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ein-liebloser-wanderer · 2 years

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⸸ The Araneae — Headcanons ⸸

(A world where I anthropomorphize as many animals as I can, because I'm just in the mood for legs and some BDSM. This is in the same world as my Scales and Serpent Tales snippets.)

Warning: I gave this blog its name for a reason. Expect eldritch themes. Oh, and light NSFW because of mentioned bestiality.

Includes: spiders, spider-typical behavior, cannibalism, emotional detachment, lack of empathy, manipulation, blue-and-orange morality

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⸸ The Araneae are an enigmatic bunch. We pass by them everyday, yet never think much of it. You never thought that the woman sitting beside you at the bus stop with her triplets was a Black Widow, never realized that the brawny guy at the gym was a Tarantula, and you certainly didn't know that most of your 'introverted' neighbors are actually Recluses.

⸸ Even among the Arachnids, they are known to be the most reclusive...and it's understandable, really. One must only ask random strangers what they think of spiders, and undoubtedly, most would say they either fear or hate them.

⸸ So, as a rule of thumb, everyone is dangerous. They should be careful as to who they spend their time with, because they will either be persecuted, or be 'exterminated' by pest control.

⸸ But of course, there wouldn't be millions of them in the world if they avoided social interactions all together. They may be comically antisocial, but they do find that special someone whom they desire to spend their entire life with. Someone who can look past their fear (or feel no fear at all), and see them as an anthropomorph with hobbies and interests, likes and dislikes, etc.

⸸ And since you are reading this, would I be bold to assume that you are one such character?

General Things You Must Know:

⸸ Assuming they have taken a human (or someone similar, warm-blooded and social) as a companion, they will do everything to be accommodating. And by that, they will do things we usually take for granted, like kindness, empathy, social cues, etc.

Because let's not forget, the Araneae are Arachnids. Naturally, their way of showing 'love', trust, and 'affection' wouldn't be conventional to how we do it.

⸸ All Araneae are true predators. To put it simply, they look at concepts like 'empathy' and Prey Rights movement (because that would absolutely exist in a world of animal anthropomorphs), and continue eating their 100% fly meat sandwich, forgetting about it altogether.

⸸ The very few that pretend to understand human empathy and morality only do so because it benefits them. For instance...

Let's assume that their significant other has a pet. A delicious, thick wad of meat that they are salivating just to eat.

Except they won't.

Not because it will hurt their partner, but because it will make them want to leave, and practically speaking, convincing them to stay takes too much effort. Also, that might get their SO to attack them.

Simply put, a little snack isn't worth losing the benefits their partner gives them.

⸸ It is commonly stereotyped that all spiders make great weavers and tailors. Among the Spider Folk, only around half of them can actually weave instinctively, and even less consider it an art. The rest just see silk as a practical tool for creating traps, snares, and making wall-climbing easier to do. The most they could do is probably sew up rips and holes in clothes (because clothes are expensive).

⸸ Another misconception is that all spiders are good at homemaking and other domestic duties. Nomads like the Kteis and Lykos rarely ever settle down in one place (or live in civilization for that matter).

Expect mistakes like forgetting to turn off the oven, plugging in things through electric sockets with wet hands, and locking the door from these guys. Home safety isn't something they often think about.

Courtship (What You Were Looking For Don't Lie)

⸸ The Araneae have a very rich dating culture, to say the least. When courting someone, they create elaborate plans to win someone over. Depending on the bloodline, they have unique ways to show it, such as gift-giving and serenades accompanied by a string instrument.

⸸ Males are traditionally the ones doing the courting, but when that isn't possible, the spider in the relationship, regardless of their gender, will do the courting.

⸸ Evolutionarily speaking, there is a reason for this. When the quality of your gift determined whether or not your date will cannibalize you, it's no wonder why your Drider boyfriend may be a tad too perfectionistic about your dinner date.

⸸ Also, you know that they truly want you as a mate when they reveal their identity to you. Because let's be honest, how will you explain to your non-spider partner why their child with you looks like...that.

⸸ Otherwise if they don't, they probably just like having their human partner around, but have no intention of mating with them.

Mating

⸸ Let's go down the route where they revealed their true identity to their partner, and now, they're just dating like any regular couple. They talk, spend time together...and have the occasional accidental murder in the bedroom.

⸸ Traditional or progressive, male or female, a spider will, and always be, cannibalistic. Even if they don't mean to, instincts are a very powerful thing, and sometimes, they can't help but bite a little too hard.

⸸ Don't writhe. Don't struggle. Don't fight them. That will only arouse their predatory nature even more. Seeing you struggle against your bonds in fear of them actually devouring you is such a very tempting sight...they might actually do it.

⸸ And if you think dating a male will spare you from all that difficulty, I'll have you know that even they have that urge. The only difference between the sexes are that the more masculine ones are more subtle, and prefer manipulation. The feminine ones are more dominant, choosing to go for the more aggressive route.

⸸ That being said, most Spiders know better than to leave their mate traumatized, alone to recover from the possibly violent session, so expect them to be very gentle and affectionate when giving aftercare.

Families

⸸ Female spiders have very strong maternal instincts. Stories of mothers fending their brood from bigger predators are very common. Some even go so far as to letting the spiderlings cannibalize her just so they wouldn't starve to death during times of great duress.

⸸ Parental care and concern for males on the other hand, are trained and self-taught. As you could probably imagine, males don't have the same instinct as females do because most of them don't live long enough to see their children.

⸸ Yes, your husband is carrying the baby wrong, but he is really trying. Have patience. It's not like he had a father to teach him and share stories about the difficulties of fatherhood.

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baekhvuns · 1 year

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Maybe Zlatan should've appeared in HT instead cause that S*cc*r movie looks strange kshshdhshsdhhsjs

Listen, it was my friend's idea, he always got us in trouble 😭 girl I was bleeding, the bucket hat was red though lmao. Thankfully didn't get a concussion or anything.

Ahhhh tbh I agree with mama Baek. Ofc I feel bad for Meghan, they way the Royals treat her and the royal suckers... the racism and misogyny jumped out. Harry was always the black sheep, so good for him for being a decent person. On one hand I enjoy they're airing the royal's dirty laundry, on the other hand they're definitely profiting off this drama and it's a bit 😬

Someone please edit Pepe dancing to Wa Da Da 🥰👌🏻 Bestie my life is a constant battle, I have many more stories. Proof I can survive without water, I'm invincible. Decaying, but still standing!

The hockey lady got a concussion 💀 yeah it looked baaaaad, like wtf

It can't be a SuJu member, I think SM isn't that stupid.......... exactly, everything about GOT is bad, except the ladies themselves. Taeyeon's promo photos?! 🙏🏻

That's my gripe with people, I don't like lipsync, but sometimes it happens so let's not lie, especially if you can clearly SEE them lips moving differently or not moving at all lol. But if Atinys on the blue bird app say the mics were on, they were on 🔫

My Way is so underrated, I'm glad it's on the setlist though I won't experience it live again anytime soon 💔💔💔💔 Promise my beloved! 3 years.... that's not right

Just pay Hwa to stand there and stare into the camera idc at this point! Hire him!

I was iffy about LSF choreography in Fearless as well, the floor work hmmmm idk about that. Their concepts are definitely a bit too mature for a minor. But Baby Monster oh no it's gonna be bad and I know it 🤡

Why would you remind me of Seonghwa showing off his hands on Showterview?!?!

Men are disappointing "dancing is harder with longer hair" bestie it's not even that long and female idols are good, suck it up! Yeosang can lift dumbbells, but some hair is stopping him, ffs 🤬 and when will San grow his hair again 😭 hopefully Seonghwa doesn't get a bowl cut or goes bald anytime soon, because that's always a slap in the face

Uhm Hoshi, Taeyong and Wooyoung should be bad shoes besties lmao. Though TY in heels? A slay if you ask me.

