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mochinon-yah · 20 days

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AJDSJKSKKS HI HELLO SORRY MOCHI I JUST SAW THIS NOW PLS EXCUSE MY HAREBRAIN

ahem

man i just got off my break like a week ago hhhhh, but i can relate to being lazy and videogaming lol fdkjskj (me with acnh and genshin coughs) but my sleep schedule is considerably better? i have to wake up early on weekdays bc of my kid brother sadly smh and i spite him for it pretty sure college students are more stressed

JkeKJF THANKIES!! tbh i kind of just kept my bday private for a smaller group of friends (that includes you btw) + my boyfriend, but yea me being 20 isn't much different from being 18 lol. you rlly don't feel different until you hit 30 coughs anyway i return the headpaps and hugs mweeheheh >:D

istg my bf is just like albedo (but make him emo), cuz like he always struck me as the kind of person who will try to out-compliment you but at the same time is genuine? if that makes sense? EHFfdkskSKJFD but yea he's a sweetheart hehehe yes its real healthy couples do exist and i feel like a unicorn

anywayyyy yea i can name a lot of times where people can't catch onto my body language and i do that as well. like a simple question is fine if someone needs to get somewhere, but if it's someone i don't like i'll make it obvious. in general, if i don't know someone very well, i'll kind of just like veer away from them while giving them a dead stare- (and they still don't get the hint or are insanely blind to social cues)

NO CUZ THATS SO REAL?? if i get into a book, then it's usually because of a fanfic or some other form of media?? kind of like the acotar series i wanted to get into but like hesitant cuz i don't know if it's spicy ;3;

andd headpaps accepted nyehehehe

LMAOOO IT'S OKAY THO, NO WORRIES VIVI!! I woke up so suddenly so idk if i can answer this ask with the right mind 😭😭 sorry if there are soem typos or whatever grammatically wrong things lol

Hdjsjsjs a break will literally activates my lazy mode, and i swear i will get so, so lazy it would probably make you wonder why am i even still ali- *cough* anyway, thank god, your sleeping schedule is much better than mine 🥹👍👍 your lil brother is such a menace but i guess helpful too lmao

And YAAA, NO PROB VIVI :3 last birthday of mine was kinda quiet because only some people remembered lol. Then again, i'm a really quiet person irl, i doubt anybody would remember it- okay, this just turns so sour??? I'm gonna stop talking abt it jdjwkiekwk

I'm part of your smaller group of friends? 🥺👉👈 awwhhhh, you're making me blush- (i'm weak to words like that wth, no guys i do have friends too irl, i'm not a loner 😭) BUT LMAO YEAH, I AGREE WITH 'you rlly don't feel different until you hit 30'. Well, i haven't hit 30 yet, but i guess the only different thing would be that you can say you're old now- /jjj

(LMAO I FELL ASLEEP WHILE ANSWERING THIS.... anyway, back to answering vivi's ask :3)

Imagining emo! bedo and you with the dynamic of emo but cute x cute and cuter is so jdnsjkska 😭 i understand why you would feel like a unicorn even in ur own relationship.... for me, i feel like the side character who just saw the main character fall in love with each other lol

BUT LIKE AAAA SO CUTE, YOU AND HIM ARE SO CUTE TOGETHER?????

*cough* anyway-

People should really be attentive to other ppl ☝️ at least they should know if they're making it uncomfy for other ppl. But err, for me personally, i don't mind people gathering close to me, buuuttt it's possibly because of my friends since all of them are a lot, lot more sociable than me hahhaahaha- honestly, they often told me to talk more with people so i can know the latest gossip and just overall have many friends, but i really can't 😭😭 friendship with me is like the slow build-up but overall genuine one, or at least that's what i think....?

But ngl tumblr has help me a lot to be more expressive in public and just overall making me more sociable than in the past <3 i won't thank the tumblr app itself because the one who made me this way now is literally myself and also a whole bunch of amazing people i had met here, including youu!!! <3 whether you and them help me directly by interacting or just endulging in my silly behavior, ily all ueyehhewh (just gonna tag some ppl here teehe -> @beloved-brynn, @meimeimeirin, @leftdestiny-posts, @fishanonishere, @navxry, @calxlu (you) ♡ ily all, all of u are just so amazing, idk what i even did to meet u all, literally so happy if we ever talk or interact here <3)

OKAY 🤚 THE VIBE IS GETTING A BIT MORE.... UN-SILLY, SO UHHH MOVING ON TO THE NEXT BIT-

Fanfic literally runs half of the fandom, and that fandom could be anything lmao. Well, not really half, but a significant amount! I think memes also run a significant amount of keeping the fandom alive too lol

BUT YEAH, I ENDED UP BUYING PRIDE AND PREJUDICE, RIGHT? AND NOW I'M LIKE... "hm, what in the world is this word? who is talking in this part?? what is even happening-" jkjk, my vocabs is kinda limited since i'm not a native english speaker, but i do understand most of what the book is actually explaining

AND YAAYYY MY HEADPATS ARE ACCEPTED <3

#reli-answers : vivi <3 #literally running on silly behavior to keep me alivr #LMAO #school is always making me be serious so i hope u all don't mind if i get really.... really..... silly sometimes-#heheh

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arhvste · 4 years

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❝atsumu, kuroo, tsukishima and bokuto playing acnh ❞

miya atsumu

→ first he called the game dumb but he eventually gave in because everyone and their aunts were playing it and he didn’t wanna be left out

→ mf tries so hard for raymond at first

→ he insists it’s just because he can sell him for a lot

→ he really just wants raymond because he lowkey reminds him of osamu

→ anyways this fool doesn’t get raymond but ya know who he does get?

→ pedro

→ atsumu was ✨disgusted✨

→ “a clown?! a fukn clown?! yer jokin me!”

→ “aw don’t cry he fits in so well on your island 😹”

→ “sHUT YER TRAP 😠😠😠”

→ he hated pedro at first and for what?

→ eventually he starts vibing with him though

→ he decides that perhaps... pedro isn’t a bad guy after all

→ so atsumu develops a soft spot for him and begins to favour him over the rest of his mediocre villagers whose names he can’t be bothered to remember

→ ya know whose name he can remeber though?

→ BELLA 😡😠😡😠😡😡😠

→ the name that sparks rage in him

→ atsumu hits his villagers with his net shouting “nice cut g!” as a joke

→ with bella he’s not joking 😐

→ he hits her repeatedly and grins maliciously when she gets angry eventually

→ LOVES shoving her into pitfalls for absolutely no reason

→ cusses her out under his breath

→ writes hate mail to her only to get fustrated when she sends a nice reply about the flowers she saw the other day that reminded her of him

→ honestly bella girl it ain’t worth it, pack your bags and get outta there sis 😔

→ he wants her to get tf off his island because he doesn’t like her but he also kinda wants her to stay because he loves annoying her and making her angry

→ literally goes out of his way to buy the ugliest clothes for her to wear

→ he also has all his villagers address him as “big dick man”

→ pedro is special though 😳

→ pedro is the chosen one who gets to call him “tsumu”

→ JUST PEDRO 😤😾😡

→ literally thinks it’s the funniest thing when his villagers say “hey big dick man! the weather sure is great today isn’t it!”

