#for my sanity's sake

[mewtwoandme]

Alright imma be real with ya'll...

I haven't been doing great mentally lately. You guys have constantly heard me bitching about my seasonal depression and it getting in the way of my artistic motivation yada yada lol Well, it just keeps refusing to let up. I've been trying to fight it, work through it, hoping that it would go away if I just keep working, when in all honesty that's mentally draining me even more. Now, there have been a few times where the drive to draw would come in spurts and I would finish a few small things here and there and I recently did the new blog banner and all, but as quickly as that motivation appears, it vanishes again. It's been an ongoing cycle since December, I haven't been very productive at all with the more important things and I've barely even touched the Baby Arc since SD hit. And lately this rut has started to bleed into things outside of art and affect my motitivation to do daily responsibilities as well, to the point half the time I feel like a vegetable while house work continues to pile up around me...I'm thinking I may need to do things a bit differently for awhile.

Obviously it's been too difficult to draw right now. My SD had never been this severe before, so there needs to be a change. I can't keep up my usual routine of wake up, go to work, come home, draw, repeat. I need a bit more variety for the time being, maybe making time to do other things that make me happy aside from art will do me some good. That being said though...ugh I hate this, I don't even wanna say it, but the Baby Arc might have to be put off yet again for awhile. I thought about all this last night and was literally crying over it because like, I'm finally here!! We made it to the point of Blu being officially introduced and then seasonal depression decides to come in and fuck up everything I've been trying to do. Like I took a step forward, then three steps back! It just really feels like a kick to my nonexistent balls man...Regardless I think a step back right now is necessary, so hopefully you guys understand, yall usually do anyways ^^

So yeah, I guess here's another art hiatus...don't expect to see anything probably until the end of February, or even March, cause I'm hoping the SD will start to go away by then

#this whole post makes me angry #but its something i feel i need to do anyway #for my sanity's sake #cant help but feel disappointed in myself though... #mod speaks #mod announcement #art hiatus

[cynderrfall]

Fresh snow

#linked universe #linked universe au #linkeduniverse #lu #lu four #lu wolfie #lu twilight #so excited to frolick in the snow soon #I’m going to start battling my perfectionism in art #I will let things stay messy for the sake of my sanity #it will be fine 😐 #linked universe fanart #my art #2024 art

[the-fandom-crow]

Fourth piece of fanart for @prince-liest radiostatic series 666: live on air! based on the 8th installment :3

I'm running out of 'safe' scenes to draw help :')

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel fanart #alastor #vox #radiostatic #radiostatic fanart #fic art #my art #digital art #how do you crawl into someone's manspreading lap???? #i had to reenact this scene by myself to get the legs right #i looked stupid :D #also rip to Alastor's digitigrade legs #i had to downgrade them for the sake of my own sanity #but they're still there!!!! #just with simpler proportions

[ash-and-starlight]

Zukka week day 7 // free space - the Prince and the Fool

(I sketched this for one of last year’s prompts and had an illumination on how to color it about a year later lmao bone apple teeth)

#id in alt text #this bitch plagued my wips foR A YEAR #(and was supposed to have a bg but for the sake of my sanity I said no ❤️) #((just me lowering the bar every time I opened the file)) #anygays I wanted to give sort of an illustration vibe #like something you could see in old books about avatar aang’s era in the chapter gay people real #zukkaweek2022 #zukka #sokka #zuko #my art

[guardian-angle22]

911: Lone Star | Tarlos Wedding Pt. 2 -> TK's vows

#911 lone star spoilers #911 lone star #911lsedit #tk strand #carlos reyes #tarlos #the tarlos wedding #I am choosing to ignore all of the finale except the final 20 minutes for the sake of my sanity today #the little look they give each other before he starts #the way he acknowledges that in s1 he didnt even think he deserved to have a future 😭 #the quality of these are subpar but there was no download and i'm also running on zero sleep #i would gif carlos' vows but i have work because its the fucking morning now lol wtf #my gifs #episode: s04e18 in sickness and in health

[ineffabildaddy]

actually it's totally cool if you don't love aziraphale as much as you love crowley because i love him enough for the both of us

#good omens #ineffabildaddy #could write an essay about how much he means to me but i shan't for the sake of your eyes and my sanity

[voilaammayi]

us all, starting yet another one sherlock adaptation and telling ourselves it’s hope and not delusion to expect johnlock to happen maybe this time:

