#crow x the young wolf

[kaz-identified]

houseofmcallister presents

Almost (Sweet Music)

Pairing: Crow x Young Wolf , slight/implied Uldren Sov x Young Wolf

Category: One-Shot

Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort

Rating: 13+

Warnings: No major warnings apply

Word Count: 926

Summary: I’m almost me again, he’s almost you…

name faolan and she/her pronouns used for young wolf, in accordance with old mcallister fics.

author's note: this fic hinges on my deeply held belief that the young wolf and uldren were friends. also hozier inspired so like yay pain.

I laugh like me again, she laughs like you.

Crow is quiet when she approaches. Her eyes are concerned. It's rare to see Faolan without her helmet. It's even rarer to see her look this... disheveled. Her eyes, normally so bright and full of light, eyes like a stormy sky, are downcast, dark. The only light in her eyes was the Void twinning around her pupil, granting her a second sight, Truesight, she calls it.

She falls down on the bench beside him. Her hair is a mess, dirt and gunsmoke smudge her face.The white X across her face, her beloved warpaint, has been rubbed off in places. She's really out of it. The Nightmares took a real toll on her, huh? Maybe now isn't the time to do this... maybe another ti-

"The nightmare- he's wrong, by the way. I don't blame you for what he did."

OK, so they're doing this now.

"I- didn't think he was right..." Crow says quietly. "Don't lie to me, birdbrain," she looks up at him. God, she looks so tired. There's a triumphant glint in her eyes but she looks exhausted. "You're bad at it. Uldren was too," she chuckles. He flinches the smallest bit, but stops himself from making any visible reaction. Uldren was her friend, she's speaking of him fondly right now... he doesn't want to interrupt that. Some other perspective of who he was, a perspective that isn't how he was a murderer.

"He was?" Crow questions, his tone the kind you use for a scared animal, trying not to scare off this chance for information. Faolan swipes at the bridge of her nose, wiping away some gunpowder. "Oh yeah. Big time. He could keep secrets so well but that pride of his made it so he couldn't lie well. You could always tell, he'd grit his teeth a little bit." She smiles at the memory. Crow smiles at her smiling. "What was I- he... like? Outside of... you know." Faolan sighs. "You don't wanna know about that, Crow. You have the memories. You know what he was like." Crow shakes his head. "I don't want to know how he perceived himself I... I wanna know what he was actually like." Faolan lets out another sigh, a deeper one, and looks up at him. "He was a bastard. There's no two ways around it. Uldren Sov was, pardon my language, he was a cunt. He was a smug motherfucker that thought he knew best and everyone else was a little stupid. He was kinda right about that... as far as it went with me."

"You? Stupid?" He asks, laughing a bit.

"I was a New Light! Greener then you. Real wet behind the ears. Uldren liked to make fun of me for that, but I learned a lot from him. When he wasn't being a piece of shit he was-" she cuts herself off, looking down.

"He was..?" Crow prompts. "He was my friend," Faolan says, quietly, almost... almost reverent. "I trusted him. I looked up to him a bit, I won't lie to you," she says with a half-laugh. Crow looks at her in shock. He had thought she would have hated him. "Hunting him was... the hardest thing I've ever had to do." She finally meets his gaze. She looks like she's on the brink of tears. "Losing Cayde was the worst day of my life. But having to kill my friend? I don't think I'll ever do anything worse than that..." she barely even whispers it.

Crow resists the urge to wipe her tears from her face, it hurts him to see her like this. She should never cry, it's like seeing the sun be blotted out, its horrifying. She should always be smiling and joyful, always be able to be grinning and cracking jokes. He hopes he never sees this again, hopes she never feels anything that makes her cry again, she deserves to be joyful forever.

"I don't... I don't blame him for what happened," she says, finally looking up, wiping away at her own tears. "He wasn't himself, Riven got her claws in him. My Uldren would've said something other than bullshit when I shot him," she says with a choked laughing sob. Crow feels his heart stop for a second. 'My Uldren'... he knows she means nothing by it, nothing besides to say the man she knew but... some part of him, some part of him that holds Uldren's memories feels something intense when she says that.

