, as usually my best friend would join in and help out, but at a time I needed them the most, they had to be really sick. They still were willing to help, but I insisted that they shouldn’t and should rest.

After thinking, I sighed and got out my car, ready to fight the battle that is putting my stuff into my complex. I opened the trunk, eyes meeting my stuff, and I begin to groan. ‘Dammit, (y/n), why do you have that many stuff?!’ I thought to myself. I really should’ve had at least one more visit to my ex, but alas I picked to just take all all together in one day. I picked up a box until..

“Need any help?” I heard someone behind me asking me. I turned around and looked at the source. ‘God damn, is it just me, or does this town just bring out more attractive people?’ I thought to myself, as I see a man that looked like he could be at a museum. He had a sandy brown curly hair, slightly tanned skin, really plump and a crazy jawline. He donned a tank top that barely covered his side torso, and basket ball shorts that complimented his really nice, thick… thighs… yeah… Needless to say he was really attractive.

It seems that I was ogling him, rather than responding, as he shyly smiled and waved his hand in front of my face, “hello,” he softly said as I shook my head and looked back at his face apologetically.

“I am so sorry, I am just really tired, I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable,” I cringed at my pathetic way of justifying of me literally internally lusting over him. I really am turning into someone I dread to be. How can I forgive myself?

“That’s okay, I know how moving can get tiring, and I sense that you’re alone, so please let me and my friend help you out.” He said, sympathetically smiling a sweet smile, already grabbing a box out of my hand. God, if this man has a partner, then they’re the luckiest person ever, and if he’s single, I’ll gladly hand him a ring. What am I saying? (y/n), what the hell has gotten into you?!

“I’m Christopher, but you can call me Chris or Chan, whichever you prefer is fine, what’s your name?” The generous man’s voice interrupted my inner battle and I found myself looking at him again. “(y/n)” I smiled at him, which he nodded back.

“Nice to meet you,” Chan said, looking back and see that his friend showed up, meanwhile, I went back to my trunk and got out more stuff from my car “oh, there he is!” Chan enthusiastically announced.

“(y/n), meet my friend and roommate, Changbin.” Chris said, while I got out the box and looked at the other man, my face shifted from contentment to horrific.

Its the man with the laptop.

“Hello? Chan, are you sure she’s okay?” Changbin looked at Chris with worry. “Yeah, she’s just tired, just nudge her.”

It’s like Chris knew me too well, despite meeting for less than 10 minutes, as Chris slightly pushed me with the box, not enough to hurt me, but enough to put me out of a trance.

“huh? I did it again, did I?” I looked at Chan, worryingly, which he nodded. I looked back at Changbin and the pathetic act was brought up again.

“I am so sorry, I don’t know what has gotten into me.” I apologized once again, which Changbin only smirked. “Don’t worry about it,” He said, carrying a box. Something about that smirk and tone seems off. Not off in a menacing way, but off in a… coy way. Maybe not the best term to use, maybe I am just over analyzing, but I am for sure either winning the lottery tonight, or convinced that the sun will rise from the west tomorrow, since I have two very attractive men helping out, one of which is someone whom I may have an odd fascination for a while now.

The two have been nothing but a delight to interact with, their help with the stuff had done me even more than just a solid. However, I still in a way feel a bit unsettled by Changbin. It wasn’t that he was a creep, or did anything to make me uncomfortable, its just this feeling of guilt I carry with me. Meanwhile, I didn’t attempt anything, and I just simply just admired him from afar, it still felt wrong that I was just looking at him while he was barely wearing anything, let alone while not him paying attention. Despite this, it seems that he doesn’t know that I did what I did, which is why I chose to confront him about it when the time is right, which is probably when we start getting even more comfortable. I have exchanged numbers with both men, even though I could probably just go out my window and yell out their names, but I’d rather not disturb the peace.

Two good looking men are now my neighbors… Who would have thought? Whichever entity that is in existence have decided to play with me, because to them, my humiliation would be their laughing stock, because they definitely would have seen what is to become of me.

Its been a week in since I moved, and interacted with the two Chans, and I am glad that a curtain was installed onto my room, just so I wouldn’t carry even more guilt than I already do. But the thing is, I would lie that I still haven’t thought of Changbin. While I would have thought that Chris fitting into more of my ideal type, Changbin however held a mysterious power that Chan didn’t.

Ever since the time I first laid eyes on Changbin, he has never left my mind. He has started to creep up in my fantasies and dreams in every way shape of form. I couldn’t stop thinking of how his arms would look around my waist, how his lips would feel in my skin, or how his hands would wander around, exploring places that many men often fail to find to make me feel good, or how his voice would be like when talking as he puts his mouth by my ear— God, this is getting out of hand, I would think.

What if he had a girlfriend? What if he wasn’t attracted to women in general? What if he finds you a creep?

So many more endless questions would come in to ruin me, but its not like i have a choice, he just happened to settle into my dreams and thoughts, and went with it.

I decided to take a shower to try and distract myself from these thoughts, which didn’t help at all, as the hot water cascading my skin did nothing but accelerated my lustful thoughts. I decided to get out of the shower, as it didn’t help my case.

Damn you, Changbin.

I sighed, put on some underwear and a robe while having a towel wrapped around my hair. I got out of the bathroom and back to my room. It was dark out, and in my room, the only light came out of it were my night lamp, which barely lit up the whole room. I checked the window, making sure Changbin wasn’t there, or at least not facing the window, only to see his window being covered with curtains.

Great timing, could’ve used that when I first saw you, dipshit.

But nonetheless, I was really glad at least he wasn’t visible. I laid back on my bed, and decided to look through social media, as anyone should. While in the middle of a instagram scroll, I see a caller popping through at the top of the screen…

It was Changbin.

#stray kids #stray kids scenarios #stray kids fanfic #changbin #changbin scenarios #changbin fanfic #changbin smut #stray kids smut #skz fanfic #skz scenarios

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wisdomssdaughterr · 2 years

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For some reason even though I mentioned about Steve and Mike having to interact because of Nancy and him dating, I kind of forgot that they would have known each other the longest. That’s actually making me laugh like they probs had the most grudging relationship. And when max or Lucas or Will mentions that to Mike his brain would just short circuit. Like it would be the most hilarious thing ever. And Will would be like well I can’t say anything to him because the kids would have had to known about Nancy and Steve breaking up and the whole thing. And Will would like to not dive into that territory and make everything awkward so he’s like Mike you are doing this. And mike’s just standing there with his brain going because shit he’s known Steve the longest. Out of the party (without Dustin) he’s been around Steve long enough to be able to ask for a personal favor in a moment where it’s not life or death.

And lol yeah Will and Steve in that never ending story duet is the most hilarious thing ever. And you’re right it would be hilarious to see Steve, Robin, and will interact. Especially because you’re right she would just be like he’s gay and like she would hide that she knows but also st the same time she feels a kinship with him and knows that Steve will accept him so it’s hard for her to completely ignore. Like she wants Will to be able to be comfortable because she never had that with any of her other friends besides steve. So it would just be this cool solidarity moment between the two of them. But of course Steve being Steve and wanting them to feel more comfortable would probs do the exact same thing that he did for Robin.

Like you said I hated that whole creepy picture thing too. Because like it was obvious that they needed something for them to figure out that the monster had took Barb. So that was like the ‘quick fix’ without actually addressing it. Like he says sorry to Nancy but at the same time it’s not a full-on thing where it should have been glazed over as quickly as it did.

And yeah there really should be a moment where they all meet up and Steve talks with Joyce and hopper. Because like we’ve been speculating Steve is more of that leadership/adult role and trying to keep everyone together. So like it would be so cool to see Steve looking up to them in anticipation for their next plan in how to fix things while also helping to make the that plan. And it would give Steve his badass/intelligent scenes. Because I love me some badass steve. This is shorter compared to my other ones but I didn’t want to keep repeating everything we’ve said soo

they really robbed us of a begrudging relationship between steve and mike. like all we really got was when steve was left with the kids at the end of season 2 and then when they wanted to sneak into the movies at the start of season 3. like I kind of get it because it is weird to talk to your sister's ex-boyfriend (who's now friends with one of your friends). but like I feel like we could have gotten more snarky comments between them that would have been really funny.

if will had stayed in hawkins, robin for sure would have picked up on the fact that will was not straight. will and mike would walk into the video store once, just to the two of them, to pick out some movies and robin would instantly know something was up between them.

Yeah, it would have been one thing if they addressed the photos further, but the way they dropped it completely was annoying and didn't make much sense. and the fact that he only apologized to nancy and not steve or even tommy and carol. like I get that tommy and carol were assholes, but like he still took creepy, stalkerish photos of them? and he did it at steve's house, in his bedroom window. it was weird, really weird.

yes, yes, yes!! steve kind of teaming up with joyce and hopper when they all come together! I did like the fun-loving season 3 steve to an extent, but they really overdid it I feel like. but this season, if they put him more into a leadership role and give him more responsibility I feel like they can redeem that. I want more season 2 energy with Steve, but obviously a little different since everything they went through at starcourt. speaking of that, I really want them to address the fact that he and robin were literally interrogated and drugged? I really hope they don't just gloss over that and brush it off. him and robin should get to deal with the effects of that, together.

#answered ask #stranger things #stranger things theories

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milk-addicc · 4 years

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I really liked that post you made about how Capcom feels about Narumitsu. And I'm wondering how do you think they feel about Narumayo? Personally to me it feels like they throw more hints at Narumitsu since with the other one if Takami wanted it to be canon he would of done it at the end of T&T. I also think the team could of made it more obvious in SoJ with Maya's big return but I never really saw the hints but I know I'm biased lol.

oh i’m glad you like my rambles haha;;

ahh... that ship,

well first, about the whole Takumi “wanting narumitsu to be canon” thing, its not exactly making them canon but have more fanservice leaning heavy towards narumitsu (which was declined by the director(?) who claimed, i sorta agree with, that the game did well even without the narumitsu hinting since in the first game they didn’t have that intention and it was pure coincidence that their relationship was just THAT deep and meaningful which is incredible lmao, Takumi and co managed to slip his warning and still put at least some of the hints in TT tho hhh-). so even then, i doubt the crew actually want the endgame to come so soon hh.

okay, back on topic. what i think about naru//mayo? yea, i’m not keen on that ship personally at all, actually i despise it. like, they first met in the office, in front of their dead loved one, Mia. Maya was 17, Phoenix was 24. you have Maya, who’s supposedly still in HIGH SCHOOL and Phoenix, who has GRADUATED COLLEGE, has a JOB, and most likely has PAID HIS OWN BILLS. from that point alone, it should already feel weird.

Maya’s an adolescence, a teenager, she just lost her sister and barely grew up, in a way she’s still innocent, notice how she tend to ask random questions and or say things that she thinks makes sense or amusing, she tends to be naive too. its kinda like.. a child.

and Phoenix on the other hand, is a grown man. heck even Maya says he’s an “old fart”, they’re legit aware of their own age gap in game and outright say it. if anything, they both act like self-aware best friends/brother-sister than romantically. even Maya said it herself, she wants to be a good big sister for Pearl and Nick.

now how about we ignore this obvious fact just for a little while and try to see it from only their interactions in-franchise. heres the kicker, you may not see it in game since they only lightly nudges about this ship (usually with Pearl, and was dismissed by Maya right after.), but in some of AA spin off mangas (and from what i heard, one of the stage shows), for some reason, this ship has their own hints despite being completely aware that Maya is a teenager.

but its okay now don’t hold your breaths,

their “hints” are more of a one-off ish thing, most of the time a gag and not taken seriously, and unlike other ship per say narumitsu, where it actually affects their lives and changed it forever IN-GAME. “i care about Maya and understands her” and “i became an attorney because of you, Edgeworth and i don’t have any regrets” are both literally incomparable, especially given Phoenix and Edgeworth’s history together in-game canon.

anyway, here’s some common arguments i’ve encountered about this particular ship :

“but Phoenix cares about Maya a lot! he literally went through a trial against a hitman and run through a burning bridge for her!”

“Phoenix blushed and goes red when Pearl says he’s Maya’s special someone and he stutters!”

“Well my parents had a huge age gap!"

“well, Maya is 18 in AA2″

“considering Maya is a christmas cake now, Nick better tap that”

“she’s an adult in AA6 tho”

now lets dissect each of these,

yes, Phoenix cares about Maya a lot he literally did cross a burning bridge for her but people seem to forget that this is the same man who turned his life around, abandon his dreams, study law for four years, and became an attorney to meet one man and willing to defend a girl who looks like his psychotic ex that nearly poisoned him in court. he literally would believe in his clients’s innocence no matter what, he’s by nature would sacrifice anything and even his life for someone. so its normal that he cares about Maya, but is it romantic? i doubt it, he cares about her safety and well being but does it have to be a romantic hint? no, of course not, he’s just very selfless for the people he cares about and Maya has no one to help her but Nick when she’s in trouble, he’s one of few adults she can trust and will help her out.

oh so blushing and stuttering due to embarrassment means having feelings now? and about the stuttering, he literally stutters around Edgeworth a lot lol. i’m starting to feel like people ships naru//mayo not because of their depth but because Pearl said so. Pearl finds them should be together and keep shoving the audience with Nick being “Mystic Maya’s special someone”, well if thats the case, they also explained why this happened, in-game. Pearl grew up very sheltered and among unhealthy marriages she just assumes a girl and a boy together means they’re dating and being “special someones”. she most likely just wants her cousin to be in a happy relationship unlike her parents where her father left both her and her mother but didn’t know any better because she was eight years old.

https://youtu.be/FGAqQkMEKNs?start=674&end=776

now about the parent thing and taking it personal, well my parents too had a huge age-gap of 7 years. but how come is it okay? its because they met when my mum was already a career woman at 26. she’s already an adult when my dad met her. what does this mean? it means my parents were both adults when they’re together, this is why i still like GumMaggey despite their age gap so wide, they first met when Maggey has already had a career, supposedly in her 20′s, she’s a young adult, she can buy alcohol by herself, already knows whats right and wrong and has live life independently, not a still hormonal teenager who depends on one adult figure. did your parents date when your mum is in highschool while your dad is like in his mid 20′s? sorry to hear that.

as for the last three arguments, i don’t even want to touch any of them with a five-foot pole. are you listening to yourself? do you not feel like you’re a creep typing that?

let me give you a benefit of the doubt. yes she’s older and legally an adult, but are you really discrediting the fact they met when Maya was still in highschool? they met and became friends when she’s 17 and he’s 24. sure they barely met during disbarment era, but should that change anything? why should it? how should it? like this?

