#i was a kid

[coyote-in-the-mirror]

I hate how I compare my trauma to others. I hate that I wish worse things had happened to me just so I can feel "valid" in my suffering. The people around me know my pain but wearing the mask of being fine and carrying the emotional burden of my family for so long has damaged me. They do not know the depth of my wounds and I will not tell them, so I lick them with a tongue far too dry to soothe the aches.

I know I am the glue that holds them all together and for far too long that weight has rested on my shoulders. I am not fine, they know this, and yet it is not enough. The therapy and medicines are not enough. Acknowledge my sacrifices and the blood that bleeds from wounds still fresh; tell me that I am righteous in my anger and apologise for what you've done.

Ah, what a glorious tale of fantasy I have spun.

#orias snarls #trauma #actually traumatized #I was a kid #golden child #I guess??? #family trauma #parental trauma #child abuse #This is entirely personal but if you can relate then I am sorry #ok to rb #knight writes

[morgue-ratt]

new icon baby

#ok so how you know in the barbie movie where theres that part barbie is being played with #and having all these feelings from the person playing with her projected into her #made me think back to my monster high dolls #specifically my frankie dolls that i especially considered to be Me ya know #cause those dolls have scars and stitches and like omg same #and when i was like. 14ish i brought frankie with me when i was getting surgery because. #i was a kid #and idk. its nice to think that the frankie doll knows how much i love them

[florida3exclamationpoints]

Idk how widely you can feel earthquakes I wonder if I was home if would've felt it

#as far as i know ive only ever experienced one #i was a kid #at the zoo #we were on the train when it happened so we didn't feel it #but the monkeys started absolutely SCREAMING #which i vaguely remember

[ssshh-im-a-secret]

I think it’s kind of funny how early on I learned a few minor manipulation tactics.

I learned one from my mom. She asked me a question about me being grounded, taking some toy or another away from me, and she tricked me into saying something I didn’t want her to take away, so she took it away.

So, in my head, I kind of went, “Oh. If I act like I don’t want something I do want, or want something I don’t want, punishment won’t happen.”

I actually employed this trick as a 4-5ish year old, when my mom told me to go to the laundry room for time out, so I happily told her “OK” and skipped to time out. Never got sent to the laundry room again. 

I also learned that if you act helpless for adults as a child, they’ll do what you want. Didn’t use that too often though as I was super independent.

There was also this one time I managed to somehow convince my teacher to let me sit in a chair instead of on the floor during story time because I was ‘class monitor’. Or something like that. 

Also, if you’re going to ask someone if they did something on accident or on purpose, please make sure to explain what those words mean. This is aimed at my mom, who never did and I didn’t know what they meant, so I would almost constantly say I did things on purpose when I didn’t because from what I understood that meant I didn’t mean to. I was a dumb kid, but still.

#toxic parents #toxic parenting #parents #i was a manipulative child #manipulation #i was a manipulative little brat #manipulative child #manipulative little girl #little girl #i was a kid #a child #a very manipulate child #and i figured out all these tactics on my own #like a boss

[my3imaginary3wonderland]

Piggy was launched this day 4 years ago

Nostalgia is drowning me as I hear “curses” from dizzy at public spaces

I rewatched the final of book 1, when I stopped playing, I miss pandemic and virtual school, no one could bully me…

Time goes fast, and one day, your favorite show, like Tadc, will be 20 years old….

Mara

#piggy roblox #2020 nostalgia #2020s #pandemic #wear a mask #long covid #mask up #covid19 #sars cov 2 #idk #idk what else to tag #someday i will be famous #idk what im doing #nostalgia #childhood #i was a kid #take me back please #today on tumblr #foryou #Tadc

[riahgirlblogger]

Me the night after it happened

#female hysteria #insane #insecure #female rage #sadness #girlblogger #maddy perez #euphoria #Confused #why #help #I was a kid

[mthevlamister]

sometimes tumblr recommends me to look at your posts from like . 2018 . tumblr why

Oh god please don’t look at the musical posts they’re bad—

#lemon posts :3 #they’re not like bad bad #just not my best work #I was a kid

[ghostie-lovesflowers]

Alright I can’t be the only one that had a thing for the grim reaper

#the grim reaper #i was a kid #don’t make fun of me #please #it’s a joke #kinda #not really #tbh #lets be moots #tumblrpost #writers on tumblr #tumblr blog #top #trending memes #childhood memory unlocked #memories #relatable memes #memory #ah the memories

[youdontwannaknowme10]

Someone who loves you wouldn't do this...

#pearl boy #manhwa #family line #i was a kid #hurt/comfort

[lemonlovemeanslove]

Did you know that one of the most effective ways to kill your child is to mock them from a very young age? It works wonders. Your child will never want to speak or share anything with you ever again :D

#but in all seriousness #why do parents do this? #well #not all parents #my parents #and a lot of others out there im sure #its like #lol #why did u have kids #if you are just going to tear them down for #what reason exactly? #and its so weird right #bc like #i was a kid #12 something #would share something I like and get back omg u have to worst taste everrrr #ur like #the way u wear ur hair is so lameee #followed by them mimicking or mocking the behavior their making fun of #and its just #no wonder you guys dont have friends #lmao

[incorrectinfinity]

I still think about him sometimes, I just gotta wonder how he could live normally having done something so atrocious.

#vent #do not rb #I have never genuinely wanted someone to die until it happened #he is scum #I hate him so much and I hate the things he made me feel about myself #I was a kid #I didn't know #I shouldn't blame myself for his sickening behavior #fuck you p

[hotshotshitshow]

I never got too far in the original goat simulator but I'm def doing that next after I get through this

#i would have lost weeks of my life to this game if it had been around when #i was a kid #im so glad for any kid that gets to grow up playing this

[justtorzaplease]

Little me was so cute but so dense sometimes. Growing up, I would say whatever was on my mind. And since little me didnt know racism existed, I used to say to POC that I loved their skin! Little me saw it as a compliment, but they didnt. They always thought I was being racist, though at the time I had no idea what racism was. I just thought they looked neat. And since I was curious as well, I would ask why their skin was that colour. No one ever told me about melanin in skin and stuff like that, so I never knew why we looked so different. I never intended to be rude, or insulting, or racist. I thought I was being sweet and curious!

#racism is stupid #i was a kid #didnt know it was a thing #and people would get offended #and i would never know why #bc i thought i was complimenting them #and i genuinely wanted to know #why we looked different

[vamprisms]

i feel like a lot of the 'i hate kids' crowd would be more tolerant if they understood that due to a kid's limited experience of the world that 4 hour flight might just be the longest they've ever had to sit still for or that trapped finger might literally be the most pain they've ever felt in their short life or they might not have ever seen a person with pink hair ever so of course they want to touch it or nobody's told them yet that they can't run around the museum and they only just learned cheetahs are the fastest animals so of course they want to put that to the test. how were they supposed to know etc etc.

#like majority of the time kids are not just 'being naughty'. they have big feelings inside little bodies it's a lot #also like. #it should be illegal to dye your hair fun colours if you aren't prepared for kids in public to ask if youre related to a my little pony #EDIT: the notes on this post are an absolute cesspool. i don't care about your reasons for hating kids you sound like a disney villain