#i can't decide sometimes

[hoofpeet]

Qwhat if...

#hoof draws #also the triangle thang on flint's belt #this would also b cute tho what if . what if #ingo is vaguely hyperfixated on trains even tho he can't remember it . #zisu is obsessed with the aeroplanes they just invented in unova (pretend it's >1903 #she decides to take a trip to unova to see them ‚ mentions taking the train to [pokeworld equivalent of north Carolina] #ingo perks up and instantly invites himself along . #<-they travel to unova together while excitedly discussing public transport together #ough fixed the typo sorry 👍 i am kindof illiterate sometimes

[izloveshorses]

a grand duchess and her grand duke <3

(lynn buckham study)

#anastasia broadway #dimya #fan art #my art #iz draws #illustration #christy altomare #derek klena #i can't decide so u guys hash it out: #are they at nanna's for tea post canon? chatting in post-marital bliss about something silly? #or are they sitting in their hotel sometime during their first weekish in paris completely oblivious?? #i need to post this now or i'll keep finding other things to nitpick smh

[scificrows]

I am going over Murderbot's and ART's first interactions again and it's driving me crazy, so I really need to yell into the void about it.

Alright, so we have ART:

ART, a highly advanced deep space research vessel, who is very attached to its crew and seems to generally do what it's supposed to, especially when not doing so could endanger its mission - but ends up accepting a suspicious looking SecUnit that is lying about being a bot aboard itself. ART is evidently aware that it is directly breaking the rules in doing so. (Aside: How often does ART break the rules?) Why? All for that tempting media package that the SecUnit has to offer?

No.

It was sent off to do some work all alone and got bored and lonely. (I think there are different ways to intepret this, but looking at our super social raised-by-humans loving-its-crew never-shutting-up research vessel, I choose to think that is exactly what it was!)

Anyway, what does ART do now that it has this lying, potentially dangerous rogue SecUnit aboard? It

lets it know that it saw right through its lies and knows exactly what it is

intimidates and threatens it by showing off its own ridiculously extensive superiority (just to be on the safe side ofc)

gets bored after the SecUnit gets too scared to do anything interesting

asks the SecUnit to "stop sulking"

learns that the SecUnit has been through A Lot and seemingly understands how it made it feel and apologizes

gets bored again and starts lurking and harasses convinces the SecUnit to watch media about ships and their crews with it

[gets way too invested and agitated by the media, probably going through its first media-induced emotional crises (but gets through them with the support of the very patient SecUnit)]

tries to have a conversation with the SecUnit to get to know it better

gets offended that the SecUnit is not answering truthfully and won't share sensitive and very private information about itself

lets the SecUnit know it can see through its lies, calling it "inherently inferior" to itself and causing the SecUnit to sulkily shut down for four hours (lol)

immediately calls the SecUnit "unnecessarily childish" upon its awakening four hours later (referring to its own extensive experience with children to really get the point across)

And apparently all of this seemed to be a perfectly pleasant and normal interaction to ART, because:

That's how you make friends, isn't it?!

God, I love ART so so so much and this is SO funny to me! To be fair, I don't think anyone ever really prepared it for an interaction like this. (Probably because its crew did not expect it to pick up a stray rogue SecUnit and try to befriend it).

Bonus:

#murderbot #the murderbot diaries #asshole research transport #𓄿 #artificial condition #listen #sometimes you just see a friendshaped SecUnit and you have to adopt it #even if its a little ferral because it was not raised with warmth and love the way you were #even if it bites #i just love them so so so much #sometimes ART seems so smart and wise and composed #that i forget that ART is really just very stupid too #and i say that very very lovingly #sorry for the long post i just have a lot of emotions #if anyone is up for screaming into the abyss about ART and murderbot together #please join me and let me know whether you think ART was all dutiful and rule-abiding before it got corrupted by murderbot #or whether it was already pushing the rules and potentially getting itself into trouble before this #because i can't decide which option is more fitting and i like both

[clown-eating-pig]

One thing that I really appreciate about martin as a character is how you can observe him becoming more open over the seasons. Specifically with how he expresses himself, I like the way he noticeably becomes more vocal in his anger and pettiness by season 5. There are several things that I think contribute to this, and all of them make me varying levels of sad and happy all at once:

Obviously being part of the magnus archives in any capacity is enough to make someone more openly angry (as evidenced by pretty much everyone), and martin isn't excluded from that general "I'm being held captive by an invisible entity and the world is on the brink of collapse" rage.

