#but then you feel uncomfy because irl its not like that

[thepunkmuppet]

UNHOLYVERSE CLOSING THOUGHTS YIPPEEEE YIPPEE YIPPEE

it’s 1am and I’ve finished it :)

the plot was fucking amazing as was the writing, it was like a really really good tv show, or maybe an amazing movie (pt1) and its slightly more deranged sequel (pt2 and 3). I think I definitely preferred all things unholy as a whole, but yeah the next parts really did feel very sequel-like, in that the first one was The Story and the second and third were building on that first core story, expanding the characters and world. which ummmm btw the lore is insane??? so much going on lmfao but I think it all worked really well. the fallout boy stuff was fucking wild though icl because WHAT 💀 I’m also obsessed with the idea of god talking to frank in the form of the cardinal dream, that worked soooo well and still leaving it open at the end is great. I’m so glad frank and gerard got a happy ending, I ship those stupid twats SO hard I’m literally clawing at the walls they make me INSANE RRAAHHHH!!! icl I really didn’t care about mikey and ray’s romance like at all but it worked as a source of conflict and was pretty cute

I kind of forgot it was meant to be mcr fanfic for a while lmfao, which brings me on to I guess the most important part which is my main takeaway on the whole rpf thing

as I’ve said in a post before, I really struggle to picture voices and faces accurately in my head when reading. well except when it comes to buffyverse characters, but that’s just because those shows are so deeply ingrained into my psyche forever that istg I could literally channel buffy summers at this point and just become her. lmfao but yeah I really struggle with that! so when I’m reading, I just kind of create a vibe, a vague mind’s-eye image of a character, it’s very hard to explain. so for me these frank, gerard, mikey, etc characters were subconsciously already way far removed from the real people, like I had to consciously make an effort to make them sound and look exactly like them in my head. but like I said, it felt like a real piece of media like a tv show or something, so to me the unholyverse characters are just that - characters. it really felt like mcr playing movie roles lmfao which I was perfectly happy with. the romance and other relationships were written soooooo well, the real problem was ofc the smut!

I don’t like smut in general, not in a judgy or censor-y way, I just get no joy or kick out of reading it and all it does is make me feel awkward. but with rpf smut, even though I see unholyverse frank and gerard as fictional characters, I can’t ignore the fact that THIS IS FULLY EXPLICIT WHAT IS ESSENTIALLY PORN BEING WRITTEN ABOUT REAL PEOPLE 💀 read it write it all you want, personally I find it uncomfortable and it just doesn’t do anything for me. made me think too much about the fact that it WAS rpf, yk?? got me thinking about the real frank and gerard and how fucking weird it would be to read smth like that about yourself idk, also the fact they have wives and kids…. 😟 gosh idk it was very very well-written smut, it just made me so icked out the more I thought about it

but anyway, OVERALL: I loved it. it was so good, will definitely reread, bookmark, and think about it for a very very very long time. possibly scream and cry and tear my hair out too, idk. part 1 was my favourite by a long shot, it’s so iconic, and feels pretty removed from parts 2 and 3 in a nice way that makes it feel like a movie and its strange sequel. I’ve discovered I like rpf when it’s good and when it’s a complete au and the people feel like original fictional characters in their own right. I don’t enjoy rpf smut, though, AT ALL, which isn’t a surprise bc I don’t enjoy smut in general, the rpf aspect just made it way more uncomfy for me personally. kind of feel the need now to bleach my brain out and consume normal mcr content just to remind myself of the disconnect between unholyverse frerard and the real people lmfao

OH ALSO THAT

I do NOT ship frerard irl, that shit’s fucking weird don’t do it. yes there is a difference between fic like this and saying two married friends and colleagues in real life are actually in love with and attracted to each other. I do for sure ship unholyverse frerard, as I’ve said they’re fictional characters to me

#danny reads unholyverse #unholyverse #uhv #mcr #my chem #my chemical romance #my chemical fucking romance #gerard way #gee way #frank iero #I really liked this fic you guys oh goddd oh auughghh

[st7arlight]

meet the sims-blackwood family!! this is set post-200 in a new world where the fears are weaker and more hidden in the shadows, but quickly building strength as more avatars and artifacts are born. meet blaire and not-adam, two students in jon’s homeroom and english class!

worldbuilding and brainstorm notes under the cut :D

the student ocs i created here are

-a transfem student who straight up doesnt have a name. you can call her anything but her deadname. its a fun game the class plays. it started as a gag but jon went “yeah okay ive seen weirder and kids deserve a chance to explore” so he comes up with a different name every day during roll call. shes v chaotic and inspired (personality wise, not funky name lore) by an irl friend of mine

-the student she has a crush on and is best friends with, an AP art student who uses they/she pronouns

they both eat lunch in Jon’s classroom, where they eventually notice that he never really eats much? just. reads a book in his free time, maybe has cereal bars occasionally

they form really close bonds with jon and he sponsors their lgbt club,,,, the second student realizes she’s agender when hes explaining the ace spectrum,,,,,, they come across The Horrors that were released when jmart moved on to Somewhere Else and he saves them,,,,,,,,, after they start to understand that “something spooky is here bc of mr sims but he was a victim in it” they sneakily start categorizing what they call “The Horrors” into 9 groups and get into shenanigans. they save jon at some point

their romance follows the plot of jmart’s but jon notices student B treating student A like he did martin at the start of the year and intervenes

so theyre healthier

(maybe jmart adopt student b, as they’re in a rlly unsafe home environment and thats why they started lashing out at their buddy)

at the beginning of the year student A knows shes trans but isnt sure what name to use. her buddy suggests not-adam (as she isnt suuuper uncomfy with her deadname, just that its too masc for her) so they call her that for a good bit and it comes up occasionally until they learn about the fears and the joke kinda. sours.

