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thereaderinsertlady · 2 years
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POV: You walk into the kitchen, and see your housemate. He wants to have a talk with you about the missing ice cream sandwiches in the freezer.
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chasani · 1 year
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He’s (accidentally) bi AND ready to sweep the competition
How could you not vote for him?
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zona-doing-art · 2 years
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damn
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farwayloner · 2 months
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"Sweet Gardenia": The Bloom 🌺❄
Bi-Han X Cold!Reader
WARNINGS:
F!Reader, Pre-MK1 Campaign, No use of Y/N, Kinda slowburn, Overworking, a lot of flower metaphors, Mention of Starvation Tomas slander :( , Reader being stubborn, Bi-Han being soft.
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For a better experience, listen to this song while reading. :)
A/N Note: THIS IS MY FIRST FANFIC. ANY FEEDBACK IS APPRECIATED.
Seriously, this is the third time I've had to re-make this. I accidentally uploaded it first then I deleted it by accident.
This took forever to write! But thank you to my friend Gutsie for the feedback :)
I have had other projects that include writing so this not my first writing project.
A part 2 could come out if I have the motivation.
I might open a request page if not.
Expect many metaphors! I use a dictionary to enhance the words I occupy! Yeah i'm so good⁉️
My native language is not English, expect countless grammatical errors.
Enjoy!
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-🌺
Gardenias, flowers that flourish and bloom with an inmense amount of rain, letting them bloom to fulfill their entire potential. Keeping their beauty far away from the sun, in solitude and coldness to fullfill the promise under the white shining moon. In a way to sink down back to the roots.
That is how you can describe yourself as, instead of broken piece of glass lying in a withered flower field that you truly knew you were.
A delicate flower, pushed to the edge by a will of steel. If not, a withered away chrysanrhemum.
You had endless ideas of what you could describe yourself. A total failure.
You saw in yourself a weed that needed to be pulled away by grief, to wither away. And stop existing.
That is what you only wanted. You had fulfilled your potential and that is what mattered the most. What more is there to this garden of existence? Your heart will still be locked away.. a cold persona taking it's place as a façade.. Hiding the true self you have inside. The frozen you, the one that needed to be thawed.
Yet here you were.. The grandmistress of a rising clan, built from the ground and already in the riches spectrum. It was nothing, but honest work.
A work fueled by your frustration of the past events, it already bloomed into success.
Under many stacks of paperwork, graced by the finest silks and materials.. You were yet unhappy. A productive life and success made your way, yet most would call you ungrateful, insecure..
Or ambitious.
You always kept up most nights if you didn't have the exhaustion to fall asleep instantly after a long day of working, to keep the utmost pace of your life. Yet you never slept. Never rested as if you were a.. stubborn camellia.
No one to walk beside you. This wealth made you more than unhappy. But no one was worthy of your affections. Other gardens tried to kindle with you and it caused you to push more away.
In younger years, you were a root that needed to grow, in a healthier way. Winding vines only made you slowly wither away, taking what you had at your sleeve.
Your heart. Locking it down tightly and never opening it again, for the sake of your happiness.
This pace would rather destroy what you have built rather than strengthen the bond.
You were going to last as long as a bee at this pace.
"It is not enough." You always thought to yourself.. keeping it deep inside the roots of your existence. It would forever be locked there until someone pulled the weeds.
A cold heart like yours isn't deserving of love.
That's what you always convinced yourself.
Undeserving.
Not enough.
Reassurance wasn't enough.
It never was.
-🌺
You stood beside your quarter's window, a view right to the beautiful-tended to garden and those foolish blood-colored gardenias outside your window.
They seemed to be communicating in a way to you, enjoying the calming sun as they bloomed and enjoyed the last clutches of autumn. As if their secret passion would let them survive the soon coming winter.
"Beautiful. Yet foolish." You muttered to yourself. Even after being alone, you kept to yourself.
Patience is key.
Flowers were always a fascination to you, you had decorated the gardens with many beautiful flowers that bloom around all year, but those gardenias.. they couldn't stay through the winter.
It only reminded you of yourself.
You knew that those flowers were beautiful, the red color was one of the most beautiful. Yet you felt jealousy at the bloody flowers. You wouldn't indulge in those.. passions that they are meaning to, love.. partnership. The thought made you scowl, your façade falling apart.
Your clan was utmost important. The only sense of independence you had at the moment after escaping your planter's clutches, it gave you the position you have now. And you couldn't afford to lose it.
Ever.
Yet those frivolous arranged marriage proposals arrived each day at her clan's gates. How foolish to think that she would accept them. They only want her power, and her wealth. It only makes your patience wither away.
With a sigh, you returned back to work. Yet your thoughts kept going back and then. Was love truly deserving of one like you? Or that façade would bring you nowhere near a friendship?
You wouldn't indulge in those senses.. yet. As none have ever captured your heart after it has been locked away. The way to thaw it is unsure to you as well.
This continuous delusional thoughts kept you away from your work. You wouldn't tie yourself until your demise over a man who does not appreciate you. It would be a quick demise.
Yet,
You are losing hope on expanding the power and control you have over the lands. Even as you keep overworking yourself. You will have no other choice to marry the leader of another influential clan. It would be the true bad end.
But it is not alright to give up, yet. As hope will start. Winter is starting to arrive and it always arises new opportunities.
And your thoughts will always keep you to the bloody-colored flowers that mean passion and secret love. A visible furrow of eyebrows and scowled appeared on your face. You could already hear your mother scolding you due to the
"Not lady-like mannerisms".....
You really started to hate red.
-❄
The Lin Kuei.
A formidable yet stealthy warrior ninja clan that specializes in defending Earthrealm.
It's former grandmaster, had been very influential on the up-rise of the Lin Kuei. And brought it to the highest-bloom point.
Even at a low-profile state, the clan bloomed into a successful amount of wealth and power.
But the grandmaster's first-born son: Bi-Han, a snowdrop in a human mantle that was trained his entire childhood to become the grandmaster.
He did not seem to have his father's ideals.
He matured earlier than expected in a will of steel. Cold, calculating and unforgiving. Commonly referenced to a demon in human skin. His childhood being something he is ashamed off.
Bi-Han resents his father for his harsh treatment during his roots: Being referenced that weaknesses are a horrible mistake, relationships and friendships will only be distractions and cause weaknesses.
"Weaknesses are failures. Failures are unacceptable and you know of it." The former grandmaster's words were imprinted in Bi-Han's head. A common echo of reminder in those roots of his. How he resented that.. doddering-old man.
Bi-Han's frustration often caused him to snap at his brothers, who didn't receive the harsh training their father gave to him. Yet he felt guilty at his usual hurting words, but his duties and stress would be constantly eating him inside.
After the former grandmaster withered away, Bi-Han had taken the mantle of his father, wanting to bloom the Lin Kuei into a better glory than to protect Earthrealm.
No time for friendships, relationships.
Or his brothers.
His duty was the most important aspect in his life, trained for it since his birth. Having to constantly work on financial situations, scold recruits and warriors for the unsatisfactory performances. It was a harsh job.
But these recruits needed a vine to pull them back together. To teach them a lesson,
That they wouldn't forget.
Yet here was Bi-Han, in the cold winter of Articka, sharing a meal under the shining moon with his brothers.
He barely made time to "discuss duties" with them. But due to the accomodate weather and temperature, he made an up-most exception. Not that he would admit.
Bi-Han was deep in his thoughts, while his brothers enjoyed the steaming buns right in-front of him placed on the dinner table.
Though he made an attempt to ignore the simple delicasies. Bi-Han's concentrated gaze was staring right into the soul of a newly-grown nearby tree,that increased snow started to fall from.
He had a work-loaded week, and now he could enjoy respite digesting steaming buns with his brothers. A quiet respite if he could just enjoy it.
"Winter is very close by and times will get harsher." Bi-Han though to himself. Even after mastering Cryomancy, he must prepare for the harsh climate.
Not only for himself, but for the rest of Lin Kuei warriors.
Bi-Han was brought out of his thoughts when his blood-brother, Kuai Liang, spoke to catch his attention.
"I was analizing the climate. I apologise for the distractions." Bi-Han tried to dismiss the subject with a wave of his hand.
He despised being seen as vulnerable. As if he was compared to a flower. Bi-Han scowled at the thought.
"Continue, Kuai Liang." Bi-Han said coldly, staring with thorns of long-frozen impatience at his adopted brother: Tomas, for a second.
Then back at Kuai Liang. With the same gaze.
Kuai Liang cleared his throat, his high body warmth due to his Pyromancy abilities, was now warming the garden of the conversation.
The frozen flowers showed cracks and they shattered due to the unusual cold. Which Bi-Han managed to ignore with no hesitation.
"Now that you have become grandmaster,
I believe that someone could join to command the Lin Kuei by your side, Brother." Kuai Liang sounded slightly hesitant.
Bi-Han raised an eyebrow. His icy malice fading by the moment.
"Explain yourself, Kuai Liang." Bi-Han crossed his arms with a questioning look, any more nonsense and he would explode, as a caterpillar out of it's metamorphosis phase. A resentment about to push out in an avalanche.
"..." Kuai Liang sighed.
"A partner by your side... Someone to be there.. emotionally and physically." Kuai Liang sounded more confident. Bi-Han allowed himself to root a strange.. considering glint in his eyes.
But before Bi-Han could respond with a snarky comment as usual, Tomas chided in.
"By what he means, is a wife by your side, Bi-Han." Bi-Han stood up abruptly, startling the two brothers.
Bi-Han glared at the both of them, and more harshly at Tomas. His tone was meant to bite deeply.
"Dismiss that nonsense, Tomas!" Bi-Han said while pointing a finger to the two of them.
"You know nothing of what is good for me."
Bi-Han directed his finger to himself.
"Only I do."
After the harsh snap, Bi-Han sat back down and digged into a steaming bun. His gaze moving away from the brothers.
Kuai Liang gave a "I am used to this" stare, and then gazed assuringly at Tomas who seemed taken aback.
Kuai Liang stood up and approached Bi-Han, placing a warm hand on his shoulder.
"Brother.. It could give the clan more glory. The freedom you truly want it to have.. It is not a weakness, but a benefit." Kuai Liang said reassuringly while Bi-Han only responded with an unamused stare.
Then Bi-Han looked down, considering.
"The Lin Kuei requires my focus more than anything else." His tone was more composed.
"Any weakness or distraction will cause failure." Bi-Han continued still composed, the iceberg seemed about to break. "And all types of failure are unacceptable."
Tomas went in to defend Kuai Liang. His tone more.. Desperate and he gulped afterwards.
"Bi-Han, I am aware that you are seeking perfection.. yet you fear failure more than everything else." Tomas tried to reassure Bi-Han, but the latter responded with a glare and a slam on the table.
He had enough.
"Hold that tongue if you wish to keep it, Tomas." Bi-Han said very harshly. "I have no intentions of discussing this." Bi-Han left the icy gardens.. Leaving Tomas and Kuai Liang with disappointment.
Bi-Han was sat down on his office.. Feeling guilty after snapping again to his brothers. On that same damn chair that he always hunched over and got all his back pains from. How he'd wish to freeze it, and throw it to somewhere else to be never seen.
How he'd wish he'd get out of his head those foolish delusional thoughts. To stop snapping at his brothers and not consider Kuai Liang's proposal.
Bi-Han really thought.. Is he really ache-ing for a love he probably doesn't even know he really requires? Or.. deserves.
If he did, he only wished for a loyal partner.
A woman fit to his needs.. Not someone weak, someone who had a will of steel similar to his. A gaze that defies nature. Someone who he would trust entirely, to the point of worship. Yet he didn't wish to show it as a weakness.
He wanted to nurture those seeds if he did manage to get attached. He knew it was unlikely, but all he wished is for the new blossoms to open.
Appearances were everything.
It truly made him want to rip everything apart.
But his duties are always the up-most important. Nothing will change his ways.
Maybe another day, another life or another moment, he could indulge in those thoughts. But for now, the Lin Kuei were up-most important.
Even if it cost him everything.
-🌺
You held in your hands yet another rejected arranged marriage proposal.
The sun had fallen, and the sweet breeze of the evening had turned to the strong yet comforting mantle that arrived each winter.
Yet another clan has tried to bring down yours after you rejected their arranged marriage proposal.
It is not a surprise either. It has happened way too many times to count.
"These power-hungry fools." You knew you had no chance at this point. You had to marry into a clan and bloom ever more.
As a clan leader, your duties were always destined to benefit your future and not handle the past.
Yet you had to find the proper one.
You decided to check onto the many arranged marriage deals.. many were asking for 75% of revenue from your clan. That made you wince.
You have denied the blossom of any deep feelings, causing many of your stress and emotional unhappiness.
The gardenias outside your window didn't have the "positive" aura they once had. As if the cold winter had affected their once up-bright bloom.
Reminded you of someone.
And it kept you intrigued, contemplating the idea to investigate flowers once you have cleared your duties out of your schedule.
You will never catch a break at this point.
But for the sake of the clan, you will start to meet the one who will thaw that frozen flower within you.
To find the only worthy one, but only time would tell.
Once dawn arrived,
You would be ready to let the seeds grow.
For your sake.
-❄
The Lin Kuei temple was bustling with noise of the recruits trying to blossom their fighting techniques. On the quieter side,
Bi-Han was working on his office, handling important matters that were very indeed important, but not very important enough to mention. When Sektor entered his office with a paper on his hands. Bi-Han welcomed him in with only a stare and let him speak,
Crossing his arms over his chest. His gaze unamused as prepared to hear Sektor's usual ramblings.
"Well then." Bi-Han said slightly impatient.
"Grandmaster.. I assume you had accepted Kuai Liang's proposal?" Sektor said calmly as he placed the paper on Bi-Han's desk, letting him inspect the paper.
Bi-Han quirked an eyebrow.
"This, is a clan that Cyrax and I have been observing for the past 3 months." Sektor explained calmly once again, with backups of evidence slipping by. "Their financial debates and the way they continuously continue to grow is outstanding." Sektor looked Bi-Han, asking for approval on to keep rambling.
"...Very well. Keep explaining." Bi-Han's tone was one of interest. He inspected the paper, and nodded as Sektor spoke.
The lower part of the paper read as:
'The only way to affiliate as such is for the current leaders of the clans to conclude a marriage.' Bi-Han furrowed his eyebrows and then looked at Sektor who continued on rambling about how the clan's leader intellect was one of "other realms".
Yet, Sektor continued to explain.
"It is run by a woman. We haven't managed to collect any information from her. But from what we have.. investigated, is that she is a formidable business-partner.
It would make her intellect run the financial parts, and your strength to run the troops."
"This plan would make the clan bloom intensively, Grandmaster." Sektor added,
As if trying to convince him. Sektor stood tall, a hand to his chest. He was loyal to his Grandmaster, no matter what.
Then grew another sentence asking for Bi-Han's approval. Snapping Bi-Han out of his considering thoughts.
"This is a chance we can't afford to lose."
Bi-Han thought for a moment. He knows he can't refuse. Yet Sektor's proposal echo'ed on Bi-Han's head.
This could be the greater chance for the Lin Kuei to have the freedom it deserves. Growing inmensively in power would bring it to what he always envisioned..
And to... accept Kuai Liang's proposal.. He wasn't completely against it.
It was perfect.
Bi-Han placed the paper back down on the desk and signed it.
"Very well. I will be looking forward to meet this.. Grandmistress." Bi-Han said with stoicness laced with unusual interest and handed it to Sektor.
"Send it to the Grandmistress of that clan and report if she accepts an arrangement." Bi-Han continued, he was shivering with anticipation.
This was the best chance he had gotten this far.
And winter had just started. And soon after, it would all bloom.
But together, perhaps, two steel willed lives like a gardenia and an icy snowdrop might shape their lives and their clans into a sturdy netherrock, undestructible and strong.
Only if the meeting went the right path, that was. Only time would tell if an alliance could bloom where only distrust once reigned supreme, or if these two flowers were destined to remain tied forever, until their demise.
Bi-Han couldn't wait.
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"Lin Kuei?" You repeated your advisor's words with a scowl.
"You are naming it as if it was stupid. It is not, my lady." Your advisor said reassuringly.
"This traditional Chinese clan is a very low-profiled one. Truly focusing on strength and power." You gazed at the signed paper by the grandmaster, Bi-Han.
Ninjas, you thought. Even though it referred at the members as "warriors."
