#but i try to tell myself that

[teenwerewoofs]

fell down the bookbinding/ficbinding rabbit hole two weeks ago, told myself to not just go all-in right off the bat (especially because i have a lot going on right now + the rest of this year!!), bought a kit to test out the process before fully committing, and i now have two large orders of materials arriving next week and have finished typesetting two fics and am about to start my third 😐

#why am i like this #i did the exact same thing with podfic lmao #it's kinda nice though because i enjoy doing podfics of fics that are under 20k words #and it seems like doing ficbinding for fics that are 20k+ words works best #so that's probably what my line drawn in the sand is gonna look like moving forward #i mapped out the rest of my year project-wise and it makes me sweat just looking at it lmao #but i'm one of those people that gets more done the more that's on my list to-do #sadly #also me: trying to figure out how to podfic & ficbind this massive project i'm working on that needs to be done before the end of the year #(the podfic at least) #me @ me: 😑 #me @ me: stop adding voluntary shit to your plate! #and then my brain was like: ...what if you did 7 stargent podfics at the end of nov? kinda like your own stargent week... #lmao dear self: i do have to work my full time job #actually #personal #oh! editing to add that i also found out i'm probably going to have to have 2 outpatient surgeries before the end of the year #soooo that definitely means i will NOT have the time #but i try to tell myself that #and my brain is just like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[spiderversegf]

one important thing that Must be understood about interpersonal relationships is that you have to stop interacting with people who love you like they’re one slip-up away from leaving you. you have to trust that the ppl you love mean what they say. you have to believe that when they say “this hurt my feelings,” that they’re also saying, “can you please love me this other way next time?” and you have to wrap your head around the fact that even if you don’t understand Why someone loves you, you can accept that that they do. true, honest, & open love does not function like hp in a video game !!!!!!

#🍜 #wish i could remember this more. trying to rmr that when ppl are honest w ways they are hurt it’s bc they love me enough to be honest ab it #i am not perfect. but i can do my best to love people well and to apologize when i mess up #i do not have to punish myself! i can apologize and do better in the future #the love i feel increases when people tell me how to love them. the love i feel increases when people tell me how to love them. the love i- #sueñito tag #🦠

[kitausuret]

Write fanfic for yourself.

Publish fanfic for the rotation of 3-6 people who are devoted readers and will either go feral or leave you very nice words and yell with you about it.

#things i tell myself as i try to get motivated to finish one of these damn things #kita talks writing

[originalartblog]

Apparently much-needed reminder that reposting artists' art (by saving the images or screenshotting them and reuploading them yourself) on other platforms without the artists' expressed permission and without credit is theft and an insult to their passion and craft. You are profiting (in views, in attention, in feedback) from someone else's work and ideas, who do not get that feedback for sharing their creation.

If you are an art reposter, you are a thief and I have no respect for you.

#learn basic internet etiquette i am begging but also holding a knife. yes i'm mad. more about others than myself. #do you know how many artists i have seen leave social media because their art started being reposted all over? #tip: way too fucking many #i've had many people tell me about people reposting my art on tiktok #no one ever asked to repost my art on tiktok. ever. they just save super fried bad crunchy jpegs of my art and repost them #they get 20k likes and don't even bother naming me #also a reason i started signing my name more legibly and why my blog web address is always there but apparently no one can even read that #a few people got an ok for translations on other platforms though #i'm going to be annoying with this post and reblog it a few times to try to catch the people who apparently need to be told #tiny skk adventures #nawy's comics #nawy's doodles #apparently those are reposters' favourites so here look at this

[still-snowing]

smooch!

#wow remember when i was an animator yeah me neither #wangxian #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mo dao zu shi #I love them your honor #this looking rough was an ✨artistic choice✨ or at least that’s what I tell myself #mdzs #my art #I’m so sorry I’m not online more but I’m trying to avoid tears spoilers like they’re the plague

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID in ALT] I've made posts before about Talia/Dick co-parenting Damian moments (will never happen but let me dream) and this came to me in a vision. Took me ages to finish for some reason 😭 and then even longer to post

#dc comics #dc #damian wayne #dick grayson #talia al ghul #batfamily #dc robin #nightwing #anyway. yes im a self-indulgent ''dick as damians secret third parent'' truther #like i DO think it's way more complex and nuanced than the schmoopy affectionate fan portrayal of it #they're brothers they're father and son they're partners they're the dynamic duo except only in past tense etc etc #but consider! I'm not immune to schmoopy affection in fanworks. it compells me despite itself #anyway it's technically not that crazy when it comes to dick and damian. they hug! often! at least they did #it's not as big a leap to these types of scenarios #also talia ''somewhat absent for complex reasons on both her and damians part but very loving and loved by her son'' al ghul #you will always be famous to me #son of the demon origin...bwahhh #anyway. someone made a comic kind of like this/like a post i made abt this topic #but way funnier bc dick and talia starting trying to beat each other up #so go look at that as well #anyway. it's been a somewhat difficult few weeks so I'm. desperately trying to take it easy #i got some reading with me (first vol of kevin smiths GA run that i found second hand and jaimes BB run vol 2!) #so we'll see how far i get through those. considering there's demons in my head telling me to re-read things (LET ME OUT!!!) #when i finish GA and BB i do plan on rereading robin 2021. as a treat to myself #it's a run I've really warmed up to as time went on #I'm keeping up w/ the current b&r run even though it is. admittedly very slow w/ some weird dialogue #i read it for the damian content more than anything. also nikas back so that's neat :] #idk I have a feeling that after absolute power shakes out we might get some more creative team switch ups #so if anyone at dc is interested in taking over the reigns on b&r...that could be very neat #mine

