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#and now my sisters mad at me bc i forgot to get my dad a gift when she asked but like i only agreed to do it bc she
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teruthecreator · 1 year
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i shouldn’t have come i think
#in neg city#first breakdown of the weekend! likely more to come#i’m just so uncomfortable and anxious i don’t wanna be here i feel like everyone hates me or is mad at me#and i’m just gonna make the celebration worse by being here#my mom tried confronting me in the car and she was like ‘i didn’t do anything wrong idk why ur not talking to me’#which is clearly like. she’s done no self reflection in the two weeks i haven’t spoken to her#hasn’t thought at all about how much her words hurt and how little she seems to care#and now my sisters mad at me bc i forgot to get my dad a gift when she asked but like i only agreed to do it bc she#literally said she was too busy to. and she was telling me last night if i didn’t wanna do it i should’ve told her#BUT HOW IS SHE EXPECTING ME TO LIKE. SAY TO HER FACE NO BRIANNA I KNOW U JUST SAID UR TOO BUSY TO DO IT BUT I WONT HELP YOU#LIKE THAT WOULDVE ENDED UP AN ARGUMENT ANYWAY!!!! IT WAS A LOSE LOSE SITUATION#BC WHAT THE FUCK DO U EVEN GET MY DAD ANYMORE HE DOESNT DO ANYTHING!!!!!!!#and like i get it i forgot it’s my fault but now i feel like i can’t talk to her and she hates me and i messed everything up#they’re having like a little party for him over at her place and she hasn’t texted me abt what time it starts at all and i’m not going to#ask. honestly i feel like if i go over there i might throw up#i just. i really dont feel i should’ve come. i wanna go home i don’t feel safe i don’t feel comfortable
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gretchenfinch · 1 year
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!! !! !! (go bestie show ur blorbos to the world)
xo i owe you my life and i forgor to post this bc i wrote it on my phone and i wanted to post art with it
1. Clementine Zhang (she/her)
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What Is There To Be Said About Clem. she's autistic she's adhd she's a mechanical genius she's dumb as fuck she's funny she's insane i love her i want to yeet her through a window
she was from a fairytale curses rpg and her curse was sleeping beauty, aka Getting A Full Night Of Sleep which iirc was predicated by her girlfriend being mad that she worked too hard
she has a mechanical horse which she is so bad at pretending is a real horse. the horse's name is peninsula. it only eats oil
she was named after clementine kesh bc partizan was starting around the time we started playing that. i sketched her appearance for the first time when i was with my mom in the hospital after her surgery. she's SUCH a product of her time
she's an older sister and she's forever mad she's short while her little brother is tall as fuck. her brother went away to school for years and she forgot about him (aka i forgot about him) until he showed up with a fairy wife and a Baby
in the modern au she's just a weird horse girl who's into engineering and scoots everywhere
the funniest part about clem is that me and lav roleplayed AND WROTE her and her girlfriend getting together in a dumb way and then we got together in a similar, somehow dumber way. the dynamics are damn near identical. clem and lia were INSTRUMENTAL for my relationship.
2. Dig Iwatani (he/him)
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MY SKRUNKLIEST SCRIMBLO i hate dig i love dig he's the worst Twink ever
so dig started because i wanted to do a star crossed lovers thing when i gmed a space opera rpg and i needed an Antagonist so i made the boy's older sibling be an absolute BITCH of a gay. he's the crown prince he's the golden child he's the worse he's their dad's favorite he's willing to commit murder he's the heir to a fucking mining planet (that's why he's called dig) he used to be with the prince of the whole galactic empire. he's a bitch and i love him so much.
dig in the au is much more interesting imo because while i love princes the dichotomy between him being the heir to his dad's fortune AND being gay is more interesting irl so of course i made his dad, and consequently, dig, homophobic. and then his whole development came from @mira-miranha and i thinking ha wouldn't it be fun if he met this very unapologetically queer character
and then we went wait a minute. what if they Dated
and now i have multiple thousands of words about him overcoming his repression and his guilt and becoming proud of himself and letting go of the caretaker role he assumed for his siblings :) i love him so much i think he deserves the world
3. Galle Boucher (she/her)
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I NEVER GET TO TALK ABOUT GALLE
she's such a creature. originally she was part of an amnesia rpg (you know that thing where you don't know your character traits and you have to figure it out little by little) and she was a knight and also a homunculus but that party became incredibly weird morally so she ended up becoming a knight of death herself???? her family is cheese farmers and her appearance was based off of that zendaya joan of arc look and she was ready to fuck
translating that into the au became so much. so she's still from a family of french cheese farmers but in a trip to the uk when she was 16 she got slammed by a car and lost her memory. so this weird dutch guy witnessed the accident and called emergency and all that and he felt responsible for her. so after that near death experience she didn't really feel a connection with her home anymore and became a goth and got adopted by the dutch guy who's not even that much older than her. now she's in mortician school, fucking her rich professor and her wife and the most recent development is of course that she's also fucking/dating nadia whom i love and whom is also rich as fuck from being a mafia princess. actually the most recent development is that she and her dad got a golden retriever named croissant. she's also a boxer and she's now on her way to becoming a wrestler. think about that one lady wrestler who's all goth and shit? that's the exact vibes for galle. her full name is gallebrie anne-marie boucher.
there's a whole thing i wrote about galle where she's gone back to her hometown and she finds out her ex girlfriend is now married with a baby in the way and she's taking care of her mom but she cant remember anyone's names. that was a fun experiment and when i know french i want to rewrite that
thank u for the ask xo sorry i took so long to answer <3
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izzielizzie · 2 years
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okay, so i just finished rereading oouin and omg i need to rant about the ending. like the book is really good and everything but the ending is ??????
like first of all: the bomb?? why is there a bomb it seriously came out of nowhere? and that jared jackson guy was rly random character imo, like he came out of nowhere basically, set off a bomb, then we never hear anything about him again?
then second of all nate, i dont even really know why nate was the one to get hurt by the bomb bc he wasn't really a major character? like it would have made sm more sense if it was maeve or knox??
then somehow, after getting hit by a bomb, nate is well enough to go to a wedding the NEXT DAY even though maeve literally says that the arboretum closes at 6 - so presumably the explosion took place much later than 6, so nate had surgery that night and then is just fine and let out of the hospital at what can only be a few hours later??
and then BRONWYN IN THE WEDDING SCENE. why was she so pissy when nate didn't want to dance?? like babes, your boyfriend literally got severely injured last night (protecting her as well) maybe he wants to rest?? seriously the whole book bronwyn was completely out of character and she really annoyed me.
oh my god hi i love this so much.
the bomb was so out of the blue?? like i completely forgot about all the threats bc they weren't touched on? like it was treated as something that just happens to eli and therefore not something to knox to worry about (as sad as it sounds). and jared is so random?? i just feel like this entire plot point came out of left field ngl.
nate did not need to be injured. knox getting his hero arc would have been better. maeve nearly dying after literally telling her sister a couple hours earlier that she was convinced that she wouldn't live past high school so she didn't get close to anyone would be so interesting.
again: when you get literal pieces of bomb shrapnel taken out of you, you are not well enough to go to a wedding the next morning. i wasn't even allowed out of the er when i dislocated my knee for at least twelve hours and that was not a surgery.
bronwyn was the worst at the wedding. if the guy doesn't want to dance then don't dance. go dance with your sister, or your friends, or heck go dance with your parents. i've danced with my dad at tens of weddings when i didn't have anyone else to dance with. and bron has great relationships with her parents that's totally plausible for her to do.
i've said this before and i'll keep saying it bc i'm mad: bronwyn did not need to be in the book at all. cooper was literally just in a different city and he didn't have major scenes. bronwyn was on a different coast. this book was maeve's book. the main couple was maeve and luis. not bronwyn and nate. it made sense for nate to have scenes, he's like maeve's brother. and he works for knox's dad. it made sense for addy to have scenes, her sister was getting married and she lives across the hall from phoebe. it made sense for kris to have a scene because he was watching his boyfriend's baseball game.
also bronwyn was kind of the worst to everyone. she kept telling maeve to apply to college even though maeve clearly has not had a normal high school experience and it might be hard for her to think about that right now. she judged addy for not being organized when the literal wedding planner was stuck in the hospital with her daughter (who had alcohol poisoning). she got mad at nate when he was kissed by jules even though he didn't willingly do that (he was assaulted!!) and bronwyn did willingly hang out with her ex boyfriend. and then she made maeve's cancer scare all about her. there was no reason for her to be upset with maeve for not telling her because maeve was scared out of her mind and she didn't want to hurt bronwyn.
i'm just so upset with the way bronwyn was written in oouin i wish her scenes were replaced with cooper.
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noro-noro-noro · 2 years
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ttook a nap & had some vague dreams. wait what the fuck hold on
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no! lol. anyway in the nap
1. weird class i need to take 2. i fuck with this rich family’s pool & am rewarded 3. magical warfare. 
- i needed ot take one more credit hour class to graduate, so i signed up for some weird elective about market management & morality. it ended up having 3 people. me, some indian guy with a big beard, and a blond girl. the professor was somoe youngish guy who had that whole “kind of a mess but im making it work” vibe. the indian guy made me uncomfortable bc he kept getting in my personal space & touching me, & the blond girl was mean and vaguely dismissive. the professor was cool though. he laughed so hard he cried at some stupid joke i made. 
- day 2 of the class was an 8am class so the guy made us all eggs and onion for breakfast. i was there early so i got a double serving bc the yguy was like “they won’t know >:)” the class was now taking place in the office & the girl ame in & started telling me to omve shit around, but i didn’t want to since this was my mom’s house now. 
- there were a lot of people, new students, dressed as harry potter characters except slightly different & they had to wear pointy hats, & the main favorite cool was called something like DREISENBIRG and it was red and green
then
- there was some rumor that some rich people owned an outdoor pool. they were on vacation. the pool supposedly had a 1 inch layer of foam on top. if you went in thte pool it made this mean old lady really mad. 
- i went in the pool. it was less of a pool and about the size of a tiny chicken coop. isplashed around. ym friends cheered! the old lady saw me & got so mad she teleported outside with a shotgun made from an empty can of monster. it falied to fire which is great bc that would have been point blank
- the other people came home & were like “oh hit’s fine! feel free to use our pool. that giant house down to the left is actually our rchristmas house so you can just do whatever in our pool when it’s not Christmas. i was like ohh so they’re rich rich.
- there was a whole bit about magical warfare on their front lawn. whatever. i got good at dodging & had a boomerang. 
- we got invited in bc now it was me & my sister & the family was some relatives that like branched off from my grandma’s secomd marriage. i saw their youngest son on facebook recently. the last time i saw him he was a baby SO FAT i called him the loaf, which his mom didn’t like. now he’s like..9. and the other brothers that me & my sister were super tight with since they had the same age gap we had are like. in their 20s now as well. it’s so scary. ANYWAY it was an AU version of that family, where the dad was replaced by a famous actor. and they were bonkers rich.
- my ssister & i were like “we should go! sorry to impose!” & they were like no no stay for dinner :) dad will be home soon! & we stayed. the dad came home & asked me what wine i’d like 7& i deferred to my sister. the guy gave us an option between limited edition clown wine or $50,000 sakura blossom champagne. i was like uh .um . anything cheaper...
THEN
- we went into the backyard, which was a gateway into some kind of magical realm. the 2nd middle brother (who in the real world used to be really short and gawky and had huge glasses & a big gap in his front teeth but last time i saw him on FB he was like 6 feet tall & towered over his parents) was the small age here. and he pointed at the castle in the distance, & explained all the smaller buildings around it were book shrines. you could go in those to be inside the book or something, but each book had its own laws. for example if you forgot the plot of bridge to terabithia & started doing things off script or choosing things that never happened you would be torn apart by the trees and die. not all the side effects would kill you though!
- we walked towards it. the castle was further away than i thought because it was so big. something happened & some unkillable enemies appeared & started shooting artillery at us. they looked like old urgot, but darker red and brown and rusty. we started to run.
- when we got closer to th castle i wrongly assumed it had some protective spell or something on it bc it was unharmed and so huge. no. the artillery started hitting the sides of it. sttone and rubble tumbled down.
