#bit depressing

[smol-grey-tea]

Self indulgent Nameless Heal Your Heart au fic thing. I am very sad rn.

I'm sitting here in my bedroom, fucking exhausted. How can I be without him. How can I have forgotten him. I know it's childish, but I can't help but cry. I don't remember the last time I slept without my teddy bear beside me. I don't know how I'll sleep tonight.

My eyes weigh like stones upon my face, burnt from tears. I stare at the ceiling, feeling nothing to do, an itching in my skin, in my chest, that won't give in.

I close my eyes and am entertained only mildly by the colours behind my eyelids and the memories I watch, displayed across them. I remember, years ago but yesterday, standing in the shower.

I felt dry, despite having stood under the water for longer than necessary. I scrubbed at my skin, determined to rid myself of the tiny white particles of dead cells that tortured my skin. My fingers acted independently of me. I scratched my chest red raw, leaving red dots and purple bruises, pulling along more white cells.

I remembered years ago, fighting with my parents, kicking and screaming. I didn't like parties anyway, but I hated what they demanded I wear.

My teddy is gone. Not lost, not scared. But far enough away to feel gone. He had been there for me through the scratching and the scratching and the bruising. He had held my chest tenderly, without complaint. He was so soft and kind.

What do I have now? I feel alone. Nothing's the same.

Bruising...

#my post #ʕ´•ᴥ•`ʔ ˢᵒʳʳʸ #bit depressing #cheritz #nameless the one thing you must recall #you can't even tell which Cheritz character this is. unless you're. like. me?? #it's cuz pov character is a trans guy #(◞‸◟ㆀ)ˢᵒʳʳʸ #I'm sad today bro #ntotymr #writeblr #whump

[mzyraj]

I think it was because I was talking dreams with my mum and she mentioned having some where I'd just wake up one day and be fine.

My dreams know not to be so optimistic, I knew I was still disabled, but I dreamed I looked the way I used to, I was thinner with midlength hair, I was... pretty? Cute? And I was so happy about it. Just ignore completely the fact that the disability and my appearance are inextricably linked.

I cannot be my appearance anymore. I can only be what I feel and what little I can do. The stretch of muscle, a hug for my husband, words on a screen for people so many miles away.

#disability #dreams #sigh #bit depressing

[obviouschild2014]

Difficult to watch banshees in the cinema because ive been trained now to answer every time an irishman says ‘heeh?’ with a louder more gravelly HEEEHH??? so you can imagine how much restraint i had to show

#literally every time my dad goes huh? heeh? we all have to go HUHEHH?? #it was great though #bit depressing #give it a million awards

[theshadowrealmitself]

I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #not based on a specific thing #but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’ #who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field? #like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq #and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first #would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate #and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for #and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance #the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times #they were just dicks #and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it. #it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible #you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier #but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks. #that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on #and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post #but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks #and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be #replaced #hated that couple #if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us #(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀) #liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people #that no one else wanted to be friends with #I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone #this got long sorry 😭

[t-s-n-s-s-a-g-turnip]

love laying in bed feeling bad about the everything and about the nothing at the same time

they are also the same thing

#kinda sad #bit depressing #sad? angry? depressed? hungry? who can say #tumblr best coping mechanism

[gascreates]

^^ infectious

#i now desire to read sickfics #this is an old sketch that i colored cuz i was dying to feel productive #depression and executive dysfunction are joining forces against me #i fight back by finishing something fast so i can feel accomplished for a bit #then maybe i can work on the bigger pieces/comics i want to get through #or maybe *gasp* work on a FIC #wouldn't that be crazy #atla #zuko

[ewicomkicks2point0]

Definition of ‘power couple’

I feel bad for drawing the younger version of her because she feels so much more badass when she’s old [and that’s how we actually see her obviously] but I just wanted to draw them together, I hope ya like it !!