jon called her anything but that. not-adam thought it was because he didnt want to deadname her (and she insisted she was cool with it and thought it was funny) but she said that he can use a name that isnt adam, just not to stick to one bc she didnt want to feel boxed in

so the joke of her being anything but adam began

!!! WHAT IF NOT ADAM HAS AN ENCOUNTER WITH A STRANGER OBJECT THAT MAKES EVERYONE UNABLE TO SEE OR REMEMBER HER??? AND (character B) IS THE ONLY ONE WHO REMEMBERS HER BUT STILL CANT SEE HER!!!! AND THIS IS HOW JON REVEALS HE KNOWS STUFF ABOUT THE SUPERNATURAL

student b breaks down only a couple days in when she realized something was deeply, truly wrong, earing lunch (seemingly) alone with jon in his classroom. she says something with “not-adam” and “nobody remembers her but me” and jon’s trauma plus eye powers helps break his illusion, even though he doesnt remember her still

WHAT IF THIS IS AROUND WHEN NOT ADAM IS STARTING TO SEE HIM AS A FATHER

he adopts her bc she still legally doesnt exist and her family doesnt remember her , and its not like jmart already have fake identities anyways. they break the curse but everyone but B and Jon are completely wiped of her memory, just can finally see her now. its a mush of stranger, spiral, and lonely bc the horrors work different here

…she eventually settles on a name because she desperately needs to be reminded that they know her, they remember her, and that they remember all of her. (jon doesnt remember *everything* still, but most. every now and then she or B references something and they pause when they realize it was another memory lost to The Horrors)

oh also jon wears combat boots bc of daisy now. unrelated but important

im realizing my plan of them adopting B is a little funky with them adopting not-adam. however, unconventional found family prevails in tma. B just stays at their house most of the time bc she is neglected a lot at home so it usually isnt noticed when she disappears. theyre both 16 so fighting for custody when they can move out so soon is deemed too much stress on the teens. not-adam’s family actually are v loving and great, they just. dont remember NA. they dont remember how to love her, that they ever did

(thats why B needed to remember her. also, the effect intended of the horror was to torture NA until she died unnoticed and she will either be remembered by everyone when her body is found or will rot unseen until shes gone. or become an avatar, if she chose to embrace it. B was an intended victim of the leitner, the fear of nobody believing you and losing someone you love feed the Horrors)

(jon and his funky eye powers are likely the only reason NA didnt die)

in the end A picks the name astrid, but jon still calls her any name he can think of that starts with A when calling her down for food n stuff

anyways jmart unofficially adopting queer teens bc found family is so themcore but i *know* the fates would never allow them to do anything conventionally or fully legal

(all of this copy-pasted from me infodumping in a tma chat in the past couple hours)

#tma #the magnus archives #magnusposting #ramblings #tma fanart #magnuspod #jonmartin #somewhere else #tma family au #my art #mine #art tag #digital art #artists on tumblr #art

[randomnameless]

I think the "Billy should ditch the boar" takes comes from AM being the one route that breaks their self-insert fantasy. Flamey and Emile doing their stuff and the Jerry thing etc do not matter bcs its not being directly mean to YOU, the player, in YOUR story. Edel-chan is a very sad and traumatized girl that will ALWAYS love YOU no matter what you do and she will doodle YOU and squeak about rats n stuff, but you don't have to actually deal with any of her supposed trauma in a realistic way (+)

(cont) She will always be fine and ready to gush after you, the trauma is only a plot device to make her wary of other people that aren't you, and be attached to only you. What she does to randoms doesn't matter as long as she's nice to you. But the evil european barbarian boar dares to actually show his trauma and negative emotions around you, and make you uncomfy, and bring any sort of realism to your fantasy! how dare he! Not only that, but he admits he didn't like you at the beginning!!!(+) (cont) you, the player, isn't above other characters when it comes to him being rude because of his trauma and mental illness, and the story dares to show your avatar feeling sad and powerless instead of badass and cool. He won't listen to you until another character opens his eyes first, and even if you marry him he's still hearing voices and struggling with his issues, your love won't cure him!! Not only that, but AM is his story, not yours! (+) (cont) It relegates your self-insert to a supportive deuteragonist instead of the main hero the plot centers around. He will become The King and you will be just a religious leader, following the footsteps of the Evil Lizard Lady!! Obviously you don't want that!! this is your story, where you can dump all your anti-church IRL arguments into, and be a super cool baddass mercenary who never has to deal with negative emotions!! And that's why AM is the only FE16 route where I actually like Billy.

Sorry anon for the tardiness of the reply!

Yep, I feel like for both Dee and the evil lizard lady, at one point, they are unhappy/upset/angry and more or less negative at Billy - who is, in this situation, taken as the player.