→ you can hear his cackling from down the hall

→ thinks it’s the peak of comedy

→ oh and you’re not allowed to visit his island on a saturday

→ saturdays are “for the boys”

→ and by that he means he’s just going to buy a ton of matching clothes for him and pedro and talk to him all day until he eventually annoys pedro by accident to which he genuinely gets upset about

→ he doesn’t really bother with the fishing tourneys or bug offs

→ does catch a few though just to make sure he beats bella earns nook miles

→ pretty average island, not too much effort put into it yet

→ atsumu prefers channeling his energy and game time into bullying bella interacting with his villagers

kuroo tetsurō

→ bangs. it. tf. out.

→ literally acts like he doesn’t care about the game but has 395+ hours game time

→ uses the excuse it’s to play with kenma but kuroo actually got into it before kenma had the chance to look at it properly

→ fishing tourney KING

→ has multiple gold trophy’s and built a whole extension just to show them off

→ also treats all his villagers equally

→ he was a bit picky and only wanted cats and dogs on his island though

→ if you’re anything but a cat or a dog, i’m sorry but kuroo will timeskip you tf off of his island

→ has a soft spot for lucky but doesn’t admit it

→ he likes to come across as a “fair dictator of the island”

→ just admit luckys your fav and go oh my god

→ his house is really nice too

→ pretty much paid off all his debt and is financially responsible 😼

→ he will send you money over a few times a week because he claims he’s a good boyfie virtually and realistically

→ LOVES opening the letters from ‘mom’

→ it’s a small detail in the game but it brings kuroo comfort when he opens the letters and sometimes receives gifts from his virtual ‘mom’ 🥺

→ keeps all the letters from her because that’s what he would do if his real mom ever wrote to him

→ he’s a shameless timeskipper

→ “tetsu?? where tf did you get all this the games only been out a week??”

→ “👁👁 idk what you’re talking about baby”

→ the thing that annoys him the most are the fossils

→ HATES the stupid little marks in the ground that appear every day

→ also HATES talking to blathers

→ “spit it out already! i have places to be and villagers to see!”

→ completely ignores blathers’ real name and refers to him as ‘bokuto’

→ because he’s an owl duh

→ and bokuto also talks a lot

→ you thought it was a cute friendship thing at first but took it back when you heard him muttering under his breath

→ “oh my god just analyse the fossils already you himbo bird!”

→ “did you just call blathers a himbo? 😳”

→ “...no? 😳👀”

→ all in all, kuroo’s pretty good at the game

→ you like visiting his island because he has a ton of extra stuff he just gives you

→ “i never want to hear you call me a bad boyfriend again 😐”

→ “okay fine...but oNLY if you give me an ironwood dresser 😏”

tsukishima kei

→ another one who bangs it out

→ doesn’t really care when you point it out though

→ “you’re just jealous your islands a dumping ground compared to mine 🥱”

→ “k-kei 😔”

→ also sprints near where you’re fishing to scare the fish off and be spiteful 💀

→ little shit KNOWS you only need oranges to complete all the fruits on your island

→ he also knows you’re out of nook miles tickets

→ “aw that’s a shame, maybe if you were a bit better at the game you’d find them quicker but good luck! 😀”

→ oranges are his native fruit 😐😑😐

→ eventually he gives you them because you’re relentless and his patience runs thin after a while

→ good at the bug offs

→ pretty good at scorpion/tarantula hunting too

→ convinced spike is in love with him after the amount of scorpions and tarantulas he’s donated to him

→ his fossil exhibition in the museum is completed already

→ when blathers tells him the facts about the dinosaurs he just rolls his eyes

→ “i knew that already you stupid bird 🙄”

→ why’s everyone bullying blathers damn 😿

→ now, he likes henry

→ one of the few villagers he doesn’t bully

→ tsukki doesnt particularly care for majority of his villagers

→ henry has a special place in his heart though

→ maybe it’s because henry isn’t overly perky or he isn’t rude like the cranky villagers which tsukishima doesn’t like

→ henry is just??? so??? nice????

→ he can’t hate him

→ all his villagers have catchphrases that are dumb af

→ tsukki thought he was being clever when he made them but he just looks mean when other people talk to his villagers

→ “good morning i am useless! i love your outfit!”

→ henry gets to call him tsukki though

→ only because he figured out that henry reminds him of yamaguchi

→ that’s the only reason henry’s the exception to his bullying

→ i feel like tsukki has a pretty nice house too

→ he makes a lot of bells from selling scorpions and tarantulas and spare fossils he’s dug up

→ doesn’t really care about the size but has very detailed rooms

→ like all the furniture in his rooms follow a scheme

→ mf never opens his mailbox

→ doesn’t care for what the other “peasants have to say for themselves”

→ terraforming isn’t really his thing tbh

→ doesn’t like how slow the process and be and kinda likes the natural flat land

→ he likes laying down paths though

→ cusses villagers out when they get in the way though

→ full on shoves them and will keep shoving them until they get annoyed just because they’ve annoyed him

→ tsukki doesnt put as much time into the game as kuroo but his island is still pretty good and aesthetically pleasing

→ he just won’t help you make yours look like that 💀

bokuto koutarō

→ weeds. everywhere.

→ get so confused when he’s told he has to pick them all

→ “really? why can’t i just let them grow though i kinda like them 🤩”

→ mf ✨struggles✨ at the first stages

→ “y/n, you know i love you, please give me 30 iron nuggets 🥺💖💞💗”

→ ofc you give them to him because you’re well ahead in the game and don’t need them as much as he does

→ praises you like royalty but then he’s back to begging for materials from you 💀

→ doesn’t pay his debts

→ you’re gonna have to help him out here

→ doesn’t like the idea of having to constantly pay them off

→ like?? he doesn’t want a bigger house so why is this damn raccoon always bothering him to upgrade like leave him and his 2 room house alone 😠

→ has a the same camp bed and lamp from when he first moved out the tent 💀

→ insists he doesn’t need another one because the furniture all functions the same

→ he has a point tbf but his house just isn’t aesthetically pleasing

→ he also hoards stuff

→ common butterfly? yeah bokuto has 37 sitting in his storage

→ doesn’t like letting the bugs go because he “caught them fair and square”

→ you show him how to pay his debts back and then he dedicates a whole room to his stupid bugs 💀

→ loves blathers and celeste just because they’re owls

→ doesn’t care about what they’re wittering on about he loves interacting with them just because they’re the only owls in the game 😐

→ his favourite villager is kid cat

→ literally follows him around and sprints circles around him

→ l o v e s the chaos outside the town hall

→ 2 of his villagers are singing, 3 are running around and 1 is just watching like 🧍🏻‍♀️

→ HYPES his singing villagers tf up

→ “yeah get it bianca! turn it up!!! 🥳🥳”

→ has to match his villagers clothes at least once a week

→ also makes them all refer to him as “the best ace”

→ it boosts his ego a little more each time they say it

→ bokuto actually got raymond out of luck but had no idea who tf he was and just how popular he was

→ lets that mf go without advertising that raymond’s in boxes

→ atsumu screeches when he finds this out eventually

→ bokuto doesn’t care what his villagers look like everyone’s welcome

→ bella should move to bokuto’s island and move from atsumu’s because bokuto will accept her with open arms rather than a net to the head everytime he sees her 😿

→ ALWAYS remembers birthdays for his villagers

→ and always shows up to their birthday parties insisting he’s the life of the party and they’d be bored without him 😹