How old-fashioned. Yet, the accidental grunt that you let out at the word was worth it.
This was going to be.. unusual unlike the other clans that have sent you arrangement proposals.
The Lin Kuei's grandmaster wanted to marry you. Like everyone else. You had to check what he required.. And what he was proposing in return.
He required 25% of your revenue. Acceptable, since the other clans required around 30% or higher. Which this situation caused an unusual tingle in your stomach.
...He required your skills? He didn't specify in the file. It seems it was not even written by himself.
And he was offering in return..
25% revenue of the Lin Kuei's profits... decent, yet acceptable.
Yet other thing caught your eye.
A grandmistress role, a chair-man position in the Lin Kuei... This was strange,
Indeed.
Most clans that came to offer, offered you a rather high rank and role, but none as high as to be an equal with the leader.
This caught your interest, indeed.
"A grab." You mumbled to yourself. Catching your advisor's attention.
You gazed back at your advisor, who was waiting for your opinion on the matter.
You blinked a few times from the lack of sleep. How long ago did you change your pillow's case..?
Whatever.
"My interest peaked. Do tell me more." You said a bit commanding, yet softly. You gazed back at the paper.
This paper had arrived by chance, unlike the many others that arrived at the clan's gates.
This one appeared on your window. The one that had direct view to those.. foolish gardenias.
Those.. Lin Kuei ninjas must have snuck here, how amusing.
You had to call your advisor for information on the matter. This Lin Kuei. Not open to the public eye.. no registry on your clan's archives.. The only way to gain information is having a meeting with the clan leader or a representative.
"The Lin Kuei's grandmaster is said to be a monster. Cold and unforgiving." Your advisor said with a hesitant voice.
"But as you have told me countless times.. You are not forbidden to marry and not blossom any feelings, my lady." You gazed back your advisor.
True words, as long as you helped your clan not falter by any means..
You would.
You stayed silent as your advisor continued to explain many of the benefits.
"I will keep it in mind." You replied with a calm conposture. "Send a messenger. I will have a.. peaceful meeting with this.. Bi-Han." His name sounded bitter on your tongue.
You had to meet a cold yeti, and you weren't afraid.
Only for the sake of your clan.
"Let's prepare some buns. I haven't ate in a few days." You said unamusingly.
Your advisor seemed worried.. You have not ate steamed buns in days..
Or you have not ate in days.
How foolish.
Let's hope winter doesn't crush the lilacs of your excitement.
Which you so try to deny.
-❄|🌺
The weather was.. emotional dropping to say the least.
The sky a neutral shade of gray smoke, a comforting aura yet taunting with the idea of possible rain.
You considered this weather to be the most.. relaxing. Yet productive. You mostly took days off on this type of weather, considering it a day for full respite.
Even if it quadripled your paperwork.
You were excited to say the least. You prepared your appearance decently. Because after the most work-loaded of days, your face would be puffy and tired.
Yet it was the perfect weather to start a meeting.
The wind was practically non-existent,
And you were preparing to meet the Lin Kuei's grandmaster. An optimal preparation was put in place. While you watched the gardeners arrange the many well-kept flowers..
Including those foolish blood-colored gardenias.
They were pretty to say the least.
Flowers were always a fascination to you. A visual break from the un-aesthetics of the common wither of winter and deterioration.
Yet winter had already arrived.. seeing how most of the beautiful trees had no leaves left in the roots.. The past dealings of autumn had left a temporal mark in their spare.
It gave you more than enough confidence to head through the meeting.
You were dressed rather formally, the room that you had prepared for the meeting was open, a large frame with direct access to the main gardens.
It was embroided with a dark-tone of high quality oak. With tall bookcases covering the walls of the room.
The room's large frame's purpose was only to gaze at which had withered away and which had survived winter's embrace.
Yet your attention kept away at that damned garden. How to not survive a winter?
Life is dependant on will and skill. Even those who do not possess skill survive through will alone. Otherwise, no will, pure skill.
What a blossom of thoughts had been keeping away the matters that needed to seed their way to your brain.
Your attention was called, chiding it away from your gaze to the mostly red-colored garden.
The room was finished.
And as you gazed at the many flowers,
As long as you kept denying it,
You could not deny your liking for the red gardenias.
But other flowers had your affections as well.
The room was ready and a table was placed, a chair on either sides. You took the one that had a view to the door and left the remaining one for the grandmaster. Purposelly doing so for the view, and sake of the well-kept garden.
It was a small but thoughtful detail.. Maybe ambitious?
You were never the type of person to show off the things in your pockets.
You sat down in the chair and prepared the documments that you wanted to present, in-case the meeting was successful and the idea of an arrange marriage was successful.
If the so-called "monster" was keen to your ideals or not.
You had a tea set on another table in the room in-case he was in the mood for a steaming cup of tea, many flavors and spices to keep it to his liking.
Your advisor went to encourage you.. The past meetings with other clan leaders were.. unsuccesful and awkward.
He had arrived.
But as you continued to gaze at the garden and the tea set somewhere along the room.. You decided that your idea was gonna take place first.
Bi-Han had arrived at the clan gates, Kuai Liang by his side.
Kuai Liang sighed seeing Bi-Han's confidence.
"I never imagined to see the day where you would try to conquer a woman's affections." Kuai Liang stared at Bi-Han who was gazing at the arquitecture of the place.
Bi-Han was unamused visibly by Kuai Liang's remark.
"Silence. It is for our good." Bi-Han's tone was composed, not meaning to hurt Kuai Liang.
Yet he re-directed his gaze to Kuai Liang with a nod.
"We shall enter. I am sure the grandmistress might be waiting for us." Bi-Han walked inside and Kuai Liang followed silently.
But Kuai Liang did not fail to notice the excitement laced in his tone, yet the raise in his eyebrows.
One of the clan members greeted them with a bow and leaded them to the meeting room..
And once Bi-Han opened the door...
You weren't there.
Kuai Liang and Bi-Han stepped inside in confusion. Was this the wrong room had they just entered?
The room seemed to be set up for a meeting and the scenery of the garden seemed appealing to the eyes.
They were in the according room.
Then they saw a figure, she entered the building with flowers on her hands, placing them with the spices sitting beside the multiple flavors of tea.
Her stance not faltering her resting face seemed unamused, to say the least.
There you were. You were grabbing the roses and jasmine flowers to give the tea flavors more variety.
It hurt your heart to cut off some of the bloomed delicacies, but for the sake of the meeting it was optimal.
You had to address them.. No time to slack.
You cleared your throat and turned to face the two masked men.
"Welcome.. I was not informed of an.. advisor." You said composed while re-directing your gaze to Kuai Liang. "Must we start?"
Kuai Liang bowed his head. "Grandmistress, you are mistaken. I am simply accompanying my brother." You nodded,
noticing of Bi-Han's lack of response and the penetrating stare he was pointing at you.
You stayed silent gazing at them for a few seconds then you gazed back at the tea.
"Tea? Most foreign flavors I have at my disposal." You said calmly as you looked for approval to prepare some tea.
Courtesy at it's finest. Tea was a great start.
"Pu'erh. With Mantao." Bi-Han said coldly, but composed. These were the only words he had said so far,
Meanwhile he stood beside Kuai Liang, who didn't seem to have much faith on Bi-Han.
"No, Thank you for the offer." Kuai Liang said gruffly yet friendly.
You nodded at their words, placing the boiling water into cups and starting to add the bags of tea.
You prepared some tea for yourself as well, Chamomille.. meant to calm your nerves in-case of any disagreement or anything that would stress you.
You brewed the tea and placed it on the table, placing the Pu'erh teacup with a spice of Mantao honey on Bi-Han's side of the table and your chamomille teacup on the side you were destined to sit.
Decent so far. A show of courtesy shown by your part.
"Please, sit down so we can begin." You say down calmly and composed. Your face showing calmness,
But a frigid composture that "can't" be cracked.
You gazed at Kuai Liang who was still standing.
"I apologise for the lack of seating. I was informed that this meeting would be entirely confidential." You let out a sigh at your words.
Kuai Liang hesitated.
"No need to apologise. I wasn't aware of my compa-" Kuai Liang was shut by Bi-Han's gaze.
Bi-Han had his mask on, so did Kuai Liang. But Kuai Liang knew that Bi-Han was scowling under the mask.
After all, Bi-Han had "convinced" him. In reality, obligated him. If not, Bi-Han would have dealt with this matter himself.
Bi-Han wanted none to know this.
He would be hysterical if his brother wasn't there to watch. He would ever not, admit that fact.
Bi-Han sat down, while Kuai Liang was standing awkwardly beside.
The yellow one's eyebrows were furrowed? No.. those were only the marks due to the constant frowning on his part. And Bi-Han seemed to have met the same predicament.
Bi-Han's eyebrows were relaxed. But his eyes, with a stern look were focused entirely on you, as if judging you. You started to speak, gazing back with a tone of admission. As if to show respect.
Shall it start.
"I am curious of the fact that a low-profiled clan seeks an alliance with one as mine." You crossed your arms over your chest. Bi-Han's gaze still piercing.
"The Lin Kuei especializes in stealth, force and commitment." Bi-Han didn't even acknowledge his tea.
The steam slowly fading away as the room's temperature went down by the minute.
You nodded at his words. He didn't mention power once. Most of the clan leaders mentioned how successful their clans were, yet the Lin Kuei were thriving with a health and development unlike any others and a humble response had surprised you.
"...It is great to hear. My advisor had informed me of the achievings of your clan." You drank the chamomille.. The soft yet strong flavor making you relax.
Meanwhile Bi-Han..
Bi-Han was feeling.. concerned. The Lin Kuei never had any sort of meetings like this in the past. His father had met his mother during a skirmish, saving her life and taking her in to the Lin Kuei.
As long as he knew, it was a tale that his mother used to tell him and his brothers to fall asleep.
"Foolish. That old man surely kidnapped and forced her against her will." Bi-Han's thoughts were always aggressive, to no surprise.
Yet Bi-Han stared at you as you spoke over the documents, speaking about possible benefits and the downfalls that could be caused.
He appreciated your determination for your duty.
It was rare to not see leaders slack off and live off their wealth. Yet you took that, threw it on the ground and set it on fire.
Your will was fascinating to Bi-Han. Even if he wouldn't show it. He kept his piercing stare.
You continued to speak, thinking that Bi-Han had absolutely no interest.
You kept your conversation. You seemed to be speaking alone as Bi-Han only gave back nods and barely spoken words. It unfuriated you yet it seemed to be progressing well.
"I am affirming that this agreement will not only bring power. Prosperity and humility are the most important aspect of a clan. Peace through framework is preferable than an endless chase of power."
You said calmly. Noticing how Bi-Han's gaze darkened.
He instantly furrowed his eyebrows.
"Power brings respect. More power no conflicts to being with." Bi-Han's tone was unintentionally harsher.
You narrowed your eyes.
"Power is not by any means a weapon. A word that exists on your mind to cause you ambition." You sighed.
"It is a true sense of strength that must be taken care off, carefully."
Bi-Han notably got more and more furious. It was obvious he was attempting to hold his composture in.
Kuai Liang seemed concerned too,
but knew nothing would calm his brother's rage.
It didn't stop Bi-Han.
"You work off weakness."
Bi-Han's true speech had risen up.
"Might alone will bring the 'humility' and 'prosperity' you seek. Only through wars and struggle." He continued.
"And if you are against violence then you are not fit to work with the Lin Kuei. Simple as that is."
Bi-Han spat out coldly. The disagreement had escalated.
You could barely keep your snarky remarks from your composture.
You had to end this.
"I am aware that the Lin Kuei work off might and power alone." You stood up abruptly.
Bi-Han's eyebrows both raised. It was a funny sight, to say the least.
"I was expecting a façade to get in my good side, grandmaster" You stared directly to in-between his eyebrows.
Your tone meant to show disappointment in the outcome of this meeting.
"Yet you have only shown your true colors."
Kuai Liang seemed panicked, looking at Bi-Han in a way to tell him to salvage this.
"This meeting is concluded. Leave."
You left to the gardens.. Passing by the red gardenias and letting out a grunt.
Even this garden was enough to fuel your anger.
You headed into the outsides of your clan..
In a way to soothe your nerves..
To the hidden forest glade within.
No distractions.
-🌺|❄
Bi-Han was distraught to say the least.
He had managed to ruin the chance to win the woman's affections and approval.
Now he had fully-lost the chance to gain it.
This could affect the Lin Kuei in a sort of way? If she decided to become an enemy.
Bi-Han simply stayed sat, he realized that he did not gaze even once at the cold tea in front of him.
He had been unintentionally having a lack of respect.
He hated this.
"Brother." Kuai Liang spoke after a minute of awkward silence. "If you don't go after her- You might lose your chance." Kuai Liang was nervous.
He had seen the entire disagreement pass by like a mannequin.. It hurt seeing how Bi-Han was messing it all over and not being able to intervene.
Bi-Han looked up at Kuai Liang.
"I suppose so." Bi-Han stared to the gardens, the multiple colored gardens with varieties he had not seen at the Lin Kuei..
A high-quantity of flowers that grow in gardens with higher temperature.
He had never seen a lotus flower. Only from the pictures his mother had shown him.
"Beautiful". He thought.
Bi-Han remembered the many topics his mother used to ramble about.
Flowers, especially.
He had acquired a great knowledge for gardening due to his mother's teaching.
He couldn't help but reminisce.
"Bi-Han, dear. Come here." Bi-Han heard his mother's voice call him out of the training with his brothers.
He would get scolded for leaving, but spending time with his mother was more important to him than anything.
"Come here." Bi-Han's mother took Bi-Han lithe form in his arms. She held a book and sat beside flowers on the well-tended to gardens in the snowy terrain that the Lin Kuei temple resided in.
Bi-Han was in for a long teaching.
"That, is a roseroot. Grows only in the highest of places. We occasionally place some of the leaves on our dishes." Bi-Han let himself root out a face of disgust and his mother chuckled. She stared lovingly to Bi-Han's interest.
She knew a break from his harsh training might do him well.
Bi-Han gazed at the droopy flowers close to his mother and then back at her.
"Oh? Those are Galanthus. Also known as Snowdrops, dear. You will see them all year, they surely love the snow."
Bi-Han paid attention to the entirety of his mother's teachings.
If Bi-Han couldn't admit it, he had such knowledge for such things as flowers. Which he would call "weak."
Now all he had left for the memory was his mother's flora research in the Lin Kuei's archives.
He would make usage of it one day.
He was sure of it.
Bi-Han was shook out of his memory and noticed Kuai Liang staring at him disapprovingly.
"Brother! You have to find her!" Kuai Liang seemed more desperate. Unusual due to his mastered patience at his brother's stubborness.
Bi-Han nodded and stood up. Running after the ominous clan leader.
He would make ammends.
It was for his clan after all.
You were sat in a tree trunk. The smokey gray sky still haunting your patience and you façade slowly dropping out. Your face in your hands.
Your hands felt like burning steel.
It hurt.
What did go wrong? You gave the up-most courtesy that you learnt over your entire life.
You knew respect was something primal, necessary for every lifetime interaction. Yet any fools that spoke to you were lacking of such formality.
Were you too cold? Maybe it could be cause.
He stared at you as if you were garbage,
A lifeless doll.
Like everyone else.
Your fury was undeniable.
As long as you kept it inside that locked heart, and no one tried opening to see the one memory hidden inside, it would maintain the peace you always kept.
You must not fracture.
This was only one of the many meetings that were to come.
This wouldn't let you down even once.
The rooted façade would not fall apart.
Yet you felt the icy presence behind you. You did not move an inch but his menacing aura was enough to sent a shiver down your spine.
Letting yourself bloom a sigh.
Your trail was left right open it seems,
He was here.
-❄|🌺
Bi-Han stared at the woman in front of him.
He knew that sneaking behind her while she tried to keep her emotional turmoil at bay would only cause her even more distress,
But he wouldn't be caught yet.
He only heard your voice besides the sounds of the harsh wind.
"Have you come here to taunt me? I am not emotionally available for yet another pointless debate." You said gruffly.
Fighting the tears that were trying to come out.
"No. I only wish to.. make ammends." Bi-Han said a bit hesitantly.
You stared up in confusion.
"Yet another scheme to make me fall. Your ways of treason are not affordable." You let out, meaning to bite.
Bi-Han sighed.
He knew he could not deal with an emotional woman that tried to hold her rage.
