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deathbydarkelves · 3 years

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I decided to make playlists for Cathala and Tarinne plus explanations for why I chose each song because I entered one of those ADHD fugue states and if I didn't finish this task I would die

Anyway here are the two links (they're youtube playlists because I don't have spotify. I would obviously recommend using an adblocker if you're just gonna watch on youtube) and the explanations for each song are below the cut :) Each playlist is about an hour long.

For Tarinne’s:

1. Foggy Nights: I consider this her theme so putting it first as a sort of intro only makes sense.

2. Here’s a Health to the Company: I think this works as an example of her general disposition. She’s a people person, and always a fan of singing these sorts of songs in taverns, on ships, or what have you. It also kind of feels like a sendoff to soldiers, which I imagine symbolizes her joining the Sentinel Army and quickly thereafter fighting in the Third War.

3. Wartime Prayers: Somewhat self-explanatory, this is symbolizing her seeing war for the first time, but I also included it because the last line transitions SO WELL into the next song.

4. The Hollow: This song is an intro to an album I've never heard so I don't know the context, but I really love it because it sounds like someone praying to their deity and like I mean c'mon. Elune. Tarinne's praying to Elune to guide her through the war. Do I need to elabo-

5. Wave Walker: KILL DEATH MAIM AHAHAHAHA

6. Isil Elun’falo: Just a super rad fan-made night elf song that's basically "wow we sure do love Elune" said in twenty different ways for four and a half minutes. But it ROCKS and I LOVE it.

7. Chewing Cotton Wool: This song is about losing a loved one (I did have to check but yeah that's what it is) and I use it to symbolize Tarinne losing her mom during the war. The last line, which includes the song's title, I especially like. It's referring to how morticians (apparently) put cotton gauze in a corpse's throat and mouth to keep body fluids in and make the face look more natural. So there's a fun fact for you.

8. See U Soon (Song for Dad): Just a short lofi piece to rest a bit, and it was also chosen because the title's in reference to Tarinne growing closer to her dad after losing her mom. She still visits him at his leathers and furs shop in Stormwind fairly often, especially after dangerous adventures. She just wants to make sure he knows she's alright ;-;

9. No Lullaby: Right back into it with a song that I use to represent Tarinne's general feeling of not being able to go home because it's not there anymore. She's felt like this since the end of the Third War, but it's especially strong since the whole Teldrassil thing. But I like the ending, "who said you're on your own," because it contrasts the repeating of "alone" in the rest of the song. And it's kinda like "hey, listen, you're not the only one who feels like she can't go home." I mean that's probably how basically every single night elf feels right now skxnks

10. The Moss: This song juxtaposes classic fairy tales with scientific facts about the world and I love it to BITS. I'm using it here to represent both Tarinne's love for storytelling but also her sort of... part-time historian/archaeologist/conservator career.

11. Rasputin: I just associate this song with her for some reason and this was the best place to put it.

12. Electric Feel: Moving on to focus more on Tarinne's relationship with Cathala now. This is an extremely great and somewhat 😏 song that I also included because the electricity theme is appropriate because Cathala has lightning powers and y'know it's from Tarinne's perspective or whatever.

13. Bedroom Hymns: You know why this is here.

14. Movement: I can't talk about love songs without talking about Hozier, okay. This is just a nice, slower song to relax a bit with.

15. Never Let Me Go: I have an entire goddamn music video in my head with Cathala and Tarinne for this song and it’s very dramatic and emotional and I had to include this song or I’d die. Basically just listen to near the end of this song when she's repeating the title over and over, and imagine the two of them seeing each other at opposite ends of a battlefield after the dust settles and they rush towards each other and fall to their knees holding on as tightly as they can because they got separated early on and each thought the other was dead. Then you'll know how I feel when I listen to this song.

16. Nothing That Has Happened So Far Has Been Anything We Could Control: First of all I love the title, and second of all there's a big section in the middle (1:49 to 2:47) that I like to interpret as the two of them grappling with the fact that they're not really quite sure who or what they're fighting for anymore. Their people, yeah, but there's so many alliances and semi-permanent enemies and only-on-every-other-thursday-enemies all intertwined and the world is just so very confusing and they're trying to make the best of it. Elf school didn’t include international, interracial politics in its curriculum. It did however include how to properly plant trees, and AP calculus (this is a joke).

17. In Dreams: I like to imagine this song is something the two of them would say to each other, as a way of saying “even when everything we know is gone, even when the world ends, I will still be by your side. And if I’m not, don’t fear, for I will find you.” It makes a nice note to end on :)

For Cathala’s:

1. muse: Just a nice lofi intro to get us into things :) I don't see this song as her theme, like I do with Tarinne and the first song in her playlist, but I like it quite a bit. I don't actually really have a theme for Cathala yet, I'm currently going with a version of Way of the Monk from WoW's OST but I'm still looking for something better.

2. Frogs Singing: I included this because it's about just appreciating nature, which works because night elf and also mindfulness and meditation is a whole thing.

3. Tongues: This is a song about feeling distant from your peers which is like Cathala's whole existence! She's this weird mix of two cultures and ultimately she feels out of place regardless of where she is or who she's with. Also the theme with not understanding what people are saying works because the poor woman had to learn Pandaren from scratch and that shit ain't easy. I think blizz said somewhere probably that Common is just a language that EVERYONE knows inherently because Video Game but that's bullshit in my opinion. I'll allow spells that let you understand foreign languages to an extent (Comprehend Languages from D&D lets you understand the LITERAL meaning only, which I like), but every culture and species in the universe knowing Common is silly if you think about it for more than two seconds.

4. Kung Fu Fighting: I'm legally required to include this song. Also I prefer the Kung Fu Panda version, I'm sorry.

5. Harder Better Faster Stronger: I vicariously experience having a great work ethic through Cathala and that's why this song is here because she has 999 Determination and does Too Many push-ups every day or something idk. I was gonna say "every morning" but I have a headcanon that elves only need to sleep every couple of days (sort of a nod to "elves don't need to sleep at all" from D&D, and to explain why NIGHT elves are active at all hours of the day) so that doesn't work.

6. What's Up Danger: This song is Cathala's whole Vibe. Almost zero threat assessment skills in this woman's brain. If it can be punched, she will punch it.

7. Eye for an Eye: Fairly self-explanatory, it's a song about wanting revenge so... yeah. Checked that box. It was this or The Vengeful One by Disturbed but ultimately The Vengeful One's religious symbolism probably makes it fit better as a Tyrande theme lol ("I'm the hand of god, I'm the dark messiah." Did you mean: the Night Warrior)

8. Survivor: Cathala's survived a lot of shit and this could kinda be her making fun of herself for it because "Gods, man! Don't I deserve a break!"

9. Ashes: Really the reason I include this song is the last chunk (2:42 to the end) because holy shit. Listen, if I was gonna include a song with fire motifs, it was gonna be a somber one like this.

10. Into the West: This can kinda represent Cathala just trying to fucking breathe and recover from Teldrassil. Also works because I dunno it has stuff to do with the elves in LotR, I haven't seen those movies in a while. It sounds nice and is melancholy so I included it.

11. Like Real People Do: Cathala loves Tarinne a lot you guys have I ever menti-

12. Into the Wild: Tarinne changed Cathala's world for the better and she's super fucking grateful she has her by her side. Kinda goes without saying but you know.

13. Chasing the Moon: I have a vague music video in my head for this of them falling in love and it's very cute so there's that. Also it's in this specific spot because hey she may be deeply traumatized but she's still got a fair number of things/people in her life that make her happy so :)

14. Follow My Girl: I've got a theme going in my head that while Tarinne is fairly certain of her place in the world, Cathala is still trying to find hers. She outlived all her connections on Pandaria because Elf Lifespans(tm) and the only members of her family still alive are distant relatives she never knew very well.

15. Wish That You Were Here: This works both to represent Cathala on Pandaria feeling super homesick, and for more recently after Teldrassil. Either way, it's a message to her parents and sister.

16. Mr. Fear: She does her damnedest to hide it but she's absolutely terrified something like Teldrassil's gonna happen again! That fear drives her to do everything in her power to protect who and what she can. As long as they're not Forsaken, cause she's still got her biases, that compassion even extends across faction lines. She never really got the whole Alliance/Horde thing anyway. Innocent people shouldn't have to die, regardless of who or what they are.

17. Ordinary Day: Not to get super out there but I think this song works as symbolizing Cathala really trying to hold on to her faith in Elune, but ultimately feeling pretty abandoned. I mean she can clearly see Elune's influence everywhere. But Elune sure ain't doing Cathala any favors as far as she can tell! It also ends the whole playlist on maybe a bit of an uncertain/open-ended note, because this "losing faith" aspect is a new thing with her and will definitely be something she continues to struggle with for a while. On a related note, I should say Tarinne is still very much devout but she gets what Cathala's feeling and doesn't force anything on her, and vice versa. And Cathala wouldn't become atheist, the night elves aren't monotheistic and she still worships all the other deities, it's just specifically Elune she's a little :/ on.

#cathala #tarinne #oc playlist

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gravelghosts · 3 years

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I loved the poetry you featured in “teaching poetry to fish” so much! Do you have a list of all of those poems anywhere, or any additional recommendations?

hi! okay so I *didn't* have a list of all those poems in one place but now I do!

I always feel like I should put in a disclaimer that I'm a science-major idiot barely pretending to know a goddamn thing about lit er a ture, so like. there are SO many people who know so much more about poetry than I do, and SO MANY MORE POETS. these are just a bunch of things I happened to read and liked.

anyway because I'm ridiculous, in addition to just giving you a list I'm gonna also ramble about some of the poets a bit and tell you if I have any favorites of theirs that aren't in here. and I'm gonna break it down by ~era. and it’s all going under a cut ‘cause it’s gonna be long.

ANCIENT SHIT

horace: carmina 1.3, carmina 3.2. horace was a roman dude who wrote in latin and once upon a time I learned latin and tried translating some of his poetry. I can't really tell you much else about him. I forgot it all. but as far as latin poets I also really like catullus.

liu zongyuan: dwelling by a stream, river snow. I really just found these poems from googling and don't know much about their author, but he seems awesome. I believe he was writing during the tang dynasty? if you google his stuff or tang dynasty poets you should find some online sources with loads more chinese poetry from that era and it's pretty great.

PRE-19TH CENTURY EUROPEAN DUDES BEING DRAMATIC ABOUT RELIGION

there are so many people who can say so much smarter shit about this section than me. I learned enough to go grabbing what I wanted.

dante alighieri: inferno

john donne: the bait, a hymn to god the father

john milton: paradise lost

NINETEENTH CENTURY AMERICAN POETS

ok so I know a lot more american poets than I know other poets. just in general. I feel like the two giants of the nineteenth century are dickinson and whitman, and they're super different, and you can probably tell which one is more my style, but like, whitman's good too!

walt whitman: song of myself (I don't think I actually quoted this one but I echoed something from it in the text and now I can't remember for the life of me what)

emily dickinson! I love the shit out of emily dickinson. her poems aren't really titled, so this is just all the first lines: my life had stood a loaded gun, this world is not conclusion, how the old mountains drip with sunset, the brain is wider than the sky, a narrow fellow in the grass, I felt a funeral in my brain, to pile like thunder to its close, much madness is divinest sense, after great pain a formal feeling comes, bring me the sunset in a cup, the poets light but lamps, tell all the truth but tell it slant, split the lark and you'll find the music.

EARLY TWENTIETH CENTURY

okay so I feel like 1900 to 1930 or something was a RICH time for poets. there's a lot going on here. the world is changing and ww1 in particular makes everyone feel that way, especially in europe; you get a lot of poets processing that. you also get poets like robert frost over in america writing this kind of intentionally old-fashioned subject matter but with more modernism in it than you'd think. we're gonna do the europeans first:

wilfred owen: dulce et decorum est

william butler yeats: the second coming, sailing to byzantium

t.s. eliot: the love song of alfred j. prufrock

a.e. housman. this dude was a very sad gay man and classical scholar. I think he did a lot of latin translations but not of authors I'm too familiar with. he's the subject of a brilliant tom stoppard play, "the invention of love." housman poems I used were: vii. he would not stay for me, and who can wonder; xxx. shake hands, we shall never be friends; xxvi. the half-moon westers low, my love. and for americans:

carl sandburg: skyscraper. more processing of modernity! but this time in terms of its architecture, specifically in the midwestern context (chicago). I really think cas would like this poem.

robert frost: birches. I really liked and wanted to use "for once, then, something," which is about looking down wells and trying to see secrets, but I couldn't find a spot. it feels like an incredibly cas poem to me as well. I also nearly used "a dream pang" and "after apple-picking." in fact, am I sure I didn't use "after apple-picking"? oh dear. it's in the Vibes anyway.

HARLEM RENAISSANCE

langston hughes: poem, the dream keeper. there's a lot more harlem renaissance poets than I included here that I haven't really dug into yet. but I've read some claude mckay that I liked. I also love the langston hughes poem "the negro speaks of rivers," and while its language vibes very much with poetryfic, it didn't feel appropriate to take out of context in that way.

