#bc it's so tiring and there's never any fucking INTERMISSION!

[cosmogyros]

.

#i love my spice so much #i got home from a first date and i was wiped tf out #(everything went great and we got along fab but... i hate dating. hate it.) #and i was texting the spice and moping about how much i hate dating #and i hate having to spend multiple hours interacting with one person #bc it's so tiring and there's never any fucking INTERMISSION! #almost every time i spend more than two hours with one person i am a WRECK afterward #way too introverted for this shit omfg #anyway yeah i was texting the spice about all that #and they were texting back about how much they hate meeting people and doing things too #and i feel so understood and seen and accepted #and i wish i could just actually marry both of them and live in a polycule with their wives #but seriously it's so damn hard to find people i click with #people who are... internally driven? i guess? not externally driven? #i don't need entertainment and events and movies and constant conversation #i just want to quietly share my space with someone and both do our own things together #ideally while arranging ourselves so that we're in some sort of physical contact most of the time #like cuddling on the sofa while each reading our own books #that is the dream #cosmo gyres #spice #friends #personal

[archieism]

this blog is giving me such anxiety lately & idk why but i love u who’s reading this

#my best guess would be my new dive into editing?? #and i'm pressuring myself to make Perfect Things #and putting myself out there is fucking my subconscious mind #but i don't actively feel any of that so idk #it'd be subconscious #but i wouldn't be surprised bc i probably live life 90% by my subconscious x #but i love u all i truly do i'm sorry for ghosting for like what feels like a month already #talking w/ ppl is NEVER as hard as how it feels before i actually talk to them but knowing doesn't make the feeling go away unfortunately #cause dumb brain #brain is dumb #idk i'm tired i wanna talk with my friends without weeks-long intermissions just bc my brain is dumb #and i don't figure out a way to work around it #i wanna change that somehow cause it's rly annoying and not practical to maintaining relationships with ppl at all :/ #much to think abt #but i love u and i'm sorry this happens literally all the time #personal #delete later

[farty-city]

inside bo burnham review no one asked for

i enjoy other peoples commentary and i was writing down my first thoughts anyway so here it is

inside

first song/intro song

i like the phone screen on him, very reflective of how we have had phone screens on us

“roberts been a little depressed” osnskjdnfs

they were right “daddys made you some content so open wide” hjbfafn

intro

oh my god he looks awful

but like in a cute way

maybe

healing the world with comedy (second song)

the canned and queued laugher no exactly… is it a symbol or is it just funny.. who's to say. 

it think its a good first song, establishing he knows what he is doing is kind of useless 

“the indescribable power of your comedy”

he looks like marc maron rn

i like the synthed voice and synthesizer

the jesus allusion … yeah

“i'm a special kind of white guy”

this feels like he knows how he is perceived by fans.. Make happy was too much

his fucking dancing fksjdnfksj

i think he did a good job looking manic

the lasers lmao

Side 1

Bo made a huge gamble releasing this like,,, what if you just stumbled upon it and this was ur first introduction to him..

I bet its like when i comment dumb things on instagram comments and get that rush of hehehehe

NO NOT BO DEVELOPING BILLIE EILLISH VOWELS

Also this is exactly what he wanted like,, he just wanted to make his things and not deal with the crowds so..

To think i was like finding scraps of him performing at largo and stuff and now,, so much content

life imitates art

the way he's literally what he wrote hgbkdf

there is no authenticity with cameras

suicide ?

 facetime with my mom tonight

the blue light.. Yeah

o hblue like sad

i don't know how i feel about the electric music but i guess its no different than whatever else i listen to

this is sad wow

still catchy etc

side 2

i wonder if here will be any fart jokes

that is how the world works (songs)

the huge mess and then him in a sweater

this is reminiscent of that walmart muppets

he became tim minchin with a sock puppet

the “yes… yes sir” stoppp 

jkgdsnfijwkensfosnf

qbejfnjne

nerjgnoejns

bo making a political statement and a metaphor for activism and then making it weirdly kinky

brand consultant (bit)

man bun

i have to believe he filmed it with the beard because quarantine vibes and also bc he was tired of being seen as a child

white womans instagram (song)

i did not like that intro

BO AND GLASSES THANK GOD

the daisies wow just wow

underwear

“white womans instagram” or “bo burnham becomes a girlboss”

i like that he didn't lose his cadence like the way the rhymes are you can still tell its him

i don't get the mom part sorry

is it like how people are very superficial but also very personal on their instagrams

this part was legit sad

side 3

i wonder how he felt with cameras constantly on him

Although this is the point hes trying to make

lol seinfeld moment (bit)

unpaid intern (bit and song)

“barely people somehow legal” was so smooth woW

omg he was scatting

he was a man who would scat

oh my god what great news

the react clip omg

i cant believe he did that oh my god

observation/critisism and response to the “can anyone shut the fuck up” 

and as i realized what he was doing he was like “i have this need for everything i make to have a deeper meaning” oh my god

now the question is how long will this go on?

jeffrey bezos (song)

idk its catchy

and then theres him like sleeping and talking which kind of is part of the jeff bezos song

bug eyes salamanders hehe

sexting (song)

i do believe this is just a silly song 

the earrings tho omg

sounds like post malone hbkjdsnfskj

idk its still about like intimacy in quarantine and that stuff..

the knife (bit)

i know hes copying like other youtubers but like,,, what

stuck in a room (song)

the intro is very funny and relatable

classic bo i love it 

i will say this special has been more reflective but i suppose it has to be

“look whos inside again”

i like the end too, this is all a fabrication

this is the clip where hes staring at the projection of himself from his old youtube videos which is sort of more like an ending to the “stuck in my room” song

 sorry (song)

i love the 80’s style music and its like zumba

oh this is like an apology song

“father please forgive me for i did not realise what i did, or that id live to regret it” what a catchy line

i would say this is another more “classic” bo song where its self aware and funny

“my closet it chalk full of stuff that is vaguely shitty” 

camera falling

this deserves its own bullet because its silly

i'm turning 30 (bit and song)

i remember him talking about this on a podcast and like,, damn i didn't know this also happened LOL

i really like how he did the lighting 

“stupid fucking ugly boring children”

suicide talk (1)

this is interesting i like the use of the projection

this is something that could never have happened onstage

just like with the it being projected on him

i guess it could but it would have to be done differently and probably hed have to make it funnier to make it more engaging

intermission

i just checked this is about the halfway point.. Mh

i don't wanna know (song)

“i thought it’d be over by now”

i wish this was longer but i kind of like how its just a little snippet and then the cut

video game (bit)

“i guess i’ll cry again”

“is the dude big or is the room small” lol

hm depression

 feelin like shit (song)

ohh the lighting is fun again

this is the tone shift i suppose

the feels like supalonely and the new kind of music

atl

:(

panic attack 

everything all of the time (song)

feels like brandon rogers 

i enjoy this

this feels like “welcome to youtube” grew up

“a little bit of everything all of the time”

“apathys a tragedy and boredoms a crime”

ok olivia rodrigo

finishing the special (bit)

these feel like diary entries but as standup

interesting choice

jeffery bezos (2)

Why the seaweed suit

Where did he get that

the digital space (bit)

suit up, gather what is needed, and return to the surface

damn

pirate map anfdkjfnskjd

this was so stupid (affectonate)

that funny feeling (song)

the campfire vibes 

kenny loggins

i don't get it..

is it about childhood, is it about the present?

i think its talking about the end of content? 