"There are other ways we can join together. Other than power." Bi-Han said quite lowly.
He wanted to make it clear.
"I wish the best for the Lin Kuei. And I have observed that you have the same ideal for your clan." You stared confused,
Not knowing where he was heading to in the conversation.
"I wish to make a change in the contract."
You nodded at his request. Raising your eyebrows.
"No marriage ceremony?" You said confidently, guessing that was his idea. He seemed uncomfortable at the idea of a wedding.
His shoulders tensed, he sighed.
"No. I want your clan to join the Lin Kuei. As a branch." You seemed more furious at that.
You could not take this lightly.
"I would not wish such fate to my clan. I blossomed day and night for such path." You said coldly.
Your emotions rising up once again.
"I am still offering the chair-man position. You and I will be equal. You will remain as a grandmistress." Bi-Han said,
His gaze looking at you with a convincing glint.
"I am not against the idea." Bi-Han sighed at your words. He had to knock some sense into you, but he would not yell.
You were a stubborn mess to deal with.
"So be it." The grandmaster said with a huff.
"To clear your stubborn soul that you possess, let's have a fight." Bi-Han stepped back and put himself into a ready'ed battle stance.
You had not put your self-defense abilities to the test in a long time. Approximately around last summer.
Yet you were confident. A good match, isolated?
No unwanted attention would be brought here.
Just what you wanted.
Bi-Han noticed by the determined glint on your gaze as you stood up from the trunk you previously turmoiled on.
You were ready.
And you were ready to blow off every steam you needed.
A mean of justice that would not be forgotten by him. A way to break the world and the law of your heart.
A broken heart once filled with tenderness.
Would that break his rule? Surely not. But it would be an amazing way to de-stress.
You were panting heavily, so was Bi-Han.
This spar quickly transformed into "who can break eachother's nose first." You weren't against the idea but the experience that Bi-Han had at hand-to-hand kombat was higher than yours.
You could tell he was going easy on you.
You hated it.
The trees shaked as a foul amount of punches were exchanged. Bi-Han covering his fits in ice to catch you more off guard.
You tried to not break your composture seeing that he was a cryomancer.
You could not hold back the scowl that you blossomed out of your face.
No way you're losing this.
You ducked and evaded most of his "pulled-punches". Though your emotions remained turmoiled, you mind was only on the battle. Even with the heavy drag of your heart.
Everything was dragged away by the wind.
Two souls connect as one only for such intense fight.
Their eyes connected and with that one glance..
It was finished.
You fell down to the ground exhausted.
Bi-Han offered his hand to help you stand up.
"I understimated you, woman." He said panting, with a barely noticeable tone of admiration.
You gazed up at him for a few seconds, narrowing your eyes as you took his hand to help you.
"I am glad we have made the ammends you wished. Yet, I am not convinced by your proposal."
You didn't want your clan to be disregarded as a branch inside the Lin Kuei.
"Then, we shall meet at dawn tomorrow. A meeting to the Lin Kuei temple will take place." Bi-Han said with his back turned to you.
"I will be waiting, grandmistress." Bi-Han said lowly but softly and left the glade.
"Very well..." You said hesitantly.
As for all that mattered... Nothing did.
Tomorrow you would see if everything was worth it, or to throw it away.
This Bi-Han had fished your attention. And you couldn't escape from it.
But it was enough.
As long as it helped you too..
You were more than happy to let your heart blossom for just that man.
Even if you were delusional enough.
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Not the cliffhanger, but yeah.
This is too long for my liking.
(I'll try to upload this to AO3 as well..)
A part 2 is guaranteed! No idea when it'll come out though. 😭
This took forever to write and any reblogs are appreciated! Feedback is also to be accepted, don't be shy :D
Thank you so much for reading :)
-Shigu 💖
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the-guilty-writer · 1 year
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I'd Better Ask Emily
Request from anon: Hear me out😅 Spencer Reid x daughter!reader where the reader is a lesbian but is to scared to tell Spencer and Spencer someone find out by accidentally reading her diary or something?
Spencer Reid x daughter!reader
Summary: When Spencer goes looking for your school notebook and accidentally reads your diary instead he goes to the BAU bisexual badass for help.
A/N: I really wanted to do this justice so there's angst and fluff and bisexual Emily Prentiss because she had more chemistry with women than any male love interest. I’m also a sucker for Reid and Prentiss friendship so there is a good chunk of it in here.
CW: reader is gay, Emily is bi, let’s be honest everyone on the team is a little fruity, suggestions that Emily wasn’t supported, coming out of the closet, reader goes to social justice march.
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“And my math homework is on the table for you to check over!” It was a Friday morning and you were in a rush to get out the door. There was a social justice march beginning at the national mall in half an hour and your AP government teacher had convinced the principal to cancel classes so every student could participate. Plus you were getting extra credit.
“What about your reading summaries?” Your dad asked you. Spencer always proof-read your graded assignments, per your request. It helped to have his genius input, though sometimes you wondered if he went easy on you. Since you were a child, you’d never made a craft or drew a picture or wrote something that your dad didn’t love.
“In my notebook on my desk,” you said hastily. “Bye, love you!”
“Love you too. Don’t get-” The door slammed shut. Spencer sighed. “Arrested.”
He made his way to your room. For the most part you were tidy, but your desk was a mess. Colored pens and highlighters, loose leaf paper with to-do lists, a stack of books that was falling over onto the jumbled surface. Spencer began to sift through the clutter, fixing the stack of books, putting your writing utensils in a pile, looking around for your notebook- but of course you hadn’t clarified which notebook. By the time he was done sorting through the mess there were five of them total. He began to read through them, trying to identify which one you wrote your reading summaries in.
It was down to the last two. Spencer grabbed the next one in the stack and opened to a random page:
I’ve never been one for poetry, but I find myself wanting to write verses on how her eyes crinkle when she laughs and the way her hips sway as she walks.
That sounded English-y and promising. Spencer kept reading.
I imagine her skin is soft, like velveteen, and her hair like expensive silk. The smell of her perfume is that of vanilla and honey; it reminds me of summer.
The sound of her voice is like a siren’s music. When she calls my name I can’t help but get up from my spot in the cafeteria and-
Wait.
There weren’t cafeterias in the book you were reading for school.
Spencer read the passage back again and again. He couldn’t help himself- he flipped to the front page to start from the beginning and finished reading the entirety of your diary in two minutes. There were entries spanning over two years, but one thing stuck out to Spencer more than anything else:
You talked about girls.
You talked liking girls.
Of course the diary contained passages on other things, like the day you visited your dream school and a cute dog you had met at the park… but you were dreaming of cute girls. And you never told him.
Spencer closed the diary and put it on your desk. His only thought: I’d better ask Emily about this.
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Emily added a small amount of creamer to her coffee and went to sit down at her desk, highly regretting that she’d put her paperwork until the last minute again. The stack of files on her desk was beginning to rival Hotch’s, and that was not a competition she wanted to win. She sat down at her desk and opened up a file, pen in hand ready to go when-
“Um, hey Emily. Can I ask you something?”
If it was anyone but Spencer, she probably would have told them to ask her during the lunch break she wasn’t going to take, but there was a hesitancy in his voice that made her stop. Emily knew she looked like she might bite someone if they bothered her- Morgan had already gotten a taste of her mood that morning- but Spencer never seemed to notice when her annoyance rose to the surface. If he was uncomfortable it was because he had his own problem. He needed her help.
And she needed his speed reading to get through all the files on her desk.
“Morning, Reid,” she said, her annoyance turning to concern. “Is everything okay?”
“Well, I- uh- I kind of saw something I shouldn’t have this morning and I wanted to ask you about it.” He rubbed his neck nervously.
Emily tried to keep a straight face as she thought of every embarrassing teenage incident captured on video or sin-to-win photograph that could possibly be out there for Spencer to come across.
“What is it?” Emily asked, her voice wavering ever so slightly.
“You like women romantically, right?”
Okay… that didn’t rule out embarrassing adolescent mistakes or weekends in Atlantic City.
“Yes.”
“Because I accidentally read (Y/N)’s diary this morning and she writes a lot about being attracted to girls but she hasn’t told me yet and-”
“You read your daughter’s diary?!” Emily wasn’t sure if she was more shocked that Reid would do such a thing, or relieved that her privacy was still intact. “Reid-”
“It was an accident!” he said. “I was looking for her reading summaries for school and she told me it was in the notebook on her desk and then I just saw it…”
Emily hoped the devastation on Spencer’s face was for the right reasons.
“Why wouldn’t she tell me?”
Yeah… it was for the right reasons.
Emily sighed, leaning her elbows on her desk. “I’m sure that you demonstrate your open-mindedness at home-”
“I do.”
“And I’m sure you tell (Y/N) that you love her no matter what-”
“All the time.”
“But that doesn’t make it any less scary.”
Spencer didn’t respond.
“Coming out isn’t easy. No matter how sure you are that you will be accepted there’s always a little bit of doubt. There’s always the fear that it’ll change the fundamental way a person loves you and that you’ll never treat them the same.” Emily pushed away memories- memories filled with pain and relief and anxiety and frustration. The only thing that eased the thoughts were that she knew you wouldn’t have to go through what she did; not with Spencer as your dad. “She’s probably feeling really afraid, even if she doesn’t show it.”
“How can I make it better?”
Spencer’s genuine love for you- a love that every child should get to experience- made Emily feel as though she was falling apart and being put back together again all at the same time.
“Just let her know you love her,” Emily said. “A little goes a long way.”
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As you walked up to the door of the apartment you felt like you were floating on cloud nine; for two years you had been crushing on this girl you shared classes with. You knew she was openly and unapologetically gay- making it a point to post pictures of herself on social media with pride flags and holding hands with her now ex-girlfriend. They had broken up about eight months ago and ever since then you’d hope that she would notice you. For three months the two of you had hung out in group settings- getting to know one another with other people there as a buffer- but you’d gathered your courage today to ask her out on a date. And she said yes.
“So I guess the march was good?”
You were so distracted from the events of the day you hadn’t even noticed your dad was home.
“Oh, yeah,” you said, startled. “It was good. Really good. Lots of… social justice and things.” You cursed yourself for not having a better answer. You should have been good at faking feelings and answers by now, having been raised by a profiler. Even then, Spencer always saw right through you.
The high you were on came crashing down- your dad always saw right through you. There was no way you could go on a date, let alone your first date, without him catching on. Discomfort grappled with your stomach and anxiety bubbled in your chest. You tried to reach for the courage you had earlier, but it was gone.
“Hey, is everything okay?” Your dad walked over and put a gentle hand on your arm.
“Uh-” You swallowed. “Yeah- yeah, I’m fine.”
Your dad suddenly looked weary. It was the same look when he told you he was going to miss your tenth birthday because of a case, or when he got a call that your grandmother’s medication wasn’t working as well as they had hoped.
“(Y/N),” he started. “I love you. I really hope you know that. And I’m glad you had a good day.”
“I love you too, dad,” you said, waiting for him to break bad news. But it didn’t come. He just gave you his awkward tight-lipped smile before tucking your hair behind your ear and turning away.
There was something about the gesture and the words that called the courage back to you. Well, some of the courage.
“I’m going on a date,” you blurted. Spencer turned back to you. You tried to look for clues on his face or in his body language that would tell you what he was thinking or feeling, but you were too caught up in your own head to make sense of any of it. “I asked someone out on a date and they said yes.”
Your father smiled wide. “That’s great, honey! Is it anyone I know?”
“Oh- um-” Spencer didn’t know many of your friends in person, but he knew them from what you told him, and what Garcia could dig up on them. “Yeah. They’re in some of my classes.”
You waited for your dad to call you out on the vagueness of your language, but he didn’t. He only continued to smile and encourage you to go on- is it a study date or a real date? Real date. Weekend or after school? Weekend. Are you taking the metro or do you want him to drive you? Actually it was a walkable distance.
The more you talked, the more excited you got. You were still careful to control your language, but the bravery was beginning to grow. You thought about taking a deep breath, but you didn’t. Instead you just said, “And she’s a girl.”
The world stilled for just a moment- your heart which was beating fast with excitement was now racing with panic. Your stomach was in knots and you felt your hands begin to shake. “I’m gay, dad.”
Spencer placed a gentle hand over yours, stopping it from quivering. The look in his eyes couldn’t be described as happy, but it wasn’t sad. No… it was peace. It was content.
“I know,” he said.
“You- you do?” The weight began to lift off your shoulders, but it was replaced by a bit of shock.
“Yes.” Spencer smiled. “Next time you should clarify which of your notebooks you wrote your assignments in.” Both of you chuckled, and you felt your body unwind as tension left your muscles. “And if it’s any consolation, I think your poetry is great.”
You smiled. “You always love everything I write.”
Your dad pressed a kiss to your forehead. “Because I love you.”
There was no more tension now- no more fear and no more doubt- just you and your dad being excited about your first big crush and your first big date. And it didn’t matter that it was with a girl. Spencer would always love you no matter what.
"So," he said. "What are you going to wear?"
You thought about the clothes you had, but none of your outfits seemed just right.
"I think I might go shopping for something new," you said.
Spencer smiled. You had a shopping buddy- the same one since you were little.
"So I guess I'd better ask Emily."
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donsgraveyard · 5 months
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hi :3 you don't have to answer this but i desperately want to see your headcanons i love headcanons such a good meal
uh uh ok I hope the selection I have is ok for you thank you for asking I’m like crying also this is a lot I realized so I’m sorry
Nightwolf is like really good at playing drums and electric guitar cause his family is a metal head family so he grew up with his kin always jamming out to metal and rock of all kinds. He gets a little defeated sometimes cause he doesn’t have like any personal time to keep playing…
Also Nightwolf makes his own jewelry like his bracelets and necklace, he made himself. He makes his own bead work earrings too but only wears them to events ….which he like never goes to…
Fujin and Raiden have a library in the Sky Temple that’s full of books they’ve collected and gifted each other over the years and Fujin keeps accidentally getting the same book over and over every few hundred years
Fujin likes to paint sometimes like it’s not smth he loves, loves, but it passes the time and he likes to see how he improves over the years. Fujin likes to lounge around so sitting and painting what he sees really relaxes him. He likes water color and likes to sketch portraits of Nightwolf’s face but Nightwolf doesn’t know that….
also Fujin loves to make bread….. he lived in a village for like five years when he was living among mortals, and the elder women of the village taught him to make bread and pastries so he makes some treats for him and Raiden sometimes
I also like to think Fujin and Raiden have this portrait of themselves hanging in the Sky Temple… many years ago a painter approached them and requested he be able to paint the brothers and they agreed. The brothers look at it some times and think about how much brighter and ‘younger’ they looked those years ago before their responsibilities became more stressful and commanding
Kabal has two moms……… I have no like reason for this one I just think he has two mamas and he loves them very much. He kinda drifted from them, though when Kabal was a teen cause he started getting involved with crime and stuff and when he joined the police force with Stryker, Kabal is still healing his relationship with his moms….
specifically mk1 Bi-Han has a little stuffed cat he keeps clean and healthy, because it was the one thing he had as a kid that like allowed him to be a kid? Yk what I mean? It’s so small he can fit it in one of his palms …
It took a long, long time but Takeda learned how to braid Jacqui’s hair properly and he gets really good at it!! He does her hair and kisses her shoulders and stuff while he does, and then Jacqui turns around and gives Takeda one of those silly on-top-of-the-head ponytails that sticks up and she giggles about it
Cassie and Kung Jin are K-Pop fans and Cassie blows Johnnys money on concert tickets all the time and they come home and crash in Cassie’s apartment to sleep in until 4:00 in the evening cause they are so exhausted
um I can’t think of any others rn……. I hope these are ok and what u were looking for
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toxinoire · 5 months
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Because of boredom, here's some Superfriends(+Supercorp, Brainia and Dansen if you squint) headcannons (Miraculous season 6 please just release I'm begging, Heathers The Musical please come back)
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• Kara is actually scared shitless of the dark, but due to xray vision she doesn't mind it. So when she solar flares she tries to sleep with the lights on. Lena found out about it and made her a nightlight.
• Brainy, Nia and Esme definitely watch Miraculous.
