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#havent had a reaction like this to media in a long time actually
chaosnightmare · 1 year
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fire emoji shadow´s characterisation
ohhhh my god hydrogen bomb of an ask okay
shadow's character was not "derailed" until the 2010s, in some cases not even then. shth did not kill shadow's character he actually stayed pretty consistent throughout the game (with a few exceptions, most of which are localization problems) and for years onwards
shadow's characterization in sonic chronicles was actually a lot of fun, a long time ago i reblogged a post that said it was awful because i had never played the game before and didn't know any better and i regret it daily because i really really like it actually
shadow's new characterization is NOT "fun in its own way" imo its literally unacceptable and so unbearable it keeps me from revisiting some things he's in
shadow has always been edgy shth didn't change literally anything about his style it just gave him a gun and let him curse
i like his writing more in sonic prime than i did in sonic x and we havent even seen him for that long in prime
i don't like that new writers try to pretend like sonic and shadow were enemies this whole time and are coming to terms with eachother because they literally were not enemies before they changed everything. i think it ties somewhat into the new notion of shadow not having any friends because its kind of hard to have a deathmatch rivalry with a guy you have mutual friends with but i don't like it i don't really think its cute or funny it's just a kick in the teeth to people who cared enough about these characters before they went wacko bizarro twilight zone mode with everything to know that somethings off
HE DOES NOT LISTEN TO SWIFT i do not CARE how gay it makes him sound
i don't really like when people assert that shadow was all polite and calm before shth like in sa2 theres the part where he realizes rouge is trapped and runs back to rescue her, but before he has his flashback his intial reaction is to laugh and keep walking
he was better when humphrey voiced him. i know that means less than nothing coming from the guy who is REALLY normal about david humphrey but he just did his emotions and cadances better idk
i don't like when either official media or fan media gives him weird "but thats my family" feelings about the black arms. probably mostly out of projection (i think its badass that he just kills them like its NOTHING) but they weren't even family to him in the shth endings where he sides with them. black doom sort of acts like that but thats solely because he's attempting to foster a sense of belonging in shadow to further isolate him and continue radicalizing him. why are we acting like its noble or angsty somehow
okay sorry. hi
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scuopsie · 1 year
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Hello! Oh, I read your whole rant because that was so relatable. Honestly, I feel like as a society we've been becoming a bunch of people pleasers. So many people aren't used or actually willing to hear critics anymore. The first time I reflected on this was when I started watching that show "the voice" and the said judges, who were also famous singers, simply wouldn't point anything negative on the contestants presentations. That was so weird to me. Like, what was the point on that competition? I guess it is pretty much the same with reaction channels and that's so shallow. What kind of people are we?
Hiii
Yeah exactly…. But i dont think it’s entirely people’s fault. (Or at all, really). Like you said, we live in a society and societies are controlled by multi billionaire who controls every part of out lives including the media we consume. I think the reason we’re seeing these ‘trends’ ans people recycling the same content that seems to ‘work’ isn’t entirely because ppl have gotten lazy. It’s because algorithms came to play. At one point the success of a content was less reliant on the actual audience’s response to it and more about an algorithm deciding that its worthy of being promoted/shown to ppl.
Also abt the singing/talent contest shows, i havent watched one in a really really long time because i learned that they were almost completely staged even in their earlier days and not just recently. But even then they used to be a lot more entertaining to watch bc there was always one or two judges that were id not just overly-critical, were completely assholes and at the end of the day it was fun having them. Ive seen a couple of episodes of AGT (i think) in passing and it was so boring bc the judges had no critiques. They just ✨loved✨everything.
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anyastradivarius · 2 years
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I just finished OFMD and I am DESTROYED
does anyone wanna cry with me
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just-antithings · 2 years
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ok um. i want to preface this with the fact that i am a follower and long time supporter of this blog. however.. before any of that, i am a blasian woman, and as such i cant let this go. im not a big fan of VOC. i dont like him in the least, however the responses to his post about there being antiblackness in the movie Turning Red is... not good. Sorry if this is too long, but... As kindly as I can put it, the vibes of those responses were giving white nonchalance. Whether or not you dislike someone, anti or not, i dont think dismissing them talking about literal racism as "shit that makes you wish you couldn't read" is not something you should be doing when the concerns themselves are valid. There ARE some hints of antiblackness in the movie, too. As much as I liked the movie, i couldn't help but notice the cultural appropriation of my people in it. I dont care if people like the movie, as long as they're critical in the actual issues with it and aren't being outright dismissive about black people's concerns with them, regardless of your stance on proship/antiship. i feel that, above your personal feelings about someone, some things should take more importance. thats all i wanted to say. thank you for hearing me out
My two cents- I still haven’t seen the movie but everything I’ve seen about it except from voc has been positive discussion about how it discusses periods and how that pissed off conservatives and antis alike. I saw an article discussing the importance of showing school bullying in media, but that was about it on that front. That’s the sum total of the info I had. You can call my reaction ‘white nonchalance’ or you can call it ‘not taking seriously a person who is known to interact in bad faith with almost everyone, to the point of having his stated intent be to accuse poc who disagree with him of being white’. Both might be true, I don’t think I’m in a position to identify the former. That said- where there is antiblackness in the movie, I would want to be aware going in so that I could examine it as it came up, rather than having potential racism fly over my head. -Jay
again. havent seen the movie. but there is always a problem with lateral aggression, something that we've seen firsthand in the lgbtq+ community as well. it is important to hear all sides of an issue, for sure - but from what i gathered, the problem was with voc himself, not what he was saying specifically. feel free to correct me if im wrong, though
-el
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leafcabbage · 2 years
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Oh yeah, consuming the media from the CC’s POV is a great description, and I think that’s what I do too? I had a great time today, and why would I not, everyone was having fun. And I think it makes me more forgiving with OOC moments or acting moments that don’t quite land, because I’m here to see the CC’s play characters, not to see the characters. If that makes sense.
IT DOES!! absolutely! honestly there are very few endings to the dsmp that would bother me as long as the ccs had fun with it. i was really REALLY pessimistic going into watching anything from today (if you couldnt tell by my now deleted post lol) because of what was on my timeline/dash. i was expecting another angstfest that no one was really enjoying that wouldn't go anywhere, but this was good! (again im not totally caught up but i know the gist of everything even if i havent seen all of it).
people seem proud of what theyre doing, cc!tommy's back to doing really impressive acting, cc!dream's back on his evil arc and lovin it, cc!ranboo is actually excited about what hes doing!!! this is awesome!! it doesnt feel like anything is being dont purely for audience reaction/pain. (this is vaguetweeting someone smh smh). anyway yeah you describe it perfectly. its like playing dnd i think. its for the players not just the characters, sometimes they do ooc things because its fun for everyone (i play VERY loose dnd... im also a dm. perhaps im bad at things). sometimes fun for the sake of fun is worth ooc. (and also just thinking back to very early dsmp and how many things were fun for the sake of fun. i miss that) its not fun if the ccs dont want to be there.
ALL THAT TO SAY- this is awesome and it wont cause me emotional anguish. some people like being upset by media, i dont. i want to have fun and thats what im doing. i really appreciate this ask i like finding that other people enjoy media in the same way :]
this is incomprehensible. very sorry.
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cupidhaos · 3 years
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um so hey guys........ (this post will be a bit lengthy but important so if you’d read it all that would be much appreciated)
you may have noticed (or most likely havent) i havent really been keeping up with updates as efficiently as i want to. usually updating line without a hook every week at most times. so as of right now id like to announce that im going to be taking a break from posting my social media series. i’ll still be semi active and posting writings from time to time so i won’t be completely gone - but i’ll get into why right now.
when i started my smaus, it was all for fun and it was something that i really enjoyed doing. it was one of my favorite pastimes and was a really nice hobby, i loved seeing people’s reactions and it made me feel really good about myself.
but lately, i don’t know anymore... i feel like i’ve been forcing myself to try and make updates and i’m not enjoying it as much as i used to. i’m constantly comparing myself to others works asking myself ‘is my writing even actually good?’ or ‘are people even interested?’ i keep telling myself people wouldn’t really care or not either way.
i’m constantly belittling my abilities and for some reason every time i open tumblr i get anxious and a horrible feeling inside of me. i thought that after awhile it would just go away and i wouldn’t think that way anymore but it hasn’t it upsets me that the thing that i used to love doing has turned into something that makes me feel nervous and anxious inside.
i’ve tried to ignore this feeling, and just hoped it would go away eventually - but it really started to take a toll on my mental health. and i hate thinking this way, but in my mind i started to really wonder if anyone really cared if i did update or not - and the truth is i really don’t know anymore.
at one point i was considering deactivating and just leaving, but the community that i have here is something that i cherish greatly and hold close to my heart - i couldn’t bring myself to do it. 
i’m sure my absence on here won’t be too great of a deal, and i honestly dont even think people will read this post in the end. but for my own health i’ll be stepping back. i don’t know when i’ll start updates up again or how long it’ll be, but i think once i find the joy in writing that i once had - i’ll be fine.
if you read this far i applaud you honestly and thank you. i apologize once again, but to be honest i’m just really burnt out. and i feel as if my absence wont mean too much to anyone anyways. i’ll come back soon, but i just need some time to myself for now. itll only be a little break hopefully so dont worry about me :)
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Shdjdjjddjjs okay but, more buff cat hcs when ?? But seriously, i know it probably counts as crack hc but i enjoyed it way to much i cant get it out of my head anymore, i havent laught so much in a while now sjdjchdj. I sure hope the buff cat saga will continue !!
You know what? I’ll give you some buff cat content now. 😤 my school work can wait. And trust me, the buff cat saga WILL continue. I just tend to work on requests first rather than my own wants haha.
I’m really happy you like buff cat! Buff cat is my life now. Constantly haunted by buff cat. Maybe one day I’ll introduce a girlfriend or friends for buff cat too 🤔
Maybe I’ll do a background about buff cat and how they met MC?? And why buff cat is so attached to MC? I don’t know. 👉👈 maybe if someone requests, otherwise I’ll just do whatever I feel like in the moment.
Anyone can also feel free to request any buff cat scenarios!! If not I’ll think of some up. THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRY. I WROTE THIS LIKE 1 HOUR OR SOMETHING STRAIGHT AHA.
The boys react to buff cat teaching you
Lucifer
Lucifer had noticed your grades were improving recently, and wanted to take you out to eat for working so hard to both keep up with your class.