“the end of culture”, to quote make happy

change and not liking it 

“we were overdue, but it will be over soon”

if the second half of the special is like a panic attack this song is like a momentary pause before it gets worse

“so ive been working on this special”/breakdown 

this was .. uncomfortable and genuine which i'm sure is why he kept it

all eyes on me (song/rant)

another sad thing to watch.. damn

me trying to tell if the audio was from make happy

i think he was trying to make it as if the audio was from make happy 

this feels.. familiar

and obviously that is the point

“come on in the waters fine”

the use of autotune during the talking part... yeah

sad that he was gonna make another special… and it would have been totally different than this

i’ve decided i like the homage to make happy

It feels like hes made peace with it

the montage of him waking up and the “i think i'm done”

and then of course the ending where he's watching it over to remind us that its all fabricated

possible ending song/ “i promise to never go outside again”

ngl he looks good in the shirt with the haircut hehe

which i feel like is what he wants up to notice

and then like not think after we saw all his breakdowns

“i want to hear you tell a joke when no ones laughing in the background”

i really like the medley

Final thoughts

I want a blooper reel, but this doesn't seem like the kind of special

I also wonder if the songs will be on like apple music, but again, doesn't seem like the kind of special

I'm happy for him, he got to be honest and open and show us the sort of panicky stuff

this self aware comedy is exactly the stuff that i think will be making a comeback in the next decade.  John better be pulling up with more deconstructed comedy. 

I hope this has given him peace

#i am so sorry for clogging the feed #bo burnham #inside #inside bo burnham #make happy #what. #words words words #bo fo sho #oh bo

[fanficmemes]

My second submission for this cursed ask sunday is a brand new fic inspired by the brand new Loki show so if any of you haven't seen it yet be aware that there will be mild spoiler! Is a little midler than the last one because I don't want to scar you completly because I like you :)

Also, there are many many Loki in there because multiverse yay, so I'm going to call them TVA!Loki (our standard Loki), President!Loki (the one "evil" in this story, or maybe perverse is a better description) and Sylvie (Female Loki). Also big warning for self-cest, gang-bang and not-so-implied non-con! Here's the link:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/32503954

So, the scene open with TVA!Loki in the floor in what is basically a gang-bang sexual delirium. He is pinned on the floor by a Loki keeping his wrist and whispering obscenity in his hear and two other Lokis keeping his legs spread and someone else is fucking him. TVA!Loki is intersex and have been fucked multiple times by multiples Lokis in all of his holes, even with more than one in one holes at the time (multiple penetration is not my kink but I don't judge). It's said that he is being fucked by fingers, cocks, mouths, tongues, various prosthetics and dildos. Right now there is a prostate massager in his ass. He is naked, his body glistening with sweat, comes and various body fluids. And he is completly out of it, incoherent.

Little intermission where we are told that President!Loki is the one who put him in the situation and also the first one to "fuck" him, albeit the term fuck maybe is not right because President!Loki only jammed his finger in TVA!Loki cunt until he came. Is also pretty clear that TVA!Loki definitly didn't consent to any of this and actually fight against it at the start but not is too tired and delirious to actually understand what is going on. He is positivity drunk on pleasure considering how many times he is being forced to climax, and right on clue someone make him climax again in that moment.

Everyone retreat and a door open. Loki turn to see his friends (Sylvie + a certain Mobious) coming inside. As a reader we are suppose to feel like they have come to save him, but no. Instead a new Loki approach TVA!Loki and start fucking his mouth while President!Loki deliver a little speech about how today every Loki have decide to present themself. Mobious is mortified and try to argue, Sylvie just watch.

TVA!Loki, still out of it, lament that he haven't climax yet and so he isn't ready to go away.

Then the other Lokis ignore TVA!Loki and approach Sylvie and start to undress her and she approach TVA!Loki ready to fuck him. The other Lokis welcome her. The text let us know that Sylvie is jealous anyone else have fucked TVA!Loki before her because his hers.

The fic close with a last thought from TVA!Loki, still incoherent and out of it, about how he can do this for all time, maybe forever.

Like I promised this is a little bit less heavy than the last one, or at least I hope.

-Loki anon

6.5/10 uhhhhhh wow there’s a lot to unpack here. Loki never catches a break and points were added bc this reminded me of the onceler

#asks #cursed asks

[frankenfic]

prompt #4

fandom(s): avatar: the last airbender and boku no hero academia

main character: todoroki shōto, and sorta zuko

other characters: all atla characters except zuko (it'll be explained), and also i'm combining zuko and todoroki's moms into one super mom.

setting: atla universe, with some changes to "zuko's" backstory.

basically i love zuko and todoroki and while i was watching bnha amvs i was thinking about them when i got the sudden thought—what if we replaced zuko in the atla universe with todoroki, and kept todoroki's waterbending ice ability??!?!?

basically, i imagined todoroki as zuko wandering the earth kingdom or whatever while pretending to just be an ordinary waterbender.

like, maybe zuko/todoroki's mom secretly had some waterbending ancestry and by some miracle (curse) zukoroki ended up with both firebending and waterbending.

like, he's still got the same thing where he grew to resent his father for what he did to him and his mother and refuses to use his left side firebend bc he doesn't want to be like his father and shit. except now with the bonus of banishment?

the hard part is figuring out which parts of either of the backstories to keep. for example: who gave him the scar? his mother? or his father?