• Lena refers to them all as greatest friends, however she refers to Nia as her favorite nuisance and Alex as her least favorite nuisance (she loves them tho)
• Nia and Esme made Kara and Lena binge watch Miraculous all the from season 1 with them once and now they're attached to the plot. (Kara and Lena had to pause and breathe soooo many times during that night they watched it for the first time because holy shit why is everything similar to them)
• Kara actually really loves listening to cover artists like Annapantsu, Lydia The Bard, Chloe Breez, Reinaeiry, Caleb Hayles, Will Stetson, etc. (Yes, Will Stetson mostly does English covers but have you heard that man's voice?)
• Kelly made Lena listen to the singer Malinda Kathleen Reese's songs because of the fact that she uses Irish style music and oh no, Lena's playlist is overflowing now.
• Lena's bi, but she's into women more (specifically Kara)
• Kelly is the mom friend
• Brainy and Nia went on a date to the cinema to watch the Miraculous awakening movie and they have been annoying ever since they watched it. "Guys, stop singing those damn songs (Stronger Together and Now I See specifically) you're making Kara and Lena cry" -Alex and Kelly
• Someone Kara accidentally introduced Esme to Heathers The Musical. And while Alex and Kelly love the musical Esme is too yOUNG FOR THAT-
• J'onn: These are my dysfunctionial Earth- Brainy: Some of aren't from Earth- J'onn: Earth children.
• Lena never wanted to admit that she's in love with Kara out loud in fear that the universe might take it all away from her.
• Kara's always been in love with Lena, she just never realized until Alex and Kelly's wedding.
• Esme: Auntie Kara and Auntie Lena are just like Marinette and Adrien! :) Kelly: Aaaaand there's the cry of outrage. Alex: The question is, who's it from? Kara or Lena?
• Once a Valentine's Day, Brainy made Nia a little funko pop of herself as Nia, not Dreamer. And whenever she taps on it's head it makes a "boop" noise. Nia loves it so much.
• Kelly once baked Alex a blueberry cheesecake because she remembered that Alex said she loved those once during a game night long ago. Esme has never seen her mom cry so hard.
• Nia found the book "Vertigo Peaks" in Lena's stuff once and decided to read it. Lena was horrified, and Nia teased her endlessly about it.
• Kelly and Lena once got into a debate of whether or not escapism is a good coping mechanism, and both of them had valid arguments PLUS cited their sources of information. Color Alex and Kara scared, but they're also attracted to this.
• Esme's favorite aunt is Lena and aspires to be like her. When they found out, everyone was like "awwww" but Lena was like "...Bad idea. Esme, honey, bad idea-" then everyone else was like "Don't listen to her."
• Alex, Kelly, Nia and Brainy once tried to convince Lena to be in the battlefield with them but Lena was like "Yeah no, someone needs to stay and be the brains of the operation." Kara then said "YEAH" because she doesn't want to see Lena get hurt and she knows she's abandoning the villain the second she sees Lena get hurt so no distractions allowed. Then Esme delivered the final blow by saying "Someone needs to stay and make whatchamacallits so you all don't die :)"
• Kara is extremely self sacrificial, but Esme unintentionally gave her a reality check by saying "But Auntie Kara, everyone won't sleep if you're in danger! Health is important!" and it sounds so innocent but deep down Kara is like "Oh right they will actually bend over backwards to save me and neglect themselves ah I need to stop"
• Lena releases all her pent up rage by walking onto the roof or balcony, taking a deep breath and scream.
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gale-gentlepenguin · 11 months
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So I know Representation came out today. And any good fan would wait a week before reviewing it as we still have episode 23 to watch.
GOOD THING IM A DEGENERATE
Gale Reviews: ML Season 5 episode 24 Representation
spoilers below
-So as expected, Chloé didnt stay mayor long. But Apparently Ms.Bustier is running for Mayor and might win
-Oh its the Fencing teacher/ guy who was Darkblade. Well clearly Ms.Bustier is going to win
-And Adrien and Kagami are a power couple? But Adrien is watching the news report while they are in London. Something seems VERY off
-Ah, Gabriel is behind it. And Adrien HATES it.
-"By letting your father decide your life and selling your story through a fake narrative as usual." DAMN Plagg holds no punches
-Plagg appologized though.
-Kagami is also pissed about it
-HEY ITS FELIX/ARGOS
-Wait ... is that really my chaotic son? HEARTS ON WINDOWS.
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-Thats adorable, WTF
-Okay so THEY got some development.
-Adrien deciding to just say f*** it. He is heading to paris and Telling Marinette he's chat noir!
-Marinette back in paris looks miserable. Poor baby girl. Also its a lovely dress.
-Marinette has been crying. I am going to kill Gabriel
-Marinette being strong for her friends to enjoy this dance. Thats really big of her.
-Unfortunately, Spotlight.
-Wait, how did Argos and Kagami get to Paris BEFORE Astrochat? Unless they left much earlier but even then. My bet is Argos made a sentimonster that would warp them places... but that seems like BS.
-KAGAMI KNOWS MARINETTE IS LADYBUG?! Since perfection. Damn.
-KAGAMI TOLD FELIX!?!?!?! FELIX?!?!?! Okay I am a bit salty about that
-OH S***! THEY KISSED. The Feligami stans are Eating today.
-Felix is dressed like Adrien? Oh I do not like where this seems to be going.
-And Marinette thought she saw Adrien and wants to go after him while her friends are thanking her for everything she's done. Way to ruin a good moment FELIX you ass!
-Side note, WHY is Marinette the only one in a dress? Like its a dance? Why couldnt everyone Have dressed up? Seriously, I know outfit renders are expensive. DID THE KITCHEN COST THAT MUCH?
-Marinette avoiding the Lesbian bee and accidentally interrupting the Bi artist and writer. Sure is Pride month in Paris.
-Okay this is just cruel. Marinette thinks she is having a break down over this. Side note. WHY ISNT ADRIEN ACTUALLY HERE YET? HE IS ASTROCHAT!
-Alya and Nino trying to comfort her. But she aint listening.
-Adrien and Kagami escaped and the parents are pissed
-Oh no Nathalie looks really bad right now. Poor thing. All she can do is watch videos of her true love Emilie
-He took the ring back, guess now that Nathalie is too weak to fight him. Which really brings up the question, WHAT HAPPENED in the last episode that Nathalie took such a turn.
-Gabriel is being a d*** as usual
-Nightormentor sounds like a cool name. And while I thought the color scheme is weird... its probably the best akumatized form Gabriel has taken. Sad but true
-AND OF COURSE RIGHT AS SHE LEAVES ASTROCAT ARRIVES. I know its plot convenience but thats bull s***
-"His father CANT have that much control of him" Oh if only you knew Nino
-And BOOM! Gabriel the bitch agreste arrives
-I am liking Rose so much recently. She is calling out EVERYONE
-So he basically has the powers of Sandboy mixed with Darkerowl
-the guy has the power to make you experience VERY intrusive thoughts. That is evil
-Chat noir is like "Hey ladybug gonna go beat up my father text me later"
-Dude Felix must be an Olympic speed walker
-Marinette is basically being nightormented without that bastard even being here. Felix, Kagami this is just a jerk move.
Duusu: "This is so sad" Felix: "Dont worry its for Our happy ending" Duusu: F*** yea lets keep it up
-Oh he made a sentimonster... wait. I know its not human but like a sentimonster MAKING sentimonsters. Feels even more f***ed up
-THEY ARE DOING A F***ING PLAY FOR HER!?
-OH MY GOSH! ITS THE STORY OF EMILIE AND AMELIE!
-Meanwhile, Chat noir is working through his daddy issues.
-Back to the play
-Oh this is interesting.
-Oh and we find out Felix's dad was a rich Cowboy. But also an asshole. (Oh right, this is a French Cartoon, thats why American's suck in this)
-Back to Adrien fighting his father
-This is Cathartic watching Chat noir beat Gabriel's ASS
-HE WAS GOING TO CATACLYSM HIS DAD! Adrien, my boy. Patricide adrien? Well Monarch is still alive, so I guess you think it wouldnt kill him. BTW, Monarch should have had ptsd from that.
-And Chat noir got hit, so his worst fear is... and cuts back to the play
-Oh the twins were infertile. Emilie returned to try and get medical help but still nothing.
-The peacock, that was the sentimonster reference
-Oh so THATS how Gabriel got Gorilla to guard adrien.
-Also yea, any doubt that they arent sentimonsters is dead now.
-ITS CHAT BLANC WITH BLUE HAIR!?
-Oh s*** that is f***ed up.
-"It will end if you give me your miraculous"
-"Take it." ADRIEN NO!
-Oh so thats why Felix's dad was an a**hole. Okay I will give this credit. That is something.
-Welp this explains why Felix might be a sociopath
-Felix revealing why he did what he did
-THE RESISTANCE! COMING IN CLUTCH
-THE TRAY!
-ALYA JUMPED ON HIS BACK.
-They got the akuma in a jar.
-Wait, Chat noir defeated an akuma without Ladybug. (sure he had outside help, but Ladybug has done that too). Good on him
-WELL S*** THAT WAS TRIPPY.
-Felix and Kagami asked for Marinette's help. so was that all the sentimonster doing so? I am lost
-Okay so, I may not LIKE exactly how they went about it. But I cant really hate them for what they did. They are just kids that want to pick someone they trust.
-Oh s***, Ladybug never cast miraculous cure. So Adrien has some perminant trauma from the fight with Nightormentor. He still sees the antichat visions (its not chat blanc, and its just reverse color pallet)
-Chat noir left. before he could tell her. Cause the nightmare messed with him
-WAIT DID TOMOE AND GABRIEL JUST LOCK THEIR CHILDREN IN STERILE ROOMS? WTF!
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Okay! This episode was A LOT.
Well there is no denying Sentimonster theory. Its confirmed. Its done. 100% GUARANTEE NO MONEY BACK.
It did explain a LOT about Felix and Adrien.
So I am still iffy on how it was handled.
Now this DOES NOT justify Felix's Actions. He was still an a**hole. And Kagami shouldnt have told Felix. Marinette is Ladybug. That was NOT her secret to tell.
BUT the play that explained what happened was very well done. It explained a LOT about the Graham de Vanily family and Felix's a**hole father.
I will say that I hated how tortured Marinette was during this. Felix and Kagami could have done something less cruel to lure her there.
I also greatly enjoyed Chat noir vs Nightormentor. very good catharsis and we have Adrien going through some additional mental trauma, inflicted by his father (I wouldnt call it Ironic, more of EXPECTED)
I give it 7.5/10
I will say its the most I have enjoyed the second half of this season since Emotion.
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what is good about cnb? i see lots of a art thought i ask creator
Oh my- looks like we pulled a new curious person off the peeps!
(CnB) Coffee N' Bombs - Brewing Romance AU is an inspiration from the first full episode in the SMG4 Channel called "SMG4: SMG3'S BOMB CAFE"
I really liked the whole model and details from the inside and outside of Three's new Cafe and at first I've been picturing about Smg4 working there- but nahh he just worked there once its not like theres gonna be an au abou-
I came in tumblr a few months back and some anon asked me what kind of design SMG4's attire would be since he works as a waitress from Three's coffee n bombs.
For a second my mind went blank of what the uniform would look like so- I gave myself on and on about some few details getting inspired by watching some other episodes of SMG4's
So then- I made the hat and I thought of something that reminded me about- a reversible color!
(A few years back I bought this octopus which was cute and then I figured it was reversible by looking underneath and putting the detail here- I was like- ah Liz you're gonna make it look so special!)
Straight in to detail that the fabric used from this hat is silk, with polkadots! And it was made by Three :>
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For the pride pins I also thought of- "hey- this is a crazy idea but what if I also created a pride pin next to his apron. But instead it's a bomb than just a regular circular pin." Then there represents Four having the bi bomb flag :)
The Apron is specifically made by me on which where its all gotta be purple themed since it is his cafe and everything is purple and purple to a color black!
For the shoes tho- I might've gave myself a try to say it's one of those glow in the dark classic shoes- glow in the dark has been my favorite types of stuff to look on or even paint, the nostalgic vibe of being a small kid having fun observing and using glow in the dark (bracelets) for example- is like a funny thing and a classic thing to have.
Then that calls for it. "Heck why not?"
Theres the bomb logo and also the spilled coffee logo, it was designed by our man Three to himself.
It feels sort of childish to put in when four complains about glow in the dark having it as a childish thing- good thing three back fires in about his shoes having wheels XD (it might seem to be for kids but its all for ages and above ^^)
The gloves were designed for funziez and making it feels like getting sent back on the themed black and white (sia or melanie martinez the hair color or if you fancy it enough going back to the earliest movies that has black and white colors)
Even putting on a aymbol of "S.U.L." on the back of the gloves and Four's "IV" roman numeral signature on the palm of his gloves.
And even for the tiniest detail from his hairtie having the color of red and his slit pants on the ends. (Also including the part of the three-beaned pin that only four made it special for him and three only)
Lets put up the post!
This inspired so much from the design that my followers or other people had want to try it out!
Then coming upon the reply from @shygirl4991 therefore the AU was born/created, they thought about wanting to write about this cafe au and I let them in for ideas and for writing the fic. :D
I pulled out a new attire for Three's outfit (ngl he looks like purp-
And now there is- the release of the first chapter-
Before the first chapter- Shay gave it a title of "Brewing Romance" since its a silly fic for these two gay boys working together on the cafe :>
Again I'm only an artist who does doodles or design stuff the real person who created this is @shygirl4991 by mentioning it as "Cafe AU" thats where it's been born :)
CnB Brewing Romance AU is a fun space for our two fruits getting together and such ^^ this AU is made for fun relating to also the cafe shop itself.
(We'd also like to thank you for all of the artists who made those lovely fanarts <3)
To the point where I accidentally created a meme out of the two.
Man behind the coffee/memes (slaughter) as smg3
And the Fish Flounder as Smg4
If people would like to put their ocs there for fun you can make art out of it.
(Shoot I'm making it longer- AHHGGR)
Whats cnb br au?
Its a silly au me and shay made and made it alive for the shippers
Whats good about it?
The two gay boys
The designed details from their attires
Karen.
Bringing from the fic for angst/fluff
Whose Idea was the fic?
All on for Shay ^^
Who created it?
I did the design mostly people thought it was all on me but its shay's :)
When is the date of creation?
December 9, 2023
Can we make fanarts out of it?
Yes you can by mentioning/tagging me and @shygirl4991
Whats in it for this au?
Me and Shay collaborated this
These two boys
The whole ass journey and coming into developments
Karen?
Yes. She works here :) design of hers will come out soon tho.
What about the other characters like Mario?
Oh they will come out- as side characters only :>
Where does this AU focus on?
Dealing with trauma
Four getting a job since he's broke af
The past memories
Development - Chemistry
Changing.
How does putting our ocs in the au work?
You can put your oc for ex. Ordering, chilling on le table, sipping your coffee, idk pay for those bombs(?), commit arso-, selfie on yourself (if you have any other ocs you'd want to add- you can), pride bombs, make yourself as an employee i guess? All whatever your choices.
Except-
NSFW (or oc x canon <that has smg4 or smg3>)
(Pls dont be mistaken I dont like oc x canon- I only said no oc x SMG3/SMG4 cuz its a br au and the main focus is four and three being duperly inlove and sh-t TUT)
Spaghetti. Spaghetti is not available in a coffee shop.
Does this au contain with the canon events/arc?
It has the arc and event but it contains non-canon creation. Due to some remake of the scenes.
Did luke approved of this?/j
Not yet :)
I'm not even sure if he uses tumblr atp
Do you have any other works of yours and shay about this au?
I am planning on making a side fic that'll come out very soon
Theres a quick doodle/sketch about it
Some personal diary or info Three picks up (including sticky notes)
Shay is still working and doing their best for the future chapters 'u'
What happens in the future chapter?
You'll have to wait and see. (Again I keep getting this even relating about zero that is a spoiler I'm not trying to be like gooseworx here pls stop-)
Wait what memes are you talking about?
Fnaf for Man behind the slaughter but instead it's SMG3 being the one whose purple guy and is called Man Behind The Coffee
Flounder from Ariel whose a fish and Four looked like one because of his ponytail looking like the fish's tail
What orders do they have in there?