When he came to your room, he saw a scene that honestly shouldn’t of surprised him, but did anyways.
You were sitting at your desk, books sprawled across the entire surface area of it. On top of a book pile was buff cat, wearing a pair of glasses, and he was using a pointer to show you important parts you should remember.
He watched in awe as you two never exchanged any words, but you were scribbling down definitions and important notes, while buff cat turned the pages and reviewed your work.
He’s gotten fairly use to buff cat cooking, cleaning, intimidating others, but he has never seen buff cat act like a teacher before, it was sort of new, and he even had a teacher outfit.
He swears that he never sees you buying these outfits, or that people in the devildom actually sell muscular cat clothing.
Buff Cat is the first to break the silence, looking over at Lucifer and positioning his pointer at Lucifer’s head, and then to in front of your desk.
You were still focused on your studying, knowing that you were steadily improving. Buff Cat got out a notepad from one of your desk drawers, and wrote “Leave what you require on this note, I am instructing MC right now, and when we are done tutoring I will give this note to them.”
Lucifer ended up having to take a rain check on taking you out to eat, and learned that your cat has really advanced vocabulary.
Mammon
He was failing the majority of his classes, and ended up asking you for help. You were his best shot, and you seemed to be passing all of your classes with flying colours.
You said you were happy to help him! Except that someone else was actually helping you study. They were a very efficient teacher.
He was relieved to hear that you’d introduce your teacher to him, until he found out it was that fucking demon spawn from hell.
He screeched so hard and ran out of the room, crying like a girl. “aAAAAaaaaAAAH”
Mammon is terrified of buff cat, and now you’re telling him this cat has the intelligence of a genius? You came to the devildom like a few months ago how is this cat tutoring you and making you pass your classes with ease??
He swears your cat is trying to plot for world domination or something. Will NEVER ask you to study with him again.
Leviathan
You walked into Levi’s room trying to find buff cat. It was a Sunday, which was typically a boys night out between them, but it was getting pretty late and you need to study.
There was a test tomorrow on devildom history, and you wanted to review one more time with buff cat, as to make sure you’ll do well on it.
“Mr. Kitty, are you here?” You called out, as soon as you said that Buff Cat paused the game and ran up to you. Levi was slightly annoyed as Buff Cat was beating a hard level for him, but he is your cat above all else.
You smiled as Buff Cat greeted you, and apologised for interrupting them. You explained to Levi how you wanted to review for the test, and if it wasn’t an issue could he spare around 20 minutes?
Levi huffed and agreed and called you a normie, and was about to pick up his switch when your words finally set in.
You put down the book you were carrying and got out a pencil, and took a piece of paper out of the book. You began writing down all of the important stuff on the paper while Buff Cat watched over your shoulder.
When you were finished, he went into the book with you and showed you a couple things you’ve missed or had forgotten, and then got you to write it down three times each as to remember. He even wrote a few essay questions for you which you got.
Levi was impressed. Not only did Buff Cat seem to know the whole devildom history by heart, he knew the exact pages and lines, and even how to write.
He didn’t really care as long as Buff Cat beats the hard level for him. He just considers it to be cool.
Satan
Satan was impressed with your high grades. It must be hard for a human to suddenly learn about a whole new realm, right? So if you had Cs he would understand, but you were getting 97s and 94s.
He understood everything when he started to notice what kind of books Buff Cat had been reading in his room, recently.
You all were having a test on curses soon, and Buff Cat came by his room and began looking for books about curses, and similar ones to what you all had been learning about.
Satan ended up chuckling to himself and found it amusing. It was amazing how your cat even spent his free time coming to someone’s room, finding books for your tests, and reads them before going back to you to help you understand the content.
He likes to get coffee with Buff Cat and talk about the stuff you’re learning in classes, he never directly said it to you, but he helps Buff Cat find specific books when Buff Cat comes over.
Asmodeous
Lucifer decided to punish the house of lamentations by taking away all of their electronics after they did something stupid again. The only way to earn it back, was through getting an 80% or higher on their next test.
You and Asmo suffered because you would normally look up answer during your test, and Asmo had no social media or contact with any of his friends with benefits.
You two weren’t ashamed to beg Buff Cat for help to pass your next test. He was probably the smartest in the house. He goes to Satan’s room almost every day and purchased books when he goes out. Your cat even tutored you when you were in elementary school.
You and Asmo barely needed to convince Buff Cat, as he was ecstatic to help you again. He’d do anything to help you, and was even willing to help Asmo out as well.
Asmo thought that Buff Cat looked REALLY adorable in his teacher’s outfit. A suit, tie, glasses, and his claws were so shiny from their manicure earlier.
Buff cat even slicked his fur back to look like he gel’d his hair. He was a literal fashion icon. Asmo could do some sewing, but nothing to the degree Buff Cat did.
Buff Cat had so many outfits he made himself, and he even did them so quickly. They all turned out perfect. Oh right, this was about studying wasn’t it?
Asmo never really asked questions about why your cat could just be so smart, and more so focused on how cool your cat looked. Priorities.
Beelzebub
Beel and Buff Cat are gym buddies, so naturally they’d walk home together from the gym. Everything was fine until Buff Cat’s MC senses were tingling, and began to walk towards you, crouching down in a store trying to figure out which notebooks to buy.
Beel thought it was pretty cool Buff Cat knew where you were, like how he and Belphie were that close to each other.
Brel asked you what you were doing, and you explained that you wanted to get some new notebooks because your old one is messy and confusing. You just scribbled whatever you could down, and were having a bit of a hard time in class.
Buff Cat immediately perked up, and you two seemed to have a conversation. He meowed and you happily said “I’d love that!”
Apparently, Buff Cat had offered to tutor you. Beel wasn’t so sure how well your cat could teach, though, considering he still is a cat, and offered to help you as well, since he wouldn’t like to see you sad from overworking yourself.
He was scribbling notes alongside with you five minutes into your first session together. Buff Cat wrote such simple explanations, and even prepared notecards ahead of time, Beel forgot he was supposed to teach you.
He is pretty fine with Buff Cat teaching you both, and once again forgets that Buff Cat is a “normal”? cat and not some weird creature that knows the answer to life.
Belphegor
Is really fucking terrified of your buff cat. Like TERRIFIED. So when he sees your cat in a teacher’s outfit sitting at the dinning room table, teaching you math, he was frozen.
He came down to get a glass of milk but what is this. Do you- do you have to do it in the living room?
There is no other reaction than physical fear coursing through his body his adrenaline is at the highest and his fight or flight instincts kick in.
He’s already fought once and that caused Buff Cat to exist in constant Buff form around him, so you can bet he is running.
Probably has a group chat with Mammon and Luke. “Buff Cat Conspiracy”. They talk about how scary buff cat is.
Diavolo
Buff Cat told Diavolo he was the one who helped you study. They were having conversation (buff cat used a notebook) and the topic of your studies came up. He mentioned how he had been helping you study, and understand the terminology in the Devildom better.
He was happy to hear that you understood it, and that it wasn’t too complicated for either of you too.
He actually asks if he can watch your study sessions, to see if he needs to lighten your workload just in case you’re pushing yourself too much.
You two allow him to watch, and he’s giving soft claps and smiles as the two of you give it your best.
Is honestly very happy with how much you two get along, and how you say it’s very simple since Buff Cat explains(meows) it in a very efficient manner.
He already knew Buff Cat was smart, but haha. Maybe he should hire Buff Cat to be a teacher or support class teacher for RAD?
Barbatos
You had grown accustomed to the devildom these past few months, and with Buff Cat with you, you were allowed to freely explore it when you want.
Buff Cat also happens to have a spare key to open the castle when he wishes.
Exam/testing season was coming up, and you knew you couldn’t study at the house of lamentation.
It was very distracting, and so you decided to go to the castle. No one will be screaming there, or trying to convince you your cat is a weird entity trying to plot world domination.
Barbatos was sort of used to seeing Buff Cat come and go as he pleases, but why were you here? Before he could say anything, you told him that you were visiting to study! And that you hope he didn’t mind that Buff Cat was going to tutor you.
Alright, so you’re studying, but why at the castle? You had to explain that it was very distracting at the house of lamentations, and Mammon was trying to convince you to get rid of your cat 24/7.
Ah, he could see that. Your cat isn’t exactly normal, and Mammon does occasionally scream like a girl. I promise I love Mammon. But it’s not like he minded, so long as you two were quiet and actually studied.
He left to clean for a bit, and when he returned to the guest room he saw you wearing a headband, violently writing down and muttering definitions at an insane pace. Buff Cat was in a teacher’s outfit, and holding out flash cards.
He’s slightly taken aback, but doesn’t show it anywhere on his face. He has never seen you so serious before, and neither has he seen Buff Cat so focused on you, as well.
He’s quite proud of you two for your hard work and dedication. He doesn’t interrupt but instead pours you three cups of tea, Buff Cat thanks him, and watches over you two.
Solomon
Solomon invited you over for a study session. He may be a little shady, but he does care for you, as a fellow human.
He was ecstatic to see Buff Cat come with you, because he still wants to dissect your cat.
He was about to talk to you about letting him research you cat, but you made yourself comfortable on his bed, and Buff Cat began to put on glasses and take out a pointer.
He didn’t have anytime to talk beforehand, as you were highlighting certain areas of your book, your cat pointing to certain parts, and you patted the bed beside you for Solomon to join.
Solomon’s plans to dissect your cat are set back another day, but he takes great interest in the way he teaches. Your cat is very methodical about how to remember things, and explains(meows) it rather simply.
He swears that your cat is not a normal human cat, but why can he sense literally zero magic power from it? If only Buff Cat could teach him that.
Solomon also gets 100% on the next test by remembering everything the way Buff Cat had taught you two.
Simeon
Absolutely chaotic man, when he sees you and Buff Cat in a classroom when school was over, he approached you two, and said hello.
You greeted him, and so did Buff Cat. He asked what you were doing after school so late, and that it was dangerous for the two of you. Buff Cat not so much but could still be in danger.
You told him you were studying for the upcoming test, and that Buff Cat was helping you.
Simeon was like!!! 💖👉👈💖💖💖💖🥰🥰🥺🥺 could I join?? This sounds so fun!! Buff Cat is so smart!!
He does not question the fact he’s studying with a cat, learning from a cat, or just how nice your cat can write on paper, like perfect handwriting.
He has such chaotic energy that he’s just like you, what a cute cat!