- i thought we should enter one of the books for safety, so i did. i forgot which one though. anyway we ended up in some giant arcade/terminal. i saw one that had gaolang on it & said ohh can we do this one... & it was VR about how he was fighting off the magical enemies, but he wasn’t strong enough. his king would fall. and that little orange wretched thing from the toothpaste video was there but suffering treatment like the paperdoll girls in chogakusei’s ingel music video, being tormented and twisted up and occasionally we would see him screaming begging for hellp from some uncomfortable looking ai generated picture of hell. i was like awesome. 
- the gaolang vr experience cost $2000. X from omega fighters was also there to help him, which is so funny bc i only played that game for like 30 min last nighta fter getting some friends into it
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i hope no one minds if i liveblog this bitch: nancy drew 🔎 from 1x02-1x10
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i swore after supergirl that the CW would never sink its claws into me again and yet.…here i am.
just to recap the pilot: bess isn't living in a mansion, she stole tiffany's ring which means she most likely knew that tiffany was dead before nancy found her, nick could be out for revenge, george is sleeping with tifanny's husband and nancy's parents definitely knew something about that other girls death and oh ace is apparently working for the cops??? and that's what you missed on glee!
i always choose the worst shows to watch alone in the dark what is wrong with me
seems like george is playing both sides
so the dress was a prop and the chest was buried bc there were valuables in it…sure.
he took hudson on as a client?
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oh now see i knew it wasn't a prop
Imaooo karen really thought she had them 😭 she was so mad it's hilarious
not hudson searching nancy's house omg?
‘i thought i heard something.’ ‘no, we’re alone.’ are you, really?
‘you got a dad car, you’ll be fine.’ lmfao
well shit they're going to the same place as nancy
woah he's asking if maybe tiffany was being haunted. wasn't expecting that question from him honestly.
of course he owes money to someone
‘must be the wind’ how pll of you
i don't trust this rita person
the sun shining on them in the kitchen scene? i think i'm gonna cry
SHE WAS A GHOST? WHAT?
FIVE MILLION DOLLARS??? WOAH
ohhh so ace knows
that staircase scene? hella creepy
THE RING
‘did i just invite a killer to a sleepover?’ pls
what if tiffany knew that she might die and that's why she let nick know about the package?
‘did you hear that?’ it’s just dead lucy stopping by to say ‘hello’
can an old house do that?
let me guess, she goes to the winter formal and that's when her mom dies.
‘i have too many dead women in my life’ lmao that’s an understatement
oh she has no idea about her aunt
woah woah woah is she not even a marvin???
ooh tiffany's sister is feisty
i forgot that ace is working with the cops. wonder what that’s about.
it's tiffany pissed about her ring i bet
i wonder if bess is telling the truth
i don't want to speak too soon but i kinda like tiffany's sister
so she isn’t a marvin?
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not bess saying it's none of nancy's business who she is when nancy literally let her into her home
when george said she was going to find someone i thought she was talking about rita
‘when george was little, she used to pee on the floor and bite you to get your attention’ LMFAO
‘just put the ring back on tiffany’s finger’ she makes it sound like she isn’t talking about a dead woman pls 😭
‘the most important step…refill my glass’ she’s hilarious, i hope she sticks around
‘how convenient for you to have a daughter and a dead wife to blame your selling out on’
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she got him good, mf is speechless 😭
did nancy not see ace talking to the cop?
if george gets caught it'll be bess’ fault
‘i’m sorry i slept with your husband. i hope this brings you peace’ fkgjfjdish
‘it’s a shame you never got her pregnant. what a waste of a marriage’ WOAH??
SHE FORGOT TO DO THE MIRROR THING
she does a damn good american accent, i’ll give her that
nancy: you don’t know about my life.
bess: and you don’t know about mine.
nancy:
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oh i love tiffany's sister
umm what was with that smoke??? is george gonna be haunted now?
aw i knew she died that night. and of course she blames her dad for not calling her
‘it took a while to get there because…i was waiting for you.’ ouch???
oh this scene is my thirteenth reason
and when nancy's dad is killed next? what then?
it seems more like the ring flew off tiffany's finger than her just dropping it
ah ha! i knew it was a map
what the hell was tiffany's sister doing in nicks place and why did she have that hard drive 🤨
so karen lied and i bet her, katherine, carson and maybe tiffany are all somehow connected.
did tiffany just…
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okay.
what the fuck?
‘let’s check george’s locker, we know you’re good at that!’ HELP
‘bad news is tifanny doesn’t like you. the good news is tiffany’s dead! so…i’m sorry, nick.’ lmaooo
‘how could you make so much of a mistake?!’ ‘i don’t know, genetics?’ ‘hey!’ pls
Imaooo nick is jealous
what the hell even was that scene
not nancy just handing her tray to that rich dude 😭
oh ace is a stupid mf
the rest of the ep was so good
aaaaand it all comes back to ryan
okay seriously what is up with people just walking into others houses? if someone did that to me i'd start swinging
owen's definitely coming between nancy and nick
nancy: *gets mad at her dad for making a deal with the devil*
also nancy: *makes a deal with the same devil*
‘are we good?’ ‘yeah, 100%’ oh, he’s lying
‘i rounded up’ pls
‘he must not know the whole story’ or maybe he just doesn’t care?
this show does really great jumpscares
bess is such a dramatic bitch i love her
nancy has so much more chemistry with owen than she does with nick
oh shit they were having an affair
Imao they thought they were getting away with it
maybe it was nancy's mom?
nick and nancy need to break up, i'm sorry but they are not a good couple. george and nick though…
LISBESS ARE SO CUTE
woah okay what's up with the coins?
nancy is better than me bc i would've snatched owen up in a heartbeat
okay then.
there was more chemistry between nick and george when she was handing him his coffee than all of nick and nancy’s scenes combined
love how everyone’s concerned about victoria and then george is right there like 😐
nancy needs to stop judging her father for still being involved with the hudson family because she was just with ryan the night before
‘that’s never stopped me before’ victoria’s face 😭
lmaooo i love laura
how could they possibly be on the same side when he's working with the police chief?
ohhh shit her dad was paid off right after the murder? yeah he’s def guilty of something
the hudson's errand boy 😭
so does she want tiffany's murder solved because she loves her or because she wants her money?
someone definitely stole the evidence
that séance was intense
i feel bad for nick and nancy but i’m so glad they’re broken up
ohhh shit her dad’s been getting her texts and he stole the evidence??? didn’t see that coming
WTF who is george’s little sister communicating with if it isn’t lucy? tiffany?
oh my God???
i think he either killed lucy or he cleaned up after whoever did.
i really hope they don’t try to pin the accident on nick
the chief def believes in the supernatural
they think lisbeth tampered with the car but what if it was lucy’s brother?
i really hope the chief becomes like a reluctant father/brother figure to all of them. it’d be so funny
woahhhh lisbeth is an undercover cop???
oh my God is the chief dirty?!
okay what if it wasn’t the chief but the officer bess had to distract earlier for nick?
‘killer boots, by the way.’ pls i love nancy
THE FUCKING PUNCH 😭😭😭
WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY ALL JUST ABANDON TED AT THE CLAW
oh my God
would be extremely funny if he wasn’t the kidnapper
‘who’s there?’ see this is why white people always die first in movies and shows
i’m so glad ted is safe 🫂
‘you asked her to draw you a map of the north east corner so that you can find her when you got there’
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NOT NANCY UNINTENTIONALLY GETTING HER DAD ARRESTED FOR LUCYS MURDER LMFAO
i don’t understand why he won’t deny killing lucy
lmao i love bess sm she really pretended she needed something from george’s office so she wasn’t alone with ryan 🫂
‘come and get me’
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one day nancy’s recklessness is gonna get herself or her friends killed
claire’s definitely the killer
well.
‘what are friends for?’ oh i know that hurt
alright i’m ending this here and making a new post for the rest of the eps cause it got WAY longer than i intended lmao. if you made it this far, you’re a real one🫂
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weirdbabs · 5 years
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i guess my sister is mad at me, i say as she leaves the room as soon as i walk in and avoids talking to me
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moeruhoshi · 4 years
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Hi! I hope you're doing well. Idk if you're taking requests but I had this cute idea where little dragon Natsu ends up really liking his teacher Anna (lucy's aunt) bc he smells Lucy on her but Natsu's not able to really understand that so he just knows he likes this teacher (this is based off of that one scene at the end in the anime). And then Anna brings Lucy to school with her bc no one can watch over her. Then Natsu sees Lucy and it all just clicks 👀🥰🥰
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES
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“Natsu,” Anna laughed as her little student smothered his face against the legs of her long skirt. “You have to go home, no more clinging to me, okay?”
“But Miss Anna smells really good,” The fledgling whined, using the little bit of strength in his hands to try and stay attached. His father sighed and pulled him by his waist, rolling his eyes when his son began to glare at him.
“Come on, Natsu,” Igneel grumbled and crouched down to his level. “Miss Anna has to go home too, and you’ll see her in the morning,”
“Okay...” He huffed, letting his weirdly strong grip on her go. His eyes glazed up at the smiling woman, his heart not so subtly skipping a beat. “G-Goodnight, Miss Anna!”
“Goodnight, Natsu,” She giggled and waved off the small boy who kept his eyes glued to her form as his father carried him away. He sighed lovingly, resting his head on Igneel’s shoulder. His tail had come out on its own, wagging behind him and slightly smacking his dad in the face.
“N-Natsu!” He sputtered, holding the appendage down. “You do this everyday, can’t you calm down already?”
“Nope!” He grinned as his tired father rolled his eyes, taking off into the air with his miniature prodigy.
Grandine greeted them at the door with a finger to her lips, holding Natsu’s younger sister in her arms.
“I just got Wendy to fall asleep so please be quiet,” She glared, bouncing the baby gently before going back into the house.
“But I wanted to tell mama about school today,” Their son pouted as he pulled off his shoes.
“You can at dinner, alright? But for now, you can sit and watch television.” Igneel ushered the little fire dragon into the living room, making sure the volume was just above two as he left Natsu by his lonesome.
He wandered upstairs to find his wife, Grandine gently putting Wendy to rest in her crib.
He carefully wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her cheek, chuckling lowly as she melted into his hold.
“I love having babies, but I swear, no more,” She shook her head furiously. “Wendy’s sensitivity to sound is...ugh, I just forgot that this is something we’d have to deal with while she’s still so young,”
“Me too,” Igneel sighed, the both of them carefully exiting the room as Wendy cooed in her sleep. “But that might not be the worst of our problems,”
“What do you mean? Natsu’s not fighting at school again, is he?” She groaned, following her husband down the stairs.
“No, hes just very attatched to his teacher. It’s the way she smells, he wouldn’t let her go when I went to pick him up,”
“Oh gosh, that doesn’t sound good,” She pursed her lips and turned to face him. “But there’s nothing else weird about the way he’s acting, is there? I don’t think we need to be worried unless he starts getting possessive or antsy without her around.”
“You’re right, but I swear I’m going to lose it if his instincts wake up early while we’re dealing with Wendy’s hearing,”
“Worst case scenario, we can just send her to stay with my mother for a little while.”
The worst case scenario would prove to be a reality for the Dragneel family as the years went on, but the next day of school was the beginning of the worst of it.
It wasn’t until a dragon reached their adolescence that their instincts woke within them, making it much easier for the parent to walk their child through the understanding of their own body.
And it wasn’t completely unheard of for a dragon to meet his mate early on in life. The only worry that came along with said encounter was a possible, accidental marking. It was hard to tell a child to fight off that kind of urge, especially when it was such an overpowering voice in their mind telling them to do so. And without proper supervision, there was no telling what might happen. It was only when the aftermath occurred, that things went haywire.
Sure, an older dragon could stand being away from their mate for however long they needed to be, were mature enough to understand that it was just a part of life. But for someone so young, they’d whine and cry like you had just taken their favorite bear away. And a baby dragon would have no issue with destroying everything around them in efforts to get what was theirs back at their side.