Coffee:
Normal Coffee
Special White Mocha
Matcha Gun Powder Latte
Soy Boy Flat White
Al Pacino
Wake me up before you cocoaf
Morning Brown
Cyanide Supreme Latte
Titanium Black (trust me you don't want to try this)
café minuit (midnight)
Bombs:
Tsar Bomba
Hydrogen bomb
Fat man
Little Boy
Refined uranium
Saturnist Capurn
NUKE CHONK (DONT-)
Displays/Collections/Accessories:
Eggdog plush
Smg3 mugs
Pride Bombs
Stickers
A button. (Do it at your own risk)
Foodies/Food/Snacks:
Non-Donut (its invisible but more of an air food)
Gun powdered donut (white or brown)
Shinkled donut
Pieced- cake
Chompstick (chocolate stick)
Breed Bread (it has raisins)
KWASON (croissant)
Waffu Daffus (waffles)
DEADLY DUNGLE (its a spiciest donut I warned you.)
Nomul Chaki (a "normal" chocolate...)
Whats something that was mentioned from the design?
Terrance.
Did you plan on making this au?
Nope but for some reason we're here thanks to my artwork and shay :DD
Does PuzzleVision or TV Adware exist in this?
No.
Will the side characters make an appearance?
...
Is it true that Karen and Meggy both gossip about the boys?
Yep- kinda hilarious now that Karen's here, she observes.
Where'd you get that idea about Karen and Meggy?
@anartisticalniche
Where can I see the fanarts section?
In my Introduction Page :)
Why don't you post this to twitter?
Twitter is for talking/rants
Tumblr is to share the post you want to share.
Plus twitter for me is a "not-safe-app" regardless on people sending death threats and doxxing. (Even elon musk.)
I'm not tryna reach out for Luke's attention when it comes to CnB I just did this for fun :3
Are you still hyped that they're still making the cafe shop's appearance?
Yes. You have NO idea.
How do you and shay feel about it?
Very- super- brain- storming ideas on the gays and the plots also the notes- we love this progress ^^
The gayness/fruitiness of these two
Will you and Shay be planning on something more than just CnB?
Shh-
Funny to ask but how old are you while collaborating this work?
I'm a minor-
Don't you find it weird to be friends with adults? Or having them as your fans?
(I get these asks alot) my final answer is no.
There are some other adults who are predators out there but not in my sight. I keep a closer eye on that. And I don't allow pedos or groomers here.
I don't really see what the problem is about when an adult likes a minor's work. It's artwork and most of ems crave for the ship and the ship itself its basically a free fun type for people who likes it. (Age regressor say no more cuz its all free to have fun here)
I have no idea why I made this too long but please carry on your glasses people-
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zero. prologue.
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one of y/n’s biggest flaws had to be that they had a staring problem. not one of those ‘stares until they get caught and then looks away embarrassed’ kind of staring problem, but the ‘stares, gets caught, and keeps staring like a deer in headlights, too traumatized that they got caught’ kind of staring problem. if he managed to realize that he was drilling a hole into someone’s head, he’d shake himself out of his trance and focus on whatever was in front of him, relieved that he snapped out of it before being discovered. and it’s not like y/n meant to stare as much as he did, but it was just a really bad habit that he had yet to break.
it was even harder to overcome the urge to stare when he had a subject of interest.
he hadn’t noticed the boy until the week prior as he was always blended in with the rest of the attendees in the lecture. y/n wasn’t even sure how he managed to catch his attention. it wasn’t until y/n had began to tune out his professor for the third time during that lecture that he took notice of the two-toned boy sitting in the middle of the lecture room, ignoring his two wildly chatting friends that talked across his body. he had also managed to get caught staring at the boy and was surprised when the boy held his stare as other usually made a face and looked away, expecting him to do the same. y/n was the first to look away for once, turning his gaze to his sleeping friend beside him as he privately scolded himself, embarrassed beyond belief. since then, he accidentally made a habit of paying attention to the boy without even learning his name.
he didn’t even know his name now as he stared at the boy from his seat halfway across the lecture hall.
“you know, for someone who swore that his life ended when he got caught staring last time, you sure aren’t taking any precautions to not get caught,” y/n heard his friend say, but continued to stare, ignoring his friend’s words.
“hey, jackass,” kamya grabbed the top of y/n’s head before turning it to face her. “knock it off. i don’t have the time or patience to deal with you being so fucking embarrassed that you lose your mind. boss up, nigga.”
“bro, don’t do too much. i’ll die right here like don’t play with me,” y/n retorted, rubbing his neck to soothe the pain from the sudden movement. y/n went to turn his attention back to the boy who held his interest, but was halted by the still present hand on his head. “lil’ girl, unhand me.”
“don’t call me that,” kamya said, turning away from him. y/n mocked her before turning back into the professor’s lecture.
“...since i have been approved to take leave for a family emergency, i’m assigning you an emotional psychology project. it is due in a month and there will be smaller assignments to go along with this project in the time being.  it is in pairs which will be chosen by you all, but not in the way that you think. when i say go, i want you to look at one person. if the person that you look at is looking back at you, you two are partners. if not, i will do it again until everyone has a partner. once you find a partner, you can leave,” the professor instructed. y/n turned to kamya to see if she wanted to work together like they always did, but she shook her head and motioned to a pink haired girl a few rows in front of them.
“okay, ready, set, go,” y/n didn’t know what he was thinking when he chose to look at the bi-colored haired boy, but he looked anyway. what surprised him the most was that the male was staring right back at him with a smile so miniscule, y/n almost missed it. as y/n did nothing but stare in shock, the boy nodded at him, acknowledging y/n as his partner. y/n nodded back after a few seconds before turning back to the front.
“i’m so screwed,” y/n mumbled to kamya, holding his head in his hand as he wished the earth would open up and swallow him whole. when he didn’t receive a response, he glanced over and noticed his friend was no longer sitting next to him, having gone up to the pink haired girl who he assumed was now her partner. he went to turn his head back to his partner, but stopped once he sensed a presence beside him. almost immediately, he deduced it to be his partner, knowing that no one else had any reason to come up to him at this time. he forced himself to push down all of the embarrassment that was threatening to resurface before turning around and finding that he was correct.
“hello, mind if i sit?” the boy greeted, motioning to the seat next to y/n. y/n shook his head, surprised by the male’s voice. he watched as the boy walked around the entire table rather than asking y/n to scoot his chair up so that he could just slide through. y/n turned in the direction of the boy as he sat down. “i’m shoto todoroki. i don’t think we’ve met before.”
“y/n l/n and no, we haven’t,” y/n was surprised that he was able to get those words out without throwing up all over the desk in front of them.
shoto was much prettier up close.
“i’m not too well-versed in effective science, so i was wondering if you had any ideas as to what we could do? or maybe we could collectively come up with a few ideas and work from there,” shoto suggested, looking at y/n for confirmation.
“yeah, we can definitely come up with something whenever you’re free. i don’t have much to do these days, so i’m usually free,” y/n agreed, nodding at the boy’s words before looking away from him. “i’ll give you my email or number, so you can just let me know.”
“your number works fine. it’s definitely more convenient as well,” shoto said, pulling out his phone and handing it to y/n who quickly put his number in before handing it back to him. y/n grabbed all of his belongings before bidding a silent goodbye and speed walking in the direction of his friend.
once he approached the two girls, y/n quickly interrupted their conversation. “did you two already exchange numbers?”
“i mean, yeah, but we’re still talking—,” y/n didn’t give kamya a chance to finish talking as he was already pulling her out of the classroom.
“sorry, you’ll have to finish that conversation over the phone because i’m pretty sure that i’m about to spontaneously combust.”
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periodiccompletionist · 10 months
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50% of 118 is 59; 75% of 118 is 88.5; 90% of 118 is 106.2
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Paint your face 
Warnings/Info you should know going in: SMUT! 18+ only, lest I bonk you on the head with a pole, Oral (M/F receiving) insecurities being talked about (Reader worries about accidentally hurting Steve when giving him head) Fem!Reader with implied facial differences, Hints to Bi!Steve if you squint
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Part of my Regret Series with Steve x Disabled! Disfigured! Reader, but can be read as a Stand alone story.
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"...Face paint?" Steve muttered, picking up the acrylic case of colors with interest. 
"I want to do more colorful looks." You explain, settling down in front of your vanity. It was mostly unused, well, until now. "And it seems like a pretty inexpensive option. I mean, look at the size of those color pots." Grabbing a brush, a big bushy thing, you squirt some concealer on it. You washed your face already,  scrubbing to get your skin all soft and raw before going in. 
Steve comes around, settling down next to you. "So, what were you thinking then?" He watches the way you rub at your face, nose scrunching in that way where you know he wants to say something but you ignore him. It was a trust the process kinda thing. 
"You know that dress? The one with the primary flowers?" You offer once you are sufficiently covered in primer. Maybe a little cakey but it just needed some time to settle into your skin. You remember hearing that somewhere. "I kinda wanna do some flowers on my cheeks. I saw someone do that and it looked really cool." 
Steve rest his chin on your shoulder. "That would look pretty." Biting his lip as he eyes your face. "....Don't bite my head off but I think that might be too much." 
You frown, sighing softly. "Maybe some blush? Here, hand me the pallette." You scoop up a makeup sponge and consider the colors before dabbing at one of the pinks. "I've seen some people go mad heavy with the blush." You muse, dabbing at your face like you've seen your mother do. Tapping at your cheek bones, trying not to let your uneven features deter you. Even if one side of your face looks so much pinker then the other. Steve presses his face into your back, swallowing down a giggle. "Honey-"
"Im covering it up! It's like painting!" You counter before he can finish, grabbing at your brush and concealer. You press at the bottle but only small spurts of cream lands on the bristles. "Shit-" You rummage around in your bag, contemplating your mishmash of supplies before picking up the power concealer. You rub it on your face, thankfully dulling the pink. "Painting?" Steve asks and you're happy for the topic. 
"When you paint, like with oils and acrylic," you say while turning your face from side to side, "its all about layering. So that blush was just one layer and now this is the second."
"What about before the blush?"
"That was a base coat. That lays a foundation for the rest to lay on."
"Like a house?"
"Yeah."
You smile at him through the mirror before going back to your face. You pick up a brush, a literal paint brush, and start trying to do your eyelids. But needing your glasses and being half blind made it so your hand kept getting in the way.. 
"Want some help?" Steve asks, shifting around until he was settled in front of you. Hands eagerly reaching for the brush, which you hand over to him in defeat. "I gotta learn how to do this by myself sometime."
"Nah." Steve muses, dipping the brush into the oily paint you chose. "I'll help you." He carefully, delicately, fearlessly grasps your jaw in his hand. His thumb pressing against your chin while his fore finger caresses your affected side so sweetly, you could have purred. "Every morning, whenever you want."
"But Steve-" 
"Shhhh," he grins while feathering the brush over your skin in a tickle, "you'll make me smudge all my hard work." You resist the urge to roll your eyes but your lips curl up into a smile anyway. "Fine." You relax into his touch, melting from the warmth of his hand and the gentle caress of his finger and the brush. 
"Besides, its kinda for me too, y'know?" Steve continues as he tries to blend it like he's seen countless other girls wear. 
"People don't always wear makeup for their partners, Steve-" You groan but he was quick to speak.
"No! I mean, I know. But like, helping you means I get to look at you." Steve explains, tracing his thumb along your cheeks. "I get to make you giggle and hold your face and even do this-" Suddenly he was squishing your cheeks together and you squeal, whacking at his chest which made him laugh. “I’m sorry, you just look so cute!”
“Steve!” You whine and he snickers, kissing the top of your head with a snort. “Lemme do the next eye, I’ll behave.”
You seriously doubted that, but you close your eyes again anyway. You could get used to this, honestly. The warmth of his hand capturing your jaw, the light flutters of his breath on your face, the steady swipe of the brush across your eyelids. It was enough to have you melting into him. 
God, you loved this man. Truly, it felt like he’d stepped right out of one of your novels, but even better, he was real. He was right there in front of you and you relished in that fact with some of your own teasing. You let your hands wander along his thighs, lips turning up in a smirk at his hitch of breath.
“Honey.”
“Mm?” You muse innocently, dragging your hands higher up. The fabric of his jeans stretched across his thighs and you squeezed them. 
“Maybe you have a point, I can’t focus in these conditions.” Steve snarks and you giggle, scooting closer. “But you promised? Whenever I want, right?” You counter and he groans a little when you open your eyes to look up at him. “Please Stevie, m’almost done.” You counter, letting your voice do that breathy thing he likes. The thing that has him folding like a piece of paper. 
“Jesus- Fine, fine, stay still for me though, alright?” Easing you back into a sitting position, he finishes your eyeshadow before going to work on your lipstick. Your mortal enemy. 
Given the shape of your mouth, lipstick never quite looked good on you, at least you didn’t think so. Steve disagreed, gleefully picking out his favorite color on you and going to town on your lips. He wasn’t great at applying it, but he’d get better with time. “Y’gotta blot it afterwards.” You mumble after a moment, praying to the heavens you didn’t look clownish. 
“Blot?”
“Like, you gotta take some of it off.” You try to explain, reaching for a napkin but Steve was faster. Capturing your chin, he laid a sweet kiss onto your lips. Then another one, and then one more for good measure. “Like that?”
You eye the lipstick on his lips. The color was smudged and kissed on, but he looked so cute that you kind of loved it on him. “Yeah, like that.” 
“Hell yeah, that’s going to be my favorite part.” He giggles and you join him while reaching out for the paint brushes. Though he’s quick to intervene, huffing. “Hey! I’m not done?”
“Steve, I can paint the flowers-“
“Please? You can paint them next time.” Steve counters and you relent, also folding easily when he gave you those puppy dog eyes.
Steve wasn’t an artist by any means, but he has a steady hand as he paints. You direct him, pointing out the colors you wanted and even showing him how to mix certain colors until they matched your dress perfectly. The garment was laid out on the bed, for both your reference. 
“Okay, I think I’m done?” Steve offers, setting the brush down and grabbing the mirror instead. “What do you think?”
Honestly, it wasn’t that bad. The lipstick was only a little smeared, the eyeshadow patchy but doable. The flowers were actually pretty accurate and you had a feeling Steve would catch on with time. 
“I think it’s good for the first time.” You admit and Steve blooms under the praise. His smile lit up the room. “Do you…do you really want to help me with this when I want to wear it?” You ask, truly feeling him out on the offer. Sure, it was easy to offer it up now, but he could just be sweetly joking. 
“Yeah.” Steve assures, helping you pack away your things. “Baby, I don’t mind. It’s like..oh, it’s like when you help me with my tie in the morning. Or when you hair spray my hair when my arms won’t lift up all the way after a work out.”
“Yeah, but like, it’s…it’s not really a guy thing.” You counter, unsure why you’re even using that as an argument. Makeup was just makeup, you didn’t care who wore it, but the words spilled out before you could think. 
Steve pauses at that, eyeing the makeup. “Do you…really not want my help?” His voice is soft, eyes meeting yours as he wavers between sadness and resolve. You wilt, quickly shaking your head and getting close to him. 
“I’d love your help.” You take his hand and squeeze. “I’m sorry, I just…A lot of people do it by themselves and I’m frustrated that I can’t do it, and I don’t want to burden you-“
“Not everybody does it by themselves.” Steve counters with a little snort, his shoulders easing. “Don’t actors have people to do it for them? Or just people on television in general?” He counters and you lift your brows in confusion. 
“Just pretend like, you’re going out on TV and I’m your little makeup boy.” Steve explains with a slowly growing grin. “You can even order me around, we both know I don’t mind.” He eases close to you, his voice dipping a bit and you giggle. He chuckles, kissing at your cheeks until his own skin sports painted flowers on it. 
“You’re not a burden, babe.” He mumbles after a moment, rubbing your sides. “Not at all. Besides, you can do it, I just want to because its fun.” He admits, nuzzling your neck as you both ease down onto the bed. “And it’s kinda hot, knowing m’the one who put it on you.” 
“Really?” You never thought of it that way before. How it’s almost like a secret way to show the world that you were his and he was yours. “Even if we’re running late in the morning and we’re both stressing about getting it done?”
“Would you even want to put on makeup when that happens?” Steve counters, shifting to rest his chin on your chest. You consider it, knowing that convenience was part of the reason you hesitated about makeup in the past. “Probably not.” 
Steve hums knowingly, arms wrapping around your waist while he just lays on you for the moment. “I’d still will, though. Help you with it.” He promises and you kiss the top of his head in thanks. He presses a few kisses along your collarbones, some along your neck before slowly dragging down. He nudges your shirt over your stomach, kissing the soft skin there while you resist the urge to laugh. “Steve-“
“Mm?” He hums innocently, kissing at your hip bone and letting his teeth scrape along the scar there from one of your surgeries. You gasp, hand tangling itself in his hair while he groans in response. “Wh-what are you doing?” You stutter out, heat crawling up your neck as he gets even lower. 