I HATE LOVE TRIANGLES, but this time I'm actually a bit torn... someone said the main guy looks a bit like Taehyung 😶 anyway the triangles haunt me. I saw Serena yes, my friend started reading it on a different app some time ago. I saw long haired guy and clicked so fast

I knew it'd be Tomorrow before even clicking. <3 Yesterday I actually recommended it to someone because they wanted a drama with minimum romance, lmao

Yeah I can't believe this hoery. LIVE ON TV?! Thots?

And???

Hold on what now BOXER?! And a kitty boy 😭 That was his fan sign look? 💀 also they're starting their fan signs era again, woooo can't wait to see the same bitches post photos and videos. Actually the last photos are from a shitty fansite 🔪

BAEK WHAT IS THIS QUIZ me: has never been in a relationship - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Maybe Zlatan should've appeared in HT instead cause that S*cc*r movie looks strange kshshdhshsdhhsjs //// Listen, it was my friend's idea, he always got us in trouble 😭 girl I was bleeding, the bucket hat was red though lmao. Thankfully didn't get a concussion or anything.

aND I WOULDVE ACTUALLY WATCHED IT IF HE WAS IN IT FBFBF,,, i think theres two of the most american things in that movie, the word soccer and superman lookalike <//3 I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A BUMP BUT U WERE BLEEDING???? 😭😭😭😭

not even mama baek its the whole family who thinks the same fbwndhh tbh whatever part of what meghan’s saying is actually true, then its absolutely disgusting, the news outlets are really going to 🔫🔫🔫 but i do think harry has lost it bECAUSE I DO NOT WANNA KNOW IF HIS COCKADODDLE WAS FROSTBITTEN OR HOW HE LOST HIS VIRGINITY OR WHO WAS CIRCUMSIZED AND WHO WAS NOT 😭😭😭 everything i have learnt about them is against my will,, i think they should just stop atp and live in their mansions drama free, u left the royal family but u definitely didn’t leave it with the way ur profiting off of them 😭😭😭 like harry i like u but pls, shut up 😭😭😭

LMFAOOOO STOP him being in a kpop edit would actually end me 😭😭 pepe having daughters is so funny bc how will their bfs ask for their hand when a whole monster is sitting in front of 😭😭 YOU NEED TO WRITE A BOOK WITH ALL THESE STORIES WITH THESE CONSTANT SURVIVAL MISSIONS U GO ON 😭😭 decaying but standing 😭😭🤚🏻 a living breathing archaeological find truly

It can't be a SuJu member, I think SM isn't that stupid.......... exactly, everything about GOT is bad, except the ladies themselves. Taeyeon's promo photos?! 🙏🏻

TAEYEON HERSELF??? 🤲🏻🤲🏻🤲🏻 my lord and saviour, but seulgi kang 😭😭😩 hopefully no suju member and just max but i heard from twt that they might bring lookas back and its 🔫

the ive one had me crying 😭😭 me pretending to be an idol singing in a concert would do a better job at lip syncing than them WHAT WENT WRONG !!! the lips and the way a face moves when they sing, u COULDNT SEE IT 😭😭 twt atinys got the last word in every damn thing

My Way is so underrated, I'm glad it's on the setlist though I won't experience it live again anytime soon 💔💔💔💔 Promise my beloved! 3 years.... that's not right //// Just pay Hwa to stand there and stare into the camera idc at this point! Hire him!

its such a dreamy song! and the lyrics truly are one of their best <33 NO ATEEZ CONCERT?? NO PROBLEM, GROUPS ARE COMING BACK WE WILL SEE THEM FIRST!! need promise on the set list bc not having it play on every concert is a disgrace,,, 3 years to answer and 10 years to igab 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️ NO SERIOUSLY JUST HIRE HIM, GIVE HIM ONE CHANCE

oh ur right the floor work 💀💀 bestie just when i thought things would not get worse, we see this baby mon will start their songs “im so cool, so different ain’t no one like me” with a use of every aave term ever,, FBWMDBWMHDKSJCJC HOW COULD I NOT

le sserafim who???

sigh,,, men. ITS NOT EVEN THAT LONG EXACTLY IT REACHED BELOW UR EARS!!!!! GIRLIES GOT HAIR REACHING BELOW THEIR ASS COME ON 😭😭😭 when will san, when will he grow his hair i need to feel something, its a dangerous request but im ready to face it 🫡,,,, and if he goes under cut <3

Uhm Hoshi, Taeyong and Wooyoung should be bad shoes besties lmao. Though TY in heels? A slay if you ask me.

U ARE CORRECT!!! I WOULD ALSO ADD HOBU BC SOME OF THEM ARE QUESTIONABLE !!!!! ty in heels?? ty in general is a slay 💓💓

the guy look like who 👀

👀 no wonder ur reading it 👀 I ACTUALLY THINK U SECRETLY LOVE THEM 🔫🔫 BDWMBDKSJXK LONG HAIR IS UR TRIGGER 😭😭😭

I knew it'd be Tomorrow before even clicking. <3 Yesterday I actually recommended it to someone because they wanted a drama with minimum romance, lmao //// Yeah I can't believe this hoery. LIVE ON TV?? Thots? //// And???

hehe tomorrow’s ship is forever superior but hyungsik in strong women do bong soon ☺️☺️ LIVE ON TV !!!!! TO THE KOREAN AUDIENCE !!!!!! NO SLEEVES JUST BUFFY BICEPS !!!!!! WHAT HAPPENED !!!! thots? thots. stop that’s so cute 😭😭😭 when will someone do this to me

and this! and this one is correct 🔫

BOXER FJQKHDKWJDKS U TRIGGERED SOMETHING IN ME FOR A SECOND I HAD TO WALK IT OFF BFMWBDKS the fansign era starting im already seeing the online ones 😭😭😭 and we’ll see them for the entire month

BAEK WHAT IS THIS QUIZ me: has never been in a relationship - DV 💖

LMFAOOOO STOP ANONNNNN WHAT A SURPRISE 👁👄👁🤚🏻🤚🏻 god bless me for this one

he is majestic

tell me 🔫 cillian murphy & heath ledger are the only correct answers

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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doomsupportgroup · 3 years

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(This is a repost bc this post was from my old blog that I don't use anymore)

Consider the concept: The real Dain is still out there

Now, I know y'all are already thinking about the hate messages to send me but calm down. I just... was never really satisfied with Dain's end, you know? Three books building a character, making everyone love and care about him, only to destroy everything in three pages or less and never speak of him again? Specially since he was so dear to so many of the characters as well, AND, SPECIALLY SINCE HE WAS ONE OF THE FEW GOOD THINGS DOOM (MY FAVORITE CHARACTER!!) STILL HAD IN HIS LIFE AND I CAN'T BEAR TO TAKE IT AWAY FROM HIM. So yeah. As much as Emily Rodda has the right to end that plot where it did, I'm not having it.

So consider the concept: the real Dain is still out there.

- I don't think it makes sense that an Ol could spend all this time with Doom in the resistance, since he was a kid. I know Ols can change shape but I can't see how a shapeless shadowland alien monstruosity would be able to convincingly grasp a human child's development. Specially considering Dain as teenager. I just can't imagine the puddles of ooze that the Ols are trying to go through puberty and looking believable.

- In the end of the sixth book, Dain gets captured by pirates who were gonna give him to the grey guards. In the beginning of the seventh book he very conveniently appears again in the Trio's path to be saved.

- It makes sense for that to be the moment he was swapped by the Ol, who became a bait in the pirate's ship to be found by the trio. I always thought that after that scene, Dain's personality became way too perfect and sweet, not only like he was before but without all his flaws, his rebellion and childish impulsiveness. Almost like he was trying to look like a larger-than-life royal heir, to charm and please everyone into trusting him.

- Ol Dain carries his plan through the seventh book, almost dies in Tora because he is stupid and then is killed when he reveals himself as a villain and decides to monologue instead of stabbing the protagonist.

- Meanwhile the real Dain ended up in the Shadowlands and is about to be sent to the Arena to go through the same traumatizing experience that Doom did.

- Lief finds out he's still alive through a dream or magic-induced vision, you name it, there's a lot of prophetic plot devices to choose from in the series. Maybe the Dream Spring water.