“Oh this is Maya, i haven’t met her in years but boy she sure has grown up can’t wait to date her since she’s legal now.”

because thats what that argument sounds like, YIKES.

you know? if they met under a different circumstance and Maya was like 19, i’d let it go. but they didn’t, they met because of a horrible loss, Maya, still in training, 17 lost her big sister and Phoenix, a rookie, at 24 lost his mentor.

in conclusion, i don’t like naru//mayo at all

pairing them feels like pairing Edgeworth with Kay or Phoenix with Ema, just because they partnered in investigations, make playful jabs at each other, and saved each others’s lives before, people just think they like each other romantically despite their age-gap in first meetings (not to mention Kay sees Edgeworth as somewhat of a father figure, and she’s nearly 18 while Edgeworth is the same age as Phoenix). especially with how Maya, being a zoomer, calls Phoenix an “old fart” and just makes jokes about how so out-of-touch Phoenix is with the modern entertainment.

from observations, i have a huge hunch that almost all of them pair these two because :

1. Maya’s a girl protagonist so its a male protagonist x female protagonist type of deal and despise narumitsu because “yaoi”

2. AA6 she’s an adult so she’s legal which is damn creepy on its own, or last

3. because of Pearl shipping them in game despite being an eight year old and was so sheltered she thought a man and a woman being next to each other means they’re special someones.

either way, i only see them as best friends, sibling-like relationship with self awareness here and there since they tease the audience a lot with their gag “hints” in spin-off mangas and game.

not only that, it kinda showcase how all male/female bond don’t have to be romantic, they can be just friends or familial and still hang together. another plus for the franchise right after encouraging moving on from ex partners. *glancing at Phoenix//Iris*

and as to the people who pairs this for some odd reasons, sometimes i just want to ask these questions,

“how would you feel if you’re in Phoenix’s shoes? met your mentor’s little sister at age 17 while you’re 24, would you feel romantically interested in this high schooler?” because i don’t, to me anyone 3 years younger than me is like a baby, how would Phoenix feel when Maya’s 7 years younger?

“also... why even? narumitsu and other less questionable pairings are RIGHT THERE in the open!”

but oh well people can like and pair whatever hhh,

and there you have it, my even longer rambling hahaha sorry;;

Edit : To add the final nail to the coffin, Phoenix outright has said that Maya’s like his kid, like a niece.

Edit 2 : remember that this is simply my personal take, you can somewhat use this to make yourself feel better about your pair nor simply just to hate on the ship itself but do not use this to dictate actual people what to ship and not to ship.

please don’t be destructive towards others.

#NOT n*rumayo #notp #naru//mayo #can't ship them sorry #im almost 20 and everyone 3 years younger feels like a child #imagine being phoenix and knowing maya is like 7 years younger jfc #slight #narumitsu #encouragement lol #dont harrass the shippers of it please

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bossbex · 3 years

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5x06 Reaction

JARCHIE!!! I missed their interactions so much... like honestly in S4 they barely spoke. I’m loving the “roommates” dynamic.

Ok the kevin/fangs/toni apartment(?) is... amazing!!

I love how they hired actual teenagers (or close to it) to play the high school kids... since all the “teachers” were playing high school students, what, 3 episodes ago??

Ok mechanic Betty is SO HOT

DORITOS I AM CRYING AT THIS PRODUCT PLACEMENT

Veronica’s taking over the Blue Velvet!!! Why not reuse that set lmao

Thoughts on this initial barchie interaction:

I’ve seen all the discourse about it seeming like Archie doesn’t care about Betty’s problems, or not taking them seriously, and people comparing Archie’s “oof - that sucks” to jughead’s “white noise” speech in 1x08 (which I thought was cringy AF and I even liked b*ghead at the time) and here’s what I’ll say:

His “oof - that sucks” comment as MATCHING Betty’s tone - she says it kind of matter of factly and with a bit of an eyeroll, she does NOT seem very upset about it, and she is a grown ass adult who DOESN’T need Archie’s condolences in that moment - and Archie knows that.

She then brings up Polly, and Archie ASKS A FOLLOW UP QUESTION: “didn’t your mom say she does this? Takes off for a couple of days” which shows that he is referring to a previous conversation about this - they’ve BEEN talking about it and he DOES care (not to mention they showed that he had texted her about Polly at the end of the last episode)

She says she’s trying not to panic - because she knows this is something Polly does and may not actually be in danger - SO HE OFFERS A DISTRACTION during a time when she is basically asking for one, and then SHE COMES UP WITH THE IDEA OF WHERE TO GO HAVE SEX

Anyway I have argued with enough people on twitter about this lol.. I feel strongly. Also, this scene was super cute and both Archie and Betty look so good in it.

I love Tabitha. Smart, enterprising, witty... I’m all for the Jugitha pairing. (seriously though, is a ship name decided for them? I’ve seen Tabhead and Jabitha as well, lol.

Uhhhhh ok this car sex scene? It somehow feels even more explicit than the shower scene?? The moaning and breathing?? HOW DARE THESE STONEWALL KIDS INTERRUPT THIS

LMAO NIGHT JOGGING

Is it just me or is Sheriff Keller looking really hot? Silver fox??

I have to note that Archie’s hair colour looks SO BAD in this whole episode but especially this football scene with the Reggie confrontation. It’s like, almost burgundy? But somehow bright orange at the same time? I hate it.

Ok Cole is absolutely nailing this “down on his luck, beaten down” adult Jughead. His character is funny all the sudden?? I love that he kept the money in the tip jar like OF COURSE

Ok Chad coming into Veronica’s class HE’S THE WORST!!! And then SITTING AT THE BACK I HATE HIM SO MUCH FOR THIS

Alright, now we have another scene that has people talking, which is where Archie meets Chad. My thoughts:

Archie clearly sizes up Chad. I mean, he dated Veronica for 3-ish years (in the show’s timeline) so yeah, it’s normal to meet your ex’s new partner and size them up. It read more like “he thinks Chads a douche” as opposed to “he’s jealous of Chad because he wants to be with V”.

They show makes a point of showing Betty’s reaction to them meeting. THIS SHOT IS NOT RANDOM. Yes, I’m sure the show will go there, she’ll get jealous of V at some point. Betty thinking that Archie is jealous of Chad is not the same as Archie actually being jealous of Chad.

I kind of loved how Chad just jumps in here to join in the karaoke night - he didn’t redeem himself from the previous scene where he SAT IN THE BACK OF HER CLASS WHILE SHE WORKED but I like how they’re not playing him completely evil

Next scene: BETTY AND TONI ARE TALKING!!! I REPEAT!!! BETTY AND TONI ARE TALKING!!! Seriously, it’s so refreshing that they’re actually letting all kinds of new dynamics and character interactions happen this season.

Also, NEDSLIST!!!! THIS SHOW!!!!

I am living for Cheryl being completely beautiful whilst yelling at construction workers.

So like... she actually doesn’t have that much money. She couldn’t really afford the donation for the school... I kind of wish that once she says “I can’t afford it” people would like, not keep pushing? I’m looking at you Toni, whom I absolutely adore, I just wish the writers didn’t make it like Cheryl’s being squeezed dry. I get that it’s needed for plot purposes but I don’t love it.

Kevin and Betty are friends again!!! Love it!!!

Karaoke night thoughts:

At no point is Jughead hanging out or interacting with the rest of the group. He stays separate from them - with Tabitha, which I appreciate, but I am just noting this because I’m sure it was done purposefully.

“She probably forgot it’s Gekko now” uhhhh didn’t Toni announce V as “Veronica Gekko” in the last episode?? LOL THE SHADE

I love Veronica’s voice

Ok so Chad actually comes off so great in this scene?? I guess this is part of his manipulation - come off as such a great guy in front of all her friends to get them to like him?

Jughead’s reaction to the duet is so me every time I’ve watched people do karaoke lmao

During the “or do you need more? Is there something else you’re searching for” they cut to Archie’s and Betty’s reaction. Archie is not thinking about V in that moment.

I am not seeing one iota of jealousy from Archie. He looks genuinely happy for them.

This Chad and Veronica bed scene makes me uncomfortable. But I’m glad they’re showing their softer moments!

The Archie/football recruitment sequence... Chad in the back of Veronica’s classroom again??? HOW IS THIS HAPPENING I HATE THIS!! Also, this is another scene where Chad looks jealous of Archie... not the other way around.

Britta!!! I love her. And I feel like the writers inserted her in specifically for Britta Lundin, former Riverdale writer and acclaimed author (read her book Ship It, seriously, it’s so good), and I love that. BUT THE WAY ARCHIE LOOKS AT BETTY IN THIS SCENE IS THAT EVEN LEGAL

We get the first glimpse Toni’s “Operation Bring Cheryl Out Of Hiding” plan here, when Archie asks her for funding for the football team and says its earmarked for something else (hmmmmmmm... this plan has been in the works for a while... and I’m here for it)

Ok. This scene where Archie goes to ask Cheryl for money is... a mess. My first reaction is that it was so OOC for Archie to bring up Jason in that way. Then I got to thinking... Archie probably would want to honour his dad in that way and was genuinely suggesting that as something that might actually be helpful to her, as opposed to purposely trying to manipulate her. He knows what it’s like to lose a family member, he just didn’t realize that Cheryl doesn’t grieve in the same way. The boy doesn’t have a malicious bone in his body. Anyway, now he’s been banished from Thornhill! But don’t we see him (and everyone) there in a bts photo from possibly 5x08? Isn’t that at Thornhill? Will this be addressed or will the writers just forget it ever happened?

I love Betty and Kevin investigating together. It’s so refreshing.

Ok this place Jughead is going to is legit the creepiest shit I’ve ever seen. I am having trouble making myself care about this “Mothmen” plot??

Betty’s “Straight to the Point” interrogation style is actually effective in this truck stop stakeout scene.

Alice again with her wine... I wonder if there will actually be an “Alice is an alcoholic” storyline or is the wine just part of her personality now?

Ok like it’s so inappropriate for a teacher to be wearing an HBIC shirt BUT I AM HERE FOR THIS DRAMATIC VIXENS HALLWAY WALK!! And Toni is correct, Cheer is a sport so sit down, Archie. Notably Toni adds in “not even Cheryl managed to do that” - I’m thinking she new Ms. Bell would be eavesdropping ;)

WHY IS THIS PORTAIT OF JASON WORTH SO MUCH??

Is this Minerva character going to be important?? I keep seeing people talking about how she and Cheryl are going to hook up but is that just because she’s a female character who interacts with Cheryl? I’m not seeing it yet but hey, it’s Riverdale.

JUGHEAD BRINGING UP THE EPIC HIGHS AND LOWS OF HIGH SCHOOL FOOTBALL I SCREAMED

Seriously though, since we know Jughead wasn’t there when Archie said that, there’s two options: Either Archie told him he said it, or (my preferable theory) Archie used to just SAY THAT REGULARLY and has said it in front of Jug lmao.

Chad again seems legit supportive when she tells him about her jewelry store plan?? THEY’RE SO UP AND DOWN!!!

Ok, so Betty is an FBI agent (trainee, whatever) and she JUST NOW THOUGHT OF TRACING POLLY’S CELL PHONE

This scene... when Veronica finds out Chad has been talking to Hiram behind her back... this is where she decides she’s done with Chad.

Another scene with Archie - I am still getting zero vibes that he’s into Veronica? And zero vibes that Veronica’s into Archie? It makes complete sense that Veronica would want to help the bulldogs. Chad is a total dick here and is definitely threatened by Archie... again, not the other way around. Side note: Chad, if threatened by Archie, is a TOTAL IDIOT for suggesting Archie renovates the Pembrooke - like, he’s going to be working? All the time? Where Veronica is staying? And probably taking his shirt off because he’s sweaty from all the working?? WHYYYYY WOULD CHAD ENCOURAGE THIS

This little flirty scene between Jughead and Tabitha (and it’s the first that I would say has any flirty undertones whatsoever) is pretty cute.

THIS BARCHIE PORCH SCENE I HAVE THOUGHTS

The fact that people are suggesting Betty showed up there because she wanted to talk to Jughead is SENDINNNNGGGGGG

Let’s be clear, she only asked about Jughead so she could make sure he wasn’t home so that she could bone Archie. There is no other interpretation for this.

THIS IS THE BEST BARCHIE KISS TO DATE

They are playing the song from the porch scene in the pilot... DON’T TELL ME BARCHIE IS MEANINGLESS WHEN THEY ARE USING THIS SONG

I think the fact that this is the first time they had sex and we didn’t see it is meaningful - they are showing that the relationship is deepening and they are more than “just sex”

As Betty leaves, Archie looks like he wants to reach out for her and then stops himself - he is definitely falling hard and he’s afraid Betty isn’t feeling the same way

Ok, Cheryl is straight up wearing lingerie in Toni’s office!!! And the red lipstick is back - notably, throughout the entire show, she has worn the red lipstick as a kind of shield - she never has it for her “vulnerable” scenes. Seems like that is still happening. AND this is where we see Boss Toni’s plan come into fruition - she started up the vixens and MADE SURE CHERYL FOUND OUT ABOUT IT because she knew that was the one thing that would make Cheryl come out of her Thornhill hiding spot. Well played, Toni.

Archie and Veronica announcing the bulldog funding... again, I’m not seeing ANY “romantic/attraction” vibes here? He does react when she says her last name is Lodge again but like, anyone would?

MS. BELL YOU GOSSIP I’M OK WITH YOU REPORTING TO CHERYL BUT I DRAW THE LINE AT HIRAM

Is Reggie... filing his nails? Lmao

I really hope Polly isn’t dead?? Like I very much want a Polly redemption story!!

Sooooo I guess Archie and Jughead are both going to die in this fire? Lol... well... they’re main characters so I’m sure they’re good.

I’m doooone for this week! So far really enjoying the timejump? Obviously because of barchie but also, everyone is just - better.

Well this turned out to be a novel. If you made it this far, thanks for reading :)

#riverdale #barchie #riverdale thoughts #riverdale 5x06 #5x06 #riverdale season 5

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stickyhoney · 4 years

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This is it.

Title: This is it.

A/N: This is a very personal story to me. I recently exited a serious relationship, he was an enlisted army man. Writing about Syverson in many ways reminds me of him, so I consider this as a way of helping me move on. Truthfully Henry and my ex have a lot in common, so it can sometimes be hard for me to separate the two in my heart and words. This story won’t have a happy ending, at least for right now. Sorry in advance for the angst lol

Pairing: Younger Cpt. Syverson x Reader

Warnings: Pretty sad not gonna lie, flashbacks of fluff kinda, adult language, mentions of depression

You remember the day you met him, Syverson. You were just a sophomore in college, him a senior. He walked into work, wearing his tan cargo shirts and army green shirt. Immediately, you found him attractive. He was your type after all. At that point he had a large frame, slightly muscular, standing over 6 feet. You also remember how well you two got along back then. He made you laugh, sometimes to the point that tears streamed down your face, and your stomach tensed.

That’s where it all started, a great friendship. The more time you spent with him, the more your attraction grew. You two ate dinner every Tuesday night together after work, you would sit and talk for hours. Sometimes the two of you would talk until the food court had to kick you out because they were closing up. Everyone who knew the both of you, whether from work or your friends, wondered why the two of you weren’t dating yet. You knew. While the two of you were close, you always sensed he was withholding. That feeling has never changed.

two years later…

“What did I ever do to you to deserve this?” You choked on your tears, your eyes burned. The pounding of your head didn’t hold a candle to the thoughts racing through your mind.

It was all in your head. You fool. He never loved you.

You looked up to him, through your vision was all a blur. Nothing could be seen through your tears, so you squeezed your eyes shut until you felt the red hot tears fall down your cheeks. You knew you probably looked a mess, but you couldn’t find the strength to care. Physically you felt ill, mentally you felt drained, emotionally you felt agony. You dared open your eyes again, and there he was. Hovering over you, his eyes were full of guilt and pity.

“I never wanted to hurt you [y/n].” It always made you angry in the past when he stayed perfectly calm during arguments, when he cold as a stone. You thought it was because of the army at first, since they trained him to keep his emotions under lock and key. Over time you wondered if they had changed him for good, if his emotions were now something of the past. Now you knew better. He just never cared enough to argue.