MORE AMERICANS, SO MANY AMERICANS

marianne moore: the fish. I like marianne moore fine in general, I'm not head over heels for her, but she was a big mentor of elizabeth bishop, and she wrote a poem called the fish, so. I also like her poem about ostriches.

allen ginsberg: howl, kaddish, song.

sylvia plath: blackberrying

elizabeth bishop: the fish, insomnia, seascape, one art. elizabeth bishop is a big rec for me - you can get all her collected poems in one reasonably sized book, she didn't write all that much over the course of her life, and her use of language to evoke places and moods absolutely floors me.

robert hass: meditation at lagunitas

HELLO LET'S GO TO SWEDEN

okay so listen. the one non-science class (the only one!) I took in college was on scandinavian literature. so I know a couple swedish poets. that's it. but I LOVE THEM.

tomas tranströmer. my favorite book of translations is bright scythe, translated by patty crane. I recommend ALL of it without reservation but what I included was: baltics, romanesque arches, kyrie, winter's formulas, face to face, allegro, the nightingale in badelunda, secrets on the way. I didn't wind up using "firescribbling" but put that on your tranströmer list too.

edith södergran: hell, dangerous dreams, vierge moderne. I don't know as much about her as I do about tranströmer but I love her stuff! and there are some that felt EXTREMELY deancas-relevant but that I didn't have a chance to include: triumph of existing & the instrument's lament. all the poems I have of hers are in a collection entitled love & solitude. honestly, go read those last two, like, now. if you can't find them come back here and tell me and I'll transcribe them. you need them. that's all.

SEAMUS HEANEY GETS HIS OWN SECTION

look so I only used a single seamus heaney poem in this whole damn thing but who cares? he's a legend. and I love all of his stuff. the vast majority is SO specific and evocative of rural ireland that it wasn't very transferable to the context of poetryfic. I used "valediction."

NATALIE DIAZ GETS HER OWN SECTION

I also only used one natalie diaz poem because I didn't really know her yet. but she's the BEST. she's my FAVORITE. I used "these hands, if not gods." her whole new poetry collection postcolonial love poem absolutely knocks me out, and her first one is great too. if you want another poem that you can find on the internet try "if I should come upon your house lonely in the west texas desert."

I DON'T KNOW I FOUND THEM ON TUMBLR

uh. these are some poets I don't know anything about. I just saw them on tumblr. and was like yes that's the stuff.

hannah faith notess: yoshi (a pastoral)

jane mead: I have been living

craig morgan teicher: another day

PEOPLE I'M MAD I DIDN'T LEARN ABOUT IN TIME FOR POETRYFIC

joy harjo, especially "invisible fish" (I mean come on) (I did write an extra fic just to use that one though)

anna akhmatova. incredible russian poet. I’m really just getting to know her now.

ada limón. I think I did actually know some of her stuff (especially "what it looks like to us and the words we use," which I could have used if the opportunity arose, it just didn't) but I am looking forward to diving deeper.

BONUS SECTION FOR MARY OLIVER

I mean she's mary oliver. if someone wants to be snide about her popularity, don't listen to them, she's brilliant. I feel like I didn't really dive into her body of work for poetryfic because I probably would have found so much relevant that I'd get myself all turned around by it, but the one I came closest to using is "don't hesitate."

I hope that this is something like what you were hoping for! I had fun rambling, anyway. :D

#asks #poetryfic #teaching poetry to fish dot ao3

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fire-angel · 4 years

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DRAGON HEART

Firebender x ???

Hey guys, just anted to say that if you want, you can request one shots. Also dm me if you want to be tagged to be updated with this series.

Also the parts are somewhat long because I try to fit a whole episode in each part.

Prologue Part 1

PART 2

A few days ago we left the Northern Air Temple, so much happened in the little time we stayed there. I was starting to get along with everyone, except for Sokka that is, we always seem to argue and maybe it's because he hates me??? Because I was Fire Nation, but that's my past. Anyways, the people living in the air temple gifted me a new set of clothes and even warm coats for my journey to the North. I am so thankful for them.

We are now headed towards the North Pole so Aang and Katara can find a water bending master.

"I'm not one to complain, but can't Appa fly any higher?" Sokka says indeed complaining.

Appa does seem tired, we're getting lower and lower to the ocean.

"I have an idea-" Aang says looking back "-why don't we all get on your back and you can fly us to the North Pole?"

"I'd love to! Climb on everyone-" he wiggles his butt at everyone "-Sokka's ready for takeoff!"

Momo jumps up on Sokka in response to his invitation.

"Look, we're all just a little tired and cranky because we've been flying for two days straight." I tell them and Katara agrees.

"And for what?" Sokka exclaims "We can't even find the Northern Water Tribe. There's nothing up here."

Suddenly a noise is heard up ahead. Ice is moving rapidly towards Appa. We all scream and Aang pulls Appa's reigns and avoids the ice, but almost tips us all off the saddle. Appa then moves as another jet of ice erupts out of the waves, but this one slams into Appa's underside, who drops in an uncontrolled spin into the water. Out of the icebergs several ornate wooden skiffs come to surround us.

"They're waterbenders! We found the Water Tribe! " She shouts with excitement.

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Aang gets up " There it is! "

"The Northern Water Tribe..." Katara continues

"We're finally here..." i whisper in awe.

The water benders leads us into their village and through the canals.

The city is loaded with beautiful streams, waterfalls and fountains. They pass another boat with a waterbender and a beautiful young Water Tribe woman with white hair, Sokka focuses on her, blushes and tried to follow her by running down Appa's tail.

"This place is beautiful." Katara says

"Yeah, she is." Sokka replied while looking dreamily at the girl from the boat.

I roll my eyes and look away. From what Katara told me, it seemed to me like he was friendly with a girl from Kyoshi Island a few weeks ago. I start to chuckle.

Sokka turns to me with a serious face "What's your deal?"

"Oh nothing nothing" I wave him off.

Later on we were invited to see the Chief because he wanted to celebrate the Avatars arrival. Katara and I finished getting ready and met up with the boys outside as we started to head out towards their palace.

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We arrive and we take our seats at the table, Katara to my right and Sokka to my left.

I'm admiring everything around us until i hear Sokka whisper.

"You should probably keep to yourself that you're a fire bender-"Wow is he trying to look out for me- " we don't want you scaring people off and ruining the mood if everything"

Ouch. How can he say that? I feel my skin starting to get hot as I was starting to turn that sadness into anger and noticed I was starting to melt a hole on the table and I quickly took my hands away.

"And what's the deal with you literally burning up like some-" Sokka was gonna continue but the Chief was about to speak.

"Tonight, we celebrate the arrival of our brother and sister from the Southern Tribe, and they have brought with them someone very special, someone whom many of us believed disappeared from the world until now. The Avatar! We also celebrate my daughter's 16th birthday. Princess Yue is now of marrying age.

Princess Yue is walking towards us.

Sokka looks at her with wide eyes.

"Thank you, father. May the great Ocean and Moon Spirits watch over us during these troubled times."

"Now, Master Pakku and his students will perform! " the Chief indicates.

As the waterbending show continues, a figure walks behind us and sits down next to Sokka. It’s Princess Yue.

"Hi, there. Sokka, Southern Water Tribe. " He says trying to act all cool.

Princess Yue smiles and bows slightly "Very nice to meet you."

"So... uh... you're a Princess!” She nods and smiles “You know, back in my tribe, I'm kinda like a Prince myself!" He says

I just couldn't hold it in " Ha! Prince of what? "

Now an angry Sokka looking back at me "A lot of things! Uh, do you mind? I'm trying to have a conversation here!"

With a smirk on my face I mock a bow "My apologies, Prince Sokka."

Sokka turns to Yue and attempts to flirt by asking her to do an "activity" or something. What the spirits

Very smooth.

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It's the morning and I'm left alone to wander around the town. Aang and Katara are getting trained, Sokka went to find the princess and I am currently walking up a mountain of ice so I can be high enough to feel the Sun and do some meditation.

I come back to our place at nightfall to see everyone except Sokka is back.

"What did you do today Y/N? Practice your fire bending?" asked Aang.

"No, I was told to not even try that while I'm here, so I just did some meditating"

"What? Who told you that?" Aang asked me seriously concerned "Momo I told you to be nice"

"Don't worry” I laughed “it wasn't Momo and I understand"

Sokka walks in all mopey.

"How's warrior training going?" Katara asked.

In response Sokka kicks a bag on the floor in anger, falls to his knees, and then flops on the bag, using it as a pillow.

"That bad?" Aang asks him.

"No, it's Princess Yue. I don't get it. One minute she wants to go out with me and the next she's telling me to get lost! So how's waterbending training?"

I sit up excited to hear about how it went, but Katara flops onto her sleeping bag, depressed.

“Master Poophead won't teach her because she's a girl." Aang replied.

"Why don't you just teach her, Aang? " I suggest.

Katara raises her head with a smile "Why didn't I think of that? At night, you can teach whatever moves you learned from Master Pakku. That way you have someone to practice with and I get to learn waterbending. Everyone's happy!"

"I'm not happy." Sokka cuts in

"But you're never happy. Come on, Aang."

They go off.

"Hey Y/N, I’ve been thinking about it and I'm sorry about what I said yesterday. It isn’t fair to you. It's just, we've never had a good experience with fire benders. Katara and I personally, we lost our mother because of the Fire Nation..."

I just listen to his story without saying a word until he finished. He tells me about how his mother died and how they are being constantly chased by the Fire Nation because of Aang.

"Look Sokka, I understand the fear and the hate, I really do. I know how dangerous and destructive fire bending and the Fire Nation can be. When I was young, my parents died giving their life for the Fire Nation and so I was raised by my grandfather Jeong Jeong. Growing up I had many try to train me fire bending but they all quit on me because my fire bending was ‘too different’ and at times ‘out of control’. They thought of it as a weakness for the Nation and their pride.....You've seen it first hand, my emotions is like some kind of fuel to it. I burn up every time my feelings get strong and sometimes lose control over it."

"Yeah, like what happened back with Master Jeong Jeong after Aang burned Katara" Sokka recalls.

"Yeah, I end up hurting the people I care about" I look down and take a deep breath before I continue "With time my grandfather realized how wrong the Nation was and their beliefs and decided to escape with me. We barely made it out alive. My grandfather later trained me to have some control over my bending through meditation. He says I'm more powerful than I realize, and that that's why the Nation didn't want me, because they were afraid or something...but now he's gone too."

"Hey, you have us now. We'll be your family and we can help you." He reassures.

"Thanks Sokka. You did have a point though, I should try to keep myself under cover because if the Fire Nation finds out who I am, then we'll be an even bigger target."

"Yeah, we'll protect you Y/N. I promise" he smiles.

Suddenly Aang and Katara comes in with a face with mixed emotions. They sit down and tell us what happened when they tried to train and how Master Pakku caught them and kicked Aang out from his training. We decided to go the next morning to talk to the chief and try to negotiate.

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"What do you want me to do?" says Chief Arnook "Force Master Pakku to take Aang back as his student?"

"Yes – please!" I try to reason for them.

"I suspect he might change his mind if you (looking at Katara) swallow your pride and apologize to him." He says.

"Fine." Katara says clearly unhappy.

"I'm waiting, little girl." Master Pakku smugly says.

"No! No way am I apologizing to a sour old man like you!" As Katara speaks, cracks open in the floor beneath her. She ends up by pointing directly at Master Pakku, her finger almost in his face.

"Uh, Katara..." Aang begins to say

Katara has a look of challenge on her face "I'll be outside – if you're man enough to fight me!"

You can hear a group of gasps

"I'm sure she didn't mean that." I try to say.

"Yeh, I think she did." Sokka replies.

We start to go after Katara this is halfway down the steps of the palace.

"Are you crazy, Katara? You're not gonna win this fight!" Sokka tries to knock some sense into her.

Katara takes off her coat and throws it at Sokka, hitting him in the face "I know! I don't care!"

"You don't have to do this for me. I can find another teacher." Aang tries to reason

"I'm not doing it for you! Someone needs to slap some sense into that guy!" She tels them.

The boys look at me for some help.

"Guys She has a point, I mean if I had a chance to show my old teachers that I was worth bejng taught, I think I would have"

As we reach the bottom of the steps, Master Pakku appears.

"So, you decided to show up?" Katara starts to say but He walks past her "Aren't you gonna fight??

"Go back to the healing huts with the other women where you belong." He says without even glancing her way.

3rd POV

Insanely angry, Katara draws a water whip out of the ground and whips Pakku on the back on the neck. He stops

Master Pakku finally faces her " Fine. You want to learn to fight so bad, study closely! "

He begins to bend and Katara runs towards him but he flings her backwards.

Master Pakku mockingly says "Don't worry, I'm not going to hurt you!"

Pakku creates a whirlpool and it begins to constrict, but before Katara is knocked back down she swings her arm, almost as if she were swinging a baseball bat, deflecting the wall of water off on a different trajectory. Cut to a shot of the spectators, including Aang and Sokka. The errant wall of water hits Sokka

“OW!”

Katara runs at him with a water whip. He raises a ramp of ice in front of her which she slides up and then back flips off, landing neatly on the guardrail of the citadel steps behind him. Pakku liquefies the ramp and throws it at her while catching her feet in ice. The wave breaks around Katara, however, as she bends it out of the way.

"You can't knock me down!" She says

The crowd formed starts to cheer

"Go Katara!" Aang shouts.

"You got this Katara!" Y/N encourages.

The fight goes on and Master Pakku is still decided on not teaching Katara.

Katara now standing in front of Pakku, but Master pakku sends shards of ice towards her, the shards land closely all around her. She is trapped. She struggles in vain against her prison of ice, her hands and arms unable to move.

Master Pakku walks towards her "This fight is over."

"Come back here! I'm not finished yet!" Katara yells.

"Yes, you are." he replied. He stops in surprise, picking up the necklace that fell from Katara's neck during the fight.

"This is my necklace!" He says with wonder.

"No it's not, it's mine! Give it back!" She tells him."

"I made this sixty years ago – for the love of my life." He continued saying.

Katara's ice prison liquefies behind him, freeing her "For Kana."

"My Gran-Gran was supposed to marry you?" Katara says in awe.

Master Pakku still holding the necklace, sadly says "I carved this necklace for your grandmother when we got engaged. I thought we would have a long, happy life together. I loved her."

"But she didn't love you, did she? It was an arranged marriage." Katara says.

The Princess' eyes water.