Luke
no.
just no.
he’s fine with your cat but does your cat have to be in buff form when you’re being taught?
he is happy you are getting good grades but please get him away from buff form buff cat.
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beetleboo · 3 years
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long post. one i’ve been trying to make for a while now. hell, i wrote this like... third week of may. didn’t post it until now because i didn’t know if I wanted to.
but something i want to lay out, been wanting to lay out for months. dont want to talk to anyone about it, just want to put the info out there for it to be seen.
if you re/blog this i will block you. i may put this on the relevant sideblog at some point.
because 2020 was the worst year on record for me for a number of reasons, and it’s torn me down to the lowest point i’ve been in a long time, and this is just. everything that’s gone down. not a callout post, no one gets named, but these are all the events
partially in relation to my fandom sideblog, because that’s where i had community, and where it’s all just. gone. doesnt exist anymore.
i started up a server, ages ago now. somewhere i curated to be a positive and safe space for things, and for a while, it was that.
around the end of 2019, spilling over to the start of 2020 when it picked up, i found, both on my blog and in discord spaces, in particular the server i ran, that people no longer talked to me. no one would hold a conversation with me past a few basic responses, no one replied to anything i shared, no one engaged when i tried to start discussions. so i pulled back from the main server - S1. thought it was just a lull in activity. stayed that way for weeks, months, and I just muted the server. no one ever cared about anything i had to say. was lucky if anything i posted got even a token emoji react
was in another, smaller server - S2. people i talked to damn near every day, even in voice. played games together - that became... no fun simply because everyone else was so much better/further ahead in the game. i was completely useless, so didn’t server a function in game and never really felt like anyone actively wanted me around, but i still participated in chat.
but again, no one ever responded to anything I posted beyond maybe a token react
couple people discussing something one day. I contributed with Theory A, and quite immediately got that shut down. few minutes later, they rephrased exactly what I said and happily nattered away. so whatever I said wasn’t worth it when it came out of my mouth but if they talked about it, it was all well and valid. so again, between that specific experience and no one interacting with me, nor anything I post. server muted. treatment taught me no one cared about my presence there.
gave admin rights to S1, my server, to someone I trusted. two requests only: dont delete channels and let me know if you want to invite anyone (since I kept it private)
RYE (i’m just assigning random three letter names to people to keep this straight) posted public invites several times. never asked me. one of the two things i asked. brought it up with them that it bothered me, just got vague noncomittal responses. more public invites. eventually, after having the server muted for months, i handed over full control and left. that was almost a full year ago. none of the people have talked to me in that entire year, through discord or here or anything.
except RYE who sent me a message after a couple months like ‘wow i havent heard from you in a while hope you’re doing ok’. i wasn’t. after a bit but still the same day, i said as much. that i wasn’t doing well. they never responded. and i don’t mean like, they didn’t respond that day. i mean i literally never heard from them until months later when they sent me a meme and also didn’t respond to me commenting on that meme.
and this is one side of things. all of the above was the first half of the year. this next bit happened about. march2020? I was in another server - S3. another place that was a good space at the time. was in voice chat with two other people. started talking about one thing. MIN very suddenly said something along the lines of ‘i don’t care about this i’ll come back when you’re done’
this is one of the very few things that can trigger me - i’ve had a lot of people talk down to me if I dare look excited about anything. when they came back, i asked if they could try to just. depart conversations more softly. MIN always said ‘if i do anything hurtful to you just tell me! i dont want to do that kind of thing!’
this was clearly a lie as they exploded on me, telling me they always have to walk on eggshells around me, that I ask so many things from them. before what I asked them that day, I can only recall one other thing i asked (which was not to talk about a person who was abusive towards me, and they were like ‘yea sure np’ about that, over a year prior’)
the whole thing turned into basically me having to shut down the fact that i was hurt by what they did, had to ignore that now and i had to fawn and placate them and the only thing i got out of that was that my feelings were irrelevant, only theirs.
(incidentally, I have had two other people turn on me in similar ways, accusing me of doing shifty/bad/terrible things, and not being willing to tell me what they are when I ask, only saying that ‘i should know what i did’ so that’s also now a Fun New Bit Of Trauma.)
and that entire weeklong event lead me straight to a breakdown. literal genuine breakdown i cannot convey how devastating that entire scenario was without going into far too many details.
so between all of these things happening in less than six months, with three different community spaces folding and collapsing and fading away from me, with many of the friends i thought i had just. moving on to other things and dropping me. people i talked to every day just not bothering with me anymore. they all have gone on to other stuff and no one ever went ‘hey beets wanna see what i’m up to’ or ‘wanna do this thing with me’
a handful of instances of me saying ‘yeah i’m dealing with these fears that have been reinforced lately that people aren’t safe to deal with, even thought part of me knows they’re probably irrational it feels like i have evidence to back it up’ and people immediately take it personally like i’m saying they’re not safe. despite. me outright saying. i know logically it should be irrational. but their reactions just reinforce it so it’s just a loop and tells me, again, never to bring up any of my problems with anyone.
so this all just reinforces that there’s something wrong with me. couple years back i spoke to a friend and how i was frustrated that I seemed to end up in bad spaces and they said ‘well you’re the one thing in common so its probably your fault’ and obviously they’re not my friend anymore but that has affected me so deeply. i can’t do anything without overthinking, whenever anything goes wrong i tear apart everything i’ve done and everything i’ve said or thought and i don’t know why things keep going bad. i try so hard but i’m just. not right.
so it all teaches me that there’s no point in reaching out in trying to talk to people because if i say ‘hey this hurt me’ i get ignored at best or torn down, yelled at, scolded. no point in trying to talk to new people because everyone just walks away at some point. not even a natural drift apart, i can handle that. but just very suddenly, they’re gone, off with better people doing better things.
roundabout, ties back to ‘consumption versus community’ - this is why i’ve been struggling so hard with lack of engagement on my sideblog. lucky to get a dozen notes on anything i make, unless it’s something other people can use (like mods) and even THEN it’s rare to see much activity. and that was FINE because i had people to talk to elsewhere, who would ask questions and we could back and forth and i shared my stuff and they shared those and it didnt matter if my posts only got a dozen notes because i had friends to talk to.
now i get (example) seven notes, six of which are likes and one is a reblog with no commentary. when i have something with a ton of notes, still, minimal commentary, no one talks to me. even on a mod with five hundred notes it just feels like i went ‘hey i made something :)’ and everyone picked it up and walked away with it, no one went ‘hey this is cool i want to talk to the person who made it.’
and it just feels like 95% of the time, i’m just overlooked. 
and it’s worse than it’s ever been in my entire life, and I wonder, what’s the point of any of this anymore.
why bother to make the posts to share when it all just gets passed by. what’s the point in trying to reach out to new people and make friends when i get lashed out at or left behind? the social is gone out of my social media. i had community, and now it’s gone.
so this has all been going on for months and months and months and hey! suffering. and i dont expect it to get any better, don’t expect this post to fix these issues, but i’ve been trying to say something about all of this for fucking months and i think just, laying it all out is all I can do about it. i’m sure i’ve forgotten some things to touch on but as it is, all these events, all of it happening all together. new traumas, old traumas reawoken, reinforced, i’ve been torn to pieces i don’t know how to function, i can’t remember the last time i felt like even half a real person. taught that the safe, positive spaces that meant so much to me don’t actually exist and they’ll all turn on me and be torn away. nowhere is safe anymore, and trying to make it safe is just going to ruin me again.
people aren’t safe, places aren’t safe, been proven to me time and time again so i just. stay away.
no matter how much i try to fight that, it just doesnt work.
anyway tl;dr beets needs therapy probably
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starryfreckles · 4 years
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Flavie and Ayumi Live (26 mai 2020 on YouTube francetv slash) 
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(I apologise in advance for the typos. i didnt really read this over tbh)
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Interviewer: Where are you at the moment?
Flav: I’m at home, in my room
Ayumi: I’m at my country house in my room. [Her friend joined her there when deconfinement happen and now they’re living their best life. There’s sun and everything is good]
Flav is chilling “la vida loca” she says
Is it not too frustrating to live this 6th season in confinement and SKAM France has a reputation of having very involved fans and with the screenings?
A: Yes, its very frustrating but then again it’s something that I haven’t really lived the projections with the fans so I dont know what it does. But just the feedback of social media is incredible. Its a good preview at what can happen in a live screening.
F: Yea I agree. It is frustrating but seeing everyone on social media is kind of reassuring and comforting and like Ayumi said, we dont know that [the screenings] so its not that frustrating.
what kind of reactions have you guys had on social media?
[flav and ayumi arguing who goes first. Its the cutest thing ever. Flav always wants ayumi to go first]
A: Just love and positivity. On my end is really incredible. I thank everyone. It’s really just incredible.
F: Its so wonderful. At night, I really try to read all the dms on instagram and even if I cant respond to everyone, know that I read everything and I translate everything that isn’t in French. If I  were to reply to everyone, it would take a long time so that’s not possible. I dont speak all the languages of the world so I copy and paste is translate to understand.
-video cuts out-
I: we were talking about fan reactions so let’s continue. Have you gotten any that made you surprised, laugh, smile, made you emotional, etc?
A: what is beautiful is that ive gotten many messages from girls and boys who said that they had similar a similar relationship to Lola and Maya in the sense that one helps the other more because of addiction problems. And that’s always nice to hear that they just wanted to thank skam for writing and portraying this kind of story. And of course the reaction of la mif. It’s true the character Jo has been loved by fans. She is so funny and so great and she’s [actress who plays jo, louise] really like that in real life. Like literally from A to Z
Flav agrees.
A: “Louise just played Louise” and it’s just so funny. And everyone online says they want to be friends with jo becuase she made this joke pr did that but she’s really like that.
F: she’s always joking
A: and she just comes up with stuff on the spot
I: we really just can’t wait to see La Mif reunite and see how they are in real life because they are just awesome on screen.
Flav and ayumi agree
I: Maya’s arrival to the season that was a little intense, let’s not lie, is like a ray of light. What does that do to you for having that role of the character who brings light and wonder? (This is kinda hard to translate)
A: its incredible to bring that kind of message, like you said, this light. She is totally this kind of girl that I would love to be friend with. It’s hard to explain. It’s just so beautiful. Maybe flav has something to say.
