#and now i'm crying

[laughhardrunfastbekindsblog]

It took 2 people to fully convince Crosshair to do a 180 on the Empire - but neither of those people were Bad Batch members.

They couldn't be. What would a squad of defective clones who had been disobeying orders since day 1 know about loyalty to an institution determined to establish order for the good of the galaxy? What would they know about finding purpose in being "good soldiers"?

Now, I DO think the seeds of Crosshair's eventual defection were planted by his brothers. Hunter pointing out that "Blind allegiance makes you a pawn" and then telling Crosshair "All you'll ever be to them is a number" are statements that are proven later to be true. But it takes Cody and Mayday to drive the lessons home.

Cody and Mayday share several characteristics that place them in unique positions to influence Crosshair:

Both are regs who accepted and befriended Crosshair - Cody says he specifically asked for Crosshair for the mission, and Mayday is upfront and friendly to Crosshair right from the start. (Contrast this to the other regs getting up to move tables when Crosshair sits to eat, or the other clone troopers who walk past Crosshair to get onto the shuttle without even sparing him a glance.)

Both are commanders. (I believe Crosshair ultimately respects authority for the most part: even when he was arguing with and challenging Hunter in "Aftermath," he still deferred to Hunter's orders until his inhibitor chip was intensified and he was then promoted to commander.)

Both are loyal soldiers who have served the Empire well - again, these regs are still commanders even under the new government. And we all know how important loyalty to the Empire is to Crosshair at this point.

Both save Crosshair's life during their missions.

In short, both are regs, but they are still soldiers Crosshair can quickly identify with and trust.

I think it's key that Crosshair encountered Cody before Mayday, though. And despite their similarities, both soldiers drive home different points.

CODY

Cody is one of the few regs we know Crosshair already respected - and still respects, given that Crosshair almost smiles when he recognizes him.

(Some proof in case it isn't apparent: Crosshair goes from frowny face...

...to relaxed almost-happy-if-you-squint-just-right face)

Anyway, while Cody does drop some hints early on that he has doubts about the Empire, he is willing to carry out the mission to rescue "Governor" Grotton, showing he will follow orders to a certain extent. However, he shows more restraint than Crosshair might have: he doesn't attack the civilians despite their obvious mistrust of the soldiers, he comes to an understanding with Tawni Ames, he's NOT willing to follow an order to execute her, and he is clearly dismayed and disappointed by her death.

And so, at the end of a "successful" mission, Cody more plainly reveals the depth of his dissatisfaction with following orders against one's own moral scruples:

Hunter had said "Blind allegiance makes you a pawn." And Cody, unwilling to blindly and unquestioningly be a pawn - or act like a battle droid - any longer, goes AWOL.

But that lesson alone isn't enough to make Crosshair turn on the Empire. Instead, he needs Mayday to give him the final push.

MAYDAY

First, Mayday indicates how appalled he is by the idea of anyone leaving their own behind - which we know is a sore spot for Crosshair. But most importantly, Mayday has demonstrated since he was first introduced that he strongly believes in soldiers being loyal to and looking out for each other (which is far different than just being loyal to the Empire).

Second, Mayday unknowingly challenges Crosshair's belief that serving the Empire provides meaningful purpose. (Remember that one of Crosshair's main arguments to his brothers about joining the Empire was so they could "find purpose again.")

Then, he unwittingly goes for the jugular and rips apart the motto Crosshair had adopted.

And then, in case Crosshair has any lingering doubts about the answer to Mayday's rhetorical question, Nolan decidedly answers the question for him.

Hunter had said "All you'll ever be to them is a number," and he is proven right in the most heartbreaking way.

Crosshair had accused his brothers of not being loyal to him; unfortunately, now he sees what true disloyalty looks like. And for Crosshair - severe and unyielding - realizing that he has misplaced his loyalty by giving it to an entity that mocks him and casts him AND those he cares about aside for doing so... this is the final straw.

Thankfully, Crosshair has now rediscovered the people who are worthy of his loyalty.