Also I’m obsessed with designing a whole wardrobe for them, I have SO MANY outfits for her, it’s fucking crazy,,,

#team fortress 2 #team fortress 2 fanart #tf2 #tf2 fanart #tf2 demoman #tf2 demoman's parents #their left arms look as if they kinda disappear but I promise they're there. it makes sense #this was a bit delayed because my seasonal depression is starting waaa boo hoo

[homkamiro]

Can I make it any more obvious?

#heard that today is tf2's birthday #happy biiirthdayyyy toooo youuuuuu🎉🎉🎉🎉 #literally my favorite game. ever. #this fixation stopped my depression for a bit i'm not kidding #but we got off topic #team fortress 2 #tf2 #team fortress 2 fanart #tf2 fanart #tf2 scout #tf2 sniper #sniperscout #speeding bullet

[nokkiart]

"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless, and they don't want anyone else to feel like that."

This quote from Robin Williams has always stuck with me.

There's a reason I mostly make cute, wholesome art, even when things are dark and I'm crumbling inside. Its because I love making you all smile. And I hope you never have to feel as sad as I do.

#im having a rough day and decided to illustrate one of my fav celebrity quotes #helps to fight off the loneliness and depression a bit #genie youre free #genie #aladdin #disney #digital #artists of tumblr #illustration #art #character design #painting #robin williams

[keets-writing-corner]

Love how Lucifer just manhandles Adam during their 'fight' despite everyone else getting their asses kicked. Plus him effortlessly destroying him when Charlie's in danger is really sweet.

gawd me too anon me too

that was everything me to me. like everything. It was built up so well too

we spent the whole season building up alastor as this massive powerhouse, eldritch, nobody messes with him. Only one who tried picking a fight with him (Vox) got utterly humiliated and everyone else was clearly outclassed. Except for Lucifer where Alastor merely just went with annoying instead of power challenging. Like we got vibes okay yeah makes sense that the King of Hell isn't intimidated by anyone, even if it's alastor, but Alastor got TWO wtf moments in Dad Beat Dad one with Husk and one with defending the hotel

other than that, it was pretty much, nobody messes with him cuz he will mess you up

and he fights Adam evenly sorta for a bit before Adam pulls out the "I'm an angel which is stronger than any demon" card and alastor gets his ass handed to him.

Like what a way to set up how strong ADAM is, having him beat Alastor. And then no one else in the hotel is as strong as Alastor was, so everyone's struggling. Charlie at least gets one good hit in but her inexperience kicks her in the ass and then Lucifer just shows up and

like hot DAMN that was just one hit! He broke Adam's mask, the force was enough to send him FLYING across the roof top, and bounce so hard against the billboard he BROKE THE SKYLIGHT

That was just a "HANDS OFF MY BABY" warning too, like LOOK at that face, that's not a "fight me" face it's a "if you touch my baby again, I will screw you so bad your bones will need therapy and you never recover"

Lucifer not even .2 seconds later, just upon seeing Charlie

and then yeah, Lucifer was NOT taking the fight with Adam serious at all, like the dude was taunting him, mocking him, dodging all of his attacks, just shapeshifting like Adam was a joke LIKE LOOK AT THIS

Lucifer isn't even scared, he's just "oh there's a wall there"

His FACE IM DYING he's legit like "wowwww you just tried shoving me into a wall? really? didn't have any other ideas? Soooooo original of you. I will mock you now"

HIS HANDS ARE BEHIND HIS BACK HE FOR REAL SAID HE COULD TAKE ADAM WITH BOTH HANDS BEHIND HIS BACK

rewatching rn for the screenshots, he's legit just shapeshifting for the fun of it. 70% of the time nothing has happened, he's just dodging adam and shapeshifting while doing it, like he doesn't need to be doing that this is 100% mockery.