idea: they both did. now, bear with me here—what i'm thinking, is maybe we keep the incident with todoroki's mom burning him with boiling water from a teapot (maybe iroh's there, idk—or, maybe that's why he always gets so angry when uncle tries to offer him tea, bc everytime he sees it or smells it it triggers his fucking ptsd of the person he trusted most in the world betraying him and causing him unimaginable pain, but like no one knows that bc it was kept so hush-hush that only zuko, ozai, super-mom, and maybe azula know) bc he reminds her of his father—

oh my god sorry for the intermission but what if she burned azula instead bc she's so much more like ozai and then ozai burned zuko bc he's too much like his mother and then we just have both of the royal fire children with burned and scarred faces, one with a burn from boiling hot water and the other from a searing roaring flame and just...both each have burns from one of their parents oh my gOD the ANGST

—and for a couple of years he goes around the palace with this horrible burn and people always stare bc like...that's the crown prince and shit. and idk ozai's probably not happy with it, but the point is:

when it comes to the agni kai, ozai decides to be extra cruel and burns zukoroki in the same spot his super-mum did, except harder and hotter so the burn is ever larger and more painful, so much so that it even reaches his ear and he can no longer open his eye all the way and his eyesight is probably damaged and maybe his hearing as well and—

and then he gets banished and he decides, you know what. fuck it.

his mom's gone, ozai's an asshole, his face burns, he can't see or hear right, and ozai still never found out he could waterbend. so.

todozuko is done with the fire nation. he's had fucking enough. he's decided he doesn't wanna go back, and no uncle i'm never changing my mind.

what would happen if i found the avatar? well i'd help him if if meant defeating my father—and go ahead, tell everyone how much of a traitor i am, i don't care. i'm already banished anyway.

you...what? you're—proud of me?? uncle, what—

and so zhōto and iroh end up traveling together (and maybe the crew, too? idk) zhōto eventually works up the courage to tell iroh about his waterbending and at first he's really terrified about uncle's reaction but

uncle looks at him like he's a fucking miracle or something, he looks at him with wonder and amazement and—

come, zhouto!!!! where are we going???? to get waterbending scrolls, of course!!!!! pick your jaw off the ground, there's no time to waste!!!! think about everything you're going to learn, everything you should've been taught years ago!!!! you're going to be a master waterbender, i just know it!!!!!!

and bc they never ditched the ship or told the fire nation of their treachery (for conviences sake) it's surprisingly easy for them to obtain waterbending scrolls—

—and also the only person who knew about his waterbending before iroh was his mother who he accidentally bent in front of and who, immediately realizing her own "tainted" bloodline was the cause, swore zhouto to secrecy and made him promise to never use it—

—and so zhōto and iroh secretly practice waterbending below deck in their rooms, and they keep practicing with it until they feel they're "ready," and then—with the help of their now loyal-to-the-death-crew (they at some point came to the unanimous decision that zhōto is way better than ozai, and he's surprisingly not a spoilered brat—bc unlike original-zuko he already despises his father and consciously makes an effort to be different) who go along with some made up lie that zhōto and iroh both died—

maybe zhōto fell in artic water during a storm and iroh jumped in to save him against the captain's warnings and refused to return to safety until he found zhōto, but before he could a wave cracked zhōto's head against the boat and he went under and iroh dived and dived and dived into colder and colder water until he was so so cold and he couldn't hold his breath any longer but the surface was too far away and he was too tired from the cold in his bones to swim and with his body empty of its last bit of air he just—

sank.

and so with a cover in place, zhōto and iroh said a tearful goodbye to their deathly loyal crew and then set off to live their new lives.

then skip foward a few years and they run into the fucking avatar and friends and wait shit is that—

—not long into his banishment, just after zhōto confessed to iroh about his waterbending, they set sail for the southern water tribe, figuring that it would be a good start for their search for waterbending scrolls, since the north would be too much of a risk and they figure: there's no waterbenders in the southern tribe anyway not after what we did to them so it's not like they need the scrolls...besides, we were gunna give them back as soon as we're done with them so if any waterbender babies end up being born we'll have returned the scrolls before they're even old enough to need them—

—but alas, when they make port they are told by a very angry boy about zhōto's age—

(i'm aging him down a year or two bc shōta was only like 14 in bnha while zuko was 16 i think in atla, about one year older than sokka—so he's about 11-12 when this happens, and katara and sokka are 11 and 12 respectively)

—that the fire nation burned any scrolls they had, when they killed his mother—

(oof)

—and so, to the great surprise of all the villagers present, and all who hear about it after, they leave immediately without harming or threatening anyone, without even searching any of the (huts? igloos?) for potentially hidden scrolls. they just...leave.

and the scarred one—the one with the golden trim on his collar who the other men defer to as if he's in charge—

—which is ridiculous, he's so tiny, he can't be much older than sokka, how could he be their leader, shouldn't it be that old guy—

—actually thanks sokka for his assistance before apologizing for taking up his time, and then leaves. what the fuck—

—then cut to three years later and now that boy (sokka of the southern water tribe, son of the chief, he had introduced himself as) and his sister (katara of the southern water tribe, daughter of the chief) were apparently traveling with the AVATAR. and that girl, katara? she's a waterbender. a fucking waterbender.

what the fu—

#atla #bnha #zuko #atla zuko #bnha todoroki #todoroki shouto #todoroki shoto #todoroki shōto #avatar #the last airbender #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #mha #mha todoroki #au #crossover #fanfiction #fanfic #fan fic #fan fiction #fan fic ideas #prompt #byakkolokifanfic #katara #sokka #atla katara #atla sokka #iroh #atla iroh #general iroh

[disabled-queen-hc-blog]

((Author’s notes: Lol don’t ignore your hypos babes. This was like a uhhh vent piece bc I’ve started a new job and keep getting hypos at inconvenient times. Also bc we need more T1 rep out there. symptoms lists will always be like “oh they get shaky and pale and sweaty” meanwhile I’m over here like,,,, bruh that ain’t HALF of it. So. Have this ig lmao???))

The thing about hypos and performance nerves was: at the start, they feel the same.

John’s legs would feel heavy, he’d be sweaty, he’d shake. Then, ninety eight percent of the time, he’d go onstage and start playing with his best friends in the whole world and lose himself in the music, and those feelings would go away. (Well, not the sweating, but he was sweating for a different reason).

It had taken a bit of trial and error getting used to the feeling. They went through a lot of juice boxes and emergency shots of insulin trying to steady himself when he misjudged what was and wasn’t a hypo. That was years ago now though, and most of the time he had everything totally worked out with his body.

Most of the time.

The feeling had initially passed as excitement and adrenaline flooded his body as they started their concert. John played his bass and danced along to their music while Roger and Brian played with him and Freddie did his thing out front of the stage, exciting the crowd.

When his legs started feeling heavy again about half an hour into their set, he figured he was just tired. This was the third consecutive day they’d been playing. Forty five minutes into their set, and his legs were not just heavy but hollow as well, the feeling even starting to extend to his arms, he knew he was fucked.