“Wanna show you how much I like taking care of you.” Steve offers, pausing and looking up at you. “…Can I?” 
There was a silence as you thought it over. Hell yes, you’d love to have him show you, but the reciprocation…
“Could you…finger me instead, please? I’ll happily return the favor with my hand.” You counter with a hopeful smile, slowly sitting up. Steve rises with you, but there was a visible disappointment in his eyes. “Honey, but I want too, really, you don’t have to return the favor-“
You shake your head, nudging your bottoms off. “I want to make you feel good and it’s not fair if you give me head and I can’t.” You insist, pausing at your underwear. “I mean, if we don’t do it then we won’t know what we’re missing, right?”
Steve can’t hide the snort he makes and you’re quickly reminded of the fact that no, that wouldn’t apply to the both of you. Your fingers hesitate at the band of your underwear and suddenly you don’t feel in the mood anymore. “How about I just use my hand on you? I don’t think I feel like it right now.” 
There’s a startled look in his eyes and you’re quick to move. Instead crowding close to him and reaching for his belt instead. Though before you can even get the fly open, he captures your hands in his. “Hey, talk to me.” He counters and you wilt. 
Steve rubs your knuckles and presses your hands to his chest instead. “Why don’t you want to go down on me?” He asks, and there’s so much sincerity in his tone. He doesn’t look upset by it, just confused, seeking your reasoning instead of being left in the dark.
“It’s not that I don't want to.” You admit, unable to meet his gaze. You’ve been intimate before, but never like this. Usually you’d have him finger you and you’d rub him down before taking him with the help of a lot of lube. “It’s that I don't think I can. Like, physically.” 
“Oh.” There was a sudden understanding in his eyes. “Wait, have you tried before?” 
“I mean, I don’t need to. I know my mouth isn’t shaped quite right.” You point out, briefly glancing at the lipstick. “And I dunno about my gag reflex, or like, what if I accidentally bite you?” 
Steve winces and you pull your hands away from him. “Exactly.”
“But honey, m’not asking you to go down on me, I want to go down on you.” He insists, chasing your hands by crawling on the bed until he’s hovering close to you again. “And I’ll make a promise that I won’t bite.” He offers a grin, his eyes so full of desire and want. 
“…But I won’t feel good knowing I can’t give that to you back.” You whisper, hushed by the close proximity. Steve sighed, resting your foreheads together. “…..What if you just..try it?” He offers, nudging his nose against yours before kissing your lips sweetly. “You haven’t actually tried it, right? So, practice on me. You don't need to take it all into your mouth to make me feel good babe, trust me.” 
“But what if I hurt you, or it doesn’t feel good?”
“I can teach you.” Steve assures, rubbing the back of your neck. “I’ll show you, and hey, if we really can’t then you can use your hand all you want and I’ll have you squirting on my fingers in no time. Deal?” His smirk is wolfsh and you laugh, your face burning. 
“Fine, fine, we’ll try it.” You kiss him and he hums into your lips. “Awesome.” 
You have him lay down, his bare legs spread out to give you all the room you need. His cock is already half hard, resting on his stomach and the happy trail that led to the neatly trimmed bush at the base of his dick. He looks up at you, propping himself on his forearms in a lounge. 
"You ready?" He prompts softly and you nod. Sinking between his legs, you grasp his cock. This part was easy, and the sweet groans he gave you were enough to spur you on. "So, where can I start?" You ask, leaning closer to where your breath was ghosting along his head. "Like this?" 
You ever so gently lick your tongue along his head. He grunts, fingers digging into the plush sheets below. "Fuck- Wait, thats a little sensative. Little lower?" He directs and you follow. You slide down, tongue lapping just under it while your hands rub the rest. He sighs then, melting into the feeling with a moan. "Thats it, fuck, Honey~" He arches into you, thighs flexing as you keep kitten licking the head so sweetly.
You adore the sounds spilling from his lips as you go to kiss at his shaft. You rub at his girth, squeezing and twisting your wrist for more friction while you try and curl your tongue around the pearling tip. "Shit- Think y'gonna make me cum-" Steve hisses, reaching out and laying his hand on top of your head. "Can you take more honey? Can you try?" He pleads with literal tears of pleasure in his eyes. A rush of power blooms in your chest and you slowly take more of him into your mouth. He's not small, the stretch uncomfortable but possible. You grip the bedspread underneath him, willing your gag reflex away. 
"Can you swallow?" Steve asks and you make a nervous noise in the back of your throat. "Its okay honey, can you try f'me- Shit!" His back arches when you manage to swallow around his cock. He twitches, his own lips a 'O' of pleasure. "Oh fuck, y'so good, so fuckin' good-" He arches when you do it again, a soft whine escaping him. There's an ache in your jaw, and without thinking you close it a bit. Your teeth gently brushing against his cock.
Steve moans at the sensation, the shock of danger racing up his spine while he whines. "Fuck! Sh-shit-" He pants, and you scrape your teeth against him again to make him shudder. He's so sensitive, so responsive, it's fantastic. You scoot closer, crowd him more while you speed up. You need to hear him come, you wanna hear that voice of his shoot up into the stratosphere because of you. Because of you.
One second your boy was gazing at you, the next he was slumped back on the bed, your tastebuds finally getting a good sampling of Steve, and holy fuck, it was not bad. Nothing like the things you’ve heard other people mention. You swallow, slowly pulling away and cleaning the remains from your face, not liking the sticky feeling even with the taste. 
Steve lies there for a long moment, and you slowly crawl closer to him. “Steve? Are you-“ Big hands grip your hips and you squeal as your boyfriend rolls the two of you over with a grunt until he’s hovering above you, pearly whites on display in a grin. “Honey, that was-“ He stops himself, ducking down to kiss you. “Oh my god, you're amazing.” He mumbles against your lips and you can’t help but laugh. “Steve I just- Steve!” You gently bat your hands at him as he creates a line of kisses along your throat. It’s hard to talk when he’s creating hickies along your thrumming pulse. 
“It wasn’t that good, I just put my mouth on you-“ You try to dissuade the praise, but Steve just shakes his head against your shoulder. The chestnut strands rocking your jawline with the movement. “It was amazin’ cuz it’s you. Oh fuck, I wish you could see how hot you looked. Lookin’ up at me, taking me so well.”
You want to tell him to be honest, but there was no lie in his voice. Just the one your own inner thoughts hissed beneath his sweet words. “I’m glad you liked it.” You say instead, nuzzling his temple while he hums against your pulse. 
“How did you feel?” He asked after a moment, slowly pulling away to meet your eyes. “How’s your jaw? Does it hurt? It hurts after a while.” He rambles, but you gently cup his cheeks and kiss him. “I’m fine.” You admit, your slightly turned nose brushing against his. “I liked it. My jaw aches a little, but I think with time it’ll be okay? But I liked it, I really liked it.” You run your fingers through his hair while he relaxes on top of you with a sigh. “Yeah? It didn’t like….taste funny to you?”
“Is it supposed to?” You counter, brows knitting in concern because it really wasn’t that bad. Though your senses have always been a little different then the rest. 
“I don’t think so. Depends on the person, both the uh..giver and the uh..recipient..?” Steve offers while you giggle at him. “The blower and the blowee?” You counter and he barks out a laugh, shaking with it while you join him. 
“I thought it was…okay. Nothing weird.” You rub your hand along his spine, marveling at the plains of his back as he snuggles closer to your warmth. “I think you sounded amazing, though.” 
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
There was a silence then, just the thump of your hearts and the occasional car that drove past your house. Your eyes felt so heavy with contentment, you’d have slept right there if it wasn’t for Steve slowly shifting out of your hold. You blink, looking down and flushing as he settles between your legs with determination. “My turn?” He checks, hopeful. You answer with a parting of your thighs, your hand’s scooping under your knees to hold them open for him, which he groans at. He kisses your inner thigh, his hand joining yours on your thigh while the other explores your silky center. 
“Let’s see if you can top my sounds, huh?” Steve muses with a smirk. 
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specialinterestshows · 9 months
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Spend a cozy morning curled up with this latest installation of my Rhea Ripley x lady!reader fic!
Warnings for this section: Sleepwalking, cannabis (weed)
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Absolute Smokeshow (Part 18 of ?): (Smoke) You Out?
“What happened?” Rhea asked, looking at your bandaged hand, equally confused and concerned.
The two of you had woken up once the rays of sunlight that peeked through the window started stretching across the bed. She had turned to face you, thrown her arm over your side, and reached to grab your hand - making you flinch at the pain once her fingers brushed against your knuckles. The sudden noise you let out and retraction of your hand made Rhea more alert.
“It’s nothing,” you say, somewhat embarrassed at how you’d gotten hurt, “I’m alright.”
“Did it happen after I fell asleep?” her curiosity made it difficult for you to switch topics.
“It did, but I’m fine, really,” you insist, “It’s just a scrape” and maybe a bit of a bruise, you think to yourself.
“You should have woken me up,” Rhea huffed, “Do you know how many wounds I’ve had to dress after fights? I could have helped.”
“Um, I did wake you up, accidentally,” you remind her, “when I came back to bed after cleaning and wrapping my hand.”
“You did?” she paused to think.
“Yeah, you asked if I was okay and I told you I was fine,” you recall, “It was only a few seconds. Then we both went back to sleep.”
“…I don’t remember that,” Rhea says after a moment, shrugging, “So how did you hurt your hand in the first place?”
You feel your face getting warm, remembering bits and pieces from your dream last night.
“Bad dream,” you skip most of the details, “Went to punch someone who wouldn’t leave me alone and I guess I punched the wall. Would NOT recommend it as a way to wake up.”
She looks at your injury before gently caressing both of your hands in hers, “If anyone bothers you when I’m around, leave the punching to me.” You nod in agreement, only having chipped the paint on the wall you punched.
“So, what did you want to do today?” you ask her. While you, personally, would have loved to spend the day in bed, naked, smoking and fucking, Rhea was your guest.
Looking away, her hands move to her lap, her demeanor shifting entirely.
“So I was doing some research when I was booking the flight over here,” she was talking a bit faster than usual, “And I found a, um, queer resource center…” she trailed off, almost whispering the last three words.
Watching her run her fingers through her hair, you make sure she’s done speaking before you respond.
“We can definitely go there today,” you say, remembering the last time you went, “They open in the afternoon. In the meantime” - you glance at the clock on your phone - “wake ‘n’ bake?”
“Hell yes,” Rhea exhaled, no doubt glad to have gotten something that was difficult to talk about out of the way.
The two of you did at least get to spend most of the morning smoking in bed. Perhaps not naked or fucking, but definitely kissing between and after hits, cuddling when you were both too baked to sit up. You spent a good bit of time tracing the tattoos on her arms as they were wrapped around you. Closer to noon, your stomach began to growl in the face of your need to stay blissfully pressed against Rhea.
You headed to the kitchen to prepare breakfast? Lunch? But upon entering, you remember the amazing time you’d had yesterday and how you still needed to wipe down the counter. Setting to work, you become so focused that the noise of your guest rummaging through her clothes barely registers. A sudden “what do you think?” at the entrance to the kitchen makes you jump - a fact you quickly forget when you take in Rhea’s outfit. She was wearing a pair of black jeans held up with black suspenders - despite her pants hugging her curves tightly - but that wasn’t what you were staring at.
“Is that a bi pride shirt?” your heart flutters upon seeing the pink, purple, and blue colors - divided horizontally - that comprised the entirety of her somewhat baggy t-shirt.
“Dom let me borrow it,” she explained, looking slightly uncomfortable, “It’s about two more colors than I’m comfortable wearing at once, but it’s something I wouldn’t wear in the ring. That might help keep me a bit less recognizable when we go out.”
“This is just proving my theory that you look hot in anything,” you admit, smiling at the noticeable ease that falls over her once you do.
“Or nothing,” she adds, winking.
“All of the above,” you respond, drying the counter before setting to work making food.
“Hey Rhe?” you call out after a while, unsure if you should fancy up her leftovers with seasonings the way you did yours.
“Did you just shorten my name?” she asked, appearing a couple seconds later.
“Oh, yeah, sorry,” you reply, “I should’ve asked-“
“No,” she stops you, “… I like it.”
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Part 19: https://www.tumblr.com/specialinterestshows/725030621697769472/absolute-smokeshow-part-19-of-feeling-of
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inairbinad · 11 months
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Part one of three | 6.7k | T | also on ao3 | Part Two | Part Three
A re-imagining of season 3, where Eddie and Robin are already looped in on the Upside Down madness, and Eddie joins Scoops Troop. Part of my Barb Lives AU from the Petals Verse, where everyone lives and the timeline gets wonky as a result. Can be read on its own. @steddie-week day 4 prompts: Familiar / Here Come the Tears
Eddie woke with a jolt from the same, familiar nightmare he’d been having since November. The one where he found himself right back in those unnatural, revolting tunnels beneath Hawkins, on the brink of death with Steve Harrington grasping his hands in fear.
On the dark of his bedroom ceiling he could still see the imprint of Steve’s eyes, wide and terrified that they were about to die. Even now that he was awake Eddie could still feel the pit in his stomach, the burning in his calves from running, the ache of wishing he’d kissed Steve in that moment with a stampede of demodogs charging after them both.
Eddie didn’t need to have creative nightmares anymore, not like he did when he was a kid. The reality of what he and Steve had gone through—and Robin, and the kids, and the rest of them—in the course of trying to save Hawkins from a swarm of actual demogorgons and a goddamn Mind Flayer was more than enough to keep Eddie haunted for the rest of time.
It didn’t help that every single one of those terrified, cursed memories was tied up in want.
His desperation to kiss Steve in that moment haunted his dreams nearly as often as the version where they never made it out of the tunnels all.
Or sometimes Eddie would find himself back in the bus in the junkyard, waiting for Steve to come diving back inside the bus with a hoard of demons at his back. This time Eddie would catch Steve in his arms, breathless and sweating from staring down the gaping maw of death with nothing but a nail bat. Then Eddie would slide his hands into Steve’s hair and his tongue into Steve’s mouth, caring for nothing and no one else while the rot clawed and scratched at the door, desperate to consume them both.
Eddie felt so inexplicably deranged for how much of his lust was tangled up in the violence that he wanted to scream.
Instead he groaned, then finally dragged himself out of bed to take a cold shower and get ready for work.
Eddie wasn’t entirely sure how he’d ended up dressed like a sailor—or rather more like a pirate, considering the tattoos he refused to cover up while he was working, like he was supposed to—and toiling away in the shiny, brand new, and brightly colored Starcourt Mall. But there he was, on time for his shift of scooping ice cream and pretending to be happy about it.
Well, that wasn’t entirely true. Eddie already knew he’d ended up there because of Steve goddamn Harrington: bane of Eddie’s existence and possibly the love his life, all wrapped up into one monster-hunting, child-defending, short-short-wearing package.
The problem with all of this—working with Steve, being friends with Steve, spending way too much of his every waking moment with Steve—was that now Eddie knew Steve was bisexual, and Eddie didn’t know how to deal with that bit of intel. Because knowing that meant every minute Steve wasn’t kissing Eddie, Eddie was going insane. It was one thing for Eddie to quiet the delusion that Steve would ever look in his direction before, back when Eddie assumed Steve was straight. But once Eddie realized he’d accidentally stumbled into some kind of queer-alliance-slash-part-time-monster-hunters club last fall, he’d been decidedly less capable of coping with his crush.
Sure, learning that alternate dimensions and monsters actually existed was enough of a mindfuck to last Eddie a lifetime. But then he had to go and get clobbered with the news that Steve was bi, and Barb and Nancy were dating, Robin was also a lesbian—and Steve Harrington is bi, dear god does that mean I have a shot?
The demogorgons seemed kind of quaint, after that. Even the ones Dustin tried to raise as pets.
It was nice, though, having more people like himself to hang out with. The thought of ever finding other gay friends in Hawkins used to seem laughable to Eddie, but now there was a whole flock of them.
All of this led to Eddie thinking he would enjoy working with Steve and Robin at Scoops Ahoy for the summer, just to have an excuse to be around Steve all day, every day. In that goddamn uniform, too. But it was only making Eddie fall for Steve harder.