→ which is true to a certain degree cause the party only really starts when the player arrives

→ bokuto is actually okay at terraforming

→ quickly changes his mind after an hour of building and digging and restarts it all over again

→ he can make his island look pretty good

→ theres just weeds and buried fossils everywhere though 👁👁

→ also forgets his turnips go bad

→ literally the least financially responsible out of them all

→ it’s okay though because you help him and he eventually gets the hang of it

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tobiosmilktea · 4 years

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artificial paradise — kozume kenma

4.3k words | genre/s: fluff | warning/s: badly written basketball games | pairing: kenma x f!reader

↪︎ in which animal crossing became you and kenma’s artificial paradise

a/n: request for @lalesnotes, this prompt was so cute thanks for requesting ! i kind of had writers block while writing this as i’m broke and have never played acnh nor played basketball lol

three pm and an aching body is what best described you at this very moment. with the slight burning sensation radiating throughout your thighs, sprinting as fast as you could across the basketball court in which you shouted, “i’m open!” it was accompanied by the squeaking of your sneakers against the shiny gymnasium floors of nekoma.

within a fraction of a second, your eyes swiftly flickered towards the scoreboard and the time. the scores were neck and neck with the time for the last quarter of the practice team neared it’s last evident seconds.

10... 9... 8...

the ball was thrown towards you with its orange hues blending into a blur as you had snatched it midair. planting your foot firmly into the wooden baseboards of the court, you jumped high in the air. it was that very moment that everything felt like it moved in a slow motion, that everything muddied into nothing but that very moment; with the mixing cacophonies of shouting teammates and the thunderous pumping of your blood and adrenaline, nothing mattered but that shot.

and just as quickly the feeling of rising spiraling skies soared, they diminished like a crashing wave with your feet landing square on the ground again. your eyes were soaked in the liquor of the innate animistic adrenaline whenever you got too into a game. no matter whether it was just a simple practice game like this, you still took the sport you were most passionate about just as serious as a real game. an inaudible sigh was pulled out of your lungs as you watched the ball swish into the net the moment the deafening noise of the last buzzer.

cheers erupted from the sidelines, mostly from your teammates, the managers, and your coach lulled through one ear and out the other as your arms finally drop to you sides.

“great job today, (y/n).” your team captain compliments, patting your shoulder as her tall figure loomed over you. she was a basketball player and it shouldn’t be much of a surprise when your entire team’s average height was much higher than most. it would in fact be a lot higher if your height didn’t skew the numbers so greatly.

it wasn’t like you were that short. in fact, you were taller than majority of the girls in nekoma at a good 170 cm, not that it mattered anyway. you were still a substantial part of nekoma’s woman’s basketball team as their point guard, you always held such a title since you started playing in elementary school.

“thanks, yoshida.” you threw her a smile as you made your way towards the benches to grab your water bottle.

you tugged at the lid, getting ready to take a sip when your wandering eyes fell upon a familiar face lingering near the entrance of the gymnasium. kozume kenma in all his nonchalant glory was waiting near the entrances like he always did after school. since your first year together, he had that habit of arriving to the gym early to watch you play. however, never in a million years would he actually reveal that type of information to you as he seemed you would deem it as creepy. he didn’t want to sever the already lacking connection with you by saying something stupid. so yeah, his only excuse was that volleyball practice takes place after the basketball team’s.

it wasn’t at all a complete lie, it was true, which is the only reason why you don’t give him a mere look of disgust whenever you see him arrive to the gymnasium thirty minutes before his actual practice starts. usually you would greet him kindly once you had your bag all packed up and ready to leave. a simple wave and that sweet smile you always had on whenever you said ‘hi’ or ‘goodbye’ to him was always enough to fuel his yearning heart for you.

you were this close, and yet he couldn’t help but seem farther than he thinks he is.

your eyes finally left nekoma’s setter the moment you saw that he was too enamored in his game to even catch your glance like he normally does. you sipped quickly from you water bottle before packing your things up in your bag. grabbing one of the straps in a quick swipe, it lands on your right shoulder as you made your way towards kenma.

upon closer inspection, he was actually playing on his gray nintendo switch lite with little sound emitting from the console that rang familiar in your ears. the game’s nuanced cacophonies was far too iconic for you not to recognize from the villager’s incomprehensible mumbles and the sounds of getting a rare fish while fishing switched a flip in your brain. without a second thought, you approached kenma much faster than you anticipated.

you had definitely caught him off guard when he stared at you with enlarged eyes at your sudden burst. you didn’t even say ‘hi’ to him before bombarding the poor guy.

“is that the new animal crossing?” you beamed at him.

kenma’s heart jumped when you did so, only to beat faster than ever when you peered over his shoulder to watch his game. this was the closest you were to him and he could hear your gentle breathing and your warm aura completely surrounding his body in a warmth he didn’t actually hate for once. the was the thing he liked most about you. an action like this—ultimately invading his personal space like kuroo and lev always did—was something he always hated, but he didn’t mind if it was you. if anything he wanted you closer as you intoxicated him with your smell of sugarcoated cherries and dazzling psyche.

“yeah,” was all he could say. it was breathless and laced with a sudden shock that you didn’t mind knowing that he was usually quiet.

“your character is really cute, it looks just like you.” you complimented and kenma could’ve swore he would have confessed to you then and there when you literally just called him cute. you didn’t even notice his burning red cheeks as you continued, “you should add me so we can visit each other’s islands.”

kenma swiftly nods, trying to act as his usual, mellow self when he handed you his switch. he looked nonchalant, but in reality, he was bouncing off the walls. you typed in your info quickly before you offered the device back to him, your hands touching his slightly. “thanks,” kenma almost strains as he smiled at him one last time before waving him goodbye.

“i’ll get on later!” you exclaimed as you were already out of the gym, watching as the setter pursed a smile and waved back at you gently.

consider the following: how the hell did you and kenma end up talking about your love lives while playing animal crossing?

well the answer was simple, really. you and kenma had been playing together on animal crossing for a good few weeks now everyday after school once your basketball practice and his volleyball practice had finished; you two log on and go to each other’s islands doing nothing but occasionally trading a couple turnips, fishing, and catching spiders together. and in those past few weeks you and the setter have been getting to know each other through the game in a more or less practical way.

so far, your only way of communication is from chatting on the actual game, instead of perhaps calling each other or facetiming. you two literally had each other’s numbers, and yet you both loathe the fear and the racing pulse of asking the latter whether or not they wanted to talk over the phone instead.

you were surprised on how consistently fine you two were talking like this when it tended to get a tad bit annoying at times. like when kenma had so much more to say, but his message would’ve been too long and double texting was apparently something he was a bit embarrassed about. apparently, he thinks he’s being annoying if he responded more than once in a row. you on the other hand, believed that his short answers meant that he was starting to get bored of the small talk. honestly, it was understandable the amount of times you two talked about each other’s days while fishing.

so here you were, trying to spice things up in the conversation by talking about your love lives (or lack thereof) while hanging out on kenma’s island. it was a bit of a leap as you literally jumped from talking about your upcoming sports games to whether you two were in relationships.

lycheey/n: do you like anyone?

kenma practically felt his heart soar and going a bit lightheaded when you asked that question. his palms started to get clammy as he gripped onto his nintendo switch tightly, thumbs hovering over the keyboard as he hesitated to type.

the memory suddenly rang over him to early today when kuroo noticed how close you were standing next to kenma. you watched him play whatever rpg game he was incredibly enamored in, admiring his chamomile eyes and dry cheeks as you completely ignored kuroo who stood right there. kenma didn’t even notice how close you were next to him as the past weeks you had been hanging around him during lunch, he perhaps had gotten used to your presence—almost angelic and comforting. if anything, if you were to suddenly become absent from his side, he would immediately feel the lacking warmth of your aura he loved so dear about you.