- When Doom finds out he's the first to drop everything and run to the rescue, PTSD be damned. That's his kid, one of the few good things he'd had for so many years, that he thought he lost and was all a lie, but turns out it isn't, and he has to come get his boy back.

- The Quest Fam are screaming and rushing to assembled once again to travel to the Shadowlands and rescue the disaster twink like

- "OH MY GOD HOW COULD WE NOT CHECK IF THERE WAS A REAL DAIN, HOW DID WE LET THAT FUCKING OL BAMBOOZLE US LIKE THAT AGAIN"

- and it's probabbly just gonna be Faith 2 the Electric Boogaloo where the fam ends up having to save Doom from being too impulsive during his rescue. Except this one has a happy ending because Dain is real, and he's back, that's their friend that they all still missed, and he's real

- also he's gay

#deltora quest #dq Dain #Dain #meta #AUs #my posts #my aus #Real Dain AU #self indulgent dain tag #dq series #Deltora Quest 2

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jojotichakorn · 3 years

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my thoughts and opinions on "lovely writer": criticizing the critic

tw for discussions of age gaps, rape, and sex

before i turn into the mean and constantly dissatisfied archer that we all know and hate, i just want to say that i liked this show. i think it's great, actually! gene and sib are appropriately cute, the premise is nice, and the attempt at criticizing the industry is... well, an attempt, which is better than nothing. moreover, "lovely writer" came with gifts because it gave me my new favorite character, so you can't go telling me i'm trying to completely obliterate it or something.

besides, this specific post isn't going to get into analyzing the show as a whole anyway. i won't be talking about any irrelevant plot points, cinematography, sound design, or anything like that, though i could probably write a post just as long as this one about that side of things as well. however, i am here to specifically look at the problematic things that were both criticized by the show and included in the show without any criticism. i'm going to talk about the more serious side of things here, which means i'm going to get serious. and i'm going to be harsh. very harsh.

gene and nubsib: yes's and no's

overall, the relationship between gene and sib was a fair attempt at showing something complex, yet ultimately quite healthy, which i appreciate. there were some things i was especially glad about. the fact that sib dated other people before settling on getting together with gene, for example, makes the whole situation a little less codependent. however, as much as this show prides itself on not wanting to romanticize problematic relationships, there are at least two major problems with genesib.

the age gap (and why it was not needed)

i've tried my very best to give this entire concept the benefit of the doubt. at first, i was convincing myself that they were simply close childhood friends, then i was trying my best to believe that even though sib did have a sort of crush on gene (which sometimes happens to little children), gene only saw him as his younger brother, but eventually, the show gave me no choice, but to deem the entire storyline problematic, because they did their best to romanticize that relationship - from gene's dad seeing the "early signs" to the counting and kissing the cheek turning to counting and full-on lip-locking in the last episode.

i could go into how this could all easily be mended if little sib was shown as kind of obsessed with his older friend, but gene was shown as not being anywhere near interested in the kid. but the real question is - why was the age gap needed at all?

i've researched the age of the boys during the flashbacks to the best of my ability and it seems that gene is 11 and sib is 6 or 7. if sib was the same age as gene (or maybe just one year younger, but not any more than that), not only would none of it feel weird, it would also be quite appropriate to explore that first glimpse of romantic feelings some of us experience exactly around that age. i don't think it's necessary for sib to be much younger than gene (children can be just as impressionable at 11 as they are at 7, and as for gene being surprisingly nice and helpful and the other kids not wanting to play with sib, he could have easily been - for example - bullied by his peers instead, which would have the same effect).

moving forward to the present, i don't think the lack of an age gap would affect the storyline that much either. even if they desperately needed sib to be a university student, they could have that one-year difference i've talked about before, which is not as significant. sib could be in his last year of uni, while gene could have easily written his very first novel during his university years, which would actually make more sense (since that guaranteed him employment and freedom to write after he finished uni; and i would rather believe that he had time to write his first novel in-between classes than in-between shifts at work, which he would surely need to have if he started writing after finishing university).

so that brings me back to my initial question - why was it needed? and much like the show often does, i will leave this one up for your interpretation because i do not have any sensible answers myself.

the issue with sex and consent

"but archer!" - i hear you exclaim - "lovely writer is known for explicitly denouncing rape romanticization in bls, how could there possibly be any problems with consent here?" and i hear you, my dear reader. and you aren't incorrect, "lovely writer" is indeed very explicit at calling out bls for having rape scenes (and i do appreciate that). however, as i'm sure you know, there are different ways in which consent can be taken from a person, and there are different non-consensual acts that someone might perform. for example, there are many different forms of coercion, such as the person being persuaded until they feel like they have no other choice, but to say yes. touching someone or kissing someone without asking for permission are also non-consensual acts. i can go on and on, there are many examples outside of what so many people consider rape.

now, what if i tell you that though there (thank the gods) has been no rape present in "lovely writer", not all scenes with gene and sib are consensual? well, that's what i'm telling you because it's the truth. both the first kissing scene and the scene where gene and sib "try out different poses" have clear coercion in them. the entire "joke" of the scene before gene and sib's first time is literally built upon the concept of "a person is trying to run away from someone, who wants to have sex with them" and it is NOT funny. the later reveal of gene actually looking up how to have sex seems to be there on purpose, to show that everything that's happened is "ok" because gene was thinking about it. as a sensible person, i will only accept actual enthusiastic consent and not someone possibly maybe probably considering it. not to mention that right before having sex, sib asks gene one last time if he is sure, which is great, except it is immediately followed by "i'm not going to let you change your mind anymore", which - daily reminder - you are allowed to stop having sex at any point during the act if you start feeling uncomfortable with it. that's absolutely normal.

now the problem that we seem to run into here is that "lovely writer" appears to think that it's ok to push someone to the limit until they either finally agree or confidently and loudly disagree. the drama has repeatedly shown us that actually forcing someone to have sex is not ok; however, persuading and otherwise coercing someone, as well as taking an approximate guess of them wanting to have sex based on some marginally related factors, is ok. i would like to once again remind everyone that all of that is not ok.

one more issue i want to bring up in connection with sex is something i wish was common knowledge: it is NOT supposed to hurt during your first time. whether you are planning to have vaginal or anal sex for the first time, it should not hurt. and if it does, something has definitely gone wrong and you need to stop. you are not supposed to experience any pain or discomfort during sex, including your first time (outside of desired and therefore intentionally inflicted pain, but that's not what i'm talking about here). i have seen this misconception brought up many times in bls along with the other person "thanking the person who got hurt for bearing the pain to bring them pleasure" and absolutely none of that is normal. stop. please, just... stop.

criticism of the BL industry

there are certainly quite a few things i liked about the way "lovely writer" criticized the many problems that surround bls. i think they dealt especially well with the fan aspect. the breaches of privacy that are considered normal, the toxicity of social media that encourages people to comment on other people's personal life, harass and stalk them - all of that was shown in its full glory (or rather horror) and clearly condemned. it was also interesting to see how easily everyone around sib fell into the routine of having to hide genesib's relationship, just because "that's what's supposed to be done in these situations" - even tum did that without thinking twice.

however, i have not spent the past three years hating gmm for a show trying to criticize the industry not to focus on criticizing the production company and everyone professionally involved with the making of bls. don't get me wrong - they didn't completely overlook that side of things, but i found the way they approached it dissatisfying.

like yes, tum fights with his sister (aka sib's manager) and calls her out for her terrible actions, and the publisher (bua) eventually apologizes for what she did, but all of that feels a bit too... personal. i do not care about these individual stories. i care about you saying that the whole system is broken because it very much is. i wanted manner of death but with the bl industry, and instead, i got an "uwu the fans are demanding we do this, and our hands our tied" (which is a lie) and "uwu i'm just trying to make money" (which i mean... if you feel ok milking even more money than you already have by doing something unethical and immoral, then be my guest, but also go fuck yourself). besides that, i didn't see any criticism of tabloids or exploitative celebrities either (both of which we had examples of in the show), and that was kind of disappointing.

