#i am not doing well girlies

[willowfey]

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#i am not doing well girlies #disclaimers that i am fine i'm always fine i will always be fine but hooo boy i do not feel fine lol #everything is always overwhelming i am always sad everything feels itchy #every single morning for weeks ive woken up with an anxiety bellyache and no matter how tired i am still i just have to get up #everyone i look up that i used to know is like. married and having babies or working their dream jobs and i just. im happy for them. i am #but where do i belong in all of this? #i know everything feels worse lately bc we're moving house and the routine changes and empty rooms feel Bad #plus my mom has not been doing well mentally which i feed off so it's just. you know #but will i ever Not feel like im so far behind? will i ever Not be deeply unsettled by even the mildest changes? #everything is so slow and so fast at the same time and it makes my head spin and we have a new friend who has a son my age and i was hoping #idk. that he'd be somewhat similar to me? falling behind a little bit too? maybe i could make a friend irl that understood a little? #but then i casually ask about him and oh no ofc he has a partner and family of his own etc etc #right. that's what i'm supposed to be doing at this age.ha #so many ppl i went to school with are married now. im turning the age this year that my mother was when she HAD me #meanwhile ive never even kissed anyone never even held a boy's hand never had any attention like that ever and #i wonder so often what it's like to be wanted by someone but ive never felt more undesirable #i cant imagine anyone looking at me and Wanting me. and at this point as romance obsessed as i am idk if i could even handle it #and the other night i was having anxiety dreams over the fact that i rly want kids but even waiting until im 30 thats only 5 years?? #and 30 is already fucking five years away from being considered a GERIATRIC pregnancy?? but im not even done being a kid myself!!!! #and also who the fuck is gonna have a kid with me?? and who knows if i can even get pregnant when i rarely have a period ?? #and i cant imagine not liiving with my mom and sister but does that mean i'll live with them forever?? #will i be 30 35 40 45 still feeling like a kid? or worse.. will i not feel like myself at all? #will i be married to someone i dont love madly simply bc im so terrified to be alone? #or will i hold so tightly to my stories and fantasies that i will be alone bc nothing could ever live up to them? #will it even matter what i want? will anyone ever want me to even give me the option? or will this all stay hypothetical forever #im just. stressed. and i thought i'd be more by now.

[buck2eddie]

I could be your sacrifice.

#this took WAY TOO LONG for what it is and i did it in the most inefficient way god akshshksdh #and YES I KNOW this is not the order of the lyrics and this is completely not the meaning i changed it up and took it put of context #but oh well. i saw the lyrics two parallel lines and i knew what i had to do 🫡 #to all the noah kahan girlies (gn) i am with ya now 🫡 #buck as stick season will probably be happening as well 🫡 stay tuned #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddieedit #911 #911 abc #911edit #lyrics #m*edits

[mars-ipan]

happy early discount chocolate day

#martzipan #ok tags time #hajime hinata #chiaki nanami #nagito komaeda #komahina #komanami #hinanami #komahinanami #feel free to use or whatevs. happy valentine's day #i love these little idiots. chiaki i'm sorry girlie i do not draw you enough #which is criminal bc she has the best color scheme out of the three of them #i am just. obsessed with postgame. and. well. #i will make it up to you gamer girl. chiaki is so good #also once again pushing my propaganda. they r t4t4t to me. one transmasc and two transfems what will they do #OH SHIT ALMOST FORGOT #tw blood #i'm so used to beating up komaeda that i like. forget he's bleeding half the time

[eggocrumbs]

sweaty

#kazuhira miller #kaz miller #metal gear solid #metal gear solid peace walker #game fanart #fanart #clip studio paint #csp #*fnaf jumpscares u* #HI #i am unfortunately still here #ignore my 2 year hiatus girlies #<333 #anyway miss you all i hope you're doing well #!!! #have a sweaty kaz as a tiny update #SEE YOU SOON FRIENDS