When Natsu walked through the doors of his preschool, he was quick to run from his father's side and into the open arms of his teacher waiting to greet him.
Igneel watched with a steady smile, but took it as a good sign when all Natsu did was take in a big whiff of her skirt before skipping off to find his friends.
He left for work feeling relatively secure with his assumptions, not knowing the madness he’d soon be faced with that evening.
When everyone had arrived, Anna clapped her hands and had all the students gather on a large and colorful carpet.
“Alright, so today is going to be a little different,” The teacher started, staring into the excited and few wandering eyes. “We have someone joining us today! I want you to make her feel super welcome, because she’s my niece! Everyone, I’d like you to meet Lucy!”
A little blonde girl, not much taller than the rest of them, appeared as if out of nowhere from behind Miss Anna’s skirt.
She waved her small hand and blushed in embarrassment, not used to so many people looking at her all at once.
Natsu, who always sat at the front of the carpet, felt his heart begin to pound. He stared at Lucy with wide eyes and felt a grin split before he knew it.
She was the source of Miss Anna’s hypnotic smell, why hadn’t he met her until now? If Miss Anna knew that she smelled so good, wouldn’t she have brought her here sooner?!
He wanted to stand up and tackle her in a hug, but he knew Miss Anna wouldn’t like it if he interrupted her outside of recess time.
“Lucy lives in Acalypha, but she’ll be here in Magnolia this week while her parents are out of town,” Their teacher said, everyone excitedly waving and saying hi. Though Gray tried not to look too excited about a new friend when he saw Juvia staring relentlessly at him.
“We’ll start this morning with arts and crafts, okay? So go sit at your usual tables,” She said, allowing the bunch of toddlers to stand and find their way to their seat. “Natsu, could I ask you to do a very special thing for me?”
“Uh huh! I can do anything, Miss Anna!” He chirped, practically bouncing as he stood in place.
“Could I ask you to look after Lucy while she’s here?” She asked, crouching down to push her little niece a little closer to the dragon. “She’ll need a good friend to show her the ropes, don’t you think so?”
“Mhm! Just trust me, Luce! I’ll be your bestest friend ever!” Natsu said excitedly, reaching out to grab her by the hand.
“O-Okay,” Lucy squeaked a bit as he pulled her along with him, showing her to his table and the others that sat with him. 
It would have been more obvious as to what was going on if Natsu was more rambunctious, but he was the epitome of calm. Though that really should have set off at least one alarm. Since when was that fire dragon ever this well behaved?
He was kind and didn’t come on too strongly, in the way that he would have towards Gray or Erza. Instead, he was clear and coherent in his usage of words, or as clear as a six year old was able to get.
When Lucy looked like she was confused, he helped her out with instructions or ran off to collect the materials she really wanted to use. Miss Anna would have paid more mind to this if she hadn’t had to focus her attention on one of the more upset students. It was Millianna, as usual, crying over her inability to be at home with her pet cat.
Natsu made sure she got to know his friends too once it was time for recess, the little blonde hitting it off right away with Levy and Cana. Erza was a bit embarrassed to meet someone knew, but warmed up to Lucy’s sweet smile in no time. Juvia...well Juvia was alright the rest of the day since Gray agreed to hold her hand. And Gajeel was always nonchalant, not caring about what was going on...unless Levy was scolding him.
At lunch, if anyone had the ability to notice, would have seen Natsu absolutely swooning from his seat across from Lucy.
He sighed lovingly and pushed his round cheeks up with his hands, leaning forward on them to admire her. She was in the middle of talking about her favorite book to the pixie beside her, Erza and Cana both fumbling to tie her hair in loose braids. They swore they could do it as good as Miss Anna could. 
Once she looked his way, his heart began skipping, his cheeks became flushed, and his adrenaline; well Natsu didn’t really understand that feeling. He really liked the way she looked at him though. 
Lucy laughed and picked a grain of rice that rested on his cheek, popping it between her lips as she stole it from him. 
Uwah...
During nap time, he couldn’t help himself anymore. Lucy absolutely, one hundred percent, needed to sleep by his side. 
Not that she complained. Rather, she was excited that someone else was just as excited to be her friend. 
Natsu smothered his nose against her cheek and fell asleep, holding her like he did his dragon-bear at home. Lucy liked that he was warm and snuggly, like her doggy, Plue. 
That was the first memory of the best sleep he’d ever gotten in his life. And any nap he had at her side in the future would count as well.
When his dad came by at the end of the day...it’s a good thing that everything indoors was magic-proofed. 
Lucy had been in a separate room at the time so she was spared the sight of a mad-raving, fire-spewing and burning, fledgling have to be dragged out of the school.
There was something inside of him that screamed, felt pain beyond what pain had meant. 
No no no no no no no no!
It drove him practically literally insane. It pounded in his brain, in every nerve end and even more so. It was as if he left his heart behind and all that could replace it was rage. 
Needless to say that Wendy and Grandine were out of the house before Igneel got anywhere near them.
Sleeping spells worked, if only for the night. It was spine-chilling to see him so catatonic in the morning. Like all that fire from the night before was all he had, that the flame that rested at the pit of his stomach couldn’t be lit again. 
But when Natsu came back to school and saw Lucy standing there, waving with the cutest grin ever on her face, well...Igneel probably the only one who got upset.
“Anna,” He sighed and wiped a tired hand over his face. “We need to talk, if you have the time right now,”
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it must be difficult to live with snow for a long time, I wouldn't get used to it
u know ur moon and rising? maybe u have other predominant signs in ur chart! in my case, I fit the stereotype and I hate it💀 but yeah being a lazy person sounds cool to me tbh. I was scared of turning 18 bc responsibilities and blah blah blah but ur right, it's the same thing
pls my dad told me to pay him back all the money he spent on my college 💀💀💀 so now I'm gonna start freelance and take courses to learn skills bc I have 0 😃
what's ur mother tongue hon?
SAME, I was a whole week sad bc of baji :( poor thing. I needed the tenjiku arc, I was so tired of kisaki and I just wanted him dead bye-
DON'T REMEMBER ME THAT BC I GET SOO MAD WITH MIKEY LIKE BRO WTF ???? WHY U ASK FOR HELP IF U AREN'T GOING TO ACCEPT IT?????? AAAAAAAAAAAA I wanna punch him in the face
I'm going to punch mitsuya too I'm not HE COULD BE WITH HIS LITTLE SISTERS AND DOING WHAT HE LOVES BUT NOOOOOO HE CHOSE DEATH AND I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT THAT SIR. if he died I don't know what I'm going to do with my life 💀 we could cry together lmao
OH YEAH I SAW THAT U WENT TO SEE JJK 0 JSKFNLAMFLS I was going to tell u about this but I forgot, I'm the worst pls. who's ur favorite in jjk?
GOOD LUCK BBY! you will pass! don't worry <33
my weekend was cool, i spent it reading dr stone, it's soo good. thanks for asking hon <3
It's not difficult per se just kinda annoying in the long run </3 i miss the time when i was little, winter was short and not that snowy
Please my moon sign is sagittarius 💀 but my rising is gemini! Haha i didn't want to turn 18 and now i just feel like i'm getting older and this pains me, i don't wanna be a full time adult 😐
Bsksbdj OUCH 💀💀💀 talk about some grudge, finding money isn't that easy... I wish you luck to get what you need quickly
My mother tongue is French!
I still think about Baji and where he would be in the latest arc pls i'm hurting myself for nothing. Well- i hated Kisaki too but i'd prefer to face him again than face Mikey because he's more dangerous than Kisaki imo 👀💧
IKR IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE- this frustrates me sm i'm gonna scream. MITSUYA BETTER NOT DIE I WON'T RECOVER FROM THAT, if he doesn't become a fashion designer in the last future of this manga then i'mma throw a tantrum and cry in a corner (we'll grieve together lmao)
If we're talking in the movie, my fave was Inumaki (he's so cute and powerful?? Like i feel sometimes he's underrated but ok-) but in the season 1, it's Megumi (he's just my type: unbothered and silent sjosndjd). Did you watch JJK? (Not necessarily the movie, just the show)
Hehe i hope so, i'm crossing fingers so hard, thank you!! <3
Omg i need to read Dr Stone!!! I watched the anime it was so good, i'm putting it on my to-buy list. Hope you had a great day love <33
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passed down like folksongs, chapter fifteen- steve x reader
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chapter fifteen- time, mystical time, cutting me open and healing me fine
series summary: Living in Hawkins was never easy for anyone. However, it becomes ten times more difficult than usual when you catch feelings for one Steve Harrington. What should be a simple schoolgirl crush ends up being complicated by your step-brother, Tommy Hagan, and the mysterious goings on in the town of Hawkins. [masterlist]
pairing: steve harrington x female! hagan! reader
chapter summary: With all of the events of the Upside Down behind them, Steve finally finds it in himself to open up about the past.
warnings: swearing, hurt/comfort, fluff
word count: 3.5k
a/n: Wooo!!! Technically what I would consider the last chapter!!! Because of that, I will be uploading the epilogue tomorrow, so hopefully one of those will get to go in the steeb tag (also bc classes started up again and I don’t wanna upload in the middle of a school day okay)
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It was towards the end of July when the official funeral for your step-dad was held. There had been a service for all those who were killed in the fire a week before. One you ended up getting dragged into. Not that it was bad, Steve went with you. Though, it was clear he was just as keen to be there as you were.
Though, being at an actual funeral felt somehow worse. Steve kind of felt he had been to the worst one already when he went to Billy Hargrove’s a couple of days ago. He specifically told you that you shouldn't go. That he was mostly there to watch out for the kids. It was understandable. You remembered that Hargrove had a step-sister and if Steve felt like he could be helpful, you didn’t want to intrude. Especially when you wouldn’t have known anyone all that well.
Steve also insisted on going to your step-dad’s funeral when the time came as well. Not because he thought you needed him the way you needed someone at Barb’s funeral, but because he didn’t want you to be there alone. While you would have had your mom, she was so busy dealing with all the serious arrangements that you wouldn’t have wanted to give her any stress.
The only thing she let you handle were the flower arrangements. Most of which was dark red, almost black roses and assortments of white flowers. You never knew what sorts of things he liked. In all fairness, he never bothered to tell you much.
You tried to ask Tommy, just to see if grief changed him any. It only made him angrier. Your working theory was that he was convinced his dad left everything to your mom instead of him. Which was a possibility, but you knew that he’d turn out fine. He was leaving for college and with his dad gone, you were pretty sure that you were never going to see him much again after the funeral. That only made you look forward to it that much more.
All you wanted was for him to no longer be in your life. After all the things he did and comments he made and how much he came in between you and all the things you wanted to say and do, you probably should have wanted more. Maybe it would have made sense for you to have wished he had been the one to die in the fire, but you didn’t. He was so close to being gone and you could only be glad for that.
After all, had he not gotten his dad to vouch for him, you were pretty sure he would have been staying in Hawkins like Steve. Though, you were glad Steve was staying for a while. It meant there was time for both of you. No, you were never going to get him walking up to you at your locker or have him hold your hand as he walked you to class, but that was okay. What mattered was that you had him now and it made all the difference in the world to you.
With how nice it was outside, the actual burial was taking a long time as people talked to each other, trying to console your mom for her loss. It made you want to roll your eyes out of your head.
“You know, like, a month ago all these people were still calling my mom a cheating slut behind her back,” you said, leaning up against a tree.
Steve nodded, “Yeah, I know.”
“What, were your parents saying that?”
“Uh, yeah, they did… not that I really hear them talk much,” he sighed, “But, my mom always worries that my old man’s gonna divorce her for some younger woman like Tommy’s dad did.”
You nodded, “That makes sense… I just wish people wouldn’t be so damn nice about it now. It’s so fake and patronizing. And all for some guy who wasn’t even that great anyway.”
“Do you wanna get out of here for a bit?”
“Steve, I should at least stay-”
“Not out, out. Just maybe to someone else’s grave?” he took your hand, “Come on, I think you could use a few minutes somewhere else.”
You were pretty sure you knew where he was going with this, so you went ahead and followed Steve through the cemetery. It was pretty this time of year with many trees giving shade. Families still left all sorts of flowers on graves and the grass was well-kept.