Katara walks up to Pakku "Gran-Gran wouldn't let your tribe's stupid customs run her life. That's why she left. It must have taken a lot of courage."

Proncess Yue begins to cry openly and runs away.

"Go get her." Y/N tells Sokka and nod to her direction.

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Heyhey Night! I have a buncha questions after seeing all your animations and they're just so cool so! I hope this is ok!! Can u animate normally too, or only pixel? Not that that's bad, just wondering! What's ur preferred kinda animation? Do u prefer lipflaps or lipsyncs? What's the hardest part of the animation process?? What's ur favorite?? Any part u don't like? What's a thing people don't see that u put a lotta time into? Do u have a fave animation u've done? Thank u btw for all ur art!!

Oh stars, okay, yeah- I’m happy to answer all these!! I’ll break them up so it’s easier to read X) And awww geez thank you so much for your support, sweet anon! It really makes my day when people say they like anything I’ve made, and stars knows it’s all the more true with the sweet sweet time sink that is animation (´•̥̥̥\\ヮ\\•̥̥̥` )

I’ll also put this under a cut since it gets a bit long :)

Can u animate normally too, or only pixel?

This one cracks me up a little, don’t worry about it XD I totally can! In fact I enjoy it a lot - and... gods, animation software is a nightmare and a half, to be honest. That’s the biggest hurdle.

I do just straight up love pixel art and the aesthetic I can achieve with it, but I do at times miss ‘normal’ (non pixel?) animation, heh. Especially sound-syncing! I do all my pixel art in Asesprite which imo is the best pixel art program, not to mention made by an actual pixel artist - buuuut it doesn’t have a sound file option. Which makes sense! Er, frankly, most pixel artists wouldn’t... use it to animate like I do? More for games, or for looping gifs? So I can’t complain much, it makes a lot of sense that it’s a low dev priority.

Now, when it comes to other animation programs... I’ve tried a lot. Unfortunately, the ones that are preferable for the feel I like are either way out of budget (stares at TVPaint in the distance) or... well, have too high a learning curve for my single-person workflow, really. (OpenToonz, sigh...) And a lot of the free programs are good for getting a start in animation, but once you get to a certain point you really feel the limitations (whether it’s workflow, sound import, exports, trying to make something more finished than a rough...).

Then... there’s animation programs I just don’t like, and a lot of those are angled towards bone-style animations (nothing wrong with those, they just don’t fit my style? and are too much time investment for a single artist to output more quickly...), or are, well, freakin’ Adobe Animate.

I... gods, I do not like Animate (formerly Flash). And I made a whole 2 minute+ animation in it a couple years ago! (It’s very rough and bad and doesn’t make sense, pfff, not gonna link it XD) It’s... clunky, and vector oriented, and freaking lines don’t go where I want them too, and it tries to predict too much?? It’s hard to put to words, gah. For me, my animation style would be much more... raster oriented. Flow, hand drawn inbetweens, yaddayadda. Animate’s great for... plenty of things, but not for that kind of animation. There are far better animators than I who make it work with freakin’ aplomb though! So really, it’s just my taste, haha.

.... Er, that got long! I’ll cut off more rambling about animation software and tl;dr boil it down to “I love animating period, but turnaround is something I have to keep in mind as a freelancer, as well as budget, and my current focus is pixel animations for a number of reasons.” X)

What's ur preferred kinda animation?

I’m not exactly sure what this one means! Between pixel and non-pixel? Er, they both have their pros and cons, so I couldn’t say! But if I have to break down my current animations into categories, I’d say I have cutscenes, loop environments, and the broad game-like animations...

The first would be something like this animation feat. teasing Edge, the second would be something like this one with skesgo’s Starlan and Cinnamon, and the third is... everything else! From headsprite loops to ‘small’ characters running and so on.

Honestly, they’re all a lot of fun for different reasons! Cutscenes are generally the most challenging, but they give me the chance to push my limits and try and pull off something cool, whether I’m having to conserve frames (to keep the cost of a commission down) or whether I’m going more all out (which is a pricey commission, or a fun personal project, lol).

Loop environments are their own challenge - it may not look like it, but I put a lot of thought into how to make them look as natural as possible! From timing of talking characters, to where to place a blink, to exactly how many frames it’ll take to ‘soften’ a motion (so people aren’t just snapping between major poses) and so on - it takes... a lot of time to animate even simple scenes well, so I do a lot of mental math on how I can keep things affordable when someone approaches me for a commission. And frankly, I totally undercharge;; but I do my best!

Game-like animations are just fun. They range, they’re silly, to intense (I’ve animated fight animations before for game concepts), to indulgent, and beyond! Headsprites are always a delight, especially if I get to push the expression X) and I love tiny things (I mean... I am a pixel artist...) so getting to make lil tiny babs even just walking can be fun - and also, a lot more time consuming than you might thing, esp if you wanna make it smooth, like this lil Frisk I did last month or so:

Do u prefer lipflaps or lipsyncs?

oTL

B... both??

Okay, lipsyncing basically is very time consuming. AND, I freakin’ love it. I love puzzles, and when it boils down to it, that’s what super fun & expressive lip syncing is (some Ghibli animations are the heckin’ best for this)...

and, I’m a pixel artist, without sound-syncing capabilities in her main art program oTL Yeah, I can export frames and line them up and check but... gods, it’s so time consuming. I’ve tried it out of desperation - but for even five seconds of sound (sayyyyy a lil Vine...) that’s hours upon hours of transferring back and forth just to check.

So even though I love lipsyncs, they’re too time-consuming (and ergo, if I’m being commissioned, often too expensive) to do often! Someday I’d like to get back to doing them more often, but for now, practically I stick to/’prefer’, in the loosest terms, to do lipflaps. For the layman, this is that ‘two frame’ (maybe three) open-closed style of animating mouths- however, I’m working on ways to keep that style, but make it more expressive! It depends on the project - and in commissions, I’ll pretty much always prioritize giving the client a little more body animation than mouth animation, unless it’d really fit what they’ve requested.

What's the hardest part of the animation process??

.... damn, this is a tough one! Sometimes I’d say it’s the initial concept work - but it depends on what I have to work with. Sometimes that parts a breeze - and honestly freeing, bc I can take the time to try and push what I’ll do with it!

Roughing is one of my favorite parts, tbh. It can be tricky, sure, but getting to go from keyframes to in-betweens & smears to adding the flairs of secondary motion (think hair swishing, or coats flaring, etc) is so exciting and satisfying.

From there it’s all refining, and tweaking...

Hm. Honestly, the hardest is probably the initial cleanup and lining. It’s cool to see it come together, but it feels so much slower, and it can drag - and then you find bits that actually don’t translate well from the rough stage, so you have to go back and rework, and oof it can just drag in this phase, heh. Plus, I’m always tempted to add more frames, but it’s not always realistic - I’m a perfectionist, to say the least, so I’m constantly having to leash myself back so I don’t turn a project into a half-a-year undertaking, pff.

What's ur favorite??

Probably gave myself away talking about the roughing stage X) It’s just loose and fun and free! But seeing it all come together is also damn satisfying too, so that’s not to say I don’t like the refining portions either...

Outside of that, I also really like the beginning of the color stage! .... Before having to translate shadows/highlights to each and every frame *shudders*. That gets tedious, but it’s so critical! Anyways, though, I heckin’ love colors. I always have a rough palette in mind at the start of the process, but I go ham and play with it as a little break and a true test when I get to actual slap together a full frame with full color, highlights/shadows included! It’s exciting, like a preview of the finished product, basically :D

Any part u don't like?

Heh, by the time I get to shadows/highlights, I tend to be getting impatient, I suppose. It’s not that I don’t like it - I definitely highly value it, and if it was the only thing I was working on in an animation that’d be different, but as a one-woman team I’m just raring to be done at that point; it’s very nearly the last thing I do, after all, so it’s a struggle to focus. X)

I suppose one that always gets me is more complicated backgrounds. It’s a work in progress, as I’m getting better and finding the fun in them for sure! But I’m still not where I want to be in translating ‘background concept’ to ‘finished background’ - it feels more stiff than my animations, I guess. So it’s a frustrating part... but hey, it’s part of it! And learning to embrace the challenge is a big help.

... I just always have to make sure I have a big cup of coffee and a good jam playlist going when I sit down to do ‘em, in the meantime.(=▿= ||||)

What's a thing people don't see that u put a lotta time into?

Definitely the coloring. This goes for both backgrounds and the animated characters themselves. It’s... never as simple as it looks? It’s time consuming, and while some parts of frames can be copy-pasted, I also put subtle work into the animations that mean that some pixels are off so it ends up being marginally faster to just recolor, but then there’s shadows, and working in pixels means that if I miss one then there’s a flickering pixel mid-animation, and sometimes there’s an unconnected line and then you bucket fill the whole damn thing, and gods know I’ve got colored lines so I have to be exacting with keeping the same ratios highlighted vs darker in shifting frames...

*deep breath*

... Yeah, basically the coloring is super time consuming. And balancing bg coloring with animated elements in the image itself is a whole extra challenge on top of that. For 99% of my animations, I can damn near guarantee I’ve spent at least twice as much time coloring it as I have animating it.

Do u have a fave animation u've done?

*looks at my goblin hoard of animations in horror like I’ve been asked to choose a favorite child*

... Stars above, I can’t choose! I love them all, and at this point a good portion of them are commissions- it wouldn’t feel right to choose!

*...carefully covers the hoard’s metaphorical ears*

... also, that said, I can admit a soft spot for any of them that involve humor. I tend to get to do extremely expressive faces and action there, even if I have to ration the frames, so it turns out really fun X)

And though rough and I’ve definitely done stuff I’m more proud of, I still crack up at this one I did a while back of the nonsense ‘ass’ joke between Red & Stretch... their faces were too much fun XD I’ve gotten waybetter since then though, Big Oof, I see so many things I can fix; might go back and redo it someday.

Honestly, though, I just freakin’ love animating! They all have their ups and downs andI always put a lot of love into them and find a way to have fun with it and try to push any emotion/theme (when applicable). I like to think it shows, but idk, that’s something I have to leave up to you guys X)

#night answers #about animating #phew there were a lot-!#thanks so much for your interest #hope these answers made sense! :D #Anonymous

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yiwns · 5 years

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ANNABETH'S SURPRISE

Fandom: Percy Jackson / PJO

Pairing: Percy Jackson x Annabeth Chase // PERCABETH

Word Count: 2.1k

Genre: Fluff

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"So, what's the surprise, Seaweed Brain?" Annabeth asked Percy as they strolled along the beach. It was Annabeth's birthday and Percy wanted to surprise her by taking her to her Poseidon's castle. "Oh you'll see," Percy smirked. "Seaweed Brain, you know I don't like surprises right? And besides, I'll probably even guess what it is," Annabeth said.

Percy groaned like a child. "See this is why I can never surprise you!" He waved he's arms dramatically in the air. Annabeth giggled at her boyfriend's childishness. "Okay okay, I'll try not to guess it okay?" Annabeth promised. "Pinky promise?" Percy held out his pinky like a five year old. "Yes, pinky promise," Annabeth giggled and link their pinkies together.

Percy took her hand and they stroll along Camp Half Blood's beautiful beach. The sun was starting to rise. The sunlight shone on the ocean, the ocean twinkled and dolphins even jumped out and did a few flips in front of the couple. The sky turned a soft lilac and blue colour. Even Annabeth couldn't help but stare in awe.

"This way, my princess," Percy led towards the ocean. "So I did some calculations-"

"Wait? Since when do you do calculations?" Annabeth cut him off. "Anyways," Percy rolled his eyes. "I did some calculations," he emphasised the word 'calculations'. "And that I can make you breath underwater," He grinned. "Well, surprise me," Annabeth crossed her arms and waited. Percy grinned and leaned in. Their lips touch and the dolphins were clapping in the background.

They parted for breath. "That was sweet and all but what was that for?" Annabeth placed her arms around his shoulders. "You'll see," he wiggled his arm around her waist. They were now standing about the sea, thanks to Percy. He slowly lowered them down into the ocean. Annabeth looked around her, she was surrounded in water and she was breathing.

"Wow," She breathed out. Percy was grinning like an idiot. "Cmon," He took her by the hand. As they swam, many sea creatures passed by them. And of course they were whispering to Percy. "That's his majesty's son."

"Lord Percy!"

"Who's the girl beside him?"

"She looks beautiful."

Soon, they were floating at the edge of a underwater gap. Percy whistled and soon two hippocampus swam towards him. They were beautiful. Their skin shone like the galaxy underwater. If you don't know what they are, from the waist up they have a horse as a head and horse hooves, from the waist down, they have a fish tail and flippers.

Both of them each rode one hippocampus. Soon they were in front a huge arch. Inside, they're were sea and ocean nymphs everywhere. Even mermaids and mermen. Annabeth couldn't decide if she was amazed by the creatures or the architecture of the kingdom.

"Hey Dad!" Percy greeted his father, Poseidon who was siting on his throne of seashells and coral. "Percy my son!" Poseidon bellowed as he gave Percy a very big hug. "And Annabeth, good to see again," He smiled at Annabeth. "Good to see you too, my lord," Annabeth, being the mature one bowed.

"Percy told me his plans on everything, and happy birthday Annabeth, this is gift to you, just don't let your mother find out," Poseidon said. Poseidon snapped his finger and a nereid came holding a tray. On top the tray was two glass bottle filled with sparkling blue and green liquid. "A... potion?" Annabeth picked one of the bottle up.

"One for you and one for my son," Poseidon said. "Cool, what does it do?" Percy asks inspecting the bottle. "Why don't you drink and find out?" Poseidon grinned. Percy and Annabeth hesitated but drank it, what could go wrong right?