[boyfhee]

happiest birthday to the loml

#queue #ssr — heeseung. #ALWAYS a heeseung girlie #that man is boyfie husband loml every thing and all the things #omfg im going to cry and listen to off my face all day #it's my dad's bday as well and im on the floor #my brother's is on fourteenth #my mom's on wonyoung's #GOD WHAT DID I DO TO BE BORN IN MIDDLE OF THE YEAR #anyway guys i love heeseung sm #liek u wont understand i have so so much love for him in both respectful and delusional way #AND RI IF U SEE THIS ....bb im not dead #also i waited a whole yr for this do yew know his bday posts are queued from a yr ago #like i alr queued one for next yr #i am insane i like it

[nerime]

my coworkers are being turbo transphobic and literally refuse to listen to answers to questions they fucking ask argh!!! I can just tell you!!! I can just answer you!!!!! I have answers!!! to the ridiculous questions you ask in a mocking way!!!! if you listen for one second I can just fucking explain!!!! 😡😭😡😭

#they ask why would trans men NEED tampons for men since they are WOMEN why cant they juat use WOMEN ones those stupid silly women ugh #they keep coming back to the topic #and im like hey they are not women ^_^ and try to explain the concept #in easy kindergarten terms like hey you know how you wouldnt want to buy pink girly items because you are a (cis) guy! well #and them im cut off with more transphobic shit before i can say anything else #my coworker literally said her son told her and her husband they were playing spin the bottle on a school trip #and she asked so did you kiss any girls? and he said #sure when it landed on a girl then i kissed a girl (implying he also kissed guys) #and she said her husband was so shocked because hes conservative #while she said she just ordered the son not to say anything else #and she tells us 'i think he was just testing us or something' #wtf. i said well okay maybe he was testing your reactions and now hes not gonna tell you shit anymore #and she went like hm 🤔 #also the irony of saying her HUSBAND is conservative while she fucking. misgenders trans men all day and jokes about gay men constantly #in a nasty way #all of them do #im so tired #she complained kids nowadays are so caaual about gay people #and i said okay well i love it personally they should keep it up #and NO ONE at the table supported/agreed with me #sorry i am on a work trip and suffering #transphobia tw #neri stfu

[tinseltownie]

Playing the 2015 F1 season in the background while doing my dissertation is an act of self care

#formula 1 #f1 #lewis hamilton #winning races #nico rosberg #exists #sebastian vettel #my love in ferrari #no sign of the tik tok drivers #sorry that was rude i obviously am a HUGE mclaren girly #and charles as well is special to me #but this is PRE #max verstappen #might do the 2018 season next just for fun #but brocedes downfall is imminent #i can't spell #bye

[iron-fifty-nine]

listen I love briar so much. So much oml. She’s literally autism coded. She has lines about how body language should be considered a language you have to learn. She talks about how ears have a unique “mouth feel”. She’s observing her peers so hard to figure out how to act. She’s weird without realizing she’s being weird while also being aware of societal rules and how she’s not following them. She can take her pillory off whenever she wants but doesn’t because it’s familiar to her. SHE BARKS BACK AT THE MURK WOLVES OK.

#briar #briar lol #briar league of legends #lol #league of legends #please I love her #do I have a habit of attaching myself to autism coded champs? Absolutely leave me alone #first Lillia then Gwen and now briar #I love my girlies what can I say #it sucks because I. am very bad at jgl #I played Lillia top for ages #80% wr I’m deadass #I was powerful #n then they fucked w shit and made conq her best runes and I had so much trouble adjusting away from dark harvest #ah well #I’ll get there again

[sneak-a-cat]

No because i am actually scared of... that guy in the ronance tag on ao3... how do they have time for that??? they have written 429 fucking things... jesus fucking christ... like i was kind of impressed at first but then they just kept fucking going (and i saw someone who said they steal content? which checks out considering the rate they write at but there was no evidence so i am hesitant to fully back that theory), like all i could do is mute them on ao3 but i would still know its happening??

#rambles #ronance #all the girlies who check out the tag by updated first know what i am talking about #i need someone to commiserate with me or something! #i keep noticing them in the kudos sections of other fics too #so they are real and they read things #but like... babe what are you doing??? #its the sheer volume of it all and the fact that its not just been made into a massive smutshot fic as well

[slightlytoastedbagel]

actually On Your Feet gave us two good things (well. three if you like Realize which I do). Kohane's "it's frustrating" line and the great crack fic idea of Vivid Bad Squad getting cancelled online for skipping school to yell at The Kotaki Taiga as he was about to go back to America.