Sure enough, Steve led you right to where Barb’s headstone was. The grave was relatively well-kept, though the Hollands ended up moving to the next town over. Enough for a fresh start, but also close to where their daughter was.
“I really hope ghosts are real,” you said softly.
Steve nodded, “I’m sure they are.”
“Well, if they are… I really hope Barb’s doing okay. I- I still think about her a lot. The things I said and the things I wish I’d said instead had I known I was never gonna see her again,” you took a shaky breath, “I don’t think I’m ever going to feel like I’m actually over it.”
He wrapped an arm around you, “I know what you mean.”
“How? Sorry, I- I just… I never really thought you missed her all that much.”
“I guess it’s not that I miss her. Well, not in the same way you do. It’s more in the way I really wish I didn’t have that party. And how I miss being able to look at my pool and just see a pool. Instead, all I think about is her and whatever she must’ve gone through.”
You leaned into Steve, “Did she disappear there?”
“Probably… no one really knows how it all happened.”
Every day it felt like Steve was getting closer and closer to telling you what happened. He would let odd and end details in. Though, none of it was enough for you to figure out what happened. It was enough at this point that you were pretty sure it was worse than whatever chemical leak the lab got accused of.
Still, no matter how curious you got or how badly you wanted to know everything, you weren’t going to make Steve say anything that he didn’t want to. It was enough that you knew he was going to tell you. Or that if he never told you, it wasn’t because he was trying to dupe you. It was because he simply couldn’t bring himself to talk about every awful thing that had ever happened within the last couple of years.
“Oh, um, I think I forgot to leave this at your stepdad’s grave,” Steve said, pulling out a white chrysanthemum from the inside of his suit jacket.
You felt him press it into your hands, “Oh, did you want me to leave it here?”
“Whatever you want. You could put it in my hair if you’d like,” he suggested, grinning.
You rolled your eyes, though you couldn’t help but chuckle a bit as you knelt down and set the flower at Barb’s grave. Hopefully, she somehow knew that you still cared about her after all this time. That while it didn’t sting to the same degree, you knew that most of the damage could never be fixed. Not really.
“Is it okay if I tell you what happened to Barb?” Steve asked, sitting down on the grass.
You moved over to sit next to him, “Of course, if- if you’re ready, I wanna know.”
“Okay, well, I just don’t want you to get mad at me for not telling you when I knew. ‘Cause I’ve known a lot longer than you have and I’ve beaten myself up over it every day, but I really thought that telling you the truth was going to get you hurt,” he ran a hand through his hair, “I- I know it’s stupid, but I was told I couldn’t tell you. Technically, I’m still not supposed to, but you saw what happened at the mall and… it’s all connected and you deserve to know.”
You held his hand, “Well, you’re telling me now, aren’t you?”
“Yeah, you’re right, I am. Um, do you remember how Will Byers disappeared around the same time?” Steve asked.
He explained everything that he knew about the Demogorgon. At least, that was the name the kids gave it. How it went between dimensions and hunted people. It was attracted to blood and Barb had just the luck of cutting herself at his party. Something that he never thought would have been a big deal. He never even invited her, Nancy just insisted she come. In hindsight, Steve still didn’t get it, but it didn’t matter because she ended up getting killed either way.
No one knew if she died due to exposure to the other dimension or if she was eaten. Well, if anyone knew, they never told Steve about it. In all fairness, at the time he only cared about not getting into trouble for that said stupid party. He hadn’t realized how bad things truly had been.
Steve even tried to explain why he had cut you off so many times at that time. Right when you needed someone the most, he knew he couldn’t be around you when you were that hurt by what happened to Barb. It would have only made him more guilty.
“I know I shouldn’t have said those things, and you were smart for not wanting anything to do with me at the time,” Steve said.
You frowned, “You were grieving too. I never thought about that… I mean, you were still a total asshole, but I thought you were just doing it because you could. Because you wanted to just hurt me even more. I- I’m so glad that I was wrong about all of that.”
“I’m still so sorry that I said those things. That I told you she wasn’t going to come back. I knew she was dead and- well, hearing you talk about her like she just went on a road trip was hard to hear.”
You nodded slowly, “Yeah, I never really thought about that.”
“Of course you didn’t. I’d be surprised if you put all the clues together on your own. I- I wanted to tell you, just so you know. I felt awful about never telling you what happened. Like, when I saw you biking all the way out-”
“Why didn’t you tell me then?”
“Well, I um… I didn’t think you’d believe me,” he said, shrugging, “Plus, if I didn’t let you do some sort of digging, I figured you’d just try the whole thing again and- I couldn’t leave you on the side of the road like that in the first place.”
“I mean, I guess you’re right,” you admitted, squeezing his hand.
In all fairness, you wouldn’t have believed almost anything that Steve told you. Though, it made a lot more sense. That entire first year after Barb went missing made sense. How Nancy and Jonathan seemed to both be aware of something completely unknown to you, that wasn’t you going crazy. You noticed all those weird things because there were weird things happening around you.
You took a look at the watch Steve wore, “We should probably get back, or I should anyways.”
“I’ll go with,” he replied as he got up, helping you off the grass, “I heard there was supposed to be some really good food after all this funeral stuff.”
You laughed as you got up and walked back to where everyone else was. No one seemed to notice that the two of you had been gone for a while. It seemed like people really had been shaken by this happening to someone they knew. Though, most of the town was in that boat. Around thirty people had been killed by whatever happened that night. You just knew it was a lot more complicated than some fire.
The funeral eventually ended and time continued to press onward. It was getting to be August once more and it was a lot better than the first time you tried to be with Steve. He was a lot more open, even if he didn’t explain himself completely. That wasn’t what you wanted. What you wanted was for him to know that he could trust you and that you cared about him.
Some nights, the strange monster would haunt your dreams and it would force you awake in the middle of the night. Steve wasn’t always there when you woke up, but he was always ready to answer the phone. Then, he would sneak up into your room and hold you close until you officially calmed down.
While you didn’t mention it, you thought it was stupid of you to be so hung up over something you saw. Something that didn’t even feel real. Steve was the one who dealt with all that. It made sense for him to be so shaken up about it. Though, you knew he would have insisted that you had every right to be scared of that thing. You would have been an idiot to not be scared of that sort of thing.
One morning, you were in the garden, watering some red tulips when Steve came in. He tended to pop in whenever. While the summer was nearing an end, you saw a lot more of him than you had before. Sometimes it was with the kids or with Robin, but he was getting paid rather nicely after losing his job since the place burned to the ground.
You two got plenty of time alone, but you were used to that. What you weren’t used to was him holding your hands in front of the kids he watched while Dustin would make some comment about it. While it was a quick way to make your face heat up and look at the floor, it also meant that Steve cared about you enough to show you to other people. That was more than you ever expected in the past.
“So… before everything at the mall, did you ever see anything weird that you couldn’t explain?” he asked, leaning on one of the tables inside your greenhouse.
You shrugged, “I don’t know, what constitutes weird?”
“Uh, let’s say something you saw once and then never again. Something you always had questions about but never got an answer that made sense, those types of things.”
You stood there and looked around, trying to think of something. The last couple of years had been so odd and you never expected to get a serious answer to your questions. Yet Steve was right there, always more than happy to offer an explanation at this point.
“Oh! I got it, back around last Halloween, when all the farmers lost their crops, everything I had planted in the ground just went rotten. Our new tree died and it was from some weird, slimy fungus. I think it was from some slugs I caught on a couple of plants, but they were really odd slugs too.”
Steve  looked at you, “Wait, you saw actual slugs? Were they normal and you just didn’t recognize them or… what?”
“Well, I don’t know, they didn’t have the right coloring and they were hiding in some of the shadiest, darkest parts of the greenhouse which made it so hard to find them and throw them out,” you explained, “Wait, why do you ask?”
Steve took a deep breath, “You’ll wanna sit down for this one. I know exactly what you’re talking about.”
You went out of the greenhouse and sat on the lawn. Steve sat next to you and began to explain what happened all those months ago.
While you were busy wondering what could have been if Steve had decided to get back with you before that point, he had been learning about how those slugs were actually monsters. That the rot in the ground was from that other dimension. You had been a mere few feet away from tunnels that ran throughout the entirety of Hawkins.
Every time you picked up a slug and threw it out into the lawn, those things were going to molt into things similar to the Demogorgon creature that Steve described at the funeral. You had been so close to such a terrible fate this entire time and you never would have guessed it.
“So… you’re saying I’m really lucky to be alive right now?” you asked.
Steve nodded slowly, “Yeah, uh, I guess I am. I- I guess I knew about the whole thing with your plants, but I didn’t really connect it all until now.”
“Makes sense why you were with all those kids now,” you said.
At least, you were able to understand why Steve would be the one watching all those kids while Will was possessed by something from that different dimension. You just could barely believe that it happened twice. Well, technically three times, but you didn’t know much about the events of that summer.
To try and make up for such a jarring conversation, Steve got you lunch at the diner you liked so much. It just felt so surreal that you could have ended up exactly like Barb. Only, you weren’t so sure you would’ve had as many people out looking for you. Steve probably would have tried to do something, but he probably would’ve figured out what happened to you.
At least you wouldn’t have had some poor girl on a wild goose chase that she set up for herself just to try and find you. There was something mildly assuring about that. Though, if nothing else, hearing that finally got you to feel like you truly were lucky to still be around.
Time continued to pass by and you stayed with Steve. He was so good to you and you did everything you could to make him happy. School started and he was starting to look for another job with Robin as it became clear he wasn’t going to be getting whatever severance pay he had gotten for forever.
All the finances that dealt with your step-dad’s passing were still being sorted out. Though, it seemed more and more like everything was going to go to your mom. He never had a will in place, no matter how hard Tommy tried to insist they keep looking. At this point, you were sure he was just trying to delay the inevitable. Not that you thought your mom was going to cut him off. Though, you mainly hoped that just because it would keep him out of Hawkins.
The leaves on the trees were starting to turn orange, red, and gold in the park that you walked through with Steve. You had just gotten out of school and you wanted to see him. It had only been a day, but you had spent a lot of that day seeing other dumb couples getting to see each other the whole time.
“Hey, I think it’s about time I told you why I was so late to your party,” Steve said as he pulled you over to a park bench.
You nodded, “Okay. Is this the last thing of all the stuff that I’m technically not supposed to know?”
“Yeah, I think this is it. And if anything else happens, I swear I’ll tell you the first moment I think anything is going on,” he squeezed your hand, “It’s funny, because I was actually really close to telling you about this one before any of the crazy stuff happened.”
Steve finally explained everything with the Russian code that Dustin found that summer. How it all led to the Russian Base in the mall that had been spoken about on the news. The reason you didn’t see him at work was because he had been stuck down there, getting tortured by Russians. All the while the Mind Flayer that pulled the strings a year ago came back for more.
Your step-dad had both been killed by the monster and was the monster all at once. It made a lot more sense once Steve explained what happened in full, but it did make you feel sorry for him. Mostly because you couldn't imagine what being killed like that must have felt like. 
“So, that thing I saw that night, that was a bunch of melted up people?” you asked, furrowing your brow.
Steve nodded, “Yeah, it’s pretty gross to think about, but that’s how it happened. It’s all over this time, though. At least, I think so.”
“Hey, I’m sure it is. Whatever gate existed before is closed now and no American or Russian is gonna be able to change that again. It’s over,” you insisted.
At least, you hoped it was. You couldn’t blame Steve for being skeptical about it after the same thing happened three times. Still, you had been around through all of that one way or another. You weren’t planning on leaving now that you knew the full story.
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shorties-unite · 3 years
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A Comprehensive List of Reasons why I Cried in the Year 2020
JANUARY
- Ex texting “who’s this?”
- Watching Hannah Montana, Robby is such a good dad, made me miss my dad
- A story about an old couple where one of them is forgetting. Imagine being in love. Imagine forgettting. Scary but beautiful
February
- LaDarius’s brother crying when Navarro won nationals
- Had an argument with brother cause he didn’t get that I can’t just like anyone
March
- Frozen II a little bc of how boyband-y kristoff’s love song was, mostly bc of Show Yourself
- Got home bc of corona virus, made my brother mad just by existing. Also I’m probably just exhausted from the weekend
- Can’t deal with no schedule bc of corona and miss GC after ONE DAY.