F: it’s true that you and La Mif brought a light for everyone. Even me when I see my family and close ones they say that they are so funny and new and that they felt my pain [as lola] even if its a show and its feels weird to see you like that because you’re close to us but seeing them [lola + la mif] is a good mix. And ayumi you bring so much like when your face lights up when Lola comes up the stairs its incredible.
A: its a chemical reaction. Its incredible. But flav I saw you on screen and everything that you brought, what David saw. And we lived it but for us it seems natural and on screen and rediscovered the characters and the chemistry at the same time as everyone else.
Flav and Ayumi saying that they havent seen the whole thing before hand and are constantly check their phone for new clips. They have the notifications for the YouTube channel.
F: we at least have the hours for the clips AT LEASTT and thankfully
A: which flav sent me because I didnt have them and she left me panicked for 2 weeks and then she finally sent them over.
F: its great. They’re on my fridge and I cross off each day with my parents and we are one it. My dad everyday is like there’s a clip. So funny.
I: Just so we’re on the same page, there’s a clip today right?
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I: [fan question] what do you love the most and the least in the character you play?
A: flav please start
F: I love her “who the fuck are you talking to me like that” and her fuck you attitude. I love that she shows off that nothing moves her but deep down not really, like everyone I guess. I love that about her and she’s so natural. I love her, I really love her. Something negative. That’s hard.
I: you are a very happy, bubbly person. Is there not her depressed, dark side that bothers you?
F: well lola is just full of emotions where we’re going to see everything. But really what I dont like is her fashion sense.
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A: im dead. But I was going to say the same thing
F: maya’s fashion sense? You are crazy. And also girl it’s your clothes they used as costumes
A: no no but people have made edits with you know the big pink coat or my outfit at the supermarket and its there that I realised how ridiculous even if they not really.
F: well I think theyre great. Love the pink coat
A: ill send it to you with fedex. I dont have it but ill send it to you.
F: when we were doing costume fittings I told the costume designer that it was simple and that I would be stealing all of these looks. Im going to take a suitcase, im going to take ayumi’s clothes, put them in my suitcase and go back to Vance with them. And I took nothing from lola by the way. She just doesn’t have a style. She doesn’t neglect herself but its her I dont care attitude, again.
A; I love maya’s engagement and her will towards everything and everyone. Shes a teenager but that’s beautiful to be engaged in many causes. She just really wants everyone, her friends, to be well and happy. But otherwise things I dont like outside of her clothes I dont know. Clothes is like the best answer
F: you forgot about her makeup. The makeup artist did her eyeliner and dots under the eyes and I was there like do the same thing with me!
A: that is really the best thing in all of humanity. It was so cool.
F: honestly. The makeup artist gave everything on you but on me she went in the morning like poof poof ‘well that’s it honey, there’s nothing else I can do for you’
A: you forgot the drama hair!
F: oh my god. She would pour oils and everything you want on my head. “You could like cook French fries”
A: flavie says that but you know she can wear whatever she wants and still look good
F: awe I love you
I: Did the age difference between you hinder your ability to be friends?
A: no not at all. What do you think flav?
F: not at all. Im just the baby of the group, im the youngest but we all so dumb together that we don’t realise
A: exactly. We all act like we’re 7
F: all of us together is horrible. The whole mif. Intolerable.
I: how was youre guy’s first meet?
F: ok let me tell you from my point of view because its quite funny.
A: she was so annoying. She looked at me all weird. she was not cool No that’s not true at all. She was adorable. Trop cute
F: I arrive to the production offices and im with David signing contracts and he says don’t move I have a surprise. And im like oh no what has he brought me a croissant or something and he brings back ayumi. So we start talking for like 10 minutes and I did not who she was actually. And I was like who tf is this. I did not know. And im one point im like so she’s the one who plays Maya? It was so funny. It was cool. And then he brought Maxence
A: from my point of view, flavie was so shy and locked off. And I knew who she was and I was honoured and thrill. She was so small and closed off. But honestly NOT AT ALL. i quickly understood the next day that flavie is a bomb! You understand ?
F: at first maybe you were like “I just want to protect this little thing.”
I: so what was the first scene that you guys filmed together?
Ayumi makes it clear that it’s a scene that hasn’t been released yet. And Flavie can’t remember what it is.
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A: flav, you are putting our whole relationship in question!
F: I just dont know!
A: ok but the second scene we did together was the scene of Saturday morning after the first urban party
F: OHHH you right! I remember now!
I: but that’s a great scene that fans loved because of the chemistry and people loved it. How did you create that complexity? Was it the writing or did you try to meet up on your own?
F: honestly, not that much because the problem is that I live in Vance. We really tried to see each other but trains made it difficult to see each other just us two, but it still worked somehow. We worked a lot with David but not so much just us too and yet we still manage to create something really strong and powerful.
A: in between scenes we also just talked all the freaking time. And by the time David said action, it was like we just finishing our conversation in the scene.
F: every morning we were always happy to see each other and we didn’t see each other that much but that honestly wasn’t a problem at all.
I: in the YouTube comments, everyone is slightly making fun of flavie for living so “far”
A: [also starts making fun of flavie] oh yea yea basically 45 minutes.
F: BY TRAIN! By car its like 2 hours and a half, so sorry.
A: you don’t even have a driver license! So you have to take the train!
F: alright I almost have my drivers license! Soon supposedly! And don’t worry ill come pick you up in my ride!
Ayumi makes more fun of Flavie for her hours of driving and her basically driving illegally (in France you can only drive at 18 and flav is 17)
I: what was the most difficult scene to film for you?
F: well im not gonna answer. I can’t answer
A: honestly I dont have any. Oh wait yes yes yes! I just remembered. Flav you do know! It’s the scene where I tell you that ive missed you.
F: oh right! You were sick right!
A: yea I had shrimp for lunch. Bad shrimp and in the scene im in process of dying. I have never been in more pain and discomfort.
F: and I was like why is she angry at me? What did I do?
A: and flav is like are you okay and thank god you were there flav because she was telling me breathe and take it slow. It was the difficult
F: for me the most difficult that we’ve seen is was hard because of weather conditions. It was so cold on the whole set but it was the one where we were around the fire and jo sees eliott for the first time, the first urbex party. We were getting fire embers in our eyes so we were all crying and complaining. It was awful. Louise was actually crying so so hard.
A: it was so funny. Louise was actually crying and was joking at the same time whilst crying. We were laughing so hard.
The say that night was still a lot of fun and then they all went to Quentin’s apartment [actor who plays sekou] and the ambiance on set is better than on screen. It was a lot of fun
A: la mif always has a great time, messing around
F: David would say “FOCUS FOCUS”
I: it was mid November, and we all know skam france shooting is very intense and fast. So David was like a police officers. We cant wait to see the behind the scenes. David in the comments says thank you to all the extras who were there until 4am
F:  oh yea honestly. Thank you– just thank you
A: oh yea flav thanks for that. Its great.
I: we know there’s a clip today with a reunion. And fans are expecting a kiss. Are we getting that moment today?
(Silence)
A: listen if there is a kiss, it will happen at a perfect moment
I: there is a lot of pressure on this kiss becuase there are so many people from the LGBTQ+ community who are saying that this kind of relationship is rarely seen on screen. Do you feel the need to do good?
F: its so well written and directed that we do want to do really well. Ok your turn
A: the want to do good, of crows but its already something we want to do. We are not forcing ourselves, because its already there.
They say that its sad for the time being that they have to continue to fight for rights in the LGBTQ community and Ayumi says that with SKAM its all going to change. They always get lovely messages thanking them.
They talk about the ship name and how fans have decided that is going to be Mayla. Ayumi is happy that its Mayla. Flav wanted Loyla. Ayumi says it was their first “fight” and they weren’t agreeing. Even la mif voted on the ship. It was heavily debated.
I: Are we right to have so much faith in Mayla or are you going to break our hearts?
F: for that you’ll have to keep watching
A: well said flav
F: l’amour gange toujours
I: what is next for you two?
F: not much. Im seeing friends at a distant. Stay safe. I was starting to miss my social life. Not going out too much because I really dont want to get “this vicious/awful thing” so yea “la vida loca”
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F: project wise everything is on pause but im on a good path. Crossing my fingers. If it happens it happens. Its destiny
A: its destiny. Same thing. There was a movie that stopped before quarantine and won’t start again but there are castings. Until filming starts again, we are all waiting.
I: it’s funny, everything something is said, it gets translated in the comments in five or six languages. Have you taken something from your character and have you left them something?
A: her joy to live at everything. And give her my body to just exist
F: what I took, well nothing. I gave her 7kg more. Well actually I took from her 7kg. That’s it!
I: who forgets their lines the most?
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F: ME! But you too kinda. You just talk SOOO fast you start to stutter
A: I talk too fast and then I stutter and it was so cold that that doesn’t help. So in front of flavie, she really made fun of me.
F: I didnt always forget but sometimes when its really long I forgot.
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multifics-canary · 5 years
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Marinette's New Shield ch. 2
Ch.1
A/n: guys, thank you so much for your interest in my first posted miraculous story!!! I do have others that I play around with(literally wrote one while at work) and might decide to post those in some near future. This is a little longer than the first one. And I might make a little chapter series. I don't own miraculous ladybug!! And please dont steal this :D
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Plans are simple, especially if you do it accordingly. Lila's plan was easy to see through. Make a few little lies about your life to get people's attention, shed a few tears to get what you want, make sure no one stands in your way.
Things seemed to have backfired with Marinette, so Lila made sure to spin those lies towards Marinette. Little bullying antics and maybe one or two threats. Ruby doesn't like amateurs, especially ones like her who take advantage of others. It's also the class's fault for believing things that could be checked online.
In the few weeks she's been here, she knew everyone's name and other information. One surrounding factor was that Marinette has helped all of them and has gotten nothing in return. Genuinely, that's what a good person does. But in Marinette's case, they take advantage of her kindness. And since Lila arrived, they've ignored all the good things she did for them and thought the young designer was a jealous bitch.
Be confident in yourself. She told the designer before leaving that day. There's a complexity to making plans. The crucial thing is that it doesn't backfire. Somehow, Marinette trusted Ruby to make things right. And Ruby would make sure to rightfully deserve that trust.
Alya's friendship with Marinette was more or less normal at first, a friend trying to encourage the other to be more confident and stand for herself. It worked wonders. Then Alya starts accusing Marinette of not having facts when she should have them first. She's the journalist, not Marinette. And yet, believed those lies a pretty Italian was spilling. Hypocrite.