It was fine, though. Another fifteen minutes of playing and they’d have a brief intermission where he could fix himself up. He was fine. He’d be fine. There was a huge catering table provided to them and all their crew, he’d have plenty to up his sugars.

His stomach panged at the thought, and he was suddenly uncomfortably aware of how fucking starving he was. God, he wanted to eat so bad… the song ended, and Freddie was doing his ay-ohs giving John a moment to study his hand. It was shaking, but not badly. He was sweating more than he usually was, and he must look pale, because Brian was throwing him a concerned look and miming the action of using a lancet.

John gave him a thumbs up and a smile. He felt like fucking shit, but it was nothing he hadn’t dealt with before, and nothing he wouldn’t deal with again. Hypos fucking sucked and whoever decided they should exist should go die in a fire, but he was fine. His feet started to hurt from holding up his weight, and he was still starving, and his legs were heavy and hollow, and his arms were starting to go hollow too, and all he wanted to do was sit down and eat and eat and eat, and he just felt shaky, and he was actually shaking judging by the trembling of his fingers, and he was cold and wet from sweat.

But it was annoying having to stop the show. It would only be fifteen more minutes. The intermission was there just for this type of thing! He knew his limits. He wasn’t going to pass out in fifteen minutes. He’d feel like absolute shit and feel like dying, but he’d make it. He wouldn’t have to bother anyone about this dumb little bitch of a disease. Fucking stupid diabetes. Stupid bitch ass hypos making him feel like shit. Who did they think they were. Always popping up at the most inconvenient times. Could never happen, say, when they were passing a lolly shop, nooo, only while he was trying to do his fucking job. Stupid idiot blood cells attacking his pancreas. Bitch ass little ho cells wanting their damn sugar.

He kept himself going like that until Freddie started talking to the crowd about them taking a break. Instead of sticking around and listening to his best friend make a five minute speech about them all getting laid or someshit, he just walked off. He handed his bass to one of the crew without his usual thank you, or even a smile. Yeah, maybe he’d pushed it a bit too far this time. Just a smidge. He’d been fine once he reached the catering table.

Fine he was, downing two glasses of full strength coke and piling one of the tiny plates with one of each of the pastries, as well as some of the savoury stuff. The other three found him sitting cross legged on the floor in front of the table, about a quarter through his plate, feeling better but still hungry.

“John Richard Deacon.” Freddie admonished, placing his hands on his hips. John grinned sheepishly and shrugged.

“Yeah, yeah, I know. But it was fine! I’m fine, see? Just hungry.” And sleepy, and a little sore still, but he wouldn’t mention that.

Freddie kneeled down in front of him, his face concerned, his mother hen instincts kicked into over-gear after not having noticed while they were on stage. John could see the cogs working in his brain and reached out to squeeze his arm.

“I only started feeling bad towards the end of Sheer Heart Attack, I wasn’t out there dying for long, I promise. If you wanna help me, please get me another fruit tart. I’m not ready to get up yet and it was sooo goooood.” He moaned exaggeratedly, the act getting a smile out of Freddie like he hoped.

The frontman huffed, rolling his eyes, but pushed himself up to actually get John another. Roger whacked him lightly on the back of the head, but otherwise didn’t say anything about the subject as he grabbed his own food and sat beside him on the floor. Freddie joined them, and Brian sighed, towering above them for a minute before grinning and caving, also sitting on the floor.

They spent the rest of their intermission there, eating and talking and laughing, John finally feeling better by the time they had to go back out. Brian stopped them before they left, looking down at him.

“Seriously though, John. You know if you need it any of us can distract them for a few minutes while you look after yourself. The last thing we want is you feeling bad, even if you’re ‘fine’, or ‘you’ll last’.”

John felt his heart swell. It always felt good to be reminded how much you were loved. He smiled at his friends and nodded.

“Yeah, I know.” He replied, rolling his eyes slightly as they just continued to look at him. “Alright, alright, I’ll let you guys know next time! Okay?”

“Splendid, darling. Now let’s finish our show.” Freddie grinned, taking him by the arm and dragging him back towards the stage.

#submission #lovely!! poor john ;o; #john #type 1 diabetic!john #mickeygayrightsmouse

[couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name]

- I(tm)

- AM(tm)

- S T R E S S E D (tm)

- So like first let me say: The kids were FANTASTIC. Best performances of their lives!!!!

- everything that could have possibly gone wrong went the fuck wrong

- A DISASTER

- You know in horror movies were like one person gets infected or some shit but you think everything is fine until suddenly everyone is dying? Literally.

- May I remind you that mics have been perfectly fine all week,

- Opening number, Vanessa is doing her little bit and there’s just a tiny. Glitch.

- Like her mic dropped for half a second. It was hardly noticible. Tom and I literally double checked like “you heard that right?” But it was completely fine so we were like “It’s probably nothing”

- WELL GUESS THE FUCK WHAT

- IT SPREAD LIKE A PLAGUE. IT STARTED SLOW BUT IT SOON CONSUMED THE ENTIRE CAST. THE MICS WOULD GLITCH OUT LIKE EVERY FIVE GOD DAMN SECONDS. JUST IN AND OUT AND IN AND OUT IT WAS T E R R I F Y I N G

- I’m fucking. Borderline screaming. Tom looks like he’s going to punch something and is running around checking for what the problem was. THERE WAS NO VISIBLE PROBLEM. THIS SHOULDN’T HAVE BEEN HAPPENING.

- And then it just???? Fucking stopped on it’s own???? What the FUCK. Sometime right before 96,000 it all just went back to normal holy shit

- BUT THEN THE MUSIC WAS LIKE “Is it chill if we just...stop working at random intervals? Gucci.” SO SOMETIMES WE’D HAVE FULL ORCHESTRA AND OTHER TIMES IT WOULD JUST DROP TO ONLY KEYBOARD

- AND something was up with the fucking keyboard’s speaker??? Because of course.

- Guys seriously we literally STILL DON’T KNOW what happened! At intermission Tom and I were just dying and finally he’s like “I don’t care anymore I’m just gonna see what the hell is wrong with the keyboard” and returned 3 minutes later, still no answers, and was like “You know what? ‘Blackout’ sounded fucking amazing and that’s what matters to me” like we honestly just quit oh my God

- However the kids really powered through all the issues and didn’t let it trip them up so that was good

- Meanwhile, though, the audience was FUCKING HILARIOUS I LOVED THEM

- I’m...fully convinced half this audience had never been to a musical before in their entire lives, and even if they had they had never seen or listened to In The Heights so their reactions were great.