Percy and Annabeth gulped down the liquid. They started to glow, like really bright, almost as bright as Apollo but I'm not allowed to say that. The glowing died down. "I don't feel any different," Annabeth mumbled. Poseidon snapped his fingers and two mermen came with a body size mirror.

"WOAH!" Percy grinned. They couldn't believe what they saw in their reflection. "W-We're mermaids!" Annabeth said. "Merman!" Percy corrected her. Percy was shirtless but from the waist down, he had ocean green fish tail that sparkles in the light. Annabeth hair was in a half braid which was decorated with pearls and seashells, she had a white crop top that was decorated with pearls. From waist down, she had a coral pink fish tail.

"Oh my gods, this is awesome!" Annabeth swam in circles. Their weapons hung on a belt made of seaweed around their waist. "Thank you, Lord Poseidon," Annabeth bowed. Percy was still busy doing flips and giggling like a kid. Poseidon chuckled at them.

"Go and have fun, explore!" Poseidon sent them. For the entire day, the happy couple swam around, amazed by the underwater life. They returned back to the palace when the ocean turned dark, meaning it was night time. Poseidon was busy signing papers, obviously papers sent from Zeus.

"Ah, welcome back!" Poseidon greeted them back. "Had fun?" He asked. "A lot," Annabeth answered. Percy was still acting like a child. "So, how do we turn back into human?" Percy asked. "Why that's simple, I just... um... I... um," Poseidon stopped and thought for awhile. "I actually, don't know." He admitted. "What!?" Annabeth asked in shock. "I never turned anyone into mermaids before," he added. "T-Then, how?" Percy stutter.

"Well I thought it was a good idea," Poseidon stopped when a ocean nymph came and whispered something into his ear. Both of them had a brief discussion. "Great news! Kyla here," Poseidon gestured towards the ocean nymph, "knows how to turn you back into human!"

"How?" Annabeth raised a brow. "Well, there's this ancient cave near shore, there this magical wishing pearl. People say if you touch it and say you're wish it would come true," Kyla explained. "Then lets goooo," Percy started to swim but Annabeth caught him by the fin. "Hold up, Seaweed Brain." She said. "What's the catch?" Annabeth raised a brow.

"Well, it is near shore but it's deep down, like under shore. Around the midnight zone," Kyla said nervously. "Can we go now?" Percy asked getting impatient. "Percy, the midnight zone is very dangerous," Annabeth told him. "Have you seen me with danger? Demigods are a magnet for danger!" He waved his arms around. "True, but the midnight zone has less oxygen and the pressure is really high. It could burst out lungs, even if we're mermaids, because we're not real mermaids, we're still half mortal," Annabeth explained. "But I can breath underwater," Percy stated. "And I can't," Annabeth pointed out.

"And that is where I come in," Poseidon said. He gave them both a seashell necklace with four stripes on it. "When you are about to enter the midnight zone, put these on. It would let you stay there long enough for you to get to the pearl. But once you turn back to human, you need to get out of there as fast as you can. In mermaid form, you can last longer than human and might only used one bar and that means you have three bars left when you are in human form before your lungs burn," Poseidon explained. "Now be safe, and don't get killed on the way down," Poseidon patted Percy's head. Percy gave Poseidon a hug and said their goodbyes. Percy took Annabeth's hand started to swim back to shore.

When they were almost near shore, they stopped and look down. "Ready, Wise Girl?" Percy asks. "Ready," Annabeth answered. Both of them put on the necklace and the four stripes started to glow as they descended into the midnight zone. Many giant creatures such as squid and sharks passed by them. They didn't want to mess with them, I mean who would want too? He's the son of Poseidon, their king. But they did had to kill a few squids who were rebellious against Poseidon.

They soon found a cave. It was attached to the shore line, the entrance was covered with seaweed, but there was faint glow coming from the inside. They swam towards it. But Annabeth pulled Percy towards a rock and hid behind it. "What is it-" Annabeth cut Percy off by putting her index finger to her lips. "Listen," she whispered. Percy ears perked up as he heard movement and low growling near the cave. Both of them peeked up from the rock. Huge tentacles surrounded the cave. "It's a kraken!" Percy exclaimed. "Shhh!" Annabeth shushed him. The kraken red eyes glowed in the dark, its tentacles making a swishing sound as it moved. "What are we gonna do?" Percy asked. Annabeth thought for awhile. "We need to distract it," Annabeth said. "How?" Percy asked. "We need to get passed this tentacles," Annabeth said. "They are huge! It's like fighting an underwater Hydra just that the tentacle doesn't grow back but it's bigger and longer," Percy groaned.

Annabeth thought for awhile. "I got it!" A tiny lightbulb sparked from her head. "We can swim fast, even though the tentacles is huge it can't move that fast cause of its weight. If we swim fast enough and different direction, we could confused it and the tentacles would very tangled," Annabeth said. Percy nodded.

"1,2,3 go!" Annabeth said. Percy and Annabeth charged at the kraken. Swimming fast and around it. It was annoyed by them but also confused. "HEY SQUID FACE!" Percy called him multiple names. Soon, the tentacles were all tangled and the kraken was struggling to get it out. "Now!" Percy said. They swam inside the cave, brushing past the seaweed entrance.

"Woah," Percy looked around the cave. "This Place looked like someone lived here," He said. "Percy! In here!" Annabeth called him. Percy Swann towards Annabeth. A huge pearl sat on table of coral, it was glowing a coral pink light. "Ready?" Annabeth asked her boyfriend, he nodded. Both of them put their hands on the pearl and closed their eyes. "I wish to be human again," They both said in unison. Both of them started to glow for a moment. The glowing died down and they opened their eyes. "We're human again!" Annabeth gasped. They were back in their camp attire.

Just in time, they heard a beeping sound. A bar from the seashell was gone, three more left. "Cmon, we have to-"

"Wise Girl look out!"

"Huh- AAAAH! PERCY!" Annabeth screamed. A tentacle had sneaked in and wrapped itself around Annabeth's waist and pulled her out. "AAAAAHHHH!" She yelled. "WISE GIRL!" Percy swam after her. The kraken had untangled itself. It roared at Percy. Annabeth was hanging off the tentacle, squirming to get out but the grip only got tighter. Annabeth grunted in pain.

Percy whipped out Riptide. "LET HER GO YOU SQUID FACE!" He yelled at it. The kraken roared at him and charged it tentacles at it. Percy dodge most of it. He sliced of one. The kraken roared in pain. Usually, squid can regenerate their tentacles but it takes time, and this kraken doesn't have time before Percy turns it into calamari. Percy stabbed at the kraken as it charged at Percy. "HANG ON WISE GIRL!" Percy said. He charged towards the tentacle holding Annabeth and sliced it off. Annabeth untangled herself, Percy swam towards her and wrapped his arms around her.

Annabeth felt dizzy, she realised her seashell had only one and a half bar left. Before she could say anything, she passed out in Percy arms due to the lac of oxygen. Percy panicked for awhile then realised why she had passed out. The kraken had swam back into its hiding place to regenerate its tentacles. Percy swam upwards to the light.

"Hah!" Percy's head popped up from the water. He dragged Annabeth towards the sand, Percy kissed her a few times which he considers CPR. A few minutes later, Annabeth started to cough out water. "Hey there Wise Girl," Percy grinned at her. "Hey, Seaweed Brain," Annabeth kissed Percy. Right now, it was night time. The stars were shining brightly.

"So how did you like your birthday present?" Percy asked his girlfriend. They were lying on the sand, not caring if they had sand on their backs or hair. "It was, unexpected I have to admit. I did expect you taking me to Poseidon's castle but not the mermaid part," Annabeth admitted. "So, did I surprise you?" Percy asked. Annabeth laughed. "Yes, yes you did," She kissed him one more. She snuggled up to him as both of them admired the beautiful night sky above.

This was truly an amazing birthday experience that Annabeth will never forget.

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jlf23tumble · 5 years

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Hiya, it's your TMFU anon from a couple weeks ago... I'm still squealing internally whenever I see any gifs from the movie. Gaaah... I read some of the Phoenix's and Blake's fics - you were right, they're great. One of Phoenix's even made me cryyy, wtf... I also dipped my toes into the tag on AO3, and hot damn! So many good fics there! My favorite so far was The Honey Trap by Mamalazzer - I actually laughed out loud. The characterization is spot on! Can I ask for some recs of your favorites?

Oh, hell, yeah, this is my jam, you can always always always ask, and THANK YOU for giving me one more reason to get my ass in gear and address my TMFU bookmark ~problem, lol (similar shout out to @justlarried). As ever, it helps me know what to rec if I know a little bit more about the types of fic you want to read (AU? canon? angst? kink? etc.), but I’m gonna go with characterization and the fics I come back to read again and again. Bravo for starting with Phoenix and Blake, easily my two faves in the fandom (Mine and Apart and And me underneath being my faves of faves, but just know that I made those choices under duress, @horsegirlharry @newleafover). I’ll put the rest in order of length because I find it helps me when I’m reading someone else’s recs? Anyway, give ‘em a spin and let me know what you think! I also have PDF versions of two iconic fics by the same author that got deleted, and goddddd, they’re so good, I’m happy to share. I’m going to put 15 faves under the cut, and believe it or not, I did draw the line…I have even more recs with different, looser parameters if you need ‘em!

let’s start fires for heaven’s sake by Ingu, 2.5k, “I need you to help me steal something,” Napoleon said. “It’s urgent?” “More or less.” There was silence over the line, and then Illya drew a sharp breath. “They’re blackmailing you.” (Or the one where Napoleon tries to steal back his freedom, only to find Illya had already stolen his heart)

The Marvin Gaye Affair by arysteia, 2.8k. A close call, and what it means to be close.

shadows of the mess you made by therm0dynamics, 3k. It’s amazing how dissonant that tic is. For someone who operates with such brutal and quiet efficiency, like the law of conservation of energy incarnate, the excess movement telegraphs like it’s scrawled on his chest in neon paint. (Or Illya gets angry one time too many, and Napoleon teaches him a lesson in self-control)

Use your Hips, Cowboy. by Mordin, 3.2k. Illya teaches Napoleon some grappling techniques.

The Laundromat Affair by manic_intent (this author has lots of fics on my list, but I’m just putting this one here for its gentleness; read ‘em all!), 4.1k. “Why’d you make her think that the KGB were back?” Illya looked out of the window, at the tall buildings that they were passing, through the throngs of busy people and snarled traffic, and finally, as they eventually struggled closer to Central Park, he said quietly, “It is a hard thing, to be abandoned.”

I’d Like To (Put My Fingers On You) by colonel_bastard, 4.3k. Illya has a jealous streak. Napoleon encourages him.

Touch Sight Tastes Like Fire by Ingu, 4.7k. Napoleon taps him on the shoulder in Istanbul, and Illya almost punches him.

Wrong (Right.) by Tarlaith, 5k. Illya can’t stop thinking about “It”.

Cool, Sleek Potential by BewareTheIdes15, 6.1k. “Ah, the true question of the ages,” Napoleon sighs. Tipping his head back sends a cascade of sunlight down the column of his throat, pooling at his shirt collar where the shape of an oil heiress’ mouth is still bruised into the skin. “Why are we here? Why do bad things happen to good people?” “Why do you dress as a woman beneath your clothes?”

Between the Lines by sinestrated, 6.7k. Five mission reports they fudged, and one that was accurate.

and they linger on by yukla, 9.8k. Napoleon watches from afar, and then realizes he had it all wrong from the very start.

Dog Years by sospes, 10.5k. Illya’s really good with dogs. Napoleon’s more of a cat person, to be honest, but he’s not about to let that get in the way of them living their life together.

The End Where We Begin by Ingu, 21.5k. Illya kills an American spy in Zurich. Three days later, he’s staring into the face of a dead man standing in his hotel room.

all that you have wished for, I know will come your way by janie_tangerine, 21.7k. Napoleon isn’t quite sure he can put “yes, because your superiors don’t get to see you gloating when you’re not playing chess against yourself, and they don’t get to discuss dumb opera plots with you, they don’t get to see you engrossed in cheap paperbacks and treat them like first editions because you care that much about what they say, and they don’t get to see that you have a personality and that it’s everything but unpleasant when one gets to know you, and I don’t understand why would anyone think it’s a good idea to treat you like an asset and not a person” in words that might not sound completely ridiculous, never mind that he’s not even sure Illya would take such a rant seriously.

By the Throat series by AlchemyAlice, 57.8k. In which the KGB took some rather dubious measures to ensure Illya’s loyalty to Russia, and Napoleon doesn’t care for it.

#fic rec #tmfu #the man from uncle #please help me revive this fandom #tmfu 2015 #napollya #napoleon solo #illya kuryakin #i really do wanna hear what you think!

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padfootagain · 5 years

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I can't believe I reached 3k followers!!! Thank you all so much!! When I started this blog, I hoped to reach 100 followers one day, and now here we are!

So to thank you all and mark the date, I'm making a little event! The theme is simple : movies!

What is it all about?

Under the cut are a list of prompts and scenes from different movies. You can choose between two different things that you would like me to write:

- You can choose between 1 and 5 prompts along with a character and I will write a one-shot based on these prompts for the character you have chosen

- You can choose one scene in the list and a character, and I will re-write that scene for the character you have chosen

A few rules to follow if you want to send a request.

- If you request for the prompts :

- You can request up to 5 prompts, not more

- You can add a few details that you would like to be featured in your request if you have precise ideas

- If you request a scene :

- I will write a one-shot that is inspired by that scene, not the exact same scene (obviously, otherwise, where is the fun?). The idea is to get the same spirit and some references, or the same situation, but not a simple copy.

- These scenes will require me to turn AU!, so don't be surprised.

- You can request only one scene, so choose wisely ;)

- I will most likely 'erase' the characters who were in the original scenes, so don't be surprised.