They would regret doing losing Marinette. Ruby would make sure of it.
"Rubes!" The girl in question looked up at her name being called, seeing Alya walking towards her, Lila next to her. She had a scowl on her face but quickly changed to a smile when Alya turned to her. Your reaction times are pathetic.
"What can I do for you ladies?"
"We're having a picnic later at the park and we were wondering if you wanted to join us. The whole class will be there!" Alya says excitedly. Ruby had a feeling it two certain people weren't invited, however, she didn't say anything.
"I'll have to check if I'm able to. A family member of mine asked for a small photoshoot session and I promised I'd be there on time."
"Oh Wow!" Alya's excitement seemed innocent enough, her interest viewable from miles around. "You're a model like Adrien?" Lila seemed interested in the conversation, seeing as she looked up in surprise.
"Not really. I pose for a few photos, but I'm more the one behind the camera. Well that's what I'm still learning anyways." She replied watching both girls reactions. One of pure excitement and the other of skepticism. If Lila didn't believe her, that's her problem. Even her uncle Gabriel was impressed with her skills, so she had no interest in impressing a common liar.
Her beginning plan is simple, befriend the class to get to know them. But not get close to any if them but Marinette, who needed the most support. That was step one. Lila already has the mindset that Ruby could be planning, but that was the point. So the liar could be aware of what was to come, just not know how much. And how Ruby loves it when they don't know.
"What else do you do?" Alya states excitedly, bringing the girl out of her thoughts. The 'reporter' had her phone out, filming her.
"Nothing special really. I write for a small media company. They're helping me with getting both my informative and creative pages out there. I have friend editing a small book I'm writing in English as we speak."
"In English?! What a scoop! You have to give me details, girl!" Alya practically screamed, her eyes shinning brightly. Surprisingly Lila hasn't said anything, but Ruby had no doubt the girl would make up a lie that related to what she heard.
"Maybe later. There's some things I have to do. As well as homework." Ruby stated, leaning back on the bench she was at in the first place. Alya deflated a bit but understood, both girls waving goodbye before leaving. Lila looked back at Ruby, glaring a little at her, but the girl wasn't worried. She raised an eyebrow before rolling her eyes, taking out her phone to study.
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True to Ruby's word, she was the one behind the camera. But she wasn't alone. One of the model's that works for Gabriel Agreste himself was there, along with Adrien, his photographer, Gorilla, Chloe, and Marinette. Ruby invited the girls and ran into Adrien who wanted to talk with Ruby when they both got breaks.
The photo shoot was going well, both Marinette and Chloe impressed by the professionalism Ruby had.
"You lied to Alya and Lila?"
"Technically I didn't. This model is actually a close friend, almost family. And Adrien is a family member, so only you guys know this. But what they don't know, won't hurt em." Ruby replies, when they get a small break to stretch before another shoot.
"And yet it could if they see us here." Adrien says, walking up to the three girl's. Guess it's time. Adrien glanced at Marinette before turning back to his cousin, his eyes telling her everything.
"Guys I'll be back. Me and Adrien are going to talk for a bit." Marinette and Chloe shared a look before nodding, watching as the cousins moved away.
"I know what I said to her was wrong," Adrien started, not waiting Ruby to speak. "Taking the high road isn't really ideal, but I want to help her. The smile I used to see is so fake now, and I can see she's hurting." Adrien had small tears in his eyes, and Ruby saw something shift in his shirt.
"Rubes, I don't know what to do." The blonde boy said and he looked like the same 6 year old who wondered why his father barely had time for him. Silently, she stepped forward and gave her cousin a hug, feeling him wrap his arms around her. They stayed like that for a little bit, before she pulled away and ruffled his hair.
"Admitting that is already progress. All you have to do now is talk with her. Apologize and listen to her side of the story. These so called akumas may target Lila if she gets found out, yes, but that would also make her a willing target. I heard from Marinette that she has been akumatized 3 times. You have every right to not join in me taking down Lila, but as long as you're there for Marinette, that's enough." Ruby spoke gently, patting her cousin's blonde little head. He smiled brightly, his watery green eyes shinning.
"Thank you Rubes. I don't know what I would do with you."
"You'd mope around the mistake you made until it was too late." She deadpanned, and the blonde laughed.
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Not far from where the cousins were, two girls watched in shock of what was happening. Alya quickly took out her phone and recorded, all while Lila fummed next to her. Adrien is mine!
"Lets ask them! Maybe Ruby's a rival." Alya said, wiggling her eyebrows at Lila, who quickly changed her facial expression to shock. The blogger grabbed Lila's arm and dragged her over to the two.
"...of course I love her, she's family you idiot. And one of the best female models around. Unless we got Marinette to join. She gives off two tones, I'm surprised you havent noticed."
"Well you do have a special sense for these things." Adrien shrugged lazily, wrapping an arm around her shoulder.
"Well she gives off a type of flower princess for one. Think about it. She already has flower designs, I've seen them by the way, and with her modeling one of those outfits and you with your title as sunshine child? The fans will go wild! But underneath that flower princess is a storm. Like a female warrior naturally leading everyone to peace." Ruby ranted off, fully aware of company they were gonna have.
"I never thought about it that way. I mean yeah, I call her our everyday ladybug, but flower princess makes more sense. Actually--"
"Hey guys!" Ruby and Adrien turned to see Alya with her phone out, loosely followed by a dragged Lila, who glared dangerously at Ruby.
"This is Alya coming to you with a new scoop! This is Ruby, she's a new student at out school and have we got news! She's a photographer, a model, and a writer! Granted, she hasn't traveled or given us a bunch of stories like my best friend Lila, but she's already up in the charts. And look at this!" Alya turned the camera to show Ruby and Adrien hold each other rather intimately. "Could they be a couple? Or is Ruby a rival to famous Lila?"
"Wait what?" Ruby raised an eyebrow, glancing at her cousin, who practically wanted to facepalm.
"Come on, girl! We know Adrien is the ultimate heartthrob with his sweet personality. Now, spill. Do you guys like each other? This is another rivalry between two well known people?" Alya said, practically shoving the camera at their faces. Ruby frowned deeply, moving the camera out of the way, much to Alya's confusion.
"I don't like cameras so close to me, thank you very much. And second me and Adrien are friends, we've known each other for years." Ruby stated, growing annoyed with Alya.
"But even friends become couples! If I didn't think Lila had a chance with Adrien, you guys would make a cute couple!" Apparently, that was the wrong thing to say. Ruby watched as Lila fummed even more, her eyes now on all three of them. Alya blissfuly unaware while Adrien slowly backed away, Ruby standing in front of him.
Lila radiated so much negative energy, Ruby knew it was only a matter of time before an akuma came. True to her thought, she spotted a black butterfly fluttering over to the Italian girl. Somehow, as if sensing it, she turned, spoting the akuma before smirking. Thinking quickly, she pushed Adrien back and dashed past Alya, just as Lila was about to grab the akuma.
Ruby grabbed her wrist and with her other hand, let the akuma flutter to her family bracelet. Everyone stared in shock as Ruby let go of Lila and fell on the floor, holding her head. She vaguely heard Alya and Adrien yell out her name in concern.
Not far from where they are, Marinette felt her purse shift in the direction where the cousins had left and turned, gasping when she saw Ruby holding her head as Adrien, Alya, and Lila --in her case pretend-- to calm Ruby down. She saw the purple outline and dashed towards them, Chloe right behind her.
"Hmm, you are not ms. Rossi. No matter, your protective anger of wanting to help a friend is powerful. White knight, I give you the power to protect your friend from a manipulative liar. In return, I want Ladybug's and Chat Noir's miraculous."
"No." Ruby said loudly, her eyes snapped open as she slowly stood up, wobbling in her place. No one touched her, but stayed close in any case. "You made a mistake, Hawkmoth. Because I know now who you are." She said quietly, a hunt of saddness in her voice. Everyone around her was freaking out, but Marinette just kept staring at Ruby, slowly inching toward.
She wrapped her fingers lightly on Ruby's akumatized bracelet, and the girl snapped her head to the young designer. "Have fun trying to get your akuma back, Hawkmoth. I'm keeping it until Ladybug comes to purify it."
"You insolent girl! Give in to your anger!" Hawkmoth practically yelled, sending a wave of pain to her. She winced, closing her eyes tightly as she felt Marinette grab both of her wrists, grounding her.
"I have no anger. You're trying to give me yours. Now if you'll excuse me, I have things to do." Ruby calmly stated, severing the connection between her and the villain. Once it was gone, she groaned, falling forward. If it wasn't for Marinette holding her, she would've collapsed.
"Rubes can you hear me?" Marinette says quietly, Chloe trying to shush the growing group around them. Ruby blinked a few times as her eyes began to focus on blue eyes.
"H-hey maribug." The girl finally said, watching as Marinette let out a sigh of relief. She let Ruby lean on her, keeping a careful eye of the akumatized item.
"Ruby thank you so much! I would've been akumatized if you hadn't saved me." Lila spoke first, smiling brightly at her, though her eyes held a dangerous glint. Somehow the whole class was there, thanking her and asking if both she and Lila were okay.
The girl just smiled weakly, still feeling the negative effects of the akuma. It took a while bit eventually the class left, having a picnic to go in another area of the park.
Only Alya and Lila stayed behind, one filled with worry while the other was filled with silent anger. "Ruby, you sure you're okay?" Alya asked, warily glancing at Marinette, who was still holding on to the girl.
"I'm fine. Marinette can take care me. It's not like I have anything against her." Ruby deadpanned, before quickly relaxing so the akuma can't turn her. Alya seemed shocked by the statement, and had no time to respond, feeling Lila pull her away.
"Chloe, help me get her out to a more secluded area." Marinette spoke, the blonde nodding. Adrien had disappeared, probably getting something or going back to the photo shoot.
Both girls helped Ruby to the back of the bakery, which was the closest. Marinette left, saying she'll bring some water and cookies. So Ruby stayed with Chloe, who for some reason was having a mental breakdown, though she hid it well.
Ruby closed her eyes and leaned her head on Chloe's shoulder, waiting for Marinette or Ladybug.
Only after a few minutes, both Ladybug and Chat Noir arrive quietly, not wanting to startle the girl. Chloe-- who had a red face, Marinette would talk to her later-- gently woke Ruby up, and saw saw the heroes in front of her.
"Are you okay?" Ladybug asked softly, chat helping her sit up.