“You hurt me worse than anyone could ever do again. You made me love you. You made me love you when you didn’t have a care in the world for me!” Unable to get up on your feet, you decided to stay seated on the shag rug. Your words had turned into quiet screams, your throat had dried out from your heaving. You were a true mess. Sy bent down to you, his hand falling on your knee. Bile rose in the back of your throat at his touch. Strongly, your hand smacked his away. You crawled away from him, your mind starting to enter a frenzy.

“I never said I don’t care about you.” You swear you could almost see tears forming in his blue eyes. “You know how much you mean to me.” Giggles started building in your chest, slowly forming into full laughs that escaped your lips. If anyone saw you, they would declare you a madwoman and have you committed. “I’ve given you everything I have. My heart, my love, my patience, my forgiveness, even my fucking dignity!” You wave your hand around yourself, showing the proof of lost dignity.

You stayed by Sy through his worst moments, helped him through his pain, or when he was being an arrogant asshole. That one grew to happen more often as time passed. Once he entered special forces, the small part he was hiding away from you grew larger and larger until you felt as if you didn’t know him at all. Sy had become his job. A cold, calculated, soldier. The joke was on you however, you thought he could be the man of your dreams. That your best friend could turn into your soulmate.

“I-I am not in the right head space for a relationship [y/n]. I never should have asked you out, for that I am sorry. But, you can’t blame me for everything.” He fell back onto his rear, his arms bouncing off his knees in defeat. The floor shook under his weight. You clasped your hands together in an effort to stop the shaking. “Oh trust me. I blame myself for making a mistake. I blame you for making my trust in you a mistake.” Your limbs begin to regain their power, allowing you to pull yourself up onto your feet.

1 Year Prior…

You were laughing with your girlfriends on the way back from lunch. It was freezing cold that day, but your friend insisted on wearing dresses. It was valentine's day after all. They were trying to cheer you up, they knew how sad you were over saying goodbye to Sy. Your cheeks burned from the cold wind, probably a bright crimson against your skin. You cursed your friends for talking you into wearing a dress in 10 degree weather. A red sweater dress clung against your form, something you would never have bought yourself. So of course your friends talked you into it. The laughs of your gang brought a genuine smile to your face. Then you saw him walking towards you. Your eyes had to be playing tricks on you. He looked just as surprised.

“Hi.” His gaze never strayed away from you until your friends spoke. “Who is this?” They were eyeing him up and down, drinking in his muscles that looked masculine in his dress shirt and khakis. You had never shown them a picture, afraid they wouldn’t believe you. Also afraid they would castrate him if they ever saw him in public. “Syverson. Nice to-” One of your friends hated his name with a burning passion for hurting you, so when she registered that it was truly him, she was not pleased. “You son-of-a-bitch.” He seemed unphased, if the army gives you one thing, it’s thick skin. “I’ve gotta go. I have a meeting.” He walked past you, as though nothing had been said between you.

Ten minutes into your friends roasting you alive for not telling them how hot Sy was, you phone buzzes in your lap. A text from him. Speak of the devil. “Would you like to have dinner tonight? Keep the dress on.” Your heart began pounding. A huge smile formed on your face, causing your friends to stir.

Back to present day

“You need to leave.” You now were looking down on him, he looked strange down on the floor like that. You had never seen him so vulnerable before. “I can’t lose you.” Your lip quivered in disgust at the man in front of you. “So you want me to care for you, and love you, but you won’t give me the same?” Sy had gone speechless, choosing silence as his answer. “You never made me feel like enough. I felt like I was just an adequate addition to your life, constantly fighting to keep your attention.” The television was still on from the two of you sitting on the couch watching Netflix. His army duffel bag still sat by the door like normal, his ball cap on your coat rack. “You need to leave.” It felt as if sacks of flour had been tied to your ankles, but you forced them forward to the door.

Your hand holds the doorknob, making you question your actions. Your brain has to take control from your heart. You look back at him, still sitting in the same spot on the floor. He pulls himself off the floor strongly, and grabs his phone off the coffee table. “I’ll give you some time.” Sy throws his jacket and ball cap on, and grabs his duffel bag off the floor. “This is it. I am not going to let you back in anymore.” You pull your front door open, and look to the floor. You can’t give him the chance with those blue eyes, then you would never move on.

He walks through the door, his boots sounding harsh against the wood floor. Before you can change your mind, you shut the door behind him. You drop to your knees, knowing that you may never feel that way about someone ever again.

#captain syverson #henry cavill #rpf #henrycavill

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katierosefun · 3 years

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so after one really big latte, a muffin, a run which resulted in a near accident with an oncoming car, and a shower in which i contemplated my own mortality, here’s my thoughts on the adorable me & au podcast, because babe wake up new hyperfixation dropped. very spoiler-y, i’m sorry in advance for how f*cking long this is, this might only have like two people reading this but i have many thoughts please listen to this podcast because it’s so cute and i listened to it all in about 2.5 hours?

- firstly: the main character is super relatable. like, scary relatable. meet kate “acunningplan” cunningham, a gal about to enter her senior year of college and just kinda,,,lost. she works as a barista and very confused, very...stuck gal by day, fic writer (and still very stuck gal) by.........not barista hours.

- honestly, i love kate. idk i’m about to enter my senior year of college, and bro i related so hard to her fears of “bro i can’t even think about next week without feeling overwhelmed”. she misses her best friend whitney a lot, who is currently on the other side of the country for an impressive internship. so that can be kinda lonely.

- but fear not, kate has an escape, like so many other fic writers/fandom people: fanfic. this whole story references tumblr without actually naming tumblr (let’s be real....it’s tumblr, from the “notes” to “this stupid app keeps crashing”), and kate follows this tv show about werewolves and supernatural creatures. very gay. only problem is that there’s not a whole ton of people active in the fandom, since this show is relatively new.

- however, in this small fandom, kate meets ella: otherwise known as “hella-enchanted”, who is another fic writer.

- kate is very obsessed with the idea of alternate universes, and for that alone, i love her.

- okay, so even if you’ve never fallen in love with a person online/in fandom circles, i just wanna say that ella and kate’s interactions are still so super relatable. the shooting messages, the starting random conversations and getting a little thrill when you see someone liking your personal post or whatever. it’s very wholesome.

- also, at the end of episode 1, kate goes on about how “yeah, fanfic is kinda odd, but it led me...to you” and it was so soft and gentle you just know your heart is gonna melt huh

- at one point, kate decides to be vulnerable via vent post about something that came up on the show (and oh god yeah i feel...things. kate relates very hard to one character in the tv show she’s following, and tbh,,,yeah. i can’t quite word it right now, but i think anyone who feels kinda.....stuck? would relate.)

- the “EXACTLY ONE PERSON ASKED FOR THIS ESSAY SO HERE IT IS” please

- also oh :’)))) kate talks about ella’s playlists and when i tell you i squeaked a little bit because oh hey--

- anyways lol yes can you relate to like,,,posting a vent post and forgetting to delete it and being mildly horrified (but also mildly touched) when someone actually responds?

- ella’s very sweet, just responds with “seems like one of my favorite fandom people needed a pick-me-up” and :’))) i would die for ella! (i mean, i would die for all the characters)

- okay yes also all the bits where ella and kate scream at each other about fic. very relatable, very real, you can tell that the writers of this podcast really knew this feeling, and i just :’)))

- THE TWO DEBATE OVER TITLES,,,,,kate keeps sending in crack-y titles and also song lyrics, and ella comments on “well,,,i just read this whole wikipedia page, so i think i’ve lost the high ground”, so if y’all KNOW i started laughing at that

- also LMAOOOO the moment when conversation diverts from fic and fandom to slightly more personal things! kate being like “oh,,,,,you have an actual job! like,,,you’re an actual adult and.....how’s that?” and then quickly rambling on via message “actually let me change the topic because that’s probably too personal”...

- okay so there’s this bit where ella drops the fact that she’s never read anne of green gables because “listen,,,,you have an ex-girlfriend who sang the anne of green gables musical all the time--” and kate’s “.......ex-girlfriend? you had an ex-girlfriend? girl--” (and BACKSPACING ALL OF THAT because “god i’m such a freak”)

- much gay disaster

- so much gay disaster

- opportunity for kate and ella to meet irl comes up! at a fan convention! in toronto! (and kate lives in bc). kate’s best friend (remember, internship one?) invited kate over to toronto for this thing anyways, and then ella posts something about “heeeey i’m gonna be in the area so if anyone wants to meet up for the fan convention...”

- let me just say......kate chucking her phone across the room because she freaked out about that. again. very cool, very nicely done, very relatable, etc.

- ALSO,,,,i forget if this was one of kate or ella’s fics or if it was the actual tv show, but there’s this tidbit where the characters in the literal fandom has this conversation:

“don’t waste your time.”

“what?”

“don’t waste your time on me.”

and the way that reflects kate’s feelings-but-she’s-not-trying-to-think-about-it for ella please let me just die here

- okay, so kate does decide to message ella about the meet-up, and let me just tell you, kate’s inner monologue about the worst possibilities for ella’s responses:

“1. no response. which is terrible.

2. you find out you’re not wanted after all. :(((((

3. the most terrifying response of all.......” (an enthusiastic “yes i’m so glad we can meet up!!!”)

- well, of course ella responds with #3.

- gay disaster kate not knowing how to acknowledge her feelings for ella...she goes on this “you don’t wanna come across as....y’know because if they suspect that....y’know.....and like, i don’t....y’know--” oh my god kate

- anyways, kate works at a coffeeshop, right? and her co-worker stewart (nonbinary pansexual co-worker! we love to see the rep!!) being like “oh yeah maybe you can bring over your friend!” and kate panicking because “ohhhhh i’m not too sure about that,,,,she’s,,,,,,,,,busy......” (ie. the awkward moment of having to explain that,,,,,,your online friend isn’t exactly someone you’ve met in real life,,,,,,,,and not sure exactly how to explain that so you just,,,,,,“ohhhh uhhh......y’know...............it’s really hard to.......get her out of.....work.....”

- kate and ella video-chatting for the first time is very cute, very gay. very gay.

- they swap “how’d you know you were gay / liked girls” stories :’)))

- “that’s a cute story!” “you’re a cute story” [awkward silence] “please let me hide under the desk now” (have i mentioned that kate’s a disaster? i love her, but you’re a disaster. we need to be best friends.)

- kate.....describing herself as “irl fanfic disaster waiting to happen” and the whole “i didn’t know we were actually dating until she asked if she could kiss me” lmaoooooooooo (but okay yes this is also a mood? like,,,,,,idk something about heteronormative standards so like,,,,,it’s so stupidly hard to figure out if a girl is flirting with you or if they’re just being nice i am glad kate’s such a disaster)

- in other news: kate’s “how tf do i write a kiss scene i don’t like the word lips ughhhhHHHHH” (yeah, mood kate)

- lmao stewart (kate’s co-worker!) just chilling with kate and being like “oh yeah i figured you had a girlfriend? the one you’re talking about? ella?” and kate blanking because “wait you thought ella was my girlfriend? she’s not....uhhh....” and then later drinking with stewart and rambling about ella and panicking because “what if she realizes i can’t talk about anything except this tv show what if she thinks i laugh too loud what if i have horrific body odor what if she realizes i have NOTHING to say what if our meeting goes SO terribly that i need to deactivate and change my name just so i could like her posts at 3 am” and then her small “please forget i said any of that”

- oh kate :((((

- kate :((((((

- k a t e :(((((((((((((((((((

- anyways, kate does go to toronto.

- meets ella.

- very cute.

- ella...........very gay. they go into a coffeeshop and kate doesn’t know what to do.

- okay but what’s hilarious is that ella,,,,,seems so cool and suave and i too would be kind of intimidated by her but then these two idiots really talk about writing kissing scenes and the build-up and ella’s voice gets all,,,,,,suggestive and there’s this.....awkward gay silence between the two oh my GOD they’re both IDIOTS

- also okay yes kate and whitney, a irl friend, having a heart-to-heart. good. we love that. also, whitney being like “I MISSED YOU!!! YOU IDIOT!!!! and i’m glad you have a new friend, and you’re happy, but I MISSED YOU!!! I HATE THIS CITY AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING!!!” (whitney is also very relatable. ily whitney.)

- they’re so cute. they hug, and it’s sweet :’)) also, then kate says in a stupidly small voice “i think i’m....kinda in love with [ella]?” and whitney being best supportive friend--

- OKAY so we finally get an episode of ella’s perspective

- listen, you’re gonna think ella’s this cool, suave person who has all her own gayness put together (i mean, she kinda knew since she was 9 or 10 years old? she’s had a girlfriend? she seems like she has her life together? she’s waiting to get into grad school? she has a job? she just seems....cool and knows what she’s doing).

- but then you realize. ella is just as much a pining mess. (her bullet point list/schedule in her head is so relatable. as someone who uses her notes and reminders app religiously, that was just :’)))

- ella: reasons why this is not a date. and then....kate sends a message. (ella: reason why this....might be a date....kate keeps saying stuff like...that.)

- kate rehearsing how to tell ella that she maybe kinda likes her? very cute. (”you know the feeling in your chest when....uh, you know when you feel like you have a frog in your stomach--oh god not the frog NOT the frog”)

- the love confession is very cute, and also very relatable. “i like you a lot” “i like you too!” “no i mean,,,,like i like you. wait. which like do you mean? wait that’s not english. uh. what did you say?”

- kate’s “I HAD A WHOLE DRAMATIC FANFIC CONFESSION PLANNED OUT”

- kate and ella just spilling everything made me :’)))

- “i like how your brain works” “i made so many posts hoping that you would just talk to me” “you always make me laugh” “you just make me feel...better” “you make me smile”

- “this whole summer you’ve been making me smile and i guess it kind of freaked me out? ...i don’t know where my life is going but if i have a choice, i want to go in any direction you’re going because you are cute and smart and amazing and i like you a lot, ella. like that. so yeah. that’s what i was thinking i’d say.”

- i essentially explaine dthe whole plot but

- i love this podcast a lot

- it was very sweet

- and very cute

- very wlw

- i don’t even mind that i almost got hit by a car while i was running and listening to this it was worth it

- idk. just like. anyone who’s ever read or written fic or just like...not necessarily fallen in love with another person? but at least relating to that feeling of “oh god i am not qualified to talk to this person” and “oh god what if they realize i’m actually,,,,a loser” and “oh god wait how to friend” can probably hit a lot of people

- but that said. the romance was very cute, very sweet, makes me :’)))

- okay i’ll stop talking now but i just. it’s very cute, very relatable, i wish we had a season 2 but i think it’s a limited series. (but they’re living rent free in my head! forever!)