No matter if you request for prompts or for a scene :

- You can request for any character on my masterlist, no matter if I've already written for them or not.

- I have no trouble with anons, if you're a little shy. So don't hesitate to send a request on anon if you feel more comfortable this way.

- Please, send me your request through my askbox and not in a PM. It's much easier for me to manage, and I might forget about your request if you send it to me privately. If you're shy, send an ask on anon.

- Sadly, I will probably not be able to write all the requests that are sent my way. I will write as many as I can, but I'm only human. I'm sorry if I don't get to write your request. But I invite you to send it anyway, because I might write your request! If you don't send it, then you can be sure that I won't though. Again, I'm sorry if I can't write all the requests I receive, but I usually get too many to be able to write them all.

Requests for this event will be up for one week, which means until January 14!

Considering how well this event works, I may change that date along the way.

Thank you all again and I hope you like this event :D

Prompts :

Every prompt is a movie quote. The movie it comes from is written under the quote in italic

1. "Was that a joke?"

"What if it was?"

"I don't like jokes!"

"I don't like you!'

Kuch Kuch Hota Hai

2. "Why, you stuck up, half-witted, scruffy-looking, nerf-herder!"

Star Wars : The Empire Strikes Back

3. "I solemnly swear that I am up to no good."

Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

4. "Well… my philosophy is that worrying means you suffer twice."

Fantastic Beasts And Where To Find Them

5. "A heart's a heavy burden."

Howl's Moving Castle

6. "You're far away, where are you?"

"In a world that's disappearing, I'm afraid."

The Sound Of Music

7. "No, I'm not mad. I… I'm hurt, and disappointed and… and mad."

Funny Face

8. "I'm always gonna love you."

"I'm always gonna love you too."

La La Land

9. "I'll just take my ego for a walk…"

An Affair To Remember

11. "Would you like to stay for dinner?"

"Would you like to stay forever?"

Mulan

12. "At midnight, I'll turn into a pumpkin and drive away in my glass slipper. And that will be the end of the fairytale."

Roman Holiday

13. "Strange, isn't it? Each man's life touches so many other lives. When he isn't around, he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he?"

It's A Wonderful Life

14. "Whatever crimes I commit against you, remember, I have diplomatic immunity in 46 countries. Including Puerto Rico."

The Princess Diaries : Royal Engagement

15. "Anything can happen if you let it."

Mary Poppins

16. "Life is suffering. It is hard. The world is cursed. But still you find reasons to keep on living."

Princess Mononoke

17. "Everything is possible. Even the impossible."

Mary Poppins Returns

18. "Love isn't a thinking thing. It's a feeling thing."

Playing It Cool

19. "That is one big pile of shit."

Jurassic Park

20. "I love you."

"I know."

Star Wars : The Empire Strikes Back.

21. "Sadness, anger, hate… we were not allowed to express anything. So no, how do we express love?"

Dear Zindagi

22. "Carpe Diem. Seize the day, boys. Make your lives extraordinary."

Dead Poets Society

23. “Always believe in yourself. Do this and no matter where you are, you will have nothing to fear.”

The Cat Returns

24. "I'll probably lose my citizenship for that."

Mission Impossible III

25. "Oh, don't waste my time with flattery."

"Not to seem rude, but I wasn't actually talking to you."

The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.

26. "But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass."

The Lord Of The Rings: The Two Towers

27. " I guess we need to register you as a lethal weapon."

Lethal Weapon

28. "Just because it is, doesn't mean it should be."

Australia

29. "It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live."

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone

30. "A lot of people are in love… but none can love like me, because they don't have you."

Kal Ho Naa Ho

31. "Just follow your heart. And keep smiling."

Kiki's delivery service

32. "That look in your eyes is a pain in my arse, you know that, right?"

Mission Impossible III

33. "Can we take a flight back to reality, or do we have to change planes in Denver?"

The Santa Clause

34. "Yippie-Ki-Yay, motherfucker."

Die Hard

35. "I retire for like five minutes and it all goes to shit."

The Avengers

36. "Would you like to know the probability of her using it against you? It's high."

"Let's get going."

"It's very high…"

Star Wars : Rogue One

37. "I'm too old for this."

Lethal Weapon

38. "Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it."

The Lion King

39. "Now, think of the happiest things. It's the same as having wings."

Peter Pan

40. "I'm in love with you."

"So what?"

"So what? So plenty! I love you! You belong to me!"

"No. People don't belong to people."

Breakfast at Tiffany's

41. "It's called Karma. And it's pronounced 'Ha! '"

Mamma Mia: Here We Go Again

42. "Whoa, lady, I only speak two languages: English and bad English."

The Fifth Element

43. "You were my new dream."

Tangled

44. "Any question?"

"Yeah. Could we get a cappuccino machine in here? Cause I don't know how you call this."

Mission Impossible

45. "I'm not used to people sticking around when things go bad."

"Welcome home."

Star Wars : Rogue One

45. "Stop, you'll kill them!"

"That's the idea!"

The Mummy

46. "Probably best not to tell anyone about this."

"Right, no one. I mean, I'll tell myself sometimes but don't worry, I won't believe it."

Notting Hill

47. "Once you've met someone, you never really forget them."

Spirited Away

48. "I hit my head on something."

"Yeah, my head!"

Balto

49. "Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Are you okay to drive? A minute ago, you were dead."

"What are you talking about?"

"This is not going to end well."

Mission Impossible : Rogue Nation

50. "I've got a bad feeling about this…"

Star Wars

51. "A little consideration, a little thought for others, makes all the difference."

Winnie The Pooh

52. "If she loves you then she will turn around and look at you... turn around... turn around!"

Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge

53. "Can I stay for a while?"

"Stay forever."

Notting Hill

54. "Promise me one thing: don't take me home until I'm drunk - very drunk indeed."

Breakfast at Tiffany's

55. "This California dew is a little heavier than usual tonight."

"Really? From where I stand the sun is shining all over the place."

Singin' In The Rain

56. "You need to stop carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders."

Spider-Man: Homecoming

57. "Who ever said the human race was logical?"

Star Trek IV : The Voyage Home

58. "Blow up the car."

"Oh, it's such a nice car…"

"And yet, do it."

Mission Impossible III

59. "Why complicate things that are really quite simple?"

Mary Poppins

60. "Who are you?"

"Your worst nightmare."

Mulan

61. "You said 'whoopsidaisies'."

"I don't think so. No one says 'whoopsidaisies', do they? Unless they're…"

"There is no 'unless'. No one has said 'whoopsidaisies' for fifty years and even then it was only little girls with blonde ringlets."

Notting Hill

62. "I've a feeling we're not in Kansas anymore."

The Wizard Of Oz

63. "Are you out of your corn-fed mind?!"

Star Trek : Into Darkness

64. "You're a good man, with a good heart. And it's hard for a good man to be king."

Black Panther

65. "It is mine to give to whom I will. Like my heart."

The Lord of the Rings : The Fellowship of the Ring

66. "There's no place like home…"

The Wizard Of Oz

67. "I'm with you till the end of the line"

Captain America : First Avenger

68. "You deserve better than this. You deserve people who value you. You deserve to go somewhere where you can be proud of who you are."

The Shape Of Water

69. "No matter how many weapons you have, no matter how great your technology might be, the world cannot live without love."

Castle In The Sky

70. "There is nothing more reassuring than realizing that the world is crazier than you are."

Thor: The Dark World

71. "I would rather share one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world alone."

The Lord of the Rings : The Fellowship of the Ring

72. "I love her."

"Does she love you?"

" I don't know now. Yesterday, you weren't alive."

"Well, I apologize for not being dead in a ditch."

"I don't think I can accept your apology."

"Is that a joke?"

"Yes, yes, sort of. I'm not... I've never been very good at jokes."

Salmon Fishing In The Yemen

73. "English, motherfucker, do you speak it?"

Pulp Fiction

Scenes :

The links to the scenes on youtube are set in the titles of the movies, so it can be easier for you to choose. I'll re-write the scene entirely so you and the character of your choice can live it ;) It can be set either in the universe of the character you have chosen or the universe of the original scene depending on the scene you choose.

1. Indiana Jones : Raiders Of The Lost Ark

You are so close to finding this lost treasure. Bad for you that you have fallen in a cave filled with deathly traps.

2. Jurassic Park

You thought you would enjoy a nice weekend discovering an amazing scientific breakthrough. Now, here you are, hiding from a T-Rex and wondering how you got yourself in this situation…

3. The Shop Around The Corner / You've Got Mail

You have a date with someone tonight, but you don't know who. All you know is that you are to meet in that café. All turns crazy when your date is actually this colleague of yours whom you hate… kinda…

4. L'Arnacoeur

Your family engaged him/her to seduce you, so you would break your engagement with this guy they hate. Bad luck that for once, he/she falls for you too…

5. Love Affair / An Affair To Remember / Sleepless In Seattle

It's love at first sight. But perhaps the two of you are getting ahead of yourselves. You give each other a bit of time to think, and set up to meet at the top of the Empire State Building, if in six months, you still feel the same for each other. But will you both be there?

6. The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian

The only way to win this war is to earn more time. And a fight one on one with your enemy is the best way you can come up with. But who will survive the fight? Will it be enough?

7. The Lord Of The Rings : The Fellowship Of The Ring

You are trapped in Moria. A Balrog chasing after you. This looks pretty bad… yep… that's bad…

8. Roman Holiday

You are a princess in your country, but for one day, you have managed to escape your duties, and you are now roaming through the streets of Roma. A stranger helps you through the streets of the city and you spend a magical day…

9. The Holiday

You have exchanged your house for the holiday with a woman in England. You expected a quiet week, but that was before you would meet the woman's brother…

10. The Lake House

Through your mail box, you somehow receive letters from the man who used to live in your house 5 years ago. Through the letters you exchange, you slowly start to develop feelings for each other. Until one day you decide to meet, and set up a date. But he never comes. You realize that he didn't come because he had died during these five years that separated the two of you. But you may have one last chance to save him…

#event #3k #3k followers #celebration

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uta-no-knb · 5 years

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Is it possible to get headcanons for Natsuki, Ai, Syo, and Reiji who have an s/o who struggles with adhd/ learning disability and struggles to learn things, but absolutely hates asking for help because when they do they often receive looks of disappointment, frustration, and even backlash from many because they aren't able to keep up with others. This makes them reluctant to work with others because they're scared to let them down, but also afraid of being yelled at.

I”M ALIVE!!

When I saw this request, I teared up a bit; because I suffer with ADHD myself and this touched home a bit; so the s/o in this request will be based on my personal struggles with ADHD and the demons that haunt me.

Anyway, this is a cute one. There is a poem that talks about ADHD (which actually does include stuff on learning disabilities) that I will be including throughout the….CRAP!!! I WANNA MAKE THIS A SCENARIO NOW!!! T__T

ONWARDS!!

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:

“God Damn it!” you exclaimed, throwing your hands in the air as papers flew off the piano stand. You have been working on this music theory homework for the past three hours and this one exercise is tripping you up. Yes, you took notes on modes and the different kinds, and even the chart to make it easier, but you were still struggling. You loved music with a passion, but one of the many struggles for you was music theory. All your life, you’ve had issues with learning, and even doing simple tasks; you would forget something immediately, even if you wrote it down, and when you would ask again, you would get reprimanded for it, or looked down upon. Oftentimes, you felt like people treated you as if you had a full mental disability-but you don’t. You simply have ADHD. You know there’s nothing wrong with being diagnosed with this, since there are a lot of people diagnosed with it, but at the same time, you felt as if you’re alone, that you’re nothing but a thorn and an annoyance in everyone’s side.

For one person in particular, you felt as if you were the biggest thorn in their side, and what makes the feeling worse, is that he always has a stoic expression and that makes it hard to understand a majority of the time, and that was your boyfriend.

You knew that you could go to him for help, yet you’re scared that he’ll find you a disappointment, an embarrassment, or even just plain break up with you. He is Mr. Perfect in your eyes; and due to this, you were scared that he would end up leaving you.

“Why the fuck can’t I do this right? It’s not that hard!” you said, as you were on the verge of crying.

“Nothing is ever really ‘hard’ in life,” a voice said from behind you.

.Turning around, you saw a familiar mop of red hair, and the owner had a smile on his face. “Hey Otoya,” you greeted, “Apparently, music theory is,” you said as you pointed to the chart that you were trying to figure out.

Picking up the chart that had ended up on the floor, Otoya took a look at it and just like you was utterly confused.

“Ai-senpai is good with music theory, why not ask him for he-”

“Absolutely not!” you said, a bit louder than you had intended. “I can’t…I just can’t.”

“If you’re struggling-”

“Otoya,” you said, voice shaky but still firm and serious, “You’re the only one who knows, and while I’m grateful that you haven’t told anyone, and haven’t treated me different, I do not want Ai knowing. He’s a professional, a perfectionist, and someone of that nature doesn’t want someone like me in their lives.”

“But you know he’s going to find out sooner or later. And who knows what would happen-”

“I’ll cross that bridge when I get there, but for now, it’s better that he doesn’t know. I don’t want him to think of me as pathetic, and to even yell or be disappointed in me.”

Otoya let out a sigh, running a hand through his hair. “While I know very little about ADHD, I do know one thing, it doesn’t define who you are. “You’re pretty, positive, and plus you’re smart-”

“But not smart enough to figure this shit out,” you sighed.

Otoya inwardly groaned; he knew that he wouldn’t be able to get through to you, since your stubbornness is kicking in (he’s learned the hard way that when you’re stubborn, you could get pissed off easily….and he does not want another slap to the face). “Then I don’t know what to tell you, (F/N), “ he said, turning around to leave. “I know that Ai-senpai’s opinion of you won’t change.”

“Wait, aren’t you gonna help me?”

“Are you kidding? I barely passed music theory.”