So, yeah, Harrington was undoubtedly the reason Eddie was here. And he was late for his shift.
Rather than daydream about him until he showed, Eddie opted to kill the time between customers by having some fun with Robin.
“What about her, Birdie?” Eddie asked, nudging Robin to look across the food court towards a dark-haired girl near the Orange Julius.
Robin twisted to follow Eddie’s eye line until she landed on the girl in question. This was typically how the two of them liked to pass their shifts at Scoops Ahoy together—by playing each other’s wingmen while pretending everyone in Hawkins was draped in a rainbow flag and available to flirt.
“She looks like Nance,” Robin said, scrunching up her nose.
“Is that a problem?” Eddie asked, laughing lightly. He didn’t have much of a peg-leg to stand on, but he was nearly certain that Nancy was objectively pretty.
“No,” Robin shrugged, then started scanning the crowd for a girl more her speed. “I just wouldn’t want Barb to think I’m secretly lusting after her girlfriend.”
“Ah,” Eddie said, nodding slowly. “I forgot how seriously you took this imaginary game of ours.”
Rather than reply, Robin gave him a hearty shove until he went toppling off the counter he’d been perched atop. Eddie laughed as he stumbled to stay upright, but tripped over his own feet in the process. He was already halfway to flat on his ass, a smart remark about Robin’s clumsiness rubbing off on him already perched on his tongue, when he felt a pair of strong arms catch him around the waist. Eddie knew from the solid feel of the chest against his back who had caught him, but the whole thing was a little too ironic for words.
“Good catch, Steve,” Robin laughed, just as Eddie turned his face back and upward to look into Steve’s. “Thought I might’ve killed our friend for a second.”
“I thought I told you to stop throwing him around,” Steve said with a grin. Eddie was still staring at him, still happily leaning into the feel of Steve’s arms wrapped around him. “He’s precious goods.”
Eddie couldn’t help the swell of satisfaction it gave him to hear Steve say that.
“I can’t stop my clumsy from rubbing off on you two,” Robin shrugged. Eddie grunted when at least part of his brain registered how Robin had just stolen his line.
Reluctantly, Eddie reactivated his own legs as he stood up of his own volition instead of relying on Steve. He brushed himself off and tried to act somewhat normal.
“Thanks for the save, Stevie,” Eddie said, doing his best to put on a charming smile. “And for trying to stop Birdie from trying to murder me.”
“Anytime, Eds,” Steve smiled back at full strength, plopping his sailor hat on as he did. “Sorry I’m late, I forgot where I left my keys again. What did I miss?”
“Robin’s got the hots for Nance,” Eddie said, earning himself a thwack from Robin’s own hat to accompany her squeak of indigence.
“I do not!” she cried, looking between Steve and Eddie—who were both giggling under their breath at her—like she couldn’t believe they’d treat her like this. “Assholes. Stop fucking with me.”
“Chrissy Cunningham’s on her way over,” Steve said next, elbowing Eddie in the side and nodding towards the front of the store.
“Oh, ha ha,” Robin grumbled. “Get Robin even more flustered by telling her the prettiest girl in Hawkins is near by, you’re so hilarious, dingus.”
Eddie, obviously a better friend than Steve, was frantically dragging his forefinger back and forth across his throat, trying to signal to Robin to shut the fuck up because Chrissy was, indeed, on her way up to the counter. Robin noticed too late, though, and Steve was having the time of his life watching her face turn red and her eyes get wide as a full moon.
Chrissy, sweetheart that she was, didn’t do much more than take in Robin’s distressed posture with a look of concern. “You okay, Robin?”
If she’d heard Robin calling her the ‘prettiest girl in Hawkins,’ she was doing an excellent job of hiding it. Eddie still noticed a sparkle in her eye that made him suspect she’d heard every word.
Robin gave Eddie a pleading look, like she wanted him to fix this for her, but he shook his head resolutely. She narrowed her eyes at him, then spun on her heel and beamed at Chrissy.
“I’m great, sorry,” Robin said, recovering impressively. “What’s up, Chrissy?”
“Oh, just shopping with some friends,” she shrugged. “Thought I’d come say hi. So, hi.”
“Hi,” Robin repeated, looking a little thunderstruck as Chrissy smiled at her. Eddie couldn’t blame her. Chrissy wasn’t in her usual cheerleader getup, and ironically enough she was in a rainbow colored t-shirt and jean shorts. But Eddie really knew what was driving Robin nuts was the fact that Chrissy was wearing suspenders, and her hair was loose and flowing down past her shoulders.
Eddie had heard many whiney monologues from Robin about how pretty Chrissy was over the last few months. He knew what to look for at this point.
“So, I’m having a party for the Fourth of July,” Chrissy started, then bit her lip as she paused to assess Robin’s face. Eddie zeroed in on it, wondering if maybe there was something reciprocal there that he hadn’t noticed before. “You should come.”
“Me?” Robin asked, really playing into the awkward teenage romcom angle, even if unintentionally.
“Yes,” Chrissy laughed, then she seemed to notice Steve and Eddie for the first time. “All of you should come.”
“We’d love to,” Steve said right away, elbowing Robin in an attempt to make her remember her words, probably. “Right, Rob?”
“Totally!” Robin finally exclaimed, and Steve stepped back to Eddie’s side again as Chrissy filled her in on the details. They tried to pretend like they were minding their own business, talking shop about ice cream like it was extremely important, but naturally they were eavesdropping half to hell.
“So can I get you some ice cream?” Robin asked eventually, slipping into her professional persona.
“Do you do samples?” Chrissy asked, leaning over the glass container to get a look at the flavors.
“Sure,” Robin said, and Eddie knew she’d break the sample limit for Chrissy in a heartbeat.
Steve finally lost control of himself, desperate gossip that he was, and dragged Eddie in the back with him so he could let loose his own commentary with a breathless laugh.
“They’re like, actually really cute. But I thought Rob’s head was going to explode,” Steve whispered. As Eddie moved to listen just on the other side of the passthrough’s sliding doors, Steve sidled up behind him. Then, just to drive Eddie further into the deep end, Steve hooked his chin into the crook of Eddie’s shoulder and rested it there. A shudder ran through Eddie at the feel of Steve’s breath on his neck, and he did his best to cover it up by telling Steve to shut up.
“Shh, you goober,” Eddie grumbled, despite the fact that he was laughing, too. “I’m trying to listen.”
Steve mercifully quieted down but stayed exactly where he was, making it difficult for Eddie to focus on Robin, anyway.
“Do you have a usual favorite?” Robin was asking Chrissy about ice cream flavors, Eddie had to remind himself. That was the important thing happening right now, not Steve’s mouth in such close proximity to his neck.
“I tend to like the fruity ones,” Chrissy answered, and Steve honest-to-god cackled. Eddie did his best to shush him, but he had to literally bite down on his own fist to keep the hilarity of it bottled up, especially when Steve pressed his whole face into Eddie’s shoulder in a poor attempt to stifle himself.
A thud sounded from the other side of the wall, which Eddie was pretty sure came from Robin kicking it in annoyance. Poor Chrissy was just out there being a normal person, and Steve and Eddie had to go and turn into a puddle of giggles over it.
“I swear to god, Stevie,” Eddie sputtered, trying not to give in to Steve’s contagious laughter. “Stop it before Birdie murders us with an ice cream scoop.”
That only made Steve’s shoulders shake harder, because apparently he enjoyed the threat of dying at his best friend’s hand. Then he rested his hands on either side of Eddie’s waist, holding on in a squeezing grip, until Eddie felt his muscles twitch beneath Steve’s fingertips.
“I’m sorry,” Steve wheezed. “But fruity.”
“You’re fruity,” Eddie said under his breath, which only made Steve double over again, clutching onto Eddie harder.
“No shit,” Robin said, suddenly just on the other side of the passthrough. She slid the doors open and glared at them both. “Chrissy definitely thinks I’m insane now, and you’re lucky I don’t come back there and kill you both with my bare hands.”
“Have you considered using the ice cream scoop?” Steve suggested, and now it was Eddie’s turn to let out an ugly, surprised guffaw.
“I deserve a raise,” Robin deadpanned, then slammed the doors shut again.
Steve pulled away from Eddie then, much to Eddie’s dismay. He dabbed at his eyes with the hem of his shirt, revealing a whole lot of abs and a tantalizing bit of hair disappearing beneath his stupidly small shorts.
Eddie swallowed and looked determinedly away, until his eyes landed on the baffling supply of bananas that were waiting to be hung on the wall. He groaned inwardly and tried to focus on getting through the rest of the day in one piece.
Eddie went from doing his usual amount of pining after Steve and surviving just fine, thank you very much, to decidedly not fine at all when the jacked guy who taught aerobics upstairs showed up in the Scoops line.
Eddie didn’t even know why he bothered coming into Scoops in the first place. All he ever did was order the low-fat bullshit that wasn’t even really ice cream, in a tiny portion, and tip like shit.
And somehow Steve found this attractive.
“Would you like to set sail on an ocean of flavor with me?” Steve opened with his usual, company-approved line that he somehow had turned into a come-on. Every time Steve said it like that, with his hip popped and a charming smile on, it made Eddie want to kick himself for being hung up on him. And yet it was wildly adorable in a terrible kind of way, and Eddie had to admit it would have worked on him in an instant.
The buff one didn’t even appreciate it.
“Just the usual, please,” he said with an easy smile. Eddie hated him.
So he decided to give him some shit.
“How was the Jane Fonda tape today?” Eddie asked, leaning across the counter and definitely not doing his actual job. He heard Steve stifle a little laugh, though, so Eddie figured he wasn’t on thin ice just yet.
The aerobics guy’s face pinched, as if there was something wrong with Jane Fonda. Another red flag, as far as Eddie was concerned.
“It’s Jazzercise,” he corrected in a flat tone. “And it was fine. How’s slinging ice cream?”
“Oh, it’s the best job in the world,” Steve cut in just as Eddie opened his mouth mouth in retort. “Especially when we get such great and attractive customers like yourself!”
Steve winked, and Eddie barely held in a scream.
“Right,” the idiot on the other side of the counter remarked. Then he took his ice cream and fled the store.
“Mark one more in the ‘You Suck!’ column,” Robin announced with fanfare and a uncoordinated drumroll as she whipped out her white board. She also gave Eddie a long, knowing look behind Steve’s back. Steve stayed none-the-wiser to Eddie’s misery or to Robin’s ribbing him over it, since he was begrudgingly digging out the Polaroid that they used to mark such special occasions as tallying the board.
Eddie moved over to where Robin stood, knowing she’d want him in the photo with her, despite the fact that he was all but slumped into a pout.
“Photo evidence, please?” Robin cooed at Steve, positively buzzing with satisfaction. Literally, Eddie could feel her glee just from sitting beside her, as she marked another tally on the ‘You Suck” side of Steve’s exploits in flirting.
It wasn’t as bad as if Steve had finally landed a mark on the ‘You Rule’ column, but it still stung in particular every time Steve tried it (however innocently) with another dude—especially the ones that were nothing like Eddie.
It only reminded him that he never had a shot in hell.
“Isn’t the tally evidence enough of my failures?” Steve whined, but he was already moving to take the picture.
“Nope!” Robin said, smacking her lips for emphasis. “Because you could secretly erase some and we both know I’d forget it. Plus, this is the second time you got nothing but a blank stare outta that guy. So. Photo, please!”
“Yeah, yeah,” Steve grumbled, then snapped a picture of Robin holding up the board with a broad smile, and Eddie doing his best not to look like a complete grump about it. Somehow, despite this whole thing being at his expense, Steve still managed to drop the camera from his face with a small smile.
“So, what are we doing tonight?”
———
Robin decided she wouldn’t be joining Steve and Eddie in hanging out at the trailer for the night, because she “didn’t care about getting high nearly as much” as they did, apparently. Instead, she was going to whatever Sapphic movie night Barb and Nance had planned, to which no boys were invited.
Eddie didn’t mind, considering that meant he got Steve to himself. Since Wayne was out at his weekly poker game, they opted to give in to Robin’s assumptions and smoke. Not that Wayne really would have cared, but Eddie liked to give his uncle the option of turning a blind eye when he could.
“Since when do you pout in pictures more than Robin or Max?” Steve asked as Eddie rolled them a joint, killing time by looking through the photos from their shift today.
Since I’m sick of watching you flirt with anyone who isn’t me, Eddie answered honestly in his own head. When he opened his mouth, though, lies poured out.
“I’m starting to feel sorry for your lack of game, man,” Eddie said with a blinding smile. “At some point the board just starts to feel like bullying.”
“I’m fine, Eds,” Steve snorted, clearly unbothered. “But thank you for your concern. Now let me get a better shot of you.”
Eddie sighed, but then relented and gave Steve a fond smile. “Fine.”
After his second bout with the creepy crawlies of the Upside Down last fall (Eddie’s first), Steve had taken to photography as a hobby, and started documenting everything he could in film. Steve said it helped with his nightmares, at first, to be able to look back on the group making good memories while trying to work through the shit ones. Eventually he admitted to Eddie that it was also because he wanted to capture everything good, in case they all died tomorrow.
Jonathan still did most of the heavy lifting there, but Steve carried his own camera around with him almost everywhere, now. Then, once they’d all started at Scoops, he’d swiped his dad’s Polaroid specially just to keep it in his work locker over the summer. He spent entirely too much money on film, despite Robin’s frequent protestations.
“Stop wasting all of your money on the same photos of the kids laughing at us in our uniforms,” she’d say every time Steve came back from spending his break in the camera repair shop restocking on film.
“It’s memories, Rob,” Steve would sigh and reload the camera. “You can’t put a price on those.”
Eddie and Robin would usually exchange a glance imparting their desire to give Steve a lesson in being poor, and pronto, but neither of them really had the heart to do it.
Steve loved that damn camera, though, and Eddie had long ago established that he couldn’t deny Steve anything. So Eddie sat back, trying not to be self conscious as Steve once more studied him through the lens of a camera. His favorite seemed to be trying to catch arty shots of Eddie blowing smoke out of his nostrils, and looking like the burnout that he was.
Much like the Scoops Cam stayed at work, the one Steve was using now tended to hang out on Eddie’s nightstand most of the time. It was a testament to how much time Steve spent at the trailer, if anything. The thought made Eddie smile, and Steve tutted happily at however it looked through the viewfinder. Eddie tried not to run away with delusions of grandeur about what that could mean, but he felt all warm over it anyway.
Eventually Steve seemed pretty satisfied with what he captured, so he set the camera aside, presumably for the next time he came over.
“You were grumpy today,” Steve said, waving the post-flirting Polaroid from earlier in Eddie’s face. Eddie slapped his hand away, but couldn’t keep his face straight. He couldn’t keep anything straight.
“I just don’t understand how you find that preppy asshole attractive,” Eddie said around a lungful of smoke, staring Steve down as best he could, considering they were sitting eye-to-eye on the floor.
“What,” Steve drawled, making grabby hands for the joint until Eddie passed it over. He seemed completely unbothered by the fact that Eddie found his crush on the Jazzercise guy distasteful. “You’ve never been attracted to a preppy asshole before?”
Just you, Eddie thought, grateful that the weed hadn’t loosened his lips enough to let the words spill out into the sticky-sweet ether between them. Eddie had been hopelessly in love with Steve for no less than eight months, now. But who was counting?
“Can’t say that I have,” Eddie lied. Though, was it technically a lie, if he didn’t think Steve was an asshole anymore? Eddie took the technicality and ran with it, but he almost thought there might’ve been a hint of disappointment on Steve’s face. Eddie told himself that was just wishful thinking on his part.
“I just think he looks nice in those shorts, is all,” Steve shrugged before finally taking a drag.
Eddie was really starting to think he’d miscalculated, opting to work the summer at Scoops. Not only was the job shit—the only non-Steve-and-Robin related reason he even remotely enjoyed it was because Erica would come in and boss everyone around, and he would give her shit about the evils of capitalism and watch her nose scrunch up—but it also required watching Steve flirt with and ogle all the customers, regardless of gender, and drive Eddie nuttier than a scoop of butter pecan over it.
The only reason Eddie had any semblance of sanity left was because Steve usually struck out. Or, pretty much always. It was almost like Steve was flirting badly on purpose, some days. And then he’d come home with Eddie anyway. They’d watch movies or get high, fucking around and making fun of whoever had worse sailor-hat hair at the end of the day. It was nice.
