#emotinal rollercoaster

[arnold-layne]

what i expected out of reading hemingway: boring

what i read: hemingway telling francis scott fitzgerald that his dick size is enough because fitzgerald's wife told him he couldn't satisfy a woman

#and i rather liked hemingway's stile #slow steady no emotinal rollercoaster. simple vocabulary. nice descriptions #the book is a moveable feast btw #arnold's diary

[ripartiredazero-blog]

È come stare sull'altalena, passo dallo stare male al sentirmi lievemente meglio, poi ecco che ritornano le paranoie, l'angoscia e la tristezza che mi ero lasciata alle spalle...

#Citazioniquotesquoteofthedayqotdlifequotesmotivationalquotesinspirationalquotesinstaquoterealifequotesquotestagra #blog life #anxienty #top down #rollercoaster #emotinal #emotive #real life #description #writer things #whattoread #what we do in the shadows #monday #ask blog #girl blogging #ask to tag #follow me #today news

[real-fanta-sea]

hey people... read this. Seriously, it's so damn good.

#our flag means death #gentlebeard #this fic had no business in making me crying so much but here we are #the emotinal rollercoaster named edward teach

[itsivan]

Oh my god that chapter was just *chief’s kiss* I just finished it and I’m about to go to re-read it! The emotions, the family secrets getting all out, BAELA AND RHAENA REACTION, my baby Aemond breakdown. Everything was spot on!

Ps: I can’t wait for the coming chapters and your next daemond work

Ahhh omg thank you!!

And yes Baela and Rhaena are my baby girls i felt so bad for them and what i put them through in this chapter :')

Writing this chapter was such an emotional rollercoaster and i was so scared it would not work the way i wanted it to (As i also do with like "emotinal peak" moments) so thank you for dropping this <3!!!

And i cant wait to post the coming chapter + future works!!

#anon #ask #daemond #fanfic

[yimra]

Emotinal rollercoaster but it didn’t go up very high and I ended up into some west virgina mine

[just-absolutely-super]

Even tho puberty is an emotinal rollercoaster, Lan still recieves head pats from Megaman

MOOD SWINGS ARE THE WORST

HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHY HE'S ANGRY; HE'S HUNGRIER THAN NORMAL AND MOM HASN'T GONE GROCERY SHOPPING YET; HIS LEGS HURT FROM GROWING PAINS; AND THE VOICE CRACK IS A BITCH--

Megaman uses Head Pat™

It's super effective!

#head pats heal all #including puberty pains #anon #responses #mmbn hc land

[secretsaway]

Peter: let’s imagine that something threatens Morgan’s life, would you use me as a human shield to protect her?

Falcon: why tho? I have an actual shield.

Peter: no, but if you hadn’t.

Falcon: I have metal wings

Peter: no, I mean if hypothetically...

Falcon: we have a whole team of warriors. I don’t get what you are tryin.....

Peter: I SAID HYPOTHETICALLY

Falcon: ...

Peter: ...sorry. I just...Tony and I loved to have this kind of conversations. and I guess I just miss him.

#emotinal rollercoaster at its finest #suffer is my hobby #avengers #avengers: endgame #endgame #infinity war #marvel #mcu #marvel comics #iron man #tony stark #ironstrange #peter parker #spider son #spiderman #ironspider #iron dad

[ihearttaylorswift]

some crazy shit happened in 2019 y‘all

#like it honestly was an emotinal rollercoaster for me #might do a life update later because a lot has changed

[kuukkeli25]

Good job marvel making me cry in less than 5 minutes. // 24.04.19

#avengers endgame #endgame spoilers #self post #ughhh what a emotinal rollercoaster #2019 #Havent cried this bad since the last hobbit movie

[lost-in-the-hellaverse]

My best friend warned me that she found Criminal Minds to be even more of an emotional rollercoaster than Supernatural.

I should have fucking heeded that warning!