Job security. This one is probably silly, but I can imagine that part of the reason that martin's season one, people-pleasing personality eases up slightly as time goes on could genuinely be because he literally can't lose his job. He's canonically stated to be manipulative, and I'm sure that one of his main reasons for him being so is that it was one of the only ways to assure that he and his mother were taken care of. Once he has the assurance that the only way he'll lose his job is via Death or Dismemberment (and also maybe once his mom died oop) I'm sure it was a lot easier to ngaf.

Comfort!!!!! Again! Martin is a manipulative guy! Not maliciously! Maybe not even consciously sometimes, but to me it feels like he's more likely to put on the gentle, friendly face with people he doesn't trust or isn't comfortable with. Come season 4 and 5, though, he's actively more petty towards and around jon (notably in how he reacts to Jon's gouging suggestion and just his general demeanor come apocalypse times). Part of this could certainly be bitterness leaking over because of The Circumstances, but I also feel that it has a lot more to do with the fact that he isn't necessarily trying to impress jon any more. In fact, at this point jon is the one actively seeking him out. He's beyond the point of needing to prove himself or make himself smaller for jon. By season five it's clear that jon loves him and that he'd go to the ends of the earth for him, so martin lets loose. He holds a grudge and he makes jealous requests and he snaps at times. He's a little bit bossy, and he ignores requests, and he sets boundaries. And all of this is so so beautiful because this is a person that, for years, has had to make himself as passive and small and as serving as possible - if not to appease his mother (who hates him) to keep her taken care of. So slowly watching him find people that he doesn't feel the need to act small around or to act as a caretaker to (unless he WANTS to) is a wonderful wonderful thing that I love.

#the magnus archives #tma #tma spoilers #martin blackwood #Little bit of #Jmart #Idk #character analysis #????? #Idk it's been a while since I've felt comfortable just chatting about a character #Can't remember the etiquette #I'm sure that this is very long and drawn out and unnecessary #As these are certainly all things that have been discussed before #But as a person who holds it in real tight sometimes #It's cool to see a character of a similar disposition Let It Out #Ok this is going in the drafts for a bit #Until I decide if it's cringe or not #G'bless #ok I sat on it #who care #post!

[rimouskis]

my "how to construct a team" philosophy is quite simple, really

#idk sometimes a team is 40 men I've decided I like even though we can't play them all

[lgbtlunaverse]

I cannot stress enough how MINOR of a petpeeve this is and how this is an interpretation that i'm comfortable with other people having even if i personally do not but I've noticed in a lot of 3zun fics, if jgy is holding smth back- generally his own feelings because his natural reaction to conflict is to make it Go Away and so if his emotional needs are the potential source conflict he will simply Not Look At Them.- That between nielan Xichen is the one who's worried and presses for comunication and Mingjue is like "Meng Yao is an adult if there was a problem he'd say so."

And I get why this is done, because nieyao's communication is generally atrocious and Xichen is the Gentle One who'd want to make sure a-yao is okay. So I get it. But. Canonically. The person going "I know a-yao, we trust each other, I don't need to ask him, he'll tell me on his own terms." is Lan Xichen and the one going "If Meng Yao doesn't want me to know something he WILL hide it from me and i'll have no idea because he's just that good at lying" is Nie Mingjue. And in a healthier nieyao dynamic, as these fics work under, that knowledge would not lead to automatic distrust but rather a desire to check in, to go: please remember that I value your honesty more than whatever you think you would burden me with by telling me what's going on.

Xichen also wants honesty and open communication ofc but his reaction to conflict is also to make it go away as fast as possible and he feels like saying it constantly feels accusatory so he wouldn't. If he asks if something is ok and a-yao smiles and goes of course er-ge checking again if it's really okay would be implying he was lying the first time!! He's showing his trust in him!! This is really refreshing if you're constantly assumed to be untrustworthy and meng yao appreciates it so much and it works really well 95% of the time but when it doesn't? Oh boy.