#no because. he went there to continue radder's dream yeah? the one about becoming world successful musicians #and they had a record label for a bit. they were definitely going to make it at least somewhat. #so we can assume taiga is at the very least a semi well known musician yeah? #one that someone about to either leave or enter japan might know about. who will see this musician they enjoy #being shouted at by a high school girl in her school uniform about how they will surpass him or something along those lines #with three other kids (in uniform from a different school) standing behind her #and then going onto sekai universe twitter to post about it and the taiga kotaki fans taking it by storm #taiga gets off the plane in america and finds he's trending and it's because people are making fun of a blurry picture of his ex pupil #meanwhile vivid bad squad just don't know because it was contained entirely on twitter and. #be honest can you see any of them having twitter because i can't. an maybe but akito doesn't have time for social media and toya is toya #and kohane is a tumblr girlie if i've ever seen one #however it does give the great concept of someone else seeing it and debating if they should say anything #because mmj definitely has an official account they could have seen it on and also there's ena shinonome and mizuki akiyama #but anyway this also means when they do put on the event to surpass rad weekend (or whatever their goal ends up being) #there will be a crowd of people looking at it and going “isn't that the group of kids that twitter made fun of ages ago?” #and then taiga kotaki stans on sekai universe twitter will be stunned because they did in fact surpass him #if it wasn't for the gcses i would write this but alas. enjoy my weird thoughts #bagel's rambles #project sekai #i am scared to main tag this one but. fuck it we ball

[thelaurenshippen]

the thing about the hbo television show "barry" is that you do not watch "barry", "barry" is something that happen to you, usually in the form of bill hader taking a hefty cast iron pan directly to your frontal lobe and you thanking him for it

#barry #girlies......I am not well #like #what the FUCK #the rare tv show where I absolutely adore every godawful choice they make #bc the choices are the RIGHT ones! #no character is safe from the most horrific consequences of their actions #so loving a character is a practice in self punishment #but I do! I love each and every one! #and I do not get pleasure out of watching them suffer! #and yet I WANT to watch them suffer #does that make sense? #its about the rammys bro #also what the fuck anthony #what the ever loving fuck #how do you DO that #top ten performance moments of this year so far #top five #also #I turned to my partner after the episode ended #and was like #'i want to have a nine hour dinner with bill hader where we just talk about masculinity' #I think we would have a wonderful time

[kuntniss]

one thing abt me is i am unfortunately a huge fan of any scenario where mike is still kinda with el but also there's Something with will and everyone knows it and like. just imagine some sort of get-together thing where el's looking at mike look at will and will isn't looking at either of them and the entire room is full of their family and friends and will feels like he's about to throw up and he looks so sad and mike is also. very sad. but also angry because he doesn't want this to be how it is and will feels like he's done something wrong by making mike want him so he has to shut it down for the both of them and ignoring him like this is the only way he knows how. and there's a lot of willel sadness but never hatred because el just cannot hate him but she just. she can't look away from mike and will because she never even had a chance. will tries not to look at either of them

#and actually as i type this it rly could be canon BUt el doesn't want mike at all and she wouldn't be sad. well she isn't sad here bc of #that but like. anyway ya #and i am a lesbian el girly and this could technically be that. wanting to be wanted even if she doesn't want him that much. lesbians get #it #ok anyway i know this is like not the most healthy thing but i actually do not care that isn't my issue its fun its drama its romance etc #st #byler #txt #*

[thedeadthree]

-`. LEGS 2024 SPOTIFY WRAPPED.

tis the season besties!! the loveliest lovely @leviiackrman tagged me to share my wrapped for this year!! ty jess !!!!!! <3 (and saw @shellibisshe and @statichvm do this as well!)