April
- more breakdown about no schedule and musculoskeletal Anatomy
- Thought about Louis Tomlinson’s family and then saw a video of Simon saying supportive stuff when he performed at XFactor after his mum died
- Another vid about Louis god he’s amazing
- Louis Tomlinson
- Mr Robot
- Mr Robot again but like big time
- My Robot part 3
- Interpersonal Skills essay research
- Mr Robot part four I knew it was coming but god damn rami you wound me
- One tear for Phineas and Ferb
- Fuckin rami, fucking robots, makes me sad that that’s a real thing
- Mr Robot the finale, and definitely not anything else that I may or may not have found out about today because I’m a bad bitch and being sad about boys again would be dumb
May
- Got super anxious about interpersonal skills bst, cried in front of tutor during test
- Coughed so hard I cried, x2 but Idk if that counts
- A short story about a dude marrying a dead girl
June
- Mum unsuccessful in competitive process
- 13 reasons why 2nd last ep got me teary cause Troye and Winston and Alex and Charlie
- Decided to rewatch DEH and feel things
- Last episode of 13rw ew
July
- Twice watching Hamilton
- It chap 2 got me a lil cause of course it did
- Louis tweeted for the 10 year anniversary, he thanked everyone and tagged all the boys, even zayn
- Queer eye got me tearing up, frick man
August
- mum and little sister leave after their trip for sister’s formal dress and I missed having ppl around so it was really great to see them and now I’m lonely
September
- New phineas and ferb day
October
- Was anxious all day, forgot to eat before 3pm, got teary because I was standing too close to a group of loud teenage boys with bad haircuts in a public place and couldn’t get away
- Later that night, I think I’m still just anxious and also I have jealousy
- Again, this time watching a @dannyphantom.exe tik tok but also still feeling things so I’m blaming that
- Roman calling Virgil “brave”
- Kathy Johnson beam story in Defying Gravity on YouTube
- “Hoping This Cold Blue Water Scrubs me Clean and Spits me out Again” ty for the rec O_____
- Onward x2 (one when Ian realised how his brother had been there for him, and one when barley gets to say goodbye to his dad but Ian is stuck behind a rock and can’t go to them)
- The Keri Straugh story
- Watching new girl with mum
November
- Girl Meets World x2
- Oh look Girl Meets World again not Maya’s dad
- Glee, Kurt’s dad almost died okay it’s sad
- 5.5x at youngest sister’s dance concert
- Glee again, Jean’s funeral
- Watched that Netflix short if anything happens I love you, I don’t think it’s as sad as ppl say but I’m not American soooo
December
- Got cancelled on by T____ for a third time, felt bad about getting cancelled and ignored then sister asked if I was okay and it was very nice but I was not
- Got sad bc I don’t like my surfers eye and no one will listen to me complain about it
- Dance express senior gala
- Mr Stark I don’t feel so good
- Endgame tho man
- Got yelled at by manager for not helping supervisir B____ when I was one of the only ones that had set up anything and it felt unfair
- On Christmas bc I have to make a call to apple support to figure out my trade in
- Cried after trying to trade in phone bc I didn’t want to make a second phone call to Apple
- Got emo in sc bc of wanting to be included in things but then friend who it was sort of directed at saw it and now I have to explain it and the whole point of posting it is getting it out without hurting people but it still feels like it hurts people (ps pretty sure I discovered I have a fear of abandonment and neglect)
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metacarpus · 3 years
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I'm a little mad!!!
my step-dad.... basically he ✨forgot✨ that he was supposed to help my mother move manure this evening (shovel it into the trailer, shovel it out of the trailer, manipulae the trailer around bc my mum can't manœuvre with it) (hint: it's heavy!). so my little sister and me, we went with her, and we were really efficient and proud because it's hard work! and then he comes home from who knows where, and we've already started the dishes and thought about dinner and he goes 'oh that' s just it that you've shoveled? this tiny little square? easy!' well motherfucker, if it' s so easy we would have liked to see you fucking do it! my mum started telling him it wasn't okay to leave her high and dry like that and he was saying he hadn't seen the message and hinting that she had sent it too late, she said dude I told you yesterday for fuck's sake, but then she was cut short because she saw he had brought flowers..... damnit
and the worst is to come, because then he was a little upset that we hadn't made dinner! while shoveling the manure!! bitch
and then 'you should have told me what you needed I could have bought it' at this point my mum was literally not answering, god, can you imagine being so fucking clueless....... I hate how nobody deserves my mum because she has the curse of being heterosexual
for the record this is the size of the trailer, that was full of soil, that we shoveled directly from the field
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it's so obvious he holds nothing but indifference or contempt for housework, we spent most of the day with my other sister and her kids who are by definition a lot of work, and both my mum and little sis worked this morning, as for me I did all the fucking dishes and cooking as fucking usual and attended conferences... but he brushes that aside as easy or meaningless work I guess. infuriating. he never hangs the laundry, or does the laundry, or cook more than twice a year, after which we'll hear about his dish for months, and God forbid he ever cleans...
he says 'we don't have the same notion of hard physical work'. okay, sure, dude. you can shovel faster and dig deeper. but what's the good of that if you never do either? you're the man, I get it, but what's the good of that if Mum and I are the ones to dig and shovel your fucking garden?
'Kay... i' m done now
he's not a bad guy, and I appreciate him most times. he's generous. but sometimes the patriarchy just jumps out and. ew. hell no. ewwww
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taejeonie · 4 years
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moments that markhee stans live for
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everytime they sing or rap as a duo (e.g. go)
their stage presence>>>>>
like they blend well together but they still have their own spotlight, u know what i mean?
and then back in mmc they were like the mom and dad of the group
“oh we’re just same-age friends”
the mcs always tease them too
so when fans found out taehee was gonna debut with the boys they were ECSTATIC
every time someone would avoid or not notice mark’s high fives, taehee’s got his back ;))
but when mark asks her for a high five she just stares at it
but then she’s like “just kidding!!! hihihi” and high fives him back
when they went to award shows, taehee would make mark laugh by dancing to the others’ performances
like she’s not mocking it she’s just eXTRA EXTRA
when they danced whip nae nae they were so cute :<<
in their weekly idol episode with nct 2018, they stood next to each other and helped each other out in the language thingy game
THEIR ENDING POSE IN “TRIGGER THE FEVER” ( ^ω^ )
but then that part in “superhuman”
that’s a whole different mood ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
like they both got flustered at first but they just got used to it
like there was this one concert where there faces were SO close
the venue was screaming
speaking of flustered
everytime taehee tells a pickup line it would always be directed @ mark unless stated otherwise
but mark just got used to that too
taehee joins in on teasing him with the dreamies
“TAEHEE AND I ARE THE SAME AGE!!! WHY WON’T YOU GUYS TEASE HER TOO”
“just five more days, she could’ve been a 00’ liner”
“and i’m cool, you loser :ppp”
but sometimes when the babies get too out of control she helps mark calm them down
“guys, please focus :)))”
in the new weekly idol episode, taehee’s question was “if you would have one roommate forever, who would it be?”
and so she hugged mark
“is it who you want to date?”
“someone you like?”
“taehee-ssi, why did you choose mark?”
and taehee has her head on top of mark’s so it’s c u t e
“other than we’re the same age, mark takes care of me but there are other times where i take care of him,,,,so it’s kinda nice”
“ooooo it is who would you date”
“i would get in trouble if that was the question”
mark couldn’t keep his eyes off taehee when she did her facial window
iTS NOT LIKE HE LIKES HER THAT WAY ITS BC SHES REFRESHING TO WATCH AND NOT CRINGEY U SUCKERS
mm what else
there was this one interview in america that got markhee speaking in their own language
“like,,,like yeah you know what i mean”
“yeah it’s like,,,like jsjd you know?”
“yEAH LIKE THAT!!”
“they talk like this in the dorms it’s confusing sometimes”
mark and taehee are each others’ seratonin boosts during performances
but also when they’re not performing ofc
taehee mentioned she and mark would practice a lot predebut
and that when mark is alone, she would watch him practice and join him later on
“mark really works hard,,,it makes you want to be like him in a way. that’s why when we were trainees, whenever he was alone while practicing i would accompany him and watch him,,and then join him later on”
whenever mark calls taehee “joanie” it’s so soft
cute counter 39482993
they posted a cover once and it was just mark and taehee goofing around while making the video
taehee sang while mark played the guitar, but he joined in once in a while
dreamies would always want to hear their thoughts during recording
“i want to hear what mark-hyung thinks about this”
“noona, i’m not sure how to do this. how should i do it?”
there was this one interview where taehee thought mark looked the cutest at that moment
so she stuck around him the whole time
there was this one vlive where they jammed to just disney songs
“LET IT GOOO!! LET IT GOOO”
“mark you wanna make a ‘let it go’ remix and you rap?”
“HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA”
there are times where mark would ruffle taehee’s hair
and during those times she would be like -_-
but the fact that her dimples show make mark laugh because he thinks she’s cute
taehee was mark’s number 1 supporter when he was in “high school rapper”
they laugh at each other’s jokes
but you know that thing where you laugh too hard you have to lean on somebody so you won’t fall?
yeah that’s markhee too
you would hear stories from the dreamies how markhee went to bring them food on set
“mark-hyung brought us churros and taehee-noona had drinks”
when they were in the dreamies’ live after their ridin’ performance eVERYONE WENT WILD
the parents + their babies uwu
they have matching shoes
mark used to be the member with a different contact name on taehee’s phone while the rest were just plain
“what are the members’ contact names on your phone”
“lee donghyuck, lee taeyong, kim doyoung-“
“WAHAHAHAHHAHA”
“WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT”
taehee continues to answer the question like they’re not complaining atm
“jung jaehyun, markly with a heart, johnny seo-“
“wHY IS MARK-HYUNG’S CONTACT NAME DIFFERENT?? YOU SHOULD HAVE A HEART NEXT TO MINE”
hyuck: <//3
“nO WAIT LET ME EXPLAIN!!! so at first all your names were,,just your names but mark saw his on my phone and he asked me to change it-“
mark smiles nervously bc of the host’s reaction, “hey it’s not like that”
“nonono, it is like that!! so i changed it and showed him and he was like “ah better :>>””
the way she imitated mark made everyone in the studio laugh
“mark doesn’t like affection but he has his moments where he’s the one giving it.”
mark being flustered pt. 29842894
they also are in-sync almost all of the time it’s creepy
they also say the same things at the same time
when they were at the ama’s she was wearing heels
so when she stood next to mark, taehee was like
“hehe i’m taller than you”(╹◡╹)
so mark stands on his toes for the whole interview
when he would lose his footing bc of that they would both laugh
sneaky glances during interviews
hearing things wrong
being dirty minded
there was this one time taehee almost slipped on the stairs while going down from the stage but mark caught her
when mark mentioned that taehee was one of the people he wanted to grow old with
everyone cRIED
“one person i want to grow old with? umm, taehee? taehee because she’s always been there for me. she teases me a lot but then she takes care of me like an older sister would. she’s very understanding and thoughtful of others. and even if we fight, we still have a strong relationship bc we get each other,,in a way. so,,yeah :)))”
besides johnny, mark loves to imitate her australian accent
“i wanna go home”
mark, with an accent: “Oh, yOU wAnT tO gO hOmE?”
they’re also cute roommates lol
they’re either jamming hard to their favorite songs
or having deep talks from their respective beds
lastly, their graduation from dream
they prepared a video for the dreamies
it was filled with their off-screen moments
mostly inside the car while they were going somewhere
and then jisung’s bday predebut
and there were pictures of them too
and then the prank taehee pulled on renjun and jisung,,where she pretended she was mad at them
“i think i cried,” jisung said in the video
and then the vcr ends with markhee saying they would continue to support dream and cheer for them
and then now is their ending ment
mark was kinda serious and is on the verge of crying
taehee was too but she was trying to lighten up the situation
“don’t criiiiiiii”
but then she ended up crying too
when taehee was saying her ending ment,,mark put an arm around her shoulders
and then they group hugged
bUT MARKHEE WOULD BE BACK IN DREAM SO ITS A WINWIN FOR EVERYONE
:DDD
but even when they left they still are mentioned in dream’s videos/lives
*on a phone call* “mark-hyung, is taehee-noona there?”