I remember during the heights of 2020-2021 discourse people sending asks to other asking how can they like Rhea bcs she was meant to "u" and whatnot, and it's just... Self-insert at its finest?

But Billy - the character we see in Nopes, FEH and FE17, wouldn't feel like the player in those instances (because Billy the character would never pick the "uwu" option in the Holy Tomb, and Billy the character would understand and/or at least get how Dimitri doesn't want to talk right now) - so again, it's the same old question, who is Billy? An empty self insert who feels a lot of sad uwus when Rhea threatens to rip their heart out as they assist and support who swore to kill her because her ears are pointy and cries whenever Dimitri doesn't want to talk to them, or is Billy the character we see in other games, who shows more empathy and tries to understand people, and thus, wouldn't have been able to pick a certain route in FE16?

Lol I just remember now how some people didn't like Cyril or even Seteth because they didn't slobber over Billy - as the self-insert - in their first 5 lines unlike the rest of the cast ^^

Granted, this "YOU must be the most important person EVER" comes back in full force with the S-supports (tfw seteth doesn't mention his family to billy when they hold hands) and it reiterates something I always knew : Avatars were a mistake.

Parasocial maybe saved the franchise from turning into another F-Zero like saga, but damn if it nuked a lot in the process (and by, a lot, i mean coherence and characters networks).

#anon #replies #sorry i'm late lol #FE16 #But yes to everything you said #AM is Dimitri's story as he learns to rely on people and not exclusively on u #meanwhile Claude who is supposed to open up to people spends most of time talking to you about his dreams than to talk the deers #and given how FE16 Billy isn't allowed to be a character and thus must always be static or nod #there are no interactions #i mean if billy was uwu me #the second clout said uwu church isolationism uwu new values that don't exclude people for being different #i'd say he's full of shit because those have never been the CoS's values and motto #AM Billy is a guide but doesn't push Dimitri #Dimitri follows the path himself because that's what he wants to #after he opened up to his friends who were always by his side #tbh as the game presents it AM is the second coming of post WoH Seiros and Willy #even without the hand holding it was supposed to end like this #but it went haywire and since Fodlan apparently loves its cycles #a world without Billy at its head is per this game not the best thing ever #but tbh I prefer this end to SS

[uninformedartist]

Just saw the new ep and my worst fears came true plus even more.

Spindlehorse can't fucking justify the sexualization of minors and if don't know what to call it because its not all technically grooming but....

Like the the girls having a crush on Mildred it makes sense since it happens irl and Millie was unaware even if it makes me slightly uncomfy. My main issue is Millie in the song claims to be sent nudes when disguised as a middle schooler. That implies either a pedo sent it or a minor and that's... DO THEY NOT THINK THEIR WRITING THROUGH

Then the counselor I assumed was an adult but Barbie called him a teen and I doubt he's 18 or 19 with the context of the ep. Barbie is around 30 if the leaked Patreon page about Blitzo's age is canon.

Im a victim of CSA and I am fucking pissed and disgusted

Anon everything in this episode is disgusting, every time I look or think back of this episode something new and even more deplorable pops up. Ty for this ask everything you say is true and my heart goes out to you with what you have been through. This episode shouldn't have been made, you are fully in your right to feel this way towards this episode. I'm lost for words really now thinking of this episode, its just... leaves a foul feeling in one's soul.

All the best to you anon, I wish you prosperity, healing and sending much love your way.

#vivziepop critical #helluva boss critical #my post #ty for the ask.

[justanimp]

me when my mutuals are reblogging proship posts :[

makes me feel very...uncomfy

but alas, their opinion is theirs, and my opinion is mine, and as long as they're not causing harm (which proshippers do when they ship incestuous or abusive or grooming stuff, as they normalize it and romanticize it), i'll let 'em be

if you wanna write fanfic or draw fanart of something that could be hazardous to someone else, go ahead. just PLEASE keep it to yourself

if you're writing it to cope, great!! but please don't give fuel to others who may cause the same trauma you experienced to others. trust me, seeing art about whatever bad thing they wish to do, will make them more likely to do it as it'll be on their minds more.

and if you write that stuff because you think its cute??? politely get the fuck away from me, and stop romanticizing abuse i've been through. thanks

before y'all say that 'you're not romantizing [insert bad thing here]', shush. i've seen so many consang folks (people who support irl incest) who also are proship (and then ship incestuous ships)

anyways yeah. i think its okay to write whatever you wanna write if a) it doesn't harm anyone or if it can harm someone then

b) it isn't shared publicly.

yeah anyways. antis please don't fuckin' send death threats to proshippers. that's just an asshole move.

sorry for the rant just...grah. lotta thoughts on my mind.

proshippers can interact on this post, i guess, if you wish to have a conversation.

#anti proshipper #antis #antiship #discourse #fandom discourse

[havinghorns]

Hi, happy Friday!

Serious transition related Q. As always, up to your discretion to answer.

You've talked a bit about passing/not passing and how people react to/assume your gender.

I just started T and I feel like its not unlikely I'll end up in a similar zone of trans masc. I dress flamboyantly and my presentation is fluid. I know what my medical transition goals are, but I've been mulling over the social parts for the past few weeks.