#caroline talks #oh god.......oh god #i'm so sorry for how long this is #but in case you couldn't tell i have literally so many feelings #so many feelings #yo @ me and au creators: thank u for making me feel seen and wanting to cry because of it!#it's beautiful #and very gay #and like idk even if you've never fallen in *love* with a fandom friend i think you can still hardcore relate to this?#just because like......bro there's something..........so soft about this #also.....gay disasters #also really saying 'hey everyone's actually super awkward there's no such thing as being cool and suave'#also just......AGH no someone please scream with me about this #i am going to SCREAM about this forever #i also....once again: feel WAY too seen #like.....WAY too seen #anyways #me & au

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irkenheretic · 4 years

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okay i promised id do it and im doing it: Explaining The Plot Of That AU I’m Vague About: The Post

(as i was preparing to write this i actually got my 250th follower, which slapped)

so i’m just gonna start with the simple version, which is this: it’s a rebel AU which primarily centers around the tallest, who are both defective. they give up on trying to make any meaningful changes as figureheads, and instead direct their attention to being involved with the “neo defect revolution,” or NDR. they do manage to make one change as tallest- there is a garbage dump planet turned into a sanctuary for defectives (who in this au are executed once discovered,) and eventually enough of the populace finds out about it that the tallest have to deal with it. they finesse their way into kicking it out of the empire, so now it’s its own planet with its own rules, governments, and most importantly, immigration policies and protections

a lot of stuff happens and it’s gonna be structured using arcs, and each arc has a separate protagonist/deuteragonist/tritagonist lineup (but that doesnt mean the same lineup won’t be used multiple times!) and yes the insane list of OCs are for this au alone: some arcs are very OC-centric, some have OCs as supporting characters, and a couple are all-OC or mostly-OC.

its going to be very longform and it’ll span from the tallest’s elite training days to twenty years after zim arrives on earth. (the 20 year gap btwn zim arriving on earth and the story proper isnt as tightly plotted as later tho.) the point is to see how a revolution on the scale of the NDR works, who was fucked over by defact laws, who was fucked over by other laws, etc. theres a lot of lore and a lot of headcanons i made for this AU and even a conlang. i am a being of hubris. itll be a series of fics, some multichapter and some oneshots.

the series as a whole is gonna be called Invader Zim: Annexed or just Annexed for short. its a pun on an irken word that sounds similar but means the exact opposite. i am not explaining more bc itll be explained in the fic itself. but thats why the tag for it is #anx lmao

i didnt mean for this to be as long as it got but under the cut im gonna breakdown some of the early arcs:

so it all starts with a fanfic called Love Is The H-Word (no the “h-word” isn’t “hell.) it centers around red and purple as elites-in-training, who do a little whoopsie and have an egg. purple doesnt wanna smuggle it into a smeetery, bc then he’ll never see it again, so they go to the defect sanctuary (still a part of the empire at this point.) purple knows he’s defective while red has a hard time accepting that he is as well, due to events from his past. but being around all these other defects are starting to wear down his denial, and the fic is all about that. it also sets up some plot stuff, like how defects adopted a self-identifier in the word “heretic,” hence the sanctuary being named, “heretirk.” (hey look my url!) (no, the “h-word” is not heretic, either.)

i dont wanna say what happens in that fic bc spoilers, but stuff Happens. its also when we meet some ocs that end up being important, and the existence of others are foreshadowed. this is also where we meet the tallests’ future advisor, rarl kove, for the first time, as a local who decides to keep them company. purple bonds with kove due to their shared interest in politics, while red reluctantly bonds with titch, a young irken (a smeet in heretirken standards, an adult in imperial standards- did i mention he and red are roughly the same age? lol) who is interested in military stuff and thrill-seeking and general destruction. titch is pissed because he claims his father is stealthing on devastis as a military commander, but won’t let titch sneak in as a soldier, as titch is deaf.

(fun facts: in the au, “titch” is regional slang for “a little bit.” ironically, titch the character is above-average in height.)

due to titch’s deafness, he developed “gesturespeak,” irken sign language, so he can communicate. this existing becomes important later

a oneshot called invade the system is right after h-word in publishing order. it details zim’s exploits in leaving foodcourtia, where he was assigned and infiltrating the invading academy he eventually graduates from (in this au, zim is too short to be an invader, which sucks because the hight minimums for the military are really short to begin with lmao)

the fic chronoligically after H-Word focuses on red and purple being back in their platoon on devastis, specifically red navigating his training and his relationships with two defective platoonmates, pon and zi (who are in h-word a little,) after the realization that he too is defective. it also focuses on how the irken military works, and how they train their soldiers.

the first arc overall focuses on red and purple going thru training and such, and ends after they graduate and are on the field, working to get commander rank. (they planned to gain commander rank then leave and go back to heretirk to train an army there, as heretirk has.... no army.) in the middle of this, they’re pulled out and told they are to become the next tallest. they debate over staying and taking the job or just running to heretirk, and they ultimately decide to stay.

the next arc i call the “bridge,” tbh. its less tightly plotted than the other arcs; fics are spread apart from each other chronologically and all that. it spans the time after the tallest being appointed to a little after zim arrives on earth. it also has a couple of anthologies focusing on imperial defects- each chapter is a new character. these guys are all important and the easiest way for me to introduce their backstories without cluttering everything up is anthology style, lmao. other things that happen are a look into how the tallest work, eventually culminating with the resolution of the tallest having to Deal With Heretirk, tenn’s rescue from meekrob, and zim on earth obtaining a half-irken smeet named pip due to stealing an Unethical Science Experiment from dib (which is pip.) the bridge is basically just. “heres some stuff that happens between point A and point B so when we get to point B you’re not confused as all hell.”

the next arc focuses on zim. in the first fic, pip is sick and zim is trying to get into his neighbor’s pants, to cope. this basically sets up that zim in this au has no idea how to find personal fulfillment in living- he’s only OK if he focuses on pleasing someone else, be it taking care of pip or doting on the neighbor, some rando human named piqu (pronounced, “peek.”) this is mainly a cute romance story with the underlying veneer of “a child is slowly and painfully dying” in the background. fun!

without spoiling the circumstances, zim and pip end up on heretirk, which at this point is its own independent planet. pip is in the hospital for most of it so zim has to do his own thing. computer fans rejoice bc hes basically zims dad at this point, who tells him to go outside and get some fresh air and talk to the locals instead of schmooping or screaming in anxiety. im sneakily introducing more characters like ini, the “next-gen zim;” a short bio-engineer (she works on PAKs) who was constantly passed over by everyone because they dont trust someone that short or they dont trust someone that spazzy, even though shes actually brilliant. also her brother mo, who’s a pilot that NOBODY will teach military-class ships to (at this point, HTK has a population of ex-military that had their old ships, but still no formal army) because he doesnt talk and they think hes “slow” as a result. for the curious, he is physically able to talk most times, he just doesnt like it. zim ends up teaching him how to fly military-class which ends up being important laterrr

(haha ini and mo. wheres meenie and minie? ILL GET TO THEM)

no really, theyre quadruplets. named ini, myni, minie, and mo. these are real characters.

minie isnt introduced till later. shes too cool to be the side character in someone elses arc. she is feel uncomfortable when we are not about her.

myni is busy palling around with pip and pip’s friend “elly” (real name elevenn, with two N’s.) elly is a half-meekrob War Crime Baby and tenn’s smeet. he has vision problems (he can “see” energy signatures of things, as opposed to conventional sight. everything is monochrome and he has to really focus to see like, words on a paper. also fuck tablets) but the trade-up is telekinetic powers (that he cant use too much or his brain will melt. fun!) this isnt relevant until the arc AFTER zim’s, where they end up poking around a historical site due to myni’s interest in that kind of thing, and they find logs of an old revolution (that was actually pretty successful in their goal, before they were caught and executed,) that lead them to a man named lefy. he helps with revolutions and helped these guys, and the trio go to seek him out; myni because he wants to impress his parents with helping them, pip because after they’ve recovered enough to walk around and do stuff, feel like they need to justify the choice to save their life and make their dad proud and all that, elly because he doesnt want pip to get hurt and die. And thats where the stuff REALLY starts happening and i cant tell u more sorry

this seemed kind of disjointed but thats bc i cant really be too detailed otherwise id like.... spoil it lmfao. but thats the summary of the first few arcs.

#*falls over and dies* my poor hands and fingeys #yall better mf read this.....#ill post a fic later today or maybe tomorrow #its being betad rn #take this lol! i finally explain myself #for those of you on mobile i am SO sorry #this is fine to rb in case ur wondering. dk why u would wanna but its chill #anarchisma au #live from conventia #long post

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goodnightallwhites · 4 years

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Just some Vanilla Black Bull Breeding By BlackingPacking

Just some Vanilla Black Bull Breeding

By BlackingPacking

Submitted: January 1, 2020 Updated: January 1, 2020

You and your wife have a fertility problem. And she has a solution.

What are you gonna do about it?

Contains: Interracial BBC, Cuckolding/NTR, impregnation

Provided by Hentai Foundry.

Chapter 1 - Her proposal 2

Chapter 2 - Their texts 5

1 - Her proposal

You and your wife had to have a talk

That’s what she told you, at least, when you woke up, before you both went to work. Thankfully, she was easy to talk to. She had a silky, adult voice that was always accompanied with a smile. And boy did her smile make it easy to look at her. She had perfect lips, neither too thick or too thin, that were always prettily pink. Her smile covered her bottom teeth, so her big upper pearly whites were visible, while her mouth as a whole made her entire face sparkle happily. Her eyes, most adorably, didn’t become squinty when she smiled either. Her bright blue-green eyes were always round and bright, and remained just as doll like even when the bottoms were pushed up with her smile.

You thought about it all day during work, but that was normal. With her long, smooth, subtly curvy legs and perky pair of jiggly tits, not to mention her lithe arms, neck, and belly, you usually spent days thinking about her. You’d been married for 2 whole years, and were both almost 30 now, and you still had these thoughts. She said it was adorable how you thought about her. She never mentioned how she was out of your league.

When you got to your quaint little suburban one-story, she jumped off the couch and hopped over to you to greet you with a big, sloppy kiss, kicking up one bare foot like she did every day. What an adorable little kitten.

Today was slightly different though, and you just couldn’t place it. Her smile was a bit wider, and her hops were a bit bouncier. Her heart was beating faster. Still, she spoke just as titillatingly as always.

“Lemme get into something more comfortable, hun. I’ve got a really good idea for you!”

You agreed, playfully picking her up and bridal carrying her into your bedroom. She giggled at your playfulness, making you both feel younger. You couldn’t wait to hear her idea, and she seemed like she couldn’t either. When you put her down, she almost fell over she was so excited to get into the closet.

God, she was too cute.

You took off your coat and belt, laying them over the chair, before sitting down on the bed. Not long after, your wide-eyed wife bunny hopped from the closet with her sexiest tan lacy nightgown. Hyper, she hopped onto the springy bed with a laugh before poking you on the nose. Under the lace, you could see how she wore nothing but a lavender pair of lingerie panties. The mid size ovals of her tits hung free under her gown.

Your dick was already getting hard.

“Alright honey,” she said, lounging right next to you on the bed. She tossed a pillow onto the ground. That amber-brown hair of her spread out over the comforter while she nibbled on her finger. Yeah. The one with her wedding ring. “So, this might be a hard conversation for us. Well, for you. But, it’s

important, right? We have to tell each other things.”

You tell her you agree, that you think you should be totally open about everything, and all that.

“Oh good. God, you’re the best. Alright,” she shifted her weight nervously, “So, you know how we’ve been married for like 2 years. Shit, close to 3 now! And whenever we go meet my family or your family or whatever,” she sighed, “they’re always like ‘you’re so happy! You’re so perfect! You need to start a family! When are you gonna have kids!” she waved her hand.

You nod along, noting you two’s troubles with having the kids she wanted so badly.

“So yeah. I wanna talk about kids. Fertility and all that. Now I know we went to the clinics recently, and both of us technically can have kids, but it still isn’t working out. And you know I really want babies, and I know we’ve been talking about adoption, but I don’t want that. I want us to get pregnant, you know?”

You keep agreeing with her, keep encouraging her.

“So, uhm,” she looked at the ceiling with a nervous laugh, “I talked about this with my aunt. You know, my mom’s younger sister? And she actually had a solution. You know what she did, right?” Your wife blushed a little.

You were confused. You thought her aunt adopted her kids.

“You don’t know? Oh, alright. Well, they, uh, don’t like to advertise, but what they did is supposed to really work! And I looked it up online, and a lot of people do it, and the couples are all really happy with it. It’s a little out there, but they say it’s being normalized, so it can’t be bad, right?”

You tell her you’re willing to do it.

“Alright- it’s really exciting! So, um, what it all is. Well,” she bit her lip with a closed-lip smile, “So, to get me pregnant, what I’d do is fuck a black guy.”

She blinks, nervous, but you don’t disapprove. “You’re good with that, right? Like, it’s why tons of white girls today are getting together with more black guys. Trust me, it’s a really good idea. Black guys are found to be more fertile than, you know, white guys like you. And they’re um... Like, not to hurt your feelings, but they’re almost always bigger. You’ve heard that, right? How their dicks are way bigger. The whole BBC thing? And apparently, since they’re so much bigger, they make the girls orgasm more, which makes them suck their cum deeper into their wombs, making them more likely to get pregnant!”

“And...” she kept going. She had clearly researched this. “Yeah. I’m going to fuck a black guy.”

What the hell... your wife? Just said she wanted to get Blacked?

“With your permission, of course!” she added, “But... if you wanna ask my opinion, like, I’d really love to,” she pinched her legs together, put her hands between her thighs and rolled a little, “The idea of a big, black cock getting all up in my insides gets me soooo wet,” she licked her lips, “No offense though! Like, you’re white of course yours is gonna be, like, y’know...” she pinched her fingers, showing you

about the size of your meager dick, “I mean, it works. It’s a perfectly fine dick, but, just, a little, a little paltry, sorta small. It’s not like you or any white guys can help it! So please don’t blame yourself. I mean, your things made me cum before, but it doesn’t like, fill me up the way I wanna be filled.I just want something bigger, y’know."

You did know. And you knew what you had to do. You felt ashamed, but your little cock was rock hard for your wife.

You told her you’d let a black bull knock her up.

“Really, babe? Omygod, thank you!” she smiled catily, bouncing the bed happily as she leaned over to kiss you. All you could think of is how those lips of your wife would soon be wrapped around a big black cock. Or a even kissing the man who’d get her pregnant. Whose baby you would raise. “Mmm, honey,” your wife said, feeling your stiffy. "Did you get turned on, thinking about me being bred by a black mans huuuuge cock?"

You couldn't lie to her

She giggled more as she stradled you. She lifted up her gown to show her wet panties as she rubbed them against you. "Wanna fuck me, babe? I'm fine if you knock me up, but I still wanna get railed by a black guy. Either way, you'd better fuck me while I can still feel you, hubby dearest."

You two fucked. It was sweet, cute sex. Nothing like what some black man would do to her.

After that, you ate dinner together. The subject of the conversation was what black man you wanted to breed her.

This is where you come in- what kind of black guy would YOU want for your wife? Where would you want him to fuck her? What role would you play?

Tell me here, or on any threads I'm in, or on discord, and soon I'll see what you want and then you get to see how your wife gets black bred!

2 - Their texts

A few nights later, while your wife was watching something on her friend’s Netflix account, you stole her phone away and looked at her texts. It was then you found out she had a tinder, which both aroused and humiliated you. You just wanted to stalk her phone, but you had to sneak into your bedroom and drop your pants to do so.

With your needle length dick in your small fist, you read through her Tinder matches and messages. Her profile said ‘black guys only please!’ followed by a spade emoji. She had explained to you the other day what that meant. She tried not to laugh the entire time.

As it turns out, she hadn’t gone on a single date with any of her tinder matches, all hot black guys. One was even 18! She had ghosted most of them, it looked like. Never gave out her phone number, and had even texted a few ‘sorry, I can’t do this.’ She was trying to be loyal, despite her love for BBC. God, you loved her.

All those Tinder messages were old though. It looks like all her new texts where front and center on her messaging app.