[fandom-geek]

i think the thing that really gets me about pre-canon durge is their absolute sense of duty, and their utter isolation outside of the cult of bhaal.

most of the cultists seem eager to see durge upon their return, and one even says they were the first to feed him flesh. gortash tells them of an exhibition of a bhaalspawn's corpse and another bhaalspawn's creations and durge immediately plans to attack the hall of wonder to recover them. they then apparently entrust said bhaalspawn's corpse to sceleritas fel to "restore" through taxidermy. they deride orin for her artistry with corpses explicitly because "bhaal will never care" and because orin "[does] not understand lord bhaal".

even their infamous prayer for forgiveness is framed around their absolute submission to bhaal's plans, and the crime that requires forgiveness? admiring his rival's chosen. that's one line, and the next three paragraphs are swearing to carry out his plan exactly as they've been told to, all for his forgiveness.

hell, even their room reinforces this. orin has barely touched the place aside from installing her mother's corpse and her manifesto - and that is some of the only decoration. what was it before orin, an empty room with skulls, a bed, a desk, some chests and a wardrobe?

the durge didn't have any semblance of a life outside of bhaal, aside from gortash. and is it any surprise? the only other hint they ever had a life outside of the cult is the flashback of kid durge murdering their adopted family, all thanks to their father's urging.

bhaal even tries to force them back into isolation after they've been tadpoled by forcing them to kill alfira, and then trying to force a durge who resists him to kill their lover. if they continue resisting, bhaal kills them. bhaal will not allow them to have a life outside of him and, if it weren't for jergal, he would've succeeded.

#bg3 spoilers #the dark urge #honestly writing this all out it's weird that bhaal doesn't try to kill your party when you're at the temple #it'd be perfectly in line with everything else he'd done to durge up until that moment #also just makes me think of how sceleritas will tell an evil durge that the worst thing they've ever done #is giving a beggar a coin without asking for anything in return #ymmv and everyone has their own headcanons but pre canon durge was not a happy or enthusiastic participant as far as canon shows #which is reinforced by gortash saying you've always been better at controlling your urges than orin! #why would durge bother to do that when 'all father wants is death in droves death in numbers'! #honestly i think it's v reasonable to think that durge could've been tempted into bane worship given what little we know of them pre canon #anyway haven't played evil durge myself so very curious abt any insights from that route #baldur's gate

[mostly-natm]

Take a minute with Mr. Data in the Holodeck!

Still frame under the cut!

#star trek #star trek tng #tng #star trek the next generation #the next generation #data soong #geordi la forge #spot the cat #star trek data #star trek geordi #star trek spot #daforge #gif #tumblr and their gif quality 😬💛✨ #I’m trying to tell myself it looks charming! #this entire post is based off of a dream I had a few weeks ago 🥺💛✨ #it came to me fully formed! I think it’s because I’ve been working on slowing down and being present #hence…having to slow down for a whole minute to watch the gif in its entirety!

[chiricat]

assorted wips again

1. anchan space buns!!

2. emo arisato twins + ryomina and akiham

3. mzen x p3

4. suzalulu sketch dump

5. suzalulu + souyo (eng voice actor joke)

#cat’s art #prsk #an shiraishi #vbs #project sekai #persona 3 #ryomina #akiham #kotone shiomi #makoto yuki #akihiko sanada #ryoji mochizuki #code geass #lelouch lamperouge #lelouch vi britannia #suzaku kururugi #suzalulu #souyo #persona 4 #hmm i might delete some tags later. too many #apologies i have been on a big code geass kick. i love lelouch #but since there’s like 3 people left that like code geass i feel kinda shy #i kinda wanna just dump any of my future code geass stuff in a separate sideblog tbh #but then idk if it matters that much? is this my everything art blog or most things art blog #anyways. it’s not art block these days just mental ones :/ trying to get over the less-than-kind things i’ve been telling myself #whatever. please enjoy the sketches until i have better to offer

[miralyk]

one out of many impulsive thoughts i've had when trying to draw desmond lmao

#assassin's creed #desmond miles #doodles #sorry for no art even this spring break i'm still o|-< from animation industry news and working on art club stuff #so have an old doodle (which is kind of obvs telling this was Before i started trying subtly detailing lips for myself + desmond) #but yeah idk enjoy me being cringe on main w goofy doodles like these LMAO #protocreed #(given the edit cameoing alex under the cut)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At the start of this project all I wanted was to 'learn how to draw' using comics as a medium and the MDZS audio drama as inspiration.