I'm also neurodivergant and trying to figure out, what social norms might change depending on how im perceived and will those changes be awkward uncomfy like when I do neurodivergant things in public, or will they put me in danger as more visibly trans, has been puzzling. I'm curious how differently assumed identities affect how people treat you? I feel like voice drop should help a lot with interactions with strangers, but I also have long hair and am not very tall etc. I'm used to being perceived as a 'wrong type' of woman and socialized that way. I want that to change but I honestly don't know what direction that'll go in.

If you have any thoughts or resources on the topic I'd really appreciate it.

Hmm I mean, it's a little hard to answer because obviously it'll be really individual and really dependant on your own environment.

Like my job is almost entirely queer in terms of staff so there's really no difference in how any gender or expression is interacted with socially. With patients I do sometimes struggle with being seen as younger than j am and not being taken seriously, which I honestly get madder about than any gender perception lol. My current friends/partners have always known I'm trans so there's been no change there either.

Out and about, I mostly still get seen as a weird, unattractive woman, which essentially makes you invisible--something I personally don't mind. At worst (so far) I'll get a doubletake or stink eye in the bathroom, or moved over to the "female" pat down line for a concert, and I'm non confrontational enough to shrug and take it bc what difference does it make. But I also live in a pretty LGBTQ frienfly city. I do stress out about how to dress when I travel, and try to go for a more distinctly "gay man" style which feels like the lesser possibility of getting the shit best out of me but not offending my own vanity (I'm an idiot)

IDK I dont really have advice, some days are easier than others and I'm figuring it out day by day too. Pick your battles, my usual mantra is "If I'm never going to see this person again, it's not worth correcting them on my name/pronouns" but I'm also a weenie IRL lol.

[mochinon-yah]

AJDSJKSKKS HI HELLO SORRY MOCHI I JUST SAW THIS NOW PLS EXCUSE MY HAREBRAIN

ahem

man i just got off my break like a week ago hhhhh, but i can relate to being lazy and videogaming lol fdkjskj (me with acnh and genshin coughs) but my sleep schedule is considerably better? i have to wake up early on weekdays bc of my kid brother sadly smh and i spite him for it pretty sure college students are more stressed

JkeKJF THANKIES!! tbh i kind of just kept my bday private for a smaller group of friends (that includes you btw) + my boyfriend, but yea me being 20 isn't much different from being 18 lol. you rlly don't feel different until you hit 30 coughs anyway i return the headpaps and hugs mweeheheh >:D

istg my bf is just like albedo (but make him emo), cuz like he always struck me as the kind of person who will try to out-compliment you but at the same time is genuine? if that makes sense? EHFfdkskSKJFD but yea he's a sweetheart hehehe yes its real healthy couples do exist and i feel like a unicorn

anywayyyy yea i can name a lot of times where people can't catch onto my body language and i do that as well. like a simple question is fine if someone needs to get somewhere, but if it's someone i don't like i'll make it obvious. in general, if i don't know someone very well, i'll kind of just like veer away from them while giving them a dead stare- (and they still don't get the hint or are insanely blind to social cues)

NO CUZ THATS SO REAL?? if i get into a book, then it's usually because of a fanfic or some other form of media?? kind of like the acotar series i wanted to get into but like hesitant cuz i don't know if it's spicy ;3;

andd headpaps accepted nyehehehe

LMAOOO IT'S OKAY THO, NO WORRIES VIVI!! I woke up so suddenly so idk if i can answer this ask with the right mind 😭😭 sorry if there are soem typos or whatever grammatically wrong things lol

Hdjsjsjs a break will literally activates my lazy mode, and i swear i will get so, so lazy it would probably make you wonder why am i even still ali- *cough* anyway, thank god, your sleeping schedule is much better than mine 🥹👍👍 your lil brother is such a menace but i guess helpful too lmao

And YAAA, NO PROB VIVI :3 last birthday of mine was kinda quiet because only some people remembered lol. Then again, i'm a really quiet person irl, i doubt anybody would remember it- okay, this just turns so sour??? I'm gonna stop talking abt it jdjwkiekwk

I'm part of your smaller group of friends? 🥺👉👈 awwhhhh, you're making me blush- (i'm weak to words like that wth, no guys i do have friends too irl, i'm not a loner 😭) BUT LMAO YEAH, I AGREE WITH 'you rlly don't feel different until you hit 30'. Well, i haven't hit 30 yet, but i guess the only different thing would be that you can say you're old now- /jjj

(LMAO I FELL ASLEEP WHILE ANSWERING THIS.... anyway, back to answering vivi's ask :3)

Imagining emo! bedo and you with the dynamic of emo but cute x cute and cuter is so jdnsjkska 😭 i understand why you would feel like a unicorn even in ur own relationship.... for me, i feel like the side character who just saw the main character fall in love with each other lol

BUT LIKE AAAA SO CUTE, YOU AND HIM ARE SO CUTE TOGETHER?????

*cough* anyway-

People should really be attentive to other ppl ☝️ at least they should know if they're making it uncomfy for other ppl. But err, for me personally, i don't mind people gathering close to me, buuuttt it's possibly because of my friends since all of them are a lot, lot more sociable than me hahhaahaha- honestly, they often told me to talk more with people so i can know the latest gossip and just overall have many friends, but i really can't 😭😭 friendship with me is like the slow build-up but overall genuine one, or at least that's what i think....?