“i think you should confess already,” kuroo had discreetly bumped his shoulder with kenma as he watched you walk away.

the setter had almost choked on his juice box as he gave a look towards the raven haired boy. “that’s not gonna happen.”

“uh, yes it will.” kuroo scoffs, pressing further into the topic. “i am not going to graduate from this high school without you confessing to (y/n)!”

“stop being so loud!” exclaimed kenma as hues of pink embarrassment tinted his cheeks. he attempted to block out his best friend’s stupid antics by focusing his attention back onto his game.

“i just think you should confess to her soon,” he muttered nonchalantly. “she does have a game after school on friday... maybe you could confess to her then.”

kenma ignored him.

but kuroo continued anyway, “if nekoma wins the game, it’ll be a good ass day for (y/n).” he tried to reason enticingly.

“and if our team loses?”

“(y/n) would be disappointed, but she would be immediately cheered up the moment the guy she likes finally confesses to her.”

kenma couldn’t help but roll his eyes, “she doesn’t like me back, kuroo.”

“are you kidding me right now, kenma?” his eyes widen in utter surprise, “she’s literally around you almost everyday during lunch and you two play animal crossing for hours after school. you’re telling me, that she doesn’t like you? kenma, any person with half a brain cell can see that you both have feelings for each other.”

from then on, that thought forever spiraled within kenma’s head the rest of the day. he figured it would’ve disappeared into oblivion by the time he hopped onto animal crossing with you, but the moment you asked him that damned question, it only ached in reincarnation. it turned his mind into a road of hurricanes as he finally noticed how long he was stuck in his thoughts that minutes had gone by of not answering.

without even thinking, he immediately typed:

kenmaclan: yes.

fuck. kenma thought, why the hell did i say that?

he swallowed his nerves as he straightened his posture the moment he saw that you were typing.

lycheey/n: i like someone too. i’ve actually liked them for a while now

there was an inkling within kenma as his throat suddenly dried upon reading your text. the inkling that perhaps you were talking about him (just as kuroo implied) left his imagination to completely explode into epiphanies of his dreams and wishes as his heart threatened to combust right then. you didn’t even confess to him and yet the setter found his fingers liking faster than his brain could comprehend what he was even doing

kenmaclan: i like yo-

but before he could type the full response, you had already sent another message.

lycheey/n: it’s getting late, kenma. it was really fun playing with you today, same time tomorrow?

kenma felt his shoulders shudder in relief as he immediately deleted his text. perhaps it was the world telling him it wasn’t a good idea so say at that very moment and he was incredibly thankful that you had sent your message a millisecond quicker. it perhaps spared kenma from another age of absolute embarrassment that he wanted to just crawl in a hole and live there for the rest of his life.

kennaclan: goodnight, (y/n) :)

today was perhaps the day that kenma would meet his demise. it was finally friday and the final school bell rang across nekoma in a uniform blast. almost immediately, students packed their things and made their way towards the gym to watch the basketball game as inevitably, kenma found himself within the migrating crowds as well.

his pumping nerves ached, palms perspired in a clammy mess, his heart thudding against his lungs and rib cage at a hundred miles per hour, and even his peachy lips swelled into a crimson from the amount of times he nibbled at them impatiently. was it obvious how nervous he was?

evidently, the day of kenma’s demise was the day he was going to confess to you and never in his life he just wanted to disappear. he was far too deep within his nervous psyche to even notice he was already in the gymnasium, sitting next to kuroo while he stared off into oblivion.

kuroo noticed your gaze glancing upon kenma, causing the volleyball captain to swiftly pinch his setter into reality to meet your eyes.

within a snap, kenma found you on the sidelines of the basketball court warming up. you smiled at him so sweetly with your usual wave of your hand towards him, the boy couldn’t help but immediately forget his nerves to smile back. it was so obvious how much to affected him, it was crystal clear. yet both you and kenma refused to wipe off the fog to fully see.

the game started as usual, nekoma had touched the ball first the moment the ref tossed it up high in the air. fortunately, nekoma was in the lead by a good five points, and yet that could easily change if anyone let’s their guard down even for a second.

you liked to think that you were always competitive no matter what. you were willing to turn anything into a competition from basketball games to racing on who could log into animal crossing faster. kenma always enjoyed that little fire within your eyes, especially when he watched your figure dash down the court with the ball in your grasp. dribbling it quickly, you tossed it up towards the hoop feeling the entire court’s eyes upon you as you watched the orange ball roll around the hoop before falling successfully through.

a cheer emitted from kenma and kuroo as they jumped up from their seats. it wasn’t the most groundbreaking shot as it only added two points to the score board, but any shot made by you was something kenma would always cheer for.

it continued like this for the rest of the game. it was you who often shot or assisted your team into scoring as you kept your team ahead from the cusp of falling behind. nekoma was only one point ahead from the opposing team in a constant pendulum of tying, to being behind, to catching up again, to getting ahead once more. it was stressful on everyone present in the gymnasium. it had kenma teetering in the balls of his feet as every sudden move the players made, he felt his breath hitch.

the sounds of hearts pounding in quick rhythms and blood surging didn’t cease, in fact it only worsened in the forth quarter of the game when nekoma and the opposing went neck on neck.

the desperation on both teams were evident as sweat and adrenaline left your body drenched in a heated fervor.

the opposing team swiftly attempted a shot from the right side of the three point line. you watched as the basketball spun in revolutions, travelling through the air beneath the bright harsh lights of the gym. you hadn’t even noticed yourself holding your breath as the ball neared the hoop, it was only then it ricocheted off the metal hoop and against the backboard, causing the ball to fall off to the side instead of making it.

relief coursed through your body as the ball landed into nekoma captain’s hands, immediately triggering your body to move. dashing towards the other side of the court, a player from the other team blocked your view from yoshida with frustrated sigh left your lips as you attempted to move away from the player blocking you, rising your hands up as if to call for yoshida’s attention.

the captain’s eyes flickered towards you and another teammate swiftly. you were in the perfect spot to make a spot, and yet you were stick being blocked by the opposing team. meanwhile, your other teammate was open and yet she was way to far to make a shot guaranteed to make it in. seeing that you were still too preoccupied, yoshida passed the ball towards your other teammate who dribbled her way towards to the hoop.

there was only twenty seconds left on the clock.

with everyone on the edge of their seaats, your teammate distracted the person blocking you enough for you to side step in front of them and retrieving the ball from your teammate.

“(y/l/n)!” she shouts, tossing it towards you. and with quick reflexes, you were already making your shot a millisecond after your retrieved it.

it was then you felt a major rush of familiarity.