#examples of where that goes wrong *points at canon* #mdzs #3zun #nie mingjue #lan xichen #meng yao #jin guangyao #nieyao's communication is bad because they're going 'i CAN'T figure you out and so there's no point in trying' #and not because they think they understand the other perfectly #that's xiyao #who fall into this trap because they DO actually know each other better than almost everyone else #and so are completely blind to the few things they don't get about e/o #nielan can also do this #but it's more complicated cause i feel like they consciously DECIDE not to know each other sometimes #because they hold responsibilities to other people they must prioritize over each other. like so much canon nielan is wrapped up in duty #but idk exactly how that would translate if they did make the conscious decision to prioritize their relationship #and this post is about the yao-corner of the triangle and how they both interact with him so. will reserve those thoughts for another time

[kakyogay]

big kibby suns and their momdad spearirator (name pending I'm really bad at naming iterators even if they have a theme)

next post? maybe hunter and siggy idk depends if motivation doesn't fail me.

#rain world #scugerator swap #seven red suns #spearmaster #gave the kitty more fluff and one less pair of ears because despite finding it cool it's a bitch to draw sometimes #also they are probably also a test tube baby like original spearmaster so they were prolly never a pup but still #hella cute and tiny sun spiral because I saids so #also I know big paw doesn't really indicate size but I remember hearing it once and thought it'd be cute #tiny sun with big fluffy paw #also final thing they can't groom themself properly because either test tube baby or no mouth idk haven't really decided yet #alri I go draw other things now hope you like :3

[fairy-princette]

Based off of this post by @tartarusfairy

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Wayne putters around the kitchen fixing himself a cup of coffee, trying to keep an eye on Eddie and Steve on the sofa without looking like he’s keeping an eye on them. Steve (not Harrington - saving his boy’s life really fast tracked the kid to a first name basis) had been over a lot more recently. He knows they think he hasn’t noticed since they seem to mostly hang out while he’s out on his night shift, but there are clues. Wayne knows Eddie and there is no way that boy suddenly learned how to make so many home cooked meals and remember to do the dishes afterwards. The two are sat with their heads tilted together having a very intense whispered argument. Wayne smirks into his mug of coffee - Eddie’s had a lot of half started conversations with him recently, acting like he’s building himself for an Important Conversation only to tell Wayne that he’s going out to buy milk, or there’s an extra band practice he’d forgotten about, or on one occasion saying absolutely nothing, doing an about turn, walking out the trailer and vanishing for three hours (not that he really vanished - Steve called to say Eddie was at his because Lord knows Wayne can only cope with his nephew vanishing once in his lifetime thank you very much). Now he’s not one to pry, but between Eddie’s sudden jumpiness, how much more time he and Steve spend together, and how lighter the two now are he can make a pretty informed guess on what Eddie wants to tell him. 

The whisper-arguing cuts off abruptly and Wayne attempts to appear casual as Eddie jerks his head towards him.

“Uncle Wayne? We- I need to talk you. It’s important.”

Wayne nods and sits in the chair opposite them, giving them his full attention. Just because he already knows what they’re going to tell him doesn’t mean he shouldn’t listen.

Eddie takes a steadying breath and Steve gives his hand a comforting squeeze. 

“There’s something I’ve been needing to tell you for a while.”

Wayne nods encouragingly.

“I’m-”

Wayne leans forward in his seat slightly.

“I’m not allergic to celery.”