I've come *very* far from making simple, 3 panel black and white comics, and I truly do intend to go even further. Thank you to everyone who cheered me on throughout 2023, it has been an incredible year in so many ways I never could have imagined. I look forwards to drawing throughout 2024 B*)

#poorly drawn mdzs #art summary #It's so interesting looking back at how my style and technique changed throughout the year! #I used PD-wwx as the consistent factor (October is an exception) and you can see so many processes going on. #My little petri dish amoeba (with a little red bow to tell him apart from the other amoeba) <3 #Whether it's getting new markers or trying out a new shading style - it's cool seeing a snapshot of my journey like this B*) #There's certainly been a slower curve to my overt improvement *but* I have become so much faster! #My life outside of drawing has been hectic and at several points extremely stressful this year. For all the work this blog has been- #-It has truly been a life saving anchor when the darkest of times have hit. #Love is hard work. Change is even harder work. Sticking to a goal I set out for myself and striving to keep going was worth it. #And I love drawing. I think there has always been something in me that longed for this. And it is finally tangible! I can draw!!! #I wanted to make a more elaborate year reflection where I looked back at my favourite comics and jokes. #but I'll leave that to the one year anniversary. #I have also been collecting a ton of statistics throughout the year and I am desperate to share them. I'm that kind of nerd B*) #I can never say it enough: Thank you all for the kindness and support. I wish everyone a lovely 2024!!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

snf sob... his favorite regular... wailing in the club rn

#ive never drawn a sheet before. much less a sheet covered caterpillar! it shows! #MANNNN THESE TWO AUGH #thank you halloween record for the crumbs. im sated <3 #the fact that he Barged past sally gave me the image of him lightly tackling barnaby #bro had to pick up some Speed his legs were Goin #at some point i may clean up the og base sketch and make a non-halloween-costume version #because! your honor! i love them! #scribble garnish #laughingstock #barnaby x howdy #howdy x barnaby #welcome home #i was gonna try to make it more ~ambiguous~ and non shippy and then my hand slipped and they're both blushing now oops #i tell myself 'be normal about them' and i Fail Miserably

[ao3-crack]

(x)

#archive of our own #ao3 quotes #ao3 stuff #archive of our own quotes #fanfic #fanfic quotes #funny #ao3 #ao3 notes #me literally nineteen hours ago: #yeah sorry to disssapoint but I just don’t see myself ever writing teen wolf fic #me now: #*insert clown music here* #me writing any fic #I try to tell myself I have too many wips #but noooo #I have to start another one

[ask-the-rag-dolly]

For Mod Bee : We'd actually like to see these doodles of yours! (Mainly cause i'm desperate for more content) but it's alr if you don't wanna! Just a suggestion

// i suppose i can put out some of them ! okay my children here's your dinner ^^ //

#[ ooc ] #[ doodles ] #horror tw #tw horror #tw body horror #// just in case ! #the last doodle was inspired by anons that lean into being an actual Virus by calling ragatha a 'host' and trying to infect pomni #and i want to tell them that i get angry at myself everyday that i can't manage to fit them in a post it's a good and terrifying concept // #[ THE INFLUENCER ] #i should've kept my mouth shut

[sergle]

I think I'm going to make a temperature blanket this year

#generally people would plan for this earlier. but. I only JUST thought of it last night #I'm considering like a mood blanket / mental health blanket or whatev instead. one of those alternate concepts #but I FEEL LIKE categorizing my mood / mental health day by day would do something to me #and I don't really want to tell on myself that hard. showing off the finished blanket and ppl going oohh... there's a lot of this color! #what mood are these two colors for! #and i'm gonna have to crumple up my color key chart and eat it before they can find out #idk maybe I'll still try that way. but temperature just feels more like. yeaahahhhhh go with the flow buddy #I bought a ton of yarn recently bc there was a black friday sale and I was grabbin skeins for $2 so I shouldn't really need to do shopping #maybe pick up another color or two. but I can probably just bust out my own stash I already have #sergle.txt #crochetposting

[exhuastedpigeon]

Just thinking about how 9-1-1 is a network television show and Evan Buckley is a stereotypical hot, macho man. How this show isn't niche or 'gay'. How people from all walks of life watch this show. Millions of people watch this show.

Someone out there watched tonight's episode and realized they've felt that way before. They realized they aren't alone.

Someone out there watched that episode and gained a better understanding of how people can figure out their sexuality later in life.

Someone out there watched tonight and saw that there isn't one way to be queer.

Someone's parents watched that episode tonight and realized that just because their kid isn't stereotypically gay or bi or queer, that doesn't make their sexuality less valid.

Someone watched this episode and realized that just because their friend/sibling/cousin/etc has only dated the opposite gender before, that doesn't mean they can't be bisexual

This episode matters so much. It matters so much.

#911 #911 spoilers #i'm crying okay #i wish this episode had existed when I was 18 #and hated myself because i didnt understand why i was so jealous and selfish with my best friends time #i wish it existed when i was 23 and trying to tell my mom that no i'm not 'softening the blow for when I tell her im a lesbian' i'm BISEXUA #bisexual #lgbtq #queer