10... 9... 8...

that same familiar ticking.

that same feeling of planting your foot firmly into the wooden boards of the court and jumping high in the air. it was that very moment that everything felt like it moved in a slow motion, that everything muddied into nothing but that very moment; with the mixing cacophonies of shouting teammates and the thunderous pumping of your blood and adrenaline, nothing mattered but that shot.

you swore you felt like you were back in the middle of a practice. from the past months of hard work was leading up to this very moment and you hoped to the gods that you were the one to make this shot. you were tired and fatigued, your legs burned at every step you took and your lungs ached at the freezing bite of the air conditioned gymnasium air. if you were to miss, the game would continue on to overtime with your ability to stay at top shape was quickly diminishing.

with exhausted eyes, you watched the ball fall into the hoop with a perfect swish.

the sound of the basketball barely touching the net was music to your ears. certainly the sudden outburst of cries and shouts from the nekoma side of the gymnasium was like a lovely orchestra as the ball bounced on the floor in a rhythmic beat. the thunderous buzzer sound echoed throughout the building as all of a sudden, you were engulfed in a tight hug from the sweaty bodies of your teammates. warmth surrounded you like a knit blanket, savoring that feeling of happiness and excitement of victory.

kenma was absolutely beaming at you. with a bright smile that could blind any sorry victim, his voice was on the cusp of completely being gone from how loud he was cheering for you. that all your hard work from practicing until your feet bled to even playing animal crossing with him despite being so incredibly tired, he was so proud of you, he wished you could see his face right now.

however, you were too preoccupied in your post-victory glow that you were with your team and shaking the hands of the opposing. to think that your usual aura of blossoming sunflowers was your very max was clearly wrong. if anything, you were brighter than ever know as kenma knew you could easily outshine the brightest of stars. he wanted to experience that—to make you so incredibly happy that you were irrevocably shining.

even when your team started lining up towards the sidelines, the setter immediately ran down the bleachers to see you. it hadn’t even hit him yet that he was basically at the cusp of confessing to you, but his excitement just to pull you into his embrace clouded his mind.

“kenma?” you say surprised as you saw his figure dash towards you.

your breath left your lungs as he pulled you close, “you did amazing, (y/n).”

in a sudden downpour of emotions, your cheeks heated up in pretty pink shades. you hoped that kenma couldn’t feel your swift beating heart through your chest as you buried your head into his neck. your rush of exciting adrenaline calmed at his signature aroma of sun-melted wax, wishing your could stay like this forever.

then the thought sudden rang through your brain that you were drenched in sweat and probably smelled like a bull’s ass. you immediately pull away as you threw him a nervous smile. “thanks,” you mutter awkwardly. “by the way, kuroo said that you wanted to tell me something?”

shit, kenma thought as it finally hit him. his fight or flight response was immediately triggered like nothing before with his usual nonchalant self was taken over by a bundle of nerves with blond hair.

he gulped, “i have to get home now, but i just wanted to say that we should meet on animal crossing once you get home, okay?”

your eyebrows furrow in sudden confusion. "um, okay.” you could barely say before the setter left the gym faster than he came to you.

a slight burning sensation radiated throughout kenma’s thighs, sprinting as fast as he could back to his house as the yellow enormities of the day blended into the dark blue hues of the night sky. he stumbled through the streets of tokyo, thanking the heavens that nekoma was only a couple blocks away from his house and not a whole train ride like you had.

it allowed him enough time to log into his animal crossing before you could in order to fix anything up on his island. you see, for the past two nights kenma had been purposely meeting at your island instead of yours as he was preparing something special for you. it needed to be perfect.

he was well aware that he did not have to guts to confess to you in real life, so his second option was the virtual safe haven you two had created on animal crossing. he had spent ages eating fruit from trees to get his character enough strength to break rocks in the right places he wanted them to be. turns out, it took hours of effort to do and lowkey it barely looks comprehensible. kenma definitely did have enough time to make it any better as he waited for the clock to tick to 7 o’clock. this was usually the time you arrived home and should be getting into animal crossing any second.

kenma’s nerves swelled for the umpteenth time today as this was the most nervous he had ever been. it wasn’t evident on his mellow visage, but inside he was could very well explode at any second. he was too caught up in his own thoughts that he didn’t see the silhouette of the game’s airplane arriving to his island with you in it.

lycheey/n: i’m here! what did you want to show me?

the setter swallowed his pride, here goes nothing. surely, it wouldn’t be that bad right? he was confessing on animal crossing for fuck’s sake, if anything went bad then all he’d have to do is log off and never leave his room again!

kenma groaned frustratingly. why did it have to be this hard?

kenmaclan: follow me pls

each second that passed of their two avatars running towards the northweset side of his island, kenma fought himself to continue going and not just log out then and there.

the soft padding of your cute character’s feet came to a stop suddenly as your read the message written by the rocks and boulders. you felt your breath hitch with the thumping of your hide going into overdrive.

i <3 u

the message had said with dozens of flowers surrounding the rocks. if anything, you were glad you were alone in your room and away from kenma as you screamed into your own pillow. feeling your cheeks absolutely blaze in heat as even your ears tinted red from the sudden wave of adoration filled your veins.

this was so goddamn cute you were literally about to combust.

the thing is, you spent a good five minutes blushing to yourself that kenma was confused at your silence, your character wasn’t moving either and he was starting to think of the worse. what if you were laughing at him? what if you were thinking about ways to reject him? perhaps ways to loosen the harsh blow of it, maybe? but he was far from right. if anything, you were thinking of cute ways to respond, to correctly tell him your feelings that you both had for each other.

you finally regained your composure as you started typing.

lycheey/n: i <3 too

it was strange how a game like this had become your artificial paradise.

#haikyuu!!#haikyuu #haikyuu scenarios #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu oneshots #haikyuu x reader #kozume kenma #kenma x reader #kenma imagines #kenma scenarios #kenma fluff #kenma oneshot #hq kenma

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elizabeth-demoke · 4 years

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Oof I've never done this before so forgive me if I'm not very good at this, but I'd like a match up with any Papyrus!

I am a female with tan skin, with long, dark hair with orange tips. I'm short (im like 5ft disgusting) I am extremely shy, and sometimes cant bring myself to talk to people outside my family and friends. I draw way too much, watch a lot of anime, and listen to indie music. (So basically if Alphys was a human)

I chew my nails a lot, cuss in private, and chew on my pencils/pens. I love cats, eating chips, playing acnh, and sleeping. I like to think I'm pretty kind, but will yell in an argument. I cry over the littlest of things, like tv shows. I hate that I cry so much, hot weather, and my shyness. I'm very absent minded, and in my own little world, like, 90% of the time, I am always zoned out thinking about the most random stuff lol

I hope this is enough info bc I've literally never done this before, so if it isn't, just ignore this ask :)

Thank you <3

Don't worry honey, this is enough info. Thank you so much for requesting!

I match you with Fellswap Papyrus!