#hopefully this is as funny written down as it was in my head #I can't decide if Eddie thinks he's already told Wayne they're dating or if he genuinely thinks the celery thing is more important #like sometimes I'lll think something really loudly and think I've said it and have to double check a few days later if a conversation #actually happened or if I imagined it #steddie #stranger things #st-fic #wayne munson #@tartarusfairy hope you like it #also I like that our usernames kinda go together that's fun

[lameotello]

I hate that we've gone from "don't like, don't read" and not caring about what fucked up shit is depicted in fan media as a standard to hypervigilance and having to mind your every word so the group you've found yourself in doesn't know you ship the Not HOA Approved Ship

#like what the fuck #tello talks #proship #I just can't get over it fr #I have a platonic side acc and the fact I have to be afraid some stupid internet person will find out I ship tcest #and tell all their insane little friends who might or might not harrass me #is LITERALLY insane #I have fight daydreams sometimes. as you do. yknow the type of daydream where you're in a talkshow only this is an internet fight #and I try to think of ways to maneuver around a potential ''are you proship?'' situation by saying Yes Fuck You but in a way that explains #what proship IS not what /they/ have made it to be #and that it was the internet standard until like 2016 when some weirdo decided ship wars weren't enough #they needed to Actually Cancel people #but there's literally no way to win because they would /not/ listen #and that's is Insane and I don't feel I'm exaggerating here #anyway rant over #sorry #lol #long tags

[the-power-of-stuff]

Boiling Rock Hugs

#sometimes i can't decide if I want gifs or stills #so now we have both #they just hug so good y'all #sukka #screencaps #my screencaps #sokka x suki #suki x sokka

[dead-core]

craving validation from exactly the wrong person. slay

#bpd #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd feels #bpd vent #bpd mood #girl you can't just do this every time you want to talk to someone and they don't read your mind and text you #how to explain to people that i am not just insane in love relationships i'm insane about everyone i know and they are not an exception #baby i have wild and insane platonic abandonment issues too (friends with that guy again but we will absolutely never be as close as before) #codependent best friendship where other person gets pissy and decides not to be my friend all the time #losing my best friend over and over #sometiems bc i was being a bitch but sometimes bc i shared too much about my mental health or said the wrong thing #never knowing what the emotional support threshold is or what the new wrong thing could be #and i was insane and way too attached like codependence has such a nasty side when it's not mutual anymore #and i'm WORKING ON SHIT and taking my favorite people off their pedestals and blah blah blah #anyway guess that still has me fucked up

[mangofanarts]

I'm so sorry to q!bbh, my design for him during this arc just keeps being inconsistent

#qsmp #badboyhalo #qsmp fanarts #mmangoarts #sometimes I even place some design elements from one design onto the other when i'm drawing him #because I can't decide which one I like better/the best

[profounddefendorcrusade-blog]

I feel bad for Starlo. (pt. 6)

I think the main thing we were supposed to see as Star's character flaw wasn't that he was acting proud/arrogant/reckless/badass (I mentioned that it's fine for him to act that way because he deserved it after everything good he did and obviously I still mean it 110%), but how that proud, charming guy was never the real him. He literally lost himself trying to feel worthy and please everyone in town. For years he's been acting the role (for a noble cause) but the price was him losing touch with the nerd he is.

Yet STILL, if only everyone had been a bit more gentle with him, I bet he'd have toned it down during the WE section, and even before that. But they all decided to let him know the truth at the worst possible time, right when he was supposed to make Clover his deputy. Right after they attacked the kid because they were jealous. It was supposed to be the PEAK of Starlo's day and they randomly threw the "we never liked any of this" bomb at him instead of trying to talk it out BEFORE things escalated. I'd be pissed too.

Oh yeah...

... his brother doesn't take him seriously apparently and doesn't realize that staying positive and strong 24/7 is tougher than it looks, especially with Starlo's insecurities (and yeah being a farmer is hard work, but so is being in Star's position; on the contrary, it's even TOUGHER) ...

Orion should try being an entertainer for a day and see what it's like, let alone doing it for years

...Solomon says how Star thought him and Crestina didn't support his life choices...

... and how he rarely talks to his family...

...and it suddenly came to me: in all these years, they didn't ever bother telling him that they did support him? They didn't bother trying to reach out to him more? Understand his passion (Ceroba doesn't get it either; once again, I don't blame Starlo for caring about Clover so much, that kid understood)? Have an honest talk?

No wonder Star stopped interacting with them for the most part. Maybe him feeling worthless came from his family? Who knows (or he was bullied as a kid for being a nerd). In any case, he clearly had to deal with these feelings by himself.

This man's been through some stuff.