“Thanks for trying, but I must get back to this,” you said, as you turned back around to face the ‘demon’ that was placed before you.

“Good luck, (N-N)-chan!” he said, walking away, waving at you from over his shoulder.

The moment he had closed the door to the room you were in, he ended up walking into another person, the impact caused him to stumble back a little bit. Looking in front of him, he saw no one other than the person he had suggested you to ask for help.

“Ai-senpai, hey,” He said, sheepishly.

“Hello, Otoya, have you seen (L/N)-san? I haven’t been able to find her.”

“She’s in the practice room, struggling with some mode chart,” he said, without realizing that he had pretty much told his senior what you were doing exactly. “But I wouldn’t bother her, she’s really determined to figure it out on her own-she doesn’t need help-”

Ai just stared at his junior with his eyebrows raised. “What are you rambling about?” he asked. “She’s never needed help with theory. Why would she be struggling now?”

Otoya mentally slapped himself, “Nevermind!” he said, briskly walking past him. “I have an interview to go to, so I’ll see you later!” he lied as he quickly turned the corner and disappeared from Ai’s view.

Ai turned his gaze back to the door that was separating the two of you, still confused as to what Otoya was rambling about. He had heard the whole conversation that the two of you were having. You never told him that you had ADHD, and he’ll admit that hurts him; aren’t you supposed to tell someone everything about you when you’re in a relationship?

Walking away from the door to the practice room, he went back to his own room, to further research the condition of ADHD.

A few days later, Ai was in the practice room that you visited whenever you worked on your theory homework; he knew you would be here today since you were still struggling with the modes chart. He was sitting at the piano, passing time by playing his song, “A.I.” - which he found kinda ironic since that’s his name-thinking about the words that he had overheard from your conversation with Otoya.

I don’t want him to think of me as pathetic, and to even yell or be disappointed in me

Why would he yell at you for a condition that you had no control over? He wouldn’t be disappointed in you for asking him for help since he loved music theory; he would instead feel honored that you reached out to him for help since you rarely do.

His playing came to a stop when he heard the door to the room open, and turned to look at you.

“I’m so sorry, Ai,” you say, “I didn’t know you were in here-”

“I’m glad you’re here, (F/N)-chan,” he said, getting up and walking towards you. He saw that you were turning to leave, and it was at that point that he reached out and gently grabbed your arm. “Can we talk, please?”

You let out a sigh, following him as he guided you back to the piano bench; you pulled a chair over, as he straddling the bench to face you. You had so many thoughts going through you head. Was he going to break up with you? Did he notice how distant you’ve been? “W-what did you want to talk about?”

“Why don’t you trust me?” he asked, his blue eyes staring directly into yours, sadness and hurt swimming in his eyes.

“What are you talking about? I do trust you.”

“Then why didn’t you come to me to help you with your ‘theory demon’?”

You were silent; you weren’t expecting to cross this bridge this soon so you weren’t really prepared. “Because you’re so busy with your music and tours that I didn’t want to burden you with something so stupid-”

“You’re lying,” he said, cutting you off, completely startling you and taking you by surprise. “While I do have a busy life as an idol, i never use it as an excuse when it comes to you.”

“I”m sorry Ai,” you say, as your voice gets to be a bit shaky.

“No need to apologize,” he said, reaching out and placing a hand on your shoulder, his thumb rubbing gentle circles. “Please tell me what’s burdening you.”

“I-I can’t Ai, I just can’t-”

“I don’t care that you have ADHD, (F/N)-”

“What?!” you exclaimed, jolting backwards, “How do you kno-I’m going to kill Otoya-”

“I overheard your conversation that day with Otoya,” Ai said, trying to calm you down, “If anything, he was rambling some gibberish about how you can figure it out on your own; it honestly didn’t make any sense.” He saw your facial features shift to what he thought was fear. “Why are you scared?”

“Because I know you’re going to yell at me for being stupid and dependant, and you’re going to see me differently since I have ADHD.”

“I have an eidetic memory, and I don’t recall ever saying those things,” he said, his heart breaking as he saw your eyes start to water, “Why would I think those things due to a condition that you can’t control?”

“B-but my anxiety-”

“While I can’t relate to ever being anxious, I can relate being nervous.”

“The great Mikaze Ai, nervous?” you sniffled, as a smile appeared on your face, “You’re kidding.”

“I am not,” he said, his own expression softening, happy to see that at least he cheered up you some. “But I’m serious.”

“You don’t understand, Ai. Anxiety and nervousness are completely different things; plus ADHD isn’t something that’s easy to understand-”

“You have a different brain,” he started, “Everything collides, your thoughts, sights, sounds, and due to that you can’t make concrete decisions which leads to you not being able to process things the same as others. How it takes a bit longer for you to do things, and not only is it exhausting for you, but you’re also scared to get things wrong.”

You silently gasped, surprised at the words that your boyfriend said. He pretty much summed up the parts of your condition that you are currently going through at the moment. “But you don’t have it. How do you -”

“Because unlike other people whom you might’ve dated, I can point out all of the good traits you have, and can overlook the negative ones; ADHD doesn’t define who you are, YOU define who you are. You are (L/N)(F/N), the most amazing girl in the world; amazing personality, adorable laugh, and the most prettiest smile, and I embrace everything you yours, both good and bad, because I love you.”

The music materials you had set in your lap fell to the floor as you leaned over and started crying into your hands, the words that Ai had said melted your heart. “I”m so sorry Ai,” you sob out, “I’m such an idiot-”

“You aren’t an idiot,” he says, as he brings you into a hug, “I just don’t like seeing you like this. Just come to me if you’re having trouble with anything alright?”

All you could do was nod your head as you buried it as close as you could to his chest.

Ai rubbed circles on your back, resting his chin on top of your head, softly singing the final chorus of his song, ‘A.I.’, muttering “aishiteru” in a soft voice.

It was hard for you to open up to anyone about your struggles with ADHD, since you were usually scared about how others would treat you. Yet, here was someone, someone whom you love with all your heart, that has accepted you for your flaws.

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:

Natsuki/Syo

“Okay, this is how you set a pitch-class set into its prime form, (L/N),” Ai started, as you began to write down what he was about to say. “Put the pitch-class set in its normal order-”

“Normal order?”

“Normal order is a pitch class set reduced to its basic form,” Ai started, reminding you what the definition was, “the arrangement of pitches of a set from low to high; so that the first and last pitch have a span of the smallest possible interval.” To finalize the definition he gave you, he went ahead and wrote down an example.

“Okay,” you said, still slightly unsure about this topic.

“The second step is to transpose that order to that the first pitch class is 0. Then, you will invert the results from what you got from the second step and put the result in normal order. Fourth step is to transpose that result from step 3 so that the first pitch is 0 once again. Then, you compare the results of both sets, and the prime form is the most compact version. It’s quite simple really.”

You stared at the teal haired idol with a look of confusion on your face. “I still don’t get it,” you sighed in defeat. “I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get this stuff.”

“People learn differently,” he replied, “It’s alright.”

“But I know how busy your schedule is-and you’re wasting your only free time helping someone who can’t seem to do anything right. It’s so damn hard to get shit done with how I am.” Sighing, you looked at the idol, slight fear in your eyes. “I’m sorry for wasting your time, Mikaze-san. Please don’t be mad.”

The usually stoic idol’s facial expression softened at the sad and fearful tone in your voice. “I’m not mad at all,” he said, “It’s alright. I don’t mind doing music theory. I do agree that it is tricky at times, but you’ll get it.”

“Yea, and who knows how long it’ll take.” You turned to look at the stuff in front of you, the gears in your brain working overtime trying to figure this out.

“Why don’t you ask your boyfriend for help?”

Natsuki

You froze. “I…I don’t want to burden him-” you said softly, pausing when the idol next to you raised his eyebrow. “I mean, like…Starish is still…learning and improving their talents that I don’t want to take away from that. Plus, i don’t want him to think differently of me.” You tried to hold back the tremor in your voice.

You’re usually good at hiding tremors in your voice, but Ai picked up on it. “He won’t do that,” he said, flicking you in the forehead. “From what I’ve observed, Natsuki is the most outgoing, understanding person that I know. You should honestly tell him what’s going on.”

“You don’t understand. I’ve dated guys with a similar personality to Natsuki,” you started, placing your pencil down, “And they all have been disappointed in dating someone like me or they got angry since I learn at a slower pace. I can’t even count the number of times I’ve gotten into fights.” You looked at Ai again, “I really cherish Natsuki and I don’t want to lose him.”

“___-chan! Try some cookies!” Natsuki said, barging into the room.

The idol’s action startled you, and letting out a yelp, you ended up hitting your elbow against the table.

“Natsuki, please don’t barge into the room like that,” Ai said as he stood up from the chair he was sitting in.

“What are you two doing?” he asked, setting the cookies down. His tone of voice, while holding a happy tone, had an underlying hint of sadness.

“”(L/N)-san asked me to help her with some music theory, so I was offering her assistance,” Ai replied.

“I see,” he said, as his senior walked past him out of the room.

“Good luck, (L/N)-san,” Ai said, as he vanished, leaving you in the presence of your boyfriend.

When the door closed shut, the tension in the air was thick. You and Natsuki stared at each other.

“So…how was rehearsal?” you asked, trying to break and ease the tension in the room.

“It was fine,” he replied, his signature smile on his face.

You noticed, however that the smile he gave wasn’t his usual, sincere smile. “What’s wrong, ‘Suki?”

“Why was Ai with you-alone?” he asked, trying his hardest to contain his jealousy.

“Nothing really happened, ‘Suki,” you started, “Ai-senpai was just helping me with music theory.”

“I see.” You noticed that the tone in his voice held a bit of sadness. “Why didn’t you ask me?”

“I…I can’t tell you,” you say looking away. “I’m sorry, ‘Suki.”

“(L/N),” he said, as he started walking towards you (and startling you since he never called you by your last name). “I’m your boyfriend am I not? Do you not trust me?”

“T-That’s not it at all, ‘Suki,” you defended standing up. “It’s just-I don’t want you to think any different of me.”

“Why the hell would I do that? What’s going on?”

With a sigh, you grabbed his hand and led him to his bed, both of you sitting down. “I don’t like asking for help with things,” you said, looking at the floor, “It never ends well for me.”

“…Care to elaborate?”

“I suffer from ADHD alright?!” you exclaimed, startling both you and your boyfriend.

“Everyone suffers with some form of it-”

“You don’t get it,” you cut him off, looking at him with glossy eyes. “My brain is wired differently; I can’t decide on certain things, making me very indecisive. It’s hard to get my school work done since my mind wanders. I just…don’t process things the same as you. Plus, whenever I ask anyone for help, I just get yelled at or shot down.”

There was silence that filled the room; the blond trying to take everything in.

“The only reason why Ai-senpai was helping me was because I know he can make sure that I don’t get side-tracked-” You got cut off when you found yourself engulfed in a hug.

“Do you really think that I would hate you for this?” he said, tucking the top of your head under his chin. “I could never hate you. I could never yell at you. I don’t care if you’re different-everyone is. If you’re struggling, just let me help you; thats all I ask.”

You nodded and shifted so you could hug him back.

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Syo

“You know how Syo is,” you say, “he doesn’t really like music theory. Plus, I know that he sometimes has a hard time with his…emotions….and I don’t want him to lash out or hate me.”

“I do agree with you in regards to him having a difficult time with his emotions, however, I do not believe he would lash out at you for something you can’t control.”

“It’s still-he’s still hot-headed and who knows what would happen.”

Before Ai could respond, your boyfriend walked into the room. “Hey Ai, have you seen-” he paused when he saw how close you and Ai were. “What the hell is going on?!”

“Ai was just helping me with my homework,” you said, “He really knows his stuff when it comes to music theory.”

The ‘excuse’ you gave him entered one ear and went out the other; Syo could feel his anger starting to surface and all he could see at the moment was red. Before he could realize what was going on, he was running towards Ai, hand in a fist.

“Syo! Don’t you dare!” you exclaimed, scrambling up and standing in between the two idols. “What the hell is going on with you?”

“I think this is my cue to leave, (L/N)-san,” he said, getting up and power walking out of his own room. “I’ll email you some notes tonight to help.”

“Like hell you will!” Syo exclaimed as the teal haired idol closed the door to his room.

“What the fuck has gotten into you?!” you exclaimed, flicking the blond in the head. “He was just helping me with theory!”

“He was too close!” he exclaimed. “How long has this been going on behind my back!?”

“Just today,” you said, taken back by Syo’s anger. You’ve seen him angry, but never this angry (and never thought it would be towards you). Suddenly, you started to breathe rapidly, and felt your body start to tremble. Fuck, not now you thought, as you felt an anxiety attack start to surface.

Noticing your change in behavior, Syo stopped his ranting. “Oi, (F/n), whats going on?!”

At this point, you ended up feeling dizzy and-still conscious-fell to the floor. Immediately, you brought your knees to your chest and tried to steady your breathing.

Syo got on his knees and placed a hand on your shoulder, still unsure of what to do in this situation. “Hey, just breathe,” he said, the tone in his voice changing completely to one that was calmer. Noticing that just his hand on your shoulder wasn’t really doing much, he yanked you into a hug (which was slightly uncomfortable since your knees were pressed against his chest.

After what felt like hours, you felt your body start to stop trembling, and your breathing slowly got steadier. It was at this point that you just started crying.

Syo rubbed your back, trying to get you to calm down. “Just breathe,” he said, rubbing circles on your back. Once he felt you calm down a bit, he pushed you back lightly, keeping his hands on your shoulders. “What happened?”

“I…I had an anxiety attack,” you said, embarrassed, “It happens when I’m really stressed…..sometimes even without warning.”