#sherlock & co #so yeah anyway when are we going for a group therapy to treat our delusional brains? #for the sake of our sanity I will hope nevertheless that this time we’ll be rewarded for our patience #with a fantabulous john and sherlock getting together #they’ll kiss and then I’ll want to kiss the podcast creators on the lips out of my eternal gratitude #one day I’m gonna lose my mind if yet another show dares to queerbait me in the fucking 21st century #don’t get me wrong this is not me hating sherlock and co because it’s doing great and I love it #it’s just me with a festering wound and ongoing trauma after lokius or rather the lack of it #john watson #sherlock #sherlock holmes #goalhanger #goalhanger podcasts #johnlock #sherlock and co

[enderwoah]

i genuinely think there are supernatural forces working against jimmy (/exg)

like it doesn't make sense

everyone on the server was willing to give him a life to keep him from dying first. He and bdubs interacted like once but the second bdubs heard that he was on 7 minutes he let jimmy kill him. Scott let jimmy kill him. bot joel AND grian said they were going to give him a life to stop him from getting out first. when he died, even people that were AGAINST him were disappointed. and somehow the ONE TIME that the ENTIRE SERVER is rallying on his side, where half the server would have let him kill them for a life, the way he dies is by mysteriously unshifting on the edge of a structure

im a fic writer bro that was the watchers they were pissed that literally everyone except mister goodtimeswithsadism and like, cleo were rooting for him and they just flicked him off the edge bro what. also the fact that he should have died earlier from etho's boogie kill...they were just compensating.

i am fully aware that it was just an unfortunate slip of the finger probably (a misclick, if you will /qsmp ref) but i need to make it dramatic somehow...eye twitches

#im trying to maintain my sanity #and my wrath #for the sake of my own mental health #jimmy solidarity #solidaritygaming #limited life #limited life spoilers #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans #grian #scott smajor #smajor1995 #bdoubleo100 #goodtimeswithscar #zombiecleo #watchers #enderwhat

[braisedhoney]

looks are deceiving.

back in the day i would have given anything for these two to fight. they’re already kind of dead, so it’s fiiine they're fiiiine.

#danny phantom #danny phantom fanart #dp #dp fanart #vlad plasmius #vlad masters #dan phantom #dark danny #please don’t tag as ship #pls guys. pls. #for the sake of my sanity. #ney’s art #i have two interpretations of this #one is that dan wipes the floor with vlad. like just *decimates* the guy. version 2.0 and all that #second one is that vlad has actually been holding back against danny and its way more even bc life experience and probably ghost power?? #either way they fight. very flashy. #side note but does anyone else find it funny vlad gets SO much buffer as a ghost #like bro. it's not subtle and i'm kind of endeared #real of him tbh #a lot of what i'm doing with this cartoony style is trying to get into simpler shapes. key word trying lmao #i have to resist the render impulse

[dirtytransmasc]

the Sully kids' reaction to Jake saying Spider "knew everything" breaks my heart.

they knew him better than anyone else, better than their parents. they knew his love for Eywa, for Pandora, for The People, for the clan, for their family. they knew he would never tell the RDA anything... not willingly at least.

they knew they were leaving because Spider would be tortured for information, he'd be forced to reveal their home, their plans, their numbers, their weaknesses. their brother would be tortured and they were being forced to leave him behind.

they knew they were being forced to find a new home, without their brother, because their dad knew he would be tortured.

#I like to think. for the sake of my sanity. Jake knew Spider would be loyal to them. that he would only blab once broken by torture. #anything else would kill me. the level of anger would be lethal. #but regardless. I think the kids would also need to believe the same thing. they *need* to think their dad has faith in their brother. #but back to the reactions themselves. the heartbreak and confusion on Kiri and Tuk's face. the way Lo'ak looks dissociated. #we can barely even see his face. but even Neteyam looks surprised and painted. even if its kept under a calm guise #(I will never let anyone convince me 'tey didn't love Spi. James. give us more about them please. more than these little crumbs) #they were just little kids and he was their big brother #he was Lo'ak and Kiri's best friend #Tuk was his baby #I feel it in my bones that Spi and 'tey were brothers with a complicated history. I know 'tey was scared to lose him. #I don't have proof but I know James is cooking up something with them #they would never believe Spider would just give them up. but that opens up their minds to so many things to think about #they had to be so scared for him and angry he was being left behind #(especially since in the comics Kiri. Lo'ak. and Tuk risk their lives to save him when he was kidnapped by Nash) #avatar 2 #avatar the way of water #spider socorro #miles spider socorro #miles socorro #kiri sully #lo'ak sully #tuk sully #tuktirey sully #neteyam sully #lo'ak #kiri #tuk #tuk tuk #tuktirey #neteyam