“noona? ah taehee-“
“you forgot her name? HAHAHA”
“-is here”
“RENJUN, MARK ATE MY SAUSAGE I’M SAD”
“I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS YOURS”
“I TOLD EVERYONE THAT I WOULD LEAVE IT IN THE FRIDGE!!! I SHOUTED!!”
“I DIDNT HEAR YOU!! SERIOUSLY”
“THEN HOW COME JUNGWOO-OPPA HEARD ME HM??”
“they fight like an old couple”
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moneymingyu · 3 years
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[cw: talks of death, drinking]
Mingyu has this faint memory of a boy with dark, shaggy hair running around at the park him and his father used to go to. He would always be wearing his backpack, obvious to everyone that he came straight here after school, and would be chasing butterflies or catching ladybugs.
On one of the days where Mingyu’s dad would throw the ball a little too far to teach the boy how to jump up and catch, it rolled away and landed in front of a pair of scuffed sketchers.
“Hey, sorry!” Mingyu remembers saying, cheeks red from chasing the ball down. His father is standing a distance away behind him, one hand shielding his eyes from the sun and the other on his hip.
“S’accident,” the other mutters shyly, bending down to pick up the baseball.
Mingyu loved to make friends as a child which is why the next thing out of his mouth is “I’m Mingyu! Kim Mingyu!” The other boy’s front tooth is missing and he remembers that because he peaks his tongue peaks out through the gap.
He cocks his head to the side, a sly smile creeping across his cheeks. “Names Jungkook, Jeon Jungkook! But my sister is only four and she doesn’t know how to say it so she calls me Kookie.”
“My dad calls me Gyu,” Mingyu laughed. “He only calls me Mingyu is when I’m in trouble.”
“Well Gyu,” Jungkook hands him back the ball. “You must be joining the little league, huh?”
“Little league?” Mingyu raised his eyebrows.
“Yeah!” Jungkook’s eyes were wide with excitment. “My brother has this kid in his class named Ten—like the number—and he asked Wonwoo hyung if he wanted to play but he’d rather stay inside so he told me to come play with the kids my age but I dunno how to play since my dad’s always busy and hyung hates sports since he’s kinda lazy and slow like a sloth and—“
“You talk a lot,” Mingyu smiled. He liked that. His dad always called him a motor mouth because he could talk his ear off and at five, he thought it’d be fun to have someone to keep up with him. “Wanna come play with me and my dad?”
“Uh, duh!” Jungkook jumped up, racing Mingyu to the older man, who had resided under the oak tree with a bottle of water.
From that Friday on, Jungkook would play baseball with Mingyu and his dad. They later joined the little league baseball team together (though that only lasted one season before Mingyu decided soccer was more of his thing).
Now, every time Mingyu comes back to this park, he can’t help but think of Jeon Jungkook, the boy with kind eyes and a bright smile.
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Mingyu still has fond memories of Jungkook whenever he comes to this park. Though, they’re a bit fuzzy around the edges, he stil finds himself laughing at all of their mishaps and hiccups that took place on this grass. And every time he looks at Pumpkin, he cant help but see his face.
“And then Jungkook hit a home run and Yugyeom and I smashed cupcakes in his face to celebrate,” Mingyu whispers to the girl who sits a distance away from him.
Her face is blank, eyes unreadable. Mingyu scans the bags under her eyes and the way her brows have furrowed and thinks “When did Hobag get the chance to grow up?”
He still remembers when she was a kid. When she’d come to all of Jungkook’s baseball games and hearing her scream for “Kookie” or ask “Nu” to take her to buy some snacks at the concessions stands. He still remembers her being a freshman in high school and how she and Seungkwan would trail after him and Wonwoo with whispered secrets and wild ideas for the four of them to partake in.
He still remembers the last day he saw her. The day that he was too coward to say goodbye to her and Wonwoo and left on the train earlier than they knew. He remembers the ignored calls and texts and how they soon fizzled out to every day to every couple of days to once a week until they finally stopped.
He doesn’t deserve this.
“The other night,” she whispers as if she could read Mingyu’s mind, “I had a dream.” She runs her finger over the polaroid. Mingyu realizes then that this is the first time she’s seen Jungkook’s face since she was 12. How cruel is this life? “In the dream, I hit a home run. The following day,” she flashes the picture in Mingyu’s direction, “you find this.”
It’s a sign, Mingyu knows that’s what she’s thinking.
“I’m not going to ask you why you left the way you did. It’s been five years and I spent way too much time stressing over it — especially since you welcomed Seungkwan with open arms. That dream...had to be mean something.” She runs her fingers through her hair and shakes her head. “It had to be a sign from Jungkook.”
“Hobag,” Mingyu whispers as he sees the tears spring from her eyes. “I am so sorry—“
“I told you,” she wipes her tears away a bit too harshly with her sleeve. “I don’t want to hear it.” Mingyu frowns and nods, leaning back onto the oak tree. “I don’t forgive you for what you did, Mingyu. I don’t forgive you for hurting my brother,” she shakes her head. “But...before I went to bed that night, I asked Jungkook to send me a sign on what I should do next.” Her eyes rake over the picture once more before she says, “And I guess that means to let you back in.”
“You don’t have to,” Mingyu whispers. “I fucked up, Hobag. I didn’t know what I was thinking and I’m sorry but—“
“I told you I don’t want to hear it,” the younger groans.
“But I am,” he says.
“Mingyu,” she breathes, looking up at him with tears in her eyes. “Have you learned nothing? Life is too short to be angry.”
Mingyu feels dizzy at her words.
That night. The last words between Jungkook and Wonwoo. The fire.
“I’ll be here now,” Mingyu tells her. “I promise.” He finally crosses the boundaries and pulls her into a hug, her tears finally flowing freely.
“I miss him,” she hiccups into his chest.
“Me too,” Mingyu frowns. “I miss them both. So much.”
They stay like that until all of their cheeks are dry and Mingyu wipes away the last tear. He smiles sadly at her, chuckling when he remembers just how much of a crier she was when they were younger.
“If someone told me last week I’d be doing this again, I would’ve laughed in their face,” Mingyu says as he swipes his sleeve under her eyes one last time.
“I would’ve passed out,” she snorts.
Mingyu leans back onto the oak tree again and sighs. It’s chilly outside and it’s dark out. “Isn’t Wonwoo going to look for you?” he asks.
“Seungcheol is over right now. They’re making amends,” she explains.
“Seungcheol?” Mingyu’s eyes are closed now, listening to the wind as it whistles past him.
“He’s one of Wonwoo’s best friends. Seungcheol had a fall out with their third friend Jeonghan and it made Wonwoo upset. Last I checked, they were cuddling so,” she shrugs even though Mingyu can’t see.
“Jeonghan?” he opens his eyes. “Is that the guy you were with in town?”
She furrows her brows, looking at him with confusion before she remembers the day he’s referring to. “So I did see you then!” He shrugs and closes his eyes again. “Gyu, you were here this entire time and you didn’t even tell Seungkwan?”
“I needed some time to think,” he says simply. “Is Jeonghan your boyfriend?”
“What?” she sputters. “What makes you— EW! You think I’m dating Yoon Jeonghan?”
“Oh?” Mingyu smirks as he realizes he’s successfully changed the subject. “Then maybe it’s Vernon? Woozi said he writes a bunch of songs about you.”
“Mingyu!” she smacks his arm. “I’m leaving. I almost forgot how annoying you were.”
She stands to her feet and brushes off blades of grass, ready to stomp off when Mingyu stops her again with the sound of his voice.
“The lanterns,” he says. She turns to him just as he stands. “Are you still making three?”
“Just because you weren’t here doesn’t mean we won’t make your dad a lantern,” she crosses her arms.
Mingyu isn’t surprised. Well, maybe that’s because he’s had a couple of days to simmer into the fact that they still visit his late father’s grave. But, it still makes him smile — even if he feels sad inside.
The lanterns started on the first anniversary of Jungkook’s death.
Jungkook had always been in love with the stars and could name thirty constellations before he could do long division. Because of this, the Jeon family would make lanterns and send them off on his anniversary. When Mingyu became a part of their friend group, he and Seungkwan would each make one for his dad and send it off with them.
“Do you think—“
“I’ll talk to Wonwoo,” she cuts him off. “But you have to remember that this time of year is super hard for him, Gyu.”
He nods. It’s totally understandable. If your best friend just up and left you without a word— “Did you just call me Gyu?”
“That’s your name, isn’t it?” she says, turning on her heel.
“You only call me Gyu whenever you’re not mad at me,” he says. Pumpkin doesn’t turn around this time. Instead, she keeps walking until he comes to his senses. “Wait! Hobag! I’ll give you a ride! Dammit, slow down! I can’t believe it’s been five years and we’re still having this argument! You can’t go home by yourself you could get robbed—“
And she keeps walking, feeling at ease for the first time in a very long time.
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Chapter Ten: Not Enough
Summary: If home is where the heart is, then the hearts of Kim Mingyu and the Jeon siblings must lie within the stars. Maybe that’s why the always feel so out of place. Maybe that’s why Mingyu left town and never turned back. Maybe that’s why the Jeon siblings can’t leave this town. Maybe this time, the stars will align and things might start actually making sense.
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a/n 2: what drama do you guys want to see first?
a/n 3: i have final exams next week so i might be slow to update! please bare with me for the time being!!!
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noro-noro-noro · 2 years
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oh right i was distracted from the dream i had by my tamagotchi making the HELP ME!!! sound AAND THEN SHE EVOLVED!!!!! swag. anyway the parts of the dream that i remembber were like this
1. trapped upstairs in my mom’s house, except it wasn’t quite my mom’s house? anyway we went in these little storage areas on the upstairs floor. therew as a blind thing downstairs that emitted vibrations/an aura that appeared aas dotted red lines, but it was busy downwstairs & not looking up. we couldn’t go downstairs though, so we were trying to squeeze through a small hidden passage in the storage area. the people in front of me were bigger than me & i thought they might get stuck, but i’d rather be behind them than trapped in front of them because i only get claustrophobic if my exit path is blocked by other people. 
soemthing happened & then we were downstairs anyway. i realized we had our own dotted red line auras & the beast thing was RIGHT THERE so i held my breath (in my dreams if i hold my breath i turn invisible sometimes) & like. that worked for me. rip to my friends though that was pretty vicious. anyway i ran into the garage & there were a bunch of weird cars there, but the thing was also trying to get into its own car so i had to kepe holding my breath & dodging around the cars
2. now in the backyard of my mom’s house with my dad. this was in the aftermath of a different dream. there was a bunch of stuff , like chairs & shit from the Thing That Happened One Time In That Other Dream, & me & my dad had to gather them up. there was a vague sense of urgency, like this was really important, but it wasn’t like scary or that bad or anything because my dad was there talking about the chairs. like it was important to get the chairs. they were all really fancy & different types of chairs. 
while we were doing this my mom was on the back porch with her relatives & got mad about something & then cut my hair. i was mad about this. i do need a haircut & i have been thinking about getting a haircut but i don’t trust my mom with it bc she will stop at nothing to cut it all off. anayway it was now shoulder length & i was really mad abou tit & i was trying to express to her “hey it really fucking pisses me off when you say you’re going to do X thing & then you do Y, like when you say you’ll trim off 3 inches for split ends & then do 6 inches, or when you take me to your hairdresser & i tell the lady what i want & you tell the lady what YOU want & since you’re paying her obviously she’s going to cut off all my warm hair just bfore i go to prague in winter, or when i’m sick & i tell her “i really don’t want tomato egg drop soup can i just have chicken noodle without seaweed or any add ons” & then she makes tomato egg drop soup with seaweed & add ons”. whatever
anyway i think my dad & i found all but one of the chairs (either 6/7 or 7/8)
3. there was a third dream but my sister is being so annoying right now that i forgot it while i was talkng to her. part 3 of this dream is just me complaining. i asked her “what kind of moon cakes does mom have? i only had 1 at dad’s house” & she said “you have 2 moon cakes at dad’s house” & i said  “no. there was only 1. me & dad split it the other day & it wasn’t very good. do you have any lotus root ones?” & then i was like “oh mom said she’d ordered some egg yolk ones, does she have those?” & my sister was like “no they’re in the mail” & i was like okay. what’s the brand y’all buy & where can i get some? i’ll just buy some for myself. which she did not answer. and i asked her four more tmes until she finally answered & nyway at this point the price of the mooncakes that i like are all overinflated anyway bc it’s literally the mid autumn festival TODAY
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onceuponastory · 4 years
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Coming Back Home Chapter Two: I Am A Heart
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“I am a heart that’s hard to pin, You are an arrow sticking in” - hey ocean!: i am a heart 
Read Chapter One: Hometown here!