coming back to the fans for a moment, i also think that the criticism of real people shipping was entirely unsuccessful. we basically mostly got an "oh, what if this person's partner thinks they are actually dating", which... if a bunch of people on the internet who do not know your boyfriend personally and make all their judgments from screenshots and their imagination can convince you that your boyfriend is cheating, i've got some bad news for you and also a number for a therapist. partly i know why it was so complicated for them to get into it properly - the issue with real people shipping is an issue of privacy, boundaries, the perception of celebrities, acceptable interests, and many other complex topics. however, it's better to not criticize something than to criticize it badly and inaccurately (because the latter usually leads to even more encouragement of whatever you were attempting to criticize).

aey: the flamboyant villain

aey certainly starts as a promisingly complex character, but the farther we go from his backstory and his family, the less complex and the more evil he gets. eventually, the trauma he goes through is no longer enough to give him a get-out-of-jail-free card, and he loses all remaining sympathy after sexually harassing gene and pretending to drug sib. and i did start this post by saying that i am not to analyze any plot points or characters from the show here; however, i'm saying all this to prove a point that aey is a clear villain in the show. this is further cemented by the fact that by the end of the show he loses the only two people who cared about him, and the very last moment with him in the show is literally just him crying for about 3 minutes. there was no redemption arc, no pity, no revenge - he was left alone and broken, clearly punished by the narrative. and i've got a bone to pick here as well.

one of the first things that we find out about aey is that he is gay, and quite openly so. he is repeatedly described as very feminine by many characters, he flirts with men, he talks about being good in bed, and his entire character is built upon being gay (half of it directly, and the other half due to the fact that his entire backstory and therefore personality is also built upon the fact that he is gay). he is - for the lack of a better term - the gayest character in the show and the only one who is loud about being gay not because he is in love but simply because it is a part of him and he doesn't want to hide it. and he is the villain. not the disgusting publisher or the terrible manager - no, this guy was specifically chosen to ruin everyone's lives. and i can't say i'm particularly happy about that. *british voice* seems a bit homophobic love

not quite queer enough

as i said, aey is openly gay. gene and sib also eventually say that they are gay, gene's father teep is queer, so are tiffy and mhok. but it just doesn't seem to come up as much as it would in real life. the only time anyone has a problem with any of the characters being queer is when we deal with the parents. but knowing actual queer thai actors in real life, we are all aware how hard it can be for them, but it has not come up even once for aey, gene or sib (with genesib only being a problem because they are a "non-shippable couple"). being queer is far from being a non-issue in the industry, and i found it incredibly weird that it was never brought up (and i would also prefer if they brought that up instead of showing the unaccepting parents plot for the millionth time).

same goes for the lack of conversation around queer people on set. i think we all have a wonderful example of how much better a bl can get simply when it involves a queer director and/or screenwriter (gods bless p'aof), gay actors, etc. i also thought it was a missed opportunity that gene being a gay man writing a bl novel was never highlighted. if anything, everyone made a big deal out of him being a man writing a bl - never mind that he is a gay man that is far more qualified to write bls than a straight woman.

in conclusion, there are simply not enough queer issues talked about here for a show that is about queer people facing difficulties while making a queer drama.

tiffy and tum: the good, the bad, and the ugly

overall, tiffy and tum are quite cool. outside of my own personal feelings, i really liked the clear reversal of gender roles they have going on: he knows lots about make-up, she knows nothing about it, he knows how to sew, she knows how to repair a car, etc.

tiffy is also a nice addition to the precious few queer girls we have in bls. however, the way her being bi is executed... it isn't great. when she first talks about dating girls to tum, she says things like "even though i look like this" (implying queer girls have a certain look?) and "maybe it seemed normal because i was at an all-girls school" (which wtf does that even mean?). i think the worst thing, though, was when she assumed tum was gay. my best guess is she thought so because she initially thought that tum and gene were a couple; however, she should be the first person to know that just because he likes men, it doesn't mean that he doesn't like women or any other gender. even though there was nothing explicitly leading me to make this conclusion, this whole thing did kind of feel like the old "flipping the switch" stereotype (meaning, she used to like women, but now she likes men, and both of them can't happen simultaneously).

make it make sense

i think i've never been more confused in my entire life than when i found out that the director of "lovely writer" also happens to be the director of "th*arnt*pe". and if at first, i was asking a lot of questions about this peculiar individual, who went from working on the worst rape-romanticizing show we have ever had to a show that explicitly states that rape is not normal. but the more i thought about it, the less i was interested in him, and the more i was interested in whoever made the decision to hire him. there are dozens of different directors that have worked specifically on bls, and even more that haven't. yet out of all those, you decided to choose this one. the dude, who before your show has only directed the show with the biggest rape-y vibes. that casts a particular kind of shade on the entire show that i simply do not like.

conclusion

at the end of the day, i think what "lovely writer" tried to do was very interesting. it succeeded in some ways and failed in others. frankly, i think this show could have easily been made better if someone queer was involved in making it. that's always true, but especially so, when we try to talk about the issues of making a queer drama. either way, it's certainly a good start to this conversation; however - as i said - i'm still waiting for my manner of death but with the bl industry. this was unfortunately not it.

#it is here it is queer it has some controversial hot takes #archer speaks #lovely writer

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paragonrobits · 2 years

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After reading your Adaar Lavellan post, it inspired me to create something similar to that concept. I hope you don't mind. Hissera (Qunlat for 'hope') is half-elven and half Qunari, with a Dalish father and a Tal-Vashoth mother who is a former Saarebas, who joined the Lavellan clan. Inheriting her mother's gift of magic, she would later become the clan's First. A controversial move among the various Dalish clans.

In terms of appearance, she is extremely tall just like her mother, standing around 8'4. At a distance she looks just like any Qunari, however, she has slightly smaller horns, an elven nose bridge, and her ears are larger. She would really dislike being labeled as the "Herald of Andraste" due to her absolute hatred of the Chantry. Though does her best with a bad situation by trying to help people as much as she could including nominating Leliana as Divine due to their similar sentiments.

Her relationships with almost all of her companions would be interesting, to say the least.

With Bull, he represents the very thing her mother risked everything to escape and continued to be hunted by even after Hissera was born. She is a little surprised when he decides to save the Chargers. Not because she thought he didn't care for them, quite the opposite, rather she didn't know if his loyalty to them was above the Qun's.

While she and Sera want to help people, they do but heads a lot over 'elfy' things. Though they do argue less as time goes on, though they still through friendly jabs at one another. Usually in the form of puns such as 'horny-elf' and 'plaid-i-pants'

Members heavily associated with the Chantry are at the very bottom of her list for obvious reasons. She and Cullen might as well be enemies, due to him being a Templar and his view of mages. A lot of their 'conversations' are really shouting matches that can be heard throughout the entirety of Skyhold. While Cassandra is someone she can work well with but doesn't really have much in the form of friendship.

The only exception to the above group is Leliana, especially after Neria Surana returns to help with the Inquisition and helps Leliana find herself again.

She and Vivienne do consider each other friends despite their very clashing views on how treated of mages should be changed.

Blackwall/Thom have a very good banter between them, being one of the few humans to not immediately treat her with mistrust or disdain. The friendship would fracture quite a bit once he revealed his lie, though they built it back up slowly.

Cole is her adopted son.

She and Solas are frenemies. They love and can't stand each other at the same time.

Dorian is someone she bundles along with the Chantry members, though eventually considers him a close friend. Though this isn't without many personal conversations, heart-to-hearts, and the fact Dorian is willing to change and wants to institute change in Tevinter. A mindset that I feel both Cullen and Cassandra lack. She and Josephine eventually become a couple, though the two try their best to keep it away from the other people of Skyhold, valuing privacy. Her meeting the Montilyets and them meeting her clan are events Varric would only dream of being able to write about.

For her duel with Otranto, he has to commission a special rapier for her due to her hands being too large to hold a normal one. He tells her to keep the weapons after their duel and even offers to teach her to fence properly.