Your wife was the type of person who never made contact photos for her contacts on her phone. But now you could see three or for pictures of different muscular black men, all texting her.

The most recent was a couple hours ago. While you were at work. She’d texted him back and forth and sent plenty of pictures. You looked at the name.

Malik. You’d found him on Facebook, it turns out he was one of your wife’s coworkers’s exes. They ended on good terms, and so her friend recommended him as a black ‘breeder bull’, as she said. You’d never met him, but you trusted your wife’s friends, so you were happy with her choice.

Your wife sure seemed happy with him. They texted a ton. You scrolled up to this morning’s chat, past some nude selfies from both of them, and read.

>Hey babe how was ur night?

<Great! Had a fun time with hubby

>Lol >Did u fuck him?

<yeah, and talked all about BBC, he’s really into it. I’ll talk to him about scheduling our get together tonight

>lmao, how was that tiny white cock?

<don’t be meannnn ?? he can’t help it

>can’t help being white or can’t help having a clit dick?

<what’s the difference ?

>damn right bitch >you need somma this

Attached was a live picture of his ungodly black meat. Based on your meager member, cocks like this shouldn’t exist. The ones in porn were all rubber or bloated or pumped up, right? But this made you do a double take at its double length. (Maybe triple? Don’t kid yourself. That monster was at least quadruple your size) It was dark, rich chocolate black and veiny, shining in the light of the flash and looking like it could make your wife cum like a pornstar and crush your dick in a single blow.

You sometimes called your little package ‘your manhood,’ but this thing made you feel unworthy to refer to yourself like that. It was a real man’s cock. The next picture was it in his hands. His hands looked huge, since he had a watch that barely fit around his wrist, and even with two hands around his cock ? was still uncovered. The next was from between his legs. His cock was pointing straight to the sky but his weighty balls hung low. They totally covered his asshole. Your balls weren’t half that big and hefty, and they certainly didn't hang like that.

<ahh fuck ?? that’s the best dick I’ve ever seen

>how many have u seen?

<why’s that matter?

>just wondering lol >I know that’s not too impressive if all uv seen is ur hubby’s white clitty lmaoo

<stoppp I told you to not be mean to him!! I already feel bad enough

>why? He said he wanted you to get knocked up by a black guy

<i know but still I don’t WANNA cheat on him we just want a baby, besides he probably already feels bad for not being able to get me pregnant

>well it ain’t cheating if he knows about it

<true. Still, I just wanna be happy with him

>won’t he be happy if you both cum to me then?

<yeah, but I’m not with him now

Your eyes widened as you saw the picture your wife sent him. It was her, right on your bed, totally naked

with legs spread wide. Her hair was a mess, her makeup was smudged, and her eyes wide and crying. Her mouth was limply open with drooling lips. Inside her soaking pussy was her entire fist.

>holy shit >???

<I usually wait till we’re in bed but I just can’t help it. I called in sick for work and I’ve been fucking myself to black guys all day

>porn or over text?

He sent a video of him jerking his huge Dick off. You could see his shredded abs and the huge throbs of his cockhead.

<guys I’ve texted. I don’t watch porn, since I only like the really professional stuff, and we don’t have enough money to pay

>why don’t you make him

<? because I’m not a bitch?

>you’re a total bbc slut though

<I know...

She sent a video of herself crying as she fisted herself.

>hurts?

<lke a mothfcurker

She typed like she wasn’t even looking at the screen, which she probably wasn’t

>to hubby’s white dick or my big black cock

<uknwo the asnawer aaahole

>just wanna be sure you’re mine babe

<not urs < u just gunna knock <me up

>maybe I should fight your hubby to see who gets you

<pls dpnt <u kno he’l llose

<I wnt him to havr me

That nearly made you cum. Your loving wife admitting that the hot black guy she was texting could easily beat you up. But she admitted she still wanted to be with you! She didn’t want to cheat. She just wanted a big, strong, baby. And this affirmed the best way to assure that was for him to be black.

>aight babe, but he better not stop me from fuckin u

<I won’t let im lmaoooo

>good >:)

He sent a picture of his naked, muscular body in the mirror. His cock hung down to his knees.

<sjdjdkfjd cummijbgfgg

She sent a video of herself, right where you sat stroking yourself. She pulled her fist out of her pussy and let her hips involuntarily thrust, her cunt clench, and her hole squirt. She dropped the camera, squirting right over it. As she picked it up to end the video, she laughed.

You didn’t even bother reading the texts after that. You just crawled over the bed and put your hand on the damp cover. She didn’t even clean up after she came. You leaned your head down to smell it. It was a stronger smell than you were used to. Probably because you rarely made her cum.

But you just couldn’t help yourself but to bend over and lick the damp fabric. It tasted sweet. You’d never put much effort into really eating your wife out. Maybe if you did that she wouldn’t be turning to a black man for pleasure...

You shook your head. She’s doing it to get a baby- because they’re more fertile. That’s all. Not more pleasing. That’s why she made it very clear to him that she still wanted to have you. Besides, she loves you. It’s not like rabbits are the best animal because they have high fertility, right?

Then again, she also said she didn’t just want a baby, but a big and strong one. A black one. But- you could be as big or strong as any black guy, right? In theory. Then again... they did all seem bigger and stronger, just as a rule. They were tall. Well-built, even when not buff. They had a manly smell and huge hands. They were better at pretty much every sport you watched. Was she watching sports right now?

You nervously came in your hand. Sticky cum got between your fingers, making your cock all grimy as the weak load dried. You hobbled to the bathroom to wash it all off with cold water. The cold made your cock shrink even more.

As you walked back into the bedroom, your flaccid penis was at most an inch out of your crotch, with your balls a tight little sack without much impressive definition. You were horrifically embarrassed when you saw your fully clothed wife in there too.

“Oh!” she giggled, prudishly putting her hand over her mouth as she looked at your less than perfect package, “I was just looking for my phone! Did you take it in here?” she teased.

You said you did.

“Oh- uh-” her big blue eyes looked worried, “did you look at it?”

You told the truth like an obedient little hubby.

“With the guy you picked out with me? How saw how much I like him, right? I’m sorry for not telling you about how my day went honestly.”

You forgave her instantly. She still loved you, so what did it matter if she prefers a huge hung black stud to your underperforming little white thing. In your head you called it a peepee. That was a good word for it.“Thank you, baby,” she walked up to you and hug you, “Please don’t stop loving me.”

You told her you never would. If she never touched even one of your four little inches ever again and humiliated you infront of everyone you knew with her black lovers and mixed babies you’d still love her, you thought.

“I love you so much,” then she looked at you and smiled, “and I really wanna get blacked. Like, ASAP. I can’t wait. Did you see how fucking huge he was?” she giggled giddily.

You agreed as your little penis got just a little bigger against her jeans.

“Aww, I can see you like that down there,” she cooed. She bent over to be face to face with it, “how’s my favorite little dickie?” she patted it with one finger all lovey dovey, “aww, so cute! Are you excited to see me blacked, are you little guy?” she kissed the tip of it and stood up.

You told her that, even though you just came, you were already close again.

“Oh!” she apologized, “Sorry, didn’t mean to. I’ll suck you off if you want me to, babe.”

What would a good white cuckold hubby do?

You told her no. First, you wanted to schedule a meeting with Malik.

“Ooh- I like the way you think babe!” she kissed you deeply as she cupped your pale balls, “C’mon, go get your phone, if we’re lucky I’ll have his black dick in me by Saturday!”

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hii! i found your twitter acc when i was searching for sefikura meta/analysis, and i found your tweet! i wanted to ask if you know some blog posts (or any posts) of their relationship analysis, as i am quite new to the whole ffvii series and i am intrigued by their relationship. i wanted to ask through cc but i noticed you dont have curiouscat so i’m asking through tumblr, sorry ;;

I didn’t mean to put all of this under a readmore but tumblr is being an ass so that’s what we’re doing now, I guess...

Hello!! Unfortunately I can’t really come up with anything on the spot, because despite seeing posts like that around before, I’m very unorganized and bad at keeping track of posts... so I decided to write you one on the spot instead, lmao!! I’ve been planning to write a more coherent, longer analysis for a while but still haven’t gotten around to it, but I’ll share some of my condensed thoughts here. The sefikura relationship is what intrigues me most about FFVII after all, and I usually yell quite a lot about them on twitter!

You say you’re new to FFVII, which means that I should definitely give a spoiler warning here. I’m going to address spoilery stuff from the OG, Remake and also some of the compilation material, because it’s hard to talk about their relationship without doing so. (I’ll also assume you’re familiar enough with the world of FFVII to know what I mean when I talk about stuff like SOLDIER, Shinra, Jenova, the Lifestream and such... this would get too long if I explained all of that here, lol)

Okay, so. Cloud and Sephiroth are narrative foils, which means their stories and arcs parallel each other in many ways. The most central themes surrounding them are their loneliness, sadness and how they cope with trauma.

Sephiroth was most likely raised by Hojo in a Shinra lab, and if you know Hojo, you know that there’s no way Sephiroth was treated as anything but an experiment. He never knew his mother, and the only person he had any respect for - Professor Gast - vanished when he was young and this seems to have given him abandonment issues. Cloud, on the other hand, had a mother but not much else. He felt alienated by the other children growing up in Nibelheim and seems to have been generally disliked by the adults as well, due to them blaming him for the time Tifa got hurt. In other words, they were both very lonely as children.

Shinra sent Sephiroth to war when he was very young (people disagree quite a lot on how old Sephiroth actually is but it’s assumed that he was around 12), and as the years went by, Sephiroth became the poster child of SOLDIER. We know that Cloud grew to idolize Sephiroth for how strong and brave the media made him out to be (A.K.A. had a celebrity crush on him), and that was what inspired Cloud to leave town and try to join SOLDIER.

As we see in the prequel game Crisis Core, Sephiroth at this point is well-respected by his peers after his efforts in conquering Wutai. His two only friends are Genesis and Angeal, who are also SOLDIER 1st Class, but they end up leaving SOLDIER, which means Sephiroth gets left behind. Considering that he already had abandonment issues to begin with, being abandoned by his only friends must’ve hit hard. I’d say this sets the foundation for Sephiroth’s downward spiral. However, at this point, I would argue that Sephiroth is still a good person at heart, despite all the trauma he has endured. He persists, refusing to hunt down his deserter friends, and even begins a hesitant friendship with Zack, who was Angeal’s apprentice.

Cloud befriends Zack as well, but doesn’t make it into SOLDIER and instead remains in the ordinary Shinra infantry, which is a crushing loss for him because he can’t achieve his dream. It’s at this point I like to imagine that if Zack had introduced Sephiroth and Cloud to one another, things could’ve gone better. Sephiroth is older than Cloud and outranks him, but with how isolated Sephiroth has been for his entire life I think there’s potential for a meaningful friendship here. They’re both very lonely and neither of them is really a people-person, so I think they’d get along well once Cloud gets over his hero-worship and Sephiroth manages to open up a bit. I would say that sefikura, if Nibelheim didn’t happen, has the potential to be a healthy relationship.

But of course, that’s not how canon goes. The Nibelheim mission happens, Sephiroth finds out that he’s not human and finally snaps after years of mistreatment, burning the town to the ground. Cloud manages to kill Sephiroth, ends up spending several years as an experiment, gets injected with Jenova cells, goes into a coma, wakes up just in time to watch Zack die, and ends up so traumatized that he creates a false identity for himself as a former SOLDIER 1st Class.

We’ve now reached OG FFVII. At this point, Sephiroth, while technically dead and chilling in the Lifestream, uses Jenova as a vessel to move around and takes advantage of Cloud, using him as a puppet for his own gains. He constantly dehumanizes Cloud and generally doesn’t give a damn about him as a person, while Cloud resents Sephiroth but can’t resist his manipulations. In a lot of ways, I think Sephiroth projects his own trauma onto Cloud here, because if Sephiroth had to suffer as Shinra’s puppet for his entire life, then Cloud should suffer as Sephiroth’s puppet as well. As a victim of horrific abuse, Sephiroth has a lot of justified anger, but he takes it out on the wrong person entirely. It’s definitely a very unhealthy situation.

But of course, unlike Sephiroth, Cloud doesn’t let his trauma define him. He reaches his breaking point and falls apart completely, but he gets back up, because unlike Sephiroth, he has a support system of friends who stand by his side and work together with him to defeat Sephiroth at the end of the game. For most of his life, Cloud has been chasing Sephiroth. This is where he finally catches up and surpasses him.

And here, the tables turn. Cloud kills Sephiroth but that’s never stopped Sephiroth before. This is where Sephiroth first develops his Cloud-obsession. He fixates on Cloud so hard that his hatred keeps him from completely fading away into the Lifestream. Cloud is literally his lifeline. (Isn’t it romantic? lol) He returns in the sequel movie Advent Children, where he fights Cloud one-on-one and basically just taunts him for 10 minutes before Cloud kills him again. It’s implied that Sephiroth can keep coming back as long as Cloud exists as well.

Canon beyond this has, for a long time, been unknown territory. There’s a sequel game called Dirge of Cerberus that the fandom at large pretends doesn’t exist because it’s... kinda weird to say the least, lol. And it doesn’t really have anything to do with sefikura anyway. People have written post-canon sefikura as something that continues to be toxic, but there’s also fic that offers redemption and forgiveness for Sephiroth, acknowledging that he was a victim too. It’s left very open-ended.

All of this basically explains how I see sefikura. They’re two people who were alike in many ways, who could have been friends before everything fell apart around them, if things had been different. But they never did meet, before it was too late. Instead, they keep chasing each other, full of hate even though they’re probably the only people in the world who could truly understand each other’s trauma. The only real difference is that Cloud had friends to back him up while Sephiroth was abandoned, and I really, truly wish they could get an opportunity to reach some sort of understanding. And that would basically be it...

...but then the Remake happened. Diving into speculation territory here. I firmly believe that the Sephiroth we see in the Remake is a time traveller, or is at least aware of the future to some degree, and that the remake is actually a sequel where Sephiroth is quite literally remaking OG ffvii. He’s completely obsessed with Cloud to a degree that he never was in the OG, and considering how loyal the developers stayed to the characterization of basically every other OG character this immediately stuck out to me like a sore thumb even though it took me until the end of the game to piece it together.

I’m not kidding here. Sephiroth is desperate for Cloud’s attention in the Remake. He's constantly trying to touch Cloud, everything he says to Cloud makes him sound like a pining ex-husband, and he generally doesn’t do anything to harm Cloud except scaring him shitless simply by showing up. He actually has quite a few moments when he’s very gentle with Cloud. At the end of the game he basically even proposes to Cloud by asking Cloud to join him and genuinely seems upset when Cloud rejects him. And even then, he claims he doesn’t want Cloud (nor himself) to die.

For the life of me, I can’t wrap my head around what Sephiroth’s goal is in the Remake and I have no idea what they’re planning to do with his character in future parts, but I’m very excited to find out. The sefikura content in the Remake was very delicious and at this point the only thing they could do to surpass it in the future would be to have them actually make out on screen, lmao.

I hope this is coherent enough to read, I basically just tried to condense everything I could into a neat little essay and there’s definitely things I didn’t mention here, lol. I’ll write a proper, more well-thought out analysis another time!

