#i know i'm technically late

[lazylittledragon]

what do you mean youre technically a detransitioner cause of terf bullshit?

it's a v long story but i detransitioned for a couple of years when i was 16/17, for multiple reasons but mostly because i fell into the blaire white/kalvin garrah chamber of "you have to be This way to be trans otherwise you're not real".

i was already Deeply insecure about myself and my 'passing' and i was led to believe that i couldn't want to wear makeup or skirts, and i couldn't choose not to have bottom surgery, and i couldn't do anything but bind for 12+ hours a day to the point that my ribcage is still misshapen. basically i thought that if i wasn't suffering enough doing 'feminine' things, i couldn't really be trans, so i should just go back to being a girl and suck it up.

the terf bullshit is because i'd seen a lot of terfs/detransitioners talking about the 'dangers' of testosterone and how it would turn me into a horrible ugly evil monster and how there was nothing worse than wanting to be a man. which combined with 'you need to fully medically transition to be valid at all' creates some very dangerous and upsetting feelings to cope with.

it also came from trying really hard to put myself in a little box before i realised that my sexuality/gender are very fluid and it's FINE for me not to have a label and just do whatever i want. when i was 19 or so i went back to using they/them (and eventually he/him) and changed my name again because even though i like doing 'feminine' things, i don't want to be seen as a woman.

tldr: i was conditioned by transphobic/terf rhetorics to think that i was being trans the 'wrong' way so i couldn't be trans at all, so i believed i must actually be a girl if i still wanted to do 'feminine' things. nowadays i am a transmasc who does feminine things because i don't give two shits about what any transmed prick thinks of me anymore.

#ramble #ok to reblog btw i'm fine with this being shared #this was meant to be a short version but this is just the whole story whoops #sorry i realised the way i phrased it sounded like i'm the detrans you see in the news #i'm Technically a detransitioner because a lot of detrans stats are people who go on to RETRANSITION #because detransition is often because of social stigma and not because you realised you weren't trans #so anyway. terfs are cancer and if you don't think their bs is harming children you're wrong #i know it's easy to say 'you should've used your brain and realised those people were wrong' #but like. when you're 16 you're SO impressionable. even if you think you aren't #especially when you're watching people who have been transitioning longer than you and you assume they know everything #i was in my mid-late teens when 'transtrender' videos were MASSIVE and i believed it!!! and i was Not nice about those people #all they made me believe was that being trans couldn't be colourful and comfy and fun. it just had to be Pain #i hope everyone who contributed to the 'you need to be this way to be trans' mindset knows how much hurt they've caused #nowadays i don't care. go and be stargender. we have actual problems to deal with not debates about neopronouns #anyway this was long. that's the story

[hauntinghyrule]

Do you dare? >:]

#putting on my personal blog rather than art blog because I don't know if side blogs can be booped #I'll probably reblog there later though #my art #legend of zelda #remlit #skyward sword #although also technically #oh look it's Vio #everything is four swords #animated gif #kinda late but I'm just glad I got something out at all #life's been pretty busy lately ^^;;

[heartfulselkie]

@coffeebanana !!! My fabulous wife in angstimony! I was your Littlebug Secret Santa!! Are you surprised? Are you?? Probably not

I know you love a bit of Ladrien, and I know you especially love putting Adrien Through It™. Of course I am going to give my spouse whatever she desires! (After all I enjoy a bit of angst too..!)

I'll let you decide what happened here. Did Adrien jump in to protest his Lady without transforming? A confrontation with Monarch gone wrong? Or did he just have a lot of tomato soup and got sleepy now that he's full, but Ladybug is distraught because he made a mess and that's going to stain dammit!