[bass-alien]

I need to get laid 😩

#it’s starting to become less of a want and more of a need #like for the sake of my sanity

[konigsblog]

pretending mwiii 2023 didn't happen, guys! 😊

#for my own sanity #for my own sake #for my mental sake #comments might have SPOILERS! #‼️

[baeshijima]

this truly was our jujutsu kaisen, huh...

throws up

#sophie's idle chatter #for the sake of my sanity i havent touched s2 of jjk purely bc i dont want to see shibuya arc a second time #i just saw this from the hourly nanami account and cried bc i now know we are at that point in shibuya. #man fuck the manga i will never recover this is why i stopped at chap 200 smth #i shouldve stopped sooner gdi #AND THE FACT *THE* EP IS TMRW........ ALONG WITH KENJIRO TSUDAS TWEET ABT IT.... #IM UNWELL NANAMI ILYSM IM SOHDJFGHDFKJGHKSAFDHGLSDKGJ;S #i will now disintegrate so that no one can perceive me :D

[cinnamontoastcrunch-15]

Today's @wolfstarmicrofic prompt is suitor!

(773 words.)

Sirius stares at his own reflection in the mirror, wishing, for once, that he could switch his emotions off like the rest of his family. He doesn't really want to look at himself in his dress robes. It just reminds him of what he's about to do, the life laid out in front of him, which he really doesn't want to think about. Every time he remembers the suitor at the end of the aisle, the marriage his parents have decided he needs, their desperation to 'fix him', he feels nauseous.

That thought just sends him down a rabbit hole, the ghost of a memory of amber eyes, a slightly crooked smile, and an embrace that felt like home being all he has left. Well, that and the knowledge that the only man he's ever loved probably hates him. Sometimes he wonders what his life could have been if he'd just... run. Gotten away from the hellish life that the Black family have left him with.

"Sirius." Regulus' voice drags him out of his thoughts, turning to face his little brother.

"Oh. Hi." He doesn't mean for his voice to sound so... hollow, so dejected. Still, he does his best to offer Regulus a smile. "How come you're not in your seat? We're starting soon. Mum'll flip her shit."

He expected Regulus to roll his eyes, maybe smile slightly if he's in a decent mood, but his expression doesn't falter. There's a slight furrow in his brow, the only sign that he's concerned.

"Sirius, you can't do this," He says slowly, stepping inside the small room and shutting the door behind him. The words stun Sirius, freezing him for a moment.

"What? Reggie, what d'you mean-"

"You're not getting married today. You shouldn't," He insists, which does nothing but confuse Sirius.

"Reg, I don't really think I have a choice, here. Where's this coming from?"

"...I ran into Remus." The admission sends Sirius' heart into overdrive, a wave of dizziness hitting him. It's like someone has stolen the breath from his lungs, memories attacking him from every angle.

"What?" The word comes out slightly breathless, shock overwhelming him.

"He asked about you. He loves you, Sirius, it was obvious."

"But I- I abandoned-"

"No, you didn't, and he knows you didn't. He was just happy to hear that you were alive. Sirius, you can't keep living like this. We both know it."

Realistically, Sirius knows this. He knows that he won't be able to take it much longer in his family, but he's been able to shove it to the back of his mind. He made it his goal to distract his family from Regulus, and it's been enough to keep him going.

Hearing his little brother telling him he's making a mistake makes everything feel much more real.

"Reg, what are you saying?" He asks carefully.

"I'm saying you need to leave. Today. Now, if you can." Just as Sirius opens his mouth to ask where the fuck he would go, Regulus stops him. "Here," He pulls a scrap of parchment out of the pocket of his dress robes, surging forward and shoving it into Sirius' hand. "James and Remus' addresses are both on here, I got them off Remus. He should know you're coming. You need to go."

"Reggie, I can't-"

"Yes, you can! You have to!" His tone leaves minimal room for argument, but Regulus isn't even going to let him try. "I know why you've stayed as long as you have, and you're a bloody idiot for it. I'll be okay, Sirius."