Also, if you want to ask me anything else or talk to me about sefikura in general, my DMs are always open, both here and on twitter ;D

#hhhhhh I didn't mean for the entire thing to end up under a readmore but tumblr is a bitch and I can't fix it >:(#adventures in answering asks #sefikura #ffvii #Anonymous

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whencallstheheart · 4 years

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WCTH Season 7 Survey Results

Read all the comments below the cut!

What are your hopes for season 8?

Nothing much. Just be good and relaxing.

Elizabeth officially picks Nathan and they start courting, with lots of adorable shy flirtation and early romance happiness, cute family scenes with Allie and Little Jack too, and a big passionate kiss scene towards the end of the season, possible after one of their lives is in danger. New romantic interest or other plotline for Lucas so he can bow out of the competition gracefully but not disappear. Jesse and Clara get pregnant. Rosemary and Lee adopt a child. Bill and Nathan carry on with exciting Mountie and Judge business. Something positive for Henry, for the love of god.

Nathan + Elizabeth. Baby for Rosemary and Lee. Lucas goes away.

Nathan and Elizabeth, Elizabeth and Allie, Elizabeth and Lucas, Carson and faith, Lucas and a new character, colters, Flynns, kevin and Fiona, more Florence, and a new paster. Also more kids and their interactions with each other and the adults.

Elizabeth and Nathan get together

more baby Jack

For Allie to leave. For the love triangle to be resolved. Less Elizabeth. Less Nathan. More Lee/Rosemary. More Jesse/Clara.

Elizabeth and Nathan get together

The triangle is done and focus on Elizabeth’s future. We waited forever for Elizabeth to get married to Jack and I think it would be nice to actually see her settle into married life other than just one episode. Plus, baby Jack needs a good father figure. I would like Lee and Rosemary to have a family. The writers could have a lot of fun with her being pregnant.

Elizabeth starts a relationship And more adventures start for all of Hope Valley!

I'm hoping the love triangle gets resolved no later than 8x03, and I'm really hoping it ends with Elizabeth engaged. Like, I know it's a little quick, but I think they waited way too long to get her and Jack married. And now that she's a widowed mother, I don't really want to see her in a long courtship or engagement. Especially if she picks Nathan (come on, we know it's all headed that way). I want to see Nathan, Elizabeth, Allie, and Jack as a family, and quick! I want to see the PTB do right by Henry, more than anything. I want to see Lee and Rosemary either pregnant or adopting.

Hopes: An end to the triangle...start to Elizabeth and Nathan's relationship. Parenthood for Lee and Rosemary via natural and/or adoption. Meet Lucas Mother and/or return to Lucas, man of mystery and maybe slightly dodgy. Developing friendship/mentorship with Nathan and Bill. A trip or visit from Hamiltonians (Elizabeth's parents or more Julie!). More Mountie cases with Bill involved...more Judge-centred stories for Bill. Last,but not least...Leland's motorcycle and leather coat from series 2!

Elizabeth chooses Lucas. Cute moments with little jack. A baby for rosemary . Elizabeth book deal journey . Henry has a new job. Lucas running oil business. Ally and Nathan moments.

Same as it was mid season, watch more interaction between the guys and the girls. There's been very little especially in the last episodes, it was more two on two all the time. It was amazing watching Nathan do exciting mountie stuff, so I definitely want more of that, especially because it will bring something to resolve in his relationship with Elisabeth. I would like Faith to be back, since I like her and Carson a lot, and possibily some real talk about baby Coulter, it's been barely there, I think it deserves more attention (I know it's Hallmark, but it's not a scandalous topic, there's an orphanage in WHC soooo)

Elizabeth & Nathan to get engaged, Rosemary & Lee to become parents, Gowen to acquire his Oil business again and fall in love, Bill to falll in love, Lucas & Fiona to become a couple and Jesse and Clara to be pregnant. Things should be resolved faster as we dont know how much longer the show will be renewed. Before it is cancelled, it should be tied up in a nice bow for all of us who love it.

No drama. More of Elizabeth and Nathan and little Jack.

I hope they don't do a time jump. I really would like to see Nathan deal with the emotional fallout of moving that gun barrel. That would be a really good but heartbreaking storyline.

Rosemary and Lee to start a family

Hope that we get to see Nathan open up more. And also get to see more about Lucas’ past. More Nathan and Bill moments.

That Elizabeth finally makes a decision, for more focus on Jesse and Clara, Lucas away from Elizabeth maybe become a villain, Faith and Carson reunited

More screentime for background characters and more humor! Less love triangle

Lee & Rosemary getting pregnant/adopting. Ending the triangle. More stories not revolving around Elizabeth and her love life.

Nathan and Elizabeth get married

That Elisabeth make her choice early in the season. Going back to a fun Lucas. More Fiona. Carson find love with somebody else.

Baby for Rosemary & Lee!! More of them in general they are my fave part of the show. Definitely a resolution to the love triangle so we can at least see where they will take it. More Henry!! Fuck Lucas give Henry his company back and allow him to be more a part of the community.

Elizabeth to choose between Nathan and Lucas early on in the season. Lee and Rosemary have a child. Ned and Florence get together. A love interest for Henry.

For the love triangle to be resolved, hopefully towards the beginning of the season. Also I really want to see Elizabeth and Nathan go on that date, but because of the time jump I’m not holding my breath.

End to the triangle (dare I hope). Elizabeth and Nathan begin courting. I like the idea of Lucas and Fiona together. Lee and Rosemary adopt a little boy. Bill and Molly begin a romance. Just more of being in Hope Valley. Would like a storyline where the town comes together to defend itself (maybe against a band of outlaws, I know that's very "old westernish" but would be nice to see them band together and fight to save the town).

a conclusion to the love triangle

To continue like they do with great story lines especially with The children

More Nathan, Elizabeth, Allie, and Little Jack. Lots of adventures with them. More Opal. I would love to see Archie and Suze in the Christmas movie. Elizabeth's and Jack's families visiting their grandchild. Nathan's Mother coming to town. Nathan's ex coming to town.

Love triangle to be over

Love triangle ending

I want to have more continuity in the plotlines. I liked having a story on two episodes.

No triangles

The end to the love triangle with Nathan coming out on top. Lee and Rosemary start their own family. Lucas and Fiona become a couple.

Just generally good writing. Also for Nathan & Elizabeth to get together and Lucas to stop being weirdly creepy. Also, I want more Rosemary and Lee plots that aren't comical. I like them regardless, but they really shine in more serious stories.

E and N together

Lee and Rosemary with a child and Bill to find love

Fiona declares herself mayor and makes a town decree that the love triangle must end. Also, Henry finds happiness and lots more of Lee and Rosemary.

Elizabeth and Nathan! Jesse and Clara get pregnant. More action, for the whole town, especially Nathan. Rosemary and Lee continue to be their great selves. More student plotlines. And something good happens to Henry.

I hope to see more interactions with the rest of the characters and of course their lives on how they grow and of course Elizabeth finding love in which I hope she picks Nathan crossing my fingers and everything else that goes on and more. ?

For the love triangle to last only a few more episodes. We don’t need this to drag on. I think it would be great if Rosemary and Lee had a child. I also hope to see the same for Clara and Jesse. I’d like to see more of Henry, Bill being fatherly to Elizabeth and Clara. Fiona finding her passion.

The love triangle is resolved with Nathan as the winner!

Something good! Maybe more of Lucas and delving more into his personality, and I want to see Faith become a doctor.

Elizabeth and Nathan getting together(if they do) and Rosemary and Lee having a Family

A resolution for Elizabeth and a baby for Rosemary. I want to see her pregnant. Lol

For Elizabeth to pick a guy, and Lee and Rosemary to become parents.

Elizabeth makes a choice, Rosemary and Lee become parents, Lucas and Fiona become interested in each other, Henry gets better and gets his business back.

Quick resolution of the love triangle or at least by half of the season. Agree with everyone's suggestions or expectations of the other characters storylines that I've read. I'm really just so happy for a season 8!

End to the triangle early in the season

Aucun. La série aurait du s'arrêter là. Et, Elisabeth devrait rester seule avec le petit Jack.

A quick end to the love triangle. Rosemary and Lee finally becoming parents. A new mayor.

I hope Elizabeth doesn't pick either - she can stand alone

Nathan and Elizabeth More Elizabeth and student plotlines More mountie business plotlines for Nathan (I feel like they have been doing a pretty good job in this last season) Lucas and Fiona Ned and Florence More drama and action

Elizabeth drop Lucas, and start a ‘slow burn’ relationship with Nathan (we’ve waited long enough). More Ally (in general), Nathan, and Elizabeth. I would love to see more story with baby Jack (hitting more milestones? Interacting with Nathan?), I would love to see Nathan go after the brother and sister and get justice (maybe that would draw Elizabeth to him?). A love interest for Henry and to get his company back from that dreadful Lucas.. Honestly, I want Lucas to just go away (sorry), or maybe back away from E and stop being so creepy. A baby for Lee and Rosemary. Fiona romance storyline with either, Lucas, Carson, or Kevin? Mainly let’s explore Nathan’s past and his relationship with Elizabeth... not to mention let’s find out what Carson’s “it’s a keeper“ photo is going to foreshadow for N & E!

See more of Elizabeth and Sargent (Jack's horse) Nathan and Elizabeth!

Nathan and Elizabeth

Resolution to the love triangle Lee and Rosemary adopt/ have a child Clara and Jesse become parents Maybe some storylines that last more than a few episodes

anything to do with Henry, he gets friendship or love ect. idc the poor guy been out of a decent plot for a while

swift end to the love triangle, new characters

Elizabeth to actually make a choice of who she wants to be with and put her own happiness first for once, which I wholeheartedly believe is with Lucas. Adoption for Lee and Rosemary. Faith to become a doctor. I think Nathan needs to be better developed on his own, and maybe more meaty mountie storylines. Fiona should work for Bill, she definitely has the brains do it.

More Rosemary and Lee! And hopefully they have a baby!

Elizabeth choosing Nathan and they become a family

Elizabeth chooses Nathan. Henry has a romance. To meet Nathan's mother (after his dad).

Ending the triangle, just please.

End of the triangle

Elizabeth will pick someone to date. Rosemary will be pregnant. Happy times. More of Clara and Jesse please.

I hope they finally let Lee and Rosemary adopt a child!

Wrap up love triangle. See some children for Lee and Rosemary

Team Lucas! R & L finally becoming parents; Storyline of publishing E's book

#teamlucas and have Nathan talk more about what happened to Jack.

Prefer Lucas and Elizabeth but hoping which ever way it goes that the love triangle is over with soon. More Lee and Rosemary. Hoping that they have a baby or adopt next season. Love interest for Henry would be nice to see develop.

Elizabeth starting a relationship with nathan

For the triangle to be dissolved. For Lee and Rosemary to consider adoption. For Fiona to start her own hair dressing business. For Henry to finally be seen as a good guy by the town. For Nathan and Elizabeth to be together. For Cody to come back without Abigail.

More faith/God references Nathan saves Elizabeth... again. :) Rosemary and Lee adopt or get pregnant Some sort of family for Henry

More stories for Fiona More happy stories for Henry More action and drama

That the love triangle will officially end - with Elizabeth choosing Nathan!

It comes quickly. Elizabeth doesn't continue to lead Lucas on if he is not the one. I think Fiona is a better match for Lucas.

Wrap up love triangle, child for Lee and Rosemary, continue to expand profiles of characters and relationships rather than one off/pointless plot line episodes. Also more episodes in the season- 12 episodes (not including Xmas movie) would provide for better story line development

Lucas and Elizabeth together, no more triangle

Elizabeth makes her decision for Nathan official and we will gut a first kiss.

More Elizabeth and Nathan. Baby for Rosemary and Lee. Fiona and Lucas.

My greatest wish for season 8 is that Elizabeth and Nathan start courting officially and that the love triangle is put behind us once and for all. I am excited to see what potential challenges lie ahead for them as a couple and blended family. I would also like to see Rosemary and Lee finally become parents. I'm excited for Henry's journey. It would be nice to see him start a new business that surpasses Gowen Petroleum in success. I am also very excited for Fiona. I think it would be exciting for her to start a business or even run for Mayor. I think she is smart and capable enough to fill the hole that Abigail's character left. I also really enjoyed Bill's character this year. I like seeing him as a judge and as a supportive friend. I'm curious to see if they'll find him a new love interest. It would be nice to see one of the supportive characters have a storyline next season. I would enjoy seeing Molly, Florence, Ned or anyone else in the spotlight for a change. As for Jesse and Clara, I wouldn't mind seeing them have a baby. I also think there are wedding bells in the future for Faith and Carson. Lastly, since I doubt they'd ever get rid of Lucas, I hope they bring his character back to what it used to be. I feel like he has the potential to be a fun (and infinitely more likeable) character if he's not so obsessed with Elizabeth.

That the love triangle will be over. Hopefully it will be Nathan. Lee and Rosemary become parents. Henry is back and doing good.

Generally, I just hope they only do a few things I dislike, and that there are good, interesting stories for the characters I enjoy (maybe something for Florence and Molly!). I’d love to see more of the supporting characters, their friendships with each other, and some meaningful fresh storylines for several members of the cast. I’d prefer, if season 8 is the season that Rosemary and Lee become parents, it is through adoption, without her also becoming pregnant this season (maybe later as their family grows, but I’d like some time with their first child before). Whatever direction they take with the main romance, (whoever Elizabeth is with and however they choose to write it), even if by some miracle it’s what I want, I hope for significant focus to remain on the friendships and for Elizabeth to also have other things going on.

Any other comments?

Great season! looking forward to next year!

I am falling deep down the obsession rabbit hole for this show all of a sudden and for the Elizabeth/Nathan pairing in particular. Thank you for this blog and beautiful gifs that make it so easy to fangirl to my heart's content. Do you ever read/share fic? If so, where?

Absolutely love WCTH

Thanks for all the work you put into the blog. I super enjoy hearing your thoughts on everything!

This has been my favourite series by far. It feels like an ensemble show...even if the triangle was top billing...and there were some great stories there, even if I got frustrated that they didn't do more with some. The cast do seem to enjoy each others company and McGarry and McNally feel as if they have always been there. If it weren't for the adorable twins playing little Jack, I would say...'Jack who?' Bill, Florence, Molly and even Ned felt more part of the town than they have in a long time. When Faith and Carson were on, I enjoyed them. It would be interesting the next step in that relationship as it is quite different than any in HV. I liked the kid stories that were there...Robert and becoming a Mountie, Allie and Grandfather, even Emily getting lost, so I hope they just don't focus on adults all the time. Hope we don't have to wait too long for series 8!

I wish Lee and Jesse had hugged when Lee got better, I felt like there was something missing from the scene :(

Why isn't it December yet? Also, thank you for putting together the survey!!!

Just thank you for keeping this place running ?

I still think Carson and Elizabeth would have made a great couple. Especially since Jack would get possessive when the two of them would talk.

Honestly I’m glad Abigail is done at this point bc other than Elizabeth her story took up most of the time and I wasn’t all that interested in her anymore either. Rosie is my absolute fave and I want as much of her as possible and I love Lee both as her husband and as a character too so I really want them to have their baby this season. I’d like to see a more extended storyline outside of the love triangle, doesn’t really matter who maybe put a couple characters together but I think Lee’s accident and aftermath would have been great to see if he was in the infirmary for more than a hot sec lol. I think Pascale could have really shown us a deeper side of Rosemary and more of the town coming together for that episode would have been nice. I mean I’d love to see Lee’s family again or go into Rosemary’s family too even if that doesn’t seem like it will happen. In general I’d like to see more storylines actually finished and not just introduced and cut off. While I still think Elizabeth is the fave of a lot of people and the love triangle is a point of contention I definitely think a lot of people would enjoy getting to really know other characters more and i would definitely be open to that any day. Overall I did enjoy this season and I do have high hopes for next season! Special thanks to your blog for fueling my obsession :)

Overall, really enjoyed the season, looked forward to each and every episode. I think they have managed to overcome the hurdles (Jack dyinig, Abigail leaving) and come out stronger.