- Lot of gasping holy shit it was so funny. “I got more hoes than a phone book in Tokyo” *GASP* “What do I do with this winning ticket?” *G A S P*

- The opening of act 2 when Benny and Nina are on the fire escape and clearly had sex the night before? G A S P

- Guys it was so funny. And they were clearly loving the music and laughing at all the jokes- every scene got deafening applause omfg

- They were all clearly very much sucked into the story so that was just so fun to see

- They tried to cornrow Benny’s hair

- That was quit half way through thank God omfg

- Also mildly off topic but when I was getting his mic on him he hadn’t done his bun yet and that boy has a fantastic head of hair holy shit

- “OH MY GOD THAT HAT CANNOT HAPPEN YOU LOOK LIKE THE PERSON FROM THE LORAX”

- There was a moment before they opened the doors and the entire theater was quiet but suddenly all (like...8 or 9) boys could be heard singing “Baby” by Justin Bieber at the top of their lungs in their dressing room. No explanation as to why

- They announced that the fall show was Pippin and Steven got a fucking baseball bat and starting balancing it on his fingers yelling “JUST IN TIME” (he had apparently ‘just discovered’ this talent on Sunday and has been talking about it like non-stop since)

- The girl playing Graffiti Pete had a bunch of school friends come to the show. They all shrieked every time she opened her mouth holy shit

- Before the show the director was giving notes and she said something like “This is right after Claudia’s death-” and half the cast was like “Tag you’re fucking spoilers” omfg

- And then when mic checks were happening Steven sang “atencion” and Tom cut him off yelling “SPOILERS, SPOILERS” instead of “good” lmao

- Okay so like...is there a little kids show character that I resemble or something????

- There were a lot of kids in the audience (probably like actor’s siblings or something) and like...during intermission an alarming amount of them were staring or waving at me with shy smiles or pointing me out to their parents who seemed to know what they were thinking and I was just like....Who do you think I am?????? Oh my God

- No one actually tried to talk to me but a few looked like they wanted to??? A few even got some of that gentle parental shove thing??? What is happening I’m so confused over this????

- Oh my God you know how in Boy Meets World, Rider Strong hated his fucking hair and as a result we were blessed with Shawn constantly aggressively raking his hair back with his hands???? There was a boy sitting directly in front of me who did that literally the entire show to the point where I was like....You need to stop I gotta see what’s happening on stage omfg

- Also lol I guess he was there for his ensemble sisters(tm) or something bc he cheered for everyone who came out for bows except he booed for one specific group of girls lol

- I was on my phone before the show and the directors husband made Tom get my attention just so he could silently give me a thumbs up before walking away so we were laughing at that

- He did give me free skittles at intermission tho which was rad (he tried to give me like the entire table for free lmao)

- The choreographer was working the spotlight (which she admitted she was confused by) and she was super tired and lowkey joked about falling asleep and falling over on the job before the show started but somewhere during act 2 I fucking saw the sliding spotlight and panicked lmao

- Her and Drew were bonding over being bad at spotlight and everyone in the back area said “you guys are better than Jimmy” in perfect unison lmao

- Usnavi was borderline sobbing by his last line in the finale omg

- We couldn’t fucking get a sound effect for the fireworks so for the final part of ‘blackout’ when you’re supposed to hear them the pianist deadass just whistled the noise omfg

- Nina and Abuela Claudia were the fan favorites, as I predicted

- Benny was a little off his game but I still support him

- Lowkey there’s a couple guys in this show who have never done any shows before and I’m not sure if he’s one of them??? He seems like he is so I think he was probably just nervous or something

- Everyone was sneezing and coughing bc why not

- Before the show the Piragua Guy was berating himself as per usual and the only cheer-me-up anyone could think to give him was “It sounds great! It’s just like, the words that you’re having trouble with!” lmao but he KILLED IT I was v proud the audience loved him

- Like 20 minutes before we let people in we had the directors daughter, in heels, on a fucking ladder painting over parts of the shop signs bc we realized that even though they had professional looking signs made they all had Philadelphia area codes on them lmao

- Oh God. So remember the not-screwed-in door I was complaining about???

- Well. They screwed it in. Backwards.

- And it makes an obnoxious noise when it opens and closes, and also doesn’t close all the way l m a o

- The programs all went missing lmao

- I found one box hidden away thank God but??? Apparently there’s supposed to be more. So we might just run out of programs during the second show

- LMAO DURING HER OPENING SPEECH THE DIRECTOR DEADASS PRONOUNCED LIN MANUEL MIRANDA’S NAME WRONG COULD YOU GET ANY MORE #ICONIC(tm)

- Tom fist pumped multiple times in pride and excitement when the show finally ended lmao

- THE GOT THE GRATE WITH ABUELA CLAUDIA’S FACE ON IT HOOKED UP (another audience gasp moment) AND HONESTLY???? I TEARED UP

- Lmao I’m pretty sure Tom was also lowkey crying at the end I didn’t say anything tho

- There’s more but it’s almost 2 in the morning lmao so anyway!!! Hopefully tomorrow runs a little more smoothly!!! And hopefully we get another great audience!! Overall it was great so I’m all pumped

#in the heights #ith vagueblogging 2k17 #musicals #theater #theater problems #molly mumbles

[whalefairyfandom12]

Your Love's a Fucking Drag (But I Need it So Bad)

Summary: Dan likes black and leather jackets, Phil likes reading in solitude and playing video games. But they have one thing in common as new roommates at uni: They are both completely straight. Just because they like to get each other off every once in a while doesn’t make it any different.

A/N: We've been writing this fic for over a year now and it's strange to think this is the last time we'll be doing this. Thank you so much for all of your support and we hope you enjoy the final chapter <33

Masterpost

Chapter Nine

 *picks up after “true bros swallow” from chapter seven

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don’t judge me makila

I’m 110% judging right now smh no homo just bromo

I came here to have a good time and im honestly feeling so attacked rn

Not as attacked as Dan’s cock amiright

STOP THIS IMMEDIATELy

...That's what he said and then Phil made him

My mind is literally blank rn jfc i have absolutely no comebacks whatsoever

On a scale of one to Dan’s mind during orgasm from a brojob how blank?