"I'm fine, Ladybug. Just a little tired. The akuma is in my bracelet." She holds up her arm, and a darkened bracelet practically glares at the heroes.
"Chat Noir said that he saw you were keeping the akuma, and not being akumatized is very brave of you." Ladybug smiled, removing the bracelet and handing it to Chat Noir.
She summoned a lucky charm, catching it and staring in confusion at the item. It was a phine that had a picture of Chloe, Ruby, Adrien, and Marinette. Chloe face was red while Ruby held her possessively, and Marinette and Adrien were smiling in satisfaction.
Later. The heroine thought to herself as Chat Noir destroyed the bracelet and she caught the akuma, purifying it and throwing the lucky charm in the air. The little ladybugs fixed the broken bracelet and Ruby practically relaxed against Chloe.
"Do you know how the akuma came to you anyways?" Chloe said after a while, her face beet red.
"Alya thought me and Adrien were flirting with each other. Which one, gross, and two we're cousins. And even if we weren't related, he'd be like a little brother to me. So the reporter, who really doesn't know what she's doing, kept saying all this stuff that made me seem like a big deal and could rival Lila. Obviously she didn't like that. Then Alya said that if she didn't think Lila and Adrien would look good, I'd look great with him." Ruby said, rolling her eyes while Ladybug pinched the bridge of her nose.
"Ridiculous. Utterly ridiculous. Ladybug, you need to do something about lie-la. And the supposed 'ladyblog' that is filled with lies." Chloe huffed, watching Chat Noir nodding a little in agreement.
"Actually. I have a plan, and I could use your help." Ruby stated, smirking at the heroes.
The Paris saviors looked at each other, the black clad hero nodding at his partner. Turning back to Ruby, Ladybug smirked, a hand on her hip.
"We're listening."
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As a Villain Stan Chapter 266 broke me, did you think Hawks was capable of doing something like this? I've always seen him as little more... chill and relaxed? i guess? i didn't think he'd actually go for the kill, especially as we havent seen heroes do that before in the series (I mean look at AFO, he is the worst of the worst and they just locked him up). I think this is a big turn in the series if we're actually going to have each side kill each other
Oh, I like this ask! Okie, here’s my scattered thoughts organized a bit, hope you can make sense of them :) For those who’re up to reading this (if it wasn’t obvious by the ask) this will contain spoilers for ch266. I know it’s out officially already but some may not have read it/be caught up to it. Also, in case I dive in to some not so savory topics, do practice discretion. You’ve been forewarned!
Okay, so I’ve separated this answer into 3 parts for you so it’s easier to digest and read :) Pardon the grammar and stuff! Also I realized how freaking long it got after writing so I’m gonna just leave it under ‘read more’.
1. Hawks’ killing someone. 
Short answer: yes. It’s always been in the back of my mind that Hawks is capable of such a thing. Setting headcanons aside as much as I’m able to, if we look into his background, the guy was basically indoctrinated into the whole ‘hero’ business. Though a vague comparison and quite a stretch, it kind of reminded me of child soldiers and how’re their trained from a young age for the one purpose. A single difference I see is that Hawks is capable of individual thought. That is to say, he isn’t totally lost his sense of self because of his upbringing as the commission’s trained ‘hero’. But the way I’ve seen it through canon, that same sense of self was greatly shaped by the way he was saved. 
Take for example how he says he wants a world where hero’s have more free time than they know what to with thing. The way I’ve seen it, is that it’s a singular idea coming from his experiences, shaped by the life he’s led but in itself shaped by what they’ve made him out to be. If he were a normal hero (i.e. had wanted to become one by his own volition and gone through the whole ordeal like any other kid like the kids from UA or Shiketsu), sure he’d want peace but I highly doubt it’d be so the world and people could rest easy. The way I see it (and this is with the knowledge that we truly don’t know what his own intentions are), if villains are gone and heroes have more free time, it’d allow him freedom that he’s never experienced since the time he got picked up by the Public Hero Comm. 
I’ll stop at this example since I’m starting to dig into my own headcanon, but this is what I’ve got so far. I’m not one to overanalyze but given what little we know about his past and upbringing and coupled with the way he was ‘raised’ to be a hero, I was prepared for him to do what he believes has to be for the sake of what mission he’s given. His whole purpose in life has been to be a hero, and what does a hero do? They assure the safety of the populace regardless of the cost. Be that cost come from them or the minority that will be hurt by what they do. 
2. Ideology of Heroes and Villains. 
As for the point that we haven’t seen a hero do that before, I completely agree. We haven’t. But imo that’s the brilliance of this chapter and overall the build-up we’ve seen to this arc. That is taking into account that Twice has indeed been killed by Hawks (cuz there’s a small part of me that thinks maybe, just maybe he’s still alive. I really like the fellow TwT).
The idea we have of a hero (especially someone like Hawks who, as you said, has’t given off that ‘image’) is a makeshift idea that we’ve had ingrained into us. It’s funny how innately we are aware of the definition of heroes and villains without bothering to think where or how that idea itself formed in our heads. Heroes do the right thing, they are good, and that, by proxy, means not killing. Villains are, by lack of a better word, the bad guys. They hurt others, they’re selfish, and by extension, they’re capable of killing. It’s what the media and other mediums of entertainment have taught us with their archetypes. 
But it’s something that, through this chapter and arc, has been cracked in the minds of some and completely broken in the minds of others. Idk if you’re aware (and if i’ve heard things right) about how some Hawks stans are starting to drop him after this chapter and after what he did to Twice. Frankly, I couldn’t care less about those people, but they’re reaction is something that interested me quite a bit. More so the way, they could make such a split second decision with the one action. This is why I’m freaking loving this arc. After ‘my villain academia’ arc, Hori has given us a reason to care about these characters. About Toga, about Twice, about Compress, about Spinner, about Dabi, and especially about Shigaraki. But let’s cut the middle man out and go straight into the one that got this whole ball rolling: Twice. I’ve been in love with the League ever since the Overhaul arc, because since then is when I saw how this little group of misfits was starting to become a wholesome family unit. You saw a little of that in the Kamino arc but imo it started way back in the Overhaul arc. Since then we’ve been implanted with little reasons to like these characters and empathize with them and it was all in preparation for the a grand, bombastic punch in the gut that was the Meta Liberation Army arc. Imo, this chapter may have looked like the turning point, and it may have certainly been, but the damn match that started it all was that arc. It gave readers a reason to care about ‘the others’ and instead of villains, we now have this idea of people ostracized by a society that didn’t give them the opportunity to be themselves. That arc dealt with the cemented idea of ‘villains’.
This chapter dealt the blow to the other side of this coin. Hawks killing Twice, a person we’ve seen to be the product of the very world and society the heroes upheld, was the last drop to shatter the idea of them being all good. We’ve seen/heard of villains killing heroes, but, as you said, we haven’t been privy of the idea of heroes killing villains in this story. And even if we had, that’s not what made this the huge deal that it became. It’s not because it happened that the community is shocked, but because it happened to a character we love. That we became attached to. That we came to know. 
Think of it this way. It’s the same reason why it pained us when Nighteye died. We knew Nighteye’s motivations, his hopes, his dreams for the future. And though we knew a little bit of Overhaul, we had been most exposed to Nighteye’s pov. This time, that got turned around on us. Yes, we love Hawks (I stan the damn birb brain) but we don’t really know him. We know the hero, we don’t know the person. Twice, on the other hand, we’ve known the villain. We’ve knew him as Twice when he first got introduced and then got to know him as Bubaigawara Jin. We got to know the person, not just the villain. And it was a shock to see that person die by the hands of what amounts to a completely stranger. 
Sorry I’ve gone overboard but I just freaking love this arc for the gut punch it’s serving. It’s quite a simple story writing technique if you strip it down to its bare bones. You give the character importance and it gives weight to their existence. And once you’ve got that weight added, it’s easy to toy around with it. It can make us cheer for them, hate them, empathize with them, and, as is in this case, pain us when they’re gone. 
3. Turning point
Like I said before, I agree this is a turning point, not so much for the story but for the stakes involved. We care about both sides, we’ve become attached. So in the end, no matter if more are to die and more to the point, who kills who if it comes down to it, we are gonna get the damn feels of a lifetime. I don’t doubt there’s gonna be losses from both sides. Losses we are gonna mourn like hell. And, if I’m being completely honest though I hope against hope that I’m wrong, I am preparing myself mentally to see Hawks die or be physically handicapped after this arc. If he isn’t, holy crap will that have been the most tense arc of the story for me. If he does, well, I think we’ll be as saddened by it too.
Well that’s as much as I’ve got. Hope it answered your question is a little bit :D I don’t usually write meta-commentary but it was fun to do this :3
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shhh-no-ones-home · 4 years
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media mania(*) peter parker x reader
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Okay so y'all know that tik tok trend of the girlfriend standing in front of her SO And dropping her towel? Yeah well that was the inspo for this so enjoy.
Also this takes place way in the future, after thanos and graduation, and all that other fun jazz. Think like their both college age.
* - it's implied but doesn't have a follow through. They've been together for a long time (and are trying to get pregnant to say the least)
Song: baby by carla thomas
tag list: @cynic-spirit
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I finished drying myself off and brushing out my hair before opening tik tok. I never meant to get addicted to it but It just kind of happened. As I scrolled through the 'for you' page I found a video that intrigued me. It was a lady dropping her towel in front of her unsuspecting boyfriend and her filming his reaction. I laughed at first before realizing that I had, in that moment, the perfect set up for this to possibly work. I was still in a towel and had a phone with a tik tok account on it. What could possibly go wrong? other than, possibly someone else in the compound seeing me naked but that was a risk i was willing to take.
I started recording, showing myself in my towel quickly in the mirror before walking down the hallway to where peter was. I closed the door so no passer bys would see us and made my way to him. He was sat at his desk, playing a game, trash talking as best he could into his headset. I watched the small hairs on the back of his neck raise as I got closer. When I was close enough i dropped my towel and waited, it took him a second to notice me. I smiled widely to myself as he took a quick side glance at me, realizing what was happening after a second look. His mouth hung open as he dropped his controller to the desk. I laughed, watching his reaction as well as the shakiness of my hand holding the recording phone. His mouth hung open.
"Wow."
He said, making me giggle. Then realization washed over him.
"what, You wanna do this now? Like it's time?"