#yes this is a very late secret santa i know #but i'm still within the littlebug deadline! (technically!) #tw: blood #ladrien #adrien agreste #miraculous ladybug #miraculous fanart #miraculous ladybug fanart #selkie draws

[ministarfruit]

she loves you, she loves you not

#ace attorney #spoilers #iris hawthorne #dahlia hawthorne #not fond of my colours lately #so I'm working on them #pulling out uncoloured wips like... It's Time #I get better and I get worse and I get better #it's a cycle #I know iris isn't technically a hawthorne but I've already been tagging her that... whoops #the fey clan (head in hands)

[crystalline-sanders]

what if I told you I spent 5 hours on this. Would you believe me. better yet, do you like it

reblog if you're so inclined idk

#bmc #art #be more chill #squip #the squip #bmc squip #be more chill fanart #be more chill squip #fanart #animatic #he kinda ate ngl #ALSO I'M SORRY PLEASE IGNORE THE SONG IT CAME UP ON MY FYP AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS FROM UNTIL IT WAS TOO LATE #anyway this is technically Lee but like not normal Lee this is just evil Lee he's evil #also sorry i use too many tags i know this #thanks for putting up with me

[momomallowart]

Imagine if you will... Ray with a tongue piercing ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ 💭

A more "messy" version under the cut bc I wanted to practice tears and stuff.. 👀

#Ok I may have put way more effort into this than I should've but I literally couodnt stop thinking about this #I used this as an excuse to practice rendering so technically its productive (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) #I really enjoy drawing tears and idk what that says about me as a person #I just love the idea that hes just talkin away and suddenly you see a little glint in his mouth and oh my god is that what i think it is? #and hes such a bottom that he would just let you open and pkay with his mouth to see for yourself #he's just my lil sopping wet meow meow I can't help but put him thru situations #I think often about his different sides clashing and being very gap moe #like Ray with a tongue piercing? please someone hold me back bc I'm going AT HIM #I want EVERY version of this man I cannot even explain how deeply the brain rot goes #the day I stop thinking about Saeran Choi is the day I drop dead actually #I wont fill the tags with any more salacious comments about how sl\/tty this man is but just know the thoughts are plentiful #anyways enjoy the food #more art to come as I'm getting back into my artistic groove lately #my art #mystic messenger #mysme #saeran choi #mysme saeran #mysme ray #mystic messenger unknown #unknown mysme #ray mystic messenger #mystic messenger fanart #mystic messenger mc #mysme mc

[chrisbangs]

HWANG HYUNJIN in COLOUR — For my beloved @hyunpic​! Happy Birthday my dear!

#hyunjin #hwang hyunjin #stray kids #skz #createskz #jypartists #*m #*gifs #flashing tw #long post #GUH... HELLO MY PAL MY BUD MY WARM BUDDY! #i kinda worked on this non stop and i apologize bc i cannot stand it and you definitely deserve better than this.. #u can tell when i got to green and blue i just . lost it... i hate those two so much ! #um! anyway :( ik its not really a lot o r anything but i just was so unsure of what to make #esp bc gif making tires me out so much these days but i figured even smth small just so i can show my appreciation for u :-( #also ik technically its already ur bday but i was trying to post 12 my time bc ack ! well ! i am always painfully late ! #anyway :( i just wanted to say ! ! ! #i'm really really happy that i get to be ur pal ! #ik i suck at texting but anytime u message my heart gets really warm... u make me really really HAPPY :(( i love u a lot #i hope u know that ! ur very existence makes this world a warmer and more beautiful and more colourful place... just like hyun!! #i often think abt the fact that when i first heard unpainted canvas i thought of hyun and by extension you! #the lyrics make me really sad but in a happy way too...??? fnaowieofna idk but i just think its smth you would like and im really happy u do #:( anyway im not that good at saying things concisely or properly but :( i just wnated to wish u a happy brithday n let u know that #i love you withall my heart!!! i hope u know that!! and i hope u have a wonderful happy colourful and beautiful day bc u deserve it !! #happy birthday m y love :(( <3 i love u so so so mcuh ! #also i hope i had the day right </3 my calendars been harassing me for 2 weeks with notifcations FONAIWFNOAWI #ok enough sappy messages <3 enjoy ur day bc its abt uuuuu <3 3mwhahwmmwmam MWAH