Like dan’s mind during orgasm and then some

Yet somehow Phil Lester’s lips aren't involved. I think he got the better deal, really. Also cuddles after

Im jealous of dan i want phil lester’s cuddles :<

I swear to god we sound so ace right now 100 to 0 real fast

*writes sex scene* “Wow i cant wait to cuddle the fuck out of phil” 100% ace

Seriously though Phil probably gives some of the best cuddles imaginable I'm jealous

My friend met him and she said he gives the best hugs out of anyone she’s ever met

You know what fuck Phan I'm stealing Phil for myself

“Hi do u have any philxreader fics” dats u

“I don't want the yang wang dang just the hugging”

Im fucking pissing myself im hilarious

I think my mom just heard that snort

Im literally laughing so hard and my dogs started barking bc of it christ i need sleep

Jesus Christ has very little to do with this conversation, trust me ;)))))))))))))

I hope he isn’t too mad that i started involving him in our crimes

We’re all going to hell anyway, what's one more crime really

Imagine if jesus went to hell with us JESUS READS TOO MUCH GAY PORN

“So what was your punishment?”

“I liked sucking cocks too”

“Same. Only bros?”

“True bros swallowed. Dat was me.”

Jeezy wheezy (sry i cant type wow) thats amazing and i had something to say but i dont REMEMBER

They say losing your memory this early means you're definitely screwed and damned to hell

I mean we already knew i was going to hell so whats the difference

I've spent my evening reading gay porn stars AU instead of studying that ship has sailed

Porn star aus are the best thing ever no ragerts

“Ragerts”-Rachel, 2016

The sin has clouded your thoughts

Im gonna get that tattooed on me “no ragerts”

You can say not only were you extremely drunk when you got it you were also drunk when you thought it up. A win win

“How did you get that tattoo??” “Well im always drunk man”

“Drunk on gay smut and memes”

I read too much about bros swallowing loads

You need to fire your autocorrect and get a better one

Im on my computer so looks like i just have to fire my brain

Our wordcount has upped significantly can we just keep this here. “Now presenting a short intermission from your writers”

Oh my god when we upload the last chapter (whenever the fuck that will be jesus christ what are we doing with this story) we should post this

Imagine the day when our inboxes will no longer be filled with messages of “WHEN THE FUCK IS THE NEXT CHAPTER OF YLAFD GOING TO BE UP??????”

That’s the day that the earth will truly implode

See the real question is who’s going to store all these screenshots on their camera roll? Forfeit those sick GBs

I can screenshot them on my computer hahaha

Way to ruin the moment Rachel wooooooow :(((((((( That was so low not even Dan could recover (get it because he’s a bottom? I'm so tired smh)

Sorry bro (*insert lenny face here bc im too lazy to do that*) i hope dans proud of me

He knows it's just about bros doing bro things I'm sure he’d fully endorse our fics. (And let’s be honest, I'll bet you one hundred dollars this hasn't happened to him at least once)

Oh him and phil have d e f i n i t el I GIVE UP fucked

Which will come out first? Dan Howell or Sherlock’s next season? YO MAMA’S SO FAT BY THE TIME SHE TURNS AROUND DAN HOWELL CAME OUT!!!!!1!

JESUS CHriST “How many licks does it take for dan howell to come out?” “The world may never know”

Oh he’ll be coming all right *insert lenny face*

HE’LL BE COMING AROUND THE MOUNTAIN WHEN HE COMES

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WHAT THE FUCK MAKILA NO the human centipede lol

ヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉ POOP

Ur enjoying urself aren’t u

FIGHT ME (ง ͠° ͟ل͜ ͡°)ง (what? I don't have an entire wall of lenny’s saved to my notes for this very purpose that would be ridiculous haha ha ha ha…)

Usually when i use a lenny face i go back and copy it from one of my friend’s text messages so ALL THE JUDGEMENT HERE UR FIRED

AT LEAST LENNY STILL LOVES ME 
( ͡°╭͜ʖ╮͡° )ᕤ holy shit we broke 14k yay us #rakilaftwrioolymipcs2k16

(ʘ‿ʘ✿) we literally broke 14k because we wrote an entire essay about how much of a meme we are (why is this a different color text wtf)

All better. The perfectionist in me is satisfied.

Im proud of you makkypoo

BU-BUT SENPAIIIIIIII REALLY????? JU-JUST ME???????

JUST U MACKLEMORE (i think im so funny)

Macklemore I'm dying (right and Phil’s dating Dan. Oh wait)

I think your nickname is no longer makila but instead macklemore

Once we release these screenshots it will be THANKS RACHEL UR FIRED NOW

BUT ): A KOUHAI CANT HIRE THEIR SENPAIIIIIIII (also i hope you start getting messages about macklemore now)

WOW I FEEL SO LOVED :,(((((((((( a single man tear

A man tear… like uh i dont have a fucking comeback im So TIRED LIKE UR MUMS MAN TEAR

THE NERVE!!!!!!!!!1!1! WELL YOUR MUM’S MAN TEAR IS SO UNMANLY NOT EVEN DAN WOULD THINK IT WAS ATTRACTIVE SO THERE BITE ME

Cuz we all know dan thinks every man tear is attractive rip to dan’s heart (and his sexuality)

“Here lies Dan’s heterosexuality and heteronormativity. It will be sorely--screw it no it won't.”

Dan’s heterosexuality&heteronormativity,,, June 10, 1991 - Today (what is today) August 20, 2016

“We gather to celebrate with smut and Lenny human centipedes.” I need sleep so badly right now smh I'm dead tomorrow

GO TO SLEEP (honestly i do too i have to wake up early to move back to uni rip)

I will if you do. A bro pact. (A broct? Pacbro?)

Just… stop right there LOL lets form a broct(?) and just brosleep it out

I hope Phil brohugs you bro

Thanks bro i hope phil brocuddles u my dude, my bro

Aw you mean it bro? U r always there for me, man, I luv u u r like a brother to me, bro

Bro… oh my god bro, that’s the broest thing anyones ever said to me… i love u bro.. Like bromantically

Not as much as I platonically 110% heterosexually love u bro. Just bromo tho no homo

That’s the new phrase of this fic “just bromo, no homo”

*deletes summary and changes it to that* seriously why aren't we sleeping GO TO BED RAKILA

OKAY IM GONNA ACTUALLY SLEEP NOW CUZ WE NEED IT

NIGHT BRO DON’T LET THE FIREFLIES BITE MAN

NIGHT TO U TOO BROKILA DONT LET TO BRO BUGS BITE

#your love's a fucking drag (but I need it so bad) #ylafdbinisb #fanfiction #phan #phanfiction #phan au #this is it guys #the end #:'))