Well uh, he's actually taller than both his Underswap and Underfell counterparts, standing at about 7'10

That being said, he's usually slouching so he doesn't loom over you, per se

Likes to play with your hair, he's curious if the orange is natural or not

I'm sorry but he makes a LOT of short jokes

He also leans on you like an armrest

I'm sorry but this is your life now

If you tell him about your bad habits, he'll try and help with them

He doesn't really care about the cussing, but he'll hold your hands whenever you're not doing anything, so you don't bite your nails

Finds it kinda cute when you zone out, but he does recognize it's a problem, especially in this world

Will snap his fingers in front of your face to get you back

One time you accidently pissed off Sans cause you were zoned out and didn't realize he was talking to you as you stared a random corner

As long as he's not busy, will not hesitate to join you whenever you decide to sleep

There's so many naps with him

He tries to be as gentle as possible with how sensitive you are

If you're in public, as soon as he sees you starting to breakdown he'll teleport you to somewhere quiet

He doesn't want you to be seen as weak or vulnerable

He understands that you hate how much you cry, but will reassure you it's fine

Will just chill on the couch with you while you watch anime

Finds it kind of dumb but your smiles and giggles are worth it

Unfortunately, Sunnedout is kind of on the hotter side, so if you're really struggling with the heat he'll use his magic to lower his body temperature and use it as an excuse to snuggle

If he finds your shyness to be an issue, he'll try and help you come out of your shell a little

He might accidently go to far, but if he does he feels like shit and will try desperately to make up for it

He will give you all the chisps he can afford

When he learns of your love of cats, he's already planning to get one the second you reach the surface

You will be happy, damnit

You guys get in a fight one day, and he was honestly surprised when you shouted

Like, you were so shy and quiet he didn't even know you were capable of shouting

Sorta throws him off and the logic to his side of the fight doesn't quite fit as well

Will listen to indie music with you if you have it on as background noise to draw to or something

Just quietly watches as you draw, doesn't really give any input but he finds it interesting

You convince him to play ACNH with you and instantly regret it

He's constantly hitting you on the head with a net

And stealing your flowers

And pissing off your villagers

You proceed to ban him from your island

In real life he might not seem to bad but put him on a coop game and unless it's a FPS or fighting game or something, he's evil

#fellswap #fellswap papyrus #matchups #undertale matchups #undertale

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kim-chann · 4 years

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Hi! I’ve requested a matchup before but I reconsidered what I wrote so I hope I can request again. I’m a 5’8 trans man, I’m bi with a male pref, and I’m chubby. I love video games (esp. ACNH atm), writing, singing and drawing. I’m an INTP. I’m mostly calm and laid-back but I do get bursts of energy. I’m introverted and prefer to gather in small groups, or just one other person. I’m autistic, so physical touch and eye contact are hard for me. 1/2 👾

God, I’m so sorry that this took so long! I’ve been literally doing alot of other stuff like art, playing games, and stuff. So I hope that this is okay. Once again, I’m sorry for the wait! And since you said you requested another matchup before, I hope this is a different character that I matched you up with cause I don’t want to disappoint you lmao.

Also, please send in some platonic headcanons 👀, I really like writing those type of things.

I match you up with...

Ichimatsu Matsuno!

I know that gloomy people with gloomy people don’t really go well with each other, but hear me out!

Ichimatsu would feel like he can be himself around, which is a very good thing. At first, he would be tense, a bit nervous around you because you’re literally almost like him. It was almost looking into a mirror. However, as he learns more about you, the more he realizes that you’re your own person and not his twin from another mother. I hope you’re ready to deal with this mountain of this boy, 'cause you’re in for a ride!

First of all, he loves that you play Animal Crossing. Cause when you first show him your island, he immediately became too excited to whip out his own Switch and show you his. Yet, he might become a bit embarrassed because his island is lazily decorated and all his villagers are cats (and even has Raymond!). He’d let you visit his island occasionally, but would most likely prefer that he’d visit yours because he doesn’t want you to see his mess. It’s cute, really.

Since you like writing, singing, and drawing, he’s all in for it. But don't really expect him to sing cause he’s insecure about his voice. But with a little reassurance and some time, perhaps he’ll reconsider. But for your other hobbies, he actually likes drawing the most.

As shown in season 2, he’s quite skilled! He really adores your art style because he thinks that it’s unique and fits you well. His style is more rigid and messy, and realistic. So most of his doodles might be of cats and if you dig further deeper, you might find a drawing of you and him together with a caption that says, “My love” with a heart. It would make your heart melt.

Ichimatsu can relate that you prefer to be in small groups or with one person. Since he’s so used to hanging out with his brothers all the time and his only “friends” are cats in the alleyway, it would be a nice change of pace to be alone with someone like you.

At first, he’d be a bit awkward, fiddling with his fingers and would not making much of a conversation unless you start it, but once as you two grow closer, he’ll start them. Usually, the conversations are so strange because this kitty boy has strange humor. He doesn’t know why, but he feels comfortable talking about whatever on his mind on walks. He makes a lot of corny jokes and secretly hopes that you laugh at them. Most of them are just plain out weird or just dirty jokes, which makes him chuckle, but tell him that he’s funny, and he’ll be thinking about your compliment the whole day.

Your bubbly personality would remind him of Osomatsu and he enjoys that. He finds it funny how you can be so bubbly but also be gloomy/emo. He likes that because it makes him relate to you even more. It doesn’t take too much effort to please him, so the littlest things to him will make him weak on your hands. He’s at your mercy and would murder for you if you want him too.

Speaking of murder, he relates having a keen interest in serial killers. I hope you know that Ichimatsu’s favorite serial killers from shows are Hannibal Lector and Jason. Secretly, he calls them his “role models” which earns a scary shiver down his brother's spine (but a laugh to Osomatsu). Since Ichimatsu is quite a smart boy, he may know a thing or two about psychiatry.

Especially from all the serial killer TV shows and documents that he’s watched on TV out of boredom. So since he relates to your interest in killers, you may want to share a fact about it to him because he won’t vocally ask you. Once you share him the fact, he won’t really say much, but, “Ah, really? That’s interesting...” But on the inside. he’s like, “Yo, that’s pretty damn smart for serial killers to think that way.” Don’t be surprised if you find plans of him wanting to kill his brothers lmao.

Ichimatsu can relate that when upset, he prefers to be alone and would rather deal with his feelings instead of being with a lot of people. So when you’re upset, he’ll leave you be if you want to. But if you want him to stay with you, he’ll gladly do so, and would comb his hands through your hair in a way to comfort you as long as you’re okay with it. He wants you to be fine and wants only the best for you. Seeing you so distraught would make him panic a bit because he has looked up to you. So he’ll try his best to make your day by making you food, offering to watch your favorite movie together, or go to the park and just chill. Anything to see your smile and relaxed body would make him feel happy.

Ichimatsu isn’t too keen on events unless they’re on his interests. Halloween is his favorite holiday, so he might be interested in a few events that are going around Akatsuka. But for years, he hasn’t really attended them because he wasn’t too comfortable going to events by himself or with his brothers. He’d be awkward and out of place even if he really likes them.

But now that you’re in his life, he’d ask if you’d like to come with him to go to an event with him and would secretly cross his fingers because he wants you to have fun with him. If you say yes, he’ll just smile and say, “Okay.” But on the inside, he’s cheering. If you say no, he’ll be confused and then ask again, thinking that he misheard you, but once you refuse again, he’ll just hum and walk out of the door, and crumble the advertisement for the event. He’ll be sad, but he won’t hold it against you at all.

Honestly, Ichimatsu would sometimes be caught staring at your figure sometimes because he finds your appearance enchanting. He’d deny that he was staring at you if you’d ask, excusing himself that he was just daydreaming. Ichimatsu would adore your uppercut and likes his “color” on you, despite it being half purple and blue. He still loves purple on you. If he were more honest, finding you in heels would make him fall for you even more.

He secretly finds heels a bit hot and would love to see you in them occasionally. Sometimes, he’d be daydreaming a lot about you with a smile plastered on his face. When he catches himself doing that, he’ll immediately feel embarrassed.