This is an EXTREMELY good and well-thought out idea and I strongly endorse it! It makes a very good Inquisitor who stands as a useful mid-point between the Lavellan and Adaar storylines, and I don't think its unusual to say that the Qunari and Elf origins in particular seem to make the most interesting characters overall, given the space they inhabit in the series as a whole.

In particular, there's elements here that strongly enforce this vague idea I have that qunari are elvish in origin (as they have a few physical features, such as the ears, only displayed by elves), possibly as elves mutated by exposure to dragon blood until they eventually became something distinct.

honestly im really fascinated by the idea of Dalish discourse about her! Generally I take the viewpoint that Dalish viewpoints on qunari range from 'at least they're not humans with a history of actively tormenting us' to a guarded dislike for the Qun subverting city elves from what they feel should be their ancestral religion and culture, but with the general point that the Dalish are not as wary towards them as they might be towards Andrastians of any stripe.

The companion viewpoints here are very good and generally I agree with them, particularly the issues with the companions rooted in the Chantry. I'm quite interested in the Solas dynamic, since there's quite a lot to mine there!

Top tier Qunari Inquisitor concept!

#replies #dragon age #dragon age inquisition #submissions #spikerwolf5896

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ma-gic-gay · 3 years

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Death had always been a finite concept. For both of them, presumably, but especially for Carly. Death was something she had to deal with far too regularly for her tastes (comes with the territory when you have a habit of marrying mobsters), despite her hatred of it.

Shootings, she could handle. And did, shockingly well. Despite the fact she couldn't handle being in a stable situation for more than a day, she was great in a crisis.

Of course, the fact she had Jason there was helpful. She felt unsafe, she called him and it was like she had her own personal body guard. It was, in a very strange way, nice to know he wouldn't hesitate to kill for her and has done it repeatedly in the past.

The deaths of the people who tried to kill her (or him, especially him- she prayed those bastards got the worst treatment they could) were the only ones she could handle.

It's a bit ironic she got killed from a shooting, three hours and twenty three minutes after Jason died, in a weird way. She always said she'd kill for him (realistically she knew he'd lose his shit if she ever did that because he's overprotective and hasn't taught her how to use a gun), and that's exactly what she did. He got shot right in front of her, she grabbed his gun while he was yelling at her not to and shot the person.

Slight problem though, she too got shot. Whoopsie daisies.

Getting shot fucking hurt. She was in and out of consciousness when she was at the hospital and no one would tell her about Jason's condition. They were married, for fuck's sakes, why the fuck wasn't anyone telling her how her husband was doing?!

Eventually, someone (probably Monica, she can't remember) told her he was dead. They got to him too late, they said, he'd been doa and their best efforts hadn't revived him.

After hearing that, she couldn't live with herself. He got shot because Vince was trying to shoot her and off he went to be her hero and make everything okay and he got killed. One phone call and he was at the Metro Court, hanging out with her and keeping watch when he noticed Vince in the parking lot and went out there to confront him. Vince pointed a gun at Carly and, of course, since Jason's a self sacrificing person, he died.

Which meant she was directly responsible for his death and that rocked her to her very core. She'd failed him. After twenty five years, she failed him. Even he'd have to admit this one. There was no spin on this (and she'd heard some strange ones over the years) for how she'd be able to live with herself after she failed him. It wasn't like she'd done something stupid, no, she got him killed. Carly knew he'd do something, especially since Vince was a dick, and she told him. Did he deserve to know? Yes. But only after she'd reassured his overprotective streak she'd be fine and he didn't have to kill anyone else for her.

According to something she'd heard from the doctors, in whatever fucking limbo this was, Carly had died of a heart attack. Likely brought on by stress. Bullets were fine but hearing of Jason's death killed her.

Yup, makes sense. Well, she'll be able to apologize for all of eternity once she gets to wherever she's going. Even after he forgives her (which, she's being honest, will happen as soon as they see each other), she's going to apologize and apologize.

Ooh, she gets to see Sonny and Morgan too! Her son and husband and best friend for all of eternity. What could be better?

There's something that vaguely looks like an angel and she notices it drags her up. Huh, guess she's going to heaven. Makes sense, Carly's a fairly good person. She's not a terrible one.

Except when she gets there she only finds Morgan and Courtney (Courtney, oh how she missed her), no Jason anywhere. Where the hell was he? Avoiding a party, probably. She has got to get him to go out more, especially now that nothing can probably happen. What are the rules of death?

"Where's Jason?" Carly asks after greeting the pair. They stare blankly until she asks again, "Where is he? He's here, right? I was told he's dead!"

Courtney's the first one to be stunned out of her shock. "Carly, he, um, didn't make the cut."

"For what? Give me that list, I'm adding his name at the very top. Where the fuck is he?" She exclaims. He's here, he's got to be here.

"You're aware of his job, right?" Is she aware of his job, of course she is!

"Yes, Courtney, it's why we got married. Where the hell is he? Or Sonny, or Mike!"

"Mike's taking a nap and Sonny's not dead." What?! "Or, if he is, he didn't make the cut either." Didn't make the cut for what? Carly will scheme, steal, seduce, lie and cheat go get those two up here with her, where the fuck are they?

"Because of Jason's job and the amount of people he killed, he didn't make the cut to heaven. He's in hell." Is it possible to die twice? She might just do that. He's in hell, which is a place for bad people! Her hero is in hell.

She's gonna kill someone. "I'm not perfect! None of us are perfect, I killed someone! Why the hell aren't we down there? He died defending me!"

"Shocking," Morgan says dryly. "Jason killed people for a living. He was a mobster."

"And I'm an accessory to all of that! I lead the mob for a week or two!" Carly exclaims. "He's a good person, we know that."

"We're not in charge of the decisions, Carly," Courtney attempts to comfort her best friend. It's a nice attempt. "That's for people with a lot more clout than us. If it was up to either of us, I promise he'd be here but you'll never see him again."

Never see him again? Oh hell no. "Is there any way to get sent down to hell with him?" This is impulsive and reckless and Jason wouldn't encourage it but she's got less care. She needs to see her best friend again, goddammit."Some paperwork I can file, some people's husband's I can seduce?"

"Someone can submit you for reevaluation."

"Great! Is Emily here?" Emily hates her, she'll surely want to help!

"Somewhere, yeah. Why?"

"Emily hates me. Can't blame her. Anyways, look, I want to help her write my reevaluation. I've ruined a lot of lives."

"Which Jason has always helped you feel better about."

"That's because he's my best friend, Morgan."

The next few weeks are spent making sure every single one of her transgressions is on the list and resubmitting her,,, whatever the hell it's called, Emily never gave details.

So it's really not a surprise when she's dragged down to hell by some gross creature, waving goodbye to her son and Courtney and sister in law (that's a weird thing to think about).

And when she gets there, it's just like a darker version of heaven. It's the same fucking place (away from the fire), just more her color palette. Weird.

"Excuse me, where's Jason Morgan?" She asks the creature who dragged her down here. "I was informed he'd be down here."

A shrug is all she gets in response. Well then, she's able to roll with the punches and searches up and down for him, eventually finding him in a room without decorations or anything but basic necessities.

She's got some decorating on her hands.

Carly walks right through the half opened door (he really didn't lock it? Weirdo) and gets the response of, "Get out."

"Don't expect me to start knocking just because we're dead," she quips, a smile on her face. Knocking is overrated. He looks normal and as he registers what's going on, he gets all squinty.

Once he actually realizes it's her, she's already half attacked him in a hug that he reciprocates. "What the fuck are you doing here?"

"Little bit of bargaining, Emily's assistance and voila! You'd be amazed at how many bad things I've done. Everyone sends their love, of course. Are there any stores down here? This room is so boring," she changes the subject.

"No, I mean why are you dead? You're supposed to be alive."

"I died three hours and twenty three minutes after you. Heart attack. Monica told me about you dying. No one else would." That was a very bad time when he was dead and she wasn't.

"Does this mean-"

"No, you are not responsible for my death. If anything, I'm responsible for yours. I'm sorry, more than you'll ever know," Carly tells him, eyes welling up with tears.

"You're not responsible. I got shot. It happens." Way too nonchalant for death.