TAGGING: @griffin-wood, @ruinbringer, @unholymilf, @grapecaseschoices, @risingsh0t, @chuckhansen, @arduath, @queennymeria, @jillvalentinesday, @shadowglens, @jendoe, @florbelles, @faerune, @bloodofvalyria, @loriane-elmuerto, @gortash, @full---ofstarlight, @jackiesarch, @leondaltons, @aponibolinayen, @bbrocklesnar, @d-vx, @captmactavish, @confidentandgood, @quickhacked, @katsigian, @jacobseed, @celticwoman, @alltoowelltv, @fragilestorm, @nokstella, @dekarios, @mrdekarios, @socially-awkward-skeleton, @themysteriouslou, @villainthirst, @envergothash, @inkrys, @avallachs, @gwynbleidd, @amyreads, @minaharkers, @myrkulyte, @pheedraws, @cptcassian and you!

#only if you want to of course!! <3 #please please take this as your tag if i miss you!!!!! 🥀😭 #leg.tagged #leg.txt #t: about leg #TY JESS DEAR !! this was so cuute to do!!!!!!!! #ethel my bestie my top artist of the year am i shocked? we love to seeee!!!!! 🥀😌✨ #and that means LILIA GIRLIE OF THE YEAR <3 #the fact that a 70% of my playlist this year was songs from my infamous girlies playlists they truly won this year 🌸💕🥹 #ALSOO BESTIES LISTENNN TO NINA RN 🥀😤✨😌 nocturne my beeeeloved it’s SOO GOOD #d*epeche top song from when i was playing the lonesome dlc in f*nv and it fit SOO well for something i was brainstorming writing :) #s*potify said we know leg makes a playlist for every oc they have and they’re so right 🥀😌 #it’s the best thing and one of my go to things for capturing the energy of my babieees 🌸💕🥹 #GOLLY HOLLY I HAVENT DONE A TAG GAME IN A SECOND 🥀😭 i am gonna catch up on things i have missed it’s my end of the year resolution!! #and of coursee THEE tay <3 #ramin my third ​tell me u had a h*otd hyperfixation w/o telling me you had a h*otd hyperfixation 🥀😌✨🥴 <3 #health on my top five second ? third year in a row hehe YAY <3 #d*oja being number five but having only one song is inch resting to me #(i think it was bc it was on olgas playlist for a bit but it isn’t on there anymore i believe?)

[britneyshakespeare]

you know who was the biggest clown of the season in bb25... me. because on premiere night when watching the first nomination comps i told my sister i thought l*ke was cute & i was hoping cory would lose and get eliminated.

#the turntables tableturned pretty quickly ok #NO ONE COULD KNOW ON PREMIERE NIGHT WHAT WAS GONNA HAPPENNNNN LEAVE ME ALOOOONE #luke had a great body and glasses and floppy hair 🙄 which are my weaknesses. so leave me alone #he is actually the biggest idiot of the year 2023. lmao #cory meanwhile i thought just seemed like a smug little white boy. SORRY SORRY SORRY #im not a cory worshipper but he was easily like the least problematic man in the house... the whole season? #well i mean jag doesn't seem to be that problematic as a person but as a player i am TIRED of watching him #tales from diana #justice for all of the women of bb25 except for fuckin bowie jane btw #i would love to see america or felicia do another season. i know felicia said she wont but PLEEEEASE #edit: oh i didnt expect this to get notes thats why i didnt tag it but now i see im getting some shameful solidarity #its ok girlies (& non-girlies idk who you guys are) we can commiserate together #bb25 #text post

[princessg3rard]

hey would anyone like a uterus ?? like new I swear I never had a kid :)) pls take it I have no use of it and it hates me :))

it does come with endo tho sorry

#pls take it #i hate it here <3 #afab problems #I don’t mind the blood #well not usually #I do hate how expensive pads for heavy flow are #just girly things #i am gnawing at the bars of my enclosure

[fahbev]

You know, I started reading Red Robin, and since I’ve distanced myself from fandom stuff, I’ve started to really, genuinely like Tim Dra—

— NEVERMIND I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!

#anti tim drake #Okay i still like him better after reading the comic #and have some level of investment in him #but i still find myself occasionally skipping over scenes that don’t have Tam Fox in them #i can’t help it #Tam girlie you can do SO MUCH BETTER #dunno about yall but if a guy said that to me i would instantly lose all attraction #in fact I might even take my food to go and leave #Hell she should take HIS food to go as well #Social norms are often dumb but THAT ONE IS THERE FOR A REASON #Okay Tam clearly doesn’t care #but I CARE #and i am riding to her defense #APOLOGIZE!