[brasiliangp]

@f1blrcreatorsfest: week 4 - hards (blueprint)

#couple things: yes I know no one would like to copy this slow flop of a car #two I'm not a technical girly #everything I added here are things I found online and they very well be very inaccurate #three it's late please ignore any spelling mistakes #f1blrcreatorsfest23 #mercedes #*edits

[mono-socke]

Day 4: Squipped Character

#be more chill #the squip #squip #jeremy heere #jake dillinger #brooke lohst #jenna rolan #christine canigula #rich goranski #chloe valentine #squipril #squipril 2024 #me doing art #yes i know it's more than one character #hope that's okay #(let's ignore the fact that it's already past midnight for me and i'm technically a bit too late-)

[notsofrozt]

Fear

Fear.

A sensation that paralyses you, dries your mouth, chills your bones and blood, and revolts your insides. A warning of impending danger, a way the body prepares you to fight or flee.

Macaque felt fear many times, it's part of being alive.

The first time was so long ago that the memory was blurred at the edges, like an old photo. He remembered his tail wagging, sweaty hands and ears twitching as he lured Wukong onto the beach. There, under the tree on the shore, he made his feelings clear with awkward words and eyes that refused to look the other in the face.

The fear crawling inside him vanished with a bright smile from his now partner.

The second time he had felt the paralysis, unable to move to prevent his beloved from giving himself up to save their lives. Fear for the fate of his mate burned that moment into his mind.

This eventually faded as well. The harsh words under the mountain shattered it.

The third time fear guided his every action. The fear of losing his mate to a group of people who hurt him; the fear of seeing him change, driven by pain; the fear of having the person who lit up his life, who made his heart beat, taken away from him. That fear made him act, lash out, blinded and hurt.

That fear was supposed to fade with Wukong's hand in his, both of them walking away from the monk and that mission.

He didn't realise how wrong he was until the fourth time. The last time.

There are many things that people mistake for fear. Hardly anyone has ever felt genuine fear. There was a fundamental difference from anything he had experienced before, a bitter taste at once familiar and totally foreign. Macaque thought he felt it, but now he knew better.

The first time it had been plain nerves, with a touch of anticipation. The hope was there too, a sweet taste waiting to fill his palate.

The second time it was angst. Deep down he knew that it was impossible to kill Wukong, and that whatever punishment it was, it would eventually be overcome. Defeat and the uncertainty of being at the Jade Emperor's mercy only amplified that feeling.

The third time it was just sheer desperation.

What had run through his body were variants of fear. More opaque versions or different hues. Mere shadows trying to mimic the real feeling.

The fourth time began with defeat. In the world where they lived, there was only one fate for those who dared to face the Monkey King and lost.

The red and gold staff descended unavoidably towards his face, certain and lethal; the soft eyes of the person he had so long considered a friend, a comrade, a lover, now cold and devoid of their former warmth. Nor a spark of regret or doubt could be seen in them.

His body froze and his blood chilled, unable to process the brutal inevitability. As everything slowly went black, Macaque had only one thought.

He had been so, so foolish.

#lmk #monkie destiny challenge 2023 #monkie kid #lego monkie kid #art #hurt/no comfort #angst #I know it's after midnight so technically is day 7 already let's ignore that #macaque #evil laughter #its so late #this probably has so many mistakes that I'm going to cry in the morning #the art came out ugly so I had to compensate for it #notsofrozt art

[theartofmetal]

190. As Gomorrah Burns - Cryptopsy (Technical Death Metal, 2023)

Art by Paolo Girardi

#i'm late to the party #i know #metal #death metal #technical death metal #art #artwork #music #painting #heavy music #artist #cover art #heavy #paolo girardi #cryptopsy #burning #sodom and gomorrah #fire #city