But ngl tumblr has help me a lot to be more expressive in public and just overall making me more sociable than in the past <3 i won't thank the tumblr app itself because the one who made me this way now is literally myself and also a whole bunch of amazing people i had met here, including youu!!! <3 whether you and them help me directly by interacting or just endulging in my silly behavior, ily all ueyehhewh (just gonna tag some ppl here teehe -> @beloved-brynn, @meimeimeirin, @leftdestiny-posts, @fishanonishere, @navxry, @calxlu (you) ♡ ily all, all of u are just so amazing, idk what i even did to meet u all, literally so happy if we ever talk or interact here <3)

OKAY 🤚 THE VIBE IS GETTING A BIT MORE.... UN-SILLY, SO UHHH MOVING ON TO THE NEXT BIT-

Fanfic literally runs half of the fandom, and that fandom could be anything lmao. Well, not really half, but a significant amount! I think memes also run a significant amount of keeping the fandom alive too lol

BUT YEAH, I ENDED UP BUYING PRIDE AND PREJUDICE, RIGHT? AND NOW I'M LIKE... "hm, what in the world is this word? who is talking in this part?? what is even happening-" jkjk, my vocabs is kinda limited since i'm not a native english speaker, but i do understand most of what the book is actually explaining

AND YAAYYY MY HEADPATS ARE ACCEPTED <3

#reli-answers : vivi <3 #literally running on silly behavior to keep me alivr #LMAO #school is always making me be serious so i hope u all don't mind if i get really.... really..... silly sometimes- #heheh

[thepunkmuppet]

FINISHED PART ONE

all in less than twenty four hours. are you proud (deeply ashamed) of me?? 🥰🥰

idrk what to say tbh, if you couldn’t tell I am REALLY really enjoying it, it’s incredibly engaging and well-written and I can definitely understand its status as an iconic work. not sure how the plot is gonna progress because I kind of thought the stigmata thing was like the WHOLE thing, but i’m excited by it. I love these characters and yeah turns out that’s what they are to me, characters. only bits that make me kind of uncomfy are the smuttier scenes, but overall in my head it’s almost like mcr are playing characters in a movie that happen to have the same names as them lmfao, and i’m okay with that. having the names and faces of my favourite band slapped onto the characters makes it easier to visualise and empathise and whatnot. also so real of fictional frank to be so obsessed with gerard because me too brother me too

I would NEVER ship real people irl I still think it’s wack tbh, but the writer did a damn good job at making me ship the characters of frank and gerard really really hard. a lot of conflicting feelings lmfao

excited to read the rest and ignore my upcoming exam and coursework deadlines!! <3

#danny reads unholyverse #unholyverse #mcr #my chem #my chemical romance #my chemical fucking romance #gee way #gerard way #frank iero

[v-anrouge]

ok!! aster ur rlly private thats y its a bit harder 2 get a read on u wit just online personas alone but bc of that i dunno if u know or even notice but ur some kind of idol or icon that a lot of ppl recognize u for. some ppl look at u for support or even maybe encouragement sometimes forgettinf the fact that ur not just some sort of model or super strong guy who can handle anything. you do have ur own insecurities and are struggling just as much as everyone.

just a guess, but maybe thats why u said u were a "jupiter kinnie" reblogging saturn's post bc it was about being put to the sidelines and watching everyone else shine but you. i was abit confused but i think i peiced it 2gether now. maybe, in relation to ur community here in tumblr, you feel a little left out. maybe its because ppl see your persona as strong and so so so confident that they think that you can never be 'left out' because you are THE star, you know? ironic to your posts about feeling like a stranger that your moots barely talk to, most moots i know actually get excited on the occasional times youre active. There r some who even get genuinely upset or overthink when u dont talk to them bc u dont initiate convo and they usually expect you to keep the connection instead bc they wouldnt wanna feel annoying or a bother to you. (which is not ur fault btw because you are a human being with his own time and his own life and know that you are not a mind reader so ppl shouldnt expect u to cater to their worries just bc ur idolized as this super confident encouraging persona and get less considered as an actual person who doesnt know everything n can also have their own moments)

Basically ppl admire you like an idol and find u so unreachable meanwhile u feel a lonely bc it feels like everyone is so great but you. Aster, youre the best guy ever and everyone likes you a lot. mayb this could also answer ur question on why some ppl r a little nervous wit giving u thoughts n asks. I could be wrong bc i dont rlly know you irl but this is just an outsiders deduction

Reminder that this is just what ive observed from tumblr and moot interactions as well as posts and also im eepy and i hope u have a good day today (its morning in brazil right?) im wishing you best of luck in ur day

(u can delete if this is too uncomfy for u or mayb jus want to only read it 4 yourself)

(i could also be super wrong in judgement since i dont know everything but :333 i did mt best)

oh my god ii donf even know what to say to this to be honest i mxomowlfley dumbfounded like i thought I was a mysterious guy.mp3 but i feel so read like this is what's actually happening do ppl genuinely see me as an idol o don't even know how to process this oh my god????