[pissedchicken]

ive been really upset the past couple of days and i just want to put everything somewhere so i can stop feeling so miserable and just Let It Go

so my orchestra was in the process of putting together a big concert to raise money for our Big Trip right and our conductor hands out the seating chart right!!! n he gave me first chair for the hardest song and said to me i heard you practice and saw how hard u worked- will u be ok sitting here? n i was lik omg yes im terrfied but i want to bc he haqsnt let me sit anywhere near first chair since eigth grade and i was lik wow mayb hell stop seeing me as a third wheel and i can finally make him proud of me and he trusts me enough to lead the entire orchestra and it made me so happy i couldnt believe it bc all the hours i spent practicing were finally!!! paying off

but then everything changed when the fire nation attacked the concert master goes u really think u can sit there for that song n shes already bitter bc shes used to bein see as better than everyone else and having things given to her and the other people in our section begin to get on me too lik - do even know how to play this song? do u really think u can do it? n it just hurt me so much tht no one was happy for me or had faith tht i could b a leader for even one song i was so nervous all during rehearsal i couldnt even be like ill prove them wrong because they were right i fake my way through everything i dont even deserve to sit there and somehow right when we get to tht song rehearsal ends up being a train wreck

and the concert master sitting behind me picks on my every little mistake and says this was such a mistake why did he let her sit up there i was using her copy of music which she didnt number the measures or add in all of the bowings which goT me in trouble from our conductor bc i didnt kno where to start and i messed up oNe bowings which i fixed immediately and the cm lectured me for it

and then i go home i wake up and i cry all morning bc wow what a disaster i am worthless and no one really cares about me it seems and im debating just giving the cm her seat back so she n everyone else can be happy bc it seems lik im not the best choice for this anyway but i dont want to look like a quitter but i talked to my best friend who is also the assistant concert master and he was lik u kno u really deserve it and i want u to sit up there n cm can get over herself for one song and let u do it so i pull myself together and practice some more so that i can be perfect during the final rehearsal on the day of the concert n i arrive ive listened to my piece so many times tht i hav the entrances and diffficult parts memorized n ik i can play them even if theyre a lil less than perfect but god knows no one in our section can actually play it anyway and everything in rehearsal is going great bc im confident n happy this time and finally its my turn to sit first for my song and our conductor goes

sarah do u mind sitting back here instead for this song

and my mind goes blank and i just? make it through the song only barely trying not to cry bc i was so stressed and upset bc of everyone and thinking wow i can make my mom proud my conductor is proud of me my section will see im not a mistake well jokes on me bc thats exactly what it looked lik n im just so EMBARRASSED bc i really thought hed hav enough faith in me to go through w it and the cm is just smilely and happy bc she got her seat back and she doesnt have to share anymore and my mom ends up coming to get me bc i cant stand being in the same room w them and i cry for n hour and a half before i go back to wait for call time my dad tells me hes not coming to support me at the concert bc he pays child support and thts the same thing as going to the concert and its just makes me feel worse bc not wven my dad wnats to see me play and the assistant concert master calls me bc hes feelin lik shit too bc hes lik u didnt do anything wrong u dont deserve to hav ur seat taken away im gonna ask the conductor if u can sit second chair for the song since u were supposed to be up there anyway and not me and i go nO u r Not giving up ur SEAt sit ur ass Down in that chair or give it to joseph (our little sophomore who was my stand partner for the song) bc he worked so hard and he can play it so well tht if anyone deserves to sit up there its Him i ended up sitting all alone in the dressing room bc the concert master is pretending she cant see me and im not really close withm any of the girls bc im one of the few upper classmen and the younger kids hav their own friend groups and then right in front of me as the girls r doin their makeup and she knows im in there bc im sitting right behind her she says to someone else i thought was my best friend until i came out of the closet and she stopped talking to me too she just starts talking shit about me and im just? in disbelief

n before all this i considered the concert master to b one of my best friends u kno? lik we literally hav been playing together for 7 years now n we hav a group chat w the assistant cm where we talk about Everything bc were so Close u kno

n i just feel worse and worse and right bfore we go onstage my conductor pulls me aside and hes lik its not u it was just the vibe of the section and im lik ye sure jane we all kno u play favorites uve been doin it since i was in 6th grade my dude this is nothing new but if tht really were the case i wish he just hadnt given me false hope in the first place but i dont complain bc im not a baby i can respect other peoples decisions n my buddy joseph who was moved w me bc Plan Get Joseph To Second was destroyed by the conductor tells me tht cm asked him why we were so b it t er and im lik? haha :-) and all noght through intermissions cm says things lik this night is going perfectly exactly as i wanted it to n me n the assistant n joseph r all bitter as fUck n as the night goes on im just so Tired bc of everything my playing gets worse wnd worse and its making me feel lik shit bc everyone is so Happy and i just Cant Be bc the day was Ruined for me n the funny part is we get to the song i was supposed to play the cm messes up everyrhinf i messed up on- except durin the actual concert im the one who plays everything right

n then my mom goes and invites the cm and the acm to dinner w us n i hav to pretend lik she never said anything and i guess that made me happy for a while but everything she said just came back to me this morning n i just want to be happy n Over It im tired of wasting my energy bc she felt the need to b petty bc she didnt get her way apparently she told my mom tht she didnt kno tht i wanted to play it and she didnt kno i was upset either but then again she would bc im :-) the greatest at being a fake bitch

YA LMAO I HAV MORE TO B PETTY ABOUT I JUST REMEMVERED so at the very end of the concert the conductor shakes hands w people who sit first chair right and i sat up there for the three easiest songs right so he shakes everyones hands he gets to me and walks right by and im lik LMAO U REALLY DID THAT👏👏👏👏👏 backstage he patted my back and goes thanks sarah and im lik tHANKS FOR WHAT th a nk s for what 🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝 the moist star sees all

#thts pretty much everything #lik yeah mayb it was best for the orchestra but the way he went about it was just lik #insulting #n embarrassing #ignore #now on our Big Trip i have to Room with Her #n lik... ive hated violin for years i stopped getting enjoyment out of it when it started bein stressful rather than fun n ive said tht in #other ignore posts too #lik giving it up hurts me more than anything bc I Fell in Love with it but its just #bc it doesnt make me happy anymore #hhh idk how to explain myself im just #feeling so complicated #but im done i think #reading this just makes me feel lik i was being a big baby.. #but i just want to feel lik my feelings r valid too for once u kno

[skyteglad]

do all the flower asks too you little heathen

Alisons: Sexuality? pansexual!! i used to go with demirom pansexual but pan alone is good enough

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender? he/him, it/its is okay too! bigender but also i’m?? leaning towards just trans masc at this point?

Amaryllis: Birthday? dec 11!