Syo immediately felt bad-feeling that he caused it. “I…I didn’t know. I didn’t mean to cause it. I’m so sorry, (F/N).” he said, kissing your forehead. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

“It’s embarrassing,” you said. “It all ties into my ADHD.” You looked up and felt your heart sink as you saw an unfamiliar look on his face-as if he’s judging you. “I’m not defined by it by any means!! I’m still sensitive and kind and fun-”

“I never said you weren’t” he said calmly. “I guess I’m just hurt that you went to Ai for help instead of me.”

“No offense to you, but Ai is a better teacher,” you chuckled. “Plus, you’re hot headed and…I struggle with things that are easy for others…and I’ve gotten so much backlash from it that…I got scared you’d do the same.”

“I’m not going to lie, but I’m a bit hurt that you’d think that,” he said, “But I don’t know much about the topic, but I do want to help you. I would never do any of those things. Besides, I find that this makes you unique.”

“…not really helping there, Syo,” you said with a slight grin.

Leaning forward, he placed a gentle kiss on your lips. “Promise me that next time…you’ll come to me for help; whether it be theory, or an anxiety attack, I’ll be there.”

You smiled and, wiping a tear away, you kissed him.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

A few hours later…

Hoping that things had calmed down between you and Syo, Ai headed back to the room. However, he was not expecting the sight that was before him.

Papers were thrown about, crumpled and surrounding the trash can and the smell of what he assumed were hot pockets filled the room. What really grabbed his attention was you, sitting on Natsuki’s bed playing your game console and Syo scribbling away at the desk, grumbling in frustration.

Noticing the teal-haired male in the room, you just shrugged.

…Looks like he has someone else to tutor (you he didn’t mind, but he didn’t want to tutor Syo.

Just my luck, he thought.

“This shit makes no sense!!!” Syo exclaimed, banging his head on the table hard.

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Reiji

“Reiji-sama!”

“Marry me!”

You inwardly growled at the loud noises of the fangirls that were surrounding the radio station window, where your boyfriend was currently in the process of doing an interview. While Shining allowed for your relationship with Reiji, the only requirement was for you both to keep it a secret, which meant no publically going out on dates (or if you did, then he would have to be in a very good disguise). One of the options that Ringo suggested was for you to be his ‘manager’ and personal assistant, which Reiji of course found amazing.

You were of course fine with that (except the personal assistant part since he took massive advantage of that), but however, this meant that Reiji still had to put on a flirty act with his fans-and although you know that it was an act, you still couldn’t help but notice that some of it seemed genuine, since some of the acts he shows for the fans, he doesn’t show towards you.

So currently, you were outside of the interview studio, where hundreds of screaming fangirls were crowded around the window, giving them clear access to watch your boyfriend conduct his interview.

This now brought you to how you were currently feeling; anger and jealousy. You were extremely jealous of how he could freely ‘flirt’ with his fans and yet, he can’t publically do that to you (you were consistently being hit on whenever you were out and about without him around and that annoyed the hell out of you). Lately however, you’ve noticed that you and Reiji haven’t been spending a lot of time together doing non-work related stuff; you missed the movie nights that you two used to have when you were hiding your relationship from the others (except Reiji pretty much spilled the beans due to how he was interacting with you). It was as if you two were drifting apart.

Despite all of the harsh teasing, you truly love Reiji, and yet, it seems like he doesnt love you back. This feeling really didn’t help your mood at all. You suffered from ADHD and what most people don’t realize is that it causes you to show your feelings more easily than others; you get jealous and angry a lot easier.

Leaning against the wall, you crossed your arms, counting down the minutes until this radio interview was over. You tried playing some games on your phone, but still found yourself getting more distracted and losing interest in the games.

Please let this end! You thought. You just wanted to go home and change into sweats and a shirt and binge your favorite anime, Kuroko no Basuke for the 5th time (not your fault you found the male characters handsome).

“Any final words you would like to say, Reiji?” you heard the reporter say. You immediately got excited and straightened up.

Reiji pursed his lips for a bit and with a smile, began to talk. “I just want you ladies to keep supporting me and Quartet Night as we prepare to go on tour.”

You noticed that he winked towards the girls outside, and you felt jealous again. If you didn’t know any better, it would seem like you’re going out with Ren rather than Reiji-since Reiji was acting a lot like the orange haired male.

This little shit you thought, as you stormed out of the studio and left, leaving Reiji behind to deal with the mob of girls.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You were settled in your bed, in your favorite sweats and wrapped like a burrito, watching Kuroko no Basuke. You were at the point where Seirin High was facing off against Too Academy for the second time.

The sound of a door slamming brought your attention off of the show and made you look at the entrance to your room. There, you found your so called, ‘boyfriend’, not wearing his usual smile-or saying his usual greeting like usual.

“Can I help you?” you asked. “I really don’t want to be bothered, Reiji.”

“What the hell was that back there?” he growled, “Do you know how many girls I had to fend off?!”

You merely shrugged, “I’m just your assistant, not your bodyguard. Besides, you’re a big boy-and you ADORE your fans after all, so why should it matter if I’m there. By this time, you were getting angry once again and ended up raising your voice when you just spoke.

Reiji stared at you, dumbfounded at your outburst. For the months he’s been dating you, he never once heard you raise your voice. “(F/N), what’s going on? Are you mad at me?”

“Well congrats on figuring that out! Do you want a gold star!?” You sarcastically said back, slightly annoying the male.

“What the hell did I ever do?”

That sentence is what caused you to fully snap. “You act like I don’t fucking exist anymore! All you care about are your fans, and even then flirt with them! You pay no mind to me and are oblivious to my own needs as your girlfriend!” You were full on angry at this point, tears streaming down your face. “I’m pretty much invisible to you! I would think that with you leaving for a few months for your tour, that you would like to spend time with me, but it looks like you dont! It seems like you don’t even love me anymore or even want me as you girlfriend!”

Before you could continue your rant, Reiji strode over to you and, while gently grabbing the upper part of your arm, yanked you towards him and kissed you, hard. The rest of the tears you were trying to hold back were released, completely staining your cheeks.

When Reiji broke the kiss, he stared right into your eyes. “Of course I love you,” he said softly, as if he’s treading on thin ice (which he technically was with you with your current state at the moment). “It’s all just an act. It’s the only way that we can actually be together-remember?”

“I know, but…it’s hard.”

“I know it is, but you must know that I really do love you and nothing will change that; no fans, or even Quartet Night will ever change how I feel about you.”

You smiled, only for that smile to falter when Reiji asked why you snapped at him the way you did. You were really hoping you wouldn’t have to answer his now-let alone tell him about it. “I…I really don’t want to tell you,” you said looking away. “I don’t want you to get mad or be disappointed in me…or even embarrassed.”

“You can trust me,” he said calmly, placing his finger under your chin and turning it towards him. “Just tell me what’s up. I don’t judge-you know this.”

Letting out a sigh, you began to explain to him what the backlash was about. “I suffer from ADHD,” you started, “While ADHD mostly refers to not focusing well, it can also cause my emotions to show more; I get jealous and mad easier. I physically and mentally can’t help it.” You paused and once again, looked away. “I never wanted you to know about this, because these mood swings are apart of me….and you’re just a very optimistic and cheerful. And I completely understand if you now want nothing to do with me.”

There was silence between the two of you for a good while, which was broken by Reiji laughing.

“I fail to see what’s so damn funny, Kobuki.”

“You’re just too cute,” he said with a smile. “I could never think differently of you. You can’t help the fact that you have ADHD. I honestly don’t - and probably never will understand it-but I do want to help you. I love you and I want to do whatever I can to make things easier for you.”

You couldn’t help but smile and, startling the male, jumped and gave him a hug. “Thank you Reiji.”

He hugged you back, resting his chin on top of your head. “I’ll try to spend more time with you.” He kissed the top of your head, enjoying the moment that he was having with you

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Holy shit!! I’m so sorry it took so damn long (This request-without the poem-ended up being 23 pages….thats a lot of words XD) I apologize if it seemed rushed.

Like I mentioned in the beginning, I based these off of my own experience with ADHD-and also based the scenarios with the poem below (which I find explains ADHD very well).