I hope you like it! I enjoyed writing this. Also, I’m gonna go x-games mode to clear my inbox. Cause damn, i’m so lazy that I can’t even write.

#Osomatsu-san #osomatsu san #ichimatsu #ichimatsu matchup #matchup #sorry that this took so long

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peachymilkshakes · 4 years

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Thoughts on Project Diva Mega39s

I thought i’d write a little blog post about this, since i’ve had this game for a few days now. There are a few things i’m happy with, and a few things that i’m dissapointed with. So i’d like to talk about that. Keep in mind that I am a NintendHOE. I do not own much Playstation stuff besides my Vita and my brother’s PS2. So this is coming from the perspective of someone who has only played PDf, PDf2ND, X and Project MiraiDX.

Since i’ve learned to end with the compliments while giving a critique, i’ll start with the things that i wished were different.

1. The setlist I’m missing SO many songs from older games! Since this game is calling itself MEGAmix, i would’ve expected way more. I’m missing songs like Nyanyanyanya!, Love is war or Glasses. (seriously, how else am i gonna look at Racing Swimsuit Luka in awe if it isn’t for that slowmo bit at the beginning of Glasses?) If i had to list every single song that i’m missing i could have written a book instead. So i’m not going to do that (yet!) The video that i’ve linked in paragraph 3 under this lists a few more that i think deserve a spot. 2. The PVs Then there are songs like Dreaming ChuChu, or Suna no wakusei, who, don’t have a 3DPV at all, but rather their original PVs the way they were uploaded to Youtube/NicoNico. Excuse me? SEGA, if you’re going to charge me 60 euros for the full game (current DLC included) I’m expecting nicely animated story PVs. I haven’t even talked about the Roki PV or all those PVs that just has the vocaloid dancing on a stage and that’s it. Sure, for some PVs it works. Like for Clover Club. But other than that it’s just utterly boring man.. Where has the time gone where we got fully animated story PVs? Like i dunno.. the VOiCE PV? Who remembers that? I miss that!

Roki’s PV was made by slapping the dance motion they made for the concerts onto the models and bam there ya go. Originality has been found nowhere. I mean sure, they’re allowed to do that. But at least tweak it a little. This is just boring and unoriginal. But hey at least Roki has a 3DPV unlike other songs i would’ve loved to see have one. Exhibit A Exhibit B (Timestamp 2:15 but watch the whole video)

3. Something else Going from the PDf and PDf2nd on my Vita, to this, has been a rough transition. I’m dearly missing the hold notes. Sure, we have a different type now, but it’s not the same. Although I’m sure it’s just an issue of getting used to, I will most likely just go back to my vita to play certain songs the way i like to play them instead. It’s not a big deal, just a thing that i’m personally missing.

Then I heard that SEGA Japan overcharged their people for the game as well. The English translated game was significantly cheaper than the Japanese game, which is interesting since Japan is Miku’s origin country. This is just something i’ve learned from a video on youtube, and i think you should just watch it yourself rather than take my word for it. You can find it right here.

Another little gripe i have is that when you finish a song it’ll have replay preselected and i end up accidentally pressing that instead of back. But that’s just a tiny little nitpick.

I miss the diva room so much!! Why don’t we have any diva rooms anymore? I wanna pet Teto and feed her dangos :(

Oh and, the module selection screen couldve been more nicely ordered. I have to go through like 20 other modules to get to the one i want. It’s really messy looking and i get really overwhelmed by it.

Honestly my biggest issue has to be the setlist, the unanimated and dance/stage PVs, and the oddly looking graphics of the game. (Toon shader on the models but no toonshader on the stages. It looks off. I just don’t like it.) At least the models aren’t looking like the Dreamy Theater models. Good grief was that an eyesore. But i don’t like the toonshader either. I guess it’s more of a taste thing, but i’m not into it.

4. So, which game is the worst. X or Mega39s? Honestly, in my opinion it has to be X. I’m sorry, but despite it having my favourite setlest out of every Project Diva game, I just really dislike the premise of the whole thing. At least the Arcade type Project Diva games lets you play every song freely without any burdening annoying objective like filling up a crystal and having to clear live shows and medly songs in order to advance. And besides that, the Arcade games have way more songs added by all the loids that arent called Hatsune Miku. I’m more of a Rin and Luka stan, so i’d prefer more songs by them, or even Meiko.

And yeah, we could criticise the other games for this as well, but i suppose it’ll always be like this since Miku is Crypton’s flagship product much like what Mario is for Nintendo. She just sells well, so we get more songs involving her, and i get that.

5. What do I like about Mega39s? The sliders have been a lot of fun. Although i miss the star icons from PDf, it’s a great way to keep the gameplay feel fresh. And I feel like especially in songs like Unhappy Refrain they fit in great and add to the feel of the song. I also like the clean menus and the music that plays during them.

Overall the setlist isn’t bad. I love the songs we have. I’ve been dying to play Tricolore Airline outside of Project MiraiDX. (Which by the way, Rin’s version is the most superior one of all of them)

I’m glad that they’ve included the fact that you can change the icons into the old Playstation ones. I’ve changed them into that and have gotten better scores because i’m just more used to that. Although i still have to stop pressing B when i should be pressing A to select something since we’re playing on Nintendo after all.. Yeah, i have trouble SWITCHing if you get me.. haha..

I’m curious of what’s to come for the franchise’s future. I hope they’ve learned from the debacle of PDX.. but who knows really.

The game is fine. You could argue they should’ve just marketed it as Future Tone but on switch, since it is essentially that. But for people like me, who do not own a Playstation, that is not much of a problem. You could always just not get MegaMix if you already own Future Tone. (Honestly, if you own a playstation, please just buy future tone)

But that’s all i have to say on the matter. I also have been thinking of writing a post like this for ACNH since i’m sort of a “veteran” but we’ll see wether i’ll feel like writing another essay by then. If you made it this far, thank you for reading <3

#project diva #hatsune miku #Sega #nintendo #rythm game #vocaloid

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nyrator · 4 years

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some more ny life updates, feat. MBTI stuff, dreams, financial decisions, ACNH checklists, and Radiohead opinions

incredibly depressed lately to be honest, but trying not to be too depressed for this post- basically a place to vent without being super negative because it be public and stuff, helps calm me down, maybe

helping other people with depression is too hard for me, I think. Feels bad to distance myself, but I think avoiding rumination is all I can do when it gets to that point

decided to re-take one of those personality things recently because why not, friends were doing it. I don’t hold much weight to them personally but at least I seem to be consistently this result every few years

for reference, an earlier test:

https://www.16personalities.com/istp-personality

reading through the weaknesses and romantic parts, it almost eerie how it describes me. It’s wrong on the sex part, but feels right just about everywhere else. They even quote me on saying this at the end part. The nice thing is, apparently Kresna’s personality result is my ideal match, which is fitting.

I tend to think my personality is a very flawed one, unfortunately, at least when it comes to social relationships. I don’t like being flattered or praised, nor do I tend to show appreciation to those that deserve it, I feel. Feeling people are slighted by my lack of attention or affection for them more and more.