P.S. I know he has flaws like everyone, but you've gotta ask yourself the important question: WHY? where did all this come from? But clearly nobody in his life ever asked themselves this. So it all kept building up till he almost killed his deputy for... status. He was SO desperate to feel valued and get his friends back (who made him feel less alone.. but ultimately just left when he needed someone the most, at least ONE person) that he was ready to go all the way to achieve what he'd been lacking his entire life: *feeling like he MATTERED.*

I wonder If he'll ever go 100% back to being his true self. Slim chances :'( this is him now. Half farmer half sheriff

#undertale yellow #uty #starlo uty #uty starlo #why is this character so tragic #without being tragic #i mean the “Ceroba” type of tragic #I'm no psychologist but I sure know feelings like this stem from childhood/adolescence #I'm talking bout the fact starlo literally decided that his life purpose would be pretending to be a sheriff. I repeat. PRETENDING #aka someone important #bc he never felt important #he tried lying to everybody and especially himself #that he was 'great' and 'cool' #bc nobody ever made him feel that way #plus ceroba ditched him for someone more 'serious' she had just met #I have to write about the sentence above soon #like I'm not saying Solomon & crestina are terrible people #But parents..? #Wellll... #I kinda sometimes imagine Star being made fun of by his peers and so he'd always retreat to his room and cry alone #That is #Until he found those western cassettes (I imagine it happened when he was a teen) #So instead of crying #He'd just distract himself for hours and hours #And pretend he was someone with more value who everyone respected #That's how the persona came to be #And so he began to lose touch with his real self more and more #As well as his feelings and problems #Until he just snapped #I can't anymore

[hannigramislife]

Me, 18 years old: Oh, God, wangxian love each other so much, they are soulmates, their love has survived the worst of trials, they stood by each other when no one else would, Wei Wuxian has done nothing wrong, ever,–

Me, 21 years old: Oh, God, Wei Wuxian, what did you do? How am I supposed to be happy for them when there's. So. Much. Pain– Jin Ling lost so much while so young. Nie Huaisang had a reality check in the worst ways. The Wens were a casualty of war. Oh, poor A-Yuan. Oh, God, Jiang Cheng– Jiang Cheng, you were hurting, it was never your fault, you are enough, Meng Yao, stop–!

#mdzs #mo dao su zhi #the untamed #wei wuxian #lan zhan #nie huisang #meng yao #jiang cheng #literally i'm so upset over these families #and their pain #how am i supposed to focus #on their love #i am in SHAMBLES #OVER THE TRAUMA #sometimes my mind goes numb #and i decide to ignore everything #and focus on yi city #pretending that they're happy #if xue yang could live in delusion why can't i

[aashiyancha]

The main farm

#rune factory 5 #rune factory #rf5 ares #rf5 alice #aashi doodles #for a couple of earthmates ive yet to draw them much in the actual farm environment lol #the main farm is where alice and ares grows all of the high quality crops #the silo runs a farmers market for those crops which serves as a sort of tourist destination in rigbarth #wooly mama comes to help harvest crops sometimes :)) #her pups can't come to the main farm tho cuz theyre giant scary beasts and ares/rei have kept them hidden in the orchard for the most part #alice has some of her experimental crops on boomi (earth dragon) and ares has his orchard on vivi (wind dragon) #ares and dr simone have an issued confidentiality agreement that no one is allowed to know what's being grown on terra #i havent really decided whats going on with the other 2 dragons yet

[mkstrigidae]

New Sansa/Alayne WIP because I am still recovering from pneumonia and can't do much of anything else :P

#asoiaf art #my art #my artwork #my wips #wip #sansa stark #alayne stone #asoiaf fanart #got fanart #sometimes my sketches are neat and tidy #and sometimes i can't decide what kind of sleeves need to be happening #kind of going for a playing card thing but we'll see how well that works out... #got costume designers give the northerners furry hats 2k24 #their ears are cold #this is messy as hell #but i don't know how long i'll be able to work on it haha #will i ever be able to draw sansa with any kind of consistency? #the world may never know #the freckles STAY tho #I am always and forever a freckled sansa truther