He asked in disbelief, making me laugh more. I nodded and he stood up, walking towards me but getting choked by his headphone cord. He made a weird croaking sound before pulling them off. I laughed as the recording stopped. I went to post it but dropped my phone to the ground as he picked me up, draping me over his shoulder.
"Ah! Peter put me down!"
I laughed, watching the tiles disappear behind us as he opened the door and walked with me back down the hallway to our shared room.
"Peter I'm naked!"
I protested as held me tightly to him.
"You said now."
He quipped back, making me shake my head.
"We could've done it in there, then no one else would see me. You know we dont exactly have our own private wing."
I said a little panicked. We were in the compound after all, and no matter if we had our own wing or not there was still a chance patrol would be walking around. Or cap for that matter, Sam liked to take jogs around the building.
"No ones out, it's fine."
Peter squeezed my leg as he kicked the door open, walking me across the room and dropping me on the bed, making me laugh.
"You dork, what if Sam would've been out?"
He laughed a little bit.
"But he wasnt. Now do you really wanna do this? Like it's time?"
I nodded, sitting back a bit.
"So says the calendar. I was gonna ask tonight but I saw a tik tok."
I blushed madly at the thought and he just shrugged.
"Works for me."
He said, a smirk spreading across his face. I raised a brow at him before he bent down and kissed me passionately. I hummed into his mouth as he pushed me further up the bed.
"Let's do this."
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I sat on the couch in the lounge and scrolled through my phone, watching more tik toks and answering more of people's comments on the video I had posted of Peter's reaction. It had kind of gotten crazy after i posted it a few weeks back. i didnt think anything of it but I was shaken from my thoughts when I heard the ringing of the phone. I sighed deeply before answering it, shuri popping up in front of me with a wide smile on her face.
"Hey."
I said cooly. She just looked at me knowingly.
"Why didn't you tell me you were trying to start a family? Imagine a little super baby running around!"
She said excitedly. I was so confused, and that must've shown on my face.
"Look,"
She said, pulling up a news article for me to see.
"This was posted this morning about the tik Tok you made! Everyone is saying it's about time you two get to it."
She joked and my eyes went wide. We hadn't told anyone we were trying yet. After all we'd been together for a while but we didn't want anyone to expect anything from our attempts.
"Shuri was does the article say exactly?"
She pulled it up and started playing the feed. I watched the telecaster in worry.
"Young avenger y/h/n filmed yesterday her and her long time boyfriend before getting busy. The trend has popped up on the popular app tik Tok of women dropping their towels for their boyfriend's to catch their reaction. In the video y/n's partner asks if 'its time?' confirming media accusations that the couple have been trying for a third member of their family. We have reason to believe-"
I dropped the feed, cutting him off as I went back to shuri.
"How could they possibly get that we are trying to start a family out of that?!"
I said angrily, crossing my arms over my chest and falling into one of the chairs at the table. She just shrugged.
"I don't know, but is it true?"
I sent her a look and hesitated before answering.
"Well yeah but we weren't telling anyone until it actually happened. Do you know how much pressure that puts you under? It's bad enough I've been stressing about trying anyways and now everyone's gonna start asking how it's going. And I am not ready for that!"
i watched her as she just shrugged.
"dont think too much about it. you dont have to confirm anything with anyone."
i pouted a little bit but my attention being pulled away when peter walked into the room.
"hey baby."
he said, pecking me on the cheek.
"hey shuri."
he said, sitting next to me and taking my hand in his.
"hey peter."
she said knowingly and he looked at me a little confused. i rolled my eyes.
"the news has been reporting that we are trying to start a family."
his eyes went wide and i watched a deep blush creep to his face.
"theyre what?"
he croaked out, making me laugh a little bit.
"i was kind of surprised too, i mean i did post that video weeks ago. i guess it just took longer for it to go viral?"
i asked looking to shuri.
"doesnt it always?"
she asked and i shrugged.
"well either way id better get going, brother needs help with something."
i nodded.
"tell him we say hi."
she nodded back before disconnecting the call. i looked back at peter who was just staring at the table.
"are you okay pete?"
i asked, rubbing his back absentmindedly.
"i dont know y/n, knowing that people know weve been doing that makes me feel weird."
i sent him a pity smile.
"would it make you feel better knowing it paid off?"
he looked at me and raised a brow.
"what do you mean?"
i inhaled deeply.
"well, i wanted to wait to tell you but... im late."
he looked a little confused for a second before it clicked.
"wait, like late late? like we could possibly be pregnant?"
i laughed a little bit and nodded.
"i havent taken a test yet but possi-"
he cut me off when he brought me into a tight hug.
"we could be pregnant?"
he asked again, more excited this time. when he pulled away he held my arms in his hands.
"we could be pregnant!"
he practically yelled, making me laugh.
"oh my god."
he said pulling me into another hug.
"i love you so much."
i hugged him back, kissing his neck lightly.
"i love you too peter."
he pulled away and stood up, taking my hand and dragging me up too.
"come on! weve gotta go get a test!"
he said, pulling me out of the lounge. i just laughed at him as he led us down the hall.
"peter youre gonna take my arm off."
he looked back at me but kept walking.
"time is of the essence y/n."
i shook my head at him and picked up the pace.
"goof ball."
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BlackPink’s reaction to learning that their S/O is a CEO
Jisoo:
She was scrolling through twitter on the way home after picking you up when she saw the tweet. For a moment, she just stared at the screen of her phone, confused by the tweet because that was you in the photo. Setting her phone down on her lap with the screen still unlocked, she held up her hands and said, “wait.”
You looked over at her confused, “what’s the matter, darling?”
“You’re a CEO? Of CherryPick CO. and you didn’t tell me?”
“What? Where did you get that from?”
She held up the phone to show you the tweet, “that’s you, right? same clothes and everything you are wearing right now.”
You were quiet as you looked at the picture. Your mind jumbling for a way to answer because you wanted to wait a little longer to tell her. Sighing, you rest your head against the seat, “I guess the cats out of the bag now,” you turn your head to look at Jisoo, “I am the CEO of CherryPick CO.”
“Why didn’t you tell me,” Jisoo’s head tilted.
“Because we were talking all the time about how you want to be treated like a normal person and I wanted the same. But I am not as present in the media as you are, so I thought I cold hide my identity and let you fall in love with me and not my money.”
“You thought I would use you for your money?”
“No, but I didn’t think that with the last person I dated either.”
Jisoo slid her hand across the middle seat and into yours that were in your lap. her thumb soothingly rubs circles in your palm as her eyes stay on yours, “I’m with you for you. I fell in love with you and I could care less about the money.” Jisoo leaned across and pressed her lips on yours. Her warmth causing you to melt into the kiss and give in.
Despite your experiences in the past with relationships, you let yourself trust Jisoo and she comes through with all the love in the world for you.
Jennie:
The two of you just got home and she was quick to plop down on the couch after helping you get your bags into your room. You sit down next to her on your phone as well, but as your scrolled, your eyes grew tired from the trip. You let them slide closed as you rest your head against Jennie’s shoulder, she smiles at you before going back to her phone, but as her finger slides the screen up, she sees the picture of you.
At first she was scared that they found out about the two of you, but as she read the tweet, she was more shocked by the revelation. She just stared at her screen, waiting for the words to change, but they didn’t. Even worse, everything made sense. Your long trip away that you claimed were to visit family, those cancelled dates because you had to work late that night, the random phone calls that you would always dismiss yourself to answer out of ear shot. All of it clicked.
She pulled her eyes away from the phone to watch your peaceful figure. Your eyes were shut as you mouth parted just a little bit. Your breathing was slow as you adjusted yourself and your chest was now pressed more against her arm. She had no idea what she would say to you, but she knew she would have to confront you about it.
Instead of waking you up that moment, she would ponder on why you hadn’t told her.
When you did wake up, she would try to start a casual conversation before sliding into the confrontation, where she will learn that you are a CEO and your reasoning behind not telling her. She might need a few days to process because she still felt that you didn’t trust her as much as she had thought, but with a short break, the two of you will talk again and work things out.
Rosé:
The moment she saw the tweet, she would look up at you and ask you about it, “What is this?”
She shoved the phone over your way, and it takes you a moment to focus on the text on the screen. After reading the tweet, you stutter, “W-well. Um,” a heat rushes up your neck as you scratch the back of it. Avoiding eye contact as excuses and apologies tumble in your throat, wanting to get out, but you swallow them down.
“Why wouldn’t you tell me that you are a CEO?”
“Because I didn’t want you to think of me differently,” you still can’t bring yourself to look her in the eyes.
“Why would I think of you differently? Actually, it would have been so much better if I knew this from the start. I was-” She chokes up on the words, “I was st-starting to think…”
“Starting to think what?”
“That you were cheating on me,” you stare at her in disbelief, “what was I supposed to think? You were out late a lot, going on numerous trips, and you would be very secretive about phone calls.”
Her words cause you to sink and reach for her hand as you finally meet her eyes, “I’m sorry that I made you worry like that. I didnt mean for that, Just. I was scared.”
“Scared? Why?”
“People’s attitudes change so much when they learn you are a CEO. I wanted to stay a normal person to you.”
“And you would have. You treat me as a normal person, why wouldnt I do the same for you?”
She slips her other hand onto your cheek as she looks deep into your eyes. You follow through and lean forward, her lips grazing hers before you pull away, “I’m sorry. I promise to not keep something like this from you again,” then you finally let her kiss you.
Lisa:
Upon seeing the tweet, Lisa couldn’t help the giggles that escaped her lips.
“What’s funny babe?”
“my fans on twitter think you are a CEO, but you wouldnt keep something like that from me,” she began giggling again, but when you nervously coughed, her lips fell in confusion, “you wouldnt right.”
“Lisa-”
“Oh my god, you did. You are a CEO. Why havent you told me? We have been together for almost a year now.”
“Wait,” you stumble as you watch her get up and start to walk away. Pushing your self off of your seat, you head towards her and stop her, “let me explain.”
She pulls away from you and glares at your hand, “explain what? You told me you worked in that coffeeshop.”
“That wasn’t fully a lie,” Lisa raises an eyebrow at you, “my company is partnered with them.”
She huffs and turns away from you again, but you were quick and laid your hand on her shoulder. Her head shifts to look at your hand before she looks at your over her shoulder.
“Please, let me explain and then you can decide what to do.”
She watches you for a moment before she lets out a sigh and shifts her weight onto her right leg, resting her hands on her left hip. You wait for confirmation from her, but she just stays silent.