Plot: Six years ago, Y/N left her hometown and all its bad memories behind, and never looked back. But now, she’s come back to be the maid of honour in her sister’s wedding. Returning ‘home’ means she has to confront her past, the last thing she wants to do. When she meets the handsome best man Nick, she feels more comfortable…until her sister asks her to show Nick around town…a town that Y/N fell out of love with a long time ago.
Can Y/N fall back in love with the town she left behind, and maybe find love of her own along the way? Important: This story is based on a prompt by @orphicodysseywrites​. It’s a mix of prompts one and two from this post, so full credit for this idea goes to them! Warnings: There’s a few mentions of death in this chapter. If you’re sensitive to it and don’t want to read this chapter because of it, I totally understand <3 A/N: This is a very long chapter, almost 2,500 words long, so I hope you all enjoy it, lmao. As always, this chapter has been checked for errors, but if you see any pls do let me know. I’m going to be inactive this coming week, because I’m taking a little staycation to a place with very limited wifi, so if you send me a message/request, it might take me a while to respond. But I will respond ASAP! I will also be trying to work on chapter three/other stuff whilst I’m away, but I REALLY need this break, so pls don’t get mad if I don’t write anything.
Again, special thanks goes to my best friend Jo, aka @thesundrop​, who made this banner, and helped so much with planning this fic. Some of you may know her as @staticscreenwriting​, where she writes Billy fics. Check them out, they’re amazing!
Disclaimer: I do NOT own Nick or his character! I just used Nick bc he’s the only character of Dacre’s that fits this prompt. Again, aside from Nick being in this, this fic has NOTHING to do with The Broken Hearts Gallery. But you should all go see the movie if you can, because it’s adorable!
Adjusting my hair and outfit in the mirror for what felt like the hundredth time, I sigh. “You look fine, stop adjusting your outfit...” I tell myself. “Nick’s not going to care how you look....right?” God, I’m a mess. Putting on yet more lipgloss, Jane’s voice echoes in my mind. 
“Both of you look so much like your mother. Especially you Y/N.” She was right, I did. Not that I had many memories of how my mother looked when she was still alive, but hours spent leafing through stacks of photo albums with my Nana and Katie when we were younger had made me more familiar with her and how she looked. She was gorgeous. I wish we had more time with her. If we had, our lives would be very different...and I would never have come to this town in the first place. Suddenly, I feel stinging sensation at my eyes. Aaaaand I’m crying. Great. Just what I fucking needed. A knock sounds at my door. 
“Y/N? Are you alright? You’ve been up here a while.” Nick’s voice sounds through the door. No, THIS is just what I fucking needed. Shit. Now he’s going to think I’m a total emotional weirdo who doesn’t want to spend time with him. Not that that was a TOTAL lie, I did want to spend time with him....just anywhere but here. Oh, he’s going to hate me. “If you’re not feeling well or something’s come up, we could do this another time?” Nick continues, and I sigh again. He’s so sweet. I can’t let him down. Quickly trying to stop the tears from falling, I open the door, and Nick smiles. “Hi. You look great.” I immediately blush.
“Thanks...Oh! So do you!” I gasp, trying not to seem awkward.
“Thank you.” Nick chuckles. He looks at me closer, and his eyebrows furrow together. “Are you okay? Have you been crying?” He asks. 
“Uh, no! It’s just...allergies.” I lie. “The dust in this house is terrible. So...shall we head out?” I ask, and Nick nods. The two of us walk downstairs.
“Byeeee you two! Have fun!” Katie’s voice calls from the living room. Oh, I’m sure I will. 
“So, what do you wanna do?” Nick asks as the two of us leave the house. 
“I don’t mind. I mean, we could go to the park, or for a coffee....or just, a walk in the woods?” I suggest. “Actually, maybe not the woods. There may be an axe murderer, or the big bad wolf or something.” I immediately cringe as soon as the words leave my mouth, and Nick laughs. Oh god, he’s laughing at me and how cringy I am.
“I mean, I didn’t personally think of that, but that’s a valid concern. I think we should take the park then.” He says, and I nod. “This way?” He points towards the town, and I nod. He sets off, leaving me standing there. 
Well, that went better than expected. Oh right, I better go catch up with him. 
“So, how long did you two live here?” Nick asks as we both walk closer into town. 
“Um, about...sixteen years.” I work out the maths in my head. “We moved here when I was four, and Katie was two. We both left to go to college.”
“Oh! I thought this was where you guys were born.”
“Nooo, we just call it our hometown cause we’ve lived here from such a young age. At this point, it feels like our hometown. We’re actually from New York City, and we both moved back there for college. I live there full time now. Katie’s in New Jersey.” I explain.
“Oh, what a coincidence! I live in New York too.” Nick smiles. “Small world, right?” I nod. “So, if you don’t mind me asking, why did your parents pick here to move? This place is nice and all, but it’s a lot different than New York.” He asks. A memory flashes through my mind. 
“What the hell do you expect me to do? I can’t look after them! This shithole is the best option, and you know it.” I shudder, hoping Nick doesn’t notice. 
“Um....just personal circumstances really. Our Dad wanted a change of pace and scenery for us. He thought the city was too busy for us to grow up in.” Nick nods, and I breathe a sigh of relief. Another crisis averted. I look up at the sky and see the leaves on the trees. Some were bright orange, whilst others were red. I sigh happily. “You gotta hand it to my sister, she picked one of the most beautiful times of year to get married.” 
“Yeah, beautiful.” Nick mumbles, and I look back over at him to see him looking at me. 
“What?” His eyes go wide.
“Nothing! Just agreeing with you!” He gasps, before continuing to walk. Okay, that was weird. I shrug it off and follow him down the street. After a while, we reach the park and begin to walk around together. The two of us are silent as we take in the scenery around us. The leaves crunch under our feet. I was right, this time of year really was beautiful. The cold wind blows, and I shiver. “Want my jacket?” Nick asks. 
“No thanks, I’m okay.” I smile. But come on, giving a girl his jacket? That’s so cliché...and so damn cute.
“Want to go on the swings? That might warm you up a bit.” He suggests. Another memory enters my mind.
“When’s he coming back?” I ask, tugging on her skirt. “I miss him.
“...Soon, sweetheart. He’ll be back soon. Why don’t you go and play on the swings and I’ll come over and give you a push in a minute?” She suggests, and I nod vigorously.
“Okay! See you in a minute!” I call, running towards the swings.
“Yeah, sure. Let’s go on the swings.”
~~~
A few hours later, Nick and I were in the local coffee shop, chatting about everything from our interests to our time at college. “So when do you want to practise our big dance number?” Nick asks, taking a sip of his coffee. I sigh.
“Oh right, I forgot we’re meant to plan that at some point.” Nick chuckles. “So, what song do you want to pick?” Nick shrugs.
“It’s up to you, I’m okay with whatever.” I raise an eyebrow.
“Really? I don’t think Katie would be happy if we picked something like Baby Got Back to dance to.” Nick bursts out laughing. 
“You’re right. But it would be funny. Any suggestions?” I shake my head.
“I mean there’s so many...maybe something slow? Or something more upbeat?”
“Well we have some time, so why don’t we each make a list and pick one?” He offers. I nod. “You know, I had a really nice time today...” Nick begins. I smile.
“Me too.” And I actually meant it. Despite how much I was dreading this, it went better than I expected. My phone rings, and I take it out of my bag. “Hey, Katie...Yes, I know...Okay, I’ll be back soon. Bye.” I hang up. 
“Everything alright?” Nick asks.
“Sorry, turns out I’m urgently needed for some maid of honour duties, so I gotta go. Are you okay here, or do you wanna walk back to the house with me?” Nick waves me off.
“No, don’t worry, you go on. I need to take care of something in town anyways. See you later.”
“Bye, Nick.” I leave the coffee shop, and start the walk back to the house, almost feeling a spring was in my step. For the first time since being back here, I was happy. I was comfortable. And it was all thanks to Nick. I soon reach Nana’s house and walk inside. “Helloooo!” I call.
“Well, someone sounds happy.” Katie’s voice sounds from the living room. She comes out to greet me. “Oh. My. God. Look at the smile on your face!” She gasps. 
“I had a great time with Nick today.” I explain.
“I can see that. Guess my big sister has the hots for the best man, huh?” She teases. My eyes widen.
“No, I don’t!” My cheeks flush. 
“Mhm sure. Deny it all you want, I can tell. Anyway, come on you, we need to make the centrepieces.” I wasn’t in love with Nick. I may love spending time with him, but I absolutely was NOT in love with him.
~~~
That Night
"We are here today to honour the life of Rose L/N.” The priest begins. “She was a light in the lives of many, especially her two granddaughters, Y/N and Katie, who she is survived by. For most of their lives, she was also their guardian.” 
“He’s not here.” Katie whispers in my ear. I discretely roll my eyes.
“Of course he isn’t. He stopped caring a long time ago.” I reply. I find her hand beside mine and give it a squeeze. “We have to be strong together now, like she said. It’s just us now.”
My eyes open, and I look around the room for a moment to get my bearings. I’m still in my childhood bedroom. It was just a dream. A dream featuring our past. A past I had tried to run from. Of course, it found a way to find me again. It has a funny way of doing that. My eyes drift over to the bedside table, displaying a picture of Katie and I with our Nana from many years ago. I smile softly and run my fingers over the image. “I miss you, Nana. I wish you were still here. To guide me...to guide us.” Laying back on my pillows, I sigh and hold the picture close. “Maybe if you were still here, I wouldn’t be such a mess.”
~~~
One Week Later - Fifteen Days Until the Wedding
“I’m just saying, Cinderella continues to be the best live-action Disney adaptation. It’s faithful to the story, the costumes are great, and it’s just so cute!” I exclaim, trying to stifle a yawn in the process. I was still having nightmares and barely sleeping. Thankfully, I was managing to hide it well, and nobody suspected anything. If they did, I could just lie and say I was up late working on bachelorette party plans and lost track of time. Nick laughs. “What?”
“I love that this is what you’re passionate about.” He grins.
“Well, I’m absolutely right.” I tell him, and he nods.
“Oh, absolutely.” I had a feeling that he had no idea what I was talking about, which was usually the case. But he agreed with me anyway, which I appreciated. Despite all my nightmares and bad memories, spending almost every day with Nick was helping me feel happier, and far more comfortable. It also took my mind off of my nightmares from the previous night. Nick was lovely, and I actually felt upset whenever we had to go back to the house. The fact he was gorgeous helped too, of course. Before I can say anything else, I suddenly spot the town’s bakery and walk over to the window. 
“Look at all these cakes.” I smile. “Oh my god, those cupcakes still look delicious.” I state, staring through the window at them. “My Nana used to bring Katie and me here every Friday after school, and we’d each get a cupcake. I always chose the birthday cake ones, cause it felt like we had a birthday celebration every week.” I smile fondly. “It’s one of my favourite memories of her.”
“Do you want one?” Nick asks, causing me to look over at him. “Seriously, do you want one?” He repeats, taking out his wallet. “They do look amazing. And after all, today is Friday. Can’t waste traditions.” He smiles, and his smile almost makes my heart do backflips.