@devoted-to-boyking-samshine @grellaofasguard @assbutt-still-in-hell

#not my gif #it came from giphy #criminal minds #emotional rollercoaster #so done #i am emotinally compromised #spn #star-lord gif #fml #I should have heeded that warning!

[snafus-peckuh]

Watching the last half hour of episode 7 in the pacific is a nightmare of a emotinal rollercoaster cause at one moment you're crying your ass off cause hillbilly died, then they give you 2 minutes of relief with poor jay shiting himself just to 40 seconds later twist the fucking knife BY TAKING ACK ACK TOM HANKS WHAT THE FUCK WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT

#I HATE IT HERE #ISTG #THIS IS WHY I STOP ON EPISODE 6 #I CANT #I CANT DEAL WITH THIS #ITS 10 AM AND I HAVE A CRYING HEADACHE #GODDAMMIT #you know what? NO I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THAT #WDYM THEY DIE? NO THEY DIDN'T #THEY'RE FINE #*sobbing intensifies* #ack ack haldane #andrew haldane #hillbilly jones #eddie jones #eddie hillbilly jones #the pacific

[kissmejuyeon]

You know i still can't believe u biased kookie .. i mean its possible but??? I still doubt myself and be like "maybe I'm dreaming or smth" like i know i should accept it and all but i need more time maybe 😂😂 also like i know it was a hard step to take and u probs went thru a huge rollercoaster of emotions and feels omg

i cant believe it myself either soooooo 

#and im still going thru that emotinal rollercoaster #idk even know how my heart didnt explode yet #ask #traumu

[camiy]

Today was an emotinal rollercoaster

[princesscas]

That scene of Cas possibly going back to the empty was an emotinal rollercoaster and a half

#supernatural #spn #spn 14x08 #spn spoilers #mandy liveblogs spn

[loveerinn]

Emotionally Unavailable

Talking to a friend today made me realize something. Something about myself. We didn’t even steer the conversation in my general direction and still as I reflected on the words she used some part became clear.

“Emotionally Unavailable.” Those.. were the words she used. About herself. Herself in her beauty, her kindness, her general care for other human beings. Her inextricable way of getting everyone she comes across to love her. It’s what she always wanted. My friend hates when people don’t like her. She can’t handle that. She needs to people please. But... I don’t think she realizes.. how effortless it is. She’s so caught up in getting people to like her and hating herself for it working. Feel fake and not realize the real.

People. I. Love her effortlessly. My friend. She annoys me. Sometimes I wanna duck tape her mouth closed. But I only seem to feel that way for the people I love the most. I only ever really hate to love and love to hate the things in the people I freaking love the most. And because of the way that she is she told me she is. “Emotionally Unavailabile.

I understand so much yet I don’t at all. Maybe cause our reasons are so different. I know why she says it. I feel I know what she believes. What she thinks of herself. Of other people. But as I thought of her today her words... her words made me think of me. Thinking of me seems to be... my favorite and worst pastime.

Probably cause you can hate a being but still long to understand it. There are days I feel especially in tune. With my desires, the things that I want and why. And I think if I truly allowed myself, if I cared for myself enough... I feel everything within me would be easy to understand. Mostly for me. Maybe for others. I don’t think anyone really understands me at all. Some come close. Some believe that they do. I don’t think anyone truly does.

Yet today. Today I spent time to think about the worst topic I could find. Me. Me and my own “emotional unavailablity.” And I asked myself long and hard. Just why those two words felt like a tightening on my chest and relief all at once. Why it hurts so bad and feels so real. Asked myself why.. why I felt.. why I was emotionally unavailable. And I sort of... atleast partially got my answer.

Cause it’s easy. To be emotionally unavailable. I really looked at the facts and what I’m feeling and what’s happened to be to make me this way and yet still. I realized. It’s a choice. I made being emotionally unavailable my choice.

Because it was the choice. That felt the best. Because being emotionally unavailable... well that saves me from be available to anything. To the hurt. To the rejection. To the painful acknowledgments and twisting realization. It made me unavailable to the rocks pelted at me. The ones with sharp edges and piercing corners. Aimed right at my heart. At the weak part of me that works so well in its own destruction and just wants to turns off power and hide away.