You take her silence as a yes and start explaining. You tell her how you were worried how she would treat you and your past experience with other relationships where you were straight up with the person and they used you for your money. Her eyes soften as you continue on about losing friends and feeling lonely and then she came along. Lisa had treated you like a normal person and you feel for that fast and you wanted to keep that feeling for forever.
Lisa during the explanation had turned back towards you and by the end of it, pulled you into a hug, her lips grazing your cheek before she pulled away, “I understand. I really do, it’s just a lot to process,“ you nod your head along with her words, “I think maybe we should take a short break from each other, because my anger is still there and I want to talk to you with a clear head.”
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chandeloor · 5 years
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thirstycersei replied to your post: someone give me a reason to talk about the jaclyn...
could u do like a summary i have no idea where to start but i luv tea
bless u i LOVE spilling shit about people, esp those shown to be absolutely shit beings dakhgdhgkahdhdagsdg BUT
super short tl;dr: jaclyn hill’s lipsticks are very obviously contaminated with hairs, fibers, and even METAL and people are fr getting injured, but jaclyn is a shit person and has yet to recall them and has instead doubled down that her stuff is safe to use despite more evidence cropping up everyday that something is seriously wrong
i get all my beauty guru tea from the subreddit beautyguruchatter in case you want to look at all the links and stuff yourself, so here’s the link to the first megathread about this (theres also multiple youtube videos and stuff but i def do urge you to see for yourself whats going on!)
so long story short, a month ago jaclyn released the launch video of her new brand, jaclyn cosmetics, and its first launch are nude lipsticks. already we have an issue with the launch - people ordering the lipsticks are not getting them on time despite paying twenty (20!!) whole bucks for expedited shipping but like, okay thats not too horrible things happen
very VERY soon after that we get into the meat of the controversy. one girl first posted that as she was using one of her lipsticks, a weird gritty texture was emerging from the lipstick itself. jaclyn shot her down fast as fuck, calling her a liar and saying that the grittiness came from the girl’s own lips. but soon enough, social media (mainly twitter) was EXPLODING with people coming forward with: that same gritty texture issue, saying they got melted lipsticks, finding weird little spheres of SOMETHING (we just dead dont know) embedded in them, finding fibers/LONG hairs also embedded in them, seeing what appears to be black dots on the surface of the lipsticks, fingerprints, dented packaging like. GIRL. it is a  L O T
pretty pastel please even made a video where she found metal stuck in the surface of a brand-new lipstick, and explains that people are actually being cut and having severe reactions to jaclyn’s lipsticks (which, reactions to makeup are common as everyone’s skin is different, but combined with all the above it...isn’t looking good lol)
jaclyn made two videos: one on youtube where she explained (see: lied her ass off) that none of this was really her fault! her ingredients are fda approved! the lab did this and the lab did that! dont mind the people in the industry calling me out for lying! these lipsticks wont hurt you! (lul) and another one on instagram where she still tried to explain away all these issues and says shes giving everyone a refund, including tax and shipping
now the really, really big issue with all of this is that jaclyn has yet to recall these nasty as fuck lipsticks and thinks that her “best course of action” is to give everyone a complete refund. i do agree that everyone should get a refund, but she shouldve pulled these shits from the shelves the S E C O N D someone said “im finding white fibers embedded in my lipsticks” instead of trying to double down by saying that her product is safe and that her manufacturer is at fault.  for someone like jaclyn (who has had multiple other issues with her past collabs) who claims to be so hands-on and invested in her brand that she’s been working “five years!!” on, it is seriously abhorrent that she continues to allow these to be sold at all when people are literally getting hurt lmfaooooooo
there’s a lot more that i havent covered (like jaclyn’s mom going on the defensive like. two days ago on instagram only to delete her account) but this post is already long as fuck so if u wanna get into the rabbit hole i suggest starting on reddit and twitter, and even some news articles as multiple news sources have covered this at this point
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pabossi · 5 years
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honestly i havent ranted on my personal tumblr for a long long time, but i just need to get everything out of my system because im tired of letting it fester inside me and i honestly feel bad for my friends who have to deal with this bullshit from me all the time
anyways, to ****** (to which we shall further identify as chili) FUCK YOU like honestly, just fuck you, like idk, im tired of holding back my reactions and feelings and like this is extreme and there is no reason for me to say fuck you (i mean there is but like saying fuck you irl is like imo not necessary but like why am i justifying myself when this is purely for me and no one else) anyways fuck you, like fuck you for hurting my feelings, fuck you for ever making me feel like i was less than or not enough or hard to love. i am not hard to love, and this part of me does not make me damaged goods. i am not damaged. i am healing. 
fuck you for being so immature and deciding to “take a break from me” like, it wasnt earth shattering news and it shouldnt be something to drive you away. your reaction was so dumb and childish and the fact that we are no longer talking makes me so mad. and angry. and sad. it makes me wonder if you even miss my company. i miss talking and texting and facetiming and snapchatting all the time. i wonder if you miss doing that too. i wonder if you even meant anything you told me and i wonder if you’re ever going to come back into my life.
i don’t know if i would welcome you back. i might because i miss you but i might not because im tired of it. i thought we were getting to be really good friends and i was really enjoying our friendship. we had the good kind of banter going on and it made my days a little less boring.
too bad!! ur a fucking ass!!! A GODDAMN PUSSY!!!! I HOPE UR MOMMAS PROUD SHE RAISED A PUSSY FOR A SON MI CORAZON . fuck u, like fuck u for ever making me feel so shitty. grow a pair, u dumbass. GROW UP. u dumb fucking bitch. 
chili, u fucking suck and i hope u go suck a dick
to pistachio, i wish u would just let sleeping dogs lie. like why would u even do that... like i can fucking see it lol??????? at least... do it anonymously lol ... anyways, to put it in the words of my wise wise friend “it’s fucking shameful” and to purposefully shield the parts that actually matters away from the public eye WHILE UR TRYING TO GET SOME KIND OF VALIDATION ... like ok??
my best friend can vouch for me that i never said that to them.. like why would i be a terf and scream about that and furthermore i have no reason to call them ****** like... theyre the furthest thing from it.. so the fact that u said that makes me err on the side of U DEFINITELY POSTED IT FOR VALIDATION. and like, its whatever. i made my peace with it. u can do and say whatever u want about me. u can twist the story, and u can make it seem like it was about this when it really wasnt. i know what i really needed, and honestly im glad this happened now than later.
always saying dumb shit before you think it through and even excusing it is kinda shitty. everyone knows im pretty emotional and i rule with my heart but not even i am dumb enough to make rash comments. u cant even see one speck of truth in whatever i said to u because u dont want to believe in my truth. u dont want to believe that i can just fall out of love with you, who seemingly cant comprehend that you can do nothing wrong and still have the person you love fall out of love with you. so you twist my story, you make it seem like i want to hoe around, when that is the farthest from the case. i was hoping it could be a clean break, but you have literally made that impossible. 
im tired of u, just block me if u hate me so much. literally none of my posts (except for this one) are about u at all. so u r literally thinking too much of urself when looking at MY social media posts and thinking im being depressed and guilty and trying to manipulate u into feeling guilty. like just fucking unfollow me bro. theyre literally not even depressing either, u just cant stand to see me moving on and still be ok when clearly, ur still upset. why even bother checking up on me, clearly it just makes u angrier. 
but that just shows what u know cuz as everyone always says, what u see on social media is not what happens irl. but anyways, not that i want to give u a view of my irl, so ya. im tired of explaining myself to you and im tired of putting myself through extreme stress and emotional disturbance to try and make sure that we both come out of this relatively unscathed. 
please remove yourself from my group of friends as well because they dont have a strong favorable opinion about you really. like theyre not gonna straight up ignore u i guess, cuz theyre polite people, but none of them r gonna go out of their way to talk to u. and after that stunt, i dont see why my friends would reach out to you anyways cuz it was messed up lol. 
anyways goodbye, im tired, and with that, im shutting the book on this chapter
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sodrippy · 6 years
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I just wanted to get some more insight on your thoughts about cultural appropriation. I think you had an interesting perspective. Do you think appropriation is only an issue for people who are minorities in the country they are living? Meaning, appropriation as a social issue is really dependent on where the appropriation occurred, not actually on what occurred. That it's the upbringing and life experiences as a minority that cause a distaste for others wearing or practicing culture. (1 of 2)
Which is why people of that culture who are the majority where they live dont seem to have as much of an issue with it. Because they dont have the same perspective as a minority. Which actually separates those of that culture into two split group identities. Thoughts? (2 of 2)
i will preface any response by saying that obviously im no expert on any of this and opinions on appropriation (as ive seen people respond, mostly regarding asian cultures) are super subjective and varied, no matter where you grew up. 
so, for me and how i understand it, yes a huge chunk of strong negative reactions to appropriation stem from the experience of living as a minority, usually in a white country. i think a large part of that is from how minorities have gone for years and years being mocked, belittled, ignored, and hurt for simply expressing their heritage, OR for a lot of children who spent all/most of their lives in a white country, they internalize white opinions before they can understand them and grow to resent and distance themselves from their cultures. 
this is why, to me, people who live in their ‘motherland’ as my folks would call it dont have the same reaction to things like cultural appropriation or even, until recently, racial stereotypes in western media. they havent lived that same experience of almost being at war with yourself, and so when they see a white person in a kimono or a saree or whathaveyou, a lot of times they see it as people embracing their culture or being curious or worldly, whereas minorities living in western countries see it as a gross double standard that says their culture is only worth celebrating when its put on a white background. that sounds dramatic im sure but i hope you get what im trying to say. 
i dont presume to speak for everyone who lives in their cultural homeland, but i will say that as an example of the difference, or the split group identity as youve put it, indians who live in india generally seem to have a positive response to movies like slumdog millionare or lion, while indians who live in western countries are more critical of the white saviour angles to that kind of movie, and might feel that those stories being told through a white lens create negative stereotypes etc.
this is getting a bit too long i reckon, and though i have a lot more thoughts about it let me just say that this stuff is really nuanced, and the awareness and critique of appropriation from people still living in their home countries is growing as young people are so internationally connected now. 
the way i see it, as an indian-australian who grew up very much between two worlds, is im sure very different to how other people would, and personally i extend this from just cultural appropriation in a clothing/symbol way to things like representation in media and how different ‘types’ of minorities react to that and so on.
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