And then the iconic

like omgggg this is soooo satisfying and amazing to watch. Like the set up of Adam being powerful was great, and then we just get this absolute trolling from Lucifer cuz he really doesn't care about Adam

And listen the trolling is great and all, but when Adam makes the mistake of not heeding Lucifer's warning of messing with his baby, and then does it a second time

RIP Adam just getting one shot-ed like that but hnnnnnggggg we got to see Lucifer fully pissed and it was GREAT

And somehow my favorite part wasn't even watching Lucifer go absolute ham on Adam, it was that even at his absolute most rage fueled moment, snarling like a beast where he was going to and fully intended on making good on his threat about messing with his baby

just one shoulder touch from Charlie and he's immediately chill. Like it's instantaneous, like how much do you love someone to be able to be absolutely livid, about to incinerate someone levels of rage only to immediately be "o oki! No more violence!" the second that person touches you???

Ugh I love them so much! Like everything about that fight, but especially how Lucifer can just go from absolutely the most dangerous person in one second and then OWO SOFT the next just by looking at Charlie

oops this post got long... IMSORRYYYYY other than "More than Anything" and the phonecall with charlie this is one of the scenes I replay the most, I love them so much

Characters going absolutely feral over loved ones is just aasdfadffalklkmafdjalsg 👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit

#hazbin hotel #lucifer morningstar #lucifer #charlie morningstar #is this even an analysis #it's just me #oh wait forgot a tag #anon ask #anyways #it's just me gushing over Lucifer in this fight #and also a little bit of the writing #establishing a character's power level by first establishing ANOTHER character's power level and having that one beaten #is already pretty good #especially when executed correctly #but they did it with the same character #TWICE #like #YESSSSSSS #*insert flaming elmo gif here* #Lucifer had to be nerfed with depression #otherwise he'd be too powerful #jk jk #but for real

[aonik]

The recent movie was so cool I had to draw something!

#digimon #digimon 02 #digimon 02 the beginning #rui #veemon #gatomon #patamon #armadillomon #wormmon #hawkmon #ukkomon #art #i know i said i'd write more about the movie and i did but i felt too self aware to share #just know i loved this movie to bits #kizuna was the best so far but this one dethroned it so quickly #it has almost everything i wanted from a digimon movie #(by that i mean a lovable new character and just enough focus on the main cast and also no new made up evolutions and no depressing ending)

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags) #shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes) #i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized) #it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can. #we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

[geminison]

someone made a mess

#it's strawberry jam guys don't worry he's just a messy eater #dishonored #corvo attano #the only Brodsky's lines i remember he's a bit too depressing for my taste #probably going to post textless version later #art tag

[kagoutiss]

the newly vassaled gerudo king is inexplicably handed a baby

#tloz #legend of zelda #ocarina of time #oot #zelda #ganondorf #i actually think he would’ve been a teenager or so around the time zelda was born but. this is just for sillies so #and no idea when he actually swore fealty to the king. i actually feel like it might’ve been a bit before the events of the game #in my head it’s like. the war just ended and impa hasn’t been assigned as zelda’s attendent yet #and newborn baby zelda is somewhat of an afterthought atm and whoever was holding her before suddenly had urgent business to take care of #and ganondorf is like the most visible person in the vicinity and also everyone is treating him like shit because he Just Lost The War #and no one takes him seriously anymore despite Everything so it’s like haha oh ok so i’m just demoted to Giant Babysitter huh #for the next 5-10 minutes or so. i’m not apoplectic or anything rn #already having one of the most humiliating depressing weeks of my entire life what’s one more humiliating thing #meanwhile baby zelda is like *has no object permanence or sense of fear yet* Holy Shit Its Boar From My Visions

[pluvioseprince]

cynonari 🤝....

#genshin impact #genshin fanart #genshin impact fanart #gi #Genshin Impact Cyno #Genshin Impact Tighnari #cynonari #cyno #tighnari #cyno x tighnari #projects my depressive episodes onto tighnari #look man writes like three papers i bet he gets angry at some #cyno just sits tnere like. yeah i get it man #tighnari would be inconsolable when hes dragged away from work #a bit ooc

[cloned-eyes]

:D

#the bad batch #tbb crosshair #tbb tech #tbb wrecker #tbb hunter #clone force 99 #star wars fanart #star wars #the bad batch fanart #eyesdraws #Im battling my depression and i might be winning #so let me share them with u so u have something nice as well #tried to play with my style a bit