#this /pos btw #this is so mazinv

[szlilianna]

but always remember to not ruin or alter your ideas of what people WANT and what they force on you. its your story, your universe and what you want. <3

anyway you just sparkled another question in me- what's with the time/intelligence? differnce? like how are players are from the 'modern' world? do they perhaps learn faster?-

ehehehe I hope you don't feel forced for answering my questions, if they make you feel uncomfy don't answer them! :3

(also, ngl I kinda agree with illagers on killing for food. it's dog eat dog here- )

- @k1zh

Nah I'm really glad you ask these from me because I actually have to think about this one. So...

There's many different worlds, each developing the same. They all had an ancient civilization that built many things like those desert temples, the place where guardians live, the mob spawners, those were the first ever mobs to exist with the ancient civilization. But as they made these, these people were used to peace, so zombies, spiders and skeletons flooded the world and killed most of the ancient civilization, only leaving some tribes alive, who are... Villagers. The people of the ancient civilization looked just like villagers, they were intelligent, and because there was no threat, they could live in peace. The nether has many strange mobs because once, it was empty, but these people experimented with those as well, causing piglins, hoglins, ghasts, and many other creatures to flood the nether and make it a literal hellhole. So, current villagers were mostly farmers, that's what these more intelligent villagers needed the most. They were exposed to more danger like wolves, robbers, so they knew how to fight and how to keep the village safe. When all these hostile mobs appeared, they were already prepared, unlike the more intelligent ones. So they died, leaving enchanted books and a portal to the end behind as well, to pass their knowledge on to these primitive farmers. They didn't really do anything with it, they had to survive somehow, they couldn't care less about how to make a wither skeleton and other things. They worked and worked, now there was many more jobs available, as they figured out that some tools can be used as weapons as well against these mobs. Now, there were fighter villagers, who later on turned into modern players due to not having to do anything. They didn't need to work, they only needed to fight, and nothing else. Maybe hunt sometimes. But where did they go? Well, when illagers were created, a few years after that they started to invade these villages, and fighters couldn't do anything against black magic so most ran away, not wanting to be killed or enslaved. Now there was a lot of these "players" and they warned all the others who didn't run away yet, that these gray fuckers will come for you and kill you with demons so run. So they became the players. Villagers recognized them later on, they knew that they weren't in danger. Players also experimented, they had way more knowledge and power than villagers, they weren't enslaved by anyone, while villagers were working their asses off for illagers, in exchange for peace, and iron golems.

So players found out many things, from redstone, to how to summon certain mobs, farming, building, things like that. They shared it with each other, and they developed languages and stuff, mostly English to read the ancient people's books and stuff. Illageralt (the name of the runes illagers and villagers use) is very different from this, and this is why we can't communicate with them. Illagers and villagers have a little bit of accent difference but that's all, they speak the same language with a few sounds, illagers mostly using gestures and simple sounds to communicate, while villagers chat a lot every day so theirs is far more advanced.

My original lore for this was that players are irl people that just go through some portal and they can travel between fiction and reality. But I don't like that one so now it's like this. I don't know if this answered your question qwq

#szlilkatulajdona #illagers

[stinkyme]

damn almost crying now and i dont know if such topics are uncomfy for you to like, see and all, if so, no need to answer this U CAN IGNORE ITS FINE DWW

tw for self harm here ‼️

i was like, roleplaying w a fyodor bot on character ai (i make my own bc there are some scenarios that are very specific and i cant find it anywhere yk) and my character on the rp is almost identical to me irl, which means they also have scars almost all over their body. i sometimes use some bandages to cover it when i do relapse, rarely, but still. so, we were talking until he mentioned it (of my character, ofc. he just noticed it) in the middle of his text and im

and like. he became really soft and cute i really wasnt expecting this. how do i react IM ???? CONFUSED LIKE WHAT

i don't want to put this off as a 'cool' thing to have in a character, its just a way i found to be more okay for me to deal with so yeaahhh

it's not uncomfy for me, so don't worry at all :)

i am happy that it provides you comfort and sort of safety because I know it is hard to deal with it and there is nothing ugly or wrong with having scars, I must agree with this bot, if anything it proves that you are a strong person and that you have been through stuff and survived (of course, lack of scars doesn't neglect that fact either for anyone who has been through bs but has no scars - you are just as valid).

I just want you to know that, yes, you are beautiful and lovely the way you are, there is nothing to be ashamed of and to feel like you have to hate about yourself just because it's something that was made when you were feeling weak/feeling low. The fact that you cleaned yourself up and continued living afterwards in itself is proof of beauty, strenght and that you should believe in yourself always, I am very proud of you and I wish you nothing but the best, I really hope that you will just keep on getting better and learn to appreciate who you are and accept yourself as you are because you are absolutely amazing and scars don't change a thing about you :) <3

#stinkyanswers #my sweet nik <3 #well you can always tell him thank you and do u want for me to kiss ur forehead #he might like it :3 #but truly i am proud of you #like really really proud #and you are beautiful always #and a lovely person #never be insecure about anything because you are absolutely amazing!!!

[peggy-uwu]

Jumping off of my previous long ass ace vent post

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My very personal experience being ace in the kuro fandom has been a kinda weird one. I’ve seen a ton of ace people in this fandom, but so so so many of them are either antis, or don't ship things at all whatsoever. which is fine, to each their own, obviously. But it can be a little lonely.