“Seriously?” I ask.
“Seriously.” Nick opens the door of the bakery. I hear the wind-chimes over the door sound as we both walk in, just like they did all those years ago. The smell of baking is everywhere, filling me with a sense of comfort.
“Oh god, I remember this smell. It’s so...familiar.” I whisper to myself, closing my eyes. In that moment, I feel like I’m a little kid spending time with my Nana again. But when I open my eyes, I’m back to my real life, and the nostalgia is gone.
“I’m coming, just give me a few minutes!” Someone calls from through the back of the bakery.
“Opal?” I ask. Opal was the owner of the bakery...at least when I still lived in Saint Chase. Like Jane, she was friendly and welcoming, and every customer was her friend. She always used to sneak Katie and I samples of her new loaves of bread and cakes before we went to school in the mornings. If we liked them, they stayed. She always called us her honorary business partners. Of course, now I know she probably said that to every kid who wandered in, but it made kid me feel great.
“That’s my name, don’t wear- oh!” She gasps, immediately retreating back through the door she came from. Nick and I give each other a confused look. Rose returns a few moments later, carrying a small cake.“Katie! You look so different from the last time I saw you. Congratulations on your upcoming wedding!” She grasps my hand and shakes it vigorously, then does the same to Nick’s hand. “Want to see a preview of the cake? This is in no way finished, but it’s just a small sample of the real thing.”
“Oh no, I-”
 “We’re not-” Nick and I begin, but Opal ignores us. 
"You two are going to just love it.”
“Opal! I’m not Katie!” I insist. She gasps, and her eyes go wide. “Katie is my sister. This is Nick. He’s the best man.”
“Oh my goodness, I am so sorry.” Her face goes red. Nick and I reassure her that it’s okay. “Anyway, what can I get you?” Nick and I order our cupcakes, and she rings them up for us. Nick opens his wallet to pay for them, but Opal shakes her head. “No, please, these are on me. Count it as an apology...Seriously. I’m so sorry about the mixup.”
“Well, thank you!″ Nick smiles, taking the cakes and walking towards the door. 
“Y/N...” Opal beckons me in closer, and I lean in. “I just have to say, you two are adorable together. I’m still sorry for my mistake, but honestly, you two look like a great couple.”
“We’re not-”
“Everything okay?” Nick asks.
“Oh! Yeah. Opal just wanted to ask me when we’re picking up the wedding cake.” I lie, giving Opal a pointed look. She nods vigorously. “Come on, let’s go. Bye Opal.” I say quickly, walking towards the door. She waves goodbye to us as we leave the store. Once we’re outside, Nick passes over my cake, taking a bite of his. 
“Oh. My. God.” He moans happily. “That’s incredible.” 
“Right?” I agree, taking a bite of mine. “It’s just as good as I remember.” Nick starts laughing at me again, and my eyes widen. “What? Did I say something weird?”
“You have icing on your face.” He responds. Of course I do. I’m a walking cliché, honestly. “Actually, you know what? I don’t care. This cake is that good.” I take another bite. “And besides, so do you.”
~~~
Later That Day
“That one looks like a dog.”
“A dog? No way. It looks like a hamster.”
“How the fuck does it look like a hamster?” Nick frowns.
“How the fuck does it look like a dog?” I respond, raising my eyebrow. Nick laughs. The two of us had finished eating our cupcakes (and wiped our faces), and were back in the park, drinking coffee and trying to see if we could tell what shape the clouds were.
“Guess we gotta agree to disagree.” I smile. “Even though I’m totally right.”
“Of course you are.” He says sarcastically, and I gasp in mock annoyance. But I don’t detect any malice from his comment...well, I hoped he wasn’t actually annoyed with me or anything, but he didn’t seem to be. Like I said before, I felt comfortable with Nick. Even though we had met a week ago, it felt like the two of us could joke with each other to our hearts content, neither meaning anything bad by it. It was weird how close we were, despite not knowing each other for that long.  “Uh, Nick?” I ask, looking up again.
“Mhm?”
“Do those ones look like rain clouds, or is that just me?”
“I think you’re right, it’s-” The heavens open before he can even finish his sentence. “Oh god, okay, come on, I saw a bike shed or something over there, we can hide out there until it stops.” Nick tells me, quickly taking his jacket off and throwing it at me.
“What’s this for?!” I ask.
“What do you think it’s for?! It’s to hold over our heads!” Nick shouts. “Now come on, let’s go.” He holds out his hand, and I take it. He pulls me up. “Ready to run?” He asks. I nod. The two of us begin running through the park, holding Nick’s jacket over our heads with one hand each. We laugh as we run, trying to avoid slipping on the damp leaves or falling over. We soon reach the shelter, and Nick and I jump under it. The shelter is small, so our bodies are pressed up close against each other. I’m aware of the scent of his cologne again. Nick’s body is warm against mine as he wraps the jacket around my shoulders. 
“You don’t have to give me your jacket.” I protest, but he insists.
“Don’t be silly. What would your sister say if I made her maid of honour catch a cold?” He asks.
“The same thing she’d say if the best man caught a cold.” I reply, trying to take the jacket off. Nick reaches out, gently placing his hands on my arms, stopping me. It feels like electricity runs up my arms as he touches them.
“Y/N, don’t worry about it. Honestly.” The two of us stand there, Nick still holding onto my arms. But it feels good. It feels...right. Nick keeps looking at me. 
“Do I still have some icing on my lips?” I ask. Nick shakes his head. 
“God, you’re so beautiful.” He mumbles loud enough for me to hear. Whether I was supposed to hear it or not, I wasn’t sure. Nick leans closer to me, and my brain immediately goes:
“He’s going to kiss me. Oh my god, he’s going to kiss me. Do I even want him to kiss me?” And I realise that...I think I do want him to kiss me. Nick’s head moves closer to mine, and my head rises up to meet his. But just as our lips are about to touch, my phone rings, causing us to break apart. Dammit. I take my phone out, seeing Katie’s name flash on the screen. She always has the best timing. “Hey Katie. What’s up? ...Yeah it’s raining really badly. Yeah, a lift back would be great. We’re at the park. Okay, see you soon. Love you too. Bye.” Hanging up, I sigh. “I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay.” Nick responds. However, despite him saying that, it still felt like the air around us had changed. It wasn’t like we could go back to where we left off either, because everything felt awkward now.
Shit.
~~~
That Night
“Be good for your Daddy, okay Y/N?” She bends down and presses a kiss to my forehead. I nod. “I know I can trust you to help him look after your sister, right?”
“Of course, Mommy!” She grins, and pulls me in for a tight squeeze.
“There’s my smart girl.  I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?” I nod again.
“Have fun, Mommy!” I call, as she walks out of the door. And then, she was gone. The image changes into something else. “Daddy? Where’s Mommy? Why are you crying?” He blinks rapidly and bends down to my eye level.
“Mommy’s had to go, sweetie.” He explains.
“But...but where? She was meant to take me to kindergarten!” He looks away from me.
“I’m sorry. Your mommy’s an angel...she’s not coming back.”
Gasping, I sit up in bed again, looking around the room. My heart is racing. “It’s just a bad dream...Just a bad dream...” I tell myself, trying desperately to calm myself down. Getting out of bed, I cross over to the window, trying to ignore my shaking hands, and peek out at the night sky. Rows and rows of trees disappear into the darkness. “It’s not real. She died almost twenty years ago. It’s just a bad dream.” Clenching my fists, I furiously wipe at my eyes. "Dammit!” I curse.
I hadn’t had nightmares about the death of our mother in at least fifteen years. I thought I was finally getting better. Of course, life had other ideas. “I knew I should never have fucking come back here.” I hiss. That’s why still had bad dreams, because I was back here. I should’ve said no and ran when I had the choice. No, no, that’s stupid. Of course I couldn’t have said no. I could never let Katie down. God knows life let us down enough times already. No, I need to stop blaming the town for my problems. It’s my fault. I thought I was ready and healed, but obviously, I’m not. God, I need a drink. 
Trying to be as quiet as possible, I leave my room and tiptoe downstairs to the kitchen, using my phone torch as a light source. Once I reach the kitchen and flash my light into the room, I almost jump out of my skin when I see a figure sitting at the kitchen table.
“Hey, I- Y/N?” Nick blinks his eyes, clearly startled by the bright light of my phone.
“Jesus Christ Nick! I thought you were a fucking murderer!” I gasp. He frowns.
“A murderer...who sits at the kitchen table? Anyway, why are you up so late? It’s like 2am!” I switch the light on. 
“I could ask you the same thing. Why are you here scaring the life out of me at 2am?” He holds up some paper. 
“Best man’s speech. I had a stroke of genius and decided to write some of it.”
“In the middle of the night? In the darkness? And people say I’m weird.” Nick chuckles. I cross over to the cupboards and get out some mugs to make tea. “Want some tea?” I ask, and he nods.
“Anyway, you didn’t answer my question. What brings you here at this hour?”
“Oh I just love hanging out with men in kitchens at 2am, didn’t Katie tell you?” I tease, filling the kettle and putting it on to boil. Nick laughs. I can’t tell him the truth. Then he would think I was weird. “But seriously. Couldn’t sleep.” I mean, that wasn’t a total lie. Nick didn’t have to know the truth. “How’s the speech going?”
“Ehhh?” Nick responds. I turn back to him and raise an eyebrow. “Not well.”
“I can tell.” The kettle finishes boiling, and I pour the water into the mugs. “But I’m here now, so you have an extra person to help you.”
~~~
One Hour Later
“Y/N...Y/N?” I hear someone whispering. Is someone....nudging me? I look up. Why was my head on the table? I notice that Nick has scooted closer to me. Is he the one nudging me?
“Mmm, Nick...whashappenin?” I mumble. 
“You fell asleep.” He explains. I shoot up in my seat and rub my eyes. 
“What?!” I gasp. “Why didn’t you wake me up?! I was meant to be helping you with your speech!” 
“It’s alright, don’t worry.” Nick reassures me. “You looked really tired, so I thought I’d let you sleep. You sure you’re okay?” He asks. Before I can say anything in response, I yawn. “Guess that answers my question. I think you should go to bed.” I shake my head.
“Nope. I’m not....” I cut myself off with another yawn. Nick gives me a look. “...Okay, maybe I’m a little bit tired.” I admit.
“Mhm. Come on, let’s get you to bed.” He helps me up. I protest, but he continues to do so. “Y/N, trust me. You need some sleep. You’ll thank me later.” I realise he’s probably right. So, I let him lead me upstairs and into my bedroom, his hand resting on the small of my back. “So uh....can you take care of yourself from here?” He asks. I chuckle softly and nod.
“Yeah, I’ll be fine. Thanks Nick.” I smile. “Goodnight.”
“Night Y/N.” 
~~~
The Next Morning - Thirteen Days Until the Wedding
“You invited Great Aunt Hilda? Seriously? All she’s going to do is talk about her cats.” 
“That’s why she’s sitting with you. At least you’ll have something in common.” Katie jokes. I jokingly punch her in the arm. “Hey!” She laughs. The two of us were spending the day arranging seating charts and finalising the seating plan. So far, it was all going well, and we managed to make it fun. “Oh, god.” Katie wrinkles her nose. “I forgot both Uncle Chris and Aunt Pamela said yes, AND they’re bringing plus ones. That’s gonna be rough.”
“I’m sure it’ll be okay. Didn’t they get divorced like three years ago?” I ask.
“Yeah, but I don’t think Aunt Pam’s gonna be a fan of his plus one....” She raises her eyebrows suggestively.
“Oh right, he dumped her for his secretary, the one with the big boobs, didn’t he? Are they still together?”
“Yuuuup. She’s the plus one.”
“Better sit those two as far away from each other as possible then...” I mumble, trying to arrange the tables on my side of the chart as best as I can. Studying the rest of the little figures representing people, I frown, seeing one I haven’t seen before. One I definitely did not expect to see. I pick it up, and my eyes go wide. “Uh, Katie?”
“Mhm?”
“...Why does our Dad have a seating place?”
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