"Because you were defending me, like always. Seriously, take a nice vacation off of that and start using your survival instincts. I don't have Emily to help me this time if I need to transfer afterlives."

"I was defending the business."

"Bullshit. I told you Vince threatened me and you already planned to kill him. You saw your opportunity and instead of shooting him, you got shot and died. This is my fault, 100%, and I will not let you make me feel better about this. You could've patched things up with Britt, hung out with a bunch of people but no, you had to die protecting me. Take a week off of being my hero, please."

"I'm not going to do that. The last time I thought about it, you took over the business."

"Well I can't just ask you to forgive me, so take a day off."

"You'll get kidnapped. And I don't hold you responsible because it was my choice to defend you and my choice to want to kill Vince."

"You're overprotective and it's nice but not when it kills you."

"You spent twenty five years running off every woman in my life because you were convinced they'd hurt me, you hated a ton of people because they did something to me and you almost committed several felonies. And I'm overprotective," he rolls his eyes.

"Not the point, first off and second, you've killed and kidnapped for me. In a very fucked up way, it's sweet. And you totally ran off the men in my life!"

"How did I do that?"

"By being the only person I can depend on. I don't know, look, they've all- except for Sonny, most of the time- hated you because you intimidated them. So you did the same thing, just not on purpose."

"Then it's not the same thing."

"How did we get so off topic? I'm sorry for being the reason you're dead. Do you forgive me?" Strange sentences.

"You're not why I'm dead, I made that choice-"

"You chose to die?"

"I meant the choice to jump in front of you."

"Which was instinctual, you've always protected me."

"Might have to do that even more down here. There's some real creeps."

"I really don't think they'll care that much. But okay."

"Vince is here."

"No revenge."

"He killed you and I'm just supposed to sit here and ignore that he did that?!"

"Maybe we can talk this all out."

"Carly, what part of this aren't you understanding? He killed you. I hurt him, that's how this works, so he knows better than to mess with you."

"Or we could go shop for decor. I'll pick out nice stuff, come on let's go!"

"I'm not going shopping. I'm planning revenge."

"It'll be safer if you're there with me."

"I hate it when you're right."

"Love you too."

"Love you."

The end fuckers :)

oh it's beautiful. thank you for this

#tw guns #tw gunshot #tw shooting #swear tw #hospital tw #death tw

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normal-thoughts-official · 4 years

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ok not to be That Magnus Stan but seeing your last ask... how do you think adhd/sensory issues might intersect with kink for Magnus? (You don't have to answer jkjljljljkllljlk)

i mean pls be That Magnus Stan tbh, and id be more than happy to answer it 👀👀👀

also the ask you’re referring to is no longer my last ask because it took me a while to finish this up, but anyway

ok so there's plenty of things that apply the same way to the both of them - like hyperfixating on their characters when planning roleplay, definitely the whole thing about how domspace (well, subspace for magnus, but u get it) feels a bit like hyperfocus? like his senses are just honed in and particularly for an adhd person that's just great news. like usually his head is all over the place but when he's in subspace he gets that quiet and he's just focusing on his own pleasure and everything else quiets down for a bit

in that sense i feel like it's the opposite of what anon said about being overwhelmed, like, i feel like the enhanced sensations are good for magnus because again adhd = brain desperately looking for stimuli at all times, so when he's engaging in like, orgasm delay/denial, gangbang and the like, he has a clear thing to focus on, sometimes even more than he can really process, and that kind of satisfies his brain?

udhdudndid that sounds stupid but i hope you understand what i mean, like, of course sensory issues could become bad and he might need to safeword but when he's in the proper headspace and he just allows himself to be washed over by the pleasure and let go, it feels like finally his mind is clear. i don't know if i have adhd, but it definitely feels that way for me. also, he might actually need the overstimulation in order to focus and feel pleasure, sometimes. like anything less he just.... wanders away jdhdudjdi i also feel that way

also, warning again just in case! im not saying "wow ppl with adhd are subs". im just conjecturing about how a person who happens to have adhd and be into subbing (and like, specifically the kind of adhd and kinks i hc for magnus) would feel in regards to how those things overlap and change their experience with their pleasure. or well, magnus specifically, not just any person with adhd. but anyway

also that thing i said about following orders and just letting go, like- usually his mind is going a mile a minute, and as a political leader and someone who's been on his own most of his life etc he just worries all the time. how to present, gesticulate, speak, what to say, what to do, he's always hyperaware of his own movements (because he has to) and worrying about others and their pleasure and comfort and shit, so to get to just lie back, not move - be unable to move, even - follow orders and be a good boy? that's some A+ shit right there

you know? he doesnt have to be anxious about anything or try to keep his thoughts and movements in check and guess ppl's reactions or even worry if he's just following orders - orders he knows he'll enjoy, that he's agreed to, planned for, with someone that he trusts - and feeling the pleasure that comes from that. a huge part of his usual thoughts is finally muted and that helps him feel relaxed and mellow and get into subspace. which again, he craves, because usually adhd brain is just aaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAA and so subspace is a very welcome and even needed break

even from a neurological standpoint, like... adhd is basically lack of norepinephrine in the brain, and orgasms, especially intense ones, release a lot of that, but I'll try not to nerd out too hard here. tho i might have to go back to that in a minute

isnt it performance art that i had a genius thought that i loved and halfway through finishing the last sentence i just forgot it

oh yeah! thinking specifically about rsd and how this comes into play for someone who's into humiliation kink. there are several psychological analyses that postulate that one of the things attractive about bdsm is that it allows you to explore fears and generally bad situations in a controlled environment. kinda like reading fiction or doing extreme sports. so in that sense bdsm is attractive because it allows you to act on those fears and turn them into something 1- safe, 2- under their control, instead of the other way around, and 3- pleasurable

and like... dont get me wrong it's not that magnus is into being told "ur ugly and no one loves you" or something lmao but in a way humiliation kink is enacting a fantasy of rejection/belittling, except turned inside out? like "you're my good little fucktoy, you were made to be fucked like this, you slut" is degrading and belittling and on the verge of calling someone worthless... except positive. because that's what makes them so great to fuck? so in a way this kind of play flips the tables on many concepts because being a "slut" or a "toy" feels like a compliment. and in this process of degradation you are taking the fear of being worthless and making a scenario where that being true is exactly what makes the person worthwhile

idk i might be reaching a bit here cuz i think im into humiliation that's way more hardcore than i think magnus would be like i straight up enjoy being called worthless lmao but i feel like that makes sense, the way that humiliation/degradation play takes your fear of rejection or shortcoming and is like "but if that were true.... that would make you good" like o shit can't argue with that

and again like.... obviously that's all a very careful line as you're dealing with some sensitive stuff, which is why doms need to go through training to be able to deal with the physical and mental implications of what they're doing. and none of this is conscious of course, i don't think magnus is out there thinking this through deeply or anything, im just saying it's a part of what makes bdsm subconsciously appealing to some ppl. but my point is, rsd might play a part in why magnus is into that mix of praise and humiliation. like i think he needs the praise for reassurance even during play, which alec is more than happy to provide ("you're so beautiful, look at you, so perfect like this, i love you,"), and that kind of play where rejection, praise, and pleasure are all kind of one and the same is appealing because it just makes it all the more overwhelming without actually being negative and your mind is just lost in the almost contradictory stimuli but the pleasure and the positive wins out and you just feel so relaxed and good? yeah

but there's also like, the way that impacts the negative possible outcomes of bdsm. namely, rsd and subdrop

rsd is kind of obvious so i'll try to be brief: it's a sensitive issue and if he's not in the proper headspace for it, it can have the opposite effect and go very wrong very fast, because his reaction to rejection is hyperamplified by it. so if it has the opposite of the desired effect - rejection overpowering praise and pleasure - it might go south so fast he doesnt have the time to yellow. like he can't prevent it before it happens, you know? which is also why i think he wouldn't go Super Deep into humiliation and why the mix with praise is key - which is another way in which they are compatible because alec sure does love praising him

as for subdrop: if you don't know what that is, basically BDSM play is very intense and releases a fuckton of endorphins all at once very fast, so, sometimes, the sub doesn't come down from their orgasm as much as falls facefirst back to earth. meaning, their brain empties itself of endorphins, which leaves them feeling hollow and depressed, sometimes also moody, hypersensitive/prone to crying, fatigued, and just generally bad

which is one of the many reasons aftercare is important! and also proper dom training! with proper aftercare, you can prevent that drop from happening, by keeping the sub feeling positively. reassurance, touch, and other forms to bring physical and/or psychological relief and/or pleasure helps keep their brain from just crashing once the rush of endorphins is over, so it lasts a little longer and they can come down from the high gently. work those neurotransmitters yall! keep them up and running!