Anemone: Favorite flower? oh fuck uhhhh chrysanthemum but only bc i love that word?? i like how flowers look a lot tho

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show? oh shit fuck uh. there’s a lot but soul eater, desperate housewives, and heroes are three i can think of rn

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger? i have no clue what this question means!!

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes? h

Aubrieta: Favorite drink? soda… root beer, sunkist, and (currently) dr. pepper?

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? FUCK YEAH FUCK YEAH FUCK YEAH

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baneberries: Favorite song? THERE’S… A LOT OF THEM, OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD THOUGH, FIRST TO COME TO THOUGHT? between the bars by chris garneau

Basket of Gold: Describe your family. they’re actually pretty good? like, really good. not perfect, though. i still haven’t come out to them, but they’re very good in comparison to many other parents

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it? imma go w my irl besties bryson and alyssa they’re fantastic, love them

Begonia: Favorite color? this is hard? i love colors??? fuck? i’ll just go with color combo instead here, which is a tie between red/black/white, and brown/teal/white

Bellflower: Favorite animal? I HAVE A LOT. CATS, DEER, AXOLOTLS??

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person? night

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be? cat cat cat cat cat

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? teacher, lawyer, forensic psychologist

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children? love them! they deserve kindness in the world and it makes me sad as hell knowing not all of them have that. no child is inherently evil, they’re still forming and changing and growing, and there’s still a chance to help them be a good person

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why? oh man, lots of things. i’ll go with… *spins the wheel* … abandonment! and yeah lol it’s bc losing people is scary and terrible

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood. not a fact abt my childhood but apparently i was born with an anxiety disorder lol

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?  question too deep, pass

Buttercup: Relationship Status? **MARRIED** i’m not married but i’m happily taken by two of the best people to ever exist ever???

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go? SEE MY BOY NORSKI

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved? when i’m around my bfs and they’re being cozy and gay and sweet

Canna: Do you have any tattoos? nope!

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?  nope!

California Poppy: Height?  fuck you! i’m 4'11

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts? sure do babey!

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?  pajama pants, socks that are too tight, a tank top, and my bfs heart player hoodie

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight? yes i still do lol

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?  cotton :D

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed? cotton!

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font? fuck uhhhhhh yes

Columbine: Are you tired? lol ya

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to? LOVE BOYS LOVE BOYS LOVE BOYS

Coneflower: Dream job? forensic psychologist :c

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert? introvert!

Crocus: Have you ever been in love? this was already asked but YES

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about? ALL THE WAY ALL THE WAY

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it? UHHH YYYESSS???? imma go w booger bear, a green bear… shade of boogers

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign? sagittarius!

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering? i… guess? maybe??? not really imo but idk!

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment? i have no braincells rn so pass

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)?  cry (they do like them tho thank fuck)

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to? COTTON AND NORSKI

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at? d…raw…?

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at? everything lol

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month? CON! HALLOWEEN SPOOKY STUFF! POTENTIAL MOUSE BABIES which is also a bad thing that happened but shh

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today? it’s been ok

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life? well… not exactly? i’m thrilled to be where i am w my bfs, i’m thrilled that i’ve grown and gotten through some bad trauma, but i want to be doing more, i want to feel accomplished, so.. i’m not :c

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two? FUCKING MOVE.

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life? oh fuck numbers. 1-2) cotton and norski 3) lee!!! 4) my family 3) my friends 4) there’s more but i have no braincells so :p

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?  nothing

Hellebore: How do you show affection? many

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of? :D.. i don’t rememeber

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day. shrug

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?  drrrawww??? procrastinate lol

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them? i’ll go w alyssa! almost 16 years, it was in kindergarten! my aunt had lied abt mama bringing me lunch so i was left kind of just… without any and alyssa stayed behind while i ate when everyone went to recess :’) we also just shared a class but still

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything? cotton and norski

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have? bitch? how am i supposed to know?

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? hhhhhh

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself? suck

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself? i give a shit about others

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself?  i give a shit about certain others :\

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child? draw

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid? alyssa

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for? SO MANY THINGS HHH JUST. BEING A THOUGHTLESS BITCH.

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about? retaliating against my abusers and saying harmful things to them while they were basically cornering me bc i had a breakdown and that was ‘rude’ somehow.

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name? bc im trash! and it means 'thunderous skies’ (i found out that skylar is a popular/overused trans guy name and now i’m sad at myself but also fuck u i love the name skylar it stays as my middle)

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it. texas lol i havent moved out of the city ive lived in my whole life

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up? its never been personalized… it’s… just a bed, a tv (not anymore but thats ok) and thats it. currently its two beds but, again, thats it

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  depression!

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom. shes great!! she sucks sometimes and doesn’t understand my boundaries at all (maybe she does and just purposefully ignores them), and she babies me to fucking hell, but she’s very very nice and tries her best and i appreciate her

Onions: Tell about your dad. we don’t mention him he’s a piece of shit :\ my step dad’s great tho lol

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents. ging and popo are treasures to this earth

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable? i don’t want to talk about that.

Peony: What was your first job? haven’t had it yet

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any? COTTON: MET HIM IN A HOMESTUCK KIN SERVER. NORSKI: COTTON’S OLD FRIEND, INTRODUCED US. the first thing i ever said to him was great…

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain? i don’t.

Pink: Where is home? where the heart is uwu

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change? terrible people from hurting millions of others.

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them. norski tbh? he’s so talented and brave and has done so much in life. he’s not perfect but he’s grown so much and tried so hard to do good and i’m so proud of him and admire him a lot

Primrose: Describe your ideal life. no mental illness, with financial stability, and also the world wouldn’t have fucking oppression and harm in it tbh.

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child? THAT BUTTERFLIES WERE VENOMOUS AND IF IT TOUCHED U U’D DIE.

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life? norski and cotton… and also lee

Rose: What’s your favorite sound? my bfs’ voices

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory? most memories of good times we’ve had

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory? :) pass

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?  TO CUDDLE MY FUCKING HUSBANDS. also to go pee i’m gonna go pee intermission break here pee break done

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things? :D hard!

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without? norski or cotton hh

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night? uhhhh a good amount???

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning? staying in bed hurts my body

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job? that i wish i had one

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing? i have a rly hot hoodie now…

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.  EDGY BUT COLORFUL

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you? stuffed animals… esp pokemon ones (or video games)

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now? life :D!!!!

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called? I DON’T READ HHHHHHH

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year? living with cotton like… permanently (also spending time w norski irl!!!!!!!!! pls!)

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is? :)

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself. I DON’T HAVE A BRAIN RN

#marcotton #RIOT.TXT