Best show on TV

The love triangle is doing the character of Elizabeth no favors. Right now I don't really care for Elizabeth, Lucas, or Nathan. The triangle storyline needs resolved so I can go back to liking them.

I feel like Nathan doesn’t want to put Elizabeth in a relationship that has a chance where he dies like Jack. He might be scared.

Love your blog and reading your interpretations!!!

Great blog!

Comme certaines personnes, je n'aime plus cette série depuis que Jack est mort.

I think it’s safe to say I’m on everyone’s team BUT LUCAS’.. lol

Elisabeth should run out the door when lucas did that weird stuff at the dinner date

Thanks for the fun survey!

I want a spin-off series about Rosemary and Lee!

Rosemary falls pregnant

I liked Rosemary/Lee scenes during the chikenpox episode which were funny. I didn't like episode 5 due to the competition between Lucas and Nathan. But the scene with the dart falling in Nathan's glass was funny.

Thanks for your blog and all the time you put into it! :)

See above lol

I've noticed a couple of similarities between Nathan and Edward in Sense and Sensibility: the little gift for Baby Jack was wrapped similar to the little book given to Elinor and the wood chopping scene.

Thank you very much for everything!

I'm worried about the new Showrunner. I miss Alfonso already.

Thanks for all of your hard work this year! Finding your blog was a blessing. I love seeing the gifs and reading all of your comments and analyses. I am also looking forward to the rewatch and anything else you come up with!

I wouldn’t say this season was exactly good, but it had me emotionally invested, and there were plenty of things I enjoyed about it, despite the many faults. There are so many good characters, who will hopefully get even more chance to shine next season! I personally love Elizabeth and Lucas together, and am very grateful for the time we’ve had if it doesn’t last much longer. Rosemary remains amazing (as always), and her friendship with Elizabeth has been great to see, and is probably the best part of the show recently!

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sunnyborabora · 5 years

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Back to you (Jaehyun x Reader)

You were once best friend but he left. Now that you are slowly but surely putting your life back together he is coming back, changed but still the same. As you are slowly falling back into his arm you can't imagine that he is drawing you into a world where rules are different and where mistakes are fatal.

Warning: Angst, Violence, mention of blood, mention of guns, kinda unhealthy relation ship?, smut (yassss) and fluff

It’s finally here! It took me a while and I am sorry but school is taking all my time and I was (still am) sick so I am slow. But I loved writting this! Jeahyun bias wrecked me hard djzvavdhdv I am low key in love with him now lol. It was supposed to be a bad boy Au... I tried my best but it kinda become a Mafia Au... Hope you’ll enjoy it ! Thank you for requesting!

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The first time you met Jaehyun you just entered 1rst grade. It was a beautiful day and you were playing during the break with other kids in the little spot where there was sand in the play yard. You were slowly but surely building your sand castle very proud of yourself. As you were finally finished and proud you turned around to show it to your friend next to you but the moment you turned back your sand castle wasn't there anymore. It was just a weird wet heap of sand. You looked at your ruin of a castle, not understanding what just happened. You understood pretty soon, when a spurt of water hit your face. There was a boy, smirking at you, his water gun targeting your face. Did children were even allowed to have such toys ? You didn't know but you were ready to cry from frustration. You spent so much time building this, why could not he destroyed someone else sand castle ! Why was he so mean ? You were ready to leave when another boy came out. You were pretty sure that you fell in love at this very moment. Your prince in shining armor coming to your rescue. You didn't quite hear what he said to the other boy who just shrugged and ran off, probably ready to harass someone else with his water gun. He turned around to face you, smiling sweetly, giving you a hand to help you stand up. Jaehyun had always been the sweetest to you. He had always put upon himself to protect you, even after your first meeting. In middle school, you had become inseparable, spending your days together at school. He had become even sweeter and beautiful, and you were just falling deeper for him. You could not really imagine your life without him. Until high school. It has for sure been a complicated period for you as Jaehyun stopped talking to you. Not that you had an argument and that you were angry at each other. You just didn't have the same priorities. Jaehyun had changed, you of course changed too, and you both soon had nothing to do with each other. You had made other friends with who you spent a lot of time, you even had your first boyfriend, a sweet boy named Jooheon. But you couldn't help yourself thinking about Jaehyun. He was always in the back of your head, and when you happened to see him in high school, you were avoiding his look, and you were just running away. He for sure had changed a lot. Changing his flower boy look, to the total opposite. His jean jacket, the holes inside his jeans, his undercut, everything had changed. It's not like he had replaced you or anything, in fact except from a few friends and a bunch of girls running after him as soon as he was here, he was pretty much alone all the time. But it wasn't your business anymore. Or maybe it was and as a friend you should have asked what was happening ? Have you done something wrong ? But you stopped yourself every time you had those thought. It wasn't your fault, it was nobody's fault. It was just life. You make friends and sometimes you lost them. You indeed lost every contact with Jaehyun until your second year of college. You had successfully graduated from high school and you were ready to take over the adult world. College was way more full filing than high school for you as you were following design studies and you were really happy with them. You had almost forgotten about Jaehyun, living your own life on your own, until one day. You had been invited to a party and as you arrived with your friends you saw him. You recognized him right away even if he had nothing to do with the Jaehyun from high school. You could only see his side profile but you could tell he was one of the most handsome person you've ever seen. But you had to leave right now, you really didn't want to stay here and take the risk of him recognizing you, or worst, him not remembering you at all. But you were doomed and suddenly, the person he was talking with, Johnny a good friend of yours, saw you as you were already putting your coat back on, calling your name. And Jaehyun was looking at you, smiling sweetly, and you had the impression that you were in front of the sweet boy, back in first grade, who protected you from the monster with the water gun. You didn't watch him for long, concentrating all your attention on Johnny. « Hey Y/n baby what's up ? » You shrugged nodding your head as no sounds were coming out of your mouth. Yeah that was awkward. « Y/n this is Jaehyun, Jaehyun- -We know each other » Jaehyun had talk. When you raised your head to see him, he was looking into your eyes, his smile showing his dimple. He was breathtaking. His black hair parted in the middle as some strands were falling on his forehead was highlighting his beautiful eyes. « Me and Y/n, we know each other, right ? -Y-yeah we do » Johnny seemed surprised. « Really, since when ? -Since elementary school actually ! » Johnny looked at you, a puzzled expression on his face. « You've never told me you knew Jaehyun ? -Well I didn't know you knew him either and it's not like we are still in contact or whatever... » Johnny laughed but not Jaehyun. You finally succeded in leaving Johnny's side to go outside. You needed some air. Far away from Jeahyun and all the confused feelings that were harassing you at the moment. The goal of those parties were to have fun, get yourself drunk and hooking out with a good-looking human being. Definitely not being confused, low key happy, about your ex best friend arrival. Sadly it wasn't going to happen. « Y/n ! Wait ! » You were starting to feel overwhelmed and it wasn't a good thing. You were not an anxious person, or maybe you were but you always did everything to put away any stressful situation. This, all this was going hard on your feelings. « What do you want ? » Okay maybe that was a bit harsh but you didn't know how to act or what to say. « I just wanted to talk to you. Like what is my childhood friend doing ? Are you happy ? » You were expecting everything except this. « I am doing great thank you. And yes I am happy » You could do better than that. You just didn't want to. « What are you studying ? -Hum, I am a design student. -Do you like it ? » You nodded slowly, suddenly acknowledging something weird. « And you what are you studying ? » He seemed surprised about your question, as he was not expecting for you to start a conversation which was pretty much understandable if you thought about how you had replied to him before. « Hum, I am not a student. In fact, I am working » That was what you thought as you looked as the Rolex on his wrist that could probably pay your tuition and the very elegant and high quality fabric of his outfit. No student could afford that. « Oh, and what are you working in ? » He shrugged, as if he was used to peopling asking this. « You know, some business for a private company ». Used to answer and used to not tell the truth. You didn't say anything else tho. It wasn't your business and you didn't want to know more about Jaehyun or anything he was involved in. « So, why did you come to this party ? » He seemed taken aback by the fact that you were now willing to keep the conversation going. You may not want to know more about Jaehyun but the reason of his presence here was quite intriguing. « Johnny asked me to come for a bit. And then, ha no let it go.... -What ? What were you going to say ? -Don't take me for a creep please... -Too late. » He laughed, his laugh so clear and familiar, but also so far away in your memories. « I wanted to see you. What you had become you know. I was curious. We were best friend before. -Indeed we were. » There was more venom in that answer that you had wish for. Your pretty speech about being detached from the situation was far away. You sounded horribly salty. « I know... I wish I could tell you why... But I can't. -Tell me what ? You don't own me anything. » As you said this, you knew you were lying to yourself. Deep down you wanted him to explain why he had left you alone all those years ago. And why he was popping back in your life now... « I feel like I do. I left you alone. But I swear if I could explain to you why I had to stop seing you I would tell you everything. -I told you it wasn't important. -It is for me. But you know now. I am back in town and everything... » You raised your brow. Back in town ? « What do you mean ? -We could catch up ? Like I want to learn to know you again, the person you've become. » You were expecting this. But at the same time it didn't help loosening the shock a bit. « Why ? -Y/n, after all those years, I still have the same feeling as when we were kids. I like you, and I want to protect you. If I could scare of a bully that destroyed your sand castle I would do that again. » You laughed. « It was hard for me you know. I had to stop thinking about you at some point because it was to painful. In high school, when you were ignoring me, I felt like shit. Like suddenly I wasn't worth being your friend anymore. You made me feel so bad about myself. » He didn't say anything. You could see in his expression that he was shaken and sad. Shit, you just started your own pity party. « Don't say anything. High school is pretty shitty anyway. Now I feel good. And I feel good because I finally got over you. So you coming back, to « catch up » is the worst thing you could do to me » His mouth was gaping stupidly. This is when you decided that it was your time to leave. Fuck the party and the make out session, you were going to crawl on your couch to watch « The bride of the water god » for the thousand time. « No wait, please. Y/n, fuck... -What do you want again... -Please at least let me apologize. I didn't know it has been this hard -Of course, how would you know. We weren't talking to each other anymore. -I still was making sure you were okay. I mean, at school and everything, you thought I wasn't paying attention to you but it's not true... -Well you did a shitty job then » Here you were being petty again. « I would have preferred anything really. You should have told me that I wasn't interesting anymore, that you wanted new friends, that time was just making his work. You make me think that you were caring about me this all time is cruel. -But it's the truth. Sometimes I had wish I could have forgotten you. But it never happened. But now it's different. I am different. I am not in the trouble I was before. Now I am stable. My life is stable. -We were in high school ! What could have make your life so unstable that you had to leave me behind ? » This is the moment he shut down on you. You knew he wasn't going to say anything to you about this anymore. « You know what, forget it. We all have our secret. » He didn't answer this either. « I am leaving, Jeahyun. It was cool to see you again, really. I hope that you are happy too. » And you left. You didn't hear of Jaehyun until one week later, when he came into the coffee shop you were working in. He didn't seem surprised to see you, which was definitely your case. You really naively thought you were never going to see him again. H walked in your direction a smile splattered on his face. « Hello, what can I do for you ? » you asked with the most neutral voice you could. « I don't know... What would you advise me to take ? » He was doing this on purpose... With his dumb smile, you wanted to slap him with the baguette you were about to cut when he entered. « The pastry are excellent. I would advise you the cinnamon roll, they are freshly baked. To drink, the best-seller is the caramel macchiato with whipped cream. » He seemed to think for a second before nodding. « I am going to take this, thank you. -Is it a take away ? -No, I am going to sit here. » Okay, how were you supposed to work when he was here ? « Very well I am going to bring everything to you. You can sit down. » You were almost done with his order when you heard, his phone ring. You turned around but stopped almost immediately. When you were talking about duality, it's not exactly what you had in mind. The fact that he could look like the sweetheart he was when he entered the shop and now look so severe and hard now. You could not hear what was happening on the phone, you were too busy watching Jaehyun. « Okay, I'll be there in a few. Yeah. » You didn't say anything. You took the macchiato and put it in a take away cup, and wrapped the cinnamon roll. When he stood up you just give him his order. He seemed suddenly very tired. But he simply smiled. He took his order, his fingers lightly touching yours. « Thank you Y/n. It was good seing you again. » He put his hand in his vest pocket and took a little piece of paper out of it. « This is my phone number. If you are not to busy one day, you can call me, and we can hang out or something. Don't feel forced to call me or anything. If you don't I'll understand ». And he left. You were left alone, that stupid card in your hands, not really knowing what to do. It was another week later that you had decided to text Jaehyun. Not call. Text were safer. So you simply told him it was your number, and asked him what he was doing. He didn't answer until an hour later. He was apparently busy with work, whatsoever he was doing. He said he was surprised but happy that you had text him. You stopped here. You honestly didn't know what to do. Were you supposed to initiate something ? Or just let the situation die. You were confused, a hint of disappointment in yourself for texting him, but the feeling of joy that it bring you made it almost insignificant. Were you happy to meet Jaehyun ? Yes. Were you happy about him showing interest in you again ? Yes. Were you confused about the situation ? Definitely. But in the end you were feeling weird. You know it is one of your biggest flaw was definitely to intellectualize too much. Never letting yourself be happy, because what if it'll go wrong ? But damn it, it's been a while since you've been that excited about something. Are you free tomorrow ? I want to take you somewhere. You accepted. And it has been awesome. Jaehyun was the sweetest person you've met. It didn't take long until you were again inseparable. It took time for you to accept what had happened and what was actually happening, but you were happy. So definitely happy and in love with Jaehyun. The day he asked you to be his girlfriend was definitely a great day for you. You had play it off, just answering « Aren't we dating already haha » but you were ecstatic inside. After three months of dating you had finally had enough of hiding your feelings. Your desire for this man was too strong. He had always been a perfect gentleman, never making any physical contact that you had not given your consent before. But one day has nothing had happened yet you initiated the contact. You were expecting a bit more than a kiss. Jeahyun was ready to give you everything you wanted anyway. « Can I kiss every inch of your body? » He nipped at your thigh. You were feeling his hot breath against your skin so close from where you wanted him. « Can I be the reason you moan ? » You whimpered and nodded. Jaehyun smiled against your skin, nose trailed along your skin as he inhaled deeply « Can I » And he was so close from your clit, you could feel his deep exhale and it felt so good. You whined, struggling to breath and fighting to stay standing. You were praying that he 'll have some mercy and let you lay down because if he decided to eat you out right there in his kitchen you might pass out. « Yes, please » He mumbled something you can't understand before he buried his face between your thighs his hands palming your ass to get you closer. He took another deep breath and your legs began to shake badly when he exhaled. « Jaehyun » you repeated . He looks at you through his eyes half hidden over his long lashes : « Yes Love. » He held your gaze and slowly licked his lips. The sight of him on his knees, his white shirt open on his chest letting you his tattoos was something you wanted to engrave in your mind forever. « I can't stand... », was barely audible. « Okay, » Jaehyun’s dimples appeared when he smiled. He stood up taking you in his arms. « But baby, in the meantime, do you want to know what I want more than anything? » You weren’t sure how much more of this you could take. All the way to the bed, Jaehyun kissed you, tasting his lips, his hands grabbing your butt with his strong hands. « Jaehyun... » and it was a whimper at best. « Yes Y/n. » Nothing came out of your mouth as he smirked.