"Then you can leave with me," He says desperately, reaching out to grasp his brother's hand. Regulus just shakes his head.

"I can't. One of us needs to stay here, and it sure to fuck isn't going to be you. Just... go and find Remus, okay? Please."

Sirius meets his brother's eyes, startled to find that his face is softened, almost pleading with Sirius. He's giving Sirius a way out. One that he's not going to find again, and he's not taking no for an answer.

Remus' face comes full force back to the front of his mind. Vaguely, he wonders if he looks the same. If he's gotten any new scars, if he would still look at Sirius in that same way that made him weak at the knees, that he conjures when he can't sleep, when he needs comfort.

"Go, Sirius. You deserve to be happy," Regulus' voice urges him. It's the one that cracks his resolve. The desperation in his brother's voice is breaking him.

He needs to go.

Remus is waiting for him.

#i don't actually know what this is #a magical au #but #what #i have no clue #i think i just needed to give the black brothers closure #for the sake of my sanity #ANYWAY #wolfstar #sirius black #wolfstar oneshot #marauders #remus lupin #remus x sirius #young marauders #moony x padfoot #atyd marauders #marauders oneshot

[mariposiel]

“The perfect world is what you make it, so as long as I have my friends by my side, this world is perfect!”

#SCREAMSS #them <333 #the family ever #took a semi-realistic shading approach for this one! #different from my usual cartoon-styled coloring #I really like how this turned out #but for the sake of my sanity I’ll probably revert back to my simpler shading LOL #mari’s doodles #hehe new pfp #lmk fanart #lego monkie kid fanart #Lego monkie kid #lmk #lmk mk #lmk sun wukong #lmk mei #lmk sandy #lmk pigsy #lmk tang #lmk qi xiaotian #lmk monkey king #monkie kid fanart #monkie kid mk #sun wukong fanart #mk lmk #tang lmk #mei lmk #monkey king fanart #monkie kid

[uncanny-tranny]

I love you smile lines and worry lines and grey and white hair and wrinkles and purple spiderweb veins and the process of aging and living in a body that is standing the test of times. I love you experiences that make you wiser and stories that make you laugh, and every little process that happens to get to the point where you have so many memories because you have the fortune to be here and be so radiant

#positivity #pro aging #also i hate you 'anti aging' scams that capitalize on fear of aging. death by 1000000 papercuts for ye #saw a hair video where they restored the salt-and-pepper colour in an older clients hair and it looked SO GOOD at the end #i love when people throw in the towel and embrace their aging however that looks #it isn't productive to shame people who are ashamed of aging and i just want to. celebrate aging #in a world that simultaneously venerates youth and adulthood and hates BOTH you need to find some sense of freedom #as a Young Adult(tm) please please PLEASE older folks seeing this/following me know that i look up to you #older folks i need you to know that your worth NEVER diminished when you added a new number on your birthday cake #and your body and mind and soul NEVER lost worth because it started to creak a little at the joints #and i might be wrong about this because i'm still young but it can be SO tempted to miss your youth when you feel like... #...you've somehow LOST part of yourself by growing older. and so much of aging is about change and some things don't stay the same... #...and that IS scary and i will never once fault somebody for that. but please don't fall into the trap that because you've aged that... #...you somehow have forever lost fundamental pieces of Who You Are and you could never come back from that... #...for your own sake and sanity you deserve to find comfort and solice and understanding in who you still are... #...because you are still - at the core - the same. you can never take this away from yourself #and i know this might ring hollow because i just don't get what it's like to be older #but i have looked at my elders and felt awe at their age and their experiences #and i know what that is like and it's awesome. i just wish more older people knew that so many of us look at you with awe... #...and - if you can believe it - some of us ENVY your age or experiences or even body #i'm watching an 'older' content creator (older by internet standards 🙄) and i envy him for how eventful his life was #i envy that he experienced a different world - one that i have only heard about from my dad because i was too young to remember it #and i admire this person for their wisdom and thoughts because they've come from his experiences living in a Different World #it's that type of stuff that makes me unafraid to keep on living #inspired by following somebody like. twice my age posting about their excitement abiut growing older and !!!!!!! YEAHHHHHH #didn't realize they were closer to my dad's age but that's so cool???????????