Emotionally Unavailable. Because when you look like me what’s the point? Unattractive and undesired and always second .. third.. never a choice. That’s me. That my life so what’s the point. If I’m available, doesn’t mean I’d be chosen. All the toys could be on the shelf all my parts and my batteries. Yet the shelves would empty themselves with all other merchandise being bought... being chosen before me. So I chose. I chose to be unavailable... cause it saves me from being not hidden but still not found. Cause who would want me.

And then I acknowledge the fact. I’m unavailable to a lot of things. That to me the ends that don’t justify the means. That the result of me... allowing myself to open like that. To let myself think... they could like me. They could find me as attractive or beautiful. They could yearn or care for me. Those just feel like gibberish to me. A language I don’t understand. Thoughts that I laugh and shut off immediately. Cause why would they. That’s not possible. The idea is laughable. But at the same time it’s not it painful. And sickening. To think I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life or just happy. Cause who at would want, love or care, if not as a second thought.

And I think of my inextricable need to hate myself. The way that feel like relief as a well. Making myself unavailable to the hatred of others, cause what is your hate if I’ve got my own. Emotional Unavailablity. Unavailable to the idea of having confidence too. Maybe if I was emotionally present, I’d be internally pleasant. Maybe that’d help my confidence. To be awake in that way.

And then I remember a time where I was while not lacking insecurity, more confident that I am. Where I lived and carried myself with a small belief I was worth something. Where highschool let me believe because I was well known it stood for something, anything. And then that got torn from me. I remember being more confident and having things, pieces, people take it away. Like I meant nothing. Cause I didn’t honestly, who was I. No one to them. Now no one to me. But if I was available I’d allow myself to be that again. Sure of who I was. Life is a rollercoaster they say, up and down. So what comes up... must come down. Hard and fast and rocking you to your stomach. Queasy in all it’s quick forgetful movements. I think that if I’m up. If I’m happy. Confident. It can’t last. I’ve watched myself countless times be that person. Convince myself that I’m good, and have another thing. Person. Piece. Of my life tear it down.

And people say you come back stronger but everytime I get up, I’m weaker. Weaker than I was previously. Resolve especially. Hope and strength and love and confidence. In myself. All depleted. Smaller and smaller till there is nothing left. And I don’t want to go through that again. To allow myself to feel worth something. Worth anything and have the things I care about most show me just how much I’m not. So I’d rather be Emotinally Unavailable. Asleep to the possibility. Stuck in nightmares. Of hateful words and hurtful feelings. The reality... of what I mean to me, honestly. And this isn’t even poetry. I just have an annoying way to think and write in symphonic.

Maybe it’s silly. That it feels so far out of my hands. So taken away from my realm. Me and my friend. We’re so different. Our choices so separate. Yet I still look at it as it is. I still realize. I am in fact “Emotionally Unavailabile.” And that. That is still my fault.

#love erin #talking with erin #talks w eri #personal #letters for me #quirks #breed sad poems #me #old poem #sigh #sad words #Inner thoughts #just personal things #sad things #emotionally unavailable #eri’s writing #erin’s writing #erika’s writing

[chaoticneutralwriter]

I’ve been so busy with life and I just read Resurgam and AHAHAHDHWJDJWKDKSKDKDKCKSKCNSNFNSNFJEKDKJDDKDKDJD WHAT THEEEE HELLLLW AS THATTTTTATSGSHSJDJWJDKJEKDSKKDKKDSKKDDKENJDJSJDSJ ITHAT WAS AN EMOTINAL ROLLERCOASTER WHAT THE HELL DNDNDNDNDJDJDJJDSKSKSKDJSKDKSKDK

all good! ^^ it's honestly been the same for me too so dw about it ;w; but i'm glad you got around to reading it because it is quite the....*exciting* chapter if i do say so myself LOLL thank you for enjoying it! <3