#the bad batch #tbb #clone force 99 #star wars #star wars the bad batch #tbb crosshair #commander mayday #tbb mayday #commander cody #tbb cody #lessons learned the hard way #tbb analysis #and now i'm crying #shouldn't have rewatched these episodes #but they are SOOO GOOD #save crosshair #amazing character development in only two episodes #this is longer than i intended it to be - again #but this is what happens when i have to wait four more days for the finale

[boringdoodle]

#and now i'm crying #asheiji #ash lynx #eiji okumura #banana fish

[zadig-fate]

despite all the jokes about bojan jerking off I think it is legitimately sweet that his friends came to the premier of his first feature film

iirc he said he used to be torn between pursuing a career as a musician or an actor so it probably means a lot to him that his musician friends also support his acting career

#and now I'm crying #bojan cvjetićanin #joker out #kaj pa ester

[rayshippouuchiha]

LoW may not have been the first Female Tony fic I ever read all those years ago (according to my bookmark tag, I've been here since day 7 after it was first posted, which is a crazy timeline to think about), but I desperately need you to know that it is absolutely the standard by which I judge all Female Tony fics I've read since (and, really, any gender bent fic from any fandom to be honest).

The justice you have done Female Tony is, in my opinion, incomparable. There are absolutely other Female Tony fics out there that set the bar high, from characterization to plot to depth and beyond, that I will always hold in the highest esteem, but the world building and blood, swear, tears, and love you have obviously put into LoW (and the entire CoC universe) sets a standard unto itself, both as the specific niche of a Female Tony Stark and to the broader world of exploring such a male driven literary industry through the lense of "but what would happen if he was a she instead?" As a woman, I so greatly treasure the ability to experience one of my favorite stories in a more relatable way, and I can't thank you enough for that.

I don't know when you'll feel ready to come back to LoW (or any part of CoC), but I, for one, eagerly and patiently await the arrival of that day, feel honoured to have experienced what you've written so far, and shall reread my favorite moments again and again while I wait (currently rereading LoW from the very beginning, which is something I haven't done in a while [I usually pick up just before the Avengers plot line begins when I need a fix] which inspired me to send this). Thank you for shaping, quite literally, my fandom experience in such a positive way ❤️

#RayRambles #AND NOW I'M CRYING #MCU #Marvel

[lorcandidlucienwill]

Lehebah would've loved Lorcan😭😭😭😭😭😭

#crescent city #throne of glass #lorcan salvaterre #lord lorcan lochan #cadre #lehebah #and now i'm crying #i miss you lele #lord of perranth #she would hang out on lorcan's shoulder all day #lorcan would pretend to be irritated but he'd secretly have a soft spot for her and everyone would know it

[parsley-sage-rosemary-n-thyme]

@duchess-of-chaos' post on Feuilles-O reminded me of something.

Bridge Over Troubled Water was published on January 26, 1970.

I remember hearing Feullies-O for the first time on some compilation like 20 years ago or something, and there were other demos they cut later, on July 8, 1970. I know those demos were later included on Sounds of Silence releases in 2000s, but I checked on the compilation booklet and that's the date they were recorded, not 1966 but 1970.

The demos I'm talking about are Barbriallen, Roving Gambler and Rose of Aberdeen. The latter was also performed live at the Forest Hills Tennis Stadium on July 18, 1970 (link has the wrong title, but it's the right song). As we know, they also used to sing That Silver-Haired Daddy of Mine and Lightning Express in concerts between 1969 and 1970, not to mention Bye Bye Love, which they covered since 1968 at least.

I've been wondering all these years... were they just having fun, recording those tracks in Summer 1970? Or maybe, just maybe... they were thinking about a potential next album?

Stay with me on this for a while. How to follow the huge success of BOTW? A compilation of cover songs would have taken lots of pressure off of them. And what's better that a homage to the Everly Brothers, and/or to traditional music in general?

This is just a thought of course, but I've been wondering for quite some time... it would've been a marvelous album, imho. They sound great singing these songs, their voices are a perfect match to this kind of music.

What you think about it? Am I being silly, or is it at least a bit fascinating?

#simon and garfunkel #simon & garfunkel #art garfunkel #paul simon #paul and artie #s&g #why did they have to split up after bridge #ffs #they had so much left to give #i'll never stop saying that #and now i'm crying

[borbealis]

intimacy was never more intimate than that moment between andreil where neil is afraid he is hurting andrew just like all the abusive pieces of shit in andrew's past did. and andrew shuts that shit down and proves to neil why what they have is a safe thing

#i just reread that scene and i am actually crying #i was sketching that scene out and then i had to read it #and now i'm crying #should have fucking anticipated this result am i stupid? #i guess #i think its time for a reread #its been way too long #two years at least #probably closer to at least three years #andreil #the kings men #aftg #hmu with ur favorite andreil moments!