so anyway i feel like subdrop is not only a bigger deal for ppl with adhd (because adhd is already a lack of neurotransmitters so fucking up your balance even further is Very Bad), but also more likely to happen if you're not careful, because the "regular" adhd brain already has a lack of neurotransmitters, which keep those endorphins running. so adhd ppl might "run out" of them even easier

NOTE: i'm not affirming that, this is a shot in the dark. i have no data or research to back that up and im nowhere near an expert in neuroscience, i just know the basics. so don't take this part too seriously and definitely don't quote me on it

but anyWAY yeah. my point is, subdrop can be a problem so it’s something that he tries to be prepared for, have some snacks before and after, do proper aftercare, etc. like i said, it’s mostly preventable, although sometimes stuff like this happens even if you do your best. but anyway

and there’s another thing too, which is that one possible sympton of subdrop is feeling rejected and alone. which is super fun when you have rsd! so yeah. subdrop can be very bad for magnus. and like, don’t get me wrong, i’m not saying it happens every time or super frequently or something, but it IS something he has to watch out for possibly more than others haha man thinking about how camille didn’t care about this at ALL. he knows it can be bad, but he’s also learnt how to prevent it for him, and as the healthy bastards that they are, magnus and alec talk about that in length. during alec’s Research™ he comes across that concept and he brings it up with magnus and makes sure that he knows everything there is to know about how and when magnus experiences subdrop and how to deal with that. he also makes magnus promise to let him know if he ever has it, because alec WILL drop everything to go and give him extra care. and it’s sweet

on a better note! BDSM has been shown to be associated with lower levels of rejection sensitivity among practitioners. so that’s nice? like obviously magnus won’t find the cure for his rsd with BDSM or anything, but i like the idea of magnus opening his eyes one day and realizing that hey, ever since alec and i have been doing play more often, i’ve been feeling a little less affected by rejection?

also like, BDSM as a whole helps enhance trust and communication in a relationship (obviously it needs to already be there for the BDSM activities to take place and like please everyone everything i’m saying here is on people who enjoy it. how you perceive these actions is heavily influenced by whether or not you enjoyed them so i’m not saying that BDSM is great for everyone, i’m saying that it’s great for people who are into it. so don’t go thinking BDSM will do your relationship good or something, k? k) for obvious reasons, so that also helps magnus feel more secure you know. so that’s a positive way that these things interact too

and okay, i think that’s all i have? not that this isn’t gigantic but like you know. i don’t know how to end this other than uh i had fun answering that ask! also, again, i’m not a psychologist or a neuroscientist and there is actually pretty little research on the psychological effects of BDSM as most of the discussion seems to be centered on “is kink a disease?” due to stigmatization, so like, please, i’m doing this for fun, alright? i tried to make it as accurate as possible and also i get Into It and dive deep into research sometimes so while this is a somewhat educated guess, don’t take everything i say here as face value

in short, thanks for asking!

#ask #anonymous #hooo boy this is long and i've been at it for a while but it's here at least #sh #shadowhunters #magnus bane #sub magnus bane #adhd magnus bane #malec #meta #magnus bane meta #dirty mention #long post #also this is officially my 41.000th post #yay!"

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milkygcf · 4 years

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Hiii I c ur doing reqs. U don't have to do this one though. I'm sure you'll be getting many so only if it inspires you 💖 buuttt here goesss. Vkook x reader. Jealousy. Angst. plshappyending. kluvvyouuu.

//credits to @jjks for the gif!//

Pairing | jjk x reader (ft. kth)

Genre | angst, s2l

Warnings | none

Summary | ❝ Hiii I c ur doing reqs. U don't have to do this one though. I'm sure you'll be getting many so only if it inspires you 💖 buuttt here goesss. Vkook x reader. Jealousy. Angst. plshappyending. kluvvyouuu. ❞

Word Count | 1.6k

Author’s Note | hi anon!! your request is finished! i tried to make it as angsty as i could, although it does stray a bit from the jealousy you asked for 😅😅 yet if you squint, it’s hinted! alongside this, i hope the somewhat happy ending satisfies your wishes! i also hope this is to your liking ❤ thank you for requesting ✨ ________________________________________________________________

Taehyung has to moderately be the most romantic fellow you’ve ever met. You’ve known the dork for a good four years, befriending him at a summer camp your parents practically forced you to attend.

During the span of time, you earned the pleasure to watch him evolve into one fine man. From wearing those ugly pink shorts he was quite fond of, to having half of his wardrobe being nothing but pairs amongst pairs of slacks. You have to admit - despite your imposing disdain towards that garment, you kind of miss it.

You also miss the countless nights awake tallying the stars that scattered across the sky with him. Or perhaps all the times he’d invite himself over and insist you watch Avatar: The Last Airbender with him.

Anyway, back to Taehyung being the hopeless romantic he is - lately, he’s been hell-bent on trying to find someone he can share his life with.

And by time, he did.

However, you are not that someone.

In fact, you are the side character that doesn’t obtain as much luck as the main character does. You sit and stare in the sidelines, watching as Taehyung relished in the confines of euphoria with someone he now calls his soulmate.

That soulmate is not you.

“If love was a thing, what would you associate it with?” He queried silently one night, fumbling with his phone. Your fingers coursed through his soft locks that splattered across your chest and you frowned.

If love was a thing, to you, it would’ve been Kim Taehyung. It would’ve been his deep, rich voice, the way it soothes your very soul and leaves you wanting to hear more. Or the constellations in his eyes - those who suppress every memory he has ever endured. Eyes who spill tears and crinkle when his lips curve into a jovial beam.

There are a mass of qualities you consider to be a concept of love.

He took your lack of response as cluelessness, locking his phone shut and letting a sigh flutter out of his lips. “Don’t you think it’s something akin to a warm summer? Or like a walk by the sea, with the fresh, chilly breeze making your hair flow.”

“That’s a way to put it,” you shifted under him, “Although everyone has different perspectives of the very subject.” “And I hope one day I’ll be able to meet someone with that same perspective.”

Taehyung’s wishes eventually come true. After a span of perhaps a month, he comes running to you with tears of joy sprouting down his cheeks, the most merry smile spread across his lips. He engulfed you in a jostling hug and pecked your cheek, his sentences nothing but a jumble of words that you couldn’t seem to comprehend.

If you had known back then, you would’ve told him that to you, love was like a rose trapped in an eternal winter. To you, it was lifeless - non-existent. How could you know of such a thing when you skipped the basics and immediately jumped onto heartbreak?

You are in love with Kim Taehyung - that much was clear.

Nothing could possibly define the state of your heart as you listened intently to the way his voice spoke ecstatically about someone he was going to share the world with.

“She’s like a rainbow after a murky storm, Y/N, I don’t think I’ve ever met someone so exquisite. Her eyes shine brighter than the crown jewels of England!” The way he interprets her makes you giggle - Taehyung always had a peculiar way of saying things.

Although, the way your name rolls carelessly down his tongue makes you choke - no longer do you find it soothing, no longer do you find that same old caring tone laced into it. Like you were the only person he ever needed. You and him against the world.

Heartbreak is a menace - god forbid someone ever experiences the turmoil it brings along with it. It is a plight that once you bump paths with, it encases itself around you and never fades.

Unlike heartbreak, Taehyung becomes a distant memory. He does fade away - lets himself disintegrate in the nooks of your mind. You can do nothing but watch as he scatters any remaining thought of you and leaves it to his youthful moments in life.