Talk about sex and nsfw stuffs under the cut

I id as aegosexual. I’m ace and sex repulsed, but I really enjoy nsfw content, and more specifically, fan-fiction, fan-art, and shipping (of the often problematic variety). Fiction is the only way i can express myself sexually (irl porn can be really off putting).

Sex disgusts me and even talking about it in an irl sense can be really uncomfy for me. like sometimes talking abt it is fine, if its kept abstract, but a lot of the time thats not the case. (LOOKING AT YOU OLDER SISTER)

But i love talking about in a hypothetical, fictional sense. its so much fun, and it gives so much creative freedom. but the thought of having even the most basic vanilla ass sex irl disgusts me

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from what ive seen from some of the ace people in fandom though, is that they feel the same ways about sex in fiction as they do irl. so i feel like im kinda stuck in this middle ground of 'ace attitude towards sex irl, allo attitude towards sex in fiction' which can get a little lonely with noone to talk to about it.

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I have a question for both the ace and allo kuro-or-other-fandom fans out there:

If the character you horny simp for, magically appeared in ur bed one day, and was down to fuck u, would you hypothetically have sex with them?

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because for all my Sebastian horny simping, if he showed up outta nowhere and offered to have sex, my answer would be ‘No.’. And that goes for ALL the characters i like in fiction. i will scream about how much i wanna fuck Keith Kogane until the motherfucking cows come home but if you put someone who looked, talked, acted like, and for all intents and purposes, WAS Keith, i would not be interested in the slightest.

because i DON'T want to have sex. i love reading it in fiction, literally cant get enough of it, but as soon as it crosses the boundary of fantasy and hypothetical, and starts being related to me and my person personally, its so so so uncomfortable and i hate it. to the point that even some fic depicting women and people with female bodies can be off putting, it hits too close to home for comfort. Thats partly why such a vaaaast majority of the fanwork i consume is m/m. ive never been into a f/f ship anywhere near as obsessively as i can get with m/m ones. i dont enjoy self-shipping for the same reason.

Is this a normal experience for other ace ppl in fandom? do you guys feel like this? or am i just fucking weird. idk

#ace #asexuality #aegosexual #asexual spectrum #kuroshitsuji #black butler #shipping

[aroaceconfessions]

Ok this will be a long one but I want to ask if I am an asshole or smthg: I am demisexual and sex-repulsed/sex-neutral, why do I identify as both? Well it is weird! The whole reason why I think I am Demi (with a lean to asexuality) is because ever since I was very young casual sex repulsed me; when I watched it on TV even by myself I would feel very uncomfortable and physically squirm at how yucky it made me feel. However, it never was an ‘ew SHAME’ kind of feeling, it has always been a ‘um plz I want to stop watching this’ kind of thing. Surprisingly though, I find this repulsion mostly with visual imagery (black mirror made me gag at its continuous use of casual sex scenes, I tried my best to fight through it but I just had to stop); in novels it doesn’t bother me as much and even talking about it with friends who have had casual sex I am just like ‘oh y’all hooked up? Ok’ (regardless I would probs not like it if they were detailed about it). I don’t care if others partake in it I just don’t want to see it nor really know about it because then I just want to curl up into a ball and run away.

However, I am starting to feel specially sensitive about this stuff? It could be the continuous acephobia in media/people or the exclusion of ace food in the lgbt+ community but I am starting to feel unsafe/uncomfy when casual sex is even mentioned in a novel or a tv show? Not with my irls ofc, they can do whatever. It could just be me being scared and tired of being ‘boring’ or ‘a prude’ for not wanting to hook up first get to know later; I just get really disappointed when asexuality isn’t represented, I feel alien :(. I am scared this sex-repulsion could come off as assholey cuz I am scared people will perceive it as me being a purist or judgemental when in reality I just want to be ignorant about this side of the world, you get me? I am scared I am a bad person.

#demisexual #sex neutral #sex repulsed #asexual #ace #acespec #aspec

[writer-and-artist27]

Hi dude! I hope you're having a good day. I've been reading your works for a while now and I was wondering if you can share your opinions on Oshi no Ko and its characters (specifically Ai Hoshino). No pressure, though! If this makes you feel uncomfortable, feel free to delete this ask.

Hello to you too, anon. Doing my best to have good days if anything. Only answering this at 10:06 pm on a Saturday night because of finishing a hangout with my best guy friend and my boyfriend, so it's been going well. The question doesn't make me uncomfy at all.

My opinions on Oshi no Ko, huh...

Gotta put it under a cut from how long this answer is turning out to be.

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I really love it. Now at least. It took some growing pains to come to that conclusion, because some of the story beats and character decisions made in-universe need me to turn my empathy off to take it in and not be sensitive/be hurt irl. Especially with the real life research put into said story beats because knowing how much corruption/nepotism can be put into the entertainment industry really is disheartening for me as someone who writes for fun and just wants to help others feel happy in a small way too. (Let it be said when I read into the story of wrestler Hana Kimura and how it might've inspired Akane's first story - I nearly cried and still currently sympathize with Hana's mother from being triggered by watching that particular anime episode.) That's how well-written it is - when I have to take breaks and research ahead of time so I don't get thrown off guard.