[capn-twitchery]

alex doodles for a totally not two day late happy birthday to @thedeafprophet 😌

#i'm so sorry for the tiny cape catboy there was an awkward space up there FGHJFKFG #i don't know a whole lot about alex yet but i love what i've seen so far!! happy late birthday :D #technically by my timezone. i am now 3 days late bc it's past midnight. but that doesn't count #fred draws #thedeafprophet

[smithsparker]

i never could have seen you coming (i think you're everything i've wanted)

riordanverse | valgrace | rated t | 2667 words written for @ethannku as part of the @rrversesummerbang gift exchange!

Leo stares at Jason a lot. He knows this. He just can’t help it. It’s like his eyes have got a mind of their own—the second he’s even a little distracted, they wander around the deck of the Argo II and lock onto whatever Jason’s doing. Right now, he’s standing at the railing with Hazel and Frank, presumably talking about something Roman. His brow is furrowed, listening intently to what Frank is telling him, and gods, Leo wants to do nothing more than smooth out the crease between Jason’s eyebrows with his thumb— or, leo might have a bit of a crush. it leads to the expected amount of existential feelings. [read on ao3]

#valgrace #heroes of olympus #percy jackson #leo valdez #jason grace #piper mclean #* #my writing #i know i'm technically on time but i feel like i'm sooo late so i'm sorry for that! #i work best when i'm like. a day before a deadline. evidently #but i hope u like it ! <3 #riordanverse #hoo

[pachirobi]

Happy Birthday, Torbjörn!! :]

#ok i know im technically late but i had this finished and posted somewhere else yesterday #so really i'm not late i promise <3 #brigitte's will be late tho i really wanna render that one #overwatch #overwatch 2 #overwatch fanart #torbjorn #torbjorn lindholm #birthday art #reinhardt wilhelm #brigitte lindholm #torbjörn #brigitte overwatch #overwatch reinhardt #overwatch brigitte #arg… that be me art matey

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

gratitude list time I'll go first

#stopped caring about some things I was caring far too much about #it's another rainy dreary day which means I can wear cozy clothes and curl up with my brother's dog and coffee and a book #little guy and I are just chillin. he's tiny and shorthaired so he gets cold easily and likes to cuddle up #and seeing as I'm the only person home rn... doggo cuddle time it is!!! #I've been reading more lately!! I'm having trouble with tbosas so I got out a couple other things (sea of tranquility included) #that I've really enjoyed. I'm reading turtles all the way down right now and oh boy I forgot how nice a little contemporary #coming of age novel can be at times. also forgot that john green is a genuinely good writer. as in I personally enjoy his style. #let's see... my favorite sound guy for church is home from college for the summer which means THERES SOMEONE HERE #WHO ACTUALLY KNOWS HOW THE SOUND SYSTEM WORKS. me and the other sound guys have been barely #managing the last couple months bc there's been a ton of random technical glitches (the system is pretty old tbh) #so HALLELUJAH THE PERSON WHO ACTUALLY KNOWS WHAT TO DO IS BACK!!!! #I've been branching out into a bunch of things I wouldn't have thought to enjoy lately bc of the time I've been spending #with my sister in law. music and tv shows and even foods and stuff!!! #Gurt is coming to visit me in a week and a day!!!!!! I'm SO EXCITED #and last but certainly not least I gave myself bangs again and honestly I'm so happy about it.

[goleb]

Wednays with hate

#DHMIS #DHMIS Roy #Roy Gribbleston #Don't Hug Me I'm Scared #Dont Hug Me Im Scared #Roy #The Arts Parable #For context wednesdays are currently the day where I'm not home until late so I can't draw much < _ > #Wednays z hejtami is such an inside joke that literally only one other person will get but that's not gonna stop me lmao #Funnier also that Roy technically knows someone named Wednesday (barely though)