[mox-in-a-box]

Queen Sonny with her sentry of chiseled men 💛

#sonny said she wants to recreate this pic #and now I'm crying #trust busters #sonny kiss #slim j #parker boudreaux #ari daivari #aew #aew dynamite #aew rampage #aew art #aew fan art #all elite wrestling #wrestling art #illustration

[acrylicthegod]

Ok but this song is so heartbreaking and so beautiful and it gives Steven Universe and AGHHHHHH

#EVERY GOOD OMENS FAN NEEDS TO SEE THIS #THE ANIMATION IS SO GOOD TOO #AND THE VOCALS #AND NOW I'M CRYING #AND I HAVE THIS ON LOOP #AND I AM NOT OK #good omens #good omens s2 #neil gaiman #david tennant #michael sheen #i'm sad #Youtube

[lino-nyangi]

Lee Know and Bang Chan are the ones in skz who love hand-holding during sex.

Prove me wrong.

You can't.

I also just really love hand-holding.

I try and incorporate it wherever I can.

i'm not gonna try to prove you wrong. you're right. now run for president.

handholding during sex is so intimate and soft. this sounds ridiculous but it just makes them feel closer to you, as if having their cock inside you, chest to chest, sharing one breath, wasn't the closest they could possibly get.

chan would like to grab your wrists, pinning them on the sheets. his grip is gentle though, thumbs brushing over your palms as he goes slow. the action keeps you grounded when your head starts spinning.

"stay with me angel, i know you can take it."

minho would prefer intertwining your fingers, be it one hand when you're under him or both if you're riding him, looking at you like you're his everything.

"just like that, you look so pretty on my cock, baby."

#and now i'm crying #lee know smut #bang chan smut #lee know hard thoughts #lee know hard hours #bang chan hard thoughts #bang chan hard hours #stray kids hard hours #stray kids hard thoughts #stray kids smut

[frontlinebicepsoftheninth]

PALAMEDES REMEMBERS EVERYTHING: THAT WAS HIS PROBLEM.

I ALWAYS REMEMBER HIM. THAT'S MINE.

#im working my way through a thorough reread before courses start again and forgot about tmsods so i went back to it #and now i'm crying #where is MY platonic soulmate #tlt spoilers #the locked tomb spoilers #the mysterious study of doctor sex #tlt #the locked tomb #gtn spoilers #gideon the ninth spoilers

[laughhardrunfastbekindsblog]

Headcanons about the other imprisoned children on Tantiss:

Jax is an only child.

Eva is the youngest of three.

Sami has a little brother whom she absolutely adored, and she liked helping her parents care for him. This is why she's the one who takes care of Bayrn: not only does he remind her of her brother, but she's also the only "test subject" who has any real idea how to take care of a baby.

#tbb #the bad batch #star wars #star wars the bad batch #tbb spoilers #tbb season 3 #headcanon #and now i'm crying #save them #manifesting a happy ending for the bad batch and all the prisoners

[noyaspeach]

don't mind me, just sharing a devastating new addition to my astarion playlist

#i love paramore SO much #they mean so much to me #and i was listening to the re: this is why remixes when i came to liar #and realized just how astarion it was #and now i'm crying #astarion #astarion bg3 #astarion ancunin #bg3 #baldur's gate #baldur's gate 3 #paramore #Spotify

[writingwarden]

Putting on my character playlist and being hit with the most emotionally devastating song combo right off the bat

#Cop car by mitski #to #tongues and teeth by the cravewives #first thing in the morning #i just wanted to write #and now i'm crying #writers things #i guess #ah #sleep token fanfiction #call of duty fanfiction

[fuckitwhenifeelit]

😭 honestly, given how T'Challa acts with Nakia. This is the energy I imagine T'Chaka and Ramonda had , and now I'm sad.

- @wanderingquill

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AWW! OH NO NOW IM SAD!

theyre together vibing in the ancestral plane now... theyre together now. I'm happy for them

#submission #romance #T'Chaka x Ramonda #marriage #love #and now i'm crying #thank you for the submission wanderingquill! #black panther wakanda forever #black panther #t'chaka #queen ramonda #king t'chaka

[lorcandidlucienwill]

Acotar Scarred Boys

It was mentioned that it's very rare amongst the Fae to have scars because of how they heal, so scars were a sign of undeniable cruelty, and it was mentioned that of the boys only Lucien and Azriel have scars. But hear me out, I think Eris has scars too. I think Beron leaves them on his back where no one can see unless he goes shirtless, and I think...it's part of why Eris became so aware of the clothing he wore, to cover up those scars and him being so fashionable is partially a result of that.😭😭😭😭😭

#ok this one hurt #and now i'm crying #poor eris #eris vanserra #pro eris vanserra #mama's boy #lucien vanserra #pro lucien vanserra #azriel #lucien and eris deserve better