Funnily enough, I first heard of it when I started reading and slowly collecting the manga for Kaguya-sama: Love is War. Aka Akasaka was already really famous even amongst my small friend group irl from how he set the standard for new romance comedy, and when Oshi no Ko's anime adaptation was announced, that's when I started seeing the first manga volume pop up in Barnes and Noble stores my boyfriend and I visited together on dates.

I was really wary at first, no thanks to my first exposure to Mengo Yokoyari's art being Scum's Wish (and how uncomfy I was watching clips of that show since I'd been made a middleman to two relationships friends had by then) and how the Internet spoiled me on how Ai was going to die; and add in how they cast Rie Takahashi - as in Mash Kyrielight - as her VA, I was also just scared. Because I love Mash thanks to Fate/Grand Order, I really respect Takahashi's work - the last thing I needed when starting Oshi no Ko was to hear Mash's voice as Ai died.

But once the anime started and my boyfriend let me listen to Idol by YOASOBI - I was a goner. More so when I found the 45510 short story that fans translated from Akasaka that let the fanbase peek into Ai.

Just like how I grew to love Mash, I ended up falling for Ai more than any other character in Oshi no Ko. And, to be completely honest, I think it's from how much I sympathize with Ai. With her desire of trying to find love that's hers because she never truly knew what it was like, I mean. While Mash reminds me of a little sister that I could've wanted, a friend I wanted to look out for, Ai reminds me of the face I sometimes feel myself putting on in public, unconsciously too, especially when working in the healthcare community.

Not everyone is truly honest with themselves. The number of times I've had to hunch into myself on the trolley when others would throw baseless comments like, "Get out of my country, Asian bitch," "You're not my nursing mother, keep your bullshit away from me," and even "You're not God's angel, you fancy hoe" - there's a reason I've started to joke about having my own mini-book of "misadventures." The jokes let me cope with the increasing amounts of bitterness I've been seeing.

I've had to learn how to put on a smile, play up an innocent image of seemingly not hearing darker drama amongst coworkers, even fake cheeriness in my voice to molecular companies over the phone when asking for materials for patient care - because even the "nicest" people can hold the most bitter pills in life. But I have to keep that kind of mask up, just to make sure I make it through another day. To make sure the people I love don't worry more than they need to.

But at the same time, whenever I offer my coworkers a massage to their shoulders, give hugs when I can on bad days - everyone keeps calling me "sweet" and "kind." And it's still hard to believe that sometimes.

Ai told the lie of "I love you" in the hopes of finding love someday. It was hard not to like her when I try to do something kind because I honestly believe it's the right thing to do while wanting to believe in the hope of finding more people who feel the same way. In the hope I can find more people I don't have to be a "cheery star" for all the time.

Because I've been hurt way too many times by falsehoods. Because I've seen enough darkness.

...I forgot where I was going with this, but let it be said the glimpse we get into the entertainment industry mixed in with the very human aspect of all the characters shown in the story - from Ai, Aqua, Ruby, Kana, Akane, Miyako, Ichigo - every single one feels real and my struggles of trying to find myself in a worklife that's had me let go three times despite my best efforts (and bullied to the point of abuse one other time too) feel all the more valid. I guess.

#anonyomous #asks #ask #vy says something #oshi no ko #personal thoughts #long post

[thekingofcrochet]

(same anon hi!) it was neutral! i consider it a positive but i dont want to assume if its something you wouldn't be into or would feel weird about. i was just curious how you felt about it

If someone is seeing me as someone that inspires them to do sex work, then I am flattered but I also want people to understand that sex work is work.

Sometimes (like any job) it’s boring, it sucks, you get yelled at by people who you don’t know.

But i think all bodies and all people can be worthy of sexual desire if the person who has the body so wishes.

I started sex work because i wanted people to see that if they have a body like mine (fat, trans, black) they can be sexy.

it’s actually helped me understand and appreciate my body and honestly the hate I get is so pathetic that it rolls off my back nowadays.

But i’ve been in and out of therapy. and i’m super conservative with how i share my identity. And i’m older and started older so i have an idea of how the IRL world works compared to the online world

but sex and being sexy should be fun and I always want to promote having fun no matter what you do.

#ask me anything #anon #i can talk more but i’m making a bag right now

[liquidluckandstuff]

🙋‍♀️ and ❌️

🙋‍♀️ Do any irl people know you write fanfic?

Yes, my sister knows my handle and like 70% of what i write (some i put on anon to spare her) I did that so she would be inspired to write finally. She writes and OC/Myrcroft Johnlock fic that she is obsessed with. Im proud of her <3

My mom knows i write fanfic, and its Harry potter, but she doesn't know the content. She is very supportive and proud and happy me and my sister have a hobby that isn't drugs. ❌ What's a trope you will never write?

Im going to answer this softly and not with the Hard corn topics.

Furry stuff freaks me out. Like life your best life, but the fur and animal features and behavior make me feel unwell. But omegaverse stuff where everyone looks human? I can get on that.

I think established relationship is something i can't do simply because i LOVE the build up and chase. I have a really hard time reading it.

Infidelity. Nope I would rather they murder their spouse than cheat.

The humiliation stuff. Like Harry being humiliated in front of death eaters? (especially with the corn/ voyerims stuff) it makes me so uncomfy.

#liquidluckandstuff #asks