Hope you enjoyed!

~~~~~~~~~~~A.D.H.D. Take my hand and come with me,I want to teach you about ADHD.I need you to know, I want to explain,I have a very different brain.Sights, sounds, and thoughts collide.What to do first? I can’t decide.Please understand I’m not to blame,I just can’t process things the same.

Take my hand and walk with me,Let me show you about ADHD.I try to behave, I want to be good,But I sometimes forget to do as I should.Walk with me and wear my shoes,You’ll see its not the way I’d choose.I do know what I’m supposed to do,But my brain is slow getting the message through.

Take my hand and talk with me,I want to tell you about ADHD.I rarely think before I talk,I often run when I should walk.It’s hard to get my school work done,My thoughts are outside having fun.I never know just where to start,I think with my feelings and see with my heart.

Take my hand and stand by me,I need you to know about ADHD.It’s hard to explain but I want you to know,I can’t help letting my feelings show.Sometimes I’m angry, jealous, or sad.I feel overwhelmed, frustrated, and mad.I can’t concentrate and I lose all my stuff.I try really hard but it’s never enough.

Take my hand and learn with me,We need to know more about ADHD.I worry a lot about getting things wrong,Everything I do takes twice as long.Everyday is exhausting for me…Looking through the fog of ADHD.I’m often so misunderstood,I would change in a heartbeat if I could.

Take my hand and listen to me,I want to share a secret about ADHD.I want you to know there is more to me.I’m not defined by it, you see.I’m sensitive, kind and lots of fun.I’m blamed for things I haven’t done.I’m the loyalist friend you’ll ever know,I just need a chance to let it show.

Take my hand and look at me,Just forget about the ADHD.I have real feelings just like you.The love in my heart is just as true.I may have a brain that can never rest,But please understand I’m trying my best.I want you to know, I need you to see,I’m more than the label, I am still me!!!!

~Author Unknown

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The Best Nintendo Switch Controller Review

The Pro Controller is fine.

I still recommend it to most people

but if you play a lot of 2D games that the D-Pad placement

just isn't gonna cut it. 8BitDo is been making

fantastic Deepak controllers for a while now.

I originally recommended the old SN30

if you wanted to play a lot of 2D games.

Its biggest flaw was it's ergonomics, making it hard to play

3D games with its thumb sticks.

They fixed that with the release of the SN30 Pro+

a near-perfect controller that quickly became

my favorite controller for the Switch.

I used it so much that I ran it into the ground

and had to buy a new one recently. Almost two years later,

they finally released an updated version,

simply called the 8BitDo Pro 2.

Thank God that name was starting to be a mouthful.

This version adds a lot

to the already fantastic Pro Controller alternative.

If you are on the fence about getting one before,

this one will for sure give you

a couple of pretty good reasons to reconsider.

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So if you're new here

the biggest reason why I recommend this controller

is because of the D-pad. It's perfectly clicky.

It feels almost exactly like an original S.N.E.S controller

but you know, newer obviously. But it also has

all of the makings of a great modern controller.

It's thumb sticks feel almost exactly

like a DualShock 4 thumb sticks, making this a great option

for 3D games if you need something that could do both.

Here's something I often forget to mention.

It comes with a rechargeable battery, but it can be removed

and replaced with two double A's if you're in a bind,

something Microsoft should take note of.

It also has great motion controls and rumble.

The only thing that it's missing

that the Nintendo Pro Controller has is NFC.

But at the significantly lower price point,

are you really gonna be missing NFC that much?

The original SN30 Pro+ was and still is $45.

This new one bumps the price up to $50,

which is still a reasonable price

and some harsh competition for Nintendo's $70 controller.

It also works on Switch, Windows, Mac, Android,

and Raspberry Pi via Bluetooth, which is great

if you wanna play emulators or 2D games via Steam.

It's an all-around great controller

and I haven't even mentioned any of the new features yet.

Everything that I've said is also available

on the older $45 model.

The Pro 2 Sports 2 assignable back buttons.

This is a very welcome addition

and something I wish more controllers included.

My only gripe here is that

they're a little too easy to press. They're very large.

It's very difficult to grip the controller

without touching these buttons with your middle fingers.

In an intense game of Mario Maker

I accidentally press these buttons many times.

Luckily, by default they're assigned to nothing.

So pressing them did nothing at all.

You can assign functions to these buttons

using the brand new 8BitDo companion app.

In fact, you can remap all of the buttons

using the companion app.

And there are three different assignable profiles

that you can swap between on the fly.

Technically there's four because

there's just a baseline default one which is great

for when you don't wanna accidentally hit the back buttons.

Pressing this button right here switches between the modes.

There's off one, two and three.

In addition to remapping the buttons,

this software also allows you to fix the sticks dead zones.

It's also supposed to let you fix the trigger sensitivity,

but I couldn't figure out how to do that in the app.

I can only figure out how to do that on the desktop version.

But I like having my trigger sensitivity set really high

so they're like hair triggers because almost no Switch games

registered trigger sensitivity anyway.

Upon further review it seems that they disabled

the trigger sensitivity tab for the Switch.

So they got rid of trigger sensitivity

entirely for the Switch which is weird

'cause there are games that could still use it.

But if you go to Android or DInput or whatever,

it shows the trigger sensitivity, which is very strange.

You can also adjust vibration levels and of course,

macros, which go great with the new additional back buttons.

Previously, I used to assign macros to the share button.

Now I don't have to, unfortunately, the macro functionality

still, isn't very intuitive. You have to program it yourself

in the app, one button at a time. You can set the timings

between button presses but that's way harder to do

than just inputting a macro yourself on the controller

and having it record your inputs.

Something I've seen in a few other devices lately.

I hope that 8BitDo can eventually update

the Ultimate software and the Pro 2's firmware

to have this sort of functionality.

Because right now the macro function is pretty much

all only useful for like fighting games.

They did add the ability

to use thumb stick inputs for macros.

So if you have more patience than me

you can figure out some macros for Smash Brothers.

What might be more useful is assigning a turbo button

which is useful for many games, namely Animal Crossing.

I have a whole video on that if you're interested.

The old Pro+ had a turbo function but with this new Pro 2,

it might be worth it to assign one of the back buttons

to enable the turbo function. You can also have

the other back button assigned to hold.

So it will hold down a button forever.

So you can breeze through long menus or something.

Another useful feature that was recently added.

You can set the left stick to be swapped with the D-pad.

This is useful for games like Link's Awakening,

which should have D-pad support, but it doesn't.

There's also an option

to swap the right stick with the triggers.

I think that's some fighting games.

But my favorite part about this new mobile app

is that it allows you to change your settings on the fly.

You don't have to disconnect it from your Switch at all.

You can have it connected to your Switch

and the app at the same time.

This is something that you could not do

with the previous desktop app. This is huge for figuring out

the timing of macros or finding out the right button mapping

for yourself and immediately trying it out in the field.

One of my least favorite things

about wireless controllers like this

is connecting it to the Switch.

I often find myself just (indistinct) the button

till it finally comes up.

This controller alleviates some of that pain

by adding a mode switch on the back.

On the previous Pro+ you had to hold Start and Y

to enter switch mode. Windows, Android, and iOS,

all had different corresponding face buttons.

You expect me to remember all those.

There was also no indication

what mode you were currently in.

Now it's as easy as just flipping the switch.

You have Nintendo Switch, Apple DInput and XInput.

XInput is for Windows and Android.

DInput is for like old. I don't know it's

just probably don't worry about it. Other than all that

the only other real difference is it's enhanced grip

which is really just a textured back

similar to the textured back

of the new DualSense controller.

Other than that, this controller feels exactly the same

as the old SN30 Pro+ controller.

Switching between the two reveals that the face buttons

feel more responsive on the newer one.

Maybe it's because it's newer

and I used the shit out of my old one.

It's hard to tell.

- Oh no. - Hit the button, dude.

I think this controller.

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You know, I'll try, I'll try the top ones.

The buttons, the build quality, everything feels the same.

The Pro 2 comes in gray, black and GB edition.

I pre-ordered myself the Game Boy looking one

so I'll be getting that one when it eventually comes out.

But 8BitDo sent me their gray edition one, which looks like

it's attempting to resemble a PlayStation 1 controller.

It's an okay design. The A, B, X, Y buttons

colored like PlayStation buttons is like unsettling.

It's like a sin. The strongest design that they have

is definitely the Game Boy looking at one.

8BitDo used to have controllers that looked almost exactly

like Super Nintendo and N.E.S controllers,

but I'm sure they strayed away from that

so that they weren't bullied by Nintendo's lawyers.

It's also probably why they don't have

a Super Nintendo looking one at all anymore.

But I mean, the feel of the controller

is more important than anything else. And for 2D games,

there's nothing better than this,

until you find your Lord and Savior keyboard keys baby.

So if you haven't yet picked yourself up a 8BitDo controller

now might be the time to make the jump.

$5 extra for the back buttons,

the updated Ultimate software, the mode switch,

the custom profiles that can switch on the fly.

Yeah, I'd say it's worth it to get this version

over the original or Pro. Now is it worth upgrading to

if you already have an original SN30 Pro+.

That I'm not sure about.

Maybe if yours is starting to feel like shitty.

I know mine started to feel like

a little unresponsive, I guess.

I don't know how to describe it other than

it just got shitty and then I had to buy a new one.

But if you're perfectly content with your original SN30 Pro+

then it's probably not worth dropping an extra $50

on a brand new controller. It's like 90% the same controller

and about 10% new hotness. Or maybe I'm sure

you could find a way to justify it.

Maybe you could teach your grandma how to do Kaizo Mario.

What do you guys think about the brand new 8BitDo Pro 2?

It's a lot easier to say at this time.

Is this gonna make you finally make the jump

into getting an 8BitDo controller? Or it's something that

you would consider upgrading to from the original?

I don't think you really need to

unless like yours got like old crappy.

If you have a Nintendo Switch Pro controller already,

and you find yourself playing way more 2D games

this might be worth getting in addition to.

I mean it's like a second,

you get a second player with it to.

Leave in the comments below, add me on Twitter

and all this social media garbage.

As always we have new videos here all the time,

at least once a week.

This week, I think you're getting two, lucky you.

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where we can hang out and chat with each other

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Make sure you turn on notifications for all of that stuff

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But of course the most important thing right now

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I appreciate you for wanting to watch these videos.

And share this video with a friend.

A friend who maybe hasn't gotten

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Or maybe they're using the freaking split Joy-Cons

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Thank you. Have a good week.

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(Update) My(m18) Parents yelled at me because I don't want a graduation party at my house during Covid, so they're gonna invite 40+ people from church instead via /r/atheism

Submitted April 20, 2021 at 03:57AM by Throaramagazine (Via reddit https://ift.tt/3dzh6Sc) (Update) My(m18) Parents yelled at me because I don't want a graduation party at my house during Covid, so they're gonna invite 40+ people from church instead

Hey guys. I wanna try to keep this shorter than last time, so I'll get straight to the point with some very brief recaps for anyone who didn't see the first post I made. I don't like celebrating myself (in parties), and that goes back for years. When I used to have birthday parties, my mom would tell me to invite whoever I wanted, but she would use these parties to "examine" my friends and later tell me which friends I'm allowed to keep and not keep, and I've lost many friends because of her over the years, all because she hates people who disagree with her decision to homeschool me. At the end of many parties, she would sit with me with a notebook of things that she jotted/overheard, and tell me a bunch of things that she didn't like because they were "worldly" (her favorite word), and she'll also nitpick at other things such as their language or the topic of their conversations, only to say that I'm no longer allowed to hang out with them at the end, and I've lost many friends because of her

She's forced me to cut off friends I met at sports (clubs) after talking with other parents and hearing an opinion she didn't like, saying that I'm not allowed to hit with them (I played tennis) simply because they have an opinion that is different than hers, and she's even insulted her extended family who disagree with her decision to homeschool me for 12 grades and stopped going to Thanksgiving with them because of their different opinion, the same way that she cuts off all of my friends and their parents from my life/childhood/early teen life when I was too young to do anything about it. The main reason my extended family disagree with her decision to homeschool, is because our great grandma walked with MLK, and they said that "choosing to homeschool us after everything he fought for, is a disgrace to what he fought for by allowing us to go into public schools"

Extended family has also gone as far as to say that that she is "not black" because she didn't vote for Obama in 2008 and 2012, something she says she didn't do because she accused them of "only voting for him because he was black and not because of his policies" because she believes that policies are more important and that actions can't be overlooked because of a race, but they didn't like that, and mom then cut them off in some ways

In 2016, she advertised to them that she was voting for Carson to get back on their good side per say, but after he exited the running, she switched over to voting for the 45th, and extended family didn't really like that much either, and she would vote for him both times in 2016 and 2020, even going as far as to hang a 45th banner on our living room wall and outside of our home and buying us all hats that she wanted us to wear

I'm getting to the update, but I just want to add a few small things that I didn't last time, things that bothered me and made me think that I'm crazy or that there's something wrong with me when I was growing up, and then I'll get to the stuff that happened since my last post

Some more important details

Something I often struggle with, is wondering how smart I am, compared to others in my same grade, since a lot of my classes under her don't really seem like classes to me, and here's what I mean. A lot of the classes I had, were just simply agreeing with her opinion on politics and watching election speeches that she claimed "the news wouldn't show us because they were corrupt", along with purity as a substitute for sexual education

For purity, she used a book called "Passport to Purity", and it featured a bunch of cheesy songs and demonstrations like squeezing toothpaste out of a container to illustrate how once you get someone pregnant, you can't get it back, along with an example of a man walking closer to a cliff with footsteps, and each footstep being labeled with something like "level 1: holding hands, level 4: kissing, level 10 (off the cliff) intercourse) and other things like that that just made me feel really weird

When they talked about masturbation, they said that masturbating would "ruin your commitment to the future wife that God gave you", and they also told me that masturbating would make me lose my virginity because "sex is supposed to be between two people", and that did a number on me for a very long time. As mentioned last time, I was even ashamed of sleeping on my di__ and sleeping on my back, because the thought of any pleasure just made me feel like sh__, and they had this "alternate health class" with me on my 12th birthday, and I just felt humiliated and embarrased the entire time

Before we had the class, my dad invited his men's group from church to pray for me at my house about the things regarding sexual purity that they would teach, and I remember just feeling weird and very grossed out by the whole thing, something I later learned should be kept private (purity) instead of advertising it to people from a church, and one of the old men even drew a d__k on a piece of paper and tried to illustrate how it got "harder" which was just weird and told me to "think about something else" whenever that happened. And whenever my mom would find remains of me trying to masturbate in the months after the purity talk (usually from her doing my laundry or searching my room without telling me, although she says she didn't have to because it's her house), she would get really angry and yell at me and call dad who was at work, and when he got back, he would yell at me too. We'd go into their room where they just yelled at me for hours on numerous occassions, and they'd make me reread the purity stuff until I just cried and just kept apologizing, something some people at work (when I was 18) said that I apologize way too much for everything including things I didn't do wrong, but I want to keep this moving, so I'll stop there for now. Masturbation just scared me a lot growing up, until I reached about 14 or 15 and just got better at hiding and finding online resources to learn more about it, but the worse moment of my life, were those nights of being yelled at and watching them cry because I was masturbating, to the point where I felt like I had really don't something wrong, when it was normal all along

I'll keep the rest short and sweet and to the point. Whenever I asked my mom why we weren't going to Thanksgiving or about how she was pressuring us to wear 45th attire, she would always tell me that "I'm not proud of being black" for some reason because I grew up playing tennis, what she calls "a white man's sport" and let it rub off on me too much... when in reality, she would slap me when I was younger for "talking like a black person" when she hated extended family, but now that she wants to appease them by saying "I planned to vote for Carson", she tells me that she wants me to "talk more in slang" which just seems fake and then she says that to me, but I'll leave it at that. My brothers starting to play basketball (something I was never really good at) as they entered their teen years (they were homeschooled too) maybe also sparked her change, but to me, I don't like her flip flop and then blaming it on me

As I've grown older and started to talk to my brothers about some of the things I've disagreed with (only for them to not believe me and often take their side), my mom would get angry, because it was the same as whenever someone had another opinion than her. So, she would start to put voice recorders around the home in various places; behind the DVR box, behind picture frames, etc... and then she would talk to us in her room and punish us for anything we said that she didn't like, and she also raised my door up from the ground too, in addition to standing outside of my room whenever I'm on the phone and sometimes with a voice recorder too, and whenever I wanted to go outside to talk to someone else away from her on the phone, she'd get angry and yell at me and ask "what I have to hide" and other stuff like that

The Update

I really needed to get that off my chest, to also give more background to why I don't like celebrating myself and having parties, but here's the update. I didn't want a graduation party because of past experiences of how she told me to invite friends as a trap to "evaluate" them and then cut them out of my life. So, when I told her that I didn't want a graduation party, she said that she was going to throw herself one instead, and invite our church's homeschool group (that we're in) instead to celebrate her and that I had to be there. Covid was another reason why I didn't want to have something at our home, but she's going to invite 40+ people anyway, and dad wants me to say a few words about her at "her celebration"

After my last post, I decided to talk to them again with some of the advice I had received, although a lot of it was around getting a full time job and getting out from under them, but I still wanted to try and talk to them anyway. I started my addressing the concerns about covid, but just like our church that's allowing 70 percent capacity (and the people are coming from our church), she said that she doesn't care and that they're "coming anyway" and that "covid was created by the Democrats to blame and use against the 45th in the election", and I didn't even try to reason with that one

I then told them that I didn't want to attend and didn't plan to attend either, and when dad asked me why, I told him how the only friend I have said that she is "abusive" and has been for her entire life, something I've told him before many times, and that he said that I can hang out with him instead and that it was selfish to make the day about her when I didn't even want to celebrate it myself, and I'm the one graduating

My dad got offended and told me that "he's tired of hearing me complain about my upbringing" and that "I should go talk to someone because I need help" and to "stop insulting mom", and he yelled that so loud at like 1am in the morning that I'm sure my brothers heard it, and it just killed me inside. He also told me that "there's something wrong with me" and that "I need mental help", and I can't stress enough how much I hate him because everything that's been said to me about being sheltered and "not up to speed" from others, have come as a result of them and their choice to homeschool me, and he yelled at me in front of everyone and said that there's something wrong with me, and I just can't take it anymore

Whenever I think of this party, it just makes me really angry, and whenever I have friends, they always try to turn me against them or, if I won't listen, insult their parents so that they won't bring their kids to hang out with me, and dad keeps asking "who are you listening to", and whenever I try to address their decision to homeschool, mom just gets so insulted and tries to reason with me about how she's right and the world is this and that

Back to the party, she said that I "don't have to live here" if I don't abide by their rules or "choose to be disrespectful", and by that I assume means not attending the party, and dad said that he would punish me "if I told him about anything else my friends said", and he's also banned numerous friends from our home over the years too. Mom also said that no one will be wearing masks at their home, and I don't even know what to do at this point, other than take the advice about preparing to move out, because they just make you think you're crazy, just like the masturbation stuff and guilt from many years, but I don't know how to skip it, since they're kinda threatening to kick me out if I don't go, and that's what I'm wondering now

TL;DR: I talked to my mom, but dad yelled at me and said that "there's something wrong with me" and that "I need mental help" for not agreeing with their decision to homeschool, and he's also threatening to maybe kick me out if I "continue to disobey and not be grateful", and mom said that there won't be any mask wearing at the party

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