“Ah - sorry Y/N, we’re going out today! Our anniversary is soon, and we were hoping we could plan a small party.”

“Right, yeah, that’s okay.” You lie right through your teeth, “Can we meet anytime soon? I miss you, you dork.”

Taehyung’s light laughter reverberates through your phone. Another fragment of your heart cracks and crumbles. “I miss you too silly! I’ve been a bit busy lately… What a bummer! I promise I’ll text you as soon as I’m free! Love ya!”

You’re left with the eerie sound of your phone beeping.

There’s a reason why you were never really fond of promises. They were meant to be broken - made to be hopes and dreams only to be twisted in the end. Unfortunately for you, the reason for your heartbreak never texted you back after that.

It’s your fault, really, you were the one who couldn’t come clean to your best friend. If you had told him just a sliver of your feelings, maybe things would have been different. Maybe you wouldn’t be watching raindrops trickle down your bedroom window alone. Maybe, just maybe, your sleepless nights would’ve been replaced with warmth spreading through your skin at Taehyung’s tender touch.

You can do nothing but sulk now.

Except, you sulk until you stumble upon a stranger whom, just like you, battles the scarecrow lurking around them. It tore them down, made sure they praised regret for as long as they reminisce about each memory conceived with their last love.

His name is Jeon Jungkook, and just like you, he lives with remnants of heartbreak staining his very soul.

“She was the light of my life,” he announces grudgingly, eyes gleaming under the dimly lit night sky. “It’s like you finally start seeing colour. Like, actual colour, you get me?”

Of course you do - you’ve been seeing that colour since you laid eyes on Taehyung at summer camp.

“What about you?” Jungkook queries then, turning towards your slumped figure. Your fingers anxiously pick at the grass beneath you, a frown curving onto your lips. “Me?” Your voice comes out rather silent, a bit distressed.

“What’s your story?”

“Well, Jeon, I thought I had everything until I carelessly let it slip away. A dumb move, really, it’s all my fault.” But in reality, how could you tell him? Was the result of rejection better than the state you’re left in now? You would’ve easily earned yourself an answer if you’d confessed.

Jungkook looks at you with pity circling in the pits of his eyes. He makes it his mission to understand your anguish, what causes such disappointment in your features.

And then? He interlocks his fingers with yours and offers you a mellow smile. You turn to him with wide eyes, mouth agape as to what he was insisting.

“In that case, I hope we can mend each other.”

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Taehyung has been out of it since the moment he cut the last call you’ve had together. Your very last interaction. Since then, he’s been throwing himself into his significant other’s arms, hoping that eventually, he’ll rid the guilt etching into him.

Perhaps if he weren’t so foolish, things would have been different. How else was he supposed to spend his free-time now? He was used to your constant presence - your pearly whites out on show whenever he makes the dumbest of jokes.

He craves the enjoyment he used to earn himself with you - the euphoric feeling bursting through him as he continues to relish on the beauties life offered with you.

It’s different now.

The person he wakes up beside isn’t you - the same warmth he’d find himself aching for every time isn’t there. He finally found someone he could course life with, but it wasn’t you.

There’s a feeling nagging at him, yet despite how much he tries, he just can’t seem to fathom it.

Taehyung is suddenly aware of his current standing. He’s aware of how you’ve become a distant memory - a fragment of his older life, a life he’s abandoned because he seeked out what he’d wished.

But was it really what he’s always wanted?

His queries are answered when he spots you by someone else’s side. You’re smiling so brightly it’s almost humanly impossible. Something bubbles within the confines of his mind. It’s clear you’re with someone who’s clearly making you happy, although that someone’s not him.

The very fact makes him feel somewhat conflicted, however he has no clue as to why he feels so distraught.

You don’t notice his presence whatsoever, focus put directly on Jungkook and the little ministrations he was making with his hands. He was telling you about this one time he watched an animated movie and how he’d further on adapt to the idea of hearing bells when meeting his soulmate. It’s endearing - it makes you want to tune in to more.

Both you and Jungkook found solace in each other, trying to mend your broken hearts despite how challenging it is. You found comfort and happiness, and by time, you both let go of the burdensome heartbreak sitting on your shoulders.

That, however, didn’t count on Taehyung’s side.

And as he watches you be whisked away by a stranger he has no knowledge of, it finally dawns on him how he’d lost you due to his foolishness.

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It's been a long time since I posted anything on this page. (Actually I had hoped to never come back here again) but since I'm here I guess I could let go for a moment... Where do I begin?

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I guess I could start of with talking about today not that anything special happened besides being awake for 48+ hours. (I'm currently suffering from a very annoying case of migraine)

Why am I still awake you ask? I'm not entirely sure, I'm not tired or at least I think so.

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Let's try something else.

I know! Troubles I should speak up about them or should I?

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Seems like not much has changed haha, I'm still very unsure of so much it's annoying, ow I know! Today I finished Aggretsuko season 4. I loved it!(◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

It was amazing how much they focused on Haida for a change, season 4 felt real and made me think about myself more (even though I already do that too much).

Everyone wants to be seen in this crowd, we all want to feel special or rather we have a need to be wanted right?

Work and society already makes us feel like we're just replaceable bags of meat so finding your own worth is hard right? How does one find the courage to believe in themselves, "I don't understand this concept at all" where do you stop deluding yourself into believing your special and where do you start? I can't lie to myself. I'm not the type that can fool himself into believing we're worth a shit. I get anxious about my worth because I know I'm just some another bag of anxious emotions.

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How are we with this many people? How didn't we kill ourselves off a long time ago?

Uhh I'm being too negative again, what a shame.

I should do what I want to do nothing less, it's not that hard right? "Except it is."

I have decided something just now.

I got about 30+ drafts on here with things I wrote in the past I guess I could put them all together for one big collection of writings.

17.03 I vividly remember telling myself that I have to learn living with myself again, the universe is working in my favour. I guess it’s a good thing that I have to isolate myself, Is it wrong that I feel somewhat happy? The longer I stay home the closer I’ll be to finding me or so I hope. As I share my time with myself and my family I’ll keep on working, I won’t waste my time.

I walk around with a head as empty as my heart, I wonder how many times I dwelled of untill I finalised my self proclaimed dream. My running shoes are worn off and these thoughts never left the inner of my mind. So I continue...

III

The thought of people looking down on me aggravates me. I hate thinking about how people think less of me or see me as weak. Whether it’s true or not it doesn’t matter just the thought of it disturbs my mind and forms a weird feeling inside of me I hate how much I care. I thought being different would become easier but it never does everything feels so weird and life itself feels surreal. These eyes don’t see what’s in front of me. My mind portrays the word in such an ill manner it sickens me.I had this dream and it felt more real than this world I live in. As a parasyte I kept dying and coming back but still I repeated the same killing spreeI killed these forms they where human but not entirely (they had human bodies but no faces). As I kept dying I started getting intoxicated and began seeing these forms, my vision got blurry and everything turned into a green-like colour.Right before I succumbed to this toxicity I chose to take these creatures with me and engaged a form whereby I lost my mind and gained physically abilities. Everything turned black and white and I killed till I was too tired to continue. Then I died...

I’m in control

I am

This is my life

It’s the end of april 30 days have passed and I would be lying if I said I didn’t think about you.

“I’m worried.”

But most of all I’m not worried I’m in constant fear.

“It’s weird right?”

I’m in fear of losing myself throughout time.

I feel this way because more than anyone I know how incapable I am at living normally. I blame myself for not being strong enough.

Change isn’t easy and healing is even harder.

I’ll never forgive myself if I fail.

VII

Today I woke up from an eternal dream, a dream made out of a million mysteries and another million lies. For some reason I woke up with no memories from this so called "eternal dream" but yet there was this feeling of guilt from waking up. There's this lingering feeling...

VIII

I can't post this one. I guess I have a few secrets which aren't ready to be posted.

Hmm that did feel better. I don't know why I stopped writing I guess I felt way too vulnerable or hated this side of me but it's okay.

There's more but I'll post them separately.

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