She looks down at her hands. "You remind me of him, how he was when we were in the field. When he wasn't being a jackass." She looks up at him and smiles so softly. "You aren't the same person, not at all but... you have his face and you have the heart he tried to pretend he didn't have. That means something." She rests her head against the wall, smiling at the ceiling. "It's nice to know that... you're not him but, the best parts of him are still here, in you. The parts I-" she cuts herself off, yawning. "The parts you...?" Crow asks. "The parts of him I respected." She answers. She smiles at him. "You're like... what he could've been." Crow smiles back. "You think so?" She rests her head against the wall again. "I know so. And I think you do too. Now can we be quiet for a bit? I am... so tired." "Of course, of course," he says, hushing himself. "Sleep well, Old Light." "Shut up, Birdbrain," she mumbles, but she's smiling.

i was listening to the torture dance song while formatting this there are now two songs associated with this fic and only one of them makes sense.

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[familiar-anonymous]

✨boom boom!✨

#wylan van eck #jesper fahey #wesper #six of crows #incorrect quotes #wylan hendriks #incorrect quote #jesper x wylan #shadow and bone #leigh bardugo #kit young #jack wolfe #gunpowder #gun & powder

[shortcake1233]

I can’t properly explain how much I NEED Kit to whisper the line “I can read to him” to Jan Van Eck in the spin-off.

#AND IF JACK DOES THE “HE HAS A VERY SOOTHING BARITONE #i will actually die #kit young my beloved #Jack Wolfe my beloved #kit young #jack wolfe #soc #six of crows #crooked kingdom #crooked kingdom spoilers #wylan x jesper #wylan van eck #wylan hendriks #jesper fahey #wesper

[guestofthisworld]

In conclusion, I've decided to stan.

#shadow and bone #wesper #jesper fahey #jesper x wylan #wylan van eck #six of crows #crooked kingdom #jack wolfe #kit young #leigh bargudo #shadow and bone netflix

[poetic-gays]

Two tickets to Barbie please

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[sprnklersplashes]

My favourite part of show!Wesper is how Jesper says to Wylan "I can't make you any promises" then cut to two episodes later and he's declaring his eternal love and devotion to him and then another two episodes later he gives him a key to his place.

"I can't make you any promises" Jesper bby you're already looking at rings and wondering where to send the kids to school

#shadow and bone #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #wesper #jesper x wylan #six of crows #kit young #jack wolfe

[emmedoesntdomath]

*jesper and wylan getting arrested*

officer, glaring at them both: anything you would like to confess?

jesper, glaring right back: nope

officer, nodding, writing on his pad: guilty

jesper, sputtering: but- what???

officer, ignoring him, turning to wylan: and you?

wylan, doing his best impression of a baby duckling: nope

officer, eyes narrowing:

wylan, blinking innocently:

officer, nodding again, writing on his notes: must have gotten lost

jesper, who knows that ALL successful parts of the plan were wylan’s and not his: oh come on-

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[yourartmatters-itswhatgotmehere]

yes♥

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[diangelosdays]

more wesper♡

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[shadowandbone]

Shadow and Bone’s Crows Answer Their Characters’ Most Searched Questions

#shadow and bone #shadowandboneedit #sabedit #socedit #helnikedit #danielle galligan #calahan skogman #jack wolfe #kit young #amita suman #freddy carter #cast #ours #by day #helnikdaily #socdaily #matthias x nina #the crows #dailynetflix #netflixedit #gifs

[mortal-maebh]

THE MATCHING COMMENTS IM SCREAMING

#grishaverse #grisha #shadow and bone #leigh bardugo #six of crows #crooked kingdom #shadow and bone netflix #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #wesper #wesper my beloved #jesper x wylan #wylan x jesper #soc wylan #soc jesper #jack wolfe #kit young #soc

[familiar-anonymous]

Jesper is happy to be Wylan's sugarbaby✨

#source: friends #text post #wylan van eck #jesper fahey #wesper #six of crows #incorrect quotes #wylan hendriks #jesper x wylan #shadow and bone #leigh bardugo #kit young #jack wolfe #incorrect quote #soc #jan van eck #gunpowder #gun & powder

[historicalfictionenthusiast]

When you’re finally kissing Wylan Van Eck for the first time (it’s not Wylan) and see Kuwei in the doorway (it’s not Kuwei).