« I was saying » He grabbed your legs lifting you in his arms. « I need to hear you beg Y/n. I need to feel you cum on my dick. I need you to be mine. » You were in his arms pressed against his body. Everything was so intense. That was it, you were jelly in his arms, your legs trembling around his waist. He lowered you onto his bed as his eyes never leave yours. Your skirt is all the way up to your hips letting him free from seing everything. He bent down licking his lips biting at the skin of your thighs. « What are you doing Jaehyun? » Your words sounded more like a plea than a question. « I am claiming you as mine. » He said it like you weren’t already completely his. « If you’ll have me, of course. » He kept sucking at you skin, and you feel yourself drift off more and more. You whispered his name again and again your eyes screwed shut as you struggled to breathe. « What do you want princess, use you word » « Don't stop » you whined, clawing at the sheets beneath you. He smiles kissing the mark he just gave you. « I have no intention to stop » He caressed your thighs, appreciating the feeling of your skin. « I need to hear you. Tell me Y/n what do you want me to do? » « You! » you said before his teeth could latch on to your skin. « Me?» He grinned against your skin. « I want you to fuck me. » His deep chuckle forced a burst of hot air over your glistening folds. And fuck it felt good. You almost came like this, just Jaehyun looking at you sending you over the edge. « That's not what I was asking baby. I mean, obviously, I’m going to fuck you. Fuck I've been waiting for this moment since forever. But before that. Before I bury myself deep into your needy little cunt. What should I do? » « I-I don't know » « Give me a number, » Jaehyun said softly. « Why ? » you whispered to yourself. « Okay, hum, five ? ». « Five ? » he said a wolf like grin forming on his lips. « You are so greedy princess, fuck. » He bent over, his mouth joining your labia and you began to writhe beneath his touches. « What are you talking about ? » He laughed and shook his head, smiling that dumb smile of his that was giving you the want to slap him. « That’s how many times you are going to cum baby » He grabbed your ankles, dragging you until you are at the edge of the bed, your ass almost hanging out. « I can't do this Jae, please I can't » you mewled. He was already driving you crazy and you haven't come once, what was going to happen after five. « You are going to Y/n, you are going to take it very well, I know you can do that » He spoke between peppered kisses. His flattened tongue parted your lips, and he groaned at the taste of you. A few laden licks later and you were already coming. It didn’t take long before you were greeted by your second orgasm, which came fast, leaving you breathless and dizzy and overly sensitive. Jaehyun lapped orgasm four from your trembling body. You were losing your mind. « You’re such a good girl, aren’t you princess » You could not answer. Your brain had transformed into putty. « You are baby, so good » He praised you over your moans, « You’re my good girl. I think I should reward you. Because I've been thinking about you all the time and now that you are here I want to please right » « Yes. Please. » You said breathless. A mischievous glint cloaked his eyes. « Edging, baby do you like this ? ». You groaned, slamming your head onto the mattress. No you hated it. You wanted him right now but you felt as if you were saying this he would just take even more time. You felt something other than his tongue at your entrance. He trusted his index finger into you. Your back lifted from the bed as you cried out, your palms landed on his tattooed forearms. « You’re soaked, » He added his middle finger. You felt the pressure of your orgasm building low in your core. « What do you feel baby ? -I’m going to cum. -No you’re not » Jaehyun's voice was stern. He pulled his fingers from you and licked them. « You taste so good » You whined, being in this state was even worse than over stimulation. At least before he was giving you what you wanted. His lips brushed the skin above your knee with each word and his digit took back their previous rhythm. You were feeling it again, the knot forming inside your belly, ready to snap at any moment. His tongue was taking you to the edge only to let you down again. « I want to take you out again Y/n » He smirked, proudly « After I watch you cum again and again. I’ll take you out again.” You were so close. He just needed to push you slightly more and you were going to fall into the most intense orgasm you've ever had. But he stopped again. You almost scream in frustration. « Why are you do this? » Your words were rushed and slithly hurt. « Doing what ? I thought you liked it » You closed your eyes tightly, tears of frustration threatened to spill all over you cheeks. You shook your head. « Look at me baby. Y/n look at me », his voice hovered above you, his lips brushing your closed lids. « Look at me » he demanded. You opened your eyes, allowing the tears to escape. Jaehyun frowned. « Why are you crying? -Why won’t you let me cum? » Jaehyun, caress your cheek, whipping away your tears. « All you had to do was ask, baby » He kissed you, his toungue caressing yours. Your legs parted wider, allowing him to rest between them, and you gripped his black hair firmly. He yanked his white shirt away from his body, unbuckling his belt, finally getting naked with you as you had thrown away your skirt and shirt a long time ago now. Jaehyun, in all his glory. Something you'll never forget. You traced the ink of his tattoos with your fingers, fascinate by the ink you were finally able to see clearly. His rigid dick jutted between your bodies, leaking precum on your stomach. Pulling his hair, you forced him to release your lips with a low groan. You wanted to touch him too , make him feel good too. You eased your hand between the two of you, finding his veined cock, you are letting your fingers toy with his sensitive tip. Your mouth traced up his neck, along his strong jawline and back to his lips. And you nibble his bottom lip between each one of your pecks. You collected the wetness from his dick and you used it to move along his shaft. A sweat moan come out of his mouth, the way his slightly longer canine were biting at his lips. « Jaehyun » You whispered against his lips, and he responded with a pained moan. « I need you, Y/n now » Jaehyun answered, his fist gripped the sheets on either side of your head. « Yes, please Jaehyun » You moved your hips and angled his dick to your entrance. You murmured into his tensed jaw how much you needed him, I much you loved him. His eyes snapped opened. « Jaehyun, fuck, I love y- » He swallowed your ‘you’ with a crashing kiss. He entwined your fingers with his and held your left arm above your head. And you saw it, there in his beautiful eyes. This was more than lust. This was everything you’ve ever shared together. During your childhood, now that he was back. This was everything that you mean to him. This was veneration and love. This is when you realized that you'll never be able to come back to normal after that. Jaehyun didn't seem to care anyway. With a guttural groan, he entered you slowly, your breath hitching at the sensation. Sinking down inch by inch, his dark eyes carefully watched yours until he was fully seated. « Baby, you feel incredible » Lifting your thigh higher, he began to move slowly, deliberate strokes, in and out. With each new thrust, he powered his hips deeper, harder. A melody of smacking skin, ragged breaths and sweet moans echoed in the room. Your legs wrapped around his waist and your hips met his movements. His hips began to piston erratically while his stiff cock repeatedly dragged across your g-spot. You closed your eyes as your vision started to blur. « Look at me Y/n. Fuck, baby look at me » « Jaehyun, I can't, it's so good. Oh my god. -I want to see you, baby. » You moaned loudly, screaming Jaehyun name. « Yeah I am right here baby. Let it go. » Jaehyun knew you were close, he could feel your pussy tightening around him. You were a vision writhing beneath him, something he never wanted to forget, soft whimpers and incoherent sentences, everything was making you pure perfection. « You are beautiful. Oh my god, I'll never get enough of you » You closed your eyes feeling it coming. « Show me that you are mine Y/n. I want to see you » « I-I am yours. -Yes you are baby. Say it again. -I’m yours. -Again. « I love you so much, I am yours only yours » Now it was his turn to plummet into ecstasy. He moaned your name, before he came. His pace slowed and he lowered your leg. His breaths washed over you as he studied you. « Baby, I hope you know we're in deep » Since this day, you and Jaehyun were together. It has been almost two years since you've met again at this party and your relationship had taken another turn. You were leaving together now, in a cute and cozy apartment in a great area of the city near your university as you were in your last year just before graduation. You were living your best life, finishing your studies in the best conditions, and living with the man you love. The thing was that there was something wrong about this man. At the beginning it had not disturbed you that much, all the secret and the sudden departure because « work » was calling him. You knew since the beginning that something was wrong but, you really didn't care. Now you cared a lot. You knew that there was something wrong. Jaehyun was good at playing it off, and you were usually doing the same laughing when he came back with bruises, or when he was leaving you for weeks. But you were scared now. And you had all the reason to be. If Jaehyun was doing something wrong, illegal, you needed to leave. One day you really prepared your bag ready to leave, ready return to your parents home, far away from him. The thing is that the moment you were going to leave, you just didn't. You didn't want to. You wanted to stay with him forever if it was possible. And you were not really scared for yourself. You were scared for him. You know he was not stupid, he knew you would see them. The bruises that were appearing every week. The scars from his past, some looking strangely like bullet scars. His new tattoos. Everything was a ringing the bells in your brain. You didn't think about Mafia first. Maybe he had troubles with some of his coworker or something. But soon it was too obvious. He wasn't hiding anymore, at least he was just hiding enough for you not to understand the entire situation. Until one day someone came to see you. You were getting out of one of your classes, walking toward your car to go home, when a man stopped you. You were ready to kick him in the face if you had not seen him before. It happened once, you had finished your job sooner and when you entered the apartment men were here. Jaehyun was standing in the middle of them talking about something you didn't catch. He stopped as soon as he heard you. He walked toward you smiling sweetly, and just asked you to go see one of your friend the time he finished with his colleagues. You did as he told you, not wanting to be in the middle of unknown people anyway. But the man who had stopped you near your car that day was one of the men you saw in your apartment that day. If he had been with Jaehyun, he could not be that bad. But you know it wasn't true. Jaehyun was surrounded with bad people. Dangerous people. Because he had been with Jaehyun that day, you should be careful. « Are you Jaehyun'wife ? » You were pretty sure you weren't married yet but you simply nod not wanting to about this right now. « I just want to give him a message. He won't answer me, and you understand it's a bit annoying for work. Could you just- -I know nothing about Jaehyun work, if he decided not to answer you I guess he as his reason. But it's none of my business. I am sure you can find someone else. » He didn't say anything but you could see his body tensing. Where you really going to have to use your self defense technics. You weren't feeling that confident about them right now. « Yeah, I understand. You are Y/n right ? You are gorgeous, I understand why Jaehyun is trying to leave for you. Just tell him it is not as easy as he thinks ». And he left. That day you had been scared to the bones. You waited a bit sitting inside your car the time to calm your nerves. You finally drived back home. When you entered your apartment Jaehyun was here. « What happened ? I was worried as hell, why aren't you answering your phone ? » He saw in what state you were, and he understood almost right away. He took you in his arms, his grip on you so strong that you had the feeling he was never letting you go. You really hope he wasn't. « Tell me who it was, what he was looking like, what he told you. » You didn't say anything. You simply stayed in his arm as long as you could. He finally understood that you were not going to say anything. « Let's go to bed okay princess ? » After this day nothing ever happened to you. You could come back at any hour of the day, there was never another person here, just Jaehyun. Until everything went really wrong. You hated it. When he wasn't answering his phone. He had left for a week now. Those time were already difficult for you when he was answering to the phone but now that he wasn't answering. You were worried sick and you were right. In the middle of the night, you had passed out on the couch and you heard a violent knock on your door. You really weren't going to answer until you heard someone telling your name. You ran toward the door, opening it violently. It was happening, right ? Were you going to lose everything tonight ? « Jaehyun... -Y/n we need to get him inside. » You had no idea how this man knew your name but you let him enter. Him and the other guy holding Jaehyun, almost ran into the bedroom. You followed them as fast as your panicked state was allowing you. You didn't start crying right away, but when one of the man snatched open Jaehyun shirt open and you saw, all the blood you started sobbing. « Jaemin, get her out » you heard Jaehyun said with a weak voice, almost to quite to be heard from you. The man who as talked to you before turned around and open the door for you to leave. But you were not sure you could walk. What happened next was a big mess. You were staying in the corridor just behind the door of your room. The other man, who you still ignored the name, had come out once to take a big bag that he had left in the living room earlier. He gently smiled at you but you were unable to do anything but trying not to break down in tears. It only took an hour for them to do whatever they were doing, it had seemed an eternity to you. The man who took you out before, Jaemin ?, returned and gave you a hand to help you stand up from your spot. There was less blood than before. Jaehyun was looking like a mommy laying here with all bandage around his torso and left arm. He was sleeping peacefully. Tears started streaming down your face. « He is going to be fine now. He had broken ribs and a bullet in the biceps but it's fine now. Y/n he is safe. » You looked at the man, the one you still didn't know the name. « Thank you. » He smiled softly. « Jaehyun is our brother. We are never going to let him go. I am Ten by the way ». You smiled at Ten. He seemed like a nice person. You could tell the difference between him and the other guy you saw before. Him and Jaemin seemed to really care about Jaehyun. « Thank you for helping him really. I can't lost him. » He nodded softly. He put his hand behind your back, trying to make you leave the room. « He is not going anywhere. You are as exhausted as us, let's drink some coffee. » You walked with Ten toward the kitchen where Jaemin was already making coffee. « It's not the first you come here right ? » you asked to the men. Jaemin smile awkwardly. « It's okay, it's not bothering me. » The three of you sat down in silence. The sun was already rising in the sky, everything was slowly becoming that pretty orange color. « I understand why Jeahyun wants to leave. » You turned around Ten. « It is so peaceful. That type of life. I understand why he wants that. -I want that too. A lot of us want that », Jaemin answered. You watched both of them carefully. « We are going to stay here just the time he is able to stand up. And then Y/n, it's better if you leave the both of you. -What happened ? Last night ? » They looked at each other, looking unsure. « He bought our ticket for freedom » Jaehyun had decided to leave the organization he was working for. Apparently he wasn't the only one who wanted to leave. But it wasn't that easy. Once you entered the family it was almost impossible to quite. But Jaehyun wanted nothing but to live with you, give you the life you deserved. And it meant quitting the organization. « He did it for himself, but for me and Jaemin too. If we leave soon, if we disappear, they are going to leave us alone ». You left the boys alone and came back to your room. You sat down in the mattress next to Jaehyun, trying not to wake him up. « Why didn't you tell me everything ? I would not have left you... » You closed your eyes for a moment, exhaustion taking control of your body. « I love you Y/n ». His voice had startled you. « You are an idiot really. Coming back after a week to bloodied all my carpet. What is wrong with you ? » He tried to laugh but his body jerked in a painful movement. « Sorry, sorry, don't move. Do you want me to call Ten ? -No it's fine, just stay here okay -I am not going anywhere ». You leaned and kissed him on the forehead. « I was scared. » He looked in your eyes. « I know. I am sorry. I-I wish it could have been different ». You didn't say anything, you just laid down next to him, exhausted the only thing you wanted was to sleep next to him. Exactly three days later, you decided that Jaehyun was feeling better, enough to leave the city at least. You, Ten and Jaemin had packed most of your belongings and had put them into a van you didn't know about. You had arranged something with one of your professor for your remained classes. In theory everything was going to be fine. Ten was in the driver seat, Jeamin next to him. You looked into Jaehyun eyes as he was carefully sitting in the seat next to you. You buckled his seat belt, making sure he was secure. « I love you Y/n ». You smiled at him, taking his hand in yours. « I love you too ». Yeah everything was going to be okay.

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