Energy in general is such a hard thing to grasp. Lately I just can’t seem to do or focus on anything, nor do I have any strong desires to do anything. Feels hard to draw or make anything, and I’m wondering how I’ll finish up that Artfight thing. All I want to do is lay in bed and sleep, maybe just change my sleep schedule and only be awake when no one else is, and just keep to myself

been laying in bed a lot lately, and I’ve noticed a trend in actually having dreams when I’m taking a nap- or at least, that weird “trying to take a nap but keeping eyes half-open basically because I don’t actually want to fall asleep” zone

both dreams I had this week involved different things that I forget, but the core part was basically my family assaulting me, pinning me to the wall, and speaking my darkest secrets into my ear.

First one was my late sister being a prick and possibly uncovering my secret and me trying to get rid of her, while her boyfriend grabs me by the throat and lifts me off the ground into the wall as she mocks me. Second one that I just had earlier tonight, I don’t even remember the context, but basically had my mother disgusted by me, forcefully pinning my arm behind my back and slamming me face first into a wall, telling me she’s aware and disgusted by all my secrets.

Earlier this month, I also had one of my first dreams in months, but it was one of my reoccurring humiliation dreams. Except this time, there was blood. It was a very uncomfortable dream.

I wonder if these dreams mean anything about my psyche or whatever lately.

but yeah, have a lot of money lately, yet still feels sickening to spend money on myself still. I feel like I’ve spent too much on myself lately, and it feels bleh. I like spending money on Kresna, but he doesn’t let me do it often, but it’s always appreciated when he does.

ended up setting up an eye exam in three weeks- decided to order my own frames this time, but shopping for frames is hard. Ended up buying these two (since I always seem to have to buy two pairs for some probably insurance-related reason), but frames are extremely hard to shop for, at least for me, and that lavender look I like is extremely hard to come by

I wonder if I show my appreciation for lavender too much- I think I want to go for thicker frames like the top one, though the bottom ones are like my old frames (same company), and have that metallic lavender look that I love. If I ever had a dream car, it’d be in that color, honestly.

speaking of cars, my neighbor is trying to sell us her old 1997 Saturn for $250, but I’m not sure if I want it, to be honest- One, it’s so old, two, it’s a stick, which I only have basic knowledge on how to drive, and three, I don’t like driving. I think my mother told her yes, which is unfortunate, but we’ll see how it goes.

some other financial decisions lately- bedding, bottles, and slippers (not shown- the more convenient backless purple slippers I now regularly wear, as well as more personal items)

throw pillows are good for holding while sleeping and for preventing my arms from waking up entirely numb sometimes

been thinking about buying more clothes and furniture, but now that I probably won’t be getting the extra $1000 with my unemployment, it’s even harder to justify buying anything. I’d like a new desk, at least- something able to display things would be nice. My boss told me I’ll be going back to work soon hopefully, so that would be nice, especially since this virus is a good excuse to not bring back my coworker and to give me full-time hours, but even then, spending money is hard. Been thinking about a new mousepad since I’ve had this old one for longer than I can remember (probably a college gift), but even something simple like that is tough.

in other random news, slowly trying to make progress in ACNH still- and by that I mean I’ve finally started keeping a checklist for items (had Bugs/Fish already, but now have DIYs and man there’s so many DIYs I’m missing, also Dresses - Umbrella tabs of clothing, basically everything but Tops and Bottoms so far, and mannn, there’s a lot of stuff, but I basically have almost every accessory/sock/shoe in purple/pink at least, now just grinding my way through the rest of the colors I skipped. Also caught a Golden Stag today, only three beetles left (Giraffe, Hercules, and Elephant, I believe)

should probably start saving my extra bugs/fish for making models for Justin Beaver and Hot Topic, I realize- collecting those models really doesn’t interest me much, but at the same time, I have a weird obsession with trying to 100% Animal Crossing games (at a reasonable speed, of course- figure I’d wait until next year to worry about those two)

haven’t tried dreaming yet and honestly my island is still a mess that I’m still hesitant because I still have no idea what to fill it with or how to organize it

one last thing I did buy is the rest of the Radiohead albums though- I now own all their albums, except disc 2 of In Rainbows, though. Should probably listen to that on Youtube, not sure where to find a physical release of it. Decided to rank them, because I like ranking things apparently, even though overall it doesn’t mean much since my tastes shift constantly, and every album is good to listen to in my opinion (honestly more of a way of solidifying a future “best of” playlist)

Personal feelings of ranking at the moment:

Hail to the Thief (every song is top tier, I just want to shout them all out, but in particular I think “A Punchup at a Wedding“, “Myxomatosis“, “2+2=5″, and “Sit down. Stand up” are my favorites)

In Rainbows (my old favorite before HttT blew it away, though I think ”Weird Fishes/Arpeggi” is still my favorite Radiohead song, also shout outs to “Videotape” and “Jigsaw Falling Into Place”)

Kid A (I was lukewarm to the album at first, but it has a lot of tunes that stand out to me, “Idioteque” is also one of my favorite Radiohead songs, also shout outs to "Everything in Its Right Place" and "How to Disappear Completely")

OK Computer (this is where placings start getting fuzzy, “Paranoid Android” was their first song I ever listened to and loved back in high school, thanks to Ergo Proxy, great song, though I think I’ve oversaturated myself to this album by having it play as my driving music when I still had a car. Shout outs to “Exit Music (For A Film)” and “Let Down”. “Karma Police” is also up there but feels a bit less than those I suppose)

A Moon Shaped Pool (I’d place this higher when I’m looking for a more somber/reflective album to listen to, otherwise about tied with OK Computer. My favorite on the album, “Daydreaming”, is what reintroduced me to Radiohead and got me obsessed with them- this album was my first album, though it’s definitely softer compared to their usual stuff. Also driving music so a bit oversaturated, and it feels harder to shout out specific songs, but shout outs “Ful Stop”, “Glass Eyes”, and heck, basically most of the later songs on the album)

Amnesiac (Some good songs, but just not to the levels of the others. “Knives Out” is a great song though, and I tend to like the first half of the album more than the last half, last half is pretty weak to me honestly- though I got it fairly recently, so may require more listenings)

Pablo Honey (the latest album I got, so it’s still fresh in my head and thus nothing is permanent with it compared to the others, but mannn, people undersold this album, it feels solid front to back. I honestly want to put it higher, I think. Hard to identify individual songs, but shout outs to “Blow Out” in particular, “I Can’t” as well- but again, every song is great, so might say it’s close to A Moon Shaped Pool levels in rankings)

The Bends (one of their first albums I got, also a car album, but definitely didn’t click with me like the others. I have warmed up to it more than I originally did at least- I mainly got the album because heck yeah “Street Spirit (Fade Out)” is a great track, also shout outs to “The Black Star”, that’s like, one of my random “mouth out the chorus in the car” songs. I also tend to have “High and Dry” in my head a lot for some reason, but yeah, good car music, but not much else going for it I think)

The King of Limbs (the second-latest album I own and also the least listened to album I own, but it feels very... non-standout-ish. Like it’s almost too simple-sounding, or repetitive, or something, definitely the weakest album in my personal opinion. Can’t even think of a song to shout out, so I guess “Lotus Flower”, honestly, but again, I need to listen to the album more. Good background noise but just nothing that jumps out at me)

but yeah radiohead is definitely my favorite music group, I’d say, and also realize almost every album has a bonus disc, so hm, more music to find it seems (admittedly I’m not a fan of live music in general, which seems to fill up a lot of these bonus discs)

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