#six of crows wylan #six of crows #wylan van eck #jesper fahey #wesper #crooked kingdom #wesper forever #soc #leigh bardugo #shadow and bone #shadow and bone netflix #jack wolfe #kit young #kaz brekker #kaz x inej #kanej #inej supremacy #inej gafha #matthias helvar #nina zenik #helnik #amita suman #freddy carter #kuwei yul bo #seige and storm #grisha netflix #grishaverse

[heartandflowerball]

Watching Wylan and Jesper cuddle in the background of all the scene is my favorite hobby.

#six of crows wylan #wylan van eck #wylan hendriks #wylan van sunshine #soc wylan #soc jesper #soc #six of crows jesper #six of crows #jesper fahey #jesper x wylan #wylan x jesper #wesper #jack wolfe #kit young

[nerdlingmerchling]

#im late to the hashtag party but here it is #wesper #ultimate otp #kit young #jack wolfe #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #wylan x jesper #six of crows #shadow and bone

[darjeelinh]

Jesper “guard against pain” vs Wylan “guard against joy”

Jesper’s jokester and confident façade was to protect himself from feeling pain, but inside he’s insecure and vulnerable. He hid his grisha nature because the only person who ever treasured it was taken away from him, and grew up being told that it was a curse. So instead he acts like he doesn’t need it. He acts like he takes all the losses and all the hurtful things in good stride but deep inside he’s feeling lost and guilty all the time. That boy is always bouncing on his feet with guilt all the time in the duology. Guilt for disappointing everyone: his father, Kaz, Inej, his mother, and himself. When he thought about Wylan at the end of SOC he thought Wylan wouldn’t want to hang out with criminals like him anymore once he got the money and that had stung more than he thought: it’s the boy inside him feeling abandoned again, the boy that does no good to anyone other than in a fight. And he cope with all that pain, that guilt, with his addiction and his gunslinging - which no one really paid any mind until Wylan saw through his façade.

Wylan, whose joy and hope was taken away from him by his father, was always made to feel less than, shared the same constant feeling of guilt for just being who he is. His father made sure of it, that he knows he’s not allowed to feel anything but anxious and guilt, and his joy was to be choked out of him (metaphorically and literally). Wylan in the show couldn’t even believe when Jesper told him he was smart, thinking it was just a trick to coddle him into some false sense of joy before it would be taken away again. Wylan in the books still holding on to the last shred of decency for his father until that moment at Saint Hilde, instead blaming himself for it, maybe because it would give him a false sense of control over his own pain. Until Jesper saw his own guilt mirrored in Wylan, and helped him to his feet.

Both Jesper and Wylan were able to keep some part of goodness in the face of everything that happened in their lives: Jesper with his good spirits, Wylan with his morals - standing up against Kaz again and again despite being threatened every time. In Jesper, Wylan learned to accept joy again, and that this won’t be taken away from him. And in Wylan, Jesper knew that he has a safe space where he can accept his pain and heal from it in a healthy way.

“You can love something despite seeing all of its flaws.”

Anyway, Wesper is each other’s safe haven.

#i love this part in the show they really understood wylan and jesper by showing each line with their face #does this make any sense im just rambling #anw welcome to my reread of soc and ck every time i pick one of the crows to hyper analyze #this time it’s jesper and wylan #wesper #wylan van eck #jesper fahey #wylan hendriks #six of crows #shadow and bone #shadow and bone season 2 #netflix shadow and bone #sab spoilers #crooked kingdom #sab #soc meta #kit young #jack wolfe #jesper x wylan #the lighting on this part is ATROCIOUS #soc spoilers #ck spoilers