Eddie was a real goner, was the point, and he resented the aerobics instructor guy. And his shorts. Eddie had shorts, too, goddamnit.
“He’s not even gay,” Eddie scoffed, flopping backwards to lay flat on the floor of his bedroom. Sometimes he and Steve would lay sprawled across his bed, or stay in the living room where things felt safer, but tonight it was too hot to be anywhere but on the floor. At least down there, Eddie could catch a little bit of a draft from the rickety old air conditioner that was valiantly chugging along to cool the whole trailer. “He just likes watching sweaty women bounce around for a living.”
“Don’t talk about my soulmate like that,” Steve scoffed. He nudged Eddie’s hip with his foot, then laid beside him on the floor, facing in the opposite direction as Eddie. Steve propped his feet up on the bed, then twisted is face to look at Eddie’s, practically pillowing his head on Eddie’s chest as he did. He smirked like he was proud of his joke.
Eddie knew Steve was just kidding around. If anyone was Steve’s soulmate, after all, it was Robin. Eddie was almost used to that jealous demon that lived in the back of his brain, resenting his status as the spare friend in the trio. It was silly and Eddie knew it, especially since he loved the fuck out of Robin. But even in jest, Steve’s comment plunged Eddie into a river of envy. What about me? The demon cried, scraping along the recesses of Eddie’s mind and demanding to be acknowledged.
Eddie did his best to shush it, listening instead to the Judas Priest record he’d put on because somehow, someway, Steve had come to love it.
“Take me now, in your arms, let me rest, safe from harm,” Steve sang along to Hear Come the Tears. The lingering smoke made his voice scratch in just the right kind of delectable way that left the demon doing backflips in Eddie’s mind. “Oh I want to be loved.”
Another thing Eddie had learned about Steve, since his reformation of character had started sometime last year, was that he got handsy when he was high. He took one of Eddie’s hands into his own, then firmly pressed the joint into it. Steve didn’t let go when Eddie’s fingers grasped around it, either. Instead he started playing with Eddie’s rings.
“This one new?” Steve asked, voice low and buzzing right through Eddie’s ribcage.
It wasn’t new, but Eddie couldn’t blame Steve for thinking so. He hardly ever wore the bat carved of silver that Steve was still lazily twisting around Eddie’s index finger. It was one of the first rings he’d ever bought for himself, but once he got his bat tattoo, he thought maybe wearing the ring was overkill. Most of the time, anyway.
That all hardly seemed relevant when Steve was basically holding Eddie’s hand, and noticing little details about him that no one else ever did.
“No, but I don’t wear it much,” Eddie answered, hoping he didn’t sound as desperate as he felt.
“Pretty,” Steve hummed. He stopped playing with the ring and moved to tickle the back of Eddie’s hand with soft fingers, instead.
“It’s probably better suited for you, then,” Eddie admitted aloud, and Steve turned a bashful shade of pink.
That was the other thing about Steve when he got high. He was more prone to blushing.
“Alright,” Steve said with a sly grin, before slipping the ring off Eddie’s finger in a rush. Then he sat back up, crossing his legs beneath him as he put it on himself. He held his hand out in front of his face, assessing. “Oh, yeah. I like it.”
Steve had taken things much too literally, and Eddie saw fit to correct it.
“Gimme it back, you thief!” Eddie cried, snatching for Steve’s hand again. Steve was too quick for him, though, and all Eddie achieved was grazing his fingertips across the heated skin of Steve’s forearm as he dashed out of Eddie’s grasp.
Carefully, Eddie snubbed out what was left of the joint in the ashtray, then scrambled upright and dove at Steve.
For maybe thirty seconds, Eddie had the upper hand. He’d managed to get a grip around Steve’s wrist, and the hand that now housed Eddie’s stolen ring. But once Eddie realized he was practically straddling Steve’s lap, knees locked on either sides of his thighs in a death grip, Eddie was momentarily distracted from his goal. He fumbled sliding the ring off Steve’s finger, accidentally tossing it until it rolled under Eddie’s bed.
Instead of going after it, though, Steve took the opportunity to wrestle Eddie to the floor. In half a stuttered heartbeat on Eddie’s part, he was under the whole weight of Steve, wrists pinned in a surprisingly gentle but firm grip on either side of his head.
Steve laughed above him, pressed so close that Eddie could feel the way Steve’s chest contracted and then swelled again as he breathed. Eddie didn’t know where to look first—the flop of Steve’s hair that hung down between them, the curve of Steve’s perfect mouth, curling up in a self-satisfied smile, or the way Steve’s glassy eyes still sparkled as he looked down at Eddie with a quiet confidence that was driving him wild.
Eddie didn’t know how Steve was still this strong while impaired, but if he didn’t get out from under him soon, Eddie knew there’d be a problem somewhere south of his belt loops to deal with between them. He tried not to wiggle his hips too much as he attempted to break free of Steve’s grasp, but it was no use. Steve only smirked down at him, completely focused on Eddie’s face alone.
“I win,” Steve murmured, then deliberately let his gaze drop to Eddie’s lips.
Eddie felt like he might be hallucinating, to the point where he wondered if Reefer Rick had given him a particularly weird strain, or something, last time they did a deal.
Especially when Steve then darted his tongue across his own bottom lip, a brief flash of wet pink that left Eddie floating, despite being pinned to the ground.
“You—” Eddie began, but the creak of the trailer door opening shocked them both out of whatever had been brewing between them. Steve let go of Eddie in an instant, sitting up and running his hands through his hair as Wayne grunted out, “Ed?” from the living room.
“Back here, Uncle Wayne,” Eddie said, sounding completely dazed.
Wayne poked his head into Eddie’s room and smirked down at him, still sprawled on the floor and probably looking—and smelling—high as a kite. Then Wayne waved at Steve, and said, “When you get the munchies, don’t eat my chips.”
Wayne was gone as fast as he’d come, probably to watch TV and have a beer, but he’d altered the vibe significantly. Steve reeled in whatever had started to peek free just a few moments before, sighed, and snatched the bat ring from under the bed. He handed it back willingly.
“You can wear it,” Eddie tried, but Steve shook his head.
“It’s more your style, anyway,” he said, sounding a little sad about it. Eddie didn’t know what to say in reply, so he silently took the ring and slid it back on his finger.
“The chips might be off the table,” Eddie said, feeling a devilish grin creep onto his face and hoping it would draw Steve back out of whatever shell he’d shrunk into. “But he didn’t say shit about his banana popsicles.”
“I like the way you think, Munson,” Steve smiled back, then they both darted for the freezer in perfect sync.
———
For his next shift with Steve, Eddie was trying not to act weird after whatever the hell had happened in the trailer the night before. He was determined not to get distant or awkward about it, or make Steve feel self-conscious. He didn’t want to be too touchy afterwards either, though, and make Steve assume that Eddie was expecting anything from him.
But that didn’t mean Eddie wasn’t flirting. Eddie was a flirt by nature, after all. It would seem weirder if he didn’t.
“Ahoy, sailor!” Eddie heartily whistled in appreciation just when Steve arrived in all of his short-shorts glory—all in the name of keeping up appearances, of course.
Steve shuffled around a little uneasily in response instead of returning the sentiment, like he normally would have. Robin, who was sitting with Eddie at the table in the ‘captain’s quarters’, squinted at him in question. Eddie shrugged.
“Didn’t get enough beauty sleep?” she asked Steve.
“Huh?” he responded distantly, trying to fix his hat to his hair in a gentle enough way so it wouldn’t flatten what Steve thought was his best feature. (Eddie thought Steve’s best feature was probably his perfectly kissable mouth, or his big brown eyes that Eddie frequently found himself getting lost in, or even that little constellation of moles on his neck that Eddie wanted to bite. But that was neither here nor there.)
“You seem…fidgety,” Robin pointed out.
“Oh. I’m fine,” Steve tried for an unaffected shrug, but it looked more jerky and stilted than anything.
Eddie was doing his level best not to assume that was about him. But considering the fact that Eddie was almost certain Steve had wanted to kiss him the night before, even after the haze of smoke had cleared from his judgment making skills, he didn’t really think it was a coincidence.
Robin seemed to agree that this was between Steve and Eddie, as she started eyeing Eddie suspiciously again. If her face hadn’t been full of questions, Eddie would've assumed Steve had already told her what was going on with him. The fact that he hadn’t only worried Eddie further. Since when did Steve not share every thought in his head with Robin?
Had Eddie seemed too eager last night, maybe? Had Steve sussed out how deep Eddie’s feelings actually ran? Maybe now he wanted to put an extra bit of distance between them, because to Steve it wasn’t that serious. Eddie wanted to kick himself at the thought.
If distance was what Steve wanted, Robin wasn’t allowing for it. Her solution was to find every excuse to stick Eddie and Steve in the back room together most of the afternoon, doing tedious tasks while Robin worked out front. Her excuse was that it was a “slow day” anyway.
So Eddie tried to act as normal as possible in the hopes of signaling that everything between them was fine, whatever Steve’s worries might be. But every time Eddie tried to strike up a conversation, Steve didn’t give him much back by way of response.
“Do you know what happened after the kids snuck in to see Day of the Dead the other night?” Eddie asked, hoping the temptation to gossip might spur Steve into talking. One of their favorite topics of the summer so far had been speculating on what seemed like a gay little love triangle forming between Mike, Eleven, and Will.
“Not really,” Steve shrugged noncommittally.
“At the very least you’d think we might’ve gotten some innocent hand-holding,” Eddie mused.
“Maybe,” Steve merely grunted in response.
Eddie bit his tongue for a while after that, and began to consider if whatever was going on in Steve’s head had nothing to do with him at all. Eddie knew Steve’s parents were in town, and that usually led to most of Steve’s grumpiest moods. Maybe all he needed was the promise of not having to go back to a house he hated after getting off from a job he also hated.
“Hey, you wanna come over tonight?” Eddie offered eventually, then wondered if maybe he should give it more of a veneer of friendship, just in case. “We can probably entice Robin into coming if we let her pick a movie. You guys can stay over, even.”
“Maybe,” Steve finally smiled, but it didn’t reach his eyes. Eddie thought he might finally be on the right track, but Steve dipped away again. “I should go check on Robin.”
Eddie tried not to pout in Steve’s absence.
He also wasn’t one to give up in the face of a frowning Steve Harrington, so for the rest of their shift he kept trying to do all the things he knew would make Steve laugh. At first, Steve didn’t seem all that impressed with Eddie’s walking him through the several layers of monstrous traps he was laying for the boys’ first official Hellfire campaign, so Eddie switched to stronger tactics. He moved on to his impersonation of Hopper going full Hulk and threatening to kill Mike in new and creative ways, which did earn a pinched smile out of Steve, at least.
But when Steve’s favorite bit—Eddie’s acting out his own mascot creation, Scoop, who was a pirate with spoons for fingers—didn’t do much more than eke a small chuckle out of him, Eddie was just about ready to throw in the towel and ask what the hell was the matter.
That was when they heard the unmistakable sound of Dustin Henderson’s arrival, however.
Steve turned to Eddie with wide eyes, matching Eddie’s in excitement. If Dustin’s long anticipated return from camp couldn’t cheer Steve up, nothing would.
“Steve, Eddie!” Robin called back to them both. “Your child is here!”
“Don’t act like you don’t love me, too, Robin Buckley,” Dustin said, accompanied by that bizarre purring noise he liked to make.
Steve and Eddie simultaneously sprung into action. Eddie led the way out of the swinging door to the front, with Steve hot on his heels and his hands squeezing Eddie’s shoulders in delight.
“Henderson!” They both chorused, as Dustin broke out in a wide, gummy grin upon seeing them. They all launched towards each other, and Steve quite literally squealed, “He’s back!”
Then the three of them immediately proceeded into their complex secret handshake, while Robin looked on in bewilderment. It didn’t matter how many times she’d seen them practice it in minute detail, apparently, it still made her wrinkle her nose in secondhand embarrassment.
Eddie didn’t care. He’d missed Henderson more than he ever expected he would have of a fourteen year old hellion, but Dustin had that effect on him and Steve both. In the months since they’d tracked down a baby fucking demogorgon together, the three of them had only grown further attached.
So when Dustin immediately jumped to exclaiming “We have so much to talk about,” Eddie and Steve didn’t hesitate to set aside the weird vibe between them and buy Dustin a USS Butterscotch.
Twenty minutes later, the two of them had listened to Dustin talk about his “camp girlfriend” ad nauseam, while exchanging a healthy amount of skeptical looks between them. Steve didn’t entirely seem to believe that Suzie was real, and Eddie was mostly with him, but there was something dreamy in the way Dustin talked that Eddie felt a kinship with.
It reminded him how he felt around Steve.
All that went out the window, though, when Dustin started yammering about intercepting secret Russian codes.
“We can be true, American heroes, guys!” Dustin finished his lengthy speech about saving the world, like he hadn’t done enough of that already.
Eddie was beyond skeptical now, but Steve seemed amused, so he played along.
“Heroes, eh?” Eddie asked, casually spinning his sailor cap around in his hands.
“Yes! It’ll be great, I swear. And once we are, you two can have all the ladies you want, and more. As long as her name isn’t Suzie,” Dustin promised them both. It was sincere, if admittedly a little creepy and off base.
Eddie darted a quick glance towards Steve, who obviously found the irony in Dustin’s promising the ladies to Eddie, of all people. He chuckled lightly as he gave Eddie a knowing look, like he was thrilled to know Eddie’s secrets, before breaking eye contact and turning back to Dustin.
“Yeah, alright,” he nodded. “How can we help?”
(part two should be coming with tomorrow's prompts!)
[PART TWO] [PART THREE]
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annabelle--cane · 1 year
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What do you think lesbians are attracted to in women that we can’t be attracted to in men?
It can’t be anything about femininity or masculinity obviously. That’s both sexist, and cultural so can’t be what drives woman-only attraction.
It can’t be anything about stated identity because someone could lie just as easily as they could tell the truth in such a statement, and it makes no sense because homosexuality and heterosexuality exists in other species with no stated identities. It’s not like other animals without gender are all pan.
Saying idk it’s the vibes or some indescribable trait women have that men can’t but “I can’t explain” is a nonanswer.
Soooooooo what is it? Or do you think any sexuality but bi/pan is just cultural performance or an identity rather than an inborn orientation?
alright this is very much giving me "transphobic bait ask" because I haven't posted about anything remotely related to this topic at all recently (unless I fast rbed something on moblie and didn't realize lol), but for the hell of it I'll try and give it an honest answer.
I think it's about the gender you perceive someone to be and the way their gender is received and treated in social contexts. I'm bi, but I'm attracted to different things in men and women and I relate to them in different ways, and there have been times when, for instance, I've been in a new class with someone and accidentally gotten their gender wrong for weeks before being corrected, and the way I had been perceiving them changed as I adjusted the way I thought of them.
for a thought experiment: imagine you're in a work environment and you have a friend you think is a man until one day they pull you aside and confide in you that she's actually a woman and she's pulling a full mulan because of various extenuating circumstances. she looks exactly the same as she did before, still passing as a man, her behavior doesn't change, but now that you know her gender you start to see her as a nonconforming woman instead of a conforming man. maybe you're not into butch girlbosses with secrets, idk, but I think most people who are only attracted to women could hypothetically be into her.
also, re: that last thing you said, I think all sexualities are cultural performances because everything we do and identify ourselves with are cultural performances. like, sure, my eyes being green is an inherent trait I've had from birth, but that only has any significance because we as a society have decided it does. what if I was born on the planet schmorpopolis where they identify colors by intensity rather than hue. my eyes wouldn't be green there, they'd just be kinda mid. it's a bit of a moot point to talk about because I don't think we're ever going to achieve a society where we fully stop assigning any significance to gender, but I think it's worth noting that we 100% made this all up when we didn't have to.
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specialshinytrinkets · 9 months
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Ai-Ai-Ai, I'm Your Little Butterfly
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[Real toy she's based on under the cut]
Did you know my mom can knit? Cuz she can, and she made this unicorn that I braided one time to get my hands working on SOMETHING (you know how it is sometimes)
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Her name is Marshmallow (like. Irl, she was made following a tutorial, and was named this way)
She's accidentally bi and trans, because when I started putting down the bg colors, I realised it looked like a bi flag LMFAO- and the trans ringtone sounds were kinda accidental too? Like, I had the thoughts before drawing this, but when it came to coloring those thingies, it just clicked